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WELCOME BACK | SEASON 4 | BELIEVE IN THE JOURNEY WITH TRIVEDA HARRIS · DA CREW Podcast

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  Speaker 1: H ho little shop, young people. There's nothing wrong with
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  Speaker 1: dancing for Jesus, but we can't forget where we come from. Shop,
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  Speaker 1: So if you don't mind, let's have a little church
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  Speaker 1: right now.
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  Speaker 2: Something about that name Jesus.
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  Speaker 1: Listen shot in.
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  Speaker 3: Ladies and gentlemen, y I have your attention.
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  Speaker 4: Please.
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  Speaker 3: The show starts in ten mine eight, seven, six, five,
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  Speaker 3: four three two.
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  Speaker 5: Good evening and welcome to Believe in the Journey podcast.
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  Speaker 5: It is season four. Can you believe it? It is
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  Speaker 5: the premiere episode. Listen you guys. I am grateful and
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  Speaker 5: I am honored to have you guys back with me
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  Speaker 5: as we begin to blow your mind as God always does,
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  Speaker 5: because He is the creator of all, and you know
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  Speaker 5: I can't do anything without going to Him first. So
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  Speaker 5: let's go to God first in prayer. They're heavenly Father,
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  Speaker 5: thank you for bringing us together tonight, and help me
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  Speaker 5: to bring the words that are needed tonight, and let
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  Speaker 5: it fall upon the ears that need to hear. This
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  Speaker 5: world that we are living in right now is completely
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  Speaker 5: filled with so much unrest, so much uneasiness. But we
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  Speaker 5: know that you are in control of all. We know
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  Speaker 5: that there is nothing that happens without you. As long
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  Speaker 5: as we keep leaning on you, we will follow everything,
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  Speaker 5: and we will know to understand that everything happens for
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  Speaker 5: a purpose, and everything happens for a reason. There is
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  Speaker 5: nothing that you cannot handle, and there is nothing that
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  Speaker 5: we will not be able to endure because you are
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  Speaker 5: in control of it all. You are all knowing and
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  Speaker 5: all seen. And so let the words of our mouths
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  Speaker 5: fall upon the ears that need to hear, and let
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  Speaker 5: it bring those who need to be closer to you.
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  Speaker 5: Let us be a bridge that brings them closer to
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  Speaker 5: You and your precious and holy name, Jesus. We pray Amen.
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  Speaker 5: Now tonight, I have two amazing women that are going
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  Speaker 5: to be speaking to you about their part in a
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  Speaker 5: anthology that talks about a testimony. And they are living, walking,
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  Speaker 5: and breathing testimonies. And when I tell you, when I
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  Speaker 5: read their bios, and then to understand that when I say,
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  Speaker 5: God is always going to put you in alignment with
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  Speaker 5: people that connects you to the purpose that He has,
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  Speaker 5: Because if y'all know me, I'm always big on saying, God,
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  Speaker 5: connect me to the people that are connected to the
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  Speaker 5: purpose and which you have for me. He always connects
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  Speaker 5: me to the people that are aligned to the purpose
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  Speaker 5: that He has for me in my life. And so
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  Speaker 5: when I was reading their bios and I was just
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  Speaker 5: telling Evangelist Angela earlier that these two ladies, they're bios
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  Speaker 5: and everything is so so connected. Because let me just
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  Speaker 5: introduce Miss Angela right now, Miss Evangelist Angela. She is
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  Speaker 5: a mother of five, a grandmother of nine, devoted servant
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  Speaker 5: of God who's passionate about healing, restoration and leading others
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  Speaker 5: to the love of Christ. She is one of thirty
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  Speaker 5: five amazing writers of the anthology I Am a Living Testimony.
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  Speaker 5: Now that's just a little bit about Miss angel Now
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  Speaker 5: list said, that's just us. Now, I don't let how
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  Speaker 5: to introduce herself as well. Now, Prophet doctor Keana MJ. Tickle,
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  Speaker 5: Now listen, this is her first time writing. But listen,
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  Speaker 5: she is a leader called to minister healing, restoration, true
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  Speaker 5: through her journey and it has shaped her relationship and
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  Speaker 5: desire to help others begin their walk and purpose with God.
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  Speaker 5: And her story and I Am a Living Testimony will
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  Speaker 5: show you just how God is always in the midst
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  Speaker 5: of everything that we do. So when I tell you,
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  Speaker 5: just their bios alone, and just those two words, healing
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  Speaker 5: and restoration and their walk with God and how their
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  Speaker 5: testimonies that led them to being a part of I
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  Speaker 5: am a living testimony speaks for itself. But lady, I
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  Speaker 5: want you to take a moment to briefly introduce yourselves,
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  Speaker 5: just so that our audience will know just what I
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  Speaker 5: mean when I say that God aligned us to be
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  Speaker 5: together tonight. So whichever one want to go first?
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  Speaker 2: For sure? Imagine she could go ahead.
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  Speaker 6: Okay, Well, I'm evangelist Angela E. Jackson.
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  Speaker 7: I was born and raised in Baltimore, but I now
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  Speaker 7: reside in North Carolina and I'm a member of Faith
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  Speaker 7: Fregrance of Faith Ministry in Corporation.
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  Speaker 6: I have a love for people.
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  Speaker 2: I like.
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  Speaker 7: My apostle says I like broken things because I like
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  Speaker 7: to try to fix some. So I've been trying to
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  Speaker 7: fix things all my life. But now I just thank
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  Speaker 7: God for this opportunity. And this is my first time
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  Speaker 7: writing being published as an author as well, so I'm
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  Speaker 7: just excited.
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  Speaker 2: I'm right, all right, all right, will hire everyone, blessings
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  Speaker 2: to everyone properly. Is doctor Keona M. J. Tickle. I
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  Speaker 2: still try to get used to that name. I like,
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  Speaker 2: if anything I'm just the daughter of the king. I'm
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  Speaker 2: his maid servant, a man and this is one of
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  Speaker 2: the start of my books, and God pushed me out
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  Speaker 2: and it was such a blessing and an honor to
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  Speaker 2: be a part of this anthology with so many other
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  Speaker 2: powerful testimonies and brothers and sisters in Christ that I
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  Speaker 2: know personally and got to know more. I do a lot.
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  Speaker 2: I'm a mama, as you heard, I'm a mama of
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  Speaker 2: a seven year old man child. I'll call him my
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  Speaker 2: man child. And and I just love kingdom. I work
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  Speaker 2: with the youth, the young adults, and I'll share more
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  Speaker 2: a little later on. But I just love serving God.
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  Speaker 2: And it's such an honor and a blessing to be
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  Speaker 2: on this platform on today a man. So I do
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  Speaker 2: a lot. So it's by the grace of God walking out.
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  Speaker 2: Those that walk close to me, they be like, man,
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  Speaker 2: you two. I say, yes, it's nothing but God. So
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  Speaker 2: I give God glory for all everything he gave me
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  Speaker 2: that I'm able to use it to build His kingdom
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  Speaker 2: because I am a kingdom builder. Amen. And I'm also
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  Speaker 2: the CEO and co founder of Elite Women, and we're
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  Speaker 2: doing some amazing things and we also release Elite Moms,
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  Speaker 2: and we're working on some other great things and ministry
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  Speaker 2: it's coming as well. So it's so much a ministry
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  Speaker 2: that God allowed me to do and I'm just so grateful.
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  Speaker 5: Listen, I want to say thank you both for being here,
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  Speaker 5: because I know everybody was talking about It's Super Bowl Sunday, okay,
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  Speaker 5: and right got us doing tonight. God got other things
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  Speaker 5: that we could be doing. And somebody needs to hear
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  Speaker 5: what we got to talk about, because there's somebody out
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  Speaker 5: here that is struggling with something and needs to know
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  Speaker 5: what it looks like to be going through and how
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  Speaker 5: they can get to the other side. So one question
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  Speaker 5: that I want to ask each of you, and that
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  Speaker 5: is what made you decide to be part of when
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  Speaker 5: you saw the little initiation flyer that said collaboration project
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  Speaker 5: for I am a living testimony, what made you want
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  Speaker 5: to actually step out of that space of comfort to say,
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  Speaker 5: let me share my story in this.
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  Speaker 2: I'm go ahead for me.
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  Speaker 7: I have four titles in my head. I've been writing
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  Speaker 7: these books in my head forever. And when I Profata Simon,
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  Speaker 7: she put the fly In stuff out and I have
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  Speaker 7: been following her on Facebook for well, I don't even
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  Speaker 7: know how we became friends.
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  Speaker 6: Let's start there. So we came book.
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  Speaker 7: Yeah, and then when she lost her son, I just kept,
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  Speaker 7: you know, in a seating for her and praying for her.
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  Speaker 7: So I just felt the connection. So I reached out
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  Speaker 7: to her and asked about it. I said, but I'm
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  Speaker 7: gonna have to pray about it because I was a
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  Speaker 7: little skeptical, you know, in the beginning, because she was
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  Speaker 7: over in California and I was over here on the
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  Speaker 7: East Coast, and I'm like, I don't know. So I said,
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  Speaker 7: I only got a couple more slots I need to know.
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  Speaker 7: So I told her, yeah, I will go here, you know,
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  Speaker 7: and and write.
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  Speaker 6: So it just got me got my seat west.
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  Speaker 7: So now I'm gonna I'm starting on my second book,
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  Speaker 7: all right now?
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  Speaker 2: Okay, Yes, As for me same, I actually was during
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  Speaker 2: the pandemic that God gave me a message and I
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  Speaker 2: was preaching during that time and the next following year,
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  Speaker 2: the Lord said I got books in you, and I
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  Speaker 2: want you to and I'm going to write. Not knowing
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  Speaker 2: what I was about to go through that the book,
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  Speaker 2: the thing that I was gonna write was actually going
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  Speaker 2: to precede the other book, and so I was like, okay.
