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How PAIN reveals your PURPOSE · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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  So what if this challenge is happening because the cosmos wants to give a gift through your spirit that can only be unlocked through this challenge?
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  Oh, there it is.
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  Okay, there it is.
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  Hello Divine Soul, welcome or welcome back to The Soul Salon.
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  Today we are going to be talking about a challenge that you are facing in this moment of your life and what I believe a deeper understanding of the challenges and setbacks and obstacles that we go through, the heartbreaks that we go through in this lifetime, what the cosmic perspective on that could be as an invitation, as an offering to your spirit from my soul to yours.
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  Welcome to The Soul Salon.
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  So if this has found you, you are going through some sort of heartbreak or challenge in this moment of your life.
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  It could be related to your health, to your well-being, to your mental or physical or spiritual energetic body, to any aspect of your life that is feeling constrained or limited, a relationship associated.
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  financial hardship, something that is really testing you.
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  And you're thinking to yourself, why is this happening?
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  You know, why is this happening?
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  And you are reminding yourself, you are telling yourself that this is not happening to you.
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  This is happening for you.
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  This is happening through you.
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  This is happening as you.
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  You are saying the mantras, the affirmations.
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  You are trying to call yourself into a more empowered narrative that you have the power to co-create with life and not only be victimized by your circumstances.
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  At the same time, as someone who is open-hearted, this is a very challenging and difficult time or moment for you.
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  And you are trying to hold it with wisdom, with love and with compassion, but it gets very challenging.
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  So for me, this has been an experience that I've gone through with a vocal difficulty that I've had for a year and a half now, where it just really hurts to speak.
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  The thing that I love, the thing that I enjoy most, the thing that I enjoy,
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  feel so attached to identity-wise has been sweeped from under me like a rug.
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  This thing that I could rely on is like something that I express through and with, something that I dance with, something that I express my purpose through has been destabilized.
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  You know, like the ground beneath my feet that I took for granted has been shifted.
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  And I'm,
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  This whole process of going through this journey with acid reflux and with vocal hoarseness and dryness and tension and struggling to speak, struggling to have conversations with my best friend, with people in my life, like not being able to have certain phone calls and having relationships be affected by my inability to really show up in that capacity of voice, of vocalizing, has been extremely heartbreaking to me and very...
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  Just like earth shattering, because it's like, who am I without this thing that I thought I was?
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  I thought I was my voice.
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  I thought I was my ability to speak and connect and converse.
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  I thought that was my purpose in this lifetime.
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  I thought that that was who I am.
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  But like spirit will do and the universe will do, the foundations of what we thought we were and had to be are often invited to shift and change so that we can change.
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  come to a deeper understanding of actually how much more expansive we are than this thing that we were attached to understanding ourselves as.
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  So I feel like there's this heartbreak of life that we all go through in many different ways.
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  You know, we all go through loss.
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  We all go through grief.
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  We all go through...
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  just such difficulty in this lifetime.
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  But what I want to invite you into is that this challenge happening to you is music that is trying to be created through you.
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  And as artists, as creators, as people who are here to co-create with the universe, with source, with the divine, it's so important to tap into music.
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  a surrendered understanding of what we are here to do on earth.
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  What this means is that we may think we know why we came to earth.
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  I may think I came to earth to speak.
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  I may think I found my purpose, quote unquote, but there's always a higher cosmic music that is seeking to be expressed through us that will often invite us to let go of what we thought had to happen.
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  So I'm sort of going through this experience in my own journey where I'm like, maybe my attachment to speaking is,
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  is being invited to soften into allowing other forms of expression to come through me.
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  So I've been singing, I'm making my first song.
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  Very exciting, very vulnerable, very beautiful, very wondrous.
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  And I do wonder...
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  If I hadn't gone through this vocal journey, would it have clarified?
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  Would I have experienced the clarity of knowing exactly what I want to use my voice for and what I may be willing to let go of?
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  You know, even as I'm speaking to you now, I'm like in pain.
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  Not like that's the thing.
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  It's like a mild pain.
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  It's a pain that I can...
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  co-create with, I can be okay with.
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  But it does make me think like, is this what I want to be doing?
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  You know, I am going through this sort of questioning, which we'll always be doing as people who are tapped in.
