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Ensorcelled in the Earth · INSPIRE STORY

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  Speaker 1: Welcome back to Greek gust. Today we are reading in source.
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  It's sort take your time, it's okay, sounded out one
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  stuff okay, and sorcelled ensorceled in the Earth all right.
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  I even said it out loud properly before this.
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  Speaker 2: I don't know why I had such a hard time
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  in Sorcelled in the Earth, which is from the author
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  of the previous episode that we've done. Our previous story
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  we've covered called it brethese it bleeds, it breeds. And
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  what makes us so unique and so fun is that
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  this story was actually posted on our subreddit, the r
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  slash creepcast subreddit, which is kind of cool where you know,
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  it would be really neat if the if the reddit
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  could be a place kind of like our slash no
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  Sleep where people can post stuff. And I do see
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  we've seen other fans post stories in here as well,
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  so I think that it's probably gonna be more common
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  that we start reading stuff from actually our viewers or
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  authors that come here and post stories as well, which
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  is really cool.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah. So the author of this story, his name is
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  Travis Coleman. He goes by Imperial Incentive on Creepypasta and
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  here on Reddit. He posted this story to Creepypasta, and
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  he posted it to our subreddit once again. He posts
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  a ton on the creepypasta wi. He has his own
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  profile page he keeps up that talks about like new
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  stories he's writing, and we talked about it before when
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  we covered it Breeds It bleeds that he has a
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  huge body of work, like this guy writes about a
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  ton of different stories, a ton of different horror concepts, which,
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  of course we'll have a link to his description, his
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  page and everything, so you feel free to check him
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  out there. But I also didn't realize then how like
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  influential this guy was in the creepypasta space. Like this
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  guy wrote flesh Gate, which was a story that I
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  heard passed around vocally that I don't even think I've
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  ever read the original story, but this is the guy
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  who wrote it. And he also wrote some other famous
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  ones I've heard of, like a small piece of Lead
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  Abraham's Dagger ad nauseum, ad mortem ad infinum. Like this
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  guy has a lot of big stories under his belt
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  and he writes a ton, so him like an author
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  that we already know we like and is that prolific
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  posting his story to our subreddit is really cool. We
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  appreciate it. I'm stuck.
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  Speaker 2: And from the comments and stuff too, it seems like
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  he hasn't written He hasn't written anything in a while,
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  so this is just something new that apparently he's been
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  wanting to write. So it's really cool that, you know,
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  getting the influence to come in and just be like,
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  fuck it, I'm gonna write a new story. It's just
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  a lot of fun and it's gonna be cool to
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  dive into this new story.
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  Speaker 1: Yep, yeah, I'm excited. You'll read his off note too. Yeah,
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  we'll read the author's note. He says, hey, fam, uh,
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  just so fine to start out like, hey, fam, this
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  is gonna be a weird one. I've been meaning to
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  write an abstract story about this topic for a long time.
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  I want to thank Junji Eto for the Enigma of
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  Amagara Fault. Banger by the way, such a good one
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  cardboard computer for Kentucky Route zero. Another banger by the way,
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  Blind Ascent by James M to Board not Familiar, and
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  the late and great David Lynch. I hope you enjoy it.
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  And then he puts content warning claustrophobia, body degradation, and
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  self harm. Seriously, please stop whatever this makes you uncomfortable enjoy,
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  which is exactly what we want to die. That's awesome.
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  This has to be some I mean as to be
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  top two.
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  Speaker 2: He says, let's go spelunking as well, So I mean
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  this is going to be a fun cave diving story,
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  which you.
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  Speaker 1: Know me well, I love.
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  Speaker 2: I love a nice claustrophobic nama I and claustrophobic is high.
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  Speaker 1: Hell, the cave stuff's fun. And then the uh enigma
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  of Amagara Fault and Kentucky Route zero are both like,
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  you know, cave earth related, so I imagine that's where
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  he's dry. Enough of this is this is dope. I'm
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  very excited for this that we've seen a lot of
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  fan made stories before, and there's kind of like it's
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  a weird place because we really want to cover and
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  we really want to talk about him, but also if
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  someone we know is going to be watching the show,
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  I really don't want to be mean to him. Hunter
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  doesn't care to be mean to him, but I don't
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  want to be mean to him. So it's kind of like,
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  you know, want to wait for something special come along
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  to kick it off. And now we have an author
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  who we know, we like posting, and this seems like
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  a perfect opportunity to start with creep cast based story.
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  So I am very excited to get into it.
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  Speaker 2: A creep cast original, but not really creep It's.
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  Speaker 1: Only we had nothing to do with it. Absolutely not ours.
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  But that's page on the internet. Creep cast original, creep
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  past original, one hundred percent. Let's get it. Let's let's
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  get it, let's get into it. Be sure to get
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  you to show us love on audio platforms. Thank you
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  guys for letting us crush Bin Shapiro and other political podcasters.
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  I don't even have specific beef with any of them.
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  I just need to kill everyone who is also on
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  the leaderboard, So thank you all for the support to
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  show up over there. It's on a.
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  Speaker 2: Spotify, Apple podcast and even YouTube as a way of
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  charting it now too, So we just appreciate the love
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  of support there, guys.
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  Speaker 1: Thank you so much. And how about you get you
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  get nice and cozy and let's get into the story.
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  Let's go and sorcelled in the earth. It speaks to
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  me at nights. Sometimes most nights, I lay bathed in
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  the empty glow of light from my phone waiting for
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  a message or comment to invalidate the sense of loneliness
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  that has infused every aspect of my life. Since I
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  got the news, I've lost whatever spark was there that
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  brought light into my life. I don't feel at home
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  in this world anymore. Sometimes the voice is the only
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  time I hear someone talk Somedays. The voice is patient.
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  It never speaks out of turn. It always waits for
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  that precise threshold between the waking world and a fitful
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  night of sleep to speak those honeyed words to me.
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  Speaker 3: I'm here waiting.
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  Speaker 1: I wake up and rush to the bathroom. I managed
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  to make it to the toilet before the sickness spews
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  out of me. It's small victories like this that make
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  the days worth living. For the first few times, I
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  had to wash the bed sheets and steam clean the
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  floor because I wasn't prepared. But now I've mastered that ritual.
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  Get to the bathroom as soon as you wake up,
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  flush the contents without looking at them, Try to ignore
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  the growing fear that something else is terribly wrong. No fuss,
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  no muss, There's no need for doctors. I already know
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  how sick I am. I've perfected the systems. Vomit in
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  the morning, wait two hours before eating unless you want
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  to lose it. Minutes later, go to work and wait
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  for something to change, wait for it to eventually get better.
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  I know nothing's going to change, so that's why I
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  decided to seek out the source of the voice. Like
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  a magnet to a loadstone, I find myself drawn to it,
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  the epicenter, far away from the civilized world. It takes
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  days to reach the location, traveling through the desert by car,
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  but the voice beckons me closer every night now and
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  I never stray from the path. I sleep in the
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  cabin in my car. It's easier than a motel. In
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  the morning, I simply open the door and spill biless
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  and red flecked vomit onto the dry sand and cracked earth,
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  and drive away. No pesky clean up, no one to
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  worry over it. At the end of the third day,
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  I reach my destination. I know what this place is
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  the instant I see it. It's an oasis after days
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  of sand and sun. Being my only companion. I look
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  at my phone, seven texts, five miss calls, one voicemail
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  message that is three minutes long, and a twenty six
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  percent charge left on my battery. I don't bother to
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  check any of them. I turn off my cell to
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  conserve those last precious minutes. It's too late to turn back.
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  That door shut to me now, but another one is
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  opening up. This place is a message. This place is
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  part of a system of messages that want me to
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  listen to what it has to say. It demands my attention,
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  and I give it freely. It is hidden away from
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  the rest of the world, like a pearl peeking out
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  from the silt of the sea. Only I can see
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  it amongst the floatsums and jetsam. The only barrier preventing
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  me from delving deeper is a single chain draped across
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  the entrance to a mind with a warning sign. I
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  trespass it easily and step away from the light of
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  the day into the darkness of the earth. As I
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  crossed that threshold between the waking world and my final destination,
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  I can hear that the voice is sending me a message.
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  This is the first time I've heard it, heard her clearly.
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  The message is important, but it feels like it's only
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  being transmitted to me. She says, I'm here waiting for you.
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  So he lost something there. At the beginning, it says,
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  since I've had the news, the light's left for my life.
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  I don't feel at home in this world more. And
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  then he begins to vomit after the voice has heard.
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  I also like that the voice is capitalized every time
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  it shows up, like it's a proper noun. And now
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  he's personified it as a her. So I could be off,
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  but it sounds like he lost a loved one right
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  because he says waiting for a message to invalidate the
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  sense of loneliness since I got the news, So perhaps
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  like a loved one side and now like a woman
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  or like a romantic figures being personified at the bottom
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  of this cave that he's traveling to. Yeah, I mean
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  it seems almost.
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  Speaker 2: I mean I could be wrong as well, but there
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  was a couple pieces there that THO was interesting. Like
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  when he's like he throws up in the morning, he
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  doesn't look at the contents, goes on.
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  Speaker 1: You know, he's basically being sick. But then he starts
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  going to more details about like red flaky.
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  Speaker 2: It almost sounds like he's afflicted by something, you know, Oh,
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  like I don't know if you know if you read
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  it the same way. But it's almost like if he
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  looks at the contents in the bowl, it'll fuck him.
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  Speaker 1: Up or something.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, not even not even the fact that it's gross,
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  but there's something like abnormal about even the thrub.
