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The Grief You Never Spoke: Reclaiming the Self After Trauma with Hannah · Terri Messenger's Genius Zone

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Hey, hey, hey, and welcome to this week's edition of Terry
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Messenger's Genius Zone. And this is the place and the
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space where you are going to have so much magic poured into
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your life through the many coaches, healers, and leaders
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that I bring on the show. And you know what?
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This day we have a very special guest.
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Now this guest happens to have a degree in psychology even though
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she has gone on to doing very powerful energetic healing and
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also criminology. So she is a trauma informed
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heart healer with this background in psychology and
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criminology. Her personal journey herself is
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through grief, through physical trauma, through chronic illness,
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and even a earth shattering car accident that changed the
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trajectory of her life until she transmuted that into her power.
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So how would you like to transmute your pain into your
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power? How would you like to have a
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healing done on your heart? Now, Hannah will tell you that
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this is something that is not often discussed, but this is
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something that will be discussed on our show right now.
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Hello, Hannah. Hi, so lovely to be here with
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you. And where are you gorgeous lady?
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I am in the UK in Worcestershire and yes, it is where the sauce
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comes from. Westchestershire sauce.
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It's actually one of my favorite sauces, I tell you now.
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I guess we ought to tell people to stay to the end because
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there's going to be a special transmission, a heart healing
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guidance from you, where you're gonna gently open up our heart
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space and really give a beautiful healing.
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So I'm just gonna let all our viewers know they will be
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obviously seeing this from the moment that our podcast drops.
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And I can't wait to go through everything with you.
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So how hard must have it been as a 13 year old girl to find your
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father in such a compromised and fatal position when you're
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making him a simple cup of tea and then you walk in to that.
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How does a person get through that?
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And can I ask what was it that you were able to kind of like
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discover was the catalyst of maybe your father's legacy, if
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you will? So what it had done for you, you
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know, Fast forward to now. Yeah, I mean, it was, it was
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really tough. I mean, it's a tough age anyway.
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And then going and experiencing some kind of earth shattering
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grief as as losing a parent, you know, that's hard at any age,
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but when you're 13 and you're just kind of learning about
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yourself and learning who they are as people, it completely, it
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completely changed my world. As it would, as it would.
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And yet you know, it's given you wisdom like nothing can ever
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take away the grief of losing someone that you love.
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And that's something I always like to say as a disclaimer
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because, you know, sometimes when you're doing work like
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yourself, so the work that you do now, the work that I do, it
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is healing the heart and especially in your field because
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that is your specialty. So even when you are healing the
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heart, you know, it doesn't take away from the grief that that
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was a really hard situation in your life, wasn't it?
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And yet, you know, obviously the healing that's come out of it
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for you and the fact that you were able to go through so many
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different elements. But then did it didn't stop
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there, did it? I mean, you just had to really
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go on and show the world that you are the superhero in this
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movie and you're here to conquer the world.
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And so you had a rather epic car accident and that broke your
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back. Can you tell me about that?
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Yeah, I mean, that was another really tough moment in my life.
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You're just driving along and you don't expect these things to
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happen. I wasn't going very fast.
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It was an adverse camber. There was mud on the road and I
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just all of a sudden I could feel it in the wheel and I, I
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knew that whatever was going to happen, I I couldn't control.
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So in that brief moment, even though it's one of the most kind
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of earth shattering moments in my life, it was almost also one
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of the most peaceful and profound spiritual moments in my
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life because I, I knew in that in that moment and I look back
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at it and it feels like it was minutes, but it was literally
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just seconds. I knew that there was nothing I
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could do. So I just said a prayer.
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I put my faith in God and I said, you know, whatever is
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going to be will be just try and try and get me through this and
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I relaxed. Wow, how does someone find the
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time? Do you see what happens here
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though? I just want to make conscious
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competency about this. You literally expanded time.
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So time literally changed and you even managed to pray.
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Yeah, yeah. Gosh, and I mean, this came
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after your father's, you know, incidents, so he was probably
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just watching over you as your guardian Angel.
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And for you to be able to tell yourself something like that is
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absolutely phenomenal. So it doesn't surprise me that,
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you know, your life cracked open.
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And I always say that's where the light comes in, when a
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person's life is literally cracked open and the physical
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pain that must have happened to you in a very deep and emotional
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way, so almost like a silent scream no one could see.
