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The people we NEED the most have the greatest FEAR of being seen. · Soul Salon with Ayandastood

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  It's the people who are the medicine for this planet that requires so much healing and requires healing of us who are the most prone to feeling like they don't deserve to show up.
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  Hello, divine soul.
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  Welcome or welcome back to the Soul Salon.
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  I am so excited to tap into today's message with you because there is a tragedy that I want to share with you.
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  I find it so tragic that it is always the people who need to be seen the most,
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  who are the most terrified, afraid, and ashamed of being seen.
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  This is a deep heartbreak to me that it's the people who are coming from love, light, artistry, compassion, a desire to really help the world, humor, delight, levity, and also pleasure, purpose, soul, who are sitting there stuck in perfectionism and fear of not being good enough, in shame,
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  And whose message is therefore blocked from ever being reached by the people that it is meant for.
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  And yet, let's talk about the other side, babes.
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  Let's talk about the other side.
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  Because I know you know that people who stand for hate, people who stand for, oh, just fear and separation and hierarchy and supremacy, are they afraid of being seen?
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  Are they sitting there like, oh, I'm not good enough to be seen?
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  No.
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  Okay.
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  Are they sitting there worried if they got every word perfectly as they spread their hateful rhetoric?
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  No.
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  We wish they were a little bit more afraid.
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  They're not afraid.
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  And also, let's take it a little bit down a notch because that's the most severe example.
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  People who promote just a toxic, unattainable beauty standard in the way that they portray their lifestyle and their vibration with the world.
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  There's no deeper sort of desire of service.
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  There's no deeper message.
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  It's just...
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  It's just vapid.
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  It's deadening.
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  It's not enlivening.
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  You know, when you're scrolling on Instagram, there's people who enliven you and there's people who make you feel dead inside.
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  And people who make you feel dead inside, are they afraid of being seen?
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  Are they like, oh my word, I'm so scared of people seeing my makeup selfie today.
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  I'm terrified.
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  No, they're not afraid.
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  So we have something in the water that's a little bit suspicious, almost as though the powers that be have conditioned the very people who can lead us to the light to block their own.
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  Almost as if it's the people who are the medicine for this planet that requires so much healing and requires healing of us who are the most prone to feeling like they don't deserve to show up imperfectly.
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  So I want to flip that narrative, babe.
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  I want to say, if you are coming from a place of love, if your intention is,
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  is divine, is pure, is generous.
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  Actually, let's use that word, is generous.
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  Because it can be generous to share your rage, can be generous to share your grief.
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  When we say coming from love, love is the expression of everything.
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  It's just the intention behind it.
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  Where is this coming from?
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  Do I believe this could co-create the kind of world I want to see?
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  Or take us back into the darkness, into the despair, into the depths of darkness,
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  separation and fear and scarcity and all these things and trauma rather than healing.
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  So you, let's talk about you because we're talking in abstract.
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  Why are we doing that?
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  Let's talk about you.
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  You are someone who alchemizes darkness, pain, suffering into light.
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  You are someone who makes the people around you feel more loved, feel seen.
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  You go out of your way.
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  to be thoughtful.
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  You go out of your way to give love, to allow the person who's not feeling included in the group to feel seen.
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  You go out of your way to make people feel like they matter.
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  You bring perspectives and ideas that expand consciousness, that allow people to feel like there's beauty in the world.
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  You have a beauty in your spirit that,
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  And yet this paradigm is trying to hyper fixate our attention on a toxic and destructive and limited notion of beauty in a physical sense.
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  But it's not even beauty.
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  Okay?
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  It is supremacy, colonialism, patriarchy, ableism, anti-fatness.
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  It's all of those things which can never be beautiful, can they?
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  Do they sound beautiful to us?
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  No, no, no, no, no, they're not beautiful.
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  It's a packaging of beauty, what Jessica DeFino calls an industrialized version of beauty versus a spiritual beauty.
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  The spiritual beauty of a song, the spiritual beauty of your
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  But it's not like coming from a place of because she meets this toxic beauty standard.
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  It's a beauty that flows from the love and the richness and the affection and adoration.
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  Like this is the most divine angelic force who loves you and you love.
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  Right.
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  So you look at them and you see this beautiful face.
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  That is a kind of beauty that is not the beauty of what we are being sold and packaged.
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  OK, you hear what I'm saying?