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  Speaker 2: So I see my sister in Christ, Simone post it
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  Speaker 2: and she's such an awesome woman of God and was
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  Speaker 2: able to put on that and I was just talking
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  Speaker 2: to her and we had similar story of just loss
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  Speaker 2: and different things. And I just felt a pool in
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  Speaker 2: my spirit because during that time that I seen it,
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  Speaker 2: I was in prayer, and I had been in praying.
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  Speaker 2: I say, God, okay, I just did a YouTube interview
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  Speaker 2: the month prior and I was preparing some things that
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  Speaker 2: I said, Hey, God, I'm being obedient. You've given me
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  Speaker 2: all these different things. Where do you want me to start?
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  Speaker 2: And in the process of writing my chapter, I had
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  Speaker 2: to stop because I noticed I start writing the book
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  Speaker 2: and I was like, my hands start going. And anyone
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  Speaker 2: who knows me, no, I love to journal, and so
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  Speaker 2: I could fill up a journal in like weeks. In
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  Speaker 2: like a month, I could go through two journals, and
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  Speaker 2: so I'm used to doing that. So it just ignited.
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  Speaker 2: I just felt the spirit of the Lord leading me,
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  Speaker 2: and I prayed and I was like, no, I'm gonna
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  Speaker 2: do this. And like you said, you get out of
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  Speaker 2: your comfort zone. Always say you can't grow in comfort
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  Speaker 2: and man, you cannot grow in comfort. And so I
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  Speaker 2: thank God for the opportunity and just for the great
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  Speaker 2: work she put into it throughout that time. So it
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  Speaker 2: was just a privilege and a blessing and just you know,
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  Speaker 2: you have to be obedient to God when he's calling
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  Speaker 2: me and he's pulling you. And I saw that, I
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  Speaker 2: was like, Okay, God said, Darter, this is the door.
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  Speaker 2: Do it. And I said, okay, I'm gonna do it.
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  Speaker 2: And so and during that time. It was later on
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  Speaker 2: i'll share, but yeah, during that time, it was the
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  Speaker 2: right time for me to do it.
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  Speaker 5: I think most people have a hard time with being
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  Speaker 5: obedient with God at times because it doesn't feel comfortable
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  Speaker 5: and you are listening and being because prayer is where
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  Speaker 5: it always starts. And I think sometimes when you're in
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  Speaker 5: when you're in prayer and you're asking God for an answer,
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  Speaker 5: and when that answer doesn't look like what you envision
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  Speaker 5: the answer to look like, we get so like, God,
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  Speaker 5: that ain't the answer that I pray for, and you're like,
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  Speaker 5: I'm gonna go ahead and do something a little different,
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  Speaker 5: and God will send you right back to the answer
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  Speaker 5: he gave you the first time. And it's like no, no, no.
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  Speaker 5: You asked me for an answer and I answered you, yes, yes,
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  Speaker 5: I need you to do so. Your obedience is what
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  Speaker 5: led you to really being a part of this. And
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  Speaker 5: with that, have you had any I want to say,
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  Speaker 5: any regrets on not doing it sooner, because you know,
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  Speaker 5: sometimes it's like, man, why didn't I just go ahead
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  Speaker 5: and do this like five years ago?
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  Speaker 2: That's a good one. I really was just like I
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  Speaker 2: really was just like, wow, Okay, God, your timing is perfect.
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  Speaker 2: And for me, I was like, God, your timing is perfect.
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  Speaker 2: It pushed me to stay focused because of so many
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  Speaker 2: other things that was going on. It pushed me to
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  Speaker 2: keep the very thing that God told me to do.
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  Speaker 2: Start literally in the time of loss. He started speaking
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  Speaker 2: to me about writing a book prior to the pandemic,
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  Speaker 2: and then he said, you're gonna write this one. And
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  Speaker 2: I was like okay. And so I'm like okay, Lourd
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  Speaker 2: like okay, how where do I start? Where do I begin?
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  Speaker 2: I'm like, this is this is a new territory. And
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  Speaker 2: you know, I don't like write. I talk it, but
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  Speaker 2: I ain't gonna write. And so I feel like writing
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  Speaker 2: is very vulnerable and you can be very vulnerable and
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  Speaker 2: authentic in it. And I love authenticity, Like I hope
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  Speaker 2: I said that right. I love being authentic and all
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  Speaker 2: that I do because I feel like that's where people
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  Speaker 2: were like, wait a minute, I'm not alone. And so
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  Speaker 2: sometimes you can feel like you, you know, is your
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  Speaker 2: story enough? You know, is it enough? And it's like yes,
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  Speaker 2: because I've gotten to share it openly. But now being
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  Speaker 2: able to write it was a blessing and to get out.
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  Speaker 2: But I really was like, man, I was like, thank
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  Speaker 2: you Lord. I just obeyed. You know, I fell a relief,
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  Speaker 2: you know, I was like, thank you Lord, I just obeyed.
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  Speaker 2: But then I was like, ooh, I need to really
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  Speaker 2: get started on the other one. I need to start
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  Speaker 2: writing that stuff. You gave me the chapters. You Finally,
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  Speaker 2: the year that I was in this anthology was the
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  Speaker 2: year that God gave me the title of the book
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  Speaker 2: that I'm going to be releasing. So I was just
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  Speaker 2: like praying. He gave me chapters the year before, so
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  Speaker 2: he was the title. He gave me the title finally,
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  Speaker 2: and then here this comes. So I said, okay, let's go.
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  Speaker 2: This is nothing, but God.
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  Speaker 5: God is very strategic, strategic. He gives you things and
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  Speaker 5: I say that because of everything with even with where
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  Speaker 5: I am with this, Miss Angela, go ahead and answer
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  Speaker 5: how you got to this, and then I'll go into
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  Speaker 5: how everything for all of this is in alignment.
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  Speaker 3: Right.
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  Speaker 7: So for me, I always say God's plan is perfect.
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  Speaker 7: I've always said so much to do. I was always busy,
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  Speaker 7: you know, and I tried to be a good steward
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  Speaker 7: over the things that God has given me, and especially
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  Speaker 7: when it's dealing with people. And He bought a revelation
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  Speaker 7: to me when my children, you know, passed away, and
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  Speaker 7: it showed me that that would be what I needed
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  Speaker 7: to focus on first because I wanted to do other
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  Speaker 7: things and being other places. And so I had to
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  Speaker 7: sit down and pray, and God said, this is what
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  Speaker 7: I want you to write. But before then, I have
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  Speaker 7: been taking grief classes. I'm a trauma healing facilitator, different
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  Speaker 7: things of that sort. So He led me up to
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  Speaker 7: this point to write this chapter. So for me, it
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  Speaker 7: was right on time because I was in a place
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  Speaker 7: where I could really write and say what I needed
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  Speaker 7: to say without because a lot of time I'm very detailed.
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  Speaker 7: I want to just put every single thing in it.
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  Speaker 7: But then God, I want you to put this in it.
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  Speaker 7: So it's amazing to even see in the book for real,
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  Speaker 7: you know.
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  Speaker 6: And so for me, if God's plan was perfect because
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  Speaker 6: timing was excellent.
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  Speaker 5: Yeah, God's timing is never off. That's one thing we
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  Speaker 5: definitely when you're walking with God and when you're being
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  Speaker 5: obedient to what he's calling you to do, you always
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  Speaker 5: realize that his timing is never off. It's always perfect
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  Speaker 5: and everything that He's given you. And I say that
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  Speaker 5: because everything that I've gone through in my journey of life,
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  Speaker 5: down to when I was in school, I took a
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  Speaker 5: public speaking class and I had absolutely no idea why
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  Speaker 5: I was taking a public speaking class because what I
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  Speaker 5: was going to school for was medical office administration. And
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  Speaker 5: I'm like, why do I need a public speaking class?
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  Speaker 5: This has nothing to do with what I'm going to
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  Speaker 5: be doing. I'm working a front desk in a medical office.
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  Speaker 6: This is it.
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  Speaker 5: And so my son was like, you need a patient
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  Speaker 5: expression class because you need to work on that.
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  Speaker 6: That's me.
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  Speaker 8: You don't need no public speaking class. And so I'm like, okay.
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  Speaker 8: So fast forward a few years later and here I
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  Speaker 8: am doing this. But when I started my writing journey,
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  Speaker 8: I was like I had been sharing my poetry on
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  Speaker 8: Facebook for years, and everybody was like, well, you.
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  Speaker 5: Need to put that in a book. You need to
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  Speaker 5: put that in a book. And I was like, yeah, whatever,
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  Speaker 5: I'll do that one day, just whatever. And so I
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  Speaker 5: was like, yeah, So my best friend she wrote a
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  Speaker 5: book and she came to my house. She was like, well,
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  Speaker 5: I did it, now you can do it. She came
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  Speaker 5: to my house, she showed me how to set up
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  Speaker 5: the little kdip account and everything, and I was like, yeah,
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  Speaker 5: okay whatever. That was in April of like twenty nineteen,
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  Speaker 5: and I was like, yeah, okay, whatever, I'm not doing this.
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  Speaker 5: And so, okay, October comes and I'm like, I'm fooling
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  Speaker 5: around with the laptop. I got irritated and I threw
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  Speaker 5: that laptop down and I was like, yeah, I'm not
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  Speaker 5: doing that because it's irritating to me. And so my
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  Speaker 5: daughter going into twenty twenty, she needed to have her
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  Speaker 5: wisdom teeth pulled. And so my boys are like, okay,
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  Speaker 5: we're taking care of her. You've taken her to the doctor.
