Latest / Upcoming Trial of Nathan Chasing Horse April 14, 2025 / the resilience of Indigenous cultures.
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- Marina Crane: Hello, ⁓ good afternoon. It's July 6th. And sorry to say, but Mexico lost yesterday. And today is Canada against, ⁓ I forget who they're against. Anyway, that's later on this evening. Again, to my audience, I'll say hello to Darcy. also I've noticed there's been a a a a spike in in people who are listening to my ⁓ podcast. So thank you for being out there and ⁓ being curious about what I have to say and the stories I have to talk about. ⁓ like ⁓ about a half an hour ago I had a a friend ⁓ he's a plumber. I called him I needed help ⁓ bring do to do some things because I'm you know there there are some I have limitations in mobility as well as hel just going from point A to point B. And I r rarely call him but it was good that I called him. And ⁓ we had a conversation. Well I get again, I enjoy the conversations I have with different people. And ⁓ this particular fellow is is a brother to my nephew. and they ⁓ go fishing ⁓ almost every weekend. So I he was saying, I saw you on TV. And I said, Which TV? What program? So ⁓ I I had told him it was all about my ⁓ being in the courtroom ⁓ to ⁓ witness Nathan Chasinghorse being sentenced. And ⁓ so he's he's been a long time ⁓ acquaintance that I that I I've touched base with once in a while and we've we managed to talk and I said to him, you know, things are pretty tight financially right now, I said, because you know, the past ⁓ like I i I had to ⁓ pay my way down to Las Vegas twice. And So the things that I wanted to do for the summer was like my garden, my flowers, like all that I had to put on hold. And then ⁓ just the limitations that I found myself into and the reality like, okay, my whole life I've just l ⁓ struggled on my own. I've never had a a partner who helps pay the rent or helps pay my bills or Like I'm sounding really pitiful, but really I'm not. I'm not, I swear. And this acquaintance, ⁓ his name's Kevin. He ⁓ he has two daughters, extremely intelligent. Like one's getting her PhD in chemistry, I think, in November. And like they're just like s so dynamic these these young girls, these y these young women. And so I'm I'm always super impressed when He you know, he's so proud of his daughters. And the reality of it is like, when you look at his daughters, you don't know that they're indigenous because they're white passing. And and like I have a first cousin who's white passing. He's got blonde hair and blue eyes. And my great grandmother was white passing as well, if she had blue eyes. And she spoke fluent Dakota and Like we're talking we're we're talking like over a hundred years ago here, okay, my great grandmother in the late eighteen hundreds. So amongst the Sioux people we've been intermarrying switching bloodlines for for a long time. So even the reality of like a ha five hundred years ago and this is what's really astonishing when it comes to immigrants or people who come into Canada or or or just like from Africa or Europe or some part of the of the this planet and they come into this new world. But this is five hundred years. This isn't like with the Greeks or the Egyptians, like you know, like this is this is New World stuff. And a lot of people go, ⁓ well it's New World. Yeah, well you're classifying it as New World because that's what you feel comfortable with. The reality is like we've been here thousands of years, thirty, twenty, ten thousand. And ⁓ you know, the proof is in the pudding now when you look at science. And a lot of people ⁓ don't want to look at signs or they they just ⁓ are so busy on day-to-day living, like going to jobs, sleeping, waking up, listening to the masses. That's the reality of life. All you have to do is give somebody permission to do something and they'll do it. Perfect example is the Calgary Stampede. Just tell somebody, here, have a drink. ⁓ let's go out and party. Give them permission and they'll go and do it. We have the l largest divorce rate, the largest family breakups during the ten days of the Calgary Stampede, as well as like when I was a child we had thousands of men who worked in the oil fields up up north or even down south come into Calgary. The human trafficking that went on and still goes on is is barbaric. So I rarely go to the Stampede. But I regress because again All that that reminds me of is, you know, p people from another race trying to seduce me Even as a twelve year old child catcalling me, trying to get me, ooh. No, or even taking pictures of me at twelve years old. Like, look at the pretty little Indian girl. Well, I don't think it was pretty little Indian girl. I think they were just cu curious in in ⁓ documenting a savage, tame savage in ⁓ you know, by the T P and the Calgary Stampede. Human zoo. And if people want to argue that, go ahead. Go ahead. Jeez. I've I've grown up with white people my entire life. And when I I had a friend of mine, she's Japanese American. She only calls me when she's bragging and she just got off a tour a cruise ship. And she's married to a laconoman. The irony of it is like she doesn't realise the only time she calls me is is to say she's travelled and yet she will not come to visit me. She will not pay a trip to come and visit me. So, like, hello, Emma. I I'm trying to say to her, I I'm not like your husband. I wasn't raised on an isolated reservation in the United States or any place like in Canada, any place. I have lived on my reserve. R E S E R V E. Get that in Canada. Don't try to be hoity toity and uppity and say reservation. my big capital F there. Just it I mean like that's that's being uppity if you're saying that instead of reserve. And and she's she's like that. Like I I'm I mean it it i of course she's gotten under my skin because the reality is like, ⁓ Marina, I do this and I'm doing that. I'm going, ⁓ that's good, that's fine. Like she knows I I just