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On my way! To the library · An ASMR Practice

• 0:04
  Speaker 1: I was torn between the coffee shop and the library,
• 0:06
  Speaker 1: but I just received some messages via Taylor Swift. And then,
• 0:14
  Speaker 1: so I was listening to a very sweet Taylor Swift
• 0:17
  Speaker 1: song off the Reputation album. I couldn't tell you which one.
• 0:20
  Speaker 1: And it was really just resonating with me, and I
• 0:24
  Speaker 1: look up. And it's a And I'm just, I'm locked
• 0:31
  Speaker 1: into the gold Chevy logo. I'm locked in. And then
• 0:35
  Speaker 1: I look up a little more, and there's a frog
• 0:39
  Speaker 1: sticker right above it. And, uh... It looked just like
• 0:47
  Speaker 1: when I got my tablet. There's some coloring apps on it.
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  Speaker 1: And I tried to color this frog, and I just...
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  Speaker 1: ultimately I got bored and I stopped and but it's
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  Speaker 1: done it's literally done I look at it every now
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  Speaker 1: and then I saved it and it looks kind of
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  Speaker 1: cool like undone it's done it's done I say it's
• 1:18
  Speaker 1: done so it's done I could go back and finish
• 1:20
  Speaker 1: it but it looks pretty done to me and so
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  Speaker 1: this sticker looked just like this undone frog that I
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  Speaker 1: had done on my tablet. And, uh, I just, oh,
• 1:43
  Speaker 1: the song, it's like, I'm not saying you're going to,
• 1:49
  Speaker 1: but you're going to, is what it said. Oh, it's like,
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  Speaker 1: you're not saying you're in love with me, But you're
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  Speaker 1: going to. And then I knew what song I had
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  Speaker 1: to queue up next, naturally. And look, there's a sparkly
• 2:10
  Speaker 1: Texas license plate in front of me, okay? So my
• 2:12
  Speaker 1: cheesy friend Bree, we went to this freaking karaoke in
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  Speaker 1: the gayborhood. We're not even gay though. This is scary.
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  Speaker 1: Hi guys, what's up guys? Bro is kind of doing
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  Speaker 1: his job. He's doing his best. I'm not going to
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  Speaker 1: say who he reminded me of. I had to listen
• 2:47
  Speaker 1: to Sports Car by Tate McRae. I'd never heard this
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  Speaker 1: song before. I'd never heard this song before. Until I
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  Speaker 1: went to the karaoke at the Gayborhood in freaking Dallas, bro.
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  Speaker 1: And this guy, presumably gay, I don't know. You can
• 3:04
  Speaker 1: only assume if you're at a gay bar, but I
• 3:06
  Speaker 1: don't know. And he was like... Dude, he was spitting
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  Speaker 1: this song. And I'd never heard it before, but I
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  Speaker 1: had to look it up. I looked it up, I
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  Speaker 1: freaking shazammed it, or whatever you call it. And... Oh wait,
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  Speaker 1: the library is to the right. I saw the bus,
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  Speaker 1: I saw the Razorback Transit go to the left, and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, that's where I'm going. Nope, no girl,
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  Speaker 1: we're not following the bus. We're going to the library.
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  Speaker 1: I'm rewriting a negative memory. Last time I tried to
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  Speaker 1: park here, I was going the wrong direction, and... Ultimately,
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  Speaker 1: I was like whatever I'm just gonna park and get
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  Speaker 1: out of this person's way, but I was going the
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  Speaker 1: wrong direction in the parking garage So I just parked
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  Speaker 1: I thought I was getting out of their way like
• 3:57
  Speaker 1: I was literally in my head I was doing a
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  Speaker 1: good thing. I was like, oh I'm going the wrong direction.
• 4:01
  Speaker 1: Let me get out of the way and this lady
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  Speaker 1: This elderly lady freaking screamed at me she waited and
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  Speaker 1: And I could see her in the rear view and
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  Speaker 1: I was like, what is she doing? Like, I literally
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  Speaker 1: got out of the way. I literally got out of
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  Speaker 1: the way. Why is she just sitting behind my car?
