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• Jhalil: Hey, welcome back to the volume shift. We on part three of the disconnected black families in America, man. I'm Jahlil, the activist slash blacktivist. Deion: Unbuck doctors the doctor without the doctor Jhalil: So you know we about to get back into it man. you feeling, bro? Deion: Aw man, I'm feeling good, blessed, you know what I'm saying? You know, chilling. Jhalil: What's what's up man same hair man just trying to adhere man ⁓ Deion: Yeah. How you Ramadan going now? Jhalil: ⁓ man, this is going great, you know. We getting to the fourth quarter is the last week. So we looking at like probably Thursday, Friday for the E. Deion: Yeah Okay. I wonder if the weather going, the weather ain't gonna affect like, today? Jhalil: I mean, I ain't gonna lie though, we gonna be out there bung-doo. I would look right now, bro. Deion: Mm. But ain't it the sighting ain't it the sighting? Am I missing, am I missing? Jhalil: Yeah, I don't think they cited it yet, but they should come up with the siting, you know, probably either tomorrow or Thursday, but you know, we can't say. We just gotta wait for it. Deion: Yeah, but that's the projection Thursday, Friday. Jhalil: Yeah, that's what I'm thinking too. Like, I don't, you know. Deion: Diggin' great. So let's jump into it, man. Jhalil: Do it, Deion: think in the last one, man, we was ending on the effects from slavery ⁓ onto our parents and whether it was cold or what have you. Or ⁓ overworked parents, incarceration impact, Stress becoming like parent in tones and shit like that. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You know what mean? And we broke down some of our personal things and stuff like that and got into it. So we wanted to just continue off of that, you know I'm saying? How'd they work shape how love was shown, you think? Jhalil: It's like, to me personally, man, I just think like our parents, like they wanted to do the best that they could for us as far as love. You feel me? Like growing up, my mom always, she was at work, but we was always with my mom too. Like, so it wasn't like, you know, it was that disconnect. She always found time to give us that love and take us places and you mean, it's still certain things in us. Like her parenting to me, it wasn't cool. But like, you know, like I just, I just like linked up with my pot recently. You feel me? So I couldn't, I ain't never had a dad aspect of it growing up. But like, as I did meet my dad, man, that was like a beautiful feeling, bro. It was like a peace just locked back in place. Guys, like soon as I seen him, bro, I tell you the story all the time, bro. Soon as I went, I flew to Detroit, cause they from out there. Deion: Right. Jhalil: So we talking or whatever I fly to Detroit. I go see him. I slide right to the crib. Give me the addy I pull up you feel me So soon as I see him dog, I just look him up and down bro And I just felt this warmness bro. Like I knew that was my pop from the rip, bro I looked at all the features everything bro niggas got the same hands same head same teeth everything bro was like, yo, that's crazy and it was all love like Deion: you Thank Jhalil: And it was like perfect that it happened that way. like, I guess at that time, at this time recently, like he was prepared. You feel me? Like he was prepared to be like, yo dog, was waiting for you. Like I knew you was going to come. Like I ain't, I ain't know where you was at. You feel me? But you followed me. So that's what's up. So it was all love from the rip. The first year I went, all my folks from, from that side came over and embraced me. Bought me gifts, everything bro. It was comfortable. Like I grew up with them the whole time bro. So last year I took the family back. You feel me dog? Perfect grandpop dog. Like he had everything set up bro. He had games and shit for the kids. Like he got all these tools, everything like, and he really took the time and spend like time with them individually. Like you feel me? To build a rapport with all of them. Deion: We admit. Jhalil: was sterile. So I didn't really get to see it be cold or none of that. Growing up, I'm like, damn, it was the missing spaces. Because we talked before, I'm like, aw, bro, fuck all that. It had been too long. You remember when I first met Breva Will? I'm like, it's been too long. It don't really matter. But at the same time, it did in the inside, bro. That was a little hurt that I had in the inside. Deion: it. Jhalil: But soon as I met him, it was over with that, bro. I'm like, man, it's almost that time. We about to slide back up, man. So it worked out perfectly. Like, was, you know, it was greater later, but hey, that's how it is sometimes, bro. I'm just happy that it happened. Deion: Thank Yeah. Yeah, and you're drawing a little, you're drawing interesting, right? Because I'm not sure if it was a disconnect with your parents versus more or less just a distance of where they was from and where they would be. You know I mean? And I think mutually they met and written. So then like, you know, when they had to go their ways, Jhalil: Thank you. BLEEEH Mm-hmm. Deion: I'm not even sure how that communication stayed apart. mean, stayed, you know what mean? Or whether, you know, or when it was occurred that she informed him that he had a son, you feel me? And you know I'm saying? A lot of times you don't be having that information. You know what I mean? So. Jhalil: You're alright. Even though when you a kid, you ain't gonna get all the information, You gonna get bits and pieces. You ain't about to get the whole terabyte of data. Get out of here, bro. once I got older, bro, and I just was like, no, it's time, bro. I wanna be my pop. I'm a dad out here. You feel me? I'm doing a great job. I'm raising my own family and my own kids. I got a wife, everything. It's time. Deion: Yay. Yeah. Jhalil: All I needed was the name. feel me? Once I got the name, I start, I found it. Like you feel it? Found them, found my folks, everything, bro. And I done mobbed with all of them. Like it's to the point now, like they hit me on the phone like, yo, how you been? Like, what's up? What you getting into? Like I got a thousand cousins, like literally like, bro, right, bro. I got so many cousins and uncles and nephews and all that. Like, bro, I'm an uncle over that side. Deion: Yeah. Yeah. Jhalil: Like, I was like, damn, like I'm an uncle. So that was beautiful for me, bro. so it was like, I don't know. I I ain't really see the coldness of like them having to work too much and then not feeling that love or whatever. Like my mom made it like, made it her point to like show in the lead by example. She was like, this was my job. My job was to make sure that y'all life was a certain way and that I can give myself completely to y'all. So, I mean, it was all love from both sides. Like she carried the hump for most of the years. And then it's like, now my pop is really on grandpa. Like, you feel me? Like, oh, what's up with my grandkids? What they doing? What size they wear? Duh duh. Hunt beans. Y'all want to go play? Y'all want to throw the ball around? Y'all want to go to the park? Y'all want to do this? Deion: you Jhalil: So that shit is beautiful, bro. Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: Get insight man, how it affect you bruh. Deion: Bye! I don't know, like my mom, she work. Bye bye. I know, I guess I had like a lot of time to myself. And maybe that is how like love was shown to me. you what mean? that's probably a lot of reason why I feel comfortable being alone. And you know what mean? Like my understanding of love is probably a little different. You know I'm saying? Like, because we definitely ain't show love like direct. Meaning like intentionally telling each other intentionally doing all of these different things like you like you know what saying and in my family life Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: We so individual, you know what mean? We cool with doing the individual thing and we can parlay in a social genre, like, probably thrive on the individual genre, you feel me? like, we all probably show love different from my two sisters to my brother. You feel what I'm saying? Because they got different outlets too. to go along with just being under our parents. You know what mean? Like my brother got a whole other family under his mom. And then even though me and my sister's got the same parents, like they age differences. You know what I'm saying? So I'm amongst my cousins, that's my age. They amongst they cousins and friends, they age. