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From Pain to Purpose - Fall into October · Military Broadcast Radio | MBR Talk

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Welcome to the Propane to Purpose radio show.
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I'm your host Viva Fulton. In this show we explore the
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incredible journeys of resilience, healing, and
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transformation. In each episode, we will sit
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down with individuals good faced unimaginable struggles and turn
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their pain into power, heartbreak into hope, and their
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challenges into meaningful change and finding new purpose
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in life. Through candid conversations and
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inspiring stories, we will uncover how pain, whether
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emotional, physical, mental, or spiritual, can be the catalyst
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for profound growth and a deeper sense of purpose.
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So if you are looking for motivation, insight, and real
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stories of triumph over adversity, you're in the right.
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Place. Let's get.
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Started on this journey from pain to purpose.
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Let's give veterans a voice through military broadcast talk.
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Hey, welcome everybody. Today is Saturday, October 10th.
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Dear my Lord, twenty 26th. I am back in my home studio.
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Helps if I have the microphone over here, doesn't it?
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I'm back in my home studio. I've got Charlie waiting over
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here. He's he says Charlie says hi.
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Hi. Yeah, I, I gave him a name,
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Charlie. He, he was quite the player, had
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three girls that he was playing up there in the fields with.
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And I am going to have a first taste of Charlie, you know, loin
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part of the back strap. I'm going to that's what I'm
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going to grill tonight. That'll be my first try at
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Pronghorn. So we will see.
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We will see taking it on some good advice from one of my
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friends. It's soaking in some milk, so
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we'll see. I you know I've not ever fixed
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antelope before you know the lingo name is pronghorn goat.
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I don't know, it's, we will see. It's still part of the venison
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family of things. I, you know, it was kind of
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interesting For those of you who don't know, I went antelope
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hunting last week with a nonprofit that I fully support
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called Brave Souls United. And it was, you know, I don't
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know if I feel like I was a brave soul hunting.
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I think my bravery came before I even got to the hunting ground
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that, you know, I, I told you guys about this story, what
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happened on my adventure last week, and man, it was quite the
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adventure. You know, it's, it's a good
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thing to know when your military skills come into play and you
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just don't know how much you know, how much can you think
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about survival in unconditional terms, Right.
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So anyways, I, you know, I went on vacation.
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I do solo quite frequently. I go on solo vacations.
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Not that I don't have anybody to go with.
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It's just that this just happened to be a an intended
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solo adventure. So I drove through Denver, saw
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my brother and, you know, was detouring through northwestern
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Wyoming to go to Yellowstone before heading over northeast to
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Gillette, WY to go hunting with Brave Souls United.
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And I, I fell up at Grand Teton trying to go get the money shot
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and I slipped down the hill, bonked the back of my head,
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probably had a slight concussion.
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Yes, I was hard headed, pun intended.
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And and I didn't go seek medical attention.
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What were they going to tell me at Yellowstone?
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Because they probably didn't have an X-ray or CT machine, I
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didn't need to be medevac anywhere Here.
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Take two Tylenol, go rest. So I took an Excedrin migraine
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and gently walked around Yellowstone watching the
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geysers, taking appropriate breaks when needed, and then got
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back to my campground. And, you know, everything was
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doing OK until about 2:00-ish in the morning when I had to go to
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the bathroom, locked myself out of the truck.
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And, you know, yeah, that was that was an that was an ordeal.
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That's when you really have to start thinking about what was
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that cold weather training they taught us in the Army?
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What was that? Find resources to keep you warm.
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Fortunately, I did remember that I had a sleeping bag in my in
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the back of my truck. I had my suitcase with some
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extra clothes like some leggings and warm wool socks.
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So I quickly put those things on and, you know, was finally able
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to get a locksmith helping me out the following morning.
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Didn't charge me anything. Of course, that was, you know,
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after the snafu with a fake, a fake locksmith.
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Well, supposed to have been GMC emergency roadside services.
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I still need to call GMC and report this, you know, bogus
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number that tried frauding some money out of my son's credit
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card because I didn't have access to pay for anything.
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Everything was in the truck. Everything was in the truck.
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My watch that has a phone on it, phone number that was on the
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charger, keys were in the truck. Phone with the broken phone was
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in the truck. So yeah, it was, it was quite
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the ordeal, but I managed, I survived.
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I did stay relatively warm and you know, then went hunting and
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came home with a a nice little skull.
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Many thanks to Twisted Tines taxidermist.
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Shout out to Kyle up there in Galesville, Wisconsin.
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I really appreciate all the work that you did to help make this a
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memorable hunt, 'cause I tell you, it was not.
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It's a hunt that I will never forget.
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But the hunt itself was like easy.
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I, I and I get it. Not all hunts are going to be
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easy, but it really was, I'm not going to lie it I got really,
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really lucky on my first, you know, my first hunt had really
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good coaching from Pat on the rifle then not the day before.
