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Garrett J. White: How I Rebuilt My Life After Losing It All | E151 · In Search Of Excellence

• 0:00
  Garrett White: I was raised in Mormonism. My mom was like, very disciplined. Here's the checklist, to heaven. If you and I are in family and we don't both make it, we break the family chain. The whole family is fucked. My uncle, he was bodybuilder. He was an aggressive dude. I'm six years old, and he pulled me into a bathroom, punched me in the head, told me I would kill you if you tell anyone. And this shit went on for two years. I started trail running and ultra running. I'd been doing Iron Man's and they got in Ultra running. And it was in Ultra running, running 1015, miles in the middle of the trails in the mountains. And this voice became this inspiration. Everything we did with Wake Up Warrior transformed my life. But at that time, I had nothing, no money, an affair, addiction, just nothing. I had nothing. All I had was run. And this voice, at that time, started guiding me to see things about myself, and the first thing he did was truth.
• 0:46
  Garrett White: This has been one of the best shows I've ever done. We went to a place where I've never gone before in 150 podcasts that I've done.
• 1:00
  Randall Kaplan: Welcome to In Search of Excellence, where we meet entrepreneurs, CEOs, entertainers, athletes, motivational speakers and trailblazers of excellence, with incredible stories from all walks of life. My name is Randall Kaplan. I'm a serial entrepreneur, venture capitalist and the host of In Search of Excellence, which I started to motivate and inspire us to achieve excellence in all areas of our lives. My guest today is the incredible Garrett J white.
• 1:24
  Randall Kaplan: Garrett is a business, marriage and family coach who is best known for his Wake Up Warrior movement in the last 12 years, Garrett has coached more than 65,000 people from 27 countries with a mission for them to become their full and authentic selves for personal development.
• 1:37
  Randall Kaplan: Garrett has an incredible story about redemption, resilience and a commitment to the truth as he rebuilt his life after losing his business and family by embracing transparency and authenticity here. Thanks for being here. Welcome to In Search of Excellence. Randall, I am honored to be on this show.
• 1:52
  Randall Kaplan: You've a great lineup. Excited to be part of that with you.
• 1:55
  Randall Kaplan: Thanks for being here. You got it. I always start my show with parents. Our parents help influence and shape our future.
• 2:01
  Randall Kaplan: You grew up in Washington and California. Your mom was passive and your dad was grew up in a military family. Tell us how your parents influenced your future and what they were like.
• 2:12
  Randall Kaplan: So my dad was the youngest of five kids, and he was the one child that wasn't raised in military, so he did the exact opposite. My grandfather, Colonel Air Force. My uncles all deployed, all of them active.
• 2:28
  Randall Kaplan: And then my dad was the last one. My father, my grandfather, retired. He said, listen, we've given enough blood from our family to this country. You're going to do something different.
• 2:38
  Randall Kaplan: So my dad actually became the opposite of my grandfather, my uncles, and became very soft.
• 2:41
  Randall Kaplan: And you would think he came from an aggressive background, that he would he chose the exact opposite. My mother, on the other hand, became the aggressive alpha in our house, and she came from the opposite, which was same thing, very soft family, and she chose the opposite, Beth. So somehow both of them flopped roles. You would think that my mother was raised in a military family, and my father was raised with people that just sat and quietly, peacefully, sat and enjoyed life. It was a complete opposite, though. So my parents switched roles, and my dad became like a person that wasn't really involved in our lives. We I don't have a lot of memories of my dad. My dad was just very quiet, and we didn't make much money. And my dad was always gone, working, but not making much money, working. And my mom was constantly trying to figure out, how do I take care of these five children with almost no money? So cornbread and powdered milk and that game, my mom's only game for us was just discipline. She was raised Catholic, very devout, then she became Mormon, even more devout, and then her role in her life was, my job is to get these kids back to God, back to heaven, and so all of it came through rigid discipline. That's why I'm people who got my parents are like, your mom's intense. She's intense as hell. I was like, yeah, she fucking real intense.
• 3:56
  Randall Kaplan: Like, so intense from the time I was younger and I was the oldest. What did your dad do for a living? And I want you to talk about your relationship a lot of people I know, and I think this is more of a male, male thing than a female, male thing. In terms of your parents, you had a rocky relationship at some point called antichrist. At some point, you punch your dad in the face. Yeah, so my dad and I, so I was raised in Mormonism, and my dad was a passive guy in the in the faith. My mom was, like, very disciplined, like, checklist. Here's the checklist, to heaven. My job is to get all of us back to heaven. And if we don't, in Mormonism, the frame is really intense, because everything for them is eternal in nature, which means the belief system of the frame is, if you and I are in family and we don't both make it. We break the family chain, and the whole family is fucked. So everything in the frame of Mormonism is super fierce with do what's right, do what's right, do what's right. Long ass checklist. Do these things, and then you earn the right and the glory and the grace of God. So my mom, with that rigid bank, raised me that way in 2009
• 5:00
  Garrett White: After we'd lost our banking firms, and I was in the darkest place I'd ever been, I started trail running, ultra running. I'd been doing Iron Man's Right? And they got in Ultra running, and it was in Ultra running, running 1015, miles in the middle of the trails in the mountains, I started hearing this voice for the first time my life, talking to me. I didn't know if it was myself. I didn't know what it was. And this voice became this inspiration. Everything we did with Wake Up Warrior transformed my life. But at that time, I had nothing, no money, an affair, my addiction, just nothing. I had nothing. All I had was run. And this voice at that time started guiding me to see things about myself, and the first thing it did was truth. Like the only thing I had to offer the world was truth. I had nothing else. I never knew money. All my teams are gone, all my companies are gone, all my money's gone. I fucks on the money a ton of people. My wife doesn't want to doesn't trust me. She's pregnant with our second daughter. My affair is exposed. My life is exposed. So I have nothing to offer anyone. And this voice in me said, The only thing we can do is offer the truth, and we're going to start from that place.
• 6:00
  Garrett White: And so long before social media was cool to tell your darkness, I started speaking it, and part of that truth was leaving the Mormon church. So let's,
• 6:08
  Randall Kaplan: let's talk about that. I mean, I want to go back to and really cut up what you just said in 10 different stories there, because a lot, a lot there to talk about. This is not a religious show, but it's very interesting to me to hear about different people's religion. What's interesting about Mormonism, and I've never heard the Mormonism term, i is, is that a term Mormonism, as opposed to
• 6:31
  Garrett White: Mormonism, Jewish or Christians, the Latter Day Saints, okay, the Church of Jesus Christ, of Latter Day Saints. And the short term for it is Mormons. Most of them don't like to be called Mormons, but they're Mormons, and that's what I was raised. It was Mormonism. And
• 6:42
  Randall Kaplan: can you explain the difference between being a Mormon versus a Christian versus a Jewish? Absolutely.
• 6:46
  Garrett White: So Mormons believe that the the gospel of Jesus Christ was lost, that after Christ, there was a falling away, and that all the churches were arguing. This is the premise all the churches were arguing about truth, which they still do today. Like I would consider myself a Christian now, but I wouldn't have considered myself a Christian until three years ago.
• 7:04
  Garrett White: I wouldn't even have considered myself a Christian when I was Mormon. I'd have a relationship with Christ and a relationship with God. I had a relationship with checklists of trying to be righteous and a superiority complex, which will make sense here in a second. So the premise is a guy named Joseph Smith came had a vision, and God came to him and said, all the churches are wrong. I'm going to give you the whole church. And now your job is to restore the gospel of Jesus Christ to the planet. And Mormonism was born. Now that whole premise is what I was raised in. We have the truth, the only truth, but there's also a second book. So like the Bible, there's a book called The Book of Mormon. This is where Christians as a whole, to the Mormons, like, you can't add to the Bible. The Mormons like, we didn't add to it. There was another book of Scripture in the Americas that was based on Jesus Christ visits here and the visits in the Bible. So the whole premise of Mormonism is that the restored gospel of Jesus Christ is found only in the Mormon faith. So I was raised in this place of being constantly told you're the only ones that have the truth. You're the we are the best, because God chose you were born into the Mormon church, so you did something right before you got here. Now I didn't have any bad basis. My life did not represent, nor did my family's life, that we show any fruit, really, that we were superior to anything. But this was the energy that I was raised in which I didn't understand why other Christian faiths would look at Mormons the way they did, until I left the Mormon Church in 2009 and then I got to experience a whole bunch of other things. And for the first time, I can see, oh, I now see why a lot of people think they don't believe in Christ. Don't believe in Christ, which they do, and I also see why a lot of people have a hard problem, hard time with the Mormon frame.
• 8:49
  Garrett White: That's what led to the collision with my father. So
• 8:52
  Randall Kaplan: I have one of our closest friends was raised in the Mormon Church, met his wife in the Mormon church. They were both Mormons, and there's many behaviors that are and somewhat unique to the more mature. One is you can't drink, right? And there's no premarital sex, right? Even though, from what I understand, and I'm not trying to make a generalization, I'd be interested in your thoughts on this, that premarital sex does happen. It happens especially with athletes. I know a lot of athletes at BYU, and with that, that happens, but with our with our friends, they woke up one day and they decided that the Mormon church is not right for them, and they left the Mormon Church, both of them together, and they caused a very big dissension, divide between their family, and said, How could you do this? And it took a while to repair that relationship. Is it common for families to leave the Mormon church where they say, Okay, this lifestyle isn't for me, and as I get to be an adult, I thought, Okay, well maybe I do want to drink. I do want to have premarital sex. I do. Want to do other behaviors 100%
• 10:02
  Garrett White: you can understand like, so Mormon faith operates like the Jewish faith.