can't stand ⁓ like even thinking of going on a cruise. I d I like I have visions of Jaws and the Titanic and tidal waves, tsunamis, like it just ⁓ and plus that I've watched YouTube videos on cruise ships and ki the cafeterias and I it's contained in a con like it's like being ⁓ imprisoned in a container floating o in a bottle on the water. I just can't stand it. ⁓ Anyway The point is that I tried to get across to her ⁓ 'cause I took her on a a little joy ride to the Costco and I said to her, Yeah, this is Sutina. This I I've tried to tell the people I've grown up in a town or a city, like even the fact when I talk to immigrants and I say, you know, I'm seventy four years old and I used to go all the way down to the Olympic Plaza, what used to be the Olympic Plaza or City Hall, ⁓ and that old building that's still the remnants of the old city hall. That's where we used there used to be A safe way, and that's where everybody used to go and get their groceries. Even the Italians in the northeast side of the city, like in the older section in the north part up Center Street. And then of course there's Chinatown right by the bridge there. So there are certain places in Calgary that you know were established when I was a child. But at the same time, too, it just the immense influx of population and immigrants, and even as a child, I I was hoping. there were more people of color coming into the city because when my parents traveled to South American India I was like eight and ten. And so I heard stories of like the thousands of people, thousands of indigenous people in the Americas and thousands of people in India. Like I just knew there were more dark skinned people than there were well than there were white. ⁓ so I so I I and I also knew systemic racism in the sense of how poor And destitute, th like just depending on on big corporations coming into these third world countries. Like the whole genre of it. And that's that's been like we'll we'll give it a good fifty years here. So life changes so fast. And even though everybody right now is just humming and hawing over the United States president and how sad of a human being he is because he doesn't even know Like I was talking to my friend, I said, you know, I I know how to bareback. I know how I know how to get on a horse bare back. I know how to rope a horse. I d I know how to, you know, get on the horse. I you know, there's certain I I can I can go and ⁓ snare rabbits, I can live off the land. I I don't see like when when this this man, this this Or c I don't even know if I want to call him a man. ⁓ or you like I'm I mean I'm sorry, but he is just a sad human being. He is so sad that everything he does seems to you know, he says, I ca everything I touch turns to gold, but when you really look at it, like it's fool's goal. And and the fact that he bought his way into a leadership. Now, why am I ⁓ harping on this is because that's nothing. That's a poo-poo. He's a drop in the bucket. you know, eight years, you know, and making ⁓ what? You know, like I'm pretty sure there are a hell of a lot of American citizens who have done exceptional jobs and are great human beings. But to have to have somebody represent and say, This is the best of the best that you've got that's a tragedy. It's so sad. But but the reality of it is like you you look at the situation here. When I say a hundred years ago A hundred years ago when they just saw so many people dying, even even the secrets that US presidents kept in knowing what was unc what's in the Amazon basin and all the the pyramids that were in the Americas that they hid. That they you know, all the all the things they kept secret that are coming out and it's coming out in genetics. So so understand this. The first one hundred years they killed five generations of children. Now, ⁓ I and want you to take a look at this. Like when you look at ⁓ World War Two and six million Jews, that's that's nothing. That is nothing compared to a hundred years. ⁓ divide a hundred years into six or whatever, you know, how many millions are killed every year for the first one hundred years. Now when people saw all this happening, all these people coming into the this the Americas and they wanted to to they wanted to create profit. Like like genetically, even if you look at like the the the cultivation, the horticulture of of tomatoes or even any of the plants that that are vegetables that are edible now can't comes from thousands of years of cross pollinating, cultivating through indigenous ways of knowing. In the Amazon, in South Central America, in the North America, there was so much trading. so much there was so much civilization. I say civilization because we were not as destructive as as the old world, like the the Romans and the Greeks. You know, w the the barbarianism of Anyway, you all know more about your history than than you do know about the indigenous histories of the Americas because they oppressed it and suppressed it. And so when you do higher education and you realize, okay, what was the solution to ⁓ create echo economy and and make ⁓ the Americas what they are today? Well they imported ⁓ black people. And of course, five hundred years ago they knew They knew of the I know I don't want to use the word resilience 'cause it's it's it's overused. But I'll say di ⁓ DNA diversity of black people. I mean y like like it's from one c Nigeria or Ghana or some like just within and the country it the continent itself is so huge But the diversity of of of people, like the smartest to those the s the the dumbest to the tallest, to the shortest, to the fattest, to the skinniest, to the you name it, the diversity in Africa is so abundant. And obviously ⁓ five hundred years ago it's a drop in the bucket in terms of evolution, and that they had to have seen how strong black people in Africa were. And because they'd been around the old world diseases it that that were plaguing Europe at the time. So of course they brought