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ROR 188: A Weekend With My Wife · Red Onion Randy - Life in a Supermax Prison

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  Speaker 1: Hello, this is a prebate call from and if the
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  Speaker 1: present Department of Correction read an in state prison to
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  Speaker 1: accept this, all press zero. This is Randall bab Aka
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  Speaker 1: read on you, Randy. I'm currently serving one thousand, two
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  Speaker 1: hundred and fourteen years for capital murder and on robbery
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  Speaker 1: now and finally at a level three fucking air correctional center.
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  Speaker 1: Let's get started with the podcast, ain't everybody. Uh it's
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  Speaker 1: written on your Randy again. I think by now you
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  Speaker 1: probably figure that one out. But uh yeah, this episode,
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna talk about me and my wife she uh,
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  Speaker 1: and a little bit about listening but kind of going
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  Speaker 1: on with me too. It's it's gonna be might be
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  Speaker 1: a little all over the place, but I'll try to
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  Speaker 1: kind of keep it ranging around a little bit. But Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: my wife. She flew over from England again to visit
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  Speaker 1: me this weekend, and uh, damn I needed it. I
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  Speaker 1: really needed it. Uh, I'm kind of I've been going
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  Speaker 1: through it like two weeks ago, like I really really
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  Speaker 1: went through it. Like it was I was. I was
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  Speaker 1: in a freaking spiritual, mentally emotional battle for hell. I
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  Speaker 1: had just gotten tired of everything. It just seemed like
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  Speaker 1: literally everything in my life, and you know, it's being
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  Speaker 1: stripped for her. You know, for some reason, things were
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  Speaker 1: just so much harder to deal with everything. It just,
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  Speaker 1: you know, it just seemed like the enemy you saytan whatever,
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  Speaker 1: I don't really give it what name you put on it.
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  Speaker 1: It's just everything negative was happening, you know. And my wife,
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  Speaker 1: she she seen that we have that kind of relationship.
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  Speaker 1: When I heard she hurts, she hurts, I hurt, so
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  Speaker 1: she uh she basically uh cleared up as much stuff
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  Speaker 1: as she could. She worked up puniful you over time.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, my wife has really been lusting her ass lately.
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  Speaker 1: Like I am so proud of her, but a little
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  Speaker 1: bit concerned. You know, she needs to start taking more
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  Speaker 1: time off. But since September the first, she had four
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  Speaker 1: days off of work since September the one of twenty
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  Speaker 1: twenty four. It is now Sunday, February the twenty second,
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  Speaker 1: and one of those days off was Christmas, literally four
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  Speaker 1: days in that span of time, and she knew I
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  Speaker 1: was going through something. She knew that I was dealing
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  Speaker 1: with double because I'm oping with my wife and I
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  Speaker 1: talked to my wife. So yeah, she she cleared her schedule.
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  Speaker 1: She you know, let the people know that she works
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  Speaker 1: with luck. You know, on this weekend, I'm going to
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  Speaker 1: see Randy. That's all there is. I'm going to see Randy.
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  Speaker 1: You know. One of them was perfectly fine with it.
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  Speaker 1: The other one, Yeah, she wasn't too happy about it,
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  Speaker 1: But you know, what is she going to do? Tell
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  Speaker 1: her best worker? No? So yeah, Nick went, she bought
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  Speaker 1: plane tickets. She you know, we worked it out with
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  Speaker 1: David and Sarah again from Sale in Virginia. They you know,
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  Speaker 1: they both stepped up. Yeah, thank god for them to think.
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  Speaker 1: They've been such a blessing to me. You know, they've
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  Speaker 1: they've come visited me several times, you know, on their own,
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  Speaker 1: They've you know, they've done some really cool stuff. It's
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  Speaker 1: been good having in my my life, you know, having
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  Speaker 1: in in my life. It's definitely been a blessing for me,
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  Speaker 1: and my wife would call Sarah. You know, I'll talk
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  Speaker 1: more about my wife coming over, but just real quick,
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  Speaker 1: let me give it into a shout out, because they've
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  Speaker 1: they've earned it. I mean, they above and beyond earned it.
