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CIMC 128: I Can't Stop Eating at Night - Why Am I Like this? · Dr. Danielle Difference

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  Welcome
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  we
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  are
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  in
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  pursuit
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  of
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  living
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  life,
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  abundantly
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  not
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  held
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  body
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  size
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  or
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  symptoms,
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  nor
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  are
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  we
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  held
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  back
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  by
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  our
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  hurts,
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  habits,
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  or
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  other
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  obstacles
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  in
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  life.
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  Learn
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  the
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  secrets
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  to
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  crush
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  it
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  in
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  your
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  health,
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  wellness,
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  relationships,
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  and
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  spiritual
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  life.
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  I
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  am
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  Dr.
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  Danielle,
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  your
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  host
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  and
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  practitioner,
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  and
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  in
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  this
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  episode
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  we
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  are
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  going
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  to
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  continue
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  the
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  conversation
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  of
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  talking
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  about
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  what's
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  not
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  talked
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  about
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  around
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  online
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  or
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  in
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  our
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  Bible
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  study
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  circles
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  or.
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  Even
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  from
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  the
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  pulpit
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  we're
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  gonna
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  talk
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  about
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  things
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  that
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  we
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  complain
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  about.
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  We
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  think
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  about
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  all
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  of
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  that.
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  That's
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  what
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  we
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  do
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  here.
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  And
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  if
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  you
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  could
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  do
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  me
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  a
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  huge
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  favor,
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  if
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  you
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  could
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  leave
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  me
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  a
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  five
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  star
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  review
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  and
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  a
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  comment
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  or
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  on
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  the
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  review,
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  you
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  would
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  tell
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  me
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  what
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  you
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  got
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  out
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  of
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  this
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  episode,
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  that
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  would
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  be
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  fantastic.
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  I,
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  we
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  can
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  get
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  as
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  many.
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  Quality.
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  I
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  say
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  quality
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  on
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  purpose
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  because
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  there
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  are,
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  there
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  is
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  a
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  review
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  down
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  there
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  on
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  Apple
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  iTunes
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  or
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  not
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  iTunes,
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  it's
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  PO
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  Apple
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  podcasts
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  that
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  tells
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  me
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  I'm
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  not
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  a
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  doctor
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  and
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  I'm
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  like,
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  whatever.
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  So
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  please
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  do
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  me
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  a
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  favor
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  and
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  do
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  that,
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  and
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  let's
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  go
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  ahead
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  and
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  dive
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  into
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  this.
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  All
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  right.
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  We're
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  gonna
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  talk
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  about
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  this
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  concept
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  of
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  not
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  being
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  able
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  to
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  stop
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  eating
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  at
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  night.
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  And
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  I
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  don't
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  know
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  if
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  you're
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  like
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  me
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  or
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  many
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  of
• 1:08
  the
• 1:08
  women
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  that
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  I
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  work
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  with,
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  but
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  it
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  was
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  like
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  after
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  dinner.
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  For
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  me
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  specifically
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  when
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  I
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  was
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  living
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  in
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  Indianapolis,
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  I
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  would
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  go,
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  I
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  would
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  make
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  a
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  beautiful
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  dinner
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  and
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  like
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  it
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  was
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  super
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  nourishing
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  and
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  I
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  felt
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  defeated
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  afterwards
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  because
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  I
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  would
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  need
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  a
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  little
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  something,
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  something
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  I
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  would
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  need
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  a
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  little
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  snack,
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  a
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  little
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  treat,
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  a
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  little
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  sweet,
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  and
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  then
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  maybe
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  a
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  little
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  salty,
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  and
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  then
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  I
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  would
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  be
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  up
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  again
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  at
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  like
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  10
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  o'clock.
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  Like,
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  why
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  am
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  I
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  still
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  hungry?
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  So
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  I
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  wanna
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  talk
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  about
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  that
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  tonight
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  or
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  tonight.
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  It
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  is
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  not
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  even
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  nighttime.
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  When
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  I'm
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  recording
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  this,
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  you
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  guys,
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  it
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  has
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  been
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  nonstop
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  for
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  me.
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  That
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  app,
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  the
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  Amazon
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  the
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  Amazon
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  down
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  that
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  we
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  had,
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  the
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  servers
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  that
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  were
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  down
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  the
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  cloud
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  from
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  Amazon,
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  what
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  is
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  the
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  AWS
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  that
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  was
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  down
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  yesterday
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  really
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  hit
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  me
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  for
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  a.
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  For
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  a
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  pickle
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  because
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  I
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  couldn't
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  get
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  my
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  work
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  done.
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  A
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  lot
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  of
• 1:58
  my
• 1:58
  work,
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  parts
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  of
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  my
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  work
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  and
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  parts
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  of
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  my
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  platform,
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  of
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  the
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  wilderness
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  of
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  wellness
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  parts
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  of
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  pieces
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  of
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  things
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  that
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  I
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  do
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  are
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  housed
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  on
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  those
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  servers.
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  And
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  so
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  I
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  did
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  not,
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  I
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  did
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  not
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  farewell.
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  So
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  anyway,
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  let's
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  get
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  into
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  it.
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  Alright,
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  so
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  we
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  are
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  in
• 2:13
  this
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  space
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  where
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  we
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  want
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  to
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  just
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  feel
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  disciplined.
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  We
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  wanna
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  feel
• 2:19
  that
• 2:19
  discipline,
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  right?
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  We
• 2:20
  wanna
• 2:20
  feel
• 2:21
  that
• 2:21
  we
• 2:21
  are
• 2:22
  doing
• 2:22
  the
• 2:22
  right
• 2:23
  thing
• 2:24
  and
• 2:24
  we
• 2:25
  are
• 2:25
  making
• 2:25
  whole
• 2:26
  foods,
• 2:26
  and
• 2:26
  we're
• 2:27
  doing
• 2:27
  all
• 2:27
  this
• 2:27
  stuff.
• 2:28
  And
• 2:28
  maybe
• 2:28
  you
• 2:29
  have
• 2:29
  said
• 2:29
  no
• 2:30
  to
• 2:30
  the
• 2:30
  donuts,
• 2:31
  or
• 2:31
  no.
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  If
• 2:32
  your
• 2:32
  husband
• 2:32
  wants
• 2:32
  to
• 2:32
  pick
• 2:32
  you
• 2:33
  up
• 2:33
  a
• 2:33
  sugary
• 2:33
  coffee,
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  maybe
• 2:34
  you've
• 2:34
  said
• 2:35
  no.
• 2:35
  Maybe
• 2:35
  you've
• 2:36
  even
• 2:36
  said
• 2:36
  no
• 2:36
  to
• 2:36
  yourself
• 2:37
  from
• 2:37
  going
• 2:37
  through
• 2:37
  that
• 2:37
  Taco
• 2:38
  Bell,
• 2:38
  drive
• 2:38
  through
• 2:38
  or
• 2:39
  whatever.
• 2:39
  Maybe
• 2:40
  you
• 2:40
  eat
• 2:40
  your.
• 2:41
  Clean
• 2:42
  breakfast
• 2:42
  and
• 2:42
  clean
• 2:43
  lunch,
• 2:43
  and
• 2:43
  you
• 2:43
  tell
• 2:43
  yourself
• 2:44
  that
• 2:44
  you're
• 2:44
  on
• 2:44
  track.,
• 2:45
  And
• 2:45
  then
• 2:45
  the
• 2:46
  minute
• 2:46
  the
• 2:46
  kids
• 2:46
  are
• 2:46
  asleep
• 2:47
  or
• 2:47
  the
• 2:47
  minute
• 2:47
  the
• 2:47
  house
• 2:48
  is
• 2:48
  quiet
• 2:48
  or
• 2:49
  like
• 2:49
  you're
• 2:49
  just
• 2:49
  getting
• 2:49
  ready
• 2:50
  for
• 2:50
  bed,
• 2:51
  something
• 2:51
  in
• 2:51
  you
• 2:51
  snaps.
• 2:52
  And
• 2:53
  it's
• 2:53
  almost
• 2:54
  like
• 2:54
  your
• 2:54
  brain
• 2:55
  goes
• 2:55
  into
• 2:55
  overdriver.
• 2:56
  It
• 2:56
  takes
• 2:57
  over
• 2:57
  and
• 2:58
  says,
• 2:58
  I
• 2:58
  deserve
• 2:59
  something.
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  And
• 3:00
  that
• 3:00
  something.
• 3:02
  That
• 3:02
  you
• 3:02
  deserve
• 3:02
  is
• 3:03
  never
• 3:03
  a
• 3:03
  kale
• 3:04
  salad.
• 3:04
  Can
• 3:04
  I
• 3:04
  get
• 3:05
  an
• 3:05
  name
• 3:05
  in?,
• 3:05
  It's
• 3:06
  never
• 3:06
  a
• 3:06
  kale
• 3:06
  salad.
• 3:07
  It's
• 3:07
  usually
• 3:09
  chips,
• 3:10
  ice
• 3:10
  cream.
• 3:10
  The
• 3:11
  cereal
• 3:11
  that
• 3:11
  your
• 3:11
  kids
• 3:12
  would,
• 3:12
  shouldn't
• 3:12
  even
• 3:13
  be
• 3:13
  eating,
• 3:13
  but
• 3:13
  it's
• 3:13
  in
• 3:13
  the
• 3:14
  house
• 3:14
  because
• 3:14
  they
• 3:14
  begged
• 3:15
  for
• 3:15
  it.
• 3:15
  When
• 3:15
  you
• 3:15
  were
• 3:15
  at
• 3:15
  Kroger,
• 3:16
  for
• 3:17
  example,
• 3:17
  cinnamon
• 3:18
  Toast
• 3:18
  Crunch,
• 3:18
  any
• 3:18
  of
• 3:18
  my
• 3:19
  Cinnamon
• 3:19
  Toast
• 3:19
  Crunch
• 3:20
  ladies
• 3:20
  out
• 3:20
  there
• 3:20
  that
• 3:21
  had
• 3:21
  just
• 3:21
  a
• 3:21
  good
• 3:21
  old
• 3:21
  Cold
• 3:22
  Bowl.
• 3:23
  A
• 3:23
  cold
• 3:23
  bowl
• 3:23
  with
• 3:23
  cold
• 3:23
  milk
• 3:24
  and
• 3:24
  cinnamon
• 3:24
  toast
• 3:24
  Crunch
• 3:25
  before
• 3:25
  bed.
• 3:25
  That
• 3:26
  was
• 3:26
  me.
• 3:27
  You
• 3:27
  eat
• 3:27
  it
• 3:27
  while
• 3:27
  you're
• 3:28
  standing
• 3:28
  up
• 3:28
  in
• 3:28
  the
• 3:28
  kitchen.
• 3:30
  It's
• 3:30
  in
• 3:30
  the
• 3:30
  dark.
• 3:31
  Maybe
• 3:32
  you're
• 3:32
  over
• 3:32
  the
• 3:32
  sink
• 3:32
  'cause
• 3:32
  something
• 3:33
  might
• 3:33
  be
• 3:33
  crumbly
• 3:34
  and
• 3:34
  you
• 3:34
  just
• 3:34
  don't
• 3:34
  wanna
• 3:34
  deal
• 3:35
  with
• 3:35
  cleaning
• 3:35
  up
• 3:35
  after
• 3:36
  it.
• 3:36
  Maybe
• 3:37
  you
• 3:37
  are
• 3:38
  not
• 3:38
  even
• 3:38
  tasting
• 3:39
  it.
• 3:39
  You
• 3:39
  know
• 3:40
  what
• 3:40
  I'm
• 3:40
  saying
• 3:40
  there,
• 3:40
  like,
• 3:41
  when
• 3:41
  you're
• 3:41
  not
• 3:41
  even
• 3:41
  tasting
• 3:42
  it
• 3:43
  and
• 3:43
  before
• 3:43
  you
• 3:43
  know
• 3:44
  it,
• 3:44
  your
• 3:45
  stomach
• 3:45
  feels
• 3:46
  bloated.
• 3:47
  Your
• 3:47
  heart
• 3:48
  sinks
• 3:48
  with
• 3:48
  guilt
• 3:49
  and
• 3:49
  you're
• 3:49
  muttering
• 3:50
  the
• 3:50
  same
• 3:50
  thing
• 3:50
  you
• 3:51
  did
• 3:51
  last
• 3:51
  night.
• 3:52
  Why
• 3:52
  am
• 3:53
  I
• 3:53
  like
• 3:53
  this?
• 3:53
  Or
• 3:54
  why
• 3:54
  am
• 3:55
  I
• 3:55
  doing
• 3:55
  this?
• 3:55
  Or
• 3:56
  you
• 3:56
  don't
• 3:56
  even
• 3:56
  say
• 3:56
  anything
• 3:57
  anymore
• 3:57
  and
• 3:57
  you
• 3:57
  just
• 3:58
  sit
• 3:58
  with
• 3:58
  that
• 3:58
  shame
• 3:58
  and
• 3:59
  just
• 3:59
  own
• 3:59
  it.
• 4:00
  So
• 4:00
  let's
• 4:00
  talk
• 4:01
  about
• 4:01
  this
• 4:01
  piece
• 4:02
  because
• 4:02
  this
• 4:03
  is
• 4:03
  a
• 4:04
  sign
• 4:05
  that
• 4:05
  you
• 4:05
  are
• 4:05
  stuck
• 4:06
  and
• 4:07
  and
• 4:07
  stuck.
• 4:08
  People
• 4:08
  need
• 4:09
  a
• 4:09
  roadmap.
• 4:10
  We
• 4:10
  don't
• 4:10
  need
• 4:10
  to
• 4:10
  shame
• 4:11
  ourselves.
• 4:11
  There's
• 4:11
  enough
• 4:12
  out
• 4:12
  there.
• 4:12
  There's
• 4:12
  enough
• 4:12
  name
• 4:12
  calling.
• 4:13
  There's
• 4:13
  enough
• 4:14
  enough
• 4:14
  out
• 4:14
  there.
• 4:15
  Let's
• 4:15
  just
• 4:15
  be
• 4:15
  real.
• 4:15
  Right?
• 4:16
  So
• 4:17
  I
• 4:17
  want
• 4:18
  to
• 4:18
  give
• 4:18
  you
• 4:18
  a
• 4:19
  roadmap
• 4:20
  and
• 4:20
  help
• 4:20
  you
• 4:21
  to
• 4:21
  pull
• 4:21
  back
• 4:22
  that
• 4:22
  shame
• 4:23
  because
• 4:24
  this
• 4:25
  habit
• 4:25
  that
• 4:25
  you
• 4:26
  have
• 4:26
  that
• 4:27
  is
• 4:27
  eating
• 4:27
  after
• 4:27
  dinner,
• 4:28
  whether
• 4:28
  how
• 4:29
  late
• 4:29
  it
• 4:29
  is,
• 4:30
  this
• 4:30
  habit
• 4:30
  that
• 4:30
  you're
• 4:30
  doing
• 4:31
  after
• 4:31
  dinner
• 4:32
  is
• 4:32
  actually
• 4:32
  causing
• 4:33
  weight
• 4:33
  gain,
• 4:33
  right?
• 4:34
  So
• 4:34
  then
• 4:34
  we.
• 4:35
  Think
• 4:35
  that
• 4:35
  we
• 4:35
  need
• 4:36
  to
• 4:36
  go
• 4:36
  to
• 4:36
  the
• 4:36
  diet,
• 4:37
  we
• 4:37
  need
• 4:37
  to
• 4:38
  go
• 4:38
  to
• 4:38
  a
• 4:39
  macro,
• 4:39
  like
• 4:40
  count
• 4:40
  our
• 4:40
  macros.
• 4:41
  We
• 4:41
  think,
• 4:41
  oh,
• 4:42
  I
• 4:42
  need
• 4:42
  to
• 4:42
  try
• 4:42
  intermittent
• 4:42
  fasting.
• 4:43
  We
• 4:44
  think,
• 4:44
  oh,
• 4:44
  I
• 4:44
  just
• 4:44
  need
• 4:44
  to
• 4:44
  pray
• 4:45
  harder.
• 4:45
  Maybe
• 4:45
  my
• 4:45
  prayer
• 4:46
  life
• 4:46
  is
• 4:46
  the
• 4:46
  problem,
• 4:47
  which
• 4:47
  it
• 4:47
  probably
• 4:47
  is,
• 4:48
  but
• 4:48
  we
• 4:48
  also
• 4:49
  need
• 4:49
  to
• 4:49
  like
• 4:50
  lean
• 4:50
  into
• 4:50
  that.
