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Episode 78 🎪 Parenting, True Crime and Chaos: Real Life Stuggles, Diddy Court Case, TV Shows We Are LOVING, AITA, BOOK CLUB! · This Is My Circus

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  Welcome to, this is my circus, the podcast where we embrace the chaos and keep it real about parenting, pop culture, true crime, and the books we can't put down because let's be honest, life is one big circus and we're just trying to survive with caffeine, sarcasm, and a little true crime obsession.
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  So if you love unfiltered conversation, questionable parenting hacks, and deep dives into the things that keep us up at night, you're in the right place.
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  Buckle up, grab your popcorn, and let's get into the chaos.
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  I'm Stephanie.
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  I'm Meredith.
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  And welcome to you.
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  This is my circus.
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  I missed you.
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  I missed you too.
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  I am so sorry everyone.
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  It was totally my fault.
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  I went outta town and then when I got back, I, we have talked about, depression and anxiety and stuff, and I was just, I.
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  In the throes of it.
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  So I'm sorry that was all me.
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  My fault.
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  It is.
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  Okay.
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  Life happens.
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  I've definitely had my weeks, had my days, had my months.
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  So no, it's just having years.
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  It's just something that, you know, we both deal with.
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  Yeah.
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  And you know what, I'm just kind of glad we're on opposite schedules with it.
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  Could you imagine if we were both just like totally down at one time?
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  Yeah.
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  We would just be on the couch with like a gallon of ice cream Yeah.
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  With Rex in the middle.
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  Yeah.
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  What I tell you, he is the best dog when I am like going through it.
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  Yeah.
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  Because he is so concerned and just wants to make it better.
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  Best.
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  Good boy.
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  Anyway.
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  Yeah.
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  We did lose one of our dogs.
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  I know.
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  I'm so sorry.
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  Thank you.
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  Thank you.
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  Oh, thank you.
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  So it was our old guy.
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  It was our boxer, our oldest boxer.
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  And, it happened really fast.
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  He had not been sick.
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  Hmm., It happened from lunchtime Friday to, he passed lunchtime on Saturday.
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  Oh my God.
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  So, he started with some symptoms and you know, it's like they ate something weird.
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  Yeah, they'll be all right.
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  You know, and then he just went downhill and like I said, happened fast.
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  I was with him at home when it happened and, he went really quickly and the other dogs are adjusting fine, but you know, that sucks.
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  That's hard.
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  Yeah.
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  but they're okay.
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  We're okay.
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  I've got his little paw prints back and all that.
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  I know Stephanie Brown helped me with that.
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  Don't make me cry.
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  Don't cry, don't cry.
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  I wasn't, I wasn't saying it to.
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  And it's, you know, it's tough.
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  It sucks.
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  I know.
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  But, everything that could have happened to have made it as good as it could have been.
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  I was with him.
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  I spent a lot of time with him that morning, just sitting with him.
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  So it was, okay.
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  But then I had a wedding.
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  I had to do that afternoon.
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  Gosh.
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  So my wedding friend Ashley texted me right after it happened.
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  She was like, Hey.
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  I don't have a backup it, you know, it's just her.
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  She owns her own business.
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  She's like, but I don't feel good.
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  I ate something I'm gonna power through.
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  And I was like, well, I got one better for you.
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  My do go, just died.
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  But we ended up both make it like we were both so punchy though, you know?
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  Yeah.
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  It was just an experience, but it was close by, was in Fort Mill.
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  It, it went okay.
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  But you know, sometimes it's just like, ha.
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  Yeah.
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  All the things.
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  But that, that was super sad.
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  But then, super happy with, Jackson finally getting his lights.
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  I was just going to say that.
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  So proud of that kid.
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  No 6:00 AM drag.
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  No 6:00 AM football practices, any mo and I've not seen him since that happens.
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  That happens.
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  I.
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  Keep tracking him.
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  Did you do that?
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  Yeah.
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  You still do it?
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  I still do it.
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  Yeah.
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  Like text me and, you know, it was raining today.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  So I was like, okay, watch out for the puddles.
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  Make sure before you move you, you remember where your windshield wipers are.
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  What if you hit a puddle?
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  And I'm like, chill.
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  Yeah.
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  You've got to kinda, yeah.
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  Let it go.
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  So to, he spent the night with a friend last night'cause he's still restricted with can drive past eight.
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  And he texted me today, he was like, we're gonna go to the Y and then we're gonna go do this.
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  And I was like, okay, that's fine.
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  And then text me again.
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  Can I go back to the Y and play basketball?
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  Yeah, that's fine.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  And then, okay, I'm gonna come home in a little bit late.
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  He's texting you, Dylan.
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  He is.
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  Dylan even when he first got his license, he was like, you have Life 360.
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  You can track me wherever I am.
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  That doesn't mean you're, that just means your phone is somewhere.
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  And I was like, I know.
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  I know.
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  Okay.
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  But I mean, he doesn't do anything sneaky, so.
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  Right.
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  I'm not worried about him doing the wrong thing.
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  Yeah.
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  But I was the same way.
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  I'm like, you need to let me know so that God forbid something happened.
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  Right, right.
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  well I told you when Dylan got, his license was no longer restricted.
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  I didn't even tell him for that.
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  How long is that for?
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  Well, so if they get a note from their school or whatever, they can have like the extended time.
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  Yeah.
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  But then.
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  After they have, their license for a full year, I believe.
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  Okay.
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  Without any accidents or tickets.
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  Okay.
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  If they have accidents or tickets, they can't have an unrestricted license.
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  Okay.
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  Well, I do know he does need to get a note because practices are so early.
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  It starts before his drive times aligned.
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  Okay.
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  They're good kids.
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  So yeah.
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  And Dylan's going into senior year.
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  Yeah, let's not talk about that today.
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  No, let's just talk about summertime and all the fun stuff.
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  Are there any Diddy updates?
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  Oh my gosh.
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  Have you seen all of the, who's been, yes.
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  So I ended up watching, you know, rotten Mango.
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  Yeah.
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  She was in the courtroom.
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  Yeah.
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  Oh my gosh, I just blanked on her name.
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  Stephanie?
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  It's Stephanie Sue?
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  Hold on, let me pull it up.
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  Stephanie Rotten Mango.
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  Oh, Stephanie.
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  Yeah.
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  Okay.
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  Good job.
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  It's SO Oh, thank you.
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  And Stephanie with a pH.
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  Love all the additional info.
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  So she actually made it into the courtroom.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  And,, if you can watch some of her TikTok, she'll talk about it and, and all the things.
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  So that's been interesting.
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  I tried to watch, there's a Netflix documentary and I don't remember the name of it, but it's like reenactments of the courtroom.
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  I could not get into it because like currently yes.
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  Really?
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  Yes.
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  And that's probably why the acting is so terrible because they like just, yeah, they just learned the script like that morning they're going.
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  But I haven't heard a lot of updates other than, just like Stephanie's stuff.
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  Really it's just been like TikTok updates.
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  There is a guy that I follow and his updates are phenomenal.
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  Okay.
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  What is his name?
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  I don't know.
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  I'll have to find it, but Okay.
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  Some people give better updates than others.
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  Yeah.
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  He's like funny and he does a lot of updates on a lot of different things like current stuff that we're into.
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  Okay, good.
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  Perfect.
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  I like him.
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  I like him already.
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  so, have you ever done an escape room?
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  Yes.
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  Okay.
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  So they're a lot of fun, but, some of them I've been to take all of your things and you like put'em in a locker and you can have the key back.
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  Oh, sorry about that.
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  Brian just sent me a TikTok that apparently he thinks I need to watch, but I've been to somewhere.
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  Did he get his own TikTok yet?
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  Yes.
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  Okay.
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  Thank God.
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  Thank God I have no excuses for my algorithm to be, I don't know, tools and whatever now is just puppies.
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  Oh yes, exactly.
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  And race nascar.
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  But I've been to some where they, like, you take your purse and your phone and your everything, and they've got lockers and you lock it and then you get the key.
