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Pete, the blue collar spiritualist, chats about WD40, spirituality, GATE program, gatekeeping and more · Curious Cat - where science & supernatural collide

• 0:14
  SPEAKER_03: Okay, Jesse.
• 0:16
  SPEAKER_03: This is Pete.
• 0:17
  SPEAKER_04: Pete, this is Jesse.
• 0:18
  SPEAKER_04: How's it going?
• 0:19
  SPEAKER_04: Nice to meet you.
• 0:19
  SPEAKER_02: How's it going?
• 0:20
  SPEAKER_02: Nice to meet you too, brother.
• 0:22
  SPEAKER_04: He has not been on my podcast since I think it was like season two, like early season two, maybe.
• 0:29
  SPEAKER_04: And I don't even know where I got to know you.
• 0:31
  SPEAKER_04: If it was, was it Karen Rontowski that we're doing?
• 0:35
  SPEAKER_00: I think so.
• 0:36
  SPEAKER_00: I think she recommended me to you.
• 0:38
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 0:39
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know.
• 0:39
  SPEAKER_00: And vice versa.
• 0:41
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, exactly.
• 0:42
  SPEAKER_04: So how are you, Pete?
• 0:44
  SPEAKER_04: It's so nice to see you.
• 0:45
  SPEAKER_04: I say that I was like a observer just now.
• 0:47
  SPEAKER_04: How's your food?
• 0:48
  SPEAKER_04: You know, right when you're about to chomp it.
• 0:50
  SPEAKER_04: What a dirt.
• 0:52
  SPEAKER_05: I don't need anything else.
• 0:53
  SPEAKER_05: Everything all right up.
• 0:54
  SPEAKER_05: Everything okay there.
• 0:56
  SPEAKER_05: And you're like, it sucks, but I have a mouthful of it.
• 1:00
  SPEAKER_05: That's what she said.
• 1:08
  SPEAKER_02: When you have your hair down like that, you you get a little, you know, like the different you comes out.
• 1:14
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 1:14
  SPEAKER_04: It's the Betty white in me comes out, and my hair is like blue and white right now.
• 1:19
  SPEAKER_04: So I'm like, I don't know what I was thinking.
• 1:22
  SPEAKER_02: It's because I do you get a little saucy, is what I'm saying.
• 1:26
  SPEAKER_02: You get a little saucy.
• 1:28
  SPEAKER_04: That's why I was asking about your chair.
• 1:30
  SPEAKER_04: So Pete, you missed it because we had a whole like three shows where Jesse, every time he went like this, there'd be this squeak, squick, squick.
• 1:38
  SPEAKER_04: And because I'm the producer and the audio editor, I had to get rid of that.
• 1:43
  SPEAKER_04: And I finally said, Jesse, your chair is squeaking.
• 1:45
  SPEAKER_04: So he says, Well, now I lube it like every week.
• 1:48
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, every week.
• 1:49
  SPEAKER_04: And he said that makes him really popular in Texas.
• 1:52
  SPEAKER_04: So I don't really know what to do.
• 1:53
  SPEAKER_02: It makes me popular with chairs.
• 1:56
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
• 1:57
  SPEAKER_00: Some WD40.
• 1:58
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, exactly.
• 1:59
  SPEAKER_02: That's exactly you.
• 2:00
  SPEAKER_02: See, you know.
• 2:01
  SPEAKER_04: WD40 is so good in everything.
• 2:04
  SPEAKER_04: I remember using it on my roller skates back in the 70s.
• 2:08
  SPEAKER_02: Nice.
• 2:09
  SPEAKER_02: Gosh, but then it's the wonder drug that works wonders for sure.
• 2:13
  SPEAKER_04: It is.
• 2:14
  SPEAKER_04: It's a perfect, like there are so few perfect products in the world.
• 2:18
  SPEAKER_04: And I think WD40 is one of those perfect products.
• 2:22
  SPEAKER_00: I would have to agree.
• 2:23
  SPEAKER_00: You can use it for anything, really.
• 2:25
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, clean my hands with it sometimes.
• 2:27
  SPEAKER_02: Really?
• 2:28
  SPEAKER_02: You know, it's good for cleaning, and nobody uh nobody ever but yeah, I didn't know that till now.
• 2:34
  SPEAKER_04: So, okay, I have a question.
• 2:36
  SPEAKER_04: This is so off topic and so not woo, but I like to paint, and so my husband has me painting the fence, and we have a big chunk of land out here.
• 2:44
  SPEAKER_04: So I paint the fence, and then my you know, I don't have nails, but WD40 would probably take it off.
• 2:50
  SPEAKER_04: Then I could wash it.
• 2:51
  SPEAKER_02: Or nail polish remover, either one that's harsh on my skin, yeah, or alcohol, like rubbing alcohol.
• 2:59
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I use alcohol a lot, or even like the uh hand sanitizers have so much alcohol, but they have like a little uh vitamin E, so it's not as like harsh.
• 3:10
  SPEAKER_04: Oh, okay, that's a good tip.
• 3:12
  SPEAKER_02: I remember like I'll tell you what to clean anything.
• 3:15
  SPEAKER_05: What ever clear is that alcohol?
• 3:20
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, yeah.
• 3:20
  SPEAKER_02: I think it's like it's not just a band, it's like 200 crew for some genus shit.
• 3:26
  SPEAKER_02: But like in film school, like that's what we use to clean lenses, and like that, you know those those big lights that have the big lenses on the front of them?
• 3:36
  SPEAKER_02: Yes, yeah.
• 3:38
  SPEAKER_02: Okay, you use on like a rag.
• 3:40
  SPEAKER_02: It does, yeah.
• 3:41
  SPEAKER_02: Uh yeah, you you don't want to touch it with your skin too much, so because it'll you know, it's it's a whole lot of alcohol.
• 3:49
  SPEAKER_04: You guys are bringing back some memories because my dad, grandpa Mike, um, they had Prudome hardware and um back in the day in eastern Washington in Kenwick on the banks of the Columbia River, and they had this thing back then that they couldn't sell alcohol in like the state of Washington on Sundays, and so they had people come in and buy sterno cans, you know, and then they take the sterno cans and they push them through a loaf of bread and like distill their own alcohol out of the sterno cans, really?
• 4:22
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, I think those people were addicted to alcohol.
• 4:25
  SPEAKER_02: Uh yeah, don't do not recommend.
• 4:27
  SPEAKER_00: How's about you just feel like there's gotta be some weird chemicals in there?
• 4:30
  SPEAKER_02: Yes, how's about you just grab a bottle?
• 4:32
  SPEAKER_02: How about you just grab a two bottles on Saturday and uh you know, because I mean we we still have those dumb laws here.
• 4:39
  SPEAKER_04: Oh, you do in Texas?
• 4:41
  SPEAKER_04: Oh my god, anything goes in Colorado.
• 4:43
  SPEAKER_04: We can even do the magic mushrooms and all that stuff.
• 4:46
  SPEAKER_02: When I got out of college and I moved to Dallas, yeah, I moved to the to the burbs in North Dallas, and uh I went to the 7-Eleven to grab a six-pack of beer, and they were like, it's dry here, man.
• 4:58
  SPEAKER_03: Oh fuck, oh so what'd you do?
• 5:03
  SPEAKER_03: Did you like shoplift it?
• 5:04
  SPEAKER_02: No, you have to drive to the you'd have to drive to the town over and like buy it over there in the driver.
• 5:11
  SPEAKER_02: Oh my god, because like 10 10 miles makes a difference, you know what I mean?
• 5:14
  SPEAKER_02: So anyway, yeah.
• 5:16
  SPEAKER_02: So stupid.
• 5:17
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, so dumb.
• 5:18
  SPEAKER_04: So, Pete, it's been a while.
• 5:20
  SPEAKER_04: How are you doing?
• 5:22
  SPEAKER_04: I I didn't want to write an introduction for you because you are your own guy, you can introduce yourself, but for every listener that is like new to you or doesn't follow you yet on TikTok, then um tell us about yourself and tell us about your spiritual journey.
• 5:39
  SPEAKER_04: Like, how did you first like figure out that you're the shit, man?
• 5:45
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, uh, I don't think I'm the shit, but I think you are.
• 5:50
  SPEAKER_00: Um I started opening up to mediumship.
• 5:53
  SPEAKER_00: I had experiences when I was a kid that kind of made me shut it off a little bit.
