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57 - Swanns Way by Marcel Proust · Swanns Way

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  Speaker 1: Part four, Section three of Swan's Way by Marcel Preuss.
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  Speaker 1: The sleebrivox recording is in the public domain recording by
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  Speaker 1: expatriate in Bangor, Maine. Part four place names the name
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  Speaker 1: Section three. Francoise found it too cold to stand about,
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  Speaker 1: so we walked to the Pont de la Concour to
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  Speaker 1: see the same frozen over onto which every one, even children,
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  Speaker 1: walked fearlessly, as though upon an enormous whale stranded defenseless
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  Speaker 1: and about to be cut up. We returned to the Champelisee.
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  Speaker 1: I was growing sick with misery between the motionless wooden
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  Speaker 1: horses and the white lawn caught in a net of
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  Speaker 1: black paths from which the snow had been cleared, while
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  Speaker 1: the statue that surmounted it held in its hand a
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  Speaker 1: long pendent icicle, which seemed to explain its gesture. The
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  Speaker 1: old lady herself, having folded up her debates, asked a
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  Speaker 1: passing nurse maids, thanking her with how very good of you,
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  Speaker 1: then begged the road sweeper to tell her grandchildren to come,
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  Speaker 1: as she felt cold, adding a thousand thanks. I am
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  Speaker 1: sorry to give you so much trouble. Suddenly the sky
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  Speaker 1: was rent in too, between the punch and Judy and
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  Speaker 1: the horses against the opening horizon. I had just seen,
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  Speaker 1: like a miraculous sign, Mademoiselle's blue feather, And now Gilbert
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  Speaker 1: was running at full speed towards me, sparkling and rosy
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  Speaker 1: beneath a cap trimmed with fur, enlivened by the cold
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  Speaker 1: by being late by her anxiety for a game. Shortly
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  Speaker 1: before she reached me, she slipped on a piece of ice, and,
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  Speaker 1: either to regain her balance or because it appeared to
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  Speaker 1: her graceful, or else pretending that she was on skates.
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  Speaker 1: It was with outstretched arms that she smilingly advanced as
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  Speaker 1: though to embrace me. Bravo, bravo that splendid topping. I
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  Speaker 1: should say, like you, sporting, I suppose I ought to say,
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  Speaker 1: only I'm a hundred and one a woman of the
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  Speaker 1: old school, exclaimed the lady, uttering on behalf of the
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  Speaker 1: voiceless Champalisee. There thanks to Jilbert for having come without
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  Speaker 1: letting herself be frightened away by the weather. You are,
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  Speaker 1: like me, faithful at all costs to our old champ Elisee.
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  Speaker 1: We are two brave souls. You wouldn't believe me. I
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  Speaker 1: dare say if I told you that I'd love them
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  Speaker 1: even like this this snow, I know you'll laugh at me.
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  Speaker 1: It makes me think of ermine, and the old lady
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  Speaker 1: began to laugh at herself. The first of these days,
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  Speaker 1: to which the snow, a symbol of the powers that
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  Speaker 1: were able to deprive me of the sight of Jilbert,
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  Speaker 1: imparted the sadness of a day of separation almost the
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  Speaker 1: aspect of a day of departure, because it changed the
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  Speaker 1: outward form and almost forbade the use of the customary
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  Speaker 1: scene of our only encounters, now altered, covered as it
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  Speaker 1: were in dust sheets, that day nonetheless marked the stage
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  Speaker 1: in the progress of my love, for it was, in
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  Speaker 1: a sense the first sorrow that she was to share
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  Speaker 1: with me. There were only our two selves, of our
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  Speaker 1: little company, and to be thus alone with her was
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  Speaker 1: not merely like a beginning of intimacy, but also on
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  Speaker 1: her part, as though she had come there solely to
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  Speaker 1: please me, and in such weather it seemed to me
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  Speaker 1: as touching, as if on one of those days on
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  Speaker 1: which she had been invited to a party, she had
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  Speaker 1: given it up in order to come to me in
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  Speaker 1: the champ elysee, I acquired more confidence in the vitality
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  Speaker 1: in the future of a friendship which could remain so
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  Speaker 1: much alive amid the torpor, the solitude, the decay of
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  Speaker 1: our surroundings. And while she dropped pellets of snow down
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  Speaker 1: my neck, I smiled lovingly at what seemed to me
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  Speaker 1: at once a predilection that she showed for me in
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  Speaker 1: this tolerating me as her traveling companion in this new
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  Speaker 1: this wintry land, and a sort of loyalty to me
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  Speaker 1: which she preserved through evil times. Presently, one after another,
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  Speaker 1: like shyly hopping sparrows, her friends arrived, black against the snow.