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  Like we're questioning everything we thought we knew, everything we thought we wanted to do.
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  it's a question.
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  It's a question of like, is this actually, you know, what I want to do?
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  And it doesn't have to be so final, like, do I want to do this or no?
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  But at what degree do I want to do this?
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  You know, like I thought I would create a session like this every week.
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  Maybe I'm going to create it every month.
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  Maybe I'm going to create it every other week.
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  What do I actually want to this experience and what is being wanted through me?
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  So the cosmic music, this is a really exciting idea, babes.
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  It's basically the understanding that,
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  You know, when you hear music, there is a natural response, there's a call and response in music.
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  And if we think of it from a cosmic perspective, everything is frequency, right?
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  Everything is energy.
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  So if this challenge is happening, it could be that there is something that the cosmos wants to evoke through your spirit through this happening.
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  So it's almost as though the one note is sung and that note to us is devastating.
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  It's heartbreaking.
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  It's awful.
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  Why did this have to happen?
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  But through surrendering to that note, we then create the music of our soul, of our spirit.
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  So an example of this to just ground this more tactically is when people give speeches that are inspiring, what do they often say?
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  It's often about a challenge that they went through that they would never have chosen for themselves, but they then alchemized into service.
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  into impact.
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  And so as they go through this adventure, this journey, this, you know, hero's journey or whatever we may call it, they find a way to be of deeper service to the collective.
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  So by them having their heart broken, they become of deeper service to other people.
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  So we see people creating organizations, nonprofits, businesses, organizations,
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  creating music, creating films, movies, books that are a result.
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  I don't want to use the word product, but they are created through the challenge that this person went through.
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  So a lot of people will then think, oh, well, that challenge then helped them reach their own potential.
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  That's the understanding of a hero's journey.
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  It's about the hero.
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  But if we shift this to a collective understanding, that person perhaps...
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  needed to go through that in order to be of deeper service to the greater whole.
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  Now, this isn't to like justify suffering or say like, oh, you have to suffer to be of service.
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  You can be of service in many ways.
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  What we find, though, is that there's always a creative possibility, always, in every moment.
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  There is a possibility to create through that moment, with that moment, in that moment.
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  But we tend to be listening more carefully when we are in pain.
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  So that's why we often think we have to suffer to create art.
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  It's not true, but it's just that we tend to be more sensitive, more open when we are going through heartbreak.
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  We tend to have this urgency to listen to our creative voice and to create with it.
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  It's like we're overflowing with emotion and the emotion has to find a page or a canvas or a storyboard.
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  Or a video camera, okay?
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  It has to come out because we're so full of it that it wants to be expressed.
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  But that expression is always there.
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  It's just, are we listening?
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  So I think in this understanding of like challenge, of heartbreak,
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  of this deep disappointment and devastation that we go through in life, when we see, okay, if I zoom out, how will this event invite me to be of service to my community?
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  We often find when people go through something really heartbreaking, there is a tendency because as humans, we want to help.
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  It is part of our human nature to help each other.
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  We've been sold a story by people.
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  white supremacy, colonialism, patriarchy, that we are inherently selfish by capitalism, that we're inherently selfish.
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  We're inherently out for our own good, but we know that we would not be here had it not been for the ways we help each other.
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  Our nature to be of service to one another when someone injures themselves to support them, when someone can't walk to be what they lean on, when someone needs a hand to be that hand.
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  We do have that in our nature as well, collaboration.
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  Support, mutual thriving, mutual effort, mutual support.
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  That is part of our human nature.
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  That's part of our nature as a species.
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  That's part of nature's nature is support.
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  The trees under the root systems are all supporting each other.
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  It's not one tree on its own.
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  They're connected.
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  They're sending information, nutrient support to one another.
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  I once read in this book, what was it called?
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  The Hidden Life of Trees, that, for example, if there's a predator that's eating the leaves of one tree, that tree will send information through the root system to the other trees, which will actually...
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  invite those trees to make a substance that makes their leaves more like poisonous or toxic to the, to those like giraffes or whatever's eating the leaves.
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  So they're sending information to each other to protect each other.