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And that was, you know, I think it's kind of funny when so it
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was 2 Air Force guys. Scott, sorry, what am I saying?
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Scott, Steve is the, is the president of Brave Souls United.
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And then Pat is right there coaching on the, on the rifle.
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And I think that these two Air Force guys was like, yeah, what
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is this Army girl going to do? And I, I surprised him.
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Yeah, I, I brought, I brought the a game on the rifle guys,
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don't worry. So, yeah, I, I, I'm a good shot.
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What can I say? Army definitely was bringing.
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I was bringing my A game on shooting.
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So to my former drill sergeants out there, let's see.
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I think it was Drill Sergeant Farrell, Drill Sergeant Hawkins
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from Fort McClellan, AL. I don't know if you guys are
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still around or not, but thank you so much for teaching a girl
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how to shoot. Yeah.
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So anyhoo, anyhoo, we are falling into October, right?
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Can you believe we're already in October?
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3/4 of the year is already through and, well, 3/4 plus now
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we're in the second, second Saturday of October.
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The State Fair of Texas is in full, you know, swing.
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I have not been to the State Fair and eons.
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I would love to go, but I really just don't want to spend the
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money to go. It's you know, I don't know you
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you see one State Fair, you see them all in a way.
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I don't know. I don't I don't know.
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I don't I'd kind of want to go, but then I don't like I said,
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it's too far over there. I don't want to, but I love the
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thought of what State Fair represents and memories and
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everything 'cause then it makes remember, hey, we used to go in
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school, we'd get the free ticket to go on, usually on Columbus
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Day. Monday was the, you know, it's
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the holiday. I'm off on Monday too.
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And next Saturday. Folks, I know I'm probably
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telling my age, but it's going to be my 40th high school
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reunion, so I'm going to give a shout out to all of my high
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school classmates from South Grand Prairie High School, Class
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of 86, the Mighty Warriors from South Grand Prairie High School.
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I will see you guys and gals next Saturday.
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And part of me was thinking earlier this week.
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No, not next Saturday. It's the 24th.
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What is the dress code? I don't know.
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What's the dress code? Next Saturday, actually, I'm
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celebrating my daughter's birthday.
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That happens this coming up week.
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So yeah, I've got to get the brisket for cooking out.
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Next Saturday. I'm going to smoke a brisket.
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Wish it was some good venison. Right?
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I, I don't have enough for cooking a, you know, smoking a
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big venison strap or something. But anywho, lots going on this
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month, isn't it? What's going on?
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I don't know. It's, it's interesting to see,
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you know, I kind of think back on my lessons learned on going
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on my trip. I probably packed too much stuff
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for sure, but then I'm pretty, I used almost everything, not
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quite everything, but I was prepared even if it rained when
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we were hunting itself. So I brought all the right stuff
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and you know, was able to handle those challenges.
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Thanks. I I'd say we got a new overlay
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popped on for the AI content. I don't know, Joel, if you want
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to pop the TikTok back on. I don't know if you did or not,
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but it it had, it didn't let me select the TikTok while ago.
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So any who I don't know, that's part of what you have to think
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about when you're going on these adventures is what to take.
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I had, you know, most of what I took was all of the same hiking
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stuff that I take and then and then some because I knew that I
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was gonna, I was gonna have the opportunity to actually cook and
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not just do my dehydrated meals. So I had a mix of both, both the
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dehydrated and, and prepared food and then I cook some of,
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you know, some of my own food at the campsite.
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So, you know, that's the hard part I guess when you are going
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on a long trip like that. I didn't take the RV.
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Next time when I go hunting, I will probably have the RV
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prepared for a longer, longer drive because the RV does go
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slower right when I'm pulling the trailer.
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I will be going slower. But you know, that'll be great
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to, you know, be able to enjoy maybe, I don't know, I'll see
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what next year brings. Maybe I'll find some other
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hunting places this year too. I'd like, I'd like that.
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I did enjoy the process. You know, I had a friend of mine
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says, you know, hunting's not always like, you know, super
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easy. And I was like, I get it.
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It's a lot like fishing. Sometimes you just got to sit
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there and wait because the animals are like, oh, Eva's up
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there on the hill. Let's just go ahead and make
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sure we show up and and present ourselves so, you know, she can
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do what she wants to do. No, it's like fishing you.
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Sometimes you just have to wait. It's it's what we learned in the
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military, right? Hurry up and wait.
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Hurry up and get to the spot where you're going to, you know,
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up in the blind or on the hill or whatever.
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Sometimes you just got to, you know, you got to get there and
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wait. But it as long as you're
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prepared, that's what matters. And, you know, having good
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eyesight, patience, scanning, you know, so there were a lot of
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the skills that I learned in the military, you know, scanning
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across the, you know, range out there, 'cause man, I don't know
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how they do it, but sometimes when you see, you can look
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across and not see any animals. And then Pat was like, hey, do
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you see the deer down there? I was like, what?
