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Episode #270: Learning to Receive Without Guilt · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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  Speaker 1: Hi, everybody, Welcome to tea time with Amy and Bev.
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  Speaker 2: Hello, Helluly Lou again again.
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  Speaker 1: Oh hi, like the first time we've seen each other
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  Speaker 1: this side.
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  Speaker 2: That a minute, that's almost been like each other.
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  Speaker 1: Yes, you mentioned something in the last video that I
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  Speaker 1: kind of wanted to hit upon I thought might be important,
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  Speaker 1: And you said something about when you share, when you
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  Speaker 1: have an idea and you share it with other people,
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  Speaker 1: they may not have the same level of excitement as
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  Speaker 1: you do. Kind Of moving through this right now with
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  Speaker 1: some family stuff and a big announcement for a person
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  Speaker 1: in our in our life, in our family, calling everybody
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  Speaker 1: to tell them their news, and probably on receiving and
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  Speaker 1: not receiving the level of excitement that.
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  Speaker 3: She would probably like to have.
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  Speaker 1: And I will also share with this in the same respect.
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  Speaker 1: So we you and I know that the universe brings
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  Speaker 1: us gifts in so many ways. And I talk a
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  Speaker 1: lot about like I find pennies and dimes and quarters,
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  Speaker 1: and all the time I think, either dimes to me
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  Speaker 1: is you know somebody in spirit that is connecting with me,
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  Speaker 1: haymm with you also the coins representing abundance. So no
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  Speaker 1: matter the case, I will always say thank you. Thank
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  Speaker 1: you for being with me, Thanks for showing the abundance
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  Speaker 1: in my life. I want more of this, please. And
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  Speaker 1: the other day I put on a pair of hants. Now,
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  Speaker 1: when you finding dimes and quarters and pennies, yeah, okay, right,
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  Speaker 1: it's just like frequently, and I love it and I
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  Speaker 1: appreciate it and I cherish it. But when you put
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  Speaker 1: on a pair of pants you find a five dollars
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  Speaker 1: bill in your pocket, yeah, I got excited, like, oh
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  Speaker 1: my gosh, I got five bucks. Right, I was excited.
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  Speaker 1: I went to work. I'm like, guess what I did
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  Speaker 1: this morning? I said, you know, tell my story. Oh oh,
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  Speaker 1: that's cool. And in me I'm like, but you don't
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  Speaker 1: understand what this means.
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  Speaker 2: Miss and the magic.
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  Speaker 4: Yes, yes, And when you say that, what I feel
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  Speaker 4: like is the person feels like not getting don't get
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  Speaker 4: excited about things. It just reminds me of how I
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  Speaker 4: used to be, not getting excited about things, not seeing
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  Speaker 4: the magic in everything that's around us, because there's magic
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  Speaker 4: in all the stuff, and that was exciting. That's to me,
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  Speaker 4: that's exciting, that's pretty thripling. I get excited about stuff
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  Speaker 4: like that. There's been a few times i've stuck my
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  Speaker 4: hand in my pocket and then found something. I'm like,
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  Speaker 4: wait a minute, I even have any cash or anything
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  Speaker 4: like that, So it's it's that's fun.
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  Speaker 1: And it wasn't because I typically will put put it
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  Speaker 1: in money if I weren't put in my pockets on
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  Speaker 1: a purpose specific side, and this was on the opposite side.
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  Speaker 3: So I'm like, y'all, y'all playing with me, this is
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  Speaker 3: so cool.
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  Speaker 4: That's that's awesome. And also five represents change, yep.
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  Speaker 1: Absolutely, and there's a lot of that happening right.
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  Speaker 2: Now, so exactly.
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  Speaker 4: And then so for me, my change might show up
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  Speaker 4: as the pereguine falcon or you know that it lets
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  Speaker 4: me know, like brace yourself, that there's something that's about
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  Speaker 4: to shift.
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  Speaker 2: Because we were looking for the messages all the time.
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  Speaker 4: We're looking for the magic because the magic's always been there,
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  Speaker 4: the miracles have always been there.
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  Speaker 2: But are we allowing ourselves to experience that?
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  Speaker 4: And I would say for me, for the longest time,
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  Speaker 4: I was not allowing myself to experience that.
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  Speaker 2: If I got excited about it, then you know.
