#1 - I Kept Choosing a Relationship I Didn’t Even Want

FERAL: Diaries of an Uninhibited Woman · Aug 15, 2026 · 19m

There was a relationship I stayed in for almost two years that, if I’m being completely honest, I knew wasn’t right for me before it even started.

And yet, I kept trying to make it work.

I tried to become someone who wanted the things she wanted. I pushed away desires that felt inconvenient. I convinced myself that things that mattered deeply to me simply weren’t that important.

I self-abandoned myself to be chosen.

I became a cat person for someone who loved cats. I told myself I didn’t really need the kind of masculine, daddy energy I actually craved. I kept finding little ways to contort…