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  You feel me.
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  So you have that deeper beauty.
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  That we need so desperately in this life.
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  You have beauty of the spirit.
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  You have beauty of purpose.
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  Because you genuinely want to help people.
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  If you go through something.
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  That caused you suffering.
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  And you learn something that helps.
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  You want to share that with people.
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  You want people to know.
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  You're like everyone should know about this.
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  If you have.
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  If you have.
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  a challenge that you face, you want to find the music and alchemy and then you feel called to share it.
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  So those people who are doing that work of alchemy, which you are, you need to be seen.
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  And I know there's a voice in your head that's saying, but I'm not good enough, but it's embarrassing, but it's cringe.
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  And you know what's so hard is facing yourself.
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  Facing yourself.
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  Recording the video is one thing.
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  That's challenging, okay?
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  Watching the video.
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  Oh my goodness.
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  That is an Olympic feat.
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  Watching yourself, especially when you have all the voices in your head.
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  That came from such an early age, like an orchestra, either internal, external, both probably.
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  That you're not good enough, that you sound a certain way, that your voice is this, that your accent is this, that da-da-da, that you look a certain way, da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da.
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  All the voices coming through.
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  And so then you're facing yourself.
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  And we need you to face you so that we can face you.
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  That's the first step the artist takes.
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  For the singer to get to a point where she sings, shares her voice with the world, first she faced her own voice.
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  First she sang in a bathroom, in a bedroom.
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  First she sang in the elevator.
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  She got intimacy with her own voice.
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  She developed.
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  And then eventually it bubbled out of her.
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  And I believe this is actually kind of like an orgasmic state.
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  That's what creativity is, is lovemaking.
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  Meaning I love this moment so much I want to write a poem about it.
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  You know, I feel...
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  So strongly about this idea, I want it to bubble out of me.
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  I want you to feel the energy and vibration of how passionately I feel.
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  It's kind of like a creative orgasmic state because we have this limited understanding of what sexual energy is, but actually it's flowing through everything.
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  Everything around you is a manifestation of someone's desire for it to exist.
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  Someone desired a painting so much that they woke up every morning and they went to the studio and they painted it.
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  Is that not a sense of this erotic energy that flowed through them that sought expression?
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  Okay, how did we get here?
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  Who knows?
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  So when we are so full of our creative power and desire and dreams...
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  it then erupts and flows out of us.
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  And that is what is seeking to be visible.
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  That energy doesn't want to stay in you.
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  You know, there are things we write for ourselves, we make for ourselves, but even that we can see it doesn't want to stay in our consciousness.
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  It wants to leap into the page.
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  It wants to leap into a poem, into a song, into vibration, into frequency.
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  It wants to be expressed.
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  It wants to pour out of us.
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  And then it gets to a place where you're like, I want other people to experience this.
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  This idea wants to be experienced by more people.
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  Because ideas are the nature of reality.
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  We are all living the way we're living because someone had the idea for us to be living it.
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  So it's all about imagination, which precedes reality.
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  So you have the kind of imagination that can take us to a place that co-creates heaven on earth, utopia for all, with the music you make, with the sounds and the music and the sound healing maybe you create, with your words and your language and your world building.
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  So when I really advocate for you being seen, it's because, let's think about this.
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  Let's think about the unrealized potential.
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  Now, when we are taught this idea, it's really framed in the individual sense that you are here to actualize your highest potential on earth so that when you get to the end of your life, you don't regret that you could have done and been more.
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  And you feel like you gave your everything to this one wild, precious life, in the words of Mary Oliver.
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  So that is one way to see it, but it is very individualistic.
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  What about at a collective level?
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  Imagine we all have potential within us to be a source of love to the collective.
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  So let's say I have a voice, right?
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  I like to sing.
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  Let's say there's a version of me who makes music that allows people to feel loved.
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  Okay, so there's a potential within me.
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  But then let's say I say, oh, but I'm afraid I'm not a good enough singer.
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  Okay, let's say I say that.
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  So now we have all the ripple effects that would have unfolded if I had made this music that make people feel loved.
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  That makes people feel loved.
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  And let's say you, you have stories you write and these stories just open up this whimsical energy within people.
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  where they feel connected to their inner child and they feel like they have incredible dreams and they're suddenly seeing the world differently and they're more playful and they have more energy when they're around children.