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  But like, and that makes me feel so vulnerable.
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  Yeah.
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  Like them taking all my stuff.
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  Because you already feel like you can't get out.
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  Yeah.
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  I mean, that's the point, but yeah.
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  That's not my jam.
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  Did you, you didn't like it?
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  No.
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  Okay.
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  I don't, I don't.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  So I like them.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  I don't like doing'em with other people.
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  I wanna do'em by myself.
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  Like, I'll give you a task and you need to do it.
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  And if you're not gonna do it, then just sit quietly outta my way.
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  Go to the corner.
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  Right.
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  Or stop following me.
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  I told you to look at this lock.
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  Yeah.
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  And figure out this code.
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  I wanna for a team building Yes.
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  Work, which is why I don't do well.
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  But yeah, I just, you know, it's just not my, my thing.
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  Yeah.
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  There is something new in Charlotte where at the end if you don't.
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  Get out or whatever.
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  You get slimed oh no, don't do that.
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  And I was like, I would be in it just for the, oh, see, we're so different.
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  Didn't you watch Nickelodeon?
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  Oh yeah, absolutely.
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  And I always, what was, what was that show?
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  Double Dare.
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  Yeah.
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  Oh my God.
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  I, I wanted, okay, because you don't listen.
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  I wanted to go on that.
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  But it was like siblings, right?
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  Yeah.
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  Well there was different ones.
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  There was like family, okay, double Dare.
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  And then there was like different whatever, and I didn't feel like Posey would be good in it.
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  Take that out.
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  Don't take it out.
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  We'll see how she listens.
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  Yeah.
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  so I was gonna, you know, have to volunteer somebody else That's terrible.
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  Like going like climbing up like the pizza mountain or whatever.
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  Oh yeah.
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  It was like a rock wall, but it was like decorated, like something or, yeah, that was, that was cool.
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  Yeah.
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  I like the one too, I forgot, is it wipe out Uhhuh, where they jumped from like the big balls and stuff.
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  Okay.
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  So we started watching that when it was still like the Chinese version in college before they made it to American version.
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  And it was like, like English, but it was like they were matching up, nothing match up their mouth, their mouths were not matching up.
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  It was the funniest and then they turned it into an American version.
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  Yeah.
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  I love that show.
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  I talk at that so bad.
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  See, I know I would, because I can barely walk from like here to the door.
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  But I feel like in my prime would've been great.
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  I would not.
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  I would not.
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  I would be so bad.
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  And every time I watch it, I'm like, yep, nope.
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  Oh, well, especially when they have to like jump from the big ball to the big ball.
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  And it has like a bounce, like a recoil and Oh yeah.
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  Oh yeah.
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  No.
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  Oh, and then you fall in the water, the punching wall.
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  Oh yeah.
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  No.
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  In my head, I'm like, I would just jump into the mud.
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  You know what video I think is hilarious though.
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  When you said the punching thing, you know the video, we were blindfolds.
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  We could so do it in here.
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  And you tie the water bottles to the thing.
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  Yes.
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  And when there's like old people who have no idea what's going on, I die laughing at that.
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  I watched it and then the wife took off her blindfold.
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  It just.
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  I mean, I'm not going snitch.
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  And she would like, you know, Bob and Weave or whatever.
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  Yes.
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  Smack them in the head every time.
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  And it's like as soon as they stand up, it hits again and then they bend over and it's like as soon as they stand.
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  Oh my God.
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  Yeah.
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  So funny.
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  Yes.
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  Agreed.
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  Okay, let's, let's take it back a couple spaces.
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  We were talking about city trial.
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  Yeah.
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  So there's just all kinds of stuff.
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  Well, today, I guess his assistant, his old assistant.
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  Went on stand and supposedly from the one guy that like is in the courtroom that I watch, he said that it took a turn for the worst for Diddy.
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  Like, it was like, okay.
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  A very damning, but they didn't cross examine her yet.
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  Yeah.
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  So yeah, that could be, that could flip.
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  Yeah.
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  So who knows?
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  That could be whatever.
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  Dylan and I were talking in the car.
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  And again, I said like, there's no way I would ever go on that jury.
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  Right.
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  They should just listen to us and do it the way we say for sure the class.
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  But somebody said that there was two girls in the courtroom and I guess white nail polish is supposed to like be a representation of the Illuminati or something.
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  I dunno.
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  Okay.
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  But they were doing the Illuminati symbol.
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  In the courtroom when he turned around and he like put his fist to his chest, like, thank you or something to that effect or mouth.
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  Thank you.
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  I'm like, yep, nope, absolutely not.
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  I would be faking sick so bad.
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  Right.
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  And getting off that day.
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  No.
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  Yeah.
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  I'd be, I'd be gone.
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  Violent diarrhea.
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  Yeah.
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  I would be.
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  It's what would have to happen.
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  I need to pause here though.
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  Okay.
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  I love white nail polish.
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  I do too.
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  I don't know if it's like a certain, like design or like, I don't know how it, whatever all Yeah, okay.
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  I, I used to get like really tan, but like and it looks so good on black people that Yeah.
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  White with the end, the, the toenail polish.
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  Oh, yes.
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  Mm-hmm.
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  Okay.
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  So, yeah.
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  Lots of stuff gonna come out about Diddy.
• 11:48
  Yeah.
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  I'm excited.
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  I want all the details.
• 11:51
  I do too.
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  Did you hear about the whole Steve Harvey?
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  Oh, I did.
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  I heard a little bit that he was, at the parties, right?
• 11:59
  Well, he was at at least one party.
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  Yeah.
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  And there's at least one video of Diddy and Steve Harvey together, and Diddy has been blackmailing him for like 25 years or 20 years or something like that.
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  He's a black male, uhhuh.
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  Yeah.
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  And now people are like really pissed at Steve in his comment section on his TikTok is, I'm gonna have to go diabolical.
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  Uh, I do not like Steve Harvey.
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  Okay.
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  Some things he says are funny, but some are just so scripted and just so, yeah.
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  Like I can't stand that.
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  So, well let's come back to that.
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  Okay.
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  But.
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  Diddy dated Steve's daughter.
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  Oh, after the video was made.
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  Oh, with With Steve.
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  With him and Steve.
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  Okay.
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  Yeah.
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  And so people are like, you basically gave your daughter mm-hmm.
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  Your daughter to him.
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  Mm.
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  And so his comment section is what?
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  Diabolical what?
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  And they're like, you could have saved so many people had you come forward.
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  Yeah.
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  Oh, goodness.
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  Okay.
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  Because he was a grown man by that point.
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  It wasn't like he was one of these younger impressionable.
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  18.
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  Yeah.
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  Like in the early twenties, like Right.
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  He already had his career.
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  He was an adult man.
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  Older than did he?
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  I'm gonna have to go down that rabbit trail.
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  I had other things to do tonight, but I think I'm gonna be busy.
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  Did you watch the Cat Williams interview?
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  On.
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  Shehe or whatever Uhuh, where he like dropped all the bombs.
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  This was last year.
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  Okay.
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  No, it was like the truth is coming out.
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  And he said that Steve Harvey was basically like a plant.
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  Okay, not funny.
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  And he, yeah.
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  You know, but, you know, he doesn't, he does family Feud and the way he just presents himself.
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  The way he'll like lean over there and talk to them, but look like he's talking to the audience is just so mm-hmm.
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  Ugh.
• 13:52
  Yeah.
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  Just gives me the creeps.
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  Yeah.
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  I'm just not a fan.
• 13:57
  Yeah.
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  At all.
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  I just think he's smarmy and car salesman ish.
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  No offense to good car salesman out there, but just has a a, a gross vibe to me.
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  Um, do you like him?
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  I'm neither here nor there.
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  Yeah.
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  Yeah.
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  I think some of the, and it's more like the questions Yes.
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  And the reactions Right.
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  I think are more funny.
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  Like, I don't necessarily find him funny.
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  Right.
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  No.