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And yet it was a loss of identity in one way.
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And yet that fractured self, that cracked open who you are
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today becomes your power. So at what point of life did you
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actually come across these, you know, powerful healing
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modalities and specifically the heal method, which we will talk
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about and go through a bit later, But at what stage did
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that happen and tell us about that experience?
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Yeah. I mean, I think going through
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any kind of accident like that, it does, it completely changes
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your life and you have to learn to kind of live again.
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And it came a little bit later, actually, when I was there,
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later diagnosed with ME and chronic fatigue syndrome, which
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literally again threw my life into disarray.
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But by this point I'd already mastered kind of living with
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pain, learning to live with pain rather than fight against it.
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Very similar in the way I'd kind of integrated grief into my
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life, learning to live with it and that you don't get over it.
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It just becomes a part of who you are.
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And that left me wanting more. You know, I've done as much as I
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could with traditional medication.
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So I, I looked outside of the kind of the main healing, well,
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like physical healing. And then that's when I found
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Reiki and started to explore energy healing and working with
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the heart and bringing in those kind of spiritual, spiritual
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side along with the scientific side.
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And that's how kind of my heal method then became.
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I love that. And so if I can just bring to
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our listeners the competency of your consciousness of what
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you've just said. So you chose to surrender.
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That's what I'm hearing. And that's such a powerful thing
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to do. And through that surrender
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because you kind of like suddenly in your feminine
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energy. So in that feminine energy,
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that's where we call in all these, I guess you know, what
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we're really called to do. I mean, quite often our genius
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zone. That's why we call this show the
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genius zone, you know, because it is derived from our biggest
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pain that becomes transmuted into our greatest power.
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And you can obviously see yourself that you learned so
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much about this. And you also talk about, you
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know, how that weakness became courage and the act of rewriting
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your story where you could lean into the grief and find your
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gifts. But you know, how does a person,
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what would you say to a person that is going through grief?
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You know, what is it that can help them to learn from what's
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going on? Can you kind of encourage or,
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you know, help that person? I mean, I guess it would depend
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on what stage of the grief it is as well.
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But what are the kind of like the the stages of going through
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that acceptance? Do they have to identify or how
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does it roll? I would say the first step is
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just try not, don't put a timeline on it.
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There is no time and grief. Everybody grieves in their own
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way and it's a very personal experience.
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So don't compare the way you're grieving to the way somebody
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else is grieving. And that you just have to
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surrender into it and allow yourself to feel whatever comes
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up. But don't hold on to those
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feelings. Acknowledge them.
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It kind of. Allow them to.
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Move through you and not get stuck in those those feelings of
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guilt or pain. You know, that's very powerful
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right there, Hannah. Allow them to move through you.
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So this is something that our listeners may not necessarily,
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not all of them may understand. There's a lot of coaches and
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healers that do tune into this, but for those who may not
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understand, when you say let that pain move through because
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that is key, can you talk me through that?
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Yeah, I think more often than not we get stuck in these kind
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of negative energies because they are really heavy and we are
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feeling saddened down. But it's just allowing yourself
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to to feel other things as well and not feel bad.
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You can be joyous and grieving at the same time.
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You know, these things can coexist together.
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And finding a way to to balance your energy however, works for
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you, whether that's through prayer or meditation, through
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energy healing these crystals, any kind of cleansing ritual.
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Yeah, yeah, I do. I do agree with so much you've
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said, especially about there's no time.
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What is time anyway? It's just man made right.
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And I remember my husband saying when he lost his wife, he'd been
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on a journey. His previous wife, he'd been on
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a journey with her for some time, probably longer than a lot
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of people knew. So he was going through grief
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before she passed. And that does happen, definitely
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does happen. Then when she passed, then the
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kids were in grief and he knew, but because they were still very
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young, you know, I think there was that certain amount of
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protection. So he'd already moved through
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that grieving, but the kids had just started.
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So it was very difficult to comprehend about time.
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And then and, and my husband is very like, he's very quantum
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thinking and all that sort of thing.
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So in terms of going to a seminar, like how Long's a piece
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of string, everybody is going to be different.
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And the, the fact is that, as I said before earlier on the show,
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it never makes a grief moment good.
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It's just that we remove it at some point, which is what you're
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helping people do, remove it from the body.
