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Random Heathen Ramblings: S3, EP38 - Faring Forth With Our Fylgja (Viewer Request) · Random Heathen Ramblings

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Thank you all for helping contribute to the production of
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this. Of this podcast, I think
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between, you know, stuff that's going to come up between now,
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I've already got listed from all of your wonderful suggestions.
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We've got enough content to definitely finish out season
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So, a lot of the stuff that I'm going to be talking about in the
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thanks to all you people. So thank you again.
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Once once more for that, I just before I started hitting record,
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I was actually, I was getting everything set up and I was just
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about ready to, you know, start recording.
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And I got a call from my brother Jean who is going through a
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rough time. You know, this time last year
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his father passed away due to complications of covid-19 and
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you know, I talked about in the last podcast, about the events
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of Shadow Moot and how my, my, my head space and where I was
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for that ritual for their hell bloat was unlike anything I'd
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experienced before and how it all kind of lined up with when
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genes father, had passed away last year because he passed away
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on Halloween, which that which is Sunday last year and it was
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You know, the weeks leading up to that that I was, you know,
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working in my own way to kind of help Jane, you know, through any
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sort of because he was asking, was kind of kind of like a call
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to action as it were to anybody and everybody from all faiths
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all religious views for prayers for healing for all kinds of
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things. And I remember this, the effort
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that I made, you know, last year leak prior to his father's
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passing You know, was was a very powerful attempt on my part to
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reach help, you know, and having not reached that far.
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But then this year having made it, there was very profound.
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And then he called me tonight, right?
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Before I'm recording to talk about some other things, we
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said, hey, how much time you have and I said, well for you, I
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mean, take whatever time I need. He's so he he had a short, you
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know, Memoir to his father that he wrote.
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He was going to present to a bunch of people this coming
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weekend during a whatever they were going to do like a memorial
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bike ride because because Gene and his dad and a lot of the
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people that were friends of theirs all ride bikes, you know,
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they were going to do a memorial ride.
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There's there's pending inclement weather coming.
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True and they canceled the ride. But this Memoir.
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This, this this this piece that Gene wrote for his dad.
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Dad, he shared it with me and I found out that I was just the
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fourth person to have heard it since he wrote it and man.
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Oh man, let me tell you what beautifully written beautifully
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were rated and it was a true honor to get to hear that going
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into you know this and talking on a podcast in front of you
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know all of you. People hearing him talk to me
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over the phone sharing what he shared while that's not going to
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be the top. Consider his podcast.
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It definitely put me into a very like a state of mind of just it
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all the emotions that he conveyed through that Memoir
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through, what he wrote really resonated with me, you know, the
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calmness, the anxiety, the, the sorrow just, everything, just so
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many things that you that one would experience when they lose
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their parent. I haven't lost mine yet.
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It's going to come one day, but hearing and feeling the emotions
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that he conveyed. It's like I was right there with
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him. So for everybody that's
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listening and watching you know the memorial ride for his dad's
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name was Jean. Also if he was known by his
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friends and his and his closest people as the wizard and the
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memorial ride that was going to happen this weekend.
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That isn't happening this weekend.
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I would just Maybe just put this out here that whatever you do
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this weekend, if you're so inclined and if you, you know,
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can think of to raise a glass, raise a drink, give a toast to
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the wizard Jeanne step. All right, so what are we going
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to be talking about this week comes from a post that I made a
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couple of weeks. Back asking what should I
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podcast about this week? And again I've got a lot of
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great suggestions all of which I'm going to be getting to
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eventually but the one that I wanted to talk about this week
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comes from Robert editor. So thank you Robert who he
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commented and said have you or sorry how have you grown with
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your animal philia? Once known connecting with and
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fairing forth with it, your philia is one of my favorite
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topics. Thank you, Robert for the
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suggestion for the, for the great idea to talk about that on
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this episode. So this episode is faring forth
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with or philia and actually have a pretty neat.
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I have several need stories with regards to this but I'm going to
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start with what I think. Everybody knows at least anybody
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that's been listening to my, you know, content for any length of
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time is the My philia. you know, so I have Come to discover come
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to find. I should say the that my philia
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is a heron. And for those, that may be
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wondering what the philia. What we're talking about by
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philia, another word that might get Used to describe what the
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philia is and Norris perspective, things is fetch.