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  So they treat children where in a way that's more nurturing to their imagination.
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  So the ripple effects of your stories is this whimsical energy that flows through you.
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  So now let's say, but now you think, oh, the stories are not good enough.
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  They could use more editing.
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  So you don't share the stories.
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  So now we have all the ripple effects of what those stories would have created in the world not happening.
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  So what you can see is we're one.
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  I'm one person.
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  You're one person.
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  Eight billion of us.
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  If we all have unrealized light that wants to be expressed through us, but we're so stuck in shame, fear, perfectionism that it never comes.
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  That means there's a whole unrealized dimension of reality that is waiting for us to claim it.
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  Ha ha.
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  It's waiting for us to say this is what we want to make for each other.
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  So then it becomes less about my individual potential and what I may regret at the end of my life.
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  And it becomes about the collective's potential to experience love and light through me.
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  And it becomes about...
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  being a channel for the collective's well-being.
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  And it becomes about all of us acknowledging that there is always a dormant possibility seeking to be born in each of us.
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  We are a womb for creation.
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  What will we give birth to?
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  What will we allow ourselves to be the home of?
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  And if we think about it at a small scale, it may seem like, oh, but it's just a sub-stack essay.
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  It's just a song.
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  It's just a photograph.
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  It's just an exhibition.
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  It's just an event.
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  But let's, we are one.
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  Let's zoom out and see all of the GIST songs.
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  See all of the GIST books.
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  See all of the GIST poems that aren't being made because we don't feel worthy of the making.
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  And then of the seeing of those things being witnessed.
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  And we see that there's actually a whole other frequency we could be living on if we all stepped into that light energy of sharing what we are here to share in this lifetime.
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  If we all showed up and we said, you know what?
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  I have videos to make.
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  I'm going to make my videos.
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  Everyone has had their life changed by a video who's watching this.
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  I mean, listen.
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  So now...
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  Imagine all those people who made the videos that are changing you.
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  If they allowed the fear to stop them, then all the ripple effects just in your life that wouldn't have happened.
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  And now take that out and extrapolate that to everyone else who watches their videos and look at all the potential in the collective that we are here to unlock.
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  So the reason why people like you must be seen is because you help unlock our potential to be more in alignment with the highest possibility, which is love.
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  which is union, togetherness, communion, freedom, freedom, liberation.
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  Okay.
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  And this is the legacy we've all inherited.
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  Okay.
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  All of us are here in part because people have fought and lost their lives, been unalived to systemically create more freedom for the collective.
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  Now they might've not seen it that way in the moment,
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  But we all stand on those shoulders.
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  So who will we allow to stand on ours?
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  So what you must do, I believe, is you sacrifice the ego protection in order for the soul expression.
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  You say, I'm willing to be judged.
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  You say, today I was doing my eyebrows.
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  And I was like, I don't like, they don't look great.
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  Because of course we live in this toxic beauty standard.
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  So I have that voice.
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  I told you there's an orchestra.
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  So there's that voice in my head that's always policing us.
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  That's telling me, oh, but I say, but I have a message.
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  What the fuck do my eyebrows have to do with a message?
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  You see, that's what they want.
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  Beauty is a distracting force.
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  It's trying to suck all your energy into it so that it distracts you from doing your work.
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  Is my work to have eyebrows that look the way that this society and culture that's so messed up told me to look?
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  No.
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  And I have a lot of different forms of beauty privilege.
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  Yeah.
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  Even within that context, what I'm saying is that's not my work.
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  Did I come to earth to have a certain kind of eyebrow, to look a certain kind of way?
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  Or do I have a message?
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  And is that a distraction?
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  Now, this does not take away.
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  People are mean.
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  People are hateful.
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  There's hate comments.
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  I'm not taking away from.
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  I'm not saying this is easy.
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  I'm saying we are sacrificing what people may say about our egos because we know that we have a soul resonance that is trying to cut through the bullshit into the light, into the heart to awaken something in someone so that they go and they write that idea down or they start that organization or they host that event.
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  Right.
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  Or they finally forgive themselves and say, you know what, I'm worthy of compassion and I did the best that I could with the information that I had.
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  And I don't need to hold on to the shame for the rest of my life because who benefits from that?
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  except the pals that be that want to shame me, okay?
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  So we say, what am I here to invoke?
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  What am I here to awaken?
