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Finding Your Identity Through God | FT Aisha Sanders | EP116 · Jess Ask

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  Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica and Smith, and you already
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  Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress.
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  Speaker 2: Have fun and just ask God for another day? Do
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  Speaker 2: you already know what it is? And then you know
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  Speaker 2: it's about to get real to.
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  Speaker 1: Be sure to show your girl the love and like
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  Speaker 1: coming and subscribe God.
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  Speaker 2: For another day.
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  Speaker 3: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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  Speaker 2: Security day. He dj he dj. He's not he's not
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  Speaker 2: her husband right now, he's secured, all right, all right,
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  Speaker 2: all right, Oh Lord, Jesus, be a fits all around
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  Speaker 2: me every day.
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  Speaker 1: Jesus, want you to protect me as I travel along
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  Speaker 1: the way.
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  Speaker 2: I know you can, Yes, I know you. My battles
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  Speaker 2: them look gonna thought. The song can't even felish it?
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  Speaker 2: What's so Dad?
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  Speaker 4: You know?
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  Speaker 1: Fred Hammon? Fred Hammon, shout out to you, brother. He
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  Speaker 1: didn't really anunciate the words, the vocabulary words. A lot
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  Speaker 1: of these gospel singers do not annunciation.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah.
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  Speaker 5: So the first annunciation I got in the Christian Standard
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  Speaker 5: Bible was from the Maverick City.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, that's when I learned the annunciation of words. But
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  Speaker 2: I know, you know, I know this part. This is
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  Speaker 2: my friend lawn. Then I praise every day thought you
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  Speaker 2: would guard my footst.
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  Speaker 1: Part that she's I don't know, I don't know it.
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  Speaker 1: But to answer your question, I am doing fine, fine, fine,
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  Speaker 1: y'all know. I love to put a song in anything,
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  Speaker 1: but I know the song that y'all y'all really like that.
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  Speaker 2: That doesn doesn't y'all sport y'all this This girl said,
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  Speaker 2: I need a verse. I need a verse, need a verse,
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  Speaker 2: you feeling I need I need the music. I need
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  Speaker 2: the verse. We're gonna call.
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  Speaker 5: We're gonna call Wibbi chose we're gonna because y'all know,
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  Speaker 5: thank god, another don't got I done got used to
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  Speaker 5: it now.
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  Speaker 2: So she loves it. Makes her listen.
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  Speaker 5: She could be sad, and if somebody called her say
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  Speaker 5: that's all right, that's all right, she's gonna start smiling.
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  Speaker 2: Real talk people. That's how people greet me. Now, Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: you can't do it regular. I mean, you know, I'm
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  Speaker 2: getting used to it.
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  Speaker 1: You know, at first, I was very uncomfortable, and I'm
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  Speaker 1: very surprised that it stuck. You know, that was just
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  Speaker 1: something we was just kind of vibe, know, like literally
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  Speaker 1: in an episode.
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  Speaker 5: And I'm still trying to find the episode. When I
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  Speaker 5: find the episode, I'm gonna.
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  Speaker 2: Do a clip. I'm gonna clip it up, and we're like,
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  Speaker 2: this is the day that Desert Ray was made. Let
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  Speaker 2: us rejoice, rejoice. But you know, you don't you know
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  Speaker 2: some syllables in there that we can It's some symbols
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  Speaker 2: that ship spears.
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  Speaker 5: But just in case you don't know where you landed,
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  Speaker 5: you landed in the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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  Speaker 5: have fun and guess what, just just ass Okay, listen,
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  Speaker 5: we have a wonderful wonderful guests.
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  Speaker 2: Listen.
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  Speaker 5: We put this in our palm palate. We asked for
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  Speaker 5: this last year. We asked for this last year, and
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  Speaker 5: the Woman of God finally gave us a yes. But
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  Speaker 5: I'm I'm, I am, I am excited. But before we
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  Speaker 5: get into the conversation, because I'm a lost my train
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  Speaker 5: of thought, guess what time it is. It's community highlight time,
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  Speaker 5: Community high time, Community highlight time, and we're working on
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  Speaker 5: that too. We got we gonna do a job, deserate
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  Speaker 5: a job to do to make these effects effects. Okay, yeah,
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  Speaker 5: Desi Raate is doing a great job and I'm just
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  Speaker 5: gonna let her do her job because I don't want
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  Speaker 5: to be bossed.
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  Speaker 2: Y'all already know we already had an argument. We have
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  Speaker 2: an argument.
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  Speaker 5: But anyway back to the communityigh, because you're not gonna
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  Speaker 5: argue right now, all right, your community highlight time, Hey
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  Speaker 5: delil rate you know you know, and she just dropped
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  Speaker 5: in my spear, like just right now, just right now, our.
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  Speaker 2: Girl, Crystal Evans.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, we love you, Crystal Evans, like you are out
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  Speaker 1: here doing some major things. You must you more recently
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  Speaker 1: hit the goal of one thousand, one hundred thousand clients,
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  Speaker 1: like training one hundred thousand clients, y'all. Crystal Evans is
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  Speaker 1: the one that's getting me a desi ate to go. Okay,
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  Speaker 1: so if I look slim thick with my cute self, okay, what.
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  Speaker 2: The kids do?
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  Speaker 3: What?
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  Speaker 2: Okay?
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  Speaker 5: Stay focused? All right, Crystal, We thank you. I want
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  Speaker 5: I just want to say thank you, man. Crystal gave
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  Speaker 5: us an opportunity to get disciplined with our fitness, and
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  Speaker 5: getting this discipline with my fitness has gotten me disciplined
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  Speaker 5: in other areas. I slacked off a few a few months,
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  Speaker 5: and I got back together. I was like Crystals, I
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  Speaker 5: was just like Chris this is my fun week consistent,
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  Speaker 5: this is my fifth weeks.
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  Speaker 2: She was like, Okay, I can't wait till week six.
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  Speaker 1: But the pouring and that you're doing and the budget
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  Speaker 1: that you're doing it on for us, Man, I just
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  Speaker 1: want to say thank you, thank you, thank you.
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  Speaker 5: God is going to do exceedingly abundiable of all that
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  Speaker 5: you can ask or think. Okay, and so I cannot
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  Speaker 5: wait till you just continue to grow. She has her
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  Speaker 5: own brand. I can't think of the name right now. Bold,
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  Speaker 5: that's what it's called. I almost said something else, but
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  Speaker 5: it's called Bold. And she has her own nutrition line,
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  Speaker 5: all that good stuff. And so I just I just
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  Speaker 5: really pray that the prayers that you pray over that business,
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  Speaker 5: that prayers aren't answered because you have put seed in
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  Speaker 5: the ground. Don't get it confused. You have definitely put
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  Speaker 5: seed in the ground. There are certain I hear the
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  Speaker 5: Lord say that, there are certain lives that have been
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  Speaker 5: saved because you weren't greedy.
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  Speaker 2: Wooh my god.
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  Speaker 5: Because you weren't greedy. You cared about the woman, you
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  Speaker 5: cared about the man, You cared about the opportunity to
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  Speaker 5: save a life, and you didn't just try to put
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  Speaker 5: like a price tag on that. And so God is
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  Speaker 5: about to do some things. Some miracles make some miracle size,
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  Speaker 5: and one that's even in your household, even for your husband.
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  Speaker 5: As y'all grow together, I'm seeing a camera in y'all face.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know what that is.
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  Speaker 5: I don't know if it's a TV show. I don't
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  Speaker 5: I'm not sure what's going on there. But I just
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  Speaker 5: see God blowing on those things for you. So I
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  Speaker 5: just want to say, we just want to say we
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  Speaker 5: love you, we appreciate, they get you, and thank you.
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  Speaker 2: You know me and devil right, yeah, okay, love you,
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  Speaker 2: see you on Monday, see you on Monday. She was like,
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  Speaker 2: back lunches, I beg you, I'd be so tired of
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  Speaker 2: doing them. So touches on that ground wear me out.
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  Speaker 2: But listen, y'all, today's guests very special. We talk about oil. Yeah,
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  Speaker 2: we talk about oil.
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  Speaker 1: You know what.
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  Speaker 2: Delay. I'm gonna let you introduce them.
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  Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna let you, gonna put the camera in,
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  Speaker 1: gonna put the camera. I'm gonna let you introduced. I'm
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  Speaker 1: gonna let you introduce.
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  Speaker 2: You know, gotta find my butt. She don't know what her,
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  Speaker 2: but hey, you're gonna go together, all right.
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  Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep real simple because I'm allowed the woman
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  Speaker 1: of God to introduce herself. Okay, this purpose pusher, Well,
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  Speaker 1: I'm allowed the purpose pusher to introduce herself. But we
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  Speaker 1: have the opportunity to hear the Amazingique Sanders baby, and.
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  Speaker 5: That that name got some weight on it, Okay, that
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  Speaker 5: we're talking about, not just the mother, not just the wife.
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  Speaker 5: Is she happily marry by the way, I'm just gonna
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  Speaker 5: let you know happily. Just go on her Facebook page.
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  Speaker 5: You'll see evidence clock it. All right, But this this
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  Speaker 5: woman is not to be played with. When she think
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  Speaker 5: about something, she execution. Listen, you hear me by when
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  Speaker 5: I say by any means necessary, it's about that's what
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  Speaker 5: your next T shirt need to say, by any means
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  Speaker 5: necessari Okay you are. I'm just I'm just so excited
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  Speaker 5: about her story and what we're gonna share. I don't
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  Speaker 5: know what God is gonna share in this conversation, but
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  Speaker 5: I already already know. I already prayed, and I'm super
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  Speaker 5: excited for where we're about to lead down news too.
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  Speaker 5: So I would like to welcome my sister, my homegirl,
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  Speaker 5: the the the the the ultimate executor. All right, Aisha
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  Speaker 5: senter tat tat tat tat up read purpose wins?
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  Speaker 2: And then God is that fresh? That's a new tattoo
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  Speaker 2: or they just look they did like that?
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  Speaker 5: Okay, all right. The first one said, come on, bread
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  Speaker 5: a purpose wins. The other ones that God is within her.
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  Speaker 5: She will not fail. Psalms forty six and five. Come on,
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  Speaker 5: you made me stretch my my pupils a little bit
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  Speaker 5: for that on the Psalms. Now, ain't nothing wrong with
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  Speaker 5: that thought?
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  Speaker 2: What's what's up?
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  Speaker 5: Six?
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  Speaker 4: What's up?
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  Speaker 1: What's up?
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  Speaker 2: I feel fine? I feel so at home and welcome.
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  Speaker 5: Wouldn't you be like we we do life outside of
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  Speaker 5: these cameras, So we're not even gonna do that, she says,
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  Speaker 5: she nervous.
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  Speaker 2: Y'all, y'all, y'all, y'all, y'all encourage her in them in
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  Speaker 2: the common station. Are you doing a good job? You're
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  Speaker 2: doing a good job. Oh my goodness. So I'm gonna
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  Speaker 2: ask you again and I want the real answer. Okay,
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  Speaker 2: how are you?
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  Speaker 4: I'm great?
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  Speaker 2: Great? What is what is going great for you right now? Life? Life?
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  Speaker 1: I'm not gonna find and say that life is perfect,
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  Speaker 1: but life is doing. I'm doing great right now. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: I'm doing good winning, I'm winning, wirl, I'm seeing it.
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  Speaker 2: I find us good.
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  Speaker 5: Girl, take us there, No, because we don't sit any
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  Speaker 5: we don't sit in it. So what the sitting in
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  Speaker 5: the greatness the fulfillment of God's promises for you?
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  Speaker 2: Look like it's scary?
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  Speaker 1: Even sitting in it is scary because I have to
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  Speaker 1: remind myself every day that I deserve to be here.
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  Speaker 1: That's so good, Like that's real, this is really, this
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  Speaker 1: is really as it is. Like it's scary, but I
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  Speaker 1: am embracing it. I'm embracing it. I'm nervous and exhale
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  Speaker 1: and all at the same time.
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  Speaker 5: Because it's a lot of major, major things going down.
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  Speaker 5: So let's let's get into it. Let's let's get into it.
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  Speaker 2: She don't tell the people to just tell the people
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  Speaker 2: like because we can get we can put yourself. You're
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  Speaker 2: gonna interrupt them, put yourself on the screen, because like
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  Speaker 2: I really, like you really have to tell the people,
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  Speaker 2: like what you do, who you are?