in ⁓ black people to to work ⁓ as slaves. They tried that with the Native Americans, the indigenous people, and the indigenous people were dying by the millions. By the millions. I mean imagine how many the civilization they wiped out in the Amazon basin. and and the thousands of pyramids and the thousands of indigenous people that made Amer the Americas great. See this greatness that ⁓ this w ⁓ white man ⁓ who hasn't e doesn't even know how to ride a horse, ⁓ probably wasn't couldn't even know how to ⁓ survive on the land if he was five or ten years old, like, come on, give me you know, there's a when you live off the land and you know how to survive, ⁓ and ⁓ you know that as a human being, you know you know what you're capable of. But when you just try to manipulate and control and and say you can do things and you and you can't live up to it and you have to blame people for all your shortcomings, You can't do that when you're when you're living off the land. So of course, you know, that's the that's basically patriarchy in a nutshell. I'm not saying all patriarchs are bad. I'm just saying that in order to establish plantations and in order to have ⁓ control over another human being, you had to have slaves. And and the reality of it is that ⁓ because of how the lifestyles of the old world that that ⁓ black people were were able to combat and live to survive against all the plagues of Europe. But that they brought them to the Americas and killed off five generations of children, not just through diseases. They were horrific, horrific ways of torture and killing, dismembering. You know, if if they didn't want to be slaves, they cut off their hands and just torture, like they said, I think it the Portuguese, Dutch, Spaniards, English and French, and out of all of them I think the French were the least ones barbaric. I think the Dutch was worse, or the Portuguese and then the Spaniards. So yes, there was there was a lot of killing going on, but at the same time the transition in terms of how di how far we were in terms of genetic drift i is amazing because today you know we we we live it. We we as indigenous people we have all these ⁓ things that we we understand and how we have to maintain our own health. Even the our how our nervous system is set up. Even you know even our ⁓ pain thresholds are different. So I I've discussed that some at to some part in my podcast, but I ⁓ just wanted to to to say too, there ⁓ especially about a prophecy that a lot of ⁓ non indigenous people who may feel like, ⁓ my goodness, I'm so sad that, you know, our p history did all this and you know, how can we make it up to you? Well please don't mansplay us. Don't come into our ceremonies as if you know what the hell you're doing and explain it to us how to give away, how to do certain things when you yourself have just what, shacked up with one of our men or one of our women and, you know, think that now that you've come in w halfway through the conversation that you know what the hell you're doing when you obviously don't. So I think that's the same thing with immigrant immigration. You know, you've come when you've come into the Americas half half knowing w what it is that you're coming into. And a lot of times systemic racism, especially when it comes to nonprofit organizations fighting amongst each other for the same dollar. Like that really divides and conquers ⁓ people of color, minorities. So the whole process of truth and reconciliation and the TRC and the calls for action is the basic, the basic rudimentary groundwork of like we'll use horticulture, like in planting. You're preparing the soil because there are roots and then there's the stem and the tree and the leaves that have to be nurtured. So all this comes in how you do urban planning, community planning, community development, infrastructure. having those places in having the things in place for the people who move in or for the people who are thriving and want to remain and contain their language and their culture is vital. So when we use the concept of truth and reconciliation or the TRC and how it applies to indigenous people in Canada and the Americas, it is a ground framework for all people, immigrants who come into the country You know, rather than having, you know, a ⁓ a person, a white person say to you, a Japanese person saying to you, You can't w wear your kimono, you can't learn Japanese, you gotta learn English, you gotta dress this way, like that's not too far away. So so all these things that indigenous people have been struggling for and trying to gain voice to and and educate people about our indigenous ways of knowing i is to help is to help cr ⁓ cross that that that ⁓ we'll say dimensional bridge. Because in some ways you have to really shift the the way you think. And and a lot of times too, even for ⁓ indigenous people who who don't have that connection, who who may not have the higher education or the or have feel some low self-esteem because you're not around academics or you you don't see doctors, lawyers. ⁓ they're out there, indigenous people or millionaires, they're out there. ⁓ or when you have ⁓ people who say for example, ⁓ the Sutina tribal police put up a sting operation, the the narrative was there was a fifteen year old on the internet ⁓ you know, making herself known t that she was open to date and ⁓ like again, we're talking about human trafficking here. So the website had five thousand hits within twenty four hours and they did charge ten ten of the men. Now what I don't know if they I think they posted they put it on the newspapers the pictures of the men that they arrested and they're all immigrants. These are all men of color. who were coming in who came into the Americ who came into Alberta wanting to ⁓ get serviced by an indigenous child. ⁓ human trafficking, like again, I tried to explain to immigrants, indigenous people don't even have sovereignty over our own children. Our programs are run by the