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EP 156 Big Mama Butta · Kennel Talk Podcast

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  What's up? What's up?
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  Welcome to another episode of Kennel Talk podcast.
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  It's your boy cadet, the bowlegged assassin and our
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  favorite Hostess with the Moses. OK, whatever that was.
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  Welcome back, Butter. How you doing?
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  What's going on, man? On time?
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  On time. What's going on?
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  This ain't even going to drop anytime soon.
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  This will be dropping like next month.
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  Bro I got so many episodes recorded.
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  Really. Damn.
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  Oh my God. Well, that's good, as long as
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  you got like a nice catalog. So yeah, that's the thing.
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  Yeah. Because when I went to Florida,
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  you know that Well, yeah, you know, because you've been in
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  person, like the in person is always better because you get a,
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  you know, better vibe, better energy and shit, right.
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  I recorded a couple when I was in Florida but and there was one
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  from like December that I was finally able to upload.
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  Yeah, bro, bro. December, Yeah, we used in
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  April. Nigga, all right.
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  All right, you got a lot. Of life, but it was a good
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  conversation. So that's why I'm like, I had
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  the salvage it, but I was able to do that.
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  No, that's a fact. Anyway, we're gonna talk about
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  everything you got going on towards the end of the pod, you
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  feel me? OK, OK.
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  That's why I wanted to get you on, you know, watch your YouTube
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  video and, you know, I was like, shit, I'm here.
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  For it no filter mommy. So I'm gonna give it all.
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  Word. So he's gonna start with his
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  icebreaker. I don't know if you knew about
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  it before I sent you that with the Anthony Edwards and his baby
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  Mama situation. You never heard about it?
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  No, not yeah. I was like, wait, who?
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  But she was on point. I'm not gonna hold you.
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  She got a point. What was her point?
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  Well, we'll get to that. Let me explain it for the people
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  that don't know. OK, so those of you that don't
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  know Anthony Edwards, he plays in the NBA.
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  He's a young nigga, you feel me? From Atlanta, I guess.
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  He was dealing with a young lady, Aisha Howard, who is right
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  now 39, and I don't even think he's 24 yet.
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  You feel me like. Oh, wow.
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  Yeah, exactly. Yeah.
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  You got to got to get context on stuff, right?
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  So Long story short, he got her pregnant, didn't want her to
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  keep the baby. She said well I'm going to keep
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  the baby. He said well if you keep the
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  baby, you're on your own, right? They going through the battles
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  this standard there. But what did you get from the
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  video I sent you before I go into detail?
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  Just the regular old everyday pretty girl gold dig a tick and
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  yeah she but the point that she gave I don't know the ages, the
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  ages already still live possibly.
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  Right, right, right, right. But if it wasn't for the age,
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  she has a point, though. You haven't baited somebody
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  because you want to set an A check.
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  Why you continue to have why? Like we know people that's
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  having four or five kids, but we know they're doing it for a
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  reason. The Jews do that.
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  Oh, time we know. They do that for a reason.
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  What's their reason? Because you.
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  You get a crazy write off. Oh OK.
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  Nick Cannon is another. 10 God I.
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  Mean you it's a great write off you get if you want to go to
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  Section 8 route. Oh man, the Section 8 money is
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  is insane. We over here US nine to five
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  years. Yeah, you feel me?
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  1000 that's like 1200 coming out of my check OK and I don't got
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  not a corner of a section of a corner of A8 to get any of it
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  none of. It I got that.
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  Comes right on my check because right out my check.
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  So when it comes to that, Pete, the, the property people do it
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  that way. But do we talk about, Oh, no,
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  you trying to get your #5 you're number six to get it right.
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  Away. Oh, you're trying to get that
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  extra section they check to get that double what you get the we
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  don't say that to them. We only say that to the gold
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  diggers. We know what they doing, but you
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  only say that to them. So it is.
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  She do have a little point on that though.
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  But I I ain't feeling her too much because it's like because
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  she started off the whole video was saying, well, I'm not new to
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  this. Like, I've been this basically.
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  Like I already got a rich baby daddy and just like, yeah.
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  She wowed out with. That bitch what?
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  Hey that's a flex like this shit is weird and for her to be grown
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  as hell. Like I understand the mentality
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  of a young girl 20 something cool like that's what they see
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  nowadays right? Well, for you to be damn near 40
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  and that's your thought process. What's?
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  Age. Hope.
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  Hopefully hopefully age is fucking maturity but obviously
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  fucking not. Bro it's like the prettier the
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  prettier art and more work they had done the the the smaller the
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  brain cells. Apparently I just but I am
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  fucking with this hand New Girl it look good.
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  I just chopped all my hair off. Yeah.
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  I just was. Yesterday I woke up.
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  I was tired of all his hair and I'm a wig girl guru.
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  I make rigs, I buy wigs left and right.
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  I was just tired of it so I chopped all of it off.
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  What color you put in there is. I like it.
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  It's like a dark red. I was scared because of the
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  work, so I was like, let me just do.
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  I wanted to go brighter, but I was like, let me just.
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  Nah, fuck that home girl paved the way for y'all with the with
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  the dreads, with the red dreads that she had.
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  Yeah, so you should be high. That's what I said.
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  You shouldn't be straight, maybe.
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  For the birthday, I can go light.
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  I'm gonna see what everybody's saying.
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  I'm not a sneaking. They'll get a little lighter.
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  Yeah, sneak in, sneak in with all that height and the bright
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  hair. Good luck with that.
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  That's going to be very interesting.
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  So back to the Edwards situation.
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  So Long story short, she decided to still have the baby and a few
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  little things like I forgot where she lived, but she ended
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  up moving to California where she would get more money, right?
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  So whatever happened in the courts, they obviously said, OK,
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  well he's going to have to pay child support.
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  I think his child support came out to like 5000.
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  So this is one thing I've never heard in my life.
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  Dude was like, aye, so how much will it cost for 18 years?
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  Boom, let me go ahead and pay that up front.
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  It was like a little over $1,000,000 breath and.
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  He coughed that up. Coughed that up and just gave
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  and said don't hit me up for shit else basically.
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  Now, OK, all right. How do you feel about it?
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  Yeah, you all say that's crazy. That's crazy.
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  It's so many levels when it's because first, all right, when
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  are we ever going to take the fucking account of oh God, here
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  I go curse the God. Excuse me, when?
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  When are we always going to take the goddamn accountability to
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  the point that y'all know these type of chicks and y'all still
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  put in raw Dickens? Facts and then.
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  You're still letting off. Not that part, yeah, because you
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  know my dibble and dabble raw, but for you to let your Dick sit
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  in there and bust your nut, bruh.
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  Yeah, and you know, this is the, you see what Shorty is?
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  It's clear as day see her and you can know what type of time
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  she on. So it's just like Sir, you know
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  who you are, you know where you about to go.
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  Why? Yeah.
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  I don't. I don't.
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  Get it, but honestly get it. He been moving like a like the
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  way he's moving off the court, like I love his game, right?
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  And I wanted him to become the face of the NBA.
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  But it's like the way he's been moving off court is just like me
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  as like the man that I am, just like, bro, like what are you
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  doing? Because at first he started off
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  on his Netflix show, you know, there was like highlighting NBA
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  players and stuff like that. He had a girlfriend.
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  He was dealing with a long time girlfriend.
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  She was pregnant. She had a baby.
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  This nigga didn't have about 2-3 different kids and she didn't
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  have her baby bro. Oh wait.
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  Oh, so this is not. His first?
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  No, it's not his first. No, he has a couple under 5
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  right now. At least three or four.
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  Wow. Walling, walling, walling big
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  time bro. And I'm just like, yo-yo, off
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  the court antics is crazy because it's like, even if you
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  become a Hall of Famer, right, in 18 years, this little girl is
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  going to hit the media and she's going to be like, yeah, well, he
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  disowned me and like your shit is tarnished, nigga.
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  At the end of the day, you still dealt with this woman.
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  Cool. But like the child, has nothing
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  to do with it at all. My God, that is interesting to
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  the point that I said you just the type of dude that you just
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  you just love multiple women. You love roar.
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  Yeah, you love playing Russian roulette.
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  Snippet. That's what I love saying.
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  Go ahead snippet bro. What's the problem?
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  It's just like the common sense. I never understand why nobody
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  else would think like like why you don't?
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  I would and you're worth millions.
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  You're worth millions. I don't care how good looking
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  you think you are, a lot of these women are not dealing with
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  you because of your looks. Like they see you and they see
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  the dollar sign at that point, but like know.
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  What they're gonna get from. There and you're a sports well
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  known player, Nigga, when you get your contract, the world
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  knows Anthony. I was just signed for 300
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  million. Oh, oh, they out tonight.
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  Come on, man, like I just wish you would move a lot
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  differently. But you know it is what it is
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  because with him, right, I think he lost both of his parents,
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  right. So he was raised with his
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  siblings who aren't that far apart as far as like the age
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  gap. I kind of attest some of it to
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  that. But it's also like, come on,
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  brother, what are we doing? That's, that's a lot.
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  That's a lot. And the thing like he's only in
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  his 20s. He didn't even start.
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  He's going to have more kids. 30s is about to be crazy but to
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  him, his mentality alone just wanting to cough out the whole
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  18 and just drop it. And that's different.
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  You could just. That's different.
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  I ain't gonna lie. It's a lot of niggas I know.
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  Y'all gonna hear this shit? Don't think you can do that
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  shit. You feel me?
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  You're not the five and go cover that, No.
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  For average job, I mean if you got your our everyday kings, if
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  you got your record 9 to 5, some of them something like 500.
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  Yeah, so child support be like 500 I bet cause yeah.
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  You do like 500? Let's do some calculations real
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  quick, you know? Let's go to math SO500A month
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  times 1212 * 18. Damn that shit.
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  Low key 108. That ain't too bad if you really
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  ain't trying to fuck with Shorty.
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  Yeah. If you ain't, if you ain't
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  trying to fuck with Shorty, yeah, that's fine.
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  That's definitely fine, yeah. I'll cook that up.
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  Leave. It to fuck alone, That's crazy,
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  but for you like that's a lot of hate though, like I don't know,
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  that's a lot of hate for you to lay down with.
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  Somebody, huh? Don't.
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  Don't you think you're going to spend a block and try to be a
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  father and like that child, you did some shit like that?
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  No, that's crazy, crazy. That's what I'm saying.
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  He's forever tarnished because that little girl's going to grow
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  up one day and just be like, damn, like.
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  And it's not like, oh, she's gonna, it's conversations that
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  she's gonna hear. No, it's in the news.
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  It's forever on the net, Internet.
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  You're gonna see what what lawyers said and what she had to
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  say. I don't think she should've got
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  on Internet try to talk about it 'cause it made her look more
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  like a bird. I ain't gonna lie.
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  Like she tried to like defend it, but I was just like.
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  Oh, I've already had a rich baby, Danny and.
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  Bro I was like. I don't need.
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  I was like. I've been so disgusted with
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  these girls sometimes. Like what this is your thoughts?
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  Like this is how you think and you think this is OK?
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  Easy part Why are men attracted to women like this?
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  That to the point that this is continuing.
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  It looks good. To go every bro how many good
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  what good looking woman we have in this world.
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  It's a lot. A lot, especially in that in
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  that game, every day there's a bad bitch left and right.
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  I don't I don't get the I mean I'm not a rich nigga so I don't
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  understand the thought process of like the niggas dealing with
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  the pass arounds, like the well known pass arounds.
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  You know what I mean? Like I don't know, maybe they
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  think, oh, they'll understand more, but like, give me a normal
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  chick bro. Like they just want the same
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  chick that future doesn't smash and you know what I'm saying?
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  Like that one? She just had another one with
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  another youngin. Joy or joy?
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  What a jade future is she got? Bow Wow.
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  Future Oh yeah, she found as fuck alright.
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  She nice tech nigga back Joy Chavez or some shit like that,
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  yeah. Yeah, like.
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  Yeah, y'all right, She got 3, she got 3.
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  She got she got Bow Wow and then she had Future and then she got
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  an NFL player right now. Crazy.
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  I mean, I mean don't get it. The line up is good though,
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  because there's some girls out there and they they just got to
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  line up a bum. Niggas, you feel me?
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  Just Just trash across the board, trash across the board.
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  You know, so I can't get too mad at a girl doing like that, but
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  at least you stay out the news and she actually does her own
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  stuff. You know what I'm saying?
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  Like. She does do her own stuff.
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  You know, you want to raise a child by yourself like that is
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  the money's more than the person with you.
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  That's the type of life we in right now, like somebody not
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  rubbing on your butt, not helping you, not say, I mean
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  granny, you can get a nanny and you can still do your thing, but
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  that's life. That's goals.
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  Shit, that's what we. Doing I'm going through it now.
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  So like I this is a team effort. Let's just say that like, yeah,
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  I don't I've never pictured myself being a single dad.
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  I've never a day was like, no, because you know, that's a lot
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  of the thought process too. Like niggas is just cool with
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  just having a child and then you do your thing.
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  I do my thing. Like why?
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  Why, why are we why are we here? Woman too.
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  Like I don't even know man. This was the look, put the egg
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  in me. And I, I never, ever, ever.
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  I don't care how much if I wanted, even if I wanted kids,
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  I'm going to go down that route. Now, granted, everybody's
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  different. I don't know any woman who wants
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  to do that for herself. Yeah, but that's just not the
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  way it's designed. No, I it's just not going to do
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  that. Yeah, because I had a girl on
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  Instagram, she, she commented to my thing.
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  Oh, when I said these days women are are bigger liars than men,
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  like I posted that earlier, right?
