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__BONUS EPISODE___DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ HOST TRIVEDA HARRIS · DA CREW Podcast

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course seen Queen Home. It was the sweet, sweet sweet name. No,
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it wasn't the sweet, sweet, sweet sweet. No good evening and
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welcome to Believe in the Learning Podcasts where I'm your host, Trevita Harris.
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Believing the Journey is basically a podcast where we discover the journey that we are
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on and understand that it has a purpose for our lives. Tonight's show is
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a bonus episode where we will be honoring those who are dealing with breast cancer
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and honor our Breast and Care Breast Cancer Awareness Month and those who have basically
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won the battle. Cancer did not defeat them. And I have a guest
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tonight who is who is my sister in law. I don't know how she
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deals with my brother too much, but that's a whole nother show for a
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whole nother day. But as always, we cannot start this show without going
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to God first. So buy your hands with me and let's go to God
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in prayer. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for bringing us together as you
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do each and every time that we are in your space. So help us
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to bring forth the words that are necessary to help those who are dealing with
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the battle of cancer, and let them know that they are not alone.
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They are able to fight this battle because you have the final say. You
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guide their steps, you order their words, and they will not be defeated
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because you will guide them through each and every step of the way so that
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they will come out on top, just as my sister in law did.
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Thank you for all that you do, all that you continue to do for
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us. In your purcas and holy name Jesus, we pray Amen. And
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now I'm going to bring up my guest, Ms. Leakejah. Maybry come
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always talk about how you conquered cancer. Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, thank
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you, thank you are welcome. Now, as we were talking before the
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show, having breast cancer and having any type of health issue is not something
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that most people like to talk about if you're not the immediate family. So
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I want to thank you for being open enough to share your journey with this.
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I can't really say it's, in my opinion it's a man made disease,
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because God always has the power to oversee each and every one of these
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things that we go through. But you were able to conquer this. I
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want to start by asking you the question of were you used to doing monthly
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checks on your breast? Were you able to do that? Like I know,
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I can't honestly say that I don't keep up with doing that, But
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were you doing that? And is that how you decided to go to the
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doctor. I wasn't. However, I was going and having my yearly check
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ups with my obg y N and this particular time, well, and he
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he did. He does regular checks every day, and I had been going.
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I've actually been with the same doctor for probably twenty years or more,
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okay, and so those that's just one of the things that he regularly checks
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every year, and this particular time he felt something and he was like,
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have you scheduled your mammogram because I had I was forty two, okay,
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so I had had two prior to and I said, well, yes,
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it's scheduled, and he says, okay, well be sure that they checked
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this area. Okay, So my ob, my ob actually found it.
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Okay, Okay. When you went, did they schedule just a regular ultrasound
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or did they do just the mammogram or did they do both? Well,
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when I went, it was just a regular mammogram, and they had started
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to where they review before you leave or whatever to look at it, and
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so they did that and then they had a spot. Well, when the
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lady looked at the pictures and stuff, she was really just like, I
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don't like the way that looks. Let me check this out. You want
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to come back for a biopsy? And I'm like, no, ma'am,
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I'm here now. So they put me in a slot that was like I
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had to wait maybe twenty minutes, and they put me in the next available
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slot. She did the biopsy on that Wednesday, and I got the results
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on that Friday. Oh wow, that was really quick. That's very quick.
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Yes, Now, when you had the biopsy, were you nervous about
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having it and was it painful for you? I was nervous, and I
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think what really made me nervous was how she kept looking and feeling and touching,
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and she just kept saying, I really don't like the way that looks.
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So that's when I got nervous because I had been prior to. Maybe
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I was forty one. When I was, I don't even remember. I
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could gone prior to, and it was my first time because my first one
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was at forty and of course everybody had told me then, well, you
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know, they don't have anything to compare it to, so you'll proper,
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you'll get a call back, and I did, so I was like,
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okay, here we go. So I went back at forty and then they
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checked me I think three months and then six months later because I did have
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to go back. Everything was fine. So I go back forty one,
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they see nothing, everything is clear. Forty two, I come back and
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it is the exact same area as when I was forty and I'm like,
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okay, wait a minute, so where did it go? And that one
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year between came back, So for me, I said, you know,
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that was that one year in between I was saying, no, she not
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ready for this, right, I mean, that's really what I feel like,
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That's really what it was. It was like, nah, she not
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ready for this. You know, you had to go through some other little
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stuff, and then forty two it was like, yep, here I am.
