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Episode #219: The Power of Your Imagination · Tea Time w/Amie & Bev

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Good morning, Welcome to tea time with Amy and beb or good day or
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whatever it is. It's a good day. It is a good day.
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It's a fabulous day. Fabulous. How are you doing. I'm doing all
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right. Stayed up a little late, so it's waking up, that's all.
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And I think we I feel like we get so much more done when
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we're not fully awake, because our mind's not fully awake to start operating and
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kicking in the overdrive with whatever the thoughts are from the day before whatever.
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Sometimes I think that's a good thing, at least when that happens to me.
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That's the way I look at it. Nice I like it. Yeah,
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so what's going on with you? Mm hmm. He would do that
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too. I'm like, let me think about that. I don't know.
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The one thing that came in just before we started this session was just too
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let's talk about the things we want to create, because we all gets those
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sideways on the things that are happening in our life. And I'm not saying
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that things haven't happened, are not happening. I'm just saying we create from
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the space, and so it's to be in that space, and that's the
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way creators, reminding me just to be in the space, because we are
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creators, to be in the space of what do we want to create?
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And I've been practicing that a lot lately. So when I'm we've talked about
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like really being happening in the awareness and really listening to our thoughts and this
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stuff, and before we've talked about it being micromanaging, but I don't feel
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like it's micromanaging. I think we've kind of gone past all that point.
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It's just being aware of what's what's going on in the mind. A lot
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of times, not that there's bad things, but we receive messages and if
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we're not aware, we're not receiving those messages either. So it's just when
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my mind starts to go what I would say, sideways from what of things
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that I don't want, I automatically am correcting it, and then I'm thinking
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about the things that I do want from that position, so like the opposite,
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So whatever it is that I'm thinking about at that time that doesn't feel
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good to me, I'm automatically like, wait a minute, what do I
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want from this? Because that's I don't We don't have to go through the
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whole experience of the experiencing of the things of what you don't want, so
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you can know what you do once you can experience a lot in the mind.
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Right, Because they've talked a lot about these kind of things. You
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got Joe to Spenza, you know a lot of these people that have really
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created so much stuff from their mind and then it just came to fruition in
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the body or like because he said, Joe to spends the Hilda's body.
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And we've got other people that are doing stuff. And I was listening to
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spirit Verse, I think is what it's called. It's on YouTube right now.
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It's got patch. It's a character so of like a cartoon that it
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plays through the whole time. And he's talking about I think he said it
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was in the eighties. They had like eight or nine gentlemen that they decided
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to do this little test on and for their longevity and health. And it's
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like, I don't know how old the gentlemen were. I think they were
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older, because they were remarking that they were actually playing ball, like they
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were going out and do it and things, and we're talking different stuff,
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and they said that they noticed that the by watching the movies that they were
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watching in that timeframe, and like just almost reawakening all that energy, the
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feelings of the way it felt to be that age, that vibrancy, and
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these guys like they got taller, they weren't walking around all the canes.
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There was all these different things that are going on. Because we have we're
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that much. We're that powerful, we really are, and we've we've been
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so willy nilly and wishy washy, right because I've been wishy washy my whole
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fucking life. I have so probably because we weigh so much outside of ourselves
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of what should and shouldn't do, you know, because of what everybody's taught
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us that I have. It keeps you in a standstill. And I recognized
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that that's what's kept me kind of in a space like wanting to do these
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things, but then I don't feel like I can do these things, and
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then I'm getting with all that happening. Then I get stuck, and I
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think a lot of us are that way. Spirit gives me information and then
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I start to think about it, and then it's like then I I stand
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still. There's nothing else that could go forward from there, because it's not
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I have such a push and pull or dwelly that goes on with inside of
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myself that I wasn't even aware of until I started getting to this point.
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And now I'm aware of it. I'm aware of it. And it's like
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when I'm when I'm hearing things and I'm having experiences, and these are my
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experiences. I've had some experiences while I've been sleeping that people call dreams.
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They're not dreams when you're in those spaces in your mindus thinking and you're operating,
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and you're like, why am I doing that? Or I mean,
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I can give you examples. I think I was going into like a parallel
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or a parallel lifetime. That's in another part of my experience. I was
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like at an all girls school. There was there's all girls in the classroom.
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I remember the girls didn't like me because I was different and I didn't
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like being different. I remember they were just being mean to me. I
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don't remember the exact experience of it, but I just know the energy you
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of it. And I remember sitting at a desk and the teacher is up
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at the front of the classroom and she's drawing something on an overhead to go
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up onto the overhead and we're supposed to be following along with her, and
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I'm not following. I'm like behind because I'm getting my stuff ready on my
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desk, and then I'm thinking, I'm thinking in the stream, I'm like,
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I'm I'm behind. I should have already started this. And I looked
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down at my paper and I can see it like it's the whole images.
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They're glowing and all I have to do is trace it. And it was
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so crazy to me to have that experience. And then I walk out of
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that experience and now I'm into another experience. These girls are still being mean,
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but in that space, I can, all of a sudden, I
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feel this vibration in my chest and my heart area, my whole and it's
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coming up into my throat and it's vibrating. It's pretty, it's palpable like
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it, I mean, you couldn't ignore it. And then I tell the
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girl I have a message for you from Tim. That was it, and
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it's like, I remember when I woke up that I thought, we get
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so afraid of being ourselves because we were so afraid of how people are gonna
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see us and perceive us and not like us. And that's how I what
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that was in that experience. And then the next night, I have a
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dream that I'm freaking pregnant with twins and I'm at the hospital. I'm like
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and I'm like, I didn't know I was pregnant. And I know there's
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a lot of meanings that come behind that, but it's like, I didn't
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know I was pregnant. To the part where I'm feeling the baby inside of
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me, there's two and I could feel a hand pressing up against my stomach
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and I could see it outside of my stomach, you know how you can
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see when their hands go across. But I could see it, and I
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put my hand on it. And then now I can see there's a pink
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and there's a blue, so and I know that there's twins there, and
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I'm like, I didn't even know I was pregnant. And then I wake
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up. So it's like it's there's all these things that are happening, and
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we're working through so much stuff. And I used to think dreams, a
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lot of dreams were not real, but I think it's we're having experiences their
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experiences. I've been for the last three or four years. It's probably been
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four years. At least, I am present in my dreams. I can,
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I'm active in my dreams, participate, I'm not just a witness to
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them. So I know, I just like, at first I'm like,
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what do I have? And then well it just kind of comes true.
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But there's like, there's so much stuff that's going on right now, and
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we kind of brush it to the side and we just don't relish in those
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moments enough and recognize what's being told to me. You know what am I
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learning? What's being taught to me? I mean I could look at it
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from a from a spiritual standpoint or from a mediumistic standpoint. I could say,
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oh, well, now I know how to identify. I just know
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it's that easy. I'm gonna see a pink or of blue and I'm gonna
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know it's a boy or girl, or I'm gonna know or I can I'll
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see more than one color and i'll know, or I'll see the color of
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numerous times. So it's like, this's just there's interesting stuff. There's always
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interesting stuff. When we get to talking when you were talking about being creative.
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Every morning I've been listening to the short the sixteen minute meditation with Joe
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Despenza and then that one he at first I kind of struggled with this and
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this it's been a while so but at first I struggled with it when he
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says, now, remember who you don't want to be? Oh, that
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kind of catches you off. Barbers, Yeah, I mean you're yeah,
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because you're you know, you gets you into this space of relaxation and no
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time and no space and you know, focusing outside of yourself and then you
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know what, what's that? You know, one thing that you want to
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focus on, So you're thinking about that, visualizing it, and then he
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says, now, who who is it that you don't want to be?