province. And if you have a person who's working in child and family, they're not working under the chief and council. They're they're working under the provincial guidelines and policies. So so ⁓ how does that how does that ⁓ even make ⁓ you know, the chief and counsel even have sovereignty over their own children? So I use the in example like if if a woman five ⁓ f has five kids and I'm using this as an example, I'm not saying her name. She did live, she did exist, but she died. and and ⁓ her children were apprehended. ⁓ put in foster care. Like like you you gotta understand the the ramifications of of how ⁓ the Indian Act created so much div diversion not diversion not only within indigenous communities but also with with not with white people. And so even even if we do have some sort of provincial guidelines to try and foster our children within relatives, even the relatives who abuse their own nieces and nephews and own relatives because the parent has died or something, it it's still it's still not not a a a safe system. ⁓ because we don't have sovereignty over our our child and family. So even ⁓ the tribe ⁓ an hour east of here, fourteen thousand of their children in foster care. Now There are I think about forty thousand indigenous people in the Sea of Calgary. How many of them are actually fostering indigenous children? The majority of those children are put in different foster homes, mostly Vietnamese, Filipino, ⁓ East Indian. Like these indigenous children are are put into white homes as well. And so you have a lot of immigrants thinking that, ⁓ what's the matter with indigenous people? What's the matter with indigenous women? They cannot look after their children. It's the way it is set up. systemic racism. And so when you when you start looking at the different programs in in l say that the truth and reconciliation in terms of ⁓ certain inherent rights, trying to understand that some of those rights ⁓ have to be s be constantly worked on. So say for example, I was talking with an East Indian fellow, ⁓ lived I think I forget twenty years in England. ⁓ He says, when I go into a hospital, I could be sitting in that emergency room and having a heart attack and and they won't even look at me. I said, Yes, because because your brown skin. I said I said, even for me, like ⁓ just just going in, I took care of my mother for ⁓ probably ten years more or more. Every time she went into the emergency or an ambulance came, I went with her. stayed by her side, even if it was in the ER for ten hours. If she got admitted, you know, she got admitted. When she was admitted I'd go to visit her from the time nine in the morning until nine at night. Twelve hours every day I would sit with her. She was so afraid of white people. So f fawning over white people. Even though she was in pain She'd think the doctors w didn't want her to say she'd just say like her if her pain threshold was ten, she'd think, ⁓ I don't want to hurt people's feelings, I'll just say it's three. So there were a lot of things that I I had to advocate for my mother. ⁓ because again, of the conditioning she had in those Indian residential schools. And I'm pretty sure a lot of immigrants, especially women who have ⁓ husbands who are misogynists who have who tell the their wives they can't say anything, they have to ⁓ listen to them. There's advocacy for for women in in the hospitals, in shelters. So when I say as indigenous people, we when we try to practice truth and reconciliation and ⁓ it w we're we're taking our mental health framework and we're trying to apply it to immigrants as well. Because because it works. The only thing is that if people aren't acting on it, if the government's not acting on it, then then who is suppressed? That means the the gap between immigrants and and indigenous people gets greater and the racism gets worse. So ⁓ again, without even knowing the history of the construct or the narrative of of the academics, the politicians. It you know, you could you like I said, all you have to do is give a human being permission to do something and they'll do it. Like giving permission for them to separate from Canada. They'll act on it. I mean you can go right down to the nitty-gritty of casinos and alcohol and drug abuse. Like we are so vulnerable as human beings. Now, why do I do my podcast? Well, again, you know, I I am an advocate, I I've talked the people look and say, Well gee you know, she growing up in my community, ⁓ there have been silos created around me. You know, I know that. It's lateral violence. So when when immigrants come in and they talk about lateral violence, I understand it. I've lived it. You know, but I think they don't realize like, you know, they I think because they they they've come into a country from another country that that lateral violence is left in their country because maybe there was civil unrest. But but it comes, it it it still per percolates within within the the system here. It you know, like you can you can ⁓ my late mother used to say this about my late father when they went into South America and and he'd be they they'd ask him to talk and she'd tell me she said, You know, he'd get up and he'd really have a good story and people used to love listening to him. She says, But but when it came down to it and when it came right to our home and our the way he treated me and Like the children, she says he he he never changed. And and again too, ⁓ the trauma that both my parents experienced in Indian residential school, ⁓ I can't even comprehend. I can give analogies and ⁓ estimates to people who are working in community in terms of holistic way of approaching things. But even then it's so abstract and you have to have some basic understanding of psychology or even social structure. even to even comprehend it because sometimes when you when you get when you think you know and you then you you think you have it, then you exploit the person. I mean we see that with the President of the