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  Speaker 1: We got ready to play, and since this day, which
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  Speaker 1: had begun so sadly, was destined to end in joy,
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  Speaker 1: As I went up before the game started to the
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  Speaker 1: friend with a sharp voice whom I had heard that
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  Speaker 1: first day calling Gilbert by name, she said to me, No, No,
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  Speaker 1: I'm sure you'd much rather be in Gilbert's camp. Besides,
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  Speaker 1: look she's signaling to you. She was, in fact summoning
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  Speaker 1: me to cross the snowy lawn to her camp, to
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  Speaker 1: take the field which the sun by casting over it
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  Speaker 1: a rosy gleam, the metallic luster of old and worn
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  Speaker 1: brocades had turned into a field of the cloth of gold.
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  Speaker 1: This day, which I had begun with so many misgivings, was,
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  Speaker 1: as it happened, one of the few on which I
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  Speaker 1: was not unduly wretched. For although I no longer thought
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  Speaker 1: now of anything save not to let a single day
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  Speaker 1: pass without seeing Gilbert, so much so that one when
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  Speaker 1: my grandmother had not come home by dinner time, I
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  Speaker 1: could not resist the instinctive reflection that if she had
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  Speaker 1: been run over in the street and killed, I should
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  Speaker 1: not for some time be allowed to play in the
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  Speaker 1: champ Elysee, when one is in love, one has no
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  Speaker 1: love left for anyone. Yet those moments which I spent
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  Speaker 1: in her company for which I had waited with so
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  Speaker 1: much impatience all night and morning, for which I had
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  Speaker 1: quivered with excitement to which I would have sacrificed everything
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  Speaker 1: else in the world, were by no means happy moments.
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  Speaker 1: Well did I know it, For they were the only
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  Speaker 1: moments in my life and which I concentrated a scrupulous,
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  Speaker 1: undistracted attention. And yet I could not discover in them
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  Speaker 1: one atom of pleasure. All the time that I was
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  Speaker 1: away from Jilbert. I wanted to see her, because, having
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  Speaker 1: incessantly sought to form a mental picture of her, I
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  Speaker 1: was unable in the end to do so, and did
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  Speaker 1: not know exactly to what my love corresponded. Besides, she
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  Speaker 1: had never yet told me that she loved me. Far
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  Speaker 1: from it. She had often boasted that she knew other
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  Speaker 1: little boys whom she preferred to myself, that I was
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  Speaker 1: a good companion with whom she was always willing to play,
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  Speaker 1: although I was too absent minded, not attentive enough to
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  Speaker 1: the game. Moreover, she had often shown signs of apparent
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  Speaker 1: coldness towards me, which might have shaken my faith that
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  Speaker 1: I was, for her a creature different from the rest,
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  Speaker 1: had that faith been founded upon a love that Jilbert
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  Speaker 1: had felt for me, and not, as was the case,
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  Speaker 1: upon the love that I felt for her, which strengthened
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  Speaker 1: its resistance to the assaults of doubt by making it
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  Speaker 1: depend entirely upon the manner in which I was obliged
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  Speaker 1: by an internal compulsion to think of Jilbert. But my
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  Speaker 1: feelings with regard to her I had never yet ventured
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  Speaker 1: to express to her in words. Of course, on every
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  Speaker 1: page of my exercise books, I wrote out in endless
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  Speaker 1: repetition her name and address. But at the sight of
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  Speaker 1: those vague lines which I might trace without her having
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  Speaker 1: to think on that account of me, I felt discouraged,
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  Speaker 1: because they spoke to me not of Gilbert, who would
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  Speaker 1: never so much as see them, but of my own desire,
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  Speaker 1: which they seemed to show me in its true colors,
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  Speaker 1: as something purely personal, unreal, tedious, and ineffective. The most
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  Speaker 1: important thing was that we should see each other, Gilbert
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  Speaker 1: and I, and should have an opportunity of making a
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  Speaker 1: mutual confession of our love, which until then would not officially,
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  Speaker 1: so to speak, have begun. Doubtless, the various reasons which
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  Speaker 1: made me so impatient to see her would have appeared
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  Speaker 1: less urgent to a grown man. As life goes on,