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I'm like, why would I? Why would I bring this into this amazing
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visualization I'm doing. So for a while, like for a while, I
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would just kind of glaze over that state or that question and just keep visualizing
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what I want was focused on. But then I was like, huh,
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there was a must say situation and experience that happened and some of that abandonment
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stuff came up again, and so I did the meditation and I said,
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who remind yourself? Who do you not want to be? And I was
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like, oh, I'm kind of getting this now, right, It's like,
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how have I been? Wow? Abandonment, neediness, the things not
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feeling loved and accepted in certain ways. And it's like, okay, well,
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in order for me to embrace the visualization that I'm focused on, what
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do I got to change for that to come to fruition or what is it
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that I need to change within myself to be more open to receiving what I
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want? And so yeah, I'm like, okay, well, how about
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less needy? You know what I mean? It's like for other people's affection
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and release some more of this abandonment stuff that's happening with me. So just
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kind of mulling over some of those pieces that are still residual. It's not
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right or wrong. So I just want people to understand that it's not right
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or wrong that those pieces are in me. It's just it was another way
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for some more layers to come up. And it just came in through this
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meditation and the way he brought it up, and that I could finally hear
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it yeah and be like, oh, I'm kind of getting this now.
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So it was it was an interesting process and that was just recently so and
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I find that fascinating because I'll glaze over some things like that. And the
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thing is, like so many things came into my mind. One of the
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things could be well, making sure that your presence, you're not drifting off
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too far into space. Right. One of the things was what you said
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you glaze over it. I glaze over things like that if I if it
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doesn't like, if it doesn't resonate with me, I just like brush right
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over it. But it's also a trigger, right, it's a trigger to
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it. Not so if there was if you would if you heard it and
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you're not in a space of who would you not want to be? It's
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like nothing, I'm perfect, I'm perfectly find the way I am, you
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know what I mean. When you get to that space and it's like you
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don't even that question would be like you would just kind of go over it,
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like it just someone in another room said it, and you just need
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you wouldn't have even heard it, right, There's like so many ways to
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look at that. It's that's so awesome. But I've been triggered like that
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on several occasi. And then when you were saying that, it was the
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same thing embraced like seeing seeing the stuff that you don't like in yourself,
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but then embracing it because that's a part of that's part of who you have
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been, and that you don't have to hold on to it anymore, but
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you just love it so much that you filled up with so much like that
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it doesn't exist, it doesn't need to be there anymore. You've already it's
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just like all these little splinters that came through. You know that you've been
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harboring or it's been in the body that's able to path of least resistance,
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it was able to come out. So so that's awesome. And part of
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part of it too is that as I'm as more of those layers come up
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in me of oh this is this is still part of me? How can
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I look at it and heal it? So the abandonment and then feeling loved
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and accepted all the things that still creates because it's going to get triggered.
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If it's in me, it's going to get triggered, which it did and
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so once and this is my perception of how working with the universe is is
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well, if I get triggered, those heavy emotions come up. Now that's
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my indicator with the universe of where I'm at, and so the visualization of
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what I want is now kind of pushed back, right, It's like,
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oh, oh, we're not focused on that now. Now we're focused on
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the abandonment issues. So now we're going to create more of that. So
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it is helpful to recognize in that meditation, who do I not want to
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be? Anymore? For those energies to be cleared up, and the visualization
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of what I want can now come, because now if I don't, it's
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like a push pull, like I'm focused on it, but yet these heavy
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emotions come up, so I push it away because I'm not ready to receive
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it. I'm still hanging on to what was. I'm still hanging on to
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the old way of being. And so I just I found that very interesting
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how that information came forward for me to be able to look at it.
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So yeah, and then embrace it, right, and Okay, well what
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am I going to do with this? So I started thinking about it.
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I'm like, okay, well, who do I not want to be?
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Well, these are the parts of me I would like to change now that
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I'm aware, I've acknowledged it. So first awareness, Now I've acknowledged it.
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Now I can go even deeper and changing it. So it's process.
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It's like continuous process. And we've said this before. It's like not one
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and done, like oh okay, well I realize this and now it's processed
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because there's just these layers and each time we heal something now that creates our
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are being to be in a different space, a different a higher awareness,
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a different awareness, whatever terms you want to use that. Now I'm in
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a different space to hear something different. Lee like, I've heard it before,
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I've been hearing it for years, but now the message came through in
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another way where I'm like I could hear it. At first, I didn't
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want to hear That was the thing. At first, I didn't want to
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hear it because I was thinking, well, I'm in this beautiful space of
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visualization, this amazing thing that I want, and now you want to ask
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me, who do I not want to be that? That just doesn't make
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sense to me. I was like, why are we throwing this question in
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this amazing visualization? But when I opened up, so yeah, it was
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a resistance, Like now I'm not listening that question. I'm a glaze over.
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I'm gonna visualize keep visualizing what I want. But then and I received
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the question. I received the question and I was able to process it.
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Yeah, and that kind of goes along with even when I was saying,
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when we see the things that we don't want, now we have some place
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to start at and change it. Now we can affect the change, right,
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because otherwise we could continue going on our whole lives that way and never
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knowing that why we feel the ways that we do. So maybe that was
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it. I mean, who knows that was his intention? Who knows.
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But like you said, because if I'm listening to a meditation, I want
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to be I don't want to be too caught in my mind because once my
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mind's operating. Now now I'm not into meditation, really, I'm not,
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because it's now I'm focused on something else. But it's a great tool to
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be used the way you're talking about, because to me, it's like it's
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presenting itself in a way that you just it's freeing. You have to free
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yourself from these things that have been holding you back, and it still gives
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you an opportunity to look at how am I still showing up exact? Really
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that's the question, right, how am I still showing up. I'm not
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really either recognizing or acknowledging or I know it and I'm not doing anything about
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it. Hey, So there's different ways of looking at it, but it's
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it's being able to be in that space of yep, still got these things
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going on, So what am I going to do about it? And and
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it it's been doing this long enough that it's not a ah, jeez,
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I'm still doing this. What the hell? Gosh, why been doing this
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for thirty years? Why are you still having to deal with this issue?
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As none of that it's like, oh yeah, still still got the stuff
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in there, still got some layers making its way to the surface. But
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at the same time, if all of that came up to the surface at
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once, there's no way to be able to handle it. There's no way
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like how would you just how would you grow from it at that point?
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Well, it's similar to similar to Abraham saying if everything came to you at
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once what you wanted, you wouldn't be able to handle it. Well,
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the healing process is similar, Right, if all of that stuff came up
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of years and years of programming and and heaviness and and all the things,
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like if all that came up at once, we would as a human,
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we would not be able to handle it. Yeah. And I know another
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thing that she said that Abraham has said that if you had all the food
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you were ever gonna eat this lifetime, it was put right in front of
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you right now. There's no way that you could process it. There's no
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way that you could eat it all. You couldn't digest it all. It
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should and it's sustain so we get nuggets. Yeah. You know, it's
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interesting that you're going I think it must be like the energies, because I
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have there's been things that have been presented to me and it's like, then
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I start looking I listened to well, I'm telling you, I'm hearing things
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in my head now these days. So I'll be listening to someone else saying
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something and I'll be and all here, I'm thinking, I don't do that,
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and it's like, yes, you do, Yes, you do the
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same thing. Yeah. So it's like okay, okay, I do.