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  Speaker 5: Now you're stuck in your room, so you have and
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  Speaker 5: I'm like, what am I gonna do? So God was
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  Speaker 5: like get the laptop, put the book together. And I'm like, God,
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  Speaker 5: I have no idea what to do. And he was like,
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  Speaker 5: put the book together. I'm like, God, I don't know
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  Speaker 5: what to do. I don't know how to put the
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  Speaker 5: book together. He said, I didn't ask you that. He said,
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  Speaker 5: I said, put the book together. So I did. I
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  Speaker 5: put twenty six of my favorite poems together. I put
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  Speaker 5: them in a book and that was it. After that,
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  Speaker 5: I got a speaking engagement because I had posted one
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  Speaker 5: of my poems in a book and all on Facebook,
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  Speaker 5: and the poem was titled black Woman. So that one
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  Speaker 5: got me a virtual speaking engagement during COVID. So now
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  Speaker 5: mind you, Like I said, public speaking is not my thing.
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  Speaker 5: This is how God works and connects all this stuff together.
• 20:56
  Speaker 5: And when the woman asked me to speak at her
• 20:59
  Speaker 5: virtual event, my head I'm saying, Nope, don't ask me.
• 21:02
  Speaker 5: I'm not doing that. God had already answered for me.
• 21:06
  Speaker 5: I had already responded and said yes. Then I'm like,
• 21:10
  Speaker 5: absolutely not, God, who is gonna speak at this thing.
• 21:14
  Speaker 5: He's like, it's over the computer. You're fine, it's fine,
• 21:17
  Speaker 5: don't worry about it. So then during this event, I
• 21:22
  Speaker 5: ended up doing.
• 21:27
  Speaker 2: Trying to.
• 21:28
  Speaker 5: I met a young lady and it's okay, honey, I
• 21:34
  Speaker 5: know how the.
• 21:34
  Speaker 2: Kids do, say mama. I found something. And so.
• 21:46
  Speaker 5: I meet one of the ladies and she's auditioning for
• 21:50
  Speaker 5: a virtual monologue. So I try out for the virtual
• 21:54
  Speaker 5: monologue and I'm like, okay, here we go. So during
• 21:59
  Speaker 5: this time, I end up writing two additional books outside
• 22:03
  Speaker 5: of the poetry book. Now I've learned how to format,
• 22:07
  Speaker 5: I've learned how to do covers, I've learned how to
• 22:09
  Speaker 5: do all of this other stuff in the midst of that,
• 22:12
  Speaker 5: so I'm like, okay, cool. So learning the virtual monologue,
• 22:17
  Speaker 5: I end up meeting Miss Angela, who is now my
• 22:20
  Speaker 5: mentor who has me doing this podcast. She's about to
• 22:25
  Speaker 5: start a podcast team. Which was almost three and a half.
• 22:29
  Speaker 5: We're now in season four, so this is how we
• 22:33
  Speaker 5: are here today. But everything. The title of my book
• 22:42
  Speaker 5: club that I had was titled Wings of Transformation, so
• 22:46
  Speaker 5: then it was like my little tagline for my book
• 22:51
  Speaker 5: thing was Believing the Journey. So then when she was like, well,
• 22:55
  Speaker 5: you need to have a name for your podcast, I
• 22:59
  Speaker 5: was like, well, believe in the Journey because that was
• 23:02
  Speaker 5: my tagline on my book site. So my publishing business
• 23:09
  Speaker 5: is Wings of Transformation. These are names that God gave me.
• 23:13
  Speaker 5: So believe in The journey is the podcast, because this
• 23:17
  Speaker 5: is what it is. God, you connected all of this together,
• 23:22
  Speaker 5: and so God always knows. It's all the little puzzle
• 23:27
  Speaker 5: pieces that fit together. They make no sense piece by piece,
• 23:32
  Speaker 5: but when you're patient and you put it together, you
• 23:36
  Speaker 5: know what God is doing. So you just have to
• 23:38
  Speaker 5: stay the course. And I'm always like God, look here, sir,
• 23:42
  Speaker 5: I don't know what you're doing. I like, Sir, this
• 23:50
  Speaker 5: don't make no sense. Like what you doing? Like why
• 23:53
  Speaker 5: are we over here? Like I got to cross the street,
• 23:56
  Speaker 5: go down and sere, make three lefts and take a
• 23:59
  Speaker 5: right and I'm gonna end up? He like, just do
• 24:04
  Speaker 5: what I said do and then I might want to
• 24:07
  Speaker 5: take another turn and he like, no, I didn't tell
• 24:09
  Speaker 5: you to do that. So you stay the course and
• 24:12
  Speaker 5: you pay attention to what God is telling you to do,
• 24:15
  Speaker 5: and you'll always end up right on time. Place you
• 24:19
  Speaker 5: in a situation that He's not going to provide for you.
• 24:22
  Speaker 5: And so yes, we're all a living testimony because God
• 24:29
  Speaker 5: is want to put us in the places and in
• 24:32
  Speaker 5: the spaces where we're supposed to be in the time
• 24:35
  Speaker 5: and that we're supposed to be just like evangelism earlier,
• 24:41
  Speaker 5: is that this was an alignment because every every part
• 24:46
  Speaker 5: of this was on God's calendar before we even knew
• 24:51
  Speaker 5: and this is an alignment. This was on our calendars
• 24:54
  Speaker 5: before God even put us together. He knew what we
• 24:59
  Speaker 5: were suppose sposed to do.
• 25:00
  Speaker 2: Together, you know.
• 25:02
  Speaker 5: And so it's one of those things that I'm always
• 25:08
  Speaker 5: in prayer about what I'm supposed to do next and
• 25:12
  Speaker 5: when I'm supposed to do it. And so I'm like, God,
• 25:18
  Speaker 5: just just help me to stay the course and help
• 25:21
  Speaker 5: me be a vessel because I don't always say the
• 25:25
  Speaker 5: right things, I don't always do the right things. But
• 25:28
  Speaker 5: I hope that I'm doing what You're telling me that
• 25:31
  Speaker 5: I need to do. And so one thing that I
• 25:35
  Speaker 5: say all the time, and that is stay out of
• 25:37
  Speaker 5: God's business. Don't He needs you use to be obedient
• 25:41
  Speaker 5: to what He's called you to do. And I started
• 25:44
  Speaker 5: saying that after a conversation with my sister, my baby sister.
• 25:49
  Speaker 5: She was calling me rant and raven. You know how
• 25:53
  Speaker 5: baby sisters are if you're the oldest, And she was
• 25:57
  Speaker 5: ranting and a raven about something and she was like, well,
• 26:00
  Speaker 5: I was praying to God and he just say, ain't listening.
• 26:04
  Speaker 5: And I said, okay, do you work for God? Or
• 26:07
  Speaker 5: does he work for you? Or or how does he
• 26:10
  Speaker 5: doesn't work? And she was like, what you mean? I said,
• 26:13
  Speaker 5: did you ask him for something and you think that
• 26:17
  Speaker 5: he works on your time? She was like, it's what
• 26:22
  Speaker 5: you mean. I said. God is God all by himself.
• 26:24
  Speaker 5: He don't need anything. Come on, I said, you need
• 26:28
  Speaker 5: something from him. I said, so, if you keep bothering
• 26:31
  Speaker 5: him about what it is you need from him, he
• 26:35
  Speaker 5: gonna make you wait until it's time. I said. You're
• 26:39
  Speaker 5: not deserving of what it is that you're asking him for.
• 26:43
  Speaker 5: I said, so to keep going through is because you're
• 26:46
  Speaker 5: not ready for him to bless you what you keep
• 26:49
  Speaker 5: asking for. I said, so you need to stay out
• 26:51
  Speaker 5: of his business until he's ready to bless you what
• 26:55
  Speaker 5: you keep asking for. So my business and stay out
• 26:59
  Speaker 5: of his and let God do his job because he
• 27:02
  Speaker 5: didn't ask nothing. So gon't mind your business and God
• 27:05
  Speaker 5: sit down somewhere.
• 27:07
  Speaker 2: So she was like.
• 27:11
  Speaker 5: So you're gonna tell me like that. I said, I
• 27:12
  Speaker 5: didn't tell you. God said mind your business. God is
• 27:16
  Speaker 5: God all by himself. He ain't asked you to you
• 27:19
  Speaker 5: over there calling his phone, He don't put you on
• 27:22
  Speaker 5: hold and told you to go sit down somewhere, gone
• 27:25
  Speaker 5: leave him alone. Good bothering him down somewhere, y'all ain't
• 27:32
  Speaker 5: got don't have no attention. But you know God is
• 27:38
  Speaker 5: gonna do what he caused himself to do for us,
• 27:43
  Speaker 5: and we just have to be obedient to it all.
• 27:46
  Speaker 5: And another question that I want to ask you guys
• 27:49
  Speaker 5: about your journey in this writing process, because you both
• 27:55
  Speaker 5: say that you are in the in the process of
• 27:58
  Speaker 5: new books. And what has that journey looked like since
• 28:05
  Speaker 5: completing the first work of I Am a Living Testimony
• 28:11
  Speaker 5: And what is this new journey looking like for you?
• 28:15
  Speaker 5: Because that was an opening door, right.
• 28:19
  Speaker 2: Yes, I.
• 28:24
  Speaker 6: Do better with deadlines.
• 28:26
  Speaker 7: So because I don't have none, I procrest I do
• 28:29
  Speaker 7: my best, you know under Prussia, you know, even when
• 28:32
  Speaker 7: I was in college, like I had to be done
• 28:35
  Speaker 7: at eleven fifty nine, I started at eleven thirty.