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  Speaker 1: And she was like, this is my parking spot. If
• 4:28
  Speaker 1: you know anything about the freaking library here, there are
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  Speaker 1: not assigned parking spots. And like, there are plenty of
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  Speaker 1: parking spots. I just drove past like six parking spots
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  Speaker 1: and I just parked like, how long did that take
• 4:42
  Speaker 1: guys it took like five seconds was i going down
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  Speaker 1: the wrong direction yes did she need to punish me
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  Speaker 1: i no she waited and i waited i was like
• 4:52
  Speaker 1: i'm not getting out i was like i don't know
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  Speaker 1: who's in this car i'm i don't want to i
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  Speaker 1: don't want to talk to this person and i get
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  Speaker 1: out and she's like screaming at me i know you're
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  Speaker 1: going the wrong way and this is my parking spot
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  Speaker 1: and i was like And so I look, I look
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  Speaker 1: at the wall ahead of the parking spot. I'm like,
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  Speaker 1: what do you mean? There's no label. How is this
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  Speaker 1: your parking spot? And she was like, you're going the
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  Speaker 1: wrong way. I was going to park here. And I
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  Speaker 1: guess she's entitled to it because I don't know. Just
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  Speaker 1: because she wanted it and I was going the wrong way. Like,
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  Speaker 1: this is what I mean. Like, I was so mad.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, I probably almost freaking wrecked my car on
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  Speaker 1: the way home. I was so mad. And, and she's
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  Speaker 1: like blocking me in. So I'm like probably giving her attitude.
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  Speaker 1: I'm like, you're blocking me in. How am I supposed
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  Speaker 1: to like, I was like, okay, so you want me
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  Speaker 1: to move my car? Okay. So you want me to
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  Speaker 1: move my car? I was like, okay, but you're blocking
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  Speaker 1: me in. Have you considered that there's probably like 80
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  Speaker 1: freaking parking spots? What are we doing right now? This
• 6:01
  Speaker 1: is the library. Why are we mad? She started it.
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  Speaker 1: She started it. She started my rage issues. I'm just
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  Speaker 1: going to be honest. I don't even know her name.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't freaking care. I was like, this lady is
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  Speaker 1: not right. And was I going the wrong way? Yes.
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  Speaker 1: But like, oh my gosh, I made a wrong turn.
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  Speaker 1: And like, I immediately realized it. Like I made the
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  Speaker 1: wrong turn. I saw I was going the wrong way.
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  Speaker 1: It's sort of a tricky situation. So I got out
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  Speaker 1: of the way. I'm pretty sure if you read the
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  Speaker 1: driver manual, it's like if there's a risk of a
• 6:42
  Speaker 1: freaking collision, there's two options. You slam the brake or
• 6:48
  Speaker 1: you get out of the way. You like quickly get
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  Speaker 1: out of the way. These are like the two options
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  Speaker 1: to like when you see that a collision might be imminent.
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  Speaker 1: I read the freaking manual. Don't even get me freaking started.
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  Speaker 1: So I got out of the freaking way. And it's
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  Speaker 1: a parking garage. It's like there's plenty of parking. I
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  Speaker 1: wasn't even like, and I forgive her. I forgive her.
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  Speaker 1: You know, she's, she was probably like just mad at
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  Speaker 1: the youths. This is what I don't understand. This is
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  Speaker 1: something I will never understand is being mad at the youths.
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  Speaker 1: The youths didn't ask to be born. They were brought
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  Speaker 1: into this world on consensually. Okay. And I'm not saying
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  Speaker 1: that parents have done anything wrong per se, but I'm
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  Speaker 1: just saying like a little bit of grace and patience
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  Speaker 1: towards the youth makes a lot of sense considering they
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  Speaker 1: didn't ask to be born. And, you know, I remember
• 7:52
  Speaker 1: my AmeriCorps job interview. They asked me, they were like,
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  Speaker 1: living or dead, if you could, you know, speak with anyone,
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  Speaker 1: who would you want to speak to? And I said
• 8:07
  Speaker 1: something absolutely insane. I said, Schopenhauer, bring him to me.