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. bruh Mmm. Deion: how they get introduced to love or how they love transfer from the house to the outside, it all could be different. You get what I'm saying? Me, I'm more alone, like I'm more of a loner. I don't really do a lot with the, you know what saying? And my outside, you know, early on in middle school, I was like, I ain't understand love at that point. You know what mean? I was loving on motherfuckers, but they wasn't loving on me back. You feel what I'm saying? it become like a thing where, all right, well fucking I don't need nobody love. I'm gonna have to do this thing on my own. You know what mean? Like if I'm gonna get love, I'm gonna have to do it. If I'm gonna motivate, I'm gonna have to motivate myself. I'm gonna have to, you know what saying? Cause outside was like. Jhalil: Mm Deion: They shown me my mirror and they like, you know, gap teeth and I was black as shit. You feel what I'm saying? So I got all them, all that type shit. You know what I'm saying? So like I had to make myself, you feel me? Like, oh, I'm cool. I'm cool by my, I'm cool. And I'm gonna start defunding like what's cool for me. Jhalil: means. Nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh- Deion: and y'all gonna follow me not I'm going like I ain't want to join nobody at that you feel what I'm saying so then you can you can kind of see my life and how it is now you feel me how I operated on on Hutchison ⁓ yeah like I had my squad they was doing with what you know I'm the stuff that I got into like you feel me like I'm gonna pay less Jhalil: Mm. Yeah, right, bro. You always whisper big brother like... Deion: and I'm buying fly sneakers from there but I'm making them look like they from Foot Locker or somewhere, you feel me? Like, anybody like, damn, where you get them jeans from? Like, what's them? ⁓ these Airwalks. You know what I'm Like, damn, you got the Airwalks, you got them from Payless? You know mean? I probably was doing Payless marketing before marketing. You heard me? Like, I should have been getting paid Airwalks price sold out, you heard me? Jhalil: you you Yeah. Deion: Like real shit, you know what saying? And you know, start playing around outside, you feel me? And start making a couple dollars and I could get the things that I wanted to get, you feel me? But by that time, I didn't want to get the latest Jordans and I want to look like where... Jhalil: Thanks, guys. Right? It seeped your own individual style at that point, bro. Deion: It kind of forced me, you know what saying? Like I couldn't afford it anyway, so it was like, I couldn't like it, you know what I'm saying? Cause to stay liking that stuff and then I couldn't afford it would have just created like, you know what I'm saying? So for me, I just started getting what I like. First it started like what I could just afford. You feel me? And then it turned into like, you know, the stuff that I just started liking and. Jhalil: NNNN Okay. Deion: Everybody else started liking that shit. So then they told me like, no, stay your course, bro. You feel me? Like always stay your course, stay how you are. You know what saying? people going, and it became easier too because y'all so the same. got on the same shit. Yeah, it's rigid. Automatically made me stand out and be like, you know what I'm saying? And then really after school. Jhalil: Yeah, bro, everybody be looking the same, dressing the same, talking the same. Deion: I start really, you know what saying? I ain't gonna get into a whole life job, but um, just how it works. Jhalil: bro this the the spot you feel me this the place for it bro cuz like i know you feel me we didn't talked about it but like if we in the vein of being transparent bro this a form of therapy bro and that's what we doing with the volume shift bro we gotta get these like we gotta get the people who are real selves too like because they only see the cool shit you feel me they don't know what shaped us into these people so i'm interested bro keep rolling Deion: Yeah Yeah. Hell yeah, you know what saying? And that's the thing about everybody as individuals, everybody got their own shape shift. You know I'm saying? And according to life, if you allow that thing to occur and then be a fork in the road, you feel what I'm saying? How you originally was when you was younger. And then you got that fork in the road, you become somebody different. You know what saying? Especially according to like, fit and then, you know what I'm saying? And then you seeing other humans of your peers do certain stuff. And then the way they operate in this like, ⁓ you ain't this because you ain't doing it. You know I'm saying? And then a lot of, lot of teasing and stuff like that. what I- Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: come to learn and hindsight after living it, it's like them people themselves didn't even know no better. You saw what I'm saying? Jhalil: Alright bro, it was somebody else ideology. You feel me like Deion: You know what mean? And that's what's gonna be the importance for us in the future episodes when we bring other cultures on because like I said, that same ignorance was just everywhere. And it's all for me, it's all translated from slavery. You know I'm saying? Like the crazy part about it is, Britain invaded Europe, right? Jhalil: B Deion: and then Europe took over America, So those same people that got enslaved, slave people. Jhalil: NNNN Deion: probably to a worse extent when it came to us, you feel what I'm saying? And then through my understanding, the Portuguese is the ones that originated slavery, if I'm getting that correct, you know what saying? But the Europeans took it to this level and then it's noted that this is the worst type of slavery in human history thus far, you feel what I'm saying? So I only say that to say like, A lot of that stuff we've been taking on. You know what saying? So the way we live in our lives and all of that is like, all right, we done been enslaved and we've been teased and called names and shit like that. And now, you know, we living in the hood and we like, bro, let's go to the chinks. You know what saying? Like, labeling, now we come from being a nigga to labeling other cultures to be like. Jhalil: And get real sick, bro. Deion: chinks and you know what saying like corner store you poppy this poppy that I'm on my pop got mad like that ain't your fucking pop Jhalil: Me. Deion: Israel go crazy. You had to be like, I'm like, die, right? ain't thinking it was that. You know mean? So, you know, and then like we all be like grown off of like Christianity, right? So then in the beginning was the word and the word was with God and he spoke the earth and everything into his, you get what I'm saying? But at the same time, our human be taken away from like what words really mean. Jhalil: Thanks Yeah Deion: You know what I'm saying? So I think, like, we play with them drones and we don't know how serious them drones really is. You feel me? So when we coming up as kids and we teasing and we doing, we ain't thinking this is not that deep. Yeah, we not thinking that is that deep, you know what saying? That can lead to, like, motherfuckers doing suicide and all of these different serious matters. You get what I'm saying? Jhalil: We don't even care about that coming up Yeah, we're set. Deion: And the same people that was coming up like on some bullying shit, then you later start seeing them. ⁓ CFCF, they going through the jail systems. You get what I'm saying? And then you're seeing the ones that was bullied even continue to be victims or they even switched to the other side. You get what I'm saying? Like I said, people wanna fucking tease me, but at the same time, when I was on the other side, like... Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: I class clown, you feel ⁓ me? I had all the jokes, you feel me? And mine came from like, just having to be equipped with growing up in Philly. Jhalil: Bruh, it was the defensive, John. Like it was defense for real, for real. Like that wasn't created in offense. That wasn't just your wake up like, ⁓ yeah, I'm a, no bro, but coming up where we come up from, bro, you gotta be able to hold your own. And that's, it's crazy that like, cause we need to change that as well, bro. Like why we ain't just there for each other. But I think like, but even before I get into what I'm about to say, bro. Deion: Yeah! Yay! Jhalil: It's crazy that you had to go through that, bro. And I just want you to know, dog, I love you for you, bro. Real rap, you really my dog, cuz. And like, I always looked up to you, bro. Like, even when I first met you, I was 12. You feel me? On the Hutch, I'm just, I seen a crepe jawn, and I knew I was gonna play ball on that jawn. You feel me? That's all I knew. But then when I seen you were lowing all them, you know, y'all little older than me. But like, I seen the style. Deion: Thank Jhalil: I seen, you know what how you was different than everybody else. And that's how I am. You feel me? I never tried to just wake up and dress like somebody and be like, no, I always had my own mission. You feel me? So like that automatically drew us together. Like I said, yeah, that's my man. That's who I banged with on the block. I ain't trying to be this or that. You feel me? Like, and that's how we got to this point. You mean? So that's, that's thorough, dog. Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: But I had to put that out there if nobody ever said it bro like some people appreciate like genuine people bro like I don't care if a person got the most I don't care if a person's shoes is laying in none of that shit bro like it's about the person you feel me it's not about the clothes it's about the vibe you man so that's what we need to get back to as people in general like I mean Deion: Mm-hmm. Yeah, man, and I appreciate for sure, like, your words, you know what mean? Because they are value, you know what saying? And there's validation, too, you feel me, for a person to be like, no, stay the course, stay how you are, you feel me? don't, you know what I'm saying? Because you see what's going on out here, and you might, like, feel it inside to want to jump the fence, but never. You know what I mean? Jhalil: Bro. Yeah, bro real shit dog and our like our bond and certain shit bro that and kept both of us out of bullshit You feel me like we could have been out here doing anything, but we like no, bro Like even when like I was modeling bro, and you was media you was the media specialist You got the bars like you always had the camera knew how to work the camera, bro We start shooting green images like we always had plans and put them together bro. So it's like I already knew that Deion: I'm going to Jhalil: like from the rip, knew like, and man, I'm like, yeah, we gonna cook up. That's my man. You feel me? I don't really, I in anywhere. Don't get me wrong. I'm a Libra dog. You feel me? So I know how to read the room and I mean, like it's just certain things that I'm equipped with. But like, as far as friends and like business partners and shit like that, bro, I just felt it cause, cause I already knew like, you know what Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: Hey, but don't. Deion: But I imagine, like, you know, for a lot of people, their mom always working and stuff like that, it just leaves a space where you're alone and you have to begin to figure this stuff out. You get what I'm saying? So not that, you know, these moms didn't love their kids, but they caught in the cycle of like having to work. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Deion: You feel what I'm saying? And most times we talking about one sided situations where it's one parent. You get what I'm saying? like, how much time do you really have to intentionally give love, enough love? You get what I'm saying? So you might be going through something from working or being tired from working and... Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: You know what mean? You definitely love your kids without a doubt or you would be out there slaving, working this hard. You feel me? But, you know, to the conspiracy theories, ⁓ this is strategic where you take the person, one of the parents or both parents and make them workaholics. And then, you know, system is left to raise the kids and stuff like that. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: And you're All right. Deion: But at the same time, it's like even without all of that systematic stuff and a person just naturally has to work, you feel what I'm saying? You gotta entrust in other things, right? Because we all not born, you know, ⁓ wealthy enough to do homeschool and all of these different things, you feel me? So you gotta have some type of faith and trust in other systems, right? Jhalil: you Deion: You know, sometimes you might look at that as love. Like, I can't really do it because I'm so busy, so I had to send you away. You know what mean? Boarding schools are all different type of Jones. You feel what I'm saying? Or you're not home enough that I end up being misbehaved and then I end up in like a detention center, the juvenile Jones. You know what I mean? Or bad schools or what have you. You feel what I'm saying, Sue? Jhalil: Yeah Yay! Deion: All of these things I think is inclusive when it comes down to like, know, how their work, how their parents work in shape, you know, how love was shown. You get what I'm saying? Most times, probably the best thing that they could do was the thing that was done, you know what I'm saying? It's so shameful that this real life. Jhalil: BLEEEH Deion: and we only get one, so we don't get too many do-overs. You get what I'm saying? So a lot of stuff we be understanding and knowing through hindsight, meaning we already went through it. You get what I'm saying? Now you know, like, ⁓ if I could redo that again, like, I would do that different, obviously. Jhalil: Engage with it. Grrrr And a lot of people confuse like providing with love. You feel me? They might be like, ⁓ yeah, I love my kid. They always fresh. They always got a crib to live in. They always did it like, but that's not the same thing. You feel me? Like it is in one aspect because that's how. care about things, they care about time, you feel me? They care about experience and how you make them feel, you feel me? So yeah, like we really got a buckle in and honed in on that, like providing don't equal love in all aspects, bro. And some people get that confused and that like kind of bring us into our next topic too. Like you think like providing replace communicating? Deion: Yeah? And see, that's what I'm saying, all of that be tied together, right? Like, cause you know, it used to be a, like a dismissal tool, meaning like, go sit down, I'll provide for you. Do this because I'm providing for you. You feel what I'm saying? Like that became the communication. And then that's the communication that a lot of people grow up with. So now you got a lot of people like. especially women like well you provide you know what saying like and that's going to be the communication like so now the language becomes ⁓ if he can't provide for me then so now I'm communicating as a woman my love is like providing my love language is you providing you feel what I'm saying Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Thank Deion: which then takes away the real definition of what really love is and why you even in this type of relationship. You get what I'm saying? And how that's all staring you through your life. You get what I'm And how it pertains to kids is like, ⁓ you know, you grow up and all those people that had the Jordans and all of that. might, people that didn't, Jhalil: NNNN Yeah Deion: They might have had love directly like, I'll buy you this because this what I could afford. You know what saying? Breaking it all on this. But then the people that made money and then could just provide and that be they communications like, here's the new Jordans, get out my face. I'ma just give you what you want that's gonna make you popular in school or whatever and look clean and look like your mom is out. Jhalil: NNNN Yeah, and that's damage and like... Deion: working you know I'm saying like because that's gonna be noted too like if you got dick sneakers on then with your mom ain't got no job with your parents ain't got no job with they on welfare you get what I'm saying all that that's gonna be inclusive in all of it too you get what I'm saying Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Yeah, bro, right, Deion: Till the end. Jhalil: Definitely like that, man. That's crazy, bro. And it's scary at the same time, bro, because this is creating the wrong culture. Like it's creating the wrong culture in our environments, bro. Like things don't equal love, bro. Like time, affection, like, you know, nurturing and all that. That's, that's what love is, bro. Like love is being able to ask your kids like, yeah, you know, provide it for your kids, but asking them, how you feeling today? Did you have a good day at school? What were some of the best things that happened at school? What was something that you didn't really agree with at school, but you got through? And what was something that made you happy or sad? What can daddy do to make it better for you? You feel me? That's love, bro, because that's what it really is. We don't care about no things. You know our kids, they love the things. Don't get me wrong, Harley. Deion: Hmm. Jhalil: We go in the toy store, they all want toys. We go in the eye, they want an iPad. Don't get me wrong, and that's cool too, but at the same time, it gotta be both aspects. can't just be give, give, give, bro. Deion: Yeah, and I tell them like, listen, I'm buying you this iPad, because I love you and like, because I want you to have like what you want, but at the same time, it's gonna come with X, Y, and Z. You feel what I'm saying? It ain't just an exchange because, you know, I'm your father and you my kid. You feel what I'm saying? Like. Jhalil: And you know. Deion: There's a number of things that come along with this. I gotta have the means to be able to do it. I gotta be able to go to work and not worry that I'ma get a call about you misbehaving. You know what I'm saying? So it's all of these things that's inclusive too to provide. And cause then without that communication, it becomes like spoiling. You know I'm saying? And then later on in life, you know, Jhalil: Hey Nyeeeh, we're in a tower. Deion: You got these spoiled brats that's now adults, like, that's carrying the same, you know, attitude, like, well, if you don't buy me this, then you don't love me. Like, my dad bought me all of this. Like, you feel me? So you gotta match that in all of this. And it's like, I be like, listen, two fingers, you know I'm saying? Cause I'm out, I'm not your dad. I'm not. Jhalil: Nnnnn Deion: You feel what I'm saying? So when I go into relationships, all that personal stuff, I'm not inclusive in buying