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- 0:00Speaker 1: Alright, you guys, we did it. We did it. I
- 0:03Speaker 1: was at the library for hours. Truly hours. And I
- 0:08Speaker 1: submitted one resume and cover letter. Okay. I put my
- 0:12Speaker 1: heart into it. We're gonna freaking see. Um... It was fun.
- 0:18Speaker 1: I had a fun time. I love the library. I
- 0:21Speaker 1: literally forgot I love the library. And, you know, it's funny, like...
- 0:26Speaker 1: I was telling my friend and Nola that, like, I
- 0:31Speaker 1: was like, you know, part of me is like a
- 0:34Speaker 1: little afraid of the library because I had vivid dreams
- 0:40Speaker 1: and I don't know, maybe fantasies. Like I was like
- 0:44Speaker 1: convinced for the longest time, especially when I was a teenager.
- 0:48Speaker 1: I was like, I'm going to meet the love of
- 0:50Speaker 1: my life at a library for sure. And so, you know,
- 0:58Speaker 1: I used to frequent the library a lot. in high
- 1:00Speaker 1: school and I would just like go to like the
- 1:03Speaker 1: book sections where like I would want to meet a
- 1:05Speaker 1: guy of that genre you know I was like really
- 1:10Speaker 1: trying to pretend to be into like um I don't
- 1:14Speaker 1: know I feel like I really tried to read like
- 1:16Speaker 1: a lot of like Stephen Hawking's books I don't know
- 1:18Speaker 1: why I think I was just like kind of into
- 1:21Speaker 1: the aesthetic of space which now I'm like we gotta
- 1:24Speaker 1: stop going to space what are we doing this doesn't
- 1:27Speaker 1: make any sense this is like This is crazy. And honestly, listen,
- 1:33Speaker 1: I tried really hard to read these books. And I
- 1:36Speaker 1: couldn't do it. Ultimately, at the end of the day,
- 1:38Speaker 1: I mean, I would let my eyes graze the page.
- 1:42Speaker 1: And I wasn't comprehending any of it. I feel the
- 1:46Speaker 1: same way about, like, Kant. I told this girl at
- 1:51Speaker 1: my college who was my partner in the Kant class.
- 1:53Speaker 1: I was like, because I was assigned in my French
- 1:56Speaker 1: class to read a novel. And I'm, like, reading the
- 1:59Speaker 1: French novel pretty okay. Like, I'm pretty good at reading
- 2:02Speaker 1: in French, I think, for the most part. Reading's kind
- 2:05Speaker 1: of the easiest thing to do in another language, I think.
- 2:10Speaker 1: And I told her, I was like, I'm reading a
- 2:12Speaker 1: novel in French, and this stuff is making less sense.
- 2:16Speaker 1: This philosophy stuff is making less sense. Kant, I don't
- 2:20Speaker 1: know what he was up to, but I told her,
- 2:22Speaker 1: I was like, I think I have to drop this class,
- 2:25Speaker 1: and I did. Because I was just like, this feels
- 2:27Speaker 1: like a waste of time. And also, I think the
- 2:30Speaker 1: people in that class really lacked... It was a very
- 2:36Speaker 1: sleepy kind of class. I've had much better philosophy classes
- 2:42Speaker 1: than that one. That one, I was like, I gotta
- 2:44Speaker 1: get out of here. That's the only class I... That's
- 2:46Speaker 1: the only class I did a couple classes... I dropped
- 2:49Speaker 1: in the middle of the term. Oh my goodness. And Kant,
- 2:54Speaker 1: I just... I can't. I can't with him. I can't. Emmanuel,
- 2:59Speaker 1: get out of here. Why is it spelled with an I?
- 3:02Speaker 1: It's better spelled with an E, and everybody knows that.
- 3:09Speaker 1: So I'm feeling pretty good. Oh, wait. I have plans
- 3:13Speaker 1: at 7. It doesn't make any sense for me to
- 3:16Speaker 1: go back to my house. I could probably just go
- 3:20Speaker 1: right now. I don't think she would mind. But I
- 3:25Speaker 1: also need to eat something. I need to eat something.