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Where, where 'cause I was looking through the binoculars
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where count 3 poles and I was like, oh snap, I didn't see the
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deer. Those deer, they don't always
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like just run and gallivant out there in front of you.
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They, they know how to just, you know, go slow enough that they
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blend in and they, they don't rush in and present themselves.
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So you just kind of have to wait and be patient.
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You know, when I, when I was I, I played the video for you guys
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last week, I had to get the breathing down and I just had to
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wait. I just had to wait.
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And part of me is like, you know, isn't that really a lot
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like life? Sometimes you just have to wait.
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Don't rush into hurrying up and pull the trigger to do
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something, because sometimes you really just need to wait for the
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right opportunity and then the right opportunity presents
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itself. And in this case, you, you know,
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you pull the trigger and there it is.
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I and I was, I don't, I don't think there's something weird
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about me, but I didn't get all freaked out about the blood.
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I'm going to say it. I, you know, I didn't get sick.
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I didn't, you know, I didn't get life is life right?
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It there is a circle of life to things.
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And thanks, thanks, Joel, for sharing out there for followers
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on TikTok and everything, you know, and maybe part of it is
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that I have, I have witnessed enough accidents on the highways
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that I, I don't get wrapped up into that emotional side of
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things because this is part of life.
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We are responding to events that are happening and this is
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nourishment for my body. I don't know about you, but I'm,
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I, I think a lot of some of my, my personal changes with
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products I use, food that I eat, I'm very cautious.
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I mean, even some of the crackers I have right here are
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organic. I like knowing where my meat
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came from. I like knowing that it was
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prepared in a healthy way. I like knowing that it ate
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organic food. I like knowing that, you know,
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it's not full of a bunch of additives and preservatives.
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It was eating the sage out there on the hills in Wyoming.
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I trust that, right? I trust that a lot more than
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whatever that substance is in a package that's sitting in
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between Styrofoam and plastic wrap at the grocery store,
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'cause I was at a grocery store a while ago, even looking at the
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organic grass fed beef and stuff, I was like, it just
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didn't look appetizing. It just didn't.
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And, you know, and I, I think back to the adage of what we
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learned way back when, when computers first came out, 'cause
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I was, I laughed, I chuckle on that 'cause I was having a
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conversation with my daughter about telephones and, you know,
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changes in telephones. And you know, anyways, the adage
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is garbage in garbage out. The old C dos remember you
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typing in DOS and you had commands that you had to type
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in. Well, garbage in on the commands
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is garbage out on the results, right?
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We're a lot like that too. We have to remember garbage in
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garbage out, right? And if we think that our
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personal body performance or brain performance is going to be
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any better, then part of it is that we have to make better
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choices and have the wherewithal like I did on that emergency
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situation. You know, we could go that I had
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the, I had the computing power in my brain as the temperature
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was dropping all night long. How to make sure I was going to
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be able to respond to my own emergency situation because the
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last thing I wanted to do was go knock on some RV door neighbor
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of mine that I didn't know and have them, you know, not be so
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kind to me. And even if they had invited me
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into the into their RVI don't know these people, I'm not going
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to trust that everything's going to be hunky Dory with strangers.
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Stranger danger still applies to a single woman who's traveling.
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So I did the I did what I knew was going to be the smartest
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thing that I could do. I've tried to play, you know,
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hindsight's 2020 thing. How could I have done something
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different other than not locking my keys in the truck or having a
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spare set? As my friend Steve reminded me,
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hey, you could have an extra Bob on the outside of your truck.
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But then, you know, I always get to that same thing.
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And somebody might think well. They you know what's preventing
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somebody from finding my spare fob and stealing my truck?
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You know, I, I don't want that to happen because then I'm
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partly at fault for putting the spare key, the spare fob where
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somebody else could find it. So I don't know, you know, is
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there an easy answer? If if I had had a working phone
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and had it in my hand, my GMC app could have opened my truck,
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but I had a broken phone, but the watch that could call and
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and my keys were inside the truck.
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So I don't know, you know, it was I I think I made the best
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out of a bad situation and love to tell about it.
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All we can do is just laugh, laugh, laugh, laugh.
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So, I don't know, in some ways the hunt kind of felt like it
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was anti climatic because I had already had such an eventful 24
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hours. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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You know, you get it, you follow me.
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So I don't know, you know, all around it was military training
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the whole week and I am very thankful that I had the training
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to survive. So all I can do I guess maybe at
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this point is just kind of laugh at myself.
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It, it's funny, 'cause I was talking to this young lady where
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my daughter works and she's, she's a hunter and Carrie's
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standing there listening to the storm and she goes, what?
