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Episode #209: Finding Personal Freedom Within · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Hey, everybody, welcome to tea time with Amy and bev hola hola good
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day. Be interested. We like this is Wait, what language are we
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doing today? That's all I got. That's that's all. That's it.
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That's it too. I mean I can probably say sir basis and I have
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a few other words, but we're not using those today. Yeah. I
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like that one. Yes, Like that's about it. So how's it going?
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Oh my gosh, it's been interesting, very interesting. I don't even
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know where to start, actually, because there's there's been quite a bit.
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I'll just I'll just save some stuff and then you decide which direction you want
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to go. How's that Some of it might resonate with you as well?
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It might I had. I had a fun week last week, being playful,
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especially at work. I tend to for the most part, I'm not
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gonna say one hundred percent, but for the most part, I practice the
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faith right like everything's gonna be, it's all gonna work out perfectly. Because
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I live, I'm leaning more into that everything's happening for a reason. And
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so you know, if there's person cancels, that opens up a door for
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something else. If if if this doesn't work out. Then something else is
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gonna be coming in that needs my attention. So I really am embracing that
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more and more and more. So at work, they'll come to me with
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quote unquote problems, Oh my god, and everything is in oh my god
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moment, and I'm just like, take a breath. I I I talk
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to myself, take a breath, Amy, it's not We're okay. Right
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to get get in alignment with myself and then speak to them and I'm like,
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listen, it's okay, it's gonna work out. Everything's good. It's
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all right. Like it's just like I need that on repeat, you know,
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recording and just press play. So things some thing's got canceled, some
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things came up, but everything was perfect, Like it just was good.
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We had there was a room, so we did a Friday night session for
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bingo, and the room was like being utilized till four and we opened our
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doors at five, which means seating arrangements we you know, need to be
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set up so people can sit down. So that was that, Oh my
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god, this thing is supposed to go till four. We gotta get I'm
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like, listen, it's everything'snna be okay. Well, the the event before
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US ended early a person asked, how can I help you set up the
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tables? So that means extra hands? Right, So things just was was
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falling and it was great. And then also that sent Friday, I've been
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practicing how can I how can my life get better in this? So when
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something like being here with you like inside, I was like, this is
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so great, this is good. We get to have our conversations today.
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How can my life get better than this? How can it? Right?
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And I just I expressed something of gratitude, and then how can my life
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get better than this? Right? How I want more? I want more?
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I want more because it's so fun and so practicing that on Friday,
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well two days before that, So Wednesday, I talked to an insurance company
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about some coverage. He gave me a quote, but there was a question
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I didn't answer. I didn't know the answer to. So I called him
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back on Thursday. The quote went up over four hundred dollars. I was
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like, excuse, wait what I said? How long is this quote good
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for? Because I'll have to get back to you on this. Right,
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So instill practicing throughout the days. How can my life get better than this?
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So Friday comes, I called him back with the answer, or Thursday
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I called him with the answer. On Friday, he called me back,
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didn't I didn't answer it. It was I was, excuse me, busy
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doing something else. But he left me a message. He said, my
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underwriter took a look at this, and the quote is actually going to go
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back to the original quote I gave you. I was like, so I
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got call him on Monday, right, So I'm like, okay, cool.
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How can my life get better than this? Was? I'm sitting there
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a little bit, you know, a little time had gone by, and
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we have a like a big, huge piano in our lobby, and somebody
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started playing the piano, and so I stopped what I was doing and I
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sat there. I was like, oh, this feels so good. How
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can my life get better than this? Then one of the ladies in the
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office, she says, I want to buy you lunch today. Man,
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you talk food. I'm like, oh yeah, I'm all in. I'm
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like really, And it was such. I had a hamburger. It was
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so yummy, it was so delicious, and you know, just keep saying,
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how can my life get better? In this? How can my life
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get better? Than this, and then yesterday Saturday, and well, actually
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Friday, I saw a post on social media where somebody's husband had got admitted
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to hospice. And then Saturday morning they're in an organization that I'm in.
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Saturday morning, another person in the organization called me and said this person's husband
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had passed. Well, she lives near me. I said, all right,
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let me I got some things to do and then I'll go check in
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on her. So sat with her just for a few minutes because she had
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to be somewhere, and then got home, called a friend and like a
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shlew of medical things going on with her and just so much right, and
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then having some coaching sessions in there in between with these conversations and this is
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so much, but it's so amazing, all of it, all of it
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being so beneficial, whether it's you know, the experience with everything's working out
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and it's okay to somebody past it, like, all of it's amazing,
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and so any of those avenues, I'm willing to go down with you.
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Whatever is resonating with you. It's just standing out. But it's been this
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week. Yeah, mine's kind of a little different. Maybe it's not so
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different. You, we probably could find ways to kind of connect it all
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together. I've gone through a huge change. It sounds so weird to talk
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about because this is this is like so not how I am or how I
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had been, but it's like I've been struggling for a long time, like
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saying God or because there was so much tied to that. And then I
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have a very close person to me sent me this song that was about yahweh
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so and I've tried. I've kind of put that word to test in my
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mind a few times and I wasn't sure. But it's kind of connected with
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me so much to the point where I have an elated feeling. Before I
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was like, oh, I want to do these things and I want to
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maybe I feel like I'm being guided to go do mediumship and I'm being guided
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to go do channeling because I keep getting pulled in these directions. But I
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realized none of that stuff really matters. Those are all labels and stuff,
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and it's I like where I'm at now because I'm just in the space of
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feeling yahweh. I'm in the space of feeling that energy flowing through me and
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being with me and flowing from me that It's like it doesn't matter what I'm
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doing anymore. It doesn't matter who I am or who I was, or
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it's it's like so freeing. I'm more giddy, I'm more happy, I'm
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lighter. I don't spend time in spaces. I'm working on people. And
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if my mind starts to wander off on paths that maybe those were the that
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was my ego. It's like I feel like the ego has been embraced and
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it doesn't have to fight to be seen anymore. It's not that child that
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has to be seen anymore, that has to do these things to be seen.
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I don't know where it's all going to go, but I don't care.
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And it's when I say I don't care, it's not that I don't
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care, but I don't have a feeling one way or the other for it.
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I just feel freer. And it doesn't Before I kept talking about,
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oh I got to get out, I'm massage this and massage that, and
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it's like it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter if I'm picking up dog poop.