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  And she was just like, I mean, she said basically women had
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  have tricked themselves into thinking like, they don't need
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  men anymore. Like that part?
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  That part. We need each other.
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  I would never say where. Where did that come from?
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  I'm confused. I don't know, man, I don't know.
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  It's crazy where they come. From I don't get it and men to
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  men feel like they don't need no.
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  Women, yeah, for sure. It's probably them, Trista,
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  Columbia and shit. It'll be like.
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  Gotta be Trista, Columbia and Dr. and like.
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  And I'm not dealing with this shit.
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  I'm booking my trip right now. All right, brother, do your
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  thing, man. Do you think that?
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  Ain't gonna last long and you don't want somebody to be with
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  you. When you draw XX, you know to go
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  off top it real quick, right? I was thinking about this
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  because I was having a conversation with one of my
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  homies. Shout out to Klenda.
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  Like, have you ever dealt with somebody?
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  Either y'all was just messing around or dating and it was good
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  y'all. Y'all ended, you know,
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  cordially, or at least y'all don't have any bad blood years
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  later, right? And then you look at this
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  situation and you just be like, damn, I hate that for you.
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  Yeah, that's a lot. You said it's a lot.
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  God damn. There's a lot of those.
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  I was like damn, I really thought so much but.
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  I really thought. Damn, back in the day.
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  That something like that, but I'm saying it more so of the
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  sense of like like, OK, boom, I messed with a girl, great girl,
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  just for the time frame. It wasn't going to work and the
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  years down the line I'm just seeing they could just adding
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  baby daddies to the I'm just like damn, like I wanted you to
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  be. I'm not saying having baby
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  daddies is a bad thing, but I just like I didn't see that for
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  you. Yeah, I saw more.
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  You know you'd be. More than that and especially
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  with this person, like I had a conversation where after she you
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  know, because she had a boyfriend then whatever it
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  didn't work out. They end up having a kid
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  together. It didn't work out cool.
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  But then randomly I just see a pop up pregnant.
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  I'm just like what the fuck? Like you doing this again again
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  again solo? No nigga insight.
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  Not one nobody open nothing. Yeah, yeah, that's the heart.
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  I don't I give it to the one who want to do it again too by stuff
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  knowing after a bad situation like you want to do that again
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  that is. But maybe they're I think
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  they're that's kind of from trauma.
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  They're looking for something. They're looking for something
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  that they think the baby. Can give them trauma is the
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  game. And yeah and it's just like
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  y'all are living in trauma and not even understanding.
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  And passing it down. And just passing it down to the
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  kids. We're going to talk about trauma
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  at the end of this. So yeah.
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  Oh, Chad. Yeah, we are.
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  Yeah. Yeah.
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  It's going to be a good one. Yeah.
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  But what does that look like for a woman?
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  Like, have you seen a dude? Like, what would be a thing you
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  see a dude doing? It's just like, damn.
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  Damn Brother I. Haven't seen that.
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  Oh I've seen dude they got like 6 seven kids but Oh my God I
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  haven't seen it till the. End I'm ready to snip my shit
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  after this second would come out like niggas is like oh you're
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  gonna. Keep trying for a boy, nigga
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  fuck. You nigga, I'm not trying shit.
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  You. Crazy as fuck that money.
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  My paycheck, my paycheck. I look crazy for me to ever want
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  to. No, no, no.
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  And I'm not doing it to chase a boy. 13141314 you might be like
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  you know what you do one more 3/3 in the band.
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  Shout out the Griff that nigga, he hit me up the other day in
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  the in the DS, bro, because that whole situation I talk about,
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  I'll give it to you as far as like what happened off air or
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  whatever. But he was just like bro, like
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  you know, you'll be a great soup.
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  Like you know, you have great leadership qualities and you
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  don't sugarcoat shit. Like damn, I appreciate you,
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  bro. Like you feel me lying.
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  OK. But yeah, I don't know, maybe a
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  14. I would consider if I was a 14.
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  Cool, but Nah. Nah, not the the the twelvies
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  not. 12 No nigga. 12512 Six. I'm a 12/4 like I said it
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  depends on where I'm at because of 12/4 in Cali right now is
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  what nigga that shit like 130 but it's Cali though I.
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  Would miss that, yeah. That shit beautiful man.
• 17:40
  Anyway, talk. About it.
• 17:42
  Yeah, no, I'm not. I'm not doing it, bro.
• 17:44
  I just never understood the process of just just Willy nilly
• 17:47
  just busting nuts off and then just going about your business.
• 17:50
  Yeah. Oh, yeah.
• 17:51
  That's what I'm saying. Like when they come to the New
• 17:53
  York dudes, they do that all the time.
• 17:55
  They just splash. And then they just got 1000
• 17:57
  kids. But to see me feel some type of
• 18:00
  way about it, No. I've seen dudes like they was
• 18:02
  him, like they was him, him all throughout my 20s.
• 18:06
  Then 30s came around and you just be like, oh you a dusty.
• 18:09
  Yeah. That's crazy.
• 18:13
  Like you really grew up to be a dusty.
• 18:15
  Yeah, and. It's like, Dang, I really laid
• 18:18
  down with that. That's crazy.
• 18:21
  I feel you bro, I feel you. Oh.
• 18:26
  God, you started like I would never, but I'm too real not to
• 18:30
  say like I never been with. Yeah.
• 18:32
  You feel me? Yeah.
• 18:35
  Yeah. You know, I'm not going to
• 18:38
  volunteer the information, but if you ask me, I'll be like that
• 18:40
  part. I might drop my hand, be like,
• 18:42
  yeah, yeah, I did that shit. I did.
• 18:45
  It was a drunk night, you know? You know, my, my time in Orlando
• 18:52
  was a wild time, you know, nonetheless.
• 18:55
  Man, that's the fact. But yeah, some people just lose
• 18:58
  it. I just like, Dang, I really
• 18:59
  thought he was better. I thought he was.
• 19:01
  I thought he was gonna really be happening.
• 19:04
  Bro what should DM be looking like?
• 19:05
  Right, Because you just keep elevating more and more and more
• 19:08
  and more like. Not I'm.
• 19:10
  Sure, the Dusty's wait, what? You post yesterday?
• 19:13
  You posted something yesterday, dog.
• 19:15
  He was like, I should tag him. What the fuck?
• 19:17
  What did? He say he was trying and then he
• 19:20
  was like Dang, I thought. I thought this week he was
• 19:22
  ovally. Oh yeah, yeah, yeah.
• 19:25
  I was like, what? Like like this is ridiculous,
• 19:30
  but it's crazy. I'm like, my things used to be
• 19:32
  really, really crazy. They calm down now, but it's
• 19:35
  still the extras. It's still the extras and.
• 19:39
  Pop out with that haircut is about to be up.
• 19:42
  Not they see me with a haircut about 3.
• 19:46
  That shit about to go crazy, they see me.
• 19:51
  So I know they remember, but it intimidated men are intimidated.
• 19:55
  It's not to bump my own horn and I'm not cocky at all, but a
• 19:59
  woman, you know, with the no kids, she got the money she got
• 20:03
  on planes. She thinking like that she do
• 20:06
  this, she contact it's a lot. So some men be like, my men
• 20:11
  don't really go for it. You'd be surprised.
• 20:14
  You'd be surprised. They're like.
• 20:16
  She do a lot right. Keep up nigger.
• 20:19
  The fuck no. Shit, it's good over this time
• 20:23
  you don't like. It you sound like the toxic
• 20:26
  reply we had on one of the episodes, somebody said yeah,
• 20:30
  oh, they was talking about Kevin Gay.
• 20:31
  They was like, yeah, he toxic, but you're gonna like it over
• 20:33
  here, you know? Kevin is the one of them.
• 20:38
  Kevin. And what's the other one?
• 20:39
  That one you pointed NBNBA. No, this is NBA.
• 20:45
  When I post. On none of these new kids that
• 20:47
  little freaky nasty 10 you posted him.
• 20:50
  NLENLE Chopper. Yeah, he another.
• 20:54
  That nigga said man, my fantasy is the fuck a bitch.
• 20:57
  While she talking to her nigga on the phone, I said oh Jesus
• 21:03
  damn, I ain't gonna lie. I didn't bend the nigga like it
• 21:05
  ain't been they nigga, but like they talking to they home girls
• 21:08
  and shit like that. You might go a little deeper,
• 21:11
  you feel me? Trying to puncture along, you
• 21:13
  know. Yeah, you know, he's that there.
• 21:16
  We definitely there. But yeah.
• 21:18
  We've been there before at his third time.
• 21:20
  I think I did some talk with shit like that before too.
• 21:22
  I ain't, I ain't. Rush.
• 21:23
  It's the rush. Yeah, I mean, I'd have been laid
• 21:26
  up in Oh my God stories for days.
• 21:29
  I'd have been laid up in the girl Then, you know, her
• 21:31
  boyfriend called and she's like, oh, yeah, I'm with my cousin.
• 21:33
  Like, oh, OK. Yeah, yeah, I'll be that.
• 21:40
  No problem. It's all good.
• 21:41
  I ain't mature facts not all. As long as I get in draws, I'm
• 21:45
  I'm chilling. All right, so let's go into the
• 21:50
  first topic here. What's your go to like after a
• 21:55
  breakup? After like what are you doing?
• 21:58
  You listening to music? You going to the gym a little
• 22:00
  more you're staying into the house.
• 22:02
  Like what you doing? Well, you got two different
• 22:05
  me's. You got, you got 20s lady, 20s
• 22:10
  me. Give me both. 20s me give me
• 22:12
  both because obviously you don't change me.
• 22:14
  You don't change over the years. The old, the old me.
• 22:19
  Oh, I'm I'm going to get over a nigga while getting under a
• 22:22
  nigga. I ain't going.
• 22:22
  I'm going to keep it a buck. I'm going to find me somebody.
• 22:26
  We're going to go a couple of days.
• 22:27
  We're going to party, we're going to have fun.
• 22:29
  We're going to link up. We're going to dream.
• 22:30
  We're going to have a good time. He going to come through.
• 22:32
  I'm going to go through over there and I'm going to move on
• 22:35
  with a whole new king and he. We're just going to be chilling,
• 22:37
  rocking and rolling. But do you have?
• 22:38
  I ain't. Going to have no problem with.
• 22:40
  That, but do you have a during that situation where how, how
• 22:44
  you deal with it? Because I, I deal with it the
• 22:45
  same way because I had to realize like damn, because even
• 22:48
  when I was in a relationship and there's just like certain things
• 22:51
  going bad, like my, my go to was like, I'm going to go fuck
• 22:53
  somebody else, right? It went from like, but I
• 22:57
  understood like, OK, I was dealing with some shit that I
• 22:59
  didn't like in a relationship. And I'm just like, instead of
• 23:02
  dealing with it, distract myself.
• 23:05
  Absolutely. But what do you do when the
• 23:08
  distraction is over? Like, you don't busted yours, He
• 23:10
  don't busted his, and now you're just sitting with yourself.
• 23:14
  Does it come across him? Yeah.
• 23:15
  Hey, cry. Hey.
• 23:18
  Cry. Literally I'm a crier.
• 23:21
  I cry for everything. So I cry when I'm happy, mad,
• 23:23
  sad. So I'm a cry and then I'm just
• 23:25
  got to and then talking to my, I talk to myself.
• 23:27
  Well you just say you a crier. That YouTube video is the only
• 23:30
  time I've ever seen you cry like you always give give thug
• 23:33
  misses. I know you.
• 23:35
  Remember when you 2 pieced me at work?
• 23:37
  I did. I was scared for my life.
• 23:41
  You are strong. He's a strong ass nigger.
• 23:45
  You know, you, you needed that. You needed that.
• 23:47
  So I had to be granted Billy, you know what I'm saying?
• 23:49
  You need that. Yeah, I ain't gonna argue.
• 23:51
  I ain't gonna argue. I needed.
• 23:52
  That two piece. But it was kind of like when you
• 23:54
  hit me, I was just like, OK, And I was like, hold on that nigger.
• 24:03
  Hello bro, we both got handcuffs nigga.
• 24:06
  I won't put your elbow at the elbow.
• 24:07
  Takedown nigga. Yeah, I can't but that you had
• 24:12
  to get that. But I mean, usually I cry, I'm a
• 24:14
  crier and I'm just talk to myself and get through the
• 24:17
  process. But or if not on my toxic shit,
• 24:22
  I used to just deal with a new person and I once I'm deal with
• 24:25
  a new person, it's lit. It's but new me.
• 24:28
  Oh no, we gonna we gonna process this.
• 24:30
  I need you to cry. I need you to cry.
• 24:32
  If you need to talk about it, you need to journal it.
• 24:34
  You need to go to the therapy about it.
• 24:35
  You need to go to the gym, work it out.
• 24:37
  You want to, but you have to go through it because one thing I
• 24:40
  used to do is numbing it. I'm a numb it.
• 24:42
  Give me a bottle, give me a drink or I'm gonna wind up
• 24:46
  laying under somebody or just keep going.
• 24:49
  Just trying not to go through the process.
• 24:52
  Go through the process. You got to go through it.
• 24:54
  So now I'm definitely big on that.
• 24:56
  Agreed. Agreed, Because even, you know,
• 24:58
  the only thing I have to reference these days is that's
• 25:01
  just because every other relationship that I, I, you
• 25:03
  know, broke up with the girl is just like, all right, I broke up
• 25:06
  with you. Hang on.
• 25:08
  I was cold blooded to a certain extent.
• 25:10
  I got a pet. That is the landlord.
