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Sober Talk SA - Craig · Sober Talk SA

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  On my name's crack. I will not go on it, and he's a
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  bit of my story. I was born at a very young age,
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  of course. And I was born to quite a, quite
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  a normal everyday family, p, brothers and sisters, or two
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  brothers. And a sister mum didn't work and
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  they should start acting mum. Lot, of course, like every
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  trishul. In fact, worked quite a few
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  chips. I'll find out later in life.
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  My mom. Was caught concerned about me,
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  getting on because her father was only, can I be today for,
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  for quite a long time. She used to bring that up.
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  Only when I had my Benders and I was a bit of a naughty kid and
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  then the stolen anything, but I, he's still waiting for that
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  class clown and sort of the funny boy.
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  I'll spice and sort of didn't really feel like I fit in with
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  their own. Even though I said it wasn't
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  yeah. Particularly at usual.
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  But yeah. Just like and I just don't I
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  always feel a bit different. Been overly more emotional than
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  other kids as far as luck laughing.
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  And, you know, that sort of sort of thing.
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  And what girls always said, I talk a lot and that's funny hat
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  with you. Go to do a talk and he said, I
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  can't talk for 20 minutes, my parents would laugh cry, could
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  talk the lingo up a chair. And, you know, I was still
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  asleep so I could have done well at school but I was still
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  interested in being a clamp. I was a silly off since they
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  never could have done really well but you know, I went
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  through a supposed to know about, you know, we started
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  drinking you. So probably 12 13 at when of
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  make from school and his parents were extremely liberal about
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  menís. Let him smoke.
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  I thought this is cool and even let us drink but every time we
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  prank, Why I got really, really written off.
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  And so yeah, I just couldn't couldn't have what and the other
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  ones like a complete waste us wise.
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  I'll put our sit down, have a beer that was a really, you
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  know, so I was about 15 years old.
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  I had a was involved in a fatal car accident where I was meant
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  to be sitting in sickness aren't the you are my mate, wasn't it?
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  Rolled over it, the country of the down he died at Up.
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  And cause the with me right away.
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  So don't even know they stole the car.
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  And I wasn't having any kind of that, but it was a same thing
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  that I told us with me when he thought.
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  So I saw things like that, I think it was a catalyst for me,
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  being able to get drunk and people would say, oh, you know,
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  I just had a hard time, it's lost, its mate and all that sort
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  of thing, I could, I suppose get away with it, you know.
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  Was a and then I got my license the sick and I couldn't I was it
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  about a wider barking. Yes.
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  Ran into a few different things. You star scare away, see stuff,
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  you know and drink and drive all the time.
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  When I was young I probably tried nails when I got older and
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  my what about Scott faster I did.
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  But I was always, I think drink. It was a messing part of my Why?
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  Teens last face? I was always, yeah, I could
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  practice often as I could but I don't know, I might still as
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  well. So I didn't really stand out and
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  I remember what went before it had to do this.
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  I was thinking, I had a girlfriend once.
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  I'll pick, I was in town, I depart, and picked up the skill
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  and get him on Mike. She looked like I'm not bikes us
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  kiss. You might, and he would had a
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  few and it's silly to the feet. So I remember his girlfriend st.
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  Clair she, she says you're a nice boy, but she said, I feel
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  to keep you get off the if she's eating it.
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  Really drunk a lot. Yeah, pop off, cool.
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  That's what cool. Like, some kind of likes to
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  their cake East and actually end up having a son when I was only
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  19 years old and that was more. Kumal.
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  I work for my bed and I had a I mean having a lot of
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  responsibility with my dad and the term, the cheolmin heart
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  started boxing and it's actually all that stuff there.
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  That kept me. I think, basically it's going to
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  work and train and everything site.
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  It get the drink here by, but when I was 23, I lost part of
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  our sites. I ha please watch your like
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  Choice. Hi, Wait for there wasn't much
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  call for Legally Blonde spray painters, and it and it is I
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  actually in a bit of a Rachmaninoff and not the bottom
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  that I I needed to freak reason that came 20 years later.
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  So from though there was a lot of drinking and fighting and as
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  I'm not blind blind but I've lost part of my central vision.
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  So it was hard to work. So I had an excuse to stay home
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  and I think for 12 or 18, So I just try every day because it
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  was a guy that finished work at 2:00 at him and go and when he
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  the piece together. So yeah, I mean totally like
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  another relationship, she left because I was just a bit of a
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  loser and, you know. Yeah.