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And you had chronic fatigue syndrome and obviously you
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understood about how those layers just peel back and you
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talk about an ever evolution of layers as well that we just
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constantly go through. So what is it that you can talk
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to me about in terms of, you know, the chronic fatigue
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syndrome and what you did to really get through that?
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It's really kind of about honouring your body and
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honouring yourself. And I think modern life was so
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pushed to be busy all the time and I'm on the go all the time.
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And it's really just surrendering to that higher
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power in the universe and just allowing yourself to be and
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knowing that rest is productive and rest because quite often we,
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we think there was rest of doing nothing.
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But rest is so important for the body And so healing and just
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really listening to what your body is trying to tell you and
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being guided by that rather than your mind.
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And we're, we live so much in our mind.
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It's almost kind of feels quite alien sometimes to try and drop
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into our bodies. Oh yeah, absolutely.
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And so true as well. So everything you've just said
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just resonates so well. And of course, your healing
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method, which I know you've done a lot of study, a lot of
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research. You've, you know, you've worked
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with a lot of great people, a lot of great thinkers, and then
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you've got your psychology background behind you and all of
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the things. And there's a big sacred alchemy
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of grief that you're dealing with.
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And you know, I feel also that even with your chronic fatigue
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syndrome, that was just your body crying out Forrest, like as
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much as this is I I believe that.
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Do you believe that like people have things and really it's
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happening for them like a GPSAG? PS: That's kind of guiding them
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to their ultimate destiny. And I mean, if we didn't have
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that, how would we know what we needed to do?
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It's like driving a car and not knowing when the petrol is low
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or, you know, when the oil is not there.
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You know, we need the gauge, we need the science.
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So our body is fearfully and innately brilliant how it's
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made. So, you know, I'm kind of really
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leaning into the fact that your chronic fatigue syndrome was,
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was just a cry for you know what, Hannah?
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This is your time, girl. This is your time to just rest
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and heal because you are called to do a brilliant work, work
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with the world. And that's what we're going to
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talk about next. And I just want to remind our
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listeners as well to stay to the end because there's going to be
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a very powerful little segment that Hannah is going to share to
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heal that part of your heart. So let's talk about your
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methodology that you've learned and the many great thinkers
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you've learned through. And it's healed, but I don't
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want to take your Thunder away. So I'm going to get you to start
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off with the letter H for Heal. I love acronyms, by the way.
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What does that stand for? Yeah.
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So H stands for Healing the Relational Wings because
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everything is about a relationship, whether that's a
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relationship with somebody else or a relationship with
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ourselves. And when we're in grief, we're
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grieving that loss of connection to whatever it was that we
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loved, you know, that we were passionate about, whether that
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be a person, a relationship, you know, your job, a pet or or a
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part of yourself. Yeah.
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And I guess it's everything about what you've talked about
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here, recognizing how pain from the past continues to kind of
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make me through those relationships too, isn't it?
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Because this is something that I know I'm dealing with every day
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because as ANLP practitioner, trainer and hypnotherapist, it's
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like everything that we're doing today is from where we came
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from, from the past. But it doesn't have to stay that
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way. The good things, yes.
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The way we learn how to walk and talk and read and write and
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drive a car and do all the things.
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But we don't have to stay locked into the pain just because that
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was something that, you know, was in our past.
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So what this beautiful lady does, Hannah the holistic
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healer, is she helps you to reclaim your power through
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forgiveness, compassion, and also the grief that a lot of
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people, even coaches, healers and leaders in this I'm not
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talking about. So the next one is E.
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What does E stand for? So E.
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Stands for expressing pain and anger.
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And like you said, just then, like grief brings up old wings
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and it kind of stacks itself. So whenever we lose one thing
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and then we we're grieving something else, it can bring
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back all of those emotions from the previous one.
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So the more losses you get, the kind of deeper you can fall down
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into into a spiral. But it's about allowing yourself
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to feel whatever feelings you're feeling and knowing that they're
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valid for you and that feelings are just feelings.
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They're neither good nor bad. And anger and pain are things
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that we kind of attribute as negative, but they don't
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necessarily have to be. I mean, anger can show how
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passionate and how much we cared for something was.
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And the same with with pain. It shows, you know, our level of
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connection to to that person or to ourselves.
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But we the problem happens was when we try to hold on to those
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emotions and they get stuck in our energy field and stored in
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our bodies. Even, you know, if there's tight
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muscles and everything is interconnected.