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I didn't know this happened. You didn't tell me this
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happened. Like I'm sorry I said, why do
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you think I told you guys my, my new work number?
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Because this crazy situation happened.
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So anyways, anyways, you know, I think it gets back to you know,
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there's the the F, I'm calling it the F factor, right?
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Faint fear fawn or freeze. Well, I didn't want to freeze,
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so freezing was not an option. Fawning was not an option.
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Fainting was not an option. There was some fear there, but I
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but it took that I had I had to fight.
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Maybe that's the that's the other app I had to I had to
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fight for my life. I had to fight to make sure that
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I wasn't going to succumb to my situation.
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And I think in many ways, if we're talking about pain to
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purpose and literally y'all can see in my logo both the logo in
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the middle of the top of the screen and my from pain to
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purpose. I mean, that's the peak that I
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was seeing right there all around me because I was at Grand
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Teton, right? I mean, literally, that's what
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the peaks look like Grand Teton. And you have to, you have to
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think about where you are in life and why.
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Why does this matter right now? I mean, today, October 10th is
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Mental Health Awareness Day. But we as veterans know that
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Mental Health Awareness Day is every day, right?
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Can we all agree on that? Every day?
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I'm going to type this in every day in a veteran's life is
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mental health awareness day. Yep, I just typed that in.
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I hope you all agree every day in a veteran's life is mental
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health awareness day. And that's because we do need to
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make sure that we member to fight for our lives, because
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painting and fawning and freezing should not be options
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because that is fear. If we're talking about pain to
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purpose. And you know, guys, I have built
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this show on and I, I was describing it to the, to the,
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the, the lady that helped me with her phone on my trip, you
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know, because I had to borrow her phone to try and call a
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locksmith. And my son, her husband is a
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veteran and I was telling them about my radio show.
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I built it on this mental Everybody can picture the wooden
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chair, right? The old wooden chair and the,
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you've got 4 strong legs. You've got an even platform of a
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chair that you were sitting on and it's rock solid, right?
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Each leg represents a type of pain, physical, mental,
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emotional and spiritual pain. I tell you, you know, when that
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event happened and I knew what the situation I was in with a
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locked, I kept the my first reaction was pray, pray, pray.
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Seriously, it was pray, pray, pray.
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Oh dear Lord, please help me open this door.
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Please help me stay warm. Please help me find some way to
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get, you know, get through the situation.
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My first turning to was not the end as spiritual.
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It was the beginning. I turned to God first, and
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that's where I think a lot of a lot of people, some people in
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society turn to God last. We got to turn to God first.
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When we turn to God first, he's going to help us find our way
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through the situation. Yeah, we're going to look like
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we're climbing this mountain, but he's going to help us get
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there, right? And it's far easier to climb the
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mountain than it is to go down the mountain.
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I I reposted a video I made a year ago when I was hiking in
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Pennsylvania. It's kind of ironic.
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I made this video about hiking downhill and the next day I
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tripped on a rock or route or something that I didn't see.
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I was even using my hiking poles and splat.
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Down I went and I broke my glasses.
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Y'all go look at last year's video after the show.
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I had a black eye and had had a little Raspberry above my
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eyebrow. I I didn't look look like I've
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been in a fight or something, but fighting with with the
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ground. But it was even ground, right?
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It was even ground. So I, I couldn't even fall
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uphill. I fell flat on the ground.
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So it's just life. Life happens.
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My point is, you know, we're always going to run into
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challenges in life, but we have to remember which F do you want
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to choose? Do you want to faint?
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Do you want to fun? Do you want to freeze or do you
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want to fight? Sometimes fighting is actually a
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good thing if you think about it in mental health awareness, day
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life, right? In that kind of perspective, we
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ought to, I don't mean fight like, oh, I might have fight.
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I mean that internal energy that we're feeling.
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We need to fight for us because you can't think that anybody
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else is going to fight for you unless you've got a really great
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people garden that is going to help you navigate things and
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challenges. And believe me, I had people
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show up during that event in in a great way.
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I was so very blessed because even the locksmith that actually
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showed up didn't charge me anything.
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And if that wasn't God working in my favor, I don't know what
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was because he knew that I I've been fighting for his people.
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I've been fighting for my friends in my people garden and
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I'm fighting for you and, and trying to make sure that our
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voices are being heard and it's important that we look out for
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each other. It's important that we do our
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check one videos. And you know, and I haven't even
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done a check one video in a hot minute, probably several months
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because I've I've been home, I've been feeling so much
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better. Maybe that was my own cry when I
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was doing my own check one videos.
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Hey, I was struggling. That commute was taking the life
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out of me. It was 3 hour one way commute
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and not getting much sleep at night.