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  Speaker 1: Sarah literally took off work. He took one of her
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  Speaker 1: sick days or whatever it is. Then she drove up
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  Speaker 1: here Friday morning. You know, they stayed at the Hampton
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  Speaker 1: End there on a Liberty Road or something like that,
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  Speaker 1: right there off at Interstate twenty nine, vicked her up,
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  Speaker 1: drove her up here, dropped her off. But I mean
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  Speaker 1: this lady literally, I mean she she stayed in the
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  Speaker 1: hotel Friday night and Saturday night. I mean she drove
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  Speaker 1: my wife up here and then literally just went to
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  Speaker 1: a park up the road and just parked and just
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  Speaker 1: you know, walked around, played on her iPad, did a
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  Speaker 1: little bit of work. I don't know what all she
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  Speaker 1: was doing. You know, I haven't had a chance to
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  Speaker 1: speak to him yet. I was a plan on calling
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  Speaker 1: them sometime later the night, you know, just letting her
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  Speaker 1: know how grateful I am. Obviously, her husband, you know,
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  Speaker 1: was like he was cool with, you know, his wife
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  Speaker 1: going out of town for a couple of days just
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  Speaker 1: simply to help us out. Like you know, he's back
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  Speaker 1: there watching it catch and all that stuff. But you know,
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  Speaker 1: and then you know, she drove her up here Saturday,
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  Speaker 1: and they got a new policy, the new director, I guess,
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  Speaker 1: in response to all of the bills that have been
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  Speaker 1: presented in you know, front of both houses for this
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  Speaker 1: executive session here in Virginia dealing with a lot of
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  Speaker 1: the visitation problems, you know, because they've been turning people away.
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  Speaker 1: I mean they've been turning people. They literally have won.
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  Speaker 1: This woman is like eighty some years old, was in
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  Speaker 1: her church clothes. She came from church, left church, drove
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  Speaker 1: here to visit. Her son got up front, and the
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  Speaker 1: lady said, no, your blouse is too revealing. You might
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  Speaker 1: lean over and he might see the your breast. You
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  Speaker 1: gotta go. You need to leave. This woman had to leave,
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  Speaker 1: drive to a store an hour away, buy new clothes,
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  Speaker 1: come back. They finally let her into the visit and
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  Speaker 1: she got about forty five minutes to spend with her son.
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  Speaker 1: She come to see her son, it's his mother. He's
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  Speaker 1: not going to be looking at her breast, even if
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  Speaker 1: she does happen to lean over a cad bit immediately.
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  Speaker 1: This is this we deal with here people. And if
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  Speaker 1: you think I'm lying, google this, go online and search
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  Speaker 1: for you will see what I'm talking about. You will
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  Speaker 1: see all of the bills that have been presented in
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  Speaker 1: the Virginia Legislator session this year twenty twenty six. Anyway, sorry,
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  Speaker 1: I'm starting to run a little bit, but that just
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  Speaker 1: gives money, dope, man. You know, people spend all that
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  Speaker 1: money to come up here to see their loveless and
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  Speaker 1: it has been proven, it has been scientifically and socially proven.
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  Speaker 1: They've actually done some studies on this. Is that a
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  Speaker 1: person who gets an inmate in prison, who gets regular
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  Speaker 1: visitation from people, those are the ones who are more
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  Speaker 1: than likely nine times out of ten to go to school,
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  Speaker 1: get a ged, get further education, to get trades, to
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  Speaker 1: do programs, to stop catching charges, and actually rehabilitate themselves,
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  Speaker 1: go home and not come back in prison. And you
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  Speaker 1: put some nasty ass oath in a woman who's miserable
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  Speaker 1: and hates her life up front to run visitors away
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  Speaker 1: to screw up our rehabilitation. So yeah, I'm actually upset
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  Speaker 1: about that, you know, and the fact that my wife
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  Speaker 1: spends well over one thousand dollars well over I'm not
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  Speaker 1: sure the exact amount, because honestly, I didn't have the
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  Speaker 1: heart to ask my wife how much everything cost her,
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  Speaker 1: you know, the cabs, the ubers, the hotel rooms, the food,
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  Speaker 1: the the plane tickets to all the other stuff, you know,
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  Speaker 1: buying data from Wilfi for her phone so we can
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  Speaker 1: talk while she's over here, you know, beyond just a
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  Speaker 1: little visit and stuff, you know, paying for video visits still, like, genuinely,
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  Speaker 1: I don't even want to know, because that's going to
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  Speaker 1: hurt you right there. And then this lady has the
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  Speaker 1: audacity to tell her, oh, well you already seen him once.
