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- I found my third-grade science project today, and it made me realize I’m not holding onto objects; I’m holding onto versions of myself that no longer exist. Let’s keep it real for a second because if you’re staring at a box of old ribbons or a chipped mug from your first apartment, you might think you’re just being messy. It started with a shoebox. I was cleaning out the back of my closet, looking for something specific, maybe a winter coat or those jeans I swear used to fit. Instead, I pulled out this battered cardboard container that smelled faintly of vanilla and dust. Inside were ticket stubs from movies I barely remember watching, a dried corsage from a high school dance where I spent more time worrying about my hair than enjoying the music, and a list of handwritten goals I wrote when I was nineteen. Looking at that list now feels like reading the diary of a stranger who had no idea how hard life would actually be. But here’s the thing: I didn’t throw it away. And I know many of you don’t either. We have these mental archives, these physical boxes filled with the debris of our past selves. We tell ourselves we should declutter. We watch videos of people living in tiny homes with only thirty items. We feel this pressure to curate a minimalist aesthetic that looks clean on Instagram but feels empty in our chests. But what if keeping these things isn’t hoarding? What if it’s an act of preservation? When we hold onto a childhood toy, a piece of jewelry from a grandmother who has passed, or even just that one shirt that doesn’t quite fit anymore but reminds us of a summer when we felt free, we aren’t just storing fabric or plastic. We are storing evidence that we were there. We were alive. We existed in those moments. In a world that moves so fast, that demands we constantly pivot to the new, the next trend, the updated version of ourselves, holding onto the old feels like an anchor. It keeps us grounded in who we were before the noise got so loud. Let’s talk about the guilt. Because I hear it in your emails all the time. 'Christie, I know I need to toss this, but I can’t.' There is a specific kind of shame attached to keeping things that serve no functional purpose. We live in a culture that equates clutter with chaos and cleanliness with control. If your house is tidy, they say, your mind is tidy. If you get rid of the junk, you get rid of the trauma. It’s a neat little package, isn’t it? Easy to digest. Easy to sell. But human memory doesn’t work like a computer deleting files. It’s messier. It’s emotional. I remember a listener named Sarah writing to me about her mother’s collection of ceramic frogs. Dozens of them. Big ones, small ones, ones with sunglasses. Her mother loved them. Sarah hated them. She wanted a modern, sleek home without the amphibian army. But every time she tried to donate them, she felt a pang of grief. Not because she loved the frogs, but because throwing them away felt like erasing her mother’s joy. So she kept them. And now, those frogs sit on her shelves. They are ugly by most standards. They are impractical. But they are love. They are tangible proof that someone, somewhere, found delight in something silly. And that matters. We often judge our collections by their utility. Does this mug make coffee? Yes. Is it aesthetically pleasing? Debatable. But does it remind me of Sunday mornings with my dad? Absolutely. And that emotional resonance is worth more than any amount of empty counter space. You are allowed to value sentiment over style. You are allowed to let the ugly thing stay. heading2ofsegment3isnotusedinjsonstructurebutneededforlogicflowtonextblock So tonight, look around your room. See that object you’ve been meaning to toss? Pick it up. Hold it. Ask yourself why it’s there. Don’t judge the answer. Just listen to it. You are enough, right now, exactly as you are, clutter and all. Talk soon, friends.