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Weathering Life's Storms: What My Father's Final Days Taught Me | Ep 261 · Voices for Voices®

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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Hi everyone.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Welcome to another episode of the Voices for Voices TV Show and Podcast.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I'm your host, founder and executive director of Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes.
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• 3:10
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Isn't it worth it?
• 3:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it the question that often comes into my mind our organization to partner organizations, to just really fellow human beings.
• 3:37
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You don't have to be part of an organization, you don't have to own it or have founded it.
• 3:42
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You don't have to own it or have founded it, just as a human being.
• 3:47
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it?
• 3:51
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Ever found its way into your mind where we, speaking on my behalf, a lot of racing thoughts, a lot of different topics, from one to the next to the next, seemingly happening in such a fast cadence.
• 4:17
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Wow, if I don't write this down, I'm probably going to forget about it.
• 4:24
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Not because it's not interesting, not because of any ill will, just the mere fact that my mind's already on to the next thing and the next thing and the next thing.
• 4:40
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: That's one thing I've learned that I remember with my parents, quite some time ago and you know, as a youngster but somebody much younger than I am now I saw my.
• 5:10
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I saw one of my relatives, my mom, you know, writing things down, and there's a piece of paper on the counter.
• 5:17
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: She's writing things down and then I at first I didn't know what it was, what she was doing.
• 5:27
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I know she was writing a letter to somebody I don't know.
• 5:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And one day after that I don't know how close the timing is, the timing's not really important, but what's important is, you know, as different things, different ideas, different projects, different things were presenting themselves to me and into my mind, to me and into my mind, and my mom had said why don't you just write it down so you don't forget it?
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And me, being the rambunctious or I know better, I'm a know-it-all however we want to talk about, however we want to talk about, however we want to classify, I was like, no, I don't need to write it down.
• 6:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And then I'll say, slowly, there'll be small aspects of certain things, certain projects, certain things I needed to do, whether that's pick up something at a store, or oh, I need to clean out my car, I need to get a car wash.
• 6:59
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: The list goes on.
• 7:00
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so in my mind I was like, okay, well, I forgot to wash the car this week, I'll do it tomorrow or I'll do it today.
• 7:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so that story of at one of those points I was like, oh, maybe if I do write it down I may have a less chance of forgetting it.
• 7:32
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I think my hesitation again at first was you know, I was a know-it-all.
• 7:36
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You know that's not for me, I don't have to do that, don't have to do that.
• 7:51
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And then the second part is that I would see in a written form, you know, a list, a list that would look overwhelming, that it would cause my stress to increase.
• 8:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Oh, my gosh, these are all the things that I'd like to get done, maybe some on Sunday and Monday and Tuesday and throughout the week.
• 8:16
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But I think I was afraid that I would see that lift and then I might not measure up to that whether I would finish all the quote, unquote tasks on a particular day, and then if I wouldn't, then I would kind of beat myself up inside.
• 8:46
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Like Justin, all you had to do was put gas in your car, fill it up, and now you'd have to get up extra early to go to the gas station before you head to work or wherever that was, whether that was school or work.
• 9:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so I found myself, and even still to this day, having that fearfulness of I'm going to see this huge list and just be overwhelmed by it, to be so big, in fact, that I'm going to say is it worth it?
• 9:41
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it?
• 9:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it?
• 9:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it?
• 9:45
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is it worth it?
• 9:47
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And you may be wondering what it is.
• 9:50
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: The it that I'm referring to is is is this life worth it?
• 10:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is me making a list?
• 10:04
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is this life worth it?
• 10:05
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is me making a list and working through different projects, different tasks, whatever they may be?
• 10:18
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is that really what I'm here for on Earth?
• 10:23
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Am I here so I can just go from one task to the next and then have that sense of accomplishment of, oh wow, I completed all five things for today.
• 10:42
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Then I get in the mode of well, maybe I'll start on tomorrow's then, instead of giving myself a break, instead of giving myself the opportunity to step away and do something else, something else that is funner than making a list and checking things off of it.