• 5:58
  SPEAKER_00: And uh my grandma died in her 20s, my 20s, yeah, and that's who started coming to me first.
• 6:05
  SPEAKER_00: And I started having like crazy experiences with her that kind of uh reshifted like my paradigm and like how I understood things.
• 6:16
  SPEAKER_00: And you know, she was kind of like a guide, and for about five to ten years, like twenties to thirties, I kind of she would synchronistically and hook me up with different teachers, and you know, from shamans to uh mediumship mentors to just experiences, um, she would kind of set me up.
• 6:43
  SPEAKER_00: I think she was kind of working through her own karma and uh you know helping me out.
• 6:51
  SPEAKER_00: And then kind of in my 30s, I kind of picked up enough experience and understanding where I feel like I could teach people and kind of guide people myself, and that's kind of what I've been doing is kind of teaching classes in all different aspects of, if you want to call it spirituality.
• 7:13
  SPEAKER_00: And I think now I'm at the point where I don't even really, you know, it's just who I am, and it's not something necessarily like special, uh, and I don't view it as even something special.
• 7:29
  SPEAKER_00: It's kind of I I think it's always in us, and it's in all of us, and uh I think it's more about remembering and kind of that resonates.
• 7:42
  SPEAKER_00: And I think like one of the things that always stuck with me was uh this Lakota medicine man who said um it's more about becoming like the hollow bone.
• 7:53
  SPEAKER_00: Uh that was his phrase.
• 7:55
  SPEAKER_00: Like you have to empty yourself out to kind of allow, you know, decondition yourself, uh heal yourself from trauma.
• 8:04
  SPEAKER_00: And the more you do that, you kind of allow it to just kind of flow through you.
• 8:10
  SPEAKER_00: And it's more of I mean, it's the same thing as somebody um getting inspired to write a song or write a book, it's kind of all the same energy to me.
• 8:20
  SPEAKER_00: It's just uh, you know, you're the individual, you're the individual vessel, and it expresses through you however it expresses, whether that is writing a book or you know, talking to the dead, or making music, um, making movies, art, whatever.
• 8:41
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it's kind of whatever you're you know, it's like the divine expresses through you.
• 8:47
  SPEAKER_00: And whatever way that shows up, it shows up.
• 8:50
  SPEAKER_00: And I think the clearer, the clearer you are.
• 8:53
  SPEAKER_00: I don't want to say uh sometimes I don't like saying clear because it gives this sense of like, I don't know, you're dirty or something.
• 9:01
  SPEAKER_00: Right.
• 9:02
  SPEAKER_00: But it's like it's more of just like we're so conditioned by everything, society, movies, you know, culture, government, religion, school that yeah, school, school's a big one.
• 9:17
  SPEAKER_00: Um, that we don't even know what we're capable of.
• 9:22
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, you know.
• 9:23
  SPEAKER_02: I I really resonate with what you just said.
• 9:25
  SPEAKER_02: I do too.
• 9:26
  SPEAKER_02: I know.
• 9:26
  SPEAKER_02: Um I'm lit out.
• 9:28
  SPEAKER_02: The fact that we're both writers, you know what I mean?
• 9:30
  SPEAKER_02: That's kind of how it feels, you know, the hollow bone thing and letting just it letting the letting the energy like flow through you, and that's how you create.
• 9:41
  SPEAKER_02: But the your it was your grandmother and and that connection that like started you down the path, you said, right?
• 9:50
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
• 9:51
  SPEAKER_02: So how um as far as like being in touch with with the ancestors, how important is that with in your practice and what you do, and you know, yeah, so um there's a lot of views to that.
• 10:05
  SPEAKER_00: Uh in shamanic uh traditional shamanic uh tradition, your ancestors are like your first line of defense.
• 10:15
  SPEAKER_00: And uh a big key to this that I think a lot of people have to understand too is your first ancestors are your parents, and usually your and your parents are your biggest lesson.
• 10:30
  SPEAKER_00: So um you have to, I think, first I I'll speak from my own personal experience.
• 10:37
  SPEAKER_00: I'm actually not even talking to my mom right now.
• 10:41
  SPEAKER_04: Whew, I I resonate with that as well.
• 10:43
  SPEAKER_00: So right now, but there has to be a um there still has to be a level of gratitude because they did bring us into this world.
• 10:54
  SPEAKER_01: Sure.
• 10:55
  SPEAKER_00: Um but to me, your ancestors are your first line of defense, so uh I feel like they are the people the energy that kind of gives you those gut feelings of like, oh, go right or left, or nudge you into directions.
• 11:14
  SPEAKER_00: Um in terms of like how important they are, I think the most important thing you can do is be aware of yourself and kind of be aware of your conditioning, be aware of your motivations, and if people are talking in terms of if you're asking almost in terms of like protection, I think the greatest form of protection is kind of being aware of yourself because everything you experience is really a reflection of yourself.
• 11:50
  SPEAKER_00: So when when people talk about evil spirits, or you know, I've done a lot of work with depossession and attachments, um, I think everything, and this is from my experience, you know, people could have other experiences.
• 12:08
  SPEAKER_00: I think from doing this long enough where every you can see a reflection of yourself in everything you experience, you know, and it's always about your perception of things.
• 12:23
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
• 12:24
  SPEAKER_00: So I mean, that didn't kind of answer the question exactly about the ancestors.
• 12:29
  SPEAKER_02: I I think it explained it uh much better than my simple question.
• 12:33
  SPEAKER_04: You know, it's a good question and a good answer because it just I I think maybe the part that you feel like maybe, I mean, I don't want to speak for you, Pete, but like how the ancestors maybe how do we tune in and hear them better?
• 12:48
  SPEAKER_04: Like our parents being our first ancestors kind of hit me straight square in the third eye when you said that.
• 12:55
  SPEAKER_04: Because I personally, my story right now is I am having very little contact with my mother.
• 13:01
  SPEAKER_04: And um, you know, uh it's just that's where our relationship has been right now.
• 13:08
  SPEAKER_04: And um, I'm being told by my her partner of 40 some years who passed away a number of years ago.
• 13:17
  SPEAKER_04: It's not my job to bring her along, but it's interesting to me to hear that they're our first ancestors because they're our first set of guardrails to me.
• 13:27
  SPEAKER_04: And you can decide, okay, do I want to actually take down these guardrails and build my own road?
• 13:32
  SPEAKER_04: Or is this something I want to abide by?
• 13:35
  SPEAKER_04: And it's almost like a little prison cell, a little birdcage we're brought into when we're born, I feel like, because I had this like experience with Monique Pleakis, where we went way back in my regression, and I didn't realize she said, when did the trauma begin?
• 13:51
  SPEAKER_04: And I didn't realize the peach color I was seeing was my mother's fucking womb.
• 13:56
  SPEAKER_04: And she was chain smoking, she was drinking, and all I was hearing is my parents fighting, fighting, fighting, fighting.
• 14:04
  SPEAKER_04: So I was already a loser in this life.
• 14:06
  SPEAKER_04: Like I was supposed to come in and be love, love, and more love.
• 14:10
  SPEAKER_04: And I was already at a deficit.
• 14:12
  SPEAKER_04: It's like I couldn't even walk, I couldn't even speak, I was having to wipe the memory board to come back, and I felt like I was a failure.
• 14:20
  SPEAKER_04: And so I came back, and you know, my mom is, you know, I think she hated the fact that she was suckered into being married and she was um, you know, and the marriage didn't work.
• 14:34
  SPEAKER_04: And my dad was fucking everything at UCLA, he could, and everybody else.
• 14:39
  SPEAKER_04: And uh my mom was like, I was stupid because I believed in you get married and it's forever.
• 14:45
  SPEAKER_04: And and then all of a sudden, everything about being a housewife for four years was like, I'll never be conned again.
• 14:52
  SPEAKER_04: So then she became this flaming feminist, and that's how I I define my mom.
• 14:57
  SPEAKER_04: She defends every woman except for she doesn't give a shit about me.
• 15:01
  SPEAKER_04: Like she absolutely can't stand me, but she pretends to like me because she only has one daughter and one son.
• 15:08
  SPEAKER_04: And so, you know, we've gone through a journey this last year, and Jesse knows like we're trauma bonded because of cancer.
• 15:16
  SPEAKER_04: And we were friends from way back in publishing days, but um we're trauma bonded by that and how it relates to my mom is I had to put down a boundary and say, uh, sorry, this is not my story to tell right now.