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  I find it funny when they're like, name a pie with a fruit in it, and they're like, pecan, and they're like, yeah.
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  What I, that kind of thing.
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  Don't know how I would do on a family feud.
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  I don't know if under pressure I'm normally good under pressure.
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  Yeah.
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  But I think, I don't know.
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  So Jackson used to have this thing when he was little.
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  He loved Family Feud and he used to have a thing that he had his team of who was going on there.
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  And Brian was not on the list and neither was his grandmother.
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  And Grammy was not on the list, but it was me and Papapa.
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  Then his aunt Wanda, I can't remember who else, but he already had his team.
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  Papapa was the, the team, the leader of the captain of the, the ship.
• 15:04
  Yeah.
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  But I, I feel like, see again, I think I do good at wipe out.
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  I think I do good at family.
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  What can I not do?
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  You are wonder.
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  I think I am apparently.
• 15:15
  You should mock up some family if you had questions and ask.
• 15:17
  We need a third person to ask.
• 15:19
  Yeah, ask us.
• 15:21
  I get sucked into these stupid videos when I can't sleep at night.
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  What?
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  I've never heard this.
• 15:25
  And it makes me buy all these games.
• 15:27
  I've got so many breaking games.
• 15:29
  What do you have?
• 15:30
  Because I'm like, add to cart.
• 15:32
  Do you have a family feud?
• 15:34
  No.
• 15:34
  Oh.
• 15:34
  Um, but I have Well, we could find one.
• 15:37
  Yeah, they have one.
• 15:39
  I just saw there's a, okay, here me, there we go.
• 15:43
  A Harry Potter version of, cars Against Humanity.
• 15:47
  Shut.
• 15:50
  We need to do a game night.
• 15:52
  Goodness.
• 15:53
  So Girl Night, game Night.
• 15:54
  Yes.
• 15:55
  Yes.
• 15:56
  Okay.
• 15:57
  Okay.
• 15:57
  Are you hosting?
• 15:58
  I can.
• 15:58
  Okay.
• 15:59
  let's go back one, one time.
• 16:00
  Okay.
• 16:01
  We've got like, would you rather, there is, I mean, there's.
• 16:05
  Who's most likely to.
• 16:06
  So it's like a game.
• 16:08
  Yeah.
• 16:08
  And you got, everybody has to vote of who is most likely to do whatever.
• 16:11
  I already have the invite list in my head.
• 16:13
  Okay.
• 16:14
  I'm good.
• 16:15
  It got a little out of control in my head.
• 16:17
  I need to taper it down.
• 16:19
  There's a lot going on there.
• 16:22
  That'd be fun though.
• 16:23
  It would still, it.
• 16:25
  Okay, so you said everybody got fired at Ki Wind's.
• 16:27
  Oh yeah.
• 16:28
  So I don't know what happened.
• 16:29
  It said they got rid of all of their full-time hourly employees and they kept seasonal and part-time employees, which is super crazy for a lot of reasons.
• 16:40
  Number one, we're going into like the super pissy season.
• 16:42
  Yeah.
• 16:43
  And number two, they never have enough people there anyway.
• 16:46
  Yeah.
• 16:47
  Things are always broken.
• 16:48
  I don't know.
• 16:49
  I'm just, something is super sketchy about it.
• 16:51
  Right.
• 16:51
  They're open all, I mean, pretty much other than like three months, right?
• 16:54
  They're open all year.
• 16:55
  Right.
• 16:56
  So, I don't know.
• 16:57
  I mean now they have the water park too, right?
• 17:00
  We talked about this.
• 17:01
  They put a bar.
• 17:02
  Bad decision, bad decision.
• 17:03
  Bad decision.
• 17:05
  Bad decision.
• 17:05
  Almost as bad as.
• 17:08
  Our neighbors are selling their house, like are directly beside us neighbors.
• 17:12
  Oh no.
• 17:13
  They're great neighbors.
• 17:15
  I love them.
• 17:16
  They're not going far, but when there's somebody ripe, especially when we've had.
• 17:21
  Have had all that space and there's gonna be somebody right there.
• 17:24
  I was like, I'm gonna sabotage your open house.
• 17:27
  I was like, I'm gonna put on a bikini and come out here and wash the car and have Jackson's music playing loud and have a ghetto yard sale with like half broken things.
• 17:37
  I'm gonna do all the things so nobody buys your house.
• 17:40
  Get I like the tacky yard decorations.
• 17:42
  Absolutely.
• 17:43
  I'm gonna, Ooh, that's another, I need to write that down.
• 17:45
  I'm gonna go put out some Christmas decorations.
• 17:49
  My mom's husband.
• 17:50
  It drives him insane when people leave their Christmas lights up ear round like he ate.
• 17:55
  That's the thing now though.
• 17:56
  I know he ate like it makes him crazy.
• 17:58
  Makes him bananas.
• 18:02
  Well, you know those, It's like a tube of lights and they put'em on the houses to stay all year.
• 18:08
  Yeah.
• 18:10
  That doesn't bother me, but like the icicle lights and all that, I'm like, come on guys.
• 18:14
  Yeah.
• 18:14
  Well there's a house right up the street, that has the year-round lights and they put the different colors.
• 18:18
  Right.
• 18:18
  Like St.
• 18:19
  Patrick Day kind, red, white, a red, white and blue, stuff like that.
• 18:22
  I get.
• 18:22
  Yeah.
• 18:23
  So I get they do do that.
• 18:25
  But I mean on like a random month where there's not, there's no ways.
• 18:30
  Right, oh my goodness.
• 18:32
  That is so funny.
• 18:33
  Well, I'm gonna be putting some stuff up in our.
• 18:36
  Yard.
• 18:37
  Some, some Christmas stuff.
• 18:38
  Well, Dylan and I went and watched Stitch Today.
• 18:40
  How was it at the theater?
• 18:42
  It was so good.
• 18:44
  Was it?
• 18:45
  I loved it.
• 18:46
  Good.
• 18:46
  Dylan loved it.
• 18:48
  And like, I just love Stitch My favorite.
• 18:51
  I've never seen what's the Lilo and Stitch Never seen that I.
• 18:56
  For live action.
• 18:57
  Yeah.
• 18:57
  Like sometimes they don't hit Right.
• 18:59
  Right.
• 18:59
  But this one was so good.
• 19:00
  Good.
• 19:01
  Yeah.
• 19:02
  Brian and I watched, last night because, you know, Jackson's gone Something fam.
• 19:08
  Instant Family with Mark Wahlberg Uhhuh I love Mark Wahlberg, so thinking it's either gonna be funny or actiony.
• 19:14
  No, it was like a heartstring thing by the end we were both like, no.
• 19:18
  Yeah, no, it was good based on a true story.
• 19:21
  Didn't know that.
• 19:22
  Mm-hmm.
• 19:22
  Um, but it was just like, thought was gonna be funny.
• 19:26
  There were funny parts, but.
• 19:27
  Yeah.
• 19:28
  Do you watch cooking shows?
• 19:30
  Sometimes.
• 19:31
  Okay.
• 19:31
  Uh, did you ever watch Cutthroat Kitchen?
• 19:33
  No.
• 19:33
  Oh my God.
• 19:34
  Best cooking show ever.
• 19:35
  Okay.
• 19:35
  Get to sabotage each other with like little mini utensils or like, so Good.
• 19:40
  That sounds fun.
• 19:41
  Yeah.
• 19:41
  Each start out with Like$10,000 or whatever, like get a suitcase and every sabotage you do, you have to pay for the sabotage if you're the last one standing, whatever you have left in your suitcase is what you go home with.
• 19:51
  Oh, it's so good.
• 19:53
  Okay.
• 19:53
  So Dylan and I used to watch it when he was little.
• 19:55
  Yeah.
• 19:55
  Like that was his favorite cooking show'cause it's really funny and sometimes they have to like.
• 20:00
  Pedal a bicycle while they're cook or just goofy things.
• 20:03
  Yeah.
• 20:04
  And they're doing a reboot of it and I'm so excited.