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  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like we could say that,
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  Speaker 1: but but it's it's sometimes I think it's hard sometimes
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  Speaker 1: for us to really articulate the things that we do
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  Speaker 1: because we we just naturally do them right.
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  Speaker 2: So tell the people who is aisha and what how
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  Speaker 2: do you service your people? You set a.
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  Speaker 1: Mouthful when you said that it's hard to tell people
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  Speaker 1: what it is you do when you're literally, like I literally,
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  Speaker 1: and I'm not fronting y'all at all.
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  Speaker 4: I'm not.
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  Speaker 1: I'm not front at all, Like I'm literally I have
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  Speaker 1: the privilege to live my life and it's a blessing
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  Speaker 1: to people like I'm doing on what what I was
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  Speaker 1: created to do. If we want to run down a
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  Speaker 1: list of things that I do, I do hair. That's
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  Speaker 1: my first love. My first love is doing hair. I've
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  Speaker 1: been a stylished for eighteen years full time. I've been
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  Speaker 1: doing here for thirty years, thirty years, since I was
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  Speaker 1: fifteen years old. I just turned forty five.
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  Speaker 5: Hold on, hold on, let's get let's get into it.
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  Speaker 5: First of all, Desiread, does she need to pull her
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  Speaker 5: mica up?
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  Speaker 2: Can you hear her? Okay? First of all, she said
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  Speaker 2: she forty five.
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  Speaker 5: Okay, the black don't crack okay, And the body is audience.
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  Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, up with that, Okay, If I could be.
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  Speaker 6: With you and body Jessica forty five, forty five, tell
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  Speaker 6: them how many children?
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  Speaker 2: Wait, yeah, let's get to them kids. It's fine.
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  Speaker 5: Oh my, oh my god, same grace, same grace, because
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  Speaker 5: that I know, I know it that that they say.
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  Speaker 5: The reason why it's man is happy because you keep
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  Speaker 5: yourself together, okay, and then you keep the household together.
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  Speaker 2: Uh huh. And then you were bide by the word
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  Speaker 2: of God. We're talking and all things and all things,
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  Speaker 2: oh by by the word of God and all things.
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  Speaker 2: But no, you you you look amazing and you are
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  Speaker 2: amazing man. That's that's so good. But no, you have
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  Speaker 2: five kids, you are married.
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  Speaker 5: But I want us to go back to the beginning
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  Speaker 5: before we get into the brand, okay, because we got
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  Speaker 5: to talk about the brand because you are doing some
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  Speaker 5: some damage in the beauty industry right now. Okay, so
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  Speaker 5: I need you to take us back. So I recently
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  Speaker 5: learned that you're not from Birmingham.
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  Speaker 2: I'm not I'm from LA. I'm from California. You are
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  Speaker 2: from I look for can Ilifornia.
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  Speaker 5: Now, okay, Yeah, I got a thing you song for everything,
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  Speaker 5: But I don't know ADHD.
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  Speaker 4: That's I think I blame it on my love it
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  Speaker 4: sing singing, you can't hold a note in my hand.
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  Speaker 5: You sound like my Auntie Sorrow she swept. But no,
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  Speaker 5: Auntie Toorrow starts singing, you.
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  Speaker 4: Want to some barns, But yeah, I can't hold it.
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  Speaker 2: I'm screaming. I am screaming.
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  Speaker 5: Oh my gosh, So how do we get from Los Angeles? Subirmiham, like,
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  Speaker 5: can you tell us about that transition?
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  Speaker 2: So?
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  Speaker 1: Well, the transition was give us the story, don't give me,
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  Speaker 1: don't give me, put me on the camera.
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  Speaker 5: I'm gonna go get your husband and make them sit
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  Speaker 5: by you. If you're not gonna r I want the story.
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  Speaker 2: I want the story. Okay, let's go. Well.
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  Speaker 1: So my mom is originally from here, okay, And when
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  Speaker 1: I graduated high school, like me and my brother had
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  Speaker 1: took her down through there. And when you know, my
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  Speaker 1: mom was the mom that was like you eighteen, you've grown.
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  Speaker 5: You know.
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  Speaker 1: That's a whole other story for another time. And so
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  Speaker 1: when I turned eighteen, I graduated high school, she was out.
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  Speaker 2: She left, she moved. Oh she didn't kick y'all out.
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  Speaker 2: She moved.
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  Speaker 4: Oh my god, I could stay at home.
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  Speaker 1: She moved. She moved to Birmingham. She moved from from
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  Speaker 1: California to Birmingham when I was eighteen. Oh wow, and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'll be all right, I can
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  Speaker 1: do it, you know, and supposed to be in school,
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  Speaker 1: you know, in college, but staying with a guy at
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  Speaker 1: the time. And I woke up one day and was like, Hey,
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  Speaker 1: get where your mom at. Get where your mom at.
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  Speaker 4: It was like I knew that I wouldn't thrive where
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  Speaker 4: I was.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, it was. I just heard a still small voice.
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  Speaker 2: At the time.
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  Speaker 4: I didn't know it was God, yeah, you know, but
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  Speaker 4: it was like, get where your mom at and you
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  Speaker 4: followed it. I followed it, and I got on a
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  Speaker 4: Greyhound bus.
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  Speaker 2: Now did you leave your brother by by himself?
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  Speaker 1: Well, no, my my brother was actually incarcerated at the time.
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  Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. We took my mama threw it,
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  Speaker 1: so my brother was in jail. I had graduated high
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  Speaker 1: school and she was like, Hey, I'm gonna go live.
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  Speaker 2: My life now. Is your brother older or younger? Brother
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  Speaker 2: is older?
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  Speaker 4: My mom had my brother when she was fifteen. She
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  Speaker 4: had me when she was thirty.
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  Speaker 2: Oh that's a gap. That's a game. That's a gap.
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  Speaker 2: That's a gap. That's a gap. That's a gap.
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  Speaker 4: My god, that's a gap.
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  Speaker 2: And in her words, in.
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  Speaker 4: Her words, one of us was an accident and the
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  Speaker 4: other one was a mistake.
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  Speaker 5: Oh wait what Yeah, so she labeled you as a mistake. Yeah,
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  Speaker 5: and so at what time did well, I was the accident,
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  Speaker 5: it was the mistake.
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  Speaker 2: I was the accident. So she won it. Oh oh, okay,
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  Speaker 2: that's what that was. Okay, all right, So how did
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  Speaker 2: how did Okay? I don't. I don't know how I
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  Speaker 2: would digest that if neither one of my parents have
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  Speaker 2: said that to me. So how did that affect you?
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  Speaker 2: Growing up? Knowing that that's how she felt.
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  Speaker 1: I don't even don't. I don't think I consciously just
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  Speaker 1: really digested her saying that. I think I noticed, probably
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  Speaker 1: when I was about maybe sixteen or seventeen years old,
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  Speaker 1: that I was allowing it to affect me. But at
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  Speaker 1: the time that she said it, I may have been
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  Speaker 1: about maybe ten or eleven the first time I heard
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  Speaker 1: her saying. Now. One thing I will say is I
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  Speaker 1: never forgot. I never forgot because I became an aunt
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  Speaker 1: at four five. So my brother had his first baby
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  Speaker 1: when he was fifteen sixteen something like that, and all
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  Speaker 1: I knew at like five years old, was like, I'm
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  Speaker 1: not having a baby when I'm fifteen.
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  Speaker 2: So I already knew.
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  Speaker 4: I knew as a child that I was gonna break cycles.
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  Speaker 2: I didn't know how, I.
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  Speaker 4: Didn't know how.
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  Speaker 2: At five I remember, yeah, I've told this story before.
• 17:57
  Speaker 1: I can just remember being five years looking out of
• 18:01
  Speaker 1: the window of my grandmother's house being like, I'm gonna
• 18:06
  Speaker 1: leave here when I get older, you know how, you
• 18:08
  Speaker 1: just know, like and I don't want to say that
• 18:11
  Speaker 1: a lot of things were wrong with my family on
• 18:15
  Speaker 1: either side, so I don't don't get me wrong, I
• 18:16
  Speaker 1: don't want to say that.
• 18:17
  Speaker 4: I just always knew that I was different.
• 18:19
  Speaker 2: Yeah, not bad or just different, just different.
• 18:23
  Speaker 1: I always knew that there was something different always, and
• 18:26
  Speaker 1: so my my mind was just always on. I didn't
• 18:29
  Speaker 1: know where I was going to go, I didn't know
• 18:30
  Speaker 1: how I was going to get there, but I just
• 18:32
  Speaker 1: knew it was there was gonna be something different about me.
• 18:37
  Speaker 1: I'm about to joke, I would try to look, I
• 18:43
  Speaker 1: would trying to I was about to choke you.
• 18:49
  Speaker 2: I'm good. I'm good.
• 18:51
  Speaker 5: Okay, things that happen on camera, no, but that that's good.
• 18:55
  Speaker 5: So at what point like, so you come, you moved
• 18:58
  Speaker 5: from LA from which you so you break you break.
• 19:02
  Speaker 2: It off with him? Yeah? Yeah, what's the year? The
• 19:06
  Speaker 2: year was I broke it off? Oh?
• 19:09
  Speaker 1: Absolutely done deal? So what so you're are you still
• 19:13
  Speaker 1: eighteen when you move? Or so I'm I'm nineteen when
• 19:17
  Speaker 1: I get here. Okay, I'm nineteen when I get here.
• 19:21
  Speaker 1: And little did I know what I was pregnant when
• 19:23
  Speaker 1: I got here.
• 19:23
  Speaker 2: By the man that you had broke it off? Yes?
• 19:26
  Speaker 4: Wow, yes, yes, yeah. I just remember waking up one morning.
• 19:30
  Speaker 4: I was like, I got to get to where my
• 19:31
  Speaker 4: mom is.
• 19:33
  Speaker 1: And I think even if I knew, because I've had
• 19:37
  Speaker 1: one of my children to ask me recently, like mine,
• 19:39
  Speaker 1: if you knew that you were pregnant, you know before
• 19:41
  Speaker 1: you came to Alabama, would you still have come?
• 19:43
  Speaker 4: I would have.
• 19:45
  Speaker 2: I still would have.
• 19:45
  Speaker 1: I probably would have gotten here even fat quicker. Yeah,
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: I would have gotten here even quicker. So I was like, yeah,
• 19:51
  Speaker 1: let me get where my mamad because what am I doing?
• 19:53
  Speaker 2: So did she receive you when you got here?
• 19:56
  Speaker 1: She did?
• 19:56
  Speaker 2: She did.
• 19:57
  Speaker 1: She received me when I got here. It wasn't a
• 19:59
  Speaker 1: when she left. There wasn't like this horrible like hey,
• 20:02
  Speaker 1: I'm getting away from y'all. She was just like, hey,
• 20:05
  Speaker 1: y'all grown, you want to live over there with him,
• 20:08
  Speaker 1: your brother doing him?
• 20:09
  Speaker 2: I'm I'm out. Oh so yeah, so she was because
• 20:12
  Speaker 2: you were taking her through it. She was like, I'm done.
• 20:14
  Speaker 2: I legally don't have to do nothing.
• 20:16
  Speaker 4: And so that's my And I can't even blame her
• 20:18
  Speaker 4: for that, because I was, hell, what what does that
• 20:21
  Speaker 4: look like?
• 20:22
  Speaker 2: Though?
• 20:22
  Speaker 4: What does hell look like?
• 20:25
  Speaker 5: The hell?
• 20:25
  Speaker 2: I was.
• 20:28
  Speaker 1: What the Bible describes hell? Okay, putting through her her
• 20:36
  Speaker 1: mama through hell look like like I am the And
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: I don't want to make my mom sound like this
• 20:44
  Speaker 1: horrible person because she was a great mom.
• 20:45
  Speaker 4: She did the absolutely best that she did. But my
• 20:47
  Speaker 4: mom created this monster.
• 20:50
  Speaker 1: That she literally couldn't control anymore. My mom was very timid,
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: very She wasn't shy, but she was a very timid woman.
• 20:59
  Speaker 1: She had been in a lot of abusive relationships.
• 21:02
  Speaker 2: Okay, and here it is.
• 21:04
  Speaker 1: She has this little girl that is very strong minded,
• 21:08
  Speaker 1: like I speak my mind and all of those things,
• 21:10
  Speaker 1: and I see it in my daughters. And I would
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: just be four or five years old and I would
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: be like, well, why does he do that?