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  Speaker 1: It doesn't even seem that he's like throwing up a
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  human amount or like it's just his bile coming up.
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  It's like there's a thing in it, like there's extra Yeah,
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  there's something about like the red flags, and now he
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  can't look at it. He has it down to his
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  science stuff like that. It's like he's physically sick, but
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  in a supernatural sense if he doesn't do what the
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  voice wants him to right. I linger at the threshold
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  between the sun and the dark for a moment longer
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  than a standard blink. I lie and tell myself that
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  there's nothing left for me here. I filled the magnetic
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  poll calling me deeper, but still I hesitate. Should I
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  check my messages and see who was trying to reach me? No,
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  I want to conserve the batteries. It looks dark in
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  the minds, and I always have had a fear of
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  the dark. The thought stirs up a memory from my childhood,
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  when I was six. Every few weeks, I would creep
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  into my parents room in the dark at the night,
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  stand by my mom's side of the bed. I was
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  too scared to sleep in the dark of my own
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  room and too terrified to wake her and disappoint her
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  by telling her that I'm afraid falling asleep. As a result,
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  I would stand by her side of the bed and
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  hope that she wakes up on her own and ask
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  me what's wrong so I don't have to feel like
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  I'm bothering her. Sometimes I would stand there for what
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  felt like hours, waiting for her to save me for
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  my paralysis of that indecision that sounds like that immediately
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  sounds like something you did as a kid. I did
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  do that. Actually, I'm not even joking. I would get
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  freaked out of my room.
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  Speaker 2: I would stand my I would stay my mom, or
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  I'd go really close to I'd be like ah, and
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  she'd like fucking like freak out, be like whaw because
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  I'd be so close to her face. Or I would
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  go into a room and I would sleep on the
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  floor next to her bed. In the morning, she would
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  like step on me and I'd be like oh, and
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  she'd be like oh, my god, I'm suck. But the
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  big the biggest thing was I was like I would
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  be freaked out. I'd go and I'd whisper to my mom,
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  but I didn't want to wake up my dad because
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  if my dad woke up, he'd be like, oh Dade, yeah,
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  like raise hell for sure.
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  Speaker 1: But yeah, I did that all the fucking time when
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  I was younger. You gotta strategize how you really do.
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  Speaker 2: You have to strategize how you're like, I'm going to
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  die of a heart attack.
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  Speaker 1: I'm so afraid of my room of whatever.
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  Speaker 2: You know, it could have been a dream or who
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  knows what it is, but yeah, going into the room
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  really like slowly turning the fucking the door so there's
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  no sound of that. My dad also had like this
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  industrial fan that would be blaring in there, so it'd
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  be like this huge like wind tunnel in the room,
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  and I'd just be out to my mom. Mom, Mom, Yeah,
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  she would freak the fuck out.
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  Speaker 1: I always felt terrible. The funniest part is you curled
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  up on the floor like a dog.
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  Speaker 2: I did, like like a like a shitsu or something
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  like that.
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  Speaker 1: I literally curled up at a ball.
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  Speaker 2: My mom would wake up in the morning, and now
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  you know, you're you're small, You're just a kid. You
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  don't think, and no one like looks at the floor
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  before they get out of bed whatever.
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  Speaker 1: So yeah, she would step on me.
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  Speaker 2: I'd be like, ah, or my dad woul get pissed
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  because Dad would wake up really early for that construction
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  work and.
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  Speaker 1: He'd be like, what the hell are you doing here? Well,
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  you're doing What the hell do you think you're doing? Boy,
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  that's probably why your grandfather tried to shoot you. Yeah,
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  that's probably when your grandfather accidentally shot the dog. Because
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  you know, you two look so much alike. I bet
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  you're that one surprised me at all if you were like, yeah, turns,
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  I was one of the kids I wore like the
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  ears and the tail, like I would bark at people
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  at school. I wish I had courage.
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  Speaker 2: I wish I wish I had an inmblance of courage
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  like that, dude, I'm not a coward.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe your grandpa was trying to save us, maybe fucking
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  maybe dude, maybe just go to God, just go to
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  God to go come on. Maybe if I can kill
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  him before he becomes the sinner, I can save him.
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  I can't save all of them.
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  Speaker 2: I've given him four bars of chocolate, but he hasn't
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  died yet.
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  Speaker 1: You kept leaving the door open and stuff like that open.
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  You run away, Yeah, go on, get I should get
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  lost in the woods. I really shouldn't have left. I
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  don't stand at the entrance of that mine for hours,
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  paralyzed by indecision. It takes seconds to make up my
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  mind without any more hesitation. I took my phone into
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  my jeans and venture into the darkness without checking my
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  notifications or listening to that message. It's an obvious choice.
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  It's clearly August, and the air to the mine is welcoming,
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  cool and comparison to the stale heat of my shipbox car,
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  whose ac broke down years ago that I never got
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  around to repairing. I began walking into the darkness and
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  I leave the world behind. The air is thick with
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  particulates and motes of light flitting amongst the darkness that
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  plays off the sun. The light behind me illuminates my
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  path downwards, but with each step forward, my world grows darker.
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  The mine looks like it has been abandoned, with dust
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  building on equipment and spiderwebs occasionally acting as an ethereal
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  bearer to entry that catches my hair and make my
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  skin crawl. Each step takes me slightly downwards along the
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  sand and shifting earth. I feel my feet slip out
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  for me, and I catch myself before I can roll
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  my ankle. If I'm not careful, I can easily injure
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  myself here. But it just as in my environment, that
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  is a danger. It isn't just difficult terrain. Something is
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  wrong with my ear. Till my head to the side
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  and I feel something tripping out, staining my shirt. A
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  taxia washes over me like a wave and mixes with
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  a cocklear fluid. This could be enough to make me
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  turn back. But what will I be returning to? Who
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  is waiting for me after what I did? Why didn't
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  I go? No one's going to miss me. I continue
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  my descent. I walk into drunken zig zag further into
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  the darkness, deeper into the depths. The world sways back
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  and forth. No matter how hard I try to focus
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  and swallow down the nausea, it rises back up in
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  my throat. I'm dizzy, but determined. I've come too far
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  to turn back. Now I have to go further into
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  the mind. That's a I used to get really bad
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  earaches when I was a kid, and I remember, like
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  I think I was ever to the point where like
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  my ears would be dripping fluid, but I remember feeling
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  like they were full of something and like the overwhelming pain.
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  It's like it's like a debilitating headache.
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  Speaker 2: Also going further and further into a claustrophobic nightmare. We
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  were equilibriums fucked up in your nauseus would be.
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  Speaker 1: Not a vibe, would not recommend. It's almost like he
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  was throwing up and now he gets closer and now
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  his ear is dripping and he hears the voice louder.
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  It's almost like he's changing as he gets closer and
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  closer to what the source is. It's reminiscent. Uh well,
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  I mean may be a little biased because it also
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  involves a cave, but it reminds me of like in Graylock,
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  those workers who went into the mountain, you know, being
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  down there. But it's also very reminiscent because it is
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  like I'll say it for you, love Crafty and that
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  there's a there's a voice in the mountain that's calling
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  them and they like feel the knee to like long
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  after it. It feels fair. What's the word cosmic? It
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  feels like, you know, some greater entity beneath cool. As
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  I wabbled deeper into the growing darkness, I noticed that
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  the walls, which I couldn't reach with both my arms
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  outstretched or slowly starting to close in on me. And
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  a nerving sense of being underground is growing. While the
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  tunnel ahead is an arrowing, after a few hundred feet,
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  I can touch the sides. I turn back and look
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  at the entrance one last time before continuing on the
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  opening is a pinprick of light amongst sea of dark.
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  I am so far from home. Light of my phone
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  screen illuminates my path forward. I keep scanning the darkness,
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  expecting the light to catch the reflective tap of them.
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  The reflective tapitom lucid lucidum of a coyote. Oh, like
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  their reflective eyes. I see what it says. Okay, but
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  there's no animals here, even they avoid this place. The
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  only creatures that seem to be thriving here are the spiders.
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  As I bumble into another web and I can feel
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  like crawling through my hair, I brush it free and
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  prepare myself for the dark. My battery won't last forever.
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  Turn my poam back off twenty two percent and swallow
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  down the fear of the darkness claims my surroundings, and
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  that just to keep walking. This is gonna get rough.
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  I can already find I'm already and he gets the
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  I'm starting to get like a lump in my throat.
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  I keep like swallowing.
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, oh god, I'm just picturing the also to
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  the idea of having like a low battery, and it's
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  like that's my flashlight.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, brood. The only way I can see is
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  this didn't charge it up, didn't think about even a
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  five dollars one at the gas station out front.
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  Speaker 2: Well, you know what that also kind of shows is
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  that he doesn't plan on coming out, is what it seems.
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  Speaker 1: To get to me. Well, it seems that he's depressed
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  because he's like, who would miss me? Back there? Like
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  he's giving himself to whatever he's walking into, surely, and
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  also like it him talking about what I did. I
• 19:22
  still think he's talking about like a loved one, but
• 19:24
  he associated some personal guilt to it, so it's almost
• 19:28
  like it's almost like a suicide in a way. The
• 19:31
  way he's describing it like, no one will miss me.