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  Speaker 1: You don't need to see him again. But anyway, so yeah,
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  Speaker 1: David Sarah, God bless you, God bless you. I genuinely
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  Speaker 1: you appreciate what you two have done to help me
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  Speaker 1: and my wife, you know. So you know my wife
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  Speaker 1: she oh man, she well, hell, she almost didn't even
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  Speaker 1: get over here, like she So I'm not exactly sure
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  Speaker 1: how this stuff grows. I'm not even she said something
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  Speaker 1: word like esther or something. So my wife has two passports.
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  Speaker 1: She's got the old passport under her maiden name with
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  Speaker 1: the visa in it, and then she's got the new
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  Speaker 1: passport with my last name. And but she hadn't she
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  Speaker 1: never she was working so much, she could never find
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  Speaker 1: a time to go get the passport put in the
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  Speaker 1: new one. So when she she she calls to people
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  Speaker 1: and they tell her, oh, this shouldn't be a problem whatsoever.
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  Speaker 1: You know, this happens quite regularly, so you know, the
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  Speaker 1: customs officials they know about this, so you don't really
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  Speaker 1: have to worry about it. She's like, okay, thanks, you know.
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  Speaker 1: So she buys the plane ticket, she goes to Salandon
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  Speaker 1: and she gets the hotel room, and you know, she
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  Speaker 1: toes to check into her flight, which I guess she's
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  Speaker 1: something you're supposed to do the day before, whatever the
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  Speaker 1: case may be. And he throw is telling her that
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  Speaker 1: you don't have a flight, younfish, what the like? I'm
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  Speaker 1: paid for I've got the receipt, I've got everything, you know.
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  Speaker 1: So I call her, you know, at my normal time,
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  Speaker 1: you know that I call and she she's she's panicking
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  Speaker 1: and freaking, and you know, she you know, she explained
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  Speaker 1: it to me the best of, you know, to the
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  Speaker 1: best of her ability to do so. Again, I've never flown,
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  Speaker 1: I've never been in the airport. I don't know how
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  Speaker 1: this stuff works. And so I'm like, all right, mane,
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  Speaker 1: just calm down, just breathe, mabe. It's going to be fine.
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  Speaker 1: It's going to be like what, dade, I I want
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  Speaker 1: to see you. I want to see me. I know, heye,
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  Speaker 1: I want to see you. Two. Just hold on real quick,
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  Speaker 1: just take a keep breath, you know. And I walked
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  Speaker 1: her through a couple of breathing exercises like hold up, look, honey,
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  Speaker 1: let's pray real quick. Let's just just just give this
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  Speaker 1: to God and let him deal with it and sort
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  Speaker 1: it out. For It's like okay, so you know, we
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  Speaker 1: bow our heads and closed eyes and we pray, you know,
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  Speaker 1: and you know, our worship and praise God to thank
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  Speaker 1: him that he's in charge of everything, and you know
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  Speaker 1: that he can sort this out, and you know, he's
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  Speaker 1: got angels located everywhere, like, you know, just divert one
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  Speaker 1: on real quick and just give him do a little
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  Speaker 1: side job for me. And so she paid for the esther.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not even sure if I'm pronouncing that right. Uh,
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  Speaker 1: she did the little built out the forms and whatnot.
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  Speaker 1: She called her friend Steph. Steph helped him because Steph goes.
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  Speaker 1: Steph travels eight nine times a year. Like that woman is. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: she's been all over the game world, you know, so
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  Speaker 1: she's quite familiar with it and everything. And uh so
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  Speaker 1: they finally get that sorted out. So I'd given her
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  Speaker 1: an hour and I called back and you know, she, oh,
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  Speaker 1: my god, babe, I'm coming to see you know, She's
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  Speaker 1: all excited in her little squeaky, high pished English voice,
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  Speaker 1: and uh, I'm like, see, babe, you know God works,
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  Speaker 1: he still loves me. And you know we talked and
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  Speaker 1: you know, we're excited and everything, and there was still
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  Speaker 1: a few little pearls like you know, she wasn't sure,
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  Speaker 1: like you know, yeah, she got she was getting on
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  Speaker 1: the plane in London. But you know, once she gets
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  Speaker 1: to Washington, d C. Is America gonna letter in the country,
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  Speaker 1: you know, with the with the situation and whatnot. But
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  Speaker 1: when she gets here, you know, God smoothed away, like
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  Speaker 1: Yad barely even looked at and he's like, oh, okay,
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  Speaker 1: that's not a problem. You know, I've seen you. You
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  Speaker 1: came here last year year. Good to go, and you know,
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  Speaker 1: she she got on end and flew to Charlettsville and
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  Speaker 1: everything on a separate flight. And yeah, she came up
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  Speaker 1: and she saw me, and you know, we had the
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  Speaker 1: whole the friday. We had it from one thirty to
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  Speaker 1: four thirty, and we had the entire visitation room to ourselves.