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  Speaker 1: we acquire such adroitness in the culture of our pleasures
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  Speaker 1: that we content ourselves with that which we derive from
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  Speaker 1: thinking of a woman, as I was thinking of Gilbert,
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  Speaker 1: without troubling ourselves to ascertain whether the image corresponds to
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  Speaker 1: the reality, and with the pleasure of loving her, without
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  Speaker 1: needing to be sure also that she loves us, or
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  Speaker 1: again that we renounced the pleasure of confessing our passion
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  Speaker 1: for her, so as to preserve and enhance the passion
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  Speaker 1: that she has for us, like those Japanese gardeners who
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  Speaker 1: to obtain one perfect blossom will sacrifice the rest. But
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  Speaker 1: at the period when I was in love with Jolbert,
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  Speaker 1: I still believed that love did really exist apart from ourselves,
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  Speaker 1: that allowing us at the most to surmount the obstacles
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  Speaker 1: in our way, it offered us its blessings in an
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  Speaker 1: order in which we were not free to make the
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  Speaker 1: least alteration. It seemed to me that if I had,
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  Speaker 1: on my own initiative, substituted for the sweetness of a
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  Speaker 1: confession a pretense of indifference, I should not only have
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  Speaker 1: been depriving myself of one of the joys of which
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  Speaker 1: I had most often dreamed, I should have been fabricating,
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  Speaker 1: of my own free will, a love that was artificial
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  Speaker 1: and without value, that bore no relation to the truth,
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  Speaker 1: whose mysterious and foreordained ways I should thus have been
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  Speaker 1: declining to follow. But when I arrived at the champ Elysee,
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  Speaker 1: and as at first sight it appeared, was in a
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  Speaker 1: position to confront my love so as to make it
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  Speaker 1: undergo the necessary modifications with its living and independent cause.
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  Speaker 1: As soon as I was in the presence of that
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  Speaker 1: Jilbert Swan on the side of whom I had counted
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  Speaker 1: to revive the images that my tired memory had lost
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  Speaker 1: and could not find again. Of that Jilbert Swan with
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  Speaker 1: whom I had been playing the day before, and whom
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  Speaker 1: I had just been prompted to greet and then to
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  Speaker 1: recognize by a blind instinct, like that which, when we
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  Speaker 1: are walking, sets one foot before the other without giving
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  Speaker 1: us time to think what we are doing. Then at
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  Speaker 1: once it became as though she and the little girl
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  Speaker 1: who had inspired my dreams had been two different people. If,
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  Speaker 1: for instance, I had retained in my memory over night
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  Speaker 1: two fiery eyes above plump and rosy cheeks, Gilbert's face
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  Speaker 1: would now offer me, and with emphasis, something that I
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  Speaker 1: distinctly had not remember, a certain sharpening and prolongation of
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  Speaker 1: the nose, which, instantaneously, associating itself with certain others of
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  Speaker 1: her features, assumed the importance of those characteristics which in
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  Speaker 1: natural history are used to define a species, and transformed
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  Speaker 1: her into a little girl of the kind that have
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  Speaker 1: sharpened profiles. While I was making myself ready to take
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  Speaker 1: advantage of this long expected moment, and to surrender myself
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  Speaker 1: to the impression of Jolbert, which I had prepared beforehand,
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  Speaker 1: but could no longer find in my head to an
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  Speaker 1: extent which would enable me, during the long hours which
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  Speaker 1: I must spend alone, to be certain that it was
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  Speaker 1: indeed herself whom I had in mind, that it was
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  Speaker 1: indeed my love for her that I was gradually making grow,
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  Speaker 1: as a book grows when one is writing it. She
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  Speaker 1: threw me a ball, and, like the idealist philosopher whose
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  Speaker 1: body takes account of the external world, in the reality
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  Speaker 1: of which his intellect declines to believe, the same self
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  Speaker 1: which had made me salute her before I had identified her,
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  Speaker 1: now urged me to catch the ball that she tossed
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  Speaker 1: to me, as though she had been a companion with
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  Speaker 1: whom I had come to play, and not a sister
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  Speaker 1: soul with whom my soul had come to be united.
