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The Reality Behind What We're Ignoring · Two Personal with Joy Taylor

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Speaker 1: What I want for society is for men to have
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Speaker 1: a safe place to express their emotions and feelings, to
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Speaker 1: get the help that they need at a young age
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Speaker 1: before they turn into monsters, and for us to stop
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Speaker 1: blaming this on mental health. Hey guys, welcome too Personal.
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Speaker 1: I'm Joy Taylor. Thanks so much for joining us today.
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Speaker 1: If you haven't already, make sure you hit subscribe, follow
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Speaker 1: us on social media at two Personal Show, and thanks
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Speaker 1: for hanging out. I hope you've enjoyed the past couple episodes.
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Speaker 1: I had a great weekend, went to New York, really
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Speaker 1: enjoyed myself going into the weekend, though, I saw a
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Speaker 1: couple stories that I wanted to talk about, and then
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Speaker 1: unfortunately another story came to light that added on to
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Speaker 1: what I wanted to talk about at the end of
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Speaker 1: last week, and that's what we're going to talk about today.
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Speaker 1: I do want to say before we get started, this
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Speaker 1: isn't the this isn't the lightest episode. The episodes this
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Speaker 1: week actually are not the lightest episodes. If you are
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Speaker 1: easily triggered, you know this is your warning. There's going
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Speaker 1: to be some conversations about some really intense topics. So
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Speaker 1: I just want to say that out front, so let's
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Speaker 1: get into it. The first story that I wanted to
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Speaker 1: talk about at the end of the weekend was this
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Speaker 1: Digital Blueprint CNN story investigation into motherless dot com. It
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Speaker 1: revealed a clear web subculture where predators share illegal content
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Speaker 1: and teach it, so it's essentially a rape academy. It
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Speaker 1: is a website that shows porn videos of women who
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Speaker 1: are passed out and being abused by their husbands or boyfriends.
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Speaker 1: There's other content on the website as well, but this
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Speaker 1: is obviously what the CNN investigation is about. And through
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Speaker 1: that website, these people get in touch with each other,
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Speaker 1: talk on tele Graham or other WhatsApp groups, and they
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Speaker 1: share information on how to drug and rape their wives
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Speaker 1: or girlfriends, drug dosages, techniques to avoid detection. And the
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Speaker 1: website had twenty six million hits during the time where
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Speaker 1: CNN was doing this investigation. That's a lot to process
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Speaker 1: and I have some thoughts. But then I wanted to
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Speaker 1: get to the other story, which was the former Lieutenant
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Speaker 1: governor of Virginia, Justin Fairvas, murdered his wife, doctor Serena Fairfax,
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Speaker 1: in their home and then took his own life. They
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Speaker 1: had a court ordered move out date, same roof separation,
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Speaker 1: so they were already in the process of getting divorced,
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Speaker 1: and immediately the conversation around the death turned to the
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Speaker 1: murder and his death suicide turned to mental health and
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Speaker 1: mental struggles and lost potential. He was dealing with sexual
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Speaker 1: assault allegations and lost his career. He's an Alpha Phi Alpha,
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Speaker 1: so the his fraternity brothers were posting these really elaborate
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Speaker 1: rest in peace dear brother posts about his death, not
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Speaker 1: even mentioning his wife. Roland Martin did a piece talking
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Speaker 1: about mental health and how to avoid these sort of situations,
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Speaker 1: which got a lot of pushback. Sophia and Nelson also
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Speaker 1: talked about her relationship with him, and it effectively erased
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Speaker 1: doctor Serena Fairfax's life and positions justin Fairfax as a
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Speaker 1: man who essentially potential was just never really seen at,
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Speaker 1: not the reality of the situation, which was that a
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Speaker 1: woman who was going through the proper channels to protect
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Speaker 1: herself and her family was violently and intentionally murdered by
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Speaker 1: her husband, which is full stop the story. And then
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Speaker 1: this story it's really hard to talk about, and the
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Speaker 1: more that the details come out about this, the angrier
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Speaker 1: I get the sadder I get. But in Shreveport, Louisiana,
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Speaker 1: a man named Shamar Elkins murdered eight children, seven of
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Speaker 1: his own, ages three to fourteen, execution style. He also
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Speaker 1: shot in the head his ex wife and his current girlfriend.
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Speaker 1: There are lots of details still coming out about this.
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Speaker 1: Another child escaped by jumping off of the roof. The
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Speaker 1: two women are in critical condition. The child to jump
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Speaker 1: off the roof is dealing with broken bones and recovering.