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So then what do I do with that? So then, like you just
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said, it's the same thing. And if this has been this last week,
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I mean there's so much stuff, Like I said, you when you
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ask like when we ask each other like what's going on? There's so much
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stuff, and then it's like it's we gently unpack it as we're going through
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the conversation. Yeah, like come forward. I feel like spears like,
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hey, don't forget you had this experience or don't forget this is what's going
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on with you. Funny thing is the day after I had that. I
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think it was the morning after I had this pregnancy dream the most recently because
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it's like the third one I've had in the last four months five months,
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but I've had two pretty close together, and I knew that I was nine
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months or whatever whatever. But then I come in and my one of my
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clients i'd seen that day and she says, I don't know what the deal
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is, but I've just had my second pregnancy treat and I was like,
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get off my table and get out of here because I'm like, I just
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like, I just had this experience. So it's like, it's just I
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know that we're all going through things. There's that there's so much shifting that's
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happening, and it's it's just to be aware of it and not just shove
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it aside, because it's important. There's valuable information here, and it's this
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is about you, like it's about us on our on our individual journeys and
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how we're going through these things. And talk to people that you know that
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are they're not going to judge you for it. And then or if you're
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in a space that you don't care whether they judge you or not, you're
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planning seeds for other people. So it's getting into that space. It's it's
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practicing, right, It's it's the same thing that I'm doing, even from
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that experience that I have while I was sleeping about the girls not liking me,
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and it's like I experienced a lot of that when I was growing up
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in this lifetime, and so I learned how to be the smart ass,
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and I learned how to be very quick witted and sharp with the tongue and
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people laugh. Well, if you came at me to cut me down,
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I was cutting you down even lower. And I had everybody laughing and then
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they're walking away crying. You know. I that was the way, and
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then I I just continue growing from that space and then add a little bit
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of alcohol into later years. Oh yeah, sharp, sharp, sharp for
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anybody that was around or anyone you know, everybody was game, including myself,
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including myself, But it was so funny that that was the way,
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and that was all just because people didn't like me, because I didn't fit
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in. And it's like, why can't we have this confidence at a younger
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age. Maybe we had to go through these experiences to so we have an
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understanding when we get to these places, so that when someone comes to it,
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we have we know where we've been there, we have some input and
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we can be helpful. But again then I go back to the where we
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started this conversation with talk about the things that you want to talk about.
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It's not talking about all those traumatizing times or all those I'm trying to I'm
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being thoughtful of my words. When I'm working on a client. Instead of
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saying you've got tightness or you've got this here, and I'm gonna be I'll
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be like, well, we're shifting things here, or we're going to expand
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this area, or I'm finding different ways. Because there's a lot of days
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that I come home and I to be having these experiences in my body because
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of the words that I said, Because that's how fast we're manifesting. It
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happens it's you're having it in the day. It can happen that easily depends
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on what attachment you have. It depends on what dwell do you have right
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if you have an attachment like even to money, I've even talked about I
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talked to my spirit team and I ask them about, Okay, what blocks
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do I have or or And instead of looking at the problem, recently,
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I've been like, Okay, show me all the magnificent ways that money could
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come in. And it doesn't always mean that it comes into my pockets.
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But I hear other people saying, Oh, I'm going on this trip and
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this person just gave me money for my birthday. It's not even going if
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my birthday is going to be when I'm gone, but it's like they're giving
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me money or this person did this or this person did that, and it's
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like this is all the ways, and it's to be aware of all that,
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and then it's to celebrate it when each person that's going through these things
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as if it's yourself, like you, and how exciting for them to be
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to have this experience, because that opens us up and we don't notice the
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dull they we don't see what's holding us back. It just it opens the
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door and we're open to it right now only because we allow the doorway to
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open just through somebody else. So it's like all these things we don't there's
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there's like, uh, there's ways around things to fix things, what I
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would call fixing things. There's nothing wrong, but there's ways around our thought
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patterns and beliefs that we've had to get beyond all this stuff. And then
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once you're at a higher vantage point, then you can see things differently.
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You can you can process things differently, and then you're not folding onto things,
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you're not grouping on so tightly that you can't see what's in front of
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you or behind you or around you. So it's awesome. It's this all
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of the stuff that we're experiencing is awesome, even when it doesn't feel so
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awesome. Cry it out on those days. Sometimes it's just good to have
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a good cry. Yeah, I've I've been doing similar. I'll see something
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that i've you know, material things or an experience, and I'd be like
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goodbye that if I wanted to, or somebody hasn't has like you said,
24:14
like they go on a shoot, cruise or vacation or something I'm like,
24:19
I could do that if I wanted to. So that helps shift that energy
24:25
of of longing or feeling the lack of like I don't have the money to
24:32
do that. I would really love to do that, but I don't have
24:33
the money to do so. It's just that type of energy brings you down,
24:37
even just saying and I was pulling my body down. But when I
24:44
go, oh, well, good for them. First of all, good
24:47
for them. It's exciting that they are on this having this experience and that
24:52
they're sharing it with us on social media. And how fun is that to
24:55
get to see the pictures and how much enjoyment they're getting. And I could
24:59
do that I wanted to. There's a whole different energy than feeling like I'm
25:04
not good enough. I can't afford it. I'll never be able to afford
25:08
it. Life sucks. So goes along with what you're saying, is all
25:15
these opportunities to help us dial in of what is it that we would like
25:22
to have or experience and how are we going to see it in such a
25:26
way that it feels good to us even if it is not in our experience
25:30
right now. And it's okay, I mean we go back to the conversation
25:37
of we had I think it was last week that Esther and Jerry building that
25:45
house, and she said, it doesn't matter if we never lived in the
25:49
house. The idea of just creating it was so much fun and it was
25:56
a perfect time. It's one of those things again, you know you hear
26:00
something when you need to hear it in such a way you need to hear
26:03
it for it to sync in. It was like, yeah, just the
26:08
excitement of creating it is so fun because what happened. I mean, this
26:14
happens with actors and you know, even being an author. Okay, right,
26:19
all the excitement of being creative, creating the chapter in a book,
26:25
and then the promotion of it so you can hit that number one status and
26:29
you get that number one status, and then after that it's like okay,
26:34
well now what right, you can keep creating with that same information that you
26:41
put into a chapter. You could create a workshop, you could create a
26:45
workbook. You could you could still keep creating. But the idea because you
26:48
hear it from you heard it from actors. Actually when they get that you
26:55
know Oscar, well yeah, I got the Oscar. Now what that was
27:00
the goal? Now what And we get to that that end result, and
27:06
we receive it, and then we don't know what to do. But when
27:10
we stay in that creative flow of of Okay, well you got the oscar,
27:15
and imagine how how many other roles I could do and play? Or
27:22
maybe I want to start creating a whole different type of personality that I want
27:26
to be an actor of and start learning that personality, or or maybe I
27:32
don't want to act anymore, maybe I want to go do this now,
27:34
and just staying in a creative flow is is what we do. That's what
27:40
we are, and that's what is so much more fun to to keep doing
27:45
that. We're always manifesting. We just we just don't even realize it,
27:51
honestly. So if you're whatever, we're always manifesting. Always you want to
27:56
or something you don't want, you're still manifesting. Yeah, so true.
28:03
And then what are you gonna do with the information exactly, whether it's whether
28:10
it feels like it sucks or whether it feels exhilarating. What are you gonna
28:14
do with that information? If it sucks and you don't like it, then
28:17
obviously it would be beneficial, beneficial to focus on something you would like and
28:22
and be even in your imagination. That's that's the I think a big deal
28:26
for adults. I mean, children have the most amazing imagination. Adults we
28:36
kind of got to work at it. For a lot of us, especially
28:38
after being through any kind of trauma or heavy experiences, we want to feel
28:45
safe and we want to feel safe in our imagination. So learning to be
28:51
playful and open to so many possibilities, that's that's one of the things I
28:57
struggled with. I just saw it in this certain way that it could show
29:00
up, because that was all I knew until I had experiences where there was
29:07
something I wanted and it didn't come in the way I want I thought or
29:14
I visualized that it needed to come for me to see it and receive it.