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So it's just allowing you to move through that and don't know
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that you can. Joy and pain and sadness and
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anger can all coexist at the same time.
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I can remember doing a, a very feminine kind of divine healing
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with a woman in the coaching space, and she hasn't been in it
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as long as I have. And you know, but she was one of
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these ladies who she just kind of knew.
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She just cottoned on to the whole essence of how to make
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money and she she just knew how to make money, but she did it in
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her divine feminine, right? That's what she was.
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She was always teaching on the divine feminine.
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And I remember when I decided, well, gosh, I've been around
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five times longer than she has. And I know that I heal people
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like yourself and probably better than she does, but she
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just really knew a lot about the divine femininity.
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And one of the things that we did was we had to express our
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pain and our anger through kind of like she promoted yelling
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into a pillow or, you know, just letting it out and letting the
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body kind of cry and weep. What's your thoughts about that,
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Hannah? Yeah, I think that's really
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important thing to do and you've got to find what way works for
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you, whether that be screaming into a pillow or hitting a
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pillow or just kind of having a little bit of a rage dance or
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screaming in the words. You've got to.
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You've got to find a way to express it.
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Yeah, I'm just picturing as you're saying that as long as
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it's kind of like in control, like, OK, I'm going to go into
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my room and I'm going to punch up my pillow and this is what
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I'm going to do. And yeah, so I feel like if you
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know and you make a deliberate intention, there is absolutely
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nothing wrong with owning your feelings as Hannah has really
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been speaking on. So a what does A stand for?
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So A stands for accepting your new reality and acceptance is
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such a massive part of grief because you've been thrown into
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a world that you never anticipated in and learning to
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just go with the flow and accept what the universe has destined
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for you and that things change and we want to naturally kind of
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control things. We are humans aren't control
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freaks. And when we can't control things
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that causes us, you know, disarray.
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But the we can't control everything in our life.
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So it's about that kind of again, like letting go and just
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accepting. I hope you can take notes.
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It's take notes guys, because you know you're getting this for
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free. Oh my gosh, and by the way, we
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will have all Hannahs contact details in the show notes.
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So be be aware that you can contact Hannah and discover, you
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know, the healing and all of the things.
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And I believe you even will offer like a a discovery call
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with people so that you get to know them and they get to know
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you. And obviously this show, that's
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what it's all about. It's really about, you know,
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letting people know who you are and you've really been so
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vulnerable in sharing so much in your world.
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And so people get to know you from this podcast.
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And then to hear all of your wise gold Nuggets, plus to
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experience a little bit of your magic at the end, which I will
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remind people to stay to the end to listen to, is absolutely
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incredible. But yeah, that's been probably
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one of the latest things that I've really come to know about,
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and I can't agree with you more. It's like the acceptance, the
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whole acceptance, just that letting go.
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It's like neuroplasticity in motion.
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And yeah, it's just a presence, isn't it?
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It's just a choice. And of course, last but not
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least, we have L. What does L stand for in the
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word heal? So Al is learning to live and
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love again because life doesn't end with grief.
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And just because you're moving forward doesn't mean you've
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forgotten. And you're not honouring
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whatever it was that you lost and whatever it was that you
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lost, whether that's part of yourself or another person, you
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know they would want you to to carry on living.
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And you can honour their memory by living life to the full and
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grasping every experience. Life is all about experiences
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where we're born and we're going to leave at some point and we
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don't know how long that's going to be.
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So it's just about making the most of every single little
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moment and finding the tiny glimmers of joy in everyday
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life. We kind of almost running on
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autopilot all the time. So it's just noticing the birds
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singing or the bright sunlight, the flowers, you know, all those
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kind of a smile, a connection with a friend, those little
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moments of what life is all about.
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Yeah, and I think we forget to do that, don't we?
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And, you know, just being present and getting into our
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sensories and like you say, hearing the birds and
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experiencing the smell of the roses, so to speak.
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And so Hannah is really your guide for grieving through even
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those invisible things that you didn't even know that you were
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dealing through. And you know, this is what
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Hannah will do. She will help you to, you know,
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deal with grieving through your identity because sometimes your
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identity can change or you lose yourself as a result of massive
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changes that may happen. Like you heard Hannah's story
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about, you know, discovering her father at the age of 13, the car
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accident, dealing with chronic fatigue syndrome.
