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A letter to Payton...from Payton. · Johnjay & Rich On Demand

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  Speaker 1: Every once in a while on this show, we get
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  Speaker 1: kind of like I get little emotional updates from Peyton,
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  Speaker 1: you know, Like I saw that post you maybe the
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  Speaker 1: other day. It was really cool post by it. We
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  Speaker 1: never talked about it where you had it seems like
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  Speaker 1: you had a professional photographer come in here and you
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  Speaker 1: were wearing the new John j and Rich merch. But
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  Speaker 1: and I was like, this is really cool, and you're
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  Speaker 1: like four years on the radio. I didn't know you've
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  Speaker 1: been on the air four years.
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  Speaker 2: I know. Yeah, my best friend Kelsey and I we
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  Speaker 2: hit a poppy hour and then broke into the studio
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  Speaker 2: late at night and did a.
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  Speaker 3: Little photo shoot. Oh we that we didn't.
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  Speaker 1: Really break that's cool you did, it said, but that
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  Speaker 1: is illegal to come after hours.
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  Speaker 3: It was way after hours.
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  Speaker 1: But that was a really cool photo shoot that you posted.
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  Speaker 1: It's John JA and Rich on Instagram and it's an
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  Speaker 1: end the year post. I was like, Wow, she's been
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  Speaker 1: on the air four years. It's cool. And then I
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  Speaker 1: was I was listening to our show yesterday on the
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  Speaker 1: podcast and heard some things you said, like, man, she's
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  Speaker 1: really come a really long way. But then this thing
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  Speaker 1: that you're talking about share this with us, please.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it's really cool. It's something that I
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  Speaker 2: did for myself seven years ago. I made basically, I
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  Speaker 2: wrote a letter to myself and I posted on Facebook
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  Speaker 2: so that I would have it all of the time
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  Speaker 2: whenever I wanted to reference it back, and I usually
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  Speaker 2: forget about it. But on this day every year, it
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  Speaker 2: always pops up in my memory, and every time I
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  Speaker 2: see it, it just makes me so happy and so
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  Speaker 2: proud of the person that I've become and how I
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  Speaker 2: was able to like get through some of the things
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  Speaker 2: that I went through.
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  Speaker 3: Because if you really really get to know me, like
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  Speaker 3: there's some things that I've been through it, you know
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  Speaker 3: what I mean.
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  Speaker 2: At twenty seven years old, I'm like, dang, like really
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  Speaker 2: like you really like like you persevered, you got through it,
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  Speaker 2: you did your thing.
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  Speaker 3: And at this time, I was in.
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  Speaker 2: The worst stage of my life that I ever had.
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  Speaker 2: I was going through a heartbreak that I thought was
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  Speaker 2: like the end of the world. I weighed ninety pounds
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  Speaker 2: as a basketball I have basketball player as a college athlete,
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  Speaker 2: ninety pounds, Like that's not okay, you know, like something
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  Speaker 2: was really going on there, And so it just also
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  Speaker 2: really makes me like, look back at where my life
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  Speaker 2: is now, and how thankful I am for my husband
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  Speaker 2: Kadem because this post was seven years ago. We've been
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  Speaker 2: together for six years, and I wouldn't be half the
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  Speaker 2: person that I am today if it wasn't for him,
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  Speaker 2: Like he's the one that I truly feel like saved
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  Speaker 2: me from myself.
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  Speaker 1: Will you read it? Is it a long letter?
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  Speaker 3: It's kind of long, yeah, but not really well summarize
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  Speaker 3: forget it.
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  Speaker 1: I'll just see if you can read it. But I'm like, no, no, no, no,
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  Speaker 1: I don't want you surmize that. Can you read it?
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  Speaker 1: Is it better to read it to us as a
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  Speaker 1: twenty seven year old looking back or is it better
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  Speaker 1: to you to read it to us as the twenty
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  Speaker 1: year old?
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  Speaker 3: Like probably as the twenty year old?
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  Speaker 1: Okay, will you read it? Do you say? Do you
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  Speaker 1: start off with, dear Peyton?
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  Speaker 3: How do I start off with? These last four months?
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  Speaker 1: Okay? You're ready?
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, okay, These last four months feel as if
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  Speaker 2: the world has drop kicked me in the face.
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  Speaker 3: But in all honesty, I probably needed it.
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  Speaker 2: And as I sit back and I reflect on my
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  Speaker 2: life and where I'm at right now in this very moment,
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  Speaker 2: the only thing that comes to mind is how grateful
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  Speaker 2: I am to live the life that I do. I
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  Speaker 2: live in a city that I love. I'm surrounded by
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  Speaker 2: people that I truly adore. I have the resources to
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  Speaker 2: the places I need to be Oh my gosh, the
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  Speaker 2: ability to wake up and play a sport that I love,
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  Speaker 2: and the new knowledge and confidence to myself to know
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  Speaker 2: when to let that go. In these last four months,
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  Speaker 2: I've probably felt every emotion in the book. I felt
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  Speaker 2: grief and regret to the point where it physically hurt.