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It doesn't matter if I'm sweeping the floor, it doesn't matter if I'm
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doing a massage. It just matters. To be in that space of that
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feeling of knowing there's so much more, there's something so much bigger than myself,
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and it gets to flow through me in everything that I do. So
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back to the massage. If my mind starts to wander, I'm just like
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I'll repeat the name over and over and over again, maybe three times,
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maybe more, and it's like the personal world over there, like this is
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like the best massage ever, and I'm like, I'm not doing anything,
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but that's the whole thing. I'm not doing anything. I don't feel like
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I have to do or be or I don't have to impress anyone. I
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get to feel this way, and I talk about it with some people.
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It flows from me at that moment and it's just fascinating to me. It's
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so it's it's such a fear. It's like an upgrade, like I just
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got you know, the ten point zero or whatever. I've upgraded to something
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else and it's like none of the stuff that really mattered to me doesn't matter
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to me. And it's like I'm the more that I'm it's helping to be
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at present and then the now for sure, and I'm spending a lot more
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time in that space, and it's like, when my mind starts, I
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feel like I have control over things. When my mind starts to worry about
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family or anything like that, I just start talking to yahweh. I just
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start talking to yahweh. And I I'm automatically shifted. I'm not no longer
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in fear. And it's like I have so many things. I haven't been
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writing them down, but it's, you know, to share with everybody else.
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I'm even listening to a song yesterday. It pops up and it starts
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to set say one thing, and it gives me just the verse. The
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song stops and then it goes back and goes into the next song saying that
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you are completely free, like no matter what I do, I'm free.
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And I keep getting these verses that come in my head. I'm driving down
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the highway and i haven't listened to Ozzy Osbourne and I'm hearing You're coming home.
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I'm coming home, Mama, I'm coming home. And it's like,
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I don't know what that means. But I don't think that means necessarily that
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I'm believing the physical. I think that it means that I've I've came home
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to myself I've came back home to God, and now I can say God
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and I don't feel like anything religious about it or anything. I don't feel
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cut off from it anymore. So it's like, that's that's kind of where
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I'm at right now. So to contribute to what all you've said, I
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don't know how it applies. It probably does because it's been a journey,
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right, It's not been an overnight thing. And I have been the most
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anti God, the most Oh my gosh. Growing up, I was so
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against all that stuff because you know, you grow up in control and it's
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like you don't want more control, and realizing it's not control at all had
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nothing to do with that. Just like the word faith to me for the
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longest time was like had religious annotations on it. And for me to realize
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that faith has nothing to do with religion. It just has faith in a
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knowing and a believing within myself that this that God flows through me. I
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don't have to have an agenda anymore. That's the that's the most awesome thing.
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I don't my ego doesn't have to have an agenda anymore. And it's
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so gosh, it's so freeing. I feel so light and it's like,
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I don't I don't have to prove anything. There's nothing to prove, there's
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nothing to disprove. It doesn't matter what I'm drawing, Like nothing matters.
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It's so it's this the it's I can't even I don't even know. I
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don't even know how to be in that space one hundred percent. So I
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keep asking, like, show me. I don't know how to be in
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the space. And I've asked you always show me how it feels to be
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in and feel your energy flowing from me, and it makes me emotional and
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my eyes water up and I and I get this feeling, and it's like,
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that's what it that's what we've been missing. We think we've been missing
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the new car, and we've been missing the the family members that have passed
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away, or we think we've been missing so many things. We're not missing
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anything except for that can. And it's like every single step that I've taken
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along this journey has guided me just to this moment right now, to be
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in this space and to know that I'm not separate anymore. I Am not
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keeping myself separate anymore. So That's where I'm at. Nice, Why as
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you were talking about that. I was getting goose like goose bumps all that.
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I was like, Oh, she's on it, She's on it.
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Is it so good? So yummy? Yeah, I'm faith. You know,
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I created an acronym a while back. I have it hanging in my
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bathroom. It's finding answers in the heart. So just having that faith like
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so, it's it's like I was saying earlier, it's all good. It's
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gonna be okay, no matter what, no matter what's going on, it's
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it's good. And it does go along with how can I get better than
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this? Because that's how me asking those questions guided me to this. Yeah.
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Yeah, and and you know, you say, you get all emotional,
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and it's like people have had near death experiences, they had the near
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death experience to experience that I'm going to say overwhelming amount of love because it's
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it's so much greater than what we actually typically feel when we're consciously in our
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human body. But when you're asking, yahweh, you know, let me
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feel that, let me feel you flowing through me, and then you get
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emotional, it's more it's just that that amazing sensation of the love that we
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typically don't consciously are aware of or allow ourselves to feel right, And it's
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and it's if you can feel that with that presence. The practice is to
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feel that in everybody's presence. Right, So that's awesome. I love that.
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And what I'm getting from what you're talking about in relations in Coral with
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what I was talking about is finding the freedom within the self. That's what
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I wrote out that, Like, that's the title of this conversation, is
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finding the freedom within the self. Whatever that looks like. Is the freedom
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being able to no longer allow yourself to hang on the heavy emotions. Is
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the freedom to be able to forgive yourself and others? Is the freedom to
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release the physical body? Is the freedom to feel that amazing sense of love
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from a higher energetic vibration. Right, what, it doesn't matter what it
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is, doesn't matter what it is, It's just are you allowing yourself to
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get there? Are you allowing yourself to feel it and experience it? Because
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that's ultimately if you think about that's what we all want is freedom, but
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that the definition of that is different for everybody. I want freedom from debt,
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I want freedom from this unhealthy relationship. I want freedom from this demanding
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job. I want freedom from the illness or disease. It's in my body.
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Everybody wants freedom in some way, however they're defining that. But really
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it's finding the freedom within the self, because we are so powerful within ourselves
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to shift our reality, and we don't. I mean, we hit upon
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that, we talk about it periodically, but the fact that I mean the
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conversations I'm listening to on podcasts, this is not this is not reality.
