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MATTERS OF THE HEART-IN SYNC WITH GODS PLAN · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: Good morning, and welcome to Matters of the Heart Series
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  Speaker 1: number three. Listen, you guys, if you miss parts one
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  Speaker 1: into I don't know what you were doing, honestly, because
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  Speaker 1: Matters of the Heart is something that each and every
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  Speaker 1: one of us deals with. We go through the healing,
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  Speaker 1: we have to figure out what our alignment is. We
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  Speaker 1: get in by the things that we've gone through. We
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  Speaker 1: understand the resilience of what we have to continue forth
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  Speaker 1: with the mission that God has placed us on, and
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  Speaker 1: we go through trauma. So we're gonna talk about every
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  Speaker 1: one of these matters that deal directly with the heart.
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  Speaker 1: So if you miss one and two, you're in a
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  Speaker 1: treat for part three today. But I do want to
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  Speaker 1: recommend that you go back and watch parts one and
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  Speaker 1: two and you'll come full circle and you'll be up
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  Speaker 1: to date with everything that we got going on. So,
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  Speaker 1: but before we do any and any of that, we
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  Speaker 1: definitely have to go to God in prayer because without
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  Speaker 1: Him we are nothing, but with Him we are everything.
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  Speaker 1: So let's go to God in prayer. Dear Heavenly Father,
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  Speaker 1: thank you for bringing us together as you do each
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  Speaker 1: and every time we're in front of you. Let the
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  Speaker 1: words of our mouths fall upon the ears that need
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  Speaker 1: to hear. Let them take what they need from us
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  Speaker 1: and the things that we've been through. Let this be
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  Speaker 1: a seed and a vessel so that they know that
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  Speaker 1: they can come out of anything that they've been put in.
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  Speaker 1: That you have the power to bring them out if
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  Speaker 1: they would surrender whatever it is over to you, because
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  Speaker 1: you have the power to sustain us in each and
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  Speaker 1: everything that we are tested through, because if we can't
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  Speaker 1: be tested, we will never have a testimony. We walk
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  Speaker 1: through grace, We walk through everything that you've put in
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  Speaker 1: front of us. Our path is directed by you. You
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  Speaker 1: know what the purpose is for each and everything that
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  Speaker 1: we go through. So let the words of the mouths
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  Speaker 1: of the women that are going to be speaking today,
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  Speaker 1: let it fall upon the ears that need to hear.
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  Speaker 1: If it doesn't apply to them, may they use it
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  Speaker 1: to give it over to someone else. Let us be
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  Speaker 1: the overflow for someone else. And your precious and holy name, Jesus,
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  Speaker 1: we pray. Amen. We have some wonderful women that are
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  Speaker 1: going to come to you this morning, and they're going
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  Speaker 1: to be talking about healing. With healing, we have Miss
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  Speaker 1: Alma Thomas, with empowerment, We have Miss Danielle with alignment
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  Speaker 1: that is none other than Queen Angela. And with resilience,
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  Speaker 1: we have Unique Parker, and with trauma no more Miss
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  Speaker 1: Monique Duels. So these wonderful ladies are going to talk
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  Speaker 1: to you about these specific topics. However, their topics are
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  Speaker 1: actually going to tie into each and every one of
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  Speaker 1: these matters of the heart, so you'll be able to
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  Speaker 1: understand why it is so important for us to talk
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  Speaker 1: about these matters, because when you are able to talk
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  Speaker 1: about it, you're able to heal from the things that
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  Speaker 1: you've been going through in your life. One of those
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  Speaker 1: things that we can easily get distracted and down and
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  Speaker 1: stay in that place, but God never wants you to
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  Speaker 1: stay in a place where you're just down and out.
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  Speaker 1: He puts you in situations to understand that what's deep
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  Speaker 1: down inside of you is going to take you to
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  Speaker 1: the next level. When you pray and ask God for something,
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  Speaker 1: he's going to see how bad do you want it?
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  Speaker 1: By putting you through certain things to see if you're
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  Speaker 1: going to be able to get out of it, He's
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  Speaker 1: already placed in us what we need to get to
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  Speaker 1: our next level. But we have to be willing to
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  Speaker 1: go through it to see just what we are capable
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  Speaker 1: of overcoming, because you can overcome anything if you trust
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  Speaker 1: in God's will for your life, because He designed you
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  Speaker 1: for a purpose. He designed you for a mission. And
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  Speaker 1: so when you are walking with God, you understand that
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  Speaker 1: everything that you are going through has a purpose. It
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  Speaker 1: is like little puzzle pieces that fit together to design
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  Speaker 1: the purpose of which you were created. And when you
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  Speaker 1: put those puzzle pieces together, and when you look back
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  Speaker 1: over the things that you have gone through, you understand
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  Speaker 1: why that piece didn't fit at that spot because it
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  Speaker 1: wasn't supposed to spit fit right then. But when you
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  Speaker 1: start looking back, you like, oh God, that makes a
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  Speaker 1: whole lot of sense now, because it didn't make sense
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  Speaker 1: when you were going through The pain didn't make sense
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  Speaker 1: when you were going through it. None of it made sense.
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  Speaker 1: But God said, if you trust me, I got you,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm gonna walk you through it. Just trust me.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not putting anything on you that I didn't know
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  Speaker 1: that you were capable of coming out of. So I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna be quiet for just a little bit, and I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna bring up Miss Alma, and she's gonna talk to
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  Speaker 1: us about healing, But I thank you guys for being
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  Speaker 1: with us this morning.
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  Speaker 2: Good morning, Good morning, Travia. How are you doing.
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  Speaker 1: I'm good, How are you?
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  Speaker 2: I am excellent. Amen.
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  Speaker 3: So this morning I'm gonna talk about healing, but first
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  Speaker 3: of all, I want to thank everybody for being here,
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  Speaker 3: for showing up do a workshop or speech like this,
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  Speaker 3: because this this is not always easy. Sometimes admitting we've
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  Speaker 3: been heard feels like pulling off the band aid, pulling
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  Speaker 3: the covers off a wound we work so hard to hide.
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  Speaker 3: So I honor your courage on today acknowledging the reality
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  Speaker 3: of trauma. Before we heal from trauma, we must first
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  Speaker 3: admit that we've been through something. Trauma is not just
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  Speaker 3: what happens to us, is what happens inside of us.
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  Speaker 2: Because what happened to us. It can come from.
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  Speaker 3: A single man, a loss, an accident, a betrayal, or
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  Speaker 3: it can be layered over years from abuse, neglect, or
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  Speaker 3: constant instability. Trauma changes the way we see ourselves, others,
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  Speaker 3: and even God. As I was going through my period
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  Speaker 3: of healing from the death of my son, I had
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  Speaker 3: to first admit that.
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  Speaker 2: I was mad, mad at God, mad at people.
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  Speaker 3: That still had ded children, and I had to admit
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  Speaker 3: that I needed to be healed. I needed to forgive myself.
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  Speaker 2: I needed to.
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  Speaker 3: I understand that God makes no mistakes, but when you
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  Speaker 3: are going through drama, in order for you to yield,
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  Speaker 3: you have to admit that you have a problem. If
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  Speaker 3: you don't admit that you have a problem, you cannot ill.
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  Speaker 3: Many of us carry wounds that others can't see. You know,
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  Speaker 3: the conduct don't believe we're still ache every single day.
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  Speaker 3: We learned to smile when we're breaking, to say I'm
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  Speaker 3: fine when we're not, and to push through. What we
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  Speaker 3: want to do is stop and breathe. I remember when
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  Speaker 3: people were asking me, how are you doing, You're so strong,
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  Speaker 3: and I would say I'm fine. During the day, I
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  Speaker 3: would go about my daily duties, laughing and joking. But
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  Speaker 3: in the midnight hours, when I was home, all by
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  Speaker 3: my soul, I would cry myself to sleep.
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  Speaker 2: I was silently hurting.
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  Speaker 3: Trying to hide the try, trying to hide the pain.
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  Speaker 3: I even had to forgive myself every night for acting
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  Speaker 3: like everything was all right. I would say at night,
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  Speaker 3: how can I laugh when my son is dead? How
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  Speaker 3: can I go on like nothing happened? This is killing
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  Speaker 3: me inside, yet on the outside I was smiling. Trauma
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  Speaker 3: can steal our sense of safety.
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  Speaker 2: It can make.
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  Speaker 3: Joy feel foreign and trust risky and get Here's what
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  Speaker 3: I want to remember. Trauma may have shaped part of
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  Speaker 3: your story, but it does not have to be the
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  Speaker 3: final word over your story. Your current situation is not
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  Speaker 3: your final destination. I didn't have to stay in grief.
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  Speaker 3: I had to admit to myself that I was grieving,
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  Speaker 3: That grieving was showing up in parts of my body,
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  Speaker 3: and stress and high blood pressure and depression. All of
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  Speaker 3: that was my trauma showing up the healing process. Healing
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  Speaker 3: is not quick and it's not lineal. It's not a
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  Speaker 3: straight path.
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  Speaker 2: You know.
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  Speaker 3: When I went to college, I studied the stages of
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  Speaker 3: grief on Wow, it looks so easy. Are you're going
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  Speaker 3: through something. You're gonna go through denial, You're gonna go
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  Speaker 3: through anger, and you're gonna go through depression, and yo,
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  Speaker 3: finally you're gonna get to acceptance and everything is gonna
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  Speaker 3: be all right.
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  Speaker 2: But wait a minute.
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  Speaker 3: When I went through the depth of my son, it
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  Speaker 3: didn't go on a street line like that. One day
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  Speaker 3: I was in denial. This is a nightmare. I wanna
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  Speaker 3: wake up. This didn't happen to me. I'm not burying
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  Speaker 3: my son when I should be sending him off to college.
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  Speaker 3: And then the next day I would be an acceptance.
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  Speaker 3: Oh you know, God doesn't make any mistakes. To be
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  Speaker 3: absent from the body is to be present with the Lord.
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  Speaker 3: But then I would go right back to being angry again.
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  Speaker 3: And I'm saying, wait a minute. When I was in college,
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  Speaker 3: it seemed so easy. Step one, step two, step three,
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  Speaker 3: step four, and five, and you're you're over it, You're
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  Speaker 3: accepted now and you go on.
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  Speaker 2: But why is that not happening in my heart? Why
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  Speaker 2: am I going back and forth?
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  Speaker 3: Because it's not lineal, it's not step one, step two,
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  Speaker 3: step three, step four.
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  Speaker 2: But the important part for.
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  Speaker 3: Your healing is that you can't stay stagnant in any part.
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  Speaker 3: I realize that there are people who will go who
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  Speaker 3: went through the lords of a child that end up
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  Speaker 3: in a mental hospital. Because if you don't heal and
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  Speaker 3: you stay in one part, you stay depressed, you stay
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  Speaker 3: in bed, you stay not wanting to do your usual activity,
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  Speaker 3: then you can't heal. And once you can't heal, you
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  Speaker 3: might go crazy end up in a mental and if
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  Speaker 3: you don't end up in a mental institution, you end
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  Speaker 3: up in a ment and spiritual mental institution.
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  Speaker 2: One day.
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  Speaker 3: It's not a straight path where one day we wake
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  Speaker 3: up and everything is fine. Healing is a journey. Sometimes
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  Speaker 3: you step forward and one step backwards.
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  Speaker 2: But I came here this wanting to tell you that's okay.
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  Speaker 2: There are days when your progress.
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  Speaker 3: Would be quiet, like when you finally sleep through the
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  Speaker 3: night after the death of my son. I could have
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  Speaker 3: got hooked on drugs because I couldn't go at sleep,
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  Speaker 3: but I told myself, oh, you're not on drugs because
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  Speaker 3: this is just talano PM. But I needed talano PM
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  Speaker 3: every night to sleep. So when I finally was able
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  Speaker 3: to sleep one night without taking a talanoyl PM, that
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  Speaker 3: was one step towards healing. I celebrated in the morning
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  Speaker 3: when I woke up. I was like, thank you Jesus.
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  Speaker 3: I fell asleep without the talano tonight, and then maybe
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  Speaker 3: the next night that I needed to talanoal again. But
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  Speaker 3: then when I didn't take it again, that was another
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  Speaker 3: step until finally I could go to sleep without the
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  Speaker 3: talanol PM. And there are days when your healing will
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  Speaker 3: be loud, when you tell your story why doubt tears
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  Speaker 3: for the first time, or when you realize you can
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  Speaker 3: laugh again and mean it. When I stopped crying through
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  Speaker 3: the night, when I stopped being mad at myself for living,
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  Speaker 3: when I asked God, I said, I had to come
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  Speaker 3: to the realization because I asked God one morning, I said, God,
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  Speaker 3: why didn't you take me? It me and my father
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  Speaker 3: got a relationship. He said, I didn't take you because
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  Speaker 3: you wasn't ready. There were some things in your life.
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  Speaker 3: There was some unforgiveness in your life. Your son, he
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  Speaker 3: was ready, but you wasn't ready. If I took you,
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  Speaker 3: you wouldn't be with me. I was like, Wow, I've
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  Speaker 3: been saved for like twenty years and you're telling me God,
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  Speaker 3: I wasn't ready. Got to you got to release some
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  Speaker 3: unforgivenness in your art. You're still holding people that hurt
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  Speaker 3: you when you was in kindergarten. You're still thinking about
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  Speaker 3: those kids who didn't pick you in sixth grade. You
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  Speaker 3: still thinking about those boys that used to call you Faddy.
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  Speaker 3: That little girl inside of you is still holding unforgiveness.
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  Speaker 3: And if you want to be with me, you have
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  Speaker 3: to forgive them. Oh not for them Forgiveness is not
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  Speaker 3: for the ones that hurt you. Forgiveness is for you
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  Speaker 3: so you can be free. Sometimes you're holding unforgiveness in
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  Speaker 3: your heart and they going on with life like they
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  Speaker 3: never hurt you. They might not even remember in fifth
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  Speaker 3: grade when they called you stow up girl, because one
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  Speaker 3: day you threw up and for the whole elementary school
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  Speaker 3: years you was known as stow up girl. But they
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  Speaker 3: were five and they grew up. But you are still
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  Speaker 3: stagnant in that place because you refuse to heal. You
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  Speaker 3: thought of.
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  Speaker 2: Your soul a stir I'm girl.
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  Speaker 3: Faith and hope psb'ms thirty four in eighteen says the
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  Speaker 3: Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those
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  Speaker 3: who are chusting spirit. I believe that God does not
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  Speaker 3: abandon us in our pain. He meets us there, He
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  Speaker 3: walks with us still the valley. He doesn't promise that
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  Speaker 3: life will never hurt again, but he does promise that
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  Speaker 3: our pain wouldn't be wasted. One of the ways in
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  Speaker 3: which I healed is because I started to thank God
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  Speaker 3: for my trials and tribulation. Said, I didn't go through
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  Speaker 3: all of this for nothing. I didn't lose my child
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  Speaker 3: for nothing. I didn't go through a fire for nothing.
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  Speaker 3: I didn't get divorced for nothing. And lastly, if you
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  Speaker 3: realize that I'm laying down and you thought maybe I
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  Speaker 3: didn't get up for this workshop, no no. I suffered
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  Speaker 3: a massive stroke in twenty twenty one, but I didn't
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  Speaker 3: let any of that stop me because God told me
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  Speaker 3: the pain was necessary for me to see the pain
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  Speaker 3: and others.
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  Speaker 2: Now, when others are going.
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  Speaker 3: Through being stagnant in their healing stage, I can tell them,
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  Speaker 3: You're gonna be all right. If you stood in the
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  Speaker 3: cemetery and lowered your son into the ground one of
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  Speaker 3: the darkest days of your life, God will still be
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  Speaker 3: with you. If you went through being homeless, God will
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  Speaker 3: still be with you. You can still make it through
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  Speaker 3: being married and getting a divorce. And less of all,
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  Speaker 3: you can still make it through a stroke. Because you
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  Speaker 3: know what I learned how to do. I learned how
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  Speaker 3: to embrace the things that I can still do and
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  Speaker 3: accept the things that I can't do. God has used
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  Speaker 3: me right here from my bed, right in the place
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  Speaker 3: where the enemy told me my healing was over. He said, ah,
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  Speaker 3: you jump back here. You bounce back from the death
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  Speaker 3: of your son. You bounce back from that fire. Ah,
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  Speaker 3: you even bounce back from that divorce. But can you
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  Speaker 3: bounce back when your body's being afflicted? Can you bounce
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  Speaker 3: back when these old legs don't move anymore? Can you
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  Speaker 3: bounce back? Can you say that you've been healed? And
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  Speaker 3: I said yes, I said because see, the one thing
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  Speaker 3: that you didn't affect is my voice. I can still speak.
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  Speaker 3: I can still tell the glory of God in my
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  Speaker 3: healing process. After my stroke, when the enemy told me
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  Speaker 3: it was over, that my healing was over. After that,
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  Speaker 3: I wrote four books on one hand with one finger.
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  Speaker 3: After that, I got my master's degree in theology last year,
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  Speaker 3: and now this year I'm teaching at the same school
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  Speaker 3: that I went to.
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  Speaker 2: And the enemy said.
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  Speaker 3: It was over. He said, my healing was over. But
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  Speaker 3: I accepted the things that I cannot do. And then
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  Speaker 3: some practical steps. Healing means giving yourself to breathe, yourself
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  Speaker 3: permission to breathe and rest without guilt, speak your truth
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  Speaker 3: without shame, seek help without feeling weak. And see, that's
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  Speaker 3: one thing that happens in the African American community.
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  Speaker 2: See, we was look taught from.
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  Speaker 3: A young age that what happens in this house stays
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  Speaker 3: in this house. What you're going through you don't share
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  Speaker 3: with no And if you remember of the ministry, it's
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  Speaker 3: even harder because this saying you got God, you don't
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  Speaker 3: need therapy, but God in therapy goes hand in hand.
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  Speaker 3: I had to seek therapy for my healing because I
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  Speaker 3: didn't understand while I was why I wasn't grieving and
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  Speaker 3: a line why I wasn't grieving step by step. So
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  Speaker 3: I had to go see a professional. And it's all right,
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  Speaker 3: it's okay not to be okay. I came by here
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  Speaker 3: this wanting to tell you if you're not okay, if
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  Speaker 3: you find yourself stagnant in your healing process, reach out,
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  Speaker 3: reach out to someone. It's okay. You can still pray.