• 28:37
  Speaker 5: Okay, So you need me to give you a dead line.
• 28:40
  Speaker 6: Yeah, so I don't have a deadline. I'm just you know,
• 28:45
  Speaker 6: that's what you're saying.
• 28:46
  Speaker 2: You need me to give you a dead line, oh
• 28:51
  Speaker 2: I have.
• 28:52
  Speaker 6: I mean, that's what I Yeah.
• 28:54
  Speaker 7: I have a second that I do on my Facebook
• 28:56
  Speaker 7: call on my Facebook page says just my thoughts. And
• 29:01
  Speaker 7: so I've had several different people say to me, so
• 29:03
  Speaker 7: when you're gonna write the book. So when you're gonna
• 29:05
  Speaker 7: write the book. So I have actually a book. I
• 29:09
  Speaker 7: just put it in together and say give it to you,
• 29:13
  Speaker 7: you know property some won and say, look, I need
• 29:16
  Speaker 7: you to, you know, fix this so we can get
• 29:18
  Speaker 7: it out there. I look at it every day. I
• 29:20
  Speaker 7: be honest, I'm not gonna I look at.
• 29:21
  Speaker 6: It every day.
• 29:24
  Speaker 7: But see, I have so much other stuff in life
• 29:26
  Speaker 7: going on, like I'm taking care of seven of my grandchildren,
• 29:31
  Speaker 7: well my eldest daughter. My two daughters are helping me,
• 29:33
  Speaker 7: but we have seven in the household, and they ran
• 29:36
  Speaker 7: age sixteen to chierul be Chier.
• 29:40
  Speaker 6: In a couple of days.
• 29:41
  Speaker 7: And I just, you know, I be moving, and I
• 29:44
  Speaker 7: know I need to sit still and do what I
• 29:46
  Speaker 7: need to do. Like I said, I'm a procrastinator and
• 29:48
  Speaker 7: I do my best work under pressure. So if I
• 29:51
  Speaker 7: had like I need this to be done by this day,
• 29:54
  Speaker 7: it's gone.
• 29:55
  Speaker 6: But because now I don't you know what I'm saying
• 29:57
  Speaker 6: I could whenever.
• 30:00
  Speaker 2: Got we got you? What you need a dead line?
• 30:06
  Speaker 5: Okay, so I got you. I'm gonna give you a
• 30:08
  Speaker 5: dead line before we get off here.
• 30:11
  Speaker 6: That may work.
• 30:12
  Speaker 5: All right, We're gonna have a deadline, I'm I'm we're
• 30:16
  Speaker 5: gonna we're gonna exchange numbers and everything. So yes, yes, yeah,
• 30:22
  Speaker 5: so okay, all right, m yeah.
• 30:26
  Speaker 2: She said, look she think? Is she think? Is she?
• 30:29
  Speaker 6: Oh?
• 30:29
  Speaker 5: No, I don't, I don't. I don't know if I
• 30:31
  Speaker 5: should have did that.
• 30:33
  Speaker 2: Yeah, because look she's ready she ready.
• 30:39
  Speaker 5: Yeah, because listen, yeah I can. I can attest to
• 30:43
  Speaker 5: that too, because I am the same way when it
• 30:46
  Speaker 5: comes to certain things, because I will put it off
• 30:49
  Speaker 5: as long as I can until it's like, okay, you
• 30:53
  Speaker 5: know what, you go ahead and get that done because
• 30:57
  Speaker 5: seventeen excuses and my kids. All right, Ma, you said
• 31:03
  Speaker 5: you was gonna do such and such.
• 31:07
  Speaker 2: Out Look.
• 31:08
  Speaker 5: My main thing I procrastinate now on is my hair, y'all.
• 31:12
  Speaker 5: I just because I'm natural so and my hair is really.
• 31:20
  Speaker 2: Really thick, and it's a lot of work. I'm right
• 31:22
  Speaker 2: there with you.
• 31:23
  Speaker 5: And then I'm going through menopause too, and I just
• 31:27
  Speaker 5: be like, look here now, oh lord, yeah, so I
• 31:31
  Speaker 5: just be like, you know what, handah out. Listen. All
• 31:35
  Speaker 5: the reason my hair looked like something right now, it's
• 31:40
  Speaker 5: because we had this show.
• 31:42
  Speaker 6: If y'all have.
• 31:42
  Speaker 5: Seen me two hours ago, I look like, who did it?
• 31:46
  Speaker 2: And why?
• 31:47
  Speaker 6: Because they like m mmm uh uh.
• 31:50
  Speaker 5: My son said, you're gonna do something to your head.
• 31:53
  Speaker 5: I said, mind Joe business, don't.
• 31:56
  Speaker 2: Don't don't because normal.
• 31:58
  Speaker 5: Look my grandbaby, she she too, hone. When we get
• 32:02
  Speaker 5: ready to go somewhere, she said, t T, don't forget
• 32:04
  Speaker 5: your hat because I put a hat on in a
• 32:06
  Speaker 5: heartbeat and go right or not. She she grabbed that
• 32:09
  Speaker 5: hat and we be on out the door because she
• 32:12
  Speaker 5: know T gonna put her hat on. I'm going out
• 32:15
  Speaker 5: the door with a hat on, and she'd be like,
• 32:17
  Speaker 5: T T T, where your hat because I'm gonna put
• 32:22
  Speaker 5: it on because I'm not finna calmness hair. And if
• 32:24
  Speaker 5: I can't putting no little crochets or something, then honde
• 32:27
  Speaker 5: because I got to come. I got to talk myself
• 32:32
  Speaker 5: into doing my hair like process because the first day
• 32:38
  Speaker 5: I wash.
• 32:39
  Speaker 6: It blow dried.
• 32:40
  Speaker 5: That's that's washing blow dry, Like okay, well what else
• 32:50
  Speaker 5: I'm yo.
• 32:52
  Speaker 2: I'm not alone I'm right there, baby. Yeah, I'd be like,
• 33:01
  Speaker 2: oh Lord, I don't know what to do, like da
• 33:04
  Speaker 2: what that's why?
• 33:08
  Speaker 5: Yeah? See, And I had thought about putting the crochetes,
• 33:13
  Speaker 5: but then I said, I got the brain.
• 33:17
  Speaker 4: Yes, I don't feel like rain.
• 33:22
  Speaker 2: You sound like everything that I'm thinking in my head.
• 33:25
  Speaker 2: Earlier this week, I was like, oh, I think I
• 33:27
  Speaker 2: might do crocheted, and then I was like, oh Lord,
• 33:29
  Speaker 2: now I gotta do all this extra. I just got
• 33:31
  Speaker 2: the tie, and I think that's how I got with it.
• 33:35
  Speaker 2: Concerned with writing, I had to this push. This really
• 33:39
  Speaker 2: did push me because during the time of writing my chapter,
• 33:42
  Speaker 2: I end up losing my uncle. Okay, and so it
• 33:46
  Speaker 2: was right on time, and I was just cracking up
• 33:50
  Speaker 2: because everything you're saying that be me with the process
• 33:52
  Speaker 2: of my thick hair. I was just like, yes, my fingers,
• 33:58
  Speaker 2: my hands are in there. And I was like, Jesus,
• 34:02
  Speaker 2: but I took that even when it comes to writing,
• 34:07
  Speaker 2: just taking the time, like the days. Okay, I'm gonna
• 34:09
  Speaker 2: take this day of the process and get a plan.
• 34:13
  Speaker 2: Then I'm gonna take this day iron that plan out.
• 34:17
  Speaker 2: Yea third day, were about to get going. Third day, Jesus, Rose,
• 34:21
  Speaker 2: you know, it's turned for me to rise up. So
• 34:24
  Speaker 2: we're gonna get this going, and we're gonna see so
• 34:27
  Speaker 2: producing and so this, we're gonna see the product. Yes,
• 34:33
  Speaker 2: I got tied with this, and it took me. You know,
• 34:36
  Speaker 2: I had to really press through because I had so
• 34:38
  Speaker 2: much at the time that was challenging. And then I
• 34:41
  Speaker 2: end up writing my whole chapter and the whole chapter deleted.
• 34:45
  Speaker 6: Oh oh no.
• 34:48
  Speaker 2: And I was like, what do I do? Pivot? I said,
• 34:52
  Speaker 2: pivot key on it. This the chapter is not it's
• 34:55
  Speaker 2: in you. It's in you. You are, So go back
• 34:59
  Speaker 2: and I was like, oh my god, everything. I'm looking
• 35:02
  Speaker 2: through my computer. I'm like, oh my god, where's my chapter?
• 35:04
  Speaker 2: Where's my chapter? God? I said, okay, Lord, help me.
• 35:08
  Speaker 2: So I work. I started typing out. I had little
• 35:11
  Speaker 2: pieces that I found. I was like in my notes.
• 35:14
  Speaker 2: So I was like, see good. I took them notes
• 35:16
  Speaker 2: and so I wrote down and I was like, okay, help.
• 35:20
  Speaker 4: Me, God.
• 35:20
  Speaker 2: And so I went back in there and I did it.