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  Speaker 4: It's then you're always waiting for the shoe to drop,
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  Speaker 4: the other shoe to drop, or you know those kind
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  Speaker 4: of feelings the comer rug.
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  Speaker 2: Being pulled out from any of you.
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  Speaker 4: And I don't feel that way anymore because I because
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  Speaker 4: I'm not pulling the rug out from under me anymore.
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  Speaker 2: You know what I mean.
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  Speaker 4: It's it's so now I'm looking at this stuff like, Okay,
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  Speaker 4: we're going through some change. This is going to be exciting,
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  Speaker 4: right right, team going in direction and we're going to
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  Speaker 4: find fun and all this stuff, because that's the important
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  Speaker 4: and that's it.
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  Speaker 2: That is exciting.
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  Speaker 4: But it is also when you say that is when
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  Speaker 4: we were talking about the last video, it is sometimes
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  Speaker 4: it's just we shared with and sometimes you could share
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  Speaker 4: the same thing with me and now I'd be like, oh, yeah,
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  Speaker 4: that's cool. And it's like wait a minute, because I'm
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  Speaker 4: not saying that the other person was right or wrong
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  Speaker 4: or anything like that.
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  Speaker 2: But sometimes I'm in that space too. Yeah, I'm in
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  Speaker 2: my own stuff.
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  Speaker 1: And as you're talking, is like, that was a gift
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  Speaker 1: for me, and it was for me to celebrate and
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  Speaker 1: relish in it and embrace it and know what it
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  Speaker 1: meant to me. And other people don't have that level
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  Speaker 1: of excitement for something as simple as a five dollars bill.
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, because They don't.
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  Speaker 1: They don't understand what I'm associating it to within myself
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  Speaker 1: and my belief system and what I practice, and they
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  Speaker 1: just see it as they probably thought that their thought
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  Speaker 1: process could be, Oh, well, you wore those pants before
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  Speaker 1: and you put a five dollars bill in it.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, the logic's right, go back into the mind and
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  Speaker 4: it's it's actually expanding and going further than that, and.
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  Speaker 1: It's like, okay, yeah, could have and we also know
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  Speaker 1: things manifest and so I want to be on the
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  Speaker 1: playful end.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, I like it. I like them were playful and
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  Speaker 4: believe I will.
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  Speaker 1: Tell you I will intentionally I have done this. I
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  Speaker 1: will intentionally leave money in my coat pockets. I do that,
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  Speaker 1: and I know I do that because when I when
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  Speaker 1: you know season's over, I don't think about it. And
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  Speaker 1: then when you go to put on a jacket or
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  Speaker 1: coat the next time it gets cold and you put
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  Speaker 1: your hand in your pockets, you're like, oh look, and
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  Speaker 1: it's just fun to be like, oh, I got mine.
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  Speaker 1: But this this was different. This was this was different
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  Speaker 1: because I checked my pockets before I take my pants off.
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  Speaker 3: That is a habit for me, because I put chapstick
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  Speaker 3: in my pocket.
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  Speaker 1: I put stones in my pocket, like I put things
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  Speaker 1: in my pockets. I love pants with pockets, so I
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  Speaker 1: checked them. So in my playful world, the universe sent
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  Speaker 1: me a gift and I receive it one thousand percent
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  Speaker 1: because it was so fun.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, and I even like that you're putting money in
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  Speaker 4: your jacket. It's almost giving your future self a gift.
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  Speaker 1: I mean, it really is, dude, I was I put
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  Speaker 1: one hundred dollars bills.
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  Speaker 2: And yeah, yeah, that's fun to me.
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  Speaker 4: That's just being more playful with it and being and
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  Speaker 4: also reminding your future self how abundant they are.
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  Speaker 2: Look at holl but I know we are. That's awesome.
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  Speaker 1: I like just that a thought I should I should
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  Speaker 1: uh hide a hundred or put one hundred dollars bills
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  Speaker 1: in my husband's coat pockets and stuff, so when he
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  Speaker 1: goes to put them on this winter.
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  Speaker 2: That would be fun.
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  Speaker 1: He'd be like, yeah, and I guarantee you probably never
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  Speaker 1: tell me like.
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  Speaker 4: Which would be perfectly fine until we look back to
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  Speaker 4: look at the videos later on.
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  Speaker 2: They'd be like, wait a minute.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, you know that was the angels and it
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  Speaker 4: was an angel.