• 20:07
  I'm gonna have to watch that too.
• 20:08
  'cause that sounds, when you can sabotage people.
• 20:11
  I know.
• 20:11
  It's not like you're just trying to win, you're trying to make everybody else lose.
• 20:14
  Yeah.
• 20:15
  That's fun.
• 20:16
  And then they get back at each other in the next round.
• 20:18
  Oh yeah.
• 20:18
  Oh yeah.
• 20:19
  So good.
• 20:20
  So I started watching Secret Lives of Mormon wives.
• 20:25
  Oh.
• 20:25
  How is it?
• 20:26
  Not what I thought it was gonna be.
• 20:27
  Oh, okay.
• 20:28
  So I did not know that it was a bunch of hot women that were like, I was thinking Mormons, like they don't wear makeup and don't cut their hair.
• 20:38
  And I think I was thinking Amish people.
• 20:43
  I like, I was thinking whatever.
• 20:44
  And then I was scrolling on TikTok and I can't remember, you know, Norman, Amish, whatever, potato.
• 20:52
  Potato.
• 20:53
  I was scrolling on TikTok and one of them had a, we're back and we're talking about whatever, and I was like, oh, well who are you and where have you been?
• 21:02
  And so, you know, went down the rabbit hole and saw him and I'm like, they're all quite lovely.
• 21:07
  So I started watching it.
• 21:08
  I'm gonna be sucked in.
• 21:10
  Are you?
• 21:10
  Mm-hmm.
• 21:11
  Is it good?
• 21:11
  Drama?
• 21:12
  Drama?
• 21:13
  So they were soft swingers.
• 21:17
  Oh, okay, let me back up.
• 21:19
  So it was like mom talk.
• 21:20
  They started mom talk.
• 21:22
  Okay.
• 21:22
  It was the group of moms that were doing the dances and the things.
• 21:25
  Well then.
• 21:26
  There was like six of them.
• 21:28
  And apparently it came out that some of them were open to sharing their partners and then it imploded and like then, then they weren't friends anymore.
• 21:35
  And the talking I work, no, all the things like one girl outed them and told everybody about this and they were all like, like we're Mormons.
• 21:46
  We're not supposed to even like, I don't know.
• 21:48
  So lots of drama, lots of not Amish people at all.
• 21:55
  They weren't making butter.
• 21:56
  There was no butter churning., No hanging up clothes on the clothes line.
• 22:02
  But yeah, I don't know I was thinking of sister wives'cause they're Mormons, right?
• 22:06
  I think, I don't really know.
• 22:07
  I never watched that either.
• 22:08
  Yeah, that's.
• 22:12
  So that's been my, my new thing lately is watching, that.
• 22:17
  And, I'll keep you posted.
• 22:19
  Um, well, because I am so up to date on all my shows, because I don't sleep at night.
• 22:25
  What was it, it's called?
• 22:26
  Yes, chef.
• 22:27
  And I'm not, I don't even eat.
• 22:28
  So like, I don't know why I watch cooking shows.
• 22:30
  Right.
• 22:30
  Um, I do cook, but like I don't eat, so Yeah, it's not good.
• 22:34
  When I walked in here today, oh, I made homemade spaghetti.
• 22:36
  Woo.
• 22:37
  Well, not spaghetti.
• 22:38
  I made homemade sauce.
• 22:40
  I was still impressed with the sauce though.
• 22:42
  It fucking was not pasta.
• 22:44
  Have you ever done that?
• 22:46
  Um, I, I've been yuckies before.
• 22:49
  Say it again.
• 22:49
  Yuckies.
• 22:55
  I'm impressed.
• 22:56
  Yeah.
• 22:56
  My grandfather, was from Yugoslavia, like came over from Yu Yugoslavia.
• 23:00
  Okay.
• 23:00
  And, so when I was little, he would make him and my grandmother would make like homemade junkies and so he would have us, I like that word.
• 23:08
  I, but I would make like different shapes.
• 23:10
  I didn't make like, I was like five, you were free styling, but I made them as an adult too.
• 23:14
  But yeah.
• 23:15
  So one thing that I would like and we'll get back to whenever you.
• 23:18
  You were gonna say, because mine is way more fun.
• 23:21
  But, I would love to travel all over the world pretty much.
• 23:25
  And whatever country I'm in, I wanna do like a cooking class.
• 23:27
  That'd be so much fun.
• 23:29
  Yeah.
• 23:29
  Like I wanna go to Italy and make the pasta.
• 23:31
  Make it the pasta.
• 23:32
  I wanna go to Italy'cause I can eat those.
• 23:34
  Well, the, yeah, there that too.
• 23:36
  Let's go, put it on the list, put it on edit right after all of our other places that we said we're gonna go, that we haven't been to yet.
• 23:43
  Yeah.
• 23:44
  We'll get there.
• 23:45
  Okay, what were you gonna say before interrupt?
• 23:47
  Martha Stewart is one of the host.
• 23:49
  Okay.
• 23:49
  For that show.
• 23:50
  No.
• 23:50
  This one.
• 23:50
  Yes, chef.
• 23:51
  Yes chef.
• 23:51
  Okay.
• 23:51
  But it's all these chefs that explode on people.
• 23:54
  Oh.
• 23:54
  And they're trying to like rein it in or they're really mean to like their kitchen staff.
• 23:58
  And so all of the people have nominated them to go to get a hold of their issues.
• 24:04
  Oh gosh.
• 24:06
  They're trying to make them be nice.
• 24:08
  Oh my gosh.
• 24:10
  So chefs are notoriously angry.
• 24:12
  Like they're so, and I, I guess that, you know, that's their art and somebody else is performing their art and I'm trying to understand and they get upset when people aren't doing their art.
• 24:22
  Right.
• 24:22
  Did I just go blank?
• 24:24
  Yeah, absolutely.
• 24:26
  I saw it.
• 24:27
  I saw what happened.
• 24:28
  Yeah.
• 24:29
  I'm stopping.
• 24:30
  But I think Martha Stewart is so funny now.
• 24:32
  Like I just, oh yeah.
• 24:34
  Her with Snoop all the time and Of course, yeah, of course.
• 24:36
  Yeah.
• 24:37
  They need a cooking show together.
• 24:38
  Surprised there's not one, like a green one.
• 24:43
  I'm surprised there's not one.
• 24:44
  There might be, I think there was a couple of specials that they did together.
• 24:47
  But I like to see'em bake and decorate things.
• 24:50
  Oh.
• 24:52
  Yeah, so like the kids best baking shows and stuff.
• 24:55
  Mm-hmm.
• 24:55
  We used to watch that too.
• 24:56
  Yeah.
• 24:57
  I get sucked into even just like tiktoks when they're decorating a cake or that royal icing that they just like, ah, it's so satisfying.
• 25:04
  Yeah.
• 25:04
  Mm-hmm.
• 25:05
  Yeah.
• 25:06
  Dylan, when he was little, loved to watch cooking shows with me.
• 25:08
  Mm-hmm.
• 25:09
  And like we would.
• 25:11
  Every week we would have like our little schedule of whatever cooking show was on that day.
• 25:16
  That's cute.
• 25:16
  There's nothing wrong with that.
• 25:17
  So he used to like to cook and do all the things with him?
• 25:20
  Yeah.
• 25:21
  Yeah.
• 25:21
  in the kitchen.
• 25:22
  Nice.
• 25:23
  Yeah.
• 25:23
  He's ing he still does, right?
• 25:24
  He he could, he can.
• 25:26
  Yeah.
• 25:26
  When he feels like it.
• 25:27
  Yeah.
• 25:28
  That's good though.
• 25:29
  It's a good skill.
• 25:29
  He had watched a TikTok one day, one time, and.
• 25:33
  Was like, can you take me to the grocery store?
• 25:34
  And I'm like, okay, what are we, what are we doing?
• 25:37
  He made like shrimp tacos with like fresh like pico to Gao.
• 25:41
  Like really?
• 25:41
  Yeah.
• 25:42
  Like the whole shebang.
