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- 0:00Speaker 1: Section eighteen of the Country of the Blind and Other
- 0:03Speaker 1: Stories by H. G. Wells. This LibriVox recording is in
- 0:07Speaker 1: the public domain read by Peter Yearsley a slip under
- 0:12Speaker 1: the microscope. Outside the laboratory windows was a watery gray fog,
- 0:19Speaker 1: and within a close warmth and the yellow light of
- 0:22Speaker 1: the green shaded gas lamps that stood two to each
- 0:25Speaker 1: table down its narrow length. On each table stood a
- 0:29Speaker 1: couple of glass jars containing the mangled vestiges of the crayfish, mussels, frogs,
- 0:35Speaker 1: and guinea pigs upon which the students had been working.
- 0:38Speaker 1: And down the side of the room facing the windows
- 0:41Speaker 1: were shelves bearing bleached dissections in spirits, surmounted by a
- 0:47Speaker 1: row of beautifully executed anatomical drawings in white wood frames,
- 0:51Speaker 1: and overhanging a row of cubicle lockers. All the doors
- 0:55Speaker 1: of the laboratory were paneled with blackboard, and on these
- 0:58Speaker 1: were the half erased diagrams of the previous day's work.
- 1:02Speaker 1: The laboratory was empty save for the demonstrator who sat
- 1:06Speaker 1: near the preparation room door, and silent save for a low,
- 1:11Speaker 1: continuous murmur and the clicking of the rocker microtome at
- 1:15Speaker 1: which he was working, but scattered about the room were
- 1:18Speaker 1: traces of numerous students, hand bags, polished boxes of instruments.
- 1:24Speaker 1: In one place a large drawing covered by newspaper, and
- 1:27Speaker 1: in another a prettily bound copy of News from Nowhere,
- 1:32Speaker 1: a book oddly at variance with its surroundings. These things
- 1:37Speaker 1: had been put down hastily as the students had arrived
- 1:40Speaker 1: and hurried at once to secure their seats in the
- 1:43Speaker 1: adjacent lecture theater. Deadened by the closed door, the measured
- 1:48Speaker 1: accents of the professor sounded as a featureless muttering. Presently faint.
- 1:53Speaker 1: Through the closed windows. Came the sound of the oratory
- 1:56Speaker 1: clock striking the hour of eleven. The clicking of the
- 2:00Speaker 1: microtome ceased, and the demonstrator looked at his watch. Rose
- 2:05Speaker 1: thrust his hands into his pockets and walked slowly down
- 2:08Speaker 1: the laboratory towards the lecture theater door. He stood listening
- 2:13Speaker 1: for a moment, and then his eye fell on the
- 2:15Speaker 1: little volume by William Morris. He picked it up, glanced
- 2:19Speaker 1: at the title, smiled, opened it, looked at the name
- 2:23Speaker 1: on the fly leaf, ran the leaves through with his hand,
- 2:27Speaker 1: and put it down almost immediately. The even murmur of
- 2:31Speaker 1: the lecturer ceased. There was a sudden burst of pencils
- 2:34Speaker 1: rattling on the desks in the lecture theater, a stirring,
- 2:38Speaker 1: a scraping of feet, and a number of voices speaking together.
- 2:42Speaker 1: Then a firm footfall approached the door, which began to
- 2:46Speaker 1: open and stood ajar as some indistinctly heard question arrested
- 2:51Speaker 1: the newcomer. The demonstrator turned, walked slowly back past the
- 2:56Speaker 1: microtome and left the laboratory by the preparation room. As
- 3:01Speaker 1: he did so, first one and then several students carrying
- 3:04Speaker 1: notebooks entered the laboratory from the lecture theatre and distributed
- 3:09Speaker 1: themselves among the little tables, or stood in a group
- 3:12Speaker 1: about the doorway. They were an exceptionally heterogeneous assembly. For
- 3:18Speaker 1: while Oxford and Cambridge still recoil from the blushing prospect
- 3:23Speaker 1: of mixed classes, the College of Science anticipated America in
- 3:28Speaker 1: the matter years ago mixed socially too, For the prestige
- 3:33Speaker 1: of the college is high, and its scholarships, free of
- 3:37Speaker 1: any age limit, dredged deeper even than do those of
- 3:40Speaker 1: the scott universities. The class numbered one and twenty, but
- 3:46Speaker 1: some remained in the theatre, questioning the professor, copying the
- 3:50Speaker 1: blackboard diagrams before they were washed off, or examining the
- 3:53Speaker 1: special specimens he had produced to illustrate the day's teaching.
- 3:58Speaker 1: Of the nine who had come into the laboratory, three
- 4:01Speaker 1: were girls, one of whom a little fair woman wearing
- 4:05Speaker 1: spectacles and dressed in grayish green, was peering out of
- 4:09Speaker 1: the window at the fog, while the other two, both
- 4:12Speaker 1: wholesome looking plane faced schoolgirls, unrolled and put on the
- 4:17Speaker 1: brown Holland aprons they wore while dissecting. Of the men,
- 4:22Speaker 1: two went down the laboratory to their places, one a pallid,
- 4:26Speaker 1: dark bearded man who had once been a tailor, the
- 4:29Speaker 1: other a pleasant, featured, ruddy young man of twenty dressed
- 4:33Speaker 1: in a well fitting brown suit, Young Wedderburn, the son
- 4:37Speaker 1: of Wedderburn, the eye specialist. The others formed a little
- 4:41Speaker 1: knot near the theater door. One of these, a dwarfed, spectacled
- 4:45Speaker 1: figure with a hunchback, sat on a bent wood stool.
- 4:49Speaker 1: Two others, one a short, dark youngster, and the other
- 4:53Speaker 1: a flaxen haired, reddish complexioned young man, stood leaning side
- 4:58Speaker 1: by side a against the slate sink, while the fourth
- 5:02Speaker 1: stood facing them, and maintained the larger share of the conversation.
- 5:08Speaker 1: This last person was named Hill. He was a sturdily
- 5:12Speaker 1: built young fellow of the same age as Wedderburn. He
- 5:16Speaker 1: had a white face, dark gray eyes, hair of an
- 5:20Speaker 1: indeterminate color, and prominent irregular features. He talked rather louder
- 5:26Speaker 1: than was needful, and thrust his hands deeply into his pockets.
- 5:30Speaker 1: His collar was frayed and blue with the starch of
- 5:33Speaker 1: a careless lawn dress. His clothes were evidently ready made,
- 5:38Speaker 1: and there was a patch on the side of his
- 5:39Speaker 1: boot near the toe. And as he talked or listened
- 5:43Speaker 1: to the others, he glanced now at again towards the
- 5:46Speaker 1: lecture theater door. They were discussing the depressing peroration of
- 5:51Speaker 1: the lecture they had just heard. The last lecture. It
- 5:54Speaker 1: was in the introductory course in zoology from ovened over
- 6:00Speaker 1: is the goal of the higher vertebrata, the lecturer had
- 6:03Speaker 1: said in his melancholy tones, and so had neatly rounded
- 6:08Speaker 1: off the sketch of comparative anatomy he had been developing.
