Longing

The Obsessive Diary · Dec 9, 2025 · 5m

When I was a very small child I witnessed a terrible violence. Its flashback was the domino which set off all the others, it was the key waiting to be fitted in the lock, and when that happened, when the black box opened in my head, all that had been crazy-making made sense. This week I’ve been drawn again to that moment, it’s been present, and it’s helped me make sense of something else.

In the vast space that’s opened up since the end of one relationship and the repositioning of others, longing has revealed herself as a constant, vocal companion. Or as Tara Brach would call it, the wanting…