• 25:15
  Oh, oh, shout out to her, man. I ain't seen her so damn long.
• 25:20
  Yeah, but yeah, back in the day, it was just like when I would
• 25:25
  break up with a girl. It was just like, I ain't really
• 25:27
  feel no way 'cause as much as it might have seemed like, oh, it
• 25:31
  was out of nowhere. It was like a thought process.
• 25:32
  Like it wasn't something I just woke up and I did it right.
• 25:36
  Right. But then the last one that was
• 25:39
  actually like the big one, the heartbreaker, the one where I
• 25:41
  felt that pain in my chest. Nigga, I ain't never felt that
• 25:46
  pain. You felt that pain before?
• 25:49
  That was the the old nigga. Oh word.
• 25:52
  Yeah, that shit. I was doing the the slow cry
• 25:54
  sliding down the 90s video sliding down the wall what I'm.
• 26:01
  Going through Hey God bro listen that.
• 26:06
  Dumb, dumb, dumb. Be the one.
• 26:08
  I don't wish heartbreak on nobody, bro, 'cause it was just
• 26:10
  like, get into a situation where you had to do it.
• 26:13
  You don't want to, but it's like, bro, I got to.
• 26:16
  I'm end up in jail or something. But yeah.
• 26:19
  But with that one, like it was around the time of getting this
• 26:23
  position, right. So like, I remember breaking up
• 26:26
  and then like the next week I had to fly to Miami or I drove
• 26:30
  to Miami. One of the two, I don't remember
• 26:31
  how I drove, drove to Miami to do the interview, the panel
• 26:35
  interview for this position. So it was just like, I was just
• 26:38
  distracted with shit. And then when it finally hit me,
• 26:41
  I'm just like in the bed, just like just chilling.
• 26:46
  Had to drop in tears bro, gotta let it out.
• 26:48
  Got to you, got to. It's the only way.
• 26:50
  Yeah. Gotta get it out.
• 26:51
  But I ain't gonna lie, that first night, yeah, I was on some
• 26:53
  toxic shit. First night, I was in some pussy
• 26:55
  right away. Right away, brother.
• 26:59
  Right away. 3-3 hours, I kid you not 3 hours 3.
• 27:03
  What? Three hours.
• 27:05
  I was drunk. You ever had a You haven't had a
• 27:08
  Haitian room? It's called baboon.
• 27:09
  Cool. You never had that shit before.
• 27:10
  Yes, I did. Yes, I did.
• 27:12
  I was off of that shit. OK.
• 27:15
  That's why I really fuck with it now.
• 27:16
  I stay away from that liquor right there.
• 27:17
  That one right down too much. But see using.
• 27:22
  Yeah, I was like, damn, I can still do that.
• 27:26
  No, I don't want to. Never mind.
• 27:27
  I could, but I don't want to. Yeah, yeah, no, we ain't doing
• 27:32
  that. Hell no listen 'cause she be
• 27:35
  wanting to go off topic again, she'd be wanting to squirm and
• 27:38
  shit then Dick come out like I'll be like bro that's a reset
• 27:42
  like. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
• 27:43
  Now you're gonna go. It's gonna.
• 27:44
  I'm done. I'm done.
• 27:45
  All right, You got yours. You got a couple.
• 27:47
  Alright, cool. I'm cool.
• 27:50
  I can't do the fucking. I don't want to be enough of 45.
• 27:54
  I'm over it. I'm done.
• 27:56
  But yeah, I was like 27 at the time.
• 27:58
  Yeah, so. Yeah, that's prime time.
• 28:00
  That's real. Real.
• 28:01
  That's real. And the girl said I was so like
• 28:04
  blackout drunk. Like as soon as I busted a nut I
• 28:06
  just fucking passed out. I was just.
• 28:08
  What? Gone damn pussy sober me up bro.
• 28:13
  I got a problem. Got a problem?
• 28:17
  What they call it the after nut? Well, no, no, not clarity.
• 28:20
  No, I mean that ain't had nothing to do with it.
• 28:23
  Not no, it is post nut clarity. Yeah.
• 28:25
  So you don't make no bad decisions, you know?
• 28:28
  Bad decisions. Yeah, I definitely am.
• 28:31
  Wholeheartedly, yes. Busting up before you make a bad
• 28:34
  decision. But yeah, man, like I think
• 28:38
  yeah, that was always my thing. And I'm a music person.
• 28:40
  Oh my God. That's why I love Trap Soul to
• 28:42
  this day. Like trap soul is like my go to
• 28:45
  album now. It's it's a point where I can
• 28:47
  listen to it and just enjoy. But at one point I was listening
• 28:49
  to it and I was it was just made me sad.
• 28:51
  Yeah, yeah. Yeah, because certain songs will
• 28:54
  represent good times or a good time because we have a lot of
• 28:57
  good times, good time. And then there's a one song,
• 29:02
  Bryson Tiller. Been that way.
• 29:03
  Oh my God, I don't know if you know that one.
• 29:06
  You know that one, bro. I was like, oh, this nigga know
• 29:09
  my life right now. He knows my life like how do we
• 29:14
  get to this part? He's.
• 29:15
  Going. He's going on Chris Brown shit.
• 29:18
  Chris Brown right? Oh my mom.
• 29:20
  I'm upset. Every date that I possibly could
• 29:22
  have dealt with, the one in Toronto is right around the
• 29:25
  town. A baby going to be born.
• 29:28
  Dang. Then the one that's in like
• 29:29
  Florida is like crazy Price bro. I can only imagine I heard them
• 29:34
  numbers, some Beyoncé and more type.
• 29:36
  Nigga if you trying to sit damn near you know not super close
• 29:40
  but like a good decent side or see that shit about 8-9 hundred
• 29:45
  for one person. Hey Chris, get your money.
• 29:50
  Get your money. You deserve it.
• 29:53
  He definitely man I'm not even mad at because they be black
• 29:56
  listening to him so whatever he acts for, give it to that man.
• 29:59
  Facts. I'm definitely going for Bryson,
• 30:01
  but I definitely fucking Chris Brown though, like, you know,
• 30:03
  the old shit. Residuals is my shit.
• 30:06
  That's my motherfucking that. When I heard that song, I'm
• 30:09
  like, this is a toxic nigga anthem right here.
• 30:12
  It's a toxic ass song. That's probably why I like.
• 30:16
  Yeah, that's that shit is. But don't you hate when somebody
• 30:19
  give you a song like they dedicate a song to you?
• 30:21
  So but now it's low key your favorite song, but every time
• 30:23
  you hear the song, you got to think about that dumbass person.
• 30:25
  You haven't had that before. Yeah, but I didn't really have
• 30:28
  no like, oh, this our song. I only got one song that was
• 30:31
  like our song with a girl. And I was like when I was 20.
• 30:34
  So that shit dead and gone, she married, you feel me?
• 30:37
  Like, no, it's just another song now.
• 30:41
  Yeah, why I'm so anxious. That's like summertime Jersey.
• 30:43
  That's when the first time I heard that song.
• 30:45
  I was attacked, Yeah. I was young.
• 30:47
  Now that's like. That was.
• 30:49
  Legit 1617, that's that. Teens.
• 30:53
  That was a minute ago. I wasn't even that.
• 30:55
  I think I was middle school, man.
• 30:58
  Middle school, elementary. Wanted them to what?
• 31:00
  Hey. Jeez, so that thing dropped,
• 31:03
  man, listen. Oh.
• 31:04
  Yeah, I wanna repeat, man, but yeah.
• 31:08
  So do you ever notice like because I only bring this up
• 31:11
  because, you know, start noticing people on your
• 31:14
  timeline, you know, two weeks ago they was posting themselves
• 31:18
  with a ladies or with a man and then all of a sudden they
• 31:21
  outside and they overly sharing, you know, like because that's
• 31:27
  the opposite route where you want to dry yourself and I'm OK,
• 31:33
  I'm having a great time. What's that Tyrese?
• 31:35
  What's that Tyrese shit that crying?
• 31:38
  Congratulations. Yeah.
• 31:44
  Hey, man. That's the fact though.
• 31:46
  I see that that's what you always know.
• 31:48
  Like, oh, she broke up with. Yeah, yeah, he broke out.
• 31:51
  No, no, that'll tell you. That'll tell you what he posts
• 31:55
  will tell you. Oh she broke up with him that's
• 31:58
  a fact. Cause nigga I was like the
• 31:59
  caption he putting with shit like oh I'm finna focus on this
• 32:03
  money and money ain't never left me like OK brother.
• 32:11
  OK, I. See what's going on?
• 32:12
  OK, OK, I get it. I get it.
• 32:14
  It's cool. I see what's going on.
• 32:16
  It's alright. Oh, that's I will never, and I
• 32:18
  would say never. I'm never posting a man ever
• 32:22
  again. Oh nigga, that that one, that
• 32:25
  last one told me. And either way, you're single
• 32:28
  until married, so why are you posting people?
• 32:30
  Anyway, OK, why? OK, see I.
• 32:33
  You got your. Ring I got, I had that as a
• 32:35
  topic but I didn't even bring it in because I'm like now I feel
• 32:38
  like but that's a great one. I didn't use it though, but that
• 32:40
  is a great one now that you open up new can of worms.
• 32:45
  What is it about that though? OK so I get never posting the
• 32:48
  person right? But then you have the girls that
• 32:50
  will do the utmost to hide the person.
• 32:53
  They will fucking blur the face out.
• 32:55
  Emoji on the face only show a hand, no tattoos, no identifying
• 33:00
  factors. You feel me?
• 33:03
  Just don't. Post, don't post it.
• 33:05
  Just actually don't post it. You can put a whole blurry image
• 33:08
  on the arm. You got arms wrapped around you
• 33:09
  with the blurry image over your neck.
• 33:11
  Sis, let it go. It's not even that serious.
• 33:14
  It's all right, it's OK, it's cool.
• 33:16
  Let it go. But I agree.
• 33:18
  It's the validation. I agree what you're saying
• 33:20
  though. You are technically single until
• 33:22
  you're married because niggas could wake up tomorrow and be
• 33:24
  like yeah I'm straight. Or a woman could wake up, you
• 33:26
  know, and be like, I'm cool, but that marriage a little
• 33:30
  different. I ain't just do that.
• 33:31
  It's. Different.
• 33:31
  You can't just get up and, well, I mean, you can't, but you.
• 33:33
  Can, but it's a way. It's a process.
• 33:35
  It's a process. It's a process, you just don't
• 33:37
  get up and go so it's like 9 y'all don't need to see.
• 33:40
  So you, you don't think you'll ever you'll post, you'll only
• 33:43
  post like what will make you post somebody in the future Like
• 33:46
  it has to be like, oh, proposal like is there.
• 33:50
  That would be the next time somebody will see a man even.
• 33:53
  That I would say Mary. Even that is Yeah, yeah, you're
• 33:58
  right. Even that bro she could get.
• 34:00
  It ain't official official Hey, I'm raising my hand and only
• 34:03
  lasted 3 months and I was out of the but that does happen.
• 34:10
  You know, like you propose and then now you're having these
• 34:15
  different conversations about this down the 3rd and it's like,
• 34:18
  wait, maybe we don't align, you know what I'm saying, like.
• 34:20
  Yeah, yeah. You have them goggles on.
• 34:24
  The way that's a question for you, what was the difference?
• 34:26
  You dated the person that whole time and it took you to the end
• 34:29
  to realize we're not aligned. So me, I was OK.
• 34:38
  So you ever love somebody and just you love them so much that
• 34:41
  you're just like hoping that they change certain things like
• 34:46
  you just like, yeah, I love them so much and they know I love
• 34:50
  them. So if they love me, they'll
• 34:51
  change this or they'll work on this.
• 34:54
  It don't work like that. Learn very, very, you know, the
• 34:58
  hard way, Like you people got to change.
• 35:00
  So they want to change. They don't matter what you do
• 35:01
  for them, what you say to them. They gotta want to change for
• 35:05
  themselves. And if they can't do that, bro,
• 35:07
  like that shit did, bro, it's over.
• 35:09
  Yeah, it's over. That's a biggie.
• 35:11
  That is a very, very big. A lot of a lot of us females go
• 35:15
  through that all that well, shit.
• 35:16
  I think more females than we. Do that, yeah, potential.
• 35:21
  And I know like if I give him this baby, he goes, he goes
• 35:26
  stick around like girl, no, no, please don't do that.
• 35:31
  Don't do that. Well you, you don't have a baby
• 35:33
  with a nigga. You don't even know his parents
• 35:36
  names. You go do that if you want to
• 35:37
  because shit changes after a baby comes into effect.
• 35:40
  Like he's in love with this chapter of you.
• 35:43
  Is he going to be in love with this other?
• 35:44
  Because bro, like you know that you can't just be in love with
• 35:49
  someone's physical, bro, physical will fade over time
• 35:52
  easily. Like what else is there?
• 35:54
  Can you sit there and joke with the person?
• 35:56
  Can you? You know what I mean?
• 35:57
  Like it got to be deeper than just, oh, she looks good.
• 36:00
  She looks she's nice to look at, which is what, what the
• 36:03
  beginning of what we were saying with these celebrities, like
• 36:05
  they deal with these girls because they look good, but like
• 36:07
  it's surface value. What else is there?
• 36:10
  Absolutely, absolutely. You can't even be sick if you
• 36:13
  feel awkward sitting in silence with a person.
• 36:15
  That's how you know. Like you can't even how you
• 36:17
  can't even be in awkwardness with a person you feel
• 36:20
  uncomfortable. Like get out of you don't know.
• 36:23
  It's definitely been girls in the past that I'm just like, it
• 36:26
  was a sexual situation. I'm just like, after you bust
• 36:29
  that and I'm like, you ready to go?