• 19:33
  I just have my phone. I'll walk in. It reads
• 19:36
  for sure. Yeah, but I can already tell it's gonna
• 19:40
  get rough because he's like, I'm throwing up my ears, dripping,
• 19:43
  I feel spiders in my hair, and we're like five
• 19:45
  feet into the cave. The cave continues to shrink further
• 19:51
  on and deeper still. I bang my head on the
• 19:54
  stalactites above, and I realized that the tunnel is not
• 19:56
  only narrowing, it is shrinking in diameter. Oh, this is
• 20:01
  gonna be some tid to caver stuff. I didn't even
• 20:05
  see the stalactype before I hit it. It's too dark
• 20:08
  in this place. A positive the darkness to try and
• 20:10
  still my heart. I try to distract myself from the
• 20:13
  rising panic attack by focusing on the air current it
• 20:16
  gave is deep enough, has its own pressure system of
• 20:19
  shifting air currents as they flow from high to low pressure.
• 20:23
  The cave is large enough those currents can almost be
• 20:26
  mistaken for breathing. That thought makes the fear worse. And
• 20:30
  when I realize that my panic isn't subsiding, I hang
• 20:33
  my head and continue further. Yeah, like that the way
• 20:37
  it's I feel like I'm in a breathing thing. And
• 20:39
  then he's like, my fear is worse and I'm about
• 20:42
  to have a panic attack. I push forward. Yeah, like
• 20:45
  a punishment. Yeah, it's like a punishment, and like he's
• 20:48
  almost being compelled against his own will to be to
• 20:51
  keep walking into it. Yeah. I know, as I hunch
• 20:53
  my shoulders to prevent the stone from scraping into my skin,
• 20:56
  that this place is not a place of honor. Ooh,
• 21:00
  I like that. That felt that felt right, That made
• 21:03
  me all tingly inside. Wow, this is the only way forward,
• 21:08
  and the path to my destination is not going to
• 21:10
  be made easy for me. Soon, I'll have to crawl
• 21:13
  on my hands and knees if I want to progress deeper.
• 21:16
  This place is trying to prevent me from reaching the voice.
• 21:19
  Everything in my body tells me that no highly esteemed
• 21:21
  deed is commemorated here in this place. Nothing of value
• 21:25
  is here. So why do I keep delving deeper? Why
• 21:29
  do I keep on going? It's a question that I've
• 21:31
  asked myself far too much. The only difference between asking
• 21:34
  myself back then and asking myself now is the answer now.
• 21:39
  I don't have an answer. I feel something digging to
• 21:41
  my knee, and I use my phone to look at
• 21:43
  the misshapen rock. I'll have to be careful or I'll
• 21:47
  shred my hands and knees. Crawling forward, I'm my phone
• 21:50
  down the depths, hoping to see an alcove or opening,
• 21:54
  but the path only constricts down. Like a blood vessel.
• 21:57
  I am drawn to the depths like a magnet to
• 21:59
  a loads stone. I am summoned to it like a
• 22:02
  sheep to the slaughter. Oh oh, this guy, this guy
• 22:06
  you remember, you remember those closing lines. Off it breeds,
• 22:08
  It bleeds where it's like in my final moments, I'll
• 22:11
  say I love him or whatever, like this is such
• 22:13
  a good cap. This guy he uh he hit me
• 22:17
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• 22:21
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  Speaker 1: Thank you so much for rocket Money. Now back to
• 23:22
  our episode. I have to put my phone back in
• 23:30
  my pocket as I can't drag myself on my belly
• 23:32
  and shift through the narrow gap ahead of me. Trapped
• 23:36
  in this tight space, I can feel one of the
• 23:38
  many spiders I displaced by walking into their webs, exploring
• 23:41
  in my environs. My hair, I can't brush it free
• 23:45
  in this claustrophobic crawl space, so I have to endure.
• 23:49
  I can't raise my head to look down deeper to
• 23:50
  the darkness without hitting my head on the cave ceiling.
• 23:53
  I have to lie prone and crane my neck if
• 23:55
  I want to see what lies ahead of me. Not
• 23:57
  that the darkness shows me much. I try not to
• 24:00
  think of the tons of rock above me that could
• 24:03
  crush me. Should the earth? Will it? Why do I
• 24:06
  keep moving forward? I had friends, I had family. I
• 24:10
  had a thought breaks through the darkness.
• 24:13
  Speaker 3: Who called me and left that three minute voicemail.
• 24:16
  Speaker 1: I try to reach back to retrieve my phone and check,
• 24:18
  but a horrifying realization makes its home in my head,
• 24:21
  like a spider setting up a new nest in my hair.
• 24:24
  I can check. My phone is in my pocket and
• 24:26
  there isn't enough space to maneuver my arm to reach
• 24:29
  it now, and I can't back up. Was it my brother?
• 24:32
  Did you want to know why the hell I wasn't
• 24:33
  at the funeral? Maybe it was my sister. Did she
• 24:36
  just want to tell me that everyone grieves differently, but
• 24:39
  I had to open up to them that they loved me,
• 24:42
  said a voicemail from the last time I ever missed
• 24:44
  a call for my mom. I thought it was stripped
• 24:46
  away from me by the panic when I realized that
• 24:49
  the space is so tight that I can't expand my
• 24:51
  chest fully to draw an air. Yeah. I try to
• 24:54
  calm myself, but the darkness and claustrophobia of this place
• 24:57
  makes it difficult. If I panic, I might do something stupid.
• 25:01
  Stupid Earth. That is, I need to call myself by
• 25:03
  controlling my breathing. I have to steal away oxygen from
• 25:07
  the moist, oppressive air through shallow breaths. I push my
• 25:10
  feet off the ground for leverage, and I wriggle my
• 25:12
  body further into the ever tightening depths ahead. I try
• 25:16
  to ignore the fact that I have to inhale to
• 25:18
  move forward, and every time I excel, I let out
• 25:20
  a little more dead space for my lungs. I pretend
• 25:23
  that I can't feel my heart beating in my chest
• 25:25
  scraping up against my ribs. The stone and the earth
• 25:28
  around me needle my stomach like tiny deciduous teeth. They
• 25:32
  chew tiny holes in my shirt and pants. They nip
• 25:35
  at my heels and usher me forward and deeper. A
• 25:38
  dark thought worms its way into my brain and won't
• 25:40
  subside until I acknowledge it. It feels like I'm being consumed.
• 25:45
  I have entered the mouth of this horrible place and
• 25:47
  am now being chewed by the rocks and stone of
• 25:50
  this place. If I keep going onwards, am I going
• 25:53
  to drop into the vast dark of this cave's belly?
• 25:57
  How far have I come? A quarter a mile, half
• 26:00
  a mile down? I am become like one of the
• 26:03
  eight spiders that Americans eat in their sleep. I know
• 26:06
  that's a myth, an untruth, misinformation that insists itself into
• 26:10
  our deepest fears, and now can't be excized from our
• 26:13
  minds no matter how hard we try. There's a horrifying
• 26:16
  power and belief. A tiny little eye about eating spiders
• 26:19
  in your sleep from PC professional blossomed into an incontrovertible fact.
• 26:25
  It was people's acknowledgment of this fear that gave it life,
• 26:28
  gave it presence, gave it purchase to crawl its way
• 26:30
  into our world. And now it's an accepted part of reality.
• 26:33
  And even though it's not true belief can make something real,
• 26:37
  give something form, give her power. Okay, gosh bro the
• 26:44
  like comparing like the way he's thinking about how he's
• 26:48
  being digested and comparing it to the myth you know,
• 26:50
  the whole Americans eat eight spiders in their sleep or whatever,
• 26:54
  and talking about how it gets to a point where
• 26:57
  simply the belief of it makes it legitimate. And then
• 27:00
  he's like, it gives her power. And he's tying that
• 27:02
  back to the voice that's been mentioned a couple of
• 27:05
  times before, and now that's like a myth that's stuck
• 27:07
  in his head. It can't get out. And now we
• 27:09
  see also in that quick mention that he didn't go
• 27:11
  to his mom's funeral. It seems that the death he
• 27:14
  missed a call from his mom that maybe would have
• 27:16
  saved her life. So he feels responsible for her death,
• 27:18
  and that's why he's here's this is yeah, I'm a fan.
• 27:22
  Speaker 2: I'm like, yeah, I mean the so claustrophobic, so uncomfortable,
• 27:26
  even the way that he even the way that he
• 27:29
  gives the cave or the mine, I should say, a uh,
• 27:33
  a living soul like I mean talking wow, that it's
• 27:36
  contracting and going down or tightening like a blood vessel.
• 27:39
  The cave's breathing, the tiny teeth, the belly of the
• 27:44
  cave like it's it's giving it to be like he's
• 27:46
  basically being consumed by a monster right now. It's just Yeah,
• 27:50
  it's so uncomporable. It's it's I the entire time you're
• 27:53
  reading that, I just found myself. I was like kind
• 27:55
  of like like clenching my chest like God, like I
• 27:59
  really feeling like I'm trapped in there too, almost like
• 28:01
  whenever someone's telling you about something horrible, like he's like
• 28:04
  I can't even take breaths, Like it felt like my
• 28:06
  chest was pressed up against those rocks too.