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  Speaker 3: I prayed that that therapist had to answer. I prayed
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  Speaker 3: that that therapist could help me. I prayed that I
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  Speaker 3: wouldn't stay stagnant and being depressed. I pray that I,
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  Speaker 3: after all that I've been through, all the illing pos
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  Speaker 3: that I've been through, I prayed that I wouldn't get stuck.
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  Speaker 3: I prayed, and I suck help And it's okay not
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  Speaker 3: to be okay. And yes, sometimes feeling means forgiven, not
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  Speaker 3: to excuse what happened, but just the sensual self free
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  Speaker 3: from what happened to you. You are not what happened
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  Speaker 3: to you. You are not the sum of your wounds.
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  Speaker 3: You are a survivor. Yes, you are an overcomer, but
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  Speaker 3: even more than that, you are a person worthy of peace,
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  Speaker 3: love and wholeness.
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  Speaker 2: The soul is.
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  Speaker 3: I invite you to take one step, just one step,
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  Speaker 3: towards your healing, because every small step matters. And one day, well,
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  Speaker 3: one day, very soon you look back over your life
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  Speaker 3: you realize that you're not living, only just living, but
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  Speaker 3: you're living a life that God dostn't you to live.
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  Speaker 2: God bless everybody.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you, Miss Alma for that, and that was truly,
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  Speaker 1: truly amazing. People don't understand that you have to first
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  Speaker 1: acknowledge what you've gone through in order to begin that
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  Speaker 1: healing process. You have to be acknowledgeable of what you experienced.
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  Speaker 1: The experience is what you lived through, and acknowledging that
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  Speaker 1: brings you to the beginning stages of healing. And you
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  Speaker 1: said something that touched open something I did yesterday with
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  Speaker 1: my grieving process and of my mom forgiving those people
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  Speaker 1: who called you names as a little girl was one
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  Speaker 1: of those things that you know, I acknowledged yesterday when
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  Speaker 1: I made my post about what I was feeling, because
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  Speaker 1: grief is one of those things that it doesn't come
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  Speaker 1: in a straight line. It comes in waves, and you
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  Speaker 1: adjust day by day and moment by moment with the
• 25:45
  Speaker 1: grieving process. And I was talking about the healing of
• 25:51
  Speaker 1: my relationship with my mom before she passed, and I
• 25:55
  Speaker 1: was able to realize that my Mom's passing and us
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  Speaker 1: healing that relationship through the ups and downs that we
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  Speaker 1: went through before she passed, she allowed that little girl
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  Speaker 1: in me to be healed. So the woman that I
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  Speaker 1: am now and the woman that I've been been becoming
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  Speaker 1: since she's not here are two totally different people. And
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  Speaker 1: also acknowledging the fact that whatever happens in this house
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  Speaker 1: stays in this house. That has gone out the window
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  Speaker 1: for me. I speak on what happened to me and
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  Speaker 1: whoever doesn't like it because family doesn't always know what
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  Speaker 1: goes on behind the closed doors when they're not around.
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  Speaker 1: They only see what's being presented to them at the time,
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  Speaker 1: and so what happened to me behind closed doors, I'm
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  Speaker 1: bringing to the forefront You don't have to like it,
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  Speaker 1: you don't have to agree with it. But it's my
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  Speaker 1: experience and you don't get to diminish my experience because
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  Speaker 1: it wasn't what you experience. And so I make no
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  Speaker 1: apologies for bringing forth what happened to me now. And
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  Speaker 1: so I think people are going to understand and get
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  Speaker 1: from this is that you can be in a situation
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  Speaker 1: with family and just because it happened in that house,
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  Speaker 1: it does not have to stay in that house. If
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  Speaker 1: it's hurting, you speak on it. Let people know that
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  Speaker 1: you went through this. You're not hurt any longer because
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  Speaker 1: of what you went through. It has built you into
• 27:30
  Speaker 1: the stronger version that you are. And healing is one
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  Speaker 1: thing that we all have to do to get to
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  Speaker 1: those next levels that God has us. And it brings
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  Speaker 1: me to a point to say this, in your brokenness,
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: God brought you to boldness and that's where we are
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  Speaker 1: right now. We're walking in the boldness because we've been broken.
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  Speaker 1: He broke us in order to build us into being
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  Speaker 1: bold and stepping forth into what it is that we've
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  Speaker 1: been destined to do. You had to be broken, and
• 28:03
  Speaker 1: God knew that he was going to use your broken
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  Speaker 1: number one, to bring you closer to him. Number two,
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  Speaker 1: to have someone else be see what you've gone through,
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  Speaker 1: to bring you out in the forefront. Because I had
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  Speaker 1: a stroke myself, I lost my ability to speak and
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  Speaker 1: use the left side of my body. But Man told
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  Speaker 1: me to get used to that, and God told me
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  Speaker 1: I didn't have to get used to them, and I
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: didn't have to get used to being in that position.
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  Speaker 1: God said, I have more for you if you trust me,
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  Speaker 1: If you trust me to bring you through the next level.
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  Speaker 1: It may not always look good, it may not always
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  Speaker 1: feel good. But if you continue to trust me, I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna bring you out of where you are and bring
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  Speaker 1: you forth to the people that need to hear you.
• 28:53
  Speaker 1: You have not always been in the background. You've just
• 28:56
  Speaker 1: been unseen to the eyes that didn't need to see you.
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  Speaker 1: But when it's time for you to be seen and
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  Speaker 1: be heard, you will be seen and you will be heard.
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  Speaker 1: Everybody is not meant to see you, and everybody is
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  Speaker 1: not meant to hear you. But the ones that I
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  Speaker 1: call forth for you to be seen and heard by,
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  Speaker 1: you will always be seen and heard by in the
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  Speaker 1: time and in which I have set forth for us.
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  Speaker 1: So I thank you so much for your inside, your understanding,
• 29:24
  Speaker 1: your journey, your role to discovering your purpose. Because just
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: because you are in a space to where your physical
• 29:32
  Speaker 1: body doesn't move in the way that you wanted to,
• 29:35
  Speaker 1: your spiritual body touches people in ways you probably never
• 29:39
  Speaker 1: even imagine until you started walking closer with God, and
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: you touch people beyond what you even know. They may
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: not ever say anything to you, because some people don't
• 29:49
  Speaker 1: want to know want you to know that they are
• 29:52
  Speaker 1: touched by what you doing because they still are ashamed
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  Speaker 1: of what it is that they're going through. So until
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: they make peace with whatever it is that they're going through,
• 30:02
  Speaker 1: they're gonna always be in the background and say, I
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: don't want her to know, but she inspires me. So
• 30:08
  Speaker 1: just continue to be the blessing that you are to
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  Speaker 1: everybody that you come in contact with, because those people
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  Speaker 1: are needed by you. You bless us, You bless me
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  Speaker 1: in more ways than I think you even know. And
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  Speaker 1: I'm grateful for the honor and the connection that God
• 30:25
  Speaker 1: has connected our past and we continue to grow and
• 30:29
  Speaker 1: be one in the fellowship of God. So it's a
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: beautiful thing when you start going through healing and everybody
• 30:40
  Speaker 1: has to acknowledge your pain is for a purpose. God
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  Speaker 1: ain't gonna put you through nothing if he ain't got
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  Speaker 1: a if he ain't got a plan for it. I
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: almost say it that way, because God ain't gonna push
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  Speaker 1: you through nothing that he don't have a plan to
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  Speaker 1: let you know that this is why I put you
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  Speaker 1: through this. I got something for it. You may not
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  Speaker 1: understand it, and it may be detrimental. It may change
• 31:06
  Speaker 1: your life in a way you never imagine. And I
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: always tell people my stroke for me was a gift
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  Speaker 1: and a curse, and people don't understand that because had
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  Speaker 1: I not gone through what I went through, I would
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  Speaker 1: not be who I am. I would not be speaking
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  Speaker 1: in front of people right now because this ain't something
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  Speaker 1: now I saw myself doing in any capacity. But God
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  Speaker 1: has shown me visions of things that I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: be doing. I just have to get out of my
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  Speaker 1: own way and say, Okay, God, I trust you. I
• 31:40
  Speaker 1: don't know what it is, but I'm gonna trust you
• 31:43
  Speaker 1: because you have gone forth and you set the past.
• 31:46
  Speaker 1: And yes, it's gonna be some valleys, it's gonna be
• 31:48
  Speaker 1: some dark days, it's gonna be some hard things that
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: I'm gonna feel like I can't get over, but if
• 31:54
  Speaker 1: I keep holding onto your hand, I know you're gonna
• 31:57
  Speaker 1: take me through to the next step. So thank you
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  Speaker 1: you so much, miss Alma. I really really have been
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  Speaker 1: touched by what you said today, Tarvida.
• 32:06
  Speaker 4: Before we go, before we go in each other. Unique
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  Speaker 4: she just she just got a message that her niece
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  Speaker 4: passed away. So we're gonna keep her in prayer. But
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  Speaker 4: yet she's trying to she said, she's trying to get
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  Speaker 4: back on. But I have Shaniya here that can sub
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  Speaker 4: for her if we can pray for her really quick.
• 32:31
  Speaker 4: Because the reason why Unique was even doing resists is
• 32:35
  Speaker 4: because since I met her a year ago, this lady
• 32:38
  Speaker 4: has lost. For the whole twelve months that I've known her,
• 32:42
  Speaker 4: every month she's lost somebody in her family. And there
• 32:45
  Speaker 4: was one month where she lost almost six people. Oh
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  Speaker 4: it seemed like every every other week she was going
• 32:51
  Speaker 4: to a service, having to go to a homegoing. And
• 32:54
  Speaker 4: I have watched her be strong, I have watched her
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  Speaker 4: keep pressing. I've watched her to continue to run, her
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  Speaker 4: be continue to do all the things that she's doing,
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  Speaker 4: and I just want us to lift her up in
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  Speaker 4: prayer really quick as she figure out what's going on
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  Speaker 4: behind the scenes. And again she may be back. Not
• 33:14
  Speaker 4: sure if she's gonna make it back, but she said
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  Speaker 4: she was trying to get back on.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, Miss Alma, you want to pray?
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  Speaker 3: Uh did haven my father and the pressious name of
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  Speaker 3: your son, Jesus, We come to you this morning, praying
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  Speaker 3: for ideas to the God that you touch your mind
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  Speaker 3: to touch your heart. Did you give her the strength
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  Speaker 3: to continue? Hallelujah. God, You're able to do anything that
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  Speaker 3: fails but fail. You can give up the security on
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  Speaker 3: this morning. You can rock her in your arms like
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  Speaker 3: nobody else can. We ask you to take care of
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  Speaker 3: your daughter on this morning. Give us strength.
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  Speaker 2: God, You know the.
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  Speaker 3: Things that her and her family are in need of
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  Speaker 3: at this moment.
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  Speaker 2: Grant her those things.
• 34:22
  Speaker 3: God, give them a peace that surpasses all understanding. We
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  Speaker 3: don't understanding. God, We don't know your ways. Your ways
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  Speaker 3: are your ways, but you don't make any mistakes. Everything
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  Speaker 3: is for a purpose and a reason. Remember your daughter
• 34:47
  Speaker 3: on this morning. Comfort her even now. God, even now, God,
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  Speaker 3: we ask that you comfort the family.
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  Speaker 2: You be with them.
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  Speaker 3: God, I know hallelujah that your word says that you'll
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  Speaker 3: never leave us or forsaken.
• 35:08
  Speaker 2: Oh, that you're there for the broken hearted. That morning
• 35:15
  Speaker 2: only lasted for a while. We've been only and there
• 35:20
  Speaker 2: us for a moment.
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  Speaker 3: But joy will come in the morning. God, be there,
• 35:29
  Speaker 3: rocking in your arms. Oh, I'm just wanting I understand.
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  Speaker 3: I understand the pain. I can feel the pain right now.
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  Speaker 5: God.
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  Speaker 3: But only you, God, only you can ease that pain.
• 35:46
  Speaker 3: Only you can ease that hurting in her heart. Be
• 35:50
  Speaker 3: there for the family. God, even when in the midnight hour,
• 35:55
  Speaker 3: when everybody's going home to their own individual home, be there,
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  Speaker 3: Rock of God, be there like nobody else can. In
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  Speaker 3: the precious name of Jesus, we pray, Amen.
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  Speaker 1: Amen, Amen, Lord, you know what's going on more than
• 36:19
  Speaker 1: we do. We thank you for everything that you are
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  Speaker 1: doing right now. We don't understand it, but we trust you.
• 36:28
  Speaker 1: Up next, y'all, we have Miss Danielle. She's gonna talk
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: to us about empowerment. That is a thing I think
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  Speaker 1: most of us gonna understand that we have in this life.
• 36:41
  Speaker 1: But Miss Danielle, You're.
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  Speaker 6: Okay.
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  Speaker 5: Thank you all just so much for this opportunity to
• 36:47
  Speaker 5: be here. I'm not sure if I'm frozen or if
• 36:49
  Speaker 5: there's a delay regarding my camera, but regardless, as long
• 36:52
  Speaker 5: as you can hear me, we're just gonna keep moving forward.
• 36:55
  Speaker 5: And as I was just kind of picking this topic
• 36:59
  Speaker 5: and just say, thinking about empowerment, I'm like, how can
• 37:01
  Speaker 5: you empower someone when they've lost so much, when the
• 37:05
  Speaker 5: world has been turned upside down, when you know, just
• 37:08
  Speaker 5: it seems like things are never going to get better.
• 37:10
  Speaker 5: We talked about, you know, facing one loss after another,
• 37:14
  Speaker 5: loss after another loss, but just hearing just so far
• 37:18
  Speaker 5: as you've just been speaking, all of us providing empowerment
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  Speaker 5: to those that are listening. And so when I looked
• 37:23
  Speaker 5: up the definition of empowerment, it says the process of
• 37:26
  Speaker 5: becoming stronger and becoming more confident, of reclaiming your life.
• 37:31
  Speaker 5: And just thinking about to empower someone is to encourage
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  Speaker 5: them to provide hope. And that's what we're all doing today,
• 37:37
  Speaker 5: and that's what we need. And I was thinking about
• 37:40
  Speaker 5: how for me, you know, I'm an introvert, I keep
• 37:43
  Speaker 5: to myself, I'm an only child, And think about how
• 37:45
  Speaker 5: sometimes it's so easy when we go to church, even
• 37:48
  Speaker 5: if we go to church every single Sunday for twenty
• 37:50
  Speaker 5: years and how sometimes it's easy to slip in and
• 37:52
  Speaker 5: out and a lot of times we need that empowerment
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  Speaker 5: and sometimes we don't get it. And yet I'm like, Okay,
• 37:59
  Speaker 5: so how can power how can encourage others? And just
• 38:02
  Speaker 5: realizing that sometimes we don't always get that empowerment that
• 38:05
  Speaker 5: we need from others. We'd always get that encouraging word,
• 38:07
  Speaker 5: that support that we so long for and that we
• 38:11
  Speaker 5: so need. But then in that we can empower ourselves
• 38:15
  Speaker 5: and we can help others on that journey. And so
• 38:17
  Speaker 5: there was a quote that I came across reesonness is
• 38:20
  Speaker 5: you know, I don't want what someone else has, and
• 38:23
  Speaker 5: it's regarding loss, I just want what I have lost.
• 38:26
  Speaker 5: And I just had to kind of sit with that
• 38:28
  Speaker 5: statement because thinking that in the midst of loss and
• 38:31
  Speaker 5: grief and trauma, sometimes it's not always what some wanting
• 38:34
  Speaker 5: what someone else has. Maybe it's that house, maybe it's
• 38:37
  Speaker 5: having your child back, Maybe it's having that job that
• 38:40
  Speaker 5: was really good, that relationship that you felt like that
• 38:42
  Speaker 5: was going to go the distance, whatever it might be
• 38:45
  Speaker 5: that you're longing for, It's like you just want what
• 38:47
  Speaker 5: you've lost, And yet in that it's a blessing because
• 38:51
  Speaker 5: we can be reminded that we can empower ourselves but
• 38:54
  Speaker 5: then also empower others and let them know, even in
• 38:56
  Speaker 5: the midst of loss, that they're not alone, that they're
• 38:59
  Speaker 5: going to get through this, even if it doesn't seem
• 39:01
  Speaker 5: like it in the moment, and that eventually things will
• 39:04
  Speaker 5: get better. And I wish that it was easy to say, Okay, yep,
• 39:07
  Speaker 5: things are going to get better in two months, in
• 39:09
  Speaker 5: two weeks, maybe once you had that funeral, that everything's
• 39:12
  Speaker 5: just going to be better. But a lot of times
• 39:15
  Speaker 5: with grief, as we all know, it's not like that.
• 39:17
  Speaker 5: There's still the triggers. I know, I lost my dad
• 39:19
  Speaker 5: as a two year anniversary in July, and there's still
• 39:22
  Speaker 5: songs that just remind me of him, or a cheesy
• 39:25
  Speaker 5: joke that he would have told or something else, or
• 39:28
  Speaker 5: even when I see a little girl that would have
• 39:29
  Speaker 5: been the age of my daughter that I lost about
• 39:32
  Speaker 5: nine years ago, and thinking of how she would have looked,
• 39:35
  Speaker 5: how she would have laughed, how I would have spent
• 39:37
  Speaker 5: time with her, all of these different things, and just
• 39:39
  Speaker 5: holding on to those things and just saying, you know,
• 39:43
  Speaker 5: I want that and I miss that, and I feel
• 39:45
  Speaker 5: like it's unfair and sometimes we can feel cheated, but
• 39:49
  Speaker 5: in that I'm thankful that God brings people our way
• 39:52
  Speaker 5: and he empowers us and reminds us that, okay, there
• 39:56
  Speaker 5: is hope in the midst of everything that's going on.