• 36:33
  I remember I used to deal with this one girl.
• 36:36
  I used to deal with this one girl when I lived at my mom's
• 36:38
  crib, bro. Like I would have to go pick
• 36:41
  this bum bitch up bro and like it's so different when you can
• 36:46
  either go to a girls crib right? Right.
• 36:49
  Or she come to you, she got a vehicle.
• 36:53
  So now I didn't do what I had to do.
• 36:55
  Mind you, I pick her up, she's annoying me on the way, right?
• 36:58
  Oh yeah, saying stupid shit, doing stupid shit, get to the
• 37:02
  house, do our thing, cool in the moment, everybody changes during
• 37:06
  sex, good vibes. Then after the fact, it's like,
• 37:10
  damn, I gotta take this long ass drive back to the crib and I
• 37:14
  can't stand this motherfucker really.
• 37:16
  But she freaking like. Ah damn, that is the worst.
• 37:21
  When you could bust a nut with somebody and joke with them, or
• 37:24
  even joke during sex like you're winning.
• 37:28
  And just be chilling and we'll be chilling out.
• 37:30
  Even after the the nut clarity, you're still like, you know, you
• 37:34
  ain't, Yeah. Yeah cool.
• 37:36
  Like even leading up shit you could be laying up butt nigger
• 37:40
  aren't be playing. Y'all fucking singing the shit
• 37:42
  together, you know what I'm saying?
• 37:43
  Like. That is a biggie that I'm one of
• 37:45
  my exes. He said.
• 37:46
  That he's like, I knew I knew I loved you because my Dick was on
• 37:50
  shrimp. And I was just.
• 37:54
  Laying up. Next to you the.
• 37:56
  Music, not caring. And I was like, oh, that's a big
• 37:58
  thing, he said. That's a very big thing, that
• 38:00
  is. A big thing.
• 38:01
  Oh God, oh God, because I am a grower, not a shower.
• 38:05
  If I could lay there with you with the shrimpy shrimp.
• 38:09
  Yeah. I fucking shoot a long way shit
• 38:11
  if I let you put my Dick in your mouth, not least I'm on gummy.
• 38:16
  You know how embarrassing that I'm fucking just playing with
• 38:18
  your shit? That is yo you got to chill
• 38:22
  because the image is crazy. I'm trying.
• 38:24
  To bro Bro fucking. What's the gummy worm?
• 38:30
  Yeah, No, Hell no. What if I don't get up?
• 38:34
  You ever had that When it don't get up and it's you think like
• 38:37
  once you put your mouth, it's going to get up and then it
• 38:38
  don't Nah, he knows the. Only time I no, I've gone, I've
• 38:44
  gone limp twice, right. The first time it ever happened
• 38:48
  and I realized, you know, sorry, I wasn't into like the big I
• 38:52
  could do BBW, but like the big girls wear was disproportionate.
• 38:56
  Oh yeah, that ain't for me. My shit went limp.
• 38:59
  Never in my life went limp except for and then the second
• 39:02
  time I was actually wit wife but she wasn't wife at the time like
• 39:07
  we were. This is like this is like two
• 39:10
  months after that original breakup and it was my birthday
• 39:14
  damn day. Exactly what it was.
• 39:16
  It was my birthday and I get a text from my ex saying happy
• 39:20
  birthday killer. Oh my God, what?
• 39:29
  Oh my God, shit immediately bro, it's like a nigga like he's
• 39:34
  getting some pussy. Let me go ahead and fuck this
• 39:38
  shit up right, Oh my God, hey, my jump went all the way down
• 39:42
  bro like that jump was crazy and and Shorty Shorty didn't even
• 39:46
  like get mad or nothing like that.
• 39:47
  She kind of right. That's why she had to become a
• 39:49
  wife because she always understood like you know what
• 39:51
  I'm saying like some people could get bad like oh, you
• 39:54
  thinking about it like you know what I'm saying?
• 39:55
  I could have took it a different way, but she always came from a
• 39:58
  place of understanding, which is a rarity out here.
• 40:01
  Big. Very rare.
• 40:02
  Very rare. Yeah, very rare.
• 40:05
  What was the next thing here? So say you're dealing with a
• 40:10
  nigger, right? Right and.
• 40:12
  He masturbate Would you be mad if you're your your guy was
• 40:15
  masturbating and is there a is there a Max?
• 40:21
  Is there a Max amount that he can masturbate in a week?
• 40:24
  I just had this conversation with one of my coworkers at
• 40:27
  work. All of me would say oh.
• 40:33
  Maybe like little. Hair and like 3 * a week.
• 40:36
  It's cool. Like you know, you got to do
• 40:37
  what you got to do. New me.
• 40:40
  That's the dubs. Why are you jerking off?
• 40:42
  There's no need. At all need to ever, ever ever.
• 40:46
  Ever. Ever.
• 40:46
  He can't ever Jack off. And this is the biggest thing
• 40:50
  because he's like, there's no way niggas not going to beat.
• 40:54
  Over. I'm like, I'm like, but it's,
• 40:57
  it's so much to that because it's.
• 40:59
  Like wait, like y'all living together jacking off or y'all
• 41:01
  living in separate places and like, or you just come to visit.
• 41:05
  I'm. Talking about where to where
• 41:06
  we're married. Together.
• 41:08
  OK, OK. Married and living together.
• 41:10
  This to me I don't feel like there's no need to be being off
• 41:13
  and there's no need for a woman to be playing with her pussy.
• 41:16
  OK first first because it takes away the sexual tension when I
• 41:20
  finally get to my person OK like I'm cutting hat it's supposed to
• 41:25
  be. I should be on hot and red and
• 41:26
  ready period. Hot and ready?
• 41:34
  Yeah. Yeah, he is.
• 41:39
  Yeah, it takes it away. So like if I dissed in earlier
• 41:43
  that day and then my can't come home, I already low key took
• 41:47
  half of the UFF out of it because I was already playing
• 41:50
  with myself early in the morning and then you just get half of
• 41:51
  it. I supposed to be ready to hot
• 41:54
  and ready and just give it all I've been backed up.
• 41:56
  You supposed to get that type of energy.
• 41:58
  Same thing if somebody's masturbating and you always have
• 42:01
  to look at the porno. That's the porno situation is
• 42:04
  hand in hand with the masturbation.
• 42:06
  I don't think you need to be watching pornos on wanting the
• 42:08
  marriage either. I think that takes away because
• 42:11
  it always heightens up your need or want for how sex should be.
• 42:16
  So now I'm in competition with an actress or actor and that's
• 42:21
  that's not real. I can see that they're faking
• 42:23
  it. They're they're fake.
• 42:25
  They they don't like cut 8 and they looking like they've been
• 42:29
  in it and Oh yeah, that's how it's supposed to be.
• 42:31
  Why don't my bitch do that? You're comparing a bitch to an
• 42:34
  actress. This is not.
• 42:36
  That's crazy. That's definitely not realistic.
• 42:38
  That's not realistic at all. It's not realistic.
• 42:41
  So. Now it just messes up the whole
• 42:43
  sexual dynamic with you and your partner.
• 42:46
  So that's why I'm like it all need to get out.
• 42:49
  But see it all out. Let me tell you why a man will
• 42:52
  masturbate in a relationship sometimes.
• 42:54
  We don't want to have to go through the all the extra hoopla
• 42:57
  of like quickie, I don't know everybody else's quickies.
• 43:01
  I don't, I don't fucking know what a quickie is, Alright.
• 43:05
  My quickie is probably like 15. I think we did have a quickie
• 43:11
  that was kind of under 10. Well, I usually like 15 bro.
• 43:13
  Like I yo, shut up, whatever genetics I got going on, shout
• 43:17
  out that little fuck nigga, whatever he did, but I do not
• 43:21
  bust quick bro. So like the quickie route that
• 43:23
  you're saying Like I don't know, what's the average quickie in
• 43:26
  your experience? 5 minutes?
• 43:27
  5? Hell no. 5 minutes.
• 43:30
  What is going on in 5 minutes to make a nigga bust that?
• 43:33
  Damn quick if you in it and you got to go to work or you got
• 43:37
  things to do you want make. Sure, I'm calling out nigga like
• 43:40
  I don't the fuck. Well, everybody got to go to
• 43:44
  work. Some people need to quit.
• 43:45
  So, people. Need to quit?
• 43:46
  True, We still don't. We still don't get paid right.
• 43:48
  Get this out. Let me get this out real quick
• 43:49
  so I don't go in this job and try to kill everybody and then
• 43:52
  I'm gonna do the things I need to do.
• 43:53
  Like that's what a Jackal out of the.
• 43:56
  Now, all right, now this is TMI. Your jackals is not 15 minutes.
• 44:00
  Hell no. Oh how long is jackals is like
• 44:03
  less than 5. Yes, definitely.
• 44:06
  But you're watching pornos. Yeah.
• 44:10
  Just doing that awful imagination.
• 44:12
  What the? Fuck doing that shit off
• 44:13
  imagination yo I. Used to do that awful
• 44:15
  imagination. On your own.
• 44:16
  Oh, you got a wild imagination, yo.
• 44:19
  Like imagination of what you've done.
• 44:23
  Yeah, like throwbacks. Just like everything in the You
• 44:25
  got a Rolodex you. Know damn nigger.
• 44:31
  Sorry and also I wanted to stop watching porno so I got myself
• 44:34
  into that habit of using what I. Imagination is going through
• 44:37
  that. Damn.
• 44:38
  So wait. OK OK wait so if you got videos
• 44:41
  and pics from niggas, does that does that count as pornos or
• 44:43
  not? Yes, yes, these are people you
• 44:46
  know. But you need something to get
• 44:48
  off. You could yo just touching
• 44:50
  yourself. Don't feel bad, but porno.
• 44:52
  But think about it. You said porn is like an
• 44:54
  unrealistic, you know, whatever, but if it's a person, you know,
• 44:58
  it's like OK, let's say you had your own sex tape, right nigga,
• 45:01
  this is you and the person. This is not a a.
• 45:04
  Fake. Now I'm taking that image with
• 45:05
  my husband in the bedroom I'm thinking about.
• 45:07
  Another, Oh my God, why you had to know this?
• 45:13
  Oh shit, yeah, that's nasty word.
• 45:16
  That's why nasty word. But you know, hey, it's so
• 45:20
  fucked up, bitches. I think, 'cause I didn't have a
• 45:22
  girl say that. Oh my God, I'd be fired if I
• 45:27
  said that nigga name. But a girl definitely said that
• 45:29
  one time. She was just like, I had sex
• 45:33
  with this person, almost said his name.
• 45:35
  I had this person sex with this person last night and I had to
• 45:38
  think about you to bust. Oh Nah, just leave the man, hey?
• 45:44
  If I if I'm lying, I'm flying. Hey, one thing I don't do, I
• 45:49
  will not lie on hill. Oh, that's horrible.
• 45:52
  Hey, Nah, that's that's the hey man, that's bad.
• 45:58
  Some people like the aesthetics. Another woman they work
• 46:01
  together. They they, they do their thing
• 46:03
  together. Like aesthetically, he fits her
• 46:06
  moles. That's.
• 46:07
  The person that's a whole, that's a whole, another topic.
• 46:10
  Some people try to, you know, create this cookie cutter of
• 46:13
  what they think they should. You know what I'm saying?
• 46:16
  Like, it's cool to a certain extent, right?
• 46:18
  Yeah, to a certain extent. But are you living for yourself?
• 46:21
  For the image? Period.
• 46:22
  You just said it. Period.
• 46:24
  Period. Like you just you just not
• 46:26
  you're not even into the person. You got to think of somebody
• 46:28
  else in the bed, right? Your most intimate time.
• 46:31
  What as well, No. Yeah, Insane.
• 46:34
  Insane. No, absolutely not.
• 46:37
  So we go go hold on. What was the last thing I was
• 46:40
  about to say? OK, OK, OK, OK, alright, so we
• 46:42
  go ahead with the freaky shit that we all move into some other
• 46:44
  shit. I know that the correlation of
• 46:46
  the Alright, so because I remember they they started
• 46:52
  talking about these things, right, like, oh, talking,
• 46:54
  talking your partner through right.
• 46:55
  I don't know if you've seen the trend on TikTok when girls were
• 46:58
  going crazy. They had me right?
• 47:01
  They was going crazy bro. I didn't.
• 47:02
  Want my algorithm? To fuck, I weren't going crazy.
• 47:06
  Imagine your phone just playing by yourself and going to one of
• 47:08
  those videos. Oh shit.
• 47:09
  Ain't no joke. But yeah man, no joke.
• 47:14
  I want to try to see if I can find one of those videos bro.
• 47:17
  That shit and these girls over here really talking what they
• 47:21
  the girls are trash. I know I haven't seen a fire
• 47:23
  chick. Do no I.
• 47:25
  Said no. I haven't seen a fire chick
• 47:27
  really do a good talk like the dudes killing.
• 47:30
  It So what's your shit? The girls shit.
• 47:34
  What's your go to? I'm gonna fuck your game.
• 47:36
  All right, now, what's your go to?
• 47:38
  My go to I need a deeper. New York accent.
• 47:52
  But like, Oh my God, like, Oh my, it's so much like, I like to
• 47:57
  say things to not to get a person mad, but to get them.
• 48:03
  Yeah, just to make you want to do more like, oh, you, you, you
• 48:06
  playing with me. Like, yeah.
• 48:07
  And then to keep it going. Like, that's my thing.
• 48:10
  It could be a little toxic even though like he could.
