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July 22 – All of Me · The Daily Ripples Podcast

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  Hello, this is, uh, Corey, and today is July 22nd, all of me,
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  the stone, real change begins when I give God all of me, not just the parts I like.
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  Ripple one practical today, I'll stop hiding my weakness or pretending I have it all together.
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  I will be honest about both my strengths and my struggles. Growth happens when
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  I bring the whole truth into light.
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  Ripple too spiritual. The Father does not ask for a polished version of me.
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  He asks for all of me. Jesus shows what it means to live fully surrendered.
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  The Holy Spirit works in every part of my life, removing what is harmful and
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  strengthening what is good.
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  As I give myself completely, humility grows and I become more useful in God's hands.
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  You know, this part right here, it's like, you know, real change begins when I give God all of me.
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  And I, not just parts I like, you know, what's the things I like?
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  Well, you know, usually the things that I get the most, the most out of,
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  like, you know, I can, you know, the material things, the things I can see.
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  And when I first started doing this stuff, I, you know, I was,
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  the only things I could see were the things I could see, my problems.
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  And those were the problems I had. And for some reason, for me,
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  when I went down and did this work, right, and like this work had nothing to do with my problems.
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  My problems being, you know, the main essential one is when I drink, I want more.
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  For some amount of time, like I still drink. That was my problem at hand.
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  I mean, I had other problems. It was court issues. It was the problems with.
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  My significant other. It was family. It was job. It was all those.
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  But, you know, that was the problem
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  because everything else fell directly behind that for the most part.
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  So, you know, for some reason, when I do this work, like I kind of look at it,
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  and I've said this before, but when my left hand has all my life problems,
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  like these other things, and my right hand is this work at hand.
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  And for me, it was in 12 steps. And, you know, essentially, you know,
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  growing a conscious contact with God.
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  And it kind of talks about that in the big book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
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  It says lack of power. That was our dilemma.
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  We had to find a power which we could live, and it had to be a power greater
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  than ourselves, obviously, but where and how were we to find this power?
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  And then it goes on to say, well, that's exactly what this book is about.
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  Its main object is enable you to find a power greater than yourself,
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  which will solve your problem. So that's my problem, right?
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  And so, or not my problem, but that's my solution to my problem.
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  So when I go to do this work, you know, that's essentially what I'm doing is,
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  finding a power and growing that conscious contact with that power.
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  And I believe that everybody has that power within them.
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  So, you know, and nobody has any more or less, right? So, you know,
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  and that's the cool thing, you know, you know, and this thing that loves me,
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  God that loves me, loves you just as much as me.
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  Um, and I don't, you know, going through life and going through my days,
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  I don't always see it like that.
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  But when I think about giving all of me, real change begins when I give all
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  of me, not just parts I like. I don't.
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  Always like helping people. I don't always like taking my time off the couch to go help somebody.
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  That's my job, to be of service. It doesn't matter the outcome.
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  Once I got out of the outcome business and the result as this thing started making more sense to me.
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  I know, like, you know, my sponsor, man, you know, he'll talk about,
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  you know, he'll get to, it doesn't matter if someone even meets,
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  you know, he gets credit for that.
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  And I'm not talking about credit to something, but, you know,
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  the, the idea of me trying to be of service and I don't like always being of service.
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  I mean, I like, you know, and that's, that's cool. Cause like,
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  I like the effect for the effect produced from it.
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  And in the doctor's opinion, it says men and women drink essentially because
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  they like the effect produced.
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  And I'll tell you, if I took a big gulp, two gulps of whiskey,
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  and, you know, I was a whiskey drinker, I don't like, you know,
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  I could sip whiskey and tolerate it, but I don't think that anybody just likes
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  gulping down any kind of alcohol.
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  I like red Gatorade. Actually, I like the light blue Gatorade,
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  the Glacier one. I think that tastes good.
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  But the reason I drink alcohol is because I like the effect produced and I don't
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  like always having to go out of my way to help people I mean I love I mean at
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  the one hand I love it and I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing,
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  but on the other side of that,
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  I don't it's not always convenient,
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  and it's not always where when I want to do this stuff and it's not always it's
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  not always good time either.
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  But, you know, I didn't drink on good times either. You know,
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  I didn't do the things selfishly that I wanted in good times for other people.
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  You know, I was thinking about this other day, you know, I had to be late somewhere.
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  Well, if I was late somewhere, one of God's kids was sitting around waiting
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  on me because of my selfish needs.
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  And they didn't like that. And they don't like that. I'm not always on time,
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  but I try to practice to be on time places.
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  But going back to that, you know, I do this stuff because I like the effect
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  produced, not because I like doing it.
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  Sometimes it's really cool doing it, but it's not all the time.
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  It goes in to say, the Father does not ask for a polished version of me. He asks for all of me.
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  Jesus shows what it means to live fully surrendered. So I think,
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  you know, in the Bible, it shows me different ways and different ways how Jesus
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  was. I don't think I know.
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  And I'm trying to be more like Jesus, if I understand this correctly.
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  And Jesus was of service to all humans.
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  It doesn't matter your race, creed, color, where you're from,
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  how much money you made, any of that.
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  To be of service to all humans, to love all humans as the same.
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  And I think that's important to me. I think in the book, it kind of talks about
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  that in the fifth step a little bit.
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  But it talks about more than most people, the alcoholic leads a double life.
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  He is very much the actor. The outer world, he presents as stage character.
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  So all these different people I'm treating differently because of this stage
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  character, because I think I need to act this way to you, this way to you,
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  but I don't want to be just Corey.
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  I don't, like, for some reason, like, that's the last result,
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  right? Because I think I know how you need me to be.
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  And on top of that, I think I know what's best for you to even want.
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  Man, you know, it's such a weird deal because to think I know best for you.
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  And it's hard for me to just know what's best for me someday.
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  And it goes on to say, the Holy Spirit works in every part of my life.
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  And so in the seventh step, we're in the seventh step. So, you know,
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  this good thing, you know, it says, the seven step prayer of my creator,
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  I'm now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad.
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  Because I've never, I don't know some days what's in the bad.
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  I don't know some days what's in the good.
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  Because I think whatever I think is good, sometimes it's bad.
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  What I thought was bad became my greatest asset today of helping other people
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  that had the same problem as I do.
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  So, you know, and I think God, you know, and I think, I know,
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  I've watched, has used my defects to help others.
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  There's no other way around that. And because this prayer tells me,
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  too, it says, I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character,
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  which stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows.
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  I don't know what those defects of characters are.
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  Then it says, removing what is harmful and strengthening what is good.
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  So I don't know which one's which. I'm just asking God to use me,
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  to use me in whatever he needs me to do.
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  And that's kind of a daunting thing to say, too, because I don't know,
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  and that's kind of leaving me to the stone when I give God all of me,
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  not the parts I like, because I don't know what God needs of me at that day.
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  I don't know if God needs me to be this or this. I'm just going at,
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  you know, and God's directing me.
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  On page 77 of the big book, it says our real purpose is to fit ourselves to
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  be of maximum service to God and the people about us. That's my real purpose.
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  So you got a primary purpose too, and the program I'm in is to carry this message
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  to the alcoholic who still suffers.
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  And so my primary purpose and my real purpose is that I kind of have an idea of what I'm doing here.
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  I kind of like where in the practical it says, I'll stop hiding my weakness
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  or pretending I have it all together.
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  I'll be honest about both my strengths and my struggles. Well,
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  in the big book in Bill's story, Honesty, it says on page 13,
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  belief in the power of God.
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  So belief in the power of God plus enough willingness.