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It's just not. And that could be a whole nother conversation. So whatever
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we're doing with, whoever we're doing it with, we can experience freedom if
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we choose to something else. I've noticed too, which I don't know how
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it all works out, but because I've been on such a high like so,
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these feelings take me in such a high place, and it's like yesterday
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I went out and moved to I mean, I have changed things. I
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don't wear makeup. I quit wearing makeup. I don't care, it doesn't
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matter. I can't. I put my gym membership on hold. Just I'm
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honoring myself and I know that I can't be around. It's not that I
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can't be around, but I don't have a desire to be in spaces that
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I was in spaces before because it's not in resonance with my frequency. Not
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because I'm better than anybody else or anything else, but this is where I'm
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at right now, and this is it's like healthy boundaries, right we put
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up healthy boundaries because that's where we're at right now. But yesterday, so
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I moveing some dirt and I'm a really kind of sluggish on it. I'm
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really moving it slow, and it's like recognizing I still continued moving several Wielburrow
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School, but I did it slower. I wasn't in a hurry. And
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I listened to my music. That's another thing I did. I'm listening to
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Christian music almost NonStop because it helps uplift me, but also recognizing not to
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become attached to the fillings because that's outside of myself again, and I'm realizing
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that everything's with inside. Sell. With all this being said, you still
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have to honor your body. You still have to nourish the body. I
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still have to put food in the body. I still have to drink water.
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There's things that I need to do in order to help manage that vibration
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that's coming in. Now, that's what I'm noticing. That's the thing that
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I noticed yesterday. So I ate more food and I'm not being I'm just
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guided to wherever foods I decided to eat at the time. It's not it's
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not on a regiment or restriction. And I have been that way because I
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was a bodybuilder and all that stuff and maintaining a certain chloric intake and you
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know, fats and carbs and protein and all that stuff. And it's like,
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my body knows what it needs. I don't have to dictate to it
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what it needs, and I just am listening to it and then remembering to
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drink lots of water because our body is made up of water and we burn
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that up pretty quick. So it's recognizing. There's just I've noticed subtleties that
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I really have to acknowledge. And then I've also noticed, gosh, even
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going I went to a game yesterday to watch my grandson play Freeman, and
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I went and we kind of like sat in our space. We got there
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first before everybody else, and they didn't come sit next to us. They
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gravitated. Their programming was they always go over to this other space, and
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we went over to this space, so we could see a little bit better
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where he was, where Freeman was sitting, he could see better. And
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it's like they all sat. I'm talking like like six to ten feet away,
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and I have baby. I have the baby with me. I'm holding
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him and then I get him to sleep and stuff like that while I'm watching
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the game yelling at you know, and I'm like, if everything's okay enough,
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but as being in that space, but I'm recognizing there and it's not
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because there's anything wrong. It's just there's a separation in energetic vibrations, that's
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all. It's not. I love my family wholeheartedly. I totally do,
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but it's also seeing things from a different space. And I also getting into
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this space. If I I'm not saying that I don't dip into my stuff,
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Guys, I dip into my stuff. My grandson was here and he
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kind of it was rainy outside and he had gotten way far off with one
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of the dogs and I could see him, but I couldn't see him very
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well, and I kind of got panicky about it. Instead of being in
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that space of faith and knowing, I didn't say, hey, yahweh help
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me with this, you know. I don't know why I'm feeling this way
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right now. How can I, you know, move beyond this. That's
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another thing. It's it's letting go of all the fear. And that's something
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else that keeps I keep hearing like versus it's like I'm burning it's burning off
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all the fear withinside of me, like all these things are happening right now.
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So but it was also an opportunity because the opportunity was I did react.
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I went and got my truck and I tell him, you get your
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butt home, get your butt back to the house, and and I drove
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back while he walked because he had the dog. Is if I did,
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If I would, it would have been a different show with the two.
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So the two were out there together, they came back together that way.
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And then I felt bad about it. So then I, you know,
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talked to y'allwagh about it. And then the next day so when I saw
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him at his game, I gave him a big hug and I told him
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I was sorry. It was the first time that I remember saying I'm sorry,
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and it doesn't didn't feel bad because sometimes sorry we've talked about this in
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the past that sorry feels bad, but it didn't feel bad. It felt
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like he needed to hear that from an adult telling him that they were sorry,
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because and I tell the kids, adults don't always know the answers.
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When we're kids, we think that the adults have all the answers. And
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I said, we don't have all the answers. I said, we mess
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up. And so I told him I'm sorry. I said, next time,
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I will join you while we're doing a little discovery, while we're doing
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a little journey out there, instead of you know, coming talking to you
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or responding to you the way that I did. And he says, were
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you just worried? And I said, I was worried, but I shouldn't
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be worried because I have faith. I have faith withinside of me that tells
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me there is nothing to worry about. There is nothing there to worry about.
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So again it was another opportunity for growth. It's all that it is.
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It's for me to not being that space because maybe my mom had that
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response to me. You know, I look at my kids and I see
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how I raised them differently. I thought I was. I felt like I
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was always fair raising them, and I don't think that I was not from
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their perspectives, but from a perspective that I was raised with. And so
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now it's I'm spending time and I'm talking to Yahweh about that and I'm asking
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you know how to see this from a different perspective, and and and then
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it's really it's just what is the answer? Is it? Yahweh? Is
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that the name? Or is it just love? Because really everything kind of
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comes back to love anyways, because everything is love and it's being in that
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space of love. So in each situation, it's just being in my heart
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and then filling that love. And then and We've i mean, I've talked
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about this before, but it's like I'm I guess I'm getting it now.
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And I thought I got it before. That's the thing, guys, here,
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here we are, and I thought I got it before. And now
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I'm getting a whole bigger picture of it, like the like the tree is
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not just a branch anymore, just kind of turned into the full tree.
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And I'm seeing all this up and I'm just sending love to the kids.
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I'm sending love to each one of them, and I'm and I'm sending streams
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of grace and I'm sending you know, as much joy as I can,
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and and all that I know, I kind of jump for the next thing.
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The next thing is my grandson. So we've talked about notebooks. We've
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talked about writing down our feelings and our emotions when things aren't going good or
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are they're going bad, and then just you know what, maybe what we
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expect, and then ripping him up afterwards. Brian sends me a message the
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other day and she tells me that Dad was walking by the door. He'd
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gotten grandson had gotten in trouble, so he was in his room and Dad
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had walked by the door and all he hears the shit shit shit shit shit,
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And he like looks in the door and he's writing in a notebook,
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right, He's writing shit one hundred times or whatever. And he doesn't say
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anything, which is pretty awesome because he didn't know anything about this, And
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I mean a parent might have been like, what is going on here?