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  Speaker 1: Made me out of politeness until the time came when
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  Speaker 1: she had to go address a thousand polite and trivial
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  Speaker 1: remarks to her, and so prevented me both from keeping
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  Speaker 1: a silence in which I might at last have laid
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  Speaker 1: my hand upon the indispensable escaped idea, and from uttering
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  Speaker 1: the words which might have made that definite progress in
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  Speaker 1: the course of our love, on which I was always
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  Speaker 1: obliged to count only for the following afternoon. There was, however,
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  Speaker 1: an occasional development. One day, we had gone with Jilbert
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  Speaker 1: to the stall of our own special vendor, who was
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  Speaker 1: always particularly nice to us, since it was to her
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  Speaker 1: that Monsieur Swan used to send for his gingerbread, of
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  Speaker 1: which for reasons of health he suffered from a racial exzema,
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  Speaker 1: and from the constipation of the price he consumed a
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  Speaker 1: great quantity. Jilbert pointed out to me with a laugh,
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  Speaker 1: two little boys who were like the Little Artist and
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  Speaker 1: the Little Naturalist in the children's story books. For one
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  Speaker 1: of them would not have a red stick of rock
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  Speaker 1: because he preferred the purple, while the other, with tears
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  Speaker 1: in his eyes, refused a plumb which his nurse was
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  Speaker 1: buying for him, because, as he finally explained in passionate tones,
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  Speaker 1: I want the other plum. It's got a worm in it.
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  Speaker 1: I purchased two hapenny marbles with admiring eyes I saw
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  Speaker 1: luminous and imprisoned in a bowl by themselves, the Agate marbles,
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  Speaker 1: which seemed precious to me because they were as fair
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  Speaker 1: and smiling as little girls, and because they cost five
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  Speaker 1: pence each Jilbert, who was given a great deal more
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  Speaker 1: pocket money than I ever had asked me, which I
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  Speaker 1: thought the prettiest. They were as transparent as liquid, seeming
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  Speaker 1: as life itself. I would not have had her sacrifice
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  Speaker 1: a single one of them. I should have liked her
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  Speaker 1: to be able to buy them, to liberate them. Still,
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  Speaker 1: I pointed out one that had the same color as
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  Speaker 1: her eyes. Gilbert took it, turned it about until it
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  Speaker 1: shone with a ray of gold, fondled it, paid its ransom,
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  Speaker 1: but at once handed me her captives, saying take it.