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  And in that book, the author calls it the wood wide web that we think by
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  the internet we've created this interconnected system for the first time but nature is the ultimate interconnected web of information of sharing of support of nutrients of nourishment of being together you know and supporting together so
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  We know that we're all tapped into one another, just like the trees are.
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  We know that we are one.
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  You know, there's a oneness in us.
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  There's a resonance in us.
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  There's a desire to support.
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  And so we have this human nature to support.
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  So when we go through something horrendous, devastating, we have the desire to
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  to support other people who may go through the same.
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  We often hear people say, I never wanted anyone to go through that again, or I knew there was a better way.
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  So when we go through something intimately horrible, it evokes within us this mothering, nurturing energy of wanting to be the medicine to that pain in the world.
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  We create a song that,
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  of the heartbreak we're going through so that that song can be of meaning, of service, of resonance to someone else.
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  Now, it's not so that in that like when we write the song, we're like, oh, we want this to help others.
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  But there's a natural tendency to create something that will be of service to someone else.
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  So you go through...
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  A horrible breakup.
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  Horrible, horrible, horrible.
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  And then you find through that what are the books that supported you?
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  What are the poems that supported you?
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  And what is your impulse?
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  Is it just to keep those poems to yourself?
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  No, suddenly you want people to hear those poems or those songs.
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  You create a playlist maybe and you share it with a friend.
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  Or you read a poem and you're like, everyone needs to read this poem.
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  Or you watch a film and you have this desire to share the film with the world.
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  with your community, with your friends.
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  You read an essay, you send it to someone.
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  What happens when you read something that moves you?
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  You hit that share button when you see the tweet or the TikTok.
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  You hit that share button because we have a tendency to want to give to each other.
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  So what if this challenge is happening because the cosmos wants to give a gift through your spirit that can only be unlocked through this challenge?
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  Oh, there it is.
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  Okay, there it is.
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  So we know the spiritual teacher Michael Beckwith talks about how there is a specific kind of pine tree.
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  where the seed of that tree lies dormant.
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  So it's not unlocked.
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  It doesn't become anything in the soil for decades, 50, 60 years in the soil.
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  It's just a seed.
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  So we know that that pine tree can become a source of nourishment, a source of memory because trees hold memory and trees create memory.
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  We sit under the tree.
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  We look at the tree.
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  We're creating memory with the tree.
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  So we know this is true.
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  But for 60 years, the seed is just lying there.
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  Until there is a fire.
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  When a fire happens, a wildfire happens, a forest fire happens, that seed, there's so much pressure on the seed, force on the seed, that the seed's potential is unlocked and the pine tree seed then sprouts and then it can become its fullest potential, which is a pine tree.
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  Now, sending so much love to all the devastation happening in the world, the ecological collapse.
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  This is why we need people like you to step into their purpose, their power, their calling, their love, their heart.
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  So that we can create the new earth that is seeking to rise through us.
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  An earth in alignment with the values we wish to see, the values we wish to nurture, love, healing, connection, oneness, mutual thriving.
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  Instead of supremacy, hierarchy, abuse, collapse, trauma, pain.
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  We'll always experience pain in a life, but there's so much unnecessary and systemic and supremacist and violent pain that does not need to exist.
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  Okay, so the seed's power is unlocked by the fire.
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  That seed then becomes the tree that the community needed.
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  That is the metaphor we are using for what's happening in your life at this moment.
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  So we didn't want the devastating heartbreak.
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  We didn't want the being fired from your job.
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  We didn't want the feelings of scarcity or feeling like you're not making ends meet.
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  We didn't want those things.
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  Why is this happening to me?
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  Feeling like your body, things are happening that you're grieving.
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  Why did this have to happen?
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  You're asking yourself.
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  But what if that is the forest fire that is unlocking what is always trying to blossom through you?
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  That when you finally say, I can't,
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  Wait one more day to be the person I know who I am.
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  So you write the book of your dreams and you just show up and you start writing.
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  Something happens and we hear the story again and again and again, this archetype of a story where someone goes through something heartbreaking that they never would have chosen.
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  And through alchemizing it, it's not only that they then unlock their own potential or reach their dreams or achieve their desires.
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  That's beautiful.
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  But in a grander scheme, they become someone who is of service to more people.
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  They write a memoir that changes the lives of people in their community.
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  They write a screenplay.