that. Any of your personal things, and I'm vice versa, too. You feel me? So I would never expect a woman to pay for my haircut and my underwear and my socks and my regular essentials. You feel what I'm saying? I'm my parent. feel me? And that's why I'm saying we Jhalil: Mm-hmm. right, not my parent. Deion: It got us all fogged up to where it's though you thinking providing me and the nigga gotta take care of you up and down and around and around like no, I'm not here to take care of another human being like that's that's my means. Jhalil: We here to assist each other. You feel me? To compliment each other too. Like make each other better. Not just one party do this and the other party do it. No, bro. It's a collaboration. And I think that's one of the things that like the culture has got mixed up. Like it is not that, bro. And it's like, just because a person can do that, that don't mean that they're like, that they have to do that. Deion: Nyeh. Jhalil: You feel me? Real rap, you'll get with a person that got a million dollars and you think just because they got a million dollars that, right, you, nah, bro, if you don't work and you don't contribute to that million, it's like, what's the point? Deion: Yeah, and that's what I'm saying. Like we gonna get into. I wouldn't even want to participate without participating. You hear me like? I don't like it. Jhalil: Real red, bro. My wife make a million, I gotta make a million too. All right, now we can bust down. Now we can do this. And now it's our money. You feel me? Like how we created our money is no problem. I give my wife whatever she want, whatever she asks for, all of that. Cause I don't mind. She never came to me like, yo, when I first met her, oh, well damn, my phone bill due tomorrow. I don't know what I'ma do with. We would have never made it this far. Would I look like a fucking champ? You feel me? Like, I don't care. Like, so you was talking all month, you feel me? And then the day that this dude meets you, like, now you about to be sitting in the dark? You should be sitting in the fucking dark. To be honest, I'm not gonna wait for a person to see, like, come on, bro. Like, that's unrealistic, dog. Deion: You Jhalil: Come on, like, yo, you said it many a time, bro. We all been through that pre-marriage, all of that, bro. Like, come on, bro. It was like, man. Deion: Yeah, but a lot of it stemmed from these upbringings, you know what saying? And these confusions, you know what saying? Through ⁓ all that we went through, through slavery and how that forced us to live accordingly, you know I'm saying? And take on these different things, you feel what I'm saying? I don't even think they belong to us for real, for real. All these behaviors, man, like. Jhalil: Yeah Deion: They don't belong to us. I don't see us as a people that be doing all of this. But when you forced into poverty and you, you know what saying? Like resource restricted and everything like that, you know I'm saying? Then you start, you know, looking amongst each other to be animals and all of that type shit to one another. You know what mean? So. I think without that, like we good people, you feel what I'm saying? Like all of us, like every person is good people, you feel me? It's just these life circumstances that, you know, ⁓ transform into these results, you know what I'm saying? So yeah, like, you know, some fathers show love through labor, you know what mean? And not language, you feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: Okay. Deion: because that's probably what they was already taught. You feel me? And then if they came up the same way, they don't think nothing wrong with it. So they gonna reproduce the same thing. feel what I'm saying? So now, you know, we fast forward to us and we just be feeling a little different. You know what saying? Like we gonna curate and cultivate our children instead of raising them. You get what I'm saying? And I think that's a big... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Okay. Okay bro, right? Deion: contribute to like the era that we in. We in the age of information. So a lot of information was given to us, our generation, our group, you know what I mean? Versus our parents who had limited information, you know what I'm saying? So a lot of things we get into know now, you know I'm saying? So we try to implement like a lot of those new things, you feel me? Especially like... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You know, the thing that you said about financial freedom and how you introducing that to your children. We wasn't on that. Maybe some parents, maybe some parents selectively as we was growing up was doing that, but like not the whole community was doing that. You feel what I'm saying? I think as we just, you know, go on and evolve, like we, we get into these type of things. You know what mean? Jhalil: BLEEEH Okay. We gotta implement that. Like, bro, because if everybody implement that, bro, it wouldn't be nobody really struggling. You feel me? It wouldn't be nobody who don't really got a safety net, emergency fund. Like, it wouldn't be as hard to love each other if, like, you know, we all doing good, we all help each other out. Deion: Yeah. Hmm Jhalil: We just had an iftar bro, like we just had an iftar at our community center down the street. This a community center, everybody use William Hicks, you feel me now? It started off as like an iftar for know, fasting Muslims or whatever. But I guess like the fasted Muslims, they had the meals already. But in turn, bro, it was the whole neighborhood of kids that came through, bro. Kids that probably needed those mills, bro. Kids that was going through things in their drawings. So it made it a way more beautiful thing, a way more beautiful turnout, bro. And that shit almost tore some of my eyes, Real rap, dog. And I was like, damn, I'm just so happy that we could be a part of that. And that just made me want to give more. Because it's like, damn, we worried about if people won't come. Deion: huh Jhalil: Like if the turnout won't work out right, is the food gonna get wasted and all that, bro? And like, no, bro, the community, like, the people who it was for, bro, they came through, bro. Like, we so fortunate to be able to do those type of things, bro. Cause that's Lee and my example. Can't just be on this, y'all, talking that shit, fly, doing all this, and I ain't helping nobody, bro. That's not thorough. So it's like, man. Deion: Thank you. Jhalil: That's really what it's about, bro. When you give, you always gonna get some more back, bro. We be thinking that when we help people, it's taken out of our job. When we refer a business, it's taken out of our company. When we do this, it's, no, bro, but that's not it. You feel me? It's it's a seed that get planted, bro. And I feel like it's hair and in the hair after. feel me when you doing things that's really valuable and meaningful and that could really help somebody and change somebody day or time or life like bro that's what it is dog that's what being a human is you feel me like come on dog Deion: you You just cooked them with that, man. Yeah. Jhalil: Rude rap. You know that's going on in the clip. ⁓ Rude rap, dog. That's another thing, dog. With our brotherhood, bro, I learned a lot of this shit from y'all. You feel me? From you, from brother Will and Cozy and all them. It's is there really be there for people and be there for each other? You know what That's the best feeling for you and the person. Not stunting on somebody. Like, yeah, I can go out and buy the cool grades. But fuck them youngs, you feel me? My man Mike got enough paper. Nike got enough paper. DTLR got enough paper. You know what mean? What is we doing? Everybody in line fighting over that bullshit where it's like, it's really, it's not even just homeless adults, bro, it's homeless kids. Deion: Yeah. and Jhalil: That shit is crazy. That's heartbreaking, bro. Cause like what did they do to be homeless? Like what did do to deserve that? You feel me? Like, come on. Deion: That shit even worse when it's like somebody you know, you feel what I'm saying? And I ain't even gonna lie, like. I seen a bro that, you know, one of our bros and I'm like, damn. Like it fucked me up to even like see him like that, you feel what I'm saying? So for me to even go over there and try to help me, man, I'm thinking all this me stuff, like, damn, I don't got the resources. don't, I don't feel like dealing with that shit right now. You get what I'm saying? And it was like, damn, like I'm thinking about it. I'm like. I'm fucked up for real, you feel what I'm saying? I'm like, we all can go through these mental challenges, you feel what I'm saying? And one thing led to another anyway, and to where as though now I'm forced. In the beginning, I had a will, I had a choice, I had a will. I could have went and dealt with it on my turn. Jhalil: you Deion: You feel me? But life got its way, right? And so now I'm forced. I'm getting no phone calls. Like, yo, the sad person is out here, they sleeping out here, they got their stuff. I'm afraid for my life, this and that, you feel me? So I'm like, fuck. And I was about to ignore that call. I'm like, I don't