• 21:17
  Speaker 2: Or why does she do that. That's stupid, that's dumb,
• 21:19
  Speaker 2: you know.
• 21:19
  Speaker 1: And instead of my mama like correcting me or showing
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: me a better way to say it, or saying, hey,
• 21:26
  Speaker 1: like I told my girls, it's okay to think that,
• 21:28
  Speaker 1: but you don't always have to say it, she literally
• 21:32
  Speaker 1: lived vicariously through my mouth, like, so.
• 21:35
  Speaker 2: You said the way things that she wanted to say.
• 21:38
  Speaker 1: Yeah, And so in places where she was never able
• 21:40
  Speaker 1: to really take up for herself, she always I don't
• 21:43
  Speaker 1: know if her fear was that I would be timid
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: like that, and so she would always be like, tell them, baby,
• 21:48
  Speaker 1: don't never hold your tongue, you know, I always tell them.
• 21:50
  Speaker 4: But there was no guidance with that. There was no
• 21:53
  Speaker 4: guidance with that.
• 21:55
  Speaker 1: Clearly, at the age of five, you could see that
• 21:56
  Speaker 1: I would be a leader, know one day, because I
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: see it in my girls.
• 21:59
  Speaker 4: Yeah, but it has to be you have to guide that.
• 22:03
  Speaker 4: You can't just you can't let that go like that.
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: And so I'd be like, okay.
• 22:07
  Speaker 1: And by the time I was sixteen years old, people
• 22:09
  Speaker 1: couldn't stand and see me coming because I hadn't told you.
• 22:11
  Speaker 1: I kind of cussed you out. I didn't respect the
• 22:14
  Speaker 1: notes like, my mom didn't require me to do that
• 22:16
  Speaker 1: kind of stuff. Whatever I had to do to take
• 22:19
  Speaker 1: up for myself, whatever I had to do to feel strong,
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: that's what she allowed me to do.
• 22:23
  Speaker 2: And so I was just like a loose cannon.
• 22:25
  Speaker 5: But it also sounds like your mom was trying to
• 22:27
  Speaker 5: heal through you too, because she wasn't able to vocalize,
• 22:33
  Speaker 5: or she was timid, or she was afraid because being
• 22:36
  Speaker 5: an abusive relationship. I think I've said my story before
• 22:40
  Speaker 5: or whatever. If you haven't got through gold TikTok, I'm
• 22:42
  Speaker 5: not finna talk about it now, but one of the
• 22:45
  Speaker 5: things I've had to overcome is being timid and saying
• 22:49
  Speaker 5: stuff people think. I always like speak my mind or
• 22:51
  Speaker 5: anything like that, but some of the stuff I really
• 22:53
  Speaker 5: want to say, there's a fear that's attached to it
• 22:56
  Speaker 5: because I don't I don't know the repercussions of is
• 23:00
  Speaker 5: being said. And so I could see my I could
• 23:02
  Speaker 5: see or understand her point of view of like you
• 23:05
  Speaker 5: say it, because it's almost like that's the bird.
• 23:08
  Speaker 2: I wish I could say that you know what I'm saying,
• 23:10
  Speaker 2: and you the product of me. So I'm proud that
• 23:12
  Speaker 2: I got somebody that'll speak up. You know what I'm saying.
• 23:15
  Speaker 2: So I can feel you on that, like, thank you mama.
• 23:17
  Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. We might not have done
• 23:18
  Speaker 2: it the right way, but I can get yea, why
• 23:21
  Speaker 2: she why she did it? Okay?
• 23:22
  Speaker 5: So you so fast forward. You come to Birmingham, you're nineteen,
• 23:26
  Speaker 5: you pregnant, When you find out you pregnant, Where do
• 23:29
  Speaker 5: we go from there? Does a baby daddy come come
• 23:32
  Speaker 5: to Birmingham with you?
• 23:35
  Speaker 2: Well?
• 23:35
  Speaker 4: I actually, you know, I called. I let him know.
• 23:38
  Speaker 2: I was like, hey, you know we gonna have a baby.
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: Now, let me say this. When I got here, I
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: didn't know I was pregnant. I got here in September.
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: I didn't find out until Halloween that I was pregnant.
• 23:48
  Speaker 1: And by the time I found out, I was six
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: months pregnant. Wow, Like what sent me to the emergency
• 23:55
  Speaker 1: room was my baby doing a whole flip?
• 23:58
  Speaker 2: Like I was like, hey, what what is that?
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: Yeah?
• 24:02
  Speaker 2: You were six month pri then.
• 24:04
  Speaker 1: So when I found out I was pregnant. I found
• 24:06
  Speaker 1: out I was pregnant. I found out it was a boy.
• 24:08
  Speaker 1: I found out everything all in one day.
• 24:10
  Speaker 2: So how did you process that?
• 24:12
  Speaker 1: I didn't I was like, and for me, I had
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: failed because I was nineteen, the teen was on the end.
• 24:20
  Speaker 2: You know, my whole life.
• 24:21
  Speaker 1: I had been I'm not having a baby as a teenager.
• 24:23
  Speaker 1: I'm not having a baby as a teenager, like I'm not.
• 24:26
  Speaker 2: And so I failed.
• 24:31
  Speaker 4: But at the same time, I was like, I got
• 24:33
  Speaker 4: a whole life to take care of and life is
• 24:37
  Speaker 4: going to.
• 24:37
  Speaker 2: Be different for him, yeah than it was for me.
• 24:40
  Speaker 2: So that and yeah, it motivated me.
• 24:42
  Speaker 1: And there was no there wasn't even any any thought
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: of trying to rekindle what I had broken off because
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: I knew that my baby would be better off. And
• 24:52
  Speaker 1: then once I found out I was having a son,
• 24:54
  Speaker 1: I knew I was staying in Birmingham. There was no
• 24:57
  Speaker 1: way I was to where I could afford to stay
• 24:58
  Speaker 1: in LA. I was gonna raise my son there.
• 25:01
  Speaker 2: So what was his response when you told him?
• 25:03
  Speaker 4: His response was if he's mine, you'll come home.
• 25:07
  Speaker 5: There was a question or a statement that was a statement.
• 25:11
  Speaker 5: I guess he forgot who he was talking to. Oh, okay, he.
• 25:15
  Speaker 2: Might still be waiting on me to come home.
• 25:19
  Speaker 1: Five years later, I was screaming, twenty five, Oh my goodness,
• 25:24
  Speaker 1: So you have this baby, right, where are you?
• 25:28
  Speaker 5: Where are you mentally? Because I know you was like,
• 25:30
  Speaker 5: you're pushing. Is this when the entrepreneur entrepreneurship starts or
• 25:34
  Speaker 5: are you just working?
• 25:35
  Speaker 2: Are you grinding?
• 25:35
  Speaker 1: Like?
• 25:36
  Speaker 2: Where's are here at this point?
• 25:37
  Speaker 1: So I'm working at this point, like I'm trying to
• 25:41
  Speaker 1: for me, Birmingham is a clean slate. You know, I
• 25:44
  Speaker 1: ain't I ain't burnt no bridges here, I ain't messed
• 25:48
  Speaker 1: over nobody, you know, I ain't done all the things
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: that I'm known for. Yeah here, So it's a clean slate.
• 25:53
  Speaker 1: And I got a baby, you know, let me get focused.
• 25:56
  Speaker 1: And so by the time he was six, by the
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: time he was about six weeks old. Because let me
• 26:01
  Speaker 1: say this, I did not I did not like Birmingham.
• 26:03
  Speaker 1: When I first got here.
• 26:05
  Speaker 2: It was slow.
• 26:06
  Speaker 4: Yeah.
• 26:06
  Speaker 1: I was familiar with Birmingham because I was spending summers
• 26:09
  Speaker 1: here and I knew I needed to be with my mom.
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: But there was this dread of dang you about to
• 26:15
  Speaker 1: live here? Yeah, you know, but I got really focused.
• 26:20
  Speaker 1: I just went into Mimmi Moe and I never wanted kids.
• 26:23
  Speaker 1: I never wanted kids, like I'm supposed to be like
• 26:26
  Speaker 1: a lawyer living.
• 26:28
  Speaker 2: On a hill that's what you're supposed to be doing. Yes, Yes,
• 26:33
  Speaker 2: that's what I'm supposed to be Yes. But the Lord,
• 26:37
  Speaker 2: I'm glad the Lord brought you here. Oh bah bah,
• 26:40
  Speaker 2: I'm so glad too. So yeah, real bad, real bad.
• 26:45
  Speaker 2: So I want to get to that.
• 26:47
  Speaker 5: I'm trying to because I'm trying to journey there because
• 26:50
  Speaker 5: one thing about it.
• 26:51
  Speaker 2: Two things.
• 26:51
  Speaker 5: But show you are happily married. I am you happily married?
• 26:55
  Speaker 5: So we go from having a child and being a
• 27:01
  Speaker 5: teenage mother. I want to I want to know about
• 27:05
  Speaker 5: the gap from being there to the second child because
• 27:09
  Speaker 5: the second child is this is this in uh in marriage,
• 27:13
  Speaker 5: pre marriage, pre marriage, but this with this, with this,
• 27:16
  Speaker 5: with the okay, cool, So I need to how do
• 27:19
  Speaker 5: we even meet the man?
• 27:22
  Speaker 6: Clubb that's what y'auld listen to, y'all in the club God,
• 27:30
  Speaker 6: that's what you was in the What's Detailing?
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: God?
• 27:34
  Speaker 4: He was in that seawalking. That's how he got me.
• 27:38
  Speaker 2: Now you want you weren't doing this seawalks.
• 27:40
  Speaker 4: He was seawalking with a whole Dickie suit on.
• 27:42
  Speaker 1: I remember everything he had on. He had on a
• 27:45
  Speaker 1: kaki color and he had on a kaki He had
• 27:50
  Speaker 1: on a kaki colored dicky suit. He had on a
• 27:51
  Speaker 1: khaki little you know, we call him beanies at home,
• 27:54
  Speaker 1: but a skull cap.
• 27:55
  Speaker 2: And for me, it was just familiar.
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: It was home because you in the middle of this
• 28:01
  Speaker 1: club with all these guys with all these gold teeth
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: and these shirts. Because now, mind y'all win with two
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: thousand and three, two thousand and three. So they got
• 28:11
  Speaker 1: on shirts, they got on baggy jeans with sparkly stuff.
• 28:15
  Speaker 4: On the on the on the pockets.
• 28:18
  Speaker 2: You know, that's not that's that soldiable era.
• 28:20
  Speaker 1: Yeah.
• 28:21
  Speaker 4: And and just the grills and the and the and
• 28:23
  Speaker 4: the braids and all of that.
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: And me being an l a girl, just crease up
• 28:26
  Speaker 1: your little crease up your khakis and a T shirt
• 28:29
  Speaker 1: and some clean white shoes.
• 28:30
  Speaker 2: Yeah, that's it. And so he feel familiar.
• 28:33
  Speaker 4: He felt familiar, and he was in the club by himself.
• 28:37
  Speaker 5: Oh, now they don't do that. Yeah, they don't do that.
• 28:41
  Speaker 5: They gotta have somebody, they gotta have you. You're right,
• 28:44
  Speaker 5: you're right, you're right. So that attracted attract you, Okay,
• 28:47
  Speaker 5: And so how long did y'all date before y'all got married?
• 28:50
  Speaker 5: And how did you know because this is a lot
• 28:52
  Speaker 5: of questions, A lot of questions that a lot of
• 28:54
  Speaker 5: our yours have because we have like a lot of
• 28:56
  Speaker 5: single women that follow the brand.
• 29:00
  Speaker 2: How did you know that he was your one?
• 29:02
  Speaker 5: Because I can only imagine because I haven't heard you
• 29:04
  Speaker 5: say anything about your dad.
• 29:05
  Speaker 2: You witness your brother in jail.
• 29:07
  Speaker 5: You left this no good person right, and now you're
• 29:12
  Speaker 5: giving this man and a Kaki dickish too that called
• 29:15
  Speaker 5: by himself seawalking a chance.
• 29:18
  Speaker 2: Yeah, how does that transformation happen?
• 29:22
  Speaker 1: So, like we tell everybody, we got to get a
• 29:25
  Speaker 1: love story, like I love our getto love.