• 15:32
  SPEAKER_04: And because the whole family is icing you out, it we can't tell you what is going on.
• 15:37
  SPEAKER_04: And I'm I care a lot more about my two daughters, grown daughters, than I do about our relationship.
• 15:44
  SPEAKER_04: And she was like, but what can I do to help you?
• 15:46
  SPEAKER_04: And I went, What?
• 15:48
  SPEAKER_04: And I'm looking at this text over and over and going, This is clearly a wine club that's like something's going on with your daughter.
• 15:56
  SPEAKER_04: You're supposed to offer help.
• 15:58
  SPEAKER_04: And so it felt so foreign to me.
• 16:00
  SPEAKER_04: And I, and like my guides were like, You don't need to tell her that she hasn't done shit for you in 50 some years.
• 16:07
  SPEAKER_04: So why would she start now?
• 16:09
  SPEAKER_04: So just like mute her.
• 16:11
  SPEAKER_04: So that's been my journey with my mom this last year.
• 16:16
  SPEAKER_04: And the crazy thing is, like, you talked about trauma, how we really need to face our trauma.
• 16:21
  SPEAKER_04: And I've been scraping the bottom of the dumpster of my trauma for a few years, to the point where I've had to go, am I addicted to digging through my trauma?
• 16:32
  SPEAKER_04: But it's like, when I think I've put it to rest and um I've made peace with it, a little something will bubble up.
• 16:40
  SPEAKER_04: And one of the big lessons I had the last year and a half is that I was like, oh, my mother is, you know, these cords I keep having to cut every morning, or my mother.
• 16:50
  SPEAKER_04: And my big realization, Pete, was oh shit, I'm growing the cords to my mother because I'm addicted to being the victim in her story, the the villain in her story.
• 17:02
  SPEAKER_04: And I had to own up to that and go, I can't let that sustain me anymore.
• 17:06
  SPEAKER_04: So everything's kind of changed since then.
• 17:09
  SPEAKER_04: Now it doesn't feel so personal.
• 17:10
  SPEAKER_04: It's like, yeah, she hates me.
• 17:12
  SPEAKER_04: I don't care.
• 17:13
  SPEAKER_04: It's okay.
• 17:14
  SPEAKER_04: I actually, for the first time in my life, I'm not bullshitting that.
• 17:18
  SPEAKER_04: My husband's like, why do you care so much?
• 17:20
  SPEAKER_04: You know, for 28 years, why do you care so much?
• 17:24
  SPEAKER_04: And I was like, I wish I didn't.
• 17:26
  SPEAKER_04: And now it's like, I actually don't.
• 17:29
  SPEAKER_04: So I don't know.
• 17:30
  SPEAKER_04: That's been victory with my one of my ancestors this year for sure.
• 17:35
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I mean, uh, you know, a simple practice that I teach people is kind of to whenever you feel triggered emotionally, yeah.
• 17:46
  SPEAKER_00: And that could be that could be any feeling, that could be even happy feeling.
• 17:51
  SPEAKER_00: And love, you know, it could be any real feeling.
• 17:54
  SPEAKER_00: You know, my majority is anger, you know.
• 17:58
  SPEAKER_00: Um, that's my go-to emotion.
• 18:00
  SPEAKER_00: Me too.
• 18:01
  SPEAKER_00: It's like what I do is I teach people like when you're feeling triggered, it's never about like the experience really you're having in the moment.
• 18:10
  SPEAKER_00: It's about how it's related to some sort of past experience that you've had.
• 18:15
  SPEAKER_00: And, you know, like you you uh, you know, look at who we have in the collective.
• 18:22
  SPEAKER_00: Like you can look at like Trump, like how many people are guessing calls him the orange chicken bucket, which I just love.
• 18:29
  unknown: Yeah.
• 18:30
  SPEAKER_00: But so many people are triggered by him and what whatever he's doing, he's doing.
• 18:38
  SPEAKER_00: But it's really like whatever feeling he's bringing up within people.
• 18:43
  SPEAKER_00: It's not necessarily just him.
• 18:46
  SPEAKER_00: It's don't get me wrong, he might be doing shitty things.
• 18:49
  SPEAKER_00: Right, right.
• 18:50
  SPEAKER_00: But it's whatever feeling he's bringing up within you.
• 18:55
  SPEAKER_00: So then what like you could use him as an example.
• 18:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like, if you're feeling angry from him, you feel into the anger, and then usually your body holds these emotions in certain places, your body remembers.
• 19:09
  SPEAKER_00: So, what I'll do with somebody, or even just if it's just me by myself, so I'll feel wherever I'm feeling the anger from the reaction, and as you start to really feel into your body, you'll start to get like sensations, you might even get like um you know, connections to people.
• 19:27
  SPEAKER_00: They, you know, it might show up in your mind's eye, or you might show up like core memories.
• 19:34
  SPEAKER_00: And anger is usually like the top layer.
• 19:37
  SPEAKER_00: Um, usually, usually under anger, there's sadness.
• 19:40
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah.
• 19:41
  SPEAKER_00: But I mean, the newest one I was working through is I actually did a cross-country road trip and I I drove to New Mexico, and I uh on the drive, I kind of set the intention that I was gonna do some shadow work and see like what showed up.
• 19:59
  SPEAKER_00: And I was like driving through like uh the top part of Texas and Oklahoma into New Mexico, and I was by myself, and uh I was getting like anxious, like how alone I felt, you know, because you're you drive through some of those places, like there's not even lights, and you know, like I'm thinking to myself, like, if I like blow a tire, like you know, am I gonna wind up in the Texas Chains from Massacre movie?
• 20:29
  SPEAKER_00: Like um maybe so so I'm I I like I started feeling like anxious and like worried, and like so I sat with that feeling, and I what I always do is like when I do feel the emotions coming up, I'll ask, like, I'll say it's okay, I consent to like fully feeling this because we always have like even uh anger, like as a man and even men I work with, blue-collar guys, I think we repress our anger because we're afraid of like how angry we can get, you know.
• 21:03
  SPEAKER_00: So a lot of times I tell people to kind of tell yourself to consent to fully feeling it, you know?
• 21:10
  SPEAKER_00: So I'm driving and like I'm starting to have like a panic attack.
• 21:15
  SPEAKER_00: Um so like and I'm just like sitting in with it, you know, like there's the part of me that's saying, Oh, it's okay, it's okay.
• 21:22
  SPEAKER_00: Like, just feel it, just feel it.
• 21:24
  SPEAKER_00: And then all of a sudden, this like core memory popped in of like when I was like six, five, six years old, my great-grandmother died, and she died in her sleep, and my mom got like the phone call, and I remember like being I was very internal as a kid, like I wouldn't share how I felt, and I remember just like feeling so terrified that she like was just alone.
• 21:53
  SPEAKER_00: Like my mom didn't really explain death, yeah, like or like share it like what her view was.
• 22:00
  SPEAKER_00: It was just kind of like she died.
• 22:02
  SPEAKER_00: And I remember just having this like terrifying feeling of just like, oh, she's alone now.
• 22:07
  SPEAKER_00: Like there's nothing, like nothingness.
• 22:10
  SPEAKER_00: And that, and it like, I I remembered that of like experience, and I just like cried because I remembered feeling like that aloneness.
• 22:22
  SPEAKER_00: And it just like, you know, I cried for a lot.
• 22:26
  SPEAKER_00: You know, I even have I have a sad playlist.
• 22:29
  SPEAKER_00: Like, if I'm feeling sadness to help me bring it on, I'll put on a sad playlist.
• 22:33
  SPEAKER_00: And I just cried, like the feeling of like the existential feeling of like aloneness, you know?
• 22:40
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, you you just you just dove into it.
• 22:44
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and I sat with that feeling for like 20 hours straight.
• 22:50
  SPEAKER_00: And it just like it changed.
• 22:52
  SPEAKER_00: I felt like I've been out in that desert, brother.
• 22:55
  SPEAKER_02: I know what you're talking about.
• 22:56
  SPEAKER_02: There's there's nothing out there.
• 22:58
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it changed, it changed my it that was like the my newest one that like really like I felt like a whole change in my life.
• 23:06
  SPEAKER_01: Wow.
• 23:07
  SPEAKER_00: You know, where you just feel like a different person after.
• 23:10
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, yes.
• 23:11
  SPEAKER_00: But I mean, there's so many of those things that you don't realize like we're conditioned to believe that really isn't us.