- 3:28Speaker 1: I need some freaking lentils or something. I'm feeling good.
- 3:32Speaker 1: Feeling great. I was thinking of a story. Well, so
- 3:37Speaker 1: I had like probably prayed. And I was like... I
- 3:41Speaker 1: was like, God, you know, I've been kind of a hater.
- 3:43Speaker 1: I've been kind of a hater about video games. Like,
- 3:46Speaker 1: I think I... In the past, I'm working on it.
- 3:50Speaker 1: In the past, I was like really judging people for
- 3:52Speaker 1: playing video games. Not... I just... I can't anymore. I
- 3:59Speaker 1: used to play video games. And I just can't. And
- 4:03Speaker 1: then it's like all these people that I love dearly
- 4:06Speaker 1: were trying to talk to me about video games. And
- 4:09Speaker 1: so I prayed. I said, God, give me the strength
- 4:12Speaker 1: to care about this. Please. Because I can't. And I prayed.
- 4:17Speaker 1: And then it came up again. It came up like
- 4:19Speaker 1: four times in a row. Some randos. They're not randos.
- 4:23Speaker 1: People I love. People I love are talking to me
- 4:25Speaker 1: about video games. And I'm like, bruh, this cannot be
- 4:29Speaker 1: the only topic of conversation. This is worse than sports.
- 4:35Speaker 1: This is worse than sports. The only thing that could
- 4:38Speaker 1: possibly be worse than sports is video games. It's boy stuff.
- 4:43Speaker 1: Get out of here with this crap. So I prayed
- 4:47Speaker 1: to God. I said, God, give me the strength. And
- 4:48Speaker 1: it happened again. This was like a while back. I
- 4:54Speaker 1: was at, like, a music festival, okay? I was, I
- 4:57Speaker 1: was enjoying, I was, I was there. I was enjoying myself,
- 5:01Speaker 1: I was there. And, you know, this guy, and listen, listen.
- 5:11Speaker 1: He appealed to me, I don't know what to say.
- 5:12Speaker 1: So I was chatting him up. I think a lot
- 5:15Speaker 1: of the people, listen, the topic of conversation at this
- 5:19Speaker 1: music festival was, like, A little... Not up my alley.
- 5:23Speaker 1: At all. Like, it was... I was not trying to
- 5:25Speaker 1: talk about this stuff. I kept running away. I straight
- 5:27Speaker 1: up just kept running away. Because... They just kept talking
- 5:31Speaker 1: about stuff that I was like... I cannot... I cannot...
- 5:35Speaker 1: I cannot be in a group... Of a dozen people
- 5:37Speaker 1: who are like... All consenting to talk about this. I
- 5:40Speaker 1: just kept running away. I was like... I'm not talking
- 5:42Speaker 1: about this stuff, guys. I gotta go. And so I'd
- 5:46Speaker 1: run away. I'd go into the forest. And I'd just like...
- 5:48Speaker 1: I don't know. Figure it out. um and uh like
- 5:57Speaker 1: right before i'm leaving the music festival this guy's like
- 6:01Speaker 1: he's like he probably asked me if i play video
- 6:03Speaker 1: games i was like not really i was like do
- 6:05Speaker 1: you what are you playing and he told me and
- 6:11Speaker 1: i was struggling to listen but i did try and
- 6:15Speaker 1: i've been thinking about it ever since Just the spark notes.
- 6:20Speaker 1: So I'm going to try to give my rendition of
- 6:22Speaker 1: this guy's rendition of the spark notes of this video game.
- 6:25Speaker 1: I believe it was called Final Fantasy. And he was
- 6:30Speaker 1: telling me something about... Essentially what? There's like enemies. And
- 6:37Speaker 1: as you kill the enemies, you absorb... Or I don't
- 6:41Speaker 1: know if you're killing them. Maybe you're not killing them.