• 29:27
  Speaker 4: Story, like for real, I don't necessarily When did I
• 29:34
  Speaker 4: know he was the one?
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: Now, let me say this because I'm I'm I'm always
• 29:38
  Speaker 1: real and transparent, Like what you see today is not.
• 29:42
  Speaker 1: We've always been happy together, we've always loved each other.
• 29:46
  Speaker 1: But when two broken people get together, it's very toxic.
• 29:51
  Speaker 1: And so even though we have this beautiful love story, like,
• 29:54
  Speaker 1: it didn't start out healthy. It didn't start out healthy because,
• 29:58
  Speaker 1: like you said, talked about my father. You haven't heard
• 30:01
  Speaker 1: me talk about my father. But I knew Jamail would
• 30:05
  Speaker 1: drop anybody for me, like physically, like like.
• 30:09
  Speaker 2: Like I talking about like I knew that was actual.
• 30:15
  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, and see, like nobody's ever like I've always
• 30:18
  Speaker 1: had to fight for myself. I've always had to fight
• 30:21
  Speaker 1: for myself. So you haven't been protected, and I felt protected.
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: I felt protected two things. I felt protected.
• 30:29
  Speaker 4: And Jamail never promised me a scene.
• 30:33
  Speaker 2: Why Why is that important?
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: Because anybody that had ever promised me anything had broken
• 30:38
  Speaker 1: the promise disappointment.
• 30:40
  Speaker 5: So he his it was his actions because he was like,
• 30:43
  Speaker 5: I don't have to say anything, I'm just gonna do it.
• 30:45
  Speaker 1: And on one hand, you know, most most women wouldn't
• 30:48
  Speaker 1: wouldn't like that because you you know, you want to
• 30:51
  Speaker 1: hear a man talk about how I'm gonna give you
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: the world and I'm gonna do this and I'm gonna
• 30:54
  Speaker 1: do that. But if you don't tell me what you're doing,
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: I'm not really expecting you to come through.
• 31:00
  Speaker 2: Yeah, So just come through what you're gonna do.
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: And Jamel he's like that today. That's one of the
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: things that I love about him. If he if there's
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: a possibility that he can't come through on something, he's
• 31:09
  Speaker 1: not gonna say, he's not gonna promise you he can
• 31:12
  Speaker 1: do anything.
• 31:12
  Speaker 4: He's not gonna do that. He is he is a
• 31:15
  Speaker 4: man of his word. He is a man of his word, and.
• 31:18
  Speaker 2: That's something that I hadn't experienced.
• 31:19
  Speaker 4: And so it was kind of like a.
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: There was like this unspoken assurance, you know what I mean,
• 31:26
  Speaker 1: Like I know for sure that we were supposed.
• 31:28
  Speaker 2: To be together.
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: Yeah shoo, we have gotten married. At the time that
• 31:31
  Speaker 1: we got married, I don't think so. I think we
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: both had a lot of healing to do.
• 31:35
  Speaker 5: So if you went back, what would he to that point?
• 31:39
  Speaker 5: What would you suggest somebody that people in that age?
• 31:43
  Speaker 5: Because what how old were y'all at the time I.
• 31:45
  Speaker 4: Was when we got married, I was twenty five and
• 31:48
  Speaker 4: you were twenty four.
• 31:49
  Speaker 2: Yeah, oh he young. Oh, we just put it all
• 31:57
  Speaker 2: out there. He told me he was older.
• 32:00
  Speaker 4: He lied about his See, so we can't leave that story.
• 32:03
  Speaker 1: We can't leave that story because you know, how how
• 32:06
  Speaker 1: did you know or how were you comfortable with him?
• 32:08
  Speaker 1: And even in all of this, like so we started
• 32:10
  Speaker 1: staying together. To you, y'all, hear my story, but don't
• 32:14
  Speaker 1: don't do what we did.
• 32:15
  Speaker 2: Okay, hear my story.
• 32:17
  Speaker 4: Be inspired, but don't do what we did.
• 32:21
  Speaker 1: So we started staying together and he was at he
• 32:24
  Speaker 1: was at work one day and he had left his
• 32:26
  Speaker 1: wallet at the house and his wallet was kind of
• 32:28
  Speaker 1: like open and his eye his driver's license was right there,
• 32:32
  Speaker 1: and I was like, nineteen eighty one.
• 32:36
  Speaker 2: That started. You started calculating live it. I was like,
• 32:45
  Speaker 2: this ain't even in the first lit though, Like okay,
• 32:48
  Speaker 2: there we go. Okay, because he doesn't He's not lied
• 32:51
  Speaker 2: til this point.
• 32:53
  Speaker 4: You've been perfect. So you call home on your break
• 32:56
  Speaker 4: and I'm like, have you ever lied to me?
• 32:58
  Speaker 1: He was like, wait, you should always when a woman,
• 33:02
  Speaker 1: it's a whole set up. It's a whole set up.
• 33:04
  Speaker 4: And he was like, man, I ain't ever lie to
• 33:07
  Speaker 4: you by number of my age? Wait you on your
• 33:12
  Speaker 4: way home?
• 33:14
  Speaker 2: Because you could yet.
• 33:17
  Speaker 5: Because what did they do? Like you gave him opportunity
• 33:19
  Speaker 5: to tell the truth and held.
• 33:21
  Speaker 4: It and didn't have to think about It's not like
• 33:23
  Speaker 4: he had to be like what could she have found out?
• 33:24
  Speaker 2: What could you know? What I mean, there was none
• 33:26
  Speaker 2: of that.
• 33:26
  Speaker 1: It was just, man, the only thing I ever lied
• 33:28
  Speaker 1: to you about was my age. And so there I
• 33:31
  Speaker 1: am with the I d like, okay, and it did matter.
• 33:36
  Speaker 1: I'm mad, but we're gonna be all right because you
• 33:40
  Speaker 1: just told the truth.
• 33:42
  Speaker 2: Now did he tell you why he why he lied
• 33:45
  Speaker 2: about his age? What did he I think he said,
• 33:49
  Speaker 2: because I looked and we're talking about im. Because he
• 33:56
  Speaker 2: comes to the come to the mic. Man of God.
• 33:58
  Speaker 2: Just come, come on.
• 33:59
  Speaker 5: We wanted we want to hear why you Just come
• 34:01
  Speaker 5: right what des ray is and come explain yourself because
• 34:05
  Speaker 5: we were talking. We're talking about you.
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: Real bad right now. But you are a good man
• 34:09
  Speaker 2: of God. Why you lie about your age? Because I
• 34:13
  Speaker 2: always gave myself an extra year because you know, I
• 34:16
  Speaker 2: expected you know, people expect to live.
• 34:19
  Speaker 1: To the next year.
• 34:23
  Speaker 2: When you have come to the mic, come to the mic,
• 34:26
  Speaker 2: I just, you know, because I.
• 34:28
  Speaker 1: Didn't have an expectation to live the next year, so
• 34:31
  Speaker 1: I gave myself an extra year.
• 34:33
  Speaker 2: I just I just hoped that year. And that's all
• 34:36
  Speaker 2: it was. So he prophesied over himself. That's what he
• 34:40
  Speaker 2: That's what he just said. Did you ever hear that
• 34:41
  Speaker 2: answer before?
• 34:43
  Speaker 1: Oh?
• 34:44
  Speaker 2: That meant? What does that when you hear that answer?
• 34:46
  Speaker 2: What does what does that do to you?
• 34:54
  Speaker 1: It reminds me of what your voice. It reminds me
• 34:58
  Speaker 1: of the power of your words. Like y'alls me up.
• 35:03
  Speaker 5: Yeah, I laughed until he started. He said because people
• 35:07
  Speaker 5: said I wasn't gonna make it to the next year.
• 35:10
  Speaker 2: So he went lying. Now we can't say he was lying.
• 35:12
  Speaker 2: He was prophesying. He was man that.
• 35:17
  Speaker 5: Okay, sir, we're gonna we're gonna send you your invite
• 35:20
  Speaker 5: in a minute. Okay, we're gonna we're gonna send you
• 35:23
  Speaker 5: your invite. DJ No, no that you kind of you
• 35:29
  Speaker 5: kind of we was. We was on the floor and
• 35:31
  Speaker 5: you kind of like. It's something when a powerful man
• 35:38
  Speaker 5: walk in the room and then he speaks, it do
• 35:41
  Speaker 5: damage to hell. Yeah, it does, damn because that's what
• 35:44
  Speaker 5: they're telling our black men, like they're not gonna make
• 35:47
  Speaker 5: it to the next day, the next month, they're alone,
• 35:49
  Speaker 5: next year. But he said, no, I'm gonna make it
• 35:51
  Speaker 5: to this year. So so the question is how old
• 35:53
  Speaker 5: are you today? What's the age today?
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: Okay you still are you still doing that?
• 36:01
  Speaker 1: No?
• 36:02
  Speaker 2: Okay, we ain't lied about our age.
• 36:06
  Speaker 1: No.
• 36:06
  Speaker 2: That's so.
• 36:08
  Speaker 5: Now we get to the over the prophet signing moment. Right,
• 36:12
  Speaker 5: So because you can't say you lie. No moment after
• 36:15
  Speaker 5: after this moment, you can't say he lied. That's that's
• 36:17
  Speaker 5: a different story. Now, So y'all get married at twenty
• 36:21
  Speaker 5: four twenty five and so.
• 36:24
  Speaker 2: Y'all, but y'all, you're pregnant before marriage?
• 36:29
  Speaker 4: Yes, so we had.
• 36:32
  Speaker 1: We had Joshua seven months before we got married. Okay,
• 36:37
  Speaker 1: so that was like pre the Lord in our life.
• 36:41
  Speaker 5: So let's talk about that because some people, y'all have
• 36:45
  Speaker 5: made it. It's almost like y'all.
• 36:46
  Speaker 2: Have grown up. We have grown up together. Yeah, emotionally,
• 36:51
  Speaker 2: what does that look like?
• 36:52
  Speaker 5: Because I know personally people that started out young in
• 36:56
  Speaker 5: their marriage and there I'm they're experiencing like a whirlwind
• 37:00
  Speaker 5: because there's different development going on, there's different attacks going on.
• 37:06
  Speaker 5: And when you when you're young and you're married, it's
• 37:08
  Speaker 5: the puppul love. But then marriage is different when you're
• 37:12
  Speaker 5: you know, older, it means different. Like what has been
• 37:14
  Speaker 5: the biggest, you know, transitional moment, a point that you
• 37:19
  Speaker 5: can say, this is what changed our marriage or this
• 37:21
  Speaker 5: is what made sure our marriage was solid.
• 37:26
  Speaker 1: Wow, so many pivotal moments because there's so much evolution
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: in marriage. So the first will probably be the first
• 37:42
  Speaker 1: transition in our marriage would be when God spoke and
• 37:46
  Speaker 1: told us that we would have two daughters.
• 37:49
  Speaker 2: We already had.
• 37:50
  Speaker 1: Two sons with no money, just the love of God
• 37:55
  Speaker 1: and a little match box apartment, like where we gonna
• 37:58
  Speaker 1: put where we're gonna with two girls.
• 38:01
  Speaker 2: Now, at the point that you received that word, did
• 38:03
  Speaker 2: you believe in the prophetic or were you it makes sense?
• 38:08
  Speaker 4: No, it didn't make sense to me at all. And
• 38:10
  Speaker 4: for me to ida bely hear God say that.
• 38:12
  Speaker 1: To me, Oh he said it to you nobody? Oh
• 38:16
  Speaker 1: why said it to me? And I was like freaking
• 38:20
  Speaker 1: out because I didn't grow up in church.
• 38:23
  Speaker 4: Well, let me say this.
• 38:24
  Speaker 2: I went to church, but.
• 38:27
  Speaker 4: Yeah, that was a whole other thing.
• 38:30
  Speaker 1: But the church that I went to, they didn't believe
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: in speaking in tongues, they didn't believe in being filled
• 38:34
  Speaker 1: with the whole, they didn't believe in laying on hands,
• 38:36
  Speaker 1: they didn't believe in any of that. So all of like,
• 38:39
  Speaker 1: hearing God's voice like that was something new to me,
• 38:41
  Speaker 1: But I knew, I knew that it was God.
• 38:44
  Speaker 2: Like I will never forget. I was in the kitchen cooking.