- 6:12Speaker 1: The spectacle Hunchback had repeated it with noisy appreciation, had
- 6:17Speaker 1: tossed it towards the fair haired student with an evident provocation,
- 6:22Speaker 1: and had started one of these vague rambling discussions on generalities,
- 6:27Speaker 1: so unaccountably dear to the student mind all the world over,
- 6:32Speaker 1: that is our goal. Perhaps I admit it, as far
- 6:35Speaker 1: as science goes, said the fair haired student, rising to
- 6:39Speaker 1: the challenge. But there are things above science. Science, said Hill, confidently,
- 6:45Speaker 1: is systematic knowledge. Ideas that don't come into the system
- 6:50Speaker 1: must anyhow be loose ideas. He was not quite sure
- 6:55Speaker 1: whether that was a clever saying or a fatuity until
- 6:59Speaker 1: his hearers took it seriously. The thing I cannot understand,
- 7:03Speaker 1: said the hunchback at large, is whether Hill is a
- 7:07Speaker 1: materialist or not. There is one thing above matter, said Hill, promptly,
- 7:12Speaker 1: feeling he had a better thing, this time, aware too
- 7:15Speaker 1: of some one in the doorway behind him, and raising
- 7:19Speaker 1: his voice a trifle for her benefit. And that is
- 7:22Speaker 1: the delusion, that there is something above matter. So we
- 7:26Speaker 1: have your gospel at last, said the fair student. It's
- 7:29Speaker 1: all a delusion, is it? All our aspirations to lead
- 7:32Speaker 1: something more than dogs lives, all our work for anything
- 7:35Speaker 1: beyond ourselves. But see how inconsistent you are your socialism
- 7:40Speaker 1: for instance, why do you trouble about the interests of
- 7:43Speaker 1: the race. Why do you concern yourself about the beggar
- 7:47Speaker 1: in the gutter? Why are you bothering yourself to lend
- 7:50Speaker 1: that book? He indicated William Morris by a movement of
- 7:55Speaker 1: the head to every one in the lab girl said
- 7:58Speaker 1: the hunchback indistinct, and glanced guiltily over his shoulder. The
- 8:03Speaker 1: girl in brown with the brown eyes had come into
- 8:06Speaker 1: the laboratory and stood on the other side of the
- 8:09Speaker 1: table behind him, with her rolled up apron in one hand,
- 8:12Speaker 1: looking over her shoulder, listening to the discussion. She did
- 8:16Speaker 1: not notice the hunchback because she was glancing from Hill
- 8:20Speaker 1: to his interlocutor. Hill's consciousness of her presence betrayed itself
- 8:25Speaker 1: to her only in his studious ignorance of the fact.
- 8:29Speaker 1: But she understood that, and it pleased her. I see
- 8:33Speaker 1: no reason, said he, why a man should live like
- 8:36Speaker 1: a brute, because he knows of nothing beyond matter and
- 8:39Speaker 1: does not expect to exist a hundred years. Hence, why
- 8:43Speaker 1: shouldn't he said the fair haired student. Why should he
- 8:47Speaker 1: said Hill, What inducement has he? That's the way with
- 8:51Speaker 1: all you religious people, is all a business of inducements.
- 8:55Speaker 1: Cannot a man seek after righteousness for righteousness sake? There
- 9:00Speaker 1: was a pause. The fair man answered with a kind
- 9:03Speaker 1: of vocal padding, But you see inducement when I said
- 9:08Speaker 1: inducement to gain time, And then the hunchback came to
- 9:12Speaker 1: his rescue and inserted a question. He was a terrible
- 9:16Speaker 1: person in the debating society with his questions, and they
- 9:20Speaker 1: invariably took one form a demand for a definition. What
- 9:24Speaker 1: your definition of righteousness? Said the hunchback. At this stage,
- 9:29Speaker 1: Hill experienced a sudden loss of complacency at this question,
- 9:34Speaker 1: But even as it was asked, relief came in the
- 9:37Speaker 1: person of Brooks, the laboratory attendant, who entered by the
- 9:41Speaker 1: preparation room door, carrying a number of freshly killed guinea
- 9:45Speaker 1: pigs by their hind legs. This is the last batch
- 9:48Speaker 1: of material accession, said the youngster, who had not previously spoken.
- 9:53Speaker 1: Brooks advanced up the laboratory, smacking down a couple of
- 9:56Speaker 1: guinea pigs at each table. The rest of the class,
- 10:00Speaker 1: scenting the prey from afar, came crowding in by the
- 10:03Speaker 1: lecture theater door, and the discussion perished abruptly as the
- 10:07Speaker 1: students who were not already in their places, hurried to
- 10:10Speaker 1: them to secure the choice of a specimen. There was
- 10:14Speaker 1: a noise of keys rattling on split rings as lockers
- 10:17Speaker 1: were opened and dissecting instruments taken out. Hill was already
- 10:21Speaker 1: standing by his table and his box of scalpels was
- 10:25Speaker 1: sticking out of his pocket. The girl in brown came
- 10:28Speaker 1: a step towards him, and, leaning over his table, said softly,
- 10:32Speaker 1: did you see I'd returned your book, mister Hill. During
- 10:35Speaker 1: the whole scene, she and the book had been vividly
- 10:39Speaker 1: present in his consciousness, but he made a clumsy pretense
- 10:43Speaker 1: of looking at the book and seeing it for the
- 10:46Speaker 1: first time. Oh yes, he said, taking it up. I see,
- 10:50Speaker 1: did you like it? I want to ask you some
- 10:52Speaker 1: questions about it some time, certainly, said Hill. I should
- 10:56Speaker 1: be glad. He stopped awkwardly. You liked it, he said,
- 11:01Speaker 1: It's a wonderful book. Only some things I don't understand.
- 11:05Speaker 1: Then suddenly the laboratory was hushed by a curious, braying noise.
- 11:12Speaker 1: It was the demonstrator. He was at the blackboard, ready
- 11:16Speaker 1: to begin the day's instruction, and it was his custom
- 11:19Speaker 1: to demand silence by a sound midway between the er
- 11:24Speaker 1: of common intercourse and the blast of a trumpet. The
- 11:28Speaker 1: girl in Brown slipped back to her place. It was
- 11:31Speaker 1: immediately in front of Hills, and Hill, forgetting her forthwith,
- 11:36Speaker 1: took a notebook out of the drawer of his table,
- 11:39Speaker 1: turned over its leaves, hastily, drew a stumpy pencil from
- 11:42Speaker 1: his pocket, and prepared to make a copious note of
- 11:46Speaker 1: the coming demonstration. For demonstrations and lectures are the sacred
- 11:51Speaker 1: text of the college students books, saving only the professor's own.