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And that was a really life changing experience. I thought at the time
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I had a relationship with God, but it just like went to a whole
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different level, right, But of course that was after the crying and you
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know, the whole trying to bargain with God and Ques and you're like,
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God, okay, look here, I didn't this wasn't on the list that
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I had this there, this in here, because it wasn't there. I
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didn't see it, Like I didn't sign up for that part what we're supposed
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to be going with this. So I think that when you have a health
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scare, you begin to talk to God in a way that you never imagine,
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and that relationship begins to blossom and you have that conversation like oh my
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God, it's like God, look here me and you we on speed down
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now and you throughout my day. Somebody don't got on my nerves. God
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look at your child. So I feel like that is one of the times
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that you know that God has your back like no other and have the support
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system close by. But it's nothing like having God to know that He's got
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you and no other capacity, that he will not let you falter. He
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will not you can. He'll give you your little time for your little pity
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party, yes that time, but he gonna tap you on the shoulder be
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like, hey, you done, because ye wrap this up, because you've
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got mother thanks to do. This was just a test for your testimony,
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so come on, we got stuff to do. Exactly The next question I
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got to ask you, do you feel like you had a very solid support
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system around you like none other? And I believe that because when my brother
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told me about the diagnosis and everything, even though he'll never probably admit it,
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he was terrified himself. But he will never ever admit at all because
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it's just who he is. He's just not gonna do it. But I
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feel like the support that he gave you and the other people that were with
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him with you helped to strengthen your fight to win, you know, because
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if you don't have that support system that's helping you, and that's going to
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God on your behalf. It's like you fighting a losing battle because you don't
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have enough prayer warriors. That's fighting on your behalf. But when you got
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him, it's already defeated. There's nothing else. It ain't even gonna be
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a test because you coming out on the other side. So I feel like
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that's that's a major major thing, is having that support system. Yes,
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yes, what do you think was your greatest challenge dealing with the actual process.
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I would probably have to say at that time when I got diagnosed,
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I was starting a new job. Oh, so of course I didn't have
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time. I couldn't not work. I worked throughout the whole process. So
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I think the greatest challenge was really just pushing through because there were times I
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wanted to just say I don't want to do anything now. There were times
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when I couldn't. I slept right, there were there was also times when
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I didn't want to, but I know that I knew that I had to
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right, I had to keep going. I had to drive. You know,
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we live. I worked in Charlotte, so you know from us that
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was about a forty five minute drive, so and this was pre COVID.
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Yeah, so I had to. I was there five days a week.
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I had to schedule my treatments and things around working, but I had to
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work. So I would think that that was probably the hardest part, just
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pushing through. Yeah, I would definitely say so, because you don't realize
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how much your body is going through at that time. And now, I'm
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sure that when you look back over it, you don't know how you did
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it. I do not like it's somewha a blur when you start to look
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at it and like, from where you are right now and now, I'm
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pretty sure you've probably had these conversations with yourself and be like like, God,
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look here today, I don't have it, and I'm gonna need you
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to carry me because I don't have it. I don't have the strength,
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I don't know where it's coming from. I can't put one foot in front
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of the other unless you help me to do that. So I understand that
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that had to be some of those conversations those days. And now as you
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sit and you look and you're like, yeah, that wasn't me. Yeah,
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exactly, that was not me. I did not do that because now
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something happened. I was like, you know what, I ain't going I
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ain't doing that and I'm sitting righting down that couch. I'm not doing it.
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Yes, yes, just I don't know. All I can do is
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just say thank you Lord, because that's all I got. Listen. I
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can honestly say that going through something that's help related, whether it's breast cancer,
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whether it's you know loopis or spinal bivoita, whether it is you know
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MS or anything like that, it's a challenge for a person to have to
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tell themselves to get up and to ken to continue to move forward, because
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if you don't, you will just dwarf the way because you're not motivating yourself,
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and that will to live and that will to fight it starts to dwindle
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and it will take its toll on you. And that's where that support system
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comes in, because if you don't have that support system, they like,
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Okay, look here, I know you're not feeling good, but I need
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you to do this. I need you. I need you to get up
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and go with me. You ain't got to stay that long, but you
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gotta get up and get pop from here. You need the sunlight, you
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need this, need that, and so having them say, Okay, look
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here, come on, we going to do this today. You ain't gotta
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stay too long, but you're getting out of here. You go eat it
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today, eat it out, but you gotta eat a little bit. You
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know. Having that is really important, and I think it plays just a
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really good major effort and putting forth what is necessary for people to do that.