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  Speaker 1: And at first they had set the cheers literally right
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  Speaker 1: in front of the little uh like the little raised
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  Speaker 1: platform and you know, behind the desk where the CEO
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  Speaker 1: sits to to keep you know, an eye on everything
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  Speaker 1: and whatnot. And I was I'd asked, I'm like, you know, uh,
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  Speaker 1: Sergeant Morton was in there with them. See he's the
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  Speaker 1: one who had to you know, dress me out, you know,
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  Speaker 1: put me into visitation monkey suit and everything, and then
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  Speaker 1: you know, walk me in and whatnot. And he was
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  Speaker 1: talking to the lady and me and both me and
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  Speaker 1: my wife were so uncomfortable because they could little hear
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  Speaker 1: every word we says. We asked. The lady was like, hey,
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  Speaker 1: she don't care. We push it back some like it's
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  Speaker 1: you know, we're right on top of y'all. We're uncomfortable.
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  Speaker 1: We're hearing everything, y'all. Say, y'all hearing everything we say.
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  Speaker 1: And she was like, oh, yeah, sure go here, and
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  Speaker 1: he's not a problem with sor if we moved. We
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  Speaker 1: only moved it back about like eight feet. She's like, oh,
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  Speaker 1: y'all can move it all the way to the back
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  Speaker 1: if you want. Don't worry about that. And uh so, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: we picked everything up and we carried it all the
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  Speaker 1: way to the back and you know, right in front
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  Speaker 1: of the the vending machines that were not allowed to use.
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  Speaker 1: It's just still a pain in ass. But we sat
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  Speaker 1: there and you know, we we talked, We looked in
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  Speaker 1: each other's eyes, and you know, we just we prayed together,
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  Speaker 1: you know, we we just we thank God for the blessings,
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  Speaker 1: you know, for each other's love, bringing her into my
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  Speaker 1: life and me into hers. And yeah, it was it
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  Speaker 1: was a really beautiful moment for me. You know, I
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  Speaker 1: like praying. I like praying, and I'm actually pretty good
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  Speaker 1: at praying. Crazy as it sounds. Well, you know, again,
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  Speaker 1: I've gotta get a lot of damn practice in here.
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  Speaker 1: Well that second the second day though, Saturday, when she
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  Speaker 1: come in, she was only scheduled for two hours. But
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  Speaker 1: they got a new policy now that if you show
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  Speaker 1: up and you come in uh anytime before, if you
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  Speaker 1: schedule the two thirty to four thirty timeslot, you're not
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  Speaker 1: going to get extra hours because visitation shuts down at
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  Speaker 1: four thirty, no matter what. That's just that's just policy
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  Speaker 1: and that ain't changing none. Uh. But if you get
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  Speaker 1: if you get the was it eight thirty to ten thirty,
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  Speaker 1: ten thirty to twelve thirty or twelve thirty to two
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  Speaker 1: thirty slot, when you get there and you walk, you
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  Speaker 1: walk up to the ladies, you got to get like
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  Speaker 1: your ID and you got to let them know your
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  Speaker 1: name and everything so they can record it in the log.
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  Speaker 1: And you just ask them, hey, look, if you have
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  Speaker 1: an open spot in the next visitation, can you can
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  Speaker 1: we get in an extra two hours? And that's the
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  Speaker 1: new policy now. So thank you Director Walters for that.
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  Speaker 1: We appreciate it because me and my wife got those
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  Speaker 1: extra two hours and it was it was phenomenal. Just
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  Speaker 1: go for a walk and hold her hand. You have
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  Speaker 1: no idea to deal with God I would be willing
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  Speaker 1: to make you have no idea that I would be
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  Speaker 1: willing to suffer just to be able to hold her
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  Speaker 1: hand and walk in a park, or just you know,
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  Speaker 1: walk the dog for thirty minutes. Hey, I sincerely all
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  Speaker 1: you people on the street who listen to me. You
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  Speaker 1: have a girlfriend, you have a boyfriend, or a hub,
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  Speaker 1: it's been a wife, whatever the case may be. I
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  Speaker 1: don't particularly care. If you're in a romantic relationship with someone, well,
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  Speaker 1: focus less on the sex. You know, there's so much
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  Speaker 1: more into a relationship than a piece of ass. Stop
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  Speaker 1: taking the person you love for granted. Start focusing on
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  Speaker 1: the little things like holding their hands, you know, huddling
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  Speaker 1: a little bit, halky, communicating, actually being present, set the
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  Speaker 1: phone down, turn the TV off, like, go do something together.