- 6:43Speaker 1: But you absorb their powers. Yes. As you do something
- 6:48Speaker 1: to the people... I don't know if they're enemies or not.
- 6:52Speaker 1: I probably should have asked more questions. But... I like
- 6:56Speaker 1: the idea of, like, you're absorbing their powers. And it
- 7:01Speaker 1: reminds me of a conversation I had last night. Of...
- 7:05Speaker 1: I was accused of saying something that I don't remember saying. About... Like...
- 7:16Speaker 1: Something about, yeah, like, absorbing people's spirit or soul or something.
- 7:23Speaker 1: And it immediately made me think of, like, a really
- 7:25Speaker 1: dirty song. It's like, snatched. His soul. I snatched. His soul.
- 7:32Speaker 1: It's called Snatched. And... It's really dirty, guys. I would
- 7:37Speaker 1: not look it up. And... Um... So... I don't know.
- 7:45Speaker 1: Something about it. Final Fantasy. I like the idea of final.
- 7:48Speaker 1: And obviously it's alliteration. It's alliteration. Final Fantasy. This is...
- 7:52Speaker 1: I'm rocking with this. And so he said this. And
- 7:56Speaker 1: now I wish I knew if it was about enemies or...
- 8:00Speaker 1: And do you have to kill them to absorb their stuff?
- 8:03Speaker 1: Or is it just like... Is it like an exchange?
- 8:05Speaker 1: I can't imagine it's like an exchange. I feel like
- 8:08Speaker 1: video games are usually pretty violent or something. And you know,
- 8:12Speaker 1: I just... I liked it for a time. I don't know.
- 8:17Speaker 1: I mostly like chill video games like Mario Kart and like...
- 8:23Speaker 1: What else? Pikmin. I really liked Pikmin. I wasn't very
- 8:26Speaker 1: good at it. My brother had to help me a lot. Pikmin. Pikmin.
- 8:32Speaker 1: That's funny. But I've just been thinking about it. I think...
- 8:47Speaker 1: I think video games are probably, like, an outlet for
- 8:50Speaker 1: a lot of people. Like, the same thing I said
- 8:51Speaker 1: about Marilyn Manson, where it's, like, the interviewer was, like,
- 8:54Speaker 1: accusing Marilyn Manson of, like, inspiring the Columbine shooters. And it's, like,
- 9:00Speaker 1: I think people do a similar thing with video games,
- 9:02Speaker 1: where they're, like, oh, the video games are, like, making
- 9:05Speaker 1: the boys, like... Super aggressive or something and I think
- 9:09Speaker 1: I would make the argument that the video games probably
- 9:11Speaker 1: aren't making them aggressive if anything It's probably giving them
- 9:13Speaker 1: an outlet. However, it might be draining their life force
- 9:17Speaker 1: It might be draining their life force. Like I think
- 9:19Speaker 1: there's a point where it goes too far you know,
- 9:22Speaker 1: like I Don't know like punch a punching bag. Have
- 9:26Speaker 1: you ever heard of that? Like that could probably also
- 9:28Speaker 1: be an outlet What else? Running, riding a bike, I
- 9:33Speaker 1: think cardio in general, you know, stuff like that. I
- 9:40Speaker 1: don't know. I guess I'm just thinking about the concept
- 9:44Speaker 1: of life force, right? In yoga, I believe they call
- 9:48Speaker 1: this prana. And I think also in tai chi. I
- 9:51Speaker 1: might be making that up, but I'm pretty sure they
- 9:52Speaker 1: call it prana, which is also a brand. And I
- 9:58Speaker 1: actually really like this. brand it's one of my favorite
- 10:01Speaker 1: yoga brands shout out prana um this is not sponsored
- 10:07Speaker 1: by prana and it probably never will be um i
- 10:11Speaker 1: found their stuff i will actually shout out i don't
- 10:13Speaker 1: remember the name unfortunately but it's it was in downtown
- 10:17Speaker 1: williamstown they had like a They had a kind of
- 10:21Speaker 1: bougie resale store. With outdoor gear specifically. Bougie outdoor gear resale.