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So it's quite often a part of the Soul complex. that is been
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used or mentioned in Source material as this part of the
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soul that can Travel outside of the body, be a guide to be a
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protector. It quite often manifests itself
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as an animal, but it's tied to your ancestors.
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So there's an, it's usually if it's if it's in person form, its
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A human female form. but for me, my filia has been represented in
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the form of a heron and I go to the river, a lot, you guys have
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seen a lot of my videos and content that I post on like
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YouTube and all this, that I'm pulling up a story that I'm
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going to read. So just bear with me where I see
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the Heron that I share space and time and coexist with the Heron
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on my on my River walks, or the time that I'm spending on the
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river, right? Well, when Robert had asked
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about the, how am I faring with it, right?
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How am I dealing with the? How am I progressing?
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Since finding this philia, right?
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Well, the philia kind of found me and it's an interesting
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progression of things where I haven't in my whole life and I'm
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going to be 38 next month. In my whole life, I haven't had
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That I would consider at least a close Affinity to herons, right?
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I don't recall ever in my in my youth growing up with all of the
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times that I spent in the woods and swamps and the rivers and
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creeks and going fishing on lakes and all this, you know,
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all the wild all the time that I spent out in the wild you know,
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hiking Hunting Fishing Camping whatever I've never really felt
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like, you know, I could have said like the the feel you.
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I feel you my animal spirit if you want to call it as such was
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was a heron and is a little bit different than just an animal
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spirit or an animal totem. I think because again, it has
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ties to your ancestry. But one interesting thing, an
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interesting story that I did want to mention is you see in
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the background here by my chair or on the on the chair that that
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that fur that's hanging. That's a gray fox and I got that
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gray fox skin from a lady who when I was living in New York
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was living in a an old mink farm showroom.
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There was years and years long before I was ever born, like
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back in the 60s, 70s, 80s, right there was a gentleman there who
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would Farm minks and and make apparel like fur coats hats and
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stuff. For ladies actually did a lot of
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very had a lot of high-end clientele.
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So actors people that I've become pretty famous at the time
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and I don't remember some of his clientele, but they were, they
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weren't just like, you know, Broadway actors that nobody had
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heard of, you know, there was some there's some pretty
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well-known clientele that he had.
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And this lady was is one of his wives had again, not really kept
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the farm running as a mink farm, but she had all this, you know,
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she worked in animal Furs so she was very, very very good at
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making hats and Scarves and things with the remains of
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animal fur so she would do like things like make or rabbit and
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deer and other other Critters. But she had this fox.
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So she had I think maybe trapped it or something because they can
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be kind of a menace. Especially when like we have
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Farm farms nearby like chickens and whatnot.
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Foxes can tend to be a A pest, you know?
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And they need to be, I guess controlled to a degree.
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Anyway, the that's a gray fox so gray, foxes and red, foxes fall
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under different animal categories.
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You know, the gray. Foxes is actually in the feline
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family. They're more cat-like, they
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climb up trees. They they're, they're their
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voices, more feline. Whereas the red foxes favors,
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the canine side of the family, they also have a kind Of a weird
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voice to. They kind of like yep and laugh
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or whatever. But there are definitely more
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canine. They don't climb up the trees
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and stuff that I know of and it was interesting because I don't
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remember the circumstances. I might have been like a
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birthday present or something that she had given it to me for
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or might have just been a random gift because she knew how much I
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was into like wild life. I used to have a whole like
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dresser full of nothing but the remains of animals I had deer
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bones. I had All's, I had raccoons.
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I had a whole steer skull from the farm that I had worked on
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because we used to raise Slaughter and butcher, our own
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beef cattle. I had vultures, I had turkey
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Crow, woodchucks. I mean, I had I had a lot of
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things. Just, I wouldn't say like
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carelessly strewn about on my top of my dresser.
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It was it was more of like a display kind of like a museum.
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Matter of fact, as I recall my kid, We everybody called Jesse's
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dead things Museum or dead things collection.