• 10:04
  Garrett White: So Jews and like, I'm in a neighborhood they were moved into in golden beach is Jewish, right? So, and my aunt's Jewish, and everyone that I know is Jewish, they have a very tight connection inside of the faith.
• 10:17
  Garrett White: It's not that they only do business with Jewish people, but most Jewish businessmen I know have a very good relationship with other Jewish businessmen.
• 10:22
  Garrett White: Mormons operate the same so there's a ton of fund managers, investment bankers. There's tons reason why the Mormon church is worth what it's worth $160 billion
• 10:35
  Randall Kaplan: which many people don't know. By the way, there was this expose in the Wall Street Journal. They're very secretive,
• 10:40
  Garrett White: very secretive.
• 10:40
  Garrett White: There's a ton of money in the Mormon church. Like they're the wealthiest Christian, non Christian. What I mean? The Christian world doesn't accept them as Christian. They says Jesus Christ on the label. To me, I know Mormons. They believe in Jesus Christ, even if you think they don't. But inside that frame, like that network, business, family relationships, everyone I did business with all my strategic partners, most of our clients, everybody was Mormon. You keep it in. It's part of how the wealth has grown. Because everything's kept inside of the circle. I'm gonna do a deal with you. I'm gonna do a deal with you. You're Mormon.
• 11:12
  Garrett White: There's an automatic sense of trust. Oh, you're Mormon, I'm Mormon. Let's do business. Oh, you're not Mormon. We might still do business, but if you were Mormon, we probably for sure, would do business. So when you choose to extract yourself from that environment, it's not like being at a local community Christian Church, where you go to Vu here in Miami, and then you decide you don't want to go to Vu anymore. No one knows you left, because nobody really knew you were there. In a Mormon church, everything is registered. It's like from like you are. You are in the mix. So when you choose to extract, you're extracting yourself from the mafia. Now I'm not saying that Mormons are mafia. The energy, though, is very family.
• 11:54
  Garrett White: Mafia tight. So when you say you're going to leave families will disown their children. We didn't talk to our families for five years. This led to the fight in my father's house, because my dad decides, when we me and my wife decide to leave the Mormon Church, which was unheard of on any sides of our family. Now mind you, half the people that were saying they were Mormon were doing all this shit you're not supposed to do as a Mormon. I was just following a voice. It wasn't I thought the Mormons were bad or wrong or awful. It wasn't even, like, I don't want this lifestyle. I heard this voice in me that said, you're done. So went to my wife and I said, Kay, I'm done. She's like, whoo, thank goodness, because I was never in I was like, okay, she like, I thought you'd be done a long time ago, so I'm cool.
• 12:36
  Garrett White: She's more Buddhist. She's not even Christian. She just kind of send out. Woman listens to God in her way. So when we leave, my dad holds a meeting at the house, and he says, gather all the family. So the family outcomes. I remember, my dad's not aggressive. My dad's very passive. He did the opposite of my grandfather. So we show up to the house, and all the family's gathered, and they have a family home evening. That's what's called a Mormon of faith, gather family, have a meeting, talk about God. There's a particular story in the Book of Mormon that talks about a guy named korhor.
• 13:07
  Garrett White: Korriho was a guy who was trying to stir up trouble, kind of made like Saul was in the Bible, according to Christian faith in the New Testament, stirring up problems with the Christians.
• 13:16
  Garrett White: Saul becomes Paul. Christian faith builds on Paul. In the Book of Mormon, there's a guy named korhor who's causing problems. So my dad decides that the lesson he wants to give that day is a story about korri. Now the intention of this entire thing, my wife and I are sitting right there. My siblings are sitting there. My dad delivers this message, and he's coming right at me with heat. Never seen my dad. My dad doesn't get physical. I was very violent, very physical. I was the opposite of my father. I was like my grandfather. So my dad starts to step up to me in the middle of this family meeting.
• 13:49
  Garrett White: Veins are popping out on his neck. Face is bled red. Fists are clenched, but I'm gonna sit in their calm. So we never fought. We sat there. My mom's holding him back, and my dad's I rate now I understand why, because, in Mormon tradition, the oldest son, I've now broken the family chain, and everything my parents, in their spiritual frame, had worked for has was being shattered before their eyes, and the storyline to them is I've just crushed Our opportunity as a family to be together for eternity. So it was a huge deal for my parents. So looking now back at it, I can understand what my father's way was, but he comes up to me, and I said, Listen, if you swing at me, this will be the worst decision you've ever made.
• 14:39
  Garrett White: Please stop. And my mom's holding his arms. He's so angry.
• 14:44
  Garrett White: I've never seen my father's angry my whole life, because I'm a typical very angry person. At that time my life, I kind of liked it, because I was like, Where the fuck was this guy?
• 14:53
  Garrett White: Like my whole young life growing up? Where was this man that was supposed to lead me? Where was it dude? When I. Was getting fucked up after school every day in Stockton, where was the that was supposed to protect me? No, you were a fat, soft, diabetic dude who fucking hit and now you want to get tough with me. You want to get tough with me now, after I make one of the hardest decisions that I've ever made, to leave a faith in everyone I know, and to be abandoned by everyone in business, all of our family. Now you're gonna be a tough guy. So my wife's sitting there, all my siblings are sitting there. No one can believe what's happening.
• 15:28
  Garrett White: They're like, what is going on.
• 15:30
  Garrett White: And that was last time I talked about Dad for five years, walked out of the house, packed our shit. We moved Arizona. We were living in Utah at the time.
• 15:38
  Garrett White: What's
• 15:39
  Randall Kaplan: the number one piece of advice you would tell somebody at any age, could be a parent listening today, could be someone who's grown up and has still a tough relationship with their parent. What's the number one piece of advice you would tell people the best way to bridge my relationship with my mother or father is truth, truth,
• 15:59
  Garrett White: and unfortunately, with truth like because a lot of people will bridge relationships and they'll surrender truth, meaning they won't tell the truth.
• 16:58
  Randall Kaplan: But what does that mean? Hey, you've been an asshole to me as a kid, or, you know, you were unfair to me, you were mean, you were cruel.
• 17:06
  Garrett White: I think the first thing that has to happen is you have to come to terms of the fact that your parents were your parents. Your parents get you.
• 17:11
  Garrett White: Had no choice. Your parents are your parents. They they birthed you. They gave you a body. It's the same feel I have for my five children. I'm a steward of my children until they have the opportunity to go choose their own path into their own life. So for me, like we we still to this day, I'm gonna love my mom and dad like I do that. Buy them houses, buy them cars. Take care of their life, make sure they're in abundance, because they can't take it themselves that way. But still, even to this day, my father and I maybe have a five minute conversation per year.
• 17:37
  Garrett White: One, one, that's it. And my mother and I probably, what does that look like? That five minute conversations? Not much. It's like surface. How are you?
• 17:47
  Randall Kaplan: Hi. How you doing? Bye, great. Okay, see, that's
• 17:49
  Garrett White: it. And so people like, Well, does that make you upset? I said, Now we have the opposite experience. Of my my wife's parents, because my wife's parents also when we left, because they were Mormon, but they came back across with us over the years, and they chose a relationship with us, and we've gotten to a place as parents where, like I was as adults, me and my wife were like, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna fight for a relationship where I'm constantly put in a place where I'm told I'm wrong for doing my life this way. And the thing was interesting about it was, I was like, Mom, look at the fruit of my life. Get off your religious checklist for a second and look at the fruit of my life. Look at the impact I am making on the world. Look at all the rest of our siblings. Bundle them all together, all of our cousins in every direction. Take everyone you fucking know, and they don't have one basket of the impact that me and my wife are making on the world. I'm not trying to see this in place and make me better. I'm willing to do shit no one else is willing to do. Of all our family, I'm the one, and possibly I'm the chain breaker of poverty and scarcity and guilt and shame and obligation that you all are so trapped in, to the point that my wife won't go to family reunions. She refuses, because when we go there, it's something but judgment. It's just judgment. And I'm like, I understand, and she's not trying to. It's the world that she was raised in. So I know the question was, like, how do you repair it? The truth is, it's not broken, but it's not awesome. I'm not upset at the same time, I'm not going to put myself and I watch so many people because it's family, but like, Well, my job is to put myself back into relationship with these people. The challenge is, if my vibration is here and my family is down here, then that means for me to come into their space, I have to suffer.
• 19:35
  Garrett White: That is a deliberate choice to bring myself back into this. And so many families are spending time. I'm sitting in California right before Thanksgiving. I had to go to the DMV to get my driver's license issue. Fun. Oh my god, it's a nightmare. They closed down another one. There's like 600 people waiting in line.