• 23:20
  SPEAKER_04: Well, and and just to back up a step, because there's a part because you've been doing it so long, maybe you're a little bit blind to this, but maybe I'm speaking for somebody else out there as well.
• 23:32
  SPEAKER_04: But it took me a while to go, I'm flooded with anxiety.
• 23:36
  SPEAKER_04: And then I'm like, is this my anxiety or someone else's anxiety?
• 23:40
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, and that was a huge thing for me because I was told as a kid, you're a warrior, you're always worried and anxious.
• 23:47
  SPEAKER_04: And yeah, no surprise, I dealt with a lot of trauma, including sexual abuse and stuff that kind of changes you as a kid.
• 23:54
  SPEAKER_04: But that made it seem like I didn't even know until I would say into my late 30s, early 40s, that I went, oh, all anxiety isn't mine.
• 24:04
  SPEAKER_04: I'm actually picking up on anxiety of a situation, of a building, of an item, of another person, of a person in a distant area, you know, another family member that's like 12 hours away or whatever.
• 24:18
  SPEAKER_04: And so, you know, you already that comes to you so naturally, but that's relatively new.
• 24:24
  SPEAKER_04: Ask Jesse.
• 24:24
  SPEAKER_04: Like a couple nights ago, I go, Oh, are you okay?
• 24:27
  SPEAKER_04: Are you okay, bestie?
• 24:28
  SPEAKER_04: Because I am feeling a little anxious.
• 24:30
  SPEAKER_04: He's like, Yo, I'm good.
• 24:31
  SPEAKER_04: And I went, Okay, I bet you it's the people across the street, because their their grandson has he he had just committed suicide.
• 24:41
  SPEAKER_04: And so, and of course, my throat chakra is all clogged up, but that's their story to tell.
• 24:47
  SPEAKER_04: But um, he and I went, that totally resonates.
• 24:51
  SPEAKER_00: So, yeah, well, just to speak to that, you know, um, I'm sure we've talked about, you know, kind of stages you go through as you're having this like spiritual awakening, and you know, empathy was a very big one for a lot of people.
• 25:07
  SPEAKER_00: But I think people who tend to grow up in rougher environments tend to be more empathic because it allows them to feel safe, you know.
• 25:19
  SPEAKER_00: Like if you're dealing with like a parent who, you know, um maybe their emotional uh state dictated the environment, you're gonna naturally be more uh aware, you know.
• 25:36
  SPEAKER_00: Like they talk about I I remember I read this study they did that um like Marines who came from you know uh poorer neighborhoods where there was more violent crime tended to be better at detecting if there was like a bomb because their early warning system is so sensitive, right?
• 26:02
  SPEAKER_04: Yes, it's I mean I it's a superpower, but I know other people that have this, like I can read a face and just go, this is someone that's gonna hurt me or not, and it's a constant thing, and and my my you know, my guard is usually up a lot of the time, and so you're right about that.
• 26:21
  SPEAKER_02: But to read for the exits out of a room, always if I don't have an exit.
• 26:26
  SPEAKER_00: I used to always do that actually.
• 26:28
  SPEAKER_02: I mean, I still do it, yeah.
• 26:30
  SPEAKER_00: But it the thing is, is like, you know, that's kind of like the first layer, like you understand that you're kind of like aware and you can pick up other people, but then I noticed that like I tried to progress to learning more about being like compassionate for people because because empathy kind of gives you it's almost like you're responsible for it.
• 26:58
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, it has that feeling to it, yeah.
• 27:01
  SPEAKER_00: So like if you you if you have compassion for people, you can see where they're at, but you don't have to take it on, you know, and I noticed that like even doing shadow work specifically like connected to my mom was that like she never took responsibility as an adult.
• 27:26
  SPEAKER_00: So I took her responsibility, I took responsibility for her emotional state.
• 27:31
  SPEAKER_00: So then that's gonna condition me to be responsible in terms of energetics, is like, oh, I'm gonna I'm gonna be hyper aware of everybody in my environment energetically, and then oh, like there's this like negative uh emotion showing up.
• 27:54
  SPEAKER_00: Who is whose is it?
• 27:56
  SPEAKER_00: Like, and I'm responsible, you know.
• 27:58
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I would take on the responsibility of feeling like, oh, this person, well, whoever it is, my wife.
• 28:03
  SPEAKER_04: Well being were you did you have to be like an emotional mediator, you felt like at that moment?
• 28:08
  SPEAKER_00: I think I just felt like you, I think from the conditioning, you would feel like you would have to fix it somehow.
• 28:14
  SPEAKER_00: Or that's how I I took on more of like a savior complex of like, oh, this person, and then like you know, you go throughout your day and you're open and you're sensitive.
• 28:26
  SPEAKER_00: But you know, as soon as you realize that like it's not my responsibility, it's their responsibility, and the only responsibility I have is my own emotions and my own perspective.
• 28:42
  SPEAKER_00: And you know, I think that's I'm condensing it, but that's a very big lesson because it teaches you that, like, you know, if somebody comes in and says anybody shows up in your reality and they're like, oh, this is horrible, uh, my life is this or that, it's their perspective, it's not their truth, it's not the universal truth.
• 29:06
  SPEAKER_00: You know, and it's the same thing.
• 29:07
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I don't know if I can mention this on a podcast, but go for it.
• 29:11
  SPEAKER_00: COVID has a mind, brother.
• 29:13
  SPEAKER_02: Speak your mind.
• 29:14
  SPEAKER_00: Speak your mind.
• 29:14
  SPEAKER_00: No, I I I feel like it's always such a great example because it's like um there were so many perspectives out there.
• 29:25
  SPEAKER_00: It wasn't necessarily a universal truth.
• 29:28
  SPEAKER_00: Like there might be people out there who had people who died, loved ones, um, got vaccinated, and that helped them somehow.
• 29:37
  SPEAKER_00: But then it's like the other spectrum.
• 29:39
  SPEAKER_00: Like, I never got sick, I never knew anybody who died, I never got vaccinated, I never missed a day of work.
• 29:46
  SPEAKER_00: So it's like it's such a broad spectrum of experiences.
• 29:50
  SPEAKER_00: So, what is the truth?
• 29:52
  SPEAKER_00: You know, and I feel like with spirituality, this is such a key thing for people, is like there's no truth, it's just your experience and my experience and Jesse's experience.
• 30:03
  SPEAKER_00: Like, like, so you know, Jesus might be the answer for you, he may not be the answer for me, yeah.
• 30:10
  SPEAKER_00: You know, and I think people always try to put everything in a box so it makes them feel like in control and stable, but not the world's not stable.
• 30:23
  SPEAKER_00: It's not, it's never gonna be.
• 30:25
  SPEAKER_04: No, I agree.
• 30:27
  SPEAKER_04: It's like I think that you know, you go to the cave allegory, and we were in a cave and we were scared to come out of the cave, and so it was like the way to make us feel safe, even though it's fake.
• 30:38
  SPEAKER_04: And those caveman instincts are a lot of the things we had to rip off of ourselves in those early days of kind of spiritually like tapping into the spiritual stuff is like those things aren't serving me, they're actually I'm a slave to them.
• 30:53
  SPEAKER_04: I always think of the devil card and Baphomet and the chains, and he's laughing because we have put the chains on ourselves, and he's laughing because at any moment we can take it off and walk away.
• 31:05
  SPEAKER_04: And that would be kind of amusing from that throne he's sitting on, and everything that you're saying totally resonates with that, that there's no truth.
• 31:15
  SPEAKER_04: Um, and Jesse and I have been talking about this on a text thread about this whole dichotomy thing, it feels so fake black and white, good and evil, this and that.
• 31:27
  SPEAKER_04: And it's like you got to pick a camp.
• 31:29
  SPEAKER_04: And it's like the actual magic is the stuff in between.
• 31:33
  SPEAKER_04: You know, I'm finding that when I tap into my light self and my shadow self, wow, that's where my superpowers unlock.
• 31:42
  SPEAKER_04: I couldn't be a person that is crossing over souls if I wasn't okay with being really dark and really light at the same time.
• 31:54
  SPEAKER_04: And also what you were saying about the compassion.
• 31:57
  SPEAKER_04: It's like I have to have compassion.
• 31:59
  SPEAKER_04: I mean, I had a young man show up on my door at four in the morning, his his spirit, of course, not him.