• 4:51
  We
• 4:51
  can't
• 4:52
  just
• 4:52
  pray
• 4:53
  harder
• 4:53
  and
• 4:54
  do
• 4:54
  nothing.
• 4:55
  You've
• 4:56
  probably
• 4:56
  hidden
• 4:57
  rappers.
• 4:57
  If
• 4:57
  you're
• 4:57
  like
• 4:58
  me,
• 4:59
  you've
• 4:59
  told
• 4:59
  yourself
• 5:00
  tomorrow
• 5:00
  will
• 5:00
  be
• 5:01
  different.
• 5:02
  Maybe
• 5:02
  you
• 5:02
  don't
• 5:03
  say
• 5:03
  it
• 5:03
  like
• 5:03
  that.
• 5:03
  You
• 5:03
  go
• 5:03
  to
• 5:03
  bed
• 5:04
  and
• 5:04
  you're
• 5:04
  like,
• 5:04
  I
• 5:04
  can
• 5:04
  do
• 5:04
  better
• 5:04
  tomorrow.
• 5:05
  Like
• 5:05
  maybe
• 5:06
  that's
• 5:06
  what
• 5:06
  you
• 5:06
  say
• 5:07
  and
• 5:07
  maybe
• 5:08
  you've
• 5:08
  even
• 5:08
  tried
• 5:08
  convincing
• 5:09
  yourself
• 5:09
  that
• 5:10
  this,
• 5:10
  that
• 5:10
  this
• 5:10
  is
• 5:10
  just
• 5:11
  my
• 5:11
  little
• 5:11
  thing.
• 5:12
  This
• 5:12
  is
• 5:12
  just
• 5:12
  what
• 5:12
  I
• 5:12
  do.
• 5:12
  It's
• 5:12
  my
• 5:13
  one
• 5:13
  area
• 5:14
  of
• 5:14
  weakness.
• 5:14
  It's
• 5:14
  my
• 5:14
  one
• 5:15
  vice.
• 5:15
  Have
• 5:16
  you
• 5:16
  heard
• 5:16
  that
• 5:16
  before?
• 5:16
  Or
• 5:16
  maybe
• 5:17
  you've
• 5:17
  said
• 5:17
  that
• 5:17
  before?
• 5:18
  Everyone
• 5:19
  has
• 5:19
  a
• 5:19
  vice.
• 5:20
  We
• 5:20
  do.
• 5:20
  And
• 5:21
  that
• 5:21
  we
• 5:21
  call
• 5:21
  that
• 5:22
  a
• 5:22
  pet
• 5:22
  sin.
• 5:23
  We
• 5:23
  call
• 5:23
  that.
• 5:24
  That
• 5:24
  is
• 5:24
  the
• 5:24
  one
• 5:24
  thing
• 5:24
  that
• 5:24
  we
• 5:25
  refuse
• 5:25
  to
• 5:25
  give
• 5:25
  up
• 5:25
  and
• 5:26
  to
• 5:26
  surrender
• 5:26
  to
• 5:26
  God.
• 5:27
  But
• 5:27
  I
• 5:27
  want
• 5:28
  to
• 5:28
  remind
• 5:28
  you.
• 5:29
  That
• 5:30
  this
• 5:30
  little
• 5:30
  habit,
• 5:31
  this
• 5:31
  little
• 5:32
  thing
• 5:32
  of
• 5:32
  being
• 5:33
  hungry
• 5:33
  at
• 5:34
  night
• 5:34
  after
• 5:34
  dinner,
• 5:36
  it's
• 5:36
  not
• 5:37
  a
• 5:37
  little
• 5:37
  weakness.
• 5:38
  It's
• 5:39
  affecting
• 5:39
  how
• 5:39
  you
• 5:39
  feel
• 5:40
  about
• 5:40
  yourself.
• 5:41
  It's
• 5:42
  affecting
• 5:42
  your
• 5:42
  energy,
• 5:43
  your
• 5:43
  mornings,
• 5:44
  it's
• 5:44
  affecting
• 5:45
  the
• 5:45
  scale,
• 5:45
  your
• 5:46
  pants,
• 5:46
  your
• 5:47
  budget,
• 5:47
  because
• 5:47
  you
• 5:47
  have
• 5:47
  to
• 5:48
  buy
• 5:48
  bigger
• 5:48
  pants.
• 5:50
  It's
• 5:50
  affecting
• 5:50
  your
• 5:50
  ability
• 5:51
  to
• 5:51
  show
• 5:51
  up
• 5:51
  with
• 5:51
  confidence
• 5:52
  and
• 5:52
  clarity
• 5:53
  to
• 5:53
  support
• 5:54
  everybody
• 5:54
  else
• 5:54
  in
• 5:54
  your
• 5:54
  world.
• 5:56
  And
• 5:56
  yes,
• 5:56
  it's
• 5:56
  affecting
• 5:57
  your
• 5:57
  connection
• 5:57
  with
• 5:57
  your
• 5:57
  husband
• 5:58
  or
• 5:58
  your
• 5:59
  future
• 5:59
  HU
• 5:59
  husband
• 6:00
  if
• 6:00
  you're
• 6:00
  a
• 6:00
  single
• 6:00
  lady
• 6:01
  here.
• 6:01
  And
• 6:01
  I
• 6:02
  don't
• 6:02
  think
• 6:05
  I
• 6:05
  knew
• 6:06
  that
• 6:07
  as
• 6:07
  a
• 6:07
  young
• 6:07
  adult.
• 6:09
  I
• 6:10
  know
• 6:10
  that
• 6:10
  from
• 6:11
  experience
• 6:12
  and
• 6:12
  I
• 6:12
  know
• 6:12
  that
• 6:12
  from
• 6:13
  seeing
• 6:13
  hundreds
• 6:14
  and
• 6:14
  hundreds
• 6:14
  of
• 6:14
  women
• 6:15
  in
• 6:15
  front
• 6:16
  of
• 6:16
  me
• 6:16
  talking
• 6:17
  about
• 6:17
  it,
• 6:18
  because
• 6:18
  when
• 6:19
  we
• 6:19
  think
• 6:19
  that
• 6:19
  this
• 6:20
  is
• 6:20
  about
• 6:21
  a
• 6:21
  habit,
• 6:22
  it
• 6:22
  is
• 6:22
  about
• 6:23
  a
• 6:23
  habit,
• 6:24
  but
• 6:24
  we
• 6:24
  can't.
• 6:25
  Like
• 6:25
  chalk
• 6:26
  it
• 6:26
  all
• 6:26
  up
• 6:26
  to
• 6:27
  discipline.
• 6:27
  We
• 6:27
  can't
• 6:28
  chalk
• 6:28
  it
• 6:28
  all
• 6:29
  up
• 6:29
  to
• 6:29
  willpower.
• 6:30
  It
• 6:30
  has
• 6:30
  to
• 6:30
  be
• 6:31
  discussed
• 6:32
  on
• 6:32
  what
• 6:32
  and
• 6:33
  called
• 6:33
  out
• 6:33
  for
• 6:33
  what
• 6:33
  it
• 6:34
  actually
• 6:34
  is.
• 6:35
  It
• 6:35
  is
• 6:35
  cortisol,
• 6:36
  or
• 6:36
  I'm
• 6:37
  sorry,
• 6:37
  it
• 6:37
  is
• 6:37
  blood
• 6:37
  sugar
• 6:38
  crashes.
• 6:39
  Cortisol
• 6:39
  spikes,
• 6:40
  emotional
• 6:41
  exhaustion.
• 6:42
  And
• 6:43
  what
• 6:43
  it
• 6:43
  actually
• 6:44
  does.
• 6:44
  All
• 6:44
  of
• 6:45
  this
• 6:45
  creates
• 6:45
  a
• 6:45
  disconnection
• 6:46
  from
• 6:46
  what
• 6:46
  your
• 6:47
  body
• 6:47
  actually
• 6:47
  needs.
• 6:49
  And
• 6:49
  so
• 6:49
  it
• 6:49
  creates
• 6:50
  gluttonous
• 6:50
  habits,
• 6:51
  and
• 6:51
  so
• 6:52
  then
• 6:52
  we
• 6:52
  feel
• 6:52
  awful
• 6:52
  because
• 6:53
  we
• 6:53
  carry
• 6:53
  this
• 6:53
  glutton,
• 6:54
  literally
• 6:54
  physically
• 6:55
  on
• 6:55
  our
• 6:55
  body.
• 6:56
  We
• 6:56
  feel
• 6:57
  it.
• 6:57
  We
• 6:57
  see
• 6:58
  it
• 6:58
  in
• 6:58
  the
• 6:58
  mirror,
• 7:00
  and
• 7:00
  you're
• 7:01
  exhausted.
• 7:01
  You're
• 7:02
  dysregulated.
• 7:04
  So
• 7:04
  here's
• 7:05
  what's
• 7:05
  happening.
• 7:07
  You
• 7:07
  start
• 7:08
  the
• 7:08
  day
• 7:08
  running
• 7:08
  on
• 7:08
  caffeine
• 7:09
  and
• 7:09
  adrenaline,
• 7:09
  and
• 7:10
  I'm
• 7:10
  gonna
• 7:10
  tell
• 7:10
  you,
• 7:10
  I'm
• 7:10
  the
• 7:10
  first
• 7:11
  one
• 7:11
  to
• 7:11
  do
• 7:11
  it.
• 7:11
  I
• 7:11
  literally
• 7:12
  just
• 7:12
  got
• 7:12
  into
• 7:12
  the
• 7:12
  clinic.
• 7:13
  I
• 7:13
  have
• 7:13
  my
• 7:13
  second
• 7:13
  cold
• 7:14
  or
• 7:14
  cold
• 7:15
  brew
• 7:15
  in
• 7:15
  my,
• 7:16
  can
• 7:16
  you
• 7:16
  hear
• 7:16
  it?
• 7:17
  My
• 7:17
  little
• 7:17
  white
• 7:17
  girl
• 7:18
  swirl.
• 7:18
  And
• 7:19
  I
• 7:19
  just
• 7:19
  have
• 7:19
  plain
• 7:20
  Nespresso
• 7:21
  cold
• 7:21
  brew
• 7:22
  or
• 7:22
  iced
• 7:22
  coffee
• 7:22
  or
• 7:22
  whatever
• 7:22
  it
• 7:23
  is,
• 7:23
  and
• 7:23
  then
• 7:24
  raw
• 7:24
  cream
• 7:24
  in
• 7:24
  here
• 7:25
  with
• 7:25
  some
• 7:25
  ice.
• 7:26
  So
• 7:26
  we
• 7:26
  start
• 7:27
  our
• 7:27
  day
• 7:27
  on,
• 7:28
  on
• 7:28
  caffeine,
• 7:30
  and
• 7:30
  we
• 7:30
  start
• 7:30
  it
• 7:31
  on
• 7:31
  adrenaline,
• 7:31
  meaning
• 7:32
  our
• 7:33
  stress
• 7:33
  hormones
• 7:34
  are
• 7:34
  already
• 7:34
  high
• 7:36
  if
• 7:36
  you're
• 7:36
  skipping
• 7:36
  breakfast.
• 7:38
  Or
• 7:39
  nibbling
• 7:39
  on
• 7:39
  something
• 7:40
  around
• 7:41
  by
• 7:41
  lunch,
• 7:42
  maybe
• 7:42
  by
• 7:42
  dinner.
• 7:43
  You
• 7:43
  eat
• 7:43
  a
• 7:43
  decent
• 7:43
  meal,
• 7:44
  but
• 7:44
  your
• 7:44
  body's
• 7:44
  already
• 7:44
  starving
• 7:45
  for
• 7:45
  nourishment
• 7:45
  and
• 7:46
  never
• 7:46
  got
• 7:46
  at
• 7:46
  breakfast.
• 7:46
  And
• 7:47
  if
• 7:47
  you're
• 7:47
  eating
• 7:48
  oatmeal
• 7:48
  for
• 7:48
  breakfast,
• 7:49
  oatmeal
• 7:49
  was
• 7:49
  never
• 7:49
  meant
• 7:50
  to
• 7:50
  be
• 7:50
  an
• 7:50
  entree.
• 7:51
  Oatmeal
• 7:52
  is
• 7:52
  a
• 7:52
  side
• 7:52
  item.
• 7:53
  It's
• 7:53
  kind
• 7:53
  of
• 7:53
  like
• 7:53
  your
• 7:53
  grits.
• 7:54
  Grits
• 7:54
  is
• 7:54
  not
• 7:54
  a.
• 7:55
  An
• 7:56
  entree,
• 7:56
  it
• 7:56
  is
• 7:56
  a
• 7:56
  side
• 7:57
  item,
• 7:57
  and
• 7:57
  the
• 7:57
  portion
• 7:58
  size
• 7:58
  of
• 7:58
  our
• 7:59
  oatmeal
• 7:59
  or
• 8:00
  grits
• 8:00
  should
• 8:00
  not
• 8:00
  be
• 8:01
  a
• 8:01
  big
• 8:01
  old
• 8:01
  bowl.
• 8:02
  It
• 8:02
  should
• 8:03
  be
• 8:03
  something
• 8:03
  like,
• 8:04
  I
• 8:04
  don't
• 8:04
  know,
• 8:04
  like
• 8:04
  a
• 8:05
  small
• 8:05
  saucer,
• 8:05
  a
• 8:05
  small
• 8:06
  thing
• 8:06
  of
• 8:07
  it.
• 8:07
  And
• 8:07
  so
• 8:08
  when
• 8:08
  we're
• 8:08
  doing
• 8:08
  that,
• 8:09
  we
• 8:09
  are
• 8:09
  creating
• 8:10
  blood
• 8:10
  sugar
• 8:10
  dysregulation
• 8:11
  from
• 8:12
  the
• 8:12
  get-go.
• 8:13
  And
• 8:13
  then
• 8:13
  we
• 8:14
  wonder
• 8:14
  why
• 8:15
  we
• 8:15
  are
• 8:15
  struggling
• 8:15
  with
• 8:15
  stress
• 8:16
  throughout
• 8:16
  the
• 8:16
  day.
• 8:16
  We
• 8:16
  wonder
• 8:17
  why
• 8:17
  we
• 8:17
  are
• 8:18
  dealing
• 8:18
  with
• 8:18
  cravings
• 8:19
  throughout
• 8:19
  the
• 8:19
  day,
• 8:19
  and
• 8:19
  we
• 8:20
  wonder
• 8:20
  why
• 8:21
  our
• 8:21
  brain
• 8:22
  is
• 8:22
  like.
• 8:23
  On,
• 8:23
  but
• 8:23
  it's
• 8:23
  also
• 8:24
  like,
• 8:24
  oh
• 8:24
  my
• 8:24
  gosh,
• 8:25
  I'm
• 8:25
  so
• 8:25
  tired.
• 8:25
  I
• 8:25
  don't
• 8:25
  wanna
• 8:25
  think
• 8:26
  anymore.
• 8:26
  And
• 8:26
  then,
• 8:26
  then
• 8:27
  we
• 8:27
  wonder
• 8:27
  why
• 8:27
  we're
• 8:27
  struggling
• 8:28
  to
• 8:28
  sleep
• 8:29
  at
• 8:29
  night.
• 8:30
  But
• 8:30
  you
• 8:30
  see
• 8:31
  with
• 8:32
  our
• 8:32
  brains,
• 8:32
  our
• 8:32
  brains
• 8:33
  are
• 8:33
  wired
• 8:33
  for
• 8:33
  survival.
• 8:34
  And
• 8:35
  when
• 8:35
  our
• 8:35
  body
• 8:36
  thinks
• 8:36
  that
• 8:36
  we're
• 8:36
  in
• 8:36
  survival
• 8:37
  mode,
• 8:37
  it's
• 8:38
  going
• 8:38
  to
• 8:38
  tell
• 8:38
  you,
• 8:39
  give
• 8:39
  me
• 8:39
  carbs
• 8:40
  fast.
• 8:40
  And
• 8:41
  now,
• 8:41
  and
• 8:41
  we're
• 8:41
  not
• 8:42
  talking
• 8:42
  about
• 8:43
  carbs
• 8:43
  like
• 8:43
  a
• 8:44
  potato
• 8:44
  or.