• 19:48
  Garrett White: So I'm sitting there talking to people, and I'm listening to people. It's right before Thanksgiving, people just getting on the phone, arguing with other family members. It's like there's a tradition. We have to go be with people because we were born with people. We still have family, tons of family. It's just our family of choice. Part of that is my wife's family. They choose to be part of our lives. My mother in law flies to us every other month for the past 10 years, my mother's come to us once in 10 years, I'm like, I'm raising five children. I'm running three companies. I don't have time to fly to the middle of nowhere and go hang out in this energy that the whole time, all I can think about is, When are we leaving from this place, which is hard because people want to be connected to their family. But I've the message to constantly have is you have two families here. The family are born. You were blood born too, and you have the family you choose. There's a reason, like even getting divorced, it's like, okay, so you made a decision. But if you're honest with yourself, why are you going to the family? Union, guilt, obligation. Feel like you have to. Yeah, unless you don't, and can you repair that? Yes, do I feel like there's a season coming where I'll repair that? I think so I feel it, is it this year? No, could it be next year?
• 21:02
  Garrett White: Could? Could my parents pass before that happens? Could? And people hear that from me, that's cold. I was like, I'm grateful to my parents for who they built me to be. I'm grateful for that.
• 21:16
  Garrett White: At the same time as a 48 year old man living my life now, I don't choose to put myself in environments where the environment itself is not conducive to me, my wife or my children.
• 21:27
  Randall Kaplan: So many people I know who run into drug addiction and have emotional problems.
• 21:30
  Randall Kaplan: Later, was sexually molested as a kid. You were sexually molested for six years by your uncle. Can you tell us when that started? How you started? How that can you tell us if you're comfortable with some of the details? Because I think a lot of the details on it, people want to know. Well, what exactly does that mean? I know it's there's a spectrum out and then how did that affect you?
• 21:52
  Garrett White: So my uncle lived three houses down from us. He was bodybuilder. He was an aggressive dude. He was the opposite my dad mom's side, or dad's side, my dad's side. And he was he's passed away now, pancreatic cancer died years ago, but he was like this masculine figure, and his boys were all very soft. I was very aggressive with a soft father.
• 22:13
  Garrett White: So I was actually drawn to the masculine energy that he demonstrated. He was big, he was thick, he was kind of angry, and just it was something I was drawn to as a young man. I was an athlete. I got fights all the time. Like I was just drawn to that energy, like it was natural for me to be like, Hey, I'm in your space. So we were six years old. His sons were about my age, and we had had no problems. I didn't know anything. There was nothing like nothing. I had not had any issues with him. He was super aggressive and rude to his boys, but he wasn't like that to me. I was like his prodigy. I was his like little guy that just followed him around. And we were in two different situations that began one of which was at my grandmother's house, and he pulled me into a bathroom at six.
• 22:57
  Randall Kaplan: I mean, physically say, get in, yeah, with your arm. But I wouldn't
• 22:59
  Garrett White: have known any different. I'm six years old. I don't have anyone talk to. I don't know. I have no exposure to sex, of anything, any kind masturbation, anything. I'm six.
• 23:08
  Garrett White: Fuck. Don't know about any of this. That was the very first moment made me suck his cock, punched me in the head and threatened to tell tell me I will kill you if you tell anyone the images of this, the emotion of his gone from me because how much work I've done. But there I was a six year old boy laying on the floor in the bathroom. I have the images of his penis in front of my face, erect. Come on my face, and I'm fucking six. I have a five year old, right? And this shit went on for two years.
• 23:44
  Garrett White: By the time it all ended, I took everything, boxed it up, and put it way down, and people died.
• 23:48
  Garrett White: Why are you so fucking angry all the time? There was a source of pain that was so intense this little boy was like a game controller. He's like, we're gonna turn him into a mean motherfucker. So this shit never happens. The challenge was, I was still in this weird relationship with all powerful men, if you were big or powerful, so my answer was, get bigger to protect myself. No different than a woman who's raped will tend to get fat. She tries to make herself unattractive and pull away, so that this never happens again.
• 24:17
  Garrett White: And I only know this because I've spoken about this publicly now for seven or eight years, and I'll speak about it in groups of women, or I'll speak about in groups of men, and I'll share inevitable response. The first time I shared on stage at my men's event, I was like, Okay, we're going full sand. I'm just gonna share the whole thing. I said, What I'm about to share with you is graphic, or what about share with you as a facts I'm about to share with you as a truth. I'm not sharing with you for you to feel sorry for me or to have sympathy for me. God's plan is God's plan, and it turned me into who I am.
• 24:45
  Garrett White: And all of you've gone through experiences in your past as children that are dark. They're not what you desired. And some are going to be in the range in the spectrum. Some are going to be real ugly, and some are going to be not so ugly, but you're going to felt like they were ugly. Either way, you're all going to feel the same. So I just shared with everybody. I said, I'm not asking you to raise your hands. I'm not asking you to but if some of you in the room have had experiences like this, I need you to understand you can move past this. It is possible, and we have tools here at Wake up Word to help you move past this. Part of the reason why I was so passionate about building what I built was because I was trying to set myself free, because this one event was fucking me up completely. Was I gay? Am I straight? The fuck does this mean my sexuality, with my wife, was constantly in this weird flux, because my mind had blended sex, intimacy and love as the same conversation. So I couldn't hang out with you, Randall and feel intimate with you, connected in authenticity and feel love for you without my brain saying you want to fuck Randall. I was like, I don't want to fuck Randall. So why? I can't feel this with him, so I'll push you away. You. I kind of push people away. So if intimacy ever showed up, I was like, love, intimacy, sex. I don't want to fuck them. Bye. So I didn't have anybody close to me. So I was alone all the time, even around 10 1000s of people, I was still alone in my own home. I was alone. My wife would try to be intimate with me, and I thought that meant have sex. I couldn't make the distinction.
• 26:10
  Garrett White: And where it really became problematic is when my teenagers were, when my 17 year old first became like 1112 and she started growing breasts, and this whole thing came back up again, which was when I really started taking on healing, work with it, because I was so I had tickled her back from the time she was little, put her to sleep, loved her, hugged her, kissed her on her mouth. Just loved the show.
• 26:31
  Garrett White: And then she turned 1112 and I was like, this thing turned on.
• 26:37
  Garrett White: You're not a fucking pervert, you're not a fucking pedophile.
• 26:41
  Garrett White: You are not that fucking guy.
• 26:41
  Garrett White: And so I just pushed my daughter away. And the part that breaks my heart about the whole thing, it's because, like, typical behavior with all girls, if dad doesn't fucking show up, she will go try to find masculine leadership. And then my daughter was raped. Oh God.
• 27:05
  Unknown: So I'm sitting there to this situation going, Dude, if you don't fix this shit in you.
• 27:11
  Unknown: You got three other girls, and we did come to support my daughter, and
• 27:21
  Garrett White: it was so much trying to give her love and energy that she needed and healing. But I was broken still, and you can't give healing if you're broke. A broken man cannot lead his wife, he can't lead his children. And most men I meet are broken. They may not be broken this way, but they're broken in all kinds of ways, and we're in a society. Where dudes are like, don't cry. You're a pussy. So, like, my whole life was like, that was like, Don't fucking show emotion, don't cry.
• 27:42
  Garrett White: Just be stoic, be the man. Don't fucking be emotional. Just let this shit kill you from the inside out. Let everybody else be okay, or you just snap into rage, which is why I was so angry and so violent all the time, because I had this thing in me so but it happens. This thing happens to my daughter, and now I'm like, Okay, I have to stop this. And that put me deep, psychedelic world, meditation, energy therapy, therapists, healing over and over and over and over again, doing everything I possibly could to try to expose this and heal it, because it's one thing to tell the truth about something, it's another thing to actually resolve it. And I wasn't, I wasn't figuring out how to do that. And the only thing that resolved this for me was God. There was no therapy, there was no treatment, there was no not enough medicine I could take to get high as fucking kite and try to talk to God, there was a simple surrender, listen, let it go and give it to me. And that happened just over under three years ago.
• 28:45
  Garrett White: And for the first time in my life, I felt free from the inside out from this thing. And my parents knew, didn't know, but my mom had this sick sense of she i She always hated my uncle. She did. I didn't, she didn't know. And my brain had blocked out so much of it as a kid, and as I all started coming back, I started seeing everything and fit, which is a typical response from people been abused, when they get little, their brain will block out what occurred, and they'll have no memories until all their memories come flooding back, and the brain breaks and it releases the truth, and the truth will set you free. But the truth and freedom that I was looking for couldn't come from you. It couldn't come from my wife. It couldn't come with a therapist.
• 29:26
  Garrett White: It couldn't come from a workshop. All those things need help. There was a place to surrender. I had to just let go and let God take it from me.