United States. You know, he's he's been able to bamboozle so many people because he only knows half of the story. But that y half of that story sure you know created a following. Because it it's too too much too hard to think It's too hard to find balance. You know, it that's that's the whole thing about what what makes life worth living? Everything. But but it's the understanding of of how to find balance. So ⁓ I I don't know, when I was talking to Kevin ⁓ a coup ⁓ like a half an hour ago, I said, Yeah, I was trying to see if I could somehow get reimbursed for the money that I spent. I said, But but they won't help me. And he says, Well of course Marina they won't. He says, you know, I I I know how they've treated you. And and again, people who've known me my whole life know that in my community. And and see right now even my saying this, okay, there are gonna be people in my community are gonna say, ⁓ no, no. Or they're going to make some sort of excuse about me as an individual because they know me. And and again, that's lateral violence. I know the things I've had to live in this community with or without. I've known the struggles I've had to work with with my mother who wasn't getting any help at all. You know, she she ⁓ she needed the help and I and I I took care of her for over a decade. When people were getting paid five thousand dollars a month to look after their parent, or getting paid a thousand dollars a week to look after one of their relatives, I I I received nothing. And I knew I knew because my ma my mother had married in and she was a Dakota woman, I knew that and because of how ⁓ my father had died, ⁓ like o over f like ⁓ I think ⁓ let's see ⁓ maybe forty five, forty nine years ago. You know, ⁓ I knew I knew the misogyny. You know, they they just don't guarantee helping you, even if you're a widow, unless, you know, you've attached yourself to some man. And and even the ⁓ women who marry in think less of you because, ⁓ my goodness, you know, what's the matter with you? You didn't you haven't married a man. Or for even that matter, like when my my uncle He's got a great grandson. His great grandson is seventeen years old. And my uncle passed away last year. He's only a few years older than me. And when I we talked to my cousin, I said, Yeah, uncle uncle only had ⁓ one great grand has great grandchildren. She says, ⁓ that's so sad he only had one son. I said, No. I said, I have no children. Are you saying I'm sad? I said, You know, having children isn't the be all and end all of living. And and like with Kevin, his daughters have chosen not to have children. It's the same thing with my my niece and nephew. Not not all human beings are going to have children or want or or families with children. The that's the reality of this world. And and more power to people who do choose to have children, because I th really believe the social construct and the community that you raise your child in need needs to have that structure from the time they're born until the time they die. And having that kind of society in this day and age is very rare. So that's why when it comes to indigenous ways of knowing, it's it's our inherent right as indigenous people who are born on this land to give birth on this land, live in on the land that we were raised and born with until the day we die. We have no concept of ownership of land, not of that none of that. The ⁓ mortgages, nothing like that. So the whole construct of what white people or immigrants or people who live in those cities believe indigenous people are living, you gotta take that out of your mind. That's not how things operate in indigenous communities. That means First Nations Inuit and Metis. So that's why when when ⁓ I ⁓ I challenge or I I s struggle and I say d you yes you have a status card but but you could be pretending to be indigenous because you've never lived in an indigenous community, you've never lived in a Inuit Metis or or ⁓ First Nations community. Now understand this too. If if you're ⁓ practicing, like how would I If you have the connection, say from your father or your grandmother to to that status card and and you do engage with your relatives, like your cousins and your aunties and all that, and for some reason you cannot have a house in your community, it's First Nations, Inuit or Metis, th the fact is that you're still ha actively keep a connection. You physically have relationships with your relatives that live in on those on those indigenous communities. So for me, when you have people who have the status card who are advocating the inherent rights of Indigenous people, who are educating people on the truth and reconciliation framework, it's the framework that helps establish anti-racism, not just for Indigenous people, but for black people, for people of color. It's it's a basic framework and my community has been using that framework and has been succeeding in human and economic development and will continue to succeed. So, you know, you can get all the professors and all the scholars to study Maslow's theory of hierarchy, ⁓ the Constitution of the United States, how it was created from the Mohawk Confederacy. You can do all that. You can do everything. But unless you are right there at the beginning and right there to the end, the whole understanding, the whole construct of of a a different way of thinking is is so foreign. So that's my struggle. It's been my struggle ⁓ since I started going to school in the white system. ⁓ and and again I I I'm not a therapist, I'm not a social worker. ⁓ I consider myself an artist. So again because again, being an activist and and telling people something's happening, there's poo poo out there or like or somebody's spending our ban funds on stuff they shouldn't be spending it on. And you say, ⁓ you're just jealous, you're just poo poo, and I'm going, ⁓ please, I'm working, I'm volunteering. Have I ever asked you for money? No. And even if I asked you for money, do you give