• 8:45
  Kale
• 8:45
  or
• 8:46
  tomatoes
• 8:47
  or
• 8:47
  berries
• 8:48
  or
• 8:48
  cherries
• 8:49
  or
• 8:49
  anything
• 8:49
  like
• 8:49
  that.
• 8:50
  It's
• 8:50
  wanting
• 8:51
  what's
• 8:51
  fast
• 8:52
  and
• 8:52
  easy.
• 8:52
  And
• 8:52
  our
• 8:52
  body
• 8:52
  has
• 8:53
  already
• 8:53
  gone
• 8:53
  to
• 8:54
  the
• 8:54
  Reese's
• 8:54
  Peanut
• 8:54
  butter
• 8:55
  cups.
• 8:55
  Our
• 8:55
  body
• 8:55
  knows
• 8:56
  that
• 8:56
  those
• 8:56
  give
• 8:56
  us
• 8:56
  that
• 8:56
  fast
• 8:57
  energy,
• 8:57
  so
• 8:57
  our
• 8:57
  body
• 8:58
  knows
• 8:58
  what
• 8:59
  to
• 8:59
  tell
• 8:59
  us
• 8:59
  to
• 8:59
  get.
• 9:00
  And
• 9:00
  the
• 9:00
  interesting
• 9:01
  thing
• 9:01
  is,
• 9:01
  is
• 9:02
  that
• 9:02
  carbs
• 9:02
  aren't
• 9:03
  bad.
• 9:03
  Right?
• 9:03
  Carbs
• 9:04
  aren't
• 9:04
  bad
• 9:04
  when
• 9:04
  you
• 9:04
  go
• 9:04
  to
• 9:04
  the
• 9:05
  hospital
• 9:05
  and
• 9:06
  they
• 9:06
  put
• 9:06
  an
• 9:06
  IV
• 9:06
  in
• 9:06
  you,
• 9:06
  they're
• 9:07
  putting
• 9:07
  saline.
• 9:08
  But
• 9:08
  they're
• 9:08
  also
• 9:08
  nourishing
• 9:09
  you
• 9:09
  with
• 9:09
  glucose
• 9:09
  too,
• 9:10
  which
• 9:10
  is
• 9:11
  carbs
• 9:11
  they
• 9:12
  give
• 9:12
  you
• 9:12
  because
• 9:12
  your
• 9:12
  brain
• 9:13
  needs
• 9:14
  those
• 9:14
  carbs
• 9:14
  to
• 9:14
  keep
• 9:15
  moving
• 9:16
  and
• 9:16
  to
• 9:16
  keep
• 9:16
  surviving.
• 9:18
  So
• 9:18
  I
• 9:18
  just
• 9:18
  want
• 9:18
  to
• 9:19
  remind
• 9:19
  you
• 9:19
  here.
• 9:20
  That
• 9:20
  carbs
• 9:21
  aren't
• 9:21
  bad,
• 9:22
  so
• 9:22
  hear
• 9:22
  me
• 9:22
  when
• 9:22
  I
• 9:22
  say
• 9:23
  carbs
• 9:23
  aren't
• 9:23
  bad.
• 9:24
  The
• 9:24
  Reese's
• 9:25
  Peanut
• 9:25
  butter
• 9:25
  cups
• 9:25
  using
• 9:26
  used
• 9:26
  as
• 9:27
  a
• 9:27
  survival
• 9:27
  mechanism,
• 9:28
  that's
• 9:28
  what's
• 9:28
  bad.
• 9:29
  Or
• 9:29
  the
• 9:30
  eating
• 9:30
  at
• 9:30
  night,
• 9:31
  that's
• 9:31
  what's
• 9:31
  bad,
• 9:32
  and
• 9:32
  it's
• 9:32
  not
• 9:33
  what
• 9:33
  you're
• 9:33
  eating,
• 9:34
  it's
• 9:34
  how
• 9:34
  you're
• 9:34
  eating
• 9:35
  throughout
• 9:35
  the
• 9:35
  day.
• 9:36
  So
• 9:37
  it
• 9:37
  is
• 9:37
  a
• 9:37
  biological
• 9:38
  piece
• 9:39
  that's
• 9:39
  happening
• 9:39
  when
• 9:40
  you're
• 9:40
  dealing
• 9:40
  with
• 9:40
  this
• 9:41
  overnight.
• 9:42
  But
• 9:42
  it
• 9:42
  doesn't
• 9:42
  mean
• 9:43
  that
• 9:43
  you're
• 9:43
  off
• 9:44
  the
• 9:44
  hook
• 9:44
  just
• 9:44
  because
• 9:44
  this
• 9:45
  is
• 9:45
  biology.
• 9:45
  It
• 9:45
  just
• 9:46
  means
• 9:46
  that
• 9:46
  you
• 9:46
  need
• 9:47
  to.
• 9:47
  Better
• 9:47
  support
• 9:48
  and
• 9:49
  we
• 9:49
  have
• 9:49
  to
• 9:49
  stop
• 9:50
  spiritualizing
• 9:51
  something
• 9:52
  that
• 9:52
  is
• 9:52
  physical.
• 9:53
  You
• 9:53
  can
• 9:54
  pray
• 9:54
  to
• 9:54
  God
• 9:55
  for
• 9:55
  the
• 9:55
  will
• 9:55
  and
• 9:56
  for
• 9:56
  him
• 9:56
  to
• 9:56
  help
• 9:56
  you,
• 9:57
  but
• 9:57
  if
• 9:57
  you're
• 9:57
  not
• 9:58
  actually
• 9:58
  going
• 9:58
  to
• 9:58
  do
• 9:59
  the
• 9:59
  work,
• 9:59
  you
• 9:59
  have
• 9:59
  to
• 10:00
  do
• 10:00
  it
• 10:00
  because,
• 10:00
  let's
• 10:01
  go
• 10:01
  even
• 10:01
  deeper
• 10:02
  here.
• 10:02
  You
• 10:02
  ready
• 10:02
  for
• 10:02
  this?
• 10:03
  Because
• 10:03
  those
• 10:04
  of
• 10:04
  us
• 10:04
  that
• 10:04
  are
• 10:04
  struggling
• 10:05
  with
• 10:05
  eating
• 10:05
  after,
• 10:06
  after
• 10:06
  dinner
• 10:07
  time
• 10:07
  and
• 10:07
  late
• 10:07
  at
• 10:08
  night,
• 10:08
  that
• 10:08
  kind
• 10:08
  of
• 10:08
  stuff,
• 10:09
  let's
• 10:10
  just
• 10:10
  paint
• 10:11
  the
• 10:11
  picture.
• 10:12
  Maybe
• 10:12
  you've
• 10:12
  gotten
• 10:13
  the
• 10:13
  kids
• 10:13
  to
• 10:13
  bed.
• 10:14
  Maybe
• 10:15
  you
• 10:15
  have
• 10:16
  come
• 10:16
  down
• 10:16
  from
• 10:16
  the
• 10:16
  day
• 10:17
  you've
• 10:17
  gotten
• 10:17
  your
• 10:17
  house
• 10:18
  tidied
• 10:18
  up
• 10:18
  and
• 10:18
  you're
• 10:19
  ready
• 10:19
  to
• 10:19
  go,
• 10:19
  and
• 10:19
  you're
• 10:19
  just
• 10:20
  chilling.
• 10:21
  It's
• 10:21
  quiet
• 10:22
  and
• 10:22
  you're
• 10:22
  alone,
• 10:24
  and
• 10:24
  your
• 10:24
  body
• 10:24
  relaxes
• 10:25
  for
• 10:25
  the
• 10:25
  first
• 10:25
  time
• 10:26
  in
• 10:26
  12
• 10:26
  plus
• 10:27
  hours.
• 10:28
  But
• 10:28
  then
• 10:28
  it
• 10:28
  happens
• 10:29
  that
• 10:29
  craving,
• 10:30
  that
• 10:30
  pull
• 10:31
  to
• 10:31
  the
• 10:31
  kitchen,
• 10:31
  that
• 10:31
  just
• 10:31
  one
• 10:32
  more
• 10:32
  bite
• 10:32
  that
• 10:33
  turns
• 10:33
  into
• 10:33
  a
• 10:33
  whole
• 10:33
  sleeve
• 10:34
  of
• 10:34
  Girl
• 10:34
  Scout
• 10:34
  cookies.
• 10:36
  That
• 10:36
  food
• 10:37
  becomes
• 10:37
  your
• 10:38
  comfort
• 10:38
  and
• 10:38
  it's
• 10:39
  beco.
• 10:39
  It
• 10:39
  becomes
• 10:40
  a
• 10:40
  reward
• 10:41
  that
• 10:41
  no
• 10:42
  one
• 10:42
  else
• 10:42
  is
• 10:42
  giving
• 10:43
  you.
• 10:43
  It's
• 10:43
  that
• 10:43
  reward.
• 10:44
  It's
• 10:44
  you
• 10:44
  start
• 10:45
  bonding
• 10:46
  with
• 10:46
  food
• 10:47
  like
• 10:47
  it's
• 10:47
  your
• 10:48
  safe
• 10:48
  place
• 10:49
  and
• 10:49
  friend.
• 10:50
  I
• 10:50
  say
• 10:50
  this
• 10:50
  with
• 10:50
  compassion
• 10:51
  because.
• 10:51
  Hello.
• 10:52
  I
• 10:52
  am
• 10:53
  queen
• 10:54
  of
• 10:54
  this.
• 10:54
  Like
• 10:55
  I
• 10:55
  was
• 10:55
  there
• 10:56
  with
• 10:56
  you,
• 10:57
  I
• 10:57
  was
• 10:57
  over
• 10:58
  300
• 10:58
  pounds
• 10:59
  with
• 11:00
  you
• 11:00
  in
• 11:00
  this.
• 11:01
  And
• 11:01
  again,
• 11:01
  it
• 11:01
  doesn't
• 11:02
  mean
• 11:02
  like
• 11:02
  how,
• 11:02
  how
• 11:03
  much
• 11:03
  you
• 11:03
  weigh.
• 11:03
  'cause
• 11:03
  I
• 11:04
  have
• 11:04
  women
• 11:04
  that
• 11:04
  are
• 11:04
  underweight
• 11:05
  that
• 11:05
  work
• 11:05
  with
• 11:05
  me
• 11:06
  and
• 11:06
  they
• 11:07
  are
• 11:07
  struggling
• 11:07
  with
• 11:08
  the
• 11:08
  exact
• 11:09
  same
• 11:09
  things.
• 11:10
  I
• 11:10
  have
• 11:11
  women
• 11:11
  that
• 11:11
  you
• 11:11
  look
• 11:11
  at
• 11:11
  them
• 11:12
  and
• 11:12
  they
• 11:12
  are
• 11:12
  lean,
• 11:13
  they
• 11:13
  look
• 11:13
  super
• 11:13
  healthy.
• 11:14
  They
• 11:14
  lift,
• 11:15
  they're
• 11:15
  they,
• 11:16
  they
• 11:16
  look
• 11:16
  the
• 11:16
  part
• 11:17
  of
• 11:17
  health,
• 11:18
  and
• 11:18
  yet
• 11:19
  this
• 11:19
  happens
• 11:20
  to
• 11:20
  them
• 11:20
  too.
• 11:21
  So
• 11:21
  this
• 11:21
  doesn't
• 11:22
  come
• 11:22
  from
• 11:22
  a
• 11:22
  place,
• 11:22
  from
• 11:23
  judgment,
• 11:24
  but
• 11:24
  what
• 11:25
  I
• 11:25
  want
• 11:25
  to
• 11:25
  describe
• 11:26
  to
• 11:26
  you
• 11:27
  is
• 11:27
  that
• 11:27
  incident,
• 11:28
  when
• 11:28
  the
• 11:28
  night
• 11:28
  comes
• 11:29
  down,
• 11:29
  you
• 11:30
  start
• 11:30
  to
• 11:30
  relax.
• 11:31
  You're
• 11:31
  like,
• 11:31
  I'm
• 11:32
  so
• 11:32
  glad
• 11:32
  to
• 11:32
  have
• 11:33
  some
• 11:33
  downtime.
• 11:33
  Some
• 11:34
  me
• 11:34
  time,
• 11:35
  I'm
• 11:35
  just
• 11:35
  gonna
• 11:35
  decompress
• 11:36
  before
• 11:36
  I
• 11:36
  go
• 11:36
  to
• 11:36
  bed.
• 11:37
  And
• 11:37
  then
• 11:38
  all
• 11:38
  of
• 11:38
  a
• 11:38
  sudden,
• 11:38
  that
• 11:38
  craving
• 11:39
  and
• 11:39
  that
• 11:39
  pole,
• 11:40
  that
• 11:40
  just
• 11:40
  one
• 11:40
  more
• 11:41
  bite,
• 11:41
  that
• 11:41
  hold
• 11:41
  that
• 11:42
  turns
• 11:42
  into
• 11:42
  the
• 11:42
  sleeve
• 11:42
  of
• 11:43
  Girl
• 11:43
  Scout
• 11:43
  cookies,
• 11:44
  that
• 11:45
  is
• 11:45
  trauma
• 11:46
  behavior.
• 11:48
  When
• 11:49
  food
• 11:49
  becomes
• 11:49
  your
• 11:50
  most
• 11:50
  consistent
• 11:51
  support.
• 11:52
  Oh,
• 11:52
  guys,
• 11:54
  I
• 11:54
  thought
• 11:54
  I
• 11:54
  could
• 11:54
  get
• 11:54
  through
• 11:54
  this
• 11:55
  episode
• 11:55
  without
• 11:55
  being
• 11:56
  teary.
• 11:59
  I'm
• 11:59
  so
• 12:00
  sorry
• 12:04
  because
• 12:04
  I
• 12:05
  know
• 12:05
  this
• 12:05
  Personally,
• 12:08
  when
• 12:08
  food
• 12:09
  becomes
• 12:09
  your
• 12:09
  most
• 12:09
  consistent
• 12:10
  support,
• 12:12
  we
• 12:12
  have
• 12:12
  to
• 12:12
  look
• 12:12
  at
• 12:12
  what
• 12:13
  you're
• 12:13
  actually
• 12:13
  needing,
• 12:14
  and
• 12:15
  I
• 12:15
  guarantee
• 12:15
  it's
• 12:15
  not
• 12:16
  chocolate.
• 12:19
  Whew.
• 12:20
  I
• 12:20
  did
• 12:20
  put
• 12:21
  makeup
• 12:21
  on
• 12:21
  today
• 12:21
  too.
• 12:22
  Oh,
• 12:22
  this
• 12:22
  is
• 12:23
  not
• 12:23
  cool.
• 12:25
  So
• 12:26
  yeah.
• 12:28
  Food
• 12:29
  became
• 12:30
  my
• 12:30
  consistent
• 12:30
  support.
• 12:32
  And
• 12:32
  I'm
• 12:32
  just
• 12:32
  gonna
• 12:32
  go
• 12:33
  into
• 12:33
  this
• 12:34
  for
• 12:34
  you
• 12:35
  so
• 12:35
  you
• 12:35
  can,
• 12:35
  so
• 12:35
  I
• 12:35
  can
• 12:35
  paint
• 12:36
  a
• 12:36
  picture.
• 12:37
  Because
• 12:37
  I
• 12:37
  don't
• 12:37
  ever
• 12:38
  want
• 12:38
  to
• 12:38
  be
• 12:39
  known
• 12:39
  as
• 12:39
  perfect.
• 12:40
  I
• 12:40
  don't
• 12:40
  wanna
• 12:40
  ever
• 12:41
  be
• 12:41
  known
• 12:41
  as
• 12:42
  a
• 12:42
  know-it-all.
• 12:42
  I
• 12:43
  don't
• 12:43
  wanna
• 12:43
  ever
• 12:43
  come
• 12:43
  across
• 12:44
  as
• 12:44
  I'm
• 12:44
  on
• 12:44
  a
• 12:44
  pedestal.
• 12:45
  I'm
• 12:45
  only
• 12:46
  sharing.
• 12:46
  I
• 12:47
  come
• 12:47
  here.
