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50: fear of success, awe, & reclaiming our power. · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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  Hello, soul siblings. Hello, sun shines. Hello, divine and magical beings. Welcome or welcome back to the soul salon a soulful place a healing place of
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  Feeling place for the dreamers for the feelers for the healers
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  I am so grateful to have you with me today and today we are going to be talking about
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  Seven reasons you fear your own success from a spiritual point of view
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  I created a video on this on YouTube and on my podcast and it was my most viral video on YouTube
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  And so I thought you know, let's give the people more of what they want
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  So let's jump right in and get into the first reason and the most important reason why you fear your own success
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  So you feel your own success because you fear your own power
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  Especially because you've only really been given very negative and violent and toxic examples of what power
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  Means our understanding of power is shaped by a colonial and capitalist and white supremacist and male
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  supremacist
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  Conception of what it means to have power
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  In this paradigm power is usually used for nefarious ends and all we have to do is look to nature to see that power is in
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  Everything the sun has power to truly allow us to have life on this planet
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  The water has power to nourish and to hydrate and also to flood and obliterate
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  The bird has the power to sing a song and not even by their own intention
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  Perhaps we could say create beautiful music only as they communicate to one another or perhaps the birds do intend to make music
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  And they have the power to do that and you my love have the power to
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  Move hearts to move minds to heal to bring beauty and love and truth to
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  Be part of a movement to help bring more freedom more love more liberation
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  To support a friend or to ask for support the power for your words to shift the way that others also treat you
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  And if you think about this, why would you fear this power?
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  Well, let's look at the idea from a spiritual perspective again the complete
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  Origin of power. What if you met the source of everything?
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  What if you met God? What if you met Allah? What if you met whatever energy is the beginning of the beginning?
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  The end of the end the black hole of the black hole the void of the void and
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  You imagine meeting whatever caused this universe that we live in that is so profound
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  I get tingles and so inexplicable in so many ways if you met whatever caused that to be
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  Whoever doesn't have to be one entity whatever you believe in for me sources what I believe in
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  You may believe in Allah. You may believe in God. You may not believe in anything
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  But use your imagination if you met such a thing without claiming that it actually exists or not
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  How would you feel
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  You would certainly feel all
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  reverence
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  But I know you can feel it or if you can't you're about to you would also feel fear
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  This might feel like too much for you. You might think who am I to be meeting God?
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  What will I say what do I even present as what do I ask?
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  How do I behave it's God it's source it's the beginning of the beginning
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  It's the eye of the eye. So that fear you feel that all you feel and I just started a book on all and the author
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  Defines all as the feeling of being in the presence of something vast
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  That transcends your current understanding of the world or is a particular blend of
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  Of reverence so deep respect deep admiration something that we revere you look up to you have this deep and
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  visceral admiration of
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  as well as fear and
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  Submission you look at a mountain you look at the ocean and you get that feeling of feeling small a kind of
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  Smallness that restores you to yourself. It's not a humiliating smallness. It's not a diminishing smallness
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  It's ironically paradoxically
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  And mysteriously
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  It's a smallness that makes you feel
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  Connected to something bigger
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  Because you are in awe because you are in reverence
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  Because you realize how small you are in the context of everything and yet the fact that you are part of this everything
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  Okay, I think that's so profound and so one of the questions that the author asks that I'll leave you with is
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  What is an experience that you have had where you have encountered a vast mystery that transcends goes beyond goes further than
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  Your current understanding of the world a
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  vast mystery
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  And again the book is called all the new science of everyday wonder and how it can transform your life
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  And the author is called Dasha Keltner who is a professor of psychology at the University of California
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  So back to the topic. Why do you fear your own success? What if my love and wait for this wait for it
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  You are in awe of yourself
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  You are in awe of yourself
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  So when we think about the fact that all is the blend of reverence submission and fear
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  You feel the fear, but you don't ask yourself. Where's the reverence in this?