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  And therefore, if you judge my eyebrows, babes, that's okay.
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  I can live with that.
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  And therefore, if you say, you should have said it this way, oh, that's okay.
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  If you say, why are you only quoting these kinds of people?
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  That's okay.
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  I accept.
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  That is my cross to bear.
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  I accept it.
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  I say, that's fine.
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  I say, it's okay.
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  I say, it's okay.
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  You know, in many of my interviews, because I'm now stepping into podcast interviews, and many of them, I'm like, oh my goodness, I didn't say this, and I didn't say that, and I didn't ask that, and I didn't comment this, and I didn't include this, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and I didn't, and it's like, oh my goodness.
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  There's so much criticism.
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  But I say, that is my cross to bear.
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  Even if people do comment,
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  You didn't do this.
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  And maybe they're right because there's always a kernel of truth.
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  That's what I believe in conflict resolution.
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  You must always acknowledge there's a kernel of truth in what your partner is saying and what your friend is saying.
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  Even if you don't like the image it reflects of you because you're like, I'm not that.
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  I'm not that kind of person.
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  That's not how I see myself.
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  There's a kernel of truth.
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  And part of their soul's purpose has been to bring it to you.
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  So receive it.
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  So, yes, even if people comment certain things that I don't like, there's a kernel of truth within them.
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  It's painful, but there's a kernel.
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  Right.
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  And yes, they could have said it in a kinder way.
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  Yes, they could have said it in a more compassionate way, but also there is a kernel.
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  Fine.
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  So even if people do say that, even if people say, oh, you do this and you always do this and you don't do this enough, that is my cross to bear because I have something to share that I need.
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  That needs to be experienced.
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  It needs to be experienced.
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  And so like anything in life, no one is all, you know, there's polarity to everything and everyone.
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  So there are certain things that I'm going to say or do that are going to not be
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  the highest expression possible because who is like that?
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  We'd all be God.
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  Then we'd all be what we are, but we'd all be like angels.
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  We wouldn't be in the human realm if we were here to be perfect.
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  If we just always said the perfect thing, did the perfect thing, that wouldn't be human.
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  We've come here to be a manifestation of the divine in a human form, which means our perfect imperfections, quote unquote, are the point, you know, they're not a deviation.
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  We're not doing something wrong.
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  They are what we are here to grapple with and experience.
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  So I accept that.
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  That there are aspects of me that are going to have a kind of impact that I'm not proud of or that I don't resonate with.
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  That's okay.
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  But where are we going with this?
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  The point is that the people who need to be seen the most are the ones who resist visibility because of their fears of imperfection.
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  And I'm inviting you to reframe perfectionism to the fear of imperfection.
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  Start saying to yourself, you know what, I'm afraid of imperfection.
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  When I make a video, I'm afraid that I said the wrong thing.
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  I'm afraid that it's not okay to be anything but perfect.
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  And that is conditioned, especially in a patriarchal society.
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  Okay, that is conditioned within...
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  Okay, that's been conditioned in an anti-black society, etc.
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  And in a society that is supremacist and hierarchical.
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  So then if someone has to win, then someone has to lose in a competitive capitalist society, right?
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  So if you say, okay, I have a fear of imperfection, but what do I want to serve?
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  Do I want to serve this fear of imperfection or do I want to serve the light?
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  Do I want to serve the power of my message?
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  Do I want to serve my ancestors trying to speak through me?
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  Do I want to serve the energy I've been given?
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  I want to serve that energy.
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  So that's what I'm going to do.
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  And I'm going to notice, okay, but people who have light, love, liberation to share with the world have a tendency to be afraid of being seen.
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  And so as I encounter this discomfort in my body, I feel it.
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  I feel it.
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  Can I be the allowance for?
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  of the love that wants to speak through me?
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  Can I resist the temptation of listening to the voice of criticism within me?
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  Can I say, I see you, I hear you, I feel you, but I'm not gonna let you lead me because where are you gonna lead me to?
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  No way that serves love, no way that serves divinity, no way that serves the kind of world that I wish to see.
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  So as we feel this energy is coming to a sort of natural, like, what's the word?
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  Resolution.
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  Never think that your fear of being seen makes you less qualified to be seen, makes you less worthy of being seen, makes you less deserving of being seen, makes you less destined to be seen.
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  Let me say that again.