- 11:57Speaker 1: You may it is even expedient to ignore. Hill was
- 12:02Speaker 1: the son of a Landport cobbler, and had been hooked
- 12:05Speaker 1: by a chance blue paper the authorities had thrown out
- 12:09Speaker 1: to the Landport Technical College. He kept himself in London
- 12:13Speaker 1: on his allowance of a guinea a week, and found
- 12:16Speaker 1: that with proper care his clothing allowance an occasional waterproof collar,
- 12:21Speaker 1: that is, and ink, and needles and cotton, and suchlike
- 12:25Speaker 1: necessaries for a man about town. This was his first
- 12:29Speaker 1: year and his first session, But the brown old man
- 12:33Speaker 1: in Landport had already got himself detested in many public
- 12:37Speaker 1: houses by boasting of his son. The professor Hill was
- 12:42Speaker 1: a vigorous youngster with a serene contempt for the clergy
- 12:46Speaker 1: of all denominations, and a fine ambition to reconstruct the world.
- 12:51Speaker 1: He regarded his scholarship as a brilliant opportunity. He had
- 12:56Speaker 1: begun to read at seven, and had read steadily whatever
- 12:59Speaker 1: came in his way, good or bad. Since then. His
- 13:02Speaker 1: worldly experience had been limited to the island of Portsea,
- 13:06Speaker 1: and acquired chiefly in the wholesale boot factory in which
- 13:10Speaker 1: he had worked by day after passing the seventh standard
- 13:13Speaker 1: of the board school. He had a considerable gift of speech,
- 13:17Speaker 1: as the college debating society, which met amidst the crushing
- 13:22Speaker 1: machines and mine models in the metallurgical theater downstairs, already
- 13:28Speaker 1: recognized by a violent battering of desks whenever he rose.
- 13:33Speaker 1: And he was just at that fine emotional age when
- 13:36Speaker 1: life opens at the end of a narrow pass, like
- 13:39Speaker 1: a broad valley at one's feet, full of the promise
- 13:42Speaker 1: of wonderful discoveries and tremendous achievements, and his own limitations,
- 13:48Speaker 1: save that he knew that he knew neither Latin nor
- 13:51Speaker 1: French were all unknown to him. At first, his interest
- 13:56Speaker 1: had been divided pretty equally between his biological work at
- 13:59Speaker 1: the same college and social and theological theorizing, an employment
- 14:04Speaker 1: which he took in deadly earnest of a night when
- 14:08Speaker 1: the big Museum library was not open. He would sit
- 14:11Speaker 1: on the bed of his room in Chelsea with his
- 14:14Speaker 1: coat and a muffler on and write out the lecture
- 14:17Speaker 1: notes and revise his dissection memoranda until Thorpe called him
- 14:22Speaker 1: out by a whistle. The landlady objected to open the
- 14:26Speaker 1: door to attic visitors, and then the two would go
- 14:29Speaker 1: prowling about the shadowy, shiny gas lit streets, talking very
- 14:35Speaker 1: much in the fashion of the sample just given, of
- 14:38Speaker 1: the God idea and righteousness and Carlyle and the reorganization
- 14:45Speaker 1: of society. And in the midst of it all, Hill,
- 14:48Speaker 1: arguing not only for Thorpe but for the casual passer by,
- 14:52Speaker 1: would lose the thread of his argument, glancing at some
- 14:56Speaker 1: pretty painted face that looked meaningly at him as he
- 15:00Speaker 1: past science and righteousness. But once or twice lately there
- 15:05Speaker 1: had been signs that a third interest was creeping into
- 15:08Speaker 1: his life, and he had found his attention wandering from
- 15:13Speaker 1: the fate of the mesoblastic Somites or the probable meaning
- 15:17Speaker 1: of the blastopore to the thought of the girl with
- 15:20Speaker 1: the brown eyes who sat at the table before him.
- 15:25Speaker 1: She was a paying student. She descended inconceivable social altitudes
- 15:31Speaker 1: to speak to him. At the thought of the education
- 15:34Speaker 1: she must have had and the accomplishments she must possess,
- 15:38Speaker 1: the soul of Hill became abject within him. She had
- 15:43Speaker 1: spoken to him first over a difficulty about the ali
- 15:46Speaker 1: scenoid of a rabbit's skull, and he had found that
- 15:49Speaker 1: in biology, at least he had no reason for self abasement.
- 15:53Speaker 1: And from that, after the manner of young people, starting
- 15:57Speaker 1: from any starting point, they got to generalities. And while
- 16:01Speaker 1: Hill attacked her upon the question of socialism, some instinct
- 16:06Speaker 1: told him to spare her a direct assault upon her religion.
- 16:11Speaker 1: She was gathering resolution to undertake what she told herself
- 16:14Speaker 1: was his esthetic education. She was a year or two
- 16:18Speaker 1: older than he, though the thought never occurred to him
- 16:22Speaker 1: the loan of news from nowhere was the beginning of
- 16:25Speaker 1: a series of cross loans upon some absurd first principle
- 16:30Speaker 1: of his. Hill had never wasted time upon poetry, and
- 16:36Speaker 1: it seemed an appalling deficiency to her. One day in
- 16:39Speaker 1: the lunch hour, when she chanced upon him alone in
- 16:42Speaker 1: the little museum where the skeletons were arranged, shamefully eating
- 16:47Speaker 1: the bun that constituted his midday meal. She retreated and
- 16:52Speaker 1: returned to lend him, with a slightly furtive air, a
- 16:56Speaker 1: volume of Browning. He stood sideways towards her and took
- 17:00Speaker 1: the book rather clumsily because he was holding the bun
- 17:03Speaker 1: in the other hand, and in the retrospect his voice
- 17:08Speaker 1: lacked the cheerful clearness he could have wished that occurred
- 17:13Speaker 1: after the examination in comparative anatomy. On the day before
- 17:17Speaker 1: the college turned out its students and was carefully locked
- 17:20Speaker 1: up by the officials for the Christmas holidays. The excitement
- 17:24Speaker 1: of cramming for the first trial of strength had for
- 17:27Speaker 1: a little while dominated Hill to the exclusion of his
- 17:30Speaker 1: other interests. In the forecasts of the result, in which
- 17:34Speaker 1: every one indulged, he was surprised to find that no
- 17:38Speaker 1: one regarded him as a possible competitor for the Harvey
- 17:42Speaker 1: Commemoration medal, of which this and the two subsequent examinations disposed.