• 12:48
  Weekly
• 12:48
  to
• 12:49
  share
• 12:49
  with
• 12:49
  you
• 12:49
  things
• 12:50
  I
• 12:50
  have
• 12:50
  learned,
• 12:51
  things
• 12:51
  that
• 12:51
  the
• 12:51
  Holy
• 12:52
  Spirit
• 12:52
  has
• 12:52
  taught
• 12:53
  me,
• 12:53
  things
• 12:53
  that
• 12:53
  mentors
• 12:54
  have
• 12:54
  taught
• 12:55
  me
• 12:55
  to
• 12:55
  break
• 12:55
  free
• 12:55
  from
• 12:56
  these
• 12:56
  cycles.
• 13:02
  So
• 13:05
  I,
• 13:06
  as
• 13:06
  a
• 13:06
  young
• 13:06
  kid,
• 13:07
  as
• 13:08
  a
• 13:08
  baby,
• 13:09
  I
• 13:09
  was
• 13:10
  told
• 13:10
  that
• 13:10
  one
• 13:10
  of
• 13:10
  my
• 13:11
  first
• 13:11
  words
• 13:11
  was
• 13:11
  pancake.
• 13:14
  And
• 13:15
  so
• 13:16
  that
• 13:16
  should
• 13:16
  speak
• 13:16
  volumes.
• 13:18
  And
• 13:18
  again,
• 13:19
  you
• 13:19
  can
• 13:19
  look
• 13:19
  at
• 13:19
  me
• 13:19
  and
• 13:20
  call
• 13:20
  me
• 13:20
  fat.
• 13:20
  You
• 13:20
  can
• 13:21
  look
• 13:21
  at
• 13:21
  me
• 13:21
  and
• 13:21
  say,
• 13:21
  I'm
• 13:22
  the
• 13:22
  big
• 13:22
  girl.
• 13:22
  And
• 13:22
  I'm
• 13:23
  like,
• 13:24
  I
• 13:24
  go
• 13:25
  back
• 13:25
  and
• 13:25
  look
• 13:26
  at
• 13:26
  the
• 13:26
  pictures
• 13:27
  of
• 13:27
  my
• 13:27
  young
• 13:28
  self
• 13:28
  and
• 13:28
  how
• 13:28
  food,
• 13:29
  and
• 13:29
  me
• 13:29
  talking
• 13:30
  about
• 13:30
  food
• 13:32
  brought
• 13:32
  joy
• 13:33
  to
• 13:33
  my
• 13:33
  family,
• 13:35
  to
• 13:35
  my
• 13:35
  parents'
• 13:35
  face.
• 13:37
  And
• 13:37
  I
• 13:37
  know
• 13:38
  it
• 13:38
  comes
• 13:38
  from
• 13:38
  a
• 13:38
  place
• 13:38
  of
• 13:39
  love
• 13:39
  because
• 13:39
  my
• 13:39
  dad,,
• 13:40
  and
• 13:40
  I'll
• 13:41
  probably
• 13:41
  get
• 13:41
  in
• 13:41
  trouble
• 13:41
  for
• 13:41
  even
• 13:42
  saying
• 13:42
  this
• 13:42
  because
• 13:43
  people
• 13:43
  go
• 13:43
  and
• 13:43
  tell
• 13:44
  on
• 13:44
  me
• 13:44
  and
• 13:45
  my
• 13:46
  parents
• 13:46
  get
• 13:46
  embarrassed,
• 13:47
  but
• 13:47
  I'm
• 13:47
  like,
• 13:47
  it's
• 13:47
  part
• 13:47
  of
• 13:47
  my
• 13:48
  testimony
• 13:48
  anyways,
• 13:49
  so
• 13:49
  I'm
• 13:49
  just
• 13:49
  gonna
• 13:49
  speak
• 13:50
  it.
• 13:50
  My
• 13:50
  dad
• 13:51
  grew
• 13:51
  up
• 13:51
  very
• 13:51
  poor
• 13:52
  and
• 13:52
  so
• 13:53
  like
• 13:53
  having
• 13:54
  to
• 13:54
  like
• 13:54
  hunt
• 13:55
  for
• 13:55
  food
• 13:55
  and
• 13:55
  having
• 13:56
  to
• 13:56
  do
• 13:56
  that
• 13:56
  is
• 13:57
  a,
• 13:57
  like,
• 13:57
  that
• 13:57
  is
• 13:58
  a
• 13:58
  bare
• 13:59
  Maslow's
• 14:00
  hierarchy
• 14:00
  of
• 14:01
  needs.
• 14:01
  It
• 14:01
  is
• 14:01
  the
• 14:02
  bottom
• 14:02
  pillar.
• 14:04
  Of
• 14:04
  needs
• 14:05
  and
• 14:05
  you
• 14:05
  need
• 14:06
  food,
• 14:06
  you
• 14:06
  need
• 14:07
  shelter,
• 14:07
  you
• 14:07
  need
• 14:08
  love
• 14:08
  and
• 14:08
  connection
• 14:09
  to
• 14:10
  survive.
• 14:10
  And
• 14:11
  so
• 14:12
  this
• 14:13
  is
• 14:14
  important
• 14:16
  to
• 14:16
  discuss.
• 14:16
  It's
• 14:17
  important
• 14:17
  to
• 14:17
  talk
• 14:17
  about
• 14:18
  like
• 14:18
  our
• 14:18
  connection
• 14:19
  with
• 14:19
  food.
• 14:20
  And
• 14:20
  so
• 14:21
  the
• 14:21
  fact
• 14:21
  that
• 14:21
  my
• 14:21
  dad
• 14:22
  could
• 14:22
  provide
• 14:22
  me
• 14:22
  food
• 14:24
  was
• 14:24
  huge
• 14:24
  for
• 14:25
  him.
• 14:26
  It
• 14:26
  was
• 14:26
  huge
• 14:26
  because
• 14:27
  it
• 14:27
  was
• 14:27
  his
• 14:27
  love
• 14:28
  language
• 14:28
  because
• 14:28
  he
• 14:28
  knows
• 14:29
  what
• 14:29
  it's
• 14:29
  like
• 14:29
  to
• 14:29
  be
• 14:29
  without
• 14:30
  a
• 14:31
  a,
• 14:32
  a
• 14:32
  necessity.
• 14:33
  And
• 14:34
  so
• 14:35
  my
• 14:35
  first
• 14:36
  word,
• 14:36
  one
• 14:37
  of
• 14:37
  my
• 14:37
  first
• 14:37
  words
• 14:37
  was
• 14:37
  pancake.
• 14:39
  And
• 14:39
  it
• 14:39
  speaks
• 14:39
  volumes
• 14:40
  because
• 14:40
  I
• 14:40
  still
• 14:41
  love
• 14:41
  pancakes
• 14:41
  today.
• 14:43
  And
• 14:43
  I
• 14:43
  have
• 14:43
  to
• 14:43
  like
• 14:44
  ask
• 14:44
  myself,
• 14:45
  do
• 14:45
  I
• 14:45
  love
• 14:45
  pancakes
• 14:46
  or
• 14:46
  do
• 14:46
  I
• 14:46
  love
• 14:47
  the
• 14:47
  connection
• 14:47
  that
• 14:47
  pancakes
• 14:48
  brought?
• 14:49
  And
• 14:49
  so.
• 14:51
  My
• 14:51
  kids
• 14:51
  love
• 14:51
  pancakes.
• 14:52
  I
• 14:52
  make
• 14:52
  them
• 14:52
  waffles.
• 14:53
  I
• 14:53
  actually
• 14:53
  made
• 14:54
  them
• 14:54
  waffle
• 14:54
  carrot
• 14:55
  cake
• 14:55
  waffles
• 14:55
  for
• 14:55
  the
• 14:55
  whole
• 14:56
  week
• 14:56
  just
• 14:56
  because
• 14:57
  waffles
• 14:58
  were
• 14:58
  easy
• 14:58
  to
• 14:58
  throw
• 14:58
  in
• 14:59
  the
• 14:59
  waffle
• 14:59
  iron
• 14:59
  while
• 14:59
  I
• 15:00
  was
• 15:00
  cooking
• 15:00
  dinner
• 15:00
  the
• 15:00
  other
• 15:01
  day,
• 15:02
  and
• 15:02
  I'm
• 15:02
  still
• 15:03
  over
• 15:03
  here
• 15:03
  crying,
• 15:03
  you
• 15:03
  guys.
• 15:04
  I,
• 15:04
  I'm
• 15:04
  glad
• 15:05
  this
• 15:05
  is
• 15:05
  not
• 15:05
  recorded
• 15:06
  for
• 15:06
  YouTube.
• 15:06
  This
• 15:07
  is
• 15:07
  not
• 15:07
  YouTube
• 15:08
  safe
• 15:08
  content
• 15:08
  at
• 15:09
  the
• 15:09
  moment.
• 15:10
  I'm
• 15:10
  afraid
• 15:10
  of
• 15:10
  what
• 15:10
  I'm
• 15:10
  gonna
• 15:10
  look
• 15:11
  like.
• 15:12
  When
• 15:12
  I
• 15:12
  push
• 15:13
  stop
• 15:14
  Anyway,
• 15:14
  so
• 15:15
  I
• 15:16
  was,
• 15:16
  so,
• 15:16
  my
• 15:16
  first
• 15:17
  memories
• 15:18
  were
• 15:18
  a
• 15:18
  lot
• 15:19
  based
• 15:19
  around
• 15:19
  food.
• 15:20
  Food
• 15:21
  was
• 15:21
  always
• 15:21
  connected
• 15:21
  to
• 15:22
  love.
• 15:22
  And
• 15:22
  love
• 15:23
  means
• 15:23
  I'm
• 15:23
  safe
• 15:24
  and
• 15:24
  protected.
• 15:24
  Right.
• 15:25
  So
• 15:26
  then
• 15:26
  when
• 15:27
  I,
• 15:28
  I
• 15:28
  don't
• 15:28
  remember
• 15:28
  if
• 15:28
  it
• 15:29
  was
• 15:29
  always,
• 15:30
  I
• 15:30
  could
• 15:30
  probably
• 15:30
  ask
• 15:31
  my
• 15:31
  cousin,
• 15:31
  but
• 15:32
  I
• 15:32
  don't
• 15:32
  remember
• 15:32
  if
• 15:32
  it
• 15:32
  was
• 15:32
  always,
• 15:33
  but
• 15:33
  I
• 15:33
  do
• 15:33
  remember
• 15:34
  when
• 15:34
  I
• 15:34
  would
• 15:34
  get
• 15:35
  off
• 15:35
  the
• 15:35
  bus
• 15:35
  for
• 15:35
  sure.
• 15:36
  Like
• 15:36
  in
• 15:36
  middle
• 15:37
  school
• 15:37
  there
• 15:38
  was
• 15:38
  always
• 15:38
  a
• 15:38
  counter
• 15:39
  of
• 15:39
  little
• 15:39
  Debbie's.
• 15:40
  Little
• 15:40
  Debbie
• 15:41
  snacks.
• 15:41
  Oh
• 15:41
  my
• 15:41
  gosh,
• 15:42
  I
• 15:42
  love
• 15:42
  me
• 15:42
  a
• 15:42
  Swiss
• 15:42
  roll.
• 15:43
  I
• 15:43
  can't
• 15:43
  have
• 15:43
  those
• 15:44
  anymore,
• 15:44
  thank
• 15:44
  goodness.
• 15:45
  But,
• 15:45
  I
• 15:45
  loved
• 15:46
  the,
• 15:46
  the
• 15:46
  texture
• 15:47
  of
• 15:47
  the
• 15:47
  outside
• 15:48
  of
• 15:48
  that,
• 15:49
  and
• 15:49
  then
• 15:49
  the
• 15:49
  creaminess
• 15:50
  on
• 15:50
  the
• 15:50
  inside.
• 15:51
  It
• 15:51
  was
• 15:51
  a
• 15:51
  texture
• 15:52
  thing.
• 15:52
  I
• 15:52
  loved
• 15:52
  the
• 15:52
  nutty,
• 15:53
  are
• 15:53
  those
• 15:53
  the
• 15:53
  nutty
• 15:54
  bars
• 15:54
  or
• 15:54
  whatever
• 15:54
  with
• 15:55
  the
• 15:55
  peanut
• 15:55
  butter
• 15:55
  and
• 15:55
  the
• 15:55
  kind
• 15:55
  of
• 15:56
  like
• 15:56
  the
• 15:56
  crispy
• 15:56
  waves.
• 15:57
  Loved
• 15:58
  that
• 15:58
  I
• 15:58
  did
• 15:58
  not
• 15:58
  like,
• 15:59
  like
• 15:59
  Ho
• 15:59
  Hos
• 16:00
  and
• 16:00
  all
• 16:00
  of
• 16:00
  that
• 16:00
  stuff.
• 16:00
  I
• 16:00
  didn't
• 16:01
  like
• 16:01
  the
• 16:01
  hostess
• 16:01
  brand
• 16:02
  of
• 16:02
  anything.
• 16:02
  I
• 16:02
  loved.
• 16:02
  I
• 16:03
  loved
• 16:03
  little
• 16:03
  Debbie.
• 16:03
  She
• 16:03
  had
• 16:03
  my
• 16:04
  heart.
• 16:04
  I
• 16:04
  loved
• 16:05
  the
• 16:05
  coffee
• 16:05
  cakes.
• 16:05
  I
• 16:06
  loved
• 16:06
  the
• 16:07
  cosmic
• 16:07
  brownies.
• 16:08
  I
• 16:08
  loved
• 16:08
  those
• 16:09
  things.
• 16:10
  And
• 16:10
  I
• 16:10
  would
• 16:11
  go,
• 16:11
  I
• 16:11
  would
• 16:11
  get
• 16:11
  off
• 16:12
  the
• 16:12
  bus
• 16:12
  after
• 16:12
  school.
• 16:13
  If
• 16:13
  I
• 16:13
  didn't
• 16:13
  have
• 16:13
  practice
• 16:14
  or
• 16:14
  something,
• 16:15
  I
• 16:15
  would
• 16:15
  get
• 16:15
  off
• 16:15
  the
• 16:15
  bus
• 16:16
  and
• 16:16
  come
• 16:16
  home
• 16:16
  and
• 16:17
  that
• 16:17
  would
• 16:17
  be
• 16:17
  the
• 16:17
  first
• 16:18
  thing
• 16:18
  I
• 16:18
  would
• 16:18
  do.
• 16:18
  I
• 16:18
  would
• 16:19
  use
• 16:19
  food
• 16:19
  to
• 16:19
  come
• 16:20
  down.
• 16:21
  I
• 16:21
  would
• 16:21
  use
• 16:21
  food
• 16:22
  to.
• 16:24
  I
• 16:24
  would
• 16:24
  use
• 16:24
  food
• 16:25
  to
• 16:26
  give
• 16:26
  me
• 16:27
  love
• 16:27
  and
• 16:27
  replenish
• 16:28
  me.
• 16:29
  And
• 16:29
  it
• 16:29
  wasn't
• 16:29
  food
• 16:30
  that
• 16:30
  actually
• 16:31
  nourished
• 16:31
  me.
• 16:32
  It
• 16:32
  was
• 16:32
  that
• 16:33
  it
• 16:33
  was
• 16:33
  the
• 16:33
  junk.
• 16:33
  It
• 16:33
  was
• 16:33
  that
• 16:34
  fast
• 16:34
  hit
• 16:35
  and
• 16:35
  then
• 16:36
  progress
• 16:36
  years
• 16:36
  later.
• 16:37
  And
• 16:37
  I
• 16:37
  just
• 16:37
  learned
• 16:38
  to
• 16:38
  use
• 16:38
  food
• 16:38
  as
• 16:39
  my
• 16:39
  coping
• 16:39
  mechanism.
• 16:40
  Food
• 16:41
  offered
• 16:41
  me
• 16:41
  safety,
• 16:42
  food
• 16:43
  offered
• 16:43
  me
• 16:43
  connection.
• 16:44
  Food
• 16:45
  was
• 16:45
  a
• 16:45
  rhythm
• 16:46
  that
• 16:46
  I
• 16:46
  could
• 16:46
  understand
• 16:47
  and
• 16:47
  like
• 16:47
  feel
• 16:48
  that
• 16:48
  consistency
• 16:49
  with
• 16:49
  food
• 16:50
  was
• 16:51
  fuel.