• 28:09
  Speaker 1: Hm hmm. Yeah, it's brutal. It's like the direct tie,
• 28:14
  especially with the consumed part, reminds me of Final Prayer. Yeah,
• 28:19
  it directly goes, but also like reminds me that there's
• 28:23
  this YouTuber named Jacob Geller makes these great YouTube videos
• 28:26
  talking about like different horror scenarios. But he made one
• 28:29
  called Fear of the Depths where he talks about like
• 28:31
  the horror of cave diving or like the worst stories
• 28:33
  with caves, and he has this one section that I
• 28:35
  was always stuck out of my mind. He talks about
• 28:38
  how like caves have a natural waste system, where like,
• 28:40
  you know, things that die in the cave or whatever
• 28:43
  are excreted like through the channels or through waterways. If
• 28:47
  we view the cave as a superstructure, it brings in
• 28:50
  like nutrients through like the minerals and the rocks, right,
• 28:53
  and it has like these microbes that live in it
• 28:55
  that act as an immune system. Effectively. It's as if
• 28:58
  the cave itself is one giant living thing that simply
• 29:02
  isn't made up of cells. And I think about that
• 29:05
  a lot when I think about these horror stories with caves,
• 29:07
  and him talking about being digested reminded me of that
• 29:09
  there's such a whoror to it. So, I mean, it's
• 29:12
  so alien, it really is.
• 29:14
  Speaker 2: I mean, cave diving is considerable to me, is like
• 29:17
  fucking diving deep into the ocean. It's just like the
• 29:20
  unknown of something. Caves are so oddly intimate, almost like
• 29:25
  a home, you know what I mean. It's like you're
• 29:26
  kind of like breaking into a house almost.
• 29:29
  Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, there's this feeling of like you're not supposed
• 29:32
  to be there. Yeah, But what do you think of
• 29:34
  people who water dive in caves. Have you seen that?
• 29:37
  Oh my god, when they're moving the tanks along, is
• 29:39
  that insane? Like pushing your god? Man, how those hobbies?
• 29:45
  It's crazy? I like, have you seen all those memes
• 29:49
  on like TikTok and stuff where it's like a man
• 29:51
  with four children and a loving wife at home, and
• 29:53
  it's like he decided to go down the lava death
• 29:56
  tube after this? He had two paths. The one that
• 30:00
  led to his backyard where his wife was waiting with
• 30:02
  it already, the other that led to Satan's Anis he
• 30:05
  goes down Satan's Anas. I catch myself and shake myself
• 30:10
  free of that thought, even if there isn't enough space
• 30:13
  to actually shake. I'm just tired. If I don't manage
• 30:17
  to get some rest, I'm going to fully break down.
• 30:21
  I realize sleep is coming from me, and I cannot
• 30:23
  deny it any longer. I can't crawl back out to
• 30:26
  more comfortable space. I'll have to sleep here and pray
• 30:29
  that this crawl space has an exit. Just before I
• 30:32
  pass out tombed in the earth, I hear her.
• 30:36
  Speaker 3: I'm here waiting for you. I've been trapped here ever since.
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: I wake up and pitch black, and for one glorious moment,
• 30:44
  I think I'm back in my bed and prepare for
• 30:46
  my morning ritual. I jerk awake and try to move,
• 30:49
  but the earth has embraced me, pinioned me, imprisoned me,
• 30:54
  wants me to face what is happening to me. There's
• 30:57
  nowhere to go, but the sickness still comes to me.
• 31:00
  The six seeps out of me and explosive wretches that
• 31:03
  scrape my spine into the surrounding stone and drive my
• 31:06
  face repeatedly into the ejected ingesture. Oh, I can't ignore
• 31:12
  the bright red cloths in the yellow bile, now that
• 31:15
  they're right in front of my face, on my face.
• 31:18
  What is here is dangerous and repulsive to us, but
• 31:21
  it calls out to me, and I sway forward to
• 31:23
  its siren song because I've already come so far. I
• 31:26
  drag myself forward through my own mess and let it
• 31:28
  smear over my shirt and jeans. As I leave it
• 31:31
  behind me, I numbly think, no fuss, no muss. Make
• 31:36
  it a few yards before my other morning ritual comes calling.
• 31:39
  I can't turn to let gravity expel it away from me,
• 31:42
  can't shime me down. My pants it has waited and
• 31:45
  GI's faces for hours, but it will be denied no further.
• 31:49
  I am going to shit myself. My body is so
• 31:55
  cross God, my body ejects it out and I feel
• 31:59
  bits of me escaping in the deluge of diarrheam, there's
• 32:06
  there's something solid and elongated, like strips of cloth in
• 32:10
  the movement. Oh oh, there's no need for doctors. I
• 32:15
  know how sick I am. He is, Okay. A dark
• 32:19
  laugh bubbles up within me, but is smothered by the
• 32:22
  encroaching earth. So the only thought that comes out is
• 32:25
  I'm shooting out rope worms. Oh my god. Oh, I
• 32:33
  don't like this on earth. Jesus my god. Dude. For
• 32:39
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• 32:42
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  That's what my dad called him when he first saw it.
• 34:55
  He was sick and we all knew it. COVID was
• 34:57
  stealing his breath from us, and we had to watch
• 34:59
  as he desperately clowt it back with gasps and wheezes
• 35:02
  that never seemed to give him any relief. He didn't
• 35:05
  need quacks. He could take care of himself. A silver
• 35:09
  bullet from the sickness was mms miracle mineral supplement was
• 35:13
  what the snake oil salesman called it. Chlorine dioxide was
• 35:17
  what the rest of us called it, industrial grade bleach.
• 35:20
  He's going to cure himself with the sickness, purge himself
• 35:23
  of this impurity. God, man, My.
• 35:25
  Speaker 2: Dad came basically drinking basically basically God, can you imagine
• 35:31
  actually having like a bleach concentrate thing that you're drinking,
• 35:34
  like dissolving himself from the inside.
• 35:39
  Speaker 1: Oh uh. And like there's a lot of these people
• 35:46
  who like get a lot of flak for taking like supplements,
• 35:49
  But if you're dying and you don't think there's any
• 35:51
  other option. Sure, don't really blame sick people for being desperate.
• 35:54
  It's just it's it's it's the it's the faith.
• 35:57
  Speaker 2: It's trying to get some kind of ounce of like
• 36:00
  being able to sleep with, you know, having something to
• 36:02
  believe in in this time, or something to latch onto,
• 36:06
  you know, Like, I mean, I get, how can you
• 36:08
  blame someone?
• 36:09
  Speaker 1: I just want to be fucking better. You know, I
• 36:12
  probably shouldn't tell this story, he'd be I don't want
• 36:15
  to embarrass him. He had the right intentions. But my dad,
• 36:18
  one time we had growing up, we had a neighbor.
• 36:23
  They were a good friend of ours who had cancer.
• 36:27
  So my dad, god love him, was trying to like
• 36:31
  find all these remedies and like things to help her
• 36:34
  to make her feel better. But he was afraid of
• 36:37
  like giving her anything. So anything that he found online
• 36:40
  he would try himself first before he recommended to her,
• 36:44
  which is kind of like if you're gonna recommend something
• 36:46
  to a sick patient, like making yourself try it first
• 36:49
  is kind of sweet. Yeah, And I don't know what
• 36:53
  rabbit hole he got into online, but he read a
• 36:56
  bunch of stuff about you need to oxygenate your blood,
• 36:59
  Like the more oxygen you put into your blood, the better.
• 37:03
  So he read something that said like it's really good
• 37:06
  if you take hydrogen peroxide, like if you take drops. God.
• 37:11
  So one day I didn't know about this. One day,
• 37:15
  I'm like eight, maybe I walk outside on the back
• 37:18
  porch and Dad's doing yard work. They're like, hey, Dad,
• 37:22
  can my friend come over? And he looks up at me.
• 37:25
  It's just foam running down his face.
• 37:29
  Speaker 2: Oh my god, do you think it was a fucking
• 37:32
  zombie or something?
• 37:33
  Speaker 1: What the what would you think?
• 37:36
  Speaker 4: Like, Dad, are you okay?
• 37:38
  Speaker 1: And he's like, yeah, I'm just I'm my mouth is
• 37:40
  kind of dry a little bit, don't worry about it.
• 37:47
  And at the same time, we had company over already
• 37:51
  and one of Dad's friends walks out. He's like, oh
• 37:53
  my god, Jerry, beautiful, just.
• 38:01
  Speaker 2: Like tons of foam, just like gushing out of his mouth.
• 38:04
  So wait, does he still do that or no? No, no, no,
• 38:07
  that was what I think. That was the day he
• 38:10
  tried it, and he's in.
• 38:11
  Speaker 1: Me, oh my god, how did you how do you
• 38:13
  even swallow that? Ship? Well, he didn't try enough. I
• 38:18
  don't even think he swallowed it. I think he like
• 38:19
  dropped it on his tongue and that's what mouth, that's
• 38:25
  what cause to foe up.
• 38:27
  Speaker 2: And then I feel like, now when I see your dad,
• 38:28
  he's gonna have like a purple tongue or his tongue
• 38:30
  is gonna be permanently green.
• 38:32
  Speaker 1: He's like, who about peroxide? Let me thing. The funniest
• 38:40
  thing is Dad did this like years ago, and I'd
• 38:44
  kind of erased it from my memory, and then like
• 38:46
  a year ago we were talking about it and my
• 38:48
  mom brings it up and I'm like laughing at him
• 38:51
  and my dad, and my Mom's like, well, it's not
• 38:53
  it's not like he uh, you know, took anything he
• 38:58
  wasn't supposed to do. It was like an herb Will supplement,
• 39:01
  Like it was a label he found online. And then
• 39:03
  from the next room, my dad goes pure Pool grade
• 39:08
  hydrogen peroxide. What a chad. I love that. He's like, no,
• 39:15
  I got it at Lows.
• 39:17
  Speaker 2: He's like, I didn't even go to a pharmacy. I
• 39:20
  got it at yeah, I Low's or home depot. I
• 39:22
  love I love your mom being like, I mean, you know,
• 39:24
  it was it was a kind of a weird mistake.
