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Motherhood in Midlife · The Uplifters

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SPEAKER_01: helping midlife women do big,
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SPEAKER_01: Today's a very special episode to celebrate Mother's Day.
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SPEAKER_01: Just hearing those two words might stir something in you.
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SPEAKER_01: And I get it.
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SPEAKER_01: I'm a mom of two girls who was raised in turn by my mother,
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SPEAKER_01: my aunt,
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SPEAKER_01: and my grandmother who adopted me when I was six.
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SPEAKER_01: We lost her a year ago.
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SPEAKER_01: So Mother's Day this year feels complicated for me and maybe for you too.
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SPEAKER_01: For some people,
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SPEAKER_01: it's a day of pure joy,
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SPEAKER_01: but for some,
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SPEAKER_01: it can carry any number of flavors of grief.
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This week I'm going to share a few stories from our most recent
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Uplifters Live.
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You'll hear very different stories of motherhood and all its
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messy,
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weighty complexity.
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SPEAKER_01: So whether you're a mother,
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SPEAKER_01: a grandmother,
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SPEAKER_01: an aunt,
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SPEAKER_01: a mentor,
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SPEAKER_01: or just a woman who has been shaped by the women around you,
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SPEAKER_01: this episode is for you,
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SPEAKER_01: friends.
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Because Mother's Day is at its best a celebration of the way we
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women lift each other up.
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SPEAKER_01: We'll close out with a short sound bath from Shayla Martin,
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SPEAKER_01: a little Mother's Day gift just for you.
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SPEAKER_01: The first voice you'll hear is Ruthie Ackerman.
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SPEAKER_01: Ruthie is the founder of the Ignite Writers Collective.
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SPEAKER_01: She's a memoirist and a journalist whose work has appeared in Vogue,
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SPEAKER_01: New York Times,
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SPEAKER_01: The Atlantic,
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SPEAKER_01: and so many more places.
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SPEAKER_01: The author of the memoir, The Mother Code.
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SPEAKER_01: Growing up,
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SPEAKER_01: I looked around me at the women in my own family,
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SPEAKER_01: the 1950s mothers on TV giving Brady Bunch vibes,
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SPEAKER_01: and the writers I loved like Anne Sexton and Sylvia Plath,
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SPEAKER_01: who both took their own lives and asked myself,
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SPEAKER_01: why would anyone want to become a mom?
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SPEAKER_01: It looked deranged, demeaning, diminishing in fact.
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SPEAKER_01: So why were so many women willingly choosing that path?
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SPEAKER_01: What I didn't see were the outlaw mothers,
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SPEAKER_01: the revolutionary mothers,
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SPEAKER_01: the mothers forging their own path for their lives and their children's.
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SPEAKER_01: Where were those mothers?
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SPEAKER_01: It was only in researching my memoir,
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SPEAKER_01: The Mother Code,
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that I stumbled upon the anthology Revolutionary Mothering and
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read Loretta J.
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SPEAKER_01: Ross's words about moving from mothering as biological destiny to
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To mothering as a liberating practice that can thwart runaway
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capitalism.
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SPEAKER_01: Mothering as a way to thwart capitalism?
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SPEAKER_01: I'd never even thought of that.
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I'd always believed that the decision to not have children was
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a radical act in a
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SPEAKER_01: society that tried to force all women to become mothers.
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SPEAKER_01: But was there a way for mothering to be a radical act too?
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History books are full of women who took on the mantle of
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motherhood as a challenge
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SPEAKER_01: and a charge.
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From the 70s to the 90s,
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Black feminists framed motherhood as a refusal to the violence.
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These women understood that they didn't have to let the
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politics of a sexist,
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SPEAKER_01: racist,
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SPEAKER_01: ableist,
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capitalist society determine their most personal decision
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whether or not to mother.
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SPEAKER_01: These women understood that they could parent differently,
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SPEAKER_01: that they didn't need to emulate or duplicate the images of motherhood.
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SPEAKER_01: They'd been force-fed their whole lives.
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SPEAKER_01: This is Alexis Pauline Gumbs.
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What would it mean to take the word mother less as a gendered
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identity and more as
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SPEAKER_01: a possible action,
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SPEAKER_01: a technology of transformation?
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SPEAKER_01: I jumped out of my chair when I read that.