• 35:23
  Speaker 2: And so it's getting me to the place to where
• 35:27
  Speaker 2: I got that momentum from that from writing that chapter
• 35:32
  Speaker 2: and filling my hands, just the flow of when I
• 35:35
  Speaker 2: sit and just find that quiet space to write. I
• 35:39
  Speaker 2: took it like how I write in my journal. When
• 35:42
  Speaker 2: I have that time, always put time with Abba. And
• 35:46
  Speaker 2: I've been doing that for years. I didn't notice that
• 35:49
  Speaker 2: I was doing that, but every time I would say
• 35:51
  Speaker 2: time with Abba and I will had my start my
• 35:56
  Speaker 2: writing with that, and I purposely write a first did
• 36:01
  Speaker 2: I start writing out everything He's giving me scriptures, details,
• 36:06
  Speaker 2: definitions of things and words, and going in and just
• 36:09
  Speaker 2: pulling everything down. That's my time with my my that's
• 36:13
  Speaker 2: my time with my father. And so I took that
• 36:17
  Speaker 2: that practice of what I was already doing into my writing,
• 36:23
  Speaker 2: and I had to lock in because my mind, I'm
• 36:25
  Speaker 2: a perfectionist. See I'm a little opposite. I have a
• 36:28
  Speaker 2: little perfectionist side to me. So because of that, I
• 36:33
  Speaker 2: learned that because I wanted it like a certain way,
• 36:36
  Speaker 2: and I see it that my son, it's so bad.
• 36:38
  Speaker 2: I was like, but just let it go. It's okay,
• 36:40
  Speaker 2: we got it. He's like, no, it's gotta be like this.
• 36:44
  Speaker 2: And so what I noticed is that the perfectionist part
• 36:48
  Speaker 2: can be a good and bad at the same time,
• 36:51
  Speaker 2: because it could delay you because you want it so
• 36:54
  Speaker 2: much in such a certain way that it's already there,
• 36:58
  Speaker 2: and then it will delay you. It could delay you
• 37:03
  Speaker 2: to have it on time, and so that it could
• 37:07
  Speaker 2: delay the tiny And so I said, okay, I cannot
• 37:10
  Speaker 2: let my perfection is way and it's only in writing
• 37:15
  Speaker 2: for me certain things that I'm just like, ah, I
• 37:18
  Speaker 2: need it to be clear. I needed to be right.
• 37:20
  Speaker 2: This news everybody and they thought about to read this
• 37:23
  Speaker 2: and don't really want this to touch the hearts. God,
• 37:25
  Speaker 2: I want to make you please. God was like darter breathe.
• 37:28
  Speaker 5: I was like, okay, and you still have to take
• 37:33
  Speaker 5: that moment. And yes, I still and you still go
• 37:36
  Speaker 5: back and forth with that. Y honestly say like even
• 37:40
  Speaker 5: when I look at like I'm gonna show you the
• 37:43
  Speaker 5: book really quickly if I can get it from over here,
• 37:47
  Speaker 5: it's it's this book right here. This is my very
• 37:51
  Speaker 5: first book. It may not show it.
• 37:52
  Speaker 2: In the thing see it a little bit, but yes.
• 37:58
  Speaker 5: You guys, but it's basically it looks really really bad.
• 38:04
  Speaker 5: In my opinion, my personal opinion. Other people are like
• 38:09
  Speaker 5: love it. They're like, it's like it has different fonts
• 38:14
  Speaker 5: in it, and there's two copies of it. There's a
• 38:16
  Speaker 5: blue one and then there's this yellow one, and so
• 38:21
  Speaker 5: every time I look at it, they're like, it's fine,
• 38:24
  Speaker 5: it's not so bad, and I'm like, it sucks. It's
• 38:29
  Speaker 5: not what you know, it's not what I would like.
• 38:32
  Speaker 5: And then when I did my other ones, it's like, well,
• 38:38
  Speaker 5: who did the who did the first one? But then
• 38:41
  Speaker 5: I also have people say, well, I wouldn't have put
• 38:44
  Speaker 5: my name on this is what I had. You know,
• 38:46
  Speaker 5: people say when they saw the first ones, they were
• 38:49
  Speaker 5: so critical. And then I got to thinking, well, God didn't.
• 38:55
  Speaker 2: Tell you to do that.
• 38:57
  Speaker 5: That part old me to do it, and he was
• 39:01
  Speaker 5: looking for perfection. He was looking for obedience.
• 39:05
  Speaker 2: Obedience.
• 39:07
  Speaker 5: You would never put your name on an assignment that
• 39:10
  Speaker 5: wasn't yours. And so your name come on, supposed to
• 39:15
  Speaker 5: be on my paper because it's look And so when
• 39:20
  Speaker 5: I start to talk about it, I'm like, it's perfect
• 39:25
  Speaker 5: because God said it was perfect, and I was obedient
• 39:29
  Speaker 5: to what he told me to do. And so even
• 39:32
  Speaker 5: when I'm looking at it, I'm like, God, that looks
• 39:35
  Speaker 5: a hot dog, miss and you know it, And he like, girl,
• 39:39
  Speaker 5: if you don't shut up, there's a story, and there's
• 39:43
  Speaker 5: a reason behind that. Because you have a business that
• 39:47
  Speaker 5: you help other writers who are looking for where you started,
• 39:53
  Speaker 5: because if you didn't start there, you would not have
• 39:56
  Speaker 5: the knowledge that you have to show anybody how to
• 40:00
  Speaker 5: do what you do. That said that around you learn
• 40:05
  Speaker 5: how to do all of this so that you can
• 40:08
  Speaker 5: show others how to do it. So looking at it
• 40:13
  Speaker 5: as it not being perfect, you learned you took the
• 40:17
  Speaker 5: time to teach yourself. Because the other thing that most
• 40:21
  Speaker 5: people don't know about me, and this is something. I
• 40:24
  Speaker 5: had a stroke at the age of thirty. I was
• 40:27
  Speaker 5: diagnosed with the brain aneurysm. Also I lost my ability
• 40:30
  Speaker 5: to speak, and so all of these things people don't
• 40:36
  Speaker 5: know about me. And so when I start to say that,
• 40:40
  Speaker 5: like it's like God brought me through all of this.
• 40:45
  Speaker 5: Doctors told me to get used to not being able
• 40:48
  Speaker 5: to walk, to not being able to use the left
• 40:51
  Speaker 5: side of my body, to not God able to do
• 40:54
  Speaker 5: all of this. And I told them I didn't have
• 40:56
  Speaker 5: to get used to them. I didn't have to get
• 40:58
  Speaker 5: used to that because I told me trust Him. And
• 41:02
  Speaker 5: so when man told me they didn't know how to
• 41:05
  Speaker 5: help me, God said, trust me, I got you. And
• 41:09
  Speaker 5: so I said, God, we gonna figure this out. And
• 41:13
  Speaker 5: everybody was like, well, why are you doing all this research?
• 41:17
  Speaker 5: God said, do the research. Figure this out. And so
• 41:20
  Speaker 5: what I figured out, and what I found out is
• 41:23
  Speaker 5: like I couldn't talk, and so I was like, okay,
• 41:27
  Speaker 5: So as I'm doing my research, I'm finding out that
• 41:31
  Speaker 5: when you sing, you use different parts of your vocal chords.
• 41:36
  Speaker 5: And so that's how I was able to regain my speech.
• 41:40
  Speaker 5: And so I would be at the house just singing
• 41:42
  Speaker 5: the ABC song or singing just something, just whatever, be
• 41:48
  Speaker 5: around the house just singing or whatever. And so that's
• 41:52
  Speaker 5: how I regained my speech. And so when I started
• 41:55
  Speaker 5: going back to the neurologists, They're like, well, how did
• 41:58
  Speaker 5: you you know? I'm like, you guys told me not
• 42:01
  Speaker 5: to worry about it, to just get used to it.
• 42:04
  Speaker 5: God said, don't get used to that, and I did it.
• 42:08
  Speaker 5: So this is how I'm able to do this. I
• 42:11
  Speaker 5: was using a walker. You would never know that I'm
• 42:15
  Speaker 5: still limited on this left side because I don't use
• 42:18
  Speaker 5: a walker. I don't use a can off a normal person.
• 42:22
  Speaker 5: Because God carries me every single day. He provides that
• 42:28
  Speaker 5: I need. I have not had brain surgery. I am
• 42:31
  Speaker 5: in pain only ninety percent of the time, but nobody
• 42:35
  Speaker 5: knows that because God provides everything that I need. So
• 42:39
  Speaker 5: when it's like you don't know what somebody's going through,
• 42:43
  Speaker 5: but if you know God, like I know God, God
• 42:46
  Speaker 5: is going to carry you. And if you keep listening
• 42:49
  Speaker 5: to what God can do, God is going to deliver you.
• 42:52
  Speaker 5: You don't have to take man's word for it. If
• 42:55
  Speaker 5: you know God is God all by himself, and you
• 42:58
  Speaker 5: will believe him at his word. He is a healer
• 43:02
  Speaker 5: of awe because when I come on, he told me,
• 43:06
  Speaker 5: trust me. I will never leave you. But you gotta
• 43:10
  Speaker 5: trust me even when it doesn't look like anything, even
• 43:13
  Speaker 5: when it looks like it's darkness. There's a poem in
• 43:17
  Speaker 5: this book that I wrote, and it's called Darkness. And
• 43:20
  Speaker 5: I wrote that poem when I was sitting in a
• 43:23
  Speaker 5: wheelchair about to get into the MRI machine. And I
• 43:29
  Speaker 5: was sitting in there and I was like, all I
• 43:32
  Speaker 5: had was my phone in my hand, and I was like,
• 43:37
  Speaker 5: I don't have anything. I can't really talk, I can't
• 43:39
  Speaker 5: really do too much. But what I was thinking about
• 43:43
  Speaker 5: is I was preparing myself mentally to go into that
• 43:46
  Speaker 5: because it was gonna be a two hour MRI, because
• 43:49
  Speaker 5: they were gonna do die and everything all I could
• 43:53
  Speaker 5: think about was my feet being out and looking out
• 43:57
  Speaker 5: at the tunnel at the light, and I was like,
• 44:01
  Speaker 5: at the head, there's darkness, but at my feet there's light.