• 38:47
  Speaker 1: Tacos and heard the clearest day, clearest day only with
• 38:51
  Speaker 1: certain things, only with certain things. And God's words to
• 38:55
  Speaker 1: me in that moment was believe me for two girls,
• 38:58
  Speaker 1: not necessarily that you have. He said, believe me for
• 39:01
  Speaker 1: two girls. And I remember going and sitting and sitting
• 39:06
  Speaker 1: on the couch next to Jamel, and I was like, Hey,
• 39:10
  Speaker 1: how many children do you want? And he was like,
• 39:14
  Speaker 1: it would be nice to have a girl. You know,
• 39:16
  Speaker 1: we got the boys, it'll be nice to have a girl.
• 39:19
  Speaker 1: And I was like, I just heard something, you know,
• 39:22
  Speaker 1: and he was like what. And I was like, God
• 39:24
  Speaker 1: just told me to believe him for two girls. And
• 39:27
  Speaker 1: so Jamel was like two well, well, like how did
• 39:30
  Speaker 1: he say, you know? And now he wants to know,
• 39:32
  Speaker 1: like what the conversation was, and I'm just sitting there.
• 39:34
  Speaker 1: I'm like, that's what he said, like literally, that's what
• 39:37
  Speaker 1: he said. And I think I ended up finding out
• 39:39
  Speaker 1: maybe about two weeks.
• 39:40
  Speaker 2: Later that I was pregnant. Oh wow.
• 39:43
  Speaker 4: So for me, I'm like, I heard God, I'm pregnant,
• 39:46
  Speaker 4: and here we go.
• 39:48
  Speaker 2: I was excited. Wow, I was excited.
• 39:51
  Speaker 5: So your experience and I'm so glad you're saying this
• 39:54
  Speaker 5: right now, because sometimes we limit, not sometimes a lot
• 39:57
  Speaker 5: of times we limit God moment to the church or
• 40:02
  Speaker 5: depending on people to say certain things. But people will
• 40:07
  Speaker 5: be like something told me or da da da da,
• 40:09
  Speaker 5: and you not even being a full believer, like really
• 40:12
  Speaker 5: understanding what's going on and to hear something and to
• 40:18
  Speaker 5: call it God, and then two weeks later know that
• 40:22
  Speaker 5: you're pregnant, and so you're like, oh, I already know
• 40:23
  Speaker 5: it's a girl. Like like, I already know it's a girl.
• 40:26
  Speaker 5: That's a different level of faith. That's a different level
• 40:29
  Speaker 5: of faith. And so so speaking of your girls, and
• 40:31
  Speaker 5: I'm walking down to hear that if it to to
• 40:36
  Speaker 5: to be pregnant, to know that it's a girl, only
• 40:40
  Speaker 5: to find out that it was a boy.
• 40:42
  Speaker 2: Oh, three sons. Yeah, so the two sons were your
• 40:46
  Speaker 2: your son before.
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: My son, my my my son before I met Jamel.
• 40:53
  Speaker 1: And then the son that we had together at this
• 40:55
  Speaker 1: point is maybe six months old seven.
• 41:00
  Speaker 2: No, this is right after.
• 41:01
  Speaker 1: This is right after we got married, so he had
• 41:03
  Speaker 1: to be maybe about nine ten months old.
• 41:05
  Speaker 2: Yeah, so this third child was a son, was a.
• 41:09
  Speaker 1: Son, and so there it was, Yeah, you don't hear God,
• 41:17
  Speaker 1: And so now I doubt everything I hear because.
• 41:20
  Speaker 2: You told me that I would.
• 41:22
  Speaker 4: You said believe me for two girls, and I'm pregnant
• 41:28
  Speaker 4: and I'm out here just proclaiming that I didn't heard you,
• 41:32
  Speaker 4: and I'm carrying this little girl, only to find out
• 41:34
  Speaker 4: that it's a little boy.
• 41:38
  Speaker 2: So what was your relationship after you found out with God?
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: Like?
• 41:43
  Speaker 2: What did that? How did that cause? I know you said,
• 41:45
  Speaker 2: oh I don't hear him, but like we were good,
• 41:48
  Speaker 2: Me and God were good. This is the thing.
• 41:50
  Speaker 1: I never doubted God. I doubt it myself. I never
• 41:54
  Speaker 1: doubted God. There was something wrong with me. There was
• 41:57
  Speaker 1: a reason why I didn't hear clear.
• 42:00
  Speaker 2: Was at the first? Was that so your your hope
• 42:03
  Speaker 2: in yourself diluted?
• 42:05
  Speaker 5: That's that's crazy coming I won't say crazy, but that's
• 42:07
  Speaker 5: wild coming from you because you believe in yourself so much,
• 42:11
  Speaker 5: like you've done so much, you have so much evidence
• 42:13
  Speaker 5: of execution. Yeah, but what you see, that's what I say,
• 42:17
  Speaker 5: And that's what I'm talking about, Like, that's what I see,
• 42:20
  Speaker 5: and but that's maybe not what what you experienced. So
• 42:23
  Speaker 5: at that moment, So when you how long was it
• 42:27
  Speaker 5: before because you got this third child?
• 42:28
  Speaker 2: But the fourth child was the girl? Okay, so when
• 42:33
  Speaker 2: that did happen? How did that?
• 42:36
  Speaker 5: Did that?
• 42:36
  Speaker 2: Did your you start believing in yourself? Like what was
• 42:38
  Speaker 2: your belief system?
• 42:39
  Speaker 1: Like it was it was a this this moment in
• 42:45
  Speaker 1: time for us having Isaiah and still knowing that. So
• 42:51
  Speaker 1: at this you gotta understand. We've had Isaiah, we understand
• 42:55
  Speaker 1: and know that God has said that believe him for
• 42:57
  Speaker 1: two girls. So the devastation of it is, hey, we've
• 43:00
  Speaker 1: don'na have five children, you know what I mean, Like
• 43:02
  Speaker 1: we don't have the money, and.
• 43:03
  Speaker 5: Now you didn't want to be a mother. He just
• 43:06
  Speaker 5: wanted what did he want? Originally just a few kids
• 43:10
  Speaker 5: and be done.
• 43:11
  Speaker 2: Like I want him to tell his own story. I
• 43:15
  Speaker 2: want to tell his story.
• 43:17
  Speaker 1: But like he was on some twisted stuff and so
• 43:19
  Speaker 1: something was like that's why I say, like we love
• 43:22
  Speaker 1: each other and we've been through so much, but like
• 43:23
  Speaker 1: I should have been This should have been a red
• 43:25
  Speaker 1: flag because he wanted two children. Like we're talking about
• 43:29
  Speaker 1: this pre marriage, like pre me being pregnant with who
• 43:33
  Speaker 1: with Joshua.
• 43:34
  Speaker 4: We call him fat. Everybody knows miss fat, and we're
• 43:36
  Speaker 4: talking about fat. This is pre fact.
• 43:39
  Speaker 1: Yeah, we ain't got no children, we ain't got no
• 43:41
  Speaker 1: ties together. We just chilling and like in casual conversation,
• 43:44
  Speaker 1: he was like, yeah, I want two baby mamas.
• 43:47
  Speaker 4: What I want a girl with one and I want
• 43:49
  Speaker 4: a boy with the other.
• 43:51
  Speaker 2: Ain't over at laughing because he knows, but like, and I'm.
• 43:56
  Speaker 1: You know, I'm so free in my life right now,
• 43:58
  Speaker 1: y'all could judge me and feel how I got the.
• 44:00
  Speaker 4: Man and he got five pod period?
• 44:04
  Speaker 1: Clock it because you know they be judging man happy
• 44:09
  Speaker 1: to be married. Well no, like I'm judging myself though, Like, baby,
• 44:12
  Speaker 1: what was what was so wrong with you that you
• 44:14
  Speaker 1: weren't like, hey, let me.
• 44:14
  Speaker 4: Get my stuff and get abody here. And I was
• 44:18
  Speaker 4: just like, okay, if that's what you want.
• 44:23
  Speaker 2: But in my mind, no, no, no, no, no, let's
• 44:25
  Speaker 2: go let's go back.
• 44:26
  Speaker 5: Okay, So I ain't gonna act like I ain't done
• 44:28
  Speaker 5: nothing crazy before, like okay, so what what would you say?
• 44:35
  Speaker 1: Uh?
• 44:35
  Speaker 2: Formed that response that you would be like, okay, it's
• 44:40
  Speaker 2: okay to have two baby mamas.
• 44:42
  Speaker 4: I don't think I at that point that we had
• 44:45
  Speaker 4: that conversation.
• 44:46
  Speaker 2: I don't think like I saw us married.
• 44:49
  Speaker 1: I don't think I saw all of that like because
• 44:53
  Speaker 1: that was never marriage was never anything that in all
• 44:56
  Speaker 1: of this is pre knowing who Christ is.
• 44:59
  Speaker 4: You get I'm saying, this is before we accept Christ.
• 45:02
  Speaker 4: So like and even us getting married.
• 45:06
  Speaker 2: There was never a.
• 45:09
  Speaker 1: There was never an engagement. There there was an engagement
• 45:13
  Speaker 1: There was never a proposal. There was never there was
• 45:15
  Speaker 1: a decision that was made because we had come to
• 45:19
  Speaker 1: know God, we were staying together. We had we had Josh,
• 45:22
  Speaker 1: we had cool, we living together.
• 45:25
  Speaker 4: We ain't finna change that.
• 45:26
  Speaker 2: We know that we want to be together.
• 45:28
  Speaker 1: But now Conviction his city, and so if we're not
• 45:32
  Speaker 1: going to separate, let's do it right.
• 45:35
  Speaker 2: So, at what point did y'all did? Y'all started going
• 45:37
  Speaker 2: to church? Was a small group. Okay, what church was this?
• 45:39
  Speaker 1: So this was this was Harvest Church. We remembers of
• 45:44
  Speaker 1: Harvest Church in the beginning, which was his family's church.
• 45:46
  Speaker 1: He didn't want to go to his family's church, and
• 45:49
  Speaker 1: I didn't want to go to my mom's church. So
• 45:51
  Speaker 1: he loved to go to my mom's church because you know,
• 45:53
  Speaker 1: and I'm not going to name that church, but we
• 45:55
  Speaker 1: loved to go to church with her.
• 45:56
  Speaker 4: It was all the hooping and you know, all the
• 45:58
  Speaker 4: all of the things.
• 45:59
  Speaker 1: Yeah, and I loved his mom's church because I had never,
• 46:04
  Speaker 1: like I had never up until that point, experienced the
• 46:09
  Speaker 1: word being taught like that, like I had always been
• 46:12
  Speaker 1: in experiences where there was a lot of hooping, There
• 46:14
  Speaker 1: was a lot of hollering, there was a lot of emotion,
• 46:17
  Speaker 1: and when you leave, like you just had a good time,
• 46:20
  Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I didn't really see the
• 46:22
  Speaker 1: word coming to life in the lives of people like
• 46:26
  Speaker 1: I didn't experience that myself. I didn't have that around me.
• 46:30
  Speaker 1: But at his mom's church, like I could understand the word.
• 46:33
  Speaker 2: I was just. I was stuck.
• 46:34
  Speaker 4: I was drawn in like and I would just soak
• 46:37
  Speaker 4: it up like a sponge. I loved it.
• 46:39
  Speaker 1: And for one when we first got together, his mom
• 46:43
  Speaker 1: had cancer. His mom had cancer, and I had never
• 46:47
  Speaker 1: in all of my twenty three twenty four years seen
• 46:51
  Speaker 1: a person beat cancer. Everybody that I knew that had
• 46:55
  Speaker 1: cancer up until that point had died, and so I.
• 46:57
  Speaker 2: Wanted to get to know who she knew, why she missed.
• 47:02
  Speaker 4: She never missed work.
• 47:04
  Speaker 1: She was leading praise and worship, and I remember her
• 47:06
  Speaker 1: having surgery and them telling her that she wasn't gonna
• 47:09
  Speaker 1: be able to lift her hands, and.
• 47:11
  Speaker 4: She was like, I have to go back every week
• 47:12
  Speaker 4: and get stitches because I'm gonna lift my hands.
• 47:17
  Speaker 1: Wow. I was just.
• 47:18
  Speaker 4: I was drawn today.