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SPEAKER_01: Yes, yes, yes, that's the kind of motherhood I want.
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So how did my image of what motherhood had to be get so far
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from my desired reality?
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SPEAKER_01: And then it hit me.
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The version of motherhood I and all of us have been sold is the
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version of
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SPEAKER_01: motherhood that sees mothering in work,
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SPEAKER_01: mothering in writing,
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SPEAKER_01: Mothering and self-actualization as incompatible.
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SPEAKER_01: Who does that benefit?
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My journalist training from my early days at Forbes kicked in
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and whispered,
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follow the money.
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SPEAKER_01: I put my head in my hands.
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SPEAKER_01: It was all so obvious.
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How did it take me so many decades to realize it despite all my
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women's studies
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SPEAKER_01: classes in college?
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The Patriarchy That's who benefits from the tall tale that
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motherhood means self-sacrifice.
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If women believe that mothering means giving up everything else
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in their lives,
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SPEAKER_01: that that would leave the money and the power and the status to the men.
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SPEAKER_01: Duh.
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SPEAKER_01: What if it's simply not true?
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SPEAKER_01: What if,
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as black feminists and scores of other mothers of all colors
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and walks of life have
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SPEAKER_01: shown us,
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SPEAKER_01: we can mother differently?
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What if there's not one way to mother and we've been duped into
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believing that
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motherhood needs to be all-encompassing to the suffocation of
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all else in a woman's
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SPEAKER_01: life?
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SPEAKER_01: Outlaw motherhood was all around me,
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SPEAKER_01: in books and the lived examples of women both known and unknown.
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SPEAKER_01: Yet I rarely heard those voices.
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SPEAKER_01: I rarely heard those who said, look over here.
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SPEAKER_01: There's a way to do this whole life and motherhood thing differently.
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SPEAKER_01: Instead, what I heard was that there was something wrong with me.
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SPEAKER_01: I'd missed the boat.
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SPEAKER_01: I'd gotten off track.
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SPEAKER_01: I'd not focused on the right things.
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SPEAKER_01: Not been strategic enough.
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SPEAKER_01: Not been nurturing enough.
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SPEAKER_01: Not been selfless enough.
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Now I understand that the choice to rewrite the rules we are
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blindly expected to
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SPEAKER_01: follow on our paths is and has always been in our hands.
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SPEAKER_01: The mother I want to be is an outlaw mother,
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a mother who believes her self-fulfillment enables her
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children's happiness.
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I want to be a mother who mothers in contradiction to the
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prescriptive ideals of society.
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SPEAKER_01: I want to be a mother who creates her own mother code,
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SPEAKER_01: a code that's about consciousness,
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SPEAKER_01: that's open to change,
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SPEAKER_01: that isn't on autopilot,
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SPEAKER_01: written in stone from on high.
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I want to be a mother who believes that there are so many ways
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to have a worthy and
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SPEAKER_01: beautiful life,
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SPEAKER_01: both with and without children.
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SPEAKER_01: Thank you.
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SPEAKER_01: Now we'll hear from Katie Horwich,
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SPEAKER_01: a nationally recognized author,
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SPEAKER_01: speaker,
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SPEAKER_01: mindset coach,
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SPEAKER_01: media correspondent,
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SPEAKER_01: and self-talk activist.
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SPEAKER_01: She's the founder of Want,
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SPEAKER_01: Women Against Negative Talk,
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SPEAKER_01: and the author of Want Yourself,
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SPEAKER_01: Shift Your Self-Talk and Unearth the Strength in Who You Are All Along.
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SPEAKER_02: I have a dog.
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SPEAKER_02: Her name is Frankie.
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SPEAKER_02: She's a cavapoo.
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Usually the conversation pivots to,
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okay,
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so you have a dog,
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but what about kids?
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SPEAKER_02: And I say, no, I've got a fur baby.
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SPEAKER_02: I'm a millennial with a fur baby.
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SPEAKER_02: Sometimes I get the cock of the head, raised eyebrow.
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SPEAKER_02: I say, why not?
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SPEAKER_02: People have been talking to me or know me.
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SPEAKER_02: They say, you'd be a great mom.
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SPEAKER_02: I'm not someone who always wanted children.
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SPEAKER_02: I also didn't not want children.
