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Are you lying to yourself? | Ep. 17 · As A Man Awaketh Podshare

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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome to another episode of the As A Man Awaketh pod share.
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, I gotta say, for some reason, one of my Substack notes recently went...
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  SPEAKER_00: Mildly viral,
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  SPEAKER_00: certainly more viral than anything I've ever posted
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  SPEAKER_00: on any social media has ever gone.
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  SPEAKER_00: And since then, I've received a lot more subscriptions, a lot more subscribers.
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  SPEAKER_00: So first of all, I would like to Thank you all for subscribing and welcome my new subscribers.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you so much for being here.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's been kind of an interesting experiment.
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  SPEAKER_00: I think I've talked about this before in 2021 with everything.
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  SPEAKER_00: Everything happening with the election and the censorship,
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  SPEAKER_00: especially around the social media outlets,
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  SPEAKER_00: I decided to leave social media behind almost completely.
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  SPEAKER_00: I left Facebook, I left Instagram, and I think Twitter too at the time.
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  SPEAKER_00: And ever since then, I've noticed what life is like without social media.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's been really nice, honestly.
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  SPEAKER_00: And now that I'm sort of being asked to come back into this field
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  SPEAKER_00: and noticing how people reply to certain notes and certain memes that I post,
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  SPEAKER_00: I sort of got a reminder of what the internet is really like
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  SPEAKER_00: when you're Putting yourself out there, both in good ways and in not so good ways.
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  SPEAKER_00: But I got to say,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: the overwhelmingly response from my posts and the memes that I post and
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  SPEAKER_00: the notes here in Substack are positive.
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  SPEAKER_00: So thank you all.
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  SPEAKER_00: Welcome new subscribers.
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  SPEAKER_00: The way I do things here with the pod share is I really most of
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  SPEAKER_00: the time don't really have any topic Prepared or even notes in front of me, nothing.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just trust myself and I drop into my heart and I just allow myself to be in flow
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  SPEAKER_00: and trust that whatever is coming out is something of value and that may help one
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  SPEAKER_00: or two of you.
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  SPEAKER_00: So thank you for being here, number one.
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  SPEAKER_00: And number two, I'd like to start out today.
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  SPEAKER_00: By saying that I love you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't know most of you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Certainly,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you're listening to this on a different platform other than Substack,
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  SPEAKER_00: I don't even know you for Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asaman Doesn't matter.
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  SPEAKER_00: But we all have access to love.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you've been with me for a while,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know that love is primarily hidden and locked behind the pain and fear
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  SPEAKER_00: that we all go through as children most of the time.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so in order to really express love in the world,
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  SPEAKER_00: we must first release the armor of pain and fear
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  SPEAKER_00: that has been built up around our heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I've been on that journey.
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  SPEAKER_00: For the last couple of years, I really started my own healing journey in 2022.
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  SPEAKER_00: And since then, I've made a lot of progress, if I can say so safely, myself.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I've seen the benefits of that.
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  SPEAKER_00: But regardless, we'll maybe get into that later.
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  SPEAKER_00: I just wanted to say that I am in a place now where I can love you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Even though I don't know you,
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  SPEAKER_00: I can love you just for being you, just because you are, just because you exist.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because creation,
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  SPEAKER_00: whichever label you would like to give the creator,
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  SPEAKER_00: creation itself decided is important for you to be alive right now.
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  SPEAKER_00: There is And there is a mission, there is purpose to your life in creation itself.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that alone is reason for me to love you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because I am one of creation, so are you.
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  SPEAKER_00: We are all coming from the same source.
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  SPEAKER_00: And you are my brother, you are my sister.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's why I love you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And
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  SPEAKER_00: It's taken me a long time to get to this place,
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  SPEAKER_00: but I believe that this is what all the
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  SPEAKER_00: Senate Masters that have come here try
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  SPEAKER_00: to teach us.
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  SPEAKER_00: Unconditional love is loving people just because they are.
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  SPEAKER_00: And when you look into why the world and its people are in so much pain,
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  SPEAKER_00: It is precisely because there is so little love.
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  SPEAKER_00: Many of you grew up in a family where love was not well shared, not received, not given.
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  SPEAKER_00: I talked about this during my last episode.
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  SPEAKER_00: There was not as much love from my dad that I received during my childhood.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I know many people have the same experience,
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  SPEAKER_00: whether it's one parent or both parents,
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  SPEAKER_00: or maybe you didn't even have any parents whatsoever.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so you grow up as a child with the experience that love is scarce.
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  SPEAKER_00: That people don't give much love.
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  SPEAKER_00: Certainly the people that are supposed to love you even don't give you enough love.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so you grow up in a world thinking that I cannot love other people,
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  SPEAKER_00: let alone myself, because love is such a scarce resource that people hold on to it.