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  Speaker 3: That's that sounds like something fun to do. I think
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  Speaker 3: I might do that.
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  Speaker 2: That does sound fun. I like it.
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  Speaker 1: But being playful and enjoying the these moments like that
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  Speaker 1: is so worth it. Now I will share this which
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  Speaker 1: is is interesting because in the bathroom at work, it's
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  Speaker 1: a multi sto old bathroom, and there was a time
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  Speaker 1: just recently where I looked down, like next to the toilet.
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  Speaker 3: Now, we keep a fairly clean facility.
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  Speaker 1: I really love our work environment, and so sometimes not always,
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  Speaker 1: but sometimes most of the time, I will if there's
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  Speaker 1: remnants of paper on the floor, I'll pick it up.
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  Speaker 1: But anyway, there was this piece of toilet paper. It
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  Speaker 1: was clean, it looked like it was just dropped that
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  Speaker 1: I I saw it, and so I finished my business.
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  Speaker 1: And when I bent down to pick it up behind
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  Speaker 1: the toilet on the floor was a quarter. Okay, now,
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  Speaker 1: you can't make this stuff up, right, So that was
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  Speaker 1: that was a little bit back well, just recently within
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  Speaker 1: the last thirty days, same thing, doing my business.
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  Speaker 3: Look down, there's pay. I'm like, jeez.
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  Speaker 1: So when I bent down to pick it up, I
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  Speaker 1: kind of looked and there was cash on the floor
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  Speaker 1: like kind of in the next doll and nobody was
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  Speaker 1: in the bathroom. Nice, and when I looked at it
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  Speaker 1: was like twenty two dollars. Now, the level of excitement
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  Speaker 1: about the five dollars bill that was in my pants pocket,
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  Speaker 1: I was very joyful that just happened.
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  Speaker 2: Just the other day.
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  Speaker 1: But the twenty two dollars. Can you guess what my
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  Speaker 1: thought process was about that?
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  Speaker 4: Well, I would assume that you added up at the
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  Speaker 4: twenty two two four, but twenty two no, not even
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  Speaker 4: all that.
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  Speaker 1: It was, Oh, somebody lost this. I bet it fell
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  Speaker 1: out of somebody's pocket. I bet this might have meant
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  Speaker 1: a lot to them. Yeah, right, And then the guilt
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  Speaker 1: I found this, but it's not mine. And but you
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  Speaker 1: think I feel like a quarter behind the toilet and
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  Speaker 1: a public bathroom. No, you think a dime in the
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  Speaker 1: in the parking lot, No, But twenty two dollars was
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  Speaker 1: a whole other level.
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  Speaker 2: So to me, the message.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah, and so I let people know in the building, Hey,
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  Speaker 1: I found this cash, and if somebody says they lost it.
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  Speaker 1: I didn't say the amount. I said I found some
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  Speaker 1: cash in the bathroom. Nothing was ever said, but it
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  Speaker 1: was it was like a well, like a guilty feeling
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  Speaker 1: that I found this and if I keep it is
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  Speaker 1: that right. It was a different mindset because of the amount. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: so I was like, wow, what if the universe gave
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  Speaker 1: me a gift similar to the the five dollars came afterwards.
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  Speaker 1: Five dollars in my pants part came afterwards. But the
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  Speaker 1: universe provides us gifts and then we question it or
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  Speaker 1: the worthiness, We question our worthiness of receiving it.
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  Speaker 2: Is.
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  Speaker 1: It is quite interesting the process I went through.
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  Speaker 2: With that nice. It's good though. See that's just another
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  Speaker 2: way going back to the last video.
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  Speaker 4: That's another way of how it shows up, and it's
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  Speaker 4: more subtle, and we can still learn lessons from all that.
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  Speaker 4: There's still so much to gain from just that little
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  Speaker 4: I mean, really it's nothing, not this day and age
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  Speaker 4: twenty two dollars.
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  Speaker 2: Maybe a long.
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  Speaker 4: Time ago it would have been something. But and it's
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  Speaker 4: just it's nice to recognize those things. Just like when
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  Speaker 4: we talked about before, or we've heard before, if you
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  Speaker 4: want to manifest something, they'll manifest something so big that
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  Speaker 4: you you can't even believe it.