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  I all along the side of my house.
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  Well, that didn't work and we get proper together sats are up.
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  We can have a beer. If you he don't ever being you
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  know, you Not fair, not a fan and all that sort of stuff, but
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  yeah, ice to get written off a lot.
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  So Along Came many different jobs because I got into sales
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  and I have a lot of potential. I am a beast of a lot of dogs
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  for a while and then I wouldn't have them anymore, because I'll
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  get drunk and not, turn up to work, not shut up Monday.
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  But, you know, it's still a lot of Monday's I suppose, but just
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  wasn't. It was an Old Reliable cat more
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  Offer that not a lot of people said to me, when I was working,
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  you having been drinking about nine outs will, you know like
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  because when you don't and I think I had an out whole three
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  day. Four Ava, and I could, you know,
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  three, four times. So funny.
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  I think I'll people think I am anyway and I can communicate.
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  I'm very good at picking up and are chatting up women and you
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  know, like hating up and I'll give you eight.
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  I Can Begin. Be personable after all.
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  All the rest of the end but then after a while, they just get
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  sick of you. If you're eating a lot, I like
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  working and work with Mobsters according to Porter, I'm gonna
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  watch a way six days a week. So I'd make my underweight leave
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  like job to afford my alcohol and it on another break.
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  Happened around 1999 on the six-year relationship because he
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  just went down the toilet. Just yeah, just there.
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  Just gets to you after a while. It's embarrassing.
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  Yeah, you know, them in places and my son were fairly close
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  but, you know, I run. But he doesn't.
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  I'll fast forward but he doesn't talk to me anymore.
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  And they don't believe that on. Yeah, I stopped drinking because
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  we got on really well, but quite often if it's come over on a
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  Sunday or just crochet a lounge for two hours, I'd be a good dad
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  but there were many times where I'll just be the bearer seek
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  peace guy. Yes.
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  I'm what? Winehouse and not Beauty
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  thousand. I've been here ever since but
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  yeah, I like I said, I've been through many relationships and
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  job herbs, and the final straw was about ten years ago when I
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  had an incident where they, my son at stop.
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  Seeing me up at three is two years before that because we
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  came over one. One day with this massive
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  argument in a fight and I lost it and it benefits the second or
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  third time. I'll probably said, I think that
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  I've done, then it happened from being very close to maxing was
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  only thing he said, and so it's got Lisa, great waiver or
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  motives friends. A lot of things.
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  And I think enough of the Tough by my parents come here.
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  Remember once I've got I've got a video of it, added of had
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  pecans that 200 of them around like cancer.
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  And on the table at cigarette butts fired.
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  And I remember either paid in a cage on top of the cupboard and
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  it kept getting outside. I'll put him back in, keep
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  getting it. And I do.
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  Did realize the top of that cake, was I put and I'll say,
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  please don't need it at any time.
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  Positive 8 there for about three days like adults are.
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  But moved out and not completely just internal apparently got my
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  shit together and that was never going to happen while I was
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  faking. But yeah, I just got to get
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  putting us back in. I just remember my parents came
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  over to visit. Mom said, you know, you're an
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  alcoholic has now Dot United sitting neighbors 300, PS the
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  right approach, back in the video that I want to pay 150
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  years five or six cats have beaten.
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  It was a three-day session but it went from the locket at the
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  worst point. I was probably drinking a little
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  bit of an Italian people, sorry. And even now I thought I had
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  prank that much, but I went to the auto shop a year after I
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  stopped drinking and their whole at the auto shop actually.
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  So they were really into that because I was like place of
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  supply and pulls it to me as I will do this.
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  My thoughts that he goes, well, this is last October and this is
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  this October and the route from the boom, replaceable things
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  that day out what's happening. And so, will cry doesn't visit
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  anymore. I said yes.
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  Funny other, you guys know when you're spending a bit, Three
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  other bucks a week on boo-boo. The Photoshop silly though.
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  This is the decline in sales and lights shit.
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  Well Harriet a very free running is good on ya.
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  Babe. I was funny because Iranians to
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  go on there and I kept using was just friendly to.
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  I'm just slow. So you don't want to bite the
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  hand that feeds. You little prawns, weren't
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  messing part of my story as well, but not as much as
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  drinking a, you know, getting on the weekends or virtually
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  Chinese to see the speak. What if i k is, I can sort of
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  say no to that quite easily, not do it for many years.