• 11:08
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You know, maybe that's going to a ball game or a concert, a fair, another sporting event, so I I continue.
• 11:26
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Another sporting event, so I continue to talk about, you know, is this worth it?
• 11:36
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You know, being the hamster on the wheel, okay, I got asked to do XYZ, so I got to do XYZ, so I got to do XYZ, and then I got asked to do ABC, then DEF, and so that's our organization, and it's going to sound interesting and a little bit sarcastic and funny coming from me.
• 12:05
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I am, I like organization, I like knowing exactly what I need to do and what I'm being asked to do, such as go to the grocery store and see if they have this particular type of ice cream, and something as minor as that, something as small as that can really again bring us back to is it worth it?
• 12:56
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Is what I'm doing worth it?
• 13:01
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Am I reaping the rewards, whether that be money, fame, prestige, prestige, designer clothing, handbags, cars, mansions, jets Is it worth it?
• 13:27
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I'll give another example.
• 13:31
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: A lot of you know that another brand that called the House of you, and that is that's the publisher of two books, two pamphlets.
• 13:55
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: They're relatively short, 80, 90, 100 pages, but the first one being the House of you five workforce preparation tips, but the first one being the House of you Prescription for Living that details my mental health journey and that is also available in paperback, in digital form and on Audible.
• 14:39
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so when I think of the house of you, right, there's a house.
• 14:54
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Well, duh, right, it's in the name, it's in the brand.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So there's a house, not any other, not any old house, but it's our house, our home.
• 15:15
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We've just discovered a piece of land and we just so happen to have enough money to pay for the land and build a new house, new home, the house of our dreams.
• 15:42
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So we go through the design process, we do the blueprints with the architect and we go pick out what color the wall is going to be, are we going to have hardwood or carpet, what type of sink we're going to have, do we have appliances like washer, dryer, refrigerator, microwave, and so we go through all these, all these motions, but we just go through from time to time having to answer that question so, as the home, as the house, as the condo, as the apartment, as that's being built, each one of our needs, like we need a refrigerator, we need a microwave, and so you know, or how many outlets you know, where we can plug, plug in a phone to charge, plug in a webcam, an iPad how many are we going to have?
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And what rooms?
• 17:17
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: In those rooms, where do we foresee putting a TV, a television set?
• 17:25
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so we go through this whole myriad of topic, myriad of topics, to have that one day to be notified by a real estate agent or whomever and says, hey, justin, your house, it's built, ready for you to move in.
• 18:03
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Today, let's meet up and get you the keys.
• 18:08
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And that's a happy moment.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And I, when the House of you came about, the brand the House of you, which is also a trademark registered with the United States Patent and Trade Office, so it was before my dad had passed last year.
• 18:40
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And you know, from time to time we would, we'd be in conversation, we would be at family reunions or just amongst friends and family members.
• 19:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And it was not one specific time time, it was multiple times where my dad would get up out of his chair or the couch or whatever, and he would walk to the back of the house and he would look out the window and he would see trees, and he would see birds and squirrels, and he would be having his feet planted firmly on the ground inside the house that he and my mom built to their specification.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Now, before the house or the foundation could even be laid, the space, the lot where the house was going to be built was, you know, brush and trees and tall grass, before any foundation could even think of getting started.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: That had to be done.
• 20:32
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: There had to be a clearing.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: There's a team that came in and that's part of what they do and they cleared it, cut down trees, just cleared the land so that the construction team could come and start the process of getting that foundation laid and slowly, by slowly, brick by brick, siding, piece of siding above piece of siding, up to the roof and everything indoors.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so, as my dad would stand and look out that window in the back, as he would do often and even near the end of his days on earth, before he went to heaven to be with the Lord, he looked out in wonder and amazement that just a few years prior, where the very house that he was standing in was, there again were trees, tall grass, weeds, and he and my mom were able to pick the piece of land, have it cleared and have the home building process start.