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  Speaker 5: So as preparing for today, I came across this Bible
• 40:02
  Speaker 5: story and it's one that I've only heard a sermon
• 40:04
  Speaker 5: about once, and I wish that kind of pastors would
• 40:08
  Speaker 5: talk about it more often. But it's Exodus seventeen chapters,
• 40:11
  Speaker 5: so it's versus it Exitus seventeen verses twelve through fourteen,
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  Speaker 5: and it talks about how Moses was Moses and the
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  Speaker 5: Israelites and they were fighting a battle against the a
• 40:21
  Speaker 5: Melakites might have mispronounced it, and so Joshua was fighting
• 40:24
  Speaker 5: the battle, and in that God told Moses that when
• 40:28
  Speaker 5: he held his arms up and held his staff up
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  Speaker 5: that they would win the battle, but then when his
• 40:33
  Speaker 5: arms would fall, that they would lose the battle. And
• 40:36
  Speaker 5: so just long story even short kind of just to
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  Speaker 5: sum up everything, there was Aaron and her They came
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  Speaker 5: alongside of Moses, and what they did is they gave
• 40:45
  Speaker 5: him a stone to sit on, and they helped him
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  Speaker 5: hold up his arms, and they did end up winding
• 40:50
  Speaker 5: that battle and just thinking about how we need that.
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  Speaker 5: I thought about that. I thought about empowerment and how
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  Speaker 5: we need it as Christians, and when we're facing grief
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  Speaker 5: and trauma and hard times, we need those people that
• 41:00
  Speaker 5: are going to put the stone for us to sit on,
• 41:03
  Speaker 5: and we need people to hold our arms up when
• 41:05
  Speaker 5: we're weak and when we're weary, And how a lot
• 41:07
  Speaker 5: of times that's so so hard to come by and
• 41:11
  Speaker 5: reminds me of what I do right now.
• 41:12
  Speaker 6: I work with.
• 41:13
  Speaker 5: Foster kids, and it's heartbreaking a lot of times that
• 41:16
  Speaker 5: these kids that are one and two and three and
• 41:18
  Speaker 5: sometimes five years old and under ten and have faced
• 41:20
  Speaker 5: more trauma that many of us have faced in our
• 41:23
  Speaker 5: decades here as we've been alive, and reminding them sometimes
• 41:27
  Speaker 5: that life is not going to be fair. And it's
• 41:29
  Speaker 5: hard sometimes having to teach a three year old and
• 41:32
  Speaker 5: four year old that life is not going to be fair,
• 41:34
  Speaker 5: but realizing that empowering them now can help them to
• 41:38
  Speaker 5: have a better outcome when they're adults, because I'm like
• 41:40
  Speaker 5: I wished that when my parents had gotten divorced, when
• 41:43
  Speaker 5: I had faced losses and no one talked to me
• 41:45
  Speaker 5: about it, was just like, Oh, there's a loss and
• 41:47
  Speaker 5: attending a funeral every weekend, and I just thought that
• 41:50
  Speaker 5: was normal. And then no one ever talked to me
• 41:52
  Speaker 5: about how to process that grief, what to do with
• 41:55
  Speaker 5: the grief, what to do when you miss that person,
• 41:57
  Speaker 5: how not to stuff that down. I wish there was
• 42:00
  Speaker 5: someone in my life who had empowered me, and it
• 42:03
  Speaker 5: helped me to be intentional about healing and say it's
• 42:05
  Speaker 5: okay to cry, it's okay to seek help, it's okay
• 42:09
  Speaker 5: to talk about your loss, it's okay to not have
• 42:12
  Speaker 5: to stuff it, it's okay to say this is not fair,
• 42:15
  Speaker 5: to just validate how it's feeling. I didn't get that,
• 42:18
  Speaker 5: but now I'm trying to do that for others. I realize,
• 42:20
  Speaker 5: and I love to encourage people, love to love on people,
• 42:24
  Speaker 5: and then thinking I'm like, oh, that's one way to
• 42:26
  Speaker 5: empower people. So just overalls, you're listening might be thinking, well,
• 42:29
  Speaker 5: how do I do this? How do I empower people?
• 42:32
  Speaker 5: Or how do I even empower myself? Because I'm not
• 42:35
  Speaker 5: getting that from others, and it's unfortunate. A lot of
• 42:37
  Speaker 5: us feel like maybe we're that Joshua, We're that Moses,
• 42:41
  Speaker 5: and we don't have that Aaron. We don't have that her.
• 42:43
  Speaker 5: We don't have an army behind us. We don't have
• 42:46
  Speaker 5: you know, the spiritual figures in our lives to hold
• 42:48
  Speaker 5: up our arms when we're weary and to give us
• 42:50
  Speaker 5: that stone to sit on.
• 42:51
  Speaker 2: So what do we do?
• 42:53
  Speaker 5: And so in that, just here some practical ways or
• 42:55
  Speaker 5: things you can do. One thing you can do is
• 42:57
  Speaker 5: to set boundaries, so saying no way that you can
• 43:00
  Speaker 5: empower yourself and others. You can honor your emotions, you
• 43:04
  Speaker 5: can find your voice. What we're doing now is we're
• 43:07
  Speaker 5: sharing our stories. We can practice self care, and we
• 43:10
  Speaker 5: can also seek support outside of family. I do want
• 43:13
  Speaker 5: to highlight that a lot of times we family tries
• 43:17
  Speaker 5: to be supportive. They do the best they can with
• 43:19
  Speaker 5: what they have. But as it was stated earlier, you know,
• 43:23
  Speaker 5: seeking counseling, talking to someone that's not part of the situation.
• 43:27
  Speaker 5: Maybe it's someone outside of our church, maybe it's even
• 43:30
  Speaker 5: a stranger, but just talking to someone about what we're
• 43:32
  Speaker 5: going through, someone that can maybe provide a different perspective
• 43:35
  Speaker 5: about what we're going through. But of course, seeking God
• 43:39
  Speaker 5: and praying and reading our Bible and seeking empowerment from
• 43:42
  Speaker 5: that and saying, Okay, God, how do you want me
• 43:44
  Speaker 5: to handle this loss? That makes no sense? And those
• 43:47
  Speaker 5: times where I want to just regain what I've lost,
• 43:49
  Speaker 5: but knowing that maybe you know it wasn't good for me,
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  Speaker 5: or it wasn't your best for me, but I still
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  Speaker 5: really really want that back, whether it's a relationship, maybe
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  Speaker 5: a job, maybe you've moved. I know I move frequently,
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  Speaker 5: and saying I missed my old place, but knowing that
• 44:05
  Speaker 5: it had a lot of things going on. It wasn't healthy,
• 44:08
  Speaker 5: it was figuratively and literally making me sick, and yet
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  Speaker 5: in that but I'm like, oh God, I want to
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  Speaker 5: go back to that because it was safe, it was comfortable,
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  Speaker 5: but just letting God empower me and say, Okay, you
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  Speaker 5: know that wasn't his best for me. He has something
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  Speaker 5: better for me. But I can't see that, and I
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  Speaker 5: don't understand it. And a lot of times when we're
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  Speaker 5: grieving and we're facing that loss, we don't see it
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  Speaker 5: and we don't understand it, and it doesn't feel good
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  Speaker 5: and we're just like, well, God, why why is that
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  Speaker 5: person gone? Why is that opportunity gone? It doesn't make sense,
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  Speaker 5: And a lot of times we won't see it. Even
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  Speaker 5: sometimes on this side of heaven, we won't get it,
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  Speaker 5: but just seeking support and guidance from others. And one
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  Speaker 5: thing that's really been helpful to me is just a
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  Speaker 5: kind word. Realizing that one way to empower someone and
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  Speaker 5: even myself is just to encourage myself or just to
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  Speaker 5: listen or just you know, go to someone and support
• 44:57
  Speaker 5: them in the midst of their facing someone a couple
• 45:00
  Speaker 5: months ago and now she's a single mom and she's
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  Speaker 5: not getting the support that she thought she was going
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  Speaker 5: to get, and things are a little bit harder than
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  Speaker 5: she thought, and she's just starting off, and she thought
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  Speaker 5: she's going to get support from family, and she's grieving
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  Speaker 5: that as her mom is facing a condition that's making
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  Speaker 5: things difficult, and as her having her baby has kind
• 45:18
  Speaker 5: of strained relationships with family members, and instead of encouraging her,
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  Speaker 5: her family members are just being really discouraging and telling
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  Speaker 5: her she's not a good mom and she's, you know,
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  Speaker 5: doing this, and she's like, but I just need someone
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  Speaker 5: to just just pour into me and just let me
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  Speaker 5: know that I am doing something right and that I
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  Speaker 5: am you know, that it's going to be okay and
• 45:37
  Speaker 5: things are going to get better, and so God sent
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  Speaker 5: me into her life to just be that person for her.
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  Speaker 5: And you know, a couple months ago, I didn't know her.
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  Speaker 5: But I'm like, as a single mom myself, I can
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  Speaker 5: let her know that the things that she's facing right
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  Speaker 5: now are not going to be forever, that they're going
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  Speaker 5: to get better, that she is doing a good job,
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  Speaker 5: that she is doing the best that she can with
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  Speaker 5: what she's had, and to pray for her and just
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  Speaker 5: to love on her and to encourage and mentor her.
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  Speaker 5: And I'm like, Okay, you know, I can empower her,
• 46:04
  Speaker 5: but as I'm empowering her, I'm also empowering myself and
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  Speaker 5: encouraging myself. So you know, just in the midst of
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  Speaker 5: all that you're facing, a lot of times you might
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  Speaker 5: be saying, Okay, I don't see things ever getting better.
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  Speaker 5: I don't see how I'm ever going to smile again
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  Speaker 5: after all that I face, after loss after loss after loss,
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  Speaker 5: even when things don't turn out his plan, You're like, Okay,
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  Speaker 5: I'm in that now. I'm like, God, this wasn't the
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  Speaker 5: life that I had expected. This is not like a
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  Speaker 5: Hallmark movie. This isn't like the happy ending supposedly like
• 46:33
  Speaker 5: Disney Movies. This is hard, and things seem to be
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  Speaker 5: just one struggle after another. Things don't seem to be
• 46:38
  Speaker 5: getting better, and it just seems like the things for
• 46:41
  Speaker 5: my past, the traumatic things keep coming back up, and
• 46:44
  Speaker 5: I'm like, well, I'm not ready to deal with them
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  Speaker 5: right now. I can't deal with them right now is
• 46:47
  Speaker 5: going to take me to another place mentally and spiritually
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  Speaker 5: and physically. But in that God's saying, Okay, now's the
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  Speaker 5: time to heal, even though it's painful, even though it's
• 46:55
  Speaker 5: training mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, financially, but God's saying, now
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  Speaker 5: is the time. So you know, just hopefully in the
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  Speaker 5: midst of it, even if you don't have those that
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  Speaker 5: are in your life that are pouring into you or
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  Speaker 5: empowering you, maybe be able to empower yourself and let
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  Speaker 5: God empower you and just bring you just those words
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  Speaker 5: of love and to remind you that in the midst
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  Speaker 5: of grief and trauma, so many things can feel out
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  Speaker 5: of control. But in that God empowers us, and he
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  Speaker 5: sends people are way too empowers to remind us that
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  Speaker 5: we can regain some control. But a lot of time
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  Speaker 5: it's surrendering that control to God in the midst of
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  Speaker 5: things that seem impossible, and that He takes us through
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  Speaker 5: things in the midst of everything we're facing, to grow us,
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  Speaker 5: to make us stronger, to build our confidence. And I
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  Speaker 5: know that it hurts, it doesn't seem fair, it doesn't
• 47:41
  Speaker 5: make sense, but being re minded that God is good
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  Speaker 5: in the midst of all. So thank you for letting
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  Speaker 5: me share.
• 47:50
  Speaker 1: That is truly a thing that I don't think we
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  Speaker 1: think about often is understanding that we need people around
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  Speaker 1: us to pour in to us, and sometimes we be
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  Speaker 1: so drained because we've pourn out everything into everyone else.
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  Speaker 1: And what I had to learn for myself is if
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  Speaker 1: I'm running on empty, there's nothing for me to give anybody.
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  Speaker 1: So I had to learn how to keep my cup
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  Speaker 1: full and let them get the overflow of what I have.
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  Speaker 1: And if you don't want what the overflow is, then
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  Speaker 1: you don't want nothing I got to give you anyway,
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  Speaker 1: because I'm not gonna give you what's in me and
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  Speaker 1: leave me depleted. And when I started realizing certain conversations
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  Speaker 1: with people was draining me, I stop answering the call,
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  Speaker 1: like you ain't about to drain me, because all you
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  Speaker 1: do is talk about something negative. Baby, I ain't answering
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  Speaker 1: the phone. You're gonna have to take somebody else and
• 48:53
  Speaker 1: let them get that because they ain't got it. You
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  Speaker 1: not draining me. I ain't got time to hear your
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  Speaker 1: story to sympathize. If I'm gonna give you advice and
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  Speaker 1: you choose not to take the advice that I give
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  Speaker 1: you and you come back to me with the same
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  Speaker 1: thing when I told you that this is what you
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  Speaker 1: can do. If I give you the solution and you
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  Speaker 1: still want to deal with the problem, Baby, you the problem,
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  Speaker 1: and I ain't got time. So I've learned that if
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep myself empowered and I'm gonna keep myself
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  Speaker 1: in a space to where I'm going to be ready
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  Speaker 1: to encourage an uplift and support and all of that,
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  Speaker 1: if you're not willing to receive it, then there's nothing
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  Speaker 1: that I can do for you. You know, there is
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  Speaker 1: nothing left for me to say, Okay, I can give
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  Speaker 1: you twenty affirmations, and if you only choose to use
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  Speaker 1: one of them, you still got nine nineteen of them
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  Speaker 1: that you can use, but you don't want use but
• 49:54
  Speaker 1: that one, okay, And if that one doesn't get you
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  Speaker 1: where you need to go to move on the two
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  Speaker 1: then don't want anything. You want to be in where
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  Speaker 1: you are and I ain't got time. So I have
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  Speaker 1: learned over these last few years. Baby, I'm gonna cut
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  Speaker 1: you off. I'm not. It doesn't mean that I don't
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  Speaker 1: love you any less than anything, but I sometimes need
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  Speaker 1: the support too. I need to be uplifted. So if
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  Speaker 1: I can't call you and we pour into each other, baby,
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  Speaker 1: I just know that I ain't gonna call you. It
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  Speaker 1: ain't no hard feelings. It's just that you don't have
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  Speaker 1: anything that's gonna feel me, and I don't have nothing
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  Speaker 1: that's gonna feel you. Because you want to keep running
• 50:34
  Speaker 1: on anthy You wanna keep blaming everybody else and everything
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  Speaker 1: that you've been through because you don't want to take
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  Speaker 1: any accountability. You wanna blame the world for what you've
• 50:45
  Speaker 1: gone through. Baby, Listen, we don't have our conversation, we
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  Speaker 1: don't have our time, we don't interacting with each other,
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  Speaker 1: and it's just it ain't nothing else I can do
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  Speaker 1: for you. But I'm gonna love you from over here.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna pray for you and hope that God gets
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  Speaker 1: to you in a better way I can, because God
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  Speaker 1: is God all by himself. He don't need my help
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  Speaker 1: at all. But if you ain't gonna let him into
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  Speaker 1: the space where you complaining about, baby, ain't nothing I
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  Speaker 1: can do for it, because God himself is the only
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  Speaker 1: one that can help you and change you in the
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  Speaker 1: way that you need to be changed, because I can't
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  Speaker 1: do I know what my limitations are. So if you
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  Speaker 1: got people that's around you that's draining you, baby, cut
• 51:21
  Speaker 1: that cut the line. They ain't got nothing else to
• 51:23
  Speaker 1: do with you. You don't gave all that you could give.
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  Speaker 1: You not gonna be depleted because of them. That ain't
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  Speaker 1: got nothing to do with you no more. You don't
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  Speaker 1: did everything that you were supposed to do. You don't
• 51:34
  Speaker 1: uplifted them, gave them words of encouragement, gave them whatever
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  Speaker 1: it is that they were seeking, but they chose not
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: to take it. That ain't got nothing to do with you.
• 51:42
  Speaker 1: Just cut your ties and let your cups stay filled
• 51:44
  Speaker 1: and pour it into the next person that's willing to receive.
• 51:48
  Speaker 1: All right, y'all, I don't got through with that part.
• 51:51
  Speaker 1: Now we're gonna talk about our alignment with Miss Angela.
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  Speaker 1: We gonna have her Queen Angela, Queen of Collaboration, said,
• 51:57
  Speaker 1: without this woman, I would not even be in front
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  Speaker 1: of you got today because God connected our path for
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  Speaker 1: a bigger purpose and I even understood at the time.
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  Speaker 1: So I'm gonna get on out the way and let
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  Speaker 1: Queen Angela come on up here and talk about their alignment.
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  Speaker 1: That she knows that God puts us in this place,
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  Speaker 1: in this space for everything that is GLORI fine to him.
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  Speaker 4: Amen, Amen, Amen, I tell you one of the things
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  Speaker 4: that I have learned over these last couple of months
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  Speaker 4: is that everything should punt back to Him. We got
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  Speaker 4: to be aligned. Being in sync with God's plan is
• 52:30
  Speaker 4: what it's all about. And today I'm actually gonna be
• 52:33
  Speaker 4: sharing apostle Doctor Kimberly who is She is one of
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  Speaker 4: my mentors. She is one of our coverers for our
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  Speaker 4: five AM prayer line. She was supposed to be on
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  Speaker 4: and she was going to be doing aligning, but she
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  Speaker 4: got an assignment and it caused her to be away
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  Speaker 4: from her home and with the security clearance that she's under,
• 52:56
  Speaker 4: it will not allow her to go live. But she
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  Speaker 4: shared something means that she wanted me to share with
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  Speaker 4: you guys. So I'm gonna do just that. I'm gonna
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  Speaker 4: share exactly what she asks me to share on today.
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  Speaker 4: So I tell you, alignment is more than just an agreement.
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  Speaker 4: It's about positioning our deliberately alliance with something greater. Biblically,
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  Speaker 4: alignment means bringing every area of our lives, our will,
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  Speaker 4: our thoughts, and our actions under God's authority. It is
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  Speaker 4: called is. It will cause us to surrender our desires
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  Speaker 4: to His favor, to chase after His purpose, and to
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  Speaker 4: reflect it by our character, which is most clearly seen
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  Speaker 4: in the fruit of the spirit. True spiritual alignment isn't accidental.
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  Speaker 4: It requires growth, transformation, and intentional engagement with God. That
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  Speaker 4: means you gotta spend time with him. You got to
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  Speaker 4: allow him to direct you, you got to allow him to
• 53:56
  Speaker 4: lead you. And we achieve this through fasting, deep prayer,
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  Speaker 4: and consistently studying to show our self approved. Through these practices,
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  Speaker 4: we move away from the world's pattern and allow God
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  Speaker 4: to shape us into the people He has caused us
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  Speaker 4: to be. He called us. It's not by accident that
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  Speaker 4: you are seeing us right here today. He called us.