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  Speaker 2: Because then you'll.
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  Speaker 4: Automatically put pick up, you know, you'll find ways to
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  Speaker 4: negate it, to stop the flow of it. And so
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  Speaker 4: that's just another interesting process to notice that how we
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  Speaker 4: can stop the flow of it by those thoughts.
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  Speaker 1: But if somebody, you know, I'm I'm better at this.
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  Speaker 1: If somebody if we go to if we go to
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  Speaker 1: lunch and and and the other person buys, I'm okay
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  Speaker 1: with saying thank you, Whereas before my old behavior would
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  Speaker 1: be I was super guilty, now gonna now gonna pay
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  Speaker 1: him back somehow. And usually it's okay, Well, next time,
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  Speaker 1: I'll buy lunch, or or I'll to you know, let's
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  Speaker 1: go to coffee, I'll buy or something like. Right away
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  Speaker 1: we start processing how we can repay them. But it's
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  Speaker 1: it's okay to say thank you and not feel like
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  Speaker 1: you owe them anything in return.
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  Speaker 4: Yeah, And that's been something I've been learning too, because,
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  Speaker 4: like I talked about before, going through some of the
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  Speaker 4: child that the stuff's going on as a child, it
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  Speaker 4: makes you feel like everybody wants something from you, so
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  Speaker 4: they who are obligated. So when someone that does something
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  Speaker 4: nice for you, now you feel like you have to
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  Speaker 4: do something nice for them or vice versa. And for me,
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  Speaker 4: I can, as we're talking, I can go all the
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  Speaker 4: way back to that timeframe, and I know I have
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  Speaker 4: a feeling or that knowing inside of me.
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  Speaker 2: That that's where some of this stuff comes from. And
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  Speaker 2: so see, it can be something so subtle.
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  Speaker 4: Like this to be able to process and let go
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  Speaker 4: of it, and then it could be heavy too, But
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  Speaker 4: this is the end, This is the opposite side of
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  Speaker 4: all the heaviness. So now I can still process. I'm
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  Speaker 4: still going to be processing stuff. I just don't have
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  Speaker 4: to have the emotional attachment that I had to it before, yeah,
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  Speaker 4: which is huge.
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  Speaker 1: Yeah. And it's just interesting how we store again and
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  Speaker 1: to store these things, these belief systems, these mindsets in
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  Speaker 1: our body, that.
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  Speaker 3: How we process guilt.
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  Speaker 1: And well, if I keep it now, I feel ashamed
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  Speaker 1: because it's somebody else's and I don't have the right
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  Speaker 1: to keep it because it's not mine. And we were
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  Speaker 1: taught that as a kid, right, it's not yours. So
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  Speaker 1: if I take that money and not tell anybody, that's
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  Speaker 1: my choice. I took the money, but I told people
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  Speaker 1: I found it and if anybody says anything, which felt
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  Speaker 1: good to me, and here we are, like two weeks,
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  Speaker 1: three weeks later and nothing, So I'm just like, well,
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  Speaker 1: it's mine now, But or I take it and I
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  Speaker 1: put in an envelope and I put found in bathroom
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  Speaker 1: on an date and it sits there, I give it
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  Speaker 1: to somebody. Let maybe i'd give it to the receptionist, say, hey,
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  Speaker 1: who's to say she doesn't take that? Nope, nobody ever
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  Speaker 1: claimed it. Yeah, so many scenarios that could happen with this,
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  Speaker 1: but the idea of how am I processing it and
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  Speaker 1: what am I doing with that information?
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  Speaker 2: Good?
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  Speaker 4: Bad?
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  Speaker 1: Right? Wrong? It's for each individual person to decide. Yeah,
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  Speaker 1: and people and people could could listen to this and
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  Speaker 1: judge me for keeping the money, and that's okay, but
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  Speaker 1: understanding every not everything, but a lot of things that
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  Speaker 1: I process in finding that amount of money. Whereas in
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  Speaker 1: the same vicinity not too long before that, I found
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  Speaker 1: a quarter and was fine with picking up a quarter,
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  Speaker 1: cleaning it off. I washed it, but cleaning it off
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  Speaker 1: and putting it in my pocket. I was like, thank you
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  Speaker 1: Universe for that. But when it was over twenty bucks, what.
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  Speaker 3: Do I do with this?
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  Speaker 2: I think it's awesome.