• 25:43
  I don't eat shrimp, but him and Brandon ate it and Brandon said it was banging it's bang bang shrimp tacos.
• 25:50
  I couldn't get my words out.
• 25:51
  That's good though.
• 25:53
  That's a good life skill for him to have.
• 25:54
  Mm-hmm.
• 25:55
  You don't clean up after it.
• 25:56
  But that's the worst part though.
• 25:58
  I hate cleaning.
• 26:00
  I don't mind the cooking.
• 26:02
  It's everything else that goes along.
• 26:03
  It's the, it's the making the list, it's the going shopping, it's the bringing it in, it's the cooking and then the cleaning.
• 26:08
  And by that time you just don't even wanna eat anything.
• 26:11
  Yeah.
• 26:12
  Oh, we had talked back and forth about the Annabelle, Annabelle doll.
• 26:16
  Yeah.
• 26:16
  Well, they supposedly found her.
• 26:18
  Okay.
• 26:19
  Did you see the TikTok?
• 26:20
  Yes.
• 26:21
  They supposedly found her.
• 26:22
  She's supposedly in the museum, but I don't know if they're just doing that to save face because Right.
• 26:28
  Let's, let's give the people a little recap.
• 26:29
  Yeah.
• 26:29
  So Annabelle was on tour and she got missing in Texas, was it Texas?
• 26:34
  Mm-hmm.
• 26:35
  And, so supposedly they opened the box to take selfies, and then when they were packing up to leave, Annabelle was missing and all I kept picturing, because Annabel is not the Annabel from the movie, it's a raggedy and doll.
• 26:47
  Mm-hmm.
• 26:48
  All I kept picturing in my head was.
• 26:51
  Well one her like murdering somebody.
• 26:54
  But then, but when I had texted to you and you said Jackson said she probably Yeah.
• 26:59
  Ran away because she's possessed and then I'm just picturing raggedy in like, yeah, we a wobble and down the street well, and then after.
• 27:06
  Okay, so our minds, after I told you that, and you.
• 27:10
  Responded, all you could picture is that all I could picture then was the gingerbread man running down the street fast.
• 27:19
  As fast can be.
• 27:22
  You'll never catch me.
• 27:24
  Catch me.
• 27:25
  Yeah.
• 27:25
  Yes.
• 27:26
  Wait, was I saying the wrong thing?
• 27:27
  It doesn't matter.
• 27:28
  It did.
• 27:29
  Yeah.
• 27:30
  But yeah, so I just played off of what you said, like our minds are so twisted.
• 27:34
  Yeah.
• 27:34
  Lock her up.
• 27:36
  Why are they touring with her?
• 27:38
  They said don't, move her asking for punishment.
• 27:42
  And I really question, if she's really back, could you imagine like, listen, here's what I'm picturing, right?
• 27:49
  You wake up in the morning and your blinds are open and there's a freaking doll staring in your window.
• 27:54
  I would throw something at it.
• 27:55
  That would do a lot of good.
• 27:57
  What am I gonna throw though?
• 27:59
  The pillow, I guess.
• 28:01
  I mean, I have so many scenarios that could go wrong.
• 28:05
  Yeah.
• 28:05
  This doll.
• 28:06
  Yeah.
• 28:07
  It's a good thing.
• 28:08
  I don't sleep so.
• 28:10
  Well now I'm thinking, well, what if somebody runs over her with the car while she's like running down the street?
• 28:14
  And then are, is she gonna be then out to get them?
• 28:16
  Can she leave the doll and possess something different?
• 28:20
  Oh, I don't.
• 28:21
  You know what I mean?
• 28:22
  Yeah.
• 28:23
  Can she like change?
• 28:24
  So did she like get out?
• 28:26
  She like hopped to like a teddy ruxbin or my buddy.
• 28:33
  Yeah.
• 28:35
  Yeah.
• 28:36
  Yeah.
• 28:37
  Joe.
• 28:39
  A transformer.
• 28:41
  Oh, I just septic on.
• 28:44
  I love transformers.
• 28:45
  So do I.
• 28:47
  Oh my goodness.
• 28:48
  All right.
• 28:48
  So am I.
• 28:49
  The A-hole.
• 28:50
  Yay.
• 28:51
  I love these go.
• 28:53
  Am I overreacting for calling off my wedding after my fiance got drunk, put on my wedding dress and had an accident in it?
• 29:00
  So, I love finding wedding, and I did not read this, but I love finding wedding ones because I know you love them.
• 29:06
  I do.
• 29:07
  I do love them.
• 29:08
  And the brides are so insane.
• 29:10
  So let's see who we side with here.
• 29:12
  Okay.
• 29:13
  Here we go.
• 29:14
  This was just a couple weeks ago, Uhhuh.
• 29:16
  Okay.
• 29:16
  This sounds completely ridiculous, but it really happened and I can't stop thinking about it.
• 29:21
  Some people are telling me I completely overreacted and I'm starting to question myself.
• 29:26
  I'm 28 and was supposed to get married last weekend to my fiance Nick, who's 30.
• 29:30
  We've been together for four years.
• 29:32
  He's funny and a little impulsive, but I always thought he had good judgment.
• 29:37
  He drinks socially, but I've never seen him totally out of control until now.
• 29:42
  The night before our wedding, I stayed at home with my sister and two of my bridesmaids for a relaxed night.
• 29:47
  Nick went out with his groomsmen.
• 29:49
  I expected him to come home tipsy at most, around one 30 in the morning.
• 29:53
  He came home absolutely wasted, slurring, stumbling, sweaty.
• 29:57
  I was brushing my teeth when I heard him banging around in the guest room.
• 30:01
  When I went to check, I saw him dragging my wedding dress out of the closet.
• 30:05
  I asked what he was doing and he just laughed and said he wanted to see how it felt to be the bride.
• 30:11
  I told him to put it back and not to touch it, but he was not listening at all right in front of me.
• 30:16
  He stripped down completely and started putting on the dress.
• 30:20
  He could barely get it over his body and kept tripping over the train.
• 30:25
  I didn't know what to say.
• 30:26
  Then he dropped to the floor and the dress still laughing.
• 30:29
  Then he went quiet, looked up at me with this panic face and said, oh no.
• 30:38
  A few seconds later, he had an accident, diarrhea.
• 30:42
  It soaked through the back of the dress and onto the carpet.
• 30:46
  The smell was immediate and overwhelming.
• 30:51
  I stood there in shock while he started crying.
• 30:57
  I'm picturing big, burly, hairy dude crying in a wedding dress with shit all over it.
• 31:06
  He snorted back in.
• 31:18
  I stood there in shock while he started crying and tried to get out of the dress, which only made more of a mess.
• 31:27
  It was all over the fabric, the floor, and him.
• 31:32
  I told him to get in the shower and I left.
• 31:34
  I drove straight to my mom's house and didn't take any of his calls.
• 31:38
  The next morning I caught off the wedding.
• 31:41
  Since then, Nick has apologized over and like, what is he telling people?
• 31:47
  Nick has apologized over and over.
• 31:50
  Uhhuh.
• 31:50
  Why did she take a video?
• 31:52
  Right?
• 31:53
  Fixer.
• 31:54
  It didn't happen, girl.
• 31:55
  I mean, she was probably like, is this real?
• 31:59
  Sorry.
• 32:00
  No, don't apologize.
• 32:02
  Nick's.
• 32:02
  Nick's the one.
• 32:04
  Since then, Nick has apologized over and over.
• 32:06
  He said he blacked out and barely remembers.
• 32:09
  What happened?
• 32:11
  His family is furious with me and says, I'm throwing away a great relationship over a drunken mistake.
• 32:16
  Stinky and disgusting drunken mistake.
• 32:21
  I dunno if I could like l Okay, go ahead.
• 32:23
  Okay.
• 32:24
  Some of my friends agree and think I should have postponed instead of canceling.
• 32:28
  Even my maid of honor said I might be letting emotions take over and that it wasn't unforgivable.