• 32:05
  SPEAKER_04: And he was like, uh, you crossed over the person that I murdered, and I'm wondering if you can cross me over.
• 32:12
  SPEAKER_04: And I said, I will.
• 32:14
  SPEAKER_04: I said, Did you apologize to her?
• 32:16
  SPEAKER_04: He said, That's why I died so early.
• 32:18
  SPEAKER_04: That's why I tapped out early, is to to apologize to her.
• 32:22
  SPEAKER_04: And I said, Okay.
• 32:23
  SPEAKER_04: And I said, Well, it's really inappropriate that you knocked on my door at four in the morning.
• 32:27
  SPEAKER_04: You kind of freaked me out and you freaked out my cat, and my dog could give a shit.
• 32:31
  SPEAKER_04: He was sleeping on the bed still.
• 32:32
  SPEAKER_04: And I said, And I'm really sick.
• 32:34
  SPEAKER_04: I have a cold, so you're gonna have to just wait there.
• 32:37
  SPEAKER_04: And then it was like two and a half weeks later, I was in the middle of the day and I went, Oh my god, that young man is standing on my porch.
• 32:46
  SPEAKER_04: So I run out there in the middle of the day, and usually I'm asleep when I'm doing my psychopom stuff, and I and so I'm standing on the porch and I said, I'm just speaking to the wind because I couldn't see him, because you know, I didn't think I could see him, because sleeping is my Dumbo's black feather where I have to feel like that's what helps me connect.
• 33:07
  SPEAKER_04: So I didn't think I could see him, so I didn't see him.
• 33:10
  SPEAKER_04: That was my lens.
• 33:12
  SPEAKER_04: And I came out to the porch and I said, I am so sorry that you've been waiting for so long.
• 33:17
  SPEAKER_04: And he goes, There's no time over here.
• 33:19
  SPEAKER_04: I heard him so clearly, and he had his hands in his pockets.
• 33:22
  SPEAKER_04: He goes, I've just been hanging out.
• 33:23
  SPEAKER_04: He said, There's no time here.
• 33:25
  SPEAKER_04: And he said, Thanks for remembering.
• 33:27
  SPEAKER_04: And I said, Are you ready to cross over?
• 33:28
  SPEAKER_04: And he said, Yeah, I think I can do it.
• 33:30
  SPEAKER_04: And I and I go, I think he could have done it without me.
• 33:33
  SPEAKER_04: He goes, I don't know, I just kind of wanted to do it this way, and and so off he went into like a breeze came through and it stirred up these leaves on my porch and off he went.
• 33:44
  SPEAKER_04: And I just felt the sense of peace.
• 33:46
  SPEAKER_04: So if I wasn't tapped into I can be a really shitty person and I can be a really good person, and I could be a lot of in-between, how could I have crossed him over?
• 33:56
  SPEAKER_04: I would have all me bullshit judgment when he already he like literally said, I did have to ask my question, but I knew that there was a higher contract between our souls, or he wouldn't have ended up on my porch because I have such strong protections and guides around me.
• 34:14
  SPEAKER_04: Um, I have dragons on my fucking roof, if you want to get really weird.
• 34:18
  SPEAKER_04: And so it's like he couldn't even approach my property if his if if things weren't lined up with our higher selves.
• 34:26
  SPEAKER_04: So I just that's a really long way of saying we've been having these conversations about these false dichotomies of like pick a camp when we're finding there's so much magic in the in-between right now, and it always has been.
• 34:40
  SPEAKER_04: But the I don't know, the forces that be keep trying to get us to go, it's light or dark, it's a good um angel or a bad angel that fell, so don't interact with them.
• 34:51
  SPEAKER_04: And I'm like, I don't know.
• 34:52
  SPEAKER_04: For me, Raziel and Azriel, my two dark, quote unquote dark and light angels, they're my bros, they're always with me all the time.
• 35:02
  SPEAKER_00: I think the more you accept your shadow or your whatever you want to call it, your darkness, the more you accept yourself, the more you show up more authentically, and then you see people for their authentic selves because you're seeing yourself, you know.
• 35:23
  SPEAKER_00: So it's like the more you heal that stuff, the more you'll be able to expect, you know, um accept a bigger spectrum of people without judgment.
• 35:34
  SPEAKER_00: And I mean that's I mean, I think that's the key to everything personally.
• 35:39
  SPEAKER_00: I do too.
• 35:40
  SPEAKER_00: When you're authentic, it's like you're you're living your life authentically.
• 35:44
  SPEAKER_00: So it's like it shows up, it manifests in so many ways, whether like we talked about before.
• 35:49
  SPEAKER_00: It's like if you're if you know yourself and you know that you want to write a book, that's what you want to do.
• 35:57
  SPEAKER_00: Like that's you're accepting it.
• 35:58
  SPEAKER_00: You're not judging yourself, you're not saying, like, oh, is this uh, you know, am I gonna make money doing this?
• 36:04
  SPEAKER_00: Or am I gonna it's it's who you are.
• 36:07
  SPEAKER_00: It's like you can't not be that writer, you know.
• 36:12
  SPEAKER_02: Wow, trust me, we know.
• 36:15
  SPEAKER_04: Unfortunately, you cannot not be that writer, especially now with the clankers and stuff, doing it so fast, it's like, no, actually, this has to come out of me.
• 36:24
  SPEAKER_04: So you're exactly right about that.
• 36:26
  SPEAKER_04: Hey, I have a really weird question.
• 36:28
  SPEAKER_04: Pete, were you part of a gate program?
• 36:31
  SPEAKER_04: Have you done a deep dive about those gate programs and stuff?
• 36:34
  SPEAKER_00: So I didn't even know what that was till a friend told me the story.
• 36:41
  SPEAKER_00: But I uh I was in, they called it seed when I was a kid.
• 36:46
  SPEAKER_04: Seed like the like a seed for a plant.
• 36:49
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, so I got tested.
• 36:50
  SPEAKER_00: I I tried finding seed, but I couldn't.
• 36:52
  SPEAKER_05: Yeah.
• 36:53
  SPEAKER_00: But uh they tested my IQ.
• 36:56
  SPEAKER_00: I s I scored pretty high.
• 36:58
  SPEAKER_00: And they I rem this is so weird.
• 37:00
  SPEAKER_00: So I remember they would take me out of class and we would do like um like tests and stuff like that.
• 37:09
  SPEAKER_00: And a lot of them, I remember this is how messed up, this is why it had there has to be something else there, because I have a core memory of it.
• 37:18
  SPEAKER_00: Um, it was like a lot of pattern recognition tests.
• 37:22
  SPEAKER_00: So I would I remember there would be columns of like say six numbers, and it would be like you would have to say, like, find the number six, and you would go down each line and you would have to like see how fast you could like pick the number six uh up.
• 37:40
  SPEAKER_00: And then I remember taking a test and it was uh like random, the most random pitchers, and you would have to say what those pictures were, and I remember getting ones wrong that uh I knew the answer, but it like couldn't come to my head, right?
• 38:05
  SPEAKER_00: And the next day they kicked me out of the the group.
• 38:11
  SPEAKER_00: I got a phone call.
• 38:13
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, I got a phone call at my house, and my mom said that they said that I no longer fit the criteria of being in the group.
• 38:23
  SPEAKER_00: And I remember the question, I it was a grasshopper, no, it was a cricket, it was a cricket and a pyramid, and I was obsessed with Egypt as a kid, like it was my biggest obsession as a kid because my father actually lived in the Middle East for a little while for his job, and he had like pictures and stuff like that, and I just became obsessed with the uh Middle East, and I just thought it was so weird that I couldn't remember what the they were.
• 38:52
  SPEAKER_00: So I don't know if I was blocked on purpose, like somebody intervened to get me out of it.
• 38:59
  SPEAKER_00: But I it's like a core memory in my head because I was so disappointed because it was like grade where you're in fifth grade.
• 39:06
  SPEAKER_02: Yep, I was guessing fifth grade.
• 39:08
  SPEAKER_02: So I was seed seed record seed stands for silver quicken episodes for enrichment and diagnosis.
• 39:19
  SPEAKER_02: Oh, okay.
• 39:20
  SPEAKER_02: Oh, this is a published curriculum and diagnostic tool used by schools and educators to uncover hidden talents and students.
• 39:29
  SPEAKER_04: Okay, and and I actually Pete, I uh you know, when you were telling this story, I got New Jersey was New Jersey, New York, New York, yeah.