• 29:35
  Garrett White: People hear that and they're like, that's mystical. I was like, motherfucker, you don't understand. I invested millions of dollars to try to fix this, hundreds of hours, and ended up in this place where I had no more answers. And in that place, I had my encounter with God, my first real encounter, and it was supernatural, and it was transcendent, and for the first time, I fell free, and the world that I saw completely changed. I saw my wife for the first time, and I suffered because of that, because of how many years I would project my darkness, onto this beautiful woman, my children, seeing my children for who they really were and how many years I couldn't see them because of this veil in my own mind, my inability to see through my own Pain, my pain and our pain becomes nothing more than this window through which we see the world. And all of a sudden, this window changed. Now I could be I could be injured with you. I could love you and my mind was not thinking sexual thoughts. And I could have intimate relationship with my daughters, all four of them, and not have it be a sexual twisted reality in my brain. I could lead men and love them and hug them and encourage them. Without having these twisted thoughts, I could be with other people, and I had my mind constantly running with these sexual ideas and twisted, dark thoughts in my own brain. But the process was fucking excruciating, but I was committed to being free,
• 31:07
  Randall Kaplan: an incredible story, and one of the things about it that I love the best is the rawness, the vulnerability and the fact you got up and a group of people men explain what happened to you. I think it's incredible about the amount of people have been sexually abused, so many who haven't reported it for a lot of reasons. And that goes echoes men and women, and it also goes to women who have been raped, my daughter's in college, and somehow came up in conversation with a specific person, one of their friends. She wouldn't tell me who it was. So they were at a party, and the guy raped her, and it just made me so angry.
• 31:45
  Randall Kaplan: And I said, Well, did she report it? No, why not? Because she's afraid. It's a big deal. There's a police record. She was worried that her name was gonna be in the newspaper. I said, that's just so maddening. She should report it. You gotta encourage her to dad. There's no way. I think anybody who's been sexually abused should report it. I think I know people are afraid. I know they have fear, but I think Justice should be done. I think anyone who sexually abuses somebody else should go to prison. We all know what happens in prison to people who rape somebody else, and it's punishment well deserved. It's not quite what they deserve, but it's the start of a punishment that I think they deserve.
• 32:25
  Garrett White: I mean, it's a it's a very difficult topic, because a lot of people who have gone through it, the experience of having to relive it is so fierce, and so a lot of the fear to go relive it is something they'd rather not experience because the pain of it was hard enough the first time, and now they've learned how to cope. The only challenge is they've learned how to cope, they've not learned how to live. And if freedom is the outcome, if freedom is the purpose of this life. If God placed us here to be free, we were not put here to be slaves. We were not put here to struggle and survive. We were put here to create. Did it mean we're gonna avoid pain? No, we're gonna have pleasure. Yes, but the pursuit was power, power to create. Dominion in this earth. Book of Genesis, God gave man dominion to rule over the earth. The problem is, most of us can't even dominion and dominate ourselves. We have no dominion over our own lives. And these events that occur for men and women, they're just as traumatic on both sides. And there's so much support for women me too. Movements and all these movements that are built up to try to empower women to tell the truth, what the fuck are they doing for dudes? None.
• 33:29
  Garrett White: Because to be a man and admit this, you have to be incredibly powerful. No dude wants to admit I had a cock in my mouth and I'm not gay. No dude wants to say this. They don't want to say my uncle did this, or my or this happened to me, or my sister did this. A number of dudes that I know who were by babysitters and nannies forced to have sex with their nannies. When they're like, 789, 10 years old. They're like, bro and but what does that sound like? Oh, you were forced to have sex, bro. Come on. That doesn't fly a man world. It's like in man code. In the in the world, men are not supported in having these situations. And typically, when a man comes to that place, he's so broken that to acknowledge it not only shatters the masculine frame, but he gets no fucking support.
• 34:07
  Garrett White: None. Are you kidding me? Men's Health Awareness Day has now been covered up with LGBTQ. We don't fucking worry about the guys now. Let's worry about everybody else under the sun. We just gotta eliminate the dudes.
• 34:21
  Garrett White: You're toxic. Shut the fuck up.
• 34:21
  Garrett White: You don't have any problems yet.
• 34:24
  Garrett White: Right now, 70% of the divorces are women leaving men and women are complaining every day to me, there's no powerful men. We are not doing anything to empower them all. There is is empower women, empower women, empower women, empower women. Empower women, empower women. Fuck the dudes. Yet at the same time, all these women are upset because there's no powerful dudes.
• 34:42
  Garrett White: You're part of the fucking problem. You keep calling these men to fall. You're not calling them to rise. You're not digging greatness out of these men.
• 34:50
  Garrett White: You're not trying to pull greatness out, you're trying to suppress it. And then powerful men in business, what do we face with the choice? Well, Stoke, lock up. We have a small little circle that we might tell some of the truth to, and we operate with all these skeletons in the closet. Me, I got none. I'm the most powerful motherfucker. I'll give a fuck about money.
• 35:09
  Garrett White: Billionaire or not. I roll up in all the dead bodies have been exposed in my life, and once I realized that the most powerful place I could be was truth.
• 35:20
  Unknown: Because where truth is, God is and where God is, transformation
• 35:25
  Garrett White: is possible.
• 35:25
  Garrett White: Jewish, Christian, Muslim, don't care. Don't have any belief in any of it. That's fine. Your gateway to transformation is the truth, but the truth is hard because the truth is vulnerable, and the truth opens you up to persecution, and the truth opens you up to being judged. Yet mostly judgments you get isn't judgment about you, it's the fact that in your freedom, you're exposing the incarceration of people around you.
• 35:50
  Randall Kaplan: Another thing that people do. That gets them into trouble later on is drugs.
• 35:52
  Randall Kaplan: How young were you when you first tried drugs? What did that look like? What was it and then, at what point did you stop?
• 36:01
  Garrett White: 15 and I was never in heroin or meth. I didn't get crazy with that. I was a pill guy. Opioids were like my deal. I had a friend that would come to overdose in college to scare the shit out of me, so I backed away died. Yep, he died in the basement of his parents house, and nobody found him for five days by a fireplace. So you can only imagine the carnage they walked into. So I had had kind of an in and out relationship with opioids for about 15 years to escape all your issues. It was really easy for me, because nobody knew you were taking it smoking. Everybody knows smoking weed, every nose you're shooting up. Needles, everybody knows.
• 36:40
  Garrett White: But pills. I was an operator.
• 36:42
  Unknown: I'd take two or three perks and just be good. It was enough to mellow me out, but I could still produce and go.
• 36:50
  Garrett White: But then I two becomes three, three becomes four. Four Four becomes your pile and seven in your mouth at the same time, at some point, your body starts to feel this, and it becomes a problem. So I walked away from those about eight, nine years ago. But then trying to step away from alcohol, I got into another substance called feel frees.
• 37:07
  Garrett White: They were promoted entrepreneurs. Is like the healthy alternative to alcohol.
• 37:10
  Garrett White: Now doing and talk about this.
• 37:14
  Garrett White: Probably gonna feel free sue me, but fuck you guys, whatever, here's reality. I didn't You didn't do anything wrong. I abused. It was a substance. It was just my addictive personality. They had recommended dosage of this, a kava crater mix is fermented.
• 37:25
  Garrett White: But when taking high enough doses like morphine, they recommend one a day. Of course, my addicted battle personality, I got to 12, my doctors like you're basically morphing all day. But again, I'm an operator with opioids, which means I can just operate and create, operate and create. My wife came to me two years ago. This is when I kicked that one and she came to me flat out. She said, Listen, we have everything. We have the money, the cars, the houses drip to travel, the jewelry we have, the kids, we have everything for the last year, I can't feel you.
• 37:53
  Garrett White: I can't feel you so much to the point that for the last six months, my mind has been wandering. I've been thinking about fucking other men. I've been thinking about being with other powerful men, men who can see me and men I can feel. If you don't fix this shit, I'm out, and I use a statement of Wake of worry, which is, if the king doesn't rise, the Kingdom dies, right? And my wife started texting me every day, if the king doesn't rise, the Kingdom dies. And don't worry, the Queen leaves with the children before it burns. I mean, what the fuck.
• 38:25
  Garrett White: But I needed it. I needed it. I couldn't hear it any other way.
• 38:31
  Garrett White: Most men cannot hear they think their wives are critical bitches. The truth is, these women know the truth of who we are. And when we slip off the pedestal of King and we leave the throne, and we find ourselves out fucking around outside the castle, the Queen stays in the castle and going, Hey, what the fuck are you doing? You're a critical bitch.
• 38:50
  Garrett White: Don't talk in that way. You're out playing with the whores outside the castle. Again, I have been sitting here carrying this goddamn throne with all these children. Well, you wander the fuck out there and don't What are you doing? But when you're in that place, you can't get it until it's aggressive.
• 39:06
  Garrett White: That's why women technically had to leave before dudes get it, and they're like, fuck about to lose everything. I'm a founder waiting for I teach this shit.
• 39:17
  Garrett White: People like, Well, what did that do for your brand? Nothing. I've never said I was perfect. I'm not a pastor trying to be in a plastic box. I'm just living and I'm gonna live my life out loud, and you're gonna see all of it.
• 39:26
  Garrett White: So I was very open about that.
• 39:28
  Garrett White: But also, for about three months, I thought I was gonna lose everything again. I was gonna leave. She had money.
• 39:34
  Garrett White: She's powerful. She has her own business. She doesn't need my money. And that was the piece that started the real breakdown and breakthrough for me in the last two years to just a deeper commitment to my truth in God and really asking myself questions, why do you keep going back to these things, pressure, stress, same reasons every entrepreneur does. But the problem is, when you're using stuff that you can actually operate with, you think you can operate, but you get dull, not as sharp, not as clean, not as focused, and any truth of God trying to come through you gets distorted. So I'm having this conversation with God and like, Man, I'm doing everything you're telling you. You said, No, you're doing 10% of what I tell you, You Keep Shooting all the partners I'm trying to bring to you, you keep pushing away that I'm sending to help you. And
• 40:19
  Unknown: the worst part is the one woman who wants to feel all of you is dying inside.
