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Navigating Faith, Tragedy & the Classroom | FT Deanka Hart | EP105 · Jess Ask

• 0:07
  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress.
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  Speaker 2: Have fun and just ask God.
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  Speaker 3: For another do you already know what it is? And
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  Speaker 3: then you know it's about to get real.
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  Speaker 1: To be sure to show your girl the love and like,
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  Speaker 1: come in subscribe God.
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  Speaker 3: For another day.
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  Speaker 4: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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  Speaker 3: You can get it.
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  Speaker 5: Let me know, I ain't so funny listening because I'm
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  Speaker 5: still I'm still.
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  Speaker 2: I'm still hurt.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, yeah, I'm hurt.
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  Speaker 2: Be heard.
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  Speaker 3: What's up? What's happening?
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  Speaker 2: What's at one?
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  Speaker 5: Yo?
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  Speaker 1: Yo?
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  Speaker 5: Yo, it's your girl Jessica and Smith, and you have
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  Speaker 5: just entered the safe space where.
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  Speaker 3: Wait what we're doing? What we're doing?
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  Speaker 5: It's like I got it, y'all had I had an
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  Speaker 5: interest today, So I'm being silly. But you know you're
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  Speaker 5: in the safe space where influence because the influencers can
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  Speaker 5: decompress half fun against what just as okay, y'all already know.
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  Speaker 3: What time it is?
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  Speaker 5: One, two, three, that's a right, that's a right. That's
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  Speaker 5: a rate, that's a rate, that's a rate, that's a
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  Speaker 5: rate rate.
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  Speaker 3: You q or whatever.
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  Speaker 2: You fine girl?
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  Speaker 3: You c is you is physician? Can I get your number?
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  Speaker 3: You gott it? Ariady girl? Man, I'm blessed by the best. Listen.
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  Speaker 3: He's truly, he truly is the best. Yeah, blessed The best.
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  Speaker 2: Is that, ri.
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  Speaker 3: I don't think I don't know Donald Lawrence in the
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  Speaker 3: same era.
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  Speaker 5: So if I mixed them up as an honor because
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  Speaker 5: both of them are in the same category to me, Okay,
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  Speaker 5: shout out to my gifts for knowing it.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, you real church the glorious here. I'm nervous, No, yeah, nervous.
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  Speaker 5: Okay, I knew when I asked her to call that
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  Speaker 5: the hell feinna be told up?
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  Speaker 3: You mean, but before we get into it, does a raid?
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  Speaker 3: What's up? Listen?
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  Speaker 5: I think you should do the community highlight with me today.
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  Speaker 5: I think that because you know it's community highlight. I
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  Speaker 5: don't think I did it the same way. But it's okay,
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  Speaker 5: we're gonna get this song. It's jingle together, Jamie Foxx,
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  Speaker 5: can you help me?
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  Speaker 2: Thank you up?
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  Speaker 3: You know Jamie Foxx used to do the jingles or whatever.
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  Speaker 3: I remember just get my house. That's hilarious. That was
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  Speaker 3: my favorite jingle that he made up hilarious shout out
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  Speaker 3: to Jamie Fox for the roaches. Yeah, but you're not
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  Speaker 3: the community highlight today. We're gonna make you one. It's
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  Speaker 3: but today's community highlight all babies. She been down.
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  Speaker 5: I can't even remember how she found us.
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  Speaker 3: I don't know how she found us, but we used to.
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  Speaker 5: I have had two series of focused rooms, which included
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  Speaker 5: forty days of fasting and praying right. Were fasted the
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  Speaker 5: last week, but mainly focusing on prayer. We would get
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  Speaker 5: up in the morning at four thirty, we would pray
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  Speaker 5: together via YouTube, and we would meet on Tuesdays. We
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  Speaker 5: would have these challenges, and then the last seven days
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  Speaker 5: we would be fasting and praying together.
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  Speaker 2: Right.
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  Speaker 5: And the first time I did it, this young, this
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  Speaker 5: young Timlroney, the young like young Tilronney. She had she
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  Speaker 5: found us, and I can't even remember how she found us,
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  Speaker 5: But she has been committed every time we've done that.
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  Speaker 5: She's following the page she is intune with just as
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  Speaker 5: the podcast. She reaches out to us. She was inspired
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  Speaker 5: to start going live. She was going live for at
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  Speaker 5: least two about a year, at least over the year.
• 4:26
  Speaker 5: Now I think it's every Monday and so we want
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  Speaker 5: to just shout out missus Jennis Stritch.
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  Speaker 3: Miss Jenning's you are when I tell you, when I
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  Speaker 3: get of your age, I want to be just like you.
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  Speaker 5: You are fun, you are, vibrant, you are why did
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  Speaker 5: you take yourself off? You've still got to say something
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  Speaker 5: to Miss Jennis. I'm using both because Miss Jennis is
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  Speaker 5: very special. Miss Jennis is in her seventies. Wow, no,
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  Speaker 5: I think she said. I thought she said seventy, Miss Jennis.
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  Speaker 5: You can check us if we wrong.
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  Speaker 3: But missus Janie is wise in her age, okay.
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  Speaker 5: And so for her, she's just so welcoming and so
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  Speaker 5: ready to learn. She's like, I still got more life
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  Speaker 5: to live, okay, and she is living it and living
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  Speaker 5: it well.
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  Speaker 3: She is brilliant. Okay. What is it?
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  Speaker 5: What is it called? Pockets is the truth? Pockets of
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  Speaker 5: Truth is her. It's her live that she goes live.
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  Speaker 5: And she just talks about the Word of God, right,
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  Speaker 5: and she's committed and consistent to it.
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  Speaker 3: So does Ray. And I want like to say, I'm
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  Speaker 3: gonna let you go first. Yeah, I just want to
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  Speaker 3: say it. So I've helped.
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  Speaker 5: We've had some conversations about tech things, you know, This
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  Speaker 5: is right before she got ready to actually go live,
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  Speaker 5: and I was just so inspired because it just shows
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  Speaker 5: regardless of how old you are, how young you are,
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  Speaker 5: like when God still has a desire for something in
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  Speaker 5: his earth, like he don't care like if you're old
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  Speaker 5: or young, Like, the assignment is still the assignment.
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  Speaker 3: And she knew the assignment and she.
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  Speaker 5: Didn't let you know, the world of tech technology stop
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  Speaker 5: her what God had called her to do.
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  Speaker 3: So I'm just proud of you for reaching over the hurdles.
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  Speaker 5: As well as just going forth and what God is
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  Speaker 5: telling you to do and just being obedient, you know
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  Speaker 5: what I'm saying. I think sometimes we get caught up
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  Speaker 5: in what things don't look like or what everybody else's
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  Speaker 5: things are looking like, and we negate what God has
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  Speaker 5: given us, you know what I'm saying. So I'm just proud,
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  Speaker 5: and I just want to thank you for for being
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  Speaker 5: encouraging and from rocking with us.
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  Speaker 3: Yes, thank you.
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  Speaker 5: So much, missus Jenny's you are such a blessing. And
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  Speaker 5: so I did know everything that Desiray just said. I'm
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  Speaker 5: started pulling her to do some of these community highlights
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  Speaker 5: because she got it in help to speak the word
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  Speaker 5: of the Lord. And so I just agree with everything
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  Speaker 5: that Desi Ray just said, and I just speak happiness happy.
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  Speaker 5: It's no more pursuit you embody happiness like you don't
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  Speaker 5: even have to pursue it anymore.
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  Speaker 3: You literally, God is just gifting.
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  Speaker 5: You with just your rest of your life, as far
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  Speaker 5: as happiness and joy and restoration and just the fulfillment
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  Speaker 5: of life. And so we love you, Miss Janis. Thank
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  Speaker 5: you so much for your support. So so so buckle up.
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  Speaker 5: So as Desire said, warning, warning, If I had to
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  Speaker 5: explain the guests that we have today in one word,
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  Speaker 5: I would say powerful. You know, it's certain people make
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  Speaker 5: you nervous and normal as a bad nervous.
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  Speaker 3: She makes me good nervous.
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  Speaker 5: All right, This lady has prophesied to me and it's
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  Speaker 5: been so accurate it's been scary.
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  Speaker 3: You hear me.
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  Speaker 5: And you know this is how I know I really
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  Speaker 5: like her, right, y'all know how particular about the people.
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  Speaker 5: This is my friend's friend, This is my best friends,
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  Speaker 5: all the best friends. Okay, this is Brianca, hearty friend
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  Speaker 5: that has now been called like I could take I
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  Speaker 5: taxt to a person I feel armored. Okay, So when
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  Speaker 5: I do that. You know, you know it's real.
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  Speaker 3: Okay.
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  Speaker 5: So she's a teacher, educator, she is a minister.
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  Speaker 3: She is.
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  Speaker 5: Oh, I was gonna speak, let me make sure I
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  Speaker 5: don't speak out the term for day. I'm gonna ask
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  Speaker 5: the question. But I'm just gonna no, let me go
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  Speaker 5: in profession, she's an author, Okay, Amen, she's an author.
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  Speaker 5: If I'm perfectly speaking, we'll just go go with that, okay.
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  Speaker 5: But but most importantly, she's a child the King and
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  Speaker 5: a daughter of the Most High. And so I'm really
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  Speaker 5: honored to have my love, my friend, the apple to gods,
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  Speaker 5: I Dinka High.
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  Speaker 3: Okay, we mentioned y'all. So y'all know what happens when
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  Speaker 3: we match. When I match my kids, dam doom doom.
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  Speaker 3: Oh for everything else, I'm here for it. God, Jessica,
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  Speaker 3: I'm doing so good. How about you? I'm good?
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  Speaker 5: Yay, No, I'm excited. I'm not nervous. It's like, I'm like,
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  Speaker 5: let's go.
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  Speaker 3: Al ready, okay, because you got a word boiling me
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  Speaker 3: and your girl. Amen.
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  Speaker 5: Amen, Listen, I first met the uncle. Like I said,
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  Speaker 5: she is friends with Brie, and y'all seen Brie on
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  Speaker 5: this platform. Y'all seen her several times. And y'all don't
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  Speaker 5: know who Bree is. You don't follow me in real life, right,
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  Speaker 5: you don't follow the platform. But Brianca shout out to you.
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  Speaker 5: I know you watching, go ahead and say hey in
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  Speaker 5: the comments, just say hey, she's gonna do it too,
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  Speaker 5: you know it. So man and Brianka was having a
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  Speaker 5: was it what it was?
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  Speaker 3: A what gather? Is it? Dancing and ring? Yes?
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  Speaker 5: Dancing and ring. I think that's when I first met you. Yes,
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  Speaker 5: and you you ministered there and I asked her, I said, well,
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  Speaker 5: who is she got you that kept getting your name
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  Speaker 5: wrong and everything people, But the way I remember it
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  Speaker 5: is Brianca says, it's my name without the rut the
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  Speaker 5: d N. I was like, okay, we got it, but no,
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  Speaker 5: for real, like you've been at heavy hell since I
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  Speaker 5: met you, And I'm like, I'm excited for what God
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  Speaker 5: is about to do.
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  Speaker 3: I know.
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  Speaker 5: I said, how how you doing? And that seems regular?
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  Speaker 5: But no, how is d yunker? What space is the
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  Speaker 5: yunka in?
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  Speaker 3: Currently? In this season?
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  Speaker 5: Well, let's see, in this season, I'm really in a
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  Speaker 5: good place. A lot of times when people ask how
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  Speaker 5: you doing, like our first response is good, Well, or whatever,
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  Speaker 5: but that's not an honest answer. And I wasn't always
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  Speaker 5: in a good space over the last couple of months,
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  Speaker 5: just trying to, you know, see what God was telling
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  Speaker 5: me in which direction to go in and to really
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  Speaker 5: like just settle myself in some things that God was
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  Speaker 5: telling me to do. So it was kind of like
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  Speaker 5: a back and forth thing. But like now I'm like,
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  Speaker 5: let's go, God, I'm ready, like okay, and I know
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  Speaker 5: it's like like, I'm sorry, Lord, it took me a
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  Speaker 5: little minute to say I'm ready, but I'm just ready
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  Speaker 5: for what's coming up and just really pivoting into some
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  Speaker 5: new things.