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  Speaker 4: He brought, he brought, he delivered us. He brought us
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  Speaker 4: out of our mess because some of us was deep.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just gonna talk about me for a moment. Some
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  Speaker 4: of us was deep in our sin. We didn't know,
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  Speaker 4: we didn't know that, we didn't know what light looked like.
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  Speaker 4: But he brought us out, He saw fit, He extended
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  Speaker 4: his grace and his mercy. So I'm gonna define that
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  Speaker 4: word aligne. If we go over to the Webster or
• 54:42
  Speaker 4: or Wikipedia or one of those Google searches. Aligne is
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  Speaker 4: defined as a position of agreement or allignance. But biblically,
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  Speaker 4: it means to bring our lives under the subjection and
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  Speaker 4: align it with the will of God, so that he
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  Speaker 4: can transform us, so that he can build our character,
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  Speaker 4: so that we can walk into that that He has
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  Speaker 4: purposed for us. That means that we must submit our will,
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  Speaker 4: our thoughts, our life to God. We must seek God's
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  Speaker 4: will above our own desire and surrender ourself to his plan. Yes,
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  Speaker 4: his plan, because he tells us that in Jeremiah twenty
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  Speaker 4: nine and eleven he declared, He declared that he had
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  Speaker 4: a plan for us, and it wouldn't just to harm,
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  Speaker 4: It wouldn't to bring us harm, but it was to
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  Speaker 4: prosper us. For us to be in good health for
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  Speaker 4: us to have hope in the future. So we must
• 55:34
  Speaker 4: seek God's will above our own desires, and we must
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  Speaker 4: truly align with him. That requires spiritual growth transformation. And
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  Speaker 4: how can we do that If you go over to
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  Speaker 4: Romans twelve and two, and y'all apologize for the airplanes.
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  Speaker 4: If you go over to Romans twelve and two, it
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  Speaker 4: says that we must not be conformed to the world,
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  Speaker 4: but we must be transformed with the renewer of our
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  Speaker 4: minds that may prove that we are good and acceptable
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  Speaker 4: and the purple of God. This scripture tells us that
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  Speaker 4: we should not be conformed to the ways of the world,
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  Speaker 4: but we must start spiritually, which helps us to understand
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  Speaker 4: that everything is furnished through the Cross through Jesus' suffering
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  Speaker 4: upon However, this is only attained by faith her by faith,
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  Speaker 4: not by works, but by faith. We must understand. In
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  Speaker 4: order to prove what is good and acceptable and perfect
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  Speaker 4: will of God, we first must realize that we will
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  Speaker 4: be put through the tests. We will be we will
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  Speaker 4: be tested, and we must meet specific specifications that God
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  Speaker 4: has laid out in the Bible. If we pick up
• 56:53
  Speaker 4: the Bible, those are our basic instructions before leaving hearth.
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  Speaker 4: We understand that the Holy Spirit attempts to bring up
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  Speaker 4: us into obceptance and into God's perfect will. Therefore, the
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  Speaker 4: Lord tells us in his word Proverbs three, five and six,
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  Speaker 4: trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean
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  Speaker 4: not on your own understanding in all things. Acknowledge Him,
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  Speaker 4: and he shall direct our path. The key word here
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  Speaker 4: and aligning ourself with God, is trust. We must learn
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  Speaker 4: how to trust God with everything that we have. Stop
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  Speaker 4: thinking that we have it all together, but make it
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  Speaker 4: clear that we need him, that we need his direction.
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  Speaker 4: So I say this. The Lord tells us again in
• 57:40
  Speaker 4: Proverbs four and twenty three to keep our hearts with
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  Speaker 4: all diligence for out for out of it are the
• 57:49
  Speaker 4: issues of life. The issues of life speak to the
• 57:52
  Speaker 4: foundation of faith, which is Jesus Christ, according to First
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  Speaker 4: Corinthians one in twenty three, which tells us that we
• 57:59
  Speaker 4: reach Christ crucified, which is the foundation of the Word
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  Speaker 4: of God and therefore thereby salvation. When we are properly
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  Speaker 4: aligned with God, we must test the spirit, as instructed
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  Speaker 4: in First John four and one. Beloved, believe not ever
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  Speaker 4: the spirit, but try the spirit, whether they be the God,
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  Speaker 4: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.
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  Speaker 4: Behind every doctrine there is a spirit. If it is
• 58:32
  Speaker 4: a true doctrine, it is the Holy Spirit. If it
• 58:35
  Speaker 4: is false doctrine, it is the evil spirit. When we
• 58:38
  Speaker 4: try the spirit to see whether they are of God's
• 58:41
  Speaker 4: criterion it is spiritually. Does it line up with the
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  Speaker 4: infamible truth of God? Do it line up with His words?
• 58:51
  Speaker 4: Is this what God say in the scripture? You can
• 58:54
  Speaker 4: try it by the scription. All you got to do
• 58:56
  Speaker 4: is go over to the scripture and read it. In
• 58:58
  Speaker 4: Isaiah fourteen and twenty four, he says, the Lord of
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  Speaker 4: Hosts has sworn, saying, surely, as I have thought, so
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  Speaker 4: that shall it come to pass, And as I have purpose,
• 59:11
  Speaker 4: so shall it stand. Remember everything that the Lord has
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  Speaker 4: intended for our lives shall come to pass. Today is
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  Speaker 4: a good day to take a stand and purposefully come
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  Speaker 4: in agreement with the word of God and position yourself
• 59:26
  Speaker 4: for a proper spiritual alignment. Make your alliance known. Let
• 59:31
  Speaker 4: everybody know that you stand for the Word of God
• 59:34
  Speaker 4: and that you stand in alignment. He said he will
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  Speaker 4: direct our past. God he said he will order our steps,
• 59:41
  Speaker 4: so today, I say, humble yourself and commit unto the Lord.
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  Speaker 4: Trust him and he will direct your path. He said
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  Speaker 4: he will never leave us nor forsake us. So I
• 59:52
  Speaker 4: hope that something that I've shared in this short time
• 59:56
  Speaker 4: will will bless you and will cause you to align
• 1:00:00
  Speaker 4: with that that God has already purpose for you. And
• 1:00:04
  Speaker 4: I'm done.
• 1:00:09
  Speaker 1: It's definitely true. When you follow through with what God
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: is telling you to do and directing your path, your steps,
• 1:00:17
  Speaker 1: and all of the above, you will always be in
• 1:00:21
  Speaker 1: perfect alignment with His purpose for your life. Sometimes we
• 1:00:25
  Speaker 1: get so caught up in what free will is and
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 1: we get off course. You know, God is the ultimate GPS.
• 1:00:33
  Speaker 1: He knows exactly where we're going and what we're supposed
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 1: to be doing and when we're supposed to be doing it.
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 1: But we want to be hard headed sometimes and we
• 1:00:41
  Speaker 1: get distracted and we think we know what's best, and
• 1:00:44
  Speaker 1: God gives us that free will and we go on
• 1:00:47
  Speaker 1: and get off course, and then we get slapped upside
• 1:00:50
  Speaker 1: the head because what He don't let us go through
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 1: and get get hit because he said, Okay, I'm gonna
• 1:00:57
  Speaker 1: let you go and do what you think. You know,
• 1:00:58
  Speaker 1: you know, you know, but you don't know, and when
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 1: you get hit, you be like, Okay, that's when that
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 1: rerouting and all of that comes in. And then you realize,
• 1:01:07
  Speaker 1: had I just listened to God, I would have been
• 1:01:10
  Speaker 1: here five minutes earlier, or a whole year earlier, or
• 1:01:14
  Speaker 1: whatever the case may been, had you listen to what
• 1:01:18
  Speaker 1: he was telling you to do. We can't be so
• 1:01:21
  Speaker 1: hard headed and stubborn that we just ignore what he says,
• 1:01:25
  Speaker 1: because that's where that free will comes in. And you
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 1: go on out there, God saying Okay, I'm gonna be
• 1:01:30
  Speaker 1: right here waiting on you because you think you know
• 1:01:32
  Speaker 1: what you're talking about, the same old saying is when
• 1:01:34
  Speaker 1: your mama would say a hard head makes a south
• 1:01:37
  Speaker 1: behind because you think you know what you're doing out there,
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  Speaker 1: and you're gone out there and you do it and
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 1: you falling, you get hurt, and now you got a scar.
• 1:01:44
  Speaker 1: When your mama told you go and put this helmet on,
• 1:01:46
  Speaker 1: all these kneepads and whatever, and you like, nah, I
• 1:01:49
  Speaker 1: got it, I ain't gonna get hurt. And then what
• 1:01:51
  Speaker 1: you do, you gonna get hurt. So when you pay
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 1: attention to the instructions that God has given you, you
• 1:01:58
  Speaker 1: you eliminate the chances of being heard. You will eliminate
• 1:02:01
  Speaker 1: the chance of going down through something that didn't take
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 1: you in the space in which you thought you were
• 1:02:08
  Speaker 1: supposed to be going. But say connected to God and
• 1:02:13
  Speaker 1: his purpose for your life, and you'll never be off course.
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 1: You will always be in perfect alignment with what God
• 1:02:19
  Speaker 1: has called you to do. That is what my saying is.
• 1:02:23
  Speaker 1: Stay out of God's business. The only thing he needs
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 1: from us is to be obedient to what He's called
• 1:02:28
  Speaker 1: you to do. Now. I started saying that after having
• 1:02:32
  Speaker 1: a conversation with my sister almost five years ago, and
• 1:02:36
  Speaker 1: it has been my catch phrase now. And so when
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 1: I get to wanting to ask God certain questions, and
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 1: it's like, okay, God, I got a question, I got
• 1:02:46
  Speaker 1: some you know, some things we need to talk about.
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  Speaker 1: And he quickly tells me to stay out his business
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 1: because I ain't got nothing to do with it. I
• 1:02:55
  Speaker 1: asked him for something. He didn't ask me for nothing
• 1:02:57
  Speaker 1: but to be obedient. So I'm going up meddling and
• 1:03:00
  Speaker 1: his stuff, and he like, girl, gone somewhere and sit
• 1:03:03
  Speaker 1: in that corner if I need you. I asked you
• 1:03:05
  Speaker 1: for something, but I asked you for us, So gone,
• 1:03:07
  Speaker 1: sit down. Stop stop minding my You ain't got nothing
• 1:03:12
  Speaker 1: to do with over here. Mind Joe in the corner.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: If yes, yes, God will tell you mind your business
• 1:03:20
  Speaker 1: and quick fast. So I have learned. I'm gonna stay
• 1:03:25
  Speaker 1: on over here, but I'm gonna have a couple of
• 1:03:27
  Speaker 1: questions and he gonna put me on whole. You know,
• 1:03:29
  Speaker 1: I call up there God, Look, we need to have conversation.
• 1:03:32
  Speaker 1: I got some things I need to ask you, and
• 1:03:33
  Speaker 1: you be like, not today because you don't ask me
• 1:03:36
  Speaker 1: seventeen questions already. I'm done with you today.
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  Speaker 5: You know.
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: You call me back tomorrow and I'm like, look, I'm
• 1:03:43
  Speaker 1: just trying to figure this out. It ain't time for
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 1: you to figure it out when I need you to
• 1:03:47
  Speaker 1: figure it out.
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  Speaker 4: He just wants you to trust the process. You just
• 1:03:57
  Speaker 4: want us to just just be still and know that
• 1:04:00
  Speaker 4: He is God. That's all by him, That's all he
• 1:04:04
  Speaker 4: want us to do. Sometimes, but sometimes we want to
• 1:04:07
  Speaker 4: We want that microwave effect. We want that that right
• 1:04:10
  Speaker 4: now rock down, But knowing knowing that we ain't. We
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 4: didn't get here just like microwave. So what you're gonna
• 1:04:20
  Speaker 4: have to go through the process. Yeah, I had to
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 4: learn that it's gonna have to go through the process.
• 1:04:24
  Speaker 4: Make it may cast from some tears, it may it
• 1:04:27
  Speaker 4: may cost a lot, but you're gonna have to go
• 1:04:29
  Speaker 4: through it. You have to go through it because they
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 4: said you're definitely gonna benefit because guess what, He will
• 1:04:34
  Speaker 4: be glorified.
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 1: One of those things where we sit there and we're like,
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 1: we pray the prayer and sometimes God answers that prayer immediately,
• 1:04:45
  Speaker 1: but we envisioned it a certain way that we won't
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 1: even acknowledge that He's already answered the prayer because it
• 1:04:50
  Speaker 1: doesn't look like this was supposed to look like. And
• 1:04:54
  Speaker 1: that's the thing that we missed oftentimes because we have
• 1:04:57
  Speaker 1: it all pretty packaged up. But God had put that
• 1:05:00
  Speaker 1: thing through some damage. It don't look good anymore. So
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: we don't want it because it doesn't look like how
• 1:05:07
  Speaker 1: we envision it. And if God say, if you trust me,
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 1: this is exactly what you asked me for. It's gonna
• 1:05:13
  Speaker 1: come with a little damage, it's gonna come with a
• 1:05:15
  Speaker 1: little hardship, it's gonna come with all of these things.
• 1:05:19
  Speaker 1: But if you trust me, you're gonna see the beauty
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: in what I have for you. But you got to
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 1: look past, what you imagined it to look like, what
• 1:05:28
  Speaker 1: you imagined it to feel like, because it ain't gonna
• 1:05:31
  Speaker 1: look like nothing that you ever imagine. And if I
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 1: tell you I got something better for you on the
• 1:05:36
  Speaker 1: other side and let go of this small thing, I
• 1:05:39
  Speaker 1: promise you I'm gonna blow your mind ten times fold.
• 1:05:42
  Speaker 1: But you gotta trust me. You gotta keep walking with me.
• 1:05:46
  Speaker 1: If you keep walking with me, we gonna get well.
• 1:05:48
  Speaker 1: You wanta go, but you gotta go through all of
• 1:05:51
  Speaker 1: this because I need to know how bad do you
• 1:05:54
  Speaker 1: really want what you've been asking me for, because I
• 1:05:58
  Speaker 1: want it, but I don't think you really want it,
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 1: because you're ready to give up today half of us
• 1:06:03
  Speaker 1: get up right our breaththrd like if you just reach us,
• 1:06:10
  Speaker 1: it's gonna fall off the sky.
• 1:06:11
  Speaker 4: But you ain't. You're not even being patient because he
• 1:06:14
  Speaker 4: already knows who. He already know what the end results.
• 1:06:18
  Speaker 4: We already know what's at the end of the tunnel.
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 4: He already knows. He just wants you to go through.
• 1:06:23
  Speaker 4: He just wants you to character. He just want to
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 4: see how you gonna hold on. He just want to
• 1:06:28
  Speaker 4: see how you're gonna act through it. All. That's gonna
• 1:06:32
  Speaker 4: treat people. He want to see. Man, he want to
• 1:06:34
  Speaker 4: see so much about He want to see if we
• 1:06:36
  Speaker 4: really gonna represent him, if we really gonna show that
• 1:06:39
  Speaker 4: we made in his image.
• 1:06:40
  Speaker 1: That's what he wanted to exactly. And it's one of
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 1: those God has put you through something to see if
• 1:06:48
  Speaker 1: you're going to be humble or if you're going to
• 1:06:51
  Speaker 1: actually go back to the person. He has delivered it.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 1: I've been in a situation where I was introduced to
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 1: this lady and when I was going to school, and
• 1:07:02
  Speaker 1: he brought it full circle for me and it was like, Okay,
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 1: this woman was so mean and so evil to me
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 1: and I did not understand why, and she underestimated who
• 1:07:14
  Speaker 1: God created me to be. And I said those words
• 1:07:17
  Speaker 1: to her because I had a class. I had a
• 1:07:20
  Speaker 1: twenty two in that class, and I'm just giving you
• 1:07:21
  Speaker 1: a little background about it. And I needed this certain
• 1:07:25
  Speaker 1: book for my dictation for medical dictation, and she had
• 1:07:28
  Speaker 1: the book. She would not give me the book. So
• 1:07:31
  Speaker 1: it's an eleven week course. Six weeks in, I got
• 1:07:34
  Speaker 1: a twenty two in this class. Like the book finally
• 1:07:37
  Speaker 1: comes through. We're at midterm now, I don't have the book.
• 1:07:41
  Speaker 1: I gotta make up all this work. She's still I
• 1:07:43
  Speaker 1: don't think you gonna be able to pull this up.
• 1:07:46
  Speaker 1: I said, you don't know me, and you don't know
• 1:07:48
  Speaker 1: nothing about what God has placed inside of me. Watch
• 1:07:51
  Speaker 1: me work. When I tell you, I passed that class
• 1:07:56
  Speaker 1: with a eighty five. I passed and everything I passed
• 1:08:02
  Speaker 1: that That woman was so vindictive that when I needed
• 1:08:06
  Speaker 1: to know what my grades were just for this one
• 1:08:08
  Speaker 1: particular class, she locked me out of my whole portal
• 1:08:11
  Speaker 1: to where I couldn't see, so I had to contact
• 1:08:14
  Speaker 1: the professor. Now bring it back full circle. This lady
• 1:08:17
  Speaker 1: now works at my place. And so when my manager
• 1:08:21
  Speaker 1: was telling me we have this lady. Her resume looks good.
• 1:08:24
  Speaker 1: I looked at the name. I said, this name seems
• 1:08:26
  Speaker 1: very familiar. Let me see her resume if you don't mind.
• 1:08:30
  Speaker 1: So I look at the resume. I said, this was
• 1:08:32
  Speaker 1: my This was my director in my program. I said,
• 1:08:37
  Speaker 1: And this lady gave me so much hell. When I
• 1:08:41
  Speaker 1: say that, I mean she did. I had to train her.
• 1:08:46
  Speaker 1: And so it was like, okay, are you going to
• 1:08:50
  Speaker 1: be vindictive to her like she was to you? Or
• 1:08:53
  Speaker 1: are you going to actually do what I'm calling you
• 1:08:56
  Speaker 1: to do because I put you in a position to
• 1:08:58
  Speaker 1: where now you are the leader and she had to
• 1:09:02
  Speaker 1: follow your directions. And when I tell you, it was
• 1:09:06
  Speaker 1: funny in a sense, but it was just like, Okay, God,
• 1:09:11
  Speaker 1: I see what you're doing. I do have the power
• 1:09:14
  Speaker 1: to make or break this lady in this position, but
• 1:09:17
  Speaker 1: now it's just like I don't even have the desire
• 1:09:20
  Speaker 1: to do that because I want you to be successful.