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You know, how important do you feel, Hannah, by the way, that
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you somehow, or rather through all these painful experiences,
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you are actually able to find your real self?
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Yeah, completely. I mean, I wouldn't be sat here
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talking to you being the women I am today without the things I've
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gone through. And I feel it has kind of like,
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it's almost like opening the blinkers from a horse and that
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you just get to see life from a different perspective.
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And it really gives you that kind of 1st for experiencing
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everything and that deep empathy and just wanting to guide others
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and know that they're not alone. Because I think one of the
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hardest things of grief was we don't talk about it.
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Grief is invisible. So you feel very isolated and
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very alone. And it's something we don't talk
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about. And if we don't talk about it,
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we're never going to be able to, to let people know that they
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aren't alone. So it's just about finding your
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community and knowing that even if you're not ready at this
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moment, but at some point when you are ready to open up, there
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will be somebody out there who's who's knows exactly what you're
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going through. And can I ask also with the kind
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of healing work you do, so we know you can help people to deal
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with those, those elements of their grief, of identity, of
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their health. So it's not been seen of broken
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timelines and disappointments and relationships and all that
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kind of stuff. So what do you feel is for the
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person out there that's kind of really suffering with their
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health? I've heard this a lot.
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I, I see it on my social media platforms, people talking about
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how sick they are all the time and banging on about their, you
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know, their life in that way. And I think to myself, I'm not
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going to comment. I'm not going to say anything.
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I'm just going to shut my little mouth.
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What would you say though? Can I ask you, the specialist
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here with, you know, when there's health issues?
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Because you know, when I think about it, the people that I do
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see, because I do care and love for them as well, you know, How
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has grief shaped their health and what would you suggest for
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them? I think grief can be
28:53
all-encompassing because it gets us to a point where we're so low
28:56
we then do neglect self-care and taking, you know, eating
29:01
properly and getting enough sleep and rest and all of these
29:04
things are so important. We can't kind of disassociate
29:08
the the body. We need to think of the mind and
29:10
the body and the heart and our spirit and our soul all as one.
29:13
And it is, yes, about sharing those experiences, but not
29:17
wallowing in them and not getting stuck in that pain.
29:20
It's about then finding a way to move through.
29:23
And you've got to have kind of like that bit of hope and faith
29:26
that you're being guided to something bigger and better.
29:29
I know that if I hadn't been through what I've been through,
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I wouldn't have the empathy and kindness and wouldn't have put
29:36
me on this healing path, running my own business and helping
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guide others, which I absolutely love.
29:42
And also the freedom that goes with it because you've gone
29:46
from, you know, locked into that element of where you were to, to
29:51
being in the freedom of where you are now.
29:54
So there's there's always every clan has a silver lining, right?
29:58
Yeah. Definitely, Yeah.
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I love what you do and you offer heart LED spiritual healing,
30:06
which we're about to experience. And yeah.
30:11
And I guess look, if you want to speak, if you need, sometimes
30:16
when a person does a modality, like in the last podcast, which
30:21
you happened to watch, I said to her, why don't you just wait
30:26
until the end and feel into it? Especially because she was
30:30
clairvoyant and she was, you know, very intuitive and things
30:34
like that. So we didn't have to kind of
30:37
like pre empt to everything. But it was more about let's just
30:42
tap into who we're talking to out there and who's gonna be
30:47
listening and then decide and and let that come through.
30:52
But you know, with this heart LED spiritual healing, do you
30:57
require AII guess a person like myself here, for example, where
31:04
you'd like to ask questions or are you able to just take us
31:07
through that beautiful divine energy?
31:11
I mean, yeah, I can just take you through the divine entry.
31:14
Obviously, when you do have a 1:00 to 1:00 session, it does
31:16
involve talking through it with me, which gives you a deeper
31:19
level of healing because we're able to like, address those
31:22
specific issues for yourself. But you can still get a really
31:26
deep level of healing just by listening to it without and
31:29
replying, you know, in yourself rather than having a
31:32
conversation with me. And I'm very kind of intuitively
31:36
level. I always use my intuition in my
31:39
practice and and really every session is different because I'm
31:42
guided by the client and what they need and what the heart
31:45
shows us. Can I ask you a question then?
31:49
I mean, this is a I've been asking you questions the whole
31:51
time, but this is a personal question from me to you like as
31:56
it like me being the client for a moment.