it to me? No, because I don't know certain people in positions of power that are gonna coil me and Brown knows me and I had the opportunity when I was director of education, like I said. But I chose not to. And even now, like I said, when I came back after the sentencing and the money that I spent and just the basic gossip of people wanting to know what the hell was d I was doing down there or who, what, where, when and how. I you know, excuse me. I'm I'm doing my podcast. If you bear to listen, you'll find out. But see, people don't want to ⁓ realize that I have boundaries. You know, they Yeah, I had one lady says, ⁓ I'm gonna call you. I said, Okay, go ahead. No, doesn't call. People wave at me, Yeah, I'm here. You know, really? I have a friend coming in from Montreal well, she came in from Montreal yesterday. And we're gonna we're gonna ⁓ spend some time together tomorrow. And I've known her since the pandemic. ⁓ she says, Marina, if if you ghosted me or you stopped calling me, I'll I'll call you and say, What did I do wrong? And I said to her, Exactly. I said, Exactly. So, you know, the proof is in the pudding. I I ⁓ keep my boundaries. Yes, it's lonely and I'm alone and yes, in in the philosophical spiritual soul type felt motion type of reality is like I'm is anybody actually really ever alone? The the whole difference of how people get along with each other's and families, the dynamics, you know, the structure and how people gravitate to certain people and how we adopt mothers and fathers who aren't really our mothers and fathers or our brothers and sisters who aren't really our brothers and sisters. The whole dynamics of just creating support is vital to the very existence. So ⁓ I don't know, I just I just find it ⁓ such a interesting dynamics of people in academics and just working and the realization that they thing the things they put on TikTok gets people to sort of scratch their heads and going I need to need I need to learn more about this. So the fact too that you know, in in terms of the horrors of what they did to black women and in those slaves those slave plantations or or what they did to indigenous children in those Indian residential schools. You know, people don't want to realize that how savage is humanity is. You know, j just understand this. Like I said, ⁓ you know, people can see children dying in hospitals. But imagine, you know, people didn't give a shit about like the first one hundred years. A hundred and thirty million children. And and then people say, ⁓ look at what's happening in Gaza, look what's happening in ⁓ like the Jews or the World War One and World War Two, or look what's happening in the plague and like today today around the world, a lot of people, you know, live every day trying to pay their rent and mortgage, totally oblivious, like that something what they're doing here affects somebody on the other side of the world. That's that's the our reality. You know, ⁓ again ⁓ yesterday I made an analogy of like all the atomic bombs and how you know, you just explode maybe six in one area, like say in Europe. I'm using Europe as an example, sorry. ⁓ that's like an asteroid hitting in in Europe. Well why not? An asteroid hit in in the in an asteroid hit here in the in the Americas between North and South America an asteroid hit. Separated separated humanity for three. thousands and thousands and thousands of years. And and the structure and the rituals and ceremonies that were created. Like I I like I want you to get across in your mind here. You know, you you you you know Europeans have their religion, okay? But but understand some of these prophecies that tried to be erased in the Americas, like you just have to think like, ⁓ my goodness, there the creator is all powerful. Because like I said, you know, white buffalo cow woman came thousands of years ago predicting a white animal was going to appear and when that white animal appeared that there was going to be there was there was it was the it was gonna be really tough times that could could wipe us off the face of the earth. And so everybody thinks ⁓ it's the atomic bombs and what's happening now and even like this this one human being called Trump, like, you know, Jell O he's just Jell O Yeah. The reality is like come on people. You know, you gotta look at the whole the whole reality of creator. You know, the fact that five hundred years ago this white animal came into the Americas. For five hundred years now the indigenous people have been have been fulfilling and living this prophecy. And and you look like you look at the game of soccer and you see all the indigenous people. in Mexico and in South America, like in in the Caribbeans, you you l you look at all the indigenous people in the Amer in the United States and in Canada, you know you just it's it's just so profound. It's just so profound because people wanted to erase erase the history. But yet how can you do it? I in the s I'm seventy four I I've I've my for my name is Hapa. That's that's who I was I was born into. My the colonial or the the what they call the my teacher eloquently put it when I was in grade five, my Christian name is Marina. So this whole Christian ideology has only been new in the whole scheme of the timeline. And as as you know, if there was an atomic bomb six or s seven of them exploding, it would shift like a an asteroid hitting the earth. And and again, what civilizations are are they gonna hide? You know, the the five conquering races covered so much in the Americas, but they couldn't hide the bloodline. The Ashati Shakui have O type blood, universal blood donors. That's that's based on matriarchy. That's based on the ceremonies and rituals of white buffalo calfwoman. See just people think that white buffalo capwoman just came what? So when Christianity came? No, that's something that ⁓ Nathan Chasinghorse bastardized and a lot of people fed into it. So I'm yes, excuse me if I'm very fucking critical, but that