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  Never let your fear of being seen make you think that that makes you less destined to be seen.
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  It is your destiny to be seen.
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  And in all the parables and all the tales, when a protagonist is invited into their destiny, their hero's journey, what do they feel?
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  Afraid.
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  What are they sent?
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  Guides.
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  Support.
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  What do they become?
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  Guides.
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  Support.
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  So the fear could actually indicate it's meant for you.
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  And the fear could also indicate it's meant through you.
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  Because if a world is trying to burst through us, a world that is more loving, a world that is more free, then the bearers, the guardians, the mothers, the parents of that world are going to face fear in the birthing of it.
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  When you see someone give birth, they look afraid to me.
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  They don't look like they face no resistance in the process of giving birth.
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  And yet we have in our spirit as humans the capacity to do things in the face of fear and to not allow that fear to stop us.
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  So if we are all trying to actually we've been tasked with birthing a more loving possibility for future generations.
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  then we will face just like that screaming, painful, wailing energy of giving birth.
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  We will face that within ourselves.
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  We will face suffering.
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  We will face fear.
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  We will face the concern that we don't have what it takes.
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  And yet this world that's trying to come through us, it needs us to believe in it.
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  This new earth rising.
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  You are part of that rising.
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  Right?
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  And you might minimize your role by thinking it's just a this, it's just a that.
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  That is how the world changes.
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  It doesn't happen in these, it's tiny, tiny, tiny things that compound.
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  Okay?
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  And we must remember the ripple effects of your visibility.
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  Who are you here to inspire?
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  Who are you here to unlock?
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  Who are you here to help inspire?
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  return to what they already know but have struggled to accept embody or actualize what is the tiny ripple effect of someone seeing you and your truth what is the tiny ripple effect of one word you will say one sentence you will share that you don't even think is the point of your essay or of your message what is the impact the ripple effect and then you keep
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  You see, if you're watching the video, what I'm doing is you keep that pattern like a fractal.
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  You keep it going.
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  Two, two, two, two.
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  You inspire someone.
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  So then that person is a mother and that inspires that mother to sign their child up for a class.
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  And that class allows that child to express in a certain way that signs that child up.
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  And suddenly we're in a whole different world.
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  So don't underestimate your power, babes.
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  Life is like that.
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  We don't understand the power of compounding.
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  Now it's sounding like an investing talk, but we don't understand.
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  we don't understand.
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  We don't understand how tiny things add up to big things.
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  So the tiny you think, this video got 200 views.
• 23:31
  This video got 20 views.
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  But it's about the depth of impact, not the breadth.
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  Okay.
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  How deeply can I be felt versus how broadly can I be seen?
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  How deeply can this resonate versus how widely can it be spread?
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  Now, obviously, many of us, we seek both and that's okay.
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  But just trust, you know, trust in your generosity.
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  This is what I like to say.
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  So the same force, there's a force.
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  We don't understand it, right?
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  There's something, something, somewhere, somehow that created the sun.
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  Can you imagine that?
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  Such a powerful force.
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  Created the sun, okay?
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  Okay.
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  And we're living in the solar system.
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  All these planets are rotating around the sun.
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  Here on Earth, and I'm sure on other planets, we can sustain life.
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  And the sun is part of how we do so.
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  That force created the sunshine.
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  That force created the oceans.
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  That force created the possibility of infinite creation.
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  So we think there's the theory that we live in an energy.
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  an infinite universe an ever expanding universe with no bounds to it okay that's not been proven but some people have some scientists have that that theory right we live in an infinite cosmos something created now some force created that when you looked to the eclipse if you saw it when you look at a sunset and you're like how did all those colors come together
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  When it's been a long day and you have a sip of water after feeling dehydrated and you think, oh my word, this is everything my body needed.
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  When you have a dream and you can't fathom, how did this even happen?
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  I'm panting like I was running in the forest, but I'm right here in this bed.
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  And I'm seeing visions that resolve things in my emotional psychological world.
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  And that also resolve the poem that I'm writing or the screenplay that I'm creating.
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  I'm dreaming, okay?
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  The same force that created the possibility of love between two humans, that feeling of sweetness and care, that feeling of so many emotions being held because you love someone so much.
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  That force that created flavor and sound and the possibility of music.
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  It also created you.
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  The same force that created the sunlight, that created sound, that created energy.
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  A smile.