• 22:19
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And again, like I mentioned, what kind of sink and where do we want the outlet, and what kind of carpet or what type of hardwood and what color do you want the door on?
• 22:34
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: As we know, there's just so many options, there's so many different things, and so when he would look out, he was seeing part of God's creation.
• 22:52
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: For him, for my mom, for our family, really any human.
• 23:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: He'd always have a bird feeder in one of the trees it was quite tall, anyway and so he would just look out and just he would see nature.
• 23:21
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Sometimes we would have deer, you know, frolicking through our yard and, and for him that was and through our yard, and for him that was a big accomplishment, that was something that he was very, very happy to have been able to do, to have been able to do, and towards the end of my father's days on earth, before he was bedridden, he would use all the strength he had.
• 24:15
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: He'd use all the strength he had to get up out of his chair or the couch with his walker, and he and his walker, they would walk, slide towards that same very window and he would just my dad would just look out that window and I can only imagine that he saw nature, that he saw something, that he saw something he had a large part in that he was able to see one last bird, one last bird, one last squirrel or one last one last wind blowing and watching the leaves blow from one side to the other and up and down, and then he would go as much as he could on his own and he would go back and sit or lay down and he would pick up the Bible and he would put on his glasses.
• 26:40
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: He just needed his, he just needed his glasses for, like, magnifying, magnifying the letters and that.
• 26:55
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So he put on his glasses and then he turned to John 3.16.
• 27:10
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: John 3.16.
• 27:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: One of the most quoted parts of the Bible.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Oftentimes we see a sporting event, a person or two or three pulling up a sign John 3.16.
• 27:33
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: In the paraphrase John 3.16.
• 27:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And to paraphrase John 3.16 says, again paraphrasing, that God so loved the world that he sent his only son down to be one with human beings, human beings.
• 28:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And God did this to not to condemn the world, not to say you should do this, you need to do that.
• 28:17
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: He didn't send his son down to do that.
• 28:21
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: He didn't send him down to earth to condemn the world, but he sent him down to earth to save the world.
• 28:34
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: To save the world, to help the world, to help humanity.
• 28:45
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And again, I was paraphrasing there, and so that was one of the last, if not the last group of words that he, that he read, and then, once, once the health progressed, and then not, not, not the good manner, but was left the sense of what were his ears.
• 29:45
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's my understanding that listening is one, and ears, if not the last, one of the last senses to go.
• 30:05
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So that's why it was important that, when we could, when we could, my mom, my sister and myself, we would take turns.
• 30:48
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We would sit next to my dad and we would read passages and parts of the Bible, including John 3.16.
• 31:06
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's getting emotional.
• 31:09
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: That's okay.
• 31:10
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We're allowed to have emotions, no matter who we are.
• 31:22
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so, as my wife and I Breed to our daughter there, I was reading to my my own dad.
• 31:41
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so, whatever ego, whatever I had left from when I hit that rock bottom in November 2017, it was gone, because it was about humanity.
• 32:10
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It was about spending time with somebody who didn't have to talk all the whole day.
• 32:18
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: A lot of the day was, you know, planning medications and changing my dad's position, how he was laying, and so he would have less of a chance of getting bed sores.
• 32:33
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Changing my dad's position, how he was laying so he would have less of a chance of getting bed sores, and making sure he was warm when he was cold and cool when he was warm.
• 32:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And then phone calls to family members, friends, others.
• 32:56
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We would have those calls.
• 33:03
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so for my dad and for anybody who has passed or knows somebody who's passed, we have all the accomplishments we can have.
• 33:27
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: All the material things we can't take it with us.
• 33:32
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We can have all the material things we can't take it with us.
• 33:39
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So we, more than ever, need to spend as much time with our families and our friends.
• 33:53
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: If we're able to travel, if that's something we like to do with, like a particular band or an artist, and we want to attend a concert or watch a movie, go for a walk, just sit on the deck or the porch and read a book, because those were parts of what my dad had towards the end of his time with us on Earth.