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  Well, I think the willingness and just the way I kind of understand my life
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  and understand some of the literature and even understand some of the literature in the Bible,
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  the willingness comes from empty hopeless don't know which way is up so now
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  i'm accepting directions from this you know in our in the book of alcohol synonymous
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  it says we had a new employer,
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  so now i'm accepting direction from and with that being said you know that goes
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  on to say this is cool too you know we had a new employer being all powerful
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  he provided what we need if we kept close to him and performed his work well.
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  Well, you know, the work's only, I mean, I only think there's a couple of things
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  that the work could be, and I would imagine one of them's truth.
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  My big book tells me that, and the other one's probably love.
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  You know, and if I look at God as God is love.
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  Because I think that there's a lot of people that are like, I don't know what
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  God is. And I don't, man, I can't, how could you comprehend a supreme being?
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  But I will tell you, truth is probably one of those things.
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  And love is probably the other. And so how do I show love? How can I just be
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  of love? How do I do that? Imagine being of service.
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  Plus enough willingness, honesty.
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  And so honesty and humility to establish and maintain the new order of things
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  were the essential requirements essential requirements are very big words to someone like me,
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  it's like a must it's like bigger than a must i think,
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  then it goes on to say simple but not easy a price had to be paid but yeah and
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  what's the price being paid,
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  i would say is light compared to how i treated others,
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  that meant destruction of self-centeredness, me getting out of me,
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  you know, destruct, you know, because how well does it work?
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  How well is me just being self-centered work?
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  And, you know, I think that that's the, that's one of the requirements because
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  it says on page 60, and my friend, a friend of mine, he likes to talk about
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  this. And he asked me the other day, he's like, what's the first requirement?
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  And the first requirement is that we be convinced that any life run on self-will
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  self-will can hardly be a success. It can hardly be a success.
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  My life, just wanting for me, hasn't worked yet.
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  But then it goes on to say most people try to live by self-propulsion.
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  But the thing is, I'm not like most people.
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  My drinking career has showed that. And so I don't get to live.
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  I mean, you know, maybe this is wrong, but I believe it's right.
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  Because it says on page 30, the delusion that we were like other people,
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  we're presently maybe, right now, me right now, according to this thing,
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  says we're presently maybe has to be smashed.
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  So I don't get to live like I see other people and maybe other people aren't
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  living how I think they're living anyways because maybe I have no idea how they're
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  living but I you know I'm really a big fan of this page and,
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  on 164, it says, abandon yourself to God as you understand God.
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  And that's kind of what it's saying.
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  When I give all of me to God, not just the parts I like, that's abandoning myself
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  to God as I understand God.
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  And understanding what I'm doing too, because I've been thinking about that a lot lately.
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  Me believing in what I'm doing, and if it's good, I believe that's good.
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  Not just because this is what I'm doing is good, but if what you're doing is
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  good and you believe that's good and it checks out, it's good,
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  right? I mean, I don't know what that even means, but, you know,
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  I mean, we had moral and philosophical convictions.
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  Does what you're doing live up to them? And I don't know, but I had to kind
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  of run that through the litmus test, and who knows?
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  I mean, I don't even know what was
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  good and bad, so maybe what everybody's doing is just what they can do.
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  And hopefully, you know, and I imagine most people think it's good,
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  but as a stand up against everything.
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  And I have to be honest with other dudes about that and that,
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  you know, usually, you know, those people I talk to kind of,
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  if I'm getting a little on one side of the realm of things, you know,
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  they push me and tell me to get my stuff together.
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  Right. Because that's what I would hope they do.
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  And God leads me through different people because we came into this thing is
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  God either everything or God's nothing.
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  And I believe today God's everything and the more awake I come to be today is
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  I can see that God's everything more and more and more.
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  I think that's a promise in this work.
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  But thank you guys for another day on here.
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  It says prayer. Father God, I give you all of me today, the good and the bad,
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  Through your Holy Spirit, remove what does not belong and strengthen what does.
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  Shape my life through the example of Jesus and use me for love and service. Amen.
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  Have a good day.