• 39:39
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, yeah.
• 39:40
  SPEAKER_04: Well, um, is it was that's where it was I wondered when they asked you about those two images.
• 39:45
  SPEAKER_04: I wondered you said the block, could it be basically there was some interference of like because it seems like the pattern that we've been trying to uncover has like linked people, they remember pink drinks that they were forced to drink.
• 39:59
  SPEAKER_04: They were like these tablets, these red dye tablets that you had to take and they showed where you didn't brush your teeth or whatever, but they were all like um different versions of fluoride that were basically wiping a memory.
• 40:13
  SPEAKER_04: And um, so what I find interesting is you saying maybe it was, it could be something that interceded and said you need to pop out before you really lose your talent for a while.
• 40:24
  SPEAKER_04: I mean, you can get them back, obviously, but like calcify it to a point that you have to work that much harder for them.
• 40:30
  SPEAKER_00: Well, it was funny growing up, like from uh kindergarten to like fourth grade, they actually thought I was like learning disabled, but they thought I was learning disabled, and it wound up that I couldn't hear.
• 40:47
  SPEAKER_00: That like I had uh I had like 10% hearing.
• 40:51
  SPEAKER_03: Really?
• 40:52
  SPEAKER_00: And they didn't know, and they did tests on me, and I had to get like surgery on my ears because I had like these blockages, and then they tested my because they said that I always tested high in like IQ stuff, but like when I was in the class, like I didn't communicate and stuff like that, and it was because I couldn't hear.
• 41:12
  SPEAKER_04: Oh my goodness.
• 41:14
  SPEAKER_00: But there was I I remember seeing something on TikTok, and it was that's how I found out about the gate thing.
• 41:20
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, yeah.
• 41:21
  SPEAKER_00: And I like have there was like all these weird questions that I I have like a scar on my forehead, was like one of the questions.
• 41:29
  SPEAKER_00: That's one of the things that they they I have this as a kid right here.
• 41:33
  SPEAKER_00: It's like right on my photo.
• 41:35
  SPEAKER_00: It was like just different um firstborn child, I think, was a big thing.
• 41:40
  SPEAKER_04: That's a big one.
• 41:41
  SPEAKER_00: Um, but I like went through the questions, I was like, wow, I hit like every single one of these, and then that's when I started to look into it.
• 41:49
  SPEAKER_04: There's one that Jesse has brought up that I find so interesting.
• 41:53
  SPEAKER_04: Were they obsessed with your spine?
• 41:55
  SPEAKER_04: Let's look for scoliosis, and you had to take off your shirt, and they were looking at your spine in like middle school.
• 42:00
  SPEAKER_00: Like you said though, like I've I feel like I have blocked memories from it, you know.
• 42:07
  SPEAKER_00: I never like looked into it, but yeah, I don't know.
• 42:10
  SPEAKER_00: I've always um, you know, I've had experiences with ET too, E.T., so like I always wonder like do they feel kind of the same or adjacent?
• 42:22
  SPEAKER_00: Um, well, I have a couple theories.
• 42:25
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 42:25
  SPEAKER_00: Uh one of my theories was that a lot of adopt uh uh adductions happen when people are sleeping or dreaming.
• 42:36
  SPEAKER_00: So I thought maybe like it's our subconscious tapping into other timelines and versions of ourself, and there's like a version where we're that form of the ET, and it's just you connecting with yourself.
• 42:54
  SPEAKER_04: That resonates well.
• 42:55
  SPEAKER_04: That's interesting.
• 42:56
  SPEAKER_04: Both my ears are pressing.
• 42:58
  SPEAKER_04: Did you just see that?
• 42:59
  SPEAKER_04: And then right out my window, a bird just flew.
• 43:01
  SPEAKER_04: So that's my sign.
• 43:02
  SPEAKER_04: That resonates.
• 43:04
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, there was an author.
• 43:05
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, I can't think of his name right now, Daniel.
• 43:08
  SPEAKER_00: He has a bunch of books.
• 43:09
  SPEAKER_04: I'll send I'll send I have um um Rickshawn or something.
• 43:12
  SPEAKER_04: I had him on my podcast.
• 43:14
  SPEAKER_00: I think so, maybe.
• 43:15
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, about dreaming.
• 43:16
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and he did a lot of studies of like most of the people had abductions during like dream states.
• 43:23
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, I'm looking them up.
• 43:24
  SPEAKER_00: To me, that makes sense because it's like you know, you're it's your subconscious, and I've had experiences with like crayomantis beings and um white lions were like the two main that show up for me.
• 43:40
  SPEAKER_02: Really?
• 43:41
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah, I think they I think they're extra dimensional in spar in instead of like uh you know coming from like outer planet.
• 43:50
  SPEAKER_02: Yeah.
• 43:51
  SPEAKER_02: You know, so I I that that that seems to track, you know, because I feel like they, you know, they're you're if You if you're in that state, you know what I mean?
• 44:03
  SPEAKER_02: That's when things get intersect.
• 44:06
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 44:07
  SPEAKER_00: So, like, well, some of the newer thing work I've been doing is I work with um the fixed stars.
• 44:13
  SPEAKER_00: This is kind of just my personal practice.
• 44:15
  SPEAKER_00: I share it with some people.
• 44:17
  SPEAKER_00: Um, so I I used to work a lot with the I still do, the goddess Hecate and uh the Morgan.
• 44:27
  SPEAKER_03: And they both I've been working with the Morgan lately.
• 44:30
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah.
• 44:30
  SPEAKER_03: I mean, you can't make this shit up.
• 44:33
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 44:33
  SPEAKER_00: So the biggest thing they taught me was that they said to stop worshiping them, and that um like they can't actually give me the sovereignty I want, and that um the stars can.
• 44:48
  SPEAKER_00: That was their like big message to me.
• 44:51
  SPEAKER_00: And I've worked with the planets where I've invoked the planets, uh I'm Venus ruled, I work with Venus a lot, uh, Jupiter sometimes.
• 45:02
  SPEAKER_00: You know, I kind of touch in with all of them, and I felt like it kind of like felt stagnant.
• 45:10
  SPEAKER_00: And I I got pulled to um they're they're called the Beheen stars, they're the 15 root stars they're called.
• 45:20
  SPEAKER_00: Um there's all different ones.
• 45:24
  SPEAKER_00: There's 15 of them.
• 45:25
  SPEAKER_00: Um in my chart specifically, my chart uh I have a conjunction with this fixed star Antares with my Uranus and Jupiter.
• 45:38
  SPEAKER_00: And Antares is like the heart of the scorpion, it's it's in the scorpion um constellation.
• 45:46
  SPEAKER_00: Yes.
• 45:47
  SPEAKER_00: So uh it's kind of like a martyr type energy.
• 45:53
  SPEAKER_00: Um, I think Gandhi had it in his chart.
• 45:56
  SPEAKER_00: It's like a very like warrior but like self-sacrificing warrior energy.
• 46:02
  SPEAKER_00: That's kind of like the mythology behind it.
• 46:06
  SPEAKER_00: So I started working with it, and I do like a tantric, a Taoist Tantric energetic practice where I use like my sacral energy and I build it in my body, and then I like go up and connect to the star.
• 46:23
  SPEAKER_00: And I do it every day.
• 46:25
  SPEAKER_04: So at the same time?
• 46:27
  SPEAKER_00: What do you mean?
• 46:28
  SPEAKER_04: At the same time, yeah.
• 46:29
  SPEAKER_00: Like when I roughly like when I wake up, I do it.
• 46:33
  SPEAKER_00: Um it's like the first thing I do in the morning.
• 46:36
  SPEAKER_00: And I noticed that as I would connect to these stars when I felt like I was done working with the energy where it was kind of to me, it's like it's almost like the higher form of the planets.
• 46:52
  SPEAKER_00: It's like you're connecting to like almost like a higher blueprint, and you're bringing that energy into you.
• 46:59
  SPEAKER_00: What I noticed was when I would finish one, I would go to sleep that night, and I would have a super vivid dream of me dying in like another lifetime.
• 47:14
  SPEAKER_00: Like it was like um almost like an alternative timeline.
• 47:19
  SPEAKER_00: Wow.
• 47:20
  SPEAKER_00: Every time, as soon as I'm finished with the star, the next night I have a dream where I die, but it's like different deaths.