• 1:09:22
  Speaker 1: I want you to succeed in this position. I want
• 1:09:24
  Speaker 1: you to be greater than me. I want to give
• 1:09:27
  Speaker 1: you the knowledge that I was seeking at the time,
• 1:09:30
  Speaker 1: because you had the knowledge I was trying to get
• 1:09:32
  Speaker 1: where you are. Now we are in a different space,
• 1:09:35
  Speaker 1: in a different time. And it was one of those
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 1: things where she said to me, she said, I'm trying
• 1:09:40
  Speaker 1: to get like you. And she was like, you just
• 1:09:46
  Speaker 1: make this look so easy. I said, but I don't
• 1:09:49
  Speaker 1: make this look easy. It was hard for me to
• 1:09:51
  Speaker 1: get here. I said, but with what God has brought
• 1:09:54
  Speaker 1: me through, I am grateful to be in a position
• 1:09:57
  Speaker 1: to make it look easy for you. You gonna learn
• 1:10:00
  Speaker 1: everything that I know, because there's gonna be a moment
• 1:10:03
  Speaker 1: when I'm not gonna be here and you're gonna have
• 1:10:06
  Speaker 1: to be able to hold this by yourself. And if
• 1:10:09
  Speaker 1: I can't teach you to hold it by yourself, then
• 1:10:11
  Speaker 1: what good of mine? And so God will put you
• 1:10:15
  Speaker 1: in places to where it's going to teach you to
• 1:10:17
  Speaker 1: either be humble or to act the dog go one food.
• 1:10:20
  Speaker 1: And if you choose to act the dog, go one fool,
• 1:10:23
  Speaker 1: guess what, You're gonna go right back through that same
• 1:10:25
  Speaker 1: situation with a different face and a different place. And
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 1: God gonna keep taking you through it until you get it,
• 1:10:32
  Speaker 1: because He's not gonna elevate you because you didn't learn
• 1:10:34
  Speaker 1: what you needed to learn to get to the next space.
• 1:10:36
  Speaker 1: And a lot of times that's why a lot of
• 1:10:39
  Speaker 1: us keep repeating these things over and over again. God
• 1:10:42
  Speaker 1: gonna send you through it until you get it, until
• 1:10:45
  Speaker 1: you get what God is trying to teach you in
• 1:10:47
  Speaker 1: those moments, in those spaces to where he says he
• 1:10:50
  Speaker 1: will make your enemies your footstool. You gotta know that
• 1:10:54
  Speaker 1: he means every bit of that. He will make your
• 1:10:56
  Speaker 1: enemies your footstool. But how you handle them in that moment,
• 1:11:01
  Speaker 1: it's going to make or break you, and it's not
• 1:11:03
  Speaker 1: going to keep you going forward. If you don't understand
• 1:11:09
  Speaker 1: that God is putting you in a place to where
• 1:11:12
  Speaker 1: your enemy can be your very footstool. But sometimes you
• 1:11:17
  Speaker 1: may end up being on the receiving end of what
• 1:11:19
  Speaker 1: you plan for somebody else. So that's why it's like,
• 1:11:22
  Speaker 1: I see what God is doing to me, and I
• 1:11:25
  Speaker 1: could even be evil. I can do that if I
• 1:11:28
  Speaker 1: so choose, But I ain't trying to block my blessings
• 1:11:31
  Speaker 1: for nobody. So if God in space for somebody to
• 1:11:35
  Speaker 1: be a vessel, for them to even be a growth
• 1:11:38
  Speaker 1: for me, then yeah, baby, what is a lesson that
• 1:11:41
  Speaker 1: God you teaching me in this moment? Because I could
• 1:11:43
  Speaker 1: have easily been like, I ain't teaching her nothing. I
• 1:11:46
  Speaker 1: ain't gonna do nothing for her because this is how
• 1:11:48
  Speaker 1: she treated me. This is what she said to me,
• 1:11:51
  Speaker 1: and my managers like, well, how you gonna respond to that?
• 1:11:54
  Speaker 1: I said, I'm gonna respond the same way I do
• 1:11:55
  Speaker 1: to everything else. What she did to me ain't got
• 1:11:58
  Speaker 1: nothing to do with me, because that was a personal
• 1:12:00
  Speaker 1: problem that she had with herself. It didn't have nothing
• 1:12:03
  Speaker 1: to do with me. So she had to figure that out,
• 1:12:06
  Speaker 1: and God brought her here in this space because she
• 1:12:09
  Speaker 1: needed to repent for that. That didn't have nothing to
• 1:12:11
  Speaker 1: do with me. That was something she was going through
• 1:12:14
  Speaker 1: because she was following suit with someone else because anybody
• 1:12:18
  Speaker 1: that this other teacher had a thing for, they were
• 1:12:21
  Speaker 1: in a so called click together. So she didn't like
• 1:12:24
  Speaker 1: anybody that that lady didn't like that ain't nothing to
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 1: do with me. That was her problem and that was
• 1:12:29
  Speaker 1: her issue. So Baby, I let them have it. But
• 1:12:31
  Speaker 1: when it came to us in our relationship, we've got
• 1:12:34
  Speaker 1: into a space to where Baby lives and let me
• 1:12:37
  Speaker 1: go ahead and tell you this is the things that
• 1:12:39
  Speaker 1: were happening while I was in this situation, And so
• 1:12:42
  Speaker 1: I had to tell her. You didn't know that some
• 1:12:44
  Speaker 1: of those days that I was coming to class, I
• 1:12:47
  Speaker 1: ended up leaving that building in an ambulance because of
• 1:12:50
  Speaker 1: my health condition. You didn't know the battles that I
• 1:12:52
  Speaker 1: was actually facing when you were trying to trap me
• 1:12:55
  Speaker 1: in a situation to make it difficult for me. I
• 1:12:57
  Speaker 1: was still fighting. I was still serving with God I
• 1:13:00
  Speaker 1: had told me to do. It was days that I
• 1:13:02
  Speaker 1: didn't feel like coming in there because I knew that
• 1:13:04
  Speaker 1: the outcome may not have been good for me, but
• 1:13:06
  Speaker 1: I still showed up. I wanted what I was coming
• 1:13:09
  Speaker 1: to school for so I was determined to get it.
• 1:13:12
  Speaker 1: I was determined to make a way for that. And
• 1:13:15
  Speaker 1: you had no idea the battle that I was personally facing.
• 1:13:19
  Speaker 1: But you wanted to be evil and vindictive. But this
• 1:13:22
  Speaker 1: is what happened. God brought you back to a space
• 1:13:25
  Speaker 1: to where you have to deal with me in a
• 1:13:28
  Speaker 1: way that I never dealt with you. But just stay
• 1:13:31
  Speaker 1: the course. God's gonna give you what you need to.
• 1:13:34
  Speaker 1: So stay in a line and what God caused you
• 1:13:37
  Speaker 1: to do. And if you stay in a linement, God's
• 1:13:39
  Speaker 1: gonna bring them back forth to see you. And God's
• 1:13:42
  Speaker 1: gonna have them to speak your name in a way
• 1:13:45
  Speaker 1: that they never thought they would ever say. You know,
• 1:13:47
  Speaker 1: God's gonna get the glory at the end of the day.
• 1:13:50
  Speaker 1: And God gets the glory because he brings those people
• 1:13:52
  Speaker 1: back again and say, Okay, you were wrong to her,
• 1:13:58
  Speaker 1: but did she wrong you in the process. And if
• 1:14:01
  Speaker 1: you can say that you didn't wrong them, you didn't
• 1:14:04
  Speaker 1: do them how they did you, You know that you've
• 1:14:06
  Speaker 1: grown in a space where you were still struggling. So
• 1:14:09
  Speaker 1: stay in the line and stay the course, and stay
• 1:14:12
  Speaker 1: focused on what it is that God has for you
• 1:14:15
  Speaker 1: now we have resilience that's coming up. It is Snaria
• 1:14:20
  Speaker 1: there or do you want me to talk about resilience.
• 1:14:23
  Speaker 4: Orry, Well, you can't because she dropped out for some reason.
• 1:14:26
  Speaker 4: She was having issues as well.
• 1:14:28
  Speaker 1: Okay, well, y'all get to listen to me talk for
• 1:14:31
  Speaker 1: a little bit more because I can definitely talk to
• 1:14:33
  Speaker 1: you about resilience because let me tell you, my story
• 1:14:37
  Speaker 1: is just like this. In two thousand and nine, I
• 1:14:40
  Speaker 1: had a stroke, and that was me pouring into everyone else.
• 1:14:44
  Speaker 1: I was dealing with taking care of my mom. I
• 1:14:47
  Speaker 1: had moved my younger sister in shortly after that after
• 1:14:51
  Speaker 1: my mom decided to leave the house, and it's It
• 1:14:55
  Speaker 1: was a situation where I have been taking care of
• 1:14:58
  Speaker 1: my mom literally since I was fourteen years old, where
• 1:15:01
  Speaker 1: my family was consistent in saying, you need to get
• 1:15:04
  Speaker 1: your mother some help. You need to do this. I'm
• 1:15:07
  Speaker 1: a fourteen year old kid. I don't know how to
• 1:15:09
  Speaker 1: help an adult. I don't know these things. I can
• 1:15:12
  Speaker 1: only do what I can do, And so as I
• 1:15:14
  Speaker 1: got older, I did take on more of a role
• 1:15:17
  Speaker 1: of helping my mom. My mom was a drug addict
• 1:15:21
  Speaker 1: and an alcoholic, and she had been through some traumatic
• 1:15:24
  Speaker 1: things in her life and so me trying to figure
• 1:15:27
  Speaker 1: out what and how I could help. That was a
• 1:15:31
  Speaker 1: whole nother story in itself. So in two thousand and nine,
• 1:15:34
  Speaker 1: I was going through a divorce, separate, well going through
• 1:15:37
  Speaker 1: a separation then that ultimately led to a divorce. During
• 1:15:41
  Speaker 1: that time, my ex husband's family had my car stolen.
• 1:15:45
  Speaker 1: They because him and I got into a physical altercation.
• 1:15:49
  Speaker 1: And it was a lot of things that were going
• 1:15:51
  Speaker 1: on during that time. So that led me to having
• 1:15:54
  Speaker 1: a stroke. Not only did I have a stroke, I
• 1:15:56
  Speaker 1: had was diagnosed with the brain aneurysm, a condition called
• 1:16:01
  Speaker 1: kr malformation, which is no cure for that. And during
• 1:16:05
  Speaker 1: that time it was like, Okay, I lost the use
• 1:16:07
  Speaker 1: of my left side. My sister was living with me.
• 1:16:10
  Speaker 1: She got upset with me because I would not allow
• 1:16:13
  Speaker 1: her to sit in my house and smoke weed with
• 1:16:15
  Speaker 1: the neighbor. So the good arm that I had and
• 1:16:20
  Speaker 1: the good leg that I had, I packed off but
• 1:16:22
  Speaker 1: all of her belongings and put it outside of my
• 1:16:24
  Speaker 1: house because you don't get to be in my house
• 1:16:26
  Speaker 1: and talk to me this kind of way. When my
• 1:16:28
  Speaker 1: sister told me that she wished that the aneurysm killed me,
• 1:16:32
  Speaker 1: she wished that I was dead. So it's like, oh, okay,
• 1:16:35
  Speaker 1: all right, cool, I hear you and I understand that
• 1:16:39
  Speaker 1: is how you feel. But it turned around and my
• 1:16:41
  Speaker 1: sister needed me again. So she ended up being put
• 1:16:45
  Speaker 1: out of a place that she was living. So she
• 1:16:47
  Speaker 1: came and she came back to me, and I gave
• 1:16:51
  Speaker 1: her the tough love. Baby, I love you, but You're
• 1:16:54
  Speaker 1: gonna have to do this on your own because I'm
• 1:16:56
  Speaker 1: not your mother, I'm your sister.
• 1:16:57
  Speaker 6: It is not my.
• 1:16:58
  Speaker 1: Responsibility to take you. You're gonna have to figure out
• 1:17:01
  Speaker 1: how to get this on your own. So fast forward
• 1:17:05
  Speaker 1: twenty thirteen, I had a major flat with my condition.
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  Speaker 1: I ended up back in the hospital to where I
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  Speaker 1: lost my ability to walk, lost my ability to speak,
• 1:17:17
  Speaker 1: and doctor had no idea of what was gonna happen
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  Speaker 1: with me. Family was upset, nobody knew. My daughter was
• 1:17:25
  Speaker 1: going her senior year in high school, so it was
• 1:17:28
  Speaker 1: it was a difficult time for all of us. So
• 1:17:33
  Speaker 1: going through all of those things, it was like, Okay, well,
• 1:17:36
  Speaker 1: what can I do to get to the next stage
• 1:17:41
  Speaker 1: and what it is that you have? So going through that,
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  Speaker 1: I'm at home, I'm by myself. I can barely speak.
• 1:17:47
  Speaker 1: I'm using a pen and paper to talk to family,
• 1:17:50
  Speaker 1: to talk to doctors and everything, and I'm like, God,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know what it is that you're teaching me.
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  Speaker 1: I do realize that the prayer that I prayed was
• 1:18:01
  Speaker 1: not specific I was praying for. I did not know
• 1:18:05
  Speaker 1: that the rest God was going to give me was
• 1:18:08
  Speaker 1: going to require me to be stuck at home in
• 1:18:10
  Speaker 1: the bed for two years and not being able to
• 1:18:15
  Speaker 1: do much of anything. So during that time, it was like, God,
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  Speaker 1: I don't know, but I'm gonna trust you through this process.
• 1:18:23
  Speaker 1: So trusting God to get me through, he led me
• 1:18:27
  Speaker 1: to enroll in college. Now I had every excuse under
• 1:18:30
  Speaker 1: the sun. After that, I was like, God, look I'm
• 1:18:32
  Speaker 1: going back and forth to the hospital. I still got
• 1:18:35
  Speaker 1: daughter's appointments and everything. I had excuses, but I've raised
• 1:18:39
  Speaker 1: some very headstrong children till my daughter went with me
• 1:18:42
  Speaker 1: to this appointment. She told me that she has seen
• 1:18:45
  Speaker 1: me overcome everything that was placed in front of me,
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  Speaker 1: and I was going to enroll in school. So I
• 1:18:51
  Speaker 1: did exactly that. I enrolled in school. It was supposed
• 1:18:54
  Speaker 1: to take me two years to complete that journey. It
• 1:18:57
  Speaker 1: actually took me a year. And nine months to complete
• 1:18:59
  Speaker 1: and get my associate's degree and Applied Science Medical Office Administration.
• 1:19:04
  Speaker 1: So just because your face with something doesn't mean that
• 1:19:09
  Speaker 1: you don't have the will to get through to the
• 1:19:12
  Speaker 1: next thing if you trust and believe in what God
• 1:19:15
  Speaker 1: is bringing you through. Because I didn't know that everything
• 1:19:20
  Speaker 1: that He was placing in front of me, every obstacle,
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  Speaker 1: was going to be something that I would be able
• 1:19:26
  Speaker 1: to utilize. Because my dark days really were dark. I
• 1:19:31
  Speaker 1: didn't know what I was gonna do. If you saw
• 1:19:34
  Speaker 1: me walk, you would never know that I walked with
• 1:19:38
  Speaker 1: a walker that I had trouble with just anything. I
• 1:19:43
  Speaker 1: could not button a shirt. I couldn't hold a loaf
• 1:19:45
  Speaker 1: of bread. A loaf of bread weighs absolutely nothing. I
• 1:19:49
  Speaker 1: could not hold the loaf of bread with my left hand.
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  Speaker 1: I couldn't. I needed a cane, and some of the
• 1:19:57
  Speaker 1: people that I work with were so being that they
• 1:20:00
  Speaker 1: would take my cane and play with it. You know,
• 1:20:04
  Speaker 1: people will try to set you up in so many
• 1:20:07
  Speaker 1: ways to just fall and just not be able to
• 1:20:11
  Speaker 1: pick yourselves up. But when you trust and believe that
• 1:20:15
  Speaker 1: God has something for you in the midst of what
• 1:20:18
  Speaker 1: you're going through, and you keep walking, and you keep moving,
• 1:20:21
  Speaker 1: and you keep saying God, I trust you, and that
• 1:20:24
  Speaker 1: has been my biggest thing. God, I trust you in
• 1:20:26
  Speaker 1: everything that you have for me. I don't understand it.
• 1:20:30
  Speaker 1: He had me taking up public speaking class. I still
• 1:20:34
  Speaker 1: did not understand. I am going to be working the front.
• 1:20:37
  Speaker 1: That's the only things I'm gonna be asking these people
• 1:20:39
  Speaker 1: for is their idea in their insurance card and collecting
• 1:20:42
  Speaker 1: their copey. What do I need a public speaking class for?
• 1:20:47
  Speaker 1: Look at me?
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  Speaker 5: Now?
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  Speaker 1: This is what I'm doing, not only with this, helping
• 1:20:52
  Speaker 1: other writers become published authors, speaking in front of others,
• 1:20:59
  Speaker 1: let them know that just because the situation looks dark
• 1:21:03
  Speaker 1: doesn't mean that you have to stay there if you
• 1:21:06
  Speaker 1: want what it is that you have been given the
• 1:21:09
  Speaker 1: vision for. Because this is the thing. God is gonna
• 1:21:12
  Speaker 1: give you a vision of where he wants your life
• 1:21:14
  Speaker 1: to go. But if you choose to ignore it, you're
• 1:21:17
  Speaker 1: never gonna see the benefits that He's already promised you
• 1:21:21
  Speaker 1: if you trust him. And the visions that He's shown
• 1:21:25
  Speaker 1: me about my life. I didn't believe it. I had
• 1:21:27
  Speaker 1: no idea that I would be speaking, but he showed
• 1:21:31
  Speaker 1: me the visions, and I'm like God, I think you
• 1:21:33
  Speaker 1: delivered that to the wrong address. I don't think that's
• 1:21:36
  Speaker 1: meant for me. I think that's for somebody else. And
• 1:21:38
  Speaker 1: then he sent it back again and I'm like, I'm
• 1:21:41
  Speaker 1: still trying to return to send them. I'm like, that
• 1:21:44
  Speaker 1: ain't for me, and he like, I'm gonna send it
• 1:21:46
  Speaker 1: to you to you really understand that this is your purpose.