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  Speaker 3: So I'm really excited about that. That's good.
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  Speaker 5: What was your hesitancy like regarding what God told you?
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  Speaker 5: The truth is is just always there with his fear,
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  Speaker 5: because I'm one of those who just really I want
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  Speaker 5: to I want to plan things out and make sure
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  Speaker 5: it goes step by step, and if I can't see
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  Speaker 5: it on paper, I'm really not trying to do it
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  Speaker 5: because I'm afraid of failure. And I'm going to be
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  Speaker 5: very transparent in that area because a lot of times
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  Speaker 5: when things don't go away, we've looked back on what
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  Speaker 5: has happened, and like when it didn't go the way
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  Speaker 5: we wanted it to, then it's like, okay, I'm gonna
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  Speaker 5: be I'm just not gonna step out and do this completely.
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  Speaker 5: I'm gonna just wait till God give me another sign,
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  Speaker 5: then give me another sign, then another sign. Well, how
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  Speaker 5: many more signs do you need? I'm just saying, how
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  Speaker 5: many more signs.
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  Speaker 2: Do you need?
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  Speaker 3: To do what the Lord told you to do?
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  Speaker 5: It's been prophesied, He gave us to you in a dream,
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  Speaker 5: he had showed it to you at a stop sign.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, just everything, and you still like, you still
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  Speaker 3: want me.
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  Speaker 5: To do this God, and he like, my mind has
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  Speaker 5: never changed about you, because I'm not a man that
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  Speaker 5: changes my mind. So if I said it, then that's
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  Speaker 5: what it is. So that's just it was. It's really
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  Speaker 5: it really was just fear of the unknown. And people
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  Speaker 5: say that often, but that's really something heavy that weighs
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  Speaker 5: on the people of God, that it's just the fear
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  Speaker 5: to unknown. We know God said it, but it's just
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  Speaker 5: so difficult to get to it because we don't really
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  Speaker 5: know because He only shows us in pieces.
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  Speaker 3: So when he shows us in pieces, we want to see.
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  Speaker 5: The whole picture. Yeah, but it's like he ain't ready
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  Speaker 5: to reveal all it yet. So that's so good.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 5: The curiosity now is I'm a viewer and keep hearing
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  Speaker 5: y'all on this platform talk about I heard God say this,
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  Speaker 5: I heard God say this? How do I know I'm
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  Speaker 5: hearing God? And like, what do I What are the
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  Speaker 5: steps I need to do if I feel.
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  Speaker 3: Like I'm not hearing here God? Okay?
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  Speaker 5: So for me, this is what I was taught, and
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  Speaker 5: a lot of times when we're taught things, you know,
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  Speaker 5: it's just what we taught.
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  Speaker 3: But it's what I've experienced.
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  Speaker 5: Yes, So the three ways it's to me, it's always
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  Speaker 5: been three ways that I heard God, like through someone,
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  Speaker 5: which could be the word of God, like being preached,
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  Speaker 5: because the word of God says, how can they hear
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  Speaker 5: unless you know there's a preacher, And how can they
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  Speaker 5: preach unless he's been sent? And so that's one way.
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  Speaker 5: Another way is through his word directly. And a lot
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  Speaker 5: of times we google, even though I was telling some
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  Speaker 5: of my students, like you google everything. You can google
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  Speaker 5: scriptures on what it is that you're experiencing and it
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  Speaker 5: will literally give you an answer to it. So he
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  Speaker 5: speaks to his word, He speaks through people, and he
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  Speaker 5: speaks directly to you. I've heard the Lord speak to
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  Speaker 5: me and in the past when I didn't know what
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  Speaker 5: the voice of God was, it was like that something said,
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  Speaker 5: that's something said.
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  Speaker 3: It is the whole the spirit. It's the Lord speaking.
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  Speaker 5: And especially if you hear it continuously and you think,
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  Speaker 5: like people think it's my conscious and all that, but
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  Speaker 5: it's not. It's really the Lord, especially if you have
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  Speaker 5: a relationship with God, but if you're striving to have
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  Speaker 5: that relationship with Him. So that's one way for me.
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  Speaker 5: That with three ways for me that I know I
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  Speaker 5: can hear God. And like I said, y'all, she's a teacher,
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  Speaker 5: so she's gonna break things down will that was willied up.
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  Speaker 3: That was well done, well done, not willing done.
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  Speaker 5: We're gonna let her have that every time. I know,
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  Speaker 5: I just support just because.
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  Speaker 3: I'm gonna be mean. I love it every time.
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  Speaker 5: Every time I be so tickled, like this girl is
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  Speaker 5: what I love the most, Like she is gonna give
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  Speaker 5: it to you every time I love it.
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  Speaker 3: I love it too.
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  Speaker 5: And I appreciate you for loving me through being me
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  Speaker 5: because it's a lot of things in our world, in
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  Speaker 5: our hemisphere, in our kingdom, sibling ship. I think that's
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  Speaker 5: an area that we're possibly lacking, Like we try to
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  Speaker 5: one size fit all people in the lifestyle, and I
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  Speaker 5: think especially in this generation in this day like us.
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  Speaker 3: We like, nah, that ain't that.
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  Speaker 2: Ain't that ain't us.
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  Speaker 3: But you said something that I don't want to walk past.
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  Speaker 5: You said that you teach your students to google scripture. Yes,
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  Speaker 5: so we had Brianka all right and all she is
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  Speaker 5: going through her life of being a teacher, which shocked everybody.
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  Speaker 3: The world was like, God, what I know, she's good?
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  Speaker 3: You want her to go where? Okay? Cool benz.
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  Speaker 5: So one of the things that her and I have
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  Speaker 5: talked about was just or she shared even all her
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  Speaker 5: social media, is that how God is calling the five
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  Speaker 5: fold to the classroom?
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  Speaker 3: What's your experience with that? And how do.
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  Speaker 5: You navigate honoring what you say you would do as
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  Speaker 5: your role in honoring God? Like how because I know
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  Speaker 5: that's a church and state. I know understand all that fully,
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  Speaker 5: but I know there's a problem with bringing or a
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  Speaker 5: challenge bringing religion into the school system.
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  Speaker 3: How are you bouncing there?
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  Speaker 5: And how do you navigate those conversations with your students.
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  Speaker 5: So I knew you were going to talk about state
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  Speaker 5: in church. I just I knew it. But a lot
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  Speaker 5: of times people don't understand that. So there is a
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  Speaker 5: separation of church and state. And there's also the First Amendment,
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  Speaker 5: which just freedom of religion and speech, so I can
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  Speaker 5: say what I want to say, honestly. But the thing
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  Speaker 5: with church and state is that as long as what
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  Speaker 5: I'm doing does not interfere with my job, because it
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  Speaker 5: doesn't because it actually helps. It's not taking away any
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  Speaker 5: instruction time or anything. But even before like every quiz
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  Speaker 5: test or state test, like I always tell my kids,
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  Speaker 5: I was like, you need to pray and ask the
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  Speaker 5: Lord to bring back to your remembrance everything that you've
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  Speaker 5: learned in everybody's class so that you can get what
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  Speaker 5: you need. But how that looks for me is a
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  Speaker 5: lot of times when my students come to me and
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  Speaker 5: talk about stuff, they know I'm gonna talk about the
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  Speaker 5: Lord because in the morning, I'm playing instrumentals of gospel
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  Speaker 5: music or playing gospel music because that's what I'm gonna do,
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  Speaker 5: because I'm finna set this whole atmosphere because I don't
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  Speaker 5: know what you're.
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  Speaker 3: Coming in here with.
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  Speaker 5: But whatever you came in here with, I know you're
• 17:21
  Speaker 5: not gonna leave out with it. Yeah, because this is
• 17:23
  Speaker 5: what I'm called to do, just not to teach. The
• 17:26
  Speaker 5: Lord put me in this setting for a reason, and
• 17:28
  Speaker 5: so I take that. I take it seriously. I don't
• 17:31
  Speaker 5: see it as just coming to a job and making
• 17:34
  Speaker 5: sure that I babysit kids because people always say, like
• 17:37
  Speaker 5: educators or babysitters, we're not so you hear me, we're not. Okay,
• 17:42
  Speaker 5: So there's a lot to deal with. But even with
• 17:46
  Speaker 5: telling them to google certain things because they google everything.
• 17:49
  Speaker 5: So if you're feeling some type of way, and I
• 17:51
  Speaker 5: teach middle school, so if you're feeling some type of way,
• 17:53
  Speaker 5: google it. Even the children at my ministry like google
• 17:56
  Speaker 5: what you're feeling and acts for scripture reference says to it.
• 18:01
  Speaker 5: And that will allow you to really hear God, because
• 18:05
  Speaker 5: that's he's talking to you. If you feeling somewhere, you'd
• 18:07
  Speaker 5: be like, oh my God, the scripture said this for
• 18:09
  Speaker 5: a guy has not giving me the spirit of fear,
• 18:11
  Speaker 5: but a love piece in the sound mind. Because kids
• 18:13
  Speaker 5: remember everything, Yeah, they do, they really do. And I
• 18:16
  Speaker 5: remember how you make them feel what you say to them.
• 18:19
  Speaker 5: They might not remember nothing about a subject verb agreement, yeah,
• 18:23
  Speaker 5: but they're gonna remember how I made them feel or
• 18:26
  Speaker 5: some of the lessons that I've taught them over the
• 18:29
  Speaker 5: years because and I shared this really quick. One of
• 18:31
  Speaker 5: my students, she's like twenty one now, and I always
• 18:35
  Speaker 5: say students, although they're grown, they're still always my soul. Yes.
• 18:39
  Speaker 5: She came back from Virginia or maybe of a South Carolina,
• 18:43
  Speaker 5: one of the two, and we ran into each.
• 18:45
  Speaker 3: Other and the Dollar Tree.
• 18:47
  Speaker 5: She's like, oh my god, Miss Harmon's Heart and she
• 18:49
  Speaker 5: was like, I'm doing good. And I came back home
• 18:51
  Speaker 5: because her grandma had passed away, and she was like,
• 18:53
  Speaker 5: guess what I remember?
• 18:54
  Speaker 3: And I was like what. She was like, remember how
• 18:56
  Speaker 3: you used to Because.
• 18:57
  Speaker 5: She was on my basketball team too, she said, remember
• 18:59
  Speaker 5: how you used to always make us the Lord's Prayer
• 19:00
  Speaker 5: before we prayed.
• 19:02
  Speaker 3: I mean played, And I was like yeah. She was
• 19:04
  Speaker 3: like I still say it every day and I was like,
• 19:07
  Speaker 3: oh yeah.
• 19:09
  Speaker 5: I was just like, okay, don't cry front of her,
• 19:12
  Speaker 5: because that's kind of weird. But yeah, you know, but
• 19:15
  Speaker 5: I'm saying those things matter and they remember, and for
• 19:18
  Speaker 5: her to tell me that she still praise it because
• 19:21
  Speaker 5: she wasn't in an environment or a household that went
• 19:23
  Speaker 5: to church. So to know that she still praised that prayer,
• 19:28
  Speaker 5: it's like God still honest that for her.
• 19:29
  Speaker 3: So, no, that's that's a powerful thing.
• 19:31
  Speaker 5: And it's important because like you said, children, kids are sponges.
• 19:35
  Speaker 5: They are things that I still remember shout out to
• 19:38
  Speaker 5: Miss Lucius at Sinat Street Middle School.
• 19:40
  Speaker 3: It's not there anymore.