29:18
It came in, you know, like through the side door, the
29:19
back door instead not from the front door. And uh, I was like,
29:26
wait, what things can come in other ways, not just the way
29:32
I think they need to come. So having openness, right, being open
29:37
to how things will come to you is very important, it is, and
29:47
not having not trying to control it. So I've talked to a few different
29:48
people and it's like, you know, when things start flowing in your direction,
29:52
like you make a decision or you're going to go on a trip,
29:55
and when things just automatically start flowing, everything just kind of falls into place
29:59
where you don't even I have to worry about it. Every time you have
30:00
a worry about something, that the answer comes up right away, and that's
30:04
how you know that you're going. And that's to me that that's like a
30:07
feel good that you're flowing in the right direction, the direction that's the passively
30:11
resistance for yourself. Doesn't mean it's the same for everybody, but it's just
30:15
being in that space. I'm recognizing that when things feel so hard and heavy
30:18
and stuff like that, it's surrender. I have been surrendering a lot.
30:23
I surrender all the time. I'm learning to The meditation has been great.
30:30
I do it every morning and every night. It's been great because it gets
30:33
me into a space of surrender. I'm just surrendering when my mind starts to
30:38
get too active or whatever I say, too active, that's not even true,
30:41
that's not even a true statement. When I'm not in the space of
30:45
receiving like i'd like to be, then it's like I might listen to the
30:48
noise coming in through my ears just it's inside my head or and then I
30:52
start receiving the information or words or whatever because it's right. Then I'm focused
30:56
on that or I focus on a lot of times lately, I can focus
31:00
on just like if I start, I'm doing it right now, So I
31:04
start focusing on the head up and it's like my third eye on my crown.
31:07
I can feel all that. Lately, I've been even drinking you know,
31:12
I hadn't gone away from the crystals a lot, but I've been drinking
31:17
water with crystals in my water, and I even have a selenite tied to
31:22
it because that helps cleanse the water stuff too. And then when I because
31:26
that helps to remind me to bless this water, to be thankful for this
31:29
water, because it doesn't matter where it came from, how it was processed.
31:33
I'm changing the vibrational frequency of it. I'm making it beneficial for me.
31:37
I've noticed I've in the last couple of weeks, I could fill the
31:41
vibration of my root chakra like I can feel like a buzzing, So I
31:45
know there's something that's going on through my body right now with all the dreams
31:48
and stuff like that, I know something is coming to fruition, something is
31:52
being born birthed from me, like all these things. I know this stuff,
31:56
and it's like I don't have to know what it is. I remember
32:00
listening to Mavis Patilla and talking about her journey about things, and she said,
32:04
I really wish I would have just enjoyed the journey, because we get
32:07
so caught up in trying to do things perfectly and everything else instead of just
32:09
allowing. And so when I'm in my meditation, I'm allowing that receiving of
32:15
information, whether it's through my body, whether it's the vibration, whether it's
32:19
through my mind's eye. And I see a visual of something, whether it's
32:22
through my ears or just my heart vibrating that night, so it's like,
32:28
gosh, if I want to look at it, and then even expand on
32:30
that, I could say that my heart chopper is being completely opened up.
32:34
So then I have a different understanding and I'm going to approach people differently.
32:37
I don't know what it means from there, but I'm just enjoying the journey.
32:42
It doesn't want it doesn't matter where I end up from there, because
32:45
we're never going to get it done. Ever, there's always going to be
32:47
something else that we're going to gravitate to or you get to that place like
32:51
you you've got that award. You put all that effort and you got that
32:53
award, you wrote that book, and it's like then it could feel a
32:57
deflated feeling because you had nothing else so much into that. But to me,
33:01
that's a little bit about a balance, right so because there was a
33:05
little bit more that, there's more stuff to expand upon. There's always something.
33:08
I hear these what happens to a lot of like psychic mediums. You
33:13
know, Suzanne Geeseman had her initial things. She's meditating for a year.
33:16
She starts receiving this information, she starts writing these poems. There are these
33:22
messages that she's getting from Sonaya. She starts doing all these things. But
33:24
it's been like if she would have stood and said, okay, well I'm
33:28
going to go ahead and do this now, and that's it. It's never
33:30
there's not a that's it, because then it evolved into something else, and
33:34
then she's doing mediumship and she's doing channeling, and now she's teaching so other
33:37
people can do the same thing and not doing so much of the mediumship that
33:42
she would have been doing like she was before, because it's it's we're constantly
33:45
evolving and growing, and that's what it's like. Just get in, jump
33:49
into that raft and take off and see where it takes you. I was
33:52
watching a I believe it's a mutual friend. They're in Fiji now while they're
33:57
they're in Bali right now and they're posting videos. I'm telling you, they
34:01
look younger, like since they left here, they look younger. And they've
34:06
been gone for god, I don't even know months. It's been months.
34:09
Like they've been to all kinds of different places and going with the flow.
34:14
So it's just there's so much to be said about all this stuff. It's
34:16
like we get so caught up and trying to control everything, and that gives
34:21
us wrinkles, I think, and because it just it just does. And
34:24
then we're so caught up in a three D and watching everybody else and that's
34:28
what you're supposed to look like at that age, and that's what you're supposed
34:30
to wear at that age, and it's like it's don't be in that space.
34:36
Stay out of the box, because that's just a box. There's nothing
34:39
wrong with it. If you want to go into that box, maybe you're
34:42
ready to. Maybe you're like ready to like peace out pretty soon, so
34:45
you want to jump into that box and kind of had out, or jump
34:47
into that boat and head down that part of the stream or something. Maybe
34:50
you're ready to piece like I'm done with this physical body. But me,
34:53
I'm like, I'm here to enjoy this. This is this is fun.
34:58
I want to enjoy the journey. And I don't the word it's going to
35:00
and that's exciting. I like not knowing before. Oh I did not like
35:06
not knowing. I want well, I want to know right now. Get
35:08
my pen and paper, okay, spirits, I want to know what's going
35:12
on right What's what's going to happen in the future. It's whatever I'm going
35:15
to create in the future. It's not something that's gonna happen to me unless
35:22
I want to be back to wishy washy and not focused and part of the
35:28
pattern that I was before. But we don't have to. We don't have
35:31
to be in that space any longer, not any longer than we want to.
35:37
Yeah, I'm with you. I didn't I didn't want to hang out.
35:40
Here is the shorter amount of time, the better. It would have
35:45
been great. But I'm glad I hung out. I'm glad I have continued
35:51
just one step out of time. And that's you know, that's important for
35:53
people to hear. It's like, just put one foot in front of the
35:57
other and just just keep going and learn to be more playful. So maybe,
36:06
and it doesn't matter if you're just sitting in your living room thinking about
36:10
playful things, exciting things, fun things. That message to your body is
36:16
what matters, because you're sending that calming or that fun or that lighthearted message
36:23
to your body, and that's what your body responds to. And the opposite
36:28
is true too. If you're gonna sit and think about your past and all
36:30
the things that went wrong, your body's going to respond to that. And
36:34
so deciding to choose. So you know, I've heard the terms get out
36:39
of your own way. Well, that just meaning that whatever programming that you
36:49
have had and that you are living by time, just change the programming.
36:53
And I say, just change programming. Likes the most simplest thing in the
36:58
world could be. Possibilities are great. Wasn't for me. Took me a
37:02
while, but that was my journey and Bev's journey has been her journey,
37:07
and similar to what Bev was saying is you know, I'm not some famous
37:13
person who has millions of followers, but similar journey as what she described with
37:19
Suzanne Geeseman is I went through some healing. I learned what was feeling good
37:24
to me. Then I did start I became Reiki certified and was practicing with
37:31
that and learning how the experience of our life and the emotions affect our body.
37:37
And I started teaching about that and coaching, and then so things for
37:40
me just kept evolving, and then it evolved into Bev and I doing this.