- 17:49Speaker 1: It was about this time that Wedderburn, who so far
- 17:53Speaker 1: had lived inconspicuously on the uttermost margin of Hill's perceptions
- 17:58Speaker 1: began to take on the appearance of an obstacle. By
- 18:03Speaker 1: a mutual agreement, the nocturnal prowlings with Thorpe ceased for
- 18:07Speaker 1: the three weeks before the examination, and his landlady pointed
- 18:11Speaker 1: out that she really could not supply so much lamp
- 18:15Speaker 1: oil at the price. He walked to and fro from
- 18:19Speaker 1: the college with little slips of mnemonics in his hand
- 18:23Speaker 1: lists of crayfish appendages, rabbits, skull bones, and vertebrate nerves,
- 18:29Speaker 1: for example, and became a positive nuisance to foot passengers
- 18:33Speaker 1: in the opposite direction. But by a natural reaction, Poetry
- 18:38Speaker 1: and the Girl with the Brown Eyes ruled the Christmas holiday.
- 18:43Speaker 1: The pending results of the examination became such a secondary
- 18:46Speaker 1: consideration that Hill marveled at his father's excitement, even had
- 18:52Speaker 1: he wished it. There was no comparative anatomy to read
- 18:56Speaker 1: in Landport, and he was too poor to buy books.
- 18:59Speaker 1: But the stock of poets in the library was extensive,
- 19:04Speaker 1: and Hill's attack was magnificently sustained. He saturated himself with
- 19:09Speaker 1: the fluent numbers of Longfellow and Tennyson, and fortified himself
- 19:14Speaker 1: with Shakespeare found a kindred soul in Pope and a
- 19:18Speaker 1: master in Shelley, had heard and fled the siren voices
- 19:23Speaker 1: of Eliza Cook and missus Hemans. But he read no
- 19:27Speaker 1: more Browning, because he hoped for the loan of other
- 19:30Speaker 1: volumes from Miss Haysman. When he returned to London. He
- 19:35Speaker 1: walked from his lodgings to the College with that volume
- 19:39Speaker 1: of Browning in his shiny black bag, and his mind
- 19:42Speaker 1: teeming with the finest general propositions about poetry. Indeed, he
- 19:48Speaker 1: framed first this little speech and then that with which
- 19:52Speaker 1: to grace the return. The morning was an exceptionally pleasant
- 19:57Speaker 1: one for London. There was a clear, hard, frog lost
- 20:00Speaker 1: and undeniable blue in the sky. A thin haze softened
- 20:04Speaker 1: every outline, and warm shafts of sunlight struck between the
- 20:08Speaker 1: house blocks and turned the sunny side of the street
- 20:12Speaker 1: to amber and gold. In the hall of the College,
- 20:15Speaker 1: he pulled off his glove and signed his name with
- 20:19Speaker 1: fingers so stiff with cold that the characteristic dash under
- 20:23Speaker 1: the signature he cultivated became a quivering line. He imagined
- 20:28Speaker 1: Miss Haysman about him everywhere he turned. At the staircase,
- 20:33Speaker 1: and there below he saw a crowd struggling at the
- 20:36Speaker 1: foot of the noticeboard. This possibly was the biology list.
- 20:41Speaker 1: He forgot Browning and miss Haysman for the moment and
- 20:44Speaker 1: joined the scrimmage. And at last, with his cheek flattened
- 20:48Speaker 1: against the sleeve of the man on the step above him,
- 20:51Speaker 1: he read the list Class one H. J. Somers Wedderburn,
- 20:56Speaker 1: William Hill, and thereafter followed a second class that is
- 21:01Speaker 1: outside our present sympathies. It was characteristic that he did
- 21:05Speaker 1: not trouble to look for Thorpe on the physics list,
- 21:09Speaker 1: but backed out of the struggle at once, and, in
- 21:12Speaker 1: a curious emotional state between pride over common second class
- 21:17Speaker 1: humanity and acute disappointment at Wedderburn's success, went on his
- 21:23Speaker 1: way upstairs. At the top, as he was hanging up
- 21:27Speaker 1: his coat in the passage, the zoological demonstrator, a young
- 21:31Speaker 1: man from Oxford who secretly regarded him as a blatant
- 21:36Speaker 1: mugger of the very worst type, offered his heartiest congratulations.
- 21:42Speaker 1: At the laboratory door, Hill stopped for a second to
- 21:45Speaker 1: get his breath, and then entered. He looked straight up
- 21:49Speaker 1: the laboratory and saw all five girl students grouped in
- 21:53Speaker 1: their places, and Wedderburn, the once retiring Wedderburn, leaning rather
- 22:00Speaker 1: gracefully against the window, playing with the blind tassel, and
- 22:04Speaker 1: talking apparently to the five of them. Now Hill could
- 22:09Speaker 1: talk bravely enough and even over bearingly to one girl,
- 22:14Speaker 1: and he could have made a speech to a roomful
- 22:16Speaker 1: of girls. But this business of standing at ease and
- 22:20Speaker 1: appreciating fencing, and returning quick remarks round a group was
- 22:26Speaker 1: he knew altogether beyond him coming up the staircase. His
- 22:30Speaker 1: feelings for Wedderbourn had been generous, a certain admiration, perhaps,
- 22:35Speaker 1: a willingness to shake his hand conspicuously and heartily as
- 22:40Speaker 1: one who had fought but the first round. But before
- 22:44Speaker 1: Christmas Wedderburn had never gone up to that end of
- 22:48Speaker 1: the room to talk. In a flash, Hill's mist of
- 22:52Speaker 1: vague excitement condensed abruptly to a vivid dislike of Wedderbourn.
- 22:57Speaker 1: Possibly his expression changed as he came up to his place.
- 23:02Speaker 1: Wedderbourn nodded carelessly to him, and the others glanced round.
- 23:07Speaker 1: Miss Haysman looked at him and away again, the faintest
- 23:11Speaker 1: touch of her eyes. I can't agree with you, mister Wedderburn,
- 23:15Speaker 1: She said, I must congratulate you on your first class,
- 23:19Speaker 1: Miss Deal, said the spectacled girl in green, turning round
- 23:22Speaker 1: and beaming at him. It's nothing, said Hill, staring at
- 23:26Speaker 1: Wedderbourn and Miss Haysman, talking together, and eager to hear
- 23:30Speaker 1: what they talked about. We poor folks in the second class,
- 23:34Speaker 1: don't think so, said the girl in spectacles. What was it?