• 44:07
  Speaker 5: If I can just get out to the light, the
• 44:10
  Speaker 5: darkness will be behind. I just have to keep looking
• 44:15
  Speaker 5: towards my feet because my feet is going to be
• 44:18
  Speaker 5: what keeps me walking. And so I wrote that poem
• 44:23
  Speaker 5: sitting in that wheelchair, and I'm like, God, I thank you.
• 44:28
  Speaker 5: And so I said, every day I want something to
• 44:32
  Speaker 5: be thankful for. And every I found something to be
• 44:37
  Speaker 5: thankful for. And one thing that during all of that
• 44:44
  Speaker 5: that I was going through, my daughter was going through college.
• 44:49
  Speaker 5: It was her senior year in high school, so she
• 44:52
  Speaker 5: had went off to college her freshman year in college.
• 44:55
  Speaker 5: So we were going through a lot like during that time.
• 44:58
  Speaker 5: And my mother had had a stroke and so I
• 45:01
  Speaker 5: was trying to take care of her and it was
• 45:04
  Speaker 5: just so much that was going on. I'm trying to
• 45:07
  Speaker 5: get myself better, started trying to take care of her,
• 45:11
  Speaker 5: and it was just so so much, and I'm like, God,
• 45:16
  Speaker 5: there's a lot right now. I'm not sure if the
• 45:20
  Speaker 5: weight that is on me that I can carry. But
• 45:24
  Speaker 5: if you help me to carry what it is. Whatever
• 45:28
  Speaker 5: it is, I'll do, but I need to know. But
• 45:33
  Speaker 5: during that time I was my children were small, and
• 45:36
  Speaker 5: I remembered saying to them. I told them, I was like,
• 45:43
  Speaker 5: because the doctors couldn't tell me what was going on,
• 45:45
  Speaker 5: and so I was like, Lord help me, because I
• 45:50
  Speaker 5: told them they were probably twelve, seven and five. And
• 45:55
  Speaker 5: I told my sons when they were that age, I said, listen,
• 45:59
  Speaker 5: emotions are temporary things. So the one that you give
• 46:04
  Speaker 5: the most time, effort, and energy to is the one
• 46:07
  Speaker 5: that controls you the most. So be mindful of where
• 46:11
  Speaker 5: you spend your time and what gets your energy. And
• 46:15
  Speaker 5: so that said, when I said that, I'm not thinking
• 46:20
  Speaker 5: my child is paying any attention to me because he's seven. Okay,
• 46:24
  Speaker 5: fast forward, I'm going through all that I'm going through.
• 46:27
  Speaker 5: He's now thirteen. I've come home from the doctor. The
• 46:31
  Speaker 5: doctor's like, I was diagnosed with another condition. Now this
• 46:36
  Speaker 5: is during the time I'm not able to speak and everything.
• 46:39
  Speaker 5: Doctor's not really having an answer or anything. And so
• 46:43
  Speaker 5: my kids were coming in and they're like, Mommy, what
• 46:45
  Speaker 5: did the doctor say? And I was like, they don't
• 46:47
  Speaker 5: know what's wrong. And I'm like I'm asking my son.
• 46:51
  Speaker 5: I'm like, why y'all so happy? And he turns and
• 46:56
  Speaker 5: looked at me and he said, well, it's your fault.
• 47:02
  Speaker 5: He said, it's your fault. He said, you told us
• 47:06
  Speaker 5: whatever emotion we give the most time to is the
• 47:10
  Speaker 5: one that controls how we go through life. So I'll
• 47:15
  Speaker 5: give you thirty minutes to have your pity party. But
• 47:20
  Speaker 5: when I come back in this house, you better have
• 47:23
  Speaker 5: yourself together.
• 47:25
  Speaker 2: That's right. I know that's right. Come on, because will look.
• 47:30
  Speaker 5: I sat down on the couch and I was in shock.
• 47:35
  Speaker 5: I said, I know, yeah, I said, I know. He
• 47:39
  Speaker 5: just didn't talk to me like that. So I sat
• 47:43
  Speaker 5: down on the couch. I have a little pity party.
• 47:47
  Speaker 5: But then I was still a little taken back. And
• 47:49
  Speaker 5: then I had to think. I said, okay, he was seven, Lord,
• 47:54
  Speaker 5: me and God having a conversation. I said, I said,
• 47:57
  Speaker 5: I didn't think the child was listening to me because
• 47:59
  Speaker 5: he was seven at the time. And God said to me,
• 48:03
  Speaker 5: he said, but he listened, and he brought it back
• 48:07
  Speaker 5: to you. Said, so what are you gonna do with that?
• 48:11
  Speaker 5: I said, well, I guess I got thirty minutes to
• 48:13
  Speaker 5: get myself together.
• 48:17
  Speaker 2: Because that's power in agreement. There's power in agreement. And
• 48:21
  Speaker 2: that's something that God taught me through loss. And right
• 48:26
  Speaker 2: after that, dealt with two more. But then I end
• 48:28
  Speaker 2: up in the hospital three times the next following year,
• 48:31
  Speaker 2: back and back and forth. First two times they had
• 48:34
  Speaker 2: no idea what was going on. The last time I
• 48:37
  Speaker 2: was laying. I was literally hunched over my bed with
• 48:39
  Speaker 2: my son right there on. The forward was just to
• 48:42
  Speaker 2: not knowing what's going on. But I could feel my
• 48:45
  Speaker 2: breath slow, slow, and I could feel my body and
• 48:49
  Speaker 2: I said God, I said, I give you glory. I
• 48:52
  Speaker 2: just still praise him and I just said, God, you're
• 48:55
  Speaker 2: gonna get my baby on the phone. This is our address.
• 49:00
  Speaker 2: This that he telling the sister christis where we're at.
• 49:03
  Speaker 2: He's like, Mommy, it's gonna be all right, It's okay.
• 49:08
  Speaker 2: And he would look at me and he said, mom
• 49:11
  Speaker 2: God is with you. He's with you, mommy. And I said, yes,
• 49:16
  Speaker 2: he is. Son, and he just sat right by me.
• 49:19
  Speaker 2: He was four, he was four years old. He said, Mommy,
• 49:23
  Speaker 2: God is with you. God is with you, Mommy, He's
• 49:27
  Speaker 2: with you. When he tells me something three times, very
• 49:30
  Speaker 2: clear and straight, I know it's not him. I know
• 49:33
  Speaker 2: it's the Lord, and so I can attest to that.
• 49:37
  Speaker 2: You know what I heard through your thing is like
• 49:39
  Speaker 2: the power of agreement. The doctors when they don't know you,
• 49:43
  Speaker 2: I'm like, I don't care what they said. I care
• 49:45
  Speaker 2: what God says. And when I was in that hospital
• 49:48
  Speaker 2: and all I was here was corad coblu co red
• 49:50
  Speaker 2: codblu over the monitor, like I don't know how many
• 49:54
  Speaker 2: times the Lord told me in that moment I was
• 49:58
  Speaker 2: in werred, I said, you know what, I can hear
• 50:00
  Speaker 2: the enemy coming in so softly, trying to speak, and
• 50:06
  Speaker 2: I didn't let him speak to me. I said, you
• 50:08
  Speaker 2: don't have the right to speak to me. This is
• 50:11
  Speaker 2: why we got to know who's and who we are
• 50:13
  Speaker 2: and our authority. I excuse me, excuse me. No. I
• 50:19
  Speaker 2: may be you may think I'm down. This physical body
• 50:22
  Speaker 2: may be down, but my spirit is hot and it's
• 50:25
  Speaker 2: more sensitive and I hear everything. And so I'm sitting
• 50:29
  Speaker 2: there and I'm praying, and I couldn't really pray. It's
• 50:32
  Speaker 2: the point, because I was in so much pain. At
• 50:34
  Speaker 2: some point in one of the procedures they did, I said,
• 50:36
  Speaker 2: I ain't no guinea pig. Figure it out or don't
• 50:40
  Speaker 2: touch me. And so I sat there and I repeated
• 50:44
  Speaker 2: the word of God Jeremiah seventeen fourteen. Save me and
• 50:49
  Speaker 2: I should be saved. Heal me and I should be healed,
• 50:51
  Speaker 2: and I will praise thee. It talks about how we
• 50:53
  Speaker 2: would praise the Lord in it, and it's so many
• 50:56
  Speaker 2: other things. All I kept doing was quoting the word.
• 50:59
  Speaker 2: I didn't come into agree with co Red coleblue. I
• 51:01
  Speaker 2: didn't come into agreement with fear. I came into agreement
• 51:04
  Speaker 2: with healing and resurrection. I came into agreement with my
• 51:07
  Speaker 2: God because so of my life. I got up. Lord
• 51:10
  Speaker 2: said take a victory lap. He said, I want you
• 51:13
  Speaker 2: to go around three times on that floor and on
• 51:17
  Speaker 2: my hall. I took that victory lap. In the midst
• 51:20
  Speaker 2: of me going around, I could test to this. I
• 51:24
  Speaker 2: was able. I start declaring that floor as a miracle floor,
• 51:30
  Speaker 2: that God will take over this floor, and that this
• 51:34
  Speaker 2: floor will be the floor known for healing. This floor,
• 51:38
  Speaker 2: every person in this room shall be healed. I walked
• 51:41
  Speaker 2: and I was in. I took my ivy thing. I
• 51:44
  Speaker 2: was scooting and I was walking. I have no help,
• 51:48
  Speaker 2: they said you neil, I said, I got this. I
• 51:51
  Speaker 2: kept walking. There was a man with a cane. You
• 51:54
  Speaker 2: could see him struggling with the walker. The nurse was
• 51:57
  Speaker 2: trying to help him. He was like, oh, he's like,
• 52:00
  Speaker 2: I can't do it. I looked at him, I said,
• 52:03
  Speaker 2: and I'm walking right past him, and I said, you
• 52:06
  Speaker 2: got this, and he just looked up. I said, you
• 52:10
  Speaker 2: all right, you got this. It's gonna be better, and
• 52:13
  Speaker 2: I kept walking. The third time I came around, was
• 52:17
  Speaker 2: about to walking. My third time walking around, I seen
• 52:21
  Speaker 2: him stand up straight.