31:58
Can I be the client for a moment and ask you a question?
32:01
OK, so you know, I mean I won't go into my story.
32:05
I'm sure everybody that listens to my podcasts knows my story,
32:08
but I have a husband who got out of control diabetes that led to
32:13
vascular dementia. He's non verbal and he can't
32:15
walk today. So they call dementia the slow
32:19
goodbye. So that's grief every single
32:23
day. I have found the magic in a lot
32:32
of it because number one, I've created a TikTok channel for
32:35
him. So go follow us, Ian and Terry
32:37
Messenger. So he has now a TikTok channel.
32:42
He is a chiropractor and his patients miss him.
32:45
This time last year he was still serving them.
32:48
So it's it's almost like, well, here we are today.
32:53
And you know, I have had to take myself through so many of those
33:00
elements of your heel method. So I can vouch that it's true.
33:06
What would you do? What would you say or where
33:09
would you sort of begin with with a person like myself with
33:14
with that kind of complex issue? Is there any tips you could
33:19
perhaps give me? I think it's like recognizing
33:22
that you're almost going through lots of different types of grief
33:24
at the same time, because there's that anticipated grief
33:28
because you know what's kind of coming.
33:30
And then there's the grief of losing your relationship, which
33:33
is a separate kind of grief. And the grief of for him losing
33:37
his freedom and his business and knowing that it's grief is, is
33:43
not a very multi layered. And I think it can be, it can be
33:48
really difficult when it's dragged out for that long time
33:50
because then you've also got the grief afterwards as well.
33:53
But it's about learning to just find the little happy moments in
33:58
life and then and but also then allowing yourself to be sad and
34:02
that it will take, it will take time.
34:07
Gosh, it's so on point. So on point, it's like you are a
34:11
specialist on the topic of this. I mean, unless people knew
34:16
about, you know, this kind of vascular dementia, you know, in
34:21
in younger people, it's like, you know, the slow goodbye, all
34:25
of those elements. And yes, the, the grieving of
34:28
the relationship, the grieving of the loss of his role and his
34:32
independence and his freedom. And then not to mention what's
34:34
going to come. So you hit the nail on the head,
34:37
girl. And then the happy moments.
34:40
Yeah. Well, you know, I, that's what I
34:44
live for. I live every day for one smile
34:49
or one, you know, he'll do something that's familiar, like
34:52
a wink of the eye. Or he'll do something familiar.
34:56
Something will come. And yeah, so I, I take from
35:02
that, but I'm just going to allow myself to enjoy this part
35:06
of the segment that you've got to give right here in relation
35:11
to the heart healing transmission.
35:14
So is there anything you require from me or the audience before
35:20
we begin? No, I think.
35:22
If you're listening at home, just make sure that you're
35:24
somewhere where you can be relaxed.
35:26
Sit. Down or lie down and just allow
35:28
yourself to enjoy the process. Excellent.
35:31
All right, so let's start. Let's begin.
35:36
So over to you, Hannah. So I just want you to say make
35:40
yourself comfortable taking a nice deep breath in and then
35:47
gently breathe out. On this second breath in, I'd
35:51
like you to close your eyes and then slowly breathe out.
35:58
And on this third breath, with your eyes closed, I just want
36:00
you to look up, imagining you're looking at your mind's eye in
36:04
the center of your forehead. Take a big deep breath out.
36:12
And as you breathe out, just gently allow your eyes to relax.
36:18
Feel that relaxation from the tip of your head to the bottom
36:22
of your toes, slowly going through your body like a wave.
36:28
And you can imagine that you're stood at the top of a beautiful
36:32
golden staircase, and the staircase has 10 steps, and
36:38
you're going to gently and slowly just start to walk down
36:42
the staircase, one step at a time.
36:47
And every step you take, you just relax that little bit more,
36:52
going slightly deeper into yourself, feeling the tension
36:58
melt away from your muscles and just allowing yourself to be.
37:06
And as you get to the bottom of the staircase, a golden door
37:11
appears in front of you. You're going to step through
37:15
that door and it takes you on a journey inside your body until
37:23
you find yourself standing in front of your beautiful beating
37:28
heart, the portal to your soul and the wisdom of every lifetime
37:35
you've ever lived. A doorway opens into your heart
37:41
and you can see the heart chambers.