feel like dealing with this shit. Jhalil: BLEH HEH HEH Deion: And then it goes back to just me dealing with me on me terms, like always just like, I don't feel like dealing with all these people. I don't deal with people. You feel me? Like I don't deal with people. That's who I got control over. That's who I know I can get the results from. You feel me? Battling with other people is not my, and maybe that's my Capricorn. I don't know. You feel me? But at the same time, I'm like, Jhalil: Thanks. Amy. Deion: ⁓ it was just a feeling like, get the fuck up, bro. Like you got work to do. You feel me? How dare you sit there like, you know what saying? And you know, I always say like, I didn't choose to be here. You feel me? So how do I get the privilege to be like, I don't want to do something that's fucking needed by the world? You get what I'm saying? Like when I... Jhalil: Yeah, real work, Let's see if it's something that's helping or uplifting or something like, bro. Deion: I chose to do demonistic shit. You feel me? I chose to be in certain lives and do all this shit that I wanted to do. On some cocky, arrogant shit. Like, no, I'ma do this. But now I have the hindsight and maturity, I'm like, this thing not mine for real. You feel me? This not mine. This shit is, I'm getting work through. Jhalil: you Deion: And I remember them church people who used to always say them type of, that type of language. You feel me? But now I waive it. But now I'm like, they got a lot of truth in it. Like, you know what saying? I'm being worked through. So like, if I'm getting this call, then I, it should be something that, and then I'm equipped with it. Whatever skill that's needed for this, I'm obviously equipped for it. You feel what I'm saying? Or I wouldn't be getting the call. Jhalil: Yeah Deion: That's how I feel now, you get what I'm saying? I do whatever I need to do. You know what I jump up, run over there, you feel me? Escalate situation and then at the same time, aid my bro and get him back. Mind you, all the stuff that you just spoke about, Brother Will and Cozy, the organization, the nonprofit, we was a part of reconstruction. You feel what I'm saying? I'm earning all of these things that I need to be equipped. Jhalil: All Mm-hmm. Deion: to deal with things that I'm not even going to know that's going to need this stuff. You get what I'm saying? you know, I get over there, you know what mean? I make the necessary calls. I get broached to an outreach, you know I'm saying? And then they place them. You know mean? I do the follow-up call. You know, what happened with a sad person that I brought down here, you feel me? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Mmm. Deion: They couldn't really tell me where they placed him at through their drone, but noted that he got placed and he getting the necessary help. You feel what I'm saying? All the blessings, you get what I'm saying? Not the big I, like I needed to do it, like no, but I had what needed to be used to make that thing happen. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: I like that. Deion: That's how you gotta look at this thing. Jhalil: Yeah, bro. And on behalf of like me and the universe, bro, thank you for that, bro, because that's what thoroughness is, bro. And people got asked theyself, bro, when was the last time you did something and you had that fuzzy feeling, that warm feeling in the inside? You feel me, dude, helping somebody else? If you can't remember that, bro. Deion: Yeah Jhalil: That mean you ain't doing this shit right, cuz I ain't even gonna lie, you out here popping that you trying to be thorough and cool, but if you ain't never do nothing for nobody else and get that feeling and like, damn, like, I actually made a difference, bro, it's time. It ain't never too late. Deion: And I want to do more. I want to do more of it. Like, motivates me to do more. Jhalil: You feel me? We already in the crib cooking up a program that we could put right in the Hicks Center. You feel me? Any contract that we can think of to get these youngins some money so they could be better and help these peoples out and change the narrative, bro. We not looking for outside help. We not looking for this and all of that. That's cool if it come, but at the same time, bro, we gonna do what we can do, bro. like, that's great. You feel me? That's really enough. like people who would like, people who get attracted to that stuff, yeah, come on then, you can help out and all that. But just know, bro, it's gonna be brothers like us that's doing that no matter what. You feel me? Because that's what we was put here to do. And man, that's the ultimate turn up, bro. That's way cooler than some punk ass sneaks. That's way cooler than a punk ass car a bust down to 30. Nigga, that shit is trash, bro. If I can't look at you and call you, yo, bro, I'm going through this, da-da-da-da. Or is this... Like, bro, it be simple shit. Like, dog, everybody I know, bro, we all throwing that shit on. We all got some extra pay boost, some disposable cash, sneaks and shit that we don't wear no more that's still fresh. Deion: year. Jhalil: pants and clothes we can't fit no more bro why is just sitting in your closet you feel me like you can start there by just giving that to people in need bro and that that can change they shit you feel me i got all this like bro i got all this casual wear everything you need the help you need help getting a job what size shoes you wear i got shoes i got dress clothes i got cool clothes I got runway shit. Like, I don't care nothing about that, bro. I care about the people that put it on. You feel me? Deion: Yeah, the meaning behind it, right? Jhalil: Real shit bro like what if I got it once I could get it again so I ain't worried about no things bro his experiences and feelings bro because like this shit is really love beast bro and if it's not I don't want nothing to do with it bro real rap dog you man Deion: I think the big buddy is here. But you know that that that definitely gets into like the emotional language of it all you feel what I'm saying and and being able to communicate with each other about this stuff you get what I'm saying and and really have effectiveness from that communication you know I'm saying like productive communication like every time you know I mean and it won't go backwards but Jhalil: you Deion: It's inclusive, right? Because like the more we working and stuff like that, all of that communication is, you know, accordingly. You feel me? You see a bro in the streets or whatever you headed to work. You know what saying? Because you don't put time like that, you plan to get to work on time. Meaning like five, 10 minutes beforehand, if not on time, like at the same exact, you feel me? So. Jhalil: Mm. Deion: You don't plan to be stopping to talk to people and you know what saying? But at the same time, this could be your challenges to where the universe want to check your temperature on your worth and on what you valuing, you know what I'm saying? What are you valuing? Here you got another human being that's in need. You don't know what the need is, but then you got your job that you got upkeep and all of that. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: Thanks. Alright bro Deion: Most people through selfishness and how he was bought up, you feel me, that I got to get to work, you feel me? Like, sadly, you know what mean? You might read about the person while you at work. Jhalil: BLEEEH Mm-hmm. Deion: Damn, I could have stopped and... Damn, I just saw him. just... I didn't know he was going through that. Jhalil: Roo roo bro. Deion: Yeah, but Wayne had time to check in and really see if he was going through that either. You feel what I'm saying? So all of these different things, damn, you good? know, Philly, that's our shit. What's up, bro? You good? Long as that you good come out, it's like, you good? And that's all you really need, right? Like, what? Jhalil: That submission failed from the red. ⁓ Bro, where it done? And the pride, like even if you need the help, you be like, yeah, I'm good. Like, but you don't really be good. Deion: No, I'm good. You don't Jhalil: But if somebody was like, yo, how you really feeling, bro? Like, you can't just be like, I'm good. No, bro, how you really feeling? Like, you feel me? Like, I ain't trying to hear that. You good, bro. I can see it on you. I can see it in your eyes, bro. I can feel it. Like, being impact, bro, like, you can really feel other people's demeanors, like, the energy, all that. And if you look into somebody's eyes, bro, you can really tell what's going on. Deion: And so. Red. Right. Jhalil: Like real shit, like you don't know exactly what's going on, but you can tell what type of time a person is on by the eyes, bro. You know, I already know that's the window. No windows, never dirty. Real right, you can't hide that. Deion: I mean, the teachers of the doctors, you know the first thing they do. Let me see y'all. Jhalil: Bro, right, let me see your eyes, bro. I don't care what you talking about. Let me see your eyes, right? But yeah, bro, I think a lot of that is like the lack of like emotional vocabulary though. Like we don't, like we wasn't really, you