• 34:47
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I was looking out the window at nature and envisioning all those trees and all that brush and thinking, wow, look at what God has given us.
• 35:08
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: God has worked through us to clear the brush and the lot, and then the building process and all that, and so to see a bird or a squirrel, or just look at the trees blowing in the wind and the leaves changing colors during the fall, and so the house, the house my parents built, any house for that matter.
• 36:00
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: When a house is built on rock, it will remain there for a long time, whereas if we build a house on sand and storm, rain, wind, flooding comes, our house could literally evaporate.
• 36:50
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But the house that's built on the rock, that has that foundation in the rock, will weather the storm, it will, it will weather the storm and it will remain there Much, much, much, much, much longer than that house that was built on sand.
• 37:26
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so we look at where is our, where is our house built?
• 37:42
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We don't have to have physically have a house, physical house, but our mind do we have our, do we have our mind built on rock, a solid foundation, and whatever that may be, it doesn't have to be religion.
• 38:05
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Like me, I'm sharing my example, my experiences.
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  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So it's built on rock and so, while the storms will come and the storms will go, our house, who we are, who we stand for, what we stand for, will weather the storm, both big and small, mighty and tiny.
• 38:55
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Or is our mind, our beliefs, built on sand, on sand, and when we try to weather the storm and storms, whether we like it or not, building on sand is a lot more.
• 39:32
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: A house or anything built on sand is a lot more.
• 39:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: A house or anything built on sand is a lot more exposed to the elements and to potentially washing away, given the right conditions, versus that house, that apartment, that apartment, that condo, that VRBO, whatever.
• 40:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: So it really comes down to, is it worth it?
• 40:16
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And we take a step back from what's going on in our lives and we take a little bit of just like an inventory of how we're feeling, how we think things are going, just taking you don't have to write it down.
• 40:38
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: If you want to, you can.
• 40:40
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I find sometimes it's helpful.
• 40:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Even though I'm talking about this, it's still hard to do.
• 40:47
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's easy to talk about Like I should write that down.
• 40:51
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Still hard to do.
• 40:51
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's easy to talk about like I should write that down.
• 40:53
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Because when I do write that down and these things down and these ideas, I'm able to refer back to it.
• 41:00
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And then, when I finish, I'm able to check those boxes and look and say, oh, I was able to do these things, and while maybe I did all of them today, maybe tomorrow, I do one out of whatever the number of half.
• 41:18
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so when you say, is it worth it?
• 41:28
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And we talk about the foundation of, you know, building on rock versus building on sand, that's where Voices for Voices comes in.
• 41:40
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's easy to want to say that we're building on rock, but it's another thing to prove it that we are built on rock, that we are here on a rock, that we, we are here today, gone tomorrow.
• 42:11
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You know there may be, uh, you know, certain times, certain years, certain times a year.
• 42:21
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: You know, maybe there's the you know, some changes from year to year.
• 42:26
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Like, oh well, you know, from year to year we were able to do this one event or this one thing this year, but maybe we weren't last year.
• 42:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But that's the weathering, that's the elements coming.
• 42:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But right here, right now, all 260 plus episodes of our show is a testament to our organization, voices for Voices.
• 43:00
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's a testament and I'll give myself some self-love, because I give myself plenty of self-hate and self disappointments and I can do this better and I should have done that better.
• 43:18
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Right here, right now, I can give myself some self-love and say dang, justin, dang, voices for Voices, whether I, whether the organization, films one, one more episode, or a thousand or ten thousand episodes, or if this ends up being the last episode, the word built on and built in rock, we're built on and built in rock.
• 44:13
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: That's the only way to explain how we even got to episode 260 plus.
• 44:19
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Because, as we've been reminded of in the last couple of weeks, once we hit episode 250, there's a huge milestone, not just for the organization, not just for me, but in the podcasting, the show industry, that there's a very small percentage of shows and podcasts that get to 250 episodes.