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  Speaker 1: Arthur Schopenhauer, bring him to me. I have a few
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  Speaker 1: words for this guy. Because, I mean, listen. My understanding
• 8:19
  Speaker 1: is he was, like, super rich. This is not why
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  Speaker 1: I want to talk to him. I think he was
• 8:24
  Speaker 1: onto something. And I don't want to know what his
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  Speaker 1: philosophies were used for. Because my understanding is people of
• 8:32
  Speaker 1: his ethnicity... their philosophies were not used for good, okay,
• 8:36
  Speaker 1: they were not used for patience, and they were not used,
• 8:40
  Speaker 1: you know, my understanding is that it got in the
• 8:43
  Speaker 1: hands of the wrong people, and I just remember I
• 8:46
  Speaker 1: was making the freaking interview, the interview girl giggle, because
• 8:53
  Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, so this guy is, like, pretty, like, pessimistic, and, like,
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  Speaker 1: generally a lot of people, like, generally kind of look
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  Speaker 1: down on him or whatever but I think he's funny
• 9:01
  Speaker 1: and I think he's literally right and and I just
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  Speaker 1: want to speak to him like and I said something
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  Speaker 1: similar and sue me guys sue me all my lib
• 9:12
  Speaker 1: friends y'all can be mad okay I don't care but
• 9:16
  Speaker 1: I've said it about Trump too like I just want
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  Speaker 1: to talk to him bring him here I want to
• 9:23
  Speaker 1: know what's going on I want to know what's going on.
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  Speaker 1: In his little head. I want to know. Like. And
• 9:36
  Speaker 1: you can bring me Kamala too. I would talk to
• 9:39
  Speaker 1: Kamala as well. Bring me Bernie. Bernie. Bernie. Come on
• 9:45
  Speaker 1: the pod. Oh. One of my favorite podcasts of all time.
• 9:50
  Speaker 1: Is Joe Rogan and Bernie. They ate it up. They
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  Speaker 1: seriously ate it up. And, you know, Joe Rogan, I
• 10:04
  Speaker 1: think sometimes I'm with him and sometimes I'm not. I
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  Speaker 1: think it really just depends who's, um, who's keeping him
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  Speaker 1: on the rails and stuff. Um, Because it's my understanding
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  Speaker 1: that Joe Rogan isn't really doing things solo. That's my understanding.
• 10:23
  Speaker 1: I don't really keep up with it all that much. And, listen, listen.
• 10:32
  Speaker 1: I'm not a Trump supporter, okay? I think there's a
• 10:34
  Speaker 1: lot of issues going on with that guy's ideologies and stuff. Um...
• 10:42
  Speaker 1: I don't think my opinion matters also that much. I mean,
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  Speaker 1: I didn't vote for him. Of course I didn't. I
• 10:52
  Speaker 1: discovered last night I was feeling like a little bit
• 10:55
  Speaker 1: paranoid applying to jobs. I was like, I hope nothing
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  Speaker 1: bad is attached to my name. And they do. I
• 11:01
  Speaker 1: was kind of shocked to find that my voting records
• 11:03
  Speaker 1: are just a public information. That's kind of crazy. I
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  Speaker 1: don't love that. But also it's fine. I think, like,
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  Speaker 1: everything I've ever been published writing is also pretty indicative
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  Speaker 1: of my political values. So... Yeah, I don't know. I
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  Speaker 1: used to be more political. I don't know. I came home.
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  Speaker 1: I came home. I gotta vote. I gotta vote next month, guys.
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  Speaker 1: I might, depending on if anything works out and if
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  Speaker 1: I have a job, I might see what I can
• 11:36
  Speaker 1: do for, like, get out the vote efforts. Just because
• 11:41
  Speaker 1: historically I did have fun doing that. It's so messed up.