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  Speaker 1: Like do you have no idea what you're missing, because
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  Speaker 1: let me tell you something. Yet your first six months
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  Speaker 1: of being incarcerated, of being behind bars, yet you missing
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  Speaker 1: that ass. You're missing the sex. After that six months,
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  Speaker 1: when you start getting years into prison bed, that's when
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  Speaker 1: you start missing the little things, as when you start
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  Speaker 1: missing your woman. You're sitting on a couch, you come
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  Speaker 1: home from work, whatever. She just bring you a sandwich
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  Speaker 1: and a drink. You know, she just comes. She just
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  Speaker 1: sits down beside you. You're you're doing something, and she
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  Speaker 1: curls her feet up on a couch and she's just
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  Speaker 1: sitting there looking at you, like you are the best
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  Speaker 1: looking man in the world. You know, you're the greatest
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  Speaker 1: man in the world. Like to have a woman look
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  Speaker 1: at you will love people mass. Stop stop throwing that
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  Speaker 1: a way they Stop playing so many video games, Stop
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  Speaker 1: watching so much TikTok. Spend time with your loved one, like,
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  Speaker 1: really truly genuinely get to know them. Because that four
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  Speaker 1: hours on Saturday changed me. It made me better. It
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  Speaker 1: made me want to fight harder, to do more, to
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  Speaker 1: grow more, to be a better man, you know, to
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  Speaker 1: let more stuff go to You know, I started this
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  Speaker 1: episode off talking about how frustrated I was. I was
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  Speaker 1: so mad. I was so frustrated. I was so at
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  Speaker 1: the end of my rope because it seemed like everything
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  Speaker 1: was just negative, everything was going wrong, you know. I
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  Speaker 1: like I got so mad at God. I just told him, look, man,
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  Speaker 1: you know what, just you brouh, Just thank you God,
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  Speaker 1: like shut the up and get out of my life
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  Speaker 1: right now, because man, just cute. Like I'm doing everything
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  Speaker 1: I'm supposed to be doing. Like I'm getting up in
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  Speaker 1: the morning praying for an hour or more. Like I'm
• 19:43
  Speaker 1: doing my Bible study. Like I just wrote a Bible
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  Speaker 1: study on the fear of God that literally turned into
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  Speaker 1: a four hundred and twenty three page book, you know,
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  Speaker 1: And like I'm losing hours of sleep because I'm getting
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  Speaker 1: up at for something in the morning and I can
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  Speaker 1: only I don't fall asleep until around nine thirty ten o'clock,
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  Speaker 1: you know, because I have to stay awake for count
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  Speaker 1: Like I have no choice. You know, if I go
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  Speaker 1: to sleep before countsime when they come and knock wear
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  Speaker 1: a donor waiting me up to see if I'm alive,
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  Speaker 1: you know, I've already been asleep for an hour or
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  Speaker 1: two hours. I'm not falling back to sleep until through
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  Speaker 1: something in the morning, you know. So my my whole
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  Speaker 1: night is are screwed if I do that, those four
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  Speaker 1: hours with my wife, those seven hours. But you know
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  Speaker 1: that especially that last four hours is being able to
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  Speaker 1: sit there and just touch R just have that connection.
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  Speaker 1: Yet technically speaking, I was supposed to do all that.
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  Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, you know what
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  Speaker 1: I'm saying, it is what it is. I'll pay that
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  Speaker 1: price because to me, it was worth it, and God
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  Speaker 1: knew I needed it. That's the thing. About God. If
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  Speaker 1: you cuss him out, he ain't that stress. Trust me,
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  Speaker 1: He's been cussed out by a lot bigger and better
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  Speaker 1: than me. My wife made a huge sacrifice to come
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  Speaker 1: see me because she knew I was hurting. She knew
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  Speaker 1: I was struggling, she knew how, she knew the frustration,
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  Speaker 1: she knew that I was at the end of my rope.
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  Speaker 1: Her seeing me has given me strength to keep fighting.
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  Speaker 1: It's it's relieved the pressure that I was under, you know.