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  Speaker 4: I think it's awesome and I and from my perspective,
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  Speaker 4: the way that I felt how everything was. It felt good.
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  Speaker 4: It felt honest, really all of it did. And it's
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  Speaker 4: like if someone else perceives it in any other way. Well,
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  Speaker 4: like you said before, it's it's really on them, but
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  Speaker 4: it's an opportunity because it's triggering them for something inside
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  Speaker 4: of them that doesn't it's from their programming.
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  Speaker 2: It has nothing.
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  Speaker 4: It doesn't mean anything is right or wrong. It's just
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  Speaker 4: old programming. That's all that it is. Even I mean,
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  Speaker 4: you're talking about all this stuff, and it's like I
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  Speaker 4: even wrote on my left release guilt, It'll be one
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  Speaker 4: of the things I'll burn today.
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  Speaker 2: It's releasing. It's just letting go of those things.
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  Speaker 4: It's like it releasing, don't there's the white habits because
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  Speaker 4: it just keeps you in a space of no growth
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  Speaker 4: as far as I'm concerned.
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  Speaker 2: In that moment, it just keeps you into a space
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  Speaker 2: of victim. So when they were.
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  Speaker 4: Talking about that, I have a client that's also family member,
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  Speaker 4: basically that the week before last I said a message like, hey,
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  Speaker 4: you on your way because it's like it was like
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  Speaker 4: one oh two, it was whatever, a couple of minutes
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  Speaker 4: after their appointment time to be there. Yeah, I'm on
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  Speaker 4: my way, and then they show up fifteen minutes later.
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  Speaker 4: Okay for me, it was honoring my time.
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  Speaker 2: So this next.
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  Speaker 4: This past week, the same thing happened again. I didn't
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  Speaker 4: send a message, the person didn't show up, so the
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  Speaker 4: person doesn't get seen that whole week.
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  Speaker 2: And then what happened.
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  Speaker 4: I started feeling guilty, Well, what if they forgot? What
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  Speaker 4: if I didn't do something? You know, I started looking
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  Speaker 4: at all things for me, and it's like, no, when
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  Speaker 4: my initial response was my time matters.
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  Speaker 2: My time matters.
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  Speaker 4: It's not equated by the dollar, because my time's more
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  Speaker 4: valuable than a dollar can ever possibly be. And it's
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  Speaker 4: not okay for me to sit in a space with all.
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  Speaker 4: So then I go through the guilt. So I'm releasing
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  Speaker 4: that guilt.
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  Speaker 2: So what did I do? I send a message yesterday.
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  Speaker 4: So now that this person has this the next date
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  Speaker 4: in their phone with my message, and they can show
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  Speaker 4: up or not show up, I'm not reminding. It's I
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  Speaker 4: don't feel that it's my job to remind people for
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  Speaker 4: their appointments.
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  Speaker 2: They can show up or don't show up, and that's
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  Speaker 2: their opportunity.
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  Speaker 4: But I will tell you on the other side that
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  Speaker 4: I'm recognizing that there's been more my regulars that aren't
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  Speaker 4: showing up for their appointments, and it's the Universe's way
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  Speaker 4: of letting me know this is not my path anymore.
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  Speaker 4: It's not and it's not to take it personal because
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  Speaker 4: it's not personal because everybody has life stuff going on.
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  Speaker 4: And also to recognize that there's not a resonance, so
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  Speaker 4: there wouldn't have been a residence on those days, and
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  Speaker 4: so I could get pissed off and try to force
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  Speaker 4: the issue and get you know, and then it doesn't
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  Speaker 4: do any good. And because I didn't notice that I
• 18:25
  Speaker 4: had done that. In the last few months, I had
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  Speaker 4: a few people regulars I've been seeing for years just
• 18:32
  Speaker 4: not show up for their appointment.
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  Speaker 2: And then why why was I upset? Because I had
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  Speaker 2: an attachment to an outcome.
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  Speaker 4: I knew that there was a certain dollar figure that
• 18:40
  Speaker 4: was coming in for that time spot, and now I
• 18:42
  Speaker 4: don't have enough time to fill that spot again. And
• 18:44
  Speaker 4: so because of all that I've even released, even released
• 18:47
  Speaker 4: the way I was not allowing abundance and stuff to
• 18:51
  Speaker 4: come into my experience to where recently I'm actually applying
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  Speaker 4: for grants and stuff now. And it was so because
• 19:00
  Speaker 4: I sat down and I start typing this stuff out,
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  Speaker 4: and it's like I don't even know where this information
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  Speaker 4: is coming from I didn't.
