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Overcoming the Shadows of the Past Part 2 · HAVE FAITH LET IT BEGIN®

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  Half-Faith, Let It Begin, Tuesday edition is on the air.
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  So last week, we spoke about the haunting of our past and how the past can easily
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  creep up and steal your joy.
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  It can be as little as a baseball hat.
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  It could be as little as, I don't even, it could just be annoying.
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  I'm trying to avoid getting deeper than I want to, only because I have never
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  truly spoken about this with anyone.
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  But when the past creeps up.
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  When past incidences sneak their way into your heart and soul,
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  even after you've done something so joyous as to deliver a sermon,
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  as to greet someone or meet somebody or do what God intended you to do,
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  negative things can easily creep up and steal your joy.
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  So how do we overcome something like this? We're going to talk about that.
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  Have Faith, Let It Begin, Tuesday edition. Starts now.
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  Thank you for listening to Have Faith, Let It Begin. Have Faith, Let It Begin.
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  Music.
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  Happy birthday, Noah. Hey, then. I'm so lazy. It was just a blessing. I don't know.
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  This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it. Sound.
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  This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it. Sound.
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  This little light of. Rain. I'm gonna let it. Spine. Let it. Sound. Let it.
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  Sound. Let it. Sound. Yeah.
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  Stop. Daddy, I'm so excited, but I have one question. What's your question?
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  I'm going to be a pastor or a minister.
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  Good question. I don't know, but it is all in God's hands.
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  Good morning. You're listening to Have Faith Live Again, and it starts right
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  now. Good morning, everyone.
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  Sorry about the ticking in the background audio issue that we've been having,
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  and we'll be correcting that after today's episode.
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  It has something to do with the introduction and my internal radio.
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  That is affecting the audio, but that's okay. I digress and we move forward.
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  So this morning we continue on with our series, the haunting of our pasts.
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  I want to thank you all for your thoughts, comments, and concerns in advance,
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  because a lot of you listened to last week's episode and,
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  and you got a lot out of it and you, you definitely shared with me the things that have bothered you.
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  And it's helped me, believe it or not. So I want to thank you.
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  This past weekend was very difficult. It was very hard for me.
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  It was very difficult because some things or events, I should say,
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  happened where it triggered a memory.
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  It fueled some anger inside of me.
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  And, you know, as a pastor in training, as my mom would say to me,
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  or has said to me, you know, you have to learn to control that.
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  You have to understand that you have to find the forgiveness inside of you.
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  And you have to also learn to pray to God about the things that are continuously
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  coming up in my thoughts. It's as I've stated before, I don't sugarcoat anything.
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  I don't try to hide anything from you guys. I am very upfront and honest and
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  I like to share the good times,
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  the amazing times, and even the bad and troubling times, not for views and not
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  for downloads and not for you to just all bombard me.
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  And I mean this respectfully with text messages saying, are you okay? You okay? You okay?
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  I am fine. and, and, and it may not sound like I'm fine, but I really am.
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  And, but it's hard to, sometimes it's hard to deal with certain things.
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  And then because I want to share everything with you, I have to re-bring it
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  up to kind of hone in on a message because I want you to understand that I am
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  not perfect and none of us are perfect.
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  And even though a lot of you always express how good I'm doing for the,
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  for the people out there.
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  And I want you to understand that I struggle too.
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  And, you know, as a person that has struggled with depression and a person who
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  has struggled with past and even present issues,
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  as I'm trying to get closer to God each and every day, I'm learning that the
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  challenges that come with that deal with the attacks that you get,
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  where they're trying to infiltrate my home,
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  infiltrate my job, infiltrate my thoughts, and I won't let them. I won't let it happen.
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  But because I'm not perfect, there are times where I lash out,
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  where I can't hone in on my past, and without hesitation, I'll bite back like a pit bull.
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  You know, now that I have kids, when my kids are brought into it or my kids
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  are brought into something that someone or some persons know that I don't like
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  certain things and they do it for the sake of a joke.
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  I don't think they realize that I mean what I say and I say what I mean.
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  And, you know, it could be as little as a word.
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  It could be a hat. It could be, there's just some things that I don't like and I don't tolerate.
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  And, and if you know me and you know that I am a very stubborn person at times, I would say a lot.
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  And, you know, I would think that people that know what bothers them wouldn't do those things.
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  They wouldn't push the buttons. They wouldn't push the envelopes.
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  But unfortunately, there are people like that that do it just for the sake of
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  a laugh, just for the sake of pushing my buttons. And you know what?
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  That's the thing I'm going to work on. That's the thing that's really something
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  that I really have to find. And the, the, I have to find that inner peace inside
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  of me to let things like that go.
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  Will it be easy? No. But, you know, I, I gotta be honest.
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  I'm, I'm, I'm very upset that I have to deal with it consistently for so many years.
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  And it's gotten to the point now where, you know,
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  this is why I don't have many friends because I set these boundaries because
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  I know that a lot of times people that I have had in my life that were friends have broken rules,
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  broken things that I don't like or appreciate.
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  And I'm rambling. So, all right. So this episode was not meant to be this long,
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  but sometimes, you know, it's good to talk.
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  So what the message really is today is, and that I've learned in the last 72
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  hours, is that you have to channel your anger.
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  You have to put your faith and trust into God. And sometimes we have to let
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  out our frustrations with a cry, maybe with anger.
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  Not so much as anger, but it's not what you say. It's how you say it.
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  And also find the right time to respond.
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  Maybe not around mixed company. Maybe something I could have just tolerated.
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  And then on the side said, hey, this is something I didn't tolerate in the future.
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  Please don't do that. And I could have done that better.
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  I'll admit that. But on the same token, other individuals should know that that's
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  some things I just don't tolerate.
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  So don't do the same things that I did. Don't react. Think before you speak.
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  Remember who's around you and remember that people that don't have the same
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  faith as you may attack you just because of who you are.
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  And sometimes it's best to be around people that have the same faith as you.
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  That's where I'll leave it. See you tomorrow for another edition of Half Faith Let It Begin.
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  I believe we're up to letter 10. again so enjoy and never forget have faith uh let it begin take care.
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  Music.