• 16:51
  It
• 16:52
  helped
• 16:52
  my
• 16:52
  brain,
• 16:52
  it
• 16:52
  helped
• 16:53
  me
• 16:53
  do
• 16:53
  what
• 16:53
  I
• 16:53
  needed
• 16:54
  to
• 16:54
  do.
• 16:54
  All
• 16:54
  of
• 16:54
  that.
• 16:55
  And
• 16:56
  so.
• 16:57
  I
• 16:58
  admit
• 16:59
  that
• 17:00
  I
• 17:00
  was
• 17:00
  trauma
• 17:00
  bonded
• 17:01
  with
• 17:02
  food.
• 17:03
  Food
• 17:04
  was
• 17:04
  allowed
• 17:05
  me
• 17:05
  to
• 17:05
  stuff
• 17:05
  down
• 17:06
  any
• 17:06
  feelings
• 17:07
  I
• 17:07
  wasn't
• 17:07
  allowed
• 17:07
  to
• 17:07
  express
• 17:09
  food
• 17:10
  began
• 17:10
  my
• 17:10
  numbing.
• 17:12
  I
• 17:12
  learned
• 17:12
  to
• 17:12
  numb
• 17:14
  because
• 17:14
  food
• 17:15
  connected
• 17:15
  to
• 17:15
  love
• 17:16
  must
• 17:16
  mean
• 17:17
  that
• 17:17
  I'm
• 17:17
  safe.
• 17:19
  And
• 17:19
  I'm
• 17:20
  gonna
• 17:20
  take
• 17:20
  this
• 17:20
  a
• 17:20
  little
• 17:20
  bit
• 17:21
  spicier
• 17:22
  as
• 17:22
  if
• 17:23
  that
• 17:23
  wasn't
• 17:23
  enough.
• 17:24
  Because
• 17:25
  the
• 17:25
  church
• 17:25
  doesn't
• 17:25
  talk
• 17:26
  much
• 17:26
  about
• 17:26
  this,
• 17:28
  but
• 17:28
  I
• 17:28
  wanna
• 17:28
  just
• 17:29
  remind
• 17:29
  you
• 17:29
  that
• 17:29
  gluttony
• 17:30
  is
• 17:30
  not
• 17:30
  just
• 17:30
  eating
• 17:31
  too
• 17:31
  much.
• 17:32
  It's
• 17:33
  using
• 17:33
  food
• 17:33
  to
• 17:33
  numb.
• 17:36
  It
• 17:36
  is
• 17:36
  turning
• 17:36
  to
• 17:36
  food
• 17:37
  as
• 17:37
  your
• 17:37
  comforter
• 17:38
  instead
• 17:38
  of
• 17:38
  the
• 17:38
  comforter,
• 17:39
  the
• 17:39
  Holy
• 17:39
  Spirit
• 17:40
  that
• 17:40
  that
• 17:41
  Jesus
• 17:41
  left
• 17:41
  and
• 17:41
  told
• 17:41
  the
• 17:42
  disciples,
• 17:43
  go
• 17:43
  head
• 17:43
  back
• 17:43
  to
• 17:43
  Jerusalem
• 17:44
  and
• 17:44
  wait
• 17:44
  for
• 17:44
  the
• 17:45
  Holy
• 17:45
  Spirit,
• 17:45
  my
• 17:46
  that,
• 17:46
  that
• 17:46
  will
• 17:46
  teach
• 17:47
  you
• 17:47
  the
• 17:47
  teacher
• 17:47
  that's
• 17:48
  coming,
• 17:48
  the
• 17:48
  comforter,
• 17:49
  the
• 17:49
  healer,
• 17:49
  all
• 17:49
  of
• 17:50
  this.
• 17:51
  And
• 17:51
  I
• 17:51
  think
• 17:51
  that
• 17:51
  that
• 17:52
  secret
• 17:52
  shame
• 17:52
  that
• 17:52
  we
• 17:53
  feel.
• 17:55
  That
• 17:55
  one
• 17:56
  that
• 17:56
  eats
• 17:56
  at
• 17:56
  you
• 17:56
  while
• 17:56
  you're
• 17:57
  eating
• 17:57
  in
• 17:57
  the
• 17:57
  dark.
• 17:58
  I
• 17:58
  really
• 17:59
  think
• 17:59
  that
• 17:59
  that
• 18:00
  is
• 18:00
  this
• 18:01
  feeling
• 18:01
  that
• 18:01
  we're
• 18:02
  hiding
• 18:02
  from
• 18:02
  God,
• 18:03
  like
• 18:04
  we're
• 18:04
  trying
• 18:04
  to
• 18:04
  hide
• 18:05
  from
• 18:05
  God
• 18:05
  because
• 18:05
  it's
• 18:05
  not
• 18:06
  a
• 18:06
  body
• 18:06
  image
• 18:06
  issue.
• 18:07
  I
• 18:07
  think
• 18:07
  if
• 18:07
  body
• 18:07
  image
• 18:08
  was
• 18:08
  enough,
• 18:09
  I
• 18:09
  think
• 18:09
  that
• 18:09
  we
• 18:10
  would
• 18:10
  be
• 18:10
  fine.
• 18:10
  Right?
• 18:11
  Like
• 18:11
  I
• 18:11
  think
• 18:11
  if
• 18:11
  the
• 18:11
  body
• 18:12
  image
• 18:12
  was
• 18:12
  enough,
• 18:12
  like
• 18:13
  I
• 18:13
  think
• 18:13
  that'd
• 18:13
  be
• 18:13
  enough.
• 18:15
  But
• 18:15
  I
• 18:15
  think
• 18:15
  that
• 18:15
  that
• 18:16
  feeling,
• 18:16
  that
• 18:16
  secret
• 18:17
  shame
• 18:17
  that
• 18:17
  we
• 18:18
  feel
• 18:18
  is
• 18:18
  that
• 18:18
  we're
• 18:18
  hiding
• 18:19
  from
• 18:19
  God.
• 18:19
  We're
• 18:19
  disobeying
• 18:20
  him.
• 18:21
  We
• 18:21
  are
• 18:21
  hiding
• 18:22
  from
• 18:22
  our
• 18:22
  spouse.
• 18:22
  We
• 18:23
  are
• 18:23
  hiding
• 18:24
  from
• 18:24
  our
• 18:24
  calling.
• 18:25
  And
• 18:26
  the
• 18:26
  enemy
• 18:26
  loves
• 18:26
  it
• 18:28
  because
• 18:28
  when
• 18:28
  you're
• 18:28
  stuck
• 18:29
  in
• 18:29
  this
• 18:29
  shame
• 18:29
  cycle
• 18:30
  and
• 18:31
  hiding,
• 18:32
  you're
• 18:32
  not
• 18:32
  showing
• 18:33
  up
• 18:33
  in
• 18:33
  the
• 18:33
  fullness
• 18:34
  of
• 18:34
  who
• 18:34
  you
• 18:34
  are.
• 18:35
  You
• 18:35
  isolate,
• 18:37
  you
• 18:37
  get
• 18:37
  discouraged.
• 18:39
  You
• 18:39
  start
• 18:39
  spinning.
• 18:41
  And
• 18:41
  you,
• 18:41
  and
• 18:42
  when
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  say
• 18:42
  spinning,
• 18:42
  I
• 18:42
  mean
• 18:43
  spinning
• 18:43
  away
• 18:43
  from
• 18:44
  everything
• 18:44
  that's
• 18:45
  holy
• 18:45
  and
• 18:45
  pure
• 18:46
  and
• 18:46
  you
• 18:46
  start
• 18:47
  letting
• 18:47
  other
• 18:47
  things
• 18:48
  in.
• 18:48
  Uh,
• 18:48
  you
• 18:49
  start
• 18:49
  other
• 18:49
  coping
• 18:49
  mechanisms
• 18:50
  because
• 18:51
  I
• 18:51
  just
• 18:51
  wanna
• 18:51
  let
• 18:51
  you
• 18:51
  know
• 18:52
  that
• 18:52
  if
• 18:52
  you're
• 18:53
  doing
• 18:53
  this
• 18:53
  with
• 18:53
  food,
• 18:55
  we
• 18:55
  know
• 18:55
  that
• 18:55
  food
• 18:56
  hits
• 18:56
  a
• 18:56
  specific
• 18:56
  dopamine
• 18:57
  receptor
• 18:57
  in
• 18:57
  the
• 18:57
  brain.
• 18:58
  It's
• 18:59
  the
• 18:59
  same
• 18:59
  dopamine
• 19:00
  receptor
• 19:00
  of
• 19:00
  alcoholics,
• 19:01
  what
• 19:01
  they're
• 19:01
  trying
• 19:02
  to
• 19:02
  hit,
• 19:03
  what
• 19:03
  sex
• 19:03
  addicts
• 19:04
  are
• 19:04
  trying
• 19:04
  to
• 19:04
  hit
• 19:04
  for
• 19:05
  masturbation,
• 19:06
  and
• 19:06
  having
• 19:06
  multiple
• 19:07
  different
• 19:07
  partners,
• 19:07
  all
• 19:08
  of
• 19:08
  that.
• 19:09
  Cocaine,
• 19:10
  cocaine
• 19:10
  addicts
• 19:11
  also
• 19:11
  hit
• 19:11
  the
• 19:11
  same
• 19:12
  dopamine
• 19:12
  receptor
• 19:13
  in
• 19:13
  our
• 19:13
  brain,
• 19:14
  so
• 19:14
  food,
• 19:15
  using
• 19:16
  food
• 19:16
  to
• 19:16
  numb
• 19:17
  trauma,
• 19:17
  bonded
• 19:18
  with
• 19:18
  food,
• 19:19
  trauma,
• 19:19
  bonded
• 19:20
  with
• 19:20
  alcohol
• 19:20
  trauma,
• 19:21
  bonded
• 19:21
  with
• 19:21
  sex
• 19:22
  and
• 19:22
  pleasure
• 19:22
  and
• 19:23
  orgasms.
• 19:24
  Trauma
• 19:24
  bonded
• 19:25
  with
• 19:26
  cocaine.
• 19:27
  These
• 19:27
  all
• 19:28
  are
• 19:28
  the
• 19:28
  same
• 19:28
  thing,
• 19:29
  and
• 19:29
  they
• 19:29
  are
• 19:29
  all
• 19:30
  trying
• 19:31
  to
• 19:31
  get
• 19:31
  your
• 19:31
  whole
• 19:31
  system
• 19:32
  to
• 19:32
  scream
• 19:33
  for
• 19:34
  support
• 19:35
  and
• 19:35
  instead
• 19:36
  we
• 19:36
  just
• 19:36
  continue
• 19:36
  to
• 19:37
  numb
• 19:37
  with
• 19:37
  the
• 19:37
  next
• 19:38
  hit,
• 19:38
  the
• 19:38
  next
• 19:39
  hit.
• 19:39
  And
• 19:39
  typically
• 19:40
  people
• 19:40
  that
• 19:40
  struggle
• 19:41
  with
• 19:41
  food
• 19:41
  struggle
• 19:42
  with
• 19:42
  one
• 19:42
  of
• 19:42
  those
• 19:42
  other
• 19:42
  three
• 19:43
  things
• 19:43
  I
• 19:43
  mentioned.
• 19:44
  And
• 19:44
  sex
• 19:44
  could
• 19:45
  be
• 19:45
  porn,
• 19:45
  it
• 19:45
  could
• 19:45
  be
• 19:46
  multiple
• 19:46
  sex
• 19:47
  partners,
• 19:47
  it
• 19:47
  could
• 19:47
  be
• 19:48
  masturbation,
• 19:49
  it
• 19:49
  could
• 19:49
  be,
• 19:49
  I
• 19:50
  already
• 19:50
  said
• 19:50
  porn.
• 19:50
  It
• 19:50
  could
• 19:50
  be
• 19:51
  like
• 19:51
  lust
• 19:51
  outwards.
• 19:52
  It
• 19:52
  could
• 19:52
  be
• 19:52
  like
• 19:53
  going
• 19:53
  to
• 19:53
  hockey
• 19:53
  games
• 19:53
  and
• 19:54
  watching
• 19:54
  the
• 19:54
  guys
• 19:54
  warm
• 19:54
  up.
• 19:55
  It
• 19:55
  could
• 19:55
  be,
• 19:55
  you
• 19:55
  know,
• 19:56
  whatever
• 19:56
  it
• 19:56
  may
• 19:56
  be.
• 19:58
  But
• 19:58
  that's
• 19:58
  it.
• 19:59
  And
• 19:59
  cocaine.
• 20:00
  I
• 20:00
  just,
• 20:00
  I'm
• 20:00
  so
• 20:00
  glad
• 20:01
  I
• 20:01
  a,
• 20:01
  never
• 20:01
  started
• 20:02
  drugs
• 20:02
  because
• 20:02
  I
• 20:02
  know
• 20:03
  I
• 20:03
  would
• 20:03
  be
• 20:03
  addicted
• 20:03
  to
• 20:03
  something
• 20:04
  because
• 20:04
  I
• 20:05
  have
• 20:05
  a
• 20:05
  quote
• 20:05
  unquote
• 20:06
  addictive
• 20:06
  personality.
• 20:07
  But
• 20:07
  really
• 20:08
  what
• 20:08
  that
• 20:08
  means
• 20:08
  is
• 20:09
  I
• 20:09
  already
• 20:09
  have
• 20:09
  a
• 20:10
  broken
• 20:11
  connection
• 20:11
  with
• 20:11
  dopamine
• 20:12
  in
• 20:12
  my
• 20:12
  brain.
• 20:13
  And
• 20:13
  I
• 20:13
  have
• 20:13
  a
• 20:14
  broken
• 20:14
  connection
• 20:15
  with
• 20:15
  the
• 20:16
  way
• 20:16
  that
• 20:16
  I
• 20:16
  feel
• 20:17
  love,
• 20:17
  the
• 20:18
  way
• 20:18
  I
• 20:18
  feel,
• 20:18
  support,
• 20:19
  the
• 20:19
  way
• 20:19
  I
• 20:20
  feel
• 20:20
  connection,
• 20:21
  rhythm,
• 20:21
  the
• 20:22
  way
• 20:22
  I
• 20:22
  feel
• 20:22
  safety.
• 20:23
  I
• 20:23
  have
• 20:23
  a
• 20:23
  broken
• 20:24
  connection
• 20:24
  with
• 20:24
  that.
• 20:25
  And
• 20:25
  so
• 20:26
  that's
• 20:26
  the
• 20:26
  spaces
• 20:26
  that
• 20:27
  God
• 20:27
  can
• 20:27
  move
• 20:28
  in
• 20:28
  and
• 20:28
  support
• 20:29
  us.
• 20:30
  So
• 20:32
  I'm
• 20:32
  not
• 20:32
  leaving
• 20:32
  you
• 20:32
  here
• 20:32
  with
• 20:33
  all
• 20:33
  of
• 20:33
  this.
• 20:33
  I'm
• 20:33
  gonna
• 20:33
  give
• 20:34
  you
• 20:34
  three
• 20:35
  things
• 20:35
  to
• 20:35
  get
• 20:35
  out
• 20:36
  of
• 20:36
  this
• 20:36
  cycle.
• 20:37
  And
• 20:37
  I'm
• 20:37
  gonna,
• 20:38
  I'm
• 20:38
  gonna
• 20:38
  share
• 20:38
  with
• 20:38
  you
• 20:39
  because
• 20:39
  these
• 20:39
  are
• 20:39
  the
• 20:39
  things
• 20:40
  that
• 20:40
  have
• 20:40
  worked
• 20:40
  for
• 20:40
  me.
• 20:41
  And
• 20:41
  I,
• 20:42
  I
• 20:42
  know
• 20:43
  that
• 20:43
  you
• 20:43
  are
• 20:43
  going
• 20:44
  to
• 20:44
  feel
• 20:45
  strongly
• 20:46
  that
• 20:46
  you
• 20:46
  need
• 20:46
  rules.