• 1:21:50
  Speaker 1: This is what I want you to do. And I'm like, God,
• 1:21:53
  Speaker 1: I think I think you keep missing the wrong address.
• 1:21:57
  Speaker 1: It's supposed to be at the house next dough. This
• 1:21:59
  Speaker 1: ain't supposed to be addressed to me until I realized
• 1:22:02
  Speaker 1: it had my name on it. It was addressed to me,
• 1:22:06
  Speaker 1: the little four to eight, little girl that has the
• 1:22:11
  Speaker 1: big spirit. It was for me. I couldn't send it
• 1:22:15
  Speaker 1: off to nobody else. I couldn't return it back to
• 1:22:17
  Speaker 1: him because it didn't belong to him either. It was
• 1:22:20
  Speaker 1: my purpose and I had to walk in it. And
• 1:22:23
  Speaker 1: even though I still get scared to speak in front
• 1:22:26
  Speaker 1: of people and I tell people that I'm shy, ain't
• 1:22:29
  Speaker 1: nobody believing, not one single bit of me being shy
• 1:22:33
  Speaker 1: in any form, in any capacity, in any shape at all,
• 1:22:37
  Speaker 1: because they like, you don't need no stranger. Strangers, you
• 1:22:40
  Speaker 1: will talk to anybody, and I'm like, no, God led
• 1:22:42
  Speaker 1: them over here to talk to me for a reason,
• 1:22:44
  Speaker 1: and so we gonna figure out what that reason is.
• 1:22:47
  Speaker 1: And So when God places you in a situation that
• 1:22:51
  Speaker 1: it does not seem like, you're gonna be able to
• 1:22:53
  Speaker 1: get out of trust and believe that He has something
• 1:22:57
  Speaker 1: that is connected to whatever it is that you're going through.
• 1:23:01
  Speaker 1: Just stay focused on his word, Stay focused on what
• 1:23:04
  Speaker 1: he's telling you to do. Be intentional with each and
• 1:23:07
  Speaker 1: every step that you take. Be intentional with every word
• 1:23:11
  Speaker 1: that you use, because the words that you use are
• 1:23:14
  Speaker 1: going to help you to get to the next level.
• 1:23:16
  Speaker 1: Because power lies in your tongue. So if you're speaking
• 1:23:20
  Speaker 1: negative thoughts over yourself, you're not gonna see what it
• 1:23:23
  Speaker 1: is that you want to see because you keep telling
• 1:23:25
  Speaker 1: yourself that it's not yours. But God promised it to you,
• 1:23:29
  Speaker 1: So you speak it as if you have already walked
• 1:23:32
  Speaker 1: in it. Because your purpose is connected to the things
• 1:23:35
  Speaker 1: that you say to yourself. Like I have a little
• 1:23:38
  Speaker 1: posting note that's on my mirror, and I was writing
• 1:23:41
  Speaker 1: this while I was at work because me and God
• 1:23:43
  Speaker 1: had this conversation. We be talking all day long. That's
• 1:23:45
  Speaker 1: why you be putting me on hoole sometime. And the
• 1:23:48
  Speaker 1: thing on my dresser says, pray, prepare and position. You
• 1:23:52
  Speaker 1: pray for what it is that you asking God for.
• 1:23:55
  Speaker 1: You position, you prepare yourself to receive what it is
• 1:23:57
  Speaker 1: that you're asking God for, and you positioning yourself to
• 1:24:01
  Speaker 1: receive it. So everything that you're asking God for, you're
• 1:24:04
  Speaker 1: praying for it, you're preparing for it, and you're positioning
• 1:24:07
  Speaker 1: yourself to be able to receive. So walk in resilience,
• 1:24:11
  Speaker 1: Walk in the purpose of which God has created you.
• 1:24:14
  Speaker 1: Because when you walk in your purpose, you will overcome
• 1:24:18
  Speaker 1: everything that was set in your way to destroy you,
• 1:24:22
  Speaker 1: to distract you, and to keep you off course. But
• 1:24:25
  Speaker 1: if you allow God to be your GPS, baby, you
• 1:24:29
  Speaker 1: gonna walk in everything. And even those dark days, are
• 1:24:33
  Speaker 1: you gonna look back and see the sunshine was already there.
• 1:24:37
  Speaker 1: You were just too focused on the dark clouds that
• 1:24:39
  Speaker 1: you didn't see the sunlight shining through. But every cloud
• 1:24:44
  Speaker 1: it looks like it's just full of darkness. If you
• 1:24:48
  Speaker 1: look hard enough, I promise you you'll see the clearing
• 1:24:50
  Speaker 1: where it says that silver lining. God is already white
• 1:24:53
  Speaker 1: there watching you. He's just waiting for you to see
• 1:24:56
  Speaker 1: that His light is always there. It's all with you.
• 1:25:00
  Speaker 1: Are you willing to look past the darkness to see
• 1:25:03
  Speaker 1: the light. So that's all I got on resilience. Anybody
• 1:25:08
  Speaker 1: got any questions for me or anything, and then we're
• 1:25:10
  Speaker 1: gonna move on to Miss Monique. But if you got
• 1:25:13
  Speaker 1: any questions, I'm gonna happen to answer. Now no questions, Well, listen,
• 1:25:20
  Speaker 1: we gonna have Miss Monique come on up and talk
• 1:25:22
  Speaker 1: to you guys about trauma no more. We've all been
• 1:25:25
  Speaker 1: through some traumatic experience in this life. And what you
• 1:25:29
  Speaker 1: do is either you hold on to it and let
• 1:25:32
  Speaker 1: it define you, or you find the purpose within that trauma.
• 1:25:36
  Speaker 1: I'll write, Miss Monique, the floor is yours.
• 1:26:29
  Speaker 6: Are you saying something? Are you saying something? What did
• 1:26:32
  Speaker 6: you say? Because I didn't hear what you said. Yeah,
• 1:26:45
  Speaker 6: I can hear you now, Oh okay. Because she had
• 1:26:51
  Speaker 6: froze so I wasn't sure what was going on, I
• 1:26:53
  Speaker 6: didn't want to start speaking, and she popped back in.
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  Speaker 6: All right. First of all, thank you for having me,
• 1:27:00
  Speaker 6: Queen Angela. It's always a time when we get together.
• 1:27:04
  Speaker 6: I've learned so much for all of the ladies on
• 1:27:06
  Speaker 6: this panel, so far I could deeply relate to each
• 1:27:09
  Speaker 6: and everything we're talking about. Trauma no more, and for
• 1:27:13
  Speaker 6: definition's sake, trauma is defined as a deeply distressing or
• 1:27:17
  Speaker 6: disturbing event that overwhelms a person's capacity to cope and
• 1:27:22
  Speaker 6: causes significant negative effects on their mental, emotional, physical, and
• 1:27:27
  Speaker 6: spiritual well being. One of the things that I have
• 1:27:31
  Speaker 6: learned because I have lived through several traumas, including domestic violence,
• 1:27:35
  Speaker 6: child abuse, sexual assault, becoming a special needs mom, having
• 1:27:42
  Speaker 6: my son born at two pounds and watching him be resuscitate,
• 1:27:46
  Speaker 6: suscitated in front of me, living in a homeless shelter
• 1:27:49
  Speaker 6: with my two kids, not having a job, not having money.
• 1:27:53
  Speaker 6: The things that I've learned through all of those things
• 1:27:56
  Speaker 6: that we're traumatic is that it's not always but it's
• 1:28:00
  Speaker 6: done to you that's traumatic. But it's the things that
• 1:28:02
  Speaker 6: was not done to you that could be just as traumatic.
• 1:28:05
  Speaker 6: For example, you know, when you go through trauma and
• 1:28:08
  Speaker 6: you try to tell somebody that something happened to you
• 1:28:11
  Speaker 6: and they don't believe you, that's traumatic. When you try
• 1:28:14
  Speaker 6: to go seek help and people don't come to your rescue,
• 1:28:16
  Speaker 6: that's traumatic. When you try to go seek help and
• 1:28:19
  Speaker 6: you can't seem to find the help. That's traumatic. Or
• 1:28:22
  Speaker 6: when even when you trust somebody with your trauma and
• 1:28:24
  Speaker 6: they go tell someone else, that's traumatic because you told
• 1:28:28
  Speaker 6: someone in confidence. Sometimes trauma is the ongoing weight of
• 1:28:32
  Speaker 6: carrying something that is simply too big for us to carry. God,
• 1:28:36
  Speaker 6: God never told us to be strong. Let me say that,
• 1:28:38
  Speaker 6: Let me start there. God did not tell us to
• 1:28:40
  Speaker 6: be strong. Ladies, The Bible says, be strong in the
• 1:28:43
  Speaker 6: Lord and in the power of His might. Sometimes as
• 1:28:47
  Speaker 6: you go through trauma, it's speaking louder than God's voice
• 1:28:50
  Speaker 6: is in your head to ask you, are you sure
• 1:28:53
  Speaker 6: you're supposed to be doing this? Are you good enough?
• 1:28:55
  Speaker 6: God ain't listening to you. You're never gonna get through this,
• 1:28:58
  Speaker 6: And you find your self isolating yourself because we inwardly
• 1:29:04
  Speaker 6: begin to blame ourselves no matter what the trauma is.
• 1:29:07
  Speaker 6: We attack ourselves first before anybody else. And those are
• 1:29:12
  Speaker 6: the things that should let you know that you need
• 1:29:14
  Speaker 6: counseling and therapy, and there's nothing wrong with that. The
• 1:29:18
  Speaker 6: Bible says. In a multitude of counselor is their safety.
• 1:29:20
  Speaker 6: So that tells me that I am supposed to have
• 1:29:22
  Speaker 6: Jesus in therapy too, and I talk about that in
• 1:29:25
  Speaker 6: my grief. But grief is a gangster grief. As you
• 1:29:29
  Speaker 6: go through your grief journey through trauma, you have to
• 1:29:32
  Speaker 6: grieve whatever the loss was. You have to grieve the
• 1:29:35
  Speaker 6: feelings and emotions that were enacted on you or that
• 1:29:38
  Speaker 6: you brought upon yourself. It's even the things that you
• 1:29:41
  Speaker 6: thought that you would do in life that you didn't
• 1:29:43
  Speaker 6: get to do. I had to grieve the son that
• 1:29:44
  Speaker 6: I didn't have. My son can't walk, he can't run,
• 1:29:47
  Speaker 6: he can't jump, he can't play football, he can't do
• 1:29:50
  Speaker 6: any of those things trauma. Every day for the past
• 1:29:53
  Speaker 6: twenty five years, I woke up thinking, Okay, God, maybe
• 1:29:57
  Speaker 6: today will be the day that he will walk. Realizing
• 1:30:00
  Speaker 6: that even in the midst of that God was changing me.
• 1:30:03
  Speaker 6: I did. I realize that even in the midst of that,
• 1:30:05
  Speaker 6: God was building me so that I commnenced it to
• 1:30:08
  Speaker 6: other special needs parents and give them hope and give
• 1:30:11
  Speaker 6: them faith. But the trauma was speaking louder, so I
• 1:30:14
  Speaker 6: could not hear God. The trauma was speaking louder. Trauma
• 1:30:17
  Speaker 6: has a voice, And just like Sister Alma said Psalm
• 1:30:20
  Speaker 6: thirty four, says, the Lord is close to the broken hearted.
• 1:30:23
  Speaker 6: He saved those that are crushed in spirit. When you
• 1:30:26
  Speaker 6: in a traumatic situation, you're crushed in spirit. You want
• 1:30:29
  Speaker 6: any type of relief that you could find, and a
• 1:30:31
  Speaker 6: lot of times we gravitate to all the wrong things
• 1:30:35
  Speaker 6: to relieve our trauma. You can tell that you are
• 1:30:38
  Speaker 6: in trauma by the friends you have, by the places
• 1:30:41
  Speaker 6: you go, the extracurricular activities that you allow yourself to
• 1:30:45
  Speaker 6: be a part of. Trauma speaks even when we're not.
• 1:30:49
  Speaker 6: Trauma speaks whether we say a word or not. It's
• 1:30:52
  Speaker 6: showing in our bodies. It's showing in our attitudes, it's
• 1:30:54
  Speaker 6: showing in our actions. And let me tell you, trauma
• 1:30:57
  Speaker 6: is loud. The enemy wants you to stay trapped in trauma.
• 1:31:00
  Speaker 6: He don't want you to be free. Why because if
• 1:31:02
  Speaker 6: you be free, you're not going to entertain him anymore.
• 1:31:05
  Speaker 6: You're going to entertain the things of God. And you're
• 1:31:07
  Speaker 6: going to get to the place where God wants you.
• 1:31:09
  Speaker 6: So he does whatever he can to stop you. But
• 1:31:11
  Speaker 6: I want to remind you that Isaiah forty three or
• 1:31:14
  Speaker 6: two says, whenever you pass through the water, I will
• 1:31:17
  Speaker 6: be with you when you pass through the rivers. It
• 1:31:20
  Speaker 6: would not overtake you. Notice God didn't say we wouldn't
• 1:31:23
  Speaker 6: pass through stuff. Yay, though I walk through the Valley
• 1:31:26
  Speaker 6: of the Shadow of Death. Palm twenty three says, that
• 1:31:28
  Speaker 6: means we still got to do it. As all you
• 1:31:30
  Speaker 6: lady said earlier, we still got to do these things.
• 1:31:33
  Speaker 6: We still have to go through this process to get
• 1:31:36
  Speaker 6: through the Valley of the shadow of death. We have
• 1:31:38
  Speaker 6: to pass through the waters, which means we're going to
• 1:31:41
  Speaker 6: experience some sort of trauma, some sort of discomfort, some
• 1:31:44
  Speaker 6: sort of hurt, some sort of pain. The Lord said,
• 1:31:48
  Speaker 6: that doesn't say that we won't experience fire. He said
• 1:31:51
  Speaker 6: that the flames won't consume us. The truth is we
• 1:31:55
  Speaker 6: weren't failing and we're not forgotten. God was holding us
• 1:31:58
  Speaker 6: up through our trauma, no matter when it was, how
• 1:32:01
  Speaker 6: long it was. But here's the good thing. There is
• 1:32:05
  Speaker 6: healing available for you. God's word says that my grace
• 1:32:10
  Speaker 6: is sufficient for you. It's not healing isn't just about
• 1:32:13
  Speaker 6: what's happening to you. It's about what's happening around you.
• 1:32:17
  Speaker 6: And this is why you have to heal from the trauma,
• 1:32:19
  Speaker 6: because your bloodline is at stake. Do you know that
• 1:32:22
  Speaker 6: if you do not heal, the trauma continues through the
• 1:32:25
  Speaker 6: blood line. The trauma will continue, The generational curses will continue,
• 1:32:30
  Speaker 6: the low self estein will continue, the making bad choices
• 1:32:33
  Speaker 6: in marrying men will continue. The drugs and alcohol and
• 1:32:36
  Speaker 6: the sex to continue. All of these things will continue.
• 1:32:39
  Speaker 6: Somebody has to be the one. And guess what, God
• 1:32:42
  Speaker 6: shows you to be the one to break the trauma.
• 1:32:46
  Speaker 6: Stop trying to be strong, Stop trying to be perfect,
• 1:32:49
  Speaker 6: because you're going to steal. Fall short. The word says,
• 1:32:51
  Speaker 6: we all have fallen short of the glory of God.
• 1:32:53
  Speaker 6: We are in this flesh. There is no way we're
• 1:32:55
  Speaker 6: going to be perfected. There's no way we are perfect.
• 1:32:59
  Speaker 6: But God perfects those things concerning us. I mean. And
• 1:33:02
  Speaker 6: so when I was going through my healing journey and
• 1:33:07
  Speaker 6: I'm in therapy now, when I lost my grandmother and
• 1:33:09
  Speaker 6: my sister two weeks apart, I didn't know what day
• 1:33:13
  Speaker 6: it was, y'all. I didn't know what I was doing.
• 1:33:15
  Speaker 6: I did not know how to handle that because while
• 1:33:20
  Speaker 6: God prepared me for my grandmother to pass, he didn't
• 1:33:22
  Speaker 6: prepare me for my sister. So of course, you know,
• 1:33:24
  Speaker 6: I felt broadsided a lot of us would be. You know,
• 1:33:28
  Speaker 6: trauma does that to you. Trauma does not ask permission
• 1:33:31
  Speaker 6: to traumatize you. It just does. And so when things
• 1:33:35
  Speaker 6: happened like that, instead of me, instead of me saying, okay, Lord,
• 1:33:39
  Speaker 6: I surrendered these emotions and stuff to you. I went
• 1:33:42
  Speaker 6: on my day. It went on like wasn't anything bothering me.
• 1:33:45
  Speaker 6: I was stuff in my emotions. I was still smiling
• 1:33:48
  Speaker 6: in front of everybody, and everybody was still just taking
• 1:33:51
  Speaker 6: from me, taking from me, and I'm just steady pouring out,
• 1:33:53
  Speaker 6: pouring out, until one day I was in the hospital,
• 1:33:55
  Speaker 6: hooked up to a heart machine. Like many of you,
• 1:33:59
  Speaker 6: I suffered health issues because I was not addressing my trauma.
• 1:34:03
  Speaker 6: Death has a way of bringing about traumas that you
• 1:34:05
  Speaker 6: did not face from childhood even And I was like, Lord,
• 1:34:10
  Speaker 6: where's all this stuff coming from? Because you didn't heal
• 1:34:13
  Speaker 6: from those other things, and now you're in this day
• 1:34:18
  Speaker 6: and you're still not trying to heal from this either,
• 1:34:20
  Speaker 6: and I'm trying to get you to the place where
• 1:34:22
  Speaker 6: I'm trying to heal you. So the Lord literally had
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  Speaker 6: to deal with me because I thought that I had
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  Speaker 6: it together. I thought I would look I was the
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  Speaker 6: prophet is I was the preacher. I was the teacher.
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  Speaker 6: I was the innocence. I'm praying for everybody else they're
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  Speaker 6: getting their healing or whatever, and I was literally dying.