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And so I guess she thought this would be a more appealing
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addition to the collection, you know, something of a you know
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the the color of his fur you know it wasn't just bone,
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actually had a coyote skull with the skin and everything on it
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talking about things that I had and so when I got it you know
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out it was I was a young teenager and I was at the same
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time during around that time of my life going to these Private
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classes and learning a Chinese martial art called singing
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singing. He is an internal Chinese
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martial art. It's not, it's not like, you
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know, Wing Chun or or some of the other like more I don't
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know, karate style. It's an internal art.
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So there's a lot of focus on your posture, your breathing
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internal like building your internal strength more.
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More so than your outer strength, having a strong core
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having strong, internal your internal organs.
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So, like a lot of the exercises that we could do to prepare for
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our martial arts, training was like almost an hour long of just
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breathing exercises stances, postures.
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Qigong is is a is what we did for like an hour before we ever
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did any of the katas, if you want to call that, they weren't
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called that in Chinese. But like the forms, the the, the
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sparring, the practices, and That it was learned.
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It was all about learning the internal system and part of that
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internal system was identifying and cultivating, an animal
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spirit and none of us would figure our own Animal Spirits
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out, the person who would give us that animal spirit with our
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was, our was our teacher. And everyone had a different
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one, like there was a fellow there who was a gorilla or an
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ape. There was another fellow there
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and usually like they're some of them, some people would have
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like a multiple multiple animals.
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So like I know one guy was A tiger.
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And Abby, now that may sound crazy, but it was like a
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reflection of their of fighting style, right?
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So that's where the animal spirit that would come out, was
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manifested through the combative Arts, you know, the martial
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arts, the practices that we would go through your animals,
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Spirits, or Spirit would come out in your style.
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So you know the ferocity of a tiger and the Relentless, like
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pinpoint accuracy of a be right was one guy.
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And I became the fox. I was the fox.
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The reason why I was the fox was because whenever we would Spar
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the guy that would teach us his name was Jimmy.
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He was always like, I never know, he's like I'm doing this
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for 40 years you know. So he had a lot of experience
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with a lot of different styles. Multiple black belts Decades of
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experience knowledge who knows how many fights he'd actually
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been in but the guy was a it was it was amazing.
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You wouldn't know it to look at him but he He was he was truly
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amazing. He's like, in a man.
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I've been doing this for a long time and he said, but whenever I
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grab ahold of you and we get to do in our sparring, he's like,
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you always figure out a way to Be slick, you know, and kind of
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wiggle your butt wiggle, your way out of a bad situation.
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He said, you remind me of a fox and how, you know, it's hard to
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catch a fox and it makes it difficult to catch them because
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they're so widely there. Sly, you know, he's like so
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you're the fox. So for the years I was like I'm
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a fox, you know. And But I never liked encounter,
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foxes in my walks in the woods, or never, you know, had moments
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where I got to share space with a fox.
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Because again, they are so, you know, Elusive and now all these
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years later, Not doing the martial arts training anymore,
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right? Not really procuring or
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preserving that essence of the animal.
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It was like it was it was a it was a part of me that came out
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and that was identified through a very specific practice and
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through a very specific thing that we were doing but it
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nothing continued to I guess cultivate that or to nurture
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that now very recently. The Heron I've encountered
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During it and herons are elusive as well, you know, like they
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don't just don't just walk up to her and say, hey, what's up, you
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know, dear and some other Wildlife or they'd be as they
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become more accustomed to human existence and sharing space.
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You know, you can very easily build trust with with deer and
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even some other like songbirds or whatever.
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And just have that, you know, connection where you're almost
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face-to-face and close to one another herons, not so much now
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I've I've gotten fairly close to him, because I'm out there so
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often because I've seen their, I hope I've gotten the sense that
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we recognize each other, at least.
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When I'm in the areas that they are familiar with seeing me
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again. Now, when I go and places of the
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river that I've not been very frequently and I see a heron,
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the distance between us is much greater and I can't get nearly
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as close because they're like well that doesn't belong here,
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you know this you know, blonde humanoid, whatever doesn't
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belong here. I've not seen that thing here in
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this part of the world before. So I'm going to stay and I only
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keep my Distance. But the the relationship that
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I've built with the Heron has definitely been one of where
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I've discovered my philia. When I go places, when I, when I
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meditate, when I walk the river, even if I don't see the Heron, I
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know the Heron sees me because they are, they are Watchers
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there. They're like the guardian Spirit
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of this area. I can't tell you how many times
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I walk in the river and they'll be one nearby.