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And he goes out there and tells my daughter and she says, oh,
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yeah, we told him that he could write, hussy, you can write
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whatever he wanted to you in the notebook. But and then he tears it
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up afterwards. And then I said, well, I think I'm gonna go
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write shit a thousand times in a notebook and see how I feel after that.
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So it was like it was a funny thing, but it's just remembering.
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It's just remembering that we're it's just like you talking about you're going through
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all these things and then you have these moments and and you're like, each
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thing you're it's such a demonstration of where we're at right now, and each
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thing that you're that's happening, you're like, well, how can I get
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better than this? And you're going throughout your day in faith because you have
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a belief that you know, you started out with the belief that you know
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it's going to work, but now it's shown it to you that it works,
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and now you have a faith in this, this belief that just started
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as just a just a thought, just a practice, you know, it
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wasn't anything at all. So it just blows my mind where we're at,
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where we're going, and how easy and simple things can become. Yeah,
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I agree, because if if anybody listening to this video right now is recording,
25:00
if you go back and listen to us four years ago. Sure I
25:04
haven't gone back and listened, but I'm sure it's quite interesting as to where
25:08
we're at now. So yeah, we've been as of this recording, being
25:12
doing this almost four years. It's pretty amazing that it doesn't seem like it,
25:18
but here we are. The couple things just to hit upon that you
25:26
were talking about, Yes, you do still need to maintain your physical body.
25:30
It's a and I know you know this. I'm saying this for anyone
25:34
listening. It is our vehicle for this life experience. So we still just
25:38
like your car, you have to maintain it, right, You got to.
25:42
You gotta keep the oil changed and check the tires and all the things.
25:47
Well, we got to do that for our physical body as well,
25:48
and so just being mindful of that, and that's what I just want to
25:53
extend the explanation on that what you had already said. Why you were talking
26:00
about your son like being out you could see him, but you're like,
26:03
oh that's got you know, that's so far. Well, well immediately went
26:10
and when it came up in my head, it's like, did you know
26:14
the places I traveled on my bicycle when I was like eight, like miles
26:22
away from the house and he's seven, right, he's seven. Yeah,
26:29
we rode our bicycles to the seven eleven that was probably two and a half
26:33
miles away from our house, and go to friends, like out in the
26:38
desert. We go out because I grew up in the desert. We just
26:41
go out in the desert, ride our bikes, like as long as we're
26:45
home before or when the lights came on on the street lights, and for
26:49
dinner. Right. So, so it's just interesting that how we grew up
26:56
in our generation and how we're perceiving kids now and how we do. Right,
27:06
we do have that fear of their safety and stuff. But just knowing
27:11
like he's he just went out and explored and and he had a companion with
27:17
him to that animal is probably very well equipped that if there was any kind
27:23
of danger to come up, there would been some kind of notification. So
27:32
just you know, just kudos to you acknowledging. Oh my gosh, I'm
27:36
showing up in the fear base where he's just probably having the day of his
27:38
life right now. So anyway, just that came up in my head,
27:44
like man, the miles I traveled on my bicycle and nobody knew where I
27:49
was. It's true, whatever was a commercial freeman of reminded me recently.
27:55
It's something about the lights. It's like ten o'clock, do you know where
27:56
your kids are? Like there was a commercial on TV that said, do
28:00
you know where your kids are? Do you know what I mean? It's
28:02
like because we because there was we became so fearful that we we are so
28:07
afraid something's going to happen, instead of allowing people to grow and and you
28:11
were seeing people in the world in that fear. So it wasn't I mean
28:18
we were groomed, but we groomed as well. It's to be in that
28:21
space of fear always and it's like almost to the point of where you know,
28:25
my kids can totally lock things down and not want to do anything out
28:27
of fear, do you know what I mean? So it's it's it's gone
28:30
that route. But what happens with these extremes it can't live in that space
28:36
because it's too consuming. So at some point it's it's an opportunity again,
28:41
Like I will say, everything that's happening to you is an experience, guiding
28:45
you right back to your source. All of it is. And it's because
28:48
it's because that's that's the way we were geared. We came into this place
28:52
with you know, not remembering things most of us. Some people do remember
28:56
things, which isn't always easy for them, either coming into the space and
29:00
not remembering who we really are, and then being able to be in a
29:04
space of being ruled by fears and controlled by it, and then now recognizing
29:11
why, you know, I don't need to carry that anymore. It's and
29:15
it's been a journey as far as that goes for myself. You know,
29:18
I'm fifty four in May, so it's like, and I know this is
29:22
an amazing year. I already know that this is an amazing year. I'm
29:26
lucky I get to be here. I'm going to be fifty four. I'm
29:30
lucky I've got to be here for fifty four years already on this planet.
29:33
So it's just been without having these experiences, I wouldn't have that appreciation a
29:38
lot of that stuff. But like you said, I was out taken.
29:42
I mean, I've lived over behind the donut stuff if you remember that where
29:45
that's that and I'm driving all the way down to Buyer's Liquor on my bike,
29:48
you know, riding my bike that far away from home. And then
29:51
there was times that I would ride from my home behind donut stuff out diagonal
29:55
weight. We're talking, you know, birdland riding my bike. It's like,
30:00
and the hell taking If I got in trouble, I'd go for a
30:03
walk and I would walk and walk and walk to our friend's house. My
30:06
birds didn't know where I was at. They didn't have a cell phone to
30:08
track me down on they could. They couldn't call me along the way on
30:11
all the payphones that were along the way and say, tack, you have
30:15
a tracker. No, there was no tracking. So I guess at some
30:18
point they had to have faith, or maybe they were so I don't even
30:21
know. I don't even know what the perspective was at that time because I
30:23
wasn't in that time frame. I mean, I was in the timeframe of
30:27
the kid being free and the latch key kids they call them whatever. We
30:30
didn't have rules. I mean, we had rules, but we didn't have
30:36
someone that was micromanaging us. Okay, so we had to be responsible.
30:40
If we were expected to clean the house, you better even if you played
30:42
all day long and it's like the last five minutes, Oh my god,
30:45
Bob, it's got to be all soon. You clean the kitchen with I
30:48
had a hating down those dishes now, I'm telling you I was. I
30:49
can only imagine what they looks like when we were done. But there,
30:52
you know what I mean, there's just things that you found. You just
30:56
need to get things done because you get yelled at or whatever it was going
30:59
to happen. I mean, that's the most fear that I have was of
31:03
my adults yelling at me or I was going to get in trouble, right,
31:06
which we're all trying to heal now. So it's true. But we're
31:10
doing so much better with it, honestly, And it's recognizing. It's not
31:14
blaming, right, It's not blaming because we because we've all been there.