asshole did what he did and exploited so many indigenous people, especially girls, especially communities who were hungry to find some sort of cultural value in what was left here in the Americas, what systemic racism tried to erase. Of course I'm gonna do my podcast. Of course I'm gonna alert people. The things that we do and we carry in our DNA and how we understand life is important. For all people. All people have this gift. But for some reason, when somebody wants to control it or manipulate and bastardize the whole thing, people follow. So, I know it's not an easy thing to comprehend. I know sometimes it will take years. It's like it's like a marriage, you know, if you're in an abusive relationship and and you don't realize that that man just loves hitting you. you know, just gets erections every time he hits you. Like that's really perverse. You know, and and you're in danger because he could kill you. The most dangerous human being a woman can be around is their husbands. And again, excuse me, but the most dangerous men are white men. Because they've been allowed to they've been given permission to do things and they've gotten away with it. So, you know if you're a man and you're a man of color, it's hard. Because again, you have ⁓ people of privilege who've gotten away with things and who've been allowed to get away with things. And they're and the the reality of it is like, what what do they have to give? I always think of it as like I said, with ⁓ jello. Like it's wobbly. It y it it you know, it it it yes it has some form, but when you shake it it jiggles. ⁓ like that's how flimsy it is. That for me for me it's important for women to empower each other. It's important for women to understand just how genetically ⁓ like we're the first human being. You know, w without women there's no life. So ⁓ you know, trying to oppress and suppress and call people or women different things like witches, which is totally a European construct. ⁓ medicine man, all that, that's a European construct. So so things and how we perceive ourselves as human beings and how we treat each other, i is is a constant ⁓ a constant reminder. And and to we have to have the courage to hold space. 'Cause you know, sometimes people say, ⁓ well I I I was kicked out of this country because of all this the people they murdered. And then when I when I talk about the largest mass execution of the Sioux people, how they took all the land out of out of ⁓ how all the ⁓ people out of Minnesota. The history the thousands of years the Dakota people have been living in the waters, in the Dakotas, that genetically our arm spans are different. Even like just how how we lived. We we weren't horse people, we were we were canoe people. ⁓ the Lakota were horse people and and the Nakota so you know the Seven Council fires and how ch how we ⁓ l ⁓ connected and and ⁓ married within the Seven Council fires produced produced a a rare blood type. And that's through ritual and ceremony, handed down by white buffalo calf woman thousands and thousands of years before the white man came. And they were predicting that the white man was gonna come. Now they took away all that for the past five hundred years and now through science, through oral history, through genetics, through the things we experience in ceremony and ritual, the reading of that energy that has been handed down by Creator and the grandfathers and grandmothers, that's creator's will, the grandfathers and grandmothers creator, grandfathers and grandmothers' will being done. That's very strong, very powerful. That that's the earth, that's the earth saying it. Not not not not a a a a a per a piece of jello wobbling on the face of the earth. So th like I'm saying, there you can either ⁓ understand the significance that every day everything we do in our lives has a purpose. Then then everything and all the people we do meet, we n we need to be respectful and to to honor those people. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I'm still working on a hell of a lot of things that for my own brain health, for my own mental health. All these things I struggle with. But if I can somehow help people understand that being a person who ⁓ is struggling and you feel like you're all alone or that you're never gonna recover or you know like you've reached the bottom and people say, Well there's no place else but up. No no it's it's not that. It's we we live it every day. If you're living in an indigenous community that's First Nations Inuit or Metis community, those are indigenous communities. When you live in those not we're not talking in the city, we're talking on the land. When you live in those communities, every day you see social injustice. Every day. My cousin, who lives in Manitoba You know, she's talking to me about a twelve year old who killed herself just this past week. Yeah, I ⁓ Kevin, his wife has ⁓ been through chemotherapy for about four, six, five years. ⁓ all the cancer is gone. So they're they're double checking, ch still keeping on top of her. So many things that happen that that are like from the horrific to the miraculous. Everything. So sometimes like I I think, what is the purpose of my podcast and why why do I even do this? Yet when I go to meetings and I hear people who've come into Canada and the struggles they've had to face and the realities of newcomers coming in and how they're adjusting or how they're not adjusting. For example, In at the Calgary Stampede, like I said, worker oil workers used to come in and do R and R and they'd have their prostitutes and all this stuff. But you know, today like you go down the midway there are thousands of people. I said there are gangs. You know, the the gangs they you know, it it doesn't matter. These the young people and gangs and like just the violence and and they're they're evolving into that and you go, Well how You don't want to control them. You sort of want to, you know, like go, why are they why are they so