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  And the movie touches on a topic in a way that creates representation for a specific community of people.
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  They become a greater medicine.
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  But they needed to almost be taken to that edge in order to expand their capacity to be that medicine.
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  Right?
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  So if we think about it in terms of music, we know that music evokes, you know, you hear a song and it evokes memory.
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  It evokes, it transports you.
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  It takes you back.
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  It takes you forward.
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  You're dreaming of the future or you're thinking of a past memory where you first heard the song.
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  Music is a time travel device.
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  Music is also medicine.
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  You feel all alone and then a singer or even a sound healer or someone creates a frequency that makes you, I can never say that word, a frequency that makes you feel less alone.
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  you reach for that song in the darkness and it is your light.
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  That song then evokes something in you that maybe invites you to write a poem or text someone in your life or just sit with yourself and breathe.
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  So if the cosmos is trying to make music through your spirit, know that it might ask you or ask of you to go through something
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  Life alteringly heartbreaking.
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  First, I'm going to tell you a story.
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  I was sitting in a park in London where I've recently moved with my best friend, Alex.
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  We have moved here and I was sitting in a park and I was writing a song.
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  And the song is a very sad song.
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  And there's this one verse that is crazy.
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  And like, I love it so much.
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  So I'm writing this song.
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  And the song is about silence in a relationship.
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  When there's, it starts with saying, there's a mountain of silence between us.
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  So there's this feeling that someone is next to you, but there's so much distance between you and so much silence, so much unspoken, so much unsaid that is between you.
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  So that's the song.
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  And there's a verse in the song that is about how close you used to be to someone.
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  And it makes me cry.
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  I'm like crying.
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  So now I'm sitting in the park and I'm crying.
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  Next to me, there are these two wonderful women.
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  They are taking photos of each other.
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  They're in this lemon, yellow, beautiful hijab.
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  They look phenomenal.
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  They look East African.
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  I mean, and they then confirmed that they were.
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  And they're taking these photos of each other.
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  I think one of them was East African.
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  One of them was maybe like...
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  from the Caribbean I can't remember but they were taking photos of each other and just supporting each other okay so they come up to me so the one so I'm sobbing writing this song because I'm like oh my god this is so sad like and I thought of a specific person who I was thinking of and I was like we used to be so close and now we're not close and it's just so sad so sad
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  Um, and it's like making me cry.
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  I'm like crying about like this unlived life with this person of like how close that we could have been that we never ended up being.
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  And it's a, it's a friendship kind of breakup, but not breakup.
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  Like that sort of ambiguous territory that friendship goes to where you're like in each other's lives, but just not in the same way you used to, but you never talk about how you used to be extremely close and now you're just not, um, tragic, heartbreaking.
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  So I'm crying and I'm crying.
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  I'm going through my artist moment.
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  And then one of the girls comes up to me.
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  And I look up and she's looking at me.
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  She's like, Miss, Miss, are you all right?
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  I'm like, yes, I'm OK.
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  I'm OK.
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  I'm OK.
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  I'm writing a song and it's just really sad.
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  And she goes, you're writing a song?
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  Oh, she turns to a friend.
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  Oh, she's just writing a song.
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  She's just writing a song.
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  She's fine.
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  She's fine.
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  She's writing a song.
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  Pardon my bad accent.
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  Actually, take the bad accent.
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  She's just writing a song.
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  She's writing a song.
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  She's OK.
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  And she's kind of like flippant about it.
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  She's like, it's just a song.
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  And I found this such an interesting moment because I'm like, all these sad songs we all listen to, like the artist, that is their pain.
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  Like they actually felt those things.
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  They actually went through those things.
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  Even if they're not the songwriter, to sing it in a way that you're feeling the lyrics, the way that they're feeling them.
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  I've been loving the song I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston lately.
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  And I mean, the emotion in that song, the things artists go through to create what we create is,
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  It's not just a song.
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  You know what I mean?
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  She's just writing a song as though like if something else had happened, that would be more justified.
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  Now, so much love to these people.
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  There's a version of me who would have reacted exactly the way they did.
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  It's all divine.
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  It happened exactly what I was meant to.
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  I'm not judging them.
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  I'm sort of calling in this perspective that there was a deeper music that the cosmos was trying to make through me.