31:18
We've all been through these a lot of us micromanagement and this controlling stuff and
31:23
maybe feeling that we weren't nurtured or all these other things, and it's gosh,
31:29
it's just balancing it out. My mind just goes to it's like I
31:32
can do, I can do and be all those things for my grandkids.
31:33
But I'm almost creating a disservice because it's not allowing them to go looking for
31:37
it. That means they're looking or not looking for it. They're looking for
31:41
it outside of themselves always instead of going within and recognizing it was always there.
31:45
The only love that I need is God. That's the I mean.
31:48
And I don't need it. It's just is. It's a matter of fact,
31:53
Yeah, so crazy. I hear myself saying these words, and it's
31:56
like, this is I'm telling you. You say, go back four years.
32:00
It's like you were not kidding. You were not kidding because I gosh,
32:04
I was not in that space at all. I just wasn't. I
32:07
was just planting. Indeed, hey bad, let's do podcasting and put out
32:13
there in the world. And you're like, h I don't know. And
32:19
now it's like just just and it's being learning to be free, to be
32:22
myself and this this is I'm learning who I am too, I am And
32:29
that's a daily journey. Right in every moment, we're learning about ourselves and
32:34
and being with ourselves and and even just knowing what we like and don't like.
32:39
And so that's just continuous and that's always evolving. So, I mean,
32:45
I really liked tequila and beer back in my twenties and thirties. I
32:52
like it. It's like you're gonna evolve, You're gonna change, You're gonna
32:59
shift, You're is gonna your body's going to tell you, you know,
33:02
what's not acceptable, what is acceptable, Like you're going to develop a deeper
33:07
relationship with your body. You're gonna here be more intuitive, like all these
33:12
things that to help you navigate this journey in the physical world. And it's
33:19
also it's also fun and exciting and interesting. And I'm I'm glad I chose
33:28
to stay here to have this experience me too, because, as I've said
33:34
several times, I didn't want to be here, and I thought of every
33:37
way possible that I could think of of how to not be here. So
33:45
I'm glad I hung around. It's crazy, and it's like we come into
33:52
these bright lights and we don't recognize that we're dimming our lights to fit into
33:57
everything, to fit into this world, and then recognizing we don't even have
34:00
to fit into this world. We just have to be ourselves. I was,
34:05
I was, I was. I had seen my a family member of
34:07
the other day and all of a sudden, I'm like working on him doing
34:12
a massage, and I'm working on an area that I was a hot I
34:14
felt heap coming off this area and I'm working on and all of a sudden
34:16
it comes up to me. I'm like, how's your grandma? And I'm
34:20
like, I said, I don't know why this has coming in. How's
34:22
your grandma? I said, because we know your grandma passed away. I
34:23
mean, she's not here in the physical anymore. And then they tell me,
34:27
well, we actually have her ashes out in the truck right now.
34:30
And it's like, oh, okay, I said, I just thought.
34:32
I just thought it was weird that that's but it's just paying attention say the
34:37
things when they pop up. It doesn't have to make sense to you.
34:38
It didn't make sense to me, and it made it made sense to them.
34:43
And then automatically I'm like, man, I'm really taking the time to
34:45
write down in my notebooks every single thing that I'm thinking when I'm in the
34:50
not in the space of feeling good when I can and I am feeling so
34:53
much lighter. I don't I'm not carrying that stuff around anymore and then burning
34:58
it afterwards, and then he to, well, I've been you know,
35:00
I've been doing that when I basically when I feel motivated to do that,
35:05
maybe having the courage to do it sometimes too, because it's a lot of
35:07
emotions to deal with. And he's like, well, I'm gonna I'm writing
35:09
it in a journal and at the end, I'm gonna burn. I'm like,
35:12
oh god, I don't know that I would do that. Let me
35:15
explain why. My perspective. I said, I had an emotional day one
35:20
day, and that was one letter I wrote, and I said, I
35:22
wrote down this. It was pages and I wrote down all this stuff,
35:24
put all this emotion on there. It was so much emotion. I burned
35:28
it and I couldn't, fear the life of me figure out why. I
35:30
was in a foul mood later on, and then ugly girl crying, boogers
35:34
and everything. And then till Fraeman reminded me, well, you wrote it.
35:37
You wrote a letter and you burned it. And I was like,
35:39
oh gosh, And I said, I don't know that I would hold onto
35:42
a whole notebook of stuff. I said for me, I said, that's
35:45
just my perspective, and that's the way I'll put it out there for everybody
35:49
else, it's perspective. For me. It would have been too much to
35:52
do that all the one time, because that was a very emotional day.
35:53
It was a lot of releasing from myself that day. But I can tell
35:58
you it's been easier and easier and easier since. Yeah, and definitely when
36:02
you when you from my perspective and my idea is like, I don't want
36:07
to put I don't want to write down a bunch of ugliness that that I'm
36:12
releasing onto paper and then release that in the universe. I want to release
36:16
bring up, bring that ugliness out, heaviness out, put it on paper
36:23
and ask the universe, the angels, yahweh, God, whoever you you're
36:29
you relate to, to transmute it back to love. So just adding that
36:35
other piece to it so people know, you know, because you know what
36:37
we say, you know, we release it to the universe. Well,
36:40
no, I don't want to release that that. I want that coming back.
36:45
Now. You call in some guidance, you call in some help and
36:49
ask it to be transmuted back to love and so that let the universe do
36:54
that, And it's okay. But yeah, for sure, don't hang on
36:59
to those papers. Yeah, because that's a lot of heaviness. It's like,
37:04
you know, it's like having clutter in your house, and that's clutter
37:07
in your house. Really, Yeah, so my mentor, she does energy
37:10
clearings, and back in the day, she you know, somebody hired her
37:15
to come, you know, do their house, and she would. She
37:19
was drawn into she was pulled into this bedroom area and the closet and in
37:23
the closet was shut. But she's like, there's a lot of heaviness in
37:29
this close. I don't know what's in this closet, but there's a lot
37:31
of heaviness in this closet that needs to be released. And the lady says,
37:35
oh, those are my journals from all these years. She's like,
37:38
you need to get rid of these. I mean it, energy is energy,
37:45
right, and it just affects. It affects your environment no matter where
37:49
you're at. So yeah, move it, move it, release it,
37:53
relinquish it, let the universe transmute it, and move on with your good
37:59
self. Right, surrender it. I like to surrender it, which is
38:06
all the same thing. It's just different words, just play on words.