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What advice would you give to someone that's actually in their fight with breast
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cancer right now? What advice do you have for them? Don't go through
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it along? I mean, like like you were mentioning, support is major.
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I mean, and you and it comes from anywhere that I would get
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text messages from people I hadn't heard from in a while, social media messages,
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phone calls, I get stuff in the mail. I mean, it
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was just you know, just knowing and feeling. You know that somebody else
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is in that fight with you. Do not go through it alone. And
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especially one thing, especially for black women, you don't have to be so
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tough. Yes, exactly, yes, we are we are being we are
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Black women are dying at a higher rate than our co women mainly because we
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don't get checked out. Right, That is true. And you know,
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as we were talking earlier before we came live, the statistics now is that
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people women younger than the age of forty are being diagnosed with breast cancer.
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Now, this is my opinion on that is, ever since COVID happened and
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those vaccinations and the boosters and things of that nature, I feel like whatever
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was in it created mutations for things like if that was already in your genetic
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makeup, it multiplied that a whole lot faster. Because in my family breast
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cancer is it's in my family. And as I told you when we were
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just speaking backstage, is my very first time finding a lump. I was
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twenty three. I had just had my son, and it was something I
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was doing. And when I was in my early twenties, that was one
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of the things that I did make sure that I did monthly because it was
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in my family. And plus I had just had a new baby and I
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was breastfeeding and everything, so I wanted to, you know, try to
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make sure that I did everything to make sure that he was gonna get enough
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milk. And when I found on that one, I was like, Okay,
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look here, this wasn't here last week, So what's going on?
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So I had made an appointment with my obg y N. They went in,
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they checked me, and she was like, well, you're too young
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to have a mammogram because I was only twenty three, so we're gonna send
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you for an ultrasound. They sent me for the ultrasound ultrasound and they were
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like, oh, yeah, we're gonna just go ahead and bob see this
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because you're still too young. And then when they did that, because the
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day that I went for the ultrasound, they did the bop see in this
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literally at the same time, because it was like, yeah, we're not
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even gonna wait for a mammogram because your tissues aren't really what we need to
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be looking for, but we're just gonna go ahead and do the bop see
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now while we have you here. So do you mind? Yeah, I
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don't really mind, but gonna do what you gotta do because this is not
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where I want to because honestly, and it was also in December, so
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it was like, Okay, this is not what I want going into Christmas.
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It's not you know, how I want to spend Christmas. And they
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the funny story that goes along with that. As I was telling you,
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I call my aunts, and then I called They told my mama, and
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my mama said, girl, what's going on with your booby? I need
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to come and check it out. So my mama comes to the house and
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she's like, let me see it. So I have to show her my
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booby so she can feel it herself. And she's like, girl, I
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don't know what that is. You're gonna have to let them people check that
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out. So I went and let them check it out. They did the
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bob see. But the bad part about that experience is that when I got
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my results, the doctor took me back into the treatment room where they were
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giving cancer treatments for breast cancer and everything to tell me that I was okay.
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This was two days before for Christmas, when I got my results,
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and I was livid. I was mad as all get out, and I
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told him, I said, listen, there is a better way to deliver
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news like that. I said, you do not take a person back here
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where they're receiving treatment to tell them that they're okay. I said, that
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is the worst bedside manner as a physician that you can have. I said,
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because you have just terrified me and my family. Because I was with
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my husband at the time and my mother in law, and so we are
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thinking, oh lord, this is the worst news we're about to experience.
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And so when he told me I was okay, I showed my behind.
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I ain't even gonna lie to me. I truly did. And they was
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like, come on here, let's go and take you out of here because
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you and here acting up. I'm not acting up because that was wrong.