• 40:26
  Garrett White: So you have a choice, just like you've always had a choice, I'm never going to force you to do anything. What do you want? And again, I got really clear about what that was, and what we've done the last two years has been equal to or more than what we did in the previous 10 so this path to that men run into, and entrepreneurs in particular, at the high level, is that we have been taught to only share half the truth. And so everybody has these skills, these clauses, full skeletons, and. And all this dark shit that they don't look through with. I'm on the front side. Look good. Shoes.
• 40:58
  Garrett White: Look good. Wife looks good.
• 40:58
  Garrett White: Everybody looks good, except for behind closed doors. I know because these do I get these texts every day, this powerful dude, the names of people who come to me that I don't talk about to anybody. I'm a vault.
• 41:12
  Garrett White: The fares. Guys are in the problems. Guys are in the struggles they're in. They're real. But where's the guy to go?
• 41:17
  Garrett White: Well,
• 41:18
  Randall Kaplan: let me, let me, let me ask about that, because I think this is very important.
• 41:20
  Randall Kaplan: I'm 56 and I think there's a fulcrum in terms of when people get married. I think you're getting married between 20 and 30 years old. I think you love that person. Obviously you can envision the future with that person. I think what people don't really understand is, no matter how perfect your marriage seems at that time, and it may be perfect, you're making a bet on how you're going to grow individually as people. Yes, because people do grow individually, and then they grow apart. And as a result of all this, I think there's a window between sort of 37 and 41 I'm seeing it in with my own friends, my own relationships. I remember when I was getting divorced to my wife, Laura, I went to my rabbi and I said, Hey, this is what's happening.
• 42:10
  Randall Kaplan: And no one knew that there were any issues behind the scene at all. And every marriage has issues, and marriages work. But what he said to me, Garrett, was your divorce is going to cause people to get divorced. And I said, why is that? He said, Because you have everything. You know. You have beautiful house, you have money, you get along well, which we did, for the most part, and that's exactly what happened. Most of our friends now divorced within four or five years. I'm not saying we were the cause, but I think it, it.
• 42:44
  Randall Kaplan: People look at you and say, okay, gosh, you know, I'm not as happy as I should be. Yeah, my mom has said to me time, you know, we all have a right to be happy, and you only get one go around in life. Yeah, many of my friends are the people I know who are okay in their marriage.
• 43:04
  Randall Kaplan: Many of my friends in their marriage don't like their wives.
• 43:07
  Randall Kaplan: Women don't like their husbands.
• 43:07
  Randall Kaplan: Yep, I think there's a few reasons why people don't get divorced. I think kids, you know, they think, all right, your kids are not going to be okay. And I think the message there is, when the plane's going down, you have to put on your mask before you can take care of your kids. I think people are afraid to be by themselves.
• 43:25
  Randall Kaplan: Loneliness, I certainly was. And then the third one is money. You either have too much or too little. And then there's usually a war the money. And I I didn't have a war with my wife, and I think that's something that a lot of men need to really think about, is there's a lot of emotion when people get divorced, obviously, and people fight most about the money. And when you fight about the money, and you fight till the end and fight till the death, there's so many scars there that you can't co parent as as you should, what's your advice to everyone out there listening to 10s of 1000s of people who are in these marriages or relationships, particularly marriages, with kids who are unhappy, what would you tell them in A short, bite size, direct way. Should they get divorced, or should they try to work it out?
• 44:17
  Garrett White: They should tell the truth. I guess, where it all starts, tell the truth, like, if you look at what happens inside all relationships, exactly, monogamous marriage is like one of the craziest ideas we've ever had. But if you can pull it off, if you can pull it off, you're superheroes in a world of people who can't get it together, you're a superhero. So and I'm like, listen, most of the guys that have worked with one on one the last like five years, 60% have gotten divorced, and I've married many of them, and I'm gonna marry a bunch of them this year to these superpower women that they're with now. And I watched the suffering, and I experienced the suffering myself in my marriage for over 12 years, and I know what that feels like. And there's this desire to stay together under a lie. The problem is not that they're getting divorced. The problem is they're staying married under a lie, which is, I don't really want to be with you. I don't want to be with you. There was a painful, super painful, very painful, for my wife to say in therapy, listen, it's not that I don't want to fuck I just don't want to fuck him.
• 45:18
  Unknown: I was like, Oh, shit,
• 45:21
  Garrett White: that's heavy.
• 45:21
  Garrett White: This beautiful woman doesn't want to sleep with me, but wants to be taken just not by me as a dude. You're like, what the fuck at least it was honest though. I was like, okay, at least we can get some this was us, like six, seven years ago, getting to truth each other because the option of divorce was on the table in 2016 2019 we talked about it again in 2022 it's not powerful relationships. That conversation is going to come up where, hey, two people are growing in their own soul path, and we're trying to keep ourselves connected. You. But in that place, what I would say is this, before you get divorced, pretend the following. What are you committed to in marriage?
• 45:59
  Garrett White: What do you say? What do you want in a partner? Then before you just say, Fuck. You invite them into that picture. Talking to my wife, I said, I want four things. One, I want to be in a relationship with a woman has a purpose beyond me and our children. And our children. Two, I'll be in a relationship with a woman who we can be authentically all of ourselves, our dark and our light, our full bullshit. You're a bitch, I'm an asshole. We can be that, and we're not running away at the same time. We can be inspiring, this aspirational and all the great things. Three, I want to co create something with this woman, to do something together.
• 46:31
  Garrett White: And four, TTF, tell me, touch me. Fuck me. I am not a bad looking man. Tell me I'm the fucking man as a dude. I want to hear that when I work this hard.
• 46:40
  Garrett White: I want you walking and be like, Hey, thank you. You're amazing.
• 46:42
  Garrett White: Most women don't do that because if the husband's egos are already too big, I don't want to tell him this yet. The only thing we actually want at the end of the day is the one woman we cared about us. I don't wanna be with this vagina. I wanna be with you. Please just tell me that I'm doing good. Just tell me. Touch me. Touch me on my leg. When you walk in a room, touch my arm. Sit by me, put your hand on me. I didn't say sexual. Just touch me. And third, fuck me, because way I feel loved, it's when we have sex. If we don't have sex, I don't feel loved. So getting into that dichotomy, what are you committed to? And then don't play it from who she is or who he is, and then invite them into this picture. But your commitment is to go to the picture with or without them.
• 47:20
  Garrett White: You're my first choice. You don't want to go that's fine.
• 47:23
  Garrett White: I'm going to go here. I'm going to have this. I want you to be there with me if you don't want to go there, okay, I'm still going to go there with or without you, but you're my first choice. If you choose not to be my first choice, fair enough, you're a free agent into yourself. Choose your path. My wife and I, even to this day, every year, we'll sit down and say, Okay, we still in because if I'm not your number one choice, I would be the first one to pack your bags. I'll give you all the money you want, and I like to meet this guy, this motherfuckers got to be a savage. Because if I'm number two, I want to meet number one.
• 47:59
  Garrett White: I can gracefully take defeat, and I can assess and go, Well, you're better than me. Good job.
• 48:03
  Garrett White: Here she is. Vice versa. If she's not my number choice, should have the same thing with me. If I'm not your number one woman, you don't want to be with me. I'm not going to sit around and beg you. Around
• 48:15
  Unknown: and beg you. You go leave. Go be with her. This is incredibly
• 48:21
  Garrett White: challenging, because the level of truth that you have to sit in to be that honest with somebody that you know when you speak your truth that will hurt them, but you also be ready to receive that truth. It doesn't go one way. My wife shares, shared her darkest, deepest truths with me.
• 48:38
  Garrett White: Suppressed anger and frustration for 20 years, and it came all out of me for six months straight, two years ago, every day, triggers from affair, from 15 years ago, all of the shit, and I had to show I was man enough to sit and take it. And at the end of that, what I will tell you is a principle biblically, which is one flesh, but my wife and I found was something I thought was impossible, impossible, and I don't know if it's possible.
• 49:03
  Garrett White: It's something that's not possible after divorce. It's just to get there. No matter who you are, you're gonna have to reset. So if you get divorced, you're gonna reset. You're gonna have to find this path. Anyways, you're gonna go through the same bullshit, just a different person, because you brought the bullshit into the relationship.
• 49:16
  Garrett White: If you don't fix your bullshit, that bullshit is gonna be with another vagina. If you're a guy, be with another penis if you're a woman. So you better figure yourself out. If you don't figure yourself out, it doesn't matter. And why not give it a try by aspiring to this thing you desire and invite the person who's been with you there and see because both parties, when they get divorced are all going to go on the divorce diet.
• 49:36
  Garrett White: They're both going to get fit and tan, and they're going to be caring about themselves, and they're going to present themselves as the world, whereas in marriage, most time, we just wait for the divorce. Then I'm going to be jacked and juicy.
• 49:47
  Garrett White: I'm gonna go hang out with a bunch of Latina girls in Miami.