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Speaker 1: And this massacre was just a horrible bookend on a
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Speaker 1: week of really horrific stories and just represented the worst
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Speaker 1: case outcome of a domestic situation that was escalated. And
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Speaker 1: it's just been a painful reminder that society prioritizes the legacy,
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Speaker 1: the complex legacy of the perpetrator, over the safety of
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Speaker 1: the victim. And you have anonymous users on Motherless, you
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Speaker 1: have people who are at the height of political power,
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Speaker 1: you have veterans, you have fathers, all of these monikers
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Speaker 1: to describe the people, the men who are perpetrating these
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Speaker 1: horrific acts onto women and children, and the focus is
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Speaker 1: on the why rather than how we can protect women
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Speaker 1: and children. And to get to the personal side of
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Speaker 1: this whole conversation, and why I put those three stories
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Speaker 1: together is I've talked a lot about being a domestic
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Speaker 1: violence survivor. I've dealt with domestic abuse from the time
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Speaker 1: that I was born. My very first memory on this
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Speaker 1: planet is my father chasing my mother around the kitchen
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Speaker 1: table and her begging him not to hit her. I
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Speaker 1: have witnessed, unfortunately, every single different layer of abuse, from
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Speaker 1: financial abuse to spiritual abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse,
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Speaker 1: sexual abuse. And I've seen the terror that these situations
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Speaker 1: can cause, the generational trauma that tremors from men behaving
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Speaker 1: this way. I've dealt with it from a domestic perspective,
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Speaker 1: from obviously being in a home as a child, I've
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Speaker 1: dealt with it as an adult. I've had extremely close
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Speaker 1: friends of mine. A friend of mine murdered by her
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Speaker 1: ex who she got a restraining order against, started her
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Speaker 1: life over and was shot in the face and killed,
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Speaker 1: leaving behind two young children. I've seen all of this
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Speaker 1: from a very very personal place, and so when I
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Speaker 1: talk about these stories, it's not coming from an abstract
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Speaker 1: of Wow, it's so sad, you know, while you know
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Speaker 1: their lives were cut short it's such a bigger societal problem.
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Speaker 1: How we talk about these incidents, how we frame what's
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Speaker 1: actually happens, how we hold the people the men, and
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Speaker 1: I have to say men, because it is men perpetrating this,
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Speaker 1: the men who are abusing systems, taking advantage of the
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Speaker 1: people that are closest to them, murdering and abusing women
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Speaker 1: and children. And how is a society we better protect
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Speaker 1: women and children because the why is obviously not fixing things.
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Speaker 1: And my biggest takeaway as I thought of the first
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Speaker 1: two stories over the weekend, and then this horrific execution
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Speaker 1: of this man's entire family, seven children, seven of his
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Speaker 1: own children, and the other eighth child was their cousin
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Speaker 1: little babies and shooting their mothers in the face to
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Speaker 1: bookends these stories, my real takeaway is there's just no
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Speaker 1: safe space for women in the world. There's nowhere that's safe.
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Speaker 1: You're not safe at home with your husband who could
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Speaker 1: potentially be drugging and raping you and putting that video
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Speaker 1: on the internet and sharing it with people all over
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Speaker 1: the world in private chats. You're not safe with the
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Speaker 1: father of your children, who when you try to leave
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Speaker 1: him and go through the proper channels to do so
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Speaker 1: he says no and then kills himself and kills you
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Speaker 1: rather than moving on with his life after you stood
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Speaker 1: beside him through his career journey and awful accusations, horrific accusations.
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Speaker 1: You're not safe with your family and your children because
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Speaker 1: you're having marital issu shoes or having relationship issues and
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Speaker 1: you're supposed to go to court, and then he doesn't
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Speaker 1: want that to be the outcome, so he kills the
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Speaker 1: entire family. Where are you safe? And immediately people are
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Speaker 1: going to go to Well, it's not all men. Well,
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Speaker 1: most men aren't doing this. Well, I don't behave this
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Speaker 1: way where you're conflating you know a few incidents with
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Speaker 1: the entire world, I can tell you it's a lot
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Speaker 1: of men. Every single woman that I know, every single
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Speaker 1: woman I know, has dealt with being sexually harassed, every
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Speaker 1: single woman I know. Most women I know have dealt
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Speaker 1: with sexual assault, abuse, molestation, or rape. Most women I
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Speaker 1: know a lot of women I know have dealt with
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Speaker 1: physical abuse of some kind. This is not an abstract
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Speaker 1: stop what abouting everything away from the points. Yes can
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Speaker 1: be abusers too, Yes, women have murdered people too. Yes,
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Speaker 1: women are responsible for terrible things as well. They are
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Speaker 1: not the majority. They are not committing these crimes at
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Speaker 1: the level that men are, And it's not about hating men.