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SPEAKER_02: When I was in elementary school, we did the egg baby experiment.
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SPEAKER_02: My baby, Nancy, had a play date with my friend Catherine's baby, Helen.
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SPEAKER_02: Helen did not come out of the play date unscathed.
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SPEAKER_02: She was a bit scrambled.
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SPEAKER_02: You know, brainstorming about what you want to name your kids.
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SPEAKER_02: As I grew older and I started to make plans for my life personally,
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SPEAKER_02: professionally,
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SPEAKER_02: career-wise,
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SPEAKER_02: I always would be like,
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SPEAKER_02: oh wait,
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SPEAKER_02: kids,
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SPEAKER_02: I've got to add that into the mix.
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SPEAKER_02: Not as a desire, as an afterthought.
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SPEAKER_02: What I realized along the way is that my addition was an assumption that
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SPEAKER_02: that I figured that I needed to make into a reality.
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SPEAKER_02: It was an inherited assumption from people before me.
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It made me wonder what other inherited assumptions am I
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carrying around that I
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SPEAKER_02: don't even realize that I'm carrying.
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SPEAKER_02: I am a words person.
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SPEAKER_02: I obsess over words and not just what they mean,
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SPEAKER_02: but where they come from and what we do with them out in the world.
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SPEAKER_02: There's like a lot of talk about innovation right now.
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When I think of innovation,
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I think of the prefix in and then the second word,
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novate.
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SPEAKER_02: So I wanted to know, looking into this, like,
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SPEAKER_02: Where did this word come from?
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SPEAKER_02: What does it actually mean?
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SPEAKER_02: I found something really interesting.
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SPEAKER_02: When you look up the word innovate in the dictionary,
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SPEAKER_02: it says,
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SPEAKER_02: you know,
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SPEAKER_02: to create something new.
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SPEAKER_02: But if you take the root word,
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SPEAKER_02: novate,
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SPEAKER_02: you look it up,
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it's actually a legal term that means to replace an old
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contract with a new one.
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SPEAKER_02: So what are we doing when we are innovating in our businesses?
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in our families,
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in our lives,
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we are replacing old contracts with new ones.
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SPEAKER_02: It goes back to the inherited assumptions.
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How many inherited contracts have we signed without even
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realizing that we've signed them?
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And in order to dissect that,
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like what old contracts are we carrying around?
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SPEAKER_02: We have to understand how we got there, right?
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SPEAKER_02: How these contracts are written.
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SPEAKER_02: I have spent the last almost 20 years studying self-talk.
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Self-Talk is the internal narrative that we've got going on
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24-7 that tells us who
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SPEAKER_02: we are and who we are supposed to be out there in the world.
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SPEAKER_02: How do we write these contracts?
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They come from the internal contracts that we've unconsciously
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agreed to These
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contracts are written through the brain being your brain We
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have a negativity bias
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from way back in the evolutionary days when we needed to look
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for danger in order
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SPEAKER_02: to keep ourselves safe
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There's also the psychological ways that we write the contracts
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through belief formation.
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There's a study that I am fascinated by out of the University
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of Waterloo that says
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SPEAKER_02: that we only believe things,
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SPEAKER_02: we only create beliefs if that seed of belief exists to begin with.
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SPEAKER_02: So you don't have to believe everything,
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SPEAKER_02: but if there's a seed,
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SPEAKER_02: then you water it and water it and water it grows.
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And then,
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of course,
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we build those beliefs and those contracts through the words
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that we use.
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SPEAKER_02: Words that can feel emotionally heavy, that can build pressure.
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SPEAKER_02: I should do this.
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SPEAKER_02: I have to do this.
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SPEAKER_02: I'm so far behind.
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SPEAKER_02: I'll never make it.
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We all have the power to rewrite those contracts that we have
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in our lives.
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We can rewrite those contracts through the words that we use by
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looking for the
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seeds of belief that already exist and through modeling that
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out in the world.
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Because modeling that out in the world,
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it's not just about creating your life.
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SPEAKER_02: It's about setting an example for what someone else is able to do.
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SPEAKER_02: Building a business, building a family, building a life.
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SPEAKER_02: and Building Possibility.
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SPEAKER_02: Thank you.
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Next,
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you'll hear from Sarah Gormley,
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who had the kind of career that looks amazing on paper.