37:47
You step through this doorway into your heart, knowing that
37:50
you are safe and you are supported and and that nothing
37:55
bad can ever touch you whilst you're protected inside your
37:58
heart. And when you get inside your
38:03
heart, you notice that there's a younger version of you standing
38:08
there and they're crying and sobbing and they feel not enough
38:17
or too much in some way. You take them by the hand and
38:25
you asked them who is the person that made you feel this way and
38:33
that little version of you. They point to the other side of
38:37
the heart chamber and there on a chair you can see the person.
38:45
He was the root cause of you not feeling enough, remembering that
38:51
you are completely safe and they cannot re hurt you whilst you're
38:56
inside the heart. And you then ask that little
39:03
you, you ask them, why is it that this person hurt you?
39:16
And they will tell you about a time in their life that this
39:20
person made them feel not enough.
39:25
Just allow yourself to see that memory now and allow that little
39:38
you to express all of the feelings that you've been
39:41
holding onto. Express that pain, express the
39:46
anger, express any hurt, and just see those feelings flowing
39:56
out of you. Now, this person is the root
40:05
cause of your not enoughness and we're going to heal that.
40:12
So I want you to envision the chords of pain and not
40:19
enoughness attaching you to that younger you and on to that
40:24
person that caused this root wound and just notice.
40:30
What do these chords look like and notice how many of them can
40:37
you see? And then just notice where on
40:44
your body are they coming from and what do you think it's
40:49
trying to tell you from the position of these chords?
40:56
And along with those pain chords, if it feels right for
40:58
you, I also want you to see love chords attaching you to yourself
41:04
and that person because love and pain can coexist and notice.
41:10
What do these love chords look like?
41:14
How are they different to the pain chords?
41:19
How many of the love chords can you see and where on your body
41:25
are these coming from? Are they coming from the same
41:28
place as the pain chords or a different place?
41:35
Then in a moment, you're going to pull all of those pain chords
41:39
out one by one from the root, from yourself and from your
41:44
younger you and from the person that caused that wound.
41:48
And each time you pull them out, I want you to say either in your
41:53
mind, out loud, whatever feels best for you, I'm letting go of
41:56
the pain and leaving only love. So just take a moment now and
42:01
pull all of those pain cords out from the root and say each time
42:06
I'm letting go of the pain and I'm leaving only love.
42:25
And once you've pulled all of those chords out, I want you to
42:29
say I am taking my power back now.
42:38
And now all those pain chords are gone.
42:41
You feel a warm fuzzy electric feeling inside.
42:45
You feel your heart, your soul, your energy expanding.
42:51
And you look at the love chords, if you had love chords as well,
42:55
left, and they start to double and triple in size before your
42:59
eyes, getting thicker and stronger.
43:04
And you have a deep sense of peace and safety and acceptance
43:08
for yourself, for the past and for that person.
43:14
You know that it was never your fault.
43:18
You have always been enough, yourself and your younger you
43:24
now come together in a warm and loving embrace.
43:29
And a bright, brilliant white light surrounds you both.
43:33
And this white light is filled with particles of peace and love
43:36
and acceptance. And as these little particles of
43:40
peace and love and acceptance flood through your body, they
43:43
fill up those areas where the pain cords were attached,
43:47
rebuilding you with peace, love, acceptance.
43:54
And that bright white light picks up anything that doesn't
43:57
belong in your body. All of those feelings of pain,
44:00
sadness, hurt, all of that trauma, all of those feelings
44:05
are not enough, and it takes them out of you now.
44:10
And it also removes that person that caused that pain for you.
44:16
And as that brilliant bright white light starts to fade, you
44:20
sit down in the empty chair in the heart chamber.
44:24
It's just you and that little you left now.
44:27
And they are smiling and laughing and they run up to you
44:30
and give you the biggest hug. And they are so happy because
44:35
you finally gave them a voice. You had the power to set them
44:40
free. You are the change maker.
44:45
Want you to then say in your mind or repeat out loud a few
44:49
little things to that little you.
44:52
I love you unconditionally. You are so important to me.
45:01
I am so sorry for what you went through.
45:07
It was never your fault. You are always safe now.
45:16
I will always protect you. You will never be alone again.
45:26
I will always be here for you. You are loved more than you'll
45:33
ever know. You are more than enough.