• 11:48
  Speaker 1: You know what's so messed up and corrupt? Why is
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  Speaker 1: election day... Why does anybody work on election day? That
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  Speaker 1: is a threat to our democracy. Straight up. And you
• 12:01
  Speaker 1: know what else is a threat to our democracy? The
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  Speaker 1: freaking electoral college. What the heck are they doing? What
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  Speaker 1: the heck are they doing? Somebody get on this and
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  Speaker 1: fix this. I remember where I was when the last
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  Speaker 1: election finished. I was in Maine. And I was sleeping...
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  Speaker 1: I was car camping in the parking lot of a bank.
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  Speaker 1: I was car camping in a parking lot of a
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  Speaker 1: bank in Maine. We were looking for moose. This was
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  Speaker 1: our only job. We were looking for moose. We saw
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  Speaker 1: a moose! We literally saw a moose that day! That
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  Speaker 1: was the only time we saw one. And we barely
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  Speaker 1: saw it. We like only saw its butt as it
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  Speaker 1: was like walking away. Seriously, this sounds like a joke,
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  Speaker 1: but it's not. Because we heard some noises and we
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  Speaker 1: like got out to go and then I'm like, oh
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  Speaker 1: my God, it's a moose butt. Look, look, look, look, look,
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  Speaker 1: it's a moose butt. It's right by our car. So
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  Speaker 1: I did indeed guide one person to see a moose
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  Speaker 1: and was I paid for it? Not exactly, but kind of,
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  Speaker 1: I suppose I was fed. I was fed. Spiritually, physically,
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  Speaker 1: and otherwise. I'm just trying to see some moose butt.
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  Speaker 1: They're so big, if you've never seen a moose in person. Oh,
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  Speaker 1: the other time we saw a moose was in one
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  Speaker 1: of the national parks. And we were alerted by a
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  Speaker 1: bunch of people. Like, everybody was going crazy. They were like,
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  Speaker 1: there's a moose. And then, you know, one person comes
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  Speaker 1: into the gift shop. We're like walking around the gift
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  Speaker 1: shop just to see what's up. One person comes into
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  Speaker 1: the gift shop. They're like, there's a moose. And everyone's like, where, where,
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  Speaker 1: where's the moose? And everyone's like, oh. And so we
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  Speaker 1: get directions to go see the moose. And it's like everybody.
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  Speaker 1: And so they have like kind of like park rangers
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  Speaker 1: essentially on both sides of the trail because the moose
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  Speaker 1: is like taking a little nap or it's like laying down.
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  Speaker 1: next to the trail, which is kind of odd if
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  Speaker 1: you think about it, but I hope it was okay.
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  Speaker 1: I will say it was not the healthiest moose I've
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  Speaker 1: ever seen. It looked a little hungry or something. But
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  Speaker 1: it could have, you know, it could have been sick
• 14:47
  Speaker 1: or it could have maybe just been like, I don't
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  Speaker 1: know what was going on with that moose. Another sparkly
• 14:57
  Speaker 1: Texas play above me. Aww. I love Texas. I love them.
• 15:12
  Speaker 1: You know, I'm glad. I'm glad. I'm glad the Texans
• 15:15
  Speaker 1: are freaking taking over, I guess. You know, my understanding is, like,
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  Speaker 1: a lot of the states nearby, like, in the region,
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  Speaker 1: they get in-state tuition. So we get a lot of
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  Speaker 1: Texas people. And historically, I've heard a lot of my
• 15:29
  Speaker 1: elders complain of this. Like, Texas, they're taking over and
• 15:33
  Speaker 1: now there's a housing crisis. And that might be true.
• 15:37
  Speaker 1: I don't live in the city, so I don't really know.
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  Speaker 1: Maybe one day. I'd like to. I'd really like to.
• 15:51
  Speaker 1: I know exactly the neighborhood I want to live in, too.
• 15:55
  Speaker 1: I don't know what it's called, but it's like behind
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  Speaker 1: the co-op. That area is beautiful. And it's like a
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  Speaker 1: little like, um, antique perhaps or something. And what was
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  Speaker 1: I saying about the moose? Okay. So they had people
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  Speaker 1: on either side of the trail, just like informing. They
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  Speaker 1: were like, we're not going to stop. We're not going
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  Speaker 1: to bother the moose. Like just keep walking. If you
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  Speaker 1: want to get a picture, do it while you're walking.