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Speaker 1: What I want for society is for men to have
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Speaker 1: a safe place to express their emotions and feelings, to
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Speaker 1: get the help that they need at a young age
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Speaker 1: before they turn into monsters, and for us to stop
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Speaker 1: blaming this on mental health. Murdering your entire family execution
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Speaker 1: styles seven children of your own and an eighth family
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Speaker 1: member is not about mental health. It's not about seeing
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Speaker 1: a therapist. These are societal issues where women and children
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Speaker 1: are not part hected. Putting videos of your wife, the
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Speaker 1: mother of your children online for other men to consume
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Speaker 1: after you have made her tea at night, and put
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Speaker 1: your child's sleeping pills in there, that is a societal
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Speaker 1: systemic issue and it has to be addressed. When I
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Speaker 1: saw the story of Giselle Pelico, who was wife to
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Speaker 1: bitch ass Dominic Pelico, who was drugging her and raping
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Speaker 1: her for over a decade and inviting other men to
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Speaker 1: come into their home and assault and rape her, I
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Speaker 1: couldn't like even saying the words. It's like it like
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Speaker 1: turns the ash in my mouth. It's so unimaginable to
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Speaker 1: me that you could trust someone that much that in
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Speaker 1: their your own home, they are the danger to that level.
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Speaker 1: Because I'm aware that most women who are murdered by
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Speaker 1: men are murdered by their spouse or their partner. That's
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Speaker 1: a statistical fact. The person closest to you is your
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Speaker 1: biggest danger. And for that story to go on for
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Speaker 1: as long as it did, and really the only reason
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Speaker 1: he was able to be prosecuted is because he had
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Speaker 1: to take videos and share it with other people. It's
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Speaker 1: and now we know that this is happening all over
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Speaker 1: the world. There's so many stories of this. At what
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Speaker 1: points do we just either accept that protecting women and
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Speaker 1: children is not a charge of society and that women
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Speaker 1: and children should do whatever they can to protect themselves,
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Speaker 1: or we sit down and have the conversation of how
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Speaker 1: we're raising young men, how we're holding men who are
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Speaker 1: violent accountable, how you as men when you're in the
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Speaker 1: rooms together and someone makes a joke about that or
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Speaker 1: someone makes a comment, you don't hold them accountable to
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Speaker 1: the highest level. So they feel that shame and understand
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Speaker 1: that wrong. What are we to do as women. We
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Speaker 1: didn't invent the system. We don't have the power in
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Speaker 1: the system. The laws are going backwards. If we speak out,
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Speaker 1: we're accused of lying. If if we go to the
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Speaker 1: to the police, we're told we shouldn't have been drinking,
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Speaker 1: or we shouldn't have worn that thing, or why were
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Speaker 1: we in that room, or why did we get in
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Speaker 1: that car, or why did we go to that house.
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Speaker 1: The victim blaming is it's past the point of being obvious.
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Speaker 1: The way that these stories are reported on continue the cycle.
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Speaker 1: Oh he was, It's such a shame. He was such
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Speaker 1: a promising young man. You want a good movie, By
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Speaker 1: the way, Promising Young Women is a crazy movie. Have
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Speaker 1: you ever seen that movie? Well, if you're in the
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Speaker 1: mood for a very dark fit, it's it's great. But
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Speaker 1: it's right along the lines of what I'm talking about.
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Speaker 1: And I don't know, I don't know that I have
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Speaker 1: the solution for this. I don't know if I'm just venting.
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Speaker 1: And you know, sometimes I do just use the podcast
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Speaker 1: to just vent about what I'm frustrated about. And it
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Speaker 1: just it sits so deeply in my spirit that we
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Speaker 1: are constantly talking about this, we're constantly talking about fixing
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Speaker 1: the home and fixing the family, and you know, no
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Speaker 1: abortions because we need, you know, we need these children
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Speaker 1: in the world. And we do nothing. And I say nothing,
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Speaker 1: because what the fuck are we doing? What are we
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Speaker 1: actually doing? You're not safe in your own home. If
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Speaker 1: you can't be safe there, where are you supposed to
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Speaker 1: be safe. You can't jog at night, you can't wear
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Speaker 1: revealing clothing. You're supposed to have pepper spray on you
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Speaker 1: all the time. You got to keep your head up
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Speaker 1: when you're walking in the parking garage. You can't. You
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Speaker 1: can't be too sexy, you can't be too thin, you
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Speaker 1: can't have too too much, too many curls in your hair.