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He didn't have to do me like that. And you know, I said,
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look, next time you have somebody, I said, you could have
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told told me in the bathroom. You could have told me in the hallway,
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you could have told me anywhere. But in here, I said,
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that is not right. I said, because I'm looking at all of these
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people, and no, not all of them looked really sick. They whatever
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stage they were in, they still looked okay. But it's the fact of
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this is what if you're I don't know, if you're trying to prepare me
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for this is what I'm going to be dealing with or whatever. But this
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was the wrong way to deliver that news. Then, like I said,
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I had that scare at twenty three. I had another scare at thirty thirty
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three, then I had another one at the age of forty. The one
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at the age of forty really terrified me because it was right No. Thirty
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eight, it was right before my fortieth birthday. I'm used to them doing
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a biopsy on the right breast, but then they called me and tell me,
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no, they need me to come in and do it on the left
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breast. And then this is what was so scary about that, because I'm
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used to them doing the ultrasound and doing all of that. First, well,
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the technician who was doing the ultrasound, her facial expression changed, and
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so when her facial expression changed, she was like, hold on one moment,
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I'm gonna go get the doctor. So it was out of the room
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and she goes and gets the doctor. Now the doctor's doing her checking and
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everything, and her facial expression changes and her body language changes. So it's
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like, okay, So I already knew that they were gonna tell me to
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come back for the biopsy. Not a problem, not an issue because I'm
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used to that part. Now I go for my biopsy and when I get
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in there, they're already scheduled my follow up appointment. They're scheduling all of
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these and I'm like, hold on, hold on, y'all haven't done the
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biopsy yet, so why do I have a follow up appointment? And this
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is not to discuss results. This for treatment, because that's what y'all are
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telling me, because what you saw in this ultrasound. So they were like,
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well, we're gonna get another ultrasound before we even start another mammogram before
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we start with is they did the three D mammogram for a little bit more
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detail. So they do that one and then she comes in and she's like,
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we're gonna go ahead and start your biopsy. The tissue that we're looking
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at it doesn't look good. And I'm like, okay, that's fine,
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I said, but I need to know what you're singing because I don't need
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you to sugar coat nothing for me. I need you to go on and
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tell me what it is. Well, I don't want to scare you.
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What too late. You already did that when I walked in here and you
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told me I got a follow up for Friday. I said, so you
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already don't scare me. I don't want to talk about your son not wanting
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to play at the house and none, I don't cannot fun none of that.
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I need to know what we were talking about with this booby over here.
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That's what we need to talk about. And so she was like,
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you are too much. I said, I ain't being too much. I
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need to know, I said, cause y'all don't schedule something. She was
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like, well, I'm gonna rush the results and we'll see you. She
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said, I'm gonna rush them today, so expect the call. That was
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on a Tuesday. She was like, so expect a call from me by
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Friday. And I was like, well, y'all already scheduled the follow up
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for Friday, so I might as well just come on in because y'all already
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don't schedule whatever it is. When I tell you I got a phone call
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on Thursday, I was terrified. My stomach, it was in my feet.
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When I got the phone. They was like, oh, no,
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everything's fine. Don't even worry about coming to the apointment on Friday every because
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you rush your results and everything is good. And I said, well,
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thank you so much. I appreciate that. And when I tell you,
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I was outside of my kids' school waiting for them to get out. I
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was I cried like a baby in the car and they get in the car.
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You know how my boys are, what's wrong with you? I'm like,
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they just called me and told me it ain't nothing wrong with my booby.
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Okay, so why you cry? I said, you know what,
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don't even don't even worry about it. I talked to God about it later.
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Y'all. Just don't get to my mom. You just so dramatic.
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I'm not dramatic. I had every right to be in my space in that
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moment, sir. But they will tell you and they will keep you in
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suspense like that, and it's heart wrenching, you know, And I didn't
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like it, but I'm grateful that nothing has happened since. Like I had
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my my mammogram done this year, and everything with that one was good as
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well. Because my my primary character provider. I swear that man is on
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me like we we together, because he will call, hey, look here,
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have you scheduled your mam gram yet? Have you skealedled Joe paps yet?
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Sir? Sir? Wait a minute, nah, I did he talking
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about? Okay? Well, I ain't see the notes in the chart.