- 10:33Speaker 1: And I got all my Prana. The only Lululemon I've
- 10:37Speaker 1: ever bought was from there also. And it didn't fit
- 10:41Speaker 1: me right. It was weird. It was weird. I, like,
- 10:47Speaker 1: did not understand who designed the shirt because it was, like...
- 10:52Speaker 1: The straps were exceedingly long. Like, it was essentially like
- 10:56Speaker 1: a stringer. If you know anything about stringer. And... But
- 11:01Speaker 1: it was, like... It was, like, in the waist. It was, like,
- 11:04Speaker 1: the tightest thing I've ever put on. But then it's, like,
- 11:07Speaker 1: the straps are, like, not strapping. And they were not
- 11:10Speaker 1: adjustable either. And I was, like, who is this built for? Because, like,
- 11:12Speaker 1: I'm pretty... I'm just curious, like, who has, like, a
- 11:17Speaker 1: longer sternum than me and also, like, a smaller waist? Like,
- 11:24Speaker 1: I don't really see how those two things are, like,
- 11:27Speaker 1: working out. Like, I would think, like, don't get me wrong,
- 11:29Speaker 1: I think both of those things exist individually, but, like,
- 11:33Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know. That's probably why it
- 11:35Speaker 1: was for resale. I was just like, what? What? What?
- 11:40Speaker 1: And I did wear that shirt. Oh, actually I can
- 11:43Speaker 1: picture a picture in my head of when I was
- 11:45Speaker 1: wearing that shirt. I think I had to like clip
- 11:49Speaker 1: it in the back. Aww. The picture I have in
- 11:55Speaker 1: mind is I stopped in a cafe and Aww. I'm
- 12:01Speaker 1: gonna cry. I'm literally gonna cry because this actually reminds
- 12:04Speaker 1: me of another thing that happened. I stopped in a cafe.
- 12:09Speaker 1: I was running. I was running on the beach in
- 12:15Speaker 1: New Smyrna beach. And there was this cafe I like
- 12:19Speaker 1: to go to just, I use their wifi and stuff basically.
- 12:22Speaker 1: And sometimes I would buy something if I felt like it.
- 12:26Speaker 1: And I stopped, I have a really chaotic picture of
- 12:31Speaker 1: me like in the bathroom mirror, like, cause I was
- 12:33Speaker 1: running and I was like sweating a lot. And I just...
- 12:38Speaker 1: I looked at myself in the mirror and I was like,
- 12:39Speaker 1: oh boy. Oh boy. I'm looking some kind of way
- 12:44Speaker 1: right now. Okay, but yeah, the... The girlie I was
- 12:49Speaker 1: living with... Oh, what? There's blood? Where am I bleeding from?
- 12:53Speaker 1: Oh boy. The girlie I was living with when I
- 12:58Speaker 1: was gallivanting around New Smyrna Beach like every evening... for
- 13:07Speaker 1: some reason I found myself like looking up her name.
- 13:11Speaker 1: I think I was, I don't, I don't remember why
- 13:13Speaker 1: I was looking up her name in my email and
- 13:16Speaker 1: I noticed that she, at least she used to sign
- 13:19Speaker 1: off her, her emails with a Lorax quote. Oh, I'm
- 13:26Speaker 1: going to cry. I love being an emotional being. Okay.
- 13:37Speaker 1: They really do. It was like, unless someone like you
- 13:40Speaker 1: cares a whole, whole lot, something, something better, it's not.
- 13:51Speaker 1: And that just immediately made me cry. Because, yeah, I
- 13:54Speaker 1: think I've already talked about it, but, like, the most
- 13:56Speaker 1: recent thing I was, like, asking God to show me is, like,
- 14:01Speaker 1: are we really supposed to be, like, rigid in this, like,
- 14:05Speaker 1: adult kind of mentality? And I told God, I said,
- 14:08Speaker 1: let the adults speak to me. I'm ready to hear
- 14:11Speaker 1: from adults. Are we really supposed to be, like, so
- 14:14Speaker 1: serious and acting like adults? Like, is that what you want? God,
- 14:18Speaker 1: is that what you want? Tell the adults to speak
- 14:20Speaker 1: to me. And so, via the email, I was brought
- 14:24Speaker 1: to a Lorax quote. And then, I mean, there's all
- 14:30Speaker 1: sorts of things that happened today. I got... I sent
- 14:33Speaker 1: a really silly text to someone asking them a very...