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  Speaker 2: Know what I wanted to do next, and now I
• 19:07
  Speaker 2: know it is. It is to be that guide.
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  Speaker 4: It is to be that guide for children and for adults,
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  Speaker 4: because when we say, if I say that I'm working
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  Speaker 4: with children, I'm working with your inner child, because everybody
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  Speaker 4: has that child that still has the old programming that
• 19:21
  Speaker 4: they don't recognize that. We have so many different tools
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  Speaker 4: to share with people. So it's like I can see
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  Speaker 4: where the universe is pulling me. I even have my
• 19:27
  Speaker 4: life purpose cards pulled cards. The first thing that comes
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  Speaker 4: out is you're gonna be working with children.
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  Speaker 2: And I understand that. I understand that to a point.
• 19:36
  Speaker 2: My point being now.
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  Speaker 4: That my grandkids are getting a little bit bigger, they're
• 19:39
  Speaker 4: coming out and they're getting a little bit bored with
• 19:40
  Speaker 4: stuff because we're not they're.
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  Speaker 2: Not that little kid anymore. And I know how to
• 19:44
  Speaker 2: be with that little kid.
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  Speaker 4: I know how to play like that, and now I'm
• 19:48
  Speaker 4: having to learn how to how do you.
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  Speaker 2: Be with an eight or nine year old? You know,
• 19:52
  Speaker 2: how do you be with.
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  Speaker 4: Them and have experiences and do fun things. And so
• 19:57
  Speaker 4: now it's looking a little bit different, looking like, okay, well,
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  Speaker 4: then my grandson's riding on my lap and we're driving
• 20:03
  Speaker 4: around and picking up all kinds of big rocks and
• 20:05
  Speaker 4: throw them in the back of my truck and I'm
• 20:06
  Speaker 4: bringing back. And then he's out there hustling to make
• 20:09
  Speaker 4: sure that he does it all to line my path.
• 20:11
  Speaker 4: So he's doing it all by himself to do these things.
• 20:13
  Speaker 4: And it's because he's a they like doing things. And
• 20:16
  Speaker 4: so now it's I'm having to learn new stuff because
• 20:19
  Speaker 4: I don't know what to do.
• 20:21
  Speaker 2: I don't know what to do with the kid.
• 20:23
  Speaker 4: Remember a long time ago, you were talking about like
• 20:24
  Speaker 4: being around these individuals at certain ages, and it's like,
• 20:29
  Speaker 4: if you're not in that space all the time, you wouldn't.
• 20:31
  Speaker 2: Know what to do. I wouldn't know what to do
• 20:32
  Speaker 2: with those ages. With older ages.
• 20:34
  Speaker 4: I have no clue because I haven't been in that experience.
• 20:37
  Speaker 4: I couldn't be with anybody at that age. I didn't
• 20:41
  Speaker 4: have the tools for myself, and nobody had the tools
• 20:44
  Speaker 4: for me at that time. So I'm gaining this stuff,
• 20:47
  Speaker 4: and it's remembering to just go from the space of love.
• 20:50
  Speaker 4: It's from that heart, because the heart's gonna guide. And
• 20:53
  Speaker 4: so when I get into a space and I'm not
• 20:55
  Speaker 4: sure what to do. I'm having to go into the
• 20:58
  Speaker 4: heart and also recognizing being exhausted.
• 21:00
  Speaker 2: We've talked about that, and it's like honoring ourselves.
• 21:04
  Speaker 4: If you listen to a lot of stuff, they say
• 21:05
  Speaker 4: it's ascension symptoms, they say all these other things lots
• 21:09
  Speaker 4: of people are going through, but like just feeling like
• 21:11
  Speaker 4: exhausted for no reason, which put me into a space
• 21:14
  Speaker 4: of I thought was great.
• 21:16
  Speaker 2: I started fast the night.