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And just this, you know, the long, long days that wears on
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you. It really does, you know, But I
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had some really good people in my life then who helped make,
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you know, help me navigate through some things.
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I'm sorry. I'm looking at him like, what is
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this over here? I've got a new whiteboard over
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here. I've got to work through.
30:43
No squirrel distraction. Does that make sense, guys?
30:47
That mental health awareness is every day.
30:54
You can't bank on somebody else solving your problems.
30:59
You can't bank on you can't bank on other people to fill your
31:08
cup, right? I mean, my cup was full.
31:13
I mean, this is pretty full. I mean, I just filled it up
31:15
before the show started. You have to work on filling your
31:20
cup. Somebody else doesn't fill your
31:23
cup. That takes fighting for
31:27
yourself. That takes you making sure that
31:31
you are getting fed. Hey, there's another F that you
31:34
are getting fed the information that you need, that you are
31:38
getting fed the support that you need.
31:41
And if you were not getting it, and I talk about it in my book,
31:46
Welcome to my people garden. I was trying to find.
31:49
I know I brought in, I know I brought in the newer version.
31:56
It's it's over there somewhere. You have to think about the
32:05
environment of people that you're in because if you're in
32:09
the wrong environments of people, they're going to feed
32:14
you some poo poo. I'm going to put it that way.
32:21
And they can sometimes, you know, lie to you that this is
32:27
your people garden right there are not going to give you the
32:33
information that you need. They are not going to have your
32:37
best interest in mind because they are looking out for
32:40
themselves numero Uno. And not that there is anything
32:44
necessarily wrong with that, but they are not always going to
32:49
look out for you and your best interest.
32:54
The worst lies that we actually end up believing are not always
33:00
the lies that other people tell us, but the lies that we tell
33:05
ourselves. I could have very well in my
33:09
situation out there freezing in the night saying, you know what?
33:14
I'm just going to give up and, you know, be a victim.
33:21
My, my plan. I had a Plan B, maybe C, that I
33:26
could take the sleeping bag and I could go sit in the in the
33:32
bathroom, you know, the campground bathroom.
33:35
It was made of cinder blocks. Certainly it would have been
33:39
sturdy, you know, but it it didn't have warmth.
33:44
I knew that in the truck I had in the truck where in my
33:49
situation where I was at in the back of my truck in the bed, I
33:53
had a heater. Thank you Jason, shout out to my
33:56
brother for saying hey, go get one of those little buddy
34:00
heaters. That little buddy heaters
34:02
probably would save me along with having a sleeping bag and
34:06
all of the other gear that I had in there.
34:07
Because guess what? I had prepared right?
34:11
Even though I oopsed and locked the key in the truck, I had been
34:16
prepared enough for survival. And I think we still have to
34:22
think about that in any facet of our lives.
34:25
You know, we have a storm that hit ground.
34:30
Is it last last night? I don't know.
34:32
I haven't watched much news lately other than knowing I
34:35
think there was a you know, there was a name storm brewing
34:38
in the in the Gulf of America that was hitting land.
34:42
But I think I saw a brief picture on Facebook earlier
34:47
today that, you know, there was a lot of flooding.
34:49
I haven't been watching very much news.
34:52
I just know it's sunshine here. I took, you know, I've been away
34:57
from the house for a while and it was too hot this summer to
35:01
take care of some lawn work here.
35:05
And that's what I've been doing all day yesterday, today and
35:10
took a dumped, you know, took a run to the dump this morning.
35:13
But you have to take care of yourself, right?
35:15
We have to, we have to fight for ourselves and being prepared is
35:24
part of that game. Going back to the chair, we have
35:29
the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual pain.
35:33
And I told you the first thing I did in reaction to my situation
35:39
was I was praying to God. How many of you pray to God?
35:45
And, and that's a personal, you know, that's a personal
35:50
response. You don't have to respond to me.
35:53
But do you do it? Do you pray first or are you
35:56
praying last? It's it's just something for you
36:03
to consider, something for you to ponder.
36:06
Are you praying to God first or are you praying to him last?
36:12
Because if you're looking at fighting for you, if you're
36:16
fighting for your family, then maybe we got to start by praying
36:21
to him first to help see you through.
36:25
That's the whole purpose of why I'm even, you know why I use the
36:29
hiking metaphor in life because we are all going somewhere or
36:35
we're kind of stagnating, going nowhere, right?
36:38
But as long as we're putting 1 foot in front of the other, we
36:42
are going somewhere in life. And as long as, you know, you're
36:46
going somewhere in life, then maybe, just maybe going to God
36:54
first about where he wants us to go, what he wants us to do, who
36:58
he wants us to see is the first choice we ought to do before
37:06
we're actually doing the do it. Does that make sense?
37:12
Because if you're thinking about the mental health of thing going
37:14
back to the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual, we had
37:19
to kind of start putting the spiritual 1st to get the mental
37:24
and the emotional. And you know, physical is just
37:28
going to be the physical no matter what, right?