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  And I had to go through that suffering, that loss, that grief in order to channel that emotion into the song.
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  So that's a more literal example of the call was the experience of going through this friendship heartbreak.
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  And then also all the silence and everything that I am channeling by like writing, like experiences I've had in conflict, experiences I've had, you know, in family, like this feeling of silence that feels thick as a mountain, big as a mountain, so unspoken, like that feeling.
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  That was the call and the response.
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  is now the song.
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  So life will do that.
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  Life will have you go through an experience so that you can make music out of it, but also so that it can make music out of you.
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  Because there's something that we don't even think about.
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  Music that gets made through us without us even being like, I want to make music today.
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  It comes through our spirit and soul.
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  So that's what you may be going through.
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  Trust a deep unfolding.
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  Trust a deeper song trying to be sung through your soul.
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  A deeper song trying to be sung through your soul.
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  I'm going to say that again three times.
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  Trust that a deeper song is trying to be sung through your soul.
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  Trust that there is music that your spirit wants to make through this event.
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  And trust that it's not only about your self-actualization, but the collective freedom that is unlocked through your going through this event.
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  The collective wisdom that we get to gather through you gathering the wisdom of this.
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  The collective love we get to feel through you alchemizing this pain into love and light.
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  So I'm sending so much love to you.
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  I hope that you travel softly through this experience.
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  Experience the being open to let life break your heart.
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  I had this reminder to myself, which was like, let your art break your heart.
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  So there is the illusionary perfect version of how you think of the illusionary perfect version of creating that dream album, song, book, idea, YouTube channel.
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  I hear so many people want to start a YouTube channel.
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  It's in their mind.
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  It's like this perfect experience.
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  And then there's the reality, messy, mundane, boring, beautiful, stunning, gorgeous, freeing,
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  Flowing and also not everyday flowing, not everyday freeing, not everyday gorgeous, right?
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  Tedious sometimes.
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  Confusing other times.
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  Polarity.
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  Law of polarity.
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  I have a whole live training, free training.
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  You can get it at the Soul Salon Collective below.
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  A free portal live recording that I did.
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  So there's this gap between how we think it's supposed to feel and how it actually feels.
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  This is true of relationships as well, romantic relationships.
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  This is how it's supposed to be.
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  This is what's in front of me.
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  What will we do with that gap, with that conversation between those two?
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  So if we can allow our art to break our heart, meaning I had this dream idea for a podcast.
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  Then I sat down and I recorded it and I didn't like it, for example.
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  Or I felt I wasn't good enough.
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  Or I said, um, all the time and I'm devastated.
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  I'm not as good as I thought I could be.
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  Perfectionism, inner critic.
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  But can you allow that heartbreak to be and create through it?
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  If we allow life to break our heart, like heartbreak is a part of living.
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  Everyone you love, you will grieve.
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  Everyone you love will bring some sort of heartbreak into your life.
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  Even as they're there right in front of you, there'll be a way that we devastate each other.
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  Can we stay open?
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  And not shut down and not say, I'll never love again.
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  I'll never create again.
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  I'll never hope so much again.
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  How many of us do that in love?
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  We've been hurt so many times that we're like, oh, I'm just going to.
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  Expect the worst.
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  No, let's stay open.
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  Let's stay open.
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  Let's stay open.
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  And trust that us opening is the portal for a greater opening.
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  Okay?
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  Okay?
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  Okay?
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  Us staying open is a portal for a greater collective opening.
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  When we stay open to life, so much gets to be born and experienced and felt through us.
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  Because an open poet, that's what we want, right?
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  That is kind of the definition of a poet is they're open.
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  Okay?
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  to existence, to the world.
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  They're open to language, to love.
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  They're open to expression, to truth.
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  We don't want a poet who's shut down.
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  You know, we want a poet who's open, who doesn't pretend it didn't hurt when they didn't feel heard by their partner.
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  We want the poet who feels hurt by their partner when they don't feel that they're listening.
• 24:57
  I heard this guy on this bus yesterday.
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  He's like, you're not listening to me.
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  You're not listening to me.
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  The thing is, if I'm being honest, you never listen.
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  I thought that was such a great line.
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  And my first song, Ghost Town, which I don't know when it's coming out.