38:08
I think I heard something about surrendering it to the Christ within, and that
38:12
kind of resonated with me a lot too. There's just been a lot of
38:15
a lot of transformation within myself of these words and stuff that I don't have
38:21
I don't have the same animosity towards a lot of the stuff anymore. I
38:24
actually fell peace in love with all of it. Yeah, And it really
38:30
is just walking walking your you know, each moment and recognizing I don't have
38:42
to live my life in a heavy emotional state, meaning the anger, guilt,
38:50
shame, judgments, criticisms, all you know, all that stuff,
38:55
fear. I don't have to show up in my moment and in any of
39:00
that, I don't have to. I might choose to, but I don't
39:06
have to. And the opposite is true too, I don't have to show
39:10
up in my joy and love and excitement and exhilaration. But I get to
39:15
and I want to because it feels better to me and it's a lot more
39:20
fun in that space. So just knowing and having the awareness of where do
39:27
you want to spend your time and energy and your focus, what feels good,
39:30
what doesn't feel good. We talk about it all the time. I'm
39:34
almost like, very seldom does this not come up in our conversation. And
39:39
you know, Bev's made a shift and this is really resonating with her.
39:44
Where it goes, we don't know, but right now it feels good to
39:47
her, and that's the avenue she's taking to relish in it and embrace it
39:52
and feel it and even you know, feel that that amazing energy of love
39:57
that's flowing through her and sharing that holding space for others to feel that.
40:02
And I'm on this journey similar just different experiences and it's all okay. It
40:12
all works, and we all matter, and we're all part of this tapestry
40:15
of life that we're all interconnected, and we get to play on each other's
40:21
energy just to as a check in with ourselves. And our energy matters.
40:28
My energy matters to bed whether we talk or not. My energy matters to
40:31
my husband, whether we're in the same house or not. Right, My
40:37
energy matters when I go to work, My energy matters when I'm in my
40:39
vehicle. Doesn't matter wherever I am and whatever I'm doing, I matter,
40:45
and if I matter, so does everybody else listening to this, and everybody,
40:50
everybody on the planet and those that have come and gone. So it
40:54
all matters. We need it all. We need it all. When you
41:00
say we need it all, you had you did a you did our podcast
41:05
by yourself a couple of weeks ago. Last week, last week, it
41:08
feels like last week. I'm telling you, yeah, well, because I
41:13
got sicked, so we had family here the day they left a couple of
41:16
weeks ago. Yeah, they left like that Wednesday morning. That Wednesday night,
41:21
I woke up and it didn't feel good, and then it had it
41:23
had gotten worse because I kept trying to ignore it. I kept trying to
41:28
I'm gonna take some mad go full in sinus because it helped for a couple
41:30
of days, and then then it wasn't helping anymore. And then I was
41:34
exhausted and I didn't have any of the energy to do anything at all.
41:37
So it's like the world had a the world, the universe, you always
41:42
had a different plan for me, and it wasn't for me to be a
41:45
victim or upset because I couldn't do those things and I didn't even have the
41:49
energy to be upset about anything anyways. It was totally taken from me.
41:52
But I also quit smoking pot at that time too. It all kind of
41:55
went hand in hand because I had stopped, I smoked, and I stopped
42:00
again, and then it's like I was doing it because there were several times
42:02
that I was getting like these super uplifting moments like these, like life altering
42:08
things that were happening for me. But then I found that I was looking
42:13
for that, so I was using it to try to get to those spaces,
42:15
and I wasn't getting to that space anymore. It was almost as if
42:19
something was teasing me come this way, come this way. And it's easy
42:22
for me to say, blame it on the something else, but I kept
42:24
going that way, thinking that it was going to give me something that it
42:27
wasn't give me, and then i'd you know, kind of back off,
42:30
and then I would do it again and it would give me that same thing
42:31
I was looking for, almost like keeping me codependent, addicted to a thing.
42:37
And it's like I talked to Yahweh and I said, well, at
42:42
that time, I just talked to God, different version of the name,
42:45
right, So all the same thing I talked to love, and Love told
42:49
me that I don't need it anymore. And I didn't need it anymore.
42:52
And since I have been away from it, I'm having like these moments,
42:57
these blissful moments, and these experiences all along the way. But I wouldn't
43:01
have known that if I kept holding on to that, holding on to that
43:05
space of that so I let it go. I let it go, and
43:08
it's like here, I am different, and it's it's so much more freeing
43:15
because it's not something outside of me again, and this is like so far,
43:21
this is I mean, this has been I've been experiencing this now for
43:23
over a week and it's not waning. It's staying consistent. And because when
43:31
I feel like I start to fall away from it, I don't grab a
43:35
hold of it like an addiction or I'm trying to grasp a hold of something.
43:38
I'm talking and getting understanding that love only love can give me, that
43:45
it can't be given or it can't be taken. It's not anything outside of
43:49
myself. It's totally within myself. And then it's like being in that space
43:52
and it can go out to everybody. I don't have to do anything at
43:55
all, and I'm doing it all the time, even and I'm sitting away
44:00
from my family and I'm hearing the kids talking to you know, in the
44:02
family, and it's like what we we we've all gotten to the habit of
44:07
talking about a situation or a problem instead of what's the solution, Like my
44:12
solution is I'm gonna pray for it. Or I'm gonna send streams of grace
44:15
to it, or I'm gonna whatever. Those are my solutions, and it's
44:19
I'm seeing that I have I can have faith in that because I'm seeing it
44:23
that it's coming to fruition. It's working, it works, and I don't
44:27
have to be in in the middle of all of it. I can be
44:30
on the outskirts of it. And still I'm like you said, doesn't matter
44:34
where we're at. It really matters. How we're showing up, how we're
44:37
feeling, it really matters. And of course if it matters for us,
44:40
it matters for all. Yeah, because we're all connected. There is no
44:45
there is absolutely no separation. Yeah, and there was. There's most likely
44:52
you were having experiences when you weren't smoking pot or doing pot. Right,
44:58
that you are actually having experiences but not acknowledging them because of the idea that
45:07
you're only getting them when you did smoke. Yeah, right, Yeah,
45:13
And now that you're like, Okay, I'm going to lean more into love,
45:15
I'm going to lean more into yahweh. I'm going to lean more into
45:19
this amazing feeling. And now I'm having these experiences, which is coming back
45:25
to yourself yeah, and being crazy, yeah, being in the now the
45:30
whole time. All of it is it's like, well, Mom, I'm
45:34
coming home. Yeah, yep. And then and like I said earlier,
45:40
that coming home really it could be meaning that that might be somebody transitioning,
45:46
leaving the physical body, going home. That's how they get their freedom,
45:51
and that's how they experience that that love again that they were missing when they
45:57
were here in the physical body, so we can experience it while we're here.