- 23:38Speaker 1: Wedderburn was saying something about William Morris. Hill did not
- 23:42Speaker 1: answer the girl in spectacles, and the smile died out
- 23:46Speaker 1: of his face. He could not hear, and failed to
- 23:49Speaker 1: see how he could cut in. Confound Wedderburn. He sat down,
- 23:54Speaker 1: opened his bag, hesitated whether to return the volume of
- 23:58Speaker 1: Browning forthwith in the sight of all, and instead drew
- 24:02Speaker 1: out his new note books for the short course in
- 24:05Speaker 1: elementary botany that was now beginning and which would terminate
- 24:09Speaker 1: in February. As he did so, a fat, heavy man
- 24:13Speaker 1: with a white face and pale gray eyes Bindon the
- 24:17Speaker 1: professor of Botany, who came up from Kew for January
- 24:21Speaker 1: and February, came in by the lecture theater door and passed,
- 24:25Speaker 1: rubbing his hands together and smiling in silent affability, down
- 24:30Speaker 1: the laboratory. In the subsequent six weeks, Hill experienced some
- 24:36Speaker 1: very rapid and curiously complex emotional developments. For the most part,
- 24:41Speaker 1: he had Wedderburn in focus, a fact that Miss Haysman
- 24:45Speaker 1: never suspected, she told Hill, for in the comparative privacy
- 24:51Speaker 1: of the museum, she talked a good deal to him
- 24:54Speaker 1: of socialism and Browning and general propositions. That she had
- 24:59Speaker 1: met Wedderburn at the house of some people she knew,
- 25:02Speaker 1: and he's inherited his cleverness for his father, you know,
- 25:06Speaker 1: is the great eye specialist. My father is a cobbler,
- 25:10Speaker 1: said Hill, quite irrelevantly, and perceived the want of dignity
- 25:14Speaker 1: even as he said it. But the gleam of jealousy
- 25:17Speaker 1: did not offend her. She conceived herself the fundamental source
- 25:21Speaker 1: of it. He suffered bitterly from a sense of Wedderburn's
- 25:26Speaker 1: unfairness and a realization of his own handicap. Here was
- 25:31Speaker 1: this Wedderburn had picked up a prominent man for a father,
- 25:35Speaker 1: and instead of his losing so many marks on the
- 25:38Speaker 1: score of that advantage, it was counted to him for righteousness.
- 25:43Speaker 1: And while Hill had to introduce himself and talked to
- 25:47Speaker 1: Miss Haysman clumsily over mangled guinea pigs in the laboratory.
- 25:52Speaker 1: This Wedderburn, in some back stairs way, had access to
- 25:57Speaker 1: her social altitudes and could verse in a polished argo
- 26:01Speaker 1: that Hill understood, perhaps, but felt incapable of speaking, not
- 26:06Speaker 1: of course, that he wanted to. Then it seemed to
- 26:09Speaker 1: Hill that for Wedderburn to come there day after day
- 26:13Speaker 1: with cuffs unfrayed, neatly tailored, precisely barbered, quietly perfect, was
- 26:21Speaker 1: in itself an ill bred sneering sort of proceeding. Moreover,
- 26:25Speaker 1: it was a stealthy thing for Wedderburn to behave insignificantly
- 26:30Speaker 1: for a space, to mock modesty, to lead Hill to
- 26:33Speaker 1: fancies that he himself was beyond dispute the man of
- 26:38Speaker 1: the year, and then suddenly to dart in front of him,
- 26:40Speaker 1: and incontinently to swell up in this fashion. In addition
- 26:45Speaker 1: to these things, Wedderburn displayed an increasing disposition to join
- 26:49Speaker 1: in any conversational grouping that included miss Haysman, and would
- 26:55Speaker 1: venture and indeed seek occasion to pass opinions derogatory to
- 27:00Speaker 1: socialism and atheism. He goaded Hill to incivilities by neat,
- 27:07Speaker 1: shallow and exceedingly effective personalities about the socialist leaders until
- 27:13Speaker 1: Hill hated Bernard Shaw's graceful egotisms, William Morris's limited editions
- 27:20Speaker 1: and luxurious wallpapers, and Walter Crane's charmingly absurd ideal working
- 27:27Speaker 1: men about as much as he hated Wedderburn. The dissertations
- 27:33Speaker 1: in the laboratory that had been his glory in the
- 27:35Speaker 1: previous term became a danger, degenerated into inglorious tussles with Wedderburn,
- 27:42Speaker 1: and Hill kept to them only out of an obscure
- 27:45Speaker 1: perception that his honor was involved in the debating society.
- 27:49Speaker 1: Hill knew quite clearly that to a thunderous accompaniment of
- 27:53Speaker 1: banged desks he could have pulverized Wedderburn. Only Wedderburn never
- 28:00Speaker 1: tended the debating society to be pulverized, because nauseous affectation
- 28:06Speaker 1: he dined late. You must not imagine that these things
- 28:11Speaker 1: presented themselves in quite such a crude form. To Hill's perception,
- 28:16Speaker 1: Hill was a born generalizer. Wedderburn, to him, was not
- 28:21Speaker 1: so much an individual obstacle as a type the salient
- 28:25Speaker 1: angle of a class. The economic theories that, after infinite ferment,
- 28:31Speaker 1: had shaped themselves in Hill's mind, became abruptly concrete at
- 28:36Speaker 1: the contact. The world became full of easy mannered, graceful,
- 28:42Speaker 1: gracefully dressed, conversationally dexterous, finally shallow, Wedderburn's bishops, Wedderburn's wedderburn
- 28:52Speaker 1: MP's professors, Wedderburn wedderburn landlords, all with finger bowl, shiverlet
- 29:00Speaker 1: and epigrammatic cities of refuge from a sturdy debater, and
- 29:06Speaker 1: everyone ill clothed or ill dressed, from the cobbler to
- 29:11Speaker 1: the cab runner, was a man and a brother, a
- 29:14Speaker 1: fellow sufferer to Hill's imagination, so that he became, as
- 29:18Speaker 1: it were, a champion of the fallen and oppressed, albeit
- 29:23Speaker 1: to outward seeming only a self assertive, ill mannered young man,
- 29:28Speaker 1: and an unsuccessful champion at that. Again and again, a
- 29:34Speaker 1: skirmish over the afternoon tea that the Girl's students had
- 29:37Speaker 1: inaugurated left Hill with flushed cheeks and a tattered temper,
- 29:43Speaker 1: and the debating society noticed a new quality of sarcastic
- 29:47Speaker 1: bitterness in his speeches. You will understand now how it
- 29:52Speaker 1: was necessary, if only in the interests of humanity, that
- 29:56Speaker 1: Hill should demolish Wedderburn in the forthcoming examination, and outshine
- 30:01Speaker 1: him in the eyes of miss Hayesman, and you will
- 30:04Speaker 1: perceive too how Miss Hayesman fell into some common feminine
- 30:09Speaker 1: misconceptions the Hill Wedderburn quarrel. For in his unostentatious way,
- 30:15Speaker 1: Wedderburn reciprocated Hill's ill veiled rivalry became a tribute to
- 30:21Speaker 1: her indefinable charm. She was the queen of beauty in
- 30:26Speaker 1: a tournament of scalpels and stumpy pencils, to her confidential
- 30:31Speaker 1: friend's secret annoyance. It even troubled her conscience, for she
- 30:36Speaker 1: was a good girl and painfully aware from Ruskin and
- 30:40Speaker 1: contemporary fiction how entirely men's activities are determined by women's attitudes.