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  Things take the time they take.
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  But that song is coming out.
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  Oh, sorry.
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  But that song is about feeling unseen.
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  And then I was on a bus and that guy said those lines.
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  And I was like, oh, my goodness.
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  And that song is breaking my heart.
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  Let your heart break your heart.
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  Because it's not exactly the process is not exactly the dream illusion process.
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  It's still wonderful, magical, beautiful.
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  But I mean, like having a podcast.
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  Like anything, it's got its polarities and I'm just sitting through it and facing it.
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  Anyways, babes, this is what I felt called to share today.
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  I hope it is of service to you.
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  I hope that you trust that this experience, as devastating as it may be, there's a greater music that is seeking to unfold through it, through you, through us.
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  Because in these moments, we find each other.
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  We reach for each other.
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  When we go through something hard, we tend to make something that is an invitation for someone else to feel experienced and felt through it.
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  By this I mean when we allow life...
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  When we allow ourselves to feel life and then we create through that feeling, often what we create is so resonant with the collective feeling and spirit.
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  So these are the moments where we're actually of greater service to each other.
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  So that's also why we're going to allow our work to be seen so that it can be of service to the person seeing it.
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  Because if you think of yourself as a magical room, but the door is shut and painted over, so no one can tell that it's actually a door with magic inside it, then that magic cannot reach the collective heart and spirit and mind and soul.
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  So we need to trust that you are meant to be an open door that people can walk through with boundaries, with, of course, you should honor what feels in alignment and not.
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  It's not a completely open door.
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  You honor, maybe there's a little gate in front of the door and there's a key to the gate and then there's a door, whatever you feel called to do.
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  You have boundaries with it, but you allow yourself to be open so that people can walk into you, walk into how you see the world, walk into how you feel the world, walk into your ideas, your perspectives, your music, your message, and be experienced through it.
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  As I'm recording this, I'm like, my energy is not like, this could be better, right?
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  But remember, we're choosing connection over perfection.
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  This could connect with someone.
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  This could be medicine to someone.
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  So my only going desire for it to be the fake version in my head of what it was supposed to be, which I need to let go of, drop it and let go of it and be present to what is.
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  This is who I am today.
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  This is how I am today.
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  This is my voice today.
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  This is my message today.
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  And let that be more than enough.
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  Let that be generous.
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  Choose connection over perfection.
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  Honor your medicine.
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  Honor your magic.
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  And remember to choose love over logic.
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  Remember, it doesn't have to make sense, not even to you.
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  You may want to do a million things.
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  You may want to dance, sing, act, be a chef, own a bakery, host events, be a DJ.
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  You may want to do all the things.
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  And to some people, it's not going to make sense.
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  But did you come to earth to make sense?
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  Absolutely not.
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  Okay?
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  You came here to make magic.
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  You came here to make meaning.
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  You came here to be your multidimensional expression of the oneness of everything.
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  Because all those things I just mentioned are connected.
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  It's just we're conditioned to believe in a separate consciousness.
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  So going off on a little bit of a dance, it's not a tangent.
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  It's just like an adventure.
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  Like when you're walking, you don't know you're going to see a bird.
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  It just happens.
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  That's life.
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  It's spontaneous.
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  You know, you don't know that suddenly there's going to be
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  You don't know.
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  It just happens.
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  Just happens.
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  So we allow the happening.
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  I'm sending so much love to you.
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  If this resonated with your spirit, please do leave a comment sharing what was most meaningful to you and offering something that could be of service to other people reading the comments, spreading love, spreading light, being the world we wish to experience and being the world we wish to live within, knowing that we are future ancestors of this earth.
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  Okay, so what will people look to us and be like, oh, my goodness, they made music.
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  They made music that we can experience.
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  They created fruits that we can be nourished by.
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  That's what I'm thinking.
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  You know what I mean?
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  Let it be fruits for the collective spirit.
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  And in that, let us sacrifice our egoic desire to be approved of, to be understood, to be liked, to not be judged.
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  We're okay.
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  It's okay being judged.
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  I have a whole soul session on this.
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  It's okay.
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  Safe.
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  Safe to be judged.
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  All the greats were judged.
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  Everyone is judged.