• 48:13
  Be a little that's a lot of toxic.
• 48:15
  That's a lot of toxic. That's kind of like like when a
• 48:17
  girl say oh, why you fucking me like this?
• 48:20
  Some shit like that, right, That toxic.
• 48:22
  I hear that shit. It's a mind game.
• 48:26
  It's a mind. Game, thanks for the motivation.
• 48:27
  OK, I almost caught a crap, but I'm good.
• 48:30
  I'm here. I'm delivered.
• 48:33
  I. Delivered shit man, that's a
• 48:36
  fact. That's definitely probably like
• 48:38
  a my game thing. What about you, I?
• 48:40
  Don't even know because bro I'll be, I'll be focused.
• 48:43
  I'll be focused. I think I just go off the energy
• 48:46
  of the situation to be honest. Like I definitely remember one
• 48:51
  time I only got caught with a girl and like well if I was like
• 48:55
  knocking on on the on the door or whatever and I was just like
• 48:58
  bro don't worry about them bro. Focus on this Dick type shit
• 49:00
  bro. You what?
• 49:03
  Went crazy. Nah, that's like crazy that
• 49:07
  shit. Wow, how did you not get
• 49:09
  distracted in that even somebody was like looking at y'all.
• 49:12
  Yes, I definitely remember that shit, bro, when the shit lit, I
• 49:18
  ain't gonna lie. When you got what?
• 49:20
  What Like when the combination of like the pussy is good, the
• 49:24
  what's the word, the sexual energy is there as well.
• 49:27
  Like bro, it ain't too many things that's not distracting
• 49:29
  and it ain't too many places that you're going to be like,
• 49:31
  no, I'm not going to do it. Yeah, that's like a motherfucker
• 49:34
  tell you like, hey, pull over right now on the side of this
• 49:36
  road. If the motherfucker got it like
• 49:38
  that, you finna do it. It's.
• 49:40
  Just that's right. We'll definitely get in the
• 49:42
  backseat with a motherfucker in 2.5 seconds.
• 49:44
  Yeah, it's a whole entire fat whole entire.
• 49:48
  Fat burns on knees and everything bro fuck it.
• 49:51
  That's a fact. That is a fact.
• 49:53
  Nah, that's tic tac trend. They they talking.
• 49:56
  Yeah. Talking, talking.
• 49:57
  I'm trying to see if I go, let's see, I'm going to have some good
• 50:02
  ones. I'm like damn bro me never said
• 50:04
  that to me. Now they don't fuck the game up
• 50:06
  because niggas going to steal that shit.
• 50:08
  Bro, these girls, these girls is real slick with it.
• 50:11
  I ain't I ain't seen none of the niggas shit.
• 50:12
  Obviously my algorithm is not for that.
• 50:15
  Yeah, Nah, the niggas is. The niggas is wowing, wowing.
• 50:18
  I'll be like, oh God, I got to. Which one you heard from?
• 50:22
  Which one you heard that you could remember?
• 50:29
  What was 1? I could pull out some Wesley
• 50:31
  Pipes. Wesley Pipes was a wild boy.
• 50:34
  Wesley Pipe, you know what? I think it was the lip that he
• 50:37
  used to do with the little gold Tifa show.
• 50:39
  Yeah, why? Hey man, shout out to Wesley
• 50:46
  Pipes, man. God damn, Wesley Pipes.
• 50:48
  They got shot out of Leslie Pies, bro.
• 50:51
  Yeah, but that's a crazy placement.
• 50:53
  Yeah. I don't know why that niggas be
• 50:56
  like, why you coming? Better ask me to come on this
• 51:01
  Dick better ask for permission. What the fuck you going?
• 51:05
  Oh come here. Hey, that nigga he had it low
• 51:10
  key. If I do talk shit, I'll probably
• 51:12
  talk shit off the Hennessy like me sober like I'll be in my head
• 51:16
  drunk me. Oh yeah, we popping shit, in
• 51:18
  which case I cannot remember what the fuck I'm saying.
• 51:20
  So that's. A fact because everything.
• 51:22
  'S the drunk shit I channel my inner Wesley pipes without a
• 51:24
  doubt. Without a doubt Wesley pipes
• 51:26
  off. That's my spirit animal that
• 51:28
  nigga. 2 funny porns bro. That nigga.
• 51:30
  I wonder where the hell he had now.
• 51:32
  Oh, I think he had like a health.
• 51:33
  Scare old though. No, he ain't old, but he's
• 51:36
  visibly older. Yeah. 60s maybe.
• 51:40
  I wouldn't say that. Probably fifties, 50s.
• 51:43
  These niggas was young back then, bro.
• 51:45
  They just went through a lot, bro.
• 51:47
  They don't. They're not aging like us.
• 51:49
  Like us. We like, OK.
• 51:51
  Them niggas look 40 at 21. What the fuck is going on out
• 51:55
  here, though? They definitely did.
• 51:57
  They definitely did. That's a whole entire fact.
• 52:00
  That was my God, that was him. Cherokee, man, there was so many
• 52:05
  of them. Lex.
• 52:06
  Lex what? Was that one?
• 52:09
  Get me started. Oh.
• 52:11
  No, my favorite. I like, I like the ratchet.
• 52:13
  I always liked me some ghetto shit.
• 52:14
  It was beauty. Dior bro Little chocolate.
• 52:17
  I've seen maybe one or two the little she's petite right?
• 52:19
  I'm not petite but she slipped. But she had a nice ass though.
• 52:24
  Ass Dickie's ass. Yeah, I always like natural
• 52:27
  women, bro. Like I, I realized that looking
• 52:30
  back at like certain girls that I liked in like high school,
• 52:32
  middle school and shit like that, I'm like, I always kind of
• 52:35
  had a thing for a certain type of girl and I always like
• 52:38
  natural. Like I used to watch some
• 52:39
  pornos. I want to see the titties moving
• 52:41
  around. Like I don't want to see this
• 52:43
  big fake. Like motherfucker got half a
• 52:46
  basketball cut and they put it on their chest.
• 52:48
  Like I don't want that. Like why is it not moving?
• 52:52
  Yeah, that shit is nasty. Well, that's, well, that's our
• 52:56
  age though. It was BBL wasn't the thing.
• 52:59
  You know, we had Maya and Aaliyah.
• 53:02
  We had, you know, like it's natural, just regular, just.
• 53:05
  Regular. Beautiful.
• 53:06
  Women no our two hour makeup set sessions and all this sticking
• 53:11
  the the thing on the forehead none of.
• 53:13
  That say Lavi, but alright, so now we we dive into a different
• 53:21
  realm for the episode. So I watch a YouTube shout to
• 53:26
  YouTube out real quick. What's the?
• 53:27
  What's the actual name of it? Big body butter, that episode is
• 53:30
  called Tears of Joy. Tears of joy.
• 53:32
  Yeah, so I was watching that one and I was like, damn, OK, OK.
• 53:38
  And like, I could tell. See, I can deal with people
• 53:40
  crying like that on camera, but I hate the motherfuckers that
• 53:44
  will be crying. Then they take the time to pull
• 53:47
  out their phone and then start recording.
• 53:50
  Yo. Yo like what are you?
• 53:53
  Waiting for the water. But like with yours, it was
• 53:56
  genuine. Like you could tell like bro it
• 53:58
  just hit you and you just like damn right.
• 54:02
  I don't know if you want to go into detail about what you were
• 54:05
  talking about. It's a YouTube video anyways,
• 54:08
  it's outside, right? So you were talking about like,
• 54:11
  you know, the, the sexual side of, of living basically was just
• 54:14
  like, I don't know, just go explain a little bit more
• 54:17
  because then I'll tell you what I was thinking at that point
• 54:18
  when I seen it. So for me, slow, it's long, but
• 54:23
  make it short. So for me, my I've been
• 54:25
  struggling with this sex porno. That's why I'm very big on the
• 54:29
  mass station and the porno. No, no, I've been struggling
• 54:32
  with that since maybe 8. So for me, I started watching
• 54:36
  pornos at 8. I started getting sexy active
• 54:39
  probably like early teens, maybe like 14.
• 54:42
  So I've been in this thing for a long time.
• 54:48
  So me finally being able to be like, you know what?
• 54:51
  I'm done and God coming to me at I used to always say guys
• 54:55
  working on me, guys working on me, guys work.
• 54:56
  Because I always, yeah, you said that on that.
• 54:58
  One, I say that all the time, but then I was like, you know
• 55:02
  what, You got to stop with it. Like just let go.
• 55:05
  So I finally let go, literally let go like and surrendered last
• 55:09
  year. So now when I'm being tempted.
• 55:12
  It. This shit be.
• 55:16
  Yeah, I'm having flashbacks today, I remember exactly.
• 55:23
  That shit be hard because first you got not only is you you're
• 55:26
  fighting yourself because of course we horny like we're born
• 55:29
  into sin. It's our flesh.
• 55:31
  We're going to want everything that we don't supposed to have.
• 55:34
  We're designed to be like that. I've.
• 55:35
  Been I've been so craving cake all day.
• 55:41
  We want to talk about that blood work shit too, but go ahead,
• 55:44
  sorry. Oh.
• 55:44
  Shit. Oh shit.
• 55:45
  Well, yeah, so you got to fight yourself and then the enemy he
• 55:51
  going to try you because literally I gave I surrendered
• 55:54
  January in January 2024. By the time I'm no February,
• 55:59
  February 2024, by the time March came around, I'm getting
• 56:05
  flights. Yo, let me fly you out to Vegas.
• 56:08
  Let me yo, let me come out to see you in San Francisco.
• 56:10
  I go to Chicago solo, Dola. I always go on vacation by
• 56:13
  myself. I go to the bar.
• 56:15
  Here comes some 65. 65 nigga 6/5 and.
• 56:23
  You chocolate, I said. Oh no, I'm not a mother wearing
• 56:26
  their heels with that. Nigga, I'm like, Oh my God, no
• 56:31
  way. This is not happening.
• 56:32
  So he comes they that's he meets me on day one.
• 56:35
  So the whole Chicago trip, I'm over here chilling with him.
• 56:39
  We didn't do nothing, but I'm over here and I'm thinking in my
• 56:42
  head, like your pitch, bring that nigga upstairs.
• 56:43
  Yeah. Bring him upstairs.
• 56:47
  You got the suite and they got the you can do some shit in the
• 56:49
  hot tub. I'm thinking wow.
• 56:51
  Yeah, I need your plug in your hotel because yo the hotels
• 56:54
  you'd be selecting bro. Can you take that chef's kiss?
• 56:58
  Chef's kiss? Go ahead, continue.
• 57:00
  I'll be I'll be trying to get the Hilton and Marriott points,
• 57:02
  but they they hotels be trashed unless you're out the country.
• 57:07
  Depends on where. Depends on where to Chicago.
• 57:10
  That was a fire. OK, see like was it newly
• 57:13
  renovated? Don't mean to cut you off, isn't
• 57:15
  it? Newly renovated?
• 57:18
  I don't know, I'll have a look into that.
• 57:19
  You got to be the new one because a lot of these should be
• 57:21
  over. Go ahead, keep going. 65 You
• 57:22
  fight your temptation. Oh yeah, you fight your
• 57:24
  temptation, 65. I didn't fuck up, but I did
• 57:27
  bring them upstairs. I didn't bring.
• 57:29
  Must say the last night I was like yo you can't unbutton the
• 57:33
  pants bro if you pop the pants. Open.
• 57:36
  Wait, you told him that? Yeah.
• 57:38
  Oh, you say that shit to a nigger like me?
• 57:40
  Oh word, you don't want me to unbutton?
• 57:43
  This one he tried to, but then the way the pants they was like
• 57:48
  some fit. There's some he's like yo you
• 57:50
  lucky got these type of pants. I would be nice.
• 57:52
  I would respect it. Well either way, that wound up
• 57:55
  being good. He wound up flying to San
• 57:56
  Francisco 2 weeks later after I left Chicago.
• 58:00
  So I'm like, yo. What like to see you or it was
• 58:03
  just random see. Me.
• 58:05
  OK, butter. Oh yeah, butter.
• 58:07
  Yo, it was wow. I'm like, oh God, I said, wait,
• 58:10
  how many days you want that? He said, I just want to stay the
• 58:12
  weekend with you. I just got to see you.
• 58:13
  That's, you know, those four days in Chicago wasn't enough.
• 58:16
  I'm like, fuck, what the fuck am I going to do?
• 58:18
  I'm not going to stay in the hotel with you.
• 58:26
  You sound like a little kid that scared his shit bro.
• 58:28
  Like I got to go outside, I got to go outside.
• 58:30
  I was so. Scared mind you owe me what fish
• 58:34
  would have had kids in the door with a church coat and nothing
• 58:37
  on. But either way so I'm like fuck.
• 58:39
  So I'm like we going to do this? I spent the night with that man
• 58:42
  for three days straight and did not touch that man.
• 58:44
  Then we even took a shower together.
• 58:46
  OK. Oh, hold on, hold on.
• 58:53
  Nudity, Nudity. There's no heavy petting going
• 58:58
  on, none of that. Nothing bro, no nothing.
• 59:05
  I swear to God, I was like, yo-yo, I'm going to tell you I
• 59:09
  was tried. If I also did that to myself,
• 59:11
  because I did learn from there, I would never do that to myself
• 59:14
  ever again because that was so hard.
• 59:17
  Oh, that. OK.
• 59:18
  I'm like what you mean I would? Never spend a night when a man.
• 59:20
  Bro that's crazy nigga. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
• 59:27
  But we have we have on and off air conversations so I'm like 3
• 59:32
  nights and a shower. And a shower.