• 19:41
  Speaker 5: Miss Lucius at Sinatory Middle School she was my sixth
• 19:43
  Speaker 5: grade homeschool teacher and language teacher, and baby, she would
• 19:48
  Speaker 5: tell us in front of the boys, she was like everyone,
• 19:51
  Speaker 5: every girl in here want to BMW. What's a bmdaby?
• 19:54
  Speaker 5: I'm thinking it's because she said, you want a black
• 19:57
  Speaker 5: man working. Yes, every time I see a BMW, I
• 20:01
  Speaker 5: think of Miss Lucious. Wow. And not just not just
• 20:04
  Speaker 5: the black man. I think of the car. Anytime I
• 20:08
  Speaker 5: see the car, I think of Miss Lucious. And so
• 20:11
  Speaker 5: it's like, you know, she went into depth and to that,
• 20:15
  Speaker 5: and you know, so that is a pinnacle point that
• 20:18
  Speaker 5: middle school area.
• 20:20
  Speaker 3: Exactly.
• 20:20
  Speaker 5: It's a lot is going on in the middle I
• 20:27
  Speaker 5: learned about smacking in middle school. Not well, I probably
• 20:32
  Speaker 5: learned about a little bit before that, but I learned
• 20:34
  Speaker 5: like the girls was teaching me about smacking and protecting
• 20:37
  Speaker 5: myself in middle school.
• 20:38
  Speaker 3: So we have to be mindful. Let me make sure
• 20:42
  Speaker 3: I'm putting something.
• 20:43
  Speaker 5: I already know what your peers teaching you, but I
• 20:46
  Speaker 5: need to make sure I'm teaching you something soon.
• 20:48
  Speaker 3: And so what do you do you remember?
• 20:51
  Speaker 5: Like, what has been your most challenging space when it
• 20:55
  Speaker 5: comes to education?
• 20:58
  Speaker 2: Oh?
• 21:02
  Speaker 3: Did she get something? Yeah?
• 21:07
  Speaker 5: I could talk about this all day, but I just
• 21:10
  Speaker 5: know it's so much more that we have to discuss.
• 21:11
  Speaker 3: But don't.
• 21:14
  Speaker 5: Okay For me, I think the challenge that I face
• 21:20
  Speaker 5: the most is accountability. And what I mean by that
• 21:24
  Speaker 5: is from all areas, from the state department, from the district,
• 21:30
  Speaker 5: from administration to parents, Like there's not an there's not
• 21:35
  Speaker 5: a level of accountability in my opinion, that would lead
• 21:40
  Speaker 5: to the scholars or the students becoming successful adults in
• 21:45
  Speaker 5: this time compared to when I first started teaching. And
• 21:49
  Speaker 5: I've been I've been teaching now for fifteen years, so
• 21:53
  Speaker 5: I see the change in it.
• 21:55
  Speaker 3: And it's like we hand them everything.
• 21:58
  Speaker 5: These kids can come to school just with their uniform
• 22:01
  Speaker 5: and we get them paper pencil. They have no responsibility, honestly,
• 22:05
  Speaker 5: and this is everywhere. This is just not in the
• 22:07
  Speaker 5: city of Montgomery, but everywhere. And we don't hold the
• 22:11
  Speaker 5: parents accountable. The parents don't hold us their children accountable.
• 22:15
  Speaker 5: The state department don't hold the schools. It's just so
• 22:17
  Speaker 5: much to me. And as I look like that that
• 22:21
  Speaker 5: could That has been my prayer focus about that level
• 22:24
  Speaker 5: of accountability when it pertains to education, because it is
• 22:28
  Speaker 5: imperative that your child gets.
• 22:30
  Speaker 3: An education, Like there shouldn't be any.
• 22:33
  Speaker 5: Way possible that you wake up in the morning your
• 22:34
  Speaker 5: child say oh, I don't want to go to school today,
• 22:36
  Speaker 5: and they say, okay.
• 22:38
  Speaker 3: Get that.
• 22:38
  Speaker 5: Often if you look across the nation, there is chronic
• 22:43
  Speaker 5: absentees in every city. Like that's a major thing because
• 22:46
  Speaker 5: they don't make them go to school. But I never
• 22:48
  Speaker 5: missed school. My grandma wasn't playing that. It was a
• 22:53
  Speaker 5: oh you got a coff let's see. Yes, it was
• 22:57
  Speaker 5: always water as it was always water cares all things.
• 23:02
  Speaker 3: And I believe that because you know the living water.
• 23:07
  Speaker 5: Okay, okay, all right, okay, dad, just wait.
• 23:12
  Speaker 2: All right, yeah it did.
• 23:15
  Speaker 5: I cannot understandetically listen, but I'm just saying, you know,
• 23:22
  Speaker 5: it's so much that has that I've seen over the
• 23:27
  Speaker 5: years that really breaks my heart as it pertains to education,
• 23:34
  Speaker 5: and as much as we try to get ahead, it's
• 23:37
  Speaker 5: like there's always pushback from every area. And a lot
• 23:41
  Speaker 5: of times people say that teachers are just there to babysit,
• 23:45
  Speaker 5: which I said earlier, or they don't teach our kids this,
• 23:48
  Speaker 5: and it's a lot and people don't get that you're
• 23:52
  Speaker 5: in a classroom of twenty five students. That's twenty five
• 23:55
  Speaker 5: different personalities and then the personalities of their parents. And
• 24:00
  Speaker 5: I don't know what kind of platform this is. And
• 24:02
  Speaker 5: that's like twenty five different demons and devils.
• 24:05
  Speaker 3: That's in your classroom. And I'm not calling them there,
• 24:07
  Speaker 3: but I'm saying those spirits all.
• 24:09
  Speaker 5: That, you know, I'm just I just want to try
• 24:11
  Speaker 5: And I wasn't calling our children demons but devils, but
• 24:14
  Speaker 5: I'm just saying they different types of spirits, yes, And because.
• 24:18
  Speaker 3: We got three different types of spirits in you exactly.
• 24:21
  Speaker 5: So spirit is a spirit exactly, and it's like you
• 24:24
  Speaker 5: just have to deal with that and you have to
• 24:26
  Speaker 5: be strong to be educated.
• 24:28
  Speaker 3: I don't care what nobody say. It's not made for
• 24:30
  Speaker 3: the week. It's not.
• 24:31
  Speaker 5: And one of the things that I consider you is
• 24:34
  Speaker 5: to be very strong. No like I want you to
• 24:37
  Speaker 5: look me in my face. I know, and you can
• 24:44
  Speaker 5: tell me just I don't want to go down here,
• 24:47
  Speaker 5: but you probably already know where I want to go down.
• 24:50
  Speaker 5: You being an educator, you being a minister and facing
• 24:54
  Speaker 5: what you did. Maybe five it's been five? Have they
• 24:57
  Speaker 5: been five years? Because you know exactly what I'm talking before?
• 25:03
  Speaker 5: Maybe if I know what you're talking about, if i'm
• 25:05
  Speaker 5: kind of I'm talking about your sister.
• 25:07
  Speaker 3: Yes, it'll be four years in November. Okay, I mm hmmm.
• 25:13
  Speaker 3: Because you emotional yet, yeah.
• 25:16
  Speaker 5: I I I'm gonna be honest with you. I was,
• 25:22
  Speaker 5: I prayed, I wanted to reach out, you know, I
• 25:25
  Speaker 5: checked in through or whatnot.
• 25:29
  Speaker 3: But can we can we walk down there?
• 25:32
  Speaker 2: Okay?
• 25:33
  Speaker 5: I just wanted to make sure before we go there?
• 25:35
  Speaker 5: So all right, are you comfortable with telling the story
• 25:39
  Speaker 5: like what happened?
• 25:40
  Speaker 2: Oh? Yeah?
• 25:40
  Speaker 3: Comfortable? Okay, I forget y'all. I will make sure she's
• 25:44
  Speaker 3: a good person. I love y'all.
• 25:46
  Speaker 5: We'll make sure that one of my god is good. Great,
• 25:48
  Speaker 5: So can we talk about what.
• 25:50
  Speaker 3: Happened with that with.
• 25:53
  Speaker 5: So I live in Montgomery and all of my family
• 25:58
  Speaker 5: lives in Chicago, all of them.
• 26:00
  Speaker 3: I'm the only one.
• 26:01
  Speaker 5: I came to school, played basketball, all that stuff, and
• 26:04
  Speaker 5: I ended up staying here because the Lord told me to, basically.
• 26:07
  Speaker 5: And on November the fourteenth of twenty twenty one, I
• 26:11
  Speaker 5: was returning back to Montgomery.
• 26:12
  Speaker 3: I had just y'all.
• 26:14
  Speaker 5: I had just left a prophetic conference in Florida getting
• 26:19
  Speaker 5: on a flight, and I talked to my sister and
• 26:23
  Speaker 5: she was like just talking to me. We were talking
• 26:25
  Speaker 5: because her, myself and my oldest sister are very close.
• 26:28
  Speaker 5: And the next morning we were on the phone where
• 26:32
  Speaker 5: we were texting, Like she started texting at four o'clock
• 26:34
  Speaker 5: in the morning because she gets up to.
• 26:35
  Speaker 3: Go to work.
• 26:36
  Speaker 5: And she was a armor truck driver, you know, those
• 26:39
  Speaker 5: who pick up money from the bank and ATMs all
• 26:42
  Speaker 5: that stuff, and so at nine thirty two, I know
• 26:47
  Speaker 5: all these times.
• 26:48
  Speaker 3: So I'm gonna be very specific but short.
• 26:51
  Speaker 5: She text in a group chat and sent the picture
• 26:54
  Speaker 5: of her grandbaby, which is my nephew's daughter, and was like,
• 26:58
  Speaker 5: she got his whole face? Can you make a split
• 27:00
  Speaker 5: screen for it? And I was like, of course, I
• 27:01
  Speaker 5: got you. And that was at nine thirty two am.
• 27:04
  Speaker 5: On November fifteenth, at eleven ten, we saw something on
• 27:12
  Speaker 5: Facebook that said an armor truck driver had been pronounced
• 27:18
  Speaker 5: dead at the scene and two other people were injured
• 27:23
  Speaker 5: in critical condition. And we was like, well, that's not heard, like,
• 27:26
  Speaker 5: you know, cause Facebook. Everything's on Facebook, so you can't
• 27:29
  Speaker 5: even get a phone call, which is so crazy to me,
• 27:31
  Speaker 5: but you know, like that city watch page and all
• 27:33
  Speaker 5: that stuff. So on Chicago, they had like a city
• 27:35
  Speaker 5: watch page like almost every city does, and it was
• 27:38
  Speaker 5: on there and they we were putting in a family
• 27:40
  Speaker 5: group chat, and it was like, what did anybody talk
• 27:42
  Speaker 5: to I was like, well, we just got on the
• 27:42
  Speaker 5: phone with her. But that was like at nine o'clock
• 27:45
  Speaker 5: and it was eleven ten, and so as we were
• 27:50
  Speaker 5: calling her phone, it was going straight to voicemail. So
• 27:52
  Speaker 5: now everybody like, wait, why's your phone going straight the voicemail?
• 27:56
  Speaker 5: And so about eleven forty five, my oldest sister received
• 28:00
  Speaker 5: a phone call from her job and saying that there
• 28:04
  Speaker 5: was an incident involved, and so my sister said, is
• 28:08
  Speaker 5: she okay?
• 28:08
  Speaker 3: And they was like, oh, you just need to go
• 28:09
  Speaker 3: to the hospital.
• 28:11
  Speaker 5: And so we immediately when they told me that I knew,
• 28:16
  Speaker 5: and everybody like how I didn't panic or anything, and
• 28:20
  Speaker 5: I did tell people to pray that, you know, in
• 28:22
  Speaker 5: my close circle, because they said that my sister had
• 28:24
  Speaker 5: been shot according to Facebook, but they and then her
• 28:27
  Speaker 5: job said it was an incident. And so back to
• 28:30
  Speaker 5: nine thirty two, that was the last time I text.