37:31
Because we're always going to trip and fall.
37:33
There are physical things that are going to happen.
37:36
We are veterans. We have gone through a lot
37:39
physically and emotionally and spiritually.
37:42
But maybe we got to start putting things in the right
37:45
order to start leveling ourselves out and learning how
37:50
to fight for us because God's willing to go to the fight for
37:54
us. He gave us his only begotten
37:57
Son, Jesus Christ. I'm just saying he's he's helped
38:03
put somebody in the ring for us. But part of it says ends up
38:08
being the choice and and leaning into him to fight for us.
38:18
Yes, we do have to fight for ourselves.
38:21
And that's the whole point of into the weeds, she says.
38:26
Amen. Thank you, Amber.
38:28
You know, we have to fight for ourselves.
38:33
God's God's already there fighting for us to turn to him
38:37
first. And then you'll see, maybe, you
38:40
know, you, you get lucky like I did and the locksmith opens your
38:45
truck for free. I, I just feel so very, very
38:49
blessed. And and then made it to
38:54
Gillette. So I need a drink.
39:01
Made it to Gillette. I, I was telling Carrie, I said,
39:06
you know, I probably was a bit hypothermic that day, 'cause I
39:11
had the heater in the truck blasting at 78 until about 2:00
39:16
PM and then I finally started getting warm. 70 It's pretty hot
39:23
in a, you know, pretty toasty inside the truck.
39:26
But I, you know, it took a while for my whole core to get warmed
39:30
up. But after that everything was
39:35
pretty, pretty easy breezy. But God put some very important
39:40
people in my life. 22 veterans responded right, 2 veterans are
39:47
right there at that event when I locked, got locked out who were
39:52
able to help me navigate. And that's, you know, that's
39:57
pretty important, I think to acknowledge that we do take care
40:04
of each other. We do.
40:09
I mean, that's, that's what our people garden.
40:11
That's what my people garden's about.
40:13
I feel very called to make sure that I host this radio show.
40:18
I mean, it's not like I don't have other things I could do.
40:22
But there are people who I know we're struggling mental health
40:28
everyday and you know, we have to be there to support each
40:34
other. It's important.
40:39
Shows like this are important. Military broadcast radio.
40:44
This is an important thing because this is an outreach,
40:52
right? This is it's a free outreach,
40:55
doesn't cost anything for you to subscribe, but it but it does.
41:03
You know, I volunteer doing this.
41:06
All of the other hosts are volunteering doing this.
41:10
We need more sponsors. We need your support because
41:14
yes, we are our voices being used.
41:20
But I, I think from what I know and all of the other content
41:26
creators with military broadcast radio, they do this willingly.
41:31
They do this without any expectation that they're getting
41:36
something in return. So, you know, if you have a
41:40
moment, you have a dollar, $5, whatever it is, you know, reach
41:46
out and support military broadcast radio.
41:52
I even talked about it on the on my trip.
41:57
I know that Steve is probably going to come back.
42:00
He's going to come on the show. It's hunting season, so I have
42:05
to wait until hunting season's over before I can get him on.
42:09
He's, you know, he and Patrick are helping get more veterans
42:13
out there, you know, out there in field therapy.
42:20
It is a type of field therapy, right?
42:23
I mean, you kind of the irony here is an Army girl is that
42:28
everybody was like, who wants to go to the field?
42:31
And, and now we turn it into, oh, let's go to the field, let's
42:34
go hunt. It's kids.
42:38
I don't know, you know, like I, for me, this was a natural
42:43
evolution of I had all my, you know, shooting skills, have the
42:51
hiking skills, have the camping skills, and now this was the
42:57
natural evolution of going hunting.
43:01
And I actually, I liked it. You know, I wasn't grossed out
43:04
by it. I, you know, like I said,
43:07
there's, I think part of it also like I mentioned, I think I
43:13
mentioned this last week, I said, you know, there's, there's
43:17
this thing that recognizes that there is a, there is a certain
43:23
amount of population control with animals too.
43:27
Because two years ago I had two deer run out on the highway and
43:34
hit my truck when I was driving back from Virginia back here to
43:38
Texas. One I 1 deer I know did not make
43:42
it. The other deer had hit the right
43:45
front passenger door of my truck.
43:47
And I don't know where it went, but you know, there and, and
43:52
they were, they were not small. There is a balance of life here,
44:01
the right there. Too many deer would hit, too
44:07
many cars could kill people. You have to think about there is
44:11
a balance in things. I know this sounds like a
44:15
difficult conversation on the, you know, discussing that, but I
44:21
don't think we can ignore it either.