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  SPEAKER_00: They don't like to share it, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: So people are stingy with love.
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  SPEAKER_00: And...
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  SPEAKER_00: Then you extrapolate that into adulthood and into really all societies,
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  SPEAKER_00: doesn't matter what religious background you have or cultural background you have.
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  SPEAKER_00: We see this across mankind,
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  SPEAKER_00: no matter which country or what culture,
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  SPEAKER_00: is that most of the time, in most societies, there is a lack of love.
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  SPEAKER_00: Why is that?
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  SPEAKER_00: Why are we afraid to love each other?
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  SPEAKER_00: Why is that?
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  SPEAKER_00: And I don't have the answer for that.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, part of the answer is,
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  SPEAKER_00: like I said,
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  SPEAKER_00: the wounding and the trauma and the pain and the fear that we encounter as children.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so that creates this armor around the heart.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so it's actually...
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  SPEAKER_00: Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asamanawaketh, Asaman What's the solution then?
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, of course, loving more people just because they are, without judgment, without prejudice.
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  SPEAKER_00: And if you find that this is difficult,
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  SPEAKER_00: especially the people in this world that intentionally either plan to
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  SPEAKER_00: or actually harm other people, Well, where do you think that's coming from?
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  SPEAKER_00: When someone is in a state where they have to hurt others,
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  SPEAKER_00: they are in such immense and repressed pain that they don't know what to do.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so they're trying to get rid of their pain by projecting it and inflicting it on others.
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  SPEAKER_00: Subconsciously thinking that if I project and put my pain outside of myself and
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  SPEAKER_00: onto others, maybe that's going to reduce the pain that I feel in myself.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: no one is thinking logically about this the way I just explained it,
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  SPEAKER_00: but that's what's happening underneath, underneath it all.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when you encounter someone that's mean, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Best example is when you're on the road,
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  SPEAKER_00: on the highway or somewhere,
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  SPEAKER_00: and someone's cutting you off very rudely and dangerously,
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  SPEAKER_00: what's your first reaction?
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  SPEAKER_00: Are you like, okay, maybe they have a reason to be rushing right now?
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  SPEAKER_00: Or do you curse at them?
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  SPEAKER_00: You flip them off.
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  SPEAKER_00: You roll down your window and you shout at them.
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  SPEAKER_00: Depending on where you live, that's kind of a commonplace thing in big cities often.
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  SPEAKER_00: But really, they didn't do anything.
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  SPEAKER_00: Yes, I understand that they may have caused a dangerous situation that may have
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  SPEAKER_00: or could have been leading to an accident, but it didn't.
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  SPEAKER_00: So really there was no injury to you.
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  SPEAKER_00: And yet you still felt triggered and you still screamed at them and flipped them off
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  SPEAKER_00: or whatever you did or cursed at them.
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  SPEAKER_00: So what really happened?
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  SPEAKER_00: They created a situation that triggered a subconscious memory in you of your pain in the past.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so the wound is most sensitive to a situation that is similar in resonance.
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  SPEAKER_00: So when you felt endangered during that instance when someone's cutting you off,
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  SPEAKER_00: when was the first time in your life as a child where you felt endangered?
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  SPEAKER_00: Now,
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  SPEAKER_00: you may not remember that because our subconscious mind is picking up everything
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  SPEAKER_00: as soon as it develops inside the womb and,
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  SPEAKER_00: of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: birth and the first couple of years,
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  SPEAKER_00: up to six years when we don't really have Asamanawaketh,
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  SPEAKER_00: As A Man Awaketh, As A Man Awaketh.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, all of these traumatic experiences,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: in this instance,
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  SPEAKER_00: when you felt endangered,
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  SPEAKER_00: that's still in you,
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  SPEAKER_00: somewhere in your nervous system and somewhere stuck in some of the cells,
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  SPEAKER_00: muscle tissue, you know, could even be in your tendons.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, that's what's really happening.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's, you know, that's why people get triggered.
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  SPEAKER_00: What is a trigger?
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, a trigger is exactly...
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  SPEAKER_00: Poking that initial, you know, original pain of yours.
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  SPEAKER_00: And because you're not aware of it,
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  SPEAKER_00: because it's a subconscious pain,
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  SPEAKER_00: you just think that,
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  SPEAKER_00: oh, this person was rude to me, and that's why I have to lash out.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have to defend myself, because I am in danger.
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  SPEAKER_00: No, you're not in danger.
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  SPEAKER_00: If someone's, you know, challenging your beliefs or your opinions...