• 47:19
  Speaker 1: I was drawn to that, and I remember having a
• 47:21
  Speaker 1: conversation with her. She never really invited me to church
• 47:24
  Speaker 1: or anything like that. I was having a conversation with her,
• 47:29
  Speaker 1: just telling her like, hey, like I'm starting to feel
• 47:31
  Speaker 1: like I'm sneaking Jamail in the window at my mom house.
• 47:35
  Speaker 1: But we were both staying together, both paying you know,
• 47:37
  Speaker 1: paying bills, doing all of that, and I was just like,
• 47:39
  Speaker 1: something just doesn't feel right. And so she took the
• 47:42
  Speaker 1: time to explain to me what the something was. The
• 47:45
  Speaker 1: something wow, And so she was just like, come come
• 47:48
  Speaker 1: to church with me Sunday. And so I went to
• 47:51
  Speaker 1: church with her and I sat there in the word
• 47:53
  Speaker 1: just I soaked it up. And I remember coming home
• 47:55
  Speaker 1: being like, jam why don't.
• 47:56
  Speaker 2: You go to you?
• 47:57
  Speaker 4: Why aren't we going to her church?
• 47:59
  Speaker 2: What is this butch?
• 48:00
  Speaker 1: You know, his family being his family and him having
• 48:03
  Speaker 1: the past and all of that, he had his reasons,
• 48:05
  Speaker 1: you know for not wanting to be there. Yeah, So
• 48:08
  Speaker 1: he would go with my mom, I would go with
• 48:10
  Speaker 1: his mom. We would kind of go back and forth together.
• 48:13
  Speaker 1: But I absolutely loved going there because I look and
• 48:17
  Speaker 1: I now know because it was it was just a.
• 48:19
  Speaker 4: Teacher and me coming a lot. Yeah you know what
• 48:20
  Speaker 4: I mean, Like I was, it was like an oasis.
• 48:22
  Speaker 1: Yeah, Wow, it was an oasis and I loved it,
• 48:26
  Speaker 1: Ate it up, ate it up, and you know, we
• 48:28
  Speaker 1: were there and I can remember having fact I fat
• 48:34
  Speaker 1: was about two weeks old, two three weeks old.
• 48:37
  Speaker 2: It was.
• 48:37
  Speaker 1: It was Easter Sunday. We all that's when we all
• 48:40
  Speaker 1: went to church together. And we never stopped going after that.
• 48:44
  Speaker 1: And so maybe about a month later, I remember getting
• 48:47
  Speaker 1: up that morning. I'd be like, okay, when they opened
• 48:50
  Speaker 1: the doors of the church, baby, I'm going up the baby.
• 48:52
  Speaker 4: I'm getting saved today. I didn't have that conversation with Jamel.
• 48:56
  Speaker 4: I just knew that that's what I was going to do.
• 48:58
  Speaker 1: And so I was in the back making a buy
• 49:00
  Speaker 1: for the baby when they gave the invitation and I
• 49:03
  Speaker 1: was like, let me hurry up so I could get
• 49:05
  Speaker 1: up there. And when I got up there, Jamal was
• 49:07
  Speaker 1: up there. Wow, And I was like okay, and I
• 49:11
  Speaker 1: just went and scooped his hand up. And they're when
• 49:14
  Speaker 1: our journey started together. So we got saved together, we
• 49:18
  Speaker 1: got filled with the Holy Ghost together, we got we
• 49:21
  Speaker 1: got we got baptized together. Like we literally have walked
• 49:26
  Speaker 1: this thing out, literally had walked this thing out.
• 49:30
  Speaker 2: See you this, I don't think you really understand what
• 49:32
  Speaker 2: you're saying right now, because.
• 49:37
  Speaker 5: This is the difference between doing things with God and
• 49:42
  Speaker 5: doing things without God. This is what you're this is
• 49:46
  Speaker 5: what I'm hearing right Doing life, marriage, business without God.
• 49:52
  Speaker 5: It leaves a void, It leaves confusion, it leaves disruption,
• 49:55
  Speaker 5: it leaves a path of destruction, right, And we kind
• 49:59
  Speaker 5: of flow.
• 50:00
  Speaker 2: The idea of destruction, but.
• 50:05
  Speaker 5: It's destructive, right, And so we And the picture that
• 50:09
  Speaker 5: you just painted of mister Jamail being at the altar
• 50:16
  Speaker 5: before you come on, girl, that was your wedding day
• 50:22
  Speaker 5: for real, if you really look at it, and how
• 50:26
  Speaker 5: how the woman comes down the aisle to the husband
• 50:30
  Speaker 5: that that was your sign right there. I'm getting I
• 50:35
  Speaker 5: am getting chills because the picture that God like, I
• 50:38
  Speaker 5: can literally see He was like, Oh, you're gonna come
• 50:40
  Speaker 5: to God, but you're not gonna come.
• 50:41
  Speaker 2: To God along Jesus.
• 50:44
  Speaker 5: Your when they say marriage made in Heaven, a match
• 50:48
  Speaker 5: made in heaven, I can literally hear that for you.
• 50:51
  Speaker 5: And so when people say I'm frustrated with my marriage
• 50:55
  Speaker 5: and my marriage was this, but what was God in it?
• 50:58
  Speaker 5: You know what I'm saying, And so and I hear
• 51:00
  Speaker 5: one of the other this is also bringing up the
• 51:03
  Speaker 5: Desert Ray when Miss Tabb was talking about her and
• 51:06
  Speaker 5: mister chance relationship, and she was like, you know, because.
• 51:10
  Speaker 2: They had.
• 51:12
  Speaker 5: Choice, choice, thank you. They had choice before they got
• 51:17
  Speaker 5: married too, but they you know, Chance. I don't think
• 51:21
  Speaker 5: Chance was really promptu going or doing the relationship with
• 51:26
  Speaker 5: God type of thing whatever, but they end up doing
• 51:27
  Speaker 5: this thing together. It reminds me of that. And to
• 51:30
  Speaker 5: see marriages like that thrive. You know what I'm saying,
• 51:33
  Speaker 5: y'all have one. Y'all is like, it's something better than this,
• 51:36
  Speaker 5: It's something better. And then when y'all figure out that
• 51:38
  Speaker 5: something is better, y'all lean into that something, which is
• 51:41
  Speaker 5: God ultimately.
• 51:42
  Speaker 2: So I love man.
• 51:45
  Speaker 1: Because I know we're winding down here, but your story
• 51:50
  Speaker 1: is so massive and it's so many questions I want
• 51:52
  Speaker 1: to ask you. But I feel like we're harping on
• 51:55
  Speaker 1: your family right now because you've created businesses plural. You
• 52:02
  Speaker 1: heard what I said, it's it's is businesses through legacy
• 52:08
  Speaker 1: and so fast forwarded from the altar to the the
• 52:13
  Speaker 1: prophecy fulfilled. You have two girls, two beautiful girls.
• 52:17
  Speaker 2: Okay that you are.
• 52:19
  Speaker 5: You are teaching technique, you're teaching business. You teach I mean,
• 52:24
  Speaker 5: you're teaching them how to make it when they step
• 52:28
  Speaker 5: out in life like that, that that deserves all flaws,
• 52:33
  Speaker 5: Like you have them together to where they will not
• 52:37
  Speaker 5: experience what you experience in the teens.
• 52:40
  Speaker 2: That's that's that is, that is the mission, that's the
• 52:45
  Speaker 2: whole you. You are doing it. So we gotta get
• 52:47
  Speaker 2: into what you offering.
• 52:50
  Speaker 1: How what like?
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: I know what what age did you start doing here?
• 52:55
  Speaker 2: I was probably twelve.
• 52:56
  Speaker 4: I probably started doing.
• 52:58
  Speaker 2: Here for profit at fifteen.
• 53:01
  Speaker 5: So now you go from fifteen to when did I
• 53:04
  Speaker 5: am ay ishimonique come about?
• 53:07
  Speaker 1: I am is is shimonique came about in twenty twenty.
• 53:12
  Speaker 1: I am ishimonique came about in twenty twenty. And it
• 53:15
  Speaker 1: just came from a question that God asked me, who
• 53:18
  Speaker 1: are you?
• 53:21
  Speaker 2: Who are you?
• 53:23
  Speaker 1: And there I went with my journal in my Bible.
• 53:25
  Speaker 1: I'm about to go through the whole Bible and discover
• 53:27
  Speaker 1: who I am.
• 53:28
  Speaker 2: And he just kept asking me who are you? Who
• 53:31
  Speaker 2: are you? Who are you? And I was like, God,
• 53:34
  Speaker 2: what do you mean?
• 53:35
  Speaker 1: Because it was like I wasn't grasping what he was saying,
• 53:37
  Speaker 1: And out of frustration, I said, A is shimonique, And
• 53:42
  Speaker 1: all of a sudden a AM. I could see the AM,
• 53:46
  Speaker 1: and he was like, you are everything I called you
• 53:48
  Speaker 1: to be.
• 53:49
  Speaker 2: That's so good. You are the opposite of.
• 53:51
  Speaker 4: Everything anybody besides me has told you that you are.
• 53:54
  Speaker 1: That's how I AM came about me stepping out of
• 53:58
  Speaker 1: everything that I wasn't into every everything that I am.
• 54:01
  Speaker 4: That's that's where it was born. That's where it was born.
• 54:04
  Speaker 2: And so I knew.
• 54:07
  Speaker 1: Then that everything I did had to fall under who
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: I was, because I couldn't do it within myself, because
• 54:12
  Speaker 1: I was still fighting back and forth with all the
• 54:14
  Speaker 1: voices of everybody that told me what I wouldn't be,
• 54:17
  Speaker 1: who I wouldn't be because of who my mom was,
• 54:20
  Speaker 1: because of who my dad was. You know, like my
• 54:24
  Speaker 1: mom was diagnosed with clinical depression, my dad was schizophrenic.
• 54:30
  Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying. Like I shouldn't I shouldn't
• 54:32
  Speaker 1: be sitting here right now in my right mind, in
• 54:37
  Speaker 1: my right mind and the life that I was living
• 54:39
  Speaker 1: before this. I shouldn't be sitting here with five children.
• 54:42
  Speaker 1: I should be sterile. We're gonna leave that right there.
• 54:44
  Speaker 1: What y'all be calling it smacking, I did.
• 54:49
  Speaker 4: I am the smack earl.
• 54:54
  Speaker 2: But now we're holy hunting.
• 55:03
  Speaker 4: But that's real, seriously, seriously.
• 55:08
  Speaker 2: And so just.
• 55:11
  Speaker 1: And even navigating life as a girl mom and God
• 55:16
  Speaker 1: having to remind me that their story is not you know,
• 55:19
  Speaker 1: my story, isn't their story, like don't.
• 55:21
  Speaker 4: I was parenting them from fear fear. I was like
• 55:27
  Speaker 4: with that sixteen year.
• 55:28
  Speaker 1: Old, beautiful, beautiful, and they be at her and you know,
• 55:33
  Speaker 1: I was handling her like her mindset was my mindset,
• 55:35
  Speaker 1: Like she was about to go and do what I
• 55:37
  Speaker 1: was doing. And God had to be like, no, she
• 55:41
  Speaker 1: she No, she wasn't raised in that environment. She wasn't
• 55:44
  Speaker 1: raised with that. And so even in raising her, I'm
• 55:48
  Speaker 1: here like I am consciously healing, like on purpose so
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: that I don't break her, Like I have a responsibility
• 55:56
  Speaker 1: not to break her. Oh good, I think I'm my
• 56:03
  Speaker 1: I got like chilled on the back of my arms
• 56:05
  Speaker 1: right now because I feel the time that we have
• 56:10
  Speaker 1: and your story is too big for the time that
• 56:12
  Speaker 1: we have, So we're gonna have to do a part too.
• 56:15
  Speaker 2: But I really want to get to.
• 56:18
  Speaker 5: I wanted to get to that to make people make
• 56:20
  Speaker 5: sense of why your brand is so powerful, right because
• 56:24
  Speaker 5: you have the two girls, and now the two girls
• 56:29
  Speaker 5: have are part of a brand to where you've not
• 56:32
  Speaker 5: only taught them a trade, but you've taught them business.
• 56:37
  Speaker 2: And so this business that you just launched, Crowned, I.
• 56:41
  Speaker 5: Want to get into week class. I want to get
• 56:46
  Speaker 5: into it. Like, how long have you been trying to
• 56:48
  Speaker 5: birth Crown out?