dangerous? Why are people that dangerous? There there are indigenous young people who do not have respect for indigenous elders. There there are young people who just don't care. And and you know, and they just hate, they just all this anger. Yet where is that peace? When is that peace gonna come to them? I I f I'm at peace. I'm I'm a senior. But how how do we help our young people? How how do we help them find some peace in in a a a world where there's so many people who who want to manipulate gaslight and and ⁓ tell their story, have them say, Look at me, listen to my story, I'm telling the truth. Being pulled left and right, it's I I I can't even comprehend that. So for whatever reason and however I talk in my podcast, I try to tell the truth about the many talented people that I e encounter. I try to talk about the indigenous people who are doing so much in terms of letting people know what it is to be proud to be indigenous. And and a lot of people like they they've struggled, like they know They know they've never lived in indigenous ⁓ like ⁓ First Nations Inuit or Metis communities, but they carry their status cards. And and if Pish comes to shove, they will use that card. But it but it's used in in a way where they're they're advocating. They're they're like the one lady who passed away ⁓ about a month ago, she said she says, I know I've gotten scholarships because I've shown my indigenous card. She says, But I'm gonna but I'm paying back. I'm paying back all this. She says, because I know I haven't lived on ⁓ First Nations, Inuit or Metis communities. Like the reality of our young people and and the respect they're showing because they're abvocating is nothing to boo-poo about. And and so for people who are immigrating into Canada and and you're looking and talking in front of people who are indigenous who can pass for white. You you you've got to understand this. We've we've been here ⁓ for thousands of years. Thousands and thousands of years. It's only been five hundred years. What you see in the Americas right now, all these buildings, these ri ⁓ highways and stuff, that's only been five hundred years. In in Western Canada it's only been a hundred years. In the United States it's only been two hundred and fifty years. Like ⁓ y the whole concept That like, you know, if if time started, say ⁓ two thousand five hundred years ago or something, understand just how small and minuscule the timeline is in the Americas. Now that's not that's just the timeline in the land and what you see being built. All it takes is one asteroid to hit planet Earth and that's all gone. That's all gone. You know, what more proof do you want? It took it took what, seven, eight families thousands, thousands of years ago to impot to populate the entire North and South America? When my parents went to South America, they said we saw people there that looked just like our neighbors. The genetic the the genetic ⁓ how we are genetically. and how we look at each other in terms of indigenous came from a plan didn't come from religion. It came from knowing that we were know that we were just our brothers and sisters were were like the the deer, the antelope, the d like everything living. Because of that, we were able to create certain things in our DNA that made us so susceptible. to to a very hun unhealthy way of living that the Europeans brought upon the humanity. So we're we're just in the the I think ⁓ the rez re the reality of it. Our young our young people, some of these young people that are being born don't want to live in this world. You know, because what's going to happen? Any day somebody could explode those five atomic bombs You know, it's one thing you have science fiction and ⁓ we're we're gonna detect an asteroid or this this ⁓ this man of a jello a jello a jello man called Elon Musk wanting to take a spaceship into to Mars or some place, like, hello excuse me, let him let him wiggle like a jello you know, like let him wiggle. ⁓ you know, if he wants to hype be hypothetical and use all his money. The reality of it is the grandfathers and grandmothers ⁓ have a purpose. And every human being, every human being in what I know in terms of existence, will acknowledge the existence of Creator. They'll acknowledge the existence of the grandmothers and grandfathers. Those things and that's why I say creator grandfathers and grandmothers will will be done. No matter how things look in terms of billionaires and the structures that they create and want want people to to bow down to them as if they're a second coming of a religion or second coming of some sort of purpose they think they're constructing. You know, all it's brought is devastation. So anyway, I'm dragging on, I'm becoming boring, but but again, ⁓ I do miss the conversations I have. ⁓ there are some people who I have touched my heart and will continue to be a part of who I am and for them I'm truly and forever grateful. ⁓ No, I just ⁓ In some ways like just doing doing this podcast, like I said, when I started my blog twenty years ago, I just put it out into the universe or out on and wrote whatever I could, ⁓ th thinking and hoping someone was listening. So I know because of the spike that I've received in my podcast of people listening, that that there are people who are actually like paying attention. And and I know as Time goes on and as things ⁓ start to unravel in terms of the the com the structure of the changes within my community, I will post those too. I will post those two because I have nothing nothing to lose. I have nothing to lose and and nothing to gain. But I do believe that this is a part of history and it needs to be documented. So I'm doing it. With that, ⁓ continue having a good summer. I hope you're staying well and that Mother Nature isn't ⁓ ravishing on ra like ⁓ being good to you. But again, that's how we live on this planet. Very frail existence depending on creator and grandmothers and grandfathers. With that, have a good day.