44:26
But I am also going to kind of touch on a on another touchy
44:31
subject and that that is what is going to be happening at Fort
44:37
Hood, you know, come December with a certain convicted, you
44:44
know, individual, I think his name is he was Major Hassan.
44:50
He's been serving some time waiting his sentence.
44:53
And, you know, I, I see some back and forth on should it be
45:01
aired? Shouldn't it be aired?
45:04
I'm not, you know, I, it's not for me to pass judgement on
45:10
whether it should or shouldn't. I don't know.
45:15
I think there's that there's that hard part about where was
45:22
where was his conviction to think about the lives of the of
45:26
the ones that he took? Where is the disincentive for
45:33
people to not do those things? I don't know that there's any
45:39
one right answer other than kind of going back into my faith and
45:45
saying, you know, God's going to take care of of these people one
45:50
way or another. The ones who are the poor
45:55
misbehaviors, right? The ones the bad actors, that's,
45:59
you know, the bad actors. It's tough.
46:04
It is tough. What is the right answer?
46:08
It's not for me to decide, but God's going to handle any of
46:13
these people who are, you know, who do these things.
46:17
God's going to handle them. I mean, I, I know there are
46:19
people who do other people wrong all the time.
46:22
And it's not even a matter of that they physically took their
46:26
life, but then they, you know, tried to bankrupt somebody
46:31
mentally, spiritually, emotionally, which had a
46:36
physical effect as well there. God's got a special place for
46:40
them too. It doesn't have to be me that
46:45
handles it, but to pray for the people who are making those
46:49
decisions, I think is, you know, where it comes down to and God,
46:55
you know, ultimately is the one who's going to take care of,
47:00
take care of these people in the judgment seat.
47:02
It's not for me to decide. I don't know, you know, I'd, I,
47:08
I don't know, I don't know if I will watch it or not.
47:15
I think there's a certain curiosity about watching it.
47:18
But then I think, you know, this was part of something that has
47:22
happened. You know, the public, public
47:30
executions have been part of history for the longest and only
47:36
in the 20th and 21st century have we not really been doing
47:40
public execution because, you know, courts, people decided
47:50
that it wasn't right. But but does the effect of it, I
47:56
think it gets back to something that is a moral, moral decision
48:02
is something that Darrell and I talked about on the Revivalist
48:06
radio show. You know, there's the moral
48:09
injury side and moral healing and recovery.
48:13
Does having a public execution fall into moral injury or does
48:18
it help more into the moral healing and recovery side?
48:22
And I think that ends up being a personal choice for each one of
48:26
us, whether watching it is going to give you some healing and
48:31
recovery or does watching it 'cause you some moral injury.
48:36
Because if it's going to cause you some moral injury, this is a
48:39
personal choice and I'm a veteran and I'm trying to let my
48:46
voice be heard. If you are contemplating whether
48:52
you want to watch it or not, then I think that that question
48:57
really ends up being, is there going to be moral injury if you
49:03
watch it or are you going to get some healing and recovery out of
49:07
it? It I think it depends upon how
49:12
impacted you are on what the original event was and whether
49:18
watching, watching the execution is going to help or harm you.
49:26
Only you know that. And I say that because my
49:32
recommendation to you is to take it to God.
49:38
Notice how I'm going back full circle that if you're not
49:43
putting God in the 1st place and praying to Him about what your
49:49
situation is, then you're already working at a
49:52
disadvantage because are you going to watch it and be morally
49:59
harmed and then you're going to go to God or not go to God at
50:03
all? I, I'm trying to help you
50:07
reframe because this is where we've kind of gotten out of
50:11
practice as a society that God, God's an option, right?
50:19
We think God's an option to go with us on our hike versus
50:23
putting God in the pocket to begin with.
50:27
Because if he's right here with us all the time, he's going to
50:31
take care of us all the time, but not when he's an
50:37
afterthought. I'm just trying to help you
50:42
think through that as you prepare to decide whether you're
50:47
going to watch the execution or not.
50:53
Go to God first, because that's not something that I can decide
50:58
for you or your husband or your wife or your kids or your
51:01
parents or whatever. Your fellow veteran brother,
51:06
sister, go to God first and if it's not right for you and you
51:14
think it's going to cause you some harm, then my
51:16
recommendation is don't watch it.
51:23
Go to God first if you think it's going to help you.
51:31
I'd still recommend that you go to God first because he's going
51:35
to help you work through the understanding on whether it's
51:42
going to help you with the moral healing and recovery.
51:45
Because one of the things that Darrell and I always talk about
51:49
on the Revivalist radio show, really our, our mission is when
51:56
we put God as the true north of our moral compass, then we're
52:00
headed down the right path. But if you're not sinking in
52:06
your thought processes to keep him as your true north, then you
52:12
might get a little lost. And we don't want you to get
52:16
lost. He doesn't want you to get lost.