• 59:35
  Bro Yeah, that's yeah. Willpower was there.
• 59:41
  Congratulations girl, you did. It was only God because it
• 59:44
  wasn't me. It wasn't me.
• 59:47
  So that's why I'd be crying in my YouTube because a bitches.
• 59:50
  Really. Came across?
• 59:51
  Yeah, it came across. Yeah, it came across, it hit me
• 59:54
  like, no, this should be hard because I wanted to crack.
• 59:56
  I wanted to do some things, yo. So literally the whole 2024 was
• 1:00:01
  that. So literally just trying to be
• 1:00:03
  obedient and just. Walking and letting go, one of
• 1:00:06
  my biggest things, which was sexual sin and just trying to
• 1:00:10
  just be on this, on this route, it's not easy.
• 1:00:13
  It's never going to be easy to be 10 years in the game.
• 1:00:15
  You could be accident for 10 years and it could be that one
• 1:00:17
  person and it can go and some people.
• 1:00:19
  You got to know your kryptonite. You got to know your kryptonite.
• 1:00:22
  You can't be around certain people like that.
• 1:00:23
  So you got to be smart with your situation while you also being
• 1:00:26
  obedient. So yeah.
• 1:00:28
  Kryptonite, Dude, you know I used to have a kryptonite.
• 1:00:31
  That motherfucking daddy gone. Hell no, I'm good on that.
• 1:00:38
  They make it so easy to get over them when they just be dumb, you
• 1:00:42
  know what I'm saying? Just.
• 1:00:44
  Dumb, you know, but when when the Kryptonites are like
• 1:00:46
  understanding and shit like that, where they like, you know
• 1:00:47
  what I'm saying that that hit a little different, but that's the
• 1:00:50
  fact, you know, I definitely respect it.
• 1:00:52
  When I seen the YouTube video, I was like, wow, OK, I didn't know
• 1:00:55
  that you were, you know, you know what I'm saying?
• 1:00:57
  Like you don't know, like we hit, we hit each other up
• 1:00:59
  randomly in the group chat. I might hit it up and just hit
• 1:01:01
  everybody up like, hey, what's going on?
• 1:01:03
  Everybody cool just down the third, but like that one in
• 1:01:07
  depth. Well, I had that motherfucker on
• 1:01:08
  the big screen. I was just like, oh shit.
• 1:01:10
  Like damn, I didn't know you know what I'm saying?
• 1:01:14
  But yeah, 'cause you know, you, you're good morning everybody.
• 1:01:18
  You know what I'm saying? That's you.
• 1:01:19
  You come on with energy. You feel me?
• 1:01:21
  So like to see you vulnerable in that moment I was just like
• 1:01:23
  damn, I wish I could hug but it real quick like I like you need
• 1:01:27
  a hug. Right, yeah, it should be.
• 1:01:31
  And also I didn't want to be too open with it because I felt like
• 1:01:33
  it's not a trend, but I know God is working outside, but also it
• 1:01:37
  feels like a lot of people using church, a Christian as a money
• 1:01:41
  grab right now. I don't know what's going on.
• 1:01:44
  So I like, I don't want to promote it like that.
• 1:01:45
  Like this is something personal between me and Big G And then
• 1:01:48
  once I do my whole one year, then I start being more vocal
• 1:01:51
  about it. So once I hit my one year mark,
• 1:01:52
  that's when I was like, all right, let me go on YouTube with
• 1:01:54
  it and stuff like that. But yeah, Big Model was going
• 1:01:57
  through it and I'm still going through it to this day.
• 1:01:59
  What her day? OK, so this.
• 1:02:03
  Forever Yeah, shut up, because I think I hit up I hit up the
• 1:02:06
  homie Martin when I seen the video, I was like you watch the
• 1:02:08
  YouTube whatever and he was like yeah, bro, that was she was
• 1:02:11
  crazy. I was like, yeah, that should
• 1:02:12
  why why? I didn't even know, but when I
• 1:02:15
  seen it I don't one thing I thought about too right and
• 1:02:21
  might be a little you know no, I'm hoping to right.
• 1:02:25
  OK, so when I was watching it right I was just thinking like
• 1:02:28
  'cause you said you know you will cover up.
• 1:02:32
  I guess the attention that you got sexually was it like AI
• 1:02:36
  forgot? I I wish I watched it before so
• 1:02:38
  I can remember, but like the attention, the male attention
• 1:02:42
  boom that's what it was yes right, yes.
• 1:02:44
  So didn't have me thinking right.
• 1:02:46
  Your father, you know. My which one?
• 1:02:48
  Your father. Oh and I I thought that too.
• 1:02:52
  So that's why I was a therapy. Yeah, that's what I was thinking
• 1:02:54
  when I say I was like Daddy. Issues that's.
• 1:02:57
  Probably what it is. I got daddy issues too so I'm
• 1:03:04
  like oh shit I got daddy issues but it wasn't because maybe
• 1:03:07
  because my relationship with my dad is so healthy.
• 1:03:10
  It was like. How old were you though?
• 1:03:13
  I was 17. OK, OK.
• 1:03:14
  So it wasn't like you were like 8 or something like that, right?
• 1:03:18
  OK, so he left foot with something.
• 1:03:20
  It was something. It was more of a validation type
• 1:03:22
  of situation. I need that, Val, because you're
• 1:03:24
  just not, you know, the chubby girl and all that stuff.
• 1:03:26
  I was just about to say. That the big, big feet, big
• 1:03:29
  head, toe, everybody worried about her.
• 1:03:32
  So I was, I was a pick me. I always been a pick me.
• 1:03:35
  So I suffered through that a lot.
• 1:03:38
  You know, and, and sometimes I see that with, with girls, like
• 1:03:41
  cuz I only know this version of butter, right?
• 1:03:42
  I don't know the old version of you, right, right.
• 1:03:44
  I only know the, the, the low hair, the short hair, blonde
• 1:03:47
  butter. I like, wait a minute.
• 1:03:49
  Does she fuck with niggers or she fuck bitches?
• 1:03:52
  Like, Oh, I don't know, it kind of scares me, but it intrigues
• 1:03:56
  me at the same time, right. I just remember when we met each
• 1:04:00
  other, we were just like, Oh, you from this Oh, y'all from we
• 1:04:02
  both were trying to get the fuck up out of the cat.
• 1:04:05
  That was like the man conversation, right?
• 1:04:08
  Oh, so I only know this version of you, right, But I can
• 1:04:11
  understand where you're like, OK, you are used to this version
• 1:04:14
  of you. So you dealt with things
• 1:04:15
  accordingly because it was just like even the sexual side,
• 1:04:19
  right? You like OK, so this nigga want
• 1:04:22
  to deal with me. So you might feel like OK,
• 1:04:25
  sexually, I got to keep him around.
• 1:04:26
  So I got to do these things and I got to be great at these
• 1:04:28
  things type of deal, right? That's just what I got from the
• 1:04:31
  the the episode itself or the the what do they call you 2?
• 1:04:36
  Vogs episode Vogs is the same. Thing, OK, I ain't a little
• 1:04:40
  nervous. I feel old right now, but same
• 1:04:43
  thing. Yeah, 'cause even 'cause that's
• 1:04:47
  not a great correlation, but like, sexually, right?
• 1:04:51
  For me, back in the day, I just felt like I had to just be good
• 1:04:55
  at it all 'cause I didn't feel like some girls might have
• 1:04:59
  thought like, oh, he cute, he handsome, but I was just like,
• 1:05:01
  I'm dark as fuck. I didn't feel like, And then I
• 1:05:05
  also didn't think I had a, a, a good size penis.
• 1:05:07
  What the fuck going on with my, I thought my penis was small
• 1:05:10
  because, you know, I always used to hear girls are liars.
• 1:05:12
  Girls will lie to niggas. This, that and the third.
• 1:05:14
  I always believed this. So when girls will be like, Oh
• 1:05:17
  yeah, I'm like, OK, so I'm in that motherfucker trying to go
• 1:05:20
  crazy, like trying to prove a point and then finally get to
• 1:05:23
  the point where I'm just like, OK, all right, maybe maybe I'm
• 1:05:27
  above average. You know what I'm saying, right?
• 1:05:30
  People break up with me because, you know, people break up with
• 1:05:31
  people. They usually be like, yo, Dick
• 1:05:32
  was falling. I ain't never heard that.
• 1:05:34
  No, I ain't never heard that. I think I shout out to the not
• 1:05:38
  shout out to the shout out to those dumb ass girls who do that
• 1:05:40
  like you was in. Love selling out bro.
• 1:05:42
  It. Had a finger in your butt all
• 1:05:44
  types of shit just be just giving it all up.
• 1:05:46
  That's crazy. All right, so for so you went to
• 1:05:49
  therapy and realized it wasn't it wasn't that as far as like
• 1:05:51
  the father. So where, where where you think
• 1:05:53
  it came from? Like the you say the validation
• 1:05:55
  from like? Validation Fat not fat girl
• 1:05:59
  syndrome, but I don't even know how to It's basically a valid.
• 1:06:03
  I I have validation issues. I suffered through that pick me
• 1:06:08
  situation because also at the same time, my mom, she owned the
• 1:06:11
  restaurant. So when you own the restaurant,
• 1:06:13
  you're doing 18 hours a day. So I don't get validation
• 1:06:16
  through nobody. My dad's gone, my mom's hustling
• 1:06:19
  owning a a business. So all I know is from only from
• 1:06:23
  what I received, right. So and you in New York watching
• 1:06:26
  porno? Yeah, yeah, yeah.
• 1:06:33
  Exactly or whatever. I'm learning through it.
• 1:06:37
  So then I realized like, oh, me watching porno since I was eight
• 1:06:41
  kind of made me kind of good when it came into the bedroom
• 1:06:43
  situation. So now I see a man do this and
• 1:06:47
  he's acting like this through sex.
• 1:06:49
  Oh, so now sex is my best friend, me and me and her.
• 1:06:52
  Like weaponize it. Now I'm weaponizing it, and now
• 1:06:56
  I feel like that's my power. That's my I know.
• 1:06:58
  Yeah, that's now I call myself Miss Gettin Sprung because I get
• 1:07:01
  these niggas. Sprung.
• 1:07:06
  Yeah. Hey, I got a you know I should
• 1:07:08
  make your freestyle to intro to the fucking podcast.
• 1:07:14
  You know what, I might find it before I upload this episode.
• 1:07:17
  Might put it in somewhere bro. Oh.
• 1:07:20
  I hate you. I hate you for that.
• 1:07:22
  I hate you for that. But yeah, I definitely get it.
• 1:07:25
  And I respect where you at now for sure.
• 1:07:27
  So like even now, so back then, right?
• 1:07:31
  If you're in a group of girls, I don't know, like I don't want to
• 1:07:34
  assume, but like if you're in a group of girls, like guys are
• 1:07:36
  probably coming at you the last or whatever, I don't know.
• 1:07:41
  And now so how do you think about it mentally now?
• 1:07:44
  Because now you walk into a room and you getting the attention
• 1:07:47
  now obviously because you are 6 footer, you feel me, but you
• 1:07:51
  won't point with your shit. And now you got the you know,
• 1:07:52
  the Pixie cut. Is this a Pixie cut?
• 1:07:53
  Is that what? They call it, yeah.
• 1:07:56
  I think you call it Pixie cut. You feel me?
• 1:07:58
  So like when you step, you're going to step, you're going to
• 1:08:00
  grab the attention. But now it's like it's a
• 1:08:03
  different type of attention. It's not an attention where it's
• 1:08:05
  like, oh, she's she's tall, she you know, she may be this person
• 1:08:10
  or she drunk or she loud or whatever the fuck at that time,
• 1:08:13
  right? But now it's a different
• 1:08:15
  attention where it's kind of like niggas is coming at you
• 1:08:17
  damn near want to kiss your feet because that one video you had
• 1:08:20
  where the nigga was just ready to you foot yourself with your
• 1:08:23
  faces. Nigga, where was that?
• 1:08:26
  What that was where you went with was that was that was the
• 1:08:30
  birthday trip for you guys. What?
• 1:08:32
  You talking about the one in Oakland?
• 1:08:33
  That was recent. I don't know if that was Oakland
• 1:08:35
  though. You went somewhere.
• 1:08:37
  With the dude trying to which way I'm kind of wise.
• 1:08:40
  You was with Steph for her birthday, my daughter.
• 1:08:42
  Please, she got locked. Out.
• 1:08:44
  Pause. Pause.
• 1:08:45
  Hold on. Let me, let me do it.
• 1:08:46
  Hold on, guys. Alright.
• 1:08:48
  And we're back. OK, Mommy, You good?
• 1:08:51
  You good. So I was saying now with the
• 1:08:56
  attention that you get now, right.
• 1:08:57
  So how do you decipher or navigate the attention?
• 1:09:03
  Oh, because I was saying so it was, it was Steph's birthday.
• 1:09:06
  That's what it was. And you, I think you was
• 1:09:08
  somebody, I don't know whatever he was saying to you.
• 1:09:11
  Oh yeah. Yeah, oh, yeah, yeah, that guy,
• 1:09:15
  that guy, it's most crazy. And I had to go back to therapy
• 1:09:18
  for that because I realize now I have a problem of receiving
• 1:09:22
  because I realized because I use sex as my power so much to get
• 1:09:28
  and do. And I'm more of a giver that now
• 1:09:30
  when I get compliments or when people try to do things for me,
• 1:09:34
  I push it away. And now I don't even when I go
• 1:09:37
  in the room or guys are looking, I'm like, he's not serious.