• 52:23
  Speaker 4: The man.
• 52:24
  Speaker 2: The nurse said, I got you. He says, okay, I
• 52:26
  Speaker 2: got this. He went from hunching over looking with despair
• 52:32
  Speaker 2: in his face to standing up straight with that walker
• 52:37
  Speaker 2: and he said I got this. And he start walking
• 52:40
  Speaker 2: in that thing. And I'm saying this to say that
• 52:43
  Speaker 2: our testimonies, he's gonna bring strength and empower others that
• 52:49
  Speaker 2: feel like they can't do it because nobody's speaking life
• 52:51
  Speaker 2: to them. Nobody's speaking life. Your testimony is gonna have somebody.
• 52:56
  Speaker 2: You're gonna be able to spark to the nerve endings
• 52:59
  Speaker 2: of someone's body and say, oh no, you shall live again.
• 53:02
  Speaker 2: This body belongs to God. You must come into alignment
• 53:06
  Speaker 2: with the will of God. We have to come into agreed.
• 53:09
  Speaker 2: The only reason why we're a living testimony is because
• 53:12
  Speaker 2: we came into agreement with God concerning our life, concerning
• 53:16
  Speaker 2: our circumstance, concerning our loss, concerning our health, whatever it was,
• 53:22
  Speaker 2: we came into agreement. We said, no, I'm not gonna
• 53:25
  Speaker 2: believe the report of the world. I'm not gonna believe
• 53:27
  Speaker 2: the report of the circumstance. I'm gonna tell this mountain
• 53:30
  Speaker 2: to move. God has given me power, and I believe
• 53:33
  Speaker 2: what God says about my life. And that's what I
• 53:36
  Speaker 2: was hearing. He in your so he said, excuse me, Okay,
• 53:40
  Speaker 2: you got thirty minutes. I'm gonna give you.
• 53:42
  Speaker 5: Thirty So serious about it?
• 53:45
  Speaker 2: THATY be serious?
• 53:47
  Speaker 5: He was like, a you got thirty minutes.
• 53:49
  Speaker 2: I don't know what it. Yeah, get it together. I'll
• 53:52
  Speaker 2: be bad.
• 53:54
  Speaker 5: All back outside, I'll be bad.
• 53:58
  Speaker 2: Excuse me, getting.
• 54:02
  Speaker 5: Myself together, Hannah, get us together. But listen, God is
• 54:10
  Speaker 5: always going to be in the midst of everything that
• 54:13
  Speaker 5: I do, because I can't do anything without him, because
• 54:17
  Speaker 5: I know where He has brought me from and what
• 54:21
  Speaker 5: he continues to do in my life. And as I
• 54:24
  Speaker 5: said when I opened up today, is that let everything
• 54:28
  Speaker 5: that we have said tonight fall upon the ears that
• 54:32
  Speaker 5: need to hear, and let us be a bridge to
• 54:35
  Speaker 5: those who are seeking. Because everybody has a story. And
• 54:41
  Speaker 5: you have people who are feeling ashamed of what they've
• 54:44
  Speaker 5: gone through, but what they don't understand is what they
• 54:47
  Speaker 5: are ashamed of. Someone is looking to figure out how
• 54:52
  Speaker 5: they got over because they are the blueprint of what
• 54:57
  Speaker 5: it looks like to get over to the other side.
• 55:00
  Speaker 5: God of what mess looks like. Damn it, the packages
• 55:04
  Speaker 5: can also be beautiful blessings on the other side. We
• 55:08
  Speaker 5: trust and believe that God can fix it. Because God
• 55:13
  Speaker 5: doesn't call, he doesn't qualify the call. He qualifies the call.
• 55:17
  Speaker 5: He qualifies all of us. All of us can do
• 55:20
  Speaker 5: what God is able to do. You know, the homeless
• 55:25
  Speaker 5: man on the corner has a message for us if
• 55:28
  Speaker 5: we're willing to sit there and listen to what he
• 55:31
  Speaker 5: has to say and don't be focused on his opinion
• 55:34
  Speaker 5: on his appearance. But we get so lost and what
• 55:37
  Speaker 5: he looks like. And I've never been one of those
• 55:42
  Speaker 5: people to be so focused on what a person looks
• 55:46
  Speaker 5: like that I can't sure what they have to say
• 55:48
  Speaker 5: to me. And close in tonight what would you want
• 55:54
  Speaker 5: someone to take away from what you have today? And
• 55:58
  Speaker 5: how can they reach out team.
• 56:03
  Speaker 7: So in my chapter I talked about how I felt
• 56:07
  Speaker 7: like I lived the story of Job. Everything that happened
• 56:12
  Speaker 7: to Job has happened to me. I've lost two of
• 56:15
  Speaker 7: my five children, I've lost jobs, I've lost friends, I've
• 56:19
  Speaker 7: lost money. I've lost all these things. But as long
• 56:23
  Speaker 7: as I kept saying that I'm going to keep my
• 56:25
  Speaker 7: eye on God, that I'm going to have a relationship,
• 56:27
  Speaker 7: that I'm going to trust him and believe him and
• 56:30
  Speaker 7: whatever he does. I even put in my book it
• 56:32
  Speaker 7: says that we need to trust God because even when
• 56:36
  Speaker 7: it hurts, he's still there. He's still going to comfort us.
• 56:39
  Speaker 7: He's still going to bring.
• 56:40
  Speaker 6: Us through everye that we go through.
• 56:44
  Speaker 7: You know, Job lost everything, but he still was God
• 56:48
  Speaker 7: was able to give him everything back. Yes, saw him
• 56:53
  Speaker 7: all because he stayed faithful, you.
• 56:56
  Speaker 6: Know, faithful.
• 56:58
  Speaker 7: I had an oncologist tell me one day, she sat
• 57:01
  Speaker 7: in front of me and cried. She says, you don't
• 57:03
  Speaker 7: understand you might not wake up from the surgery.
• 57:06
  Speaker 6: And she cried and she cried. I said, why are
• 57:07
  Speaker 6: you crying?
• 57:09
  Speaker 5: I said, God said, I'm gonna see you.
• 57:10
  Speaker 6: Woke up, girl, We're gonna be all right.
• 57:12
  Speaker 7: She had, I see you room waiting for me to
• 57:17
  Speaker 7: go in four hours after I woke up.
• 57:20
  Speaker 6: She said, what do you want? I said, discharge papers?
• 57:23
  Speaker 2: She said, if you.
• 57:25
  Speaker 7: A couple of times, because he's gonna have a snowstorm.
• 57:27
  Speaker 7: And I didn't want to be in store. I want
• 57:29
  Speaker 7: to be home comfortable. We walked around.
• 57:33
  Speaker 2: There and I know that's right.
• 57:36
  Speaker 6: And I went home. So believe in God.
• 57:42
  Speaker 7: It don't always be pretty, don't always come out the
• 57:44
  Speaker 7: way we wanted to be, you know, but it always
• 57:48
  Speaker 7: God always gives us what we pray for, even if
• 57:51
  Speaker 7: the answered that we wanted prayer. And anybody, I don't
• 57:58
  Speaker 7: care what version you get the book. Everybody needs to
• 58:02
  Speaker 7: get the book. Things in there, because a lot of
• 58:06
  Speaker 7: times people think because we got titles and this, that
• 58:09
  Speaker 7: and the other, that we think.
• 58:10
  Speaker 6: We better that we haven't been through nothing.
• 58:13
  Speaker 2: Come on, come on.
• 58:15
  Speaker 6: That's why we can stand before you and say this
• 58:17
  Speaker 6: is what it.
• 58:17
  Speaker 7: Is, because we and get them like you say the
• 58:22
  Speaker 7: homeless man. One of my associate pastor, she said, I
• 58:26
  Speaker 7: love the young lovable, she said, because I've never seen
• 58:28
  Speaker 7: you turn down a hug a handshake from nobody, regardless
• 58:31
  Speaker 7: of what they smell like or what they look like.
• 58:33
  Speaker 7: And I've taught my kids that too. So I just
• 58:35
  Speaker 7: suggest that everybody get the book because there's something in
• 58:38
  Speaker 7: there for everybody. I have people telling me that the
• 58:41
  Speaker 7: book restored their faith, that the book to know more
• 58:45
  Speaker 7: about God wanted them to build a relationship. So it's
• 58:48
  Speaker 7: something in there for everybody. My story is about losing
• 58:51
  Speaker 7: my children. Somebody else's story is about the sickness or
• 58:55
  Speaker 7: whatever the case may be. But there's something in there
• 58:58
  Speaker 7: for everybody. The book is just when I read it,
• 59:01
  Speaker 7: I was like, oh my God. You know you only
• 59:04
  Speaker 7: hear about these things happen, But now I know people
• 59:07
  Speaker 7: that these things happen too. So I just and I
• 59:10
  Speaker 7: thank you for allowing us on your platform. Yes, Prophet
• 59:15
  Speaker 7: the Moon and her diligence, how obedience, Yes, we wouldn't
• 59:21
  Speaker 7: be here today, So I for her. My chapter is
• 59:26
  Speaker 7: through the eyes of my grief. I have a Facebook
• 59:28
  Speaker 7: page is through the eyes of our grief. Everybody that grieves.