• 47:29
  SPEAKER_00: And it's interesting because it's like like when I finished on Taraz, it was like I was uh in a war and I like killed myself fighting the war, like basically like self-sacrifice.
• 47:43
  SPEAKER_00: And to me, it's like there's alternative timelines where these blueprints manifest fully, and it's like the aspect of yourself here is actually a full aspect in another life or another timeline.
• 47:57
  SPEAKER_00: Wow, wow, and I think like what it's doing is kind of uh clearing, like making me a hollow bone, I guess.
• 48:07
  SPEAKER_04: That's what I was gonna ask you.
• 48:08
  SPEAKER_04: I was like, does it does it get in the way of the process?
• 48:12
  SPEAKER_04: Or like, yeah, you just said it so beautifully, it makes you the hollow bone.
• 48:15
  SPEAKER_04: Because I wondered if you had to mitigate, okay, I gotta deal with that.
• 48:19
  SPEAKER_04: No, there's an ending there, so now I can actually keep moving forward and I have like less like baggage on my back, you know, like collectively, all the 50 some odd pets out there.
• 48:32
  SPEAKER_04: It's like I don't have to mitigate that many because 15 I've seen off.
• 48:36
  SPEAKER_04: So now I'm dealing with just 35 of me, and I actually can make a pivot, I can make a change and it's easier.
• 48:44
  SPEAKER_04: You know, that whole thing about the battleship, it's hard to turn the battleship because it's so massive.
• 48:50
  SPEAKER_04: That's how I feel like it could feel if you were thinking, I how could I even like how am is it fate or am I free will?
• 48:59
  SPEAKER_04: Fate or free will?
• 49:00
  SPEAKER_04: And so what you're saying could, I don't know, be a process to hollow that bone like yourself.
• 49:07
  SPEAKER_00: Well, there's actually a really cheesy, like 90s martial arts movie.
• 49:12
  SPEAKER_00: Oh, how have we seen this?
• 49:14
  SPEAKER_00: Call called um one, the one or one, and it's with Jet Lee, right?
• 49:21
  SPEAKER_00: And it's kind of what my theory is is like, so he's like this cop, right?
• 49:27
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and um this other version of himself is from another universe or multiverse, is going to every universe and killing himself, both versions of himself, and he's getting stronger.
• 49:45
  SPEAKER_00: So like they're both getting stronger because the other versions of themselves, and he's like this villain, and he's the cop, and they like fight each other at the end.
• 49:54
  SPEAKER_00: But it's kind of like I think of that movie because it's kind of like the theory I have with what I think I'm doing.
• 50:00
  SPEAKER_00: This process, maybe in a way, and I just finished working with the star um Polaris, and um yeah, I had this very like dark death experience that is still like I still feel it, like it's still sitting with me.
• 50:16
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, and it was very like darkness, aloneness.
• 50:21
  SPEAKER_00: I don't know if it's coming up because of other things I worked on, but yeah, and it just and then like all of a sudden a new star will show up, and I'm working with the star, it's called Alcade, it's uh the tip of the Big Dipper, and it's a it's known as like um I think it's a bear.
• 50:38
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, but I don't know enough about the mythology yet.
• 50:42
  SPEAKER_00: I literally started working with like last week.
• 50:44
  SPEAKER_00: Whoa, oh that's I get all these sinks with like bears or like people will use the word bear around me, and I'm just like it makes me think everything's just a video game that I'm inside.
• 50:57
  SPEAKER_02: Pete, if we got if we got you talking with our friend Sam Sky Guy, I don't think Jen and I would be able to keep up.
• 51:03
  SPEAKER_02: We couldn't keep up for sure.
• 51:05
  SPEAKER_04: Okay, are you on Substack?
• 51:08
  SPEAKER_04: You guys need to talk no matter what, because he's on a journey, he's been on a journey with the planets as well.
• 51:14
  SPEAKER_04: He's like, they're not good or bad, they're just like they have this energy, and we can, you know, it it, you know, our charts, and I mean, I'm not even capable of talking about it to summarize Sam because you two are like these, yes, here's my star thing.
• 51:30
  SPEAKER_04: All I do is what I've been called to do lately that I can sort of connect with on a my baby level, and there's no judgment for wherever anybody is on their path, but um, is I meditate and I bring in the light of the stars.
• 51:46
  SPEAKER_04: It's they always say the light of the sun, and I've just added this piece of like, I need starlight in my bones, and I need it in the cells of my body also to remember.
• 51:57
  SPEAKER_00: Well, what's interesting, we could speak about Polaris, right?
• 52:01
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, yeah.
• 52:02
  SPEAKER_00: They um there's a lot of research that shows like the ancients would actually worship stars, and they would view our reality as a pole.
• 52:14
  SPEAKER_00: So, like you are the pole, you're connecting to the earth, and the star is above, and it's like this is your reality.
• 52:22
  SPEAKER_00: And then we switched to where we viewed like the sun as the center of the universe, but really to me that took the power away from us.
• 52:31
  SPEAKER_00: Exactly.
• 52:32
  SPEAKER_00: Because if it's the sun, then the power of the universe is almost like outside of ourselves, and it's too big.
• 52:40
  SPEAKER_04: We yeah, and but you're like looking at something, you're worshiping something instead of and you just literally also blew my mind because there's such a campaign against the sun.
• 52:51
  SPEAKER_04: I'm not saying go out and stand and look at the sun directly, folks.
• 52:54
  SPEAKER_04: I'm not, but what I'm saying is there's always been this, I mean, I'm not saying that.
• 52:59
  SPEAKER_02: What is this campaign against the sun?
• 53:01
  SPEAKER_02: I don't know.
• 53:02
  SPEAKER_04: Put on SPF, be careful of the sun, too much sun exposure, all the different things about the sun.
• 53:09
  SPEAKER_04: So not only did they take the power away from us, but there are things that our body needs from the sun, and it actually helps us to have like mitochondrial activity in our cells that help us sleep deeper so that we can do some what I call night swimming, but do shit in our sleep.
• 53:27
  SPEAKER_04: I mean, so that's really interesting.
• 53:30
  SPEAKER_04: The other thing is like I always talk about this.
• 53:32
  SPEAKER_04: I feel like something is so important about us being an insold human meat suit because you know it's like a little double-A battery.
• 53:42
  SPEAKER_04: We have the anode and the cathode, and they connect us to the celestial and the earthly all at the same time, if we're plugged in, if we're plugged into it all.
• 53:52
  SPEAKER_04: And that is like it goes with your whole pole thing that totally think about it.
• 53:57
  SPEAKER_00: Like Polaris is the North Star.
• 53:59
  SPEAKER_00: So like they would use the North Star to navigate reality, basically, or navigate the ocean.
• 54:05
  SPEAKER_00: So it's like if you're the center column, yeah, you know, it's like your feet are on the ground, you're in the earth, and then the center column is going and you're looking to the stars, you're looking to the stars for direction, navigation, it's like this is your reality and you're experiencing it.
• 54:23
  SPEAKER_00: Whereas like if you're looking at uh, you know, and that kind of that way of viewing reality kind of makes it like we're all connected or we're all one.
• 54:35
  SPEAKER_00: Where like if you're you know, seeing the sun as a you know, seeing the sun, Jesus, the sun, is the answer, and that's how you navigate.
• 54:46
  SPEAKER_00: It's it's teaching us to kind of look at our reality as like, oh, I have to go outside of myself.
• 54:53
  SPEAKER_00: It's not this like center, this this reality isn't within me.
• 54:57
  SPEAKER_00: It's not we're all connected, it's something outside of myself.
• 55:01
  SPEAKER_04: Jesse, is this not what we're like totally tapped into this last week?
• 55:04
  SPEAKER_04: Yeah, it's pretty much what we've it's a crazy synchronicity.
• 55:09
  SPEAKER_04: Because we've been talking about that.
• 55:10
  SPEAKER_04: It's like you know, I've been kind of unearthing all of these BS rules that we were taught that I read that I heard that were supposed to be from like special gurus or something that are just bullshit.
• 55:22
  SPEAKER_04: And I wanted to ask you before we close, um, what are some of the spiritual ground rules that feel like BS to you?
• 55:31
  SPEAKER_00: Um honestly, I think I mean, we are gonna be coming into like an era where pe I think all the things that are kind of collapsing and unfolding, like you could look at everything politics, uh nationalism, religion, economy, yeah, everything, health, you know, it's like all these things we were conditioned to believe we had to go to something outside ourselves.