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  Speaker 6: Do you know that even though you take medicine, the medicine,
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  Speaker 6: while it goes to the part that it's supposed to treat,
• 1:34:43
  Speaker 6: it goes to your whole body first. That's the same
• 1:34:45
  Speaker 6: thing trauma does. Trauma goes to your whole body even
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  Speaker 6: and it's gonna affect everything around you. Even though you
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  Speaker 6: don't think it's gonna affect your heart, It's gonna affect
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  Speaker 6: your heart. You think it's not gonna affect your spirit,
• 1:34:56
  Speaker 6: It's gonna affect your spirit. So I'm here to tell
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  Speaker 6: you today, every that you've had, every traumatic experience that
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  Speaker 6: you are either dealing with or have overcame, you not
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  Speaker 6: have a testimony because of it. I know it doesn't
• 1:35:08
  Speaker 6: make sense. I know it didn't feel good at the time.
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  Speaker 6: But every tear that you've sown, the Bible says you
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  Speaker 6: shall reap and joy. God has bottled your tears. Do
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  Speaker 6: you know he knows how many tears you cried? How
• 1:35:20
  Speaker 6: old are you? That's how many teas you cried, and
• 1:35:23
  Speaker 6: God knows how many tears that is. You know how
• 1:35:25
  Speaker 6: much hair I have on my head? I don't, but
• 1:35:29
  Speaker 6: God knows. God knows the number of heads we have
• 1:35:31
  Speaker 6: on our head, He knows how many fell out and
• 1:35:33
  Speaker 6: everything else. So if you find yourself exhausted, understand that
• 1:35:36
  Speaker 6: God sees you. If you find yourself feeling invisible, you're
• 1:35:40
  Speaker 6: not invisible, because God said He's everywhere, He's where you are.
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  Speaker 6: You're not invisible like the sisters said earlier. It's just
• 1:35:47
  Speaker 6: that you have not been made visible to the eyes
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  Speaker 6: that need to see you.
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  Speaker 2: Yet.
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  Speaker 6: Oh that just bless my soul, says, Oh my God,
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  Speaker 6: we're not invisible. We're just being hidden for a specific time.
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  Speaker 6: And when it is time for us to come forth,
• 1:36:00
  Speaker 6: we would come out of this pill gold if we
• 1:36:01
  Speaker 6: overcome the trauma. And so understand that your tears are
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  Speaker 6: not wasted, your prayers are not wasted, Your pain and
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  Speaker 6: your turmoil was not wasted, Your trauma was not wasted.
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  Speaker 6: I need you to declare over your life charuma no more.
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  Speaker 6: Because God makes a way of escape. He said that
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  Speaker 6: he does. His word says that when we go through
• 1:36:24
  Speaker 6: things that He has made a way of escape. Now,
• 1:36:27
  Speaker 6: if you don't take it, like Sister Treeda said, you
• 1:36:30
  Speaker 6: are your own What else do you want God to
• 1:36:32
  Speaker 6: do for you? There's nothing I could do for you.
• 1:36:34
  Speaker 6: I could pray for you and pray in the spirit
• 1:36:36
  Speaker 6: and fast and do all of those things. But if
• 1:36:38
  Speaker 6: I am not willing to face my own demons, if
• 1:36:41
  Speaker 6: I'm not willing to take accountability for things, whether I
• 1:36:45
  Speaker 6: was the carprit for the trauma or not, it's still
• 1:36:48
  Speaker 6: my responsibility to hear why because my blood line depends
• 1:36:51
  Speaker 6: on it. Your blood line depends on it. I understand
• 1:36:54
  Speaker 6: that trauma comes to shape you in a way that
• 1:36:59
  Speaker 6: it wouldn't s if you had you not had the trauma.
• 1:37:01
  Speaker 6: I know it don't make sense. I know you're like,
• 1:37:03
  Speaker 6: God didn't have to do all that He could have
• 1:37:05
  Speaker 6: just did Bibby Boppy booth. Sure he could have, But
• 1:37:08
  Speaker 6: what would you have learned? If God as parents all
• 1:37:13
  Speaker 6: for those of us who are parents, if we gave
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  Speaker 6: our kids everything they asked for and they never learned
• 1:37:17
  Speaker 6: any lessons, then then they're gonna just be spore brats, unproductive,
• 1:37:22
  Speaker 6: spoil breads, because they're gonna keep coming to us and
• 1:37:24
  Speaker 6: we're just gonna keep giving and doing. That's not God.
• 1:37:27
  Speaker 6: We have to learn from the trauma that we've gone through.
• 1:37:30
  Speaker 6: We have to learn from the scars that we have.
• 1:37:33
  Speaker 6: The scars are indicators that something was there that is
• 1:37:36
  Speaker 6: no longer there. That means that you've gone through it.
• 1:37:38
  Speaker 6: The scars have healed, That means that you've gone through
• 1:37:40
  Speaker 6: it already. The scars of indication that healing has taken place.
• 1:37:45
  Speaker 6: And so embrace the moments with God because being a
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  Speaker 6: victim doesn't do anything for you. Even though it brings
• 1:37:53
  Speaker 6: you attention, and you think you want this attention, it's not.
• 1:37:57
  Speaker 6: It's not taking you anywhere you want to go, not
• 1:37:59
  Speaker 6: towards God. As long as you stay there. There's no
• 1:38:02
  Speaker 6: comfort in comfort zones. I don't know why they call
• 1:38:04
  Speaker 6: them comfort zones. There's no comfort there, but God has
• 1:38:08
  Speaker 6: made a way of escape. We have adopted this erroneous
• 1:38:11
  Speaker 6: mindset that our trauma is safer than to be healed.
• 1:38:14
  Speaker 6: And that's why when people come to love on us,
• 1:38:16
  Speaker 6: we don't know how to accept it because we were
• 1:38:19
  Speaker 6: never exposed to anything else. But then when the love
• 1:38:22
  Speaker 6: of God shows up, we get terrified and instead of
• 1:38:26
  Speaker 6: embracing something different, our flesh automatically reverts back to what
• 1:38:31
  Speaker 6: is always known. So I challenge you today that if
• 1:38:34
  Speaker 6: you find yourself still wrestling with trauma and all of
• 1:38:39
  Speaker 6: those things and descend in your life, God has come
• 1:38:41
  Speaker 6: to bring you out of it. God does not want
• 1:38:44
  Speaker 6: you to stay there. If He wants you to stay there,
• 1:38:46
  Speaker 6: the Cross wouldn't have been necessary if he wanted you
• 1:38:49
  Speaker 6: to stay there, Salvation would not have been necessary. If
• 1:38:52
  Speaker 6: he wanted you to stay there, he wouldn't have laid,
• 1:38:54
  Speaker 6: He wouldn't have setent in the garden and told the
• 1:38:56
  Speaker 6: people to his disciples to pray with him for one hour.
• 1:38:58
  Speaker 6: He wouldn't allow himself to be speed and the crowns
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  Speaker 6: of thorns to be put on his head if he
• 1:39:02
  Speaker 6: wanted you to stay there. He has come that you
• 1:39:05
  Speaker 6: may have life, the Word says, and that you may
• 1:39:08
  Speaker 6: have it more bundanly. You can get out of survival
• 1:39:10
  Speaker 6: mode if you want to. Like the sister said, it's
• 1:39:13
  Speaker 6: a choice. The choice is yours. You have a lot
• 1:39:15
  Speaker 6: of options, but you only got to choices. You can
• 1:39:18
  Speaker 6: either live or die, And every decision you make from
• 1:39:21
  Speaker 6: this moment on speaks to whether you want to live
• 1:39:23
  Speaker 6: that life more bundantly in Christ, or if you just
• 1:39:26
  Speaker 6: gonna lay down and mark your time until you die.
• 1:39:29
  Speaker 6: But you can get up from the trauma. I'm a witness.
• 1:39:31
  Speaker 6: You could get up from the trauma. I've already written
• 1:39:33
  Speaker 6: six seven, eight books or something like that. God has
• 1:39:36
  Speaker 6: given me a podcast radio show where I talk to
• 1:39:39
  Speaker 6: people all across the world. I'm out here doing things
• 1:39:42
  Speaker 6: I thought i'd never do. Like sister Trevida said, I
• 1:39:45
  Speaker 6: told him, Mama, I don't want to do that. That
• 1:39:46
  Speaker 6: ain't me. You need to send that bay to somebody else.
• 1:39:48
  Speaker 6: I want to talk to nobody trauma. Because the trauma
• 1:39:51
  Speaker 6: was speaking louder than his still small voice to say Monique,
• 1:39:54
  Speaker 6: I love you, You're healed. You can do this. I've given
• 1:39:58
  Speaker 6: this to you. Nobody else can do this but you.
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  Speaker 6: Even if you had a twin, nobody else could do
• 1:40:02
  Speaker 6: this the way you could do it. So I need
• 1:40:04
  Speaker 6: you to come out of your trauma. I need you
• 1:40:06
  Speaker 6: to admit that it's there. First of all, you gotta
• 1:40:08
  Speaker 6: admit that it's dead because you're hurting your body. Lets
• 1:40:11
  Speaker 6: you know that you're hurting your body. Lets you know
• 1:40:12
  Speaker 6: that you're depleted your body. Lets you know that you
• 1:40:15
  Speaker 6: are not where you should be spiritually, mentally or emotionally.
• 1:40:19
  Speaker 6: Go to counselor and therapy, like I said, And the
• 1:40:22
  Speaker 6: multitude of counselor is their safety. Trust somebody with your
• 1:40:25
  Speaker 6: trauma will let me stop right there, youth desirement. You
• 1:40:27
  Speaker 6: can't tell everybody everything. You cannot because they're not equip
• 1:40:32
  Speaker 6: to handle that. This is why you pray and ask
• 1:40:35
  Speaker 6: God what to say, who to say it to, and when,
• 1:40:39
  Speaker 6: keep a journal, write down your thoughts, no matter how
• 1:40:42
  Speaker 6: ugly they are. Do you know that a lot of
• 1:40:44
  Speaker 6: the things that are in my books was because of
• 1:40:46
  Speaker 6: thoughts that I wrote down, and journals and just moments
• 1:40:50
  Speaker 6: with God where he dropped things in my spirit. Grief
• 1:40:52
  Speaker 6: as a gangster came at a time where I thought
• 1:40:55
  Speaker 6: I was gonna die, y'all. I had to as I'm like,
• 1:40:59
  Speaker 6: at this point, I don't got nothing else because trauma
• 1:41:03
  Speaker 6: had engulfed me so death had bullied me so that
• 1:41:07
  Speaker 6: I could not see my way out of it. Now, now,
• 1:41:10
  Speaker 6: imagine you being in this place of total darkness and
• 1:41:14
  Speaker 6: God still allows you to write and minister to people.
• 1:41:17
  Speaker 6: You in darkness, and you know you in darkness, but
• 1:41:20
  Speaker 6: you're still saying yes, Lord, as he brings. See. God
• 1:41:23
  Speaker 6: does things in stages. He gives you a little bit,
• 1:41:26
  Speaker 6: you move further, you move closer to him. You do
• 1:41:29
  Speaker 6: a little bit more, you move closer to him. Don't
• 1:41:34
  Speaker 6: discredit your journey, don't discredit your testimony. Love the person
• 1:41:38
  Speaker 6: that God has created you to be, You're not that
• 1:41:39
  Speaker 6: person anymore. If you have a relationship with Christ, you
• 1:41:43
  Speaker 6: are a new creation. The trauma has passed away, but
• 1:41:47
  Speaker 6: you gotta do the work. Old things have passed away.
• 1:41:50
  Speaker 6: Behold all things become them. So before I leave y'all,
• 1:41:53
  Speaker 6: let me give y'all few little things for trauma. The
• 1:41:55
  Speaker 6: tea stands for trusting the Lord Proverbs three five or six.
• 1:41:59
  Speaker 6: Trusting Lord with all your heart, and lead not to
• 1:42:01
  Speaker 6: your own understanding. Are take refuge in God. God is
• 1:42:05
  Speaker 6: our refuge and strength, a very present health of trouble.
• 1:42:07
  Speaker 6: That's Song forty six to one. The AA is abide
• 1:42:10
  Speaker 6: in his love. As the Father has loved me, so
• 1:42:12
  Speaker 6: have I loved you. Now remained in my love. That
• 1:42:15
  Speaker 6: means you got to live there. That's John fifteen or nine.
• 1:42:18
  Speaker 6: You gotta stay there. And didn't say visit his love.
• 1:42:20
  Speaker 6: It said remain in His love for you is understanding
• 1:42:24
  Speaker 6: his peace Philippians for Ad Sabbath says, and the peace
• 1:42:27
  Speaker 6: of God which surpasses all understanding. With God your hearts
• 1:42:31
  Speaker 6: and minds and Christ, Jesus ell mercy that restores. But
• 1:42:36
  Speaker 6: because of his great love for us, God, who is
• 1:42:39
  Speaker 6: rich in mercy, made us alive in Christ. That's Ephesians
• 1:42:43
  Speaker 6: chapter two, four through five. We have been made alive
• 1:42:46
  Speaker 6: because of the trauma. Trauma has pushed us places that
• 1:42:48
  Speaker 6: we would have never gone had we not been in
• 1:42:51
  Speaker 6: any type of situation. If we never had not a
• 1:42:53
  Speaker 6: nay trial or tribulation, we would not be sitting here.
• 1:42:57
  Speaker 6: We would still be in our comfort zone somewhere. But
• 1:43:00
  Speaker 6: there's something about charuma delights a fire up under you
• 1:43:03
  Speaker 6: that reveals God to you and the most intimate and
• 1:43:06
  Speaker 6: darkest times of your life that will propel you to
• 1:43:09
  Speaker 6: healing and finally a anchor your soul and hope. We
• 1:43:14
  Speaker 6: have this hope as a anchor for the soul, firma
• 1:43:16
  Speaker 6: secure and that is Hebrew six and nineteen. I need
• 1:43:20
  Speaker 6: you to get up today, dush yourself all cry if
• 1:43:23
  Speaker 6: you need to, screaming a pillow if you need to.
• 1:43:25
  Speaker 6: But I need you to get up because we don't.
• 1:43:28
  Speaker 6: We don't have to suffer from charma. God has come
• 1:43:31
  Speaker 6: that you may have life, and that you may have
• 1:43:33
  Speaker 6: it more abundantly. So trauma no more. I need you
• 1:43:37
  Speaker 6: to decree, declare trauma no more. I'm a new creation.
• 1:43:41
  Speaker 6: I am the head and not the tell I'm above
• 1:43:42
  Speaker 6: and not beneath. I am more than an overcomer and
• 1:43:45
  Speaker 6: the conqueror. To him who loved me. The word of
• 1:43:49
  Speaker 6: the Lord is blessed. Thank you for having me. Quein Angela.
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  Speaker 4: Yea Unique press her way on, y'all.
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  Speaker 1: She she.
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  Speaker 4: Is in the background. Here she is. If she has
• 1:44:08
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• 1:44:11
  Speaker 4: you have anything to say, Unique, we we thank you
• 1:44:15
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• 1:44:20
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• 1:44:23
  Speaker 4: you would like to share anything, can you hear me?
• 1:44:29
  Speaker 1: Unique, you're muted.
• 1:44:46
  Speaker 4: If you want to share, you can share something. We
• 1:44:49
  Speaker 4: can hear you. We can hear you.
• 1:44:56
  Speaker 6: Well, text, we can hear you.
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  Speaker 4: You can go ahead and speak.
• 1:45:07
  Speaker 6: A lot of us are on mute says you're not
• 1:45:09
  Speaker 6: supposed to hear as we're just supposed to hear you.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, we're muted. Let me text her so she'll know
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  Speaker 4: that we are muted.
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  Speaker 6: I'm just hacking. So what do you want to say.
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  Speaker 4: I'm just saying I can't do you guys, we hold on.
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  Speaker 1: We're on mute, so we're not really talking. Uh oh,
• 1:46:04
  Speaker 1: she just went off, you.
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  Speaker 4: Need you need, We're on mute. We're we're on mute.
• 1:46:19
  Speaker 4: Everybody that's on the line is on mute. But we
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  Speaker 4: can hear you. So if you want to speak, you
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  Speaker 4: can go ahead and speak. Just come back on. If
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  Speaker 4: you want to speak, you can go ahead and speak.
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  Speaker 4: I'm trying now, okay.
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  Speaker 7: Okay, let's see if I can get me if I
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  Speaker 7: can get okay, but we're muted, so you can just
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  Speaker 7: come on and share.
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  Speaker 4: She said she was gonna try to get back on,
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  Speaker 4: y'all okay, but I definitely I thank you profit this
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  Speaker 4: Monique for sharing. I think she may have dropped off.
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  Speaker 4: I thank you for sharing, Danielle, I thank you for sharing.
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  Speaker 4: I definitely needed to hear that. We're gonna let unique.
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  Speaker 4: She's gonna try to get back on, and she comes
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  Speaker 4: back on, We're gonna let her share for a moment,
• 1:47:22
  Speaker 4: and then before we close out, I want everybody to
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• 1:47:29
  Speaker 4: to you, how we can support your platforms, how we
• 1:47:32
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• 1:47:36
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• 1:47:41
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  Speaker 4: around and let everybody share how we can connect with them.
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  Speaker 4: Let's start with Profert this Monique, and then Miss Danielle
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  Speaker 4: and then Minister Alma. Okay, share how we can connect
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  Speaker 4: with you, follow you, support your podcast and all that
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  Speaker 6: All right, I'm all over social media as Monique Duo
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  Speaker 6: except for Instagram. I miss d rain M S D
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  Speaker 6: E E R E I G. And all you gotta
• 1:48:17
  Speaker 6: do is google my name. I'm everywhere. My books are
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  Speaker 6: on Amazon, or you could reach out to me and
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  Speaker 6: in box me on any of those platforms if you
• 1:48:24
  Speaker 6: want to order Grief as a Gangster or Kid give
• 1:48:26
  Speaker 6: a CPR or Jeremiah the Jack Rabbit, which is my
• 1:48:29
  Speaker 6: children's book. And I have a YouTube channel as well
• 1:48:35
  Speaker 6: where my podcast is there too, but it's wherever podcasts
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  Speaker 6: a stream. It's called having a moment with money. And
• 1:48:43
  Speaker 6: I would love to connect with you guys, y'all can
• 1:48:45
  Speaker 6: follow me on Facebook. I'm actually on Facebook as Monique
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  Speaker 6: doing so you can find me there as well. It
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  Speaker 6: was a pleasure to being with you guys.