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Speaker 1: You can't wear lashes, you can't wear makeup. If you
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Speaker 1: don't wear makeup, what the fuck are you supposed to do?
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Speaker 1: You gotta get married. But if you get married to
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Speaker 1: the wrong guy, he could fucking kill you and your
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Speaker 1: entire family shoot you in the face. And then and
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Speaker 1: then it's it's because it's PTSD. So I guess that's why,
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Speaker 1: So sad. I don't know. I don't even know if
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Speaker 1: I'm making sense at this point, But all I know
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Speaker 1: is I. I can't fix the problem, and women can't
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Speaker 1: fix the problem. Women didn't invent the system. They don't
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Speaker 1: hold the system up outside of you, goofy ass pignishes,
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Speaker 1: which we'll get to at another time. Men have to
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Speaker 1: fix this. Men created this. Men are at large the
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Speaker 1: perpetrators of this. And yeah, just to the women who
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Speaker 1: hear these stories in our in our trigger or have
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Speaker 1: survived these experiences very luckily like myself. To the women
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Speaker 1: who have lost sisters or friends or mothers or family
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Speaker 1: members to this kind of violence as I have. You know,
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Speaker 1: I'm just I sit with you today because it's how
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Speaker 1: I felt at the beginning of the weekend. And then
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Speaker 1: to see that story in Louisiana, I was just like, Wow,
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Speaker 1: I can't I can't believe because obviously this is constant,
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Speaker 1: it feels at this point, but it's such a horrific,
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Speaker 1: unimaginable situation. I saw the woman, a woman crying and
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Speaker 1: it was their aunt, and I talked about my nieces
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Speaker 1: and nephews last week. I cannot imagine. I can't imagine
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Speaker 1: the terror and the pain that family is going through.
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Speaker 1: Nothing will ever be the same. The child that survives,
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Speaker 1: I mean what it's this. I don't know, I've run
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Speaker 1: out of words, but to transition in a very hard
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Speaker 1: way because there's no way out of that conversation without
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Speaker 1: it being a rough jolt something that I have been
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Speaker 1: doing that I think I'm gonna I'm gonna make a
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Speaker 1: part of my routine because I consume so much and
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Speaker 1: so much out there is negative and that's just to
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Speaker 1: say to the world that we're in right now, and
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Speaker 1: I don't want to abandon my cause I don't want
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Speaker 1: to abandon my voice at the expense of balance. A
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Speaker 1: lot of what I've been thinking about lately is like,
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Speaker 1: you know, I'm being told I need to check out
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Speaker 1: a little bit. I need to stop reading so much
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Speaker 1: bad stuff. Everything my algorithm is just you know, repeating
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Speaker 1: and reinforcing, and I'm like, yeah, I know that's what
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Speaker 1: algorithms do. But the soort have to be there for
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Speaker 1: the algorithm to be filled with them. And it seems
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Speaker 1: like there's just the surplus of this news and it
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Speaker 1: doesn't seem to be going away, and it doesn't seem
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Speaker 1: to be getting better, and I don't know that it's
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Speaker 1: just me and what I consume. So you gotta you
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Speaker 1: gotta check out somehow. And yeah, I'm joining the whimsy movement.
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Speaker 1: I've been on this for a little while, just introducing
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Speaker 1: a little bit of whimsy in my life where I can.
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Speaker 1: And you know, it's just this this radical push for
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Speaker 1: autonomy and softness and just the right to be a
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Speaker 1: little unseerious in what is a very dark and unseerious
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Speaker 1: time in the world. So, for example, my whimsy little sweater.
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Speaker 1: I love the sweater. It's it's a crazy sweater, admittedly,
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Speaker 1: but I always get compliments on it. And yeah, it's
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Speaker 1: it's a bright sweater. I love a little bit of color.