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  SPEAKER_00: You're not in any danger,
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  SPEAKER_00: but because your subconscious wants to protect you,
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  SPEAKER_00: it's saying, okay,
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  SPEAKER_00: this person is threatening my belief system or my opinions or whatever,
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  SPEAKER_00: and therefore I have to defend myself because otherwise I'm in danger.
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  SPEAKER_00: What does danger mean?
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, ultimately, danger can lead to death.
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  SPEAKER_00: So I have to defend myself to not die.
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  SPEAKER_00: I know it sounds ridiculous,
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  SPEAKER_00: but But when you really study the subconscious and the psyche
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  SPEAKER_00: and how
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  SPEAKER_00: repressed trauma, pain and fear works, this is exactly how it works.
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  SPEAKER_00: So in essence,
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  SPEAKER_00: we're just a bunch of toddlers, really,
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  SPEAKER_00: running around in adult meat suits and adult bodies,
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  SPEAKER_00: acting out our childhood pain and fear.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's it.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, of course, when you extrapolate that, and that's the ego, basically.
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  SPEAKER_00: The ego is just a construct that is projecting and protecting based on the fear and
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  SPEAKER_00: the pain of your childhood.
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  SPEAKER_00: So now, once you have that model,
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  SPEAKER_00: put it onto any kind of narcissist or dictator,
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  SPEAKER_00: any kind of celebrity or politician,
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  SPEAKER_00: any person in the public that has acted outrageously and did so without remorse.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because in their belief system, they're just protecting themselves.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's it.
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  SPEAKER_00: They're protecting their childhood wound, their childhood fear and pain.
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  SPEAKER_00: And unfortunately, in many cases, they're projecting that out into the world.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then, you know, the common folks are the ones that suffer.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's really the basis of war, if you think about it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So anyway, what's the solution?
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  SPEAKER_00: Well, the solution, as always, is to face yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: Face your fear, face your pain, work on yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now there's thousands if not millions of different modalities, some more effective than others.
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  SPEAKER_00: You just got to find your thing.
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  SPEAKER_00: Now, of course,
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  SPEAKER_00: if you've been following me for a while,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know that I'm a big fan of professionally guided psychedelics because that is
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  SPEAKER_00: an accelerator.
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  SPEAKER_00: There's nothing in the world,
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  SPEAKER_00: and even mainstream science is now acknowledging that and seeing it
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  SPEAKER_00: with their own eyes,
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  SPEAKER_00: and they cannot ignore it anymore,
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  SPEAKER_00: that certain psychedelics such as psilocybin or magic mushrooms or whatever you want
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  SPEAKER_00: to call it, the psilocybin is the molecule that has the psychedelic effect.
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  SPEAKER_00: Psilocybin is one of the only substances known to man that creates neuroplasticity.
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  SPEAKER_00: It creates a
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  SPEAKER_00: relaxing of the mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: of the neural network, and it allows someone to restructure it.
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  SPEAKER_00: So there's many studies being done now in major universities all around the world
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  SPEAKER_00: with psilocybin and other...
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  SPEAKER_00: Psychedelics as well, like Iboga, for example, Ibogaine.
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  SPEAKER_00: So they're seeing and they're doing these live brain scans while someone is,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know, imbibing these medicines.
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  SPEAKER_00: They're seeing in real time.
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  SPEAKER_00: How brain tissue and neural networks are being reshuffled and reorganized
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  SPEAKER_00: and one part sort of dissolves over here and
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  SPEAKER_00: then it reconstructs itself somewhere else.
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  SPEAKER_00: It is a major accelerator on your journey of self-healing,
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  SPEAKER_00: of self-discovery and of facing your pain.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's the most complete and the most holistic way that I've seen.
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  SPEAKER_00: And I've been in this field for a while.
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  SPEAKER_00: I basically started in the self-development world back in 2009.
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  SPEAKER_00: Really, this was when I started.
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  SPEAKER_00: I started reading the books, what have you, Napoleon Hill and all those things.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, but I did a lot of meditation and I did other things,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know, self-development courses and whatnot.
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  SPEAKER_00: But it was, and it helped, it all helped.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm not going to discount any of that.
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  SPEAKER_00: But the ultimate and the fastest way of change and healing was
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  SPEAKER_00: with professionally guided plant medicine.
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  SPEAKER_00: So, and, you know, I always say professionally guided because, yes, you can do it yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: As well,
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  SPEAKER_00: but you won't have someone who can guide you through darkness,
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  SPEAKER_00: because many times throughout your journey,
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  SPEAKER_00: you will have to face your darkness,
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  SPEAKER_00: and it is, you know, what many call the The unconscious self.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it is that part of you that you've been running away from.
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  SPEAKER_00: That you don't want to face.
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  SPEAKER_00: You don't want to admit to yourself that you're like your father.
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  SPEAKER_00: That you're like your mother.