37:45
Bev's similar journey. She's she was working at a jail, decided decided
37:52
to be a massage therapist, and then that has led into a path of
37:57
where we're at today with this podcast. And so it's just continuous and it's
38:04
going to be what you make of it. Embrace the journey, be okay
38:09
when those moments come up, those layers come up of Okay, here's another
38:14
piece to heal. We heal, we look at it, we have the
38:16
awareness of it, we acknowledge it, we do our process whatever that might
38:21
be. Is it journaling, is it hypnotherapy? Is it QHHT is it
38:27
coaching? Is it a psychiatry? What is it for you on your healing
38:30
journey to help you move through whatever's showing up for you? So that we're
38:37
changing the programming so now we can focus more on what we desire, what
38:40
we like, what's fun, what's exciting to us. And it's just a
38:45
process, and it's okay with wherever you're at. It's the same with me
38:51
after thirty years of doing this and stuff still shows up. It's a process.
38:54
It's okay. I'm okay with where I'm at, and I embrace now
38:59
more when those things come up that I'm in more of actually a relaxed state
39:07
than when something comes up and I have to look at or I choose to
39:09
look at it and acknowledge, yeah, this is this is bothering me,
39:15
and this is how I'm showing up and this is how I'm reacting to it,
39:17
and this is the heaviness of it. What am I going to do
39:20
with the information? And that's totally my choice, absolutely one hundred percent my
39:24
choice, and I am responsible for me and I'm the only one that can
39:30
make that decision true. And it's like every time we think that we did
39:37
something wrong. You set yourself backwards. It's like, just go forward,
39:43
move forward, don't sit and dwell on those things that you think that you
39:45
did wrong. Keep moving forward. Let embrace it, find a way to
39:50
embrace it that's easiest for you, and then move on from it. It's
39:52
not for you to just hold yourself in a space that you don't if you
39:57
want. It's like your your soul's like let's go, let's go, let's
40:00
go, and you're like, Nope, I'm going to hold myself here because
40:02
all right, did there's things wrong fifteen years ago? And we do.
40:07
Because I've done it. I know I'm speaking from experience. I don't have
40:12
to be in that space anymore. And that's something that's been very freeing for
40:15
me to be in this space, to get to where I'm at right now,
40:16
to be not beating myself up about the things that I thought I did
40:22
wrong. When you sit and beat yourselves up, you're not allowing yourself to
40:24
move forward. You're not allowing evolution. You're not you're keeping yourself in the
40:30
space. Then you get wishy washing and you can't make decisions and you can't
40:35
keep your word, and you can't stick to anything, you know what I
40:37
mean. There's all these things, and then you're going out in a million
40:39
different directions because you're really not sure which direction to go into. And it's
40:44
like I just had to pull everything back. And like I've said, like
40:46
this last time, I'm continually which has been beneficial for me, recalling all
40:52
my energy back. I just call all my energy back from everybody with love
40:54
and life, same way that I send it back to everybody else. I
40:58
send it with love and light. I don't care if it was somebody that
41:00
I felt that in this human experience did be wrong. I'm sending them love
41:04
and life because I'm not carrying this stuff anymore. I'm not carry because that's
41:07
not my journey. I don't need to carry this person with me any longer.
41:10
It's not necessary. It's weighing me down. And I feel so much
41:14
better releasing things, and I release it all of love, light and peace,
41:17
or however you want to say. It's just it's for me. It's
41:21
just easy as words. We're like computer programs, really, and so it's
41:24
that easy for me that we just release it. It's that easy for me
41:28
to activate withinside of me, my God's seed. It's that easy for whatever
41:31
whatever you're looking for that's out there, it's that easy. It's just our
41:36
words. But how strong is your word and how strong your word is,
41:39
Like, if you're wishy washing, you're not holding yours, if you're not
41:43
being integral to yourself and those around you, then your word's probably not very
41:45
strong. My word's getting stronger and stronger because I'm holding my words to myself
41:51
and I'm catching I'm noticing the behaviors that I might have, the old patterns,
41:55
the I'm listening to the voice inside of my head that says that,
41:59
yeah you do that, Yes you have. And it's like okay, because
42:02
asking why is this showing up in my experience now? And I'm telling people,
42:07
I tell them the same thing that I tell myself, because these are
42:09
all the same things that I'm telling myself. I've had people that I've been
42:12
in my experience lately and it's like it's a confirmation and it's practicing for me
42:17
because now I'm telling them the same things that I'm telling myself. I'm doing
42:22
these things before that before I was not doing these things. Before I had
42:25
these ideas and I knew that they were there, and that you guys could
42:28
see how long it took to get to this point from the videos to now.
42:31
That's just from the videos to now. I was way different even before
42:35
that. So it's like, I don't know if I. I don't even
42:37
know if I. I guess it would almost be kind of interesting to check
42:42
out my vocal patterns, my my energy, how did I how my face
42:46
was probably all serious all the time, because it probably was so many different
42:51
things. I had a friend show me recently. It showed me a picture.
42:53
She's like, look at this picture. This was like so many years
42:57
ago, because she's been being told by people, how you look so good,
43:00
like you're softer, you're all these things they're telling her. And she
43:05
shows me this picture from this timeframe and I said, she says, it
43:07
doesn't even look like me, And I said, it doesn't look like you.
43:10
She says, I was so angry in this picture. And it's like
43:14
you could tell but in that anger, and so I can only imagine because
43:16
I was so angry. I was angry all the time. It's so it's
43:21
so funny. I laugh, I'm laughing about it. But it's like that's
43:22
because it's my journey and unapologetically this is me, this is me on my
43:28
journey. It's authentic, it's true. And some days are shitty and I
43:31
have to talk myself through and go watch some rainbows and kittens or something,
43:36
but you know, or listen to some good music. But I'm whatever I'm
43:38
telling people to do to practice when they're coming to my experience. It's things
43:44
that I'm doing. It's things that are working for me. And when I'm
43:46
gaining new tools, like we're gaining new tools. We're at a different space
43:50
now where you can actually have new tools. I'm in a different space now
43:52
where I can hear my hear the voice withinside of me tell me things and
43:57
then tell me and even call me out on my bullshit. So it's like
44:01
I'm not resistant, right, I'm open to receiving that information. I'm not
44:08
I'm not right about everything, and I don't have to be right about everything.
44:10
Thank God, God, thank God. Such a better journey, just
44:16
having fun and not have to worry about it. Yeah, it's a lot
44:22
more fun for sure. Compared to where we were and where we are.
44:30
It was all the control, right, it was, there was a lot
44:31
of control. It's like trying to control every aspect, and we were taught
44:36
that to control things because it makes us safe, right, we think it
44:38
makes us safe. But then we've just grown from that because it just didn't
44:43
feel that being in that safe space, I guess didn't feel good anymore.