- 14:37Speaker 1: I could have Googled the question. It was a really
- 14:39Speaker 1: stupid question. But I was asking my friend for advice.
- 14:45Speaker 1: And his response, it was very silly. And then I
- 14:49Speaker 1: got hit up from another friend that is an adult,
- 14:53Speaker 1: like definitely an adult, like way older than me adult.
- 14:56Speaker 1: And like, he's being so silly. He was cracking me up.
- 15:01Speaker 1: He was cracking me up. and um and he even
- 15:12Speaker 1: said something because I had said about I had made
- 15:16Speaker 1: a joke like I said something like mildly could be
- 15:19Speaker 1: considered offensive and I was like sorry maybe I shouldn't
- 15:21Speaker 1: have said that and he was like why why and
- 15:24Speaker 1: he was like questioning me like why did you say
- 15:26Speaker 1: sorry whatever and I and then whatever we exchanged and
- 15:31Speaker 1: he was like He was like, yeah, I get in
- 15:35Speaker 1: trouble sometimes for being silly, too. And I was like, yeah.
- 15:41Speaker 1: We just get in trouble sometimes for being silly. So
- 15:45Speaker 1: I got my answer. I got my answer. I don't
- 15:47Speaker 1: think it has to be that serious, guys. Like, the
- 15:49Speaker 1: people that I love the most are not that serious.
- 15:52Speaker 1: We're all just, like, goofing off. We're sending a lot
- 15:55Speaker 1: of exclamation points in chat, and we're goofing off in
- 15:58Speaker 1: a big way. And we're quoting the Lorax in all
- 16:02Speaker 1: of our business emails. This makes me want to sign
- 16:05Speaker 1: off my emails with a quote from the freaking cat
- 16:08Speaker 1: in the hat. What's my favorite quote? The one I
- 16:11Speaker 1: use the most is not business professional. The one I
- 16:16Speaker 1: use the most is not only are you wrong, you're stupid.
- 16:22Speaker 1: What else? I mean, mostly it's just soundbites. It's literally
- 16:28Speaker 1: just soundbites that I love. Like when he's in like the,
- 16:30Speaker 1: when he's got like the Rasta vibe going. And he's
- 16:33Speaker 1: trying to get the guy to... He's trying to get
- 16:35Speaker 1: the dog from the guy. So he's trying to hand
- 16:37Speaker 1: him like an oversized pin. To... To sign this made
- 16:43Speaker 1: up contract. He's like, oh, you gotta carry this pin
- 16:46Speaker 1: with two hands. And sign this contract. Petition for whatever.
- 16:50Speaker 1: And he's just like, yeah. Like the way he said, yeah.
- 16:57Speaker 1: So silly. Everybody go watch Cat in the Hat. The
- 17:00Speaker 1: live action one. Don't watch the cartoon one. You gotta
- 17:04Speaker 1: see the live action one. I am this guy's number
- 17:07Speaker 1: one fan. I haven't even seen anything else he's done.
- 17:11Speaker 1: I saw Austin Powers when I was really young. And
- 17:14Speaker 1: I think I tried to watch it a couple times
- 17:16Speaker 1: as an adult. And I was like, this is weird. Like,
- 17:17Speaker 1: I feel weird watching this. I like Cat in the
- 17:19Speaker 1: Hat because it's pretty, like, clean. I don't know. I
- 17:25Speaker 1: really like it. I think it's a really genius commentary
- 17:29Speaker 1: on gender. I really do. It's extremely relevant. I watched
- 17:38Speaker 1: The Cat in the Hat at least 15 times in college.