• 49:50
  Garrett White: I'll be the man, or you could just be the fucking man with the woman you're with now, and you might be surprised that the woman you're with dies and the woman she becomes is this thing you always wanted, and she was right there, but you wouldn't put in the energy with her the same way you would when you get divorced, and now all of a sudden you'd be focused. It's like, dudes are fat. They get divorced, get jacked. You're like, why don't you get jacked while you were married? Why didn't you guys take care of each other when you were married? Why do you had to get divorced? And divorced and go handle with somebody else?
• 50:15
  Garrett White: Because you're gonna go through the same bullshit again. She's not gonna be perfect. She's not gonna be everything you think she is. She's gonna have problems. She has a period, she has a month. She gets angry. All women do, guess what? Dudes who produce also assholes as calm and nice you are to get where you are, you have to be an asshole. There's a part of dark side of business you have to be, which means inside of all of us, which means, ladies, no dudes perfect and no dude can fulfill all your desires. It's impossible. I can't fulfill all my wife's desires. And maybe 85% that means 15% of fantasy is gonna be in her world. She's gonna have fun. Other ways to fulfill that. I can't be.
• 50:52
  Garrett White: Everything for her. She can't be everything for me, but this one flesh principle can which is a connection of soul. It's what I actually find beyond sex. Most students think they're after an orgasm. They're actually after the piece of connection, after it, the desire to be wanted, which is why I believe most men are look at porn or go to porn, because they see women who desire this man. It might be all bullshit and fake, but even the idea of it, of being wanted, is the thing that everybody's missing. Nobody feels seen. They don't feel wanted. Fuck it. I'll go find somebody else who sees me, wants me, and that'll last for a bit, and then it'll fade, just like every relationship, and they have to do work again.
• 51:29
  Garrett White: One of the
• 51:30
  Randall Kaplan: things about people in marriages who probably shouldn't be in marriages, is their commitment to the oath they take, you know, for better, for worse, sickness or in health. My ex wife's great person, great mom. My kids say, and great personality. People love her, yeah, but doesn't mean that you're right for one another. My kids, we have three beautiful kids for them. Say, God, I can't imagine you ever being together. And what comes and when you're getting divorced, and people think you have everything and you're happy, what starts to happen, as you may know, is you start getting these phone calls. They say, Hey Randy, you want to have lunch. And one of my closest friends to this day called me up and said, Hey, Randy, let's have dinner. And he said, I I respect you and admire you for your courage. And I said, What are you talking about? Well, I've been having an affair on my wife for five years now. He mentioned the woman I knew, the woman, beautiful, of course. And I said, I don't view it as courage. I view it as doing the right thing for myself and who I am. I think it's fair to her, because if you're not getting along, I think at some age, it's important to allow somebody else to have the opportunity to meet someone else who's better for them, rather than stay in a marriage and say, All right, now I'm 55 years old, and it for better for worse, I'm not being chauvinistic about this, but I think it's easier, and maybe the playing field is larger for a man who's 60 years old getting divorced, and maybe for a woman, my mom was single at 70 years old in Detroit, you know, the the talent pool there is slim.
• 53:09
  Randall Kaplan: You know, she's going on match.com which I encourage her to go on initially, like Randy.
• 53:12
  Randall Kaplan: She finally found her an amazing life, life partner. And what's interesting in those lunches? I said, Hey, you know, man, you okay? What do you mean? And said, Is your marriage okay? Oh yeah, yeah. You know, marriage is great. Well, you know it's interesting. I haven't heard from you two two years, and here we are sitting have lunch. And yeah, what's great about this?
• 53:32
  Randall Kaplan: If you have friends that are getting divorced and it's very lonely, it's depressing, even though it may be the right thing for you, it's just tough sitting there in your house by yourself when you got kids and you want it when you're in the marriage, not that you what you want is when you got three kids, a living nanny, a dog, everyone's in the house. It's rare that there's no one in the house. I remember when I was married to my my first wife, I think I had one hour where everyone was gone. I said, Gosh, this is so nice. And then when it was forced upon you, and you're in this house half the time, big house, your dream house by yourself, it it really suck, but I think it's really important for your friends to reach out to you. I know that in some situations, I was toxic because none of my married friends wives wanted to have dinner with me and a new girl or a girl that I was dating. Doug, am off. I just want to mention this to you, married to Vice President of the United States. We've been friends since we were 24 years old, first year lawyers in Los Angeles, and he had been divorced before, and he reached out to me and he said, and I've known Doug at that point for a long time. I got married when I got divorced when I was 38 Doug and I met when we're 24 new to LA. He had volunteered on this non profit, uh, charity function that I started, called the Justice ball. Is basically for free non profit law firm. And I, I'll never forget Doug reaching out to me, an amazing person, and all the other people who reach out to me, and there weren't that many. So my advices to people, and it's not just for divorce, but be there for your friends. Your friends are going to go through hard times, and they're going through things that you're even think you're going to maybe going through one day or hope that they don't happen to you. This
• 55:26
  Garrett White: is the reason I built Wake Up Warrior, because men didn't have a place to go, and when I needed someone to turn to. I had nobody, and the church groups weren't getting it done, and the Bible studies weren't getting it done, and the masterminds weren't getting it done. And so I built a place for men to be safe, where they could tell the truth. You could still be powerful and you could be weak. You could be struggling.
• 55:50
  Garrett White: You don't have to hide, you don't have to be in your. House alone. I've watched, I've watched many of my guys, hundreds of my guys, get divorced over the years, and that factor is accurate. They all go on a bender for about six months, and then they end up in this lonely place. And on the speaking of it too, there's a lonelier place, and it's called being in a relationship that doesn't work and you suffer and you struggle and you desire, or you have side chicks, and you do the side thing, while you're trying to pretend it's together, get everything along this you're just lying to yourself. And this piece of truth, the truth comes with pain, and sometimes that means you're gonna feel alone for a season, and inside of that, yes, a lot of divorced people, too. Marry people become cancerous because of how weak their marriages are and
• 56:33
  Randall Kaplan: because they're contagious. Yeah, women, you're a man, you're getting divorced.
• 56:37
  Randall Kaplan: And
• 56:41
  Garrett White: yeah, exposes their relationship. If they're weak in their relationship and they see you do this, it becomes an example, because now the exposure level. Now, if your marriage is solid and you're strong, you're committed a divorce, doesn't threaten you at all. But if you're weak in your marriage and you've been hiding and lying, and somebody next to you demonstrates the courage to say, Listen, this doesn't work.
• 57:00
  Garrett White: I'm choosing to move forward with my life. I love you, and at the same time, this doesn't work for me. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot continue to lie to myself. I'm going to move on. And in that place, it rattles relationships, because nobody, everybody talks about divorce rate. Nobody talks about the depressed rate of all the married couples who fucking hate each other and they're not happy and they're surviving and all those people from my parents generation, my parents have been divorced, my in laws should have been divorced, but they came from a time where divorce wasn't even on the table. I mean, it wasn't even an option. So like my mother and my mother in law, both are despised at some level.
• 57:33
  Garrett White: They're their husbands, and they're verbal about it, because they're powerful women that were men just they weren't. These men did the best they could, but they weren't what these women wanted. Truly, I watched the separations. I've watched it happen, but nobody talks about that piece. What percentage of marriage are actually happy? I don't know. I don't know how you would like statistically light up. I know this, there are more happy second marriages than there are first marriages,
• 57:58
  Randall Kaplan: right? Let me, let me stop you there, because I wanted to mention this before, and I was going to mention now.
• 58:04
  Randall Kaplan: But one of the things about being divorced is, as much as you can be toxic now you can be a light of future, because I found the most amazing woman in the world,
• 58:18
  Unknown: yeah, man, I know.
• 58:21
  Randall Kaplan: And you know, people will look at me now and say, you know, that could be me, yeah. And that's just so warming and heartfelt. And, you know, I got friends. I mean, I mean, I have a woman friend who hasn't had sex with her husband in 12 years, I know, and it's like, why aren't you divorced? Look at, look at, look at what I have. I'm so lucky. You know, I was divorced seven and a half years man. I dated all the wrong women, right? Looking for the right one and and when I met Madison. We met a few years before, and she was living in New York, and it's kind of a crazy story. She she had her best friend named Maddie. My wife is Madison, and Maddie and I were friends, and I wanted, you know, date Maddie and we went on a date, and she says it wasn't a date, but Madison wasn't talent working, and he came to dinner at the last minute. I'm like, Oh, shit. You know, this is not good. And then we went to dinner, and then we went back to my house to play the Wii video game. We're playing tennis and all this other stuff, and driving the car and and this is, you know, 10 o'clock at night, and we played the drums, which is in the bedroom, but we had fun. These two beautiful women sitting on the edge of my bed till two in the morning while I'm playing the drums. And I'm like, you know, I tell the story. Well, did anything kinky happen when you got these two beautiful women in your bedroom? Right? I said, No, no, but we exchanged phone numbers on Facebook. I asked him, posted something on Facebook going to Hawaii with my boyfriend for two weeks. I can't wait, so I text her this engagement trip, and she wrote back hardly, and so I'd been to the place where they had been a few times before, and I texted her four days into the trip, Hey, how's the trip growing? And said, we broke up now I barely knew her, right? And when I said, Well, what I said to her is, when she said hardly, I said, You shouldn't settle. You know you're great. And she'll tell the story. Now, you know, who the fuck were you to say that you don't even know me, but what I have and which nobody else knew. And this is true in business. You know you have an opportunity. You know you're a business guy. You got to seize the moment in my moment in the way that I my brain works, is do it now, because you can miss it by a millisecond. So I had material, non public inside information. If you trade on that in the stock market, you're going to jail, buddy. But if you trade on that in your personal life, you could have the best possible life in the world, and that's what happened to me, because no one knew she'd broken up with her boyfriend. So I said, Oh, I. Want to come take it to dinner. Said, Oh no, I'm living with my boyfriend. I got to get out with my wife. And she said, Maybe this summer, my sister's getting married. In the fall, I'll be in Los Angeles. I don't believe in maybes. Maybes are not a good thing. As a businessman, successful businessman, you got to hit it right now. And like I said, you can miss it by a millisecond so she was having none of that. My stepdad, at that point, was sick with cancer, and he was supposed to come out to Los Angeles, I think my, one of my kids was graduating from maybe kindergarten or something like that, and get canceled a whole bunch of times he was sick. And my kids would very much get unhappy and say, Oh, he can't say, well, he's sick. You know, Grandma bunny is what, is what they call my mom. You know, can't, can't come out, because Papa Bear, that was what they call my father. My stepfather was sick. I remember being at the Shell gas station. Said I can't come this weekend. I'm so sorry. Hang up the phone call Mattis, and said, I'm going to come to New York this weekend for the freeze Art Fair. And I collect art. I love art. It's a passion. I know plans Garrett going to New York, but suddenly, you know, 10 minutes later, I booked a trip and said, I like to take you to dinner. And it was great. You know, Madison had just broken up with her boyfriend. Yeah, I went there.