46:02
My understanding, I don't know this for a fact, but my understanding
46:06
is the love in spirit so when we transition is the vibration of it is
46:14
so massive that we in a physical body would not be able to really understand
46:22
it or embrace it or be able to handle it because it's such a higher
46:28
vibrational frequency. And a lot of people who have had near death experiences who
46:36
have experienced that higher vibrational frequency of love and they come back into the physical
46:43
body, and because they've basically have chosen to come back, or they've been
46:49
told it's not their time to go, that it takes them some time,
46:55
whatever time that looks like, but it takes them to some time two come
47:04
back into the physical life because they did experience that great amount of love and
47:13
then come back into this physical world and it's not like they It's not here,
47:20
it's not around them, it's not coming to them, and so they
47:23
have to read group like they It's very disorienting. I've heard, I'm like
47:31
countless people have talked about that, and so, but we can experience it
47:36
here when we're in alignment with receiving it. If we're not in alignment with
47:42
receiving it or experiencing it, is very difficult to acknowledge it true, right,
47:49
and so which is been at that time? Honestly? Because how did
47:53
I have acknowledge it? It was? It was always there. It was
47:55
never not there. Yeah, it's always been there, there for all the
48:00
right always it just jerk on the planet. It's there for them too,
48:05
h It's for all of us. It's up to us to be in alignment
48:10
to receive it or acknowledge it. It's always there. So if it's always
48:15
there, there's nothing to receive. It's already there. It's for us to
48:19
be in in in alignment with it being there and being willing to allow ourselves
48:31
to feel it. I don't want to say receive it because it's already there.
48:37
There's nothing to receive, it's already there. Yeah, it's aren't ourselves
48:40
to feel it? Yeah, race it. It's like giving a hug,
48:45
right when you get when somebody you you can tell when somebody is not genuine
48:52
about a hug, or somebody who is very apprehensive about a hug, or
48:57
they're very awkward about a hug. You can tell like just going in I
49:01
haven't even touched yet, just going in for a hug and you can just
49:05
feel it as like it and they're not receiving. They're not receptive of a
49:08
hug. They're not they're not embracing that moment like you can feel that.
49:15
That to me is like where majority of the people are with feeling and embracing
49:22
the love that's already here for them, that's already within them. They're it's
49:30
it's awkward. I don't know what else. It's just awkward, right,
49:34
But man, like you know, you sit and you just feel it.
49:37
How can I feel this? How can I allow it to to? How
49:40
can I embrace this amazing energy of love in me within me? And it's
49:49
already in me. My spirit is in me, My spirit is love and
49:52
joy, it's already there. How I, as a physical human being going
49:59
to you allow it to be amplified and embrace it within myself. And we
50:07
don't have to do anything for it. We don't have to we you don't
50:10
have to do anything to earn it. You deserve it just because you are
50:15
period. Period. And it's like all the things that I've done have guided
50:20
me or put me into a place of but it's like those are things because
50:22
I felt like I had to do something, so God gave me something to
50:25
do. Okay, we'll do this. Okay, you want a balancer chalker's
50:29
go ahead, do this. You want to do this, do this,
50:30
you want to go get a session, go go do that. That'll work.
50:35
It's whatever you think is gonna get you there. But simply all that
50:37
needs to be done is just being. And that's hard. That's a hard
50:43
concept to grasp when we grow up in a place where you feel like you've
50:46
got to working hard is what gets you the things that you want to need.
50:52
And that's not true. It's not true, but that's what we believed
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to be true. And now it's not true for me. That does the
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mean that it's not true for somebody else, because I'll tell everybody, if
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you believe the doctor is going to heal you, then the doctor is the
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only one that's gonna heal you. If you believe that God's gonna heal you,
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God's the one that's gonna heal you. If you know that you can
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heal yourself, you will heal yourself. Period. And the story it's whatever
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we believe, right it really is. But I'm just going to buy what
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my experience has been to get me to where I'm at right now. And
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I'm recognizing and I keep asking. I'll ask, y'all, wall what do
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I need to do about this? And I'll hear medicate, okay, because
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I do it that the meditation is just getting you right here and right now.
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That's all that it is, getting you here and now, get in
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your breath, get in your whatever whatever it takes for you to be where
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you can just be right now. And even even that, you know,
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you said when when the when you believe the doctors will heal you, they'll
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heal you. When you believe that God will heal you, he can heal
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you. Well, everything that can do you can do for yourself. Yeah,
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right, And so when you're when we're and I'm just putting this out
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there for just you know, people to have their own conversation or internal decision
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about even saying that I'm putting everything outside of myself that they can do it
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but I can't. That's not true, because if you are a divine peace
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of God, you came from God, you came from Yahweh, or you
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are it and it is you, then you can't do it and the power
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is in yourself. It's like the friend that I talked to yesterday, I
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have not talked to anybody who had this many things going on in her body,
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and like it was a like it's a list, and then the doctor
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says, well, we want to put you on this prescription in case it's
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this diagnosis. Wait what and you know all the all this all the side
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effects that could cause, which is you know, suicide and mood swings and
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all the things. I'm like, would I want to do it just in
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case this isn't me? I'm gonna say. I'm like she was telling me
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all these things. Everything was relying on the next test. What the next
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doctor says, you know, my next visit. I got all these appointments
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and and it was just went on and I'm not kidding you, ten fifteen
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minutes of on and on and on and on, and I had to stop
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writing after I'm like, no, nope, nope. And then my final
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in just letting her talk, letting her get it out, which was I
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was good with. My question to her was because she knows what I do,
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she knows the resources I have, she knows what we're capable of doing,
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and she knows because I reminded her of previous conversations that I told her
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would lead up to her body shutting down if she didn't make a change.