44:46
Some people think being in that relationship that's abusive, you know, is a
44:51
safe than the unknown. But it's like I heard someone say something like that
44:54
that the unknown has never let me down, right, and I thought that's
45:00
huge. Yeah, it might have been that calm, but it's but it's
45:02
like, that's huge to me. That's huge because it's you haven't had that
45:07
experience with it, and so let go of all the templates, let go
45:08
of all the experiences, and it's practice. It's it's awareness, Yeah,
45:15
it's it's hanging on to the known, which we know is that is in
45:22
our old way, right, unhealthy, hanging on to that which is like
45:27
my hand. And then the unknown quote unquote all the possibilities is bigger than
45:35
this room I'm sitting in. And when we take that into perspective, you
45:43
kind of start wondering what the hell am I doing? It is like what
45:47
the fuck? So it's like what uses are you looking through huh yeah,
45:57
And it was, I mean, it's kind of a was long because we've
46:00
talked about solutions, and you know, from what I was taught not too
46:06
long ago, was there's an average of seven solutions for every problem. And
46:13
at work, one of the ladies posed a problem an issue, and so
46:21
there were two of us the three there were three of us, the one
46:24
with the issue, and then two of us right, and so each one
46:30
of us threw a solution out there, and each time she said, oh
46:32
no, that won't work, because oh well, I tried to end it
46:36
and I said listen, and we were all being lighthearted about it and laughing,
46:42
and I said, listen, we are trying to help you with some
46:45
solutions here, and you keep knocking them down. So nothing's going to change
46:47
unless you decide to open up to some solutions. So what's And we were
46:52
laughing and having a good time with it, but it was like, we
46:57
close ourselves off, and we close ourselves off to our activity because we're so
47:00
focused on what's in our face. We close ourselves off to fun and love
47:06
because of past experiences. We close ourselves off to change because of not knowing
47:14
about the unknown So those are all things that we could shift within ourselves if
47:21
we choose to and just be open to the ideas of yeah, because you
47:27
because we have questions and we do we all do this in life a lot
47:30
of times. What you just just gave a great scenario, But we have
47:34
a question in life, and then spirits bringing this information, whether it's through
47:37
the angels, the human angels that are here to bring them forward that information.
47:42
And it's like, instead of because I would have been the same I've
47:45
been the same way before all yeah, and that's not gonna but it's like,
47:50
instead we could hear the solution and be like, hmmm, I wonder
47:52
how that could work out for the greatest good of all, Like, I
47:55
wonder how that could And it's like, then let let let your curiosity be
48:00
there, and then it opens up a full another doorway for spirit to flow
48:05
through you and bring you some more information. Now because now they get to
48:07
play. You get to play and they get to play. Yeah, it's
48:09
awesome. It's awesome. So you can imagine when we're when we're wallowing in
48:15
our not so fun stuff, right, and the angels are like, anytime
48:21
now can we have some fun? Right? I just imagine the angels and
48:24
their reactions to me and the way I'm being, and they're just like,
48:28
this is boring. Why are we still thinking about the past, Why are
48:31
you still reliving this? We're not being very creative now and having fun,
48:37
Just imagining my angels are being bored with me, like this is this is
48:40
dumb. And then when I finally decide to have a good time and they're
48:45
like, oh, okay, we get to play, we get to have
48:49
fun. Let's go. We're on the playground now, right. So I
48:52
like to just be creative in that way of what would my angels think of
48:58
me right now? How would my angel be reacting to me right now with
49:01
where I'm at that interesting? It would be saying, look at you grow,
49:07
look at look at these so fast? Like to me, it's like
49:10
because we've God, we've come so far and we're gonna go. We're just
49:14
it's this is just only a this is only like the first mile. Yeah,
49:19
you know what I mean, It doesn't matter how old we are really
49:21
at the beginning stages of this stuff, but we're healing so much of family
49:27
stuff, so much of the ancestral stuff. Yeah, and letting go because
49:30
we're not we're not claiming it and holding on to it still, and we're
49:34
embracing it and we're loving it. And I was listening to this gentleman,
49:39
he's a spiritual shaman. I think I've only I'm only halfway through the listening
49:45
to it. But he's gone through some serious stuff, like he's gone through
49:51
serious abuse growing up and and all the stuff. And it's like they he
49:55
knows that he's there to have this experience like we've talked about, to be
50:00
the person that he is right now, to be able to be that healer,
50:04
to help kill people or to kill them from their thoughts, and to
50:07
let go of these things that we create and make so tangible because we bring
50:14
ourselves into the experience. But he's even talking about, like you know,
50:17
devils, and he doesn't even label them devils, but it's like lower energies.
50:21
And he says, because I'm here to shift everybody, I'm not pushing
50:23
against anything. I'm not just being that person that says I'm only allowing divine
50:29
love and life to come through. Right now. He says, I allow
50:30
all to come through because we can shift it all and to love it all.
50:36
And that's but that's the same thing for us. And it goes back
50:37
to even listening to that Joda Spinza's fifteen minute meditation that was making you think
50:45
and right and triggering you and bringing forward something. It's like it's all connected.
50:51
All of us was for our benefits, like every single piece of it.
50:55
And it's to embrace all of it. It's not to push against any
50:59
of it. To push against the things that don't feel good, is to
51:01
love all of it. And it's like I was telling a person recently,
51:05
when I start, when I catch some of these triggers, another thing that
51:09
I'll do is I'll see my little girl, my little Nikki, not the
51:13
movie little Nikki, but I was Nicki when I was a little girl.
51:15
That's what they called me. And so I see Nicki as herself. And
51:19
then it's like I just pick her up and I just pick her up off
51:22
the floor and give her lots of loves and tell her everything's perfect, just
51:24
the way it is. And then I'll say, look at these things,
51:27
and look at this, and because we find the nuggets within ourselves to to
51:30
build, that's how we move past. That's how I've moved past a lot
51:34
of stuff is to be able to share those nuggets with Niki that didn't have
51:37
an understanding because she came into this human experience as love and light and she's
51:42
maybe not experiencing all love and light, not the way she thought she was
51:45
gonna, you know, not the way that it felt when she was in
51:46
the non physical. So it's like, I'm just in that space of embracing
51:51
all that stuff, and it's the same thing. It's embracing the stuff that
51:53
we think that such a dark side of life and the world and heaven and
52:00
hell and all that stuff. It's just loving all of it. It's emerging
52:01
it all together because there is no separation, that we're unified. And you
52:07
know, as you're talking, I just just last night I had an experience
52:12
to do that actually in a physical way what you just said, pick her
52:15
up, hold her. There was a disruption with where we were at and
52:22
there was this little girl, I think she's like four three maybe, and
52:34
there was another person and myself having an interaction with her to keep her calm,
52:40
to kind of distract her from the commotion that was happening, and because
52:46
she was just laying down to go to bed, and then some stuff erupted
52:52
and it's so funny too, because we were asking her, you know,
52:55
what are the things you like? And we talked about unicorn and puppies and
53:00
elephants and monkeys, but the two things that you said a while ago,
53:05
I just I was like, the universe is great, because we talked about
53:09
rainbows and kittens. And then it came down to where I actually had I
53:22
took her out of conversation that was happening. I took her out of that.
53:30
So I picked her up and embraced her and sat with her, and
53:37
she fell asleep in my lap and just sending her love. So actually having
53:42
that physical expression of what you just talked about under since that's awesome. Yeah.
53:52
See I get that with the grandkids, and that's because I do.
53:54
Vivie was over yesterday and it's like I we lay on the floor and we
54:00
do our little nap thing and it's like we just talked to each other a
54:04
certain way. And when I have Colton over, we just talked. We're
54:07
super close and we talk to each other and it's just set that bonding and
54:10
it's that exactly. They've been able to give me that physical so that when
54:15
I do that, I have that I can I know what that feels like,
54:19
right, because we don't remember maybe we don't remember when that happened,
54:22
or maybe it never happened when we were little because maybe my mom didn't have
54:24
you know, maybe she couldn't do those things, she didn't know how to
54:28
do those things, or she was busy with my sister or whatever. I
54:30
chose to come in. But I mean I chose my path to be the
54:32
way that my path was for me to have to relish in that moment that
54:37
you just said. We chose to have the experiences in our life that led
54:40
up to these great gifts that come forward to be able to have that moment
54:45
regardless of what was going on around. You know, we can be in
54:50
the eye of the hurricane and be totally untouched or unaffected by anything, and
54:53
it's like in that moment, it's like the hurricanes going all around you and
54:58
it's like you're not even in that space. It's not yours. But we
55:01
got to have those gifts to have that feeling, to have that heart opening
55:06
at this stage of our lives. Yeah, maybe we wouldn't have remembered that
55:10
as a child, and we got to have it now and as as you're
55:15
talking. I got her, I didn't grab her. I picked her up
55:19
calmly and just walked away from the situation. And I went and sat with
55:28
three elders, like people older than me, wiser than me. Of course,
55:34
her family and I went and so I had them on my sides.