know, really raised with that vocabulary, like of a therapist or like somebody that's really coming from a helping hand. And I'm not saying everybody. Deion: No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, Yeah man. Jhalil: Like you feel me? Cause some people are like, and they make some of the best doctors and nurses and all shout out to them bro. Shout out to the nurses and all that. Like they, the people that can really identify and help out, but us and from the hood and shit, like we don't really be having the vocabulary to ask and like even to help sometimes bro. We don't know the right terms to use. We don't know the right questions to ask at most times. Deion: Mm-hmm. Jhalil: Like, you know, bro, that's why I always holler at you. Cause it's like, maybe it's like the makeup or how you went through it, bro, that you can identify different things and be able to identify the help and the words and the questions to ask. You feel me? Like just as well as brother will like I used to go to that John like, man, I don't know how blah, blah, blah. Like, bro, he never answered one of my questions, bro. Real rap, he always, he always find the way to use your question. for you to answer your own like, John, and then you'd be like, damn, like this whole time it was right here. I didn't even think about it like that. But like, that's a certain skill, bro. And that's a certain like, mission that you had to go through and things that you had to go through to even like build that skill up. You feel me? So that's what's up dog. Like I'm just now learning these things like a couple years ago. mean, so now I can get by. Deion: Yeah. I don't know if it's all of that versus like just being a choice. You feel me? Cause like I said, man, all of this stuff is already in us. You know what I'm saying? So through your traumatic experiences, through your life journey, through your scope, your lens, all of that, like you picking up all of this stuff. You feel what I'm saying? ⁓ And the thing that we probably have an understanding of is that you got outside things that's trying to affect that within you. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: If I know that, then I know, you've been affected. Jhalil: Yeah. Deion: So I already know like you so affected that you not looking at norm like things that will be normal to you. You see what I'm saying? Like, so if you're going through all of this drama over here, you got this going on at school and this, you not thinking logically, like, you know I'm saying? Like you feel what I'm saying? So you might react in a certain ways. You hear what I'm saying? But Jhalil: Thank you. Deion: Like I always say, if you step outside yourself and peek, you know exactly what you need to do. You just gotta slow shit down enough that you can do that shit. You feel what I'm saying? And unfortunately, most people don't get the opportunity to do it, or if they do do it, it's on the other side of that decision they made. ⁓ Jhalil: Yeah baby when it's too late. Deion: Now they in jail or ⁓ whatever and now you got the time to look at yourself like that. I should have never did that. You get what I'm saying? And that's why I'm understanding now in my maturity, you gotta control your life to a T. If you don't, you're on control. You feel what I'm saying? I'm talking about any little piece. Any little piece you don't got in control. Jhalil: Yeah, because if not somebody else won't control it. Deion: that's something that somebody can take and control. That's why a lot of y'all be going through a lot of the shit y'all be going through and be bitching when the results come. No, seriously, like we be bitching when the results come. Like, no, you, like we go through these different relationships where people get burnt, get snake, get all of this, right? You didn't foresee that, but it's something in you that you ain't dealing with that allowed you to make those anus ass decisions. Jhalil: We're a NNNN Deion: You know, if I was in my right spot, I would have never went with that guy. I would have never fucked that bitch. I would have never... You get what I'm saying? Exactly. You know what saying? So that's the importance of really being able to slow your shit down and say, yo, no, I'm going to control my life. You know what saying? Like, I'm not going to be in random places where random things can happen. No, I got a direction and a destination. Jhalil: I wouldn't have been hanging there, you feel me? Deion: and I'm going directly there. Not to say that nothing can happen in between there, but it's like, it's gonna be known that I was going there. Jhalil: And there's a less likely chance, bro. Like, it's less likely to happen if you, you know what moving with intention. Deion: especially if it comes from within and it's aligned with the alignment of the universe or God or whatever we wanna call it. You feel what I'm saying? If what you got going is aligned with everything, your path, you ain't got a word about it. It was only those places where, you know what I'm saying? We found ourselves in because randomly we went X, Y, and Z when we shouldn't have been there. You feel what I'm saying? I get a call from one of my folks. They say, damn, bro get in the situation where his girl called him. Jhalil: Alright bro. Mm. Deion: You know mean? And he go. But when he go, he go forever. You feel what I'm saying? For y'all who don't know the language, you know what saying? But particularly, he went and then whatever she called him for, reacted right away. And soon as he hopped out, he got hit up. You know what I'm saying? And only bring that up to just be like, damn, all of these different things, I got to go protect my girl. got to do that. You know I'm saying? Blindly, though. Jhalil: Eeeeeh bruh Deion: You failed me. Jhalil: And people don't ask the questions like they don't ask the necessary questions. Deion: But you make it out. If you make it through that, then it's like, yeah, I'm real, I'm this, I showed up for my girl, this shit. You know what I'm saying? If you get unlived, then it's like, damn, he shouldn't have never did that. And that'd the difference between how people look at what's real and what's not. You feel me? Like, if a nigga get caught up in something, he like, damn, he was a nut, he shouldn't have never did that. You know what mean? Jhalil: you Mm-hmm. Deion: He robbed the bank, he get away with it, damn, he was really shook. And this is like. Jhalil: Right. Everything flip-flop, bro. Like everything is turned around. Deion: It's like, bro, like, no. And that's why I'm saying, like, to even look at me and shit, right? And I'm like, damn, bro, you hit all them bitches, right? Like, not only like you fucked up the woman life, like you fucked up like six women lives at one time. You feel what I'm saying? Like, awesome, you know mean? But it's a bralic, you know what I'm saying? A point amongst the bros, right? Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: is how fucked up our mental is, right? Like, you know what I'm saying? But these things be coming from all of the sad stuff that we've been talking about this whole time. You feel me? And these the conversations that niggas don't really really want to have, because y'all comfortable and okay with doing this stuff now. You feel what I'm saying? You could, like, because I know how I play this game now, I don't want the game to change. Jhalil: you Okay. Deion: You feel me? Like I'm thriving in this joint. You feel me? Like I'm manipulating the bitches, I'm manipulating the system. You feel I'm doing my thing. You feel what I'm saying? And it's like, no, that never was the thing. It never should have been the thing. You feel what I'm saying? Jhalil: And we'll And then it's like not knowing that, like doing all that and swapping all this energy and just, you know what Doing all this nothingless fucking, bro, that like you interpret some of their shit, like some of their energy. So if it's like, damn, you hitting five, six Jones a week. You feel me? Like, bro, you got all of these personalities connected to your shit, bro. You feel me? One day you might wake up feeling like that boy, then one day you wake up feeling like a bitch. Deion: Yeah. ⁓ Jhalil: You feel me? You don't know. Feeling like this, feeling like you want to hurt somebody, feeling like you want to hurt yourself. And it's like, bro, like you got to chill and love yourself, bro, because that's the best action, bro, which for you is already instilled, bro. You going to know what you should be doing, bro. And it's like, when you doing that, you know you should be doing that, bro. Like, when I was in my heyday back then, I I shouldn't have been carrying it like that. You know what I mean? Deion: Later. you Jhalil: But I still did and it was like, damn for what? Like I don't even talk to them. I don't know nothing about them no more. I done forgot some of their names. Like that shit ain't thorough. Like, what was I doing? You know what mean? Deion: What? Mm-hmm. But that's early on, like, you feel me? Like, I say the first quarter, that's like evaluate and experiment and then I'm talking about of life. You give me first quarter, like, once you get