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  So I thought was that the Catalyst to everything going to
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  sexually funny since I've gave I'm freaking out.
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  Nothing freely, bother me anymore.
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  So suppose fast forward to 2014 after a massive bender.
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  And I had a huge big argument life partner the time, and I
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  wasn't happy with how How things were with the family there with
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  her family over the fact, she really did try it but she tried
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  to pin it tough love in any way. But she wasn't here on, I got
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  locked up for, you know, had many dots in the pound as we
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  quite often have a little bit itself but I'll be able that for
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  you know, kissing in public and did that want, why sighing,
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  every iconic scene had that kissing in public?
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  And then you fight, the police are all goes well from there.
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  I don't know. So yeah, I was locked up and I
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  got out and I actually ran with that because I'm, I'm born on
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  his birthday while felt great parents.
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  I think the what, then I'll sit and I'm gonna stop drinking and
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  he goes your promise as an herbal scent and 17, like you
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  think you've got a problem crank?
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  She's like well mom said, yes, sir, because I go back bringing
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  about four years ago before that and said, I'm going to try and
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  she didn't believe me but This is the first time I actually fit
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  give up because I didn't think it was me without drinking
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  because I was in the car. Train, everyone drank Channel.
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  Yeah. It's the boxer on motorbikes and
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  all the guy things. So, you know, it's, you know,
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  you'd have to be not kind of made if you didn't break up,
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  I've been a bit of up like you'd like, and pretty much when I
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  decided to stop, I will bring up a place of web there and They
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  was here. They ought to write things down
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  and you know, I didn't get to Tolkien it was there some sort
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  of church-based thing and that's a massive part of my sobriety.
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  She's it on the screaming atheist.
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  I have had bad experiences with our the patch that by a priest
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  or anything, but it's about that experience with the people in
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  churches, not being what they say they are Being not nice,
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  people would go to church and that's why they're great.
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  So I thought I've got some really close, check your friends
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  with our rights but we must offense.
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  But I actually got on the phone to a i is actually was funny.
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  I had a partner years ago and we used to drink our own receives
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  to beam out for work and castles place of work that would stop
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  every night. The way home.
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  She did a bunch of Southern Comfort and not get up a little
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  bit even And who mom has been part of the a fellowship 50-odd
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  years and she's a set of your a colic.
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  Hell I can stop, anytime I might she is, I've never seen you but
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  they're drinking it. I said he will because I'm
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  always working when I'm not working.
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  I would prank and I like drinking and I was quite funny
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  because he said, but you drink alcohol equally as his ally
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  thing, you pull your drinks. And if have half a glass of
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  bourbon on half of muscle kite, That's how I like it and it's
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  just you just jump in. If she was his holy the left
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  side, actually Reich II and the going out to the phone.
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  So, skis off a little tricky thing.
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  Goodness, and not answer. I got it out to the fine in the
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  office. It was actually funny.
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  It's glad all the answers really shouldn't be off at the time.
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  He, he said, I said, do you know, I don't drive and he said,
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  that's okay. So you should give to a meeting
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  and I said I don't have any say I'm eating stuff, so that's what
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  you do. So, so when you lie guys,
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  welcome to one on one side note. Once again, I don't promise and
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  I'll pick you up, what as black. So I think one of the guys know
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  I still have to pick me up. Well hey, he's nice enough to
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  operation in us enough to say. And so, He came along that
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  picked me up and he said look just Lisa, you don't have to say
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  anything, you know. But listen for the similarities
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  a lot of differences because I said none of em uh, Starfire and
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  he said to another planet, but he knows it's not a religious
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  program. Also, it's gone.
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  You can just just, just don't worry about it.
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  And I'll see if I can sing it like god-killer because I wanted
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  to, I didn't want to drink at that time, but I did my personal
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  life. As I said, I've been 20 Five
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  years of hot hot drink and I'll go to this meeting and everyone
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  that shade around the table, I could hear something similar.
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  And every single one of their this year, is whether it be
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  they've lost money because I can, I mean with the Mike Vinny
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  four thousand dollars with a credit card and lost my house,
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  but I think four thousand dollars with the credit card
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  debt and It was people have lost everything can, you know, I had
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  lots of Partners and my partner wasn't there at Toms shoe.
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  She met me at the painting and she has quality.
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  You notice people there was a guy there and there was just is
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  a few people there that now, that I've gone.
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  But I really, really didn't want huh?
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  And I don't know if I should say names, but yeah, there were no,
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  I'm lovely. People are finding that they
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  will. That you took me there.