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  Speaker 1: don't stop like the moose is clearly having a moment
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  Speaker 1: and like they're like we're not gonna close the trail
• 16:31
  Speaker 1: because this is kind of rare that you just see
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  Speaker 1: a moose laying down a little bird just perched on
• 16:43
  Speaker 1: the metal and was like looking at the texas license
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  Speaker 1: plate i was just looking at and then it flew
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  Speaker 1: away as soon as i looked at it It's a Toyota. Aww,
• 16:58
  Speaker 1: it's a Toyota. Um... Alright, we're not going to think
• 17:10
  Speaker 1: too much about the license plate. Because, yikes. Um... This
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  Speaker 1: is cruel. This is an extremely cruel license plate. This
• 17:24
  Speaker 1: is as cruel as it could possibly be. These numbers
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  Speaker 1: and letters are so deeply symbolic to me right now
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  Speaker 1: that I just have to let it go. But yeah,
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  Speaker 1: the park rangers were on it. They were, they were
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  Speaker 1: protecting the moose. And then I kind of felt bad. Honestly,
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  Speaker 1: I was like, I was like, damn, because you know,
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  Speaker 1: it's like, there's like a queue, there's a line. For
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  Speaker 1: people to just walk by this moose. Which. You know. Zucosis.
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  Speaker 1: If you're familiar with the concept of zucosis. I experienced this.
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  Speaker 1: One summer. I was working just simply way too much.
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  Speaker 1: I was working way too much. And everyone told me.
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  Speaker 1: And this is me. Just not taking advice very well. Okay,
• 18:19
  Speaker 1: that's one way to put it, and the way I
• 18:20
  Speaker 1: would put it is that I was leading with my heart,
• 18:24
  Speaker 1: and I had two job opportunities offered to me, and
• 18:28
  Speaker 1: I wanted both. I just wanted both. I couldn't decide.
• 18:36
  Speaker 1: I was like, do I work in the garden, or
• 18:39
  Speaker 1: do I work with kids? How do you pick? And
• 18:44
  Speaker 1: fortunately for me, I was able to kind of do
• 18:47
  Speaker 1: both simultaneously. Like... You know... The kids... The kids... I
• 18:56
  Speaker 1: loved working with the kids. I have so many good memories.
• 18:59
  Speaker 1: I have some questionable memories as well. I really loved
• 19:04
  Speaker 1: working with them. They honestly really did something for, like... My... Like,
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  Speaker 1: they gave me a desire for simplicity. And not, like,
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  Speaker 1: it didn't make me want kids. It honestly made me, like,
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  Speaker 1: not want kids. Not that they were, like, not good kids.
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  Speaker 1: They were, for the most part, they were pretty decent kids. But, just,
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  Speaker 1: I love talking to kids. I love talking to kids.
• 19:40
  Speaker 1: And they, kids flock to me. I don't know what
• 19:44
  Speaker 1: this means. No, there's someone behind my car. I wonder
• 19:49
  Speaker 1: if they're waiting to- talk to me no they're moving
• 19:55
  Speaker 1: on now but yeah that it was simply too many
• 20:03
  Speaker 1: hours to be working and I I went a little
• 20:06
  Speaker 1: crazy It went a little crazy. I lost my dang mind.
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  Speaker 1: And this was like the first real time I like
• 20:21
  Speaker 1: really experienced the zookosis in like a major way where
• 20:24
  Speaker 1: I don't know if I was dreaming or if I
• 20:27
  Speaker 1: was hallucinating. Like if I was just like so exhausted
• 20:30
  Speaker 1: that I was hallucinating. I don't know. And I you
• 20:41
  Speaker 1: know I had some that were, like, temporary and, like...
• 20:49
  Speaker 1: I honestly don't even remember who my roommates were. I, like,
• 20:51
  Speaker 1: barely saw them. I think I do remember. I think
• 20:54
  Speaker 1: I do remember. I remember what apartment I was in.