52:18
We want you to be found. We want you to be on the right
52:21
path and knowing where you're going and not have more harm to
52:26
you. Does that make sense?
52:29
I mean, I hope it does. But if it doesn't go to God, if
52:34
it doesn't, feel free to message me.
52:36
I'll be happy to, you know, have a conversation with you.
52:42
That's how my people garden grows.
52:44
I meet all kinds of people in amazing places, in amazing
52:48
situations. And yeah, God always takes care
52:53
of me. He always takes care of me.
52:58
Yeah. So any who trying to think what
53:05
else we've covered some big FS, some big FS, right?
53:16
I didn't, I didn't really go into the faint and the fawn, but
53:19
I think you get those. The biggest one I think we don't
53:24
talk about enough, like I said, is fighting for ourselves and
53:28
it's military. I'm sorry, it is, it is mental
53:34
health day, right? But it's mental health day every
53:38
day. To me, part of your mental
53:42
health is your spiritual health. If you you know, your chair is
53:48
getting a little rocky and you're not sitting on even keel,
53:54
might have to pay attention to figuring out which leg has been
53:57
a little wonky and work on that physically.
54:03
When I went out there on my on the hike, even though I had the
54:08
bump on my head, walking around, you know, the, the Yellowstone
54:15
was pretty easy. I didn't go on any trails that
54:17
was. But I want to go back.
54:20
Yeah, I want to go back. It was beautiful, absolutely
54:23
gorgeous up there. Saw lots of other neat places
54:28
driving through and I my my cousin Beth we have we have
54:38
pegged down what our next adventure is going to be.
54:43
Gone on one vacation with her before we went to Hawaii several
54:47
years ago after my mom passed away.
54:50
And we did lots of hiking in Hawaii, in Oahu.
54:55
Yeah, pretty easy trails there, But we're looking at something a
54:59
little bit tougher. I'm have to do some training.
55:03
Definitely going to have to do some training.
55:05
We're we're going to plan. We're planning on going to
55:08
Yosemite. Captain.
55:10
I don't know. Hopefully that's not more than I
55:12
can chew. Yeah, I'm definitely going to
55:16
have to put on a training plan for that one, get back in the
55:20
gym. You know, I'm doing stuff here
55:23
at the house and haven't been going to the gym much.
55:27
But you know, I was out there driving the lawn mower in the
55:30
tractor and lifting bags and doing all kinds of stuff, power
55:36
washing yesterday. You know, it's kind of, it's
55:40
'cause I love my patio. It's an outdoor living space.
55:44
Maybe I have to host a show from out there one day and I'll do
55:49
that when Daryl comes over and just host the host a patio show.
55:54
It's gorgeous outside and you know, it's fresh air.
55:59
Nice. It's big, nice space.
56:01
Love it. So anyways, I I say that because
56:08
it's got the greatest sunsets ever.
56:10
I love my sunset view. It's not the Mountain View that
56:15
I'm seeing on my screen, but it's but it is pretty.
56:20
I mean, it's, it's here, it's my home, but it's, but it feels so
56:25
nice to get things cleaned up because when it's summer and
56:29
it's so hot out there, I, you know, you just don't want to
56:32
hang out outside because it's Texas, It's 100° almost every
56:36
day. Finally it's dropping to the
56:38
80s, you know, 80s. That's doable.
56:42
That's doable on the patio for sure.
56:47
And so I don't, I think I have a couple of minutes left.
56:50
I, I don't have a guest scheduled next Saturday.
56:54
Hopefully I'll get somebody scheduled that.
56:57
I was going to have a guy on today and he had an emergency.
57:02
So hopefully I will be able to get him scheduled on next
57:06
Saturday. Hopefully.
57:07
If I do, I want to make sure I give you guys his name.
57:11
So I'm trying to go to my messages.
57:13
Where'd the messages go? His name is Justin Lawrence
57:17
Brown Stevens, and our goal is to have an academic informed
57:24
discussion. He's been.
57:26
So I pretty sure. Where did he go?
57:31
Pretty sure that he is. He's gonna go.
57:35
Yeah. I told you guys.
57:36
I find I find people over the place.
57:39
So he's on LinkedIn, he's the founder and CEO staring down the
57:44
muzzle. It's a nonprofit.
57:46
He's a researcher, and we were going to talk about trauma,
57:52
technology and recovery. He's a wealth of information,
57:56
very motivated about what his mission in life is.
58:01
And you know, so hopefully I can get him rescheduled for next
58:04
Saturday, but he had a scheduling conflict today.
58:08
So, you know, things in life happens, they happen.
58:12
And we don't need to add to each other's, you know, situations.
58:17
I mean, it's like I said, it's it's mental health awareness day
58:21
everyday. So we don't need to give each
58:23
other, you know, extra issues. So I don't have anything else
58:28
for today. I hope you all have a great
58:31
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