• 20:47
  That
• 20:48
  you're
• 20:48
  gonna
• 20:48
  wanna
• 20:48
  weigh
• 20:48
  your
• 20:49
  food,
• 20:49
  that
• 20:49
  if
• 20:49
  you're
• 20:49
  like
• 20:50
  me
• 20:50
  or
• 20:50
  you're
• 20:50
  gonna
• 20:50
  wanna
• 20:50
  count
• 20:51
  your
• 20:51
  calories,
• 20:51
  or
• 20:52
  you're
• 20:52
  gonna
• 20:52
  want
• 20:52
  to
• 20:52
  go
• 20:52
  and
• 20:53
  get
• 20:53
  a
• 20:53
  program
• 20:54
  to
• 20:54
  help
• 20:54
  you
• 20:54
  with
• 20:55
  like
• 20:55
  rules
• 20:56
  and
• 20:56
  restrictions.
• 20:57
  But
• 20:58
  what
• 20:58
  I
• 20:58
  want
• 20:58
  to
• 20:58
  remind
• 20:59
  you
• 20:59
  is
• 20:59
  that
• 21:00
  everything
• 21:00
  we
• 21:00
  do
• 21:00
  here
• 21:01
  is
• 21:01
  a
• 21:01
  roadmap
• 21:02
  of
• 21:03
  real
• 21:03
  life,
• 21:04
  living
• 21:04
  healthy
• 21:05
  and
• 21:05
  free.
• 21:06
  I
• 21:06
  don't
• 21:07
  do
• 21:07
  things
• 21:07
  where
• 21:08
  I
• 21:08
  just
• 21:08
  give
• 21:08
  you
• 21:08
  a
• 21:08
  blanket
• 21:09
  statement.
• 21:10
  I
• 21:10
  give
• 21:10
  you
• 21:11
  support
• 21:11
  and
• 21:11
  a
• 21:12
  roadmap
• 21:12
  to
• 21:12
  make
• 21:13
  things
• 21:13
  work
• 21:13
  for
• 21:13
  you.
• 21:14
  So
• 21:15
  let's
• 21:15
  start
• 21:15
  with
• 21:16
  number
• 21:16
  one.
• 21:17
  You
• 21:17
  are
• 21:17
  gonna
• 21:17
  rebuild
• 21:18
  your
• 21:18
  foundation
• 21:18
  with
• 21:19
  food.
• 21:20
  What
• 21:20
  I
• 21:20
  would
• 21:20
  recommend
• 21:21
  doing
• 21:21
  is
• 21:21
  starting
• 21:22
  or
• 21:22
  start
• 21:23
  to
• 21:23
  eat
• 21:23
  meals
• 21:24
  that
• 21:24
  stabilize
• 21:25
  your
• 21:25
  blood
• 21:25
  sugar.
• 21:26
  Which,
• 21:26
  what
• 21:27
  does
• 21:27
  that
• 21:27
  actually
• 21:27
  mean?
• 21:28
  What
• 21:28
  does
• 21:28
  that
• 21:28
  actually
• 21:28
  look
• 21:29
  like?
• 21:29
  It
• 21:30
  looks
• 21:30
  like
• 21:30
  protein
• 21:31
  at
• 21:31
  every
• 21:31
  meal,
• 21:31
  and
• 21:31
  I
• 21:31
  don't
• 21:32
  mean
• 21:32
  an
• 21:32
  egg.
• 21:33
  An
• 21:33
  egg
• 21:33
  is
• 21:34
  not
• 21:34
  protein.
• 21:35
  Eggs
• 21:35
  are
• 21:35
  only
• 21:35
  six.
• 21:36
  If
• 21:36
  you
• 21:36
  eat
• 21:36
  a
• 21:36
  large
• 21:37
  one,
• 21:37
  large
• 21:37
  egg
• 21:38
  is
• 21:38
  only
• 21:38
  six
• 21:38
  grams
• 21:38
  of
• 21:39
  protein.
• 21:40
  It
• 21:40
  is
• 21:40
  not
• 21:40
  a
• 21:40
  ton
• 21:40
  of
• 21:40
  protein.
• 21:41
  Two
• 21:41
  tablespoons
• 21:42
  of
• 21:42
  peanut
• 21:42
  butter
• 21:42
  is
• 21:43
  not
• 21:43
  a
• 21:43
  protein
• 21:43
  source.
• 21:44
  Peanut
• 21:44
  butter's
• 21:44
  a
• 21:44
  fat
• 21:45
  source
• 21:45
  and
• 21:45
  peanut
• 21:46
  butter
• 21:46
  is
• 21:46
  only
• 21:47
  six
• 21:47
  grams
• 21:47
  of
• 21:47
  protein
• 21:48
  for
• 21:48
  like
• 21:48
  200
• 21:49
  calories
• 21:50
  for
• 21:50
  two
• 21:50
  tablespoons.
• 21:51
  And
• 21:51
  I
• 21:51
  don't
• 21:51
  know
• 21:51
  if
• 21:51
  you've
• 21:51
  ever
• 21:52
  measured
• 21:52
  out
• 21:52
  two
• 21:52
  tablespoons
• 21:53
  before,
• 21:53
  but
• 21:53
  it's
• 21:53
  not
• 21:54
  much.
• 21:54
  So
• 21:55
  what
• 21:55
  I
• 21:55
  want
• 21:56
  to
• 21:56
  remind
• 21:56
  you
• 21:56
  is
• 21:56
  to
• 21:57
  get
• 21:57
  protein
• 21:58
  at
• 21:58
  every
• 21:58
  meal.
• 22:00
  Eat
• 22:00
  healthy
• 22:00
  fats.
• 22:01
  Let's
• 22:01
  define
• 22:02
  healthy
• 22:02
  fats.
• 22:02
  Healthy
• 22:03
  fats
• 22:03
  is
• 22:03
  not
• 22:03
  canola
• 22:04
  oil,
• 22:04
  vegetable
• 22:04
  oil,
• 22:04
  palm
• 22:05
  oil
• 22:06
  safflower
• 22:06
  oil.
• 22:07
  Healthy
• 22:08
  fats
• 22:08
  mean
• 22:09
  grass
• 22:09
  fed,
• 22:10
  grass
• 22:10
  finish,
• 22:11
  or
• 22:11
  raw
• 22:11
  butter.
• 22:12
  It
• 22:12
  means
• 22:13
  eating.
• 22:13
  What
• 22:14
  is
• 22:14
  that?
• 22:14
  Why
• 22:14
  can't
• 22:15
  I
• 22:15
  think
• 22:15
  of
• 22:15
  it?
• 22:16
  Ghee,
• 22:17
  ghee
• 22:17
  counts,
• 22:19
  lard,
• 22:20
  tallow
• 22:21
  avocado
• 22:21
  oil,
• 22:22
  avocados,
• 22:23
  coconut
• 22:23
  oil.
• 22:24
  These
• 22:25
  are
• 22:25
  my
• 22:25
  go-to
• 22:26
  things
• 22:26
  when
• 22:26
  I'm
• 22:26
  thinking
• 22:27
  about
• 22:27
  healthy
• 22:27
  fats,
• 22:28
  I
• 22:29
  am
• 22:29
  not
• 22:29
  thinking
• 22:30
  about,
• 22:30
  I
• 22:31
  can't
• 22:31
  believe
• 22:31
  it's
• 22:31
  not
• 22:31
  butter.
• 22:32
  I
• 22:32
  grew
• 22:32
  up
• 22:33
  on
• 22:33
  that
• 22:33
  and
• 22:33
  I
• 22:33
  can't
• 22:34
  believe
• 22:34
  it's
• 22:34
  not
• 22:34
  butter.
• 22:35
  Is
• 22:35
  not
• 22:35
  fat.
• 22:36
  It
• 22:36
  is
• 22:37
  a,
• 22:37
  it
• 22:37
  is,
• 22:37
  well,
• 22:38
  it
• 22:38
  is
• 22:38
  fat.
• 22:38
  It's
• 22:39
  a,
• 22:39
  it
• 22:39
  becomes
• 22:40
  a
• 22:40
  trans
• 22:40
  fat
• 22:40
  when
• 22:41
  it
• 22:41
  is
• 22:41
  cooked.
• 22:42
  It
• 22:42
  also
• 22:42
  becomes
• 22:43
  it
• 22:43
  is
• 22:43
  basically
• 22:44
  plastic
• 22:45
  and
• 22:45
  so
• 22:45
  the
• 22:45
  body
• 22:46
  doesn't
• 22:46
  recognize
• 22:47
  that
• 22:47
  and
• 22:47
  thinks
• 22:47
  it
• 22:47
  is
• 22:48
  something
• 22:48
  artificial
• 22:49
  coming
• 22:49
  in
• 22:49
  because
• 22:50
  it
• 22:50
  is.
• 22:50
  And
• 22:50
  so
• 22:51
  then
• 22:51
  it
• 22:51
  creates
• 22:51
  inflammation
• 22:52
  and
• 22:52
  causes,
• 22:52
  insulin
• 22:53
  resistance.
• 22:53
  It
• 22:53
  also
• 22:54
  causes,
• 22:54
  which
• 22:54
  leads
• 22:55
  to
• 22:55
  blood
• 22:55
  sugar
• 22:55
  issues.
• 22:56
  And
• 22:56
  it
• 22:56
  also
• 22:57
  causes
• 22:57
  your
• 22:57
  cholesterol
• 22:58
  to
• 22:58
  get
• 22:58
  higher
• 22:58
  because
• 22:59
  your
• 22:59
  body
• 22:59
  is
• 22:59
  fighting
• 23:00
  that
• 23:00
  fakeness
• 23:00
  coming
• 23:01
  in.
• 23:02
  So
• 23:02
  fats
• 23:03
  are
• 23:03
  gonna
• 23:03
  have
• 23:03
  calories
• 23:04
  eat
• 23:04
  them.
• 23:05
  You're
• 23:05
  gonna
• 23:05
  eat
• 23:05
  whole
• 23:06
  food
• 23:06
  carbs.
• 23:06
  And
• 23:07
  what
• 23:07
  I
• 23:07
  mean
• 23:07
  by
• 23:07
  that
• 23:07
  is
• 23:07
  not
• 23:08
  just
• 23:08
  crackers
• 23:08
  and
• 23:09
  bars.
• 23:10
  Something
• 23:11
  happens
• 23:11
  to
• 23:11
  us
• 23:11
  perimenopause,
• 23:12
  women,
• 23:12
  that
• 23:12
  we
• 23:12
  just
• 23:13
  want
• 23:13
  crackers
• 23:14
  and
• 23:14
  bars.
• 23:14
  And
• 23:15
  because
• 23:15
  things
• 23:16
  are
• 23:16
  easy
• 23:16
  and
• 23:16
  we're
• 23:16
  so
• 23:16
  stressed,
• 23:17
  we
• 23:17
  want
• 23:17
  the
• 23:17
  feedback,
• 23:18
  we
• 23:18
  want
• 23:18
  the
• 23:18
  salt,
• 23:18
  we
• 23:18
  want
• 23:19
  all
• 23:19
  of
• 23:19
  that.
• 23:20
  But
• 23:20
  a
• 23:20
  whole
• 23:20
  food
• 23:20
  carb
• 23:21
  is,
• 23:21
  I
• 23:21
  don't
• 23:22
  know
• 23:22
  broccoli.
• 23:23
  It
• 23:23
  is
• 23:24
  your
• 23:24
  salad.
• 23:24
  Like
• 23:24
  your
• 23:25
  lettuce.
• 23:25
  It
• 23:25
  is
• 23:26
  the
• 23:27
  cherries,
• 23:27
  like
• 23:27
  dark
• 23:28
  black
• 23:28
  cherries.
• 23:28
  It
• 23:29
  is,
• 23:29
  or
• 23:29
  the
• 23:29
  dark
• 23:29
  sweet
• 23:30
  cherries
• 23:30
  or
• 23:30
  whatever
• 23:30
  they
• 23:30
  are.
• 23:31
  It
• 23:31
  is
• 23:32
  your
• 23:32
  fruits,
• 23:32
  your
• 23:32
  vegetables,
• 23:33
  your
• 23:33
  starches.
• 23:34
  Eat
• 23:34
  those
• 23:35
  that
• 23:35
  come
• 23:35
  from
• 23:35
  plants
• 23:36
  and
• 23:36
  animals
• 23:36
  and
• 23:37
  not
• 23:37
  refined
• 23:38
  into
• 23:38
  something.
• 23:38
  I'm
• 23:39
  not
• 23:39
  saying
• 23:39
  crackers
• 23:39
  are
• 23:39
  bad.
• 23:40
  I
• 23:40
  love
• 23:40
  me
• 23:40
  some
• 23:41
  crackers,
• 23:41
  but
• 23:41
  I'm
• 23:42
  not
• 23:42
  eating
• 23:42
  them
• 23:42
  every
• 23:42
  day.
• 23:43
  I'm
• 23:43
  probably
• 23:43
  having
• 23:44
  crackers
• 23:44
  if
• 23:44
  I
• 23:45
  can
• 23:45
  be
• 23:45
  honest.
• 23:45
  Maybe
• 23:46
  once
• 23:46
  a
• 23:46
  week,
• 23:47
  twice
• 23:47
  a
• 23:47
  week
• 23:47
  max,
• 23:48
  if
• 23:48
  I
• 23:48
  have
• 23:48
  some
• 23:48
  chicken
• 23:49
  salad
• 23:49
  and
• 23:49
  I
• 23:49
  have
• 23:50
  some
• 23:50
  gluten-free
• 23:50
  matzo
• 23:51
  crackers,
• 23:52
  but
• 23:52
  whole
• 23:52
  food
• 23:52
  carbs
• 23:53
  are
• 23:53
  mostly
• 23:53
  what
• 23:54
  I'm
• 23:54
  eating.
• 23:55
  And
• 23:55
  then
• 23:55
  what
• 23:55
  I
• 23:55
  would
• 23:56
  also
• 23:56
  recommend
• 23:57
  with
• 23:57
  the
• 23:57
  built
• 23:57
  rebuilding,
• 23:58
  the
• 23:58
  foundation
• 23:59
  of
• 23:59
  your
• 23:59
  food
• 23:59
  to
• 23:59
  support
• 24:00
  your
• 24:00
  blood
• 24:00
  sugar
• 24:01
  is
• 24:01
  to
• 24:01
  eat
• 24:02
  within
• 24:02
  an
• 24:02
  hour
• 24:02
  of
• 24:02
  waking.
• 24:03
  If
• 24:03
  you're
• 24:03
  like
• 24:03
  me
• 24:03
  and
• 24:03
  you're
• 24:03
  on
• 24:04
  thyroid
• 24:04
  medicine
• 24:04
  and
• 24:04
  you
• 24:05
  cannot
• 24:05
  take
• 24:05
  or
• 24:05
  can't
• 24:06
  eat
• 24:06
  food
• 24:06
  for
• 24:06
  that
• 24:06
  first
• 24:07
  hour,
• 24:07
  then
• 24:07
  eat
• 24:07
  right
• 24:08
  afterwards.
• 24:08
  That's
• 24:08
  fine.
• 24:09
  Set
• 24:09
  a
• 24:09
  timer.
• 24:10
  It's
• 24:10
  easy
• 24:10
  to
• 24:10
  do
• 24:11
  this
• 24:11
  once
• 24:11
  you
• 24:11
  start
• 24:12
  making
• 24:12
  that
• 24:13
  a
• 24:13
  priority.
• 24:14
  And
• 24:14
  if
• 24:15
  you,
• 24:15
  if
• 24:15
  you
• 24:15
  are
• 24:16
  skipping
• 24:16
  meals
• 24:17
  to
• 24:17
  save
• 24:17
  calories
• 24:18
  and
• 24:18
  you're
• 24:18
  setting
• 24:18
  yourself
• 24:19
  up
• 24:19
  for
• 24:19
  a
• 24:19
  binge,
• 24:20
  eat
• 24:20
  a
• 24:20
  binge
• 24:21
  eating
• 24:21
  session
• 24:22
  later.
• 24:23
  So
• 24:23
  for
• 24:23
  me,
• 24:24
  I
• 24:24
  was
• 24:24
  definitely
• 24:24
  one
• 24:25
  of
• 24:25
  those
• 24:25
  people
• 24:25
  that
• 24:25
  would
• 24:25
  skip
• 24:26
  eating
• 24:26
  all
• 24:27
  day
• 24:27
  long
• 24:27
  so
• 24:27
  I
• 24:27
  could
• 24:28
  go
• 24:28
  eat
• 24:28
  a
• 24:28
  large
• 24:28
  pizza
• 24:29
  and
• 24:29
  then
• 24:29
  I
• 24:29
  would
• 24:30
  have
• 24:30
  all
• 24:30
  of
• 24:30
  my
• 24:31
  calories
• 24:31
  at
• 24:32
  dinner
• 24:32
  and
• 24:32
  I
• 24:32
  would
• 24:33
  still
• 24:33
  be
• 24:33
  hungry.