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Hold on, let me go and look in something else and make sure that
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you actually did, because you will tell me you did and you didn't,
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sir, I won't do that. You can go headed, yes you will,
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Yes you will, and you will go do it after the fact because
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you don't want me to fuss that you right now, so you will say,
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yeah, okay, look here, you ain't gotta tell me all my
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business like that. We ain't gotta do that just because you've been knowing me
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for so long. We ain't got to do all that. But that's how
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he does. And he's like, okay, okay, I see that you
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did. Go though I don't have nothing fuss that you were about. I'm
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like, okay, I appreciate your care and your concern. I did what
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I was supposed to, sir, Thank you. But I feel like early
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detection plays a major part. Do you agree with that? Yes, yes,
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I because I was diagnosed as stage two. It was in my left
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breast, and once they got in to do the surgery, I mean I
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had a lump back to me in twenty seventeen, they did the lump back
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to me, and then when they were in there doing everything, they also
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put die in to if it, you know, if that was the only
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place and it had spread into it was spreading into twelve of my lymph nodes,
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so they had to remove those as well. So that was why I
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was diagnosed at a stage two because they were it was showing signs that it
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was very aggressive. Okay, so I do feel like had I not had
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I not detected it, or had it not been detected early on, I
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think it would have spread quickly. And I think like when they give you
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the paper, like it gives you the b rads of one, two,
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three, and four, it gives you those stages. Now, when I
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got the biopsy right before I turned forty, the papers were saying it was
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a b RADS three and I'm like, yeah, so that was the major
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concern. So that's why I feel like me and my relationship with God,
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it was like, God, look here, I don't need that on this
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plate right now. I can't answer that. I know you think I'm a
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little strong, little somebody, but sir, I ain't gonna be able to
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do that one. I'm gonna need to take that off the list for just
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a little while. I mean, if it's meant for me, that's fine,
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but right now I just don't need that on there. Okay, you
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just gonna take that out for there. And I mean, and I really
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talked to him. I know, I was getting on his nerves and he
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was trying to put me on hold a couple of times, but I just
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alt right back. I hang up because you don't put me on hole.
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I'm on the line, Jesus, I'm gonna need you to pick it up.
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Okay, I'm gonna call you right back. You're gonna put me on
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hole, I know, but I'm gonna call you back, okay. So
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that's what we was doing. But when I went and then when they called
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me and told me that everything was fine, I knew it was only him
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that the way, because the way that they were looking was an indication that
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that's what it was. It was only him that took that away. And
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I say that because when they diagnosed me with a brain aneurism, and for
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two years it was consistent at every MRI I had, and with me constantly
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talking to him, and then that final one that I went, she was
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like, yeah, there was no findings of a brain aneurism anymore, like
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there's absolutely no trace. And I will tell you this, in that office,
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I was stone faces all get up when I got and I got to
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work because I had to go to work right after because you know me,
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I'm not gonna sit at the house. I'm gonna go to work. Regardless
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of what I feel like or not. I'm gonna go to work. You're
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gonna send me home, but I'm going to work. So I got to
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work and I my beirst friend he had called me and he was like,
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so, what did doctor say? Because I need to know. And so
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I'm telling him what the doctor said about my kiari and all of that,
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and I still had to, you know, still take it easy. I
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couldn't do the running or jumping or exercise like I was used to doing anymore
32:30
because that was gonna aggravate my condition. So I'm learning about this condition and
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how to function with that. But I was like, they said that there
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was no trace of the brain aneurysm at all, and I just started balling.
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I could not stop. And so I'm like, okay, look here.
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I was fine in the office when she told me, don't drove all
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the way across town to come to work. Fine, not balling, not
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nothing. So I get myself together. I go into work. The optometrist
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that I was working with, she asked me and I started crying like a
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baby again, and I was like, look here, okay, I don't
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need none of y'all to ask me. That's no more. And she was
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not a hugger, but she was hugging on me that She was like,
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I don't hug nobody, but I got to hug you today because not only
33:22
is that good news, it's the fact that you couldn't be more deserving of
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something else. And I was like, I didn't win a prize. I
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don't think you know. I'm grateful that you're feeling enough to hug on me
33:36
today. And so I feel like when you have that relationship with him,
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he takes away what is not meant for you. It's there to test you,
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to see how you're gonna handle it, if you're gonna fold or if
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not. And I feel like your health should not be one of those things
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that you build that relationship with him. You should be along with him anyway,
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but don't wait till something happens to really go. And that's one of
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the things that I'm learning every day. And also to be very specific in
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the prayers that you pray, because you're a little vague in now, baby
34:20
can tell you it's going to be something in there that you know, you
34:24
didn't quite special, that you didn't want have to deal with that you were
34:31
expecting on the other side, because I learned that lesson the hard way.