• 28:33
  Speaker 5: And then according to her death certificate, the it said
• 28:37
  Speaker 5: that she was pronounced that at ten forty five am,
• 28:40
  Speaker 5: but we didn't find out until it wasn't confirmed until
• 28:43
  Speaker 5: twelve o'clock noon to us. And it also they also
• 28:48
  Speaker 5: said that the incident occurred about ten twenty. So what
• 28:52
  Speaker 5: happened was that, you know, the devil used everybody and
• 28:56
  Speaker 5: anybody who willing, and these young men got up and
• 29:00
  Speaker 5: they ended up going to steal a vehicle from somebody's house,
• 29:04
  Speaker 5: and then they came to the bank where they were
• 29:06
  Speaker 5: changing the atm out what actually, according to some of
• 29:09
  Speaker 5: the footage, they were waiting and so they were waiting
• 29:12
  Speaker 5: to see if the atm was gonna be changing. It
• 29:15
  Speaker 5: was until they came up and they tried to rob them.
• 29:18
  Speaker 5: And the thing is is that they robbed them, but
• 29:20
  Speaker 5: they didn't even get any money. Like you took a
• 29:24
  Speaker 5: whole life and you didn't even get any money. It
• 29:26
  Speaker 5: was four of them.
• 29:27
  Speaker 3: And then later.
• 29:29
  Speaker 5: That day, the same day actually, and this is another thing,
• 29:33
  Speaker 5: like when it happened, my mind didn't even go to
• 29:37
  Speaker 5: like the people who did it.
• 29:38
  Speaker 3: It didn't go there, you know.
• 29:40
  Speaker 5: It was just like I was shocked, but it was
• 29:43
  Speaker 5: like the Holy Spirit told me, like, oh, they're gonna
• 29:46
  Speaker 5: get caught. They got caught, like at one o'clock PM
• 29:49
  Speaker 5: that same day, and without any and you know, so
• 29:53
  Speaker 5: many murders go unsaved, they don't have It was like
• 29:56
  Speaker 5: instant and I'm not saying like the Lord just because
• 30:00
  Speaker 5: the situation was definitely tragic within itself. But they went
• 30:05
  Speaker 5: to the hospital, my whole family, and I'm here like, okay,
• 30:09
  Speaker 5: so they're still sitting in the waiting room and so
• 30:13
  Speaker 5: we and I knew then because they're making us wait.
• 30:15
  Speaker 3: Because they had to.
• 30:16
  Speaker 5: And so my sister and her only son, my nephew
• 30:20
  Speaker 5: had to go on the back to get the news.
• 30:22
  Speaker 5: But I was on the cell phone and well on
• 30:24
  Speaker 5: FaceTime actually, and they did tell us what happened and
• 30:28
  Speaker 5: that she didn't make it, and that she actually was
• 30:31
  Speaker 5: pronounced dead at the scene because she was shot six
• 30:33
  Speaker 5: times and so and my sister was like anybody who
• 30:39
  Speaker 5: knows my sister loved my sister.
• 30:40
  Speaker 3: She was the life of the party always.
• 30:43
  Speaker 5: And what I mean by life of the party, like
• 30:45
  Speaker 5: she's gonna always make you smile. She never hold grudges,
• 30:48
  Speaker 5: you know how, like in families when people get mad
• 30:50
  Speaker 5: at each other and they still be mad. You could
• 30:52
  Speaker 5: say something crazy her and she gonna talk to you
• 30:54
  Speaker 5: in the same day like nothing happened, but not like
• 30:56
  Speaker 5: ignoring it, but like it rolled off her back.
• 30:58
  Speaker 3: Like that was the kind of person she us.
• 31:00
  Speaker 5: And that's like, that's one thing that I really missed
• 31:03
  Speaker 5: because she always kind of kept our family like laughing
• 31:07
  Speaker 5: and stuff.
• 31:07
  Speaker 3: And I'm not I don't do that, y'all. I don't
• 31:10
  Speaker 3: do that.
• 31:11
  Speaker 5: I sometimes got to go and hide in a little
• 31:15
  Speaker 5: bit because spirit be a little too open.
• 31:17
  Speaker 3: Sometimes, but you know, but that's it.
• 31:20
  Speaker 5: And when that happened, it was very traumatic because I
• 31:23
  Speaker 5: was actually actually at work that day and I ended
• 31:27
  Speaker 5: up going to I had a pass off campus, so
• 31:29
  Speaker 5: I ended up going to Chipotle and Provao to actually
• 31:34
  Speaker 5: eat and then that's when I got the phone call.
• 31:36
  Speaker 5: So immediately the next day I'm packing, and I remember
• 31:41
  Speaker 5: Danielle and Shavin came over to help me pack.
• 31:43
  Speaker 3: Brie came. She actually spent the night with me. I
• 31:45
  Speaker 3: love you uncle.
• 31:46
  Speaker 5: No, she's listening telling different because it's not many people
• 31:52
  Speaker 5: that have seen me go from g WO two one.
• 31:54
  Speaker 3: Hundred and now she wanted. She stayed with me in
• 31:58
  Speaker 3: some spaces to shout out major.
• 32:02
  Speaker 5: So she was there, and I packed my clothes and
• 32:05
  Speaker 5: I headed to Chicago.
• 32:07
  Speaker 3: And I was in Chicago for.
• 32:08
  Speaker 5: Forty five days because it was so much, Like even
• 32:12
  Speaker 5: when I got there, the FBI, everybody was. It was
• 32:15
  Speaker 5: just so much and it was a lot that I
• 32:18
  Speaker 5: had to do. Because my sister shout out to my
• 32:21
  Speaker 5: sister's gonna watch this two of tricks, I love you
• 32:23
  Speaker 5: so much.
• 32:23
  Speaker 3: She just couldn't, you know, like some people just can't
• 32:27
  Speaker 3: work certain things.
• 32:28
  Speaker 5: But like even when she talked to me about it,
• 32:30
  Speaker 5: I explained to her that you had it heard because
• 32:34
  Speaker 5: you initially got the first call, right, you know, and
• 32:37
  Speaker 5: you had to go and identify her and you couldn't
• 32:40
  Speaker 5: touch her because and she was like the FBI agent
• 32:43
  Speaker 5: and the detective was standing there and like she reached
• 32:46
  Speaker 5: to touch my sister, like you can't touch her because
• 32:48
  Speaker 5: you couldn't because it was like evidence, you know, or whatever.
• 32:51
  Speaker 5: So I knew that was very hard for her. And
• 32:54
  Speaker 5: then when I got there, I had to go identify
• 32:57
  Speaker 5: her the more so that was very hard too. But
• 33:01
  Speaker 5: what I want to say, even in all of that,
• 33:04
  Speaker 5: what kept me was the fact that I had people
• 33:08
  Speaker 5: around me that was praying. Like even if I felt
• 33:10
  Speaker 5: like I couldn't pray, there were people around me that prayed,
• 33:15
  Speaker 5: that checked on me every day every hour like how.
• 33:19
  Speaker 3: Was things going, how are things going? Do you need anything?
• 33:22
  Speaker 3: Kind of thing? And I hate when people say do
• 33:24
  Speaker 3: you need anything, because it's like, I don't know what
• 33:26
  Speaker 3: I need right now?
• 33:27
  Speaker 5: Yeah, what do you think people should say in those moments?
• 33:31
  Speaker 3: Because I know.
• 33:31
  Speaker 5: It's awful for the other person. Yes, it's like I
• 33:34
  Speaker 5: don't know what to say. Say let me know, if
• 33:38
  Speaker 5: I can't even think for myself, I can't, you know,
• 33:41
  Speaker 5: I would really just say, and I know everybody does
• 33:44
  Speaker 5: not understand this, but do whatever God tells you to do.
• 33:47
  Speaker 5: You know, in that moment, if he's saying pray for them,
• 33:52
  Speaker 5: do that, or if he's saying call and pray with them,
• 33:54
  Speaker 5: or send them a cash shap whatever, because the truth
• 33:57
  Speaker 5: of the map, my cat, y'all. I'm telling you, people
• 33:59
  Speaker 5: are nice and don't have to be and this is
• 34:02
  Speaker 5: not important, but it means a lot. Because my cashop
• 34:06
  Speaker 5: was thinking and it was like, because we had to
• 34:08
  Speaker 5: do so much. We had to go to the FBI
• 34:11
  Speaker 5: agent office, we had to go to the like, we
• 34:13
  Speaker 5: had to do a lot of running around every day
• 34:15
  Speaker 5: for like ten days. And back then gas was like
• 34:19
  Speaker 5: nine hundred and seventy thousand dollars, you know. So I
• 34:23
  Speaker 5: mean that worked and I was not at work for
• 34:25
  Speaker 5: forty five days and it didn't matter to me.
• 34:28
  Speaker 3: And I loved, y'all.
• 34:30
  Speaker 5: I'll tell a story second, but I loved the fact
• 34:34
  Speaker 5: that even in the midst of that, like people made
• 34:37
  Speaker 5: sure like they knew I wasn't at work, and I
• 34:40
  Speaker 5: mean I had days and stuff, but still I wasn't
• 34:43
  Speaker 5: there and I still had bills back in Montgomery.
• 34:47
  Speaker 3: So it was a lot.
• 34:48
  Speaker 5: But as I was saying, it was because people really
• 34:52
  Speaker 5: prayed for me, Like I'm talking about groups of people
• 34:55
  Speaker 5: at a time, and it was never a moment that
• 34:58
  Speaker 5: I didn't feel uncovered. It was never a moment I
• 35:00
  Speaker 5: was mad, angry, upset, all those different emotions, but I
• 35:03
  Speaker 5: knew I had people, and a lot of times.
• 35:07
  Speaker 3: People say, well, how do you know God is there
• 35:10
  Speaker 3: or whatever? He uses people. That's so good.
• 35:14
  Speaker 5: He uses people because like my grandma always said, people
• 35:18
  Speaker 5: don't have to be nice. Yeah, and he used like
• 35:21
  Speaker 5: so many people to help me through that. And although
• 35:24
  Speaker 5: I probably never, like you said you were asking about
• 35:27
  Speaker 5: me through breed or praying for me. You may have
• 35:29
  Speaker 5: never said anything to me or called me, but I
• 35:33
  Speaker 5: felt that, and that's what people need. A lot of
• 35:35
  Speaker 5: times you may not be able to get to that
• 35:38
  Speaker 5: person or may not have that relationship with them, but
• 35:40
  Speaker 5: your prayers, if they're sincere and not just no praying
• 35:42
  Speaker 5: hands like I'm praying for you, and that was the
• 35:44
  Speaker 5: prayer kind of thing, Not that come on, but if
• 35:48
  Speaker 5: you sincerely praying for people like you a feeling, and
• 35:51
  Speaker 5: that's what I felt. I felt the prayers of people
• 35:54
  Speaker 5: in Montgomery, in college, everywhere did I knew people. I
• 35:57
  Speaker 5: felt that prayer and that really help me through that
• 36:01
  Speaker 5: and still helping me. Yeah, I was about to say,
• 36:04
  Speaker 5: I can only imagine that it is a day by
• 36:06
  Speaker 5: day thing for you, because if you're if your is
• 36:08
  Speaker 5: your relationship sound like the relationship I got with Kindle.
• 36:11
  Speaker 3: Yes, definitely. My sisters are my best friends. I got
• 36:14
  Speaker 3: a tea tak that says, my sister is my best friend.
• 36:18
  Speaker 5: I don't know what I would do without her. Yes,
• 36:20
  Speaker 5: And I mean that statement to my core. And so
• 36:23
  Speaker 5: when I saw it, and I was like, how do
• 36:27
  Speaker 5: you how do you navigate mentally through that?
