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159. You Are Not Behind. You Are Becoming | With Esther Buerki · LIVING WITHOUT FEAR

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  What if the life you've been living, all the detours, the
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  doubts, the long winding Rd. was never a mistake?
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  What if it was always the plan? Hello, my beautiful soul,
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  welcome back. I'm Esther, your host coming to
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  you from Switzerland. And today I want to share
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  something very personal with you, something that has been
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  living in my chest for a long time, Something I kept asking
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  myself quietly in the middle of the night, or on long walks in
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  the mountains, or in those still moments between one version of
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  myself and the next. And if you are the kind of
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  person who sometimes wonders, why did it take me so long, then
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  this episode is for you. Stay with me.
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  Here's the question I couldn't stop asking myself.
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  Why did it take so many years, So many years to learn how to
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  change my state, To get back up after failure without lying on
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  the floor for weeks? To stop letting other other
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  people's opinions determine what I was worse.
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  To finally, finally trust the quiet voice inside me that
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  always knew? Why did it take that long?
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  I learned languages early. I played the violin and
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  performed in orchestras in other countries.
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  I packed the bag one day and went to Paris completely alone,
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  with no plan, no safety net, and found my own au pair family
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  without any help from anyone. I did that.
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  I did all of that. And yet.
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  And yet I spent years believing I wasn't good enough.
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  Isn't that wild? Isn't that the most
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  heartbreaking and the most human thing?
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  You can do brave beautiful things and still spend your
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  mornings not believing in yourself.
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  I've been doing a coaching education recently and something
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  happens in one of our sessions that stopped me cold.
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  One of the other participants shared their story.
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  From a very young age, this person had decided they would
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  become a banker. Not because anyone around them
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  encouraged it, Actually quite the opposite.
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  People in their environment said why not the car dealer, a
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  painter, a mechanic? But they held the vision anyway.
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  They held it quietly, stubbornly, like a candle in the
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  wind. And I sat there listening.
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  And I thought I had a vision too.
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  As a little girl, I dreamt of being a famous author like
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  Federica de Chesco. I dreamt of travelling the world
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  and touching hearts with words. And then I looked at my life and
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  I thought I became an author at 54.
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  The famous part is still coming, but I wrote the book, I'm
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  travelling and I am absolutely undeniable, touching hearts with
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  words. The dream came true.
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  It just came true on its own timeline.
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  And the only thing standing between my joy and my reality
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  was the story I was telling about how long it took.
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  So here's the real question, and I want you to sit with this.
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  Truly sit with it. What meaning are you giving to
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  your path? Because here's what I know to be
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  true. Time is not still variable that
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  determines your worth. Time is not the measure of your
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  success, the meaning you give to your journey.
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  That is everything. That is the whole game.
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  Think about Nelson Mandela, who spent 27 years in prison and
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  worked out not with bitterness but with a vision to heal an
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  entire nation. He could have called those years
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  wasted. Instead, he called them his
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  education, his foundation. Or think of Grandma Moses, who
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  picked up a paintbrush for the first time at 78 years old, 78,
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  and went on to become one of America's most beloved folk
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  artists with her paintings hanging in museums around the
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  world. She could have said, it's too
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  late for me. Instead, she just started and
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  the world fell in love with what she created.
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  Think about the Japanese concept of ikigai.
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  Your reason for being? It doesn't say find it by age
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  30, it just says find it because of the depth of who you become
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  on the way. That can't be rushed, that can't
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  be faked. That is the treasure.
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  I always dreamt of being a therapist, of sitting with
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  someone in their pain and helping them find their way
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  through. But back then I didn't believe I
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  was strong enough. I had too many of my own
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  resolved things. I thought, who am I to help
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  anyone? So I didn't take the path, I
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  took a different one. And now, now I am a senior
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  leader in the Tony Robbins organization.
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  I coach people through their deepest fears.
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  I hold space for transformation. I became a kind of therapist.
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  I just came through a different door.
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  And every single experience, every tear, every failure, every
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  too slow, every not yet made me better at walking through it
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  with someone else. The long way was not the wrong
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  way. The long way was the
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  preparation. So I want to ask you something
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  gently right now. What if you stopped measuring
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  your life against where you thought you should be and
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  started asking, what has all of this made me capable of?
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  What if the decade you think you wasted was actually the decade
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  that built your empathy, your wisdom, your resilience?
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  What if the path you didn't take was protecting you from a
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  version of yourself that wasn't ready yet?
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  What if, stay with me, What if the timing was always right?
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  Life is not a race with a finish line.
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  Life is a river, and rivers don't run straight.
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  They curve, they pull, they rush over rocks, they slow into
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  still, glassy calm. Every bend serves a purpose.
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  Every stone shapes the current. And you, You are not behind.
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  You are exactly where the river has brought you.
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  You have done things that took courage, even if no one was
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  watching, even if you didn't call it courage at the time.
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  You have already lived more bravely than you know, and every
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  skill you built, every language you learned, every strange city
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  you arrived in alone, it belongs to you.
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  It counts, it always counted. Here is your invitation for
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  today. Just one thing.
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  Take 1 chapter of your life that you have been calling too late,
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  too slow, or not enough and try giving it a new meaning.
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  Ask yourself, what did that chapter give me?
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  What did it? What did I become because of it?
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  How does it serve the person I am right now?
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  You don't have to rewrite your whole story today.
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  Just shift the light on one page.
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  Just let one paragraph breathe differently.
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  That's enough. That's the beginning.
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  Because the most powerful shift you will ever make in your life
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  is not a change in circumstance. It is a change in meaning.
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  It is the moment you stop being the victim of your timeline and
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  start being the author of your story.
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  You are not too late, you are not behind, you are not the sum
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  of your delays. You are someone who kept going.
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  That that is everything. Before I let you go today, I
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  want to offer you something from the heart.
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  If something in this episode landed in you, if a part of you
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  heard a question and thought, yes, that's exactly it, but I
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  don't know where to start. I want to invite you to a free
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  one-on-one coaching session with me.
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  Not a sales call, not a pitch, a real conversation.
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  Just you and me, where we look together at the meaning you've
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  been giving to your path and we see what shifts when we hold it
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  differently. I have done this journey the
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  long way, the winding way, the why did it take so long way, And
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  I'm here on the other side of it with my hands open, ready to
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  walk it with you. You can find the link in the
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  show notes or just reach out to me directly.
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  I would love to hear from you. Thank you for being here today.
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  Thank you for trusting me with your ear, your time and your
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  heart. You are not alone on this road.
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  See you in the next episode on Thursday.
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  Take good care of yourself and remember the meaning you give
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  your life. This is your superpower.
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  Yeah.