- 30:47Speaker 1: And if Hill never by any chance mentioned the topic
- 30:52Speaker 1: of love to her, she only credited him with the
- 30:56Speaker 1: finer modesty for that omission. So the time came on
- 31:01Speaker 1: for the second examination, and Hills increasing pallor confirmed the
- 31:07Speaker 1: general rumor that he was working hard in the aerated
- 31:11Speaker 1: bread shop near South Kensington Station. You would see him
- 31:15Speaker 1: breaking his bun and sipping his milk, with his eyes
- 31:19Speaker 1: intent upon a paper of closely written notes. In his bedroom,
- 31:23Speaker 1: there were propositions about buds and stems round his looking glass,
- 31:28Speaker 1: a diagram to catch his eye if soap should chance
- 31:32Speaker 1: to spare it above his washing basin. He missed several
- 31:36Speaker 1: meetings of the Debating Society, but he found the chance
- 31:40Speaker 1: encounters with Miss Haysman in the spacious ways of the
- 31:44Speaker 1: adjacent art museum, or in the little museum at the
- 31:47Speaker 1: top of the college, or in the College corridors more
- 31:51Speaker 1: frequent and very RESTful. In particular, they used to meet
- 31:55Speaker 1: in a little gallery full of wrought iron chests and
- 31:58Speaker 1: gates near the Art Life Library, and there Hill used
- 32:02Speaker 1: to talk under the gentle stimulus of her flattering attention
- 32:07Speaker 1: of Browning and his personal ambitions. A characteristic she found
- 32:12Speaker 1: remarkable in him was his freedom from avarice. He contemplated
- 32:17Speaker 1: quite calmly the prospect of living all his life on
- 32:21Speaker 1: an income below a hundred pounds a year, but he
- 32:24Speaker 1: was determined to be famous, to make recognizably in his
- 32:28Speaker 1: own proper person the world a better place to live in.
- 32:32Speaker 1: He took Bradley and John Burns for his leaders and models,
- 32:37Speaker 1: poor even impecunious great men, But Miss Haysman thought that
- 32:43Speaker 1: such lives were deficient on the esetic side, by which,
- 32:47Speaker 1: though she did not know it, she meant good wall
- 32:51Speaker 1: paper and upholstery, pretty books, tasteful clothes, concerts, and meals
- 32:58Speaker 1: nicely cooked and respectful served. At last came the day
- 33:03Speaker 1: of the second examination, and the professor of Botany, a fussy,
- 33:08Speaker 1: conscientious man, rearranged all the tables in a long, narrow
- 33:12Speaker 1: laboratory to prevent copying, and put his demonstrator on a
- 33:16Speaker 1: chair on a table where he felt, he said, like
- 33:20Speaker 1: a hindoo god to see all the cheating, and stuck
- 33:25Speaker 1: a notice outside the door, door closed for no earthly
- 33:29Speaker 1: reason that any human being could discover. And all the
- 33:32Speaker 1: morning from ten till one, the quill of Wedderburn shrieked
- 33:37Speaker 1: defiance at Hills, and the quills of the others chased
- 33:41Speaker 1: their leaders in a tireless pack. And so also it
- 33:45Speaker 1: was in the afternoon Wedderbourn was a little quieter than usual,
- 33:50Speaker 1: and Hill's face was hot all day, and his overcoat
- 33:53Speaker 1: bulged with text books and note books against the last
- 33:58Speaker 1: moment's revision. And the next day, in the morning and
- 34:02Speaker 1: in the afternoon was the practical examination, when sections had
- 34:07Speaker 1: to be cut and slides identified. In the morning, Hill
- 34:11Speaker 1: was depressed because he knew he had cut a thick section,
- 34:16Speaker 1: And in the afternoon came the mysterious slip. It was
- 34:21Speaker 1: just the kind of thing that the botanical professor was
- 34:24Speaker 1: always doing. Like the income tax, it offered a premium
- 34:29Speaker 1: to the cheat. It was a preparation under the microscope,
- 34:32Speaker 1: a little glass slip held in its place on the
- 34:35Speaker 1: stage of the instrument by light steel clips, and the
- 34:39Speaker 1: inscription set forth that the slip was not to be moved.
- 34:44Speaker 1: Each student was to go in turn to it, sketch it,
- 34:47Speaker 1: write in his book of answers what he considered it
- 34:50Speaker 1: to be, and returned to his place. Now, to move
- 34:55Speaker 1: such a slip is a thing one can do by
- 34:57Speaker 1: a chance movement of the finger, and in a fraction
- 35:00Speaker 1: of a second. The professor's reason for decreeing that the
- 35:05Speaker 1: slip should not be moved depended on the fact that
- 35:08Speaker 1: the object he wanted identified was characteristic of a certain
- 35:12Speaker 1: tree stem. In the position in which it was placed,
- 35:16Speaker 1: it was a difficult thing to recognize, but once the
- 35:19Speaker 1: slip was moved so as to bring other parts of
- 35:22Speaker 1: the preparation into view, its nature was obvious enough Hill
- 35:26Speaker 1: came to this flushed from a contest with staining reagents,
- 35:31Speaker 1: sat down on the little stool before the microscope, turned
- 35:35Speaker 1: the mirror to get the best light, and then, out
- 35:38Speaker 1: of sheer habit shifted the slips. At once. He remembered
- 35:42Speaker 1: the prohibition, and with an almost continuous motion of his hands,
- 35:48Speaker 1: moved it back and sat paralyzed with astonishment at his action.
- 35:53Speaker 1: Then slowly he turned his head. The professor was out
- 35:57Speaker 1: of the room. The demonstrator sat aloft on his impromptu rostrum,
- 36:01Speaker 1: reading the Quarterly Journal of Microscopical Science. The rest of
- 36:05Speaker 1: the examinees were busy and with their backs to him.
- 36:09Speaker 1: Should he own up to the accident. Now he knew
- 36:12Speaker 1: quite clearly what the thing was. It was a lenticel,
- 36:16Speaker 1: a characteristic preparation from the elder tree. His eyes roved
- 36:21Speaker 1: over his intent fellow students, and Wedderburn suddenly glanced over
- 36:25Speaker 1: his shoulder at him, with a queer expression in his eyes.
- 36:29Speaker 1: The mental excitement that had kept Hill at an abnormal
- 36:33Speaker 1: pitch of vigor these two days gave way to a
- 36:36Speaker 1: curious nervous tension. His book of answers was beside him.
- 36:40Speaker 1: He did not write down what the thing was, But
- 36:44Speaker 1: with one eye at the microscope, he began making a
- 36:46Speaker 1: hasty sketch of it. His mind was full of this
- 36:50Speaker 1: grotesque puzzle in ethics that had suddenly been sprung upon him.