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  Whether or not we live our truth or not, we'll be judged as the scale, but then also the
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  The polarity of that is that when we allow ourselves to be judged, we also allow ourselves to be loved.
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  Okay.
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  Okay.
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  I was listening to Beyonce's song, I Was Here.
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  What a song.
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  What a gift.
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  And what an example of an artist who has given so much to the collective spirit.
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  Ooh, given so much.
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  And what is her cross to bear?
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  She is judged.
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  You know, there's judgment that is placed on her.
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  And some of that judgment is lovement.
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  People love her.
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  I love her.
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  She is a star.
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  She is a...
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  An icon.
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  She's a legend.
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  That's what she is, Beyonce is.
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  And she's given so much.
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  And you can hear the emotion in the song.
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  I was here.
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  I want to leave my footprints in the sand of time.
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  No, there was something that meant something that I left behind when I leave this earth.
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  I'll have no regrets.
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  Leave something to remember so they won't forget.
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  I was here.
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  I lived.
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  I loved.
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  I was here.
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  And that song, I actually invite you to go listen to that song because I feel like that legacy of I left something for the world.
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  I think everyone on this frequency, we want to give something to people.
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  We want to give.
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  We want to be like, oh, my word, this helped you.
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  That's amazing.
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  This resonated.
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  That's incredible.
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  So that's the music trying to be made through us.
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  You know, in a literal sense, if you make music or if you feel invited to or in like a figurative or in a poetic sense where we're all making music.
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  Isn't a conversation a song?
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  You know, it's frequency, it's sound, laughter, talk, talk, resonance, saying the word at the same time.
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  We're always making music.
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  You know, our footsteps on the earth, music.
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  You know?
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  Little high five.
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  Music.
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  From the cosmos.
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  It's all music, isn't it?
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  Our heart beats.
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  Music.
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  The sound of how we interact with our environment.
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  Touching.
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  You know, why do people?
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  They love...
• 31:39
  I almost said BDSM.
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  Oh!
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  ASMR.
• 31:43
  That's an acronym.
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  What can I say?
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  They love ASMR.
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  We love... We're always making music.
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  Our purpose is music.
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  Think about the keyboards clacking.
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  Click, click as the author writes their book.
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  Music.
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  The sound of your pen on the page.
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  Music.
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  So the cosmos is trying to make music out of you, through you, with you, as you.
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  Okay?
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  So let it happen, babes.
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  Let it happen.
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  Okay?
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  I'm sending so much love to you and I'll see you on the next.
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  I don't know what this is now.
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  I don't know what it is.
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  What is the next soul session?
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  I'll see you on the next soul session.
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  What is it?
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  I can't find it.
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  I need a new tune, a new vibe.
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  Someone has any ideas?
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  I'm looking for a new ending.
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  Because the old ending, it's lovely.
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  But I feel like I'm on to the next.
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  I'm on to the next.
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  I'm sending so much love to you and I'll see you on the next soul session.
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  I love you so much.
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  Bye.
• 32:36
  My darling, my love, my soul sibling, thank you for stepping into the soul salon.
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  If you are still hearing or watching this, we are soul siblings.
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  We are resonating on the same frequency.
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  And so something you may struggle with that I struggle with is the fear of being seen.
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  You know that visibility is involved in you living your creative purpose and being in your power.
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  serving the collective through your gifts, through your magic, through your medicine.
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  In order to do that, you know you need to be more seen than you are allowing yourself to be right now.
• 33:09
  I have a gift just for you, heart made for us on this frequency.
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  And it is a free ebook called the soulful visibility guide that is soulful visibility.
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  Like we don't just want to be seen.
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  We want to be felt.
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  We want to be heard.
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  We want to move and be moved.
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  So I do have a free gift for you.
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  And all you need to do is go to my website.
• 33:31
  I understood.com and there you will be able to input your email address and receive this directly to your inbox.
• 33:38
  This is such a juicy and delicious guide.
• 33:41
  And I change the free offering every few months.
• 33:44
  So, you know, get it while you can.
• 33:46
  All the links are in the show notes.
• 33:48
  So thank you so much.
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  I love you.
• 33:50
  And I will see you on the next Soul Session.
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  Okay?
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  I love you.
• 33:53
  Bye.