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  A song, or the possibility of a song.
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  A bird chirping and singing.
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  A peacock.
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  How generous a peacock is.
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  Like, it didn't need to be that detailed and delicious and absolutely gorgeous, did it?
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  But the universe source, the divine was that imaginative, that creative that it said, no, no, no, more feathers.
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  No, no, no.
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  More luminescence, more magnificence, more flair, more flamboyance.
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  Let's make let's make the let's make the flamingo stand on one leg.
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  Why am I doing a British accent?
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  Because I'm a clown.
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  But let's.
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  play with color let's play with sound let's give them these vocal folds that can make music okay bye it's actually crazy looking at the voice please go look at a diagram of the voice if you do one thing today it's crazy okay that force created you babes so i mean don't you ever don't
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  The sun didn't come here to be kept to itself.
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  The moon didn't come to just sit in a cave by itself and witness itself.
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  We have come here to be generous, to be given.
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  We're a gift.
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  We're a gift.
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  The difference between our gift is we have to choose to consent, to do the work, to devote to the giving.
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  So devote.
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  Okay?
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  But it starts with you believing that you are generous.
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  It starts with you have, you have to, you sit there and you think to yourself, no, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, I'm generous.
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  Like, it's a gift to experience me.
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  Like,
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  People should people people get to know me.
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  You got to feel that way.
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  You got to think that.
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  That's why I don't write things down.
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  I haven't written a thing down because I say you get to experience me.
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  I got it.
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  I got it.
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  I got it.
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  I got to give the people what I got to give the people what I can give.
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  I got to give the people myself because I'm a gift.
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  OK, I'm a gift.
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  I don't need to.
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  Oh, what if you said this factory?
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  I don't know.
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  Who cares?
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  You have chat.
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  It's not about the facts.
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  It's about the frequency.
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  OK.
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  Okay, so I say to myself, first I need to believe I'm writing.
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  Oh, can I say these words?
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  Can I hold them?
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  I'm writing a book.
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  I started a book project, finally putting all my thoughts on being seen into a place.
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  Okay, a book.
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  And let's see where it goes.
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  But I started it.
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  And I was, you know, what a book allows, what writing allows is really clarifying the structure of...
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  And the clarity, I would say, like the.
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  I'm a speaker naturally, not a writer naturally, I do write, but I mean, you know, all of us really as a species, we didn't evolve to write.
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  We came to write, but it's not like speaking where like we evolved to we are evolutionarily like designed to speak right.
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  So anyway, that follows for me.
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  Now, there are people who are the opposite.
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  They're more writers than speakers.
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  They're more painters than this.
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  We are here as expansive, expressive beings.
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  Nothing is better or worse.
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  But what it is helping me to do, what writing does, is it slows you down and it shows you, what do I actually know?
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  What is seeking to be known through me in a slower way?
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  Because as a speaker, it's more fluid.
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  I'm like, it's all here and I'm like dancing with it.
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  But as a writer, I slow down, okay?
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  Okay.
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  Writing in some ways, it's such a beautiful craft.
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  It also pains me, but I think that's because editing pains me.
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  So if you're an editor, holler at me.
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  But I also don't really answer emails.
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  But I'm working on it.
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  I'm working on it.
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  I was not born for these times.
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  Okay, so what it's helping me do is clarify the step by step.
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  And the first step, I was like, what do they need to know first?
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  What do they need to believe?
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  Like for someone to allow themselves to be seen with soul, to be seen in a way that helps us co-create heaven on earth, what would they need to believe?
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  They would need to believe in themselves.
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  They would need to believe in their own generosity.
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  And when we say believe in yourself, sometimes we think we need to believe in us, but we need to believe through us.
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  Through us.
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  Through me, something wants to emerge.
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  If I believe I'm a gift, you know, we speak about the artist as a channel.
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  So they're receiving the divine, but who is it for?
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  Who is the divine trying to access?
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  It is the person on the other side as well.
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  Okay?
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  If the divine does everything to channel the song through me, it's also because the divine loves who's going to listen to it.
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  Okay?
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  Okay.
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  So...
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  channeling okay for them so if you believe you are that through line you are that conduit you are that gift to be given then maybe you lean into it more and you let go a little bit of the perfectionism you let go a little bit of the idea that it has to be a certain way because that is self-oriented you're looking at yourself I'm not good enough I didn't say enough I I I I I instead of okay so we shifting from
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  What can I get?