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That one hour, I'll be sitting by the river and then they'll
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fly over or I'll catch sight of them at different points in
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time. So, you know, getting getting to
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the point in my life, where I know that that is my philia has
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definitely been a revelation for me and an important part of my
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growth as a pagan because going back to how the philia connect
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to your, with your ancestry, my ancestry includes.
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And I don't know any much more specifically than this, but
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Algonquin Nation Indian Native American, you know, Indian
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indigenous Indian of North America.
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So the Algonquin tribes that have like I mean Algonquin
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nation is kind of an umbrella term for the north-northeast
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indigenous people and I don't know that much better than what
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my father's told me. It's been hard for me to get any
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really good stuff out of, you know, like Meaning, genealogy or
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information, but I was told my father who was told by his
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cousin, his cousin had done a bunch of, like family research,
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on their side of the family, like genealogical work before
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stuff like, you know, 20, was it ancestry.com or some of these
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other, you know, ancestry tracing sites before any of that
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like this cousin of his did a bunch of research and
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apparently, we have some great, great, great ancestor.
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Great, great, great, female ancestor, of all things which is
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again, why I feel like the Heron is my philia.
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So a great great, great, great, whatever.
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Grandmother of sorts was royalty.
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She was, she was like the daughter of an Indian chief.
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So, a princess, if you want to make call that or whatever, they
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would call them back then and she married a European Settler,
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and then somewhere down the line.
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Like, there's that's where we come in my dad's side of the
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family come in. So Algonquin.
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And, and those people were marched, while there's like they
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lived in areas that were swamped and Marsh.
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So, the Heron was a again, thinking back on, like,
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ancestral connection and that it was a female ancestor.
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Every like all the, all the, all the lines connected, all the
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dots, you know, connected and everything lines up.
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And I am going to read you. This really neat story about the
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heroin and it's a it's a story of Algonquin, I guess,
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background. So it goes that and what's
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really interesting is it involves a wolf.
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So I'm going to I'm kind of kind of bringing this back into the
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whole Fox thing. You're just a moment but the
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story goes that big blue heron was standing in the marsh
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looking at his reflection in the water and he raised his black
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crested head to listen to, little white weasels had come
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along to the river. They were mother and son.
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When they saw blue heron, they stopped to look what a beautiful
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big bird. Person said the one said the
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son. He is called Blue Heron.
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He carries his head high. Yes.
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Mother. He is tall as a tree where I so
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tall I could carry you across this Swift River.
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Blue Heron was pleased to hear himself.
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So praised. He'd like to hear.
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Other say that he was big, he bent down low and spoke to the
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two. I will help you go across, come
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down to where you see that old tree lying in the Stream, I will
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lie down in the water at the end and put my bill deep into the
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bank, on the other side you to run across the tree.
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And use my body as a bridge and you will get to the other side.
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They all went to the old tree lying in the water, blue heron
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lay down in the water, at the end and stuck.
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His bill deep into the bank, on the other side, mother and son,
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whiteweasel ran lightly and quickly across the log over blue
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heron and were safe and dry on the other side.
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They thanked Blue Heron and said they would tell all the persons
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in the woods how fine Blue Heron was then they went on their way.
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Old wolf had been standing on the riverbank watching how the
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weasels had gotten across What a fine way.
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It would be for me to start across the river.
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I am old and my bones ache. When Blue Heron came back to the
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marsh wolf said to him. Now I know why you blue herons
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are in the marsh so you can be a bridge for persons to cross the
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river. I want to go across but I am old
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and my bones hurt lie down. Down in the water for me, so I
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can cross. Blue Heron was angry.
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He didn't like being called a bridge old wolf saw.
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He had spoken foolish words and decided to use his honeyed
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words. You are big and strong Blue
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Heron. And that is why your body is
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such a fine Bridge. You could carry me across like a
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feather. Blue Heron smiled at Wolf and
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said, old wolf, get on my back, and I'll carry you across.