• 1:02:09
  Randall Kaplan: We had dinner both nights, and I said to her, when I, when I when I laughed. I mean, I felt like we had a great connection. I don't care what you're doing in New York, which is a total fucking bullshit lie, by the way, but I want you to know that when I go back to LA I'm not gonna date anyone else. I think there's a future here, but you could date whoever you want to do. And I'm like, God, please don't date anybody that would just torture on my soul. And we got engaged three months later, because I knew what I wanted.
• 1:02:40
  Randall Kaplan: She was the most amazing person in the world. She was smart, graduated Business School, graduated college in three years, 24 AP credits, I think coming in, self supportive. Had four jobs New York when I when I met her, loves football. I'm a huge football fan. Go lions. I hope this is the year the best ever suffer as long suffering lions fan. And you know, here we are, 11 and a half years later.
• 1:03:06
  Randall Kaplan: So the message that I want to send to everybody, as much as I talked about, yeah, you shouldn't be in a marriage if you're unhappy, is it allows you the opportunity to have a second life. And I think having been divorced the first time and again, I don't recommend people get divorced unless they they really need to. And if you're not going to fix your problems, why fake it? Why do it? But if you are going to get divorced and it's right for you, there can be and is an amazing Second Life. I have two beautiful kids with with my wife, and people will look at me now and say, All right, maybe Randy is was the inspiration of me getting divorced, and maybe he is today, but for a better reason, yeah, which is, look at what he has today, and I feel like I'm the luckiest guy in the world. I'm happy for you. Your story of redemption in terms of what you went through, sexual abuse, difficulties in marriage, affairs. You also built a very successful business. I want to talk about your business career.
• 1:04:05
  Randall Kaplan: I want to talk about the ups and downs. You build three very successful mortgage companies.
• 1:04:08
  Randall Kaplan: You had personal issues, drug issues, and then the great financial crisis of 2008 where a lot of people lost their businesses. You tell us just about your entrepreneurial instinct in terms of the rise and fall of your businesses. And what are the three lessons that you would give somebody else starting a business going into something in the future, and what are the three best things you learned from those businesses failing, the
• 1:04:35
  Garrett White: implosion, the implosion of our first round of companies was really a leadership thing. On my side, there were plenty of guys at the time in banking, then mortgages that did fine. They contracted.
• 1:04:42
  Garrett White: I didn't listen to mentors. So I had mentors who literally sat with me and said, compress your company down to 10 to 15 people.
• 1:04:50
  Garrett White: Let 100 plus people go, go to cash, get out of real estate, sit and wait. One of them was a mentor of mine, who actually passed away six months after he gave me the advice. I was young.
• 1:05:03
  Garrett White: I was in my 30s. I thought this thing would just go forever. I was PE teacher and became a mortgage guy and a real estate guy, and didn't know anything else. I'd never known loss. So I got to learn loss. So the first one was, listen to your mentors.
• 1:05:15
  Garrett White: People have gone before you.
• 1:05:18
  Garrett White: They know the path. They've seen the trends. They know what's going on. Just because you've had success doesn't mean you're going to always have success, and the one of the fast ways to not have it is not listen to people have gone before you. So number one, number two, we had lived in a game of deception and banking, not intentionally. I didn't understand entrepreneurs as a whole. I was a I was really a high paid hit man. Am I? I had a crew of 100 high paid hit men, and we worked for big banks, and we went and sold shit. We didn't know anything. We just were hitmen. We sold I wasn't really an entrepreneur at that time. We had larger companies, we had success, we had money. But that didn't mean I was an entrepreneur. So the second. To determine is that not everyone's an entrepreneur. Some of the greatest success people have is working for pure entrepreneurs.
• 1:05:57
  Garrett White: And while there's this massive message of everyone's an entrepreneur, the truth is that's not true. The spirit of entrepreneurism is in everyone the spirit to create and go but most people cannot bear the burden the weight of being a founder and a CEO of a company.
• 1:06:07
  Garrett White: To be a true CEO, to be a true entrepreneur, you have to be crazy. You have to have the capacity to create from nothing.
• 1:06:15
  Garrett White: You have to believe at a level that most will never believe.
• 1:06:19
  Garrett White: You have to suffer at a level most will never suffer. You have to hurt in ways no one can imagine and it never turns off.
• 1:06:24
  Garrett White: Most people will make more money with the spirit of entrepreneurs and being entrepreneurs behind crazy people and helping build support and infrastructure with the entrepreneurial spirit. So this was something I was never taught, so I didn't know any different. I should. We all had to be entrepreneurs, so I had to learn all of these skills over the last 25 years, pushing myself the place I probably would have never gone had I had a pure mentor entrepreneur who I could just tuck under the wing and go and I probably would have made more money because I could do the things that I was uniquely great at. I didn't necessarily want to have all these skills. It wasn't my desire. I just had to get them because the only way to run the business was to have these skills. So the second piece, the third piece was, everything comes back to truth. So if you're not listening to your mentors, and you're actually not committed to the entrepreneurial journey of suffering, the success is follow suffering at the highest level. There's not one guy I've met that's built anything of success that does not have a dark trail. There's a darkness that comes with this stewardship, and that darkness is not worshiping money and it's not hurting people. There's just a heaviness and a weight that perpetually pushes it will affect your marriage, your children and every and if you can get through it, and you know, it's why warrior exists.
• 1:07:35
  Garrett White: We use tools. Now I didn't have available to me to be able to stabilize who I am as a man to lead. So we have more entrepreneurs brising In our organization than ever because of these tools, because of the things we do every day as men to keep ourselves in check. But the foundation of all this is truth.
• 1:07:50
  Garrett White: And if you, if you can't tell the truth to yourself, and you can't tell the truth to your teams, and the truth to your teams can't tell the truth to you. Now, number one, you're not getting the right data, you're not getting the right optics.
• 1:08:00
  Garrett White: You're not making the right decisions. Everything's based upon a gut feeling, which at some level has to happen, but at some level, things have to be backed up with numbers and math and science. You have to back things up. You have to live in truth. At the same time, live in this place of vision that you're moving towards, but without truth, there's no vision, because now it's fantasy. The vision becomes fantasy with no foundation of truth. So in that truth, now it can choose something different and wake up.
• 1:08:21
  Garrett White: Warrior became the birth child of not just helping entrepreneurs rise. It was helping entrepreneurs rise with everything, with them.
• 1:08:30
  Randall Kaplan: So tell everybody what, what that is, we built a system, a
• 1:08:34
  Garrett White: game, simple as that app, curriculum for married businessmen with children to figure out how to weaponize themselves, physically connect to God, deep, deeply, sexually, emotionally, spiritually connected to their wife like they had just met, like a rebirth in the relationship, and How to continue to accelerate profits at the same time, while leading their children. How can you do all of this at once?
• 1:08:59
  Garrett White: Because every mentor I'd ever had in my entire life was on one side to scale the other, big money and life wreck falling apart, or on the flip side, had become very zen, and kind of said, Eh, to the money. And I was like, can you be Zen and be wealthy? Can you do it all at once? We figured out how. It's not even a guesswork for us anymore. It's a science, and men that submit into the games that we play. We teach them how to play the Warriors way. It's a game we play every day. It's an ideology, it's an operating system, and it works for every single man that we've ever worked with who chooses to work the system, and when they work the system, they win
• 1:09:34
  Randall Kaplan: some of the things that you ask your people to do in these seminars. And I don't know if it's a seminar, maybe your coaching program is you do crazy things. They're very difficult, like throwing somebody into the ocean blindfolded, having someone go into a cemetery and say you're gonna die in 20 minutes. You have to write something to save yourself to live. What's
• 1:09:53
  Garrett White: that about? So when we first started, Warrior men were different than they are now. So 1213, years ago, when we started, Warrior men were much more shut down, roll out. What's occurred in the last 12 years?