• 44:55
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Because it's easy to think about, it's easy to do A couple, a few, but if you're not in it for the right reasons and you're not passionate about what that podcast, what that interview is about, it's going to show and you're going to get bored.
• 45:20
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Well, I don't want to do it.
• 45:23
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: This is silly and uh, nobody's watching, nobody's listening and or whatever the reason is.
• 45:32
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Maybe somebody moves, maybe somebody switches a job, switches industries, and maybe you're spending a whole lot of extra time at work doing work, so you have less time to a whole lot of extra time at work, you know, doing work so you have less time to put a show together.
• 45:56
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And this is not me bad-mouthing any other show, any other person.
• 46:04
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's just the fact that I've been presented with that.
• 46:12
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Having 250 episodes is it's good.
• 46:19
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so, for all the times I've beat myself up and questioned to be in a company of relatively few shows and I'm just one person, we do.
• 46:43
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We have a board of directors, we have a lot of support, a lot of people, a lot of organizations, a lot of advocates that have and continue to be there for us and continue to encourage us, to encourage us to keep going, to encourage us to keep going, to keep telling our story, to tell our experiences, to keep it real, not sugarcoat.
• 47:28
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so are there people along the way that may not agree or may feel one way or another.
• 47:37
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I'm just moving positions on my feet there.
• 47:39
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: One's falling asleep there, so that's that's why I did that.
• 47:43
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But um, oh, here we go there, I'm back, and so it's like anything.
• 47:54
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: There's people that are going to love and are generally caring people, and there's going to be people that are on the other side of the spectrum, and that's okay.
• 48:14
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We're free to be able to do that.
• 48:20
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We're free to turn this show off and turn another one on.
• 48:28
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's okay.
• 48:38
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: But I can say, because of my passion, intensity, not giving up, believing in not just the organization but myself, and that's hard to do, it's very hard to do.
• 48:56
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's hard to believe in ourselves.
• 49:02
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: When, however, we want to measure ourselves, you know whether it's by money, by who we're friends with, who we're connected with, who we have a picture with or a video, or who we were able to meet, or what, or where we were able to travel for vacation, and so it's, it's easy to not love on ourselves.
• 49:35
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And well, maybe it sounds corny and silly.
• 49:44
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I don't think it is.
• 49:45
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: I don't think it is at all, because when I have 100%, we have that pie chart, 100% of our brain, and if you or I or anybody spends that whole entire time going through our daily and beating up on ourselves, they go oh, I wish I could have done that, or wish I would have done that, or I wish I would have reached out or whatever.
• 50:23
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It is Big, small, it doesn't matter.
• 50:27
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We think that, oh, there we go again, justin, not falling through whatever.
• 50:39
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so that pie, that 100% of my brain and my mind, goes way towards the negative.
• 50:49
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And I think, by giving ourselves self-love, giving ourselves compassion, time to unplug, time to take a nap, time to rest and relax, the reason why it sounds so silly and whatever about talking about you know, I love myself and I want to spend some time doing self-care the reason why it sounds so Whatever, I don't know Whatever, the term is Silly, goofy the reason why I think it sounds like that is because we don't do it enough.
• 51:48
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's not normalized in society.
• 51:51
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: It's not.
• 51:53
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: People can talk about all they want until they're blue in the face and you know, oh, I made this statement, I did this and this and this, but at the end of the day, is there any action?
• 52:07
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Well, I can say that I founded an organization in the mental health side of things, on the big pillars of Voices for Voices, of sharing my story and others.
• 52:27
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We just got into some uncharted territory with a low percentage of people and organizations, having not only 250 plus episodes of the show, but now 260.
• 52:47
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: And so I'm allowed to tell myself good job, way to go, keep it up, because I don't want my pie chart to be 100% negative or 100% Well, we did this good.
• 53:15
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: Or I wish I would have said something this way and I wouldn't have said like and um and pause, and instead of doing that and beating myself up inside.
• 53:29
  Voices for Voices, Justin Alan Hayes: We all make mistakes.