• 36:30
  Speaker 3: And then you come back? You? You know what I'm saying?
• 36:34
  Speaker 5: How much faith does it take to come back from that? Like,
• 36:39
  Speaker 5: you know, you just said that your family is in Chicago.
• 36:45
  Speaker 5: I can only imagine just knowing how to devil work? Right, Oh,
• 36:49
  Speaker 5: you're gonna leave and you just lost a sister.
• 36:52
  Speaker 3: What if you lose another one?
• 36:54
  Speaker 5: What if you you know what happened, what happened. You
• 36:57
  Speaker 5: got to take care of your nieces, so you're just
• 36:58
  Speaker 5: gonna abandon them? Like, so, who are you? You're not
• 37:02
  Speaker 5: You're not a prophet, you're not an elder, you're not
• 37:03
  Speaker 5: a ministry.
• 37:04
  Speaker 3: You don't really love God. Because you love God, you
• 37:06
  Speaker 3: will stay with your family? Does it sound like him?
• 37:09
  Speaker 2: Or oh you're.
• 37:12
  Speaker 5: So, how did you next for somebody that may have
• 37:14
  Speaker 5: lost somebody just as close as you were, Because that's
• 37:16
  Speaker 5: what grief is a real thing, and grief I haven't
• 37:19
  Speaker 5: had to navigate that level of grief yet. I haven't
• 37:23
  Speaker 5: had to navigate that level grief. Please teach us how
• 37:26
  Speaker 5: to navigate. Teach us that level of grief, because you
• 37:30
  Speaker 5: are looking I'm looking at you, and I'm like, bro, yes,
• 37:33
  Speaker 5: four years, I don't care. I don't care if it
• 37:35
  Speaker 5: was fourteen. It still means my memo and it's been
• 37:39
  Speaker 5: years years.
• 37:41
  Speaker 3: How do you navigate?
• 37:42
  Speaker 5: Well, I want to say, you said, like you had
• 37:45
  Speaker 5: this podcast or you had a title that said your
• 37:47
  Speaker 5: sister is your best friend. You don't know what you
• 37:49
  Speaker 5: do without her. When I was in college, a lot
• 37:52
  Speaker 5: of people did not like this saying because I used
• 37:54
  Speaker 5: to be like, I don't need no friends. My mama
• 37:56
  Speaker 5: have six she has six children. I have five friends
• 37:59
  Speaker 5: and twos. My three brothers are my friends, and my
• 38:02
  Speaker 5: two sisters are my best friends. So if I have them, that's.
• 38:05
  Speaker 3: All I did. You know what I'm saying, I don't.
• 38:09
  Speaker 5: It's whatever because I always knew my sisters have my
• 38:11
  Speaker 5: back like it's never it was never been. And I'm
• 38:14
  Speaker 5: the baby too, so you know, shout out to all
• 38:16
  Speaker 5: the babies out there. So but how I navigated through
• 38:20
  Speaker 5: that was, to be honest, it was because of my
• 38:25
  Speaker 5: relationship with God. And people think that people say that,
• 38:29
  Speaker 5: and you know, like growing up, I would see my
• 38:32
  Speaker 5: grandma praying or I would see different situations and how
• 38:34
  Speaker 5: she wasn't.
• 38:35
  Speaker 3: Moved by it.
• 38:36
  Speaker 5: But it was because I literally had and I'm not
• 38:40
  Speaker 5: boasting or anything, but I had so much word in
• 38:42
  Speaker 5: me prior to this situation. That's so that's why it
• 38:45
  Speaker 5: didn't take me out, because I had so much word
• 38:49
  Speaker 5: in me prior to this. Now for someone else it
• 38:53
  Speaker 5: might have been a different situation. But for and even
• 38:57
  Speaker 5: I could see the effects of some of my family members,
• 39:00
  Speaker 5: you know, but because I had so much word and
• 39:03
  Speaker 5: my relationship with God, it was like I literally felt
• 39:07
  Speaker 5: his strength through all of it. And yes, the enemy
• 39:10
  Speaker 5: was talking a lot like okay, well what's next. You know,
• 39:15
  Speaker 5: it didn't really hit me until I was about to
• 39:19
  Speaker 5: come back to Montgomery. And when I came back to Montgomery,
• 39:25
  Speaker 5: I said, Okay, God, I got it. I'm I'm like
• 39:29
  Speaker 5: one of those like as they went they got healed.
• 39:33
  Speaker 5: I'm one of those many Okay, I'm one of those
• 39:38
  Speaker 5: like I can't see it because I know like what
• 39:41
  Speaker 5: you said the enemy of Just keep talking, keep talking,
• 39:43
  Speaker 5: and I may fall into it, like you're right. But
• 39:47
  Speaker 5: at first when I came back home, like my sister
• 39:51
  Speaker 5: like she was way more paranoid than I was.
• 39:52
  Speaker 3: And I call it paranoid. It was whole demon if
• 39:54
  Speaker 3: you asked me.
• 39:54
  Speaker 5: But you know, I had to pray for her and
• 39:57
  Speaker 5: myself because every constantly it was like take your location,
• 40:00
  Speaker 5: where she is, where she doing?
• 40:01
  Speaker 3: What she like that?
• 40:03
  Speaker 5: And I had to really pray about that because I
• 40:06
  Speaker 5: even people who were close to me that lived in Montgomery,
• 40:09
  Speaker 5: like if they answer the phone, I'm like, so you're
• 40:12
  Speaker 5: not gonna text back and say you're gonna call back
• 40:14
  Speaker 5: or something like. That's how And it was kind of
• 40:16
  Speaker 5: scary a little bit, but it was understandable because if
• 40:19
  Speaker 5: you think about I just text my sister last text
• 40:22
  Speaker 5: mess at nine thirty two and less than an hour later,
• 40:26
  Speaker 5: this is happening.
• 40:27
  Speaker 3: And that's why I don't understand.
• 40:29
  Speaker 5: How people could just not talk to their family members
• 40:34
  Speaker 5: or they hold grudges with people because you do not
• 40:37
  Speaker 5: know what will happen the very next sec come on,
• 40:41
  Speaker 5: but you can but you know, people always talk about
• 40:43
  Speaker 5: I gotta maintain my peace. Oh my God, please please
• 40:46
  Speaker 5: spare me with it. Like I understand it. Come on,
• 40:49
  Speaker 5: but some especially us, let's say we love the Lord.
• 40:54
  Speaker 5: That's what I expect that from somebody else. But not
• 40:57
  Speaker 5: the ones who say that love the Lord. Not the
• 40:59
  Speaker 5: ones who appreciate the gospel and all that you talking about.
• 41:01
  Speaker 5: Some well, I don't. I gotta protect my peace. Yeah,
• 41:05
  Speaker 5: the Lord will keep you in perfect peace if you
• 41:07
  Speaker 5: keep your mind stayed on him. So even if you
• 41:10
  Speaker 5: and I'm not saying that people use I'm not saying
• 41:12
  Speaker 5: that at all, but I'm saying, don't hold those grudges
• 41:15
  Speaker 5: because what if something does happen in the next second,
• 41:19
  Speaker 5: how are you going to deal with that.
• 41:22
  Speaker 3: I'm one I get up thrown. I tell people over
• 41:24
  Speaker 3: and over I love it.
• 41:25
  Speaker 5: Like my mentor. I know she hates it because I
• 41:28
  Speaker 5: talked to her. I was like, some something we could
• 41:30
  Speaker 5: just I be like, love you. She'd be like, oh
• 41:31
  Speaker 5: my god, you know I love you? Okay, And I'm like,
• 41:34
  Speaker 5: I know, but my sister, I said all the time,
• 41:36
  Speaker 5: my aunties everybody because I don't know. Yeah, and I
• 41:41
  Speaker 5: know that for some people it may seem over the top,
• 41:45
  Speaker 5: but that's what I have to do for myself and
• 41:47
  Speaker 5: for you to know, because I don't know what happened
• 41:49
  Speaker 5: in the next second one with me.
• 41:51
  Speaker 3: But you know my prayer has been Lord, just.
• 41:52
  Speaker 5: I want to be caught up in a rapture because
• 41:54
  Speaker 5: I ain't got time for just let us all be
• 41:56
  Speaker 5: caught up.
• 41:56
  Speaker 3: Yeah no, you didn't say it.
• 41:57
  Speaker 5: Something real talk, because there's something that me and my
• 42:00
  Speaker 5: aunt talk about all the time, shout out to antipam
• 42:03
  Speaker 5: A Brown, like you know, protecting your peace or whatever,
• 42:08
  Speaker 5: but also like the family dynamic. And I'm gonna share that.
• 42:10
  Speaker 5: I'm gonna show this. I don't think I've ever shared
• 42:12
  Speaker 5: this on the platform. We laugh about it now, but
• 42:15
  Speaker 5: my god, there would be no just as if Pamela
• 42:18
  Speaker 5: Bear Johnson was not around.
• 42:20
  Speaker 3: I'm gonna just tell you it. So my aunt is
• 42:22
  Speaker 3: a marketer.
• 42:24
  Speaker 5: She has been in communications for over twenty five years.
• 42:28
  Speaker 5: Like she is the goat. Okay, she's bad, you hear mean,
• 42:31
  Speaker 5: but her she's different. She's different. She's the one that
• 42:39
  Speaker 5: just studied her way through trauma, like she read books
• 42:42
  Speaker 5: through trauma. She that's how she got. That was her
• 42:44
  Speaker 5: safe space. So being her smarts was her safe space.
• 42:47
  Speaker 5: And so there was a point in time where there
• 42:51
  Speaker 5: was a there was challenges in the family dynamic because
• 42:56
  Speaker 5: there was a decision that needed to be made regarding
• 42:58
  Speaker 5: my grandfather, right, and so me being you know, new
• 43:04
  Speaker 5: to adulthood and being grown and making decisions.
• 43:07
  Speaker 3: Right, if we call a spade a spade, I didn't.
• 43:10
  Speaker 5: I probably didn't manage the the my portion in the
• 43:14
  Speaker 5: scenario as well right as well as I possibly could.
• 43:19
  Speaker 5: Not giving me out, but just being realistic. And so
• 43:23
  Speaker 5: we didn't talk for a while. Like she went, she
• 43:25
  Speaker 5: cut everybody off. She she has slot just cut everybody off,
• 43:31
  Speaker 5: And I was like what And I felt guilty, but
• 43:35
  Speaker 5: I felt frustrated because at that point in time I
• 43:38
  Speaker 5: had naturally devoted well, no, I had didn't even have
• 43:40
  Speaker 5: I had initially voted the blog, but there was things
• 43:46
  Speaker 5: in me I felt. I didn't know my spirit was
• 43:48
  Speaker 5: needing her. But I was just like, Okay, I just
• 43:50
  Speaker 5: don't like the beef, right, I just don't like this,
• 43:53
  Speaker 5: and you just cut me off.
• 43:54
  Speaker 3: And I'm here closer to you, You're the closest family.
• 43:57
  Speaker 5: But I have like indistance because that point I was
• 44:00
  Speaker 5: in Pensacola, so fast forward.
• 44:04
  Speaker 3: And this had to be holy spirit.
• 44:06
  Speaker 5: Like you know, I just had got so frustrated with
• 44:09
  Speaker 5: the situation that I drove at that point two and
• 44:13
  Speaker 5: a half hours from Pensacola to Gulf Court on a
• 44:20
  Speaker 5: prayer that she would answer the door for me and
• 44:23
  Speaker 5: not cuss me out of call the police.
• 44:25
  Speaker 3: Like that, Like I drove Have you heard this story
• 44:29
  Speaker 3: this way? Okay?
• 44:30
  Speaker 5: I drove down there and I said, all right, Kendall
• 44:35
  Speaker 5: was like, you're crazy and is my pull up game strong?