- 36:55Speaker 1: Should he identify it? Or should he leave this question unanswered?
- 36:59Speaker 1: In that case, Wedderburn would probably come out first in
- 37:03Speaker 1: the second result, How could he tell now whether he
- 37:06Speaker 1: might not have identified the thing without shifting it. It
- 37:11Speaker 1: was possible that Wedderburn had failed to recognize it. Of course,
- 37:14Speaker 1: suppose Wedderburn too had shifted the slide. He looked up
- 37:19Speaker 1: at the clock. There were fifteen minutes in which to
- 37:21Speaker 1: make up his mind. He gathered up his book of
- 37:24Speaker 1: answers and the colored pencils he used in illustrating his replies,
- 37:28Speaker 1: and walked back to his seat. He read through his
- 37:32Speaker 1: manuscript and then sat thinking and gnawing his knuckle. It
- 37:37Speaker 1: would look queer now if he owned up. He must
- 37:40Speaker 1: beat Wedderburn. He forgot the examples of those starry gentlemen,
- 37:45Speaker 1: John Burns and Bradley. Besides, he reflected the glimpse of
- 37:49Speaker 1: the rest of the slip he had had was, after
- 37:52Speaker 1: all quite accidental forced upon him. By chance a kind
- 37:56Speaker 1: of providential revelation, rather than an unfair advantage. It was
- 38:00Speaker 1: not nearly so dishonest to avail himself of that, as
- 38:04Speaker 1: it was a broom who believed in the efficacy of
- 38:07Speaker 1: prayer to pray daily for a first class five minutes more,
- 38:13Speaker 1: said the demonstrator, folding up his paper and becoming observant.
- 38:17Speaker 1: Hill watched the clock hands until two minutes remained. Then
- 38:22Speaker 1: he opened the book of Answers, and, with hot ears
- 38:25Speaker 1: and an affectation of ease, gave his drawing of the
- 38:29Speaker 1: lent cell its name. When the second past list appeared,
- 38:35Speaker 1: the previous positions of Wedderburn and Hill were reversed, and
- 38:38Speaker 1: the spectacled girl in Green, who knew the demonstrator in
- 38:42Speaker 1: private life, where he was practically human, said that in
- 38:46Speaker 1: the result of the two examinations taken together, Hill had
- 38:50Speaker 1: the advantage of a mark one hundred sixty seven to
- 38:54Speaker 1: one hundred and sixty six out of a possible two hundred.
- 38:59Speaker 1: Everyone ad mid Hill in a way, though the suspicion
- 39:03Speaker 1: of mugging clung to him, But Hill was to find
- 39:06Speaker 1: congratulations and Miss Haysman's enhanced opinion of him, and even
- 39:11Speaker 1: the decided decline in the crest of Wedderburn, tainted by
- 39:15Speaker 1: an unhappy memory, he felt a remarkable access of energy
- 39:20Speaker 1: at first, and the note of a democracy marching to triumph.
- 39:25Speaker 1: Returned to his debating society speeches. He worked at his
- 39:28Speaker 1: comparative anatomy with tremendous zeal and effect, and he went
- 39:32Speaker 1: on with his esthetic education. But through it all a
- 39:36Speaker 1: vivid little picture was continually coming before his mind's eye
- 39:41Speaker 1: of a sneakish person manipulating a slide. No human being
- 39:46Speaker 1: had witnessed the act, and he was cock sure that
- 39:49Speaker 1: no higher power existed to see it. But for all
- 39:52Speaker 1: that it worried him, memories are not dead things, but alive.
- 39:57Speaker 1: They dwindle in disuse, but they harden and develop in
- 40:02Speaker 1: all sorts of queer ways if they are being continually
- 40:05Speaker 1: fretted curiously enough, though at the time he perceived clearly
- 40:10Speaker 1: that the shifting was accidental, as the days wore on,
- 40:14Speaker 1: his memory became confused about it, until at last he
- 40:17Speaker 1: was not sure, although he assured himself that he was
- 40:21Speaker 1: sure whether the movement had been absolutely involuntary. Then it
- 40:27Speaker 1: is possible that Hill's dietary was conducive to morbid conscientiousness.
- 40:32Speaker 1: A breakfast frequently eaten in a hurry, a mid day
- 40:36Speaker 1: bun and at such hours after five as chanced to
- 40:41Speaker 1: be convenient, such meat, as his means determined, usually in
- 40:45Speaker 1: a chop house in a back street off the Brompton Road.
- 40:49Speaker 1: Occasionally he treated himself to thropny on ninepenny classics, and
- 40:53Speaker 1: they usually represented a suppression of potatoes or chops. It
- 40:59Speaker 1: is indisputable that outbreaks of self abasement and emotional revival
- 41:04Speaker 1: have a distinct relation to periods of scarcity. But apart
- 41:09Speaker 1: from this influence on the feelings, there was in Hill
- 41:13Speaker 1: a distinct aversion to falsity that the blasphemous Landport cobbler
- 41:19Speaker 1: had inculcated by strap and tongue from his earliest years.
- 41:25Speaker 1: Of one fact about professed atheists, I am convinced they
- 41:30Speaker 1: may be. They usually are fools, void of subtlety, revilers
- 41:36Speaker 1: of holy institutions, brutal speakers, and mischievous knaves. But they
- 41:41Speaker 1: lie with difficulty. If it were not so, if they
- 41:45Speaker 1: had the faintest grasp of the idea of compromise, they
- 41:49Speaker 1: would simply be liberal churchmen. And moreover, this memory poisoned
- 41:55Speaker 1: his regard for miss Haysman, for she now so evidently preferred.
- 41:59Speaker 1: He m to Wedderburn that he felt sure he cared
- 42:03Speaker 1: for her, and began reciprocating her attentions by timid marks
- 42:07Speaker 1: of personal regard. At one time he even bought a
- 42:11Speaker 1: bunch of violets, carried it about in his pocket, and
- 42:15Speaker 1: produced it with a stumbling explanation withered and dead in
- 42:20Speaker 1: the gallery of old iron. It poisoned too the denunciation
- 42:25Speaker 1: of capitalist dishonesty that had been one of his life's pleasures.
- 42:29Speaker 1: And lastly, it poisoned his triumph in Wedderburn. Previously, he
- 42:35Speaker 1: had been Wedderburn's superior in his own eyes, and had
- 42:39Speaker 1: raged simply at a want of recognition. Now he began
- 42:43Speaker 1: to fret at the darker suspicion of positive inferiority. He
- 42:49Speaker 1: fancied he found justifications for his position in Browning, but
- 42:53Speaker 1: they vanished on analysis. At last, moved curiously enough by
- 42:59Speaker 1: exactly the same motive forces that had resulted in his dishonesty,
- 43:03Speaker 1: he went to Professor Bindon and made a clean breast
- 43:07Speaker 1: of the whole affair. As Hill was a paid student
- 43:11Speaker 1: Professor Bindon did not ask him to sit down, and
- 43:14Speaker 1: he stood before the professor's desk as he made his confession.