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I told her that over ten years ago, and here we are because she
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didn't listen to her body, she didn't listen to the information that was being
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delivered to her. Not to too myself as my ego, I said this
54:42
already. It wasn't that. It was you got the messages and you haven't
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done anything different. So here we are. Now, what are you going
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to do? Right? You're off work, you're out of the stressful situations,
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you're you know, all these things that are positive in her favor.
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What are you gonna do with that? And my final question to her,
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because that's not My responsibility is how can I support you? And all she
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said was check in on me once in a while. Okay, I can
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do that. I did remind her. You know what I do. You
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know what I'm I'm capable of helping you through you know, do things,
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check in on me once in a while. Okay. Snowball effect is what
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I you know, it's like a snowball effect of that mindset. Yeah,
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and that's why I say it's you know, it's whatever we believe, right,
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I know that it can be so much different than that. It's so
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it's very simple, but we when we have these beliefs, Yeah, until
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you let go of all that. And that's one thing I've like, Oh,
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I've just kind of let go of all the beliefs that I thought of
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what was or how things were supposed to be, or how things could be.
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I've let go of all of it, well, even you know,
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the whole. I always come back to this in my head when in conversations
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with people. It's like inside of me, if you want to go through
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scripture, Jesus said, you can do all things I did and even more?
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What is it that people don't understand that? The even more is giving
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us permission to do for ourselves. Like I go on a rampage about this.
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You already see me getting fired up about it. Why are we embracing
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that? Because the confidence gets taken away, right, your confidence taken away,
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Your faith gets taken away. And I say it gets taken away as
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if it's something outside of you. But we gave it away. We gave
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it away to beliefs of what someone else was believing, and we followed in
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their energy instead of staying in our own. Yeah. And then what came
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up to me was the question of who do you think you are to think
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you can do that? Right? Yeah, I'm like, bitch, watch
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me. I'm doing it just from where I was forty years ago, thirty
57:14
years ago, forty years ago to where I am today. That's huge,
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right, that is a huge example. Huge. I did I have resources.
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I didn't do this by myself, I think, and I was doing
57:29
it by myself, but I didn't. I went to a lot of workshops,
57:32
went to retreats, read books, listened to inspirational speakers. Like I
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showed up for me. I showed up for me, and that's what everyone
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else on this planet has to. You got to show up for yourself because
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that is where your power is. That is where your freedom lies, is
57:54
within yourself. And it's it's the choice. Here we go the sea word.
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It's the choice. So you you stand in your power or you let
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that power be in somebody else's hands. True, it's the journey. Yeah,
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it's a journey. All of it is a journey back home, I
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guess. Yeah. And I'm glad I'm where I'm at right now. Even
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if I was to transition, I'll use the pass away guys, even if
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I was to pass away now, I I'm good like I'm good. I'm
58:35
good no matter what I really am. I'm good with family will figure it
58:39
out or they won't, and I'll see them on the other side. They're
58:43
gonna make it there eventually anyways, right or I'll see them while they're here.
58:45
But before I was a lot of it was running by the victimhood.
58:50
A lot of those stuff was running by victim and we carry a lot of
58:53
that on from from energies that we grew up. We came into this world,
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like I said, we came into this world, this bright lights,
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and then we just kind of took on all this other what was around us
59:05
instead of still remaining to be that bright light. And now I get to
59:09
be the bright light again. You're the bright light again, I mean,
59:14
and we never stopped being it. We were always that way always. But
59:19
we might have put some extra blankets over the lamp shade so you couldn't see
59:23
you through see the light at all. And that was on us, you
59:27
know, And that was for me to figure out. It's not to blame
59:29
anyone. It was just an energetic just like something, you know, like
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I said, like a blanket on the freaking lamp shade with the light on,
59:37
you just can't see it. But then when you start, you know,
59:38
I think about the hippie days, you take your little scarves and laying
59:42
them across it. Of course, you gotta be careful doing that. Guys.
59:44
You got to make sure you're wanted really low on your light bulbs because
59:46
you don't want to cause the fire. But it's just it's like it's so
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it's just so different. It's just so different. It's even looking around before
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I'd say, it's looking around outside and not putting labels on anything, that's
1:00:00
just being. It's just spending time in that just being space. And if
1:00:04
you don't know how ask ask what's inside of yourself? Ask outside of yourself.
1:00:08
Everything that I searched for that was outside of myself led me back to
1:00:12
this point. So it's not you're not doing anything wrong. It's your journey.
1:00:15
It's just however you want to get there. Yeah, yeah, And
1:00:21
that's that's what we're here for, right is our journey, our spiritual growth,
1:00:24
expansion, whatever that looks like for each of us and what we do
1:00:29
with it. I'm I'm more on the path of feeling better and better and
1:00:35
interested in how much life, how much better can life get? So that's
1:00:37
where I'm at, and and Bev is where she's at, and it's all
1:00:44
good. It is finding the freedom within the self. See see if any
1:00:55
information we shared in this video or this this conversation is beneficial and implement at
1:01:02
least the one thing that resonated the most, just the one thing. That's
1:01:07
it. That's all we're asking. That's all I'm asking, so that you
1:01:14
can be on that path of feeling better within yourself, feeling good within yourself,
1:01:20
embracing the joys of life more, feeling that love more, and just
1:01:25
continue that path, continue that journey. Is there going to be bumps,
1:01:30
bruises and walls sometimes. Yep, sure is, but that's just because of
1:01:35
the reprogramming. It's changing, it's evolving. It's evolution, right, But
1:01:40
the more you do it, the better it gets. The better it gets,
1:01:44
the better it gets. And so that's ultimately your choice. And we
1:01:50
love you, we embrace you, and we hold space for you in whatever
1:01:54
that journey looks like. And I am the least person to judge anybody,
1:02:00
So I that's my intention to practice that. I get a hiccup every now
1:02:07
and then about judging, but you know, I get better at it not
1:02:12
doing it. Not better at judging, but better at not judging. I
1:02:15
was like, wait, let me clarify that. Any final words. I'm
1:02:23
sending everyone love and line and stream of grace. Enjoy your journey. Yeah,
1:02:28
absolutely, Thanks for hanging out with us. Teach time with Amy and
1:02:30
Bev. Remember to share with friends and family or just at least have the
1:02:34
conversations. All right, my friends, take care, We'll see you next time.