• 44:41
  Speaker 5: So for two and a half hours to face possible
• 44:44
  Speaker 5: rejection was real, but I felt like it was worth
• 44:46
  Speaker 5: it because I didn't want to be in this place
• 44:48
  Speaker 5: where and so I just prayed and I was like, God,
• 44:52
  Speaker 5: please let me handle whatever response go to be right.
• 44:54
  Speaker 5: So I knocked on the door and she ain't realized
• 44:56
  Speaker 5: who it was. I ain't even ask to come in,
• 44:59
  Speaker 5: and I just walked in, just walk child walked in
• 45:08
  Speaker 5: and we had a heart to heart and it was beautiful.
• 45:14
  Speaker 3: But watch this, in.
• 45:15
  Speaker 5: That same space, this is why I say, just As
• 45:17
  Speaker 5: will not be here without Auntie Pam, Because we sat
• 45:23
  Speaker 5: there in that same conversation we got over it right,
• 45:26
  Speaker 5: We had a heart heart for it, and she started
• 45:28
  Speaker 5: speaking into my life Wow. She starts speaking into my
• 45:31
  Speaker 5: life and telling me that I'm limiting myself with just
• 45:34
  Speaker 5: writing a blog. Then tells me we created a whole
• 45:38
  Speaker 5: magazine in her in her living room. We create a
• 45:42
  Speaker 5: whole idea about a magazine. And as she's talking to me,
• 45:46
  Speaker 5: my create there's something that's going on. See, sometimes we
• 45:50
  Speaker 5: discredit our bloodline so much, but.
• 45:52
  Speaker 3: What we need is actually in the bloodline.
• 45:56
  Speaker 5: But because you made and you want to keep pride,
• 45:59
  Speaker 5: I thought, I went again, No where pride in intact
• 46:06
  Speaker 5: with your bloodline. I'm about to speaking tom So I
• 46:08
  Speaker 5: noticed this is all the time you are hindering your
• 46:13
  Speaker 5: part in the kingdom. You're asilent because the person you
• 46:16
  Speaker 5: really mad at really got what you need to.
• 46:19
  Speaker 3: Advance the kingdom of God, Mighty God.
• 46:23
  Speaker 5: So I said that long story to let y'all know
• 46:27
  Speaker 5: that what you're really mad about ain't really it's at
• 46:32
  Speaker 5: tactic of the enemy. The enemy is using what you
• 46:35
  Speaker 5: planted to go against what God really wants to wants
• 46:40
  Speaker 5: to go for.
• 46:40
  Speaker 2: That's true.
• 46:41
  Speaker 3: Even when you were talking, I heard that, and I
• 46:43
  Speaker 3: heard that.
• 46:45
  Speaker 5: Just imagine if you would allow pride to overtake you
• 46:49
  Speaker 5: at that moment you wouldn't have had just acts that
• 46:52
  Speaker 5: none of it and like you just and it was
• 46:54
  Speaker 5: like as you were talking.
• 46:55
  Speaker 3: I'm like, dang, that's just what I was hearing. Okay,
• 46:57
  Speaker 3: you we hear a lord a little bit.
• 46:59
  Speaker 5: Yeah, no, But honestly, like so many times we allow
• 47:05
  Speaker 5: pride to stop us from getting to a place, and
• 47:09
  Speaker 5: like you said, it's in somebody, like they're here to
• 47:12
  Speaker 5: unlock our purpose. And it's so many times just not
• 47:15
  Speaker 5: family member, just not family members, but anybody you allow
• 47:20
  Speaker 5: that to come, and pride is just it's so wicked
• 47:24
  Speaker 5: because it makes you feel like you don't need nobody
• 47:26
  Speaker 5: or they did this to me. So I'm just and
• 47:28
  Speaker 5: then you know, like I said about that protecting my peace,
• 47:31
  Speaker 5: I feel like a lot of times we twisted so much,
• 47:35
  Speaker 5: like I want to do whatever I have to do
• 47:37
  Speaker 5: to protect my peace. And when people start saying that literally,
• 47:40
  Speaker 5: I was just like what the Bible says, God would
• 47:43
  Speaker 5: keep you in perfect peace if you keep your mind
• 47:45
  Speaker 5: stayed on Him, so I don't have to think about
• 47:49
  Speaker 5: what you've done to me, because if I keep my
• 47:51
  Speaker 5: mind on Jesus, then I'm gonna be in perfect peace
• 47:54
  Speaker 5: regardless of what has happened. And I have a situation
• 47:58
  Speaker 5: even now with a family member that don't talk to
• 48:01
  Speaker 5: myself and my sister, and you know, the Lord is
• 48:03
  Speaker 5: still working on me. Hallelujah that if you don't like
• 48:06
  Speaker 5: my sister, you don't like me. But okay, put the
• 48:09
  Speaker 5: camera on me, okay, because I don't like killdle Kirsten,
• 48:14
  Speaker 5: don't like I love the Lord, I do, but don't
• 48:19
  Speaker 5: think I'm.
• 48:20
  Speaker 2: Soft never period.
• 48:21
  Speaker 3: Okay, you can go.
• 48:27
  Speaker 5: You you you know, let me let you know this
• 48:30
  Speaker 5: for real, I don't play about mine, not mine.
• 48:33
  Speaker 3: I will pray for you. I will pray for you.
• 48:36
  Speaker 3: I'm done.
• 48:40
  Speaker 5: Because guess what, Jesus don't play about me, So what
• 48:44
  Speaker 5: do you expect? But you know, really, for real, we're
• 48:48
  Speaker 5: in a situation now and she doesn't speak to us,
• 48:51
  Speaker 5: which is fine, but I still text on her birthday.
• 48:55
  Speaker 5: I still text her children. And you know, some people like,
• 48:58
  Speaker 5: you're crazy, why would you do that? And I was like,
• 49:01
  Speaker 5: because I'm at peace, that's why. Because you say you're
• 49:06
  Speaker 5: at peace, but you're really not. Because if you were
• 49:09
  Speaker 5: at peace, you would talk to it was, whatever the
• 49:12
  Speaker 5: situation was. Because so many grown people say, you know,
• 49:14
  Speaker 5: if I got a problem. I'm gonna come tell you
• 49:16
  Speaker 5: and guess what they don't do.
• 49:17
  Speaker 3: We don't do it. We don't do it.
• 49:21
  Speaker 5: And I'm saying we because I've done it maamely and
• 49:24
  Speaker 5: I would say this, it's mainly with people that I
• 49:28
  Speaker 5: know I gotta come back to.
• 49:30
  Speaker 3: Yes, it's mainly people.
• 49:32
  Speaker 5: If we're gonna call a spade a spade, okay, doctor
• 49:35
  Speaker 5: deoncle okay, if a spade is a spade, okay. Jessica
• 49:44
  Speaker 5: find issues with addressing people that she really love and
• 49:48
  Speaker 5: she know they got to stay in their life because
• 49:50
  Speaker 5: in my mind, if we're gonna call a spade a spade,
• 49:53
  Speaker 5: you get to remember something bad about me, You get
• 49:57
  Speaker 5: to remember the emotion.
• 49:59
  Speaker 3: You get to experience, you get to choose you know
• 50:01
  Speaker 3: what I'm saying.
• 50:02
  Speaker 5: Grudges And if God has really ordained you in my life,
• 50:05
  Speaker 5: then I am afraid to.
• 50:11
  Speaker 3: Mess that up.
• 50:12
  Speaker 5: But then me doing me holding this grudge or not
• 50:15
  Speaker 5: even saying grudge, but this opportunity in the relationship, it
• 50:20
  Speaker 5: kills me on the inside.
• 50:21
  Speaker 3: Right, So I'm saying, Oh, I'm good, I'm good, I'm good,
• 50:24
  Speaker 3: I'm good, I'm good.
• 50:25
  Speaker 2: I'm not good.
• 50:26
  Speaker 5: Yeah, And it's because really another part what you're saying
• 50:29
  Speaker 5: is a lot of times we don't want to have
• 50:31
  Speaker 5: that conversation with people that we love so much because
• 50:35
  Speaker 5: we don't want to be rejected.
• 50:37
  Speaker 3: Girl, you're talking, she's walking heavy.
• 50:39
  Speaker 5: We don't want to be rejected by them because we
• 50:42
  Speaker 5: adore them or love them at this level. We don't
• 50:45
  Speaker 5: want to be rejected by them because we think, like
• 50:48
  Speaker 5: if I say this, it's gonna push them away. If
• 50:50
  Speaker 5: I say it like this, they gonna think I mean
• 50:52
  Speaker 5: and they're not gonna really hear my heart. But in
• 50:55
  Speaker 5: my opinion and in my experience is that if they
• 51:00
  Speaker 5: love you like they say they do, then guess what.
• 51:03
  Speaker 5: They're gonna receive what you said. And if they don't
• 51:08
  Speaker 5: receive what you said, then that man state didn't love
• 51:12
  Speaker 5: you like they say they did or they say they do.
• 51:15
  Speaker 5: And that's hard for some people. But a lot of
• 51:18
  Speaker 5: times God will open doors for you to really realize
• 51:22
  Speaker 5: how people are to help you grow, not go because
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  Speaker 5: people are like I'm gonna leave. No, He wants you
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  Speaker 5: to grow in this because there's a lesson in everything,
• 51:33
  Speaker 5: in relationships and trauma and whatever it is to get
• 51:38
  Speaker 5: you to your purpose, to get you to fully walk
• 51:40
  Speaker 5: into what God is calling you to do, because even
• 51:44
  Speaker 5: like in the beginning, you.
• 51:45
  Speaker 3: Were like powerful and I'm like, okay, but.
• 51:48
  Speaker 5: When you talked about me, and it's just like even
• 51:51
  Speaker 5: when I think about how I'm still growing in so
• 51:55
  Speaker 5: many things. It's so many things that the Lord has
• 51:57
  Speaker 5: been revealing to me about myself that I wasn't that
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  Speaker 5: I thought I knew.
• 52:02
  Speaker 3: Girl, I'm about to throw this mic at you, and I.
• 52:04
  Speaker 5: Thought I knew, and I didn't. You know, even with
• 52:07
  Speaker 5: my thinking, I had to The Lord literally had to
• 52:10
  Speaker 5: put me in positions where I had to shift in
• 52:15
  Speaker 5: my thinking. And that was hard because of the level
• 52:18
  Speaker 5: of rejection that I've experienced even from birth. My mom
• 52:22
  Speaker 5: didn't raise me, my grandma did. The anger that I
• 52:26
  Speaker 5: felt when my sister passed away, and then just two
• 52:31
  Speaker 5: years ago, my brother passed away.
• 52:33
  Speaker 3: You know that, y'all.
• 52:34
  Speaker 5: The day before my sister, like my sister death anniversary
• 52:37
  Speaker 5: and I didn't even want to say death anniversary with
• 52:39
  Speaker 5: the day she transitioned was November fifteen, twenty twenty one.
• 52:43
  Speaker 5: My brother transitioned November fourteenth, twenty three.
• 52:49
  Speaker 3: Okay, and y'all guess what I have to do? His eulogy.
• 52:53
  Speaker 5: No crazy, right, Yeah, definitely. And it's been a it's
• 52:59
  Speaker 5: been a lot. But one thing I can say, and
• 53:03
  Speaker 5: you know, the old folks will say, if it had
• 53:06
  Speaker 5: not been for the Lord on my side, and that
• 53:10
  Speaker 5: would be and that's really the truth, because a lot
• 53:14
  Speaker 5: of us don't know the Lord is on your side
• 53:16
  Speaker 5: and you don't.
• 53:17
  Speaker 3: Believe that, Dionca.
• 53:18
  Speaker 5: You can not move beyond that, because if we really
• 53:24
  Speaker 5: keep it one hundred, if we really keep it one
• 53:28
  Speaker 5: zero zero with the percent sign at the end, we
• 53:32
  Speaker 5: would tell the truth about we really don't believe that
• 53:36
  Speaker 5: the Lord.