• 32:34
  But I feel like something broke that night.
• 32:37
  Yeah.
• 32:37
  I her, I didn't just feel disgusted.
• 32:45
  I felt disrespected.
• 32:47
  The dress wasn't just expensive.
• 32:50
  It was important to me and symbolize something.
• 32:52
  I cannot unsee what happened.
• 32:54
  That's the part that's where I was going.
• 32:55
  Like I don't know if I could be intimate.
• 32:59
  Yeah.
• 32:59
  After that.
• 33:00
  Like I, no, you know, like, like when a baby has a blowout?
• 33:03
  Yeah.
• 33:04
  Like that.
• 33:04
  That's what we're picturing.
• 33:06
  I'm like, ew.
• 33:07
  Yeah.
• 33:07
  Yeah.
• 33:07
  A hundred percent.
• 33:09
  I can, uh, unsee what happened.
• 33:10
  I can't laugh about it or move on.
• 33:12
  I got you.
• 33:13
  I can laugh about it.
• 33:14
  Handle.
• 33:15
  Yeah.
• 33:17
  Like it's just one bad night.
• 33:18
  I don't know how to look at him the same way.
• 33:20
  Am I overreacting for calling off the wedding?
• 33:22
  Okay.
• 33:22
  Before the update, let's chat.
• 33:24
  I you gotta live with it like nobody else does.
• 33:27
  So if you are not feeling it, then you do.
• 33:30
  You like, that's, that's like long decision.
• 33:33
  Yeah, well, kind of.
• 33:35
  Right.
• 33:35
  But yeah, I don't disagree, so I, yeah.
• 33:39
  I'm not judging you for calling off the wedding.
• 33:41
  That's pretty gross.
• 33:42
  Yeah.
• 33:43
  The next day was soon.
• 33:45
  It was.
• 33:45
  I like to say I probably would've still gotten married, been pissed, but probably would've gotten married in a different dress.
• 33:53
  Like I would have wrapped myself in a white bed sheet or something.
• 33:57
  I don't know.
• 33:57
  I just did it say, I feel like that was extreme.
• 34:00
  Bachelor and bachelorette party shouldn't do the night before our wedding anyway.
• 34:03
  Yeah.
• 34:03
  No, no.
• 34:05
  You know what though?
• 34:06
  Like I would, that's something I would do.
• 34:08
  I would've been like, no peace out.
• 34:10
  Yeah.
• 34:10
  A wedding is so much.
• 34:12
  It is work.
• 34:13
  And it's like all, a lot of it falls on the woman.
• 34:17
  Yeah.
• 34:17
  And so here's my thing that I agree with her on.
• 34:22
  It's not the disgusting stuff.
• 34:24
  I mean, that's gross, but, you know, life happens.
• 34:28
  It's the.
• 34:29
  If that dress was important to her and the well, obviously it was.
• 34:32
  Right.
• 34:33
  Yeah.
• 34:33
  And the wedding important, then he should have the respect of that stuff to not do that.
• 34:39
  Yeah.
• 34:39
  That's what I don't like.
• 34:41
  Right.
• 34:41
  It's that he disrespected something that was important to her.
• 34:44
  Yeah.
• 34:44
  I'm not mad at her for that.
• 34:45
  Now as far as.
• 34:47
  He kind of even like ripped the dress and I would've been, I mean, I would've been livid, like there's no fixing that.
• 34:53
  Yeah.
• 34:53
  By the time, the night before.
• 34:55
  Yeah.
• 34:55
  You wanna do the update?
• 34:57
  Mm-hmm.
• 34:57
  Okay.
• 34:58
  so this is update the next day.
• 35:00
  Hi again.
• 35:01
  First off, thank you to everyone who responded.
• 35:03
  I didn't expect the level of attention my post got, and honestly, reading their replies made me feel less alone.
• 35:09
  Some people told me I was right to call it off.
• 35:11
  Others said it was a terrible mistake but not unforgivable.
• 35:14
  Both sides helped me see the situation more clearly.
• 35:16
  I spoke to Nick this morning not for closure, not for a big emotional talk, just to return some things and check in about logistics since everything's been canceled, but we ended up sitting down and talking forever.
• 35:27
  An hour.
• 35:28
  He apologized again.
• 35:29
  Sincerely, he didn't try to defend himself or shift blame.
• 35:33
  He told me he didn't remember everything clearly, but nosy came home wasted, saw the dress, and in his words, thought it would be funny or meaningful or something.
• 35:40
  Okay, timeout.
• 35:42
  I could see.
• 35:43
  Sometimes when I'm drinking, I think some, and I know I'm not alone.
• 35:49
  Get a little carried away.
• 35:50
  Yeah.
• 35:51
  And I think something's gonna be funny or go over really well and it crosses a line.
• 35:56
  I, but this is totally off the rails.
• 35:59
  Yeah.
• 36:00
  This isn't crossing the line.
• 36:01
  This is just, this isn't just pulling it out and like, right.
• 36:05
  Look at me.
• 36:06
  Yeah.
• 36:07
  Or like a little, you know, the veil, whatever, like playing with that.
• 36:10
  This is.
• 36:11
  Stripping down, putting it on.
• 36:15
  Okay.
• 36:16
  He didn't mean to ruin the dress.
• 36:18
  He didn't mean to humiliate me, but he did and he knows that.
• 36:22
  He said he's ashamed of what happened and how outta control he let himself get.
• 36:26
  He also admitted this wasn't the first time his drinking led to something bad.
• 36:29
  He said this was a wake up call and that he's gonna stop drinking entirely.
• 36:33
  I didn't even know he had a problem.
• 36:35
  The thing is, I still care about him.
• 36:36
  We were supposed to get married.
• 36:38
  I didn't walk away from someone I didn't love, but something inside me cracked that night and it hadn't healed.
• 36:43
  I don't know if it will.
• 36:45
  I know it sounds superficial to some people, but for me it was a symbol of our future of the person I thought I was marrying and watching him defile it in that state, whether on purpose or by accident change something.
• 36:54
  Def file.
• 36:56
  I get where she's coming from though.
• 36:59
  Shut up.
• 37:02
  Not growing up in a, I'm not, I've been trying to figure out if that one night should be the end of four years together, but it's not really just that night, is it?
• 37:12
  It's what it revealed and how he handled the stress about how far he let himself go, about how I felt standing in that room watching someone I love become almost unrecognizable.
• 37:23
  I haven't made a final decision yet.
• 37:24
  Technically, the wedding is still canceled, but the relationship isn't officially over.
• 37:29
  We're on kind of an emotional pause, I guess.
• 37:31
  He says he wants to make things right and maybe he will.
• 37:33
  Maybe with time I want to try again, but right now I feel like I'm grieving something that ended and I don't know if I'm ready to build it back from scratch.
• 37:40
  So I guess now I'm asking am I overreacting if I walk away from this completely?
• 37:44
  No, it's your life decision.
• 37:45
  Yeah.
• 37:46
  I mean, you can walk away for any reason.
• 37:48
  Right.
• 37:48
  Like, it, it, it could be that, he chews with his mouth open and it annoys you.
• 37:52
  Like, do you wanna live without the rest of your life?
• 37:55
  Right.
• 37:56
  Right, right.
• 37:57
  I a hundred percent agree.
• 37:59
  You gotta, you're the one that has to live with that decision.
• 38:01
  Right.
• 38:01
  It sounds a bit extreme when you start, like when we started out with it, but it's really not because it's more to her than just him having an accident.
• 38:14
  I was trying to not make you giggle.
• 38:16
  Did not succeed.
• 38:18
  It's, it's more than that.
• 38:19
  It's the respect, it's the, I mean, I know she's humiliated.
• 38:23
  Mm-hmm.
• 38:24
  I mean, she's telling her friends.
• 38:25
  And I'm not a big enough person to try to protect them.
• 38:30
  Mm-hmm.
• 38:30
  If we broke up, I'd be telling everybody again, I video.
• 38:33
  Yeah.