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Speaker 1: My house is full of color. It's it's a pink
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Speaker 1: pop girl palace. There's color everywhere, pink and orange and
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Speaker 1: yellow and blues. I am not a gray millennial. I
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Speaker 1: love a bunch of flowers, gardening for sure. My music art,
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Speaker 1: I'm whimsical with love. I want to watch. I want
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Speaker 1: to watch a movie or a show that just like
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Speaker 1: brings a little fun. My dear Hayley has completely bullied
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Speaker 1: me into reading this, these these fairy books Accord of
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Speaker 1: Thorn and Roses. I'm almost finished, great great sex descriptions,
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Speaker 1: a little, a little romancy for me, I'll be honest, like, okay, girls,
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Speaker 1: the biting of the neck, Okay, I get it. A
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Speaker 1: little chew, little chew here and there, leaving the mark
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Speaker 1: is crazy. But anyway, you gotta have some whimsy in
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Speaker 1: your life and and and try a little bit every day.
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Speaker 1: If it's a little sweet treat, if you see a cute,
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Speaker 1: little sweet treat, have yourself a little sweet treat. If
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Speaker 1: you want to put that in your hair, go ahead
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Speaker 1: and do it. If you want to go all the
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Speaker 1: way and go to the renaissance fair to full costume,
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Speaker 1: do that too. I think that you have to find,
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Speaker 1: you know, whatever it is that brings joy to you.
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Speaker 1: There's all this like little joy here, little joy there,
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Speaker 1: you know, a little fun there. There is no balance
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Speaker 1: to me at this point in my life. I don't
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Speaker 1: I don't know what balance is. I'm not gonna achieve
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Speaker 1: it. It's not my purpose here. My purpose is to be
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Speaker 1: radical and loud and explosive and ferocious, and there's just
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Speaker 1: there is no balance in there. I take naps, Okay,
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Speaker 1: that's my balance. But when it comes to mentally surviving
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Speaker 1: in this like really overwhelming time, I'm just gonna be
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Speaker 1: unapologetically whimsy when I fucking feel like it. So if
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Speaker 1: I come in here and I have green hair, y'all
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Speaker 1: are gonna have to deal with it that day. And
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Speaker 1: that's I'm not fucking explaining myself. This is just what
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Speaker 1: we're doing. As you can see, I've changed my hair.
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Speaker 1: That's pretty normal. I changed my hair a lot, but
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Speaker 1: who who knows what it is next week? Okay, and
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Speaker 1: then you're you're gonna have to fucking deal with it
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Speaker 1: if I decided I want elf ears. That's what we're doing,
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Speaker 1: and you should too. I incur urge this whimsy in
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Speaker 1: your life, girls, because it's a lot, and it feels overwhelming.
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Speaker 1: Everything does, not just the things that I was talking
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Speaker 1: about earlier. And yeah, so that's what I'm doing. So
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Speaker 1: join me on, join me on my whimsy experiment. Send
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Speaker 1: me your whimsy things. I'm very excited about it. I
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Speaker 1: love a cute pillow. Okay, my house was overcome with pillows.
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Speaker 1: I just got another pillow this weekend. It says I'm
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Speaker 1: too fragile for your male for no fucking it up.
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Speaker 1: I'm too clumsy. I'm too clumsy for your male fragility.
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Speaker 1: That's a pillow. I have in my house, so should
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Speaker 1: that's how I live. So anyway, Yeah, some of your whimsies,
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Speaker 1: I would love to hear about them and see if
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Speaker 1: I can introduce some of that myself before we get
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Speaker 1: to never too personal. I do want to read these
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Speaker 1: if you are experiencing any of the things that I
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Speaker 1: talked about earlier. The National Domestic Violence Hotline one eight
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Speaker 1: hundred seven nine nine safe that's seven two three three.
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Speaker 1: You can text start to eight eight seven eight eight.
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Speaker 1: The website is the Hotline dot org. The National Sex
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Speaker 1: Assault Hotline is one eight hundred six five six four
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Speaker 1: six seven three or one eight hundred six five six HOPE.
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Speaker 1: And you can chat online dot r AI n N
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Speaker 1: dot org. And if you have just a crisis that
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Speaker 1: you need help with, you can text home to seven
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Speaker 1: four one seven four one. So if you need any
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Speaker 1: of those resources, please please, please, please please reach out
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Speaker 1: before it is too late. And as someone who has
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Speaker 1: used domestic violence resources before, they are certainly helpful, and
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Speaker 1: they are there to help you and you are not alone,
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Speaker 1: and you can save yourself and save your children and
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Speaker 1: save your life. And know it won't be easy, but
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Speaker 1: it is better than the alternative. So yeah, we'll leave
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Speaker 1: that there all right. Time to get to Never Too Personal.