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SPEAKER_01: She worked at IMAX and Martha Stewart and Adobe and Forbes.
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SPEAKER_01: She was named one of 2015's 40 Women to Watch over 40.
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SPEAKER_01: And she spent most of those years absolutely miserable.
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SPEAKER_01: She started therapy at 40, moved back to Ohio,
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Said goodbye to her mother Fell in love Opened an art gallery
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And wrote a memoir
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called The Order of Things She's also going to give you my name
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in her talk For
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SPEAKER_01: that voice in your head That tells you you can't do things Alright,
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I won't spoil it Here's Sarah Hi everybody This is amazing And
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I'm going to cry
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SPEAKER_00: Because I'm a crier That's me,
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SPEAKER_00: the crier I'm just thrilled to be here And I'm going to try to
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SPEAKER_00: Give you something to take home with you.
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I think the topic on the agenda says that it's about improving
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your relationship with yourself.
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SPEAKER_00: Not that any of you need it, but don't we all?
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So I did all of those big jobs,
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big companies,
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and what nobody knew,
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even me,
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Was that I was struggling and suffering in intense pain most of
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my career from
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SPEAKER_00: childhood through about age 40 when I started therapy.
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SPEAKER_00: Everything looked great on the outside and I was a gal who was like,
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SPEAKER_00: I'm going to be smart,
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successful and skinny because that's what the world wants and
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by God I did it.
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And I was so frustrated because,
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like,
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I still felt like shit about myself.
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I'm like,
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I mean,
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I saw my feet and pouted,
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like,
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I'm doing all the fucking things,
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right?
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SPEAKER_00: And I felt like shit about myself.
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And it increased the more successful I became until I started
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therapy at age 40.
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SPEAKER_00: We're going to talk a little bit about therapy.
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SPEAKER_00: And then,
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SPEAKER_00: like,
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SPEAKER_00: in what seemed like a short amount of time but wasn't,
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SPEAKER_00: I now live in Columbus,
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SPEAKER_00: Ohio,
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SPEAKER_00: not far from the farm where I grew up.
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I'm madly in love with a wonderful man after not having any
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romantic relationship of any kind.
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And I own an art gallery and I wrote a motherfucking book
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that's really good.
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It's like the coolest thing I've ever done and I can't believe
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this is my life.
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SPEAKER_00: Okay, another caveat.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't really like motivational speakers because for most of my life,
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SPEAKER_00: the motivational speakers made me feel worse about myself.
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SPEAKER_00: Who has heard Brene Brown speak about daring greatly?
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So picture me 2016 I'm a big shot at Adobe and at Adobe they
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just pay Brene a
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million dollars to come and talk to the female executives and
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she is telling us to
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get in the arena and I'm like okay I gotta get in the arena
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Brene is saying I gotta
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SPEAKER_00: dare greatly I gotta be vulnerable I gotta get in the arena I'm like oh
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SPEAKER_00: I'm like, oh my god, my dad just died.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm about to get fired.
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SPEAKER_00: I've been single my whole life.
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SPEAKER_00: I can't get in the arena.
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SPEAKER_00: I don't even know what that means.
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SPEAKER_00: And I went home and cried myself to sleep for the bottle of Cabernet.
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SPEAKER_00: And I'm like, I don't want to talk about getting in the arena.
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SPEAKER_00: I want to say something useful.
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SPEAKER_00: So, I love a good Venn diagram.
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SPEAKER_00: So, I was asked to speak to a group of college seniors.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm a lot older.
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SPEAKER_00: They expect that I know things.
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The talk that I gave was how to build a meaningful life,
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not just a resume.
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SPEAKER_00: And they looked at me big, wide-eyed, so grateful.
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SPEAKER_00: And I talked about what is your passion,
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SPEAKER_00: figuring out what you think fills you up,
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SPEAKER_00: the thing that you dream about doing.
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SPEAKER_00: We've all heard that.
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Also practicality that was for their parents you got to pay
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some bills right like
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you can't all just quit your jobs and like go pursue your
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passion you got to pay
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rent and what i said to them was start paying attention to your
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emotional health
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now pay attention to what drives you and why you are doing the
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things you are doing
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and why you are not doing certain things because my thesis is
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that what is most
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SPEAKER_00: important in your personal
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professional relationship well-being is not the passion and the
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practicality.