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  Speaker 4: Thank you, Quit Angela, thank you for coming and sharing
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  Speaker 4: with us.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, yes, hi Hi, thank you so much for just
• 1:49:02
  Speaker 5: letting me be here and for everyone just for what
• 1:49:04
  Speaker 5: you sharedause. I'm like it was encouraging to me. I
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  Speaker 5: much needed during the season in my life. My name
• 1:49:10
  Speaker 5: is Danielle Ross. I'm the owner of Hope's Legacy Grief Support.
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  Speaker 5: I am a certified grief coach and a BRIEVEMENTDULA and
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  Speaker 5: feel free to reach out to me anytime. I can
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  Speaker 5: two eight three nine seven. The name of my business,
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  Speaker 5: Hope Legacy Grief Support. I am located in Texas, so
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  Speaker 5: feel free to call me, text me, you can email me.
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  Speaker 5: It's Move Forward cs at gmail dot com. It's just
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  Speaker 5: m O V and then the word forward and then
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  Speaker 5: seas and kat Essence and Sam at gmail dot com.
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  Speaker 5: And would just love to hear from me if you
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  Speaker 5: just need someone to listen, someone to pray for you.
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  Speaker 5: And someone to talk to. Thank you so much. Look
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  Speaker 5: forward to hearing from me soon. Have a blessed day.
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  Speaker 4: Amen. Amen, mister Amma, your own hear me? Yeah, if
• 1:49:59
  Speaker 4: I can hear.
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  Speaker 3: You now, Okay. My name is Minnes Alma. I'm on
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  Speaker 3: Facebook as either Alma Thomas or Alma Thomas author page.
• 1:50:11
  Speaker 3: You can reach out to me to order any of
• 1:50:14
  Speaker 3: my books. I have Dream Killers, From the Waiting Room
• 1:50:19
  Speaker 3: to the Recovery Room, Surviving a Stroke Against the Odds,
• 1:50:26
  Speaker 3: a Gratitude Book, and like I said, I'm presently teaching
• 1:50:32
  Speaker 3: a bachelor's class, so I'll be teaching Biblical counseling this
• 1:50:38
  Speaker 3: year and Christian counseling.
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  Speaker 2: So and I'm a part.
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  Speaker 3: Of the Crew podcast and you can listen to me
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  Speaker 3: every first and third Wednesday everywhere that the Dude the
• 1:50:54
  Speaker 3: Crew podcast can be heard. Thank you once again, Queen Angela. Everything.
• 1:51:01
  Speaker 3: Let me give a brief testimony. Over the last two years,
• 1:51:07
  Speaker 3: I've been on over five hundred podcasts, sevends, and conferences.
• 1:51:14
  Speaker 3: And all of this started four years ago when I
• 1:51:19
  Speaker 3: asked Queen Angela to be part of the Crew podcast
• 1:51:24
  Speaker 3: and I was in a nursing home in the hospital.
• 1:51:28
  Speaker 3: Ben and At first, I said, you know, I don't
• 1:51:31
  Speaker 3: want to be seen like this or people gonna be
• 1:51:34
  Speaker 3: able to see God in me?
• 1:51:35
  Speaker 2: Are people gonna judge me?
• 1:51:37
  Speaker 3: Why is she know she's always talking about God, but
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  Speaker 3: she's in that condition. But I said yes, and once
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  Speaker 3: I said yes, God has opened up so many doors.
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  Speaker 3: So I just want to celebrate Queen Angela for who
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  Speaker 3: she is in my life. My dog is bought some
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  Speaker 3: great and let me meet myself. God bless everybod I
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  Speaker 3: have a blessed that.
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  Speaker 4: Amen. Amen, Amen and Quinn.
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  Speaker 3: Angel I'm sorry, but I have to go and soveg
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  Speaker 3: men to be taken care of.
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  Speaker 2: Now.
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  Speaker 4: Thank you, thank you for joining us, Thank you for
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  Speaker 4: joining us.
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  Speaker 3: Thank you for inviting me, honor and humble. Ay man,
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  Speaker 3: we have a great day, all right, bye bye Amen.
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  Speaker 4: Sister Trevida. I'll go first and then you can go.
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  Speaker 4: So I am Queen out Collaborations. Of course you can
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  Speaker 4: google me. I'm on all platforms. I am the visionary
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  Speaker 4: of this podcast, the Coup Podcast. I am the CEO
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  Speaker 4: and founder of Aspiring offic magazine, Queen of Collaborations, Consultant
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  Speaker 4: and life Coaching. I just believe that I have to
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  Speaker 4: be the change that I want to see in this world.
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  Speaker 4: So in doing that, God has given me all these outlets.
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  Speaker 4: I just wanted to share his goodness because he raised
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  Speaker 4: me up off my bed of affliction. He could have
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  Speaker 4: took me out of here when I was deep in
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  Speaker 4: my sind when I was laying on my bed of affliction,
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  Speaker 4: but he saw fit enough to raise me up. And
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  Speaker 4: all I wanted to do was share his goodness. So
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  Speaker 4: I'm grateful for the platforms that he has allowed me.
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  Speaker 4: Did I think I will be doing any of the
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  Speaker 4: stuff that I'm doing To know, you're talking about a
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  Speaker 4: little girl from Levelands, South Carolina, country girl. One way in,
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  Speaker 4: one way out. They know nothing about none of this.
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  Speaker 4: Everybody in my family, most of them work in a
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  Speaker 4: plant a meal that was they aspirations. But I aspired
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  Speaker 4: to do morespired. I aspired to break those generational persons.
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  Speaker 4: Wanted to see something different so those that are coming
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  Speaker 4: behind me could have a different outleok, that they can
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  Speaker 4: have a different road that they didn't have to go
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  Speaker 4: down those same roads. So I'm grateful for all of
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  Speaker 4: the outlets that God has opened, that he has allowed
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  Speaker 4: us to walk into. And I don't believe in accidents.
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  Speaker 4: I don't believe in coincidence. I don't believe in happenstance.
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  Speaker 4: I believe that this is all that is a part
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  Speaker 4: of his plan, and we just have to align just
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  Speaker 4: how to be in place so that we can walk
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  Speaker 4: into it. Because he already know what the end is
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  Speaker 4: gonna be. Because when he declared it, it's already declared.
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  Speaker 4: That's past ten. I mean, it's already happened, So it's
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  Speaker 4: already written. It's not gonna change. So even if we
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  Speaker 4: step out the line, AHI, He's always gonna get us
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  Speaker 4: back on track. So I thank him for every outlet.
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  Speaker 4: I thankful for each and every one of you guys,
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  Speaker 4: for just gracing the platform and allowing him to use
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  Speaker 4: you and just allowing us to be who we are.
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  Speaker 4: Of course, y'all can find me on link tree Queen
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  Speaker 4: of Collaborations, and it has all of my links anywhere
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  Speaker 4: that you want to find me. I am the publisher.
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  Speaker 4: I have published and authored over one hundred and forty
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  Speaker 4: something publications, whether magazine, book, or calendar journal, you name it.
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  Speaker 4: I just want to be an outlet. I just want
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  Speaker 4: people to be able to see God's goodness and I
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  Speaker 4: don't want nobody telling my story, so I'm gonna tell
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  Speaker 4: it all. I'm gonna go to the mountaintop and I'm
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  Speaker 4: gonna shout it so that everybody can know, because it's
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  Speaker 4: nothing that I've been through that I am ashamed of.
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  Speaker 4: Because if it was not for what I have been doing,
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  Speaker 4: those test trials and tribulations, I wouldn't be the person
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  Speaker 4: that I am today. So I thank him and I
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  Speaker 4: stopped telling people I'm glad I don't look like what
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  Speaker 4: I've been through because I'm glad I look like this
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  Speaker 4: because it took everything that I went through to make
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  Speaker 4: me who I am today. So thank you for allowing
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  Speaker 4: me to be the person that I am. And I'm
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  Speaker 4: so glad that I look like I look. Yeah, there
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  Speaker 4: you go, Tavita.
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  Speaker 1: Well, I want to thank you for allowing me to
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  Speaker 1: host this. I know in the beginning when we started this,
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  Speaker 1: this was only supposed to be a one time thing.
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  Speaker 1: But after the end, before we got to the end,
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  Speaker 1: I felt in my spirit that this was gonna be
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  Speaker 1: a series, and we have turned it into just that
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  Speaker 1: because this is something that needs to be discussed a
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  Speaker 1: lot more than what it ever had been. And so
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  Speaker 1: this is number three. So number four is coming. I
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  Speaker 1: ain't sure when, but I'm just gonna.
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  Speaker 4: Go ahead and break it to you live on there.
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  Speaker 4: It's not just gonna be a a a fourth or
• 1:56:09
  Speaker 4: fourth part, but it's gonna be a live part. So
• 1:56:12
  Speaker 4: people gonna be able to come and we're gonna do
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  Speaker 4: this live. So getting in six, it's gonna be live.
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  Speaker 4: We don't know where we're gonna be at, but we're
• 1:56:20
  Speaker 4: gonna be somewhere and if people are gonna be able
• 1:56:23
  Speaker 4: to come out, we're gonna be able to fellowship and
• 1:56:24
  Speaker 4: we able, we're gonna be able to see hand in
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  Speaker 4: hand and watch.
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  Speaker 1: God move and listen. I'm I'm here for it.
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  Speaker 5: You know.
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  Speaker 1: I am grateful that God designed our paths to connect
• 1:56:37
  Speaker 1: in the way that he did, because since our connection,
• 1:56:40
  Speaker 1: it has blossomed into something more than I even ever imagine,
• 1:56:45
  Speaker 1: because I didn't think I would be speaking in front
• 1:56:48
  Speaker 1: of people or doing anything that I'm doing. And so
• 1:56:51
  Speaker 1: it's an honor to be part of the Crew podcast.
• 1:56:54
  Speaker 1: My show airs every second every second Thursday and fourth
• 1:56:59
  Speaker 1: Sunday of the month, and at eight o'clock.
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  Speaker 4: It switched up every second.
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  Speaker 1: Thursday Thursday of the month. Look, I don't got it
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  Speaker 1: all mixed up, but y'all see me when I'm on
• 1:57:14
  Speaker 1: the So the next show that I have is August
• 1:57:19
  Speaker 1: to tenth, and I don't think I have a guest,
• 1:57:22
  Speaker 1: which I don't necessarily care if I have one or not,
• 1:57:25
  Speaker 1: simply because I want to talk about this journey of
• 1:57:29
  Speaker 1: stepping out of my own comfort zone and my healing
• 1:57:33
  Speaker 1: journey through the writing of this last book, which was
• 1:57:38
  Speaker 1: in honor of my mom. So that's that's my idea
• 1:57:41
  Speaker 1: for this upcoming show. It's getting myself out of my
• 1:57:44
  Speaker 1: space and you know, being doing what God told me
• 1:57:48
  Speaker 1: to do. Anyway. But you can find me on Facebook,
• 1:57:52
  Speaker 1: you can google me, Trevina Harris. I'm gonna pop up
• 1:57:55
  Speaker 1: my Instagram is the same thing. Wings of Transformation is
• 1:57:59
  Speaker 1: my publishing. I've published for a few people now, it's
• 1:58:04
  Speaker 1: still growing. I'm still learning. I'm grateful for people and
• 1:58:07
  Speaker 1: trusting me with their vision to make it a reality
• 1:58:10
  Speaker 1: for them. And it's an honor to watch them go
• 1:58:15
  Speaker 1: from an idea and putting it forth into a tangible
• 1:58:21
  Speaker 1: thing that they can actually reach out and touch and
• 1:58:23
  Speaker 1: be proud of themselves. Because when I started my own
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  Speaker 1: journey I had no clue, and I had people plate send,
• 1:58:30
  Speaker 1: you know, their own insecurities on me, and I didn't
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  Speaker 1: fall for their insecurities. I kept going because people would
• 1:58:37
  Speaker 1: always say, well, I wouldn't put my name on this,
• 1:58:40
  Speaker 1: and I wouldn't put my name on that. Well, it's
• 1:58:42
  Speaker 1: never your assignment that you're gonna put your name on
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  Speaker 1: something that doesn't belong to you, So it's not your assignment.
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  Speaker 1: It's not going to be your name on there anyway.
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  Speaker 1: So if your name ain't attached to my assignment, you
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  Speaker 1: ain't gonna put your name on it anyway because it
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  Speaker 1: ain't yours. Everything is not supposed to be perfect when
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  Speaker 1: you're walking with God, because God is the only perfect
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  Speaker 1: being there is. So if you're doing what God has
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  Speaker 1: called you to do, it was already perfect when you
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  Speaker 1: started it. It doesn't need anybody else's stamp of approval.
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  Speaker 1: It only needs God's stamp. So if you're doing what
• 1:59:13
  Speaker 1: God has called you to do, just make sure that
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  Speaker 1: you're staying focused and true to what God is calling
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  Speaker 1: you to do, because when you do that, God is
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  Speaker 1: gonna blow your mind in so many ways that you
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  Speaker 1: never even imagine. Because when you're walking with him. He's
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  Speaker 1: gonna show you everything that He's put in you. There's
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  Speaker 1: a purpose for it. There's a reason for God doesn't
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  Speaker 1: do anything without a purpose. So if you understand that
• 1:59:36
  Speaker 1: God is God and he's doing everything that he's taking
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  Speaker 1: you through for a purpose, trust him in the process
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  Speaker 1: because it's for your greater good. Because God is God
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  Speaker 1: all by himself, he knows exactly what he's doing, and
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  Speaker 1: it is not by a circumstance. It's all by God's design.
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  Speaker 1: God designed for us to be here today. God wanted
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  Speaker 1: us all here for this moment. The times that you're
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  Speaker 1: supposed to show up in places and spaces, and even
• 2:00:04
  Speaker 1: if you're running late and you still get to that destination,
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  Speaker 1: it's because God designed for you to be You arrive
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  Speaker 1: at the time that God assigned for you to be there.
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  Speaker 1: If it's supposed to be twelve oh one and you
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  Speaker 1: get there at twelve oh two, it's because God said
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  Speaker 1: you were supposed to be there at twelve oh two,
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  Speaker 1: not twelve oh one. You are going to be seen
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  Speaker 1: and heard by the people that need to see and
• 2:00:25
  Speaker 1: hear you. So never feel like you're invisible, you're unseen,
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  Speaker 1: or you're unheard. God puts people in front of you
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  Speaker 1: who need to see and hear you when it's time
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  Speaker 1: for you to be seen and heard. So never fall
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  Speaker 1: short of anything that God is telling you to do.
• 2:00:40
  Speaker 1: You are seen. Don't put no timeline, no expiration day,
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  Speaker 1: because God is the only one that can give you
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  Speaker 1: an expiration day. And if He ain't called you forth
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  Speaker 1: to come home, then you still got work to do.
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  Speaker 1: So whatever you want between your date of birth and
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  Speaker 1: the day that God decides to call you home, that's
• 2:00:56
  Speaker 1: your dash. That's your moment to live and sie and
• 2:00:59
  Speaker 1: glorify His name. So keep walking in the purpose in
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  Speaker 1: which God has for you. This was the matters of
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  Speaker 1: the heart. But God has something greater. Everything that we
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  Speaker 1: said today, if it touched your heart in a way
• 2:01:09
  Speaker 1: that it needed to be touched, it was because you
• 2:01:11
  Speaker 1: were meant to hear it today. So keep walking and
• 2:01:14
  Speaker 1: stay the course, and stay focused on what God has
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  Speaker 1: for you, because I promise you, if you trust and
• 2:01:19
  Speaker 1: believe in God, He's going to give you everything that
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  Speaker 1: you need walking forward. So stay the course. Don't look
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  Speaker 1: behind you because everything that you went through is behind
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  Speaker 1: you for a reason. He doesn't give you a windshield
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  Speaker 1: in the back of your car. He gives you a
• 2:01:32
  Speaker 1: windshield in the front. So you stay focused on where
• 2:01:35
  Speaker 1: you're going, not where you being, because everything that you
• 2:01:38
  Speaker 1: have been through is bringing you forth to where you're going.
• 2:01:41
  Speaker 1: So stay the course, stay focused, and let God transform
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  Speaker 1: your life in a way that you never imagine. That's
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  Speaker 1: all that to say.
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  Speaker 4: Amen, prophet is Monique, can you pray us out? Can
• 2:01:52
  Speaker 4: you pray us out? And after profitt is Monique pray
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  Speaker 4: us out, we gown y'all, So everybody, y'all have a
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  Speaker 4: great evening.
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  Speaker 6: So Father, we just thank you for the matters of
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  Speaker 6: the heart. Father, you say it, out of our hearts
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  Speaker 6: flow the issue of life, so to guard it with
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  Speaker 6: all diligence. We thank you for the transparency and the
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  Speaker 6: healing and the deliverance that has taken place today. For
• 2:02:12
  Speaker 6: the encouragement for the revelation. Now, Father, bless us in
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  Speaker 6: our respective places and ministry. Bless us throughout our days
• 2:02:19
  Speaker 6: as we journey on to do what you have called
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  Speaker 6: us to do. And let us always remember, Father, God,
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  Speaker 6: that we have more years behind us than we have
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  Speaker 6: in front of us. So to make haste to do
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  Speaker 6: what you have called us to do. Give us the strength,
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  Speaker 6: courage and the wisdom to forge your head. Because we
• 2:02:33
  Speaker 6: are in some dangers at evil times, but you're still God.
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  Speaker 6: You still love us, you still protect us, you still
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  Speaker 6: provide for us.
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  Speaker 4: And for that we say thank you.
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  Speaker 6: We lift up Queen Angela, Lord God, as she continues
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  Speaker 6: the vision that you have given her. No matter who
• 2:02:45
  Speaker 6: comes or who goes, Father, she still forges ahead. Continue
• 2:02:48
  Speaker 6: to bless her body. Father, give her strength. Father, open
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  Speaker 6: new doors even for everybody else under the sound of
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  Speaker 6: my voice who has joined this platform. We just thank
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  Speaker 6: you for all that you are doing and have done.
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  Speaker 6: Will continue to testify and tell people that you are God,
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  Speaker 6: and that you are good, and that you do exactly
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  Speaker 6: what you say you do, and that your word will
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  Speaker 6: not return void. We thank you, Lord for all of
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  Speaker 6: these things in Jesus name.
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  Speaker 4: Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen,