Episode 4: The Mask I Wore

The War After the War · Aug 7, 2026 · 20m

For years, I convinced everyone including myself that I was okay.

After my first deployment to Iraq with Combat Logistics Regiment 15 (CLR-15), I came home carrying more than just memories. I carried anxiety, hyper vigilance, nightmares, and a version of myself that learned to survive in a war zone but never truly learned how to come home.

In this episode, I share how that survival mindset became the mask I wore for years. From running convoy missions through Al Anbar Province to building a career, earning degrees, and appearing successful on the outside, I talk about what it was really like…