• 56:49
  Speaker 4: Since twenty twenty?
• 56:51
  Speaker 2: Oh?
• 56:51
  Speaker 4: Wow?
• 56:52
  Speaker 2: Since twenty twenty. Yeah, and let's explain what Crown is.
• 56:58
  Speaker 2: What is Crown is a full hair care line.
• 57:03
  Speaker 1: Yeah, with natural hair care products, shampoos to conditioners to
• 57:09
  Speaker 1: hair butters.
• 57:10
  Speaker 2: We got.
• 57:12
  Speaker 1: We got the men's line, We have the zoelock line.
• 57:15
  Speaker 1: We got a kids line coming out before the year
• 57:18
  Speaker 1: is out. I didn't want to put everything out at
• 57:19
  Speaker 1: one time, but it just started with the oil. It
• 57:22
  Speaker 1: literally started with the oil. And I think I don't
• 57:24
  Speaker 1: I can't remember if I was talking to desk. I
• 57:26
  Speaker 1: can't remember who I was talking to. But I carried
• 57:28
  Speaker 1: this baby for so long. This baby should have been
• 57:32
  Speaker 1: birthed a long time ago. But my baby was born
• 57:35
  Speaker 1: with babies. Wow.
• 57:40
  Speaker 2: When she came out, she was just the oil. She
• 57:43
  Speaker 2: was just the oil. She was just the oil. But
• 57:45
  Speaker 2: God would not allow me to miscarry. I love God
• 57:49
  Speaker 2: so much.
• 57:50
  Speaker 4: I live him so much. It was painful birth in her.
• 57:53
  Speaker 4: She was huge when she.
• 57:54
  Speaker 5: Came because you got products and I got a whole.
• 58:00
  Speaker 5: You got products. I was looking at yourself. I was like,
• 58:03
  Speaker 5: do she You really got a store? So when people
• 58:06
  Speaker 5: gonna get their hair done, you're like, all.
• 58:08
  Speaker 1: Right, girl with these braids, go ahead and make you
• 58:11
  Speaker 1: massage Scott with this shampool will get their dand drap.
• 58:13
  Speaker 2: I don't want to come. I don't want you to
• 58:14
  Speaker 2: come with you to me.
• 58:15
  Speaker 5: Yeah, like you you have that and me and doesn't
• 58:18
  Speaker 5: Ray were talking about, you know earlier, how it's important
• 58:23
  Speaker 5: for us as king, as believers to make an offer
• 58:27
  Speaker 5: and some of us, like me, have been afraid and
• 58:30
  Speaker 5: intimidated to make the offer. And I'm just so proud
• 58:33
  Speaker 5: of you, Like, and you're gonna be blessing heads heads
• 58:37
  Speaker 5: that you would never see.
• 58:40
  Speaker 2: Yeah, like that, Like that's the part we don't really get.
• 58:44
  Speaker 4: No, Like that, that for me is human. That's been
• 58:47
  Speaker 4: one of the things that I just been like, oh
• 58:49
  Speaker 4: my god, Like that was scary for me.
• 58:51
  Speaker 2: That was scary for me.
• 58:53
  Speaker 4: That was scary for me, Like you could literally literally
• 58:57
  Speaker 4: reach nations.
• 59:00
  Speaker 5: I'm proud of you, Like that deadline is lining everything
• 59:04
  Speaker 5: looks good. Everything you know you now you got to
• 59:07
  Speaker 5: say you had a lot lined. I might need to
• 59:08
  Speaker 5: try a little product because oh, bring it here, bring
• 59:13
  Speaker 5: it here. Don't tell me you brought me anything with
• 59:15
  Speaker 5: your logo on here and we on here live.
• 59:18
  Speaker 2: Bring it here, bring it here. I want I want it,
• 59:21
  Speaker 2: I want it. So we love a good product. Oh
• 59:27
  Speaker 2: oh oh, take take me through what's in the bag,
• 59:30
  Speaker 2: Walk me through the bank. Put the camera on her.
• 59:32
  Speaker 2: Just focus. Go ahead. This is your time to shine girl.
• 59:34
  Speaker 2: This is my this is you mm hmm. Yeah, we're
• 59:39
  Speaker 2: gonna get into it. You got to hold it up
• 59:43
  Speaker 2: right here.
• 59:44
  Speaker 4: So what we have here, let's where do we want
• 59:46
  Speaker 4: to start. Okay, let's start with this.
• 59:49
  Speaker 1: So this is our Crown brand and this is actually
• 59:52
  Speaker 1: the Zoelck line. If you don't know, I have a
• 59:54
  Speaker 1: signature micro lock and it's called Zoey Lock. It's named
• 59:58
  Speaker 1: after Jamiria. Yeah, that's where the Zoe comes from. So
• 1:00:01
  Speaker 1: the zoe lock is my signature lock. Well the only
• 1:00:05
  Speaker 1: lock that I do, but I signature by name. This
• 1:00:09
  Speaker 1: is a detoxifying shampoo. Apple site of vinegar Pham shampoo
• 1:00:14
  Speaker 1: for your locks. Very mild and smell.
• 1:00:19
  Speaker 2: It is great. Yeah.
• 1:00:22
  Speaker 4: And then this is my Zoe Locked milk.
• 1:00:26
  Speaker 1: So this is like a conditioning moisturizer, like a leaving
• 1:00:28
  Speaker 1: conditioner moisturizer for your locks. It'll be really good for
• 1:00:32
  Speaker 1: your locks because you have the color. Yeah, it'll it'll
• 1:00:35
  Speaker 1: keep them, keep them strong.
• 1:00:36
  Speaker 2: I can't wait to do this.
• 1:00:38
  Speaker 1: And then and then this is our hair growth oil.
• 1:00:41
  Speaker 1: This is this is the baby we started out with. Okay,
• 1:00:44
  Speaker 1: this is who we started out with.
• 1:00:45
  Speaker 2: Okay.
• 1:00:46
  Speaker 1: And actually this morning, your auntie Tara, she texts me
• 1:00:49
  Speaker 1: this morning and she sent me three different bottles.
• 1:00:54
  Speaker 2: She was like, the.
• 1:00:55
  Speaker 1: Evolution of the brand is crazy. She has all three
• 1:00:59
  Speaker 1: of the labels that I started out with.
• 1:01:01
  Speaker 4: She was like, I'm so proud of you. And just
• 1:01:02
  Speaker 4: looking at it this morning, I was.
• 1:01:04
  Speaker 2: Like, manhole line, the whole line. No, that's finished. Finished.
• 1:01:11
  Speaker 2: How you do that oil?
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 1: Though?
• 1:01:12
  Speaker 2: Yeah? But I said, I see a little some stuff
• 1:01:13
  Speaker 2: in there. You got you got that? You make make that?
• 1:01:16
  Speaker 4: Oh yeah yeah yeah, I make make this.
• 1:01:20
  Speaker 2: I make make this in the kitchen. Ain't and it
• 1:01:23
  Speaker 2: looks what is that floated? Let me see it?
• 1:01:26
  Speaker 4: Some nerves in there floating. We ain't gonna tell them
• 1:01:28
  Speaker 4: what's in there?
• 1:01:29
  Speaker 2: Okay, Okay, well, we ain't gonna tell them, but now
• 1:01:31
  Speaker 2: this this is made. It's in there.
• 1:01:35
  Speaker 4: You got peppermint in there.
• 1:01:39
  Speaker 2: It's just it's just here a part of my brain
• 1:01:41
  Speaker 2: that it was activated.
• 1:01:42
  Speaker 1: Because you know, there are there are lots of growth oils,
• 1:01:45
  Speaker 1: and most of them have kind of like a medicated
• 1:01:47
  Speaker 1: smell to them because the herb.
• 1:01:49
  Speaker 2: I cannot smell. I can I say that.
• 1:01:52
  Speaker 5: Okay, y'all, I'm gonna tell y'all. I'm gonna tell y'all
• 1:01:54
  Speaker 5: the truth. Okay, we're gonna we're gonna get into it. Okay,
• 1:01:57
  Speaker 5: we're gonna put this right on right here.
• 1:01:59
  Speaker 2: Okay, thank you. I like guilts and I appreciate it.
• 1:02:05
  Speaker 5: Listen, desil right, we've been we've been talking real good,
• 1:02:08
  Speaker 5: talking real good.
• 1:02:09
  Speaker 2: What's your thoughts over there?
• 1:02:12
  Speaker 5: She'd be staring, like, I give you this cue every week.
• 1:02:16
  Speaker 5: I give you a queue to come up every week. Hey, okay,
• 1:02:20
  Speaker 5: I'm not gonna I'm not gonna fool I'm good.
• 1:02:22
  Speaker 1: When you get to push in these buttons, you're gonna understand.
• 1:02:25
  Speaker 1: Sometimes you just get a little loss around here and
• 1:02:27
  Speaker 1: the thing. But man, I am so I love sitting
• 1:02:30
  Speaker 1: on this side just because I just get to hear
• 1:02:32
  Speaker 1: the story. And sometimes if you just if you listen
• 1:02:35
  Speaker 1: past what people are saying, you know what I'm saying,
• 1:02:37
  Speaker 1: you can really hear what they're saying, you know. And
• 1:02:40
  Speaker 1: so for me, it's just the journey of just trusting
• 1:02:43
  Speaker 1: God even though there's a point where you really didn't
• 1:02:46
  Speaker 1: even know him, but he knew you.
• 1:02:48
  Speaker 2: Like in the truth of the matter, is he knew
• 1:02:50
  Speaker 2: you before you even got here.
• 1:02:52
  Speaker 1: Yeah, So the fact that, yes, you've experienced some things
• 1:02:56
  Speaker 1: in childhood, X, Y, and Z, but he was still there.
• 1:02:58
  Speaker 1: He was still there enough, and it was something in
• 1:03:01
  Speaker 1: you that recognized him to activates not just gonna go
• 1:03:04
  Speaker 1: off and just activate that. That's something in you to
• 1:03:08
  Speaker 1: be able to journey along where we are now, right,
• 1:03:11
  Speaker 1: And so I I love me some and I and
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 1: I just want to.
• 1:03:15
  Speaker 2: Say publicly thank you for entrusting me to help you
• 1:03:21
  Speaker 2: in this project. You know what I'm saying.
• 1:03:22
  Speaker 1: I remember we had conversations about if y'all don't know,
• 1:03:26
  Speaker 1: I usually is a purpose pusher. You saw you saw
• 1:03:28
  Speaker 1: the her shirt, you see her her tattoos. She's her
• 1:03:33
  Speaker 1: she's living purpose, you know what I'm saying. And she's
• 1:03:36
  Speaker 1: able to birth that out of people. So it may
• 1:03:39
  Speaker 1: seem like I was helping you, but you really helped
• 1:03:41
  Speaker 1: me in a sense of just giving me some some
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 1: language and confidence on what it is that I do
• 1:03:46
  Speaker 1: for people, because, as we talked about, sometimes.
• 1:03:48
  Speaker 2: It's hard to explain that, right.
• 1:03:50
  Speaker 1: So it's like, yes, I do photography, I do all
• 1:03:54
  Speaker 1: these other things, but it's really deeper, deeper than that,
• 1:03:57
  Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So I just want to
• 1:03:58
  Speaker 1: say thank you for trusting the gift and the God
• 1:04:01
  Speaker 1: that that he has given me to help you with this.
• 1:04:03
  Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. It was, it was It's
• 1:04:05
  Speaker 1: definitely a team effort, like this is a big baby, y'all.
• 1:04:08
  Speaker 2: Yeah, man, and God is just so good.
• 1:04:14
  Speaker 1: So just thank you for coming on and sharing your story,
• 1:04:16
  Speaker 1: even the story about your marriage. You know, as we're
• 1:04:19
  Speaker 1: all a single ladies, is is believing God for our
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 1: kingdom spouses. Just to hear I love when I get
• 1:04:25
  Speaker 1: to hear about kingdom marriages. And the thing is, sometimes
• 1:04:28
  Speaker 1: we look at what people are now, but we don't
• 1:04:30
  Speaker 1: even get to really understand like how they got there,
• 1:04:33
  Speaker 1: you know, And so you guys, just sharing that story
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 1: is just very encouraging. So thank you for coming on
• 1:04:38
  Speaker 1: today and and uh gracing us with your voice. Yeah yeah,
• 1:04:42
  Speaker 1: because you your voice is so you just told him Nick,
• 1:04:47
  Speaker 1: But y'all dangerous, like real talk, like y'all dangerous. And
• 1:04:53
  Speaker 1: if I don't think we could have managed having both
• 1:04:55
  Speaker 1: of them at the same time, I think they had,
• 1:04:58
  Speaker 1: but it would be dope though, Like I'm I'm definitely
• 1:05:01
  Speaker 1: gonna do it that I ain't scared of it, but
• 1:05:03
  Speaker 1: having y'all both at the same time, because even witness
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 1: like just.