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  Speaker 1: And yeah, I went and I apologized and I asked
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  Speaker 1: God to forgive me. And I did that before my
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  Speaker 1: wife came over. By the way, I was just you know,
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  Speaker 1: I was just you know, a Saturday and a Sunday,
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  Speaker 1: and I kind of went through, you know, me pissed
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  Speaker 1: off at him and what not, and you know, and
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  Speaker 1: I was dead wrong for that. I was absolutely wrong
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  Speaker 1: for that. I took my frustrations and my emotions out
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  Speaker 1: on him, you know. But in my defense, man, I
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  Speaker 1: think a lot of people would actually killed themselves if
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  Speaker 1: they would have felt the way I felt, you know,
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  Speaker 1: if they had been going through what I would have
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  Speaker 1: been going through. Because I mean, it just it over
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  Speaker 1: wealthed me and I'm not a weak man spiritually, mentally, emotionally,
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  Speaker 1: or physically. I am not a weak man by no
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  Speaker 1: stretch of the imagination. So don't take your relationship for granted.
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  Speaker 1: Because my wife coming to see me, my wife making
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  Speaker 1: that sacrifice helped me. It got me back on my path.
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  Speaker 1: It strengthened me, it bolstered me, it edified me, it
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  Speaker 1: lifted me up. And that's what relationships do. That's what
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  Speaker 1: they're there for. That's why God gave them to us
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  Speaker 1: in the first place. So don't take them for granted.
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  Speaker 1: You got people that love you, that you know they
• 22:39
  Speaker 1: love you. You got people that you love that made
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  Speaker 1: time for them. Look the little the casual friendships and whatnot.
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  Speaker 1: Look man, y'all want to meet full beer here there whatever,
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  Speaker 1: that's fine. If you can't make it, you can't make it.
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  Speaker 1: It's no big deal. But if you got someone that
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  Speaker 1: loves you, when you love that's someone you're willing to
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  Speaker 1: fly across the country for to see the hell, to
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  Speaker 1: fly across the world, to fly across the ocean just
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  Speaker 1: to spend seven hours with them in person. If you
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  Speaker 1: cultivate that relationship, you make that relationship the most important
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  Speaker 1: thing in your life. Look, my wife is amazing. I mean,
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  Speaker 1: we talked about the future. I filed for a pardoner,
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  Speaker 1: you know, and I'm praying to Governor Stamberger not only
• 23:36
  Speaker 1: answers it in the positive way, she does it this year,
• 23:39
  Speaker 1: if possible, you know, I'll leave that in God's And
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: we talked about our future. We talked about raising children.
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  Speaker 1: We talked about me coming to England. We talked about
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: how to go about doing you know, the things that
• 23:51
  Speaker 1: I need to do. We talked about, you know, me
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  Speaker 1: living on the street, you know, the struggles, the stuff
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  Speaker 1: I'm going to face, the things I'm going to have
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  Speaker 1: to be with. We talked about you know, financials, and
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: we talked about so much her, you know, because it's
• 24:09
  Speaker 1: going to take me a while to get a passport
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  Speaker 1: and get a visa probably you know, I'm not sure,
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  Speaker 1: you know, how the probation situation is going to work
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  Speaker 1: if I get you know, she does grant my part
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  Speaker 1: of this year or whatever the case may be. You know,
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  Speaker 1: that's yeah, I'm just focusing on the positive. And you know,
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  Speaker 1: I'm believing that it's going to happen, and it's going
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  Speaker 1: to happen this year. So we we discussed all that,
• 24:31
  Speaker 1: you know, we we we talked about our childhoods. We
• 24:34
  Speaker 1: we opened up a little bit more. We we you know,
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  Speaker 1: it was just we connected, you know, we touched one another,
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  Speaker 1: like man, I got to hold my wife, y'all. I
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: have no idea that literally, if Spamburger came right now
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  Speaker 1: and said, I will, I will, I will fly your
• 25:00
  Speaker 1: wife over here to spend one whole day with you.
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  Speaker 1: But after that twenty four hours, you got it. We're
• 25:07
  Speaker 1: going to strap you to a poll and with you
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  Speaker 1: with a kind of nine tailed you know, forty stripes
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  Speaker 1: minus one. I think that was what they used to
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  Speaker 1: do back in the day. If I remember my history correctly,
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  Speaker 1: I would take it in a heartbeat. I wouldn't hesitate,
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  Speaker 1: and I would walk up to that post and I
• 25:27
  Speaker 1: would take it like a fifty champ. All right, that's
• 25:32
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• 25:35
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