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  Which when we're in perfectionism, we want to get approval.
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  We want to get someone saying this is okay.
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  Because we were conditioned to believe that is the highest possibility is someone just telling us we're okay.
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  And so we're trying to get people to say this is good enough rather than what am I trying to give?
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  So we're shifting from ego to soul.
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  The soul is here as a source that already knows itself.
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  It doesn't require validation.
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  The soul isn't looking for people to tell it it's worthy.
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  You know, it's a knowing.
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  It's a place of knowing within.
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  It already knows.
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  Your soul already knows.
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  So when we share from that place, I don't need, you know, it's lovely to receive beautiful messages of light.
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  But the soul already knows.
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  And what's also really beautiful that I believe is in a greater soul.
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  So I think if you're still here, I mean, we are like people.
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  drawing from or mosaics of the same soul it's like when my best friend he'll say something and it's like I was literally thinking that I needed to tell that to him and so it's like are we one mind and
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  just experiencing itself split into two?
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  In some ways, I believe so.
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  So it's like that soul resonance.
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  That's what we are here.
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  We are soul siblings, meaning we're resonating on the same frequency.
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  We are that deeper part of us comes from the same.
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  It's like the continents of the soul.
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  Like those were from the same continent of the soul.
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  Okay.
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  And so obviously we have our own unique expressions, but there's a resonance, right?
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  There's a frequency there that's like, ooh,
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  And so when we allow that part of ourselves to be seen, which is what the world needs...
• 33:25
  Does the world need more egos to be seen?
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  Like when we say be more seen, do we mean like, that's why I said people who just don't stand for something in their visibility that helps people.
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  I don't think that we need more of that.
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  Sorry.
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  People are just promoting consumerism, buying things or like, do we need more of that?
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  I don't know.
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  Not everyone needs to be seen.
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  Actually, it's not about being the person.
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  It's about what aspect of themselves they allow to be visible.
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  So anyways, we've been on such a journey and I feel like the journey has journeyed.
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  I feel like we've been on an adventure.
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  I feel like you understand by now that the fact that you're afraid of being seen means you're part of the soul collective of people who desperately need to be seen.
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  Not as in you need to be seen, as in we need to desperately see you.
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  So the desperation is there.
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  It's in us.
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  We desperately need to see you.
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  We desperately need your medicine.
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  We desperately need what only you can give.
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  Because of the ripple effects of your giving.
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  And so we are part of the collective that feels the fear and we do it anyway.
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  We are afraid to be seen and we choose to do it anyway.
• 34:29
  We are afraid to be judged and we say, but this is my, I don't know how you feel about the word sacrifice.
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  It has to be said that it is involved in sort of every spiritual understanding that there's a sacrifice that is made, but let's call it, this is my response.
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  This is my devotion.
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  I'm so devoted to what could be possible that I'm willing to face the possibilities I wouldn't have chosen for myself along the way.
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  That is my generosity.
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  To be so generous to the collective spirit that I'm willing to withstand what most people run away from, which is the fact that people may judge me, the fact that I may judge myself.
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  And I'm going to choose this dream in so many different tiny ways.
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  I'm going to choose to be seen because something wants to be seen through me.
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  I'm going to choose to write my ideas down because something wants to be written and expressed through me.
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  But that means that something wants to be read through me.
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  Ha!
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  Do you hear it?
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  Do you feel it?
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  Okay, I'm going to choose to write because something wants to be written through me.
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  which means that something wants to be read through me.
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  I'm going to choose to speak because something wants to be spoken through me, because something wants to be heard through me.
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  So I'm an instrument.
• 36:04
  I'm an instrument.
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  And there's a way, you know how an instrument, the resonance also comes from the cavity that is held.
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  You know, like you can't just have strings.
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  You need the box to hold the strings.
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  You can't just have skin.
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  You need the drum to hold.
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  There's a part of resonance that requires a container.
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  So everything that you have held in this life is part of your container that creates your resonance.
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  And that sound that you produce,
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  is seeking to be experienced, heard, and felt through you.
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  So you surrender that people may say, oh, I don't like this drum.
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  You surrender that people may say, I don't like the look of this drum.
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  You surrender the fact that people may say, this drum could have been this, could have been bigger, could have been smaller.