• 24:34
  Go
• 24:34
  figure.
• 24:35
  And
• 24:35
  at
• 24:35
  that
• 24:35
  time,
• 24:36
  I
• 24:36
  was
• 24:36
  getting
• 24:36
  massive
• 24:37
  Cy
• 24:37
  Cystic
• 24:38
  acne.
• 24:38
  I
• 24:38
  was
• 24:39
  getting
• 24:39
  some
• 24:39
  insulin
• 24:40
  resistance.
• 24:40
  Symptoms,
• 24:41
  like
• 24:41
  my
• 24:41
  periods
• 24:42
  were
• 24:42
  awful.
• 24:42
  I
• 24:42
  started
• 24:43
  having
• 24:43
  Ehrlichia
• 24:44
  pop
• 24:44
  up,
• 24:44
  which
• 24:44
  is
• 24:44
  a
• 24:44
  form
• 24:45
  of
• 24:45
  Lyme
• 24:46
  where
• 24:46
  I
• 24:46
  was
• 24:46
  getting
• 24:46
  fevers
• 24:47
  halfway
• 24:47
  through
• 24:47
  my
• 24:48
  cycle.
• 24:48
  And
• 24:49
  then
• 24:49
  I
• 24:49
  would
• 24:49
  have
• 24:49
  a
• 24:49
  fever
• 24:50
  right
• 24:50
  before
• 24:50
  I
• 24:50
  started
• 24:51
  my
• 24:51
  cycle
• 24:51
  and
• 24:51
  insomnia.
• 24:52
  It
• 24:52
  was
• 24:53
  awful.
• 24:54
  So
• 24:54
  my
• 24:54
  recommendation
• 24:55
  is
• 24:55
  to
• 24:55
  rebuild
• 24:56
  your
• 24:56
  foundations
• 24:56
  with
• 24:57
  food
• 24:57
  first
• 24:58
  and
• 24:58
  then
• 24:59
  second.
• 25:00
  I
• 25:00
  would
• 25:00
  then
• 25:01
  focus
• 25:01
  on
• 25:01
  rewiring
• 25:02
  your
• 25:02
  evening
• 25:03
  routine.
• 25:03
  So
• 25:04
  instead
• 25:04
  of
• 25:04
  going
• 25:04
  straight
• 25:05
  from
• 25:05
  that
• 25:05
  chaos
• 25:06
  of
• 25:06
  the
• 25:06
  day
• 25:06
  to
• 25:07
  like
• 25:07
  just
• 25:07
  like
• 25:07
  chill.
• 25:08
  'cause
• 25:08
  remember
• 25:08
  I
• 25:08
  told
• 25:08
  you
• 25:09
  like
• 25:09
  that
• 25:09
  chill
• 25:10
  time
• 25:10
  is
• 25:10
  when
• 25:10
  you
• 25:10
  became
• 25:11
  susceptible,
• 25:11
  right?
• 25:12
  So
• 25:13
  instead
• 25:13
  of
• 25:13
  going
• 25:14
  straight
• 25:14
  from
• 25:14
  that
• 25:14
  chaos
• 25:15
  to
• 25:15
  that
• 25:16
  chill
• 25:16
  time
• 25:16
  period,
• 25:17
  let's
• 25:17
  build
• 25:17
  a
• 25:17
  transition.
• 25:19
  So
• 25:19
  maybe
• 25:19
  that
• 25:19
  transition,
• 25:20
  it's
• 25:20
  gonna
• 25:20
  look
• 25:21
  different
• 25:21
  for
• 25:21
  everybody,
• 25:21
  right?
• 25:22
  Maybe
• 25:22
  that
• 25:22
  transition
• 25:23
  is
• 25:23
  putting
• 25:23
  your
• 25:23
  phone
• 25:23
  down,
• 25:24
  maybe
• 25:24
  it
• 25:24
  is
• 25:25
  changing
• 25:25
  some
• 25:25
  lighting,
• 25:26
  turning
• 25:26
  on
• 25:26
  some
• 25:26
  soft
• 25:27
  lighting.
• 25:27
  Soft
• 25:27
  lighting
• 25:28
  just
• 25:28
  means
• 25:28
  like.
• 25:28
  A
• 25:29
  replication
• 25:29
  of
• 25:30
  a
• 25:30
  bonfire.
• 25:31
  That
• 25:31
  color
• 25:32
  of
• 25:32
  the
• 25:33
  soft
• 25:33
  lighting,
• 25:34
  maybe
• 25:34
  it,
• 25:35
  it
• 25:35
  is
• 25:35
  that
• 25:35
  you
• 25:35
  sip
• 25:36
  a
• 25:36
  hot,
• 25:36
  a
• 25:37
  hot
• 25:37
  tea
• 25:37
  instead
• 25:38
  of
• 25:38
  wine
• 25:38
  or
• 25:38
  sugar,
• 25:39
  or
• 25:39
  maybe
• 25:39
  you
• 25:40
  have
• 25:40
  an
• 25:40
  adaptogenic
• 25:40
  drink.
• 25:41
  If
• 25:41
  you
• 25:41
  follow
• 25:41
  me
• 25:41
  on
• 25:41
  Instagram
• 25:42
  at
• 25:42
  Dr.
• 25:43
  Danielle
• 25:43
  Indy,
• 25:44
  you'll
• 25:44
  see
• 25:44
  every
• 25:44
  now
• 25:44
  and
• 25:45
  then
• 25:45
  that
• 25:45
  I
• 25:45
  share
• 25:45
  with
• 25:45
  you
• 25:45
  what
• 25:45
  I'm
• 25:46
  drinking
• 25:46
  for
• 25:46
  my.
• 25:47
  Nighttime.
• 25:48
  I
• 25:48
  call
• 25:48
  it
• 25:48
  my
• 25:48
  nightcap.
• 25:49
  I
• 25:49
  have
• 25:49
  a
• 25:49
  nightcap
• 25:50
  every
• 25:50
  single
• 25:51
  night.
• 25:51
  Maybe
• 25:52
  you
• 25:52
  journal
• 25:52
  at
• 25:52
  night,
• 25:53
  maybe
• 25:53
  you
• 25:53
  pray
• 25:54
  at
• 25:54
  night.
• 25:54
  Maybe
• 25:54
  you
• 25:54
  just
• 25:55
  simply
• 25:55
  exhale.
• 25:56
  And
• 25:56
  this
• 25:57
  this
• 25:57
  time
• 25:58
  period,
• 25:58
  this
• 25:58
  idea
• 25:59
  of
• 25:59
  rewiring
• 26:00
  your
• 26:00
  evening
• 26:00
  routine
• 26:01
  is,
• 26:02
  is
• 26:02
  a.
• 26:03
  Physical
• 26:04
  way
• 26:04
  that
• 26:04
  you
• 26:04
  can
• 26:04
  start
• 26:05
  training
• 26:05
  your
• 26:05
  nervous
• 26:06
  system
• 26:06
  to
• 26:07
  downshift
• 26:08
  and
• 26:08
  not
• 26:08
  to
• 26:08
  come
• 26:09
  to
• 26:09
  a
• 26:09
  complete
• 26:09
  halt
• 26:10
  because
• 26:10
  we
• 26:10
  still
• 26:10
  need
• 26:11
  it,
• 26:11
  but,
• 26:11
  and
• 26:11
  that's
• 26:12
  what
• 26:12
  people
• 26:12
  think.
• 26:12
  It's
• 26:12
  like
• 26:12
  we
• 26:12
  just
• 26:13
  need
• 26:13
  to
• 26:13
  neutralize
• 26:13
  our
• 26:13
  nervous
• 26:13
  system.
• 26:14
  No,
• 26:14
  no,
• 26:14
  no.
• 26:14
  We
• 26:14
  just
• 26:15
  need
• 26:15
  to
• 26:15
  downshift
• 26:16
  it.
• 26:16
  And
• 26:17
  then
• 26:17
  the
• 26:17
  third
• 26:17
  thing
• 26:17
  I
• 26:18
  would
• 26:18
  recommend
• 26:18
  doing.
• 26:19
  Is
• 26:21
  reclaim
• 26:21
  your
• 26:22
  role.
• 26:22
  And
• 26:23
  what
• 26:23
  I
• 26:23
  mean
• 26:23
  by
• 26:23
  that
• 26:24
  is
• 26:24
  that
• 26:24
  you're
• 26:24
  the
• 26:25
  one
• 26:25
  in
• 26:25
  control.
• 26:26
  You
• 26:26
  are
• 26:27
  not
• 26:27
  a
• 26:27
  slave
• 26:27
  to
• 26:28
  your
• 26:28
  cravings.
• 26:29
  You
• 26:29
  do
• 26:29
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• 26:29
  have
• 26:30
  to
• 26:30
  do
• 26:30
  what
• 26:30
  your
• 26:30
  cravings
• 26:31
  say
• 26:32
  to
• 26:32
  do.
• 26:33
  You
• 26:33
  are
• 26:33
  not
• 26:34
  the
• 26:34
  fat
• 26:34
  one.
• 26:35
  You
• 26:35
  are
• 26:35
  not
• 26:36
  the
• 26:36
  woman
• 26:36
  who
• 26:36
  just
• 26:37
  can't
• 26:37
  get
• 26:37
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• 26:37
  together.
• 26:38
  I
• 26:38
  want
• 26:38
  to
• 26:38
  remind
• 26:39
  you
• 26:39
  your
• 26:39
  role
• 26:40
  is
• 26:40
  that
• 26:40
  you
• 26:41
  are
• 26:41
  a
• 26:41
  daughter
• 26:41
  of
• 26:41
  the
• 26:42
  king.
• 26:42
  You
• 26:42
  were
• 26:42
  meant
• 26:43
  to
• 26:43
  be
• 26:43
  nourished.
• 26:44
  You
• 26:44
  were
• 26:44
  made
• 26:45
  to
• 26:45
  be
• 26:45
  connected
• 26:46
  not
• 26:46
  just
• 26:46
  to
• 26:46
  your
• 26:46
  body,
• 26:47
  but
• 26:47
  to
• 26:47
  the
• 26:47
  God
• 26:47
  who
• 26:48
  made
• 26:48
  it
• 26:48
  and
• 26:49
  start
• 26:49
  showing
• 26:50
  up
• 26:51
  like
• 26:51
  it.
• 26:53
  And
• 26:53
  I
• 26:53
  want
• 26:53
  to
• 26:53
  just
• 26:56
  call
• 26:56
  out
• 26:57
  that
• 26:57
  if
• 26:57
  this
• 26:57
  is
• 26:57
  resonating
• 26:58
  with
• 26:58
  you,
• 26:59
  please
• 26:59
  hear
• 27:00
  me.
• 27:02
  We
• 27:02
  have
• 27:02
  the
• 27:03
  choice
• 27:03
  to
• 27:03
  stop
• 27:04
  that
• 27:04
  spiral,
• 27:05
  to
• 27:05
  stop
• 27:06
  the
• 27:06
  cravings,
• 27:07
  to
• 27:07
  stop
• 27:08
  giving
• 27:08
  into
• 27:08
  what
• 27:09
  is
• 27:09
  causing
• 27:09
  us
• 27:10
  weakness
• 27:11
  and
• 27:11
  making
• 27:11
  us
• 27:11
  weaker.
• 27:13
  We
• 27:13
  don't
• 27:14
  have
• 27:14
  to
• 27:14
  start
• 27:15
  over
• 27:15
  every
• 27:15
  single
• 27:16
  day.
• 27:17
  We
• 27:17
  just
• 27:17
  need
• 27:18
  a,
• 27:18
  a
• 27:19
  specific
• 27:19
  path.
• 27:20
  We
• 27:20
  need
• 27:21
  accountability.
• 27:22
  We
• 27:22
  need
• 27:22
  loved,
• 27:23
  and
• 27:23
  we
• 27:23
  need
• 27:23
  lead,
• 27:25
  and
• 27:25
  that's
• 27:25
  what
• 27:25
  I
• 27:25
  have
• 27:26
  created
• 27:26
  a
• 27:26
  space
• 27:27
  for
• 27:27
  you
• 27:27
  to
• 27:27
  do
• 27:27
  that.
• 27:28
  You
• 27:28
  can
• 27:28
  join
• 27:29
  DM
• 27:29
  me
• 27:29
  on
• 27:29
  Instagram
• 27:30
  or
• 27:30
  on
• 27:30
  Facebook,
• 27:31
  the
• 27:31
  word
• 27:32
  cafe.
• 27:33
  My
• 27:33
  team
• 27:34
  or
• 27:34
  I
• 27:34
  will
• 27:34
  get
• 27:35
  you
• 27:35
  into
• 27:35
  my
• 27:36
  free
• 27:36
  Telegram
• 27:36
  channel
• 27:37
  where
• 27:37
  we're
• 27:37
  talking
• 27:37
  about
• 27:38
  this
• 27:38
  stuff
• 27:38
  in
• 27:38
  real
• 27:39
  time
• 27:39
  with
• 27:40
  real
• 27:40
  women.
• 27:40
  And
• 27:40
  what
• 27:41
  I
• 27:41
  do,
• 27:41
  the
• 27:41
  reason
• 27:41
  why
• 27:41
  I
• 27:41
  created
• 27:42
  this
• 27:42
  Telegram
• 27:42
  channel
• 27:43
  is.
• 27:43
  Is
• 27:44
  for
• 27:44
  you
• 27:44
  to
• 27:44
  have
• 27:44
  a
• 27:44
  space
• 27:44
  off
• 27:45
  of
• 27:45
  the
• 27:45
  distractions
• 27:46
  of
• 27:46
  the
• 27:46
  feeds.
• 27:46
  There's
• 27:47
  no
• 27:47
  feed
• 27:47
  on.
• 27:48
  Telegram
• 27:48
  is
• 27:48
  not
• 27:48
  a
• 27:48
  feed.
• 27:49
  It
• 27:49
  is
• 27:50
  a
• 27:50
  connection
• 27:51
  place.
• 27:51
  It
• 27:51
  is
• 27:52
  a
• 27:52
  place
• 27:52
  for
• 27:52
  you
• 27:52
  to
• 27:52
  literally
• 27:53
  connect.
• 27:53
  And
• 27:54
  so
• 27:54
  when
• 27:54
  you
• 27:54
  join
• 27:55
  and
• 27:55
  you
• 27:55
  hit
• 27:55
  subscribe
• 27:56
  after
• 27:56
  you've
• 27:56
  given
• 27:56
  us
• 27:57
  your
• 27:57
  email
• 27:57
  and
• 27:57
  all
• 27:57
  of
• 27:57
  that,
• 27:58
  and
• 27:58
  after
• 27:58
  you
• 27:59
  join
• 27:59
  and
• 27:59
  hit
• 27:59
  subscribe,
• 28:00
  at
• 28:01
  the
• 28:01
  very
• 28:01
  top
• 28:01
  is
• 28:01
  a
• 28:02
  pinned
• 28:02
  post.
• 28:02
  In
• 28:02
  that
• 28:03
  pinned
• 28:03
  post,
• 28:03
  you're
• 28:03
  gonna
• 28:03
  see
• 28:04
  a
• 28:04
  few
• 28:04
  things.
• 28:05
  You're
• 28:05
  gonna
• 28:05
  see
• 28:05
  an
• 28:05
  intake
• 28:06
  form.
• 28:06
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• 28:06
  doing
• 28:07
  an
• 28:07
  intake
• 28:07
  form
• 28:07
  for
• 28:08
  free.
• 28:08
  For
• 28:08
  a
• 28:08
  free
• 28:09
  group.
• 28:09
  Why?