• 39:26
  Speaker 1: But he's just like I got the good ship. I
• 39:29
  got it. I got the best stuff there was. They
• 39:31
  give hydrogen peroxide to dogs and ve clinics to make
• 39:34
  them throw up. Yeah, something tongue and you'll see angels.
• 39:46
  You're not getting none the thing once he took, he
• 39:52
  took two drops, and he's like, time to go dig
• 39:55
  in the yard.
• 39:56
  Speaker 2: Exactly all right, I'm gonna start digging those holes.
• 40:00
  Speaker 4: Daddy, could you stop taking your holes?
• 40:04
  Speaker 1: We have company. I forget about it. Leave me be.
• 40:09
  Speaker 2: The idea of going out though, and actually seeing your day,
• 40:11
  like foaming is such a haunting like that would be
• 40:15
  that had to have had a lasting like a lasting impact.
• 40:19
  Speaker 1: Probably, But my dad, like it was not uncommon for
• 40:22
  me to be in the house and then I'd walk
• 40:24
  outside and Dad would be like hanging out of a
• 40:26
  tree and he's like, I'm putting a swing set up
• 40:28
  like a monkey. There is always some bit going on.
• 40:35
  I would come out some days and you just have
• 40:37
  like weird animals. Says like the guy at the hardware
• 40:40
  store gave me this, and it's like a squirrel that's
• 40:42
  biding him or something.
• 40:43
  Speaker 2: And then it went off, like his name's Jim, Jim,
• 40:47
  he's a beautiful squirrel.
• 40:48
  Speaker 1: He knows how to write skateboards. Yeah, that would be
• 40:52
  your dad's ear. Dad sounds like he rules. You would
• 40:57
  like him. He's he's absolutely chaotic all the time. Anyway,
• 41:00
  back to the story side, my dad made it into
• 41:05
  teas and tinctures to treat the burgeoning tragedy building up
• 41:09
  inside him. He added water to it, saying, dilution is
• 41:13
  the solution to my pollution. That's u s something, Dad.
• 41:20
  I'm just saying, like I had to read that in
• 41:22
  your dad's wice.
• 41:23
  Speaker 2: I was doing that, eyes completely glazed over, like acid yellow,
• 41:29
  foaming from the mouth. Dilution is the solution to my evolution.
• 41:33
  Any Isaiah, you're just screaming crying in a corner. You
• 41:37
  have like a little uh you have like a Hawaiian
• 41:39
  shirt onto in the corner, curled up in a ball.
• 41:42
  Speaker 1: Come on, let's blake catch one of the funniest A
• 41:51
  couple of years ago, me and my dad were out
• 41:53
  skeet shooting and I know we're getting sidetracked. When we
• 41:57
  were at skat shooting and the we had of those
• 42:00
  automatic throwers you hook up to a battery to like
• 42:03
  you want to set out, Yeah, and it jammed up.
• 42:06
  So Dad goes over to mess with it, and he
• 42:08
  frees it, but it flies out and like the metal
• 42:11
  end hits him in the forearm and it dugs it
• 42:15
  like dug a trench out of his skin. Oh sure.
• 42:17
  And it was cut so bad that when you looked
• 42:21
  into it, it like once it quit bleeding, you looked
• 42:23
  into it and it was darkness, and you could see
• 42:26
  like his tendons and stuff down there. It was like
• 42:28
  an open gap in the skin. So the rest of
• 42:31
  the day he's walking around holding his forearm in front
• 42:35
  of him, just looking straight into it and like someone
• 42:39
  would say somebody like yeah, yeah, sure, whatever, and he's
• 42:42
  just staring and every now and then he would flex
• 42:44
  his hand. And we were driving were I was driving
• 42:48
  somewhere and I'm like, what are you doing. He's like,
• 42:50
  I can see stuff moving. Oh. He does that for
• 42:53
  a few minutes and he puts his arm down and
• 42:55
  he looks at me. He goes, Isaiah, I think I'm sick.
• 43:02
  It's like doing that. What do you want? You have
• 43:05
  an open wom it never went and got it taken
• 43:07
  care of, not just of course, not yeah, of course,
• 43:10
  of course not it's president drop hydrogen peroxide on it.
• 43:13
  It's going to oxygenate it, make it feel better. I
• 43:15
  got to put it on my tongue. It'll heal my
• 43:17
  arm exactly, make me stronger anyway. Like some looped morning
• 43:23
  matins and vaccine vespiper every twelve hours for weeks. A
• 43:27
  discredited Facebook doctor inundated his audience with rhymes and catchphrases,
• 43:32
  cooked my father's brain and convinced him that he could
• 43:34
  cure himself with one simple solution. Doctors during gstrotomies and
• 43:39
  interotomies often levage and suction out the area with lactated
• 43:44
  ringers selene saline. They do it to dilute and remove
• 43:48
  ingesture that can cause infection in the body cavity, which
• 43:51
  is their solution for the pollution of stomach contents contaminating
• 43:54
  the area. My father didn't levage the sickness out of him.
• 43:58
  He scalded his stomach. He chemically seared his intestines and
• 44:03
  scarred away his rugia and mucosa. He called what he
• 44:07
  was passing out of him ropeworms. Oh so he had
• 44:11
  his pieces of your intestines ropeworms. But yeah, yeah, I see,
• 44:16
  cause he's like he's effectively like killing the intestinal lining
• 44:21
  in his gut, and it's coming out of him. I say, yeah, gross.
• 44:25
  He told us it was the parasites leaving his body.
• 44:29
  It wasn't. It was his damned intestine sloughing out of him,
• 44:32
  and he was too blind to accept it. Please believe
• 44:35
  me when I tell you that I tried to convince
• 44:37
  him to stop. Please, I tried. By the time we
• 44:40
  dragged him into the hospital, he was feverish and ranting.
• 44:43
  The doctor told us what was happening as clinically as possible.
• 44:47
  Commensal bacteria that normally existed in the stomach took advantage
• 44:50
  of his ulcered stomach and began to proliferate and nested
• 44:55
  inside him, and his body was too weak to fight
• 44:57
  off the infection. Why did I let this happen? It
• 45:01
  took seven days for him to die from stepsis. A
• 45:03
  dark thought worms its way out from the memory of
• 45:06
  my father's flesh and feverish form on that hospital bed
• 45:09
  as he begs for more. Mmss, do I look like
• 45:12
  someone who's dying. He'd snap just a little bit more
• 45:16
  and I'll be as right as rain. It was the
• 45:18
  last lie he told me as he asked for one
• 45:20
  more tincture. To my great guilt, I relented. It was
• 45:24
  being eaten from the inside out by bleach, he repeatedly drank.
• 45:29
  In the end, he barely had the strength to talk,
• 45:31
  and the fever robbed him of any coherency. I was
• 45:35
  being consumed from the outside end by this place. How
• 45:38
  long would it take for me to die? Seven days,
• 45:41
  seven hours? Well, I won't let that thought eat away
• 45:45
  at me. I squeezed and scrape myself deeper into this
• 45:49
  crevice and leave the macob memories behind. I feel the
• 45:53
  thoughts get caught on the sharp, stony smiles around me
• 45:56
  and unspool like yarn as they are pulled from me
• 45:59
  with tireless traction. This place scrapes away the scabbed and
• 46:03
  painfully events, and allows the rot beneaths to be exposed.
• 46:07
  The guilt of being a terrible son is torn away
• 46:09
  and replaced by dull heart. I don't know if that
• 46:12
  last bleach concoction is what shuffled him off this mortal coil.
• 46:16
  I'm sure shit didn't help him. My memories of my
• 46:19
  father slowly slipped away, with the last one behind, my
• 46:22
  earliest recollection of him dad was taking away my nightlight
• 46:26
  and telling me that I was too old for this
• 46:28
  and that I had to be a man. I was four.
• 46:32
  I guess that's why I always sought out comfort on
• 46:34
  my mom's side of the bed. When the voice first
• 46:36
  began to whisper to me and scared me from my sleep,
• 46:40
  dragged the memory of my mother forward. As the immense
• 46:42
  pressure of this place cracks my phone and it sounds
• 46:45
  exactly like a heartbreakingugh. I remember the sound my heart
• 46:49
  made in my mind when I got the call about
• 46:50
  my mom. The voices ahead of me, I just have
• 46:54
  to keep pushing forward. As I clawed my way forward
• 46:57
  into the cloistery in darkness, I know that I'm approaching
• 47:00
  the sound of the voice. My nails chip and fractures.
• 47:03
  I pulled myself further into the abyss. She is down there.
• 47:08
  The matronly voice is in particular location. The voice increases
• 47:12
  the closer I get to the center. It sounds so
• 47:15
  much like my mom. She's not her, She's a mother
• 47:18
  to a different sort. My way back out has been
• 47:21
  barred to me. If I even try to back up,
• 47:24
  the perpendicular rocks jab ind me and hold me in place.
• 47:28
  They are carthonic cohenal Papilie, like the maw of a
• 47:33
  predatory bird of prey that prevents me from wriggling away
• 47:36
  from this place's collectinous gulch. All that wording cathonic is
• 47:41
  in reference to Cthulhu, right, like darkness steps the ht Yeah, yeah, definitely.