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Speaker 1: If you want to be a part of the show,
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Speaker 1: question on Never Too Personal, what's something you refuse to
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Speaker 1: compromise on no matter what easy answer? My piece, my piece,
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Speaker 1: My piece cannot be disrupted. Nope, nope, unsubscribed. Don't un
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Speaker 1: subscribe to the show, but unsubscribe to disrupting my piece.
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Speaker 1: I am militants, militants about my piece. Anything that anyone
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Speaker 1: does to upset that in a very real way, it is.
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Speaker 1: It is a hard line for me. I will cut
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Speaker 1: someone off, snip, never think about it again. I do
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Speaker 1: not tolerate any kind of toxicity. I don't tolerate people
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Speaker 1: who are unreas with their mistakes or when they do
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Speaker 1: things that are hurtful without any kind of accountability. I
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Speaker 1: have been through entirely too much in my life. I've
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Speaker 1: worked so so, so so so hard on my boundaries.
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Speaker 1: In leaving my codependency behind me, I will not have
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Speaker 1: my peace disrupted, I will fucking destore you, or worse,
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Speaker 1: I will cut you the fuck off for the rest
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Speaker 1: of all eternity and never think about it again, which
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Speaker 1: for some people is far worse. I have lived in
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Speaker 1: such chaos and such anarchy for so long. Having a
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Speaker 1: peaceful life is the greatest, the greatest achievement that I
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Speaker 1: could ever have hoped for as a little girl. And
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Speaker 1: while I would love always to add to my peaceful life,
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Speaker 1: it will only be additions that also include peace. That's
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Speaker 1: a hardline for me. I don't care if you're a family.
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Speaker 1: I don't care if you're a friend. I don't care
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Speaker 1: if you're a partner. I don't care if your work.
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Speaker 1: I am unreasonably militant about my piece because it is
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Speaker 1: so hard to achieve. It is so hard to find
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Speaker 1: in this life. It's so hard to build a peaceful life.
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Speaker 1: And yeah, it's not the priority for everyone, and I
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Speaker 1: get it. I think a lot of people would like peace.
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Speaker 1: But for me, going through my journey from my childhood
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Speaker 1: and the abuse there, to the chaos and my youth,
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Speaker 1: to many years of different environments that were unhealthy for me,
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Speaker 1: I prioritize peace over absolutely everything else in my life,
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Speaker 1: and I'm grateful for it. And it's not a life
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Speaker 1: for everyone. Like some people like a little you know,
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Speaker 1: they like a little steam, as soon as it starts
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Speaker 1: getting friction y, I'm out and listen. That is not
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Speaker 1: for everyone, and it's I'm sure it'll be a point
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Speaker 1: of contention in a lot of conversations throughout my life.
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Speaker 1: And I do not care because I know what makes
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Speaker 1: me feel full and what truly brings me happiness and
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Speaker 1: what I'm willing to sacrifice to achieve that piece. And
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Speaker 1: it's a lot. It's a lot, for sure. I just
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Speaker 1: cut a friend off. She don't even know she cut
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Speaker 1: off yet. She don't even know, bitch, she's gone clip
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Speaker 1: clip whoo. Such an easy decision, Such an easy decision.
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Speaker 1: What the fuck are you doing? Huh? Gone? Gone? A
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Speaker 1: good friends, But listen, honey, you have zero times to
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Speaker 1: be weird with me, zero this many. The first time
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Speaker 1: you're weird with me is the last time you're were
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Speaker 1: with me. I do not repeat bullshit, dumbass habits play
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Speaker 1: in my face. You've never you'll never see my face
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Speaker 1: the same way again. It'll be from afar. And that's
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Speaker 1: just what it is, and I don't. I don't. I
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Speaker 1: know everyone doesn't live like this. I know everyone doesn't
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Speaker 1: want this. But from where I sit, the one thing
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Speaker 1: I will never ever compromise on is my piece. So
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Speaker 1: that's that. Don't fuck with me. You will be gone,
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Speaker 1: sad place to be. On the other side, you don't
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Speaker 1: want to be in the pit. There's no way out,
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Speaker 1: you know. It's I call it the abyss. It's like
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Speaker 1: when you get blocked on social media by me, send
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Speaker 1: them to the abyss. Thanks for joining us this week.
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