• 59:32
  Speaker 7: I don't care who you are, where you come from,
• 59:34
  Speaker 7: you can come on that platform and be blessed.
• 59:38
  Speaker 6: All right?
• 59:40
  Speaker 2: Yes, oh my gosh, I'm just I'm so elated, you know,
• 59:45
  Speaker 2: just like my sister over here. I feel like I
• 59:48
  Speaker 2: went through my job. I mean lost from place, card husband,
• 59:53
  Speaker 2: Everything was like back to back to back to back
• 59:55
  Speaker 2: to back, so many things. But the one thing I
• 59:58
  Speaker 2: didn't lose was my mind. One thing I didn't lose
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  Speaker 2: was my faith. The one thing I didn't lose was
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  Speaker 2: my hope, because hope is living. I remember sitting in
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  Speaker 2: my car and realizing they had cremated son, my husband
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  Speaker 2: before they told me, and they were supposed to call
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  Speaker 2: me and let me know, and I had to go
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  Speaker 2: pick up his ashes. This was in November of twenty
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  Speaker 2: twenty two. And when I sat in that car and
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  Speaker 2: tears was falling down my eyes, and I heard the
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  Speaker 2: enemy say to me, well what I said, Well, we
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  Speaker 2: still got the victory because you wanted his soul, but
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  Speaker 2: you lost because he got connected to someone who was
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  Speaker 2: sold out and the radical transformation that God did for
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  Speaker 2: him the day prior, which was my son's birthday, the
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  Speaker 2: day prior when God met him on that floor and
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  Speaker 2: I was right there on that floor with him, and
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  Speaker 2: he had been praying for another level of a breakthrough
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  Speaker 2: and encounter and I got to witness that, I got
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  Speaker 2: to pray him through Amen. So it wasn't in vain. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: Heaven just got another soul and Hell just lost another one. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: So I prayed that through this. My chapter was on
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  Speaker 2: grief and trust, Amen, Grief and trust, learning to trust God.
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  Speaker 2: And this is my upcome. My book is coming so
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  Speaker 2: this year and Jesus name y'all, y'all hold me, Amen,
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  Speaker 2: Oh hold me accountable. I'm telling you it's trusting God
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  Speaker 2: through the grief. Amen. And God is so faithful. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: Who would have thought that I would have lost my
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  Speaker 2: husband right after he preached and he was only thirty
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  Speaker 2: years old and I was thirty two. I found him.
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  Speaker 2: I had to breathe into him. But that day I
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  Speaker 2: sat in front of my mailbox. I want to share
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  Speaker 2: this real quick to encourage somebody. I sat in front
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  Speaker 2: of my mailbox and they had caution tape in front
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  Speaker 2: of my apartment while neighbors that knew us was looking
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  Speaker 2: on and sobbing while people were talking. It was like
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  Speaker 2: God tuned everything out. I said, God, what do I do?
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  Speaker 2: He said, worship me, Worship me. I said, okay, because
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  Speaker 2: I had nothing to give but a worship. I sat
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  Speaker 2: in front of my mailbox while all the amas, while everything,
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  Speaker 2: and all I started doing was singing, and I kept singing,
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  Speaker 2: is your breath in my lungs. His breath belongs to God.
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  Speaker 2: Our breath belongs to God. And every chance I get,
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna give him glory with it. So even through
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  Speaker 2: the pain, even through the sorrow, even through the uncertainty,
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  Speaker 2: even through loss, even not knowing what tomorrow may I help.
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  Speaker 2: Even through I had to call a mother that we
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  Speaker 2: just seen his mother into tail. That was the hardest
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  Speaker 2: thing I had to do. But even through that, I
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  Speaker 2: got lied on. I got all kind of stuff accused
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  Speaker 2: on and this will be in the book, but I
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  Speaker 2: had to stand. I had to stand and trust God
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  Speaker 2: through it all. I had to trust God in the grief.
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  Speaker 2: I had to learn and trust Him through it all.
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  Speaker 2: So whatever anybody is going through, whether you're grieving the
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  Speaker 2: loss of a family member, whether you're grieving the loss
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  Speaker 2: of a job, but you got to trust God that
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  Speaker 2: this is not your final destination and you can live
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  Speaker 2: beyond this. Don't let the enemy trick you. And to
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  Speaker 2: staying in that place of grief and mourning, because even
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  Speaker 2: in the world. There came a point where a man,
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  Speaker 2: God had to tell me how long you gonna stay? There?
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  Speaker 2: There's more amen. And so I thank God for this opportunity,
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  Speaker 2: for this platform, for a prophetess amone, for being obedient
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  Speaker 2: to God and opening up the way a man. And
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  Speaker 2: then for what God is doing. I can truly look
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  Speaker 2: at it's going on three years now. But to God
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  Speaker 2: be the glory. Just like my sister, I prayed, I
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  Speaker 2: remember how to ministry assignment. The next following year in
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  Speaker 2: the summer, and my body was weak. I said, God,
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  Speaker 2: I'm gonna lay in this bed if not, if you
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  Speaker 2: don't give me the strength and this is not what
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  Speaker 2: you want me to do, I'll lay in that band
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  Speaker 2: and I won't get all lay right there. I won't
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  Speaker 2: move our counselor. But I said, if it aty side,
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  Speaker 2: if God you give me the strength, not my will,
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  Speaker 2: but your will will be done. I know I'm supposed
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  Speaker 2: to go the strength. That next day I didn't. It
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  Speaker 2: was supernatural strength. People, it doesn't. I learned to grieve
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  Speaker 2: through God with God, to trust God in the midst
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  Speaker 2: of it. So I pray that many of you are blessed.
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  Speaker 2: You can find me on Instagram, thread Facebook a.
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  Speaker 4: Man we Re.
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  Speaker 2: You can find me also on Instagram on Elite Women kt. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: It's not just for I have my person. My other
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  Speaker 2: page is key on them is key my name at
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  Speaker 2: on Instagram, and I do a lot of ministry with
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  Speaker 2: different things for men and women, for youth.
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  Speaker 4: Amen.
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  Speaker 2: But more than anything, get this book. I pray that
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  Speaker 2: it encourage you. I pray that our stories will encourage
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  Speaker 2: you in this season because just in my past month alone,
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  Speaker 2: I've gotten calls of people who have dealt with a
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  Speaker 2: lot of laws. God has used my life in such
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  Speaker 2: a greater capacity and gave me another ministry that I
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  Speaker 2: didn't even expect to have, And that is for the
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  Speaker 2: widows and the widowers, but also for those that agreeving
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  Speaker 2: in different capacities. I know what it's like to lose
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  Speaker 2: a grandmother, I know what it's like to go through
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  Speaker 2: losing a spouse. Amen. In different ways and being young,
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  Speaker 2: A lot of people here widdowed and they think of older,
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  Speaker 2: you know, they think a way older. They don't think
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  Speaker 2: of young, and it's a different it's a different weight
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  Speaker 2: that comes with it. Amen. But God gets the glory
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  Speaker 2: out of our stories. Amen. So you can find me there.
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  Speaker 2: You can email me. Our email is on those page. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: If you need prayer, you have prayer requests. We do
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  Speaker 2: all that. We pray. I counsel a mentor. I got
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  Speaker 2: some mentees. Hopefully they were able to pop on. Amen.
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  Speaker 2: And so I do all of that and going on
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  Speaker 2: and continue with helping people through grief and through trusted
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  Speaker 2: God and to get up. Amen. You know you shall
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  Speaker 2: live and you shall thrive in Jesus name.
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  Speaker 5: All right, Well, listen, as I had said earlier, like
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  Speaker 5: it's been a true alignment, because grief is one of
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  Speaker 5: the things that has been heavy on me for the
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  Speaker 5: last couple of days, grieving my mom. And for the
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  Speaker 5: last two days it's been really really heavy. Like yesterday
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  Speaker 5: it was heavy on me. Today it's been heavy on me.
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  Speaker 5: But it's it's been heavy in the sense of because
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  Speaker 5: I've been with my grands my two granddaughters and my daughter,
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  Speaker 5: and so it was like I'm thinking of how it
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  Speaker 5: was with my mom and her not being able to
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  Speaker 5: raise all of her children, and so it's like she
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  Speaker 5: got to see her great granddaughter, and so it's been
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  Speaker 5: that and it's like she loved us enough and she
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  Speaker 5: didn't get that opportunity, but I know that just watching
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  Speaker 5: her with that young one of how much she loved
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  Speaker 5: and cared for us, and so that is where all
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  Speaker 5: of my emotions have been. So grief has been heavy
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  Speaker 5: on me for these last days, but I've made it
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  Speaker 5: through the show without, you know, breaking down in tears
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  Speaker 5: because of that, and so I know that this was
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  Speaker 5: a true alignment for God, for us being here and
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  Speaker 5: being in this, in this moment and in the season.
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  Speaker 5: So I want to thank you guys for being here
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  Speaker 5: tonight for this show and definitely have to have you
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  Speaker 5: back if your schedule allows for a later date, maybe
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  Speaker 5: Mother's Day.
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  Speaker 2: Or let's do this for Women's Day.
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  Speaker 5: Or something coming up, so we'll definitely be in us.
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  Speaker 5: But I thank you for making episode one of season
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  Speaker 5: for a success because Power of God is clearly a
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  Speaker 5: God and being obedient and before I close is like
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  Speaker 5: I always say, and that is stay out of God's business.
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  Speaker 5: The only thing he needs to do is to be
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  Speaker 5: obedient to what He's called us to do.
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  Speaker 6: So good night you guys.
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  Speaker 7: I love you, love y'all.
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  Speaker 4: Okay, mm hmm, thanks
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  Speaker 1: Young People's nothing wrong with dancing for Jesus. M.