• 1:10:03
  Garrett White: Politically, COVID, all of the shit that's gone sideways, men are hurting more than ever. So we started that way because the only way to get men to tell the truth, was exhaust them. So we exhausted him, beat the shit out of him, made him fight each other. Our application question was, if you were coming into war, he was, have you ever punched a man in the face? Have you ever been punched by a man in the face? We knew you were gonna get punched. And you're gonna punch somebody because you were coming to our camp, which means you were gonna fight. So we had 50 year old dudes who never punched anyone, beating the shit out of each other, and they fucking loved it. Founders of companies, CFOs, who'd never hit anyone, the craziest dudes were the dudes who'd never fought anybody.
• 1:10:40
  Randall Kaplan: What a great marketing plan. Hey, Lisa rage with a bunch of bros. That's it.
• 1:10:45
  Garrett White: And the dudes lined up for fucking eight straight years for it. Every two weeks, 10,000 a pop, New York Times called. The man called$10,000 man cult tried to run a smear campaign on us. They couldn't, because all of our top dudes were like, if this is a cult, well, fuck if a cult means I'm more fit, more connected to God, having better sex with my wife, making more money my children, trust me, war. Well, that's a cult I want to be part of. So go fuck yourself. And we've just pushed this thing forward. Now, over time, it became less necessary for two reasons. One, our dudes got older, so when we launched it 13 years ago, we were younger, and a dude sent a cum laude. My age.
• 1:11:17
  Garrett White: I'm 48 almost 49 and dudes at 52 their bodies are great, but the but when our big, impossible games for the year with a lot of our guys are I'm gonna get a colonoscopy this year. We've, we've, we've come to, yeah, that's colonoscopy. Let's fucking go. We're not 30 anymore. So we had to move away from a lot of that. One because it just a physical game. Was too many injuries. And the second piece was it wasn't necessary.
• 1:11:41
  Garrett White: Now, guys come to the door and there's so much pain. The truth is, a conversation works. And so we went away from that, although a lot of groups have launched following our lead, and still run those, and those are very useful for most of our guys. Are very established dudes. They're deep thinkers. Are very logical, and they're trapped emotionally inside. So we come in our world, we have different tools now.
• 1:12:02
  Garrett White: They're actually more effective, more efficient. So a lot of people think in order to participate in Warrior I have to go get my ass kicked. No, no, you don't have to get physically beat up. We're going to train your body, but we're going to put you in a place with tools we have now that allow you to spiritually set yourself free.
• 1:12:14
  Garrett White: And that's the shits we were going from the outside in. Now we know how to go from the inside out, and in less than a couple weeks, I can do what used to take us two or three years with a guy, and this guy will be living in truth and power in a way he wasn't living before. And
• 1:12:28
  Randall Kaplan: to sign up.
• 1:12:28
  Randall Kaplan: Where do they go to sign up and be part of the program?
• 1:12:31
  Garrett White: Our baseline is just Wake Up warrior.com it's like the great place to start, great entry point. There's also a great podcast my wife and I run together called date your wife. It's a great place to start to the date your wife podcast found on all platforms and Wake Up warrior.com it's, it's kind of the entry point to our world, where you can learn everything about it. We
• 1:12:48
  Randall Kaplan: talked about a couple things already that make people successful, not only in personal life, but in the business life, one of the things that's made me successful, if not the most successful thing, is my preparation. I call it extreme preparation. How important has preparation?
• 1:13:02
  Randall Kaplan: Extreme preparation? Preparing for a meeting, speech, whatever it is, 20 hours, 40 hours, when someone else is prepared, 30 minutes, which is the average time someone actually does prepare for a meeting. So
• 1:13:14
  Garrett White: what I can tell is, not only are you one who extremely prepares, I went and started listening to your shows.
• 1:13:19
  Garrett White: I just listened to four different shows. I'm listening for the first 10 minutes into the show. And I was like, There's no fucking way he just knows this. Like they had to prepare like crazy. I was listening for an hour to an hour and a half long podcast, and you were question after question after that weren't just like general, hey. So tell me about how you feel about life, hey. So tell us your backstory, about your business. No, you were like when you were a kid. What about this? What about this? How about that person? What about that girl, Sally, that you hung out with in sixth grade? And how about this move over here? And then, when you took this, the question and sequence that you've done is the most unique thing I've ever seen a podcast interview ever do, like only person who probably prepares as much as you, as Joe Rogan, because he tends to know fucking everything about everybody, too.
• 1:14:02
  Garrett White: You, on other hand, most shows are free flow, go, go, go, and we kind of talking, so people kind of get some insight from it, your questioning and your ability to study and prepare. I mean, you, you set this up with me and somehow stay up till three o'clock in the morning, studying for seven eight hours my life. So you could come in with questions to ask. I may have fucked all those up, but nonetheless, we were here, and you were did it, and I could tell when you walked in, and I could tell from all the other shows you do your unique talent in this is the fact that you're committed to that, which is exactly why you've had success in business. Because you don't want to come to the table and just deliver up fluff and deliver up another podcast. It's a strategic move to show people how they can get value by you asking the right questions to get the gold out of people you're interviewing. I'm impressed. I was impressed, like before I got here. Just listen to the show. Because a guy who studies people who do things like this, you were different.
• 1:14:48
  Garrett White: You were in a very different I now understand why everybody wants to be on your show, because they're as excited about the questions you're going to ask because they're getting asked the questions that no one asks them in a normal podcast.
• 1:14:59
  Garrett White: My preparation is a little bit different, right? So you have people prepared decks and slides and all that's very important. I don't disagree with this. My preparation is frameworks. So I love flow, so I can do things naturally in flow that a lot of people cannot. For example, I'm in events where the power goes down and people can't show their PowerPoints and the speaker and trainer is fucked, not me. So I got used to vibe boards, which is now what I use. Vibe boards, iPads, flip charts. So I have frameworks inside, so I prepare for 1520, hours frameworks.
• 1:15:27
  Garrett White: Frameworks are concepts or ideas that I want to use, but they're interchangeable, unlike a script or a PowerPoint deck, that's like a, b, c, d, I have all the letters of the alphabet available to me, and then I enter the most important preparation for me, which is energetic and spiritual connection. Am I grounded?
• 1:15:46
  Garrett White: Because in that place now I can move a room or a negotiation. I can move a negotiation. And swap frames out real time instead of being caught to a script. So for me, scripts don't work. What does work is preparation, but my preparation is different. So at a big event, some dudes will spend 40 hours on their PowerPoint slide in order to do their pitch me, I'll spend 10 hours building frames, and then I'll spend another 20 hours meditating, grounding, doing my work, keeping me connected. I'll sit in the rooms or go prepare by being in people's energy. And then I unleash with no script.
• 1:16:19
  Garrett White: And now my frameworks just pop.
• 1:16:24
  Garrett White: I pull them like from a server in the back of my brain, and I'll start a framework over here, and then I'll see we need to shift. I'll pause that one come over here, pull this framework out. Then I'll come and pull one out over here, and then I'll mix them together and go. Frameworks are what scripts are. They're just less instead of, like, four paragraphs, I have four statements. These four statements typically follow alliteration, and they move people from here to there. And those frameworks work for me.
• 1:16:50
  Garrett White: But it doesn't mean I don't prepare as you prepare differently than most people.
• 1:16:56
  Randall Kaplan: Well, that means the world to me. It really does, and I appreciate you. And I'm writing a book called extreme preparation, so I'm excited for you to read it, and if you want to write a little blurb in it, and if you love the book, then I'd be grateful. But this has been one of the best shows I've ever done. We went to a place where I've never gone before in the 150 podcasts that I've done, and I appreciate your story.
• 1:17:19
  Randall Kaplan: It's motivating. It's inspiring.
• 1:17:19
  Randall Kaplan: I think it's amazing. What you've done to encourage people that have been sexually abused and being a real person and showing vulnerability, which for a man, is very difficult. For most men I know, to do we're taught not to do that, and just the lessons you've learned from the rise and fall of your business, and especially what you've done to rebuild this incredible coaching program and inspiring, motivating 10s of 1000s of people around the world. I really congratulate you. I admire you, and I'm excited to hang with you again.
• 1:17:44
  Randall Kaplan: Thank you, brother. Appreciate you having me. Great show. Thank you, and again, shout out to Andrew loringer, we put this thing together in 24 hours. I was coming down in Miami. I did a show with Tony Robbins. I said, Hey, you got the studio.
• 1:17:57
  Randall Kaplan: I'll come anytime it could be one in the morning. Whatever he said, I got this great guy.
• 1:18:03
  Randall Kaplan: Garrett white, he's amazing.
• 1:18:03
  Randall Kaplan: You're gonna love him. So shout out to Andrew for making this happen all the all the intros that he's made incredible. Andy Elliott's coming on the show.
• 1:18:15
  Randall Kaplan: Thanks to my man right here.
• 1:18:15
  Randall Kaplan: Andrew, so grateful if you're coming to Miami shoot at the move best studio around Amen.
• 1:18:28
  Unknown: You.