• 38:35
  Um, camera would've been pulled out.
• 38:37
  Oh, yeah.
• 38:38
  Yeah.
• 38:38
  Live on all the Yeah.
• 38:40
  Yeah.
• 38:40
  You would be.
• 38:42
  I having all the followers right now.
• 38:43
  My God.
• 38:44
  Um, so you make your decision.
• 38:47
  I don't think you're a jerk.
• 38:48
  I think you do.
• 38:50
  You boo.
• 38:50
  Yeah.
• 38:51
  I don't think you're the, a-hole at all.
• 38:53
  And I don't think you're the, a-hole if you decide to walk away completely.
• 38:56
  Mm-hmm.
• 38:56
  I don't have to live with a man.
• 38:57
  You would have to.
• 38:57
  And if you don't want to live with a man for the rest of your life, then don't.
• 39:01
  Yeah.
• 39:02
  People break up for less.
• 39:05
  They do.
• 39:06
  They do, but they also overlook more.
• 39:08
  Yeah.
• 39:08
  So I mean, it's whatever you can live with.
• 39:10
  Right.
• 39:11
  That was a good one though.
• 39:13
  I do like wedding ones.
• 39:14
  I know you do.
• 39:16
  I just saw the title and I had not read any of it.
• 39:18
  Mm-hmm.
• 39:18
  And I saw the title, I'm like, yep.
• 39:19
  You're like, this is the one.
• 39:20
  That's it.
• 39:21
  Mm-hmm.
• 39:22
  Mm-hmm.
• 39:22
  Well, I think we're gonna do our book.
• 39:24
  Yes.
• 39:24
  So if you're not a bookie, you can bounce Peace out yo.
• 39:27
  And we'll talk to you soon.
• 39:28
  We love you though.
• 39:29
  We love you.
• 39:29
  And please listen or tell, tell.
• 39:31
  Nope.
• 39:31
  No, don't do that.
• 39:32
  We'll, well, I mean do it, but you've already done it.
• 39:35
  Please tell your friends and leave us a review.
• 39:38
  We would love for you to do that.
• 39:39
  And have a great rest of your week.
• 39:42
  Yep.
• 39:42
  Bye y'all.
• 39:43
  Bye.
• 39:43
  Okay.
• 39:44
  So, hey, our real friends, don't tell the others, but you're our favorites.
• 39:49
  Okay, so we read The Quiet Girl by SF Cosa.
• 39:52
  Yes.
• 39:53
  Okay.
• 39:53
  Got a blurb of a blurb.
• 39:54
  Well, it's just a little line that Chay BT gave me today.
• 39:57
  Perfect.
• 39:57
  A new wife disappears, leaving behind her rings and a mystery her husband never saw coming, done, done, done.
• 40:05
  I mean, but that like really encompasses everything.
• 40:07
  Yeah.
• 40:08
  Okay.
• 40:08
  Let's go ahead and say all the spoilers.
• 40:10
  Okay.
• 40:10
  We're gonna have them, well trigger warning and trigger warnings.
• 40:13
  There is, inappropriate.
• 40:16
  Child relations, relations.
• 40:18
  There is sa yes.
• 40:22
  There's self-harm.
• 40:25
  There was like physical abuse.
• 40:27
  There was, suicide.
• 40:28
  Yeah.
• 40:29
  Um, all right.
• 40:30
  Yeah, I think those are all of them.
• 40:31
  A a lot of, a lot of'em in this one.
• 40:32
  Yeah.
• 40:33
  So trigger warning, if you haven't read it.
• 40:35
  And murder.
• 40:36
  And murder, um, but I'm assuming that you read it because you're here, so there you go.
• 40:43
  So this book totally took me on a ride a hundred percent.
• 40:48
  It was.
• 40:49
  I know we don't wanna swear, but it was a mind fact.
• 40:53
  Um, I never ever would have guessed the ending.
• 40:56
  And it kept giving you twists and turns like it kept you guessing.
• 40:59
  I'm still confused.
• 41:01
  Okay so I really liked this book.
• 41:03
  So did I, even though I'm kind of unclear.
• 41:06
  Okay.
• 41:06
  All right.
• 41:07
  Well, so we had two kind of two points of views.
• 41:09
  We had Alex's the husband's mm-hmm.
• 41:11
  Point of view.
• 41:11
  Mm-hmm.
• 41:12
  And then we had.
• 41:14
  The new wife's book.
• 41:15
  Yeah.
• 41:16
  That she wrote, under a different pen name or whatever, but it was like basically her life story.
• 41:20
  Yes.
• 41:21
  So that was a bit like weird.
• 41:26
  Yes, it was di It was very different.
• 41:27
  Very different I've ever read in that type of e very.
• 41:32
  Very different because you are reading it from her perspective, but you're living it too.
• 41:37
  Mm-hmm.
• 41:38
  Okay, so here's where I'm confused.
• 41:40
  Okay.
• 41:40
  Who was Mina?
• 41:42
  That's the wife.
• 41:43
  The new wife.
• 41:43
  Not the wife.
• 41:44
  That's the author.
• 41:45
  I thought she died.
• 41:46
  She did.
• 41:47
  How's he holding her hand?
• 41:49
  At the very end of the book, he says he's at like the very last line when he is making the decision.
• 41:55
  I know if he's gonna release her book or not.
• 41:58
  You know, the, um, editor was like, do you want to release this book or not?
• 42:02
  And he's like, I don't know.
• 42:04
  It's, do you know what I'm talking about?
• 42:05
  Mm-hmm.
• 42:06
  He's like, so holding me in this hand.
• 42:08
  I go in to make this decision.
• 42:09
  How did that happen?
• 42:10
  Well, I don't think like he meant like.
• 42:11
  Physically holding it.
• 42:13
  I think it was like, I'm too literal.
• 42:17
  You can't give me these things I've said before.
• 42:21
  I need things to be laid out.
• 42:23
  Exactly.
• 42:24
  Word for word.
• 42:25
  And none of these, what, what is that called?
• 42:29
  Is that an Alec Gordon?
• 42:30
  I don't know what it is.
• 42:31
  Don't do it though.
• 42:32
  I, I thought, whose hand is he holding?
• 42:35
  Okay.
• 42:36
  No, I, I think it was like.
• 42:38
  Just a figure of Just like saying Yeah, metaphorically.
• 42:41
  Yeah.
• 42:42
  He is going forward with her.
• 42:43
  Yeah.
• 42:44
  Well, okay.
• 42:45
  I'm not confused anymore this book.
• 42:49
  Okay.
• 42:49
  So had a lot of characters, uhhuh, it had some characters that didn't really exist.
• 42:58
  And I had a character with multiple names.
• 43:02
  Okay.
• 43:03
  Well that, and that's because we were reading her book that she wrote.
• 43:05
  Yes.
• 43:06
  Within the book.
• 43:08
  Yes.
• 43:09
  Okay.
• 43:09
  I just confused myself.
• 43:10
  Yeah.
• 43:10
  Okay.
• 43:10
  So you had like made up characters in the book, then you had like the real life characters, but were just named differently than the real life characters.
• 43:17
  So did she really have this condition that made her like blackout then?
• 43:21
  I believe so, I think that the mom eventually admitted it.
• 43:24
  And so she would then create a different persona for herself with a different name.
• 43:29
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:29
  And that confused me for a minute.
• 43:31
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:31
  I mean, I followed what was going on, not as confusing for me as the holding hand thing, but, because he also went to go see the guy, the bar, the guy from the bar Escobar or something like that.
• 43:40
  Yeah.
• 43:40
  Is that his name?
• 43:41
  Something like that.
• 43:42
  Um, right.
• 43:44
  And they said, what name did you know her as?
• 43:46
  Yes.
• 43:47
  So the wife had this condition where she would just pretty much just have amnesia, right.
• 43:54
  And it was a trauma response.
• 43:56
  Mm-hmm.
• 43:57
  And she would just make up a whole new person and disappear for months at a time and live a life that she could not fill in the pieces for.