- 43:18Speaker 1: It's a curious story, said Professor Bindon, slowly realizing how
- 43:22Speaker 1: the thing reflected on himself and then letting his anger rise.
- 43:27Speaker 1: A most remarkable story. I can't understand your doing it,
- 43:31Speaker 1: and I can't understand this avowal. You're a type of
- 43:34Speaker 1: student Cambridge men would never dream. I suppose I ought
- 43:38Speaker 1: to have thought, why did you cheat? I didn't cheat,
- 43:43Speaker 1: said Hill, But you have just been telling me you did.
- 43:47Speaker 1: I thought I explained, either you cheated or you did
- 43:50Speaker 1: not cheat. I said my motion was involuntary. I am
- 43:54Speaker 1: not a metaphysician. I am a servant of science, of fact.
- 43:58Speaker 1: You were told not to move the slip. You did
- 44:02Speaker 1: move the slip. If that is not cheating? If I
- 44:05Speaker 1: was a cheat, said Hill, with the note of hysterics
- 44:08Speaker 1: in his voice. Should I come here and tell you your repentance?
- 44:12Speaker 1: Of course does you credit, said Professor Bindon. But it
- 44:16Speaker 1: does not alter the original facts, No, sir, said Hill,
- 44:21Speaker 1: giving in in utter self abasement. Even now you cause
- 44:25Speaker 1: an enormous amount of trouble. The examinational list will have
- 44:28Speaker 1: to be revised. I suppose so, sir, suppose, so of
- 44:32Speaker 1: course it must be revised. And I don't see how
- 44:34Speaker 1: I can conscientiously pass you, not pass me, said Hill,
- 44:39Speaker 1: fail me. It's the rule in all examinations. Or where
- 44:43Speaker 1: should we be? What else did you expect? You don't
- 44:47Speaker 1: want to shirk the consequences of your own acts, I thought, perhaps,
- 44:51Speaker 1: said Hill, and then fail me. I thought, as I
- 44:55Speaker 1: told you, you would simply deduct the marks given for
- 44:58Speaker 1: that slip. Impossible, said Bindon. Besides, it would still leave
- 45:03Speaker 1: you above Wedderbourne. Deduct only the marks preposterous, The departmental
- 45:08Speaker 1: regulations distinctly say, but it's my own adbition, sir. The
- 45:12Speaker 1: regulations say nothing whatever of the manner in which the
- 45:15Speaker 1: matter comes to light. They simply provide it will ruin
- 45:19Speaker 1: me if I fail this examination. They won't renew my scholarship.
- 45:24Speaker 1: You should have thought of that before. But sir, consider
- 45:27Speaker 1: all my circumstances. I cannot consider anything. Professors in this
- 45:32Speaker 1: college are machines. The regulations will not even let us
- 45:37Speaker 1: recommend our students for appointments. I am a machine, and
- 45:42Speaker 1: you have worked me. I have to do. It's very hard, sir.
- 45:46Speaker 1: Possibly it is if I am to be failed this examination,
- 45:50Speaker 1: I might as well go home at once, that is
- 45:53Speaker 1: as you think proper. Bindon's voice softened a little. He
- 45:57Speaker 1: perceived that he had been unjust, and provided he did
- 46:01Speaker 1: not contradict himself, he was disposed to amelioration as a
- 46:06Speaker 1: private person. He said, I think this confession of yours
- 46:09Speaker 1: goes far to mitigate your offense. But you have set
- 46:12Speaker 1: the machinery in motion, and now it must take its course.
- 46:17Speaker 1: I I am really sorry you gave way. A wave
- 46:21Speaker 1: of emotion prevented Hill from answering. Suddenly, very vividly, he
- 46:26Speaker 1: saw the heavily lined face of the old Landport cobbler
- 46:30Speaker 1: his father. Good lord, what a fool I have been,
- 46:33Speaker 1: he said, hotly and abruptly. I hope, said Bindon, that
- 46:38Speaker 1: it will be a lesson to you. But curiously enough
- 46:42Speaker 1: they were not thinking of quite the same indiscretion. There
- 46:46Speaker 1: was a pause. I would like a day to think, sir,
- 46:50Speaker 1: and then I will let you know about going home,
- 46:53Speaker 1: I mean, said Hill, moving towards the door. The next day,
- 46:58Speaker 1: Hill's place was vacant. The spectacled girl in green was,
- 47:03Speaker 1: as usual, first with the news Wedderbourn and Miss Haysman
- 47:07Speaker 1: were talking of a performance of the Meister Singers when
- 47:10Speaker 1: she came up to them. Have you heard, she said? Heard?
- 47:14Speaker 1: What there was cheating in the examination? Cheating? Said Wedderburn,
- 47:19Speaker 1: with his face suddenly hot. How that slide moved? Never?
- 47:24Speaker 1: It was that slide that we weren't to move? Nonsense,
- 47:29Speaker 1: said Wedderburn. Why how could they find out? Who? Do
- 47:32Speaker 1: they say it was? Mister Hill? Hill? Mister Hill, not surely,
- 47:38Speaker 1: not the immaculate Hill, said Wedderburn, recovering. I don't believe it,
- 47:43Speaker 1: said Miss Hayesman. How do you know? I didn't, said
- 47:47Speaker 1: the girl in Spectacles, But I know it now for
- 47:50Speaker 1: a fact. Mister Hill went and confessed to Professor Bindon himself.
- 47:55Speaker 1: Why jove, said Wedderburn, Hill, of all people. But I'm
- 48:00Speaker 1: always inclined to distrust these philanthropists on principle. Ah, you
- 48:06Speaker 1: quite sure, said Miss Hayesman, with a catch in her breath. Quite,
- 48:11Speaker 1: It's dreadful, isn't it? But you know what can you expect?
- 48:15Speaker 1: His father is a cobbler. Then Miss Haysman astonished the
- 48:19Speaker 1: girl in Spectacles. I don't care. I will not believe it.
- 48:23Speaker 1: She said, flushing darkly under her warm tinted skin. I
- 48:27Speaker 1: will not believe it until he has told me so himself,
- 48:31Speaker 1: face to face. I would scarcely believe it. Then, and abruptly,
- 48:35Speaker 1: she turned her back on the Girl in Spectacles and
- 48:38Speaker 1: walked to her own place. It's true all the same,
- 48:42Speaker 1: said the Girl in spectacles, peering and smiling at Wedderburn.
- 48:46Speaker 1: But Wedderburn did not answer her. She was indeed one
- 48:51Speaker 1: of those people who seemed destined to make unanswered remarks.
- 48:57Speaker 1: End of Section eighteen