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  Speaker 1: It is for you. I give it to you. Keep
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  Speaker 1: it to remind yourself of me. Another time, being still
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  Speaker 1: obsessed by the desire to hear Berrima and the classic drama,
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  Speaker 1: I had asked her whether she had not a copy
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  Speaker 1: of a pamphlet in which Bergot spoke of Racine, and
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  Speaker 1: which was now out of print. She had told me
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  Speaker 1: to let her know the exact title of it, and
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  Speaker 1: that evening I had sent her a little telegram, writing
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  Speaker 1: on its envelope the name Gilbert Swan, which I had
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  Speaker 1: so often traced in my exercise books. Next day she
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  Speaker 1: brought me in a parcel tied with pink bows and
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  Speaker 1: sealed with white wax, the pamphlet, a copy of which
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  Speaker 1: she had managed to find. You see, it is what
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  Speaker 1: you asked me for, she said, taking from her muff
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  Speaker 1: the telegram that I had sent her. But in the
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  Speaker 1: address on the new message, which only yesterday was nothing,
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  Speaker 1: was merely a little blue that I had written, and
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  Speaker 1: after a messenger had delivered it to Jilbert's porter and
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  Speaker 1: a servant had taken it to her in her room,
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  Speaker 1: had become a thing without value or distinction, one of
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  Speaker 1: the little blues that she had received. In the course
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  Speaker 1: of the day. I had difficulty in recognizing the futile,
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  Speaker 1: straggling lines of my own handwriting beneath the circles stamped
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  Speaker 1: on it. At the post office, the inscriptions added in
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  Speaker 1: pencil by a postman signs of effectual realization, seals of
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  Speaker 1: the external world, violet bands symbolical of life itself, which
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  Speaker 1: for the first time came to espouse, to maintain, to raise,
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  Speaker 1: to rejoice my dream. And there was another day in
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  Speaker 1: which she said to me, you know you may call
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  Speaker 1: me Gilbert. In any case, I'm going to call you
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  Speaker 1: by your first name. It's too silly not to. Yet
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  Speaker 1: she continued for a while to address me by the
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  Speaker 1: more formal vous. And when I drew her attention to this,
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  Speaker 1: smiled and composing, constructing a phrase like those that are
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  Speaker 1: put into the grammar books of foreign languages, would no
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  Speaker 1: other object than to teach us to make use of
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  Speaker 1: a new word, ended it with my Christian name. And
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  Speaker 1: when I recalled later what I had felt at the time,
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  Speaker 1: I could distinguish the impression of having been held for
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  Speaker 1: a moment in her mouth myself naked, without any longer
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  Speaker 1: any of the social qualifications which belonged equally to her
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  Speaker 1: other companions. And when she used my surname to my
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  Speaker 1: parents' accessories, of which her lips by the effort that
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  Speaker 1: she made a little after her father's manner, to articulate
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  Speaker 1: the words to which she wished to give a special
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  Speaker 1: value at the air of stripping, of divesting me, as
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  Speaker 1: one peels the skin from a fruit of which one
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  Speaker 1: is going to put only the pulp into one's mouth.
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  Speaker 1: While her glance adapting itself to the same new degree
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  Speaker 1: of intimacy, as her speech fell on me, also more directly,
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  Speaker 1: not without testifying to the consciousness, the pleasure, even the gratitude,
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  Speaker 1: that it felt, accompanying itself with a smile. But at
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  Speaker 1: that actual moment I was not able to appreciate the
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  Speaker 1: worth of these new pleasures. They were given not by
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  Speaker 1: the little girl whom I loved, to me who loved her,
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  Speaker 1: but by the other her, with whom I used to play,
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  Speaker 1: to my other self, who possessed neither the memory of
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  Speaker 1: the true Jolbert, nor the fixed heart, which alone could
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  Speaker 1: have known the value of a happiness for which it
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  Speaker 1: alone had longed. Even after I had returned home, I
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  Speaker 1: did not taste them, since every day the necessity which
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  Speaker 1: made me hope that on the morrow I should arrive
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  Speaker 1: at the clear, calm, happy contemplation of Jolbert, that she
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  Speaker 1: would at last confess her love for me, explaining to
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  Speaker 1: me the reasons by which she had been obliged hitherto
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  Speaker 1: to conceal it. That sane necessity forced me to regard
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  Speaker 1: the past as of no account, to look ahead of
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  Speaker 1: me only to consider the little advantages that she had
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  Speaker 1: given me, not in themselves, and as if they were
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  Speaker 1: self sufficient, but like fresh rungs of the latter on
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  Speaker 1: which I might step my feet, which were going to
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  Speaker 1: allow me to advance a step further, and finally to
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  Speaker 1: attain the happiness which I had not yet encountered. If
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  Speaker 1: at times she showed me these marks of her affection,
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  Speaker 1: she troubled me also by seeming not to be pleased
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  Speaker 1: to see me. And this happened often on the very
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  Speaker 1: days on which I had most counted for the realization
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  Speaker 1: of my hopes. I was sure that Julbert was coming
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  Speaker 1: to the champ Elisee, and I felt an elation which
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  Speaker 1: seemed merely the anticipation of a great happiness. When going
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  Speaker 1: into the drawing room in the morning to kiss Mamma,
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  Speaker 1: who was already dressed to go out, the coils of
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  Speaker 1: her black hair elaborately built up, and her beautiful hands
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  Speaker 1: plump and white, fragrant, still with soap. I had been
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  Speaker 1: apprized by seeing a column of dust standing by itself
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  Speaker 1: in the air above the piano, and by hearing a
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  Speaker 1: barrel organ playing beneath the window En revenant de la Revau,
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  Speaker 1: that the winter had received until nightfall an unexpected radiant
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  Speaker 1: visit from a day of spring while we sat at luncheon.