• 21:19
  Speaker 4: Well, I'm on like thirty six hours right now, so
• 21:22
  Speaker 4: it's like going on a fast too. I'll do it
• 21:25
  Speaker 4: for seventy two hours of just drinking. I just drink
• 21:28
  Speaker 4: water and I don't have a couple of codfish liver
• 21:32
  Speaker 4: or a codfish oil, and so that's it. So it's
• 21:36
  Speaker 4: like it's just going through this whole process which is
• 21:38
  Speaker 4: clearing out the body, and it's just cleansing. So it's
• 21:41
  Speaker 4: like it goes along with everything that I've been doing.
• 21:43
  Speaker 4: Not only do we purge and I'm jumped again, but
• 21:48
  Speaker 4: not only are we purging, Like I'm writing letters and
• 21:51
  Speaker 4: purging that way and crying and sneezing and coughing and yawning.
• 21:55
  Speaker 4: My god, I must have yawned a thousand times during
• 21:58
  Speaker 4: two people the other day, like I've I mean, I
• 22:00
  Speaker 4: was at the point where I feel like I could
• 22:02
  Speaker 4: just I could probably.
• 22:03
  Speaker 2: Pass out while I'm doing this massage. And I wasn't
• 22:05
  Speaker 2: fasting then.
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  Speaker 4: But this is just another form of just like releasing
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  Speaker 4: stuff that no longer serves, doesn't serve my body, I'm
• 22:12
  Speaker 4: giving my body the opportunity of new. Everything is new,
• 22:15
  Speaker 4: and as I'm stepping into everything's new. So with the
• 22:19
  Speaker 4: grand back to the grand kids, it's all new, and
• 22:21
  Speaker 4: it's learning. We don't know where we're going, and ask
• 22:24
  Speaker 4: what gets scary sometimes because it's all unfamiliar. It's that
• 22:27
  Speaker 4: wait a minute, I don't have any programming for this.
• 22:29
  Speaker 4: I don't know what am I supposed to do with it.
• 22:32
  Speaker 4: I'm a toddler right now, so sometimes I'm probably going
• 22:34
  Speaker 4: to make mistakes in somebody else's life. But that's the
• 22:37
  Speaker 4: way that I learned, and that's how I evolve and
• 22:40
  Speaker 4: find new tools in different ways of reaching our youth,
• 22:45
  Speaker 4: our children, and our children within.
• 22:49
  Speaker 2: Love.
• 22:49
  Speaker 3: It so.
• 22:53
  Speaker 1: Learning to process events and gifts, just allowing the process
• 23:01
  Speaker 1: of moving through those stages or sensations of feeling guilty,
• 23:08
  Speaker 1: learning to receive in the different ways without feeling guilty
• 23:15
  Speaker 1: doing self care and like Bev's time is valuable to
• 23:21
  Speaker 1: her as is mine and holding people accountable for their
• 23:28
  Speaker 1: own responsibilities without me or her or anybody else feeling
• 23:33
  Speaker 1: guilty about it. So take some time. If you are
• 23:38
  Speaker 1: a person who is influenced by feeling guilty about things,
• 23:43
  Speaker 1: that's a pattern. It really takes some time to look
• 23:46
  Speaker 1: at that and process it and see if you can
• 23:49
  Speaker 1: get a different perspective about it. So again, we're a
• 23:54
  Speaker 1: big fan, Bev and I are big fans of pen
• 23:56
  Speaker 1: and paper, and just start writing things out. Write out
• 24:00
  Speaker 1: what contributes to you feeling guilty, write out the belief
• 24:05
  Speaker 1: systems or where were you taught on feeling guilty about things,
• 24:10
  Speaker 1: and start changing that, change your mindset about it, because
• 24:15
  Speaker 1: that could be one of the biggest things that will
• 24:18
  Speaker 1: keep you stuck, is feeling guilty about receiving gifts along
• 24:26
  Speaker 1: the way or standing up for yourself and feeling guilty
• 24:30
  Speaker 1: about it. And a lot of times that guilt is
• 24:33
  Speaker 1: associated to not feeling worthy or deserving of good things
• 24:39
  Speaker 1: or feeling important. So just take some time. Bev and
• 24:44
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• 24:47
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• 24:50
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• 25:21
  Speaker 1: final words, Take time for yourself, yeah, because no one
• 25:26
  Speaker 1: else is going to do it for you. That's right,
• 25:28
  Speaker 1: And don't feel guilty about it.
• 25:32
  Speaker 2: That's right.
• 25:33
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