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  Speaker 2: I felt love in such an abundance where I literally
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  Speaker 2: didn't know what to do with myself. And I felt
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  Speaker 2: as if I was on top of the world and
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  Speaker 2: no one can bring me down. I've learned how to
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  Speaker 2: be a better friend, I've learned how to be a
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  Speaker 2: better daughter, and I've learned how to do right by others.
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  Speaker 2: I'm hurting and healing at the same damn time, and
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  Speaker 2: I'm not exactly sure how that even works. Being twenty
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  Speaker 2: is hard, and trying to figure out what to do
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  Speaker 2: with your life when you thought you had it all
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  Speaker 2: figured out is even harder. These last four months, I
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  Speaker 2: found myself I fought my purpose and I want to
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  Speaker 2: express emotions freely and love endlessly. So here's some pictures
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  Speaker 2: and videos of my life from the last four months
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  Speaker 2: with the memories that make me the happiest. A lot
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  Speaker 2: of tears came before and after some of these, but
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  Speaker 2: just know that the internal growth was there.
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  Speaker 3: That's cute when you're starting to get choked up. What
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  Speaker 3: were you feeling that, twenty year old?
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  Speaker 1: What was that? What were you feeling right there?
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  Speaker 2: I mean I literally felt like my world was crashing
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  Speaker 2: and burning and ending.
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  Speaker 1: Like it's pretty mature though for twenty two it's pretty insightful.
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  Speaker 2: Well yeah, And I mean I've shared with you guys before,
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  Speaker 2: like when I was in college, like I got admitted
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  Speaker 2: to a hell behavioral unit, Like I was in the
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  Speaker 2: psych ward.
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  Speaker 3: For a week and a half. Yeah, you know what
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  Speaker 3: I mean, that's crazy.
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  Speaker 1: I said. I didn't mean it. I didn't mean it
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  Speaker 1: like that. I've been trying to get Judgy to get
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  Speaker 1: an endorsement for a sing word for himself for a
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  Speaker 1: long time. Hey, that was a beautiful letter to himself
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  Speaker 1: or the way you read it. And I mean, so
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  Speaker 1: I'm proud of you and I thought that was great
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  Speaker 1: in fact I got a little emotional by I put
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  Speaker 1: myself back to it. When I get emotional, I look
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  Speaker 1: at Kyle and then I laughed.
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  Speaker 3: Right, it would be cool for you to do one
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  Speaker 3: think of rude.
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  Speaker 1: No, because I was watching you with a serious face.
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  Speaker 3: Makes me laugh so much. You should write a letter
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  Speaker 3: to yourself now for later. Actually, what I do on
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  Speaker 3: this You write a letter to.
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  Speaker 1: Richard tell him to tell you, not to tell you
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  Speaker 1: what to do?
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  Speaker 3: Right, to stop it?
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  Speaker 2: No, I actually re share this post every day, so
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  Speaker 2: over the last every day, over the last every year.
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  Speaker 3: Excuse me, so over the last six years.
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  Speaker 2: Like I do like little status updates, you know what
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  Speaker 2: I mean, Like where I am right now. But yeah,
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  Speaker 2: it's just crazy to think about, like where I was
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  Speaker 2: as a freshman in college, and then to see where
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  Speaker 2: I was ending up my senior year of college, and
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  Speaker 2: then to see where I am now, Like I'm just
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  Speaker 2: a completely different person, but the best parts of me
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  Speaker 2: are still here.
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  Speaker 3: You know what I mean.
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  Speaker 1: You're so well spoken. That's so well said. And I
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  Speaker 1: love that you use the word abundance. That's a cool word.
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  Speaker 1: I don't think people use that word enough in speech.
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  Speaker 1: Oh it's nice in speak.
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  Speaker 3: You kick out.
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  Speaker 1: So yesterday somebody used the word in front of me,
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  Speaker 1: and I wrote it down to use later on you guys.
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  Speaker 3: Oh yeah, what is it?
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  Speaker 1: Modular?
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  Speaker 3: Oh?
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  Speaker 1: Nice, go ahead, I'm just gonna drop it at some point.
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  Speaker 1: You'll see, like Payne's letter was pretty modular.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know if it applies there.
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  Speaker 1: I asked me. I said, I suppos to me. He says,
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  Speaker 1: like you could take put things apart, take things off,
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  Speaker 1: and put it back on. I was like, right now,
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  Speaker 1: that letter, Kyle, I could take things out, put things back.
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  Speaker 3: I mean, when you describe it like that, I guess
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  Speaker 3: I could.
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  Speaker 1: See that it's modular. Anyway, Well done, Payton. I'm glad
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  Speaker 1: you're here.