34:37
When I say I had been praying to God and asking him for rest.
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This was before I got sick in two thousand and thirteen. I've been praying
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and I have been on vacation. And that's the crazy part. I have
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been on vacation probably about two weeks or so before that, and I was
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like, God, I'm tired. I need a break. I need some
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rest. I need I don't care what's you do or how you do it,
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but I need a break. Do you know He set me down for
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two years? Two Okay, Yeah, I lost my speech, I had
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issues with walking, all kind of stuff, and I'm like, and for
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nine months of those two years, I was pretty much in the bed,
35:19
like it was nothing that I could do that I was used to do on
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the whole left side of my face from my face all the way down to
35:25
my feet for twitch and my speech was affected. It was just bad.
35:30
And it's like, Lord, okay, look here, that ain't what I
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meant. I wanted rest, But this ain't how I expected you to give
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it to me. Next time when I pray and ask for rest, I'm
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gonna be very specific in the rest that I won't because look here, that
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ain't the break and wounded Lord. That's not what I meant. But you
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taught me a lesson in that, so you know, when you want him
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to bless you ask for what you want in detail. What advice would you
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give for somebody who is struggling with building that relationship with God? Prayer,
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develop a prayer life. And most I won't say most, but a lot
36:22
of people think that prayer is falling down on your knees. And you know,
36:30
just like you maybe like I'll say, like we would see in church
36:34
when we were younger. It's a conversation. It's just a conversation. Yeah,
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listen, he answers exactly. I know. I have people all the
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time. How you know, when God is talking to you, when you're
36:52
being still and you listen, he will get loud, which he will,
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he will, yes will, he will definitely to get allowed with you.
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You don't tap you on your shoulder like three times, you just be like
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and he just gone there. Next time he come he gonna hitch up side
37:07
the head and you're gonna be like, Okay, God, I'm listening now.
37:10
I understand what you're saying, because Lord knows having that prayer life like
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the way that I talk to people, be like, well, you talk
37:21
to God like that. God knows who he created. He knows exactly who
37:25
he created. I don't have to go to him with the whole form of
37:30
a dictionary to talk to him, because if I'm that's too formal. God
37:36
don't need me to be formal when I'm talking to him, because he knows
37:39
I'm gonna say something. God, look here, your child down here getting
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on my nurse. Can you come get them? Because or how you want
37:46
me to handle him? Because today ain't today. We were going on the
37:52
wrong street and I don't want to go on that street, but they trying
37:54
to take me that which way you want me to go with them? So,
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you know, having that type of relationship with him, because he'd be
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telling me I look at her Gonco and said, I because you're trying to
38:02
get in my business and I don't need you in there. You know I
38:06
don't need you over here. You asked me for something that I'm gonna do
38:08
it, but it's gonna be on my term. So God said, I
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quit bothering me, and I you know me, God, look here,
38:15
I just I just got questioned, though I just got I just want So
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that's how I have learned to talk to him, because he has been so
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good to me and just being that because when I could not talk to anybody
38:30
else, and I was at home a lot of the times by myself during
38:34
my recovery, so I didn't have a lot of people that were close to
38:37
help. But I did have my best friend Latanya, and her husband and
38:42
her son would come by and check on me. Of course, I had
38:45
the kids and my brother, but you know, being away in another state,
38:49
you know, even though it's not too far away, he couldn't be
38:52
there every day, and she couldn't be there every day. So while my
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kids will be away at school, I'm at the house by myself. So
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I'm having to learn how to maneuver. And so I started talking God,
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look here, I got to get up and go to the bathroom. How
39:06
we're gonna do this because I need to get there. I don't need to
39:10
have to change the bed clothes on the bed. I just don't need to
39:15
do that, so how we gonna get there? And so it would just
39:17
be those types of things, like how we gonna get there. You're gonna
39:22
help me get off the bed, and my bed is high, so I
39:24
got to have a step stool to get in the bed, so you know,
39:28
of course I'm gonna have to need it to get down. So it's
39:30
like, Okay, now I got to get to the bathroom. Okay,
39:34
Now I got to get off the floor to get on the top because I
39:38
either have to crawl to get to the bathroom, so now Lord, I
39:42
got to get up. So you know, it's just that type of thing.