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  Speaker 1: By opening her window, the lady opposite had sent, packing,
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  Speaker 1: in the twinkling of an eye, from beside my chair,
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  Speaker 1: to sweep in a single stride over the whole width
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  Speaker 1: of our dining room a sunbeam which had lain down
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  Speaker 1: there for its midday rest, and returned to continue it there.
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  Speaker 1: A moment later at school, during the one o'clock lesson,
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  Speaker 1: the sun made me sick with impatience and boredom, as
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  Speaker 1: it let fall a golden stream that crept to the
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  Speaker 1: edge of my desk, like an invitation to the feast
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  Speaker 1: at which I could not myself arrive before three o'clock,
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  Speaker 1: until the moment when Francoise came to fetch me at
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  Speaker 1: the school gate, and we made our way toward the
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  Speaker 1: Champs Elysee through streets decorated with sunlight, dense with people,
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  Speaker 1: over which the balconies, detached by the sun and made vaporous,
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  Speaker 1: seemed to float in front of the houses like clouds
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  Speaker 1: of gold. Alas in the Champs de Lysee, I found
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  Speaker 1: no Gilbert. She had not yet arrived, motionless on the lawn,
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  Speaker 1: nurtured by the invisible sun, which here and there kindled
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  Speaker 1: to a flame the point of a blade of grass,
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  Speaker 1: while the pigeons that had alighted upon it at the
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  Speaker 1: appearance of ancient sculptures which the gardener's pick had heaved
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  Speaker 1: to the surface of a hallowed soil. I stood with
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  Speaker 1: my eyes fixed on the horizon, expecting at every moment
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  Speaker 1: to see appear the form of Gilbert, following that of
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  Speaker 1: her governess, behind the statue that seemed to be holding
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  Speaker 1: out the child which it had in its arms, and
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  Speaker 1: which glistened in the stream of light, to receive benediction
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  Speaker 1: from the sun. The old lady who read the debates
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  Speaker 1: was sitting on her chair in her invariable place, and
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  Speaker 1: had just accosted a park keeper with a friendly wave
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  Speaker 1: of her hands towards them, as she exclaimed, what a
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  Speaker 1: lovely day, And when the chairwoman came up to collect
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  Speaker 1: her penny, with an infinity of smirks and affectations, she
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  Speaker 1: folded the ticket away inside her glove, as though it
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  Speaker 1: had been a posy of flowers for which she had sought,
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  Speaker 1: in gratitude to the donor, the most becoming place upon
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  Speaker 1: her person. When she had found it, she performed the
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  Speaker 1: circular movement with her neck, straightened her boa and fastened
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  Speaker 1: upon the collector as she showed her the end of
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  Speaker 1: yellow paper that stuck out over her bare wrist. The
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  Speaker 1: bewitching smiled with which a woman says to a young man,
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  Speaker 1: pointing to her bosom, you see, I'm wearing your roses.
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  Speaker 1: I dragged Francoise on the way towards Jiolbert as far
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  Speaker 1: as the Arc de Trient. We did not meet her,
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  Speaker 1: and I was returning towards the lawn, convinced now that
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  Speaker 1: she was not coming, when in front of the wooden horses,
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  Speaker 1: the little girl, with a sharp voice, flung herself upon me,
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  Speaker 1: quick quick, Gilbert's been here a quarter of an hour.
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  Speaker 1: She's just going. We've been waiting for you to make
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  Speaker 1: up a prisoner's base. End of Part four, Section three
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  Speaker 1: recording by expatriate and Banga or mean