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  What am I revering if you look at this is one mountain of all okay the mountain represents all
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  You're seeing the one side of the mountain, which is fear and you're feeling that fear and you're tapped in
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  But you're not allowing yourself to maybe go to a different angle and say well from a different angle
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  What if I'm in awe of my own gifts of my own magic especially because I grew up in a society that didn't teach me
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  To even conceive of myself in such language
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  Never taught me to see myself as having these gifts and the gifts I always say this
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  We mean this in a very expansive and inclusive way
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  We mean the gift of being able to listen deeply the gift of being intuitive the gift of being sensitive
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  or the gift of being an incredible mathematician or the gift of being
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  Wonderful at playing the piano. It can be any sort of range of gifts the gift of speaking with your entire being and presence
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  That's one of my gifts
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  The gift of speaking from love
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  Being able to carry that frequency and that energy the ability to bring motion
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  Into the consciousness and hearts of others
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  So when you don't grow up in a society that teaches you that you have natural gifts without you even trying
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  It will only teach you to conceive of the reality in a way that reproduces the social order
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  So if you don't do well in school
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  Well, oh, you're not training well to be a worker in the system
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  They're not going to say oh, but you have spiritual and psychic capabilities
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  No one's going to say that in a system that wants to repress
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  deny and control those gifts. That's why they've always
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  tried to
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  demonize the spiritual wisdoms and traditions of indigenous people of women the gifts
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  the hysteria quote unquote so
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  so
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  It's very important to recognize that when you are feeling fear just before this episode recording I felt the fear
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  I felt afraid and actually I listened to my own creation creative activations
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  It's basically a meditation album that I sell that you could listen to before you create which the link is to in the show notes
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  But essentially when you feel the fear next time before you want to create something or before you want to embody something that you already are
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  Maybe you want to have a difficult conversation. Maybe you want to do a spoken word event
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  Maybe you want to host an event to bring community together
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  Maybe you want to create your own community of some kind when you feel that fear
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  What I invite you to ask yourself my darling my love my magical divine being
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  Okay, who is so gifted and so profound and magical literally
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  Ask yourself am I an all of myself? Is this all
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  Sexy isn't that sexy we're not allowed to claim that when if you ever been asked in what way are you and all of yourself
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  And I know we're living in a very self-obsessed culture in many ways which I'm not trying to grow and also
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  We are all here
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  To honor that which we are because it is from that place of honoring that we are able to
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  be
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  In loving service and community with others if we don't have that inner flame that says
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  Here I am and I'm here to offer myself in some way and I have a lot to offer
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  I'm gonna listen to you in a way you've not been heard in a very long time
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  And you're gonna walk away from this conversation feeling so seen what a gift for that person who was craving being heard
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  You were a healer we need to decolonize our understanding of healing that was healing for them
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  So I do think being in awe of your natural self. You're being who you cannot help but be
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  If you cannot help but be thoughtful like it just isn't in your
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  range of being to not want to consider and be thoughtful towards others
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  That is a gift to be in awe of
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  And so next time you feel fear the reason why I think it's important to reclaim the awe of it is they want us stuck in fear
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  Because then you won't create the event then you won't make the video then you won't sing
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  And sing that frequency that gives people chills and moves them in some way to more love to more connection or to more action
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  Maybe you're an activist singer, okay?
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  So the reason we must I think let me not say that the reason I think it's deeply
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  deeply
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  meaningful and critical in this time to honor that awe and transform
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  That fear into something broader that includes it still what I love is we're not saying you're not afraid
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  We're just saying there are other things that are mixed in with this fear that you haven't been taught to hold spaceful
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  And when you are in reverence of yourself and when you are able to say yes, I'm afraid because I am seeing and touching God
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  Literally, I just got tingles. So yes, I'm afraid of making this episode because I'm doing my work
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  I'm doing the work that I feel I'm unearthed to do and that is scary
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  Because I'm touching God when the singer is singing when the poet is writing poetry or reading a poem
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  When the lover is loving they are touching God because they are in their truth
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  They are in that very frequency that they are unearthed to help carry and usher and grow in the world and that my loves
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  That is what we are also afraid of because they want us so out of ourselves like these systems of power and control
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  They don't want us doing our divine work
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  They don't want us in our purpose they don't want us in that because
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  Imagine the whole society would have to shift if everyone only was able to act from a place of purpose
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  Of course, it's a huge privilege
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  To do in this society and it doesn't have to become your job
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  It's just an idea of oh if I'm scared to make the song
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  It's because I'm scared to face myself and I'm scared of my own power
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  And I'm scared of the God within me and I'm scared of the Allah within me and I'm scared
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  Of the power within me
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  But there are beautiful and benevolent and loving forms of power and we must reclaim them
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  We cannot be afraid of being in our own power if we are to usher in a paradigm rooted in love rooted in community rooted in connection
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  rooted in beauty of the spiritual kind where we are all experiencing
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  Beautiful music beautiful moments beautiful food sharing in an imagine
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  Imagine that was our whole lives. That's just what we woke up and thought ourselves
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  How can we make today beautiful
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  Who's gonna create such a world if not you if not us if not we okay? I love you so much
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  I hope some paradigms have been shifted for you in today's conversation
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  As always if you can please leave a five star rating on apple and Spotify like comment subscribe
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  I love you so so much. Okay. I love you
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  Join me on my subscribe links in the comment section go there. Okay. Love you so much. Love you. Bye