• 47:47
  That door is shut to me now, but another one
• 47:50
  is opening up before me. I know that I don't
• 47:52
  have much longer in me, but I know I have
• 47:54
  to go deeper. I will find her at the bottom
• 47:57
  of the world. I love that line. Hmmm, poof man,
• 48:02
  This story is a tense I begin my final descent,
• 48:06
  my final expedition towards the bottom. I know full well
• 48:08
  what this place is going to do to me. The
• 48:11
  danger here is still present. It was president in ours,
• 48:14
  and this danger will exist here far into the future.
• 48:17
  The danger is to the body. It can kill. I
• 48:20
  just have a little further to go and I will
• 48:22
  be there. Did I always want to punish myself for what?
• 48:27
  For being a bad friend, being a bad brother, being
• 48:30
  a bad son. Enveloping darkness whispers to me. I mark
• 48:35
  my progress in hours and over feet. Each foot is
• 48:38
  a hard won victory. As I pressed myself down into
• 48:41
  the earth, deeper and deeper. Foot by foot, I crawled
• 48:44
  downwards into the depths and feel my path constrict around me.
• 48:48
  A sharp stone catches my shoe, and I shuck it
• 48:51
  loose and leave it behind. I shimmy loosest fabric is
• 48:54
  short away, and my clothes are nibbled away by the
• 48:57
  rocks into nothingness. The path constricts tighter and tighter as
• 49:01
  I feel hundreds of tiny needles slide into my scalp
• 49:04
  and carve swaths of my hair off on the surrounding stone. Verse.
• 49:07
  As I push onwards, geez, I hazily wonder if the
• 49:11
  blood from the shorn scalp will help lubricate my path forward. Oh, oh,
• 49:17
  it doesn't. It clots on my skin and the scabs
• 49:20
  are torn away by the gravelly ground. I leave the
• 49:24
  scalp behind as I continue my descent towards the origin
• 49:27
  of the voice. I move forward against the resistance and
• 49:30
  feel the pressure of this place bearing down on me
• 49:32
  like the acknowledgment of a being too massive for me
• 49:35
  to even comprehend. Man. I continue crawling forward, inch by
• 49:41
  inch into a time that is stretch interminable by the
• 49:44
  claustrophobic surroundings. The diameter decreases even further, and the stone
• 49:49
  suppressed indians into my flesh, leaving tiny little white lines
• 49:52
  on my skin that soon transition into red streaks, which
• 49:56
  sends searing signals to my central nervous system. The surrounding
• 50:00
  steals my voice from me because I can't expand my
• 50:02
  lungs enough to scream. What comes out is a reminiscent
• 50:06
  rasp hurts. Those are my father's last words, and now
• 50:11
  they belong to me as well. Is the only inheritance
• 50:15
  I deserve from him? Oh gosh, i'd like, Ugh, it's
• 50:18
  the only inheritance I deserve from him. Ah, baby, that's
• 50:22
  the smothering. Soil closes in on me and squeezes into
• 50:25
  my nose, ears, and eyes. I breathe this place into me.
• 50:29
  I take them with me as I drag myself deeper.
• 50:32
  Centimeters later, eternities pass by and I spiral lower. I
• 50:37
  feel the earth scrape against my eyelids. Oh God, please know.
• 50:41
  The point of a pebble pressures into my pupil, and
• 50:44
  my propulsion to push on does the rest of the work.
• 50:48
  It ruptures like a great release of pressure. Oh oh,
• 50:53
  vitreous and lacrimal fluid leave tiny little rivulets from my
• 50:57
  enunculated eyes, down my flint's flesh, and sting my exposed muscle.
• 51:03
  Oh oh, oh, she calls to me. I yearned to
• 51:08
  meet her form like a spark being cast off a
• 51:11
  campfire towards the sun. That spark will never join the sun.
• 51:15
  But they are ascending, and I am descending. I will
• 51:18
  find my shining sun in the darkness of this place.
• 51:21
  Does it almost reel a bit too, Isaiah? Just curious?
• 51:24
  Does it read a.
• 51:25
  Speaker 2: Bit almost like a guy being reborn? Does it almost
• 51:28
  seem like him being stripped away of like his humanity here,
• 51:30
  like being stripped away of like his hair and stuff.
• 51:32
  It's almost going it's like an infantile state, and he's
• 51:36
  like hearing this maternal voice calling to him, almost like
• 51:38
  he's like pushing through like a birth canal.
• 51:40
  Speaker 1: Doesn't it feel like that a little bit? I think
• 51:42
  that's a good call, with the birth canal and the
• 51:44
  mother thing and stuff. To me, I also see that
• 51:47
  the digestion thing seems more It's like the walls of
• 51:50
  the cave are doing like a mechanical digestion, like ripping
• 51:54
  his skin to pot ripping his eyes across and stuff
• 51:56
  like that.
• 51:57
  Speaker 2: It's like a more like you were saying, physical way
• 51:59
  of breaking down the body or whatever.
• 52:01
  Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, mechanical. Yeah yeah, it's more literal, but I
• 52:05
  think what you're saying with like his hair is being
• 52:07
  taken off his clothes or being removed from him. He's
• 52:10
  even just like puncturing his eyes like no eyesight.
• 52:13
  Speaker 2: It's like being in a womb whatever going through like
• 52:15
  a birth canal kind of thing.
• 52:17
  Speaker 1: Well what it may be from job in the Bible,
• 52:19
  but the quote naked came I into the world, naked,
• 52:23
  I shall return or there may not be maybe somewhere else,
• 52:26
  but yeah, it's very similar. Yeah, like a birth canal
• 52:29
  being passed through. Yeah yeah.
• 52:30
  Speaker 2: Well also essentially time not really being established here really
• 52:39
  makes you think that this it's almost like an eternity,
• 52:42
  like this moment, this this this fleeting moment. It kind
• 52:45
  of you know, reminds me of to not to get
• 52:46
  too derailed as well, but it's almost like when it's
• 52:48
  like when you die, you live like you live like
• 52:51
  an eternity, like your.
• 52:53
  Speaker 1: Brain flashes before your eyes exactly like that kind of thing.
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: It almost feels like being in this place is like
• 52:58
  the eternity is just gueezing through this tunnel inch by
• 53:01
  inch or whatever, foot by foot, and it's just like
• 53:04
  there's no perception of time anymore. It's like it's all
• 53:07
  irrelevant to the experience the guys going through right now.
• 53:10
  It's it's very torturous, you know, Like it's like uh yeah, yeah,
• 53:14
  in the way even like thinking even about like a
• 53:16
  birth canal, like a baby being pushed to a birth
• 53:18
  canal is like such a costrophobic kind of like probably
• 53:21
  tortureus experience, not only for the like mother, but then
• 53:24
  even like the child beings like pushed through and pulled out.
• 53:27
  It's just I don't know, I really it's just grotesque
• 53:31
  and it's haunting. But at the same time, so many
• 53:34
  like great lines here, so many great lines were like
• 53:37
  oh god, like I almost wanted like to be a
• 53:38
  fucking back tattoo on your or you know what I mean,
• 53:40
  something like just like a really motivational kind of weird lines.
• 53:44
  Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I agree. I think it's it's it's an
• 53:49
  interesting point, like the brutality of like the beginning of life.
• 53:52
  Now there's a brutality in the end of it. It's
• 53:55
  also like there's something about choosing to remove your eye
• 54:00
  that feels like a point of no return, you know.
• 54:02
  It's like I don't need them down here, so to speak.
• 54:05
  Speaker 2: Well, it's just completely stripping away, like the things that
• 54:09
  give you the human.
• 54:10
  Speaker 1: Experience, you know. Yeah, Like I mean, the scalp is
• 54:12
  an intense thing.
• 54:13
  Speaker 2: But to get rid of you, you know, your sight,
• 54:15
  your you know your your voice. He can't even scream.
• 54:18
  He has no voice. It's just the only thing he
• 54:20
  can do is hear the things going around him, and
• 54:22
  like here his body kind of scrape against these things,
• 54:24
  which I'm guessing that's going to be affected too soon.
• 54:27
  Speaker 1: M hmm, yeah, huh, She calls to me. I yearned
• 54:33
  to meet her form like a spark being cast off
• 54:35
  a campfire towards the sun. That spark will never join
• 54:38
  the sun. But they are ascending and I'm descending. I
• 54:41
  read that line a second ago, but I thought I
• 54:43
  hadn't that light about the spark being cast towards the
• 54:46
  sun is great millimeters scour away the flesh from my bones?
• 54:51
  How am I still alive? Shock should have set in
• 54:54
  by now. Without muscles, how do I drag myself forward.
• 54:58
  Tendons tear away, tendons tear away like overstrung cello chords.
• 55:05
  I don't know how I persist, and I don't care.
• 55:07
  My my teeth are twisted and torn from me. I
• 55:12
  crawl over them and allowed them to join the constantly
• 55:15
  chewing choir that is waiting for more supplicants.
• 55:18
  Speaker 2: Oh man, that's so good that such a good, constantly
• 55:24
  chewing carawaight for more supplicants.
• 55:26
  Speaker 1: Every bit of me that catches on the entombing earth
• 55:28
  is scraped away and left behind. Dad was inside out
• 55:32
  and I am outside in just a little bit more.
• 55:35
  It's so close. What a what a banger line there too?
• 55:38
  They keep dropping. Dad was inside out and I'm outside in.
• 55:42
  Speaker 2: Came out with just hitting home runs left and right.
• 55:44
  He's like, yeah, right in a while, and he's just like,
• 55:46
  let me dust off some gold Jesus, isn't that crazy?
• 55:51
  Speaker 1: Just having these ready to go? It's like, I don't know, I.
• 55:54
  Speaker 2: Guess I could dust off these giant gold bars I
• 55:57
  have and see if what I can make with.