• 53:37
  Speaker 3: Was on our side.
• 53:37
  Speaker 5: Because we really understood that the Lord was on our side,
• 53:40
  Speaker 5: we will act and respond like the Lord was on
• 53:43
  Speaker 5: our side every time, every time. Not Sometimes it's like,
• 53:48
  Speaker 5: and I ain't gonna lie be the first one to
• 53:50
  Speaker 5: tell you. I've had moments. It's certain areas of my life.
• 53:53
  Speaker 5: It's like, God, you know my side on this? It
• 53:55
  Speaker 5: ain't no way you on my side on this?
• 53:58
  Speaker 2: No way.
• 53:59
  Speaker 5: I'm feeling like I'm dying. I'm feeling like I'm dying.
• 54:02
  Speaker 5: How are you on my side? I don't act like
• 54:06
  Speaker 5: the Lord is on my side in every in every way,
• 54:09
  Speaker 5: but it goes back to even what you said earlier,
• 54:11
  Speaker 5: like ooh girl, I feel coming.
• 54:13
  Speaker 3: It goes back to what you say, she's going right, Okay, listen,
• 54:22
  Speaker 3: I heard the Lord.
• 54:22
  Speaker 5: I got to use the floor to you, you bubbling hand,
• 54:24
  Speaker 5: go ahead and say.
• 54:26
  Speaker 3: I promise, I promise, go ahead.
• 54:28
  Speaker 5: It's it's when we really fully understanding we live a
• 54:33
  Speaker 5: life of submission, right, we understand that it's challenging because
• 54:37
  Speaker 5: it's not our spirit that's being challenged. Our spirit is growing,
• 54:41
  Speaker 5: our flesh is rebelling. And when you got that's why
• 54:44
  Speaker 5: we call it a fight. It's a fight. And we
• 54:47
  Speaker 5: we're not just fighting each other. We're already fighting ourselves.
• 54:51
  Speaker 5: So you're adding more frustration. And so when we say
• 54:54
  Speaker 5: God like acting like God, that we know that God
• 54:57
  Speaker 5: is on our side, it's saying and you know, walking
• 55:00
  Speaker 5: in that level of peace that you were referring to earlier,
• 55:04
  Speaker 5: it really is. And even as we were sitting here
• 55:08
  Speaker 5: and I said, like, some people don't even know that
• 55:11
  Speaker 5: God is on this side, and you, I can't even
• 55:12
  Speaker 5: remember what you just said, but I just heard this
• 55:15
  Speaker 5: that we don't really take the word at face value
• 55:21
  Speaker 5: because the Bible declares it says and we know that
• 55:26
  Speaker 5: all things worked together. And this week, the Lord had
• 55:31
  Speaker 5: gave me a word and I was sharing it, and
• 55:36
  Speaker 5: the Lord said, if you think about all the things
• 55:40
  Speaker 5: that I've done for you before I did it, there
• 55:44
  Speaker 5: were obstacles, and there were situations that you thought, oh,
• 55:49
  Speaker 5: I wasn't gonna do this because it was so much
• 55:52
  Speaker 5: happening prior to it. It was so many things that
• 55:55
  Speaker 5: was frustrating, was causing you to be distracted, procrass. All
• 56:00
  Speaker 5: those things happened prior to him opening that door for you.
• 56:04
  Speaker 5: And the Lord said, how is it that you don't
• 56:06
  Speaker 5: believe that I'm gonna do it? Because I've done it
• 56:08
  Speaker 5: so many times in so many different areas, and so
• 56:13
  Speaker 5: like in my mind, there's nothing that God can't do.
• 56:18
  Speaker 3: And the reason why I say that is because I
• 56:22
  Speaker 3: didn't lose my mind.
• 56:23
  Speaker 5: Like people say that a lot of times, but they'd
• 56:25
  Speaker 5: be like, I didn't lose my mind do in this situation,
• 56:28
  Speaker 5: and people take it for granted like they, oh, that
• 56:30
  Speaker 5: was nothing. No, I literally didn't lose my mind. And
• 56:33
  Speaker 5: I didn't even tell the story that a month and
• 56:35
  Speaker 5: a day, December sixteenth, I was still in Chicago after
• 56:39
  Speaker 5: my sister passed away. Her son was shot twelve times,
• 56:45
  Speaker 5: and it was the city of Chicago. Y'all. It's just
• 56:48
  Speaker 5: crazy and he's not even that type of guy that
• 56:51
  Speaker 5: you know whatever.
• 56:53
  Speaker 3: He was shot twelve times.
• 56:54
  Speaker 5: And we got the phone call and I was actually
• 56:58
  Speaker 5: an old Navy buying him his daughter some clothes for Christmas, and.
• 57:03
  Speaker 3: The same son that she was saying, Hey, I need
• 57:05
  Speaker 3: you to do a picture.
• 57:06
  Speaker 5: Yes, yes, I promise, y'all, and I said I was
• 57:11
  Speaker 5: in there and somebody was calling me on Facebook messenger.
• 57:13
  Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't even know these people. I'm not answering.
• 57:15
  Speaker 5: But it was his neighbor because he knew who I was.
• 57:19
  Speaker 5: But he found me on a messenger and he was
• 57:21
  Speaker 5: calling and he was like, your nephew has been shot.
• 57:24
  Speaker 5: And I was like what. So I'm trying to call
• 57:26
  Speaker 5: the people that I know they be around him. Nobody's answering,
• 57:29
  Speaker 5: and then the person picked up and was like, yeah,
• 57:31
  Speaker 5: he has been shot. We don't know how many times.
• 57:33
  Speaker 5: And I'm like okay. So I called my sister and
• 57:36
  Speaker 5: she's like I'll call you back. I'm like, here we go,
• 57:39
  Speaker 5: and the Lord told me, he said, it's not a
• 57:41
  Speaker 5: here we go because I'm not gonna let it happen again.
• 57:45
  Speaker 3: He said, not another one will be lost. I said, okay.
• 57:50
  Speaker 3: So I stood on that and I was fine.
• 57:51
  Speaker 5: And I didn't think in that moment that my nephew
• 57:55
  Speaker 5: was gone or anything like that, because I trusted what
• 57:57
  Speaker 5: God had said in that moment. But then he was
• 58:01
  Speaker 5: in surgery from one pm until nine pm because it
• 58:08
  Speaker 5: was his leg. He had like rides in it, they
• 58:10
  Speaker 5: all the otteries in there was so they had to
• 58:12
  Speaker 5: do a lot of excuse me, a lot of surgery
• 58:17
  Speaker 5: to fix it. And it was like invasive, like a
• 58:19
  Speaker 5: whole lot. And it was just like, Okay, I definitely
• 58:25
  Speaker 5: should be crazy because my sister she no shade to her,
• 58:28
  Speaker 5: but she's not the one like she's like, I can't.
• 58:30
  Speaker 3: So every day for.
• 58:34
  Speaker 5: Sixteen days, I went to the hospital sitting there with him,
• 58:37
  Speaker 5: you know, walking in every day like, oh my god,
• 58:39
  Speaker 5: where's my sister?
• 58:40
  Speaker 3: Where's his mother? Like why?
• 58:44
  Speaker 5: And I remember, and I shared this with a couple
• 58:46
  Speaker 5: of people. I remember, and I know this may sound strange,
• 58:51
  Speaker 5: but I'm gonna share this that in that moment, one
• 58:54
  Speaker 5: day I was in the hospital and I was like,
• 58:55
  Speaker 5: where's my sister? He was sleep and I was like
• 58:58
  Speaker 5: about to cry, and it was like the Holy Spirit
• 59:01
  Speaker 5: shook me like, no, you're not gonna cry, You're gonna.
• 59:04
  Speaker 3: Rejoice in this. And I was like wow.
• 59:07
  Speaker 5: And he said, have you ever thought that the day
• 59:11
  Speaker 5: that your sister passed away, that the Lord said a
• 59:15
  Speaker 5: month from now showed her that her son was gonna
• 59:17
  Speaker 5: get shot? And she said, well, let me go instead.
• 59:23
  Speaker 5: I know, don't look like that. You made me feel weird. No, no,
• 59:27
  Speaker 5: I don't think it's weird. I don't think it's weird.
• 59:32
  Speaker 3: Yeah, I think that's wow. The perspective, that's the word
• 59:38
  Speaker 3: I'm looking for. Perspective. Yes, And so I remember my
• 59:45
  Speaker 3: nephew telling.
• 59:45
  Speaker 5: Her, hold up, no, no, we can't. We can't go
• 59:48
  Speaker 5: past it. Real quick, we can't. We can't go past it. Yeah,
• 59:52
  Speaker 5: you said that basically, the Holy Spirit told you that.
• 59:56
  Speaker 5: The Lord said she she took the space or son.
• 1:00:03
  Speaker 5: That's just like how Jesus mm hmmm.
• 1:00:09
  Speaker 3: Mm hmm.
• 1:00:10
  Speaker 5: If you're not catching it, I can't even finish what
• 1:00:12
  Speaker 5: I'm finna say.
• 1:00:15
  Speaker 3: So when you heard that, how did you? How did
• 1:00:20
  Speaker 3: you digest that?
• 1:00:23
  Speaker 5: It was a moment for me and I remember leaving
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 5: out the room to go to the waiting area because
• 1:00:31
  Speaker 5: a lot of people wasn't nobody was in there, actually,
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 5: but I didn't want to just be very rambunctious in
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 5: his room because he was resting. And when I went
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 5: into the room, the waiting room, the first thing I
• 1:00:43
  Speaker 5: told you, I said, to rejoice. Yeah, and that's exactly
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 5: what I did. Because my sister lived a great life. Yeah,
• 1:00:51
  Speaker 5: you know, she made some good choices, bad choices, whatever
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 5: the difference is. But I knew my sister loved the Lord.
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 5: And a lot of times people say, like that's comfort.
• 1:01:00
  Speaker 5: It is comforting to know that my sister had a
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 5: relationship with God and that meant a lot to me,
• 1:01:06
  Speaker 5: and I had a good relationship with her. I don't
• 1:01:08
  Speaker 5: regret anything that I did with my sister or didn't do.
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 5: Like people, we were one. Like if I had a
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 5: problem woman other sister, I'm only gonna tell that sister.
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 5: I'm not gonna tell a cousin. No shame to my cousins,
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 5: but you're not my sister. Yeah, you know, because people
• 1:01:24
  Speaker 5: will take what you say. And it was like our
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 5: relationship was so tight that I knew that that's something
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 5: my sister would want because she wanted what was better
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 5: for her child, and that's just like the Lord. He
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 5: wants what's better for his children. So it was like
• 1:01:40
  Speaker 5: whatever he had to do, he had to give his
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 5: life so that we can have it, have life and
• 1:01:45
  Speaker 5: that more abundantly, even though we don't walk in the
• 1:01:48
  Speaker 5: abundance often because of fear, because of being lazy, and
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 5: because we not believing that the Lord is with us
• 1:01:56
  Speaker 5: at all times, not believing that he's gonna fulfill his
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 5: word or his part promises, because he's not like me,
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 5: and he can't lie. If he said it, he gonna
• 1:02:03
  Speaker 5: perform it because he watches over his word to perform it.
• 1:02:07
  Speaker 5: So if he said it, he's watching over it so
• 1:02:10
  Speaker 5: he can perform it. So every prophecy, everything that I've read,
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 5: everything the Lord told me concerning me, I gotta believe it.
• 1:02:17
  Speaker 5: And a lot of times people be like, well, I
• 1:02:18
  Speaker 5: ain't never get prophesied too, But what the words said? Yeah,
• 1:02:21
  Speaker 5: Because that's if you if nobody ever prophesies to you,
• 1:02:24
  Speaker 5: you have the word to declare what you're going to
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 5: be and what belongs to you. So if God said
• 1:02:31
  Speaker 5: it in his word, I have to stand on that.