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  Speaker 1: How could I forget? Okay, so the zookosis experience was, like,
• 21:03
  Speaker 1: it was, like, I would be in bed and I
• 21:06
  Speaker 1: couldn't sleep because I just, like... It would be like,
• 21:13
  Speaker 1: I did a lot during the day and I was
• 21:15
  Speaker 1: physically exhausted, but my soul wasn't, my soul wasn't filled.
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  Speaker 1: My heart, like my passions, I didn't have time to
• 21:25
  Speaker 1: do my passions. And I was also like probably a
• 21:36
  Speaker 1: little heartbroken at the time. and feeling extremely, like, criticized
• 21:45
  Speaker 1: by somebody that I really loved a lot. Um... And
• 21:58
  Speaker 1: I was just in bed, and I couldn't sleep. And
• 22:01
  Speaker 1: it was, like, it was genuinely... The... And I don't
• 22:08
  Speaker 1: know if I was dreaming or what, but I was
• 22:10
  Speaker 1: in the bed, and it was like... It was as
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  Speaker 1: if I was in a... Zoo exhibit. I was in
• 22:15
  Speaker 1: my bed, and it was as if I was... My
• 22:17
  Speaker 1: bed was surrounded by glass walls. And people were just
• 22:21
  Speaker 1: coming to, like, look at me, like, concerned as if
• 22:24
  Speaker 1: I was sick. As if I was, like, a sick
• 22:26
  Speaker 1: moose laying down next to the trail. Except I don't
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  Speaker 1: think there were any park rangers, like, controlling them. You know, like...
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  Speaker 1: So they didn't keep walking. They were stopping to stare,
• 22:36
  Speaker 1: and they were... Saying things. And they were. And I. Recently.
• 22:44
  Speaker 1: This image kept coming back to me. And not that
• 22:48
  Speaker 1: I was experiencing it again. I was just remembering what
• 22:51
  Speaker 1: it was like. To be in it. Because I ultimately
• 22:56
  Speaker 1: was like. I just have to forget this memory. This
• 22:58
  Speaker 1: is just. This sucks. This sucks. Because I couldn't move.
• 23:04
  Speaker 1: I couldn't move and I couldn't sleep. Or maybe I
• 23:06
  Speaker 1: was sleeping. I'm not really sure. And I was like.
• 23:10
  Speaker 1: I was like the herb lady. For my garden. And
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: so I was. I was processing herbs. You know. In
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: my house. And like drying them. Which if you've ever
• 23:24
  Speaker 1: done this process. It is a very like odorous process. Odorous.
• 23:30
  Speaker 1: It was very. There was a lot of smells. Okay.
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: And I genuinely think. You know you think about like aromatherapy.
• 23:37
  Speaker 1: Like when I get a massage. They put on like
• 23:40
  Speaker 1: an essential oil that I like. Right. Like they ask
• 23:42
  Speaker 1: you what kind of essential oil do you like. And
• 23:44
  Speaker 1: I tell them. And like. And I liked all these smells.
• 23:50
  Speaker 1: Like I probably prioritized the herbs that I liked. Because
• 23:53
  Speaker 1: I was sort of in charge of the herbs. I
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: was the herb guy. And. So I don't know dude.