• 28:10
  Because
• 28:10
  I
• 28:10
  wanna
• 28:10
  make
• 28:10
  sure
• 28:10
  that
• 28:11
  the
• 28:11
  content
• 28:11
  I
• 28:11
  create
• 28:12
  is
• 28:12
  not
• 28:12
  a
• 28:12
  waste
• 28:12
  of
• 28:12
  my
• 28:13
  time
• 28:13
  or
• 28:13
  yours
• 28:14
  because
• 28:14
  I
• 28:14
  wanna
• 28:14
  make
• 28:14
  sure
• 28:15
  that
• 28:15
  I'm
• 28:15
  actually
• 28:15
  supporting
• 28:16
  you
• 28:16
  and
• 28:16
  not
• 28:17
  what
• 28:17
  I
• 28:17
  think
• 28:18
  you
• 28:18
  need
• 28:18
  to
• 28:18
  do.
• 28:18
  It's
• 28:18
  a
• 28:18
  waste
• 28:19
  of
• 28:19
  my
• 28:19
  time.
• 28:19
  It's
• 28:19
  a
• 28:19
  waste
• 28:19
  of
• 28:20
  yours.
• 28:20
  We
• 28:20
  don't
• 28:21
  need
• 28:21
  free
• 28:21
  groups
• 28:22
  anymore
• 28:22
  that
• 28:22
  aren't
• 28:23
  actually
• 28:23
  purposeful.
• 28:24
  That
• 28:24
  aren't
• 28:25
  actually
• 28:25
  giving
• 28:25
  us
• 28:26
  what
• 28:26
  we
• 28:26
  need.
• 28:26
  Right?
• 28:27
  So
• 28:27
  you
• 28:27
  go
• 28:28
  in
• 28:28
  there,
• 28:28
  you
• 28:28
  do
• 28:28
  that,
• 28:28
  you're
• 28:29
  gonna
• 28:29
  introduce
• 28:29
  yourself,
• 28:30
  all
• 28:30
  of
• 28:30
  that,
• 28:31
  and
• 28:31
  what,
• 28:31
  and
• 28:32
  then
• 28:32
  each
• 28:32
  month,
• 28:32
  or
• 28:33
  every
• 28:33
  now
• 28:33
  and
• 28:33
  then
• 28:33
  you're
• 28:33
  gonna
• 28:34
  see
• 28:34
  an
• 28:34
  announcement
• 28:35
  that
• 28:35
  I'm
• 28:35
  gonna
• 28:35
  go
• 28:35
  live
• 28:36
  and
• 28:36
  I'm
• 28:36
  gonna
• 28:36
  go
• 28:36
  live
• 28:37
  and
• 28:37
  I'm
• 28:37
  gonna
• 28:37
  invite
• 28:37
  you,
• 28:38
  I'm
• 28:38
  gonna
• 28:38
  send
• 28:38
  you
• 28:38
  the
• 28:38
  Zoom
• 28:39
  link
• 28:39
  and
• 28:39
  we're
• 28:39
  gonna
• 28:39
  have
• 28:40
  conversations.
• 28:41
  We
• 28:41
  are
• 28:41
  gonna
• 28:41
  take
• 28:41
  our
• 28:42
  conversations
• 28:42
  that
• 28:42
  we've
• 28:43
  been
• 28:43
  having,
• 28:43
  the
• 28:43
  connection
• 28:44
  we've
• 28:44
  been
• 28:44
  having
• 28:44
  on
• 28:44
  Telegram,
• 28:46
  and
• 28:46
  we're
• 28:46
  gonna
• 28:46
  just
• 28:46
  chat.
• 28:47
  We're
• 28:47
  gonna
• 28:47
  chat
• 28:48
  on
• 28:48
  what's
• 28:48
  going
• 28:48
  on
• 28:49
  in
• 28:49
  your
• 28:49
  life.
• 28:49
  We're
• 28:49
  gonna
• 28:50
  chat
• 28:50
  how
• 28:50
  to
• 28:50
  get
• 28:51
  over
• 28:51
  things.
• 28:52
  We're
• 28:52
  gonna
• 28:52
  chat
• 28:52
  what
• 28:52
  your
• 28:52
  next
• 28:53
  best
• 28:53
  step
• 28:53
  is,
• 28:53
  what
• 28:54
  your
• 28:54
  next
• 28:54
  clear,
• 28:55
  next
• 28:56
  clear
• 28:56
  piece
• 28:57
  of
• 28:57
  evidence
• 28:57
  is.
• 28:58
  Evidence,
• 28:58
  tools
• 28:59
  to
• 28:59
  move
• 28:59
  forward
• 29:00
  is
• 29:01
  that's
• 29:01
  what
• 29:01
  we're
• 29:01
  gonna
• 29:01
  do
• 29:02
  in
• 29:02
  Telegram.
• 29:03
  And
• 29:03
  then
• 29:04
  if
• 29:04
  you
• 29:04
  go
• 29:04
  to
• 29:04
  my
• 29:04
  Substack,
• 29:05
  which
• 29:05
  is
• 29:05
  linked
• 29:05
  below.
• 29:07
  Today's
• 29:07
  podcast
• 29:08
  episode
• 29:10
  is
• 29:10
  here,
• 29:10
  right?
• 29:11
  You're
• 29:11
  listening
• 29:11
  to
• 29:11
  it
• 29:11
  here,
• 29:12
  but
• 29:12
  on
• 29:13
  Substack,
• 29:13
  I'm
• 29:13
  taking
• 29:14
  this
• 29:14
  conversation
• 29:15
  about
• 29:15
  not
• 29:15
  eating
• 29:16
  at,
• 29:16
  or
• 29:16
  this
• 29:16
  eating
• 29:16
  at
• 29:17
  night
• 29:17
  and
• 29:17
  all
• 29:17
  of
• 29:17
  this
• 29:17
  stuff.
• 29:18
  I'm
• 29:18
  actually
• 29:19
  taking
• 29:19
  it
• 29:19
  even
• 29:19
  deeper.
• 29:21
  And
• 29:21
  so
• 29:21
  it's
• 29:21
  not
• 29:22
  light
• 29:22
  reading
• 29:23
  at
• 29:23
  all.
• 29:23
  It's
• 29:24
  actually
• 29:24
  gonna
• 29:24
  be
• 29:25
  much
• 29:25
  more
• 29:25
  vulnerable.
• 29:26
  The,
• 29:26
  some
• 29:27
  of
• 29:27
  the
• 29:27
  stories
• 29:27
  I
• 29:27
  can't
• 29:28
  put
• 29:28
  in
• 29:28
  here
• 29:29
  it's
• 29:29
  deeper
• 29:30
  reading.
• 29:31
  It's
• 29:31
  the
• 29:31
  kind
• 29:31
  of
• 29:31
  truth
• 29:32
  that
• 29:32
  is
• 29:32
  going
• 29:32
  to
• 29:32
  help
• 29:32
  you
• 29:33
  move
• 29:33
  freely,
• 29:34
  move
• 29:35
  forward.
• 29:35
  And
• 29:36
  if
• 29:36
  you're
• 29:36
  done
• 29:37
  playing
• 29:37
  small
• 29:38
  and
• 29:38
  you
• 29:38
  know
• 29:38
  it
• 29:38
  is
• 29:39
  time
• 29:39
  to
• 29:39
  take
• 29:39
  radical
• 29:39
  responsibility
• 29:40
  for
• 29:40
  your
• 29:40
  health,
• 29:41
  I
• 29:41
  want
• 29:42
  you
• 29:42
  to
• 29:42
  join
• 29:42
  us
• 29:42
  in
• 29:43
  Wilderness
• 29:43
  of
• 29:43
  Wellness
• 29:43
  Adventures
• 29:44
  because
• 29:45
  it's
• 29:45
  time,
• 29:45
  because
• 29:46
  this
• 29:46
  body
• 29:46
  of
• 29:46
  yours,
• 29:47
  it's
• 29:47
  not
• 29:48
  your
• 29:48
  enemy.
• 29:49
  It's
• 29:50
  not,
• 29:51
  it's,
• 29:51
  it's
• 29:52
  your
• 29:52
  calling.
• 29:52
  It's
• 29:53
  your
• 29:53
  purpose.
• 29:53
  It's
• 29:53
  the
• 29:54
  house
• 29:54
  of
• 29:54
  the
• 29:54
  Holy
• 29:54
  Spirit.
• 29:55
  It
• 29:55
  is
• 29:56
  the
• 29:56
  the
• 29:57
  gift
• 29:57
  that
• 29:57
  God
• 29:58
  gave
• 29:58
  you
• 29:58
  to
• 29:58
  do
• 29:59
  and
• 29:59
  go
• 29:59
  make
• 30:00
  disciples
• 30:00
  and
• 30:01
  to
• 30:01
  teach
• 30:02
  them
• 30:02
  and
• 30:02
  baptize
• 30:03
  them
• 30:03
  and
• 30:03
  to
• 30:04
  go
• 30:04
  because
• 30:05
  God
• 30:05
  will
• 30:05
  be
• 30:05
  with
• 30:05
  us.
• 30:06
  Every,
• 30:06
  everywhere
• 30:07
  we
• 30:07
  go
• 30:07
  from
• 30:07
  the
• 30:07
  ends
• 30:08
  of
• 30:08
  the
• 30:08
  earth,
• 30:08
  he
• 30:09
  will
• 30:09
  be
• 30:09
  with
• 30:09
  us
• 30:09
  as
• 30:10
  we
• 30:10
  do
• 30:10
  it.
• 30:10
  He
• 30:10
  doesn't
• 30:10
  leave
• 30:11
  us
• 30:11
  while
• 30:11
  we're
• 30:11
  doing
• 30:11
  this.
• 30:12
  He
• 30:12
  is
• 30:12
  with
• 30:12
  us
• 30:13
  alongside
• 30:13
  it.
• 30:13
  And
• 30:13
  if
• 30:13
  you
• 30:14
  need
• 30:14
  a
• 30:14
  space
• 30:14
  where
• 30:15
  your
• 30:15
  spiritual
• 30:15
  life
• 30:16
  and
• 30:16
  you
• 30:16
  have
• 30:16
  a
• 30:16
  sp
• 30:17
  or
• 30:17
  need
• 30:17
  a
• 30:17
  space
• 30:17
  where
• 30:17
  you
• 30:18
  have
• 30:18
  accountability,
• 30:18
  where
• 30:19
  we
• 30:19
  can
• 30:19
  see
• 30:19
  the
• 30:19
  whole
• 30:20
  person,
• 30:20
  where
• 30:20
  we
• 30:20
  actually
• 30:21
  care
• 30:21
  about
• 30:21
  you,
• 30:22
  and
• 30:22
  you
• 30:22
  need
• 30:22
  a
• 30:22
  path
• 30:23
  that
• 30:23
  gives
• 30:23
  you
• 30:23
  your
• 30:23
  functional,
• 30:24
  foundational,
• 30:25
  holistic
• 30:25
  medicine,
• 30:25
  but
• 30:26
  also
• 30:26
  the
• 30:26
  foundations
• 30:27
  of
• 30:27
  wellness
• 30:28
  in
• 30:28
  your
• 30:28
  lifestyle,
• 30:28
  like
• 30:29
  in
• 30:29
  in
• 30:29
  your
• 30:29
  whole
• 30:30
  lifestyle.
• 30:30
  I
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  have
• 30:31
  that
• 30:31
  for
• 30:31
  you.
• 30:32
  Inside
• 30:32
  the
• 30:32
  wilderness
• 30:32
  of
• 30:33
  Wellness
• 30:33
  Adventurers.
• 30:34
  You
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  are
• 30:35
  going
• 30:35
  to
• 30:35
  have
• 30:35
  a
• 30:35
  space
• 30:36
  where
• 30:36
  you
• 30:36
  can
• 30:37
  dive
• 30:37
  deep
• 30:38
  in
• 30:38
  your
• 30:38
  relationship
• 30:39
  with
• 30:39
  Jesus.
• 30:39
  We
• 30:39
  have
• 30:40
  a
• 30:40
  discipleship
• 30:40
  group
• 30:41
  called
• 30:41
  the
• 30:41
  Campfire
• 30:41
  Chats.
• 30:42
  We
• 30:42
  actually
• 30:43
  have
• 30:43
  worksheets
• 30:43
  that
• 30:43
  we
• 30:43
  download
• 30:44
  and
• 30:44
  we
• 30:44
  go
• 30:44
  through.
• 30:44
  We
• 30:45
  have
• 30:45
  teaching
• 30:45
  a
• 30:45
  little
• 30:45
  micro
• 30:46
  teaching
• 30:46
  sessions.
• 30:47
  This
• 30:47
  is
• 30:47
  not
• 30:47
  a
• 30:48
  40
• 30:48
  minute
• 30:48
  Bible
• 30:49
  study.
• 30:49
  This
• 30:49
  is
• 30:49
  not
• 30:50
  a
• 30:50
  space
• 30:50
  where
• 30:50
  you're
• 30:50
  going
• 30:51
  to
• 30:51
  have
• 30:51
  to
• 30:51
  go
• 30:51
  and
• 30:51
  like
• 30:52
  learn
• 30:52
  all
• 30:52
  the
• 30:52
  things
• 30:53
  like
• 30:53
  right
• 30:53
  now
• 30:54
  and
• 30:54
  apply
• 30:54
  'em
• 30:54
  now.
• 30:54
  No,
• 30:55
  we
• 30:55
  meet
• 30:55
  you
• 30:55
  where
• 30:55
  you
• 30:55
  are
• 30:56
  because
• 30:56
  everybody's
• 30:57
  on
• 30:57
  a
• 30:57
  different
• 30:57
  path
• 30:58
  or
• 30:58
  on
• 30:58
  the
• 30:58
  same
• 30:59
  path
• 30:59
  of,
• 30:59
  of
• 30:59
  sanctification,
• 31:00
  but
• 31:00
  we
• 31:01
  all
• 31:01
  are
• 31:01
  starting
• 31:01
  at
• 31:01
  a
• 31:01
  different.
• 31:02
  Point.
• 31:02
  And
• 31:03
  that's
• 31:03
  okay.
• 31:04
  And
• 31:05
  that's
• 31:05
  okay.
• 31:06
  And
• 31:06
  if
• 31:06
  any
• 31:07
  of
• 31:07
  this
• 31:07
  resonated
• 31:07
  with
• 31:08
  you,
• 31:08
  check
• 31:09
  the
• 31:09
  show
• 31:09
  notes
• 31:09
  below.
• 31:10
  And
• 31:11
  guys,
• 31:12
  I
• 31:12
  am
• 31:12
  here.
• 31:12
  I
• 31:12
  am
• 31:12
  with
• 31:13
  you.
• 31:13
  I
• 31:13
  am
• 31:13
  with
• 31:14
  you
• 31:14
  in
• 31:14
  the
• 31:14
  wilderness,
• 31:15
  and
• 31:15
  God
• 31:15
  is
• 31:16
  with
• 31:16
  us
• 31:16
  too
• 31:17
  Until
• 31:17
  next
• 31:17
  week.
• 31:20
  Thanks
• 31:20
  for
• 31:20
  listening
• 31:20
  to
• 31:20
  The
• 31:20
  Cry
• 31:21
  to
• 31:21
  My
• 31:21
  Cheesecake
• 31:21
  podcast.
• 31:22
  I
• 31:22
  hope
• 31:22
  it
• 31:22
  encourage
• 31:22
  you
• 31:23
  to
• 31:23
  make
• 31:23
  a
• 31:23
  next
• 31:23
  best
• 31:23
  step
• 31:23
  for
• 31:23
  your
• 31:24
  health.
• 31:24
  Take
• 31:24
  a
• 31:24
  look
• 31:25
  at
• 31:25
  the
• 31:25
  show
• 31:25
  notes
• 31:25
  for
• 31:25
  more
• 31:25
  information
• 31:26
  or
• 31:26
  other
• 31:26
  links
• 31:27
  I
• 31:27
  mentioned
• 31:27
  in
• 31:27
  the
• 31:27
  episode.
• 31:28
  And
• 31:28
  if
• 31:28
  you
• 31:28
  got
• 31:28
  to
• 31:28
  this
• 31:29
  point,
• 31:29
  come
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  find
• 31:29
  me
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  on
• 31:30
  Instagram
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  at
• 31:30
  Dr.
• 31:31
  Danielle
• 31:31
  nd
• 31:32
  tell
• 31:32
  me
• 31:32
  you
• 31:33
  listened
• 31:33
  to
• 31:33
  this
• 31:33
  episode
• 31:34
  and
• 31:34
  what
• 31:34
  you
• 31:34
  got
• 31:34
  out
• 31:34
  of
• 31:34
  it.