• 44:06
  Right.
• 44:07
  It was just a wild ride.
• 44:08
  The whole entire book was like up and down.
• 44:10
  You didn't No, no.
• 44:11
  Characters in this book were reliable, like, right?
• 44:14
  That nobody was safe?
• 44:15
  No.
• 44:15
  No.
• 44:16
  Um, you didn't know which direction mm-hmm.
• 44:19
  The next twist was coming from.
• 44:20
  Mm-hmm.
• 44:20
  And I mean, at the end of the book, like the last 30 minutes or so, yeah.
• 44:27
  You get like.
• 44:28
  Four twists.
• 44:29
  It was so much.
• 44:31
  And so, you know, I love the unpredictable.
• 44:33
  Yes, we, we do like that.
• 44:35
  And it was so unpredictable.
• 44:36
  I had to listen to it again and make sure I had the character right.
• 44:39
  Mm-hmm.
• 44:40
  So it was the neighbor, next door neighbor.
• 44:43
  So the mom had an affair with the next door neighbor.
• 44:46
  Mm-hmm.
• 44:47
  And for him to not like, spill the beans and tell everybody mm-hmm.
• 44:51
  That they had this affair.
• 44:53
  He wanted to teach Mina chess.
• 44:57
  Mm-hmm.
• 44:58
  Which was not chess.
• 45:00
  It was bad things.
• 45:02
  Yes.
• 45:03
  And so.
• 45:04
  Mina comes back, tries to poison him just like she poisoned the character in her book.
• 45:10
  Mm-hmm.
• 45:11
  The wife, comes home during this and thinks that Mina is trying to seduce her husband again mm-hmm.
• 45:18
  As she called it again.
• 45:19
  Mm-hmm.
• 45:20
  Right.
• 45:20
  Um, instead of recognizing what actually occurred.
• 45:23
  Right.
• 45:23
  She pissed me off.
• 45:25
  I'm the same she.
• 45:27
  Like the way she was screaming at the end of the book about how, you know, the, so Alex and Mina's dad mm-hmm.
• 45:37
  Were trying to convince her, like rationalize with her what had happened.
• 45:43
  And she is so, she, she was 18, she knew what she was doing and dah, dah, dah.
• 45:48
  And they're like, it started when she was 12.
• 45:50
  Yeah.
• 45:51
  Like.
• 45:52
  I just wanted to Yeah.
• 45:53
  Crawl through hoopla and strangle her.
• 45:55
  Same.
• 45:56
  But you're right.
• 45:56
  There were so many twists.
• 45:59
  You suspect everybody.
• 46:01
  Mm-hmm.
• 46:01
  Except for the person it was.
• 46:02
  Yeah.
• 46:03
  Um, because I thought it was Alex.
• 46:06
  Of course, you know, everybody always assumes it's the husband.
• 46:09
  You know, you start off with that and then you're think, oh, it's her stepdad.
• 46:13
  Did you ever think it was, I think it was a stepdad in the book.
• 46:15
  It was her real dad in real life.
• 46:17
  Yeah.
• 46:17
  Um, I did start questioning it.
• 46:20
  Right.
• 46:20
  And then I thought, well, maybe it was her mom.
• 46:22
  Right.
• 46:23
  And I was gonna be like, this is gonna be one of the most twisted books we've ever read.
• 46:27
  Because, you know, normally you do suspect it to be a male.
• 46:31
  Mm-hmm.
• 46:31
  Who essays?
• 46:32
  Um, yeah.
• 46:34
  But her mom still was complicit.
• 46:35
  Well, I, I, and I didn't mean that essay.
• 46:37
  I haven't, like the mom that murdered, I thought The murdered the murdered oh, oh oh.
• 46:41
  Because they were so like casual and laid back about Yeah.
• 46:43
  Her being missing.
• 46:45
  Yeah.
• 46:45
  Never in a million years.
• 46:47
  No expected.
• 46:49
  The neighbor.
• 46:50
  No wife.
• 46:51
  No.
• 46:53
  It was crazy.
• 46:54
  It was a crazy book.
• 46:55
  Yeah.
• 46:56
  That would be a good movie.
• 46:57
  It would be a really good movie.
• 46:58
  I.
• 46:59
  That'd be a really good movie.
• 47:00
  Get on that.
• 47:01
  Well, and then I thought it was gonna take like a, a gone girl twist, right?
• 47:03
  Mm-hmm.
• 47:04
  Like before we found out she was really dead, like I thought Right.
• 47:06
  That I was, I was not expecting her to be dead.
• 47:09
  Yeah.
• 47:09
  I mean, the, they never tell you, you just know she's missing.
• 47:12
  Mm-hmm.
• 47:13
  And you know, she's been, you think she's been cited, you know, all the whatever.
• 47:18
  I never thought she was dead.
• 47:19
  Mm-hmm.
• 47:20
  Until right at the end.
• 47:22
  Right.
• 47:23
  It was very good.
• 47:24
  It was so good.
• 47:24
  Okay, so one more, one more question.
• 47:27
  I.
• 47:27
  What happened to her mom?
• 47:28
  She just was in the other house when all this was going on.
• 47:31
  She, I just She never came over?
• 47:33
  No, she just sat in her house, um, like mortified and when they came back in Yeah.
• 47:39
  She said, I heard a shot, and that was it.
• 47:41
  Okay.
• 47:42
  I, I didn't miss anything there.
• 47:43
  That's all that okay.
• 47:44
  Yeah, she was cuckoo choo.
• 47:46
  They all were.
• 47:47
  Yeah.
• 47:47
  They really were.
• 47:48
  They really were.
• 47:49
  Well, you grade it.
• 47:50
  Oh, I'd give it a nine-ish.
• 47:51
  Same.
• 47:52
  Yeah.
• 47:52
  Yeah.
• 47:53
  Next, well, the next book that we had on our list is no longer available on Hoopla.
• 47:58
  Oh, it's not?
• 47:58
  'cause I, it told me that I was out of borrows.
• 48:01
  Oh.
• 48:01
  Well I had to black out on our like spreadsheet, so I just went to the next one.
• 48:05
  Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.
• 48:05
  Which is, she was the quiet one.
• 48:08
  That's the one that, um, I'm at a borrows for.
• 48:10
  Okay.
• 48:10
  So, uh.
• 48:12
  This one looks good.
• 48:13
  Go ahead and tell us about it.
• 48:14
  Okay.
• 48:14
  For Rose E.
• 48:15
  Knight, enrolling in a prestigious New England boarding school is the opportunity of a lifetime.
• 48:19
  But for rose's, vulnerable twin sister Bell Odell Academy is a place of temptation and danger.
• 48:25
  When Bell falls in with a crowd of wild, rich kids who pressure her into hazing rose, the sister's relationship is shattered.
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  Rose turns to her dorm mother, Sarah Donovan, for advice, But Belle turns to Sarah's husband, Heath, a charismatic and ambitious teacher.
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  Is Heath trying to help Bill or take advantage of her.
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  In a world of privilege, seduction, and manipulation, only one sister will live to tell the truth.
• 48:50
  Sounds really interesting.
• 48:51
  I, I know you like, like the boarding school.
• 48:53
  I do, I do.
• 48:53
  And I'm wondering, is it like taking place in old, like I don't think so.
• 48:57
  I think it's new.
• 48:58
  Oh, okay.
• 48:59
  Yeah.
• 48:59
  I'm fascinated by, I'm fascinated by stuff that I've never lived.
• 49:02
  Yeah.
• 49:04
  I, I am, am fact.
• 49:05
  I'm fascinated by the rich and yeah, that again, things I've never lived.
• 49:11
  There's a lot of, uh, a lot of pieces in here that this thing, I feel like they're in England.
• 49:15
  Well, new New England.
• 49:16
  Yeah, same thing.
• 49:17
  And they're rich boarding school and the twin thing.
• 49:21
  Yeah.
• 49:22
  Trifecta.
• 49:23
  Yeah, absolutely.
• 49:25
  Cool.
• 49:25
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