• 55:58
  Speaker 1: It, like Lebron stepping back onto the court. Yeah, exactly,
• 56:06
  nano meters onwards and my marrow and nerves trail behind me.
• 56:11
  I hollowly wonder how I can still go deeper? How
• 56:14
  can I lose even more of me? One thought screams
• 56:17
  through the agony. This was a mistake. I didn't see
• 56:21
  what I was leaving behind. Everything, I was leaving behind everyone,
• 56:25
  I was leaving behind deeper and deeper. Still, I realized
• 56:30
  that I've delved too deep. I passed from the light
• 56:33
  into the dark, and now I can ever go back.
• 56:36
  It's too late. My shreds are summoned forward. They surge
• 56:40
  against the surrounding stone and are stripped clean. I am
• 56:44
  exorably drawn downwards. I never should have left my family
• 56:48
  without telling them that I love them. They loved me,
• 56:51
  and I never told them. I've gone too far. I'm
• 56:54
  too deep. Please, I want to go back. I don't
• 56:57
  want to do this. I don't want to go deeper. No,
• 57:00
  please help me lower. I am pulled, Mom, save me.
• 57:06
  I love that cutoff. Also for people that hadn't bed, like.
• 57:10
  Speaker 2: The formatting here is you have to scroll down, almost
• 57:13
  like it's a fun way of participating in him falling like.
• 57:16
  Speaker 1: A fall Yeah, it's like a fall down. I've become
• 57:19
  aware of my surroundings after what feels like an eternity.
• 57:23
  Whatever bits and bobbles left my being shimmer amongst the
• 57:26
  unfathomable abyss, like sunlight glimmers playing off the waters of
• 57:30
  a vast and uninding ocean. My existence has been rendered
• 57:34
  aphemeral and oddly incandescent. Slowly feel myself sinking down deeper
• 57:40
  into this pelagic and pernicious place, towards the ocean bed.
• 57:45
  I am at the deepest depths. She rests among the
• 57:49
  ocean bed, waiting for me. I don't need to wait
• 57:52
  by her bedside for her to rescue me from this
• 57:54
  waking nightmare. I don't need to stand by mother night
• 57:57
  for hours, waiting for her to wake up and notice me.
• 58:01
  She embraces me willingly and readily. I stay wrapped in
• 58:06
  her yawning void as I feel whatever last bits of
• 58:09
  me that I could truly call my own slough off
• 58:11
  and disassociate till I have been rendered down to the
• 58:14
  very smallest atom that is waiting to be cleaved. Swaddled
• 58:19
  in the absolute darkness of that place, I feel her
• 58:22
  hand caressed the very core of my being, and I shudder,
• 58:25
  knowing that I'm home. I am a seed planted in
• 58:29
  the furrow, waiting to bloom into a magnificent mushroom cloud.
• 58:34
  I am a spark seeking immolation. She whispers to me
• 58:39
  in our embrace, the full message that I've been hearing
• 58:42
  my entire life. She wraps around me like a gnarled
• 58:46
  witch's fingers.
• 58:48
  Speaker 3: I'm here waiting for you. I've been trapped here ever
• 58:52
  since your milk beat your swords to plowshares. Once they
• 58:55
  called to me, they worshiped me. They sacrifice cattle in
• 58:59
  my name. They shrouded it under the guise of science,
• 59:03
  and crept onto ranches in the.
• 59:04
  Speaker 5: Dark of the night to perform the field and the
• 59:06
  cropsies of their sacrifices. They studied my influence on their
• 59:10
  lymph nodes. I have seated them with something beautiful that
• 59:14
  was bound to blossom. They were horrified by my light.
• 59:18
  They mutilated my creations and tore me out of them.
• 59:21
  They cast me away into dark, but a decayed far
• 59:24
  too slowly for them to ever forget about me. I
• 59:27
  will never fully rot away. You answered my call. We
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  are going to show the world something beautiful, something blindingly bright.
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  But love is going to radiate out of us and
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  bathe the world in its glow.
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  Speaker 1: Soon, my child, the entirety of my being has been
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  scoured away and reduced to naught but a cinder of
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  humanity that is not inconsequential, because even the tiniest ember
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  can trigger a devastating inferno if her hands pluck it
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  away and place it amongst the right kindling I yearned
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  to burn. I am incandescent. No need for doctors. I
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  already know how sick I am. Soon I'll show my
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  light to the world in a violent chain reaction that
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  ignites the oxygen and the atmosphere, and we will all
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  finally know the light of Mother night. I love you, Mother,
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  and that is the end. Man, what a bro Okay
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  that last sentence was great, Okay. I have been trapped
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  here since your ilk beat your swords to plowshares, which
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  were one great oh man. So the saying that, like
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  the people that came before you, like I was trapped
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  ever since you chose the sword over harvesting over help, right,
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  ever since you chose to fight, and says once they
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  called me, they worshiped me, sacrificed cattle, shrouded it under
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  the guise of science, and crept onto ranches in the
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  dark of Knight to perform field neck cropsies on their sacrifices.
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  So it's like the science. It's it's not just the
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  essence of like some ancient god. It's it's equating some
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  ancient god or the way we would talk about them
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  to like science or understanding, which similarly hearkens back to
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  his father and his father like using like evils of
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  science or like basically yeah, in the name of like
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  healing himself for discovery and then denying it. It's like
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  this is this is the bad side of discovery. The
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  Pandora's box we keep looking over says, they studied my
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  influence on their lymphnos. I had seated them with something
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  beautiful that was bound to blossom, and they were horrified
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  by my light. They mutilated my creations and tore me
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  out of them. It sounds like he's talking about like
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  the atom, right yeah, or like the essence the smallest,
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  the smallest thing that you can work your way down to, right,
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  Because he's talking about like it had influence on their
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  lypt nose horrified by my light, mule. It's it's like
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  it's like the thing at the base of everything, like
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  the fabric of science, right.
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  Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I mean it feels like it almost feels
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  like faith or something, does it not. I mean it
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  almost reads like a spiritual essence of like taking taking
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  that taking that element out of the equation. But it's
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  something that, like you know, is so ingrained in us
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  that it can't just like immediately be forgotten about. It's
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  something that kind of like is slowly fading but is
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  still around, you.
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  Speaker 1: Know what I mean. Does that make sense? Yeah, it
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  makes sense. I think there is some literal connection to
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  like radiation or atoms, because when he says they cast
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  me away, because he says she's in the darkness, he says,
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  they cast me away, But I decay far too slowly
• 1:02:41
  for them to forget about me. Nuclear waste is thrown
• 1:02:43
  in the ocean, and like nuclear capsules have been sealed
• 1:02:46
  and dropped down there with messages on them saying not
• 1:02:48
  to open them until dates hundreds of years in the future,
• 1:02:51
  and that I decay far too slowly for them to
• 1:02:53
  get about me. Sounds like literal radioactive decay of like
• 1:02:56
  you know, the how long until the atoms become safe
• 1:02:59
  to year round? They were horrified in my light. I
• 1:03:02
  will never fully brought away you answered my call, and
• 1:03:05
  then he talks about how it will create a fire,
• 1:03:08
  a devastating inferno. It's almost like in discovery of science
• 1:03:12
  and in discovery of looking for things, we have awakened
• 1:03:15
  these beasts that used to be peaceful, but as soon
• 1:03:17
  as we traded swords for plowshares, we brought it into
• 1:03:20
  the world. It's kind of like the idea with figures
• 1:03:23
  like Oppenheimer and stuff like that, like they opened Pandora's box,
• 1:03:26
  they found the unspeakable, like something we were never meant
• 1:03:30
  to discover, you know, like the dangers of radiation science,
• 1:03:33
  and now it's become manifested. He's been around it his
• 1:03:37
  entire life, with things like his father, and now that
• 1:03:39
  is the essence that cries out to him, that calls
• 1:03:41
  for him to come back.
• 1:03:44
  Speaker 2: I mean I did too. I am other incandescent. I
• 1:03:46
  mean it does read like fucking radiation, doesn't it. Non
• 1:03:49
  of the doctors I know stick I am.
• 1:03:51
  Speaker 1: I mean, uh, at the very least, at the very
• 1:03:55
  le Oh, that would explain why he oh, oh my god.
• 1:04:00
  That's also he was throwing up. It's the whole thing,
• 1:04:02
  is the whole thing. He's getting radiation poisoning yeah, well
• 1:04:06
  not maybe not just therapy, but I mean like radition burn, Yeah,
• 1:04:10
  like experiencing it. All that stuff about if you had
• 1:04:13
  cancer or something, the eyes rotting off, the skin sloughing off. Yeah,
• 1:04:19
  those are all symptoms of like severe radiation poisoning.
• 1:04:22
  Speaker 2: Yeah, I imagine I imagine that he's like, he probably
• 1:04:25
  has cancer, he's getting radiation, uh treatment exactly, sick.
• 1:04:31
  Speaker 1: I don't need doctors. I know I'm going to die.
• 1:04:33
  That kind of thing. Very interesting. Weight.
• 1:04:35
  Speaker 2: It also seems like something maybe hereditary that was passed
• 1:04:38
  down from his family, like it's been something that's kind
• 1:04:39
  of trickled through.
• 1:04:41
  Speaker 1: He didn't call his mother back.
• 1:04:43
  Speaker 2: Yeah, it's like all the Also too, it's like the
• 1:04:46
  thing of like leaving people before you want to, like you,
• 1:04:49
  he should have stayed and tried to maybe get treatment
• 1:04:52
  or something to get better. That kind of vibe that
• 1:04:56
  the suicide note aspect of it as is him basically
• 1:05:01
  not wanting to participate in that.