55:40
So the representation of support, it really makes me emotional thinking about that whole
55:47
thing. Now, Yeah, it didn't. Then it does now yeah,
55:52
because you're like feeling more of the effects of the wholes there was. It
55:57
was so much bigger. And that's what we talked to people about relishing these
56:00
things and being in these moments. It's not it's not just going and it's
56:07
not I hadn't experienced recently. And there was a girl that was at the
56:10
gas station fire miss misinterpretation. She was at the grocery store. I had
56:17
gone into the grocery store. And I have not. I've been My funds
56:22
haven't been abundant lately. I don't. I haven't. I haven't had the
56:24
blow of happy money recently. But I'm walking through and I'm coming out and
56:28
the gal says to me, and you know, judging, judging, because
56:32
I did do a bit of judging. I saw it just like took her
56:35
in a bit and like really looked at her. Because we don't look at
56:38
people when they ask for money and stuff like that. We don't really look
56:42
at them. We kind of glance, We kind of seek past them because
56:45
it's like it's a trigger, right, we try to blaze over them by
56:47
that. And so I really looked at her, and I grabbed the change
56:52
that I had in my person. I said, this is what I have,
56:54
and I handed it because she says, I need money, I need
56:58
to get gassed, and because she just she drove from Bullhead for her sister
57:02
for something else, and she forgot her debit card at home and she didn't
57:07
she didn't have enough gas to go back home or to anything. And it
57:09
was like so I I, by looking at her, I could feel all
57:14
this information. I could feel it all like this was ranked true for me,
57:16
and it didn't matter whether it did or not. If I had it,
57:19
I was gonna, you know. I just listened to spirit and I'm
57:22
headed back to my car, and like, I think I got two dollars
57:25
in my I think I've got two dollars in my purse. And I open
57:29
eye purse and I and I do, so I go back. I hear
57:31
her talking to a girl and the girl says, I'll follow me over to
57:35
the gas station and she's she's like, I just gotta put my groceries in
57:37
the car. And she's like, well, I can help you load them
57:39
in, and she's like, no, it's not, it's all right.
57:40
And I'm already walking over because I've already I'm hearing this like sideways, but
57:45
I'm already walking over. I'm gonna give her this two dollars and she gives
57:49
me the biggest hug. The biggest hug is like, if there was anything
57:53
in the world that could have could have there was no money for that,
57:59
And so you're talking about that, there's no money. There's These are such
58:02
deep, open hearted moments. And then she said, it's just amazing how
58:07
God works, always working, and it's like, yeah, it is.
58:13
And I just went and sat in my truck and I thought, man,
58:14
if I could just do this all day, every day, it all just
58:15
hang out in the parking lots and hand out some and some dollars and they
58:19
can give me some hugs and and then I'll go upon my way. Because
58:22
it was such a there's such an emotional feeling about all this stuff, and
58:27
it wasn't It was never about the money. So when we when we talk
58:30
about things to people, it's not it's never about that stuff. We're always
58:34
going to be provided for always when we but when we get caught up in
58:37
the lack, when we're creating and we get caught up in that lack,
58:40
we're creating lack. We're not creating abundance. And when I gave the two
58:45
dollars, I wasn't thinking about it from a lack space. I was thinking
58:47
about this could help her, gosh, because you know, I'm and I'm
58:52
thinking to ask to be there, to ask for money, to ask for
58:54
these things, and then too because it's not easy. And I could tell
58:59
that it wasn't the easy, but she was doing it she because she she
59:01
knew she had to do it the house. Was she going to get home
59:04
or Denny cards at the house. This has happened to me, I mean,
59:07
I understand this conversation. So it was just that it was just there
59:10
was so much more to unpack from it, just like it is as we're
59:15
having the conversation. There was so much more. There was so much more
59:17
than those two dollars and that changed. There was so much more than what
59:22
was going on. You could have got wrapped up in the trauma of things
59:24
going on around and why is this happening in front of a child and what.
59:29
I don't know what the experience was, but I just know there's so
59:30
much more to grab from all that. And instead you just took the child
59:35
and went out of the space, and then you had an experience, an
59:38
experience that you couldn't have, you wouldn't trade for anything. It didn't matter
59:44
at the time, it didn't matter none, nothing else mattered in that moment,
59:46
nothing else mattered because I was actually tired and I was ready to come
59:51
home. Yeah, and then all that happened, I was like, oh,
59:54
I'm being called I got something to do now here. And then just
1:00:00
sitting with her and holding her and she fell asleep and loving on her and
1:00:05
yeah, that's just what I needed. Yeah, A hundred percent what you
1:00:10
needed. So those yes, right, yeah, yeah, they come in
1:00:16
ways that are unexpected and there's they're so small, but they're so huge.
1:00:22
Yes, right, if someone would have told you, if some if you
1:00:25
would have wrote that in the book or something without the feeling that I because
1:00:29
I can feel you. But if you would have just wrote that down or
1:00:31
just said, hey, yeah, there was a situation and I picked up
1:00:34
the child and I just went over and sat down, there was so much
1:00:37
more than that. And it's like we those are the things to relish,
1:00:40
those are the things to be spend time, and those are the things we
1:00:44
want to create. We want to create from that love space, not from
1:00:46
the experience that created that led up to that. So it's like not being
1:00:51
in the space of let's let's focus on the past, about that situation,
1:00:54
but focusing on that whole connection, that whole evolving that happened, that whole
1:01:00
heart opening. When you thought your heart was already opened, it got even
1:01:04
that, it got busted open even more when you were already tired. You
1:01:07
probably got re energized. Yeah, and then opening even more now just talking
1:01:12
about it. Yeah, until you were talking about stuff, it's like like
1:01:19
my own experience opened that. It was like, oh my gosh, this
1:01:22
was so much more so. Yeah, and that's why we come and do
1:01:28
this right, so we can have our own therapy, coaching, counseling sessions.
1:01:34
It is, but it's like spirits at the stage, let's set the
1:01:37
stage how we want to create, and it's like we've put so much information
1:01:42
out there that you can create from, and then how how you want to
1:01:45
create or you don't want to create. It's a choice, right, it's
1:01:46
totally up to us. I'm having awesome having those doors wide open for so
1:01:53
much to come in instead of a little crack and only being focused on what
1:02:00
coming through that little crack. Huge difference, right, controling. When you're
1:02:06
controlling, you're only allowing that little crack. You're only allowing Okay, you
1:02:09
right there, you were there, you can come in, okay, not
1:02:12
you, You like you're only allowing that much. And it's like that's that
1:02:16
you're one hundred percent right, because that's how it feels, that's how life
1:02:20
is spelt when you're trying to control everything around you. That's exactly what you're
1:02:22
doing for you. I can slide a dollar in between the doors, that's
1:02:29
right, that's right. I could just get a dollar. That's it.
1:02:31
That's it. You can't fit a lot of one hundred dollars bills through there.
1:02:35
Because it's true, it's so true. This has been so awesome today.
1:02:43
How much happened today is like whoa holy Holy I love it and we
1:02:51
all we typically start off with both of us thinking I don't know what we're
1:02:54
going to talk about, but but not sharing that with each other really before
1:03:00
we start, and then all this stuff unpacks and so that's amazing that we
1:03:07
get to do this. Yeah, and it makes me think because when I
1:03:09
start this and I don't do it, I only do it with this,
1:03:12
Okay, Spirit, what do you want to talk about? Yeah? Okay,
1:03:15
Holy Spirit? Because sometimes I'll be like, okay, Holy and I'm
1:03:17
like, no, not Holy Spirit. But but but then that's where we
1:03:20
think we do something wrong, right, I'm like, no, if Holy
1:03:22
Spirit, which is foreign to me, but if Holy Spirit is the thing
1:03:25
that wants to come through or the if that's the name that's popping in my
1:03:29
head, I'm gonna choose it because I'm gonna listen and know that's what it's
1:03:31
supposed to come in right now. And the next stop that comes to my
1:03:35
mind is okay, Creator, Then it's okay Creator. It's not don't.