• 1:09:41
  He just want to fuck. And it's like, no, he probably
• 1:09:43
  actually you don't even know that though, because you ain't
• 1:09:46
  never been on that side. Now you on this side of town.
• 1:09:48
  Now you got to learn things completely different.
• 1:09:50
  So that's the interesting part. That's what I'm realizing.
• 1:09:54
  That's why I started realizing last year.
• 1:09:56
  So it's definitely it's, it's definitely different.
• 1:09:59
  But then you get some of the dummies like that.
• 1:10:01
  You could just see he just want to like clearly at the bar, Wow
• 1:10:06
  told the way. Oh come on.
• 1:10:09
  Oh RIP, oh RIP. I'm.
• 1:10:14
  Confused. 35 years on this earth, man, I don't think I've
• 1:10:17
  ever just walked up and said like, yeah, let's just jump
• 1:10:20
  straight to it. Not even what you drinking, you
• 1:10:23
  know, saying what's your name, where you from?
• 1:10:27
  I'm like, Oh yeah, this is a both.
• 1:10:29
  I'm I'm not even interesting. Where y'all was at though?
• 1:10:32
  What state was that? It was.
• 1:10:33
  That was DC. DC OK.
• 1:10:35
  So that's her hometown. So she was.
• 1:10:36
  Well, DMVI didn't know that all that shit is linked together
• 1:10:39
  like that. She has a DMV.
• 1:10:40
  I'm definitely not dullest now. I ain't even gonna hold.
• 1:10:42
  Her where Virginia. Where else is with that?
• 1:10:45
  Because she from Virginia. Virginia, so that would be
• 1:10:48
  Dulles, but I didn't know that shit.
• 1:10:50
  It's 20 minutes from every 20 minutes from DC, 20 minutes from
• 1:10:53
  Maryland. It's like boroughs to them.
• 1:10:54
  So I like oh that's fire. Got like 3 States and 1:00 in.
• 1:10:57
  Washington Hood low key shit. That's crazy.
• 1:11:01
  The White House in the middle of the hood.
• 1:11:03
  Wow. Super wow.
• 1:11:05
  It'd be like that. Super wow, but definitely a
• 1:11:07
  dope. Wow.
• 1:11:08
  Yeah, definitely a dope. So now it's just like, I guess
• 1:11:11
  looking at the attention of different and trying to decipher
• 1:11:13
  it now, because now you're looking at it with a different
• 1:11:15
  lens from the therapy basically, right?
• 1:11:19
  Like he probably not just want to fuck.
• 1:11:20
  What if he actually likes you stupid?
• 1:11:22
  Like, oh, maybe he do. But then, OK, so you feel like
• 1:11:27
  that, you feel like that from what you know, therapy is saying
• 1:11:30
  like OK, the sexual side, but do you feel like your past
• 1:11:34
  relationship, do you think that still has an effect on you to
• 1:11:37
  where you kind of like, because that shit was like a curveball
• 1:11:41
  because y'all niggas was hot. Y'all talking about hot and
• 1:11:43
  ready, Y'all niggas was hot and ready.
• 1:11:45
  And then to to how it went was like a curveball.
• 1:11:48
  Do you think that's like in the back of your head when when it
• 1:11:50
  comes to niggas approaching you? It might, no.
• 1:11:54
  No. I don't, I don't think.
• 1:11:56
  But you know what's crazy? I only had two relationships, so
• 1:11:59
  I don't even have that much experience.
• 1:12:02
  I got a crazy one with a strain on it and then I have one who
• 1:12:05
  goes to me. So it's like I have nothing like
• 1:12:11
  shut up, whoever, whoever my king is coming.
• 1:12:15
  Oh, bear with me because I'm going to be learning at the same
• 1:12:18
  time. Like I've been getting all these
• 1:12:19
  tools but I don't even know how to use them or anything because
• 1:12:22
  I have nothing. I really have nothing.
• 1:12:26
  Your next chapter? Oh no, you said they have a
• 1:12:28
  bunch of midgets out there. Hell it it gives that.
• 1:12:33
  I could be wrong, I could be wrong, but.
• 1:12:36
  I don't even know it gives what those people look like because I
• 1:12:39
  just thought it was all the same to be honest.
• 1:12:42
  I thought I thought the same too, but shit, it's completely
• 1:12:45
  different. Completely different.
• 1:12:47
  But you don't know where where your next stop will be.
• 1:12:50
  Like what you thinking right now?
• 1:12:52
  If I could choose dream location it would be Dallas, Dallas and
• 1:13:00
  maybe Philly. No I'm sorry.
• 1:13:02
  Florida, Fort Lauderdale. OK, Fort Lauderdale, Dallas and
• 1:13:06
  Dallas and Philly would be 4. Philly, Philly it's Granted, I
• 1:13:13
  know it's a little every season one way, but Philly's high.
• 1:13:16
  I. Just want a cheese steak.
• 1:13:18
  That's all I want. I just want a cheese steak and
• 1:13:19
  call it a day. Yeah, I can do Philly, but
• 1:13:24
  Dulles kind of took the Philly away because I realized I could
• 1:13:27
  still go to New York when I went to visit, right?
• 1:13:29
  That's what, 223 hour drive? That's where I'll be out
• 1:13:32
  mentally. Like I'm like, do I want to be
• 1:13:34
  back in Florida? Do I want to be far enough where
• 1:13:37
  you got to call me when you say you want to come over?
• 1:13:39
  Or do I want to be close enough where I can just drive and drop
• 1:13:41
  the kids off? Because my biggest motivation
• 1:13:43
  right now is the kids and dropping them off like.
• 1:13:46
  Hey, you need a village Yeah, you need the village when you
• 1:13:49
  when mommy and daddy need a time y'all need to know we able to do
• 1:13:52
  what I need to. Do I'm reminiscing on our old
• 1:13:54
  shit Like I'm just like damn we can't.
• 1:13:56
  We don't even live like this normal like the honeymoon.
• 1:13:59
  She was a whole stripper got ones throwing ones and all this
• 1:14:03
  shit. I'm like this seems so long ago
• 1:14:05
  like how is the key this time? Bro?
• 1:14:10
  She she was getting her nails done with the baby earlier and
• 1:14:12
  like the girl didn't Diarita on herself diarrhea.
• 1:14:16
  It didn't go nowhere, but it was like she's like there's a
• 1:14:20
  speckled doodle on her shirt. I'm like, what the fuck?
• 1:14:22
  How did that happen? It's not it's not on her hand.
• 1:14:25
  I'm like, is it on her hand? She's like, no, nothing on her
• 1:14:27
  hand. So I'm like, how the fuck did a
• 1:14:29
  speckled Doo Doo get out onto your shirt?
• 1:14:33
  Breath like this is what we're. Just touching it, then to touch
• 1:14:36
  the shirt. Yeah, it can be so many ways,
• 1:14:38
  you know, it came different. It's.
• 1:14:41
  Different. Oh, that is the cutest.
• 1:14:43
  But go ahead too though, you said what?
• 1:14:47
  The next one coming up. Yeah man, as long as the baby
• 1:14:51
  healthy uncle or whatever, we already got the name going.
• 1:14:53
  We thinking about the middle name.
• 1:14:56
  Okay, we don't know yet, but so okay.
• 1:15:01
  So you've been doing your journey for a little over a year
• 1:15:03
  now, right? Because you said February 2024.
• 1:15:06
  Yeah, I'll be here with or what journey like a love journey or?
• 1:15:10
  Surrendering, surrendering, surrendering well, self love.
• 1:15:12
  You've been doing yourself love. Thankful.
• 1:15:14
  Yeah, self love in a minute. Yeah, self love in a minute.
• 1:15:16
  But surrendering. Do you feel like it's getting a
• 1:15:18
  little easier now? It is, but it's Are you hiding?
• 1:15:25
  Because is it getting easier or are you hiding from the things?
• 1:15:27
  You know what I'm saying? Because that's the thing as
• 1:15:29
  well. I'm hiding.
• 1:15:31
  I ain't no lie. Because every time I go outside,
• 1:15:36
  I'd be like, damn, This is why you stay inside.
• 1:15:38
  This is exactly why you stay inside.
• 1:15:41
  But I, I'm, I know I'm going to have to test myself, especially
• 1:15:45
  like people, you know, I might not need to be around my
• 1:15:49
  reminisce. I don't know how I'm going to
• 1:15:52
  move. I'm not going to slip up.
• 1:15:53
  Am I not going to slip up? Are you that strong?
• 1:15:55
  Do you think you got it? Are you just good only because
• 1:15:57
  you by yourself? Like I think about all of that.
• 1:15:59
  Damn, but and boom, like what if you do slip up right?
• 1:16:03
  Do you slip up in in the middle of fucking start crying or do
• 1:16:06
  you slip up and be like, I'm going to go crazy because I've
• 1:16:10
  been pissed off Like you know what I'm saying?
• 1:16:11
  Like that's a 5050 right there bro.
• 1:16:15
  That's a 5050 because I don't know which way is going to go.
• 1:16:18
  Nigga, you can go like, you can go for like that.
• 1:16:28
  Shit ain't funny man, but it's funny.
• 1:16:32
  Damn yo that would be crazy as hell.
• 1:16:36
  God, that would be so. Like bro, that nigga would just
• 1:16:38
  be looking like is this part of is?
• 1:16:42
  This is this part of what we're supposed to do.
• 1:16:44
  That's why I don't put myself in those.
• 1:16:45
  Situations. I don't even want to find out.
• 1:16:48
  Like I don't go inside how? I'm not going inside no man's
• 1:16:51
  apartment. I'm not going nowhere.
• 1:16:53
  You. Strong for that shower dog, that
• 1:16:55
  shower shit you. Strong as a I'm.
• 1:16:58
  Stupid. I'm trying to think like.
• 1:17:01
  Because I that I should have cracked.
• 1:17:03
  I don't know how that that's why I was saying it wasn't me.
• 1:17:05
  Because if it was me, I shouldn't.
• 1:17:06
  Oh yeah, that's what I want to ask.
• 1:17:08
  Like there wasn't no heavy petting?
• 1:17:10
  Did I ask it already? What it wasn't like?
• 1:17:13
  Like petting going on, Like touching nothing.
• 1:17:16
  Touching, kissing, everything. It didn't.
• 1:17:18
  Crack. He did Yo my one of my
• 1:17:21
  weaknesses is grabbing my neck right this nigga.
• 1:17:23
  He's a six. Look at Google your face I swear
• 1:17:26
  to God. Finally got a flashback.
• 1:17:30
  It was Loki angry in the. Shower the steam.
• 1:17:36
  He grabbed my neck and I'm a kisser so he's like when I say I
• 1:17:41
  was going to say fuck I like yo-yo we got to go.
• 1:17:48
  Let me get out the shower, nigga.
• 1:17:54
  Oh shit. You got to be crying though.
• 1:17:56
  Yeah, yeah, I've. Never.
• 1:17:59
  I guess. I think God wanted me to go
• 1:18:00
  through that so I can see how. Don't do it again.
• 1:18:02
  Don't. You ever do that stupid shit
• 1:18:05
  again? Why would you do that?
• 1:18:06
  So yeah, I'll never do that to myself.
• 1:18:09
  Ever. Again, have I ever been like
• 1:18:12
  naked and it didn't happen? But I've been naked before and
• 1:18:16
  it didn't happen before. But if I'm me as a man, if I'm
• 1:18:20
  getting butt naked, nigga, God damn, I'm trying to do
• 1:18:22
  something. And I know he was trying to do
• 1:18:25
  something. Yeah, shit.
• 1:18:32
  Wait, not like that. That sounds crazy.
• 1:18:34
  God damn. No rape.
• 1:18:35
  No rape. He did not condone rape.
• 1:18:36
  No rape. No, Yeah.
• 1:18:37
  No rape. No rape.
• 1:18:38
  Well, that's a fact. Yeah.
• 1:18:39
  I mean, it could happen. It could happen.
• 1:18:42
  You could be naked with a. But nigga.
• 1:18:43
  Not something. Yeah, it did not happen.
• 1:18:46
  I'm feeling like something possibly happened.
• 1:18:48
  I think I got head before and the girl didn't let me.
• 1:18:51
  Fuck that was Krypton. I actually.
• 1:18:53
  Fucking damn how you get head and not let you fuck.
• 1:18:57
  Nigga, they don't like where you going.
• 1:18:59
  No, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait,
• 1:19:03
  wait, wait. What you doing?
• 1:19:04
  What you doing? You can't just do that and not
• 1:19:08
  give me the pussy and I was warm up.
• 1:19:10
  Nigga you can give me the appetizer, not the fucking like
• 1:19:12
  the meal. Like what's the full?
• 1:19:13
  Course bro, that's why. I think that's probably.
• 1:19:17
  A woman do something like that 'cause like she wants you to,
• 1:19:19
  Yeah, like fee for it. Like, yeah, I'm gonna leave you
• 1:19:22
  with that and let you like let you simmer on that type of shit.
• 1:19:24
  I'm not not leaving. Nah and Nah.
• 1:19:28
  We not my wild day. You leave me like that nigga
• 1:19:30
  man, that's why it's so low key. I was driving through Orlando
• 1:19:34
  right and I'm thinking like bro, I don't think I really want to
• 1:19:37
  move back to Orlando because when I was driving so I had to
• 1:19:41
  fly out of Orlando because it was way cheaper coming back to
• 1:19:44
  Canada. So I had when I was going to my
• 1:19:48
  homeboys crib and I'm just driving around.
• 1:19:49
  I'm just like you know, you get the memories.
• 1:19:51
  I'm pretty sure it's like that for you in New York, right?