• 1:05:06
  Speaker 5: Watching y'all, and I know y'all. You know, I don't
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 5: be stalking y'all, but when I see y'all, be.
• 1:05:12
  Speaker 2: Like, ooh, same grace because no, like we'll talk some
• 1:05:18
  Speaker 2: of these some of these marriages be faked.
• 1:05:21
  Speaker 5: And one thing I love about like your relationship, y'all's relationship,
• 1:05:25
  Speaker 5: the Fumbies relationship. Even my Auntie Tar and Uncle Chris,
• 1:05:29
  Speaker 5: like I get the ugly like y'all don't really.
• 1:05:32
  Speaker 2: Try to try to be like, oh yeah, this is
• 1:05:34
  Speaker 2: purple blah blah blah, y'all.
• 1:05:35
  Speaker 5: First people like oh, we work for this, like we
• 1:05:38
  Speaker 5: work real bad for this, and it cast something, but
• 1:05:40
  Speaker 5: it was worth it and it gives me hope especially
• 1:05:44
  Speaker 5: my parents separated. Oh no, they do divorce. They actually divorced.
• 1:05:49
  Speaker 5: They divorced when I was young or whatever. So all
• 1:05:52
  Speaker 5: I want have wanted since I was a little girl
• 1:05:55
  Speaker 5: was to be in a happy marriage, like in my mind,
• 1:05:57
  Speaker 5: I'm thirty three years old right now. In my mind,
• 1:06:00
  Speaker 5: by the age of thirty, I was supposed to be
• 1:06:01
  Speaker 5: married with three kids. I don't have either one of
• 1:06:05
  Speaker 5: those things, right, And.
• 1:06:06
  Speaker 2: So I've been trying. I'm in this tee to tottering.
• 1:06:10
  Speaker 2: It depends on the day. I'm like, oh yeah, I'm
• 1:06:12
  Speaker 2: just hopeful and hl lah lah dah, and then up
• 1:06:15
  Speaker 2: next minute, I'm like, you know what it is, what
• 1:06:16
  Speaker 2: it is.
• 1:06:17
  Speaker 1: I'll just stay focused, you know what I'm saying, Like,
• 1:06:19
  Speaker 1: I'm just staying focused and so and it's nothing wrong
• 1:06:21
  Speaker 1: with it.
• 1:06:22
  Speaker 5: It's just like, man, God, I see what you've done
• 1:06:24
  Speaker 5: for others. I see what you're doing for others, and
• 1:06:26
  Speaker 5: I just want the same thing. So your presence here
• 1:06:29
  Speaker 5: means so much more than you could even imagine. Wow, Yeah,
• 1:06:35
  Speaker 5: I'm great. I'm grateful that you gave or say.
• 1:06:37
  Speaker 1: Yes, and don't give up, don't teeter tired anymore. The
• 1:06:41
  Speaker 1: days that you don't feel like it. Pick yourself up
• 1:06:43
  Speaker 1: and get back in because you are a wife, period.
• 1:06:49
  Speaker 1: You are a wife, and he coming, he gonna find
• 1:06:53
  Speaker 1: you in purpose.
• 1:06:54
  Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah.
• 1:06:55
  Speaker 1: Just keep doing what you're doing, Keep doing what you're doing,
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 1: and he is going to be ready for you, all
• 1:07:04
  Speaker 1: all of you, all of you. He's going to have
• 1:07:06
  Speaker 1: the capacity to cover you and to cover where you're going.
• 1:07:09
  Speaker 1: Keep going, keep going. Let and be unapologetically you, like, don't.
• 1:07:14
  Speaker 1: I was watching one of your episodes the other day,
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  Speaker 1: I think when you were on with List Speaks. Yeah, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: and just talking about you know, y'all were talking back
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  Speaker 1: and forth about relationships, and I think that it's so
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  Speaker 1: important for your husband to see you be authentically you,
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  Speaker 1: you know what I mean, because he has to love
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  Speaker 1: the good, the bad, and the ugly and if he
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  Speaker 1: can take you in all stages, because Jamel has seen
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  Speaker 1: me in, Oh Jesus, the places he's had to snatch
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  Speaker 1: me up out of, you know what I mean, Like
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  Speaker 1: it's ugly behind the scenes. Yeah, that's why we're so
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  Speaker 1: good because nobody else knows me like he does.
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  Speaker 2: I'm completely comfortable with him at all times.
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  Speaker 4: And for you to stay.
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  Speaker 1: That we're dangerous together. I can be transparent and say
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  Speaker 1: we needed that today, Like twenty years in it'll be
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  Speaker 1: twenty years in October. It will be twenty years in October.
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  Speaker 1: And we still have hard times and hard days, and
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  Speaker 1: this is one of those times where we're just like
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  Speaker 1: and it seems like the closer it gets to an anniversary,
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  Speaker 1: you know, we're reassessing, like not so and not from
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  Speaker 1: a bad place, just like an exhausting place when you're growing,
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  Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Because we didn't know each
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  Speaker 1: other where, we didn't know ourselves when we met each other.
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  Speaker 1: We found each other before we found ourselves, and so
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  Speaker 1: we now are growing into who it is that God
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  Speaker 1: has called us to be. And we're two totally different
• 1:08:45
  Speaker 1: people than we were when we fell in love. The
• 1:08:48
  Speaker 1: things that I was attracted to weren't original characteristics of him,
• 1:08:53
  Speaker 1: the things that he was attracted to that wasn't stuff
• 1:08:56
  Speaker 1: I was supposed to be doing it how I was
• 1:08:57
  Speaker 1: supposed to be doing it. And so because we're committed
• 1:08:59
  Speaker 1: to this, we have to learn to fall in love
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  Speaker 1: with who God intended for us to be. That's not easy.
• 1:09:07
  Speaker 1: That's not easy because I can't say that I would
• 1:09:10
  Speaker 1: have been looking at him the same way in the club.
• 1:09:11
  Speaker 1: If he was who he is today.
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  Speaker 2: Wow, so good.
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  Speaker 1: So the fact that you have found out who you are,
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  Speaker 1: that you know who you are, that you are ten
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  Speaker 1: tolls down in purpose before that man finds you. God
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  Speaker 1: is not gonna bring you somebody that you have to
• 1:09:31
  Speaker 1: put together, that you have to help find out who
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  Speaker 1: he is. He's going to know exactly who he is,
• 1:09:36
  Speaker 1: and he's going to know his assignment in your life
• 1:09:40
  Speaker 1: and he's gonna fulfill it and y'all gonna be happy,
• 1:09:42
  Speaker 1: and you're gonna have him babies and all that kind
• 1:09:44
  Speaker 1: of stuff, and they just gonna be Little Jessica's running around.
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  Speaker 4: I can't wait.
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  Speaker 1: We can't handlem on God children, he said, we got
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  Speaker 1: enough on bring him over that DJ he sa, I
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  Speaker 1: have no more, but yes, yes, yes, So you gotta
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  Speaker 1: be thirty three, thirty four or thirty four. You gotta
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  Speaker 1: be who you are where you are because you got
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  Speaker 1: so much to do. You know, you don't, you don't. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: if I could do anything different, you asked me that earlier.
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  Speaker 1: If I could do anything different, I would have known
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  Speaker 1: who I was. I would have known exactly who I
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  Speaker 1: was and what God called me to do so that
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  Speaker 1: I could have been a better wife in the beginning,
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  Speaker 1: so that I could have been a better mother. It
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  Speaker 1: makes the difference. It makes the difference, like because God
• 1:10:31
  Speaker 1: favors us, it turned out the way it did. Wow.
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  Speaker 2: Normally I asked.
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  Speaker 5: For a final word from the guests, and I think
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  Speaker 5: we just got it. No that thank you for that
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  Speaker 5: poor I'd be like, yeah, I don't be like talking
• 1:10:50
  Speaker 5: about that day thing. But when we turn on the camera,
• 1:10:52
  Speaker 5: we're gonna talk. Oh, I'll be like, but no, thank you,
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  Speaker 5: thank you for your presence. This is I knew this
• 1:11:00
  Speaker 5: is gonna be good. I do this is gonna be good,
• 1:11:02
  Speaker 5: but I feel it's so much more so. But real quick,
• 1:11:06
  Speaker 5: before we before we end this, please tell them how
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  Speaker 5: they can connect with you. And then also about the
• 1:11:10
  Speaker 5: classes that you have for teenage girls to learn how
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  Speaker 5: to do techniques.
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  Speaker 1: So I do have the classes for the teenage girls.
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  Speaker 1: That's Crowned Academy. I'm looking at myself. Look let me
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  Speaker 1: get y'all.
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  Speaker 4: So we have Crowned Academy for our young girls.
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  Speaker 1: I love, I absolutely love pouring into young girls and
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  Speaker 1: doing it with the thing that God gave me, and
• 1:11:36
  Speaker 1: that's braids.
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  Speaker 4: And so I have Crowned Academy. You can register for
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  Speaker 4: any classes that I have at Crowned Academy dot org,
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  Speaker 4: crownd Academy dot org and the products can be found at.
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  Speaker 2: I am crown dot com.
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  Speaker 5: I love it.
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  Speaker 2: And that's all gonna be in the description. Okay, it's
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  Speaker 2: in the description. You don't have to go search anywhere.
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  Speaker 2: Just go click the butt it's.
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  Speaker 1: Down here here to do that.
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  Speaker 2: I'm glad you got to do it here.
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  Speaker 5: Man, I'm gonna have to sit with this one, but
• 1:12:08
  Speaker 5: I'm super excited that I usually came here.
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  Speaker 2: Thank you so much, No, thank you so much. I'm y'all.
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  Speaker 2: We're gonna talk. We're gonna talk. We're gonna talk. Does
• 1:12:17
  Speaker 2: A ray man? Man, this was a good one by.
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  Speaker 1: A.
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  Speaker 5: It is, y'all tell yes, three sixty five community where
• 1:12:27
  Speaker 5: y'all I want. We're gonna talking at what's APPPP. We're
• 1:12:31
  Speaker 5: gonna talk and what's app and see what y'all talking about. Okay,
• 1:12:34
  Speaker 5: We're gonna have to We're gonna have an extended conversation
• 1:12:36
  Speaker 5: in there, okay, and see what y'all talking about. Y'all,
• 1:12:39
  Speaker 5: this has been so good, but I want you all
• 1:12:41
  Speaker 5: to settle with this? What what have you taken from this?
• 1:12:44
  Speaker 5: You know I'm a single lady stamp up. I need
• 1:12:46
  Speaker 5: to I need to know what y'all learned, because I
• 1:12:48
  Speaker 5: know she didn't just get me together. I know she
• 1:12:49
  Speaker 5: got some of y'all together. But I want to know
• 1:12:51
  Speaker 5: what y'all talking about, and I want to hear it
• 1:12:53
  Speaker 5: from you guys. But until next week, until next time,
• 1:12:56
  Speaker 5: always remember life could be much more simple if you just.
• 1:13:01
  Speaker 2: Says thank you for tuning in to this week's episode.
• 1:13:10
  Speaker 1: Since you've made it this far, you might as well
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• 1:13:15
  Speaker 1: Jessica S.
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  Speaker 2: Smith.
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  Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
• 1:13:20
  Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always thank.
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  Speaker 3: Thank God for one another day. Hey, hey, I know
• 1:13:32
  Speaker 3: we could be another way. Hey, pray thank God for
• 1:13:38
  Speaker 3: another day. Hey hey, I'm just thankful for another day.
• 1:13:46
  Speaker 3: Hey Hey another day? Oh another day wise, another day
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  Speaker 3: to get it right, another day to rise up, another
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  Speaker 3: day living another day. We love ones. I always remember
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  Speaker 3: hold it down for a ball one yep