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  Just standing Oh yeah, I suck. So I will funny as well.
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  So I thought Lena funny Guys, these guys are okay and she has
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  little bit and it seemed like a staple and why not?
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  I took two weeks off of work. So I'd actually a guy said
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  sweet. He can do 90 meetings in 90.
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  That is little it and you don't have to, I know, but I really
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  wanted to give up so I thought was I'm not at work.
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  I'm at home on the model shops for minutes up the road.
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  So it to die Town. Meetings went to meetings in the
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  night and even when I couldn't get there, I could bring up some
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  one other words of a son that I rang up innocent.
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  He said I guess what? He's got a stupid couple up
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  buddy, at least guys got come it?
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  And it was like April, you know, I reached out people helped.
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  I've been driving it didn't matter.
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  So it was just yeah. Like I said, there was many,
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  people are part of the time. She not coming back, is she
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  Often we going to meet me. So so I think she initially
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  Renegade she said, you never actually she said you're all
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  calm but it was months and months and months and I was just
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  going on lots of beatings, but I enjoyed it and I did a really,
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  you know, I but after there was a time I gave up in the st.
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  Patrick's Day in there was a time when the 23rd of October
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  they're here, I was pissed off where to being an argument she
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  pissed off. And I went up and I was it, I
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  shouldn't have thought. I just went up to play pokies,
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  but I went to the bar and get up a bit.
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  I had half of half a thing and drinking for the Family Guy saw
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  through my stuff. Our economy, you guys are
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  without all that quality and I shouldn't have, you know, but I
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  actually other way home are. I rang up.
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  Will someone from the fellowship?
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  And he actually sent to me, it's about here, already decided to
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  take that drink. What you decided to walk up the
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  pup. I still have a drink.
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  So Ron. Do you guys meet real nothing?
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  Get back and Irish. Went back to meetings.
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  Are never stop dying. But the problem was I wasn't
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  wasting, it wasn't doing the program's.
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  I wasn't calling people when I had issues.
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  So then since fact I would say it's big, nothing fat.
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  It's still, I'm still able to sponsor a little, a say, well,
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  if he could be that, that's an office program.
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  You've got to be honest to yourself.
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  He had a coach and want to be honest.
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  It's so I start my separate that from that time, but from there,
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  I are basically, I suppose fast whole life, you about eight
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  months later, I started talking over the keys to a finish open
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  was going to be Three for six months and that indeed the two
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  years. But to be honest, I actually
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  liked. I had to go to the original
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  style else and I would go out the front a night.
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  So that that waiting and they call you out and I got you
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  speaking, the new people and give me phone numbers.
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  And after that about seven years ago, I gave up another job I
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  finish for the relationship but still on very good terms with
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  her and it's about this with. And I don't give this a Boss to
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  everyone, but starting at a job that new relationship where
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  people can look at. It was an alcoholic is my my
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  personal thing, but job they're off.
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  Got I'm actually going to really good position there and the
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  people I work for it was funny after one year with four
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  functional Jenna was to do what you want to drink.
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  I will show him at the bar, I guess I can let go of helped our
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  business to know. We love you.
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  That's if you guys want a beer, that's another one of me.
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  It's one of wine us. And I want one either, guess
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  what? If the you want so don't drink
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  and he goes like your sauce and a good one after all, he is your
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  from the Cartwright. So why not just that drink?
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  Oh, and he said, he was walking his clock I've had for he's he's
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  he did, you know? It doesn't drink.
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  Cheers? Yeah, it's coming.
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  She has she is what do you use? It woke entitlement you are the
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  they wouldn't be without mean old and be without them but you
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  know since then it's actually a little time people respect. we
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  entrust here, you know, I've got a good outlet and I do, you
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  know, I tried I tuned for the 12-step to know what a life
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  that's a stage of up to now that skeleton, nine years and it's
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  not the time that's been offered up that matters, but it's the
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  security of my life is I noticed after about two years, I was
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  walking the dive of given up on was walking that dog and I will
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  listen. All you going to be happy with
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  it yourself and ended up in the drink to be happy but and I
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  think those people would just let me go.
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  Does that always has but I was watching the dog that I could,
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  he, you know, I just actually something.
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  Can I usually, where I felt I remember very clearly.
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  I felt really good and very, very happy.