45:41
We are healed now. And they look up at you and they
45:47
nod their little head as if to say, I'm ready now.
45:50
And their little body slowly starts to integrate with your
45:52
body. And as their tiny little heart
45:55
starts to integrate with your heart, your heart's become one
45:58
and whole. And it sends an explosion of
46:02
loving enoughness throughout your body that breaks down any
46:06
energetic walls that were surrounding your heart.
46:09
You let go of anything that was stopping you from loving
46:11
yourself, from believing you are enough.
46:15
It's completely removed from your mind, heart, body, and
46:18
soul. Your heart is free.
46:21
Your heart is wide open to receiving all of its desires,
46:26
and it feels incredible. You look around that chamber one
46:30
more time and you see a version of you who looks like you, but
46:33
they're slightly different. It's your higher self and they
46:37
tell you you are safe and supported and they are so proud
46:41
of you for what you've done. Today they turn to you and they
46:45
give you a piece of guidance that's going to help you move
46:48
forward in your life. Right now, just take a moment to
46:51
accept this guidance from your higher self.
47:04
You easily remember this guidance when you come back.
47:08
You walk out of that heart chamber and you notice that the
47:11
wall around your heart is gone and you're not that little you
47:15
anymore. You're strong.
47:18
It was never your fault. You are more than enough and you
47:22
can deeply love and accept yourself unconditionally.
47:25
From this point onwards, you go back through that golden door,
47:30
stepping back into your body, feeling whole, feeling
47:40
transformed, finally feeling enough.
47:44
You know that you have the power to choose, and you choose
47:48
yourself. You choose to love yourself
47:51
unconditionally and know that you are more than enough, you're
47:55
always safe and the power lies within you.
47:59
That whatever you've been through your heart is more than
48:02
capable of growing back stronger and more resilient than ever
48:06
before. Knowing that you can pass that
48:09
love and kindness on to others in your life and for yourself as
48:13
well. Knowing that you are special,
48:17
you are loved, and that the universe has amazing plans for
48:22
you. You have faith in the divine,
48:26
faith that you're on your path, and you listen to those little
48:31
nudges and those guidance from yourself every day.
48:35
You're free. Free to love yourself, free to
48:38
believe in yourself, and now your heart's free.
48:42
You've opened up those floodgates to receiving more of
48:45
all the good things in your life.
48:48
And as you come back to your full awareness, you'll instantly
48:52
feel more confident and more enough, knowing that you have a
48:56
deep desire to be more loving for yourself and for others
49:00
around you. So feeling whole, feeling
49:04
transformed, on the count of 512345, you clean your eyes.
49:15
Take it away. Wow, wow, wow.
49:20
We just got a full heel heart session there.
49:24
Oh my gosh, Hannah, you are so incredibly generous, gifted, and
49:32
you know I can't thank you enough for that.
49:35
I don't know about everybody else listening, but I feel so
49:39
expanded so, but I still have to ask you the same question as I
49:43
ask everybody else. It's just a quick answer, but I
49:47
just want to give you the opportunity to do so.
49:50
Everybody that comes on the show, they kind of warm up and
49:54
then they hot heat up and then they get to the end.
49:57
And then of course then when you are off the show, you think, oh,
50:02
I would love to have shared that.
50:04
Is there anything you would like to share with a person out there
50:11
that is praying for your service right now?
50:14
What would you say to them? I think you've said it all, but
50:17
I'm still going to ask. I would just say that however
50:21
you're grieving is the right way for you and trust yourself,
50:24
trust your intuition and you know where to find me if you
50:28
want to have a chat. There's no strings attached.
50:30
You know, I, I only work with people if I feel it's right.
50:33
But I'm more than happy to have that conversation with you to
50:36
give you a little bit of guidance and see if we're the
50:38
right fit for working together. That is absolutely beautiful.
50:42
So check out Hannah's contact details in the show notes.
50:47
And Hannah, thank you so very much.
50:50
I am very grateful for what you've given to me and the wider
50:55
audience and the expanded audience and the audience that
50:59
it's going to reach between now and whenever this podcast falls
51:06
off, which is however many years away.
51:08
So thank you so very much and I can't be more grateful for
51:13
everything that you have imparted.
51:17
Thank you so much for having me. It's been absolutely wonderful
51:20
here chatting to you today, and I really hope you listeners
51:24
found some solace in those words and just know that you're not
51:28
alone.