• 24:02
  Speaker 1: My house was just smelling like. like genuine flowers, like
• 24:07
  Speaker 1: potent of flowers, medicinal flowers. And that's not, that's not
• 24:13
  Speaker 1: even like, I'm being very literal, like flowers, like Tulsi,
• 24:22
  Speaker 1: like lemon balm, chamomile, lavender. And I was just, I
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: was just so exhausted. And my spirit was just so
• 24:36
  Speaker 1: not spirited. But it was. It was. It just didn't
• 24:41
  Speaker 1: have an outlet because I didn't have time because I
• 24:44
  Speaker 1: had to lay in bed at least for eight hours,
• 24:47
  Speaker 1: you know, or else who's going to take care of
• 24:50
  Speaker 1: the kids tomorrow? Who's going to be in charge of
• 24:53
  Speaker 1: the kids? I couldn't decide. And everyone told me, they're like,
• 25:03
  Speaker 1: you got to only pick one girl. They were like,
• 25:05
  Speaker 1: this is crazy. You cannot work two full-time jobs. And
• 25:09
  Speaker 1: now I see that that is sensible and it wasn't
• 25:13
  Speaker 1: about money. I need everybody to hear me out. It
• 25:15
  Speaker 1: wasn't about the money. Maybe I, I probably tried to
• 25:20
  Speaker 1: like justify it that way a little, but it was
• 25:23
  Speaker 1: really like, I had two opportunities and I didn't know
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: which one to pick. I wanted them both. And I
• 25:34
  Speaker 1: don't regret... I don't regret either of them. I think
• 25:40
  Speaker 1: it would have been... I think I probably should have
• 25:42
  Speaker 1: tried to, like... Do one of them part-time. At least, like,
• 25:47
  Speaker 1: I probably should have. But I don't think it was
• 25:50
  Speaker 1: an option. I think they really needed, like, full-time help
• 25:52
  Speaker 1: in both. So... Maybe it was an option. I don't know.
• 25:59
  Speaker 1: I didn't really try. And... now now I'm like doing
• 26:07
  Speaker 1: these applications and I'm like I can ask for what
• 26:10
  Speaker 1: I want I can literally and if they say no
• 26:12
  Speaker 1: then I'm out of here you know a certain individual
• 26:18
  Speaker 1: in my life was giving me like career coaching and
• 26:21
  Speaker 1: I want to say they said something about like my
• 26:27
  Speaker 1: tattoos and like hiding my tattoos And I remember saying
• 26:32
  Speaker 1: to them, I was like, if someone does, if someone
• 26:34
  Speaker 1: has a problem with my tattoos, I don't want to
• 26:36
  Speaker 1: work for them. Like what? It's so stupid. Why do
• 26:41
  Speaker 1: you care about my tattoos? And I'm like, most of
• 26:46
  Speaker 1: them are like extremely coverable with the short hair. I
• 26:50
  Speaker 1: got one that's not exactly, but, but also like, I
• 26:55
  Speaker 1: shouldn't have to cover it. Are you kidding? That's so stupid.
• 27:01
  Speaker 1: And I still, I'm dying on that hill. That's a
• 27:03
  Speaker 1: hill I'm dying on. It's like, if you're trying to
• 27:05
  Speaker 1: regulate my body in any way, I'm out of here.
• 27:10
  Speaker 1: I do not want to work for you. I'm allowed
• 27:12
  Speaker 1: to have tattoos. This is so stupid. This whole professional thing. Like,
• 27:16
  Speaker 1: could I get a teaching job? Probably not. Or I
• 27:18
  Speaker 1: would probably have to. I don't want a teaching job.
• 27:21
  Speaker 1: They are not paying the teachings enough. They're really not.
• 27:27
  Speaker 1: And it does sound dope. The idea of having summers off. This,
• 27:33
  Speaker 1: this I like. But I think you pay for it in,
• 27:38
  Speaker 1: you know, you just get like, yes, you get paid
• 27:40
  Speaker 1: through the summer. But realistically, do you actually or do
• 27:44
  Speaker 1: they just pay you for the other 10 months? And
• 27:49
  Speaker 1: then they just kind of they just kind of like
• 27:52
  Speaker 1: do that. Like they take is it 10 or what? Nine?
• 27:55
  Speaker 1: I don't know. nine months of pay, but then they
• 27:58
  Speaker 1: divide it by 12, is probably what I imagine they're doing.
• 28:04
  Speaker 1: And I think other states probably are doing it better,
• 28:07
  Speaker 1: is my understanding. Like, yeah. Yeah. I would imagine, like, California, like,
• 28:15
  Speaker 1: I think they have a pretty good school system, is
• 28:18
  Speaker 1: what I've heard. This is what I've heard. I don't know.
• 28:24
  Speaker 1: I've heard from various people. But I've also, I don't know.