• 1:19:54
  So it's certain areas you just like memories, like oh man, some
• 1:19:57
  good memories, dog. And then it's like where I'm at
• 1:19:59
  now, I'm just like. I don't outgrew this, you know
• 1:20:03
  what I'm saying? Like damn, people still here?
• 1:20:07
  It's like what? Don't.
• 1:20:09
  Same thing, you know what I'm saying?
• 1:20:11
  Like the the so I had did that voting thing for like, you know,
• 1:20:14
  if you could choose somewhere to live, Texas or Florida, you
• 1:20:16
  know, everybody was choosing Florida.
• 1:20:18
  But like a lot of the people I've seen choose in Florida, I
• 1:20:20
  know for a fact they haven't lived anywhere else outside of
• 1:20:23
  Florida, right. So it's like, damn, can you
• 1:20:26
  really, you know, you coming from a bias standpoint, but I'm
• 1:20:29
  just like, oh man, man, Orlando, I had a great time.
• 1:20:32
  I did east side to the West side.
• 1:20:34
  I had a great time. Was you in Orlando your whole
• 1:20:36
  life? You born and raised in Orlando.
• 1:20:37
  No, no, I was born in Jersey. Come on man.
• 1:20:39
  Oh, I'm sorry. Come on.
• 1:20:41
  Man, but now I was raised in Orlando.
• 1:20:43
  I don't even claim Jersey. No, because I've been in Orlando
• 1:20:45
  so long, bro. It's like, yeah, I was.
• 1:20:47
  I'm from Orlando. I was born in Jersey and I will
• 1:20:49
  always say I was born in Jersey because I do not have the
• 1:20:52
  Orlando swag at the fuck off. I don't move like an Orlando
• 1:20:56
  nigga. I don't be in my feelings like
• 1:20:57
  an Orlando nigga. None of that.
• 1:21:00
  None of that. So I always put that disclaimer.
• 1:21:02
  Born here, raised here, but raised there.
• 1:21:06
  So I know the nonsense. But yeah, yeah.
• 1:21:09
  It was just, you know, you lived the time and and I always used
• 1:21:13
  to say, like, I would never want to deal with a girl that wasn't
• 1:21:17
  experienced. Not saying she need to be
• 1:21:21
  promiscuous and nothing like that, but just, you know, come
• 1:21:25
  to me knowing you want to be here.
• 1:21:26
  Like I don't need you to be like.
• 1:21:28
  I wonder how it is to be outside now.
• 1:21:30
  I want you to be outside and be like you.
• 1:21:32
  I don't want to be outside anymore.
• 1:21:34
  I want to be inside, you know like.
• 1:21:36
  That's a fact. So and do all of that.
• 1:21:38
  Yeah, so for me, you know, wifey be like, oh, why?
• 1:21:41
  You don't what you want me to do.
• 1:21:43
  You want me to Make Love to you? You want me to fuck you like a
• 1:21:45
  slut. I've been fucking motherfuckers
• 1:21:48
  like sluts for a long time. Goddamnit.
• 1:21:49
  I'm tired. But sometimes you got to throw
• 1:21:53
  in a little. Yeah, for show girls, we need a
• 1:21:55
  little hoe. I know I I hey, listen.
• 1:21:57
  Like a little hoe hoe. I remember the day that that
• 1:21:59
  penis did not pull out of that vagina for this this second baby
• 1:22:02
  coming. I specific.
• 1:22:03
  I definitely remember like the motherfuckers hitting a little
• 1:22:06
  and we was definitely you know, I was in my toxic bag that day
• 1:22:08
  for sure. I remember but and boom, yeah,
• 1:22:11
  but I think I think for you, you know, everything happens for a
• 1:22:16
  reason. I feel like granted you, you
• 1:22:18
  know, it brought you to tears thinking about your past and you
• 1:22:20
  know, things that stand the third.
• 1:22:22
  But I feel like it shaped you to be a better version of yourself
• 1:22:27
  because you push yourself like no other I've seen you feel me
• 1:22:30
  like that jump rope and shit. Fuck that jump rope and shit.
• 1:22:35
  That jumper was shit. Nigga.
• 1:22:36
  I will jump rope. I'll be fake jump rope.
• 1:22:38
  I only use the jump rope. I'll be like, all right, I'm
• 1:22:40
  doing the the movements. You know what I'm saying?
• 1:22:42
  Because you fuck around and get tired and hit yourself in the
• 1:22:45
  back of the head, man God, you know, or the shins.
• 1:22:49
  Like Nah, but I think I think all the experiences, good, bad,
• 1:22:54
  ugly, whatever, like it's all something that will shape you
• 1:22:57
  for the person that that you would end up with, right?
• 1:23:00
  Because for me, everything I went through good, bad, ugly,
• 1:23:03
  being a whore, not you know, they even at the the the so for
• 1:23:08
  you, right, you feel like you a sexual person, right?
• 1:23:12
  I'm a sexual person, but in the forefront is love like you
• 1:23:18
  because you feel me like you want to take care of your man.
• 1:23:21
  I always wanted to take care of my woman.
• 1:23:23
  Like I might be a freaky ass whore nigga, but whatever.
• 1:23:27
  But I know in the back of my head I'm just like, Nah, like I
• 1:23:30
  know what I'm supposed to do as a man.
• 1:23:32
  You gonna feel me? Absolutely.
• 1:23:33
  And like absolutely. You're one up on a million girls
• 1:23:36
  so on a million cuz you know how to keep that nigga in the
• 1:23:41
  bedroom and you also ought to know how to keep that nigga full
• 1:23:44
  and all these other things and be you know, gentle and sensual
• 1:23:48
  and you know what I'm saying? Like these all things necessary
• 1:23:50
  man. Your time coming bro.
• 1:23:51
  That's all I wanted to say. Thank you, thank you, thank you
• 1:23:54
  so much. But what if I lose it?
• 1:23:56
  Lose what can you lose? Get the fuck out of here nigga.
• 1:23:59
  Get the. Fuck out of here bro.
• 1:24:01
  That's a fact. If you don't use it, you lose
• 1:24:04
  it. If you don't use it, you lose
• 1:24:06
  it. It's a fact.
• 1:24:08
  No, that's a motherfucker. No, that's like riding a bike.
• 1:24:11
  OK, like riding a bike, hopefully.
• 1:24:13
  And then the working out. I'll be working out.
• 1:24:15
  I'll be like the image in my head is like grabbing my back.
• 1:24:18
  You know what I'm saying? Like that'd be my image.
• 1:24:21
  Like wifey just grabbing my back.
• 1:24:23
  That's when I'm OK. One more gotta Today was a
• 1:24:28
  great, great chest day. Great chest day.
• 1:24:30
  Chest day had an ongoing shoulder.
• 1:24:32
  You know, it was a great workout day.
• 1:24:34
  I've been trying to, oh, this is what I wanted to say too, the
• 1:24:36
  blood work. Because you would, you've been,
• 1:24:37
  you know, pushing that, getting tested and stuff like that.
• 1:24:41
  You know, a lot of shit was happening with work.
• 1:24:42
  I'm not going to say what I want to say because I don't know who
• 1:24:44
  would end up listening. But right, I did end up going to
• 1:24:47
  the doctor and, you know, doing the blood work.
• 1:24:49
  You know, I chose this lady to be my physician because I'm
• 1:24:52
  going to be there for three months.
• 1:24:53
  So, you know, they do the blood work and stuff like that.
• 1:24:55
  You know, Dick clean is a whistle.
• 1:24:57
  Beautiful thing. Amen.
• 1:25:00
  But bro, I came back and they sent me like a, you know, a
• 1:25:03
  message thing or whatever and they're like, Oh no, they sent a
• 1:25:06
  voicemail and I was reading the voicemail and it was like, oh,
• 1:25:09
  pre diabetic they got to say. Like whoa me nigga.
• 1:25:13
  What the fuck me, I've been in my workout bag.
• 1:25:18
  Granted I have not been on the cardio side because like, OK I
• 1:25:23
  don't like treadmills, I'd rather run outside, but this
• 1:25:26
  fucking -20 shit. The last time I tried to run
• 1:25:31
  outside I sat in front of this fireplace for like 30 to 40
• 1:25:34
  minutes before I felt my fingers again.
• 1:25:37
  And I'm not exaggerating. Do you hear that line?
• 1:25:39
  I sat in front of the fireplace. Let's get into that right here.
• 1:25:45
  Shout out to the fans. I ain't paying a guy.
• 1:25:47
  They'll sit on this. Bitch, yeah, that's different.
• 1:25:54
  Right outside, yeah. And that type of weather, No,
• 1:25:57
  not happening. But.
• 1:25:58
  Like pre pre. Diabetic only do the treadmill,
• 1:26:01
  though you could do any. No, you know, you know what work
• 1:26:03
  I do, but you know, I work out like at work.
• 1:26:06
  So I'm like, I don't be wanting to get sweat 'cause I haven't
• 1:26:08
  gotten a membership, 'cause I'm like when I get in this house,
• 1:26:12
  I'm not, I'm not leaving until it warms up.
• 1:26:15
  I'm not leaving this house, so I work out at the gym.
• 1:26:18
  So I usually get to work and then go.
• 1:26:20
  And I don't even change clothes I like, I'll just take my, you
• 1:26:23
  know, the uniform shirt and just have the undershirt on.
• 1:26:26
  Go work out. So I'm not trying to get like
• 1:26:28
  super sweaty. Like I'll do what I have to do
• 1:26:30
  and this that, but you know, cardio gonna make you sweat.
• 1:26:33
  Squats. That's going to make me sweat
• 1:26:35
  like a motherfucker every time. Nigga, I'll be oh shit.
• 1:26:41
  But no, the one, the one with the dumbbell.
• 1:26:43
  I don't mind squats though. I when I was on the island, I
• 1:26:45
  was doing squats like every day before work.
• 1:26:47
  I didn't matter what body part I was working out.
• 1:26:49
  I was doing squats because like my knee was starting to hurt.
• 1:26:51
  But once I was doing that, it was good.
• 1:26:54
  I need to go back to that. Actually, you know what?
• 1:26:56
  I'm glad I said that out loud. I'm going to go back to that.
• 1:26:58
  But anyway, the one with the dumbbell, I don't know what it's
• 1:27:00
  called when you like it's like a snatch.
• 1:27:03
  Yes, that was a good one. I always use that one as like a
• 1:27:06
  cardio substitute because I definitely be breathing that's.
• 1:27:09
  The fact it's about the heart rate, there's a lot of things
• 1:27:14
  that could be cardio. Low key, you don't even know
• 1:27:16
  that it's cardio, but the heart rate is getting into that fat
• 1:27:19
  burning zone, which is usually, if you take your age from 180,
• 1:27:23
  take away, that shows like your high, your fat burning zone.
• 1:27:26
  And if you can stay in that, that's your cardio.
• 1:27:28
  You don't have to actually do the lip cool the Stairmaster or
• 1:27:32
  whatever. Do what you like because if you
• 1:27:34
  don't like it, you're not going to do it.
• 1:27:35
  Period. No, that's what I always tell
• 1:27:37
  people. People want to, oh, I'm going to
• 1:27:38
  do the Stairmaster for 45 minutes because Kim called that.
• 1:27:41
  45 is crazy. 45 is crazy. Girls is doing 45 you.
• 1:27:44
  Remember when I worked out with your ass?
• 1:27:47
  We did. We didn't do 45.
• 1:27:48
  Hell no, we didn't do 45, nigga. That's what I'm saying.
• 1:27:50
  We barely did that. We got maybe 15, maybe 10 to 15.
• 1:27:54
  I don't remember what the minutes were, but nigga, I
• 1:27:57
  almost died. Leaned over all on the travel.
• 1:28:01
  I don't know what possessed me to be like, oh, but I'm going to
• 1:28:04
  come work out with you. I don't know what the fuck whose
• 1:28:07
  idea. Yours.
• 1:28:09
  That's the idea. What the fuck is wrong with me,
• 1:28:12
  I. Don't know.
• 1:28:13
  OK, OK, I'm not gonna say. No to them, hey what?
• 1:28:18
  Listen, niggas work out for like strength and shit like that.
• 1:28:21
  But the endurance side is what we got to remember dawg.
• 1:28:24
  So all that oh you can lift it up heavy, but how long can you
• 1:28:26
  sustain that weight? That's what we really got to
• 1:28:28
  think about. That, that's a big fact.
• 1:28:31
  Anyway, all right, go ahead and end this man.
• 1:28:36
  I'm. Glad, glad you blessed us, man.
• 1:28:39
  I hope. I hope the conversation helps
• 1:28:41
  somebody, somewhere. Definitely, definitely.
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  We all on this journey, we all trying to do something, be some
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  become something. So we all gone through tribal
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  tribulations. It's like it's all right you.
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  Fail you, fail you. Do it, get up, do it all over
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  again. Facts, period.
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  Facts. I'm not mad at it, man.
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  But this is a time where you know have your time to shout out
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  whatever you need to shout out, your Instagram, your YouTube,
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  and it definitely will be tagged in the description of the
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  episode. It is big body butter on
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  everything on Instagram, on YouTube, on TikTok, on LinkedIn,
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  on Snapchat. I'm literally on everything but
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  big under score body under score BUTTA.
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  And we just here on the journey. I'm being transparent, being
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  real, being raw. I'm just trying to motivate my
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  girls. And don't get all confident,
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  explain what the hell happened at work before you leave.
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  But as always, man, it's your boy Cadet, the bowlegged
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  assassin, man, y'all be safe. Y'all be easy and stop jacking
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  off. Apparently, yeah.