past that 25 and you start going into it, you probably won't start really utilizing the knowledge that you're learning. You probably still gaining it. But when you hit that 50, Jhalil: Mm-hmm. YAY you Deion: It's like now I gotta be wisdom, meaning like you practicing this shit, you own it, like, you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Repetition and being the example and all that Deion: You get what I'm saying? And that's why I said, we live in this thing through hindsight. So now that we older, we looking at the young boys like, nah, y'all shouldn't do all that. You get what I'm saying? But just the way we had to learn by doing it. Now we feel it. Like now you get a full understanding though, even though it ain't right, but it's like you still get a good understanding now. And that's why I wanted to say. earlier like the cycle of life you get what I'm saying like you get to see your pop now you get to be in relationships where you can understand like if that didn't work between your parents and how that looked and what that even looked like you feel what I'm saying cuz when you was a kid you ain't know what that looked like all you wanted to do was keep your parents together Jhalil: Anyone here? Deion: You know I'm saying you don't care that he cheated or she cheated or he did this and he did that You just want them together like I don't give a fuck what y'all gotta do make it work But the cycle of life told you when you get older down and then you start having kids you be like damn I could see why dad fell out with mom or mom fell out with dad because shit like And then you start comparing and contrasting right like no these bitches worse worse than my mom Jhalil: Be real rich. Deion: But you don't know how your mom was. You just got love for her. And you wasn't in love with her. You got a love for her. You wasn't in love with her. So you don't really know that difference. You get what I'm saying? I gotta be fully honest when I'm dealing with humane shit. You know what saying? No. I look at my mom, everybody. I don't break no relationships on. I mean, I don't do no. Jhalil: Yeah. Yeah. Deion: no separating and no judgment and none of that based on relationship. You get me? Like, cause you my cousin, that don't mean you won't snake me. Because you my sister, because you my mom, it don't, none of that applies because of this poverty shit. You know anybody could do anything to anybody under these, under these circumstances. I don't know who, what, when, where, especially under crack and heroin and what? Jhalil: Yeah Alright, bro. Deion: Yeah, I'm saying yeah, you my brother, bro. Nigga, you wet it right now. Like you feel what I'm saying? Like yeah, you my brother, but you wet it right now, Meaning like you ain't under your regular right now. Like you under the influence. You feel me? So I don't know how you, you know what saying? You feel me? But at the same time on the other side too, I don't do no judgments and none of that. So when you make it out of it, I don't treat you as Jhalil: You ain't even the same person at that time. Deion: Oh, you did X, Y, and Y, you was in, you know what saying? You was in the fuzz. You was in a blur or whatever, you know I'm saying? Like, it can happen to any of us. You feel me? Like, any of us could, you know what I'm saying? You see the motherfuckers getting, niggas getting rich, you know I'm saying? And then losing all that and having to go back to a space, you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: He was in that action. Mm-hmm. All right, bros. Deion: where now they're on the other side, you know what I'm saying? But to me, life just showing you both sides so you can have a full understanding. You get what I'm saying? Like a lot of people talking about guys is sassy and this and that. I just think the universe then swung the pan around now and this men turned to fill with women's filth. You feel me? And vice versa. Like now you know. Jhalil: Alright. Verse three. Deion: Now niggas should know how it feel to deal with them own fucking selves, because these women act just like you niggas now. You feel me? Now you getting a taste of like, you feel me? Now you getting a taste of like what it is that you done did and what you created. And that's why I say to the white people too in America, now you get in the field of what y'all did to us on slavery. You getting the results. Jhalil: Rug, bro, rug, rug, dog. Men used to be... Come on. Deion: You're getting angry niggas, you feel me? And y'all still capitalizing on it, because we still, we doing it to each other and not uprising on y'all dumbasses. But you know I'm saying? And I know that's what y'all fear the most. You feel me? Because if that up rise come towards y'all, then you know, that's when y'all gonna, you know, be like, ⁓ no, they coming back. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. ⁓ That's why my suggestion to them is to make that shit right while you still can. Because like, once the volume shift and everybody, once we all start thinking like this, bro, it ain't even gonna be violence. It's just gonna be like, bro, what's the point in even dealing with that? We gonna do this. We just gonna build our own world, you feel me? And there's no inclusion to nothing else. And y'all don't want that. Y'all can't take that. You feel me? So. Deion: You get what I'm saying? Never. of it. Jhalil: Before this shit all switch, I need to make this shit right, bro. There's no reason that like people who shit shouldn't be able to get a credit. It's people out here with 750 credit scores can't qualify for a mortgage. It's people out here that's good people that can't get the job that they want because they checking your credit. Like they checking credit for your jobs now, all type of shit. You feel me? Like, and it's come on, bro. Deion: Yeah. Thank you. Jhalil: You feel me? Like y'all making it to a point where it's like, all right, who wants to deal with this? Like, and it's going to be crazy. And we'd be like, all right, fuck it. We, we, we build a real alliance with, with Africa, the whole continent. We like, nah, let's partner up. Instead of spending this trillion dollars that black people spend in America, let's spend it somewhere where the people actually fuck with us too. Let's like, I don't want to pay a phone bill no more. I don't want to pay for just in case car insurance. I don't want to pay for this. I don't want to pay interest and tax and all that. Like let's spend our money elsewhere. And once we do that, then what? Feel me? So before it turn to that, y'all, y'all gotta make it right, bro. Like we already know what y'all did. Y'all already know what y'all did, bro. Like there's no need to keep going back and forth about it. Like, you know what I Just make it right, dawg. Deion: Thank Yeah. Thank you. Jhalil: Real shit, we don't wanna have to get on y'all ass. Cause we too tired for that. Deion: That's why at this point, I'm not even trying, you see, I'm trying. Jhalil: That's what I'm saying, I don't wanna do that. But if we talking competition, competition, like come on, bro. Like, y'all not ready for that. So like, let's make this shit right, dog. Deion: You know, we gearing up the troops, you know what saying? And not for nothing, not for the war or nothing, it's just to get ourselves together. You feel me? Because I feel as though that because of everything, we not inclusive in being productive in this world. I mean, we are being productive in this world, but under our own. Jhalil: They don't include us. Deion: No, under our own intention. With us reaping the benefits from it. You get what I'm saying? The rap game, everything is under somebody else control, but we produce a lot from it. You see what I'm saying? Like, I want us up top with Louis Vuitton and all them. Put Kanye's shit up there, you feel me? And other people, you feel me? And then we can be inclusive in the whole conversation. Jhalil: Mmm, that. YEEEE Roo-ray-brrr-ray. Deion: Because a lot of times you get those conversations and then we not into it. You get all these cowboy talks and we not inclusive. You get what I'm saying, Sue? I just want us to be inclusive in all those things. Who got the best markets? Who's making the best produce? You get what I'm saying? And bringing that. You know I'm saying, Sue? I don't got really worry about y'all doing whatever. No, we do for our community, like, you know what saying? Because we got to understand how we operate. You feel me? And that's how every... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. And that's what I'm saying too, they gotta make it better. Cause like this not the first time, even though we was the third in there, this not the first time black people would have put together and did their own thing, bro. We had black Wall Street and Tosla, Oklahoma. We had all of these places, bro. Where it's like we was doing our thing and then this shit got bombed on. You feel me? This shit is underwater now. Shit is a lake now. So it's like, all right now. You feel me? We not- Deion: Yeah. Jhalil: Like, man, we not gonna keep taking that, bro. And instead, like, instead of going into violence and bloodshed and all that, bro, it gotta be a better way, And that way leads to, like, accountability, bro. Like, we not gonna keep turning the cheek and all that and keep building this shit for y'all to demolish it because it don't fall in line with y'all plans, bro. That's just, that's not gonna happen, bro. Deion: Yeah. Like I said, you know, it keep the accountability all that. Like I don't even need to know why none of that. Like I just want to move forward and you know what I'm saying? Like you feel me? Like a lot of people, you know, we be stuck in that. Like I be talking to women and they like, no, I just want to know why he cheated. And it doesn't even fucking matter. Like you moving on. Like what do that do? Jhalil: Nyehehehe Mm-mm. Real red, bro. Like, he could have cheated because he was horny. Shit was available, like... Deion: I can't tell people how to receive shit. I can't really tell people how to receive shit or the space to be in, but it's like, when you think about it, that don't do you no, like what that's gonna do. I'm like so crazy about it, right bro? I don't even understand revenge. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, nigga killed your bro or whatever. Like going to kill, I don't understand that. What that do? Just add more on your conscience and you weren't even a person involved in it. Now you involved and now it's taking a toll on your life. So I don't be understanding all of that. You get what I'm saying? Like a lot of these rules and regulations that we rock out with, with calling real and all of this. I understand where snitching and all that come from. You feel me? You probably start where the streets started. Jhalil: . Mm-hmm. Deion: But my shit started way back in slavery. That's real snitching. You know what saying? When we had the dry light, get our freedom, we was going for that. And the nigga told. And then we got whips and lynches and all that. You get what I'm saying? So that's real snitching and all of that. You get what I'm saying? So all of this stuff, like... Jhalil: Thank you. Bro, right. Deion: We all need to be inclusive in none of this stuff. It don't make you real. It don't stamp shit in a life encyclopedia. You feel me? Like, when they stamp shit for Black people, gotta go, you gonna talk about the streets and the snitches and shit? That's what we gonna be noted for in the history books and all that? I'm appalled. Like, you get what I'm saying? Because we come from too much. We didn't. Jhalil: Thank you. Deion: We didn't invent it, like a lot of this shit. And you're not walking around acting like you're an inventor. You're acting like you're a victim. You get what I'm saying? All these things we need to get out of, you know what saying? And that's how we gonna go into the new world of us running our own shit with that confidence and all that. Not that we was victims and all that and we coming for revenge. No, like, you know what I'm saying? Jhalil: Yeah Yeah, I don't get us nowhere. Deion: And that's what I'm saying, that's the fairfulness that you create when you go on that route, you feel me? So then you get people that want to burn down Wall Street, Black Wall Street or whatever you want to call it. You feel me? You know I'm saying? Because they thinking that you're going to come back for revenge. You know what I'm saying? And those people was just trying to get away to like... Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: You know what Start they own little shit. It's like, no, we don't even want you all to build that. You feel me? But at the same time, that's why I say we gotta be really shit with each other, because that's the same operations that we are using the streets. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Deion: Pussy, if I take your block, you think you're going to sell next to you, get back? No, nigga. You think you're going to move two blocks down? Like, no, I'm coming to take that too. You see what I'm saying? So before we even move forward and try to deal with that, you got to recognize that you got that same fucking energy in you. You feel what I'm saying? You would kidnap a motherfucker to prove a point. You would do all of that. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. Ehhhh... That's it. Deion: because of these behaviors that we didn't gain from the master. You feel what I'm saying? So we gotta relieve ourselves of that. That's why I'm saying this is last thing I say before I cut it, right? In order for you to kill another human being, gotta down that human being. You gotta make him the worst person. You gotta put stuff on him. You gotta say he raped kids. You gotta really go to the extremes to be like, I'm a murder this person. You know what I'm saying? And that's where you get the three fifths of a human that they said we was. It makes sense, right? Because in order for them to do all the shit that they can do to us. Like you gotta put it in your head then like. Jhalil: NGEEEE Deion: That y'all not the same as us and this and that. That's what make it easier to kill a motherfucker. Motherfucker be like, why they did all this? You get what I'm saying? The why. The why is look around. Them niggas got a world that operate off of us. And they ain't had to do no hard labor or nothing. When you get in the business, who you trying to find? Jhalil: Yeah Deion: They start your business to get it off the ground. Who you ain't trying to take? A couple smokers? You done deeped them smokers now. So now they can do your little moving company job and you pay them $50. You a nut. You just like the master. So stop with the nut shit. We gotta look at it like for real. Jhalil: It's Yeah, where was it? Deion: You gotta look at it like for real. Like, you know, man. Jhalil: Doing all the same shit. Deion: Damn shit, you like how I'm getting ahead. Not with that shit. That's what I'm saying. You seeing them get away with it because we ain't doing nothing back. But you not, you not gonna keep getting away. God don't want you to be doing that. He gonna take care of them. He definitely gonna take care of them. Don't you worry about it, right? But you should definitely not try my. Jhalil: You I need it. Deion: the same thing and think you gonna get those results. Like no, your results gonna come different because you got a different heart and your whole thing was made to be different. We made to be what they say about Jesus, that image, that image that's supposed to be presented to the world on how a human supposed to be. Yeah, that's the melanated human. Jhalil: Got different results, like, Deion: You know what saying? Because regardless, think about it, bro. Everything you see out here, like, I see Chinese women trying to do black shit. I see everybody trying to do black shit. But it's under the control of the oppressor. You see what I'm saying? So now he's using our popularity to run his movie, to run his world, how he want. Jhalil: Okay... Mm-hmm. Deion: You see what I'm saying? We been brought in to the, I'ma be like this and I'ma wild out and I'ma give this type of entertainment and I'ma be little to my own people and I'ma do all of these things, right? And then now we spreading that. You know what saying? It's cool. I'm seeing little white kids busting on each other doing all this little... You know what I'm saying? So it's just a lot of things you just really gotta realize and take a look at. know I'm saying? Just slow the world down and really take a look at this shit. This shit is made to be simple, not of all... You know I'm saying? So when you having a... Jhalil: Yeah. complex. Deion: a problem with somebody right in front of you, nine out of the 10, it ain't that person. It's something that you should be dealing with. And the only reason you attracted to that person is because the internal thing that is telling you about is identifying, like, oh, shit. You feel me? Like what I'm bothered about about this person is really in me. So let me deal with that. You know what saying? And I guarantee you. Jhalil: Mm-hmm. in the next Deion: Like your shit gonna go away, you not even gonna think about said person. You feel me? Like motherfuckers be like, yeah, Stacey cheated on me when we was 12 years old. You 40 years old, you still remember Tracy name and all that. That mean you ain't get the lesson that it was, that was supposed to be provided for you. You probably had three more Stacey's since then because you ain't take heed to the. Jhalil: Yeah Boooo Deion: the lesson that was given, you feel me? I probably went blabber over course, but like, I think that was needed to say, you know what saying? Jhalil: ⁓ that's it, bro. Because we got to look at it a different way. Like, if we keep looking at it that same way, it's going to be the same fucking result. Deion: Absolutely, you know what saying? But thank y'all for tuning in, you know I'm saying, to another episode of The Valued Shift, you know what saying? Jhalil: We catch y'all man, later this week we dropping and then we gonna shoot another drone for y'all man. We gonna go live or something too, because we need some input man. We need y'all, we need our people so we can get in this conversation together. Deion: Until the next time, your value shifting. Jhalil: shift.