• 1:02:33
  Speaker 5: No matter what you got to stand on that no
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 5: matter what it is that you've been experiencing, even in
• 1:02:39
  Speaker 5: situations that seems like you're not going to make it
• 1:02:42
  Speaker 5: through because so many people. Even after my sister passed
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 5: and we had her service the Saturday after Thanksgiving, because
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 5: you know, like in and and the following Saturday, Danielle
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 5: had an event that a sister's praying with Purpose or
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 5: something like that that I had already agreed to to
• 1:03:10
  Speaker 5: speak at, and she called when it happened, She's like, well,
• 1:03:14
  Speaker 5: if you don't come to that final I was like,
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 5: give me a second, and the Lord told me I
• 1:03:18
  Speaker 5: was coming back.
• 1:03:19
  Speaker 2: I came.
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 5: I literally came on a Thursday night, preached Friday. No, yes,
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 5: a Thursday night, preached Friday, left back out Saturday to
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 5: go back to Chicago because the Lord said, you have
• 1:03:31
  Speaker 5: to fulfill the assignment I gave you, And.
• 1:03:34
  Speaker 3: People were like, how did you do that? Y'all?
• 1:03:36
  Speaker 5: I was the strength of God, like it really was.
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 5: It was nothing else. It was never in my own
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 5: strength because I knew that the assignment had to be fulfilled,
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 5: and I knew honestly that all things worked together. And
• 1:03:49
  Speaker 5: like I said earlier, because I had enough word in me.
• 1:03:52
  Speaker 5: During that time, I was able to press through. I
• 1:03:55
  Speaker 5: was able to go forth and continue to do what
• 1:03:58
  Speaker 5: the Lord said. So many people stop because something happened,
• 1:04:01
  Speaker 5: and the Lord said, that's not no. You don't stop
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 5: because something happened. You keep going because you have to
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 5: get somewhere. You're talking good, because if you stop, that's
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 5: what the enemy wants. He wants you to stop. And
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 5: something my pastor always says, she says, every time you
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 5: wake up in the morning, the enemy gonna be after
• 1:04:19
  Speaker 5: you because you're a threat to the kingdom just because
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 5: you open your eyes, and just because you open your
• 1:04:23
  Speaker 5: eyes today, there's something for you to do. So when
• 1:04:26
  Speaker 5: you stop and you don't do it, you allow an
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 5: enemy to stop you. Who he like this small compared
• 1:04:34
  Speaker 5: to the Lord. Why would I let something that's gonna
• 1:04:36
  Speaker 5: stop me? And I'm not saying that I've always moved
• 1:04:39
  Speaker 5: quickly because I haven't, you know. And it's a lot
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 5: of times, like preachers we always say we we you know,
• 1:04:46
  Speaker 5: preachers we always say yeah, like we tell people things,
• 1:04:51
  Speaker 5: but we don't be transparent enough about that. I it's
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 5: hard for me sometimes too. You just caught me in
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 5: a good space.
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 3: This month. That's good. That's good. You just call me
• 1:05:02
  Speaker 3: in a good space this month.
• 1:05:03
  Speaker 5: If you would have asked me to come in November,
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 5: I might be like, girl, what I'm finna say?
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 3: Yeah, but the Lord knew you was in a good space. Yes,
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 3: all listen.
• 1:05:11
  Speaker 5: I reached out to the woman to God and I said,
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 5: I heard the Lord say it's time.
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 3: Yes, I don't know what that mere y'all.
• 1:05:16
  Speaker 5: And I said, well, amen, that's kind.
• 1:05:19
  Speaker 2: Of girl ship, Like what girl, girl?
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 5: You Okay, So you gotta open any right because I
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 5: feel like there's more like we we have to Yes,
• 1:05:39
  Speaker 5: we have the Prince paulse dees al ray.
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 3: That aray?
• 1:05:46
  Speaker 2: Are you full?
• 1:05:50
  Speaker 3: You hear me?
• 1:05:51
  Speaker 5: You know this was good? Really, what I heard was
• 1:05:56
  Speaker 5: one we don't believe the word.
• 1:05:58
  Speaker 2: M hmm.
• 1:05:59
  Speaker 5: That's that's really the truth is like we really we
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 5: say we believe what the word says, but we really
• 1:06:04
  Speaker 5: don't believe what the word says, especially when we're met
• 1:06:07
  Speaker 5: with trials and tripulations, right, and that's the time that
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 5: we are to lean in more to really trust and
• 1:06:14
  Speaker 5: believe on what the word actually says. Like you know
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 5: what I'm saying, but you're so right, Like a lot
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 5: of times. We also think we have more time than
• 1:06:23
  Speaker 5: what we actually have. Yeah, you know, until you're met
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 5: with those moments of adversity, those moments of death, transition,
• 1:06:31
  Speaker 5: near death, whatever it looks like, it does something. When
• 1:06:33
  Speaker 5: you have those moments, it just does something to you
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 5: sometimes and it makes you realize, like, dang lord, I
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 5: really we really own borrowed time for real. Let me
• 1:06:41
  Speaker 5: get this thing right. Let me forgive what I need
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 5: to forgive, let me have these conversations. Let me actually
• 1:06:45
  Speaker 5: give you a yes for real. Okay, let me actually
• 1:06:50
  Speaker 5: give you a yes for real, because the truth of
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 5: the matter is I really don't have as much time
• 1:06:53
  Speaker 5: as I think I have.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying.
• 1:06:55
  Speaker 5: So this was just refreshing, just a reminder again just
• 1:06:59
  Speaker 5: to give them another yes and a real yes. Yes,
• 1:07:01
  Speaker 5: another yes like daily yes three sixty five daily, give
• 1:07:05
  Speaker 5: them a yes. And so thank you for your voice,
• 1:07:07
  Speaker 5: thank you for sharing your story, thank you for being
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 5: so inspiring.
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 3: Man. This is my first time meeting you, man, and it's.
• 1:07:12
  Speaker 5: Like, yeah, any experience with Deanca is a blessed experience. Baby, listen,
• 1:07:19
  Speaker 5: So I know you watched the show. You already know
• 1:07:22
  Speaker 5: what time it is. So if there is anything that
• 1:07:25
  Speaker 5: was left unsaid, I'm giving you the space to close
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 5: us out. Well, I would say thank you Gus that
• 1:07:39
  Speaker 5: I would just really encourage everyone to literally believe what
• 1:07:44
  Speaker 5: the Lord said. And even as she was talking, like
• 1:07:47
  Speaker 5: I almost got teary outed because to have a relationship
• 1:07:52
  Speaker 5: with God, it's far beyond material things or careers and
• 1:08:00
  Speaker 5: things of that nature, because when you're faced with adversity,
• 1:08:03
  Speaker 5: when you're faced with trauma and traumatic events, that's the
• 1:08:09
  Speaker 5: only one that can help you through it. And I
• 1:08:13
  Speaker 5: sense even now that there's some people that's watching that
• 1:08:16
  Speaker 5: feel like, Okay.
• 1:08:17
  Speaker 3: My situation is so bad that.
• 1:08:22
  Speaker 5: It's nothing that I can do or nothing God can
• 1:08:24
  Speaker 5: do to actually help that situation. But I'm reminded of
• 1:08:29
  Speaker 5: the word of God that when Martha said to Jesus,
• 1:08:33
  Speaker 5: she said, he's been dead for four days. He got
• 1:08:37
  Speaker 5: to be thinking by now, which indicates that there was
• 1:08:41
  Speaker 5: no hope. She knew that the Savior was there, the
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  Speaker 5: resurrection was there, but she didn't believe.
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  Speaker 3: Because of what it looked like.
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  Speaker 5: And a lot of times we focus on what we
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  Speaker 5: see and we don't believe that God can and it
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  Speaker 5: doesn't matter what we see because the Lord can always.
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  Speaker 3: Do whatever it is that needs to be done in
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  Speaker 3: that situation.
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  Speaker 5: So even when Martha felt like that situation was too
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  Speaker 5: much for him, all he had to do was speak
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  Speaker 5: a word, because he said, Lazauth come forth.
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  Speaker 3: That's it.
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  Speaker 5: He ain't moved a stone himself. He ain't doing none
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  Speaker 5: of that. He just said, Lazar come forth. And that's
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  Speaker 5: the whole thing. Like, we have to believe what the
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  Speaker 5: word says. And I don't know how many times you
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  Speaker 5: have to hear that, but you have to believe what
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  Speaker 5: the word says regardless of where you are. And I
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  Speaker 5: don't know, but there's some things that the Lord has
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  Speaker 5: been telling you to go into beyond what you ever,
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  Speaker 5: like you think you know, but the Lord was like, no,
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  Speaker 5: you gotta just go beyond in your thinking, like outside
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  Speaker 5: the box, Like you feel like you're not in a box,
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  Speaker 5: but you're still very much in a box, because it's
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  Speaker 5: like I see like this small box that you was
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  Speaker 5: in and then it's like this big box and it's
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  Speaker 5: like this bigger box, but it's still a box. Just
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  Speaker 5: and the Lord was like, you literally have to believe
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  Speaker 5: what I say, even if you can't see it. You
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  Speaker 5: gotta believe what I said, because my word won't lie
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  Speaker 5: to you. You're one that praise and the Lord reveals
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  Speaker 5: to you. So everything that he's revealed to you in
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  Speaker 5: this season is coming to pass. So you gotta come
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  Speaker 5: outside that box because now it's like a bigger box
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  Speaker 5: that you're in, so it don't seem like a box,
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  Speaker 5: but it's a box. And so he was like, you
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  Speaker 5: have to exceed that. So even though those things, and
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  Speaker 5: I think I seen you on an arm, I don't know,
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  Speaker 5: I seen a TikTok or something you did, I don't know,
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  Speaker 5: and you were talking about them followers or something like
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  Speaker 5: ten thousand followers or I don't know where you are,
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  Speaker 5: but I definitely see an increase within the next thirty
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  Speaker 5: days of your following going up. The number that you
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  Speaker 5: won't declared it every morning. You want that one hundred k,
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  Speaker 5: it's gonna come quicker than you want a million by
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  Speaker 5: the end of December thirty. First that said, the spirit
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  Speaker 5: of the Lord I receive, I'm trying not to go
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  Speaker 5: and I'm I'm gonna be good because right now I
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  Speaker 5: feel like I'm gonna throw my chill. Bianca. Thank you,
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  Speaker 5: thank you, You're deliray. She invited back. Yep, I want
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  Speaker 5: to come back. I want to come back. Yeah, she
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  Speaker 5: got to because definitely can tell. It's uh, it's too
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  Speaker 5: much more. It's so much more.
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  Speaker 3: That was Lily just like us.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, we ain't even get deep deep like that was
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  Speaker 5: just the ice the tip of the iceberg does ray. Yeah,
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  Speaker 5: it's another one. Hey, community, y'all go follow my girl.
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  Speaker 5: We're gonna have an information in the description and be
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  Speaker 5: worn if you try to book call them, come to
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  Speaker 5: your your your, your storehouse whatever. This is the taste
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  Speaker 5: and see or what did you get? Okay, Well, we
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  Speaker 5: love you guys. Here is just ask and we appreciate you.
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  Speaker 5: So until next time. Until next week, remember life could
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  Speaker 5: be much more simple if you.
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  Speaker 3: Just say, just ask. Thank you for tuning in to
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  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always say.
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  Speaker 3: Thank God for one another day.
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  Speaker 4: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way. Hey,
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  Speaker 4: pray thank God for another day. Hey Hey, I'm just
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  Speaker 4: thankfu for another day. Hey, hey, another day, oh, another
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  Speaker 4: day wise, another day to get it right, another day
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  Speaker 4: to rise up, another day living. Another day.
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  Speaker 2: We love ones.
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  Speaker 4: I always remember hold it down for a ball one
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