• 28:30
  Speaker 1: Nobody but me really has a super fond association with
• 28:35
  Speaker 1: being in grade school and high school. But do I
• 28:41
  Speaker 1: want to teach? Not sure. Not sure. I could be
• 28:48
  Speaker 1: a yoga teacher. And I'm on the fence about it
• 28:51
  Speaker 1: for some reason. I'm really on the fence. I gotta
• 28:54
  Speaker 1: go talk to the yogis tomorrow. I told them I would.
• 28:58
  Speaker 1: And I'm excited. I'm definitely excited to talk to them.
• 29:05
  Speaker 1: I do have some ideas. I keep pitching ideas to
• 29:08
  Speaker 1: my friends of how I would do yoga if it
• 29:11
  Speaker 1: were up to me. And everyone's like, this is a
• 29:14
  Speaker 1: good idea. You should do this. Everyone's like, start your
• 29:16
  Speaker 1: own business. I'm like, this is a lot of work, guys.
• 29:20
  Speaker 1: I don't know about all that. And I know I
• 29:23
  Speaker 1: have a mentor that would definitely help me. And I
• 29:28
  Speaker 1: fear that she's going to try to encourage me tomorrow.
• 29:33
  Speaker 1: I fear that she's going to be like, baby girl,
• 29:36
  Speaker 1: you got a lot of good ideas. I don't know
• 29:43
  Speaker 1: if they're that good it is it is what I
• 29:47
  Speaker 1: would want to participate in it is so maybe it
• 29:52
  Speaker 1: is who knows anyways I'm at the library and I'm
• 29:59
  Speaker 1: I'm not, there's nobody blocking me into my parking space
• 30:02
  Speaker 1: and then screaming at me when I get out of
• 30:04
  Speaker 1: my car, it would seem, so. We're doing better than
• 30:07
  Speaker 1: last time. We're rewriting our memories. And, you know, I think...
• 30:19
  Speaker 1: Like I said, I forgive her. I do. It's taken
• 30:22
  Speaker 1: me this long. It's taken me probably, what, like, years.
• 30:26
  Speaker 1: Last time I was here, I think I was just,
• 30:28
  Speaker 1: I just needed to print something really quick. And then
• 30:31
  Speaker 1: I was probably yelling at the printer because I couldn't
• 30:33
  Speaker 1: figure it out. I was probably yelling at the printer.
• 30:36
  Speaker 1: I was like, how do you do this? And I
• 30:39
  Speaker 1: probably did not ask for help. It's funny, I was
• 30:42
  Speaker 1: talking to my cousin yesterday and like, I was saying
• 30:47
  Speaker 1: whatever I was saying and she was like, oh, well,
• 30:49
  Speaker 1: I understand that. She's like, I don't ask for help either.
• 30:52
  Speaker 1: I was like, dang, this crap really runs in the family.
• 30:57
  Speaker 1: Why are we not asking for help? And it's like
• 31:00
  Speaker 1: my friend, she needed a freaking passport and she's like
• 31:02
  Speaker 1: asking me, she's like, help me get a passport. I
• 31:04
  Speaker 1: was like, baby girl, go to the post office, talk
• 31:07
  Speaker 1: to someone. The post office is like the one place
• 31:10
  Speaker 1: where I will go up in there. I plan, I
• 31:13
  Speaker 1: plan to go up in the post office very soon
• 31:15
  Speaker 1: for no reason other than I just feel like it.
• 31:19
  Speaker 1: And I'm going to go in the front door because
• 31:20
  Speaker 1: the back door, y'all, y'all ain't acting right on the
• 31:23
  Speaker 1: back door side. I got some postcards I'm gonna just
• 31:29
  Speaker 1: mail out to somebody, I don't know. I'm just gonna
• 31:33
  Speaker 1: shitpost on them and mail them out. I got some
• 31:38
  Speaker 1: individuals in mind. Okay, there's a lot of people here.
• 31:51
  Speaker 1: I'm pretty excited. Am I going to talk to anybody?
• 31:56
  Speaker 1: This is the ultimate question. I've already spoken to some
• 32:02
  Speaker 1: people today. Okay, okay, okay. This has been too long. Sorry, guys. Bye.