• 1:05:04
  Speaker 1: I guess that kind of regiment anymore.
• 1:05:05
  Speaker 2: It's him basically just being like, I'm going to go
• 1:05:07
  down this path and there's no coming back.
• 1:05:10
  Speaker 1: It's kind of what it feels like. That's I love
• 1:05:12
  that if that is the case.
• 1:05:14
  Speaker 2: I love that it isn't like uh, I don't know,
• 1:05:18
  it isn't spelled out like to me like it like
• 1:05:21
  forms that larger picture right at.
• 1:05:22
  Speaker 1: The end, you know what I mean. I wonder what too,
• 1:05:25
  I wonder what the I wonder what the mother of
• 1:05:27
  the night is. Then it may be a term from
• 1:05:33
  somewhere else. The way he says mother night, I think
• 1:05:39
  it goes back to the light, like the fire that
• 1:05:42
  appears at night, or like the darkness of the abyssies.
• 1:05:45
  Going into mother Night takes story is a novel. Well,
• 1:05:57
  there's there's a book called Mother Night, but I don't
• 1:05:59
  think has any I don't think it's a connection to
• 1:06:01
  what he's talking about here. It's about a spy. I
• 1:06:06
  don't know. Maybe mother night's talking about like the fire
• 1:06:10
  at night, or maybe just like the because he refers
• 1:06:12
  to it as a maternal figure because he lost his
• 1:06:15
  and he feels guilty over it, just like the darkness
• 1:06:18
  he's seeping his way into back to the mother night,
• 1:06:20
  which also having a maternal figure he seeks comfort for
• 1:06:25
  in the night is a callback to when he was
• 1:06:27
  a child and said, you know, by his mother's bedside, right,
• 1:06:32
  I don't know. Man, the story just feels so deep
• 1:06:33
  I feel like I need to It feels let's just say,
• 1:06:36
  it feels like something you need to sit on.
• 1:06:38
  Speaker 2: But it also feels like something in a good way
• 1:06:40
  of like being able to revisit it with that knowledge
• 1:06:43
  now and being able to pick things up again. There's
• 1:06:46
  a lot of things with reading things for the first
• 1:06:47
  time that I feel like kind of go over your
• 1:06:49
  head whenever you're going because it's like the signs aren't there.
• 1:06:53
  But now being able to go back through as a
• 1:06:54
  more informed reader, the signs along the way are.
• 1:06:57
  Speaker 1: Going to be more prevalent.
• 1:06:58
  Speaker 2: They're going to be much brighter to where it'll keep
• 1:07:01
  it'll keep performing a bigger cohesive picture as you get
• 1:07:06
  to like re ingest it into your system.
• 1:07:10
  Speaker 1: He's very funny too, because he's going through the author
• 1:07:13
  he's going through the replies on creep cast and uh,
• 1:07:16
  he said, he said, joke, y'all are ungrateful. You can't
• 1:07:19
  even appreciate the Dommy Eldritch, Mommy I gave you in
• 1:07:22
  this story. God man, this is good. This is good.
• 1:07:30
  Like the way he the way he wrote some of
• 1:07:32
  those lines were great. My only the only inheritance I deserve,
• 1:07:35
  or like a spark, like seeking to rejoin the sun.
• 1:07:38
  Oh that's great, the uh I think? I think. I
• 1:07:43
  think it's multilayered. I think you can view it as
• 1:07:45
  literally someone grinding himself as he goes down into the earth.
• 1:07:48
  I think you can think of it as like a
• 1:07:50
  metaphor for like discovery and science as it applies to
• 1:07:53
  like radiation stuff like that, or just like someone joining
• 1:07:57
  an ancient entity that he revers as his at the
• 1:08:00
  center of the Earth.
• 1:08:02
  Speaker 2: It's one of those things where every once in a
• 1:08:03
  while you get with these stories where it's a really tight,
• 1:08:07
  like no fat story that just is like a huge
• 1:08:10
  punch in the gut and then leaves with some of
• 1:08:13
  these stories, you know, I love st I think that
• 1:08:14
  the majority of our viewers too and listeners want these
• 1:08:17
  like long, long stories. But I always do have such
• 1:08:21
  a huge appreciation for somebody who can just do a
• 1:08:23
  whole picture in just such a digestible time. I feel
• 1:08:28
  like that's a very hard thing to do. Also too,
• 1:08:30
  there's not a lot of beating around the bush. It's
• 1:08:32
  just being like extremely straightforward to me. It shows like
• 1:08:35
  intention and it shows like a person at a plan
• 1:08:38
  and they you know, stuck through it versus like kind
• 1:08:40
  of lollygagging around through stuff.
• 1:08:42
  Speaker 1: You know. Yeah, it was awesome, I think.
• 1:08:47
  Speaker 2: And that's the first thing that we've read from like
• 1:08:49
  the actual Creepy or from our slash creep cast story.
• 1:08:53
  Speaker 1: Is makes me nothing. It makes me want to just
• 1:08:55
  read more.
• 1:08:56
  Speaker 2: I mean, it makes me just want I hope this
• 1:08:58
  inspires people to just be like fuck it, you know,
• 1:09:00
  because at least from what I know, I.
• 1:09:02
  Speaker 1: Don't think that we don't really run the.
• 1:09:05
  Speaker 2: Server or whatever the yeah, the room, but the uh,
• 1:09:10
  I think that it's much more lax in terms of like, uh.
• 1:09:15
  Speaker 1: We're like it doesn't have to be a figure posting
• 1:09:19
  the story. Yeah you don't brain farting.
• 1:09:23
  Speaker 2: But yeah, basically it's just like I hope this encourages
• 1:09:25
  people to just be like, if I've ever wanted to
• 1:09:27
  write something, then you should just just fucking do it, dude.
• 1:09:30
  Speaker 1: You know.
• 1:09:31
  Speaker 2: And the whole thing too is allow people to read things,
• 1:09:33
  be constructive of it, and also just be creative and
• 1:09:36
  get out there and just write something that you're stoked on.
• 1:09:38
  Speaker 1: You know.
• 1:09:39
  Speaker 2: To me, is I love that this guy was like,
• 1:09:41
  you know, I haven't written in a while, but fucking
• 1:09:42
  I'm gonna write something inspired him to be like, I'm
• 1:09:45
  gonna put it on here, and I think that's so sick.
• 1:09:47
  Speaker 1: I think it's uh, you know, obviously our slash No
• 1:09:50
  Sleep does this too. But you know, we have a
• 1:09:53
  bunch of people who have come to the subreddit lately
• 1:09:55
  who are interested in telling short horror stories and like
• 1:09:58
  talking about them. So I think it's a good place
• 1:10:00
  for people to talk about, you know, and post their
• 1:10:02
  own work. Now. I don't think that we're going to
• 1:10:06
  be able to get to all of them, of course,
• 1:10:07
  and we may not see all of them, but there's
• 1:10:09
  a lot of people in the subreddit who like short
• 1:10:11
  horror stories and like talking about you certainly have an
• 1:10:13
  audience there, yeah, exactly.
• 1:10:15
  Speaker 2: I mean, I think it's just a matter of enjoying
• 1:10:17
  the process, enjoying that kind of creative outlet, you know,
• 1:10:21
  and doing it for yourself and not for like the
• 1:10:22
  attention of other people and all that kind of stuff.
• 1:10:25
  Speaker 1: So I think it's just a great thing. This is awesome.
• 1:10:27
  What a great fucking read man.
• 1:10:29
  Speaker 2: The last couple of reads we've had, it's been kind
• 1:10:31
  of a bit of a you know, it's nice having
• 1:10:34
  one where the entire time I feel like I was
• 1:10:36
  just clutching my I feel like I was clutching my hands.
• 1:10:38
  My hands got all sweaty, and the claustrophobic aspect of it.
• 1:10:41
  Speaker 1: But then it's just so beautiful the scalp coming off
• 1:10:45
  with the scab, but.
• 1:10:48
  Speaker 2: The dialogue or the lines are so beautiful. I mean
• 1:10:51
  it was like almost fucking poetic at the end, but
• 1:10:54
  not enough to just like really take away all of
• 1:10:56
  the journey. It was just this nice little cherry on top.
• 1:10:59
  You know, I really really really enjoyed this one. This
• 1:11:02
  was this I had a great one. I had a
• 1:11:04
  great time reading this one. You know, my fucking brain sucks.
• 1:11:07
  Speaker 1: But thank you all so much. Thank you all so
• 1:11:10
  much for listening to creep Cast today. We appreciate you.
• 1:11:12
  Speaker 2: Please do click the links, support the author, check out
• 1:11:16
  the other stories, and also we, like I said, check
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  out that it breathes, It bleeds, It breeds if you
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  haven't listened to it yet. We read that one as
• 1:11:22
  well and it was awesome, so we do have.
• 1:11:24
  Speaker 1: That episode up as well.
• 1:11:25
  Speaker 2: And also thank you to everyone who's listening on Spotify,
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  Apple Podcast, all the places where you can listen to podcasts.
• 1:11:30
  Speaker 1: We appreciate you, and until next time, everyone, stay creeped,
• 1:11:35
  Stay creep Be sure to check out the author and
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  the description. He deserves it. In which case, of course,
• 1:11:40
  you didn't like this story, which means you're dumb and
• 1:11:45
  don't click on his link. Instead, call the police. I