- 17:43Speaker 1: Because anytime someone told me they hadn't seen The Cat
- 17:46Speaker 1: in the Hat, I was like, we're watching it. Not
- 17:48Speaker 1: a single person liked it once. They were like... They
- 17:52Speaker 1: were horrified. They were like, why would you show me this?
- 17:55Speaker 1: They had a similar reaction to the cat in the
- 17:56Speaker 1: hat that I had to Kangaroo Jack, okay? Kangaroo Jack
- 18:00Speaker 1: was freaking me out in a big way as a kid.
- 18:03Speaker 1: I was like... I gotta change my freaking categories on
- 18:10Speaker 1: Spreaker again. I can't figure out what categories to use.
- 18:20Speaker 1: I'm having fun. Y'all couldn't... You couldn't kill my sparkle
- 18:24Speaker 1: if you tried. You couldn't do it. You couldn't do it.
- 18:29Speaker 1: It's back and it's better than ever. I think being
- 18:34Speaker 1: a huge hater has really benefited me lately. Because... You know,
- 18:41Speaker 1: I love yoga. I love yoga. And I love yoga ethics, okay? And...
- 18:48Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know. I think it's quite serious,
- 18:51Speaker 1: all of that. I think it's quite... They're taking it
- 18:53Speaker 1: quite seriously. They're really managing language in a way. I mean, listen.
- 19:00Speaker 1: Within the context of a yoga class, all of this
- 19:02Speaker 1: is valid, okay? Because this is highly curated. This is
- 19:06Speaker 1: highly specific. This is... You know, it's a safe space, right?
- 19:10Speaker 1: I hate to say it. I hate to say it.
- 19:13Speaker 1: I think a yoga classroom might be a safe space. And...
- 19:17Speaker 1: I think it might be one of the last safe
- 19:18Speaker 1: spaces we have left, and that's because they're highly ethical, okay?
- 19:22Speaker 1: They're extremely ethical, and they're doing, they're doing my lord's work, okay?
- 19:30Speaker 1: I have, I, I, I'm meeting with the Yogagras tomorrow.
- 19:37Speaker 1: I'm kind of scared what they have planned for me.
- 19:42Speaker 1: I think they might try to recruit I tried to
- 19:46Speaker 1: recruit myself you know I could have asked for a job.
- 19:50Speaker 1: And instead I said, I said, I just want to
- 19:54Speaker 1: help out. I don't know. I said, I'll do anything
- 19:57Speaker 1: just to hang out there sometimes. So I don't know
- 20:02Speaker 1: if they're going to try to, I don't know. I
- 20:04Speaker 1: don't know. My world is in somebody's oyster right now.
- 20:12Speaker 1: That's the wrong thing. So I was picturing an earth
- 20:17Speaker 1: in somebody's hands. So I should have said my... I'm sorry, guys.
- 20:23Speaker 1: I'm sorry, guys. I should have said my fate is
- 20:27Speaker 1: in somebody else's hands. That's what I probably should have said.
- 20:29Speaker 1: Instead I said my world is in somebody's oyster. Oh, boy. Oysters!
- 20:38Speaker 1: Oysters remind me of my Lorax friend, too. They made
- 20:43Speaker 1: me try oysters, I'm pretty sure. I was also seeing
- 20:46Speaker 1: a guy who was an oyster shucker at the time.
- 20:50Speaker 1: And everybody was like, you gotta eat oysters. And, and,
- 20:53Speaker 1: I didn't like it at the time, but when I
- 20:55Speaker 1: was in NOLA... there were some gentlemen who offered me
- 20:59Speaker 1: an oyster and they offered me some bread with it.
- 21:01Speaker 1: And I was like, with the bread, this is good.
- 21:03Speaker 1: With the bread, this is good. It's just the texture.
- 21:06Speaker 1: I just, I don't know about the texture, guys. It's
- 21:07Speaker 1: kind of boogery. It's kind of boogery in a big way.
- 21:11Speaker 1: So that's all I have to say on that matter. Bye.