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  SPEAKER_00: That you're like your siblings.
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  SPEAKER_00: Or whoever had a big influence on you during your childhood.
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  SPEAKER_00: That's in many cases extremely painful to face and to admit to yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: I had to do that many times.
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  SPEAKER_00: Still doing it to this day.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because we don't want to admit to ourselves that we're like our parents.
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  SPEAKER_00: Both in good ways and unfortunately in most ways also the bad traits
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  SPEAKER_00: that we picked up from our families.
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  SPEAKER_00: And also in some ways that we're dating or we're looking for a partner
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  SPEAKER_00: that is very similar to Like our mother or our father,
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  SPEAKER_00: depending on who we wanted more love from.
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  SPEAKER_00: And so once you realize that,
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  SPEAKER_00: man, that is such a reality-shattering truth that many people can't handle.
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  SPEAKER_00: So that's why I'm saying if you go into psychedelic therapy,
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  SPEAKER_00: you must have someone who knows what they're doing,
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  SPEAKER_00: who has been there before,
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  SPEAKER_00: not just someone who studied it,
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  SPEAKER_00: But who's walked the path themselves,
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  SPEAKER_00: that understand fear,
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  SPEAKER_00: that understand how the subconscious works,
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  SPEAKER_00: that understand how your fear will try to trick you and tell you that,
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  SPEAKER_00: no, you're healed.
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  SPEAKER_00: You've worked on this a long time.
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  SPEAKER_00: You don't have to deal with it anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: You don't have to look at it anymore.
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  SPEAKER_00: Don't go there.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's over.
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  SPEAKER_00: It's done.
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  SPEAKER_00: You're good.
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  SPEAKER_00: Because we are excellent at
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  SPEAKER_00: What's the word?
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  SPEAKER_00: At deceiving ourselves and telling ourselves stories about ourselves and,
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  SPEAKER_00: you know, I'm a good person and I'm a this and I'm a that.
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  SPEAKER_00: When in reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: when you try to observe yourself and you try to compare the stories
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  SPEAKER_00: that you're telling yourself versus the actual reality,
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  SPEAKER_00: okay, How are people reacting to you?
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  SPEAKER_00: Like you're saying, okay, I'm a good guy.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm a good person.
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  SPEAKER_00: I'm generous.
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  SPEAKER_00: But then you don't end up paying for your friends at dinner ever.
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  SPEAKER_00: Are you really generous?
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  SPEAKER_00: So that's one piece you can start to look at is try to find the gaps.
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  SPEAKER_00: And then, of course, when something continues happening in your life, there's a pattern, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: As soon as you establish a certain pattern, like,
• 21:51
  SPEAKER_00: you know,
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  SPEAKER_00: you find a partner,
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  SPEAKER_00: but then after six months or so,
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  SPEAKER_00: you always break up with them,
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  SPEAKER_00: or it ends in catastrophe, or whatever, or you lose jobs all the time, or whatever.
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  SPEAKER_00: It doesn't matter.
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  SPEAKER_00: Whatever situation that keeps showing up in your life, that's a pattern.
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  SPEAKER_00: And that's a story you're telling yourself that's not true.
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  SPEAKER_00: So observe yourself, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: Self-observation is a crucial, absolutely crucial tool on the journey of self-discovery.
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  SPEAKER_00: And one way you can do it Is putting a piece of your
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  SPEAKER_00: subconscious mind,
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  SPEAKER_00: actually, a piece of your awareness behind yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: So in simple ways, this is called the observing self.
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  SPEAKER_00: You know how there are third-party video games or third-person video games where
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  SPEAKER_00: the camera is behind the character, right?
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  SPEAKER_00: And so that's basically how you would do it.
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  SPEAKER_00: You put the camera,
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  SPEAKER_00: you put a piece of your awareness outside of yourself to the right and behind you
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  SPEAKER_00: and observe yourself.
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  SPEAKER_00: And it's going to take a lot of resources at first, but then it's going to get easier over time.
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  SPEAKER_00: So...
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  SPEAKER_00: That's one way,
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  SPEAKER_00: a very easy way and simple way to start observing yourself and look at the gaps.
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  SPEAKER_00: What are the stories that I'm telling myself and what's the reality actually playing out?
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  SPEAKER_00: That, my friends, is going to be a wild ride.
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  SPEAKER_00: Anyway, thank you for listening.
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  SPEAKER_00: I have lots of wonderful and amazing guests scheduled for the next couple of episodes.
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  SPEAKER_00: I look forward to introducing them to you.
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  SPEAKER_00: I can't wait to hear from you.
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  SPEAKER_00: I love you just because you are you and I hope to see you soon.
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  SPEAKER_00: Thank you.
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  SPEAKER_00: Much love.