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It's personal awareness,
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knowing why you're doing the things you're doing.
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What I didn't know when I was doing all of those big things was
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that if I thought
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SPEAKER_00: if I was successful enough,
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SPEAKER_00: I would start feeling better about myself.
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SPEAKER_00: That's what was driving me.
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I didn't give a shit about IMAX Films,
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really,
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although I loved the company.
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SPEAKER_00: I kept just seeking a promotion.
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SPEAKER_00: I kept seeking big salaries because I thought if I got the thing,
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SPEAKER_00: the external thing,
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SPEAKER_00: I would finally feel better about myself.
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So fast forward to after Adobe I come back to Ohio My mom's
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dying of cancer I
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started therapy at age 40 Because I realized I was crying
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myself to sleep at night
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And even though everyone thought my life was great I felt like
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shit about myself
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SPEAKER_00: And I decided I wasn't going to do that for 40 more years
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SPEAKER_00: So I had started the therapy,
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SPEAKER_00: and therapist David,
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SPEAKER_00: he's in the book,
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SPEAKER_00: and I like to give you a gift called trickle-down therapy.
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SPEAKER_00: I won't tell you how much money I have spent on therapy,
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but in the book there are four or five chapters of specific
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scenes with these
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SPEAKER_00: little nuggets.
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SPEAKER_00: So in one of the sessions in the first five, six months,
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SPEAKER_00: you know I kept saying to David I have this voice in my head I call it
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self-loathing the voice that says you can't do it you're not
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smart enough you're
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not going to figure it out you're not going to get yes you're
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just going to keep
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getting no's we all have the voice at least I had a really big
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dose of the voice
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and therapist David said to me well Sarah we're going to have
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to name the voice
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okay and I am not a very woo-woo person as I have confessed and
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I was like
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SPEAKER_00: Name the voice?
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SPEAKER_00: What the fuck?
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SPEAKER_00: Am I going to name it like Fleetwood Mac?
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SPEAKER_00: What am I going to name the voice?
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SPEAKER_00: And he said to me, no, Sarah, I want you to think of someone.
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SPEAKER_00: So I'm asking, close your eyes.
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SPEAKER_00: Think of somebody from your life,
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SPEAKER_00: a real person,
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SPEAKER_00: present or past,
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SPEAKER_00: who has either said or done something ugly to you.
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SPEAKER_00: Negative, right?
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SPEAKER_00: Do you have your name?
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SPEAKER_00: Okay, so this is my gift to you.
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SPEAKER_00: If you don't have the name,
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SPEAKER_00: Everybody yells Scott Kennedy.
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SPEAKER_00: Scott Kennedy!
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SPEAKER_00: That is my name.
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SPEAKER_00: Scott Kennedy was a bully on the second grade playground.
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And in my six months of therapy with therapist David,
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I named Scott Kennedy.
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I talked to Scott Kennedy every day in my head because the goal
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is not to ignore
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SPEAKER_00: the negative voice,
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SPEAKER_00: right?
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SPEAKER_00: The goal is to acknowledge it exists,
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SPEAKER_00: hear it out for a little bit,
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SPEAKER_00: understand where it's coming from,
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SPEAKER_00: but say,
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SPEAKER_00: not today,
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SPEAKER_00: Scott Kennedy.
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SPEAKER_00: I'm getting up on stage.
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SPEAKER_00: You know, I'm getting in the arena.
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SPEAKER_00: You don't get me today.
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SPEAKER_00: So I want you to go home and out into the world,
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SPEAKER_00: into your very busy,
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SPEAKER_00: awesome,
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SPEAKER_00: impressive,
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SPEAKER_00: wonderful lives that are not perfect,
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SPEAKER_00: that are not easy.
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SPEAKER_00: But don't let Scott Kennedy bring you down because he's a bully.
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SPEAKER_00: He's wrong.
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SPEAKER_00: And you tell him to fuck straight off.
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SPEAKER_01: God, I love that woman.
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I don't know if that really had that much to do with Mother's
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Day except that it
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was Sarah turning the great loss of her own beloved mother into
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a memoir that has
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meant so much to me and so many other readers and I just
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thought it was really good
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advice and since you can't all be at Uplifters Live with us it
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felt like I mean we
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SPEAKER_01: all needed to hear it anyway.