1:03:38
I'm saying, don't correct yourself because I have corrected myself for doing this,
1:03:42
and I've caught myself in it a couple of times, today. But it's
1:03:45
like everything there is so much value. We're receiving information all the time,
1:03:50
and it's like this whole time i've been talking to you, especially the second
1:03:52
part of it, I'm open, like yeah, I'm open completely in the
1:03:57
flow of things. And it's like then nothing else matters. It doesn't matter
1:04:00
if whatever the temperature is in my office, it doesn't matter that whatever is
1:04:04
going on out in the world is because everything is so good right here.
1:04:09
And we've been creating this whole time with with all, with our whole conversation,
1:04:13
such a beautiful space, and I just s we can do this in
1:04:17
all things, Like so when I start my day out, okay, Spirit,
1:04:20
how do you want this day to go? Or okay, Spirit,
1:04:23
how do you want this meeting to go? Or whatever? It's like being
1:04:27
open to all of it, not having to control it, being surrendering.
1:04:30
And I'm saying that out loud because I needed to hear that. That's me
1:04:33
telling me it's just being okay and being in that space and no matter what,
1:04:38
we're safe, no matter what, we're fine. Yeah. And and
1:04:43
just like you're saying, you know, using the term holy spirit, and
1:04:48
you're like, wait, no, that's not my language source. It's still
1:04:53
a limitation, right, It's still keeping that door shut and just a crack.
1:04:57
Okay, only only Source can come through, even though Holy Spirit's probably
1:05:00
the same thing, or Jesus or Kwanya or Buddha. But no, this,
1:05:05
this is only this crack is only this door is only open far enough
1:05:12
for source. Yep, that's what I've been doing. But that's what I
1:05:15
had been doing. And then I caught myself during this session like, and
1:05:18
I've actually done it a few times recently, but then this session I would
1:05:23
hear I heard Holy Spirit, and I was good because I'm talking in my
1:05:25
head. And then I'm like, and then I catched myself to start to
1:05:28
correct and I'm like, no, there's no there's no there. We don't
1:05:30
need to correct it. It was it was exactly the way it was supposed
1:05:32
to be. But I started thinking because I started thinking from the old patterns,
1:05:36
so you're one hundred percent it's the same. But I and I was
1:05:40
recognizing all that as we're having this conversation, so like, it's so funny
1:05:43
because we were having this conversation and it's great, But then I'm having a
1:05:45
conversation up here that's great too. Yeah, and maybe the terms Holy Spirit,
1:05:50
by you speaking them is what I needed to hear for me to open
1:05:54
up even more to the experience. I so, so you just it's for
1:05:59
all of us, right, the messages for all of us. So Bev
1:06:01
and I have our conversations, it's for we show up because her and I
1:06:04
like having these conversations and we want to share them with others. And then
1:06:12
we realize, well, Bev, this conversation wasn't for you. Those words
1:06:16
you said weren't for you. They were for me. And then and then
1:06:19
she's like, well, no, I said them to you because they're for
1:06:21
me, for both of us. But it's like, I know, I'm
1:06:26
saying this out loud so that people have an understanding. You like, you
1:06:29
know, but I say it out loud so people have an understanding that this
1:06:30
is. There's so much going on all the time, and it's to be
1:06:35
the only way you can acknowledge it is by being aware. And it's like
1:06:39
being aware of like how I was hindering myself because somebody else is doing the
1:06:42
same thing, and us sharing this knowledge is so valuable. And I have
1:06:45
to tell you, since everything you've changed on your backdrop. Now your behind
1:06:49
scene is perfect, like it's so I like it. I like it a
1:06:55
lot, I really do. I feel more. It's more balanced. Yeah,
1:07:01
and it's not even like it's everything is perfectly organized in a certain way,
1:07:05
but it's I like it. I like it because I keep looking at
1:07:10
I'm like, well, look good, well confirm smart ass. Thank yeah,
1:07:15
I appreciate that because before everything was like over here, and I'm just
1:07:20
like this, this doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel on your right side.
1:07:25
Uh yeah, it's on my right side. Yeah, so so to
1:07:28
me, then you think about that right right, you're exactly exactly. It's
1:07:33
so awesome. It's so awesome. I love it, you know. Uh,
1:07:38
they've got the Buddha on my left for the yeah, and I got
1:07:43
the elephant on the right from my strength. So yeah, there's and wisdom.
1:07:47
I mean, there're a balance there. But I also have flowers on
1:07:53
on my masculine side to often soften this side up a little bit. So
1:08:00
thank you for acknowledging that. I appreciate it. I love it. I
1:08:04
love it. Yeah, thank you. So, my friends, we unpacked
1:08:11
a lot today. We usually do in every conversation. It all unfolds.
1:08:17
But really the big thing, you know, open open yourself up to the
1:08:20
possibilities and just have the awareness of how are you showing up in your life
1:08:26
where it's uncomfortable and you want something different, but also knowing that you have
1:08:31
to be the one that chooses to do something different for things to be different,
1:08:36
and that's all within our own responsibility. So you might want to go
1:08:44
listen to this one again, like this was this was this was big,
1:08:50
Like this is like three weeks in one or something. I don't even freaking
1:08:54
know. We might have to take a couple of weeks off after this time.
1:09:01
So actually when we when we do two sessions, we do two recordings
1:09:08
in one session. So then because we have something going on, we have
1:09:11
to skip a week for recording. I fell off. I'm like, something's
1:09:14
not right. I need there's bad. We got to have a conversation.
1:09:17
It's true. It's true. I know. It's the same thing. I
1:09:20
was like it, only it's like only what day is it? What are
1:09:23
we? What am I supposed to do? Now? You know? It's
1:09:25
like it kind of throws things. So anyway, share us listen to the
1:09:32
videos. We have over four years of videos and four yea, four yeah,
1:09:41
four years of videos that just watching our progression in our changes, in
1:09:45
the way we have changed, our view changed, our language, changed,
1:09:49
our verbiage, changed the way we show up. It's an interesting process.
1:09:56
And just know that wherever you are on your path, it's just a pro
1:10:00
and it's okay with where you're at. But and not butt and keep your
1:10:05
eye on the direction of what you want, the direction you want to go
1:10:09
in, and hold that vision and just have some ease and grace for yourself.
1:10:15
That's what we've done, that's what we continue to do even with where
1:10:17
we're at now, and nurture that little person inside that needs it. Yes,
1:10:28
I know. Thank you. So share us with your friends and family
1:10:34
or have the conversations whatever feels comfortable with you. And we're all over the
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1:10:58
just continue to be and do better within yourself and show up differently in the
1:11:00
world for the direction that you want to go in. That's right. Find
1:11:09
embrace your inner child. Yeah, like find a good picture of you when
1:11:12
you were little, and you can see that light in you, and that's
1:11:15
every time you think about that child that you're going to go pick up and
1:11:18
embrace in all the moments of your life. Do that. Yeah, so
1:11:25
good. Thank you, bab for your time and energy and being here because
1:11:29
we as we know, it's very beneficial for the two of us when we
1:11:32
show up for each other and have these conversations. So I greatly appreciate that.
1:11:39
I appreciate you too, I really do. Thank you. All right,
1:11:44
my friends, make it an incredible day, and we'll see you next
1:11:47
time. Bye.