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  Not pissed off that I had given up alcohol and yeah, I think it
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  was, you know, it was, happy cleaned up my house, cleaned up
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  a life of the Serbian. Exercising and walking that dog
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  doing meetings under felt just together instead of arguing and
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  it having a head that was Final Table.
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  But yeah, I've I didn't go to Leading for a while because it
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  was guy that, you know, I felt was not doing the right thing
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  being in the film worship from time at we had an argument and I
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  said, well, they're going with it, you know, you looking after
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  it his drinking and he has, that's like business and I just
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  got let that get in the way of things.
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  So I didn't go to meetings for a while for a previous year and in
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  it. Oh, that was very close to me.
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  That was there. Very first came in a guy
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  actually said rang me up at work one day and see you live such
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  and such. So do you guys always passed the
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  word new Rodney's contact the coal, a body L of all the people
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  we know sir, Australia, I was but I think the coal I thought
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  shit. So I rang up.
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  Someone else's all worked out of play.
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  Hello, you know that he was actually passed away after
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  another dear old friend of mine. I'll Scottish by it was.
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  Yeah, but see was everyone loves it?
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  With over half a lopsided, so don't be a pain Fest you let.
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  He's only a little bit of tough love, but he was also, obviously
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  a very caring man, as well. I found out that he'd passed
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  away and wanted pissed because my eye families and also.
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  So I'm going back to meetings again and there's people, you
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  know, that can say why, you know, what can you have gained
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  from not drinking and Speeding ahead out of the turmoil.
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  Me off doing real work, very hard but I've got a lot of years
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  to make up and off, you know, I'll feel quite a few toys.
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  Now, things are still lots to say about perfect.
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  I've got a relationship with someone up being overseas, if
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  you thoughts and it's coming here.
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  The end of the year so I can actually handle everything, a
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  relationship, we are back after that through the pain of being
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  all the time I can you talk to people.
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  Now a very Very grateful recovered economic or
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  recovering. As I say they recovered.
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  Very interesting. Leah friend of mine.
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  Said today, I see all of the applications.
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  Number 5 coach. So we do see those, I said about
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  business. She said the funny guy from IA
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  and you you're going to be thinking she is.
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  What's thought today? She is.
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  He goes on, at coholic to me what she uses.
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  Very good, you know, it's good that you've recovered and I
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  said, might agree with this far away from trenches.
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  You don't want to drink. I said oh I plan to she's of all
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  hate fake full-time. He wouldn't drink.
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  I'm actually disgusting meeting this morning.
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  There was a guy that used to set up the back of a meeting.
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  At he was east of open up the doors and get the food out.
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  I said of albany's shit said that out I guess.
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  I hopefully called off sharing and things every week and he do
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  one other meeting as well. And he hadn't had a drink for
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  about 18 months. And he's a size arrows, it gives
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  me. And I don't want to share,
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  because I'm really cool because all the fine, I'm good.
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  And two weeks after that went out and bought two bottles of
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  scotch, drinking with one hand, they found in back slowly.
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  Yes anyway you're not ever away from it.
• 25:54
  What's also want to sitting opposite each other table and he
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  put up a salt pepper shaker. I went to Bourbon it.
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  See that far away from a trip. So it is cunning baffling and
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  powerful and it's only since of yes started that I found this
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  Aaron Hall meetings. Now, it's to remind myself for
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  what I can't be and this shit for when I can get back into, if
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  I don't keep white and I sobriety real because it's given
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  me a lot, but it'll get back and if there's anyone that's
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  listening, that's thinking. Well, you know why, life might
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  be fun if I could go out drinking while of even though
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  that crime? Few cars, a type 2 shows people
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  guy all the guys about five of my friends at the workshops are
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  guiding. Hey, I've got to get something
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  not only for crack and I accept, you know, I don't like sour.
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  What what? How can you not bring us on my,
• 26:48
  what are we fighting? We get on great.
• 26:51
  I said Mike would be finding up aren't you eating?
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  You would suck because I find some reason I be angry and they
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  go Oh look The you don't drink. That's about it so much fun
• 26:59
  laughs. Oh Plus you know, I don't want
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  to give it ten year anniversary up or anything I just you know
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  one day at a time this I actually still get up every
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  morning. I look at myself and there we
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  write every single day like share this lunch but also you're
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  not drinking today. Is this what you've got?
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  And I'm just happy, I'm very content and even though the
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  fellowship they arrived they wanted very even.
• 27:27
  I've worked out that. I don't know Paul.
• 27:29
  I don't know, lovely. But I've got some really good
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  friends off at always cold.