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Wolf grin from ear to ear thinking how easily he had
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tricked Blue Heron. He jumped on the birds back in
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Heron went into the Rushing River when he got to the middle.
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He stopped friend wolf said, blue heron, you've made a
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mistake. I am not strong enough to carry
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you across for that. You need to herons.
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I can carry you only halfway now.
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You must get another Heron to carry you.
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The rest of the way. He gave his body, a strong
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twist, and wolf fell into the river into the water.
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You wait, here wolf for another Heron to come and carry you to
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the other side. Then he flew into the marsh.
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The water ran swiftly no Heron came.
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So where did Wolf go to the bottom of the river?
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since that day, no wolf has ever trusted a heron So that story
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again was like it's a story of a has Algonquin origin and I found
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it online. I'll link it down in the show
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notes. If you guys want to follow and
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read it because there's some more neat stuff about herons
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there, too. But obviously boxes aren't
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wolves, right? But the fox was never my filia,
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the fox had nothing connected to me.
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It was just a manifestation of how I would fight, or how I
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would figure out my way out of a tricky situation.
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You know, there was, there was Essences of the foxes nature and
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the foxes wiliness, or slyness that would come through and my
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fighting style but it wasn't ever connected to me through
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ancestry. Like the Heron is, And seeing
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again seeing how the Heron has made himself manifest to me at
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different points in time, while I'm in the river.
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And even when I'm not in the river, it's like, you know, I
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step into the river and I become the Heron, like my senses become
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more in tune. I go slower, I watch.
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I look for things, I notice things that weren't there
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before, and I really take on the embodiment of the Heron.
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So, in the physical sense, You know, stepping into a realm
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that's not my own right? So walking into the river,
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stepping into the river. It's literally stepping outside
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of my Conscious space. You know like my normal space.
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I don't live in the river. I'm not a water bird, literally.
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But you have to become like this, the data to make it
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through there, so all the river walks and they even in, you
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know, the weather where it's becoming colder.
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I still, you know, make it down there, maybe not as frequently,
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but I'll still go down there and so, you know, looking at, as
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like physically, stepping into a different Realm, You can take
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that to the metaphysical meaning of spirit travel and, and
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connecting to the Heron, as a, as a, as the fetch part, you
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know, the that, that spirit, that travels, that part of your
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soul that travels in shamanic, rituals and spirit work like
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that, which I've become more in tune with very much recently.
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So fair and forth with our philia.
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You know, how have I been ever since finding it?
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It's been, it's been so holistic and such a fulfilling experience
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to have that not wondering anymore.
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Not being like well, what's my? And again it's more than just my
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spirit animal because it doesn't mean entirely the same thing in
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that context. It's again, it's more of that
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ancestral. Spirit that can take on the form
30:08
of of an animal. And I know that I think, in some
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of the sources, you know, it takes on a very specific form or
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in some of the sagas where you hear about it, it takes on a
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very specific form but for me, I don't know.
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Like, there's no question about the Heron is, is a, is my female
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ancestors and I call him him say him, but He it she whatever
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doesn't really matter at this point, but the Heron is
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definitely been a companion, a guide, a mentor.
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All of those things, you know, something that is really
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fulfilled, my my spirituality as of late, you know, and it's
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crazy to me that it took all this time to manifest itself
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with me, nearly 40 years, old more of you know halfway through
31:06
my life at the prime of my life, whatever you want to call it
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that. Just now figuring this out or
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it's just now making itself manifest, you know, someone
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during for all of you people that are listening and watching
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Robert maybe since you know this is one of your favorite topics.
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How long has it been since you or have you yet discovered your
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philia has your filia made him or herself manifest to you.
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And what is your filia, who is your philia, how have you
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Incorporated this into your, you know, spirituality your
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practices and how have you kind of Fared forth with the philia,
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I would be definitely interested in curious to know and I'm
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excited to continue to see what happens with my philia.
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And see where we go together. Where he or she takes me when
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I'm I don't know, viewing the world through different eyes or
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walking the river in different legs or flying the air, you
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know, on different wings. it's a like I said, it's such a, it's
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such an incredibly fulfilling experience to to be Familiar to
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have that familiarity. With the with another living
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being that is not human, you know?