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SPEAKER_01: Next up is another little Mother's Day gift to you.
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SPEAKER_01: I'm going to hand you over to Shayla Martin.
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Shayla is a breast cancer survivor,
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a somatic healing coach,
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and a sound healer.
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SPEAKER_01: Her work began with healing her own mother wound.
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SPEAKER_01: Wherever this day finds you,
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whether you just need five minutes of quiet or five minutes of
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someone else taking
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SPEAKER_01: care of you for once,
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SPEAKER_01: happy Mother's Day Uplifters.
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SPEAKER_03: Hi, I'm Shayla.
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SPEAKER_03: Good morning.
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SPEAKER_03: Thank you for having me.
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SPEAKER_03: What a beautiful time we're going to have together today.
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SPEAKER_03: So for most of my life, life felt good.
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SPEAKER_03: I was enjoying a lot of my lived experiences.
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SPEAKER_03: I was happy.
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SPEAKER_03: And then when I was 39, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
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And it was going through breast cancer that ripped the band-aid
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off of a wound that
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SPEAKER_03: I buried deeply as a little girl.
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SPEAKER_03: The wound of never having a mother.
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SPEAKER_03: because she opted out.
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SPEAKER_03: If cancer ripped the band-aid off,
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therapy and plant medicine shattered what had been protecting
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the sadness I had
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SPEAKER_03: never allowed myself to feel.
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SPEAKER_03: Healing my mother wound was really hard work.
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SPEAKER_03: A lot of parts of it hurt because healing hurts.
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SPEAKER_03: But as I started to heal, I also started to feel lighter.
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SPEAKER_03: I felt freedom that I never knew existed.
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SPEAKER_03: The mask that I had been wearing started to melt away.
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SPEAKER_03: And for the first time, I felt hold.
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SPEAKER_03: And if I thought life was good before,
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SPEAKER_03: life became extremely vibrant in every single aspect possible.
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SPEAKER_03: I felt more authentic.
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SPEAKER_03: Now, I help individuals and teams,
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SPEAKER_03: Connect with their authenticity through feeling.
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Connecting with people seeking authenticity is where I ask to
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be uplifted.
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One of the things I had to learn on my journey is that we
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cannot think our way back
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SPEAKER_03: to ourselves,
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SPEAKER_03: but we can feel our way back.
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And sound vibrations is one of the ways that helps create space
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for feeling.
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As we move into the sound healing,
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I invite you to hold the word authenticity in your heart.
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SPEAKER_03: To hold authenticity in your heart.
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SPEAKER_03: But at the same time, I have a question for you.
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SPEAKER_03: Is there something you have not allowed yourself to feel?
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SPEAKER_03: I'm going to say that one more time.
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SPEAKER_03: Is there something you have not allowed yourself to feel?
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Maybe it's anger Fear Sadness Maybe it's connection Maybe it's
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joy Sometimes the
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very thing we avoid feeling is the thing that creates the
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distance between who we
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SPEAKER_03: are and who we are meant to be As the sound begins,
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SPEAKER_03: you don't have to figure out anything right now
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Simply allow the vibrations to move through you and go wherever
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they are needed,
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SPEAKER_03: creating space,
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SPEAKER_03: creating openness,
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SPEAKER_03: perhaps even creating a small doorway back to your own authenticity.
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SPEAKER_03: Let's take a collective inhale together through our nose.
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SPEAKER_03: Inhale.
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SPEAKER_03: And as you exhale, I invite you to close your eyes.
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SPEAKER_01: one of these beautiful stories.
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SPEAKER_02: Big love.
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SPEAKER_02: Painted water sunshine with rosemary and tongue.
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SPEAKER_02: Dwelling,
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not perplexing Though you find it vexing Toss a star and hover
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Be your own best
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lover Relish in a new prime Plant a tree in springtime Dance
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with idle hindsight
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SPEAKER_02: Bring the sun to twilight Lift you up Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh Lift you up
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SPEAKER_02: Whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
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SPEAKER_02: Lift you up Lift you up Lift you up Lift you up Do do do Do do do do
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It's that little thing you did with your voice Right in the
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pre-chorus I was like
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SPEAKER_01: Mommy stop crying Mommy stop crying you're disturbing the peace