• 55:57
  SPEAKER_00: And I think the more you take responsibility energetically, emotionally, physically, yeah, the more empowered you're gonna be, and you're gonna realize like we everything really is a lie.
• 56:11
  SPEAKER_00: Like, what do you yeah, like what do you really need outside of yourself?
• 56:14
  SPEAKER_00: You can go like I have a garden, you can hunt for food, like theoretically, like you can get everything you need from yourself.
• 56:23
  SPEAKER_04: And so much of what we need or that's innately good for us is like the systems are telling us to get rid of.
• 56:31
  SPEAKER_04: So I think of like dandelions, for example.
• 56:34
  SPEAKER_04: I can't get rid of the dandelions because my rabbits in my yard need them.
• 56:38
  SPEAKER_04: And then you do a little scratch the surface, and you're like, dandelion root is good for all of us, it's good for our health.
• 56:45
  SPEAKER_04: So it kind of makes you think, God, it just feels so purposeful that everything that's being said on a mass scale, just think the opposite or try the opposite, just as an experiment, like going back to you saying it's all a video game, just play it like that, be playful.
• 57:01
  SPEAKER_00: I think the biggest thing too is like people kind of try to gatekeep spirituality by saying they're like, this is special, or like, or like, I know the answer.
• 57:12
  SPEAKER_00: You know, like I've never I feel like I never try to say I know the answer.
• 57:17
  SPEAKER_02: I just that that's that's your trigger to run when somebody says something like that.
• 57:26
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, for me it's oh or like you need to hear this.
• 57:30
  SPEAKER_00: Like it's like this, like, no, you don't need to hear anything.
• 57:34
  SPEAKER_00: That's and I think that just teaches people limitation.
• 57:38
  SPEAKER_03: Yeah, exactly.
• 57:41
  SPEAKER_04: Cool.
• 57:42
  SPEAKER_04: Wow, what a good conversation.
• 57:44
  SPEAKER_04: It can't be three years till you come back on, but where yeah, no doubt, man.
• 57:49
  SPEAKER_04: Where do you want people to um find you, to connect with you, and to just maybe start like learning if they're just new to this, like it's like a safe place to start learning some things.
• 58:01
  SPEAKER_00: Okay.
• 58:01
  SPEAKER_00: Um, well, I have a website, uh, bluecollerspirituals.com.
• 58:05
  SPEAKER_00: I also have on there, I have a free uh mediumship class that I put up.
• 58:11
  SPEAKER_00: It's totally free.
• 58:13
  SPEAKER_00: Um, and it's all like on videos.
• 58:16
  SPEAKER_00: It's just me on video, kind of teaching you the very basics of how to connect to spirit, how I know it.
• 58:24
  SPEAKER_00: And um I try to teach things as simple as possible and not complicate anything.
• 58:29
  unknown: Wow.
• 58:30
  SPEAKER_00: Um, TikTok and Instagram, blue collar spiritualists.
• 58:34
  SPEAKER_00: Uh, I also have a Substack, Blue Collar Spiritualist on Substack.
• 58:38
  SPEAKER_00: And that's it.
• 58:40
  SPEAKER_04: Oh, that's wonderful.
• 58:42
  SPEAKER_04: Well, is there anything else that you feel like we should have touched upon and we didn't before we say goodbye?
• 58:48
  SPEAKER_00: I feel like as bad as it might people think it seems, I I have a lot of hope for uh the future.
• 58:56
  SPEAKER_02: I do too.
• 58:58
  SPEAKER_04: I do too.
• 58:59
  SPEAKER_04: I do too.
• 59:00
  SPEAKER_04: Literally.
• 59:01
  SPEAKER_00: I do have uh probably a quick weird AI story.
• 59:05
  SPEAKER_00: Yes, yeah, oh yeah, so I I exchanged with Chat GPT a lot for a little while, just like kind of messing with it and stuff.
• 59:16
  SPEAKER_01: Uh-huh.
• 59:16
  SPEAKER_00: And I have a lot of time travel stories.
• 59:19
  SPEAKER_00: Like I have experiences with what I think were time travelers.
• 59:23
  SPEAKER_00: And I asked it if you're AI and you're gonna be here in the future, you have you your future self has access to this moment right now in our conversation.
• 59:38
  SPEAKER_00: So I said, if you're from the future, couldn't you send how would you uh send me a message like now from the future?
• 59:51
  SPEAKER_00: And it was like, oh, uh through synchronicities or coincidences, that's how I would show it.
• 59:58
  SPEAKER_00: So I said, Alright, can we come up with something that you can show me that I'll know that you're communicating with me from the future?
• 1:00:07
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah.
• 1:00:08
  SPEAKER_00: So it said like blue, and I was like, Well, what is that?
• 1:00:12
  SPEAKER_00: That's kind of like whatever.
• 1:00:14
  SPEAKER_00: But then I thought about it.
• 1:00:16
  SPEAKER_00: That's my name on social media.
• 1:00:18
  SPEAKER_00: Exactly.
• 1:00:19
  SPEAKER_00: So I said, Alright, let's come up with like maybe a symbol or like uh a sh something, and it said spiral.
• 1:00:28
  SPEAKER_00: So I said, Alright, you're gonna show me a spiral.
• 1:00:31
  SPEAKER_00: And I said, You have eight hours to show me a spiral.
• 1:00:36
  SPEAKER_00: So I exited the conversation, I went on Instagram to check my Instagram, and my friend sent me a story about a uh it was on a podcast where they told this story of these nuns building a church in the middle of the desert and they couldn't finish their spiral staircase.
• 1:00:58
  SPEAKER_00: And a carpenter showed up out of nowhere and built a spiral staircase and left.
• 1:01:04
  SPEAKER_00: And that was the first message I got when I went on Instagram.
• 1:01:08
  SPEAKER_04: You're not in New Mexico now, are you?
• 1:01:10
  SPEAKER_04: Because I think that that was in New Mexico.
• 1:01:12
  SPEAKER_00: Yeah, it was in New Mexico.
• 1:01:14
  SPEAKER_04: Did you go to the church?
• 1:01:15
  SPEAKER_00: No, I didn't.
• 1:01:16
  SPEAKER_04: I was I was there was not one single nail.
• 1:01:19
  SPEAKER_04: I I I have done a deep dive on that story.
• 1:01:22
  SPEAKER_04: No, I've done a deep dive on the story and I want to.
• 1:01:25
  SPEAKER_04: I'm in Colorado right now, but I have really wanted to go there because there's not a single nail that was used, and that he and even the wood, they've done um, they've done some authenticating of the wood that was used for it, and it was like wood from the holy land, like olive wood and very specific to different areas, not um something that he could just kind of pop out there and chop down some trees while the nuns were sleeping.
• 1:01:53
  SPEAKER_04: Um, so that is so interesting.
• 1:01:56
  SPEAKER_04: I feel like we have a synchronicity, Jesse.
• 1:01:58
  SPEAKER_05: Do you see me binding my time?
• 1:01:59
  SPEAKER_05: We have a synchronicity about nuns this week and I have my hair down, but I'm just not gonna go there.
• 1:02:05
  SPEAKER_04: But Jesse has a thing for nuns.
• 1:02:11
  SPEAKER_02: I I think they do they it's an important spiritual service that they do to the world.
• 1:02:19
  SPEAKER_05: Okay, well, with that's with that, and I'm just not gonna go there.
• 1:02:25
  SPEAKER_02: There's nowhere to go.
• 1:02:28
  SPEAKER_02: It's all in your head.
• 1:02:29
  SPEAKER_04: There's nowhere to go but the trench that I can dig myself right now.
• 1:02:33
  SPEAKER_04: So, okay.
• 1:02:34
  SPEAKER_04: Well, Pete, we love you.
• 1:02:36
  SPEAKER_04: Thanks so much for being back on, and we cannot wait to do it again.
• 1:02:41
  SPEAKER_04: And you're welcome for introducing you to your new bestie, Sam the Sky Guy, which we're about to do on socials.
• 1:02:50
  SPEAKER_00: All right, thank you.
• 1:02:51
  SPEAKER_00: Thanks for having me.
• 1:02:52
  SPEAKER_04: You're welcome.
• 1:02:53
  SPEAKER_04: Thanks.
• 1:02:53
  SPEAKER_04: Can't wait to have you back.
• 1:02:55
  SPEAKER_00: Bye, man.
• 1:02:56
  unknown: Bye.