39:45
So me building that relationship to him, it helped me to understand that
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God has my back like no other and as long as I got him,
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I can't never go wrong, you know, because he's the he's the captain,
40:05
and I'm just, you know, the little passenger on the other side.
40:07
That I'm still gonna be like God while we go down this way,
40:12
sir, where we're going, you know, I'm still gonna do that.
40:15
You're gonna tell me shut up my your business and you won't be in my
40:20
business, and I don't need you to do that. But I feel like
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you have given everybody who has listened and listened tonight hope that conquer is not
40:34
a cancer, is not a death sentence, as long as you continue to
40:39
put God first and have your support system in place and tell people when you're
40:45
not okay. Don't try to carry that way and that burden alone, because
40:51
it's gonna be heavy for you on days where you don't have the strength,
40:54
But lean on those who are there with you and say, hey, look
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to day, I'm not I'm not feeling it, I don't have it.
41:04
What can mm hmm. I think she may have froze. I'm not sure.
41:31
Yes, she will probably be back in just a second, but yeah,
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I I need you to come on back, and I'll tell you the
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internet it don't mind, and I'm like share like you you encouraging. Y'all
41:52
are encouraging individuals and the intemage just be mad. But yes, she's back.
41:59
Oh okay, what we're doing? Like, okay, it's still buffering.
42:02
But can y'all hear me? Yes? Okay, Well I don't know
42:07
what my screen doing because I look like a robot on my screen right now.
42:12
But as I was saying, you know, whenever the enemy I always
42:16
tries to do is every time I start to give something that's truly, truly
42:20
positive, it's not gonna stop the message that I have to deliver anything,
42:22
because even if I have to type it in the later on, it's gonna
42:27
get hurt. Yes, whenever God wants to put his word out there and
42:34
give it to his people, something like this, always tries to stop it.
42:37
But what they don't realize is there's other ways to get your message out.
42:40
And what I always say is stay out of God's business because we don't
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need to do anything but be obedient to what He's called us to do.
42:52
But I thank you for your encouraging words to let people know that having cancer
42:59
is not your death sentence. It is just a testimony for someone else.
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To let them know that they can get through this and they can make it
43:07
through to the other side. Keep that support system there, keep those people
43:12
around and those people who are just there to see if you gonna make it,
43:17
Tell them you are because you are, you know, because those that
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need to be there and to support will be and it won't be nothing else
43:25
for nobody else who's coming around to wait and say, well, you know,
43:30
she was a good person. Yes she was, and she still is
43:32
not gone by your business, you know, because you got some of those
43:36
that they just waiting to say, well she died. No, the old
43:39
version of her die, but there's new one that you can't touch. Baby,
43:44
So go to talk about my yesterday, because you can't talk about my
43:46
today knowing my tomorrow because you're not part of that. You're not in that
43:51
chapter. Your chapter is over, So gone mind your business. Okay,
43:53
Yes, but I thank you for being here as always. You know,
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I don't know anything other than what God has told me to do, and
44:05
I'm gonna continue to do that. Regardless of whether my Internet is acting up.
44:09
I'm still gonna say what I need to say. Yes, you know
44:14
what I mean. If you know me, I'm stubborn. I'm not gonna
44:17
be defeated. I don't care about what obstacles are thrown in my past.
44:22
I will figure out a way. I got to climb that tree. If
44:25
it's got to take me twelve steps to get to it, I'm gonna get
44:29
there. But you know, I close all of my shows with stay out
44:34
of God's business. Only thing God needs you to do is be obedient to
44:38
what he's called you to do. So until next time, you guys,
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I will be back actually next Thursday with my little sister, Juletta Dalis,
44:50
and we are gonna talk about entrepreneurship, motherhood, and her photography business.
44:54
So it's gonna be a very interesting show. I have done a couple of
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photo shoots with her. One was a sisterhood photo shoot which was a couple
45:02
of years ago, which was very very inspiring and I met a lot of
45:07
interesting women in that photo shoot. So don't miss that show. It will
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be next Thursday, the twenty six at eight pm. As always, I
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am part of the Crew podcast and I'm your host, Tavita Harrison. We'll
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see you next time. Love you guys, Thank you, you welcome,
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Thank you quickly.