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Like when I walked in the river before and I've Literally
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crawled through the water on my belly, like, floated down almost
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like like a weasel. Almost, you know, like coming up
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onto this this Heron and talking to him as I come up and I'm not
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moving you know just I'm kind of watching me and then walking on
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my two legs as the Heron as peers, you know, him looking
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upon me as if he's looking upon a familiar. being, you know, not
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letting me get too close because clearly, I'm not a heroin, but
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letting me get close enough where We recognize each other
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and we feel comfortable enough to be that close to each other,
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calling their name and then watching you and looking at you,
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you know, not just making a noise and having them watch.
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You. But like having a conversation
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and then putting their focus on you giving you the time of day,
33:31
the the attention that indicates that there's a connection there,
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you know, that you're that, you've made a connection.
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With. One of the Vets here.
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I mean that's another way to look at it, you know, like
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they're yes that's a that's definitely for me, a physical
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manifestation of my ancestral filia but it is and be
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embodiment of the land of it here. you know, this Guardian
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spirit that lives walks eats, breathes sleeps, does everything
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that they do on this river that I You know, visit and frequently
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and come in and reconnect with myself and parts of myself.
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You know, whenever I need to recharge from the day, whenever
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I need to kind of step away from the modern bologna and Bs, that
34:28
encumbers our lives. You know, whether it's work or
34:31
whatever. You know, when I go down there
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and I stepped my feet into that space and walk those Those those
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Waters. I had become something
34:43
different. so, it has definitely been a great Progression in my
34:53
spirituality. I'm so glad that first of all, I
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started doing this, these River walks this year, you know, like
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this is, you know, I've gone down there before and I've, you
35:02
know, kind of hung out, but I really immersed myself into that
35:06
practice and really became a daily almost daily ritual for me
35:14
in despite of the blistering heat of the summer.
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And now as we get into the cooler colder months, you know,
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living that Experience as the heroine does year and in, you
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know, year in and out in the cold and the heat, really
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getting to get the full experience, you know, not just
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doing it when it feels good outside.
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But doing it, when it's doesn't feel so good and then really
35:39
getting in there. And, and having that moment to
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reflect and connect in ways that you wouldn't otherwise.
35:46
So, thank you, Robert editor for the suggestion for bringing it
35:52
up, and recommending that we talked about this, I hope you
35:55
all enjoyed that story and I hope you all found some value in
35:59
me, talking about my feeling and that it has helped you.
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Maybe put your mind in a place and put your feet in a Enter
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your, you know, thoughts in a space to connect, with the feel
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yourself, your philia. I will say that.
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You don't have to force it. If you don't know who your
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philia is, what your philia is yet, give it time.
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Meditate on it, find find places where you feel the most at home
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away from the modern conveniences of life, right?
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Right. For some it might be the woods
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for some it might be the ocean for others, it may be a desert
36:45
or the mountains. Or the rivers.
36:51
You know, might be in climbing, trees might be in her climbing
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rocks. Might be in the day-to-day
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things that you do, you know. Maybe it's not even just being
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out in the wild. Maybe it's out there gardening
37:03
or maybe it's out there. Maybe it's, you know, doing
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crafting of sorts sewing, weaving.
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You know, I think of, I think of such amazing spirits, that
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exist, the Weavers, you know, spiders and the like that that
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we've such amazingly intricate webs In such a short period of
37:27
time, you know? Or, I don't know, I saw
37:34
something recently, like my wife, she loves otters, she
37:37
loves a lots of other. She loves animals in general,
37:40
you know, but she shared something and she saw a picture
37:43
of an order. That said that otters have this
37:46
pouch of skin or flesh or whatever on their chest where
37:49
they keep rocks and things that they collect.
37:51
And I didn't know that about him but she loves collecting various
37:55
gems and stones and rocks. I'm like maybe should maybe hers
37:59
as the otter, right? So I don't like think about it.
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I think it's, I think it's a fun thing to dwell on to meditate on
38:06
and to find your philia, whoever or whatever he she or it might
38:13
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