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  This drum, take that bigger, smaller out.
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  This drum could have been different.
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  You surrender and you say, but I make a sound.
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  Okay?
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  There's sound being made in a greater song and dance
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  that is seeking to be sung, expressed through me.
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  And I honor that and I hold that and I join the people who've come before me who have been generous, who have sacrificed how people might have seen or received them in order to do their life's work.
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  I'm sending so much love to you.
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  This was a very powerful soul session.
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  I hope that you received.
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  I hope that you enjoyed.
• 37:31
  I hope that you feel when you make your video, when you post publish on your sub stack, when you send an email and you worry you're being annoying or people unsubscribe and you think, oh my goodness, I feel so rejected.
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  I feel so unloved.
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  I feel so unseen.
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  I hope that you hold that this is part of what
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  what our soul's purpose and expression is asking of us in this lifetime.
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  And you are not alone.
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  We are doing this work with you.
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  Comment below.
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  Feel the frequency.
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  Feel the energy.
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  of people being brave with their voice, with their art, with their heart, okay?
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  Because we are heartists over here.
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  We are heart-led artists.
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  So we are being vulnerable, we're being brave, and we're trusting that the fact that we are afraid may simply mean that this is our destiny.
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  Because we are conscious of the fear of,
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  We're conscious of the magnitude and yet we're doing it anyway.
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  And that's so magical and brave.
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  And I think that is something to be so proud of at the end of our lives and during.
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  No matter what unfolds through the happening.
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  To be brave, to be generous, to have lived a life where you try to give to the world.
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  I mean...
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  I think that's such a life well lived.
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  I think that's, you know, and well lived through you.
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  Like the collective looking at your life thinking, thank you, thank you, thank you.
• 39:02
  We are going to close this soul session with an invitation.
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  If there's someone whose visibility has moved you, it could be a writer, a singer, a musician.
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  It could be a content creator, a speaker, a host, a podcaster.
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  It could be an actor whose performances have completely changed your life, a director, a director.
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  Anyone who has changed you and part of that changing could only have happened through them being witnessed in it, through them being seen in it, because there are so many people who...
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  change our lives and we don't realize the sacrifice they made in allowing themselves to change our lives.
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  You know what I mean?
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  Maybe they wrote a book that they were terrified their parents would read and would see their truth told from their perspective as a child, but obviously would go against the parent's image.
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  Again, kernel of truth or the whole truth.
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  Or maybe they sacrificed everyone they went to grew up with who said, you'll never be a good singer.
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  You'll never be a pop star.
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  And they sacrificed their approval.
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  We don't see the invisible ways that someone has allowed their dream to break their heart, that someone has allowed their fear to break.
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  to be felt, but not to block them from their purpose.
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  We don't see all the tiny ways someone has chosen us as their listeners, as their readers, over their own ego, their own comfort, their own desire or need to be liked or approved of.
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  We don't see it.
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  So I'm gonna invite you to write a letter to someone whose visibility has moved you, changed you, shifted you.
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  And just get creative.
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  Imagine what they might have had to overcome in that process.
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  Maybe there's an essay you return to again and again.
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  You don't imagine that that you just think it's an incredible essay.
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  You don't imagine that maybe they were stressed.
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  Maybe they were fearful that it wasn't good enough.
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  Maybe they were fearful that it had been said before.
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  Maybe they were fearful that it would never be published or never be received.
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  Maybe they almost didn't publish it.
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  Maybe it was their least favorite essay.
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  Someone told them it was good and they chose to share it.
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  We don't know what someone had to face, but we know that artists, because we're so sensitive, there was a facing.
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  There was a facing.
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  So let's write little love letters to people who have been brave with how they've allowed themselves to be seen.
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  Brave with the music they've made.
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  Brave with the...
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  frequency they've shared.
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  Brave with their voice, brave with their dreams, brave with their ideas and thank them and then feel the resonance in your words, in your letter.
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  Thank you so much for writing.
• 41:32
  Audrey Lord, that essay that changed me, the book actually starts with a quote from
• 41:39
  from Audre Lorde, because that essay, The Transformation of Silence into Language and Action, completely changed me.
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  It's like the birthing place of everything that I was allowed to, within myself, be seen in through that essay.
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  So thank you so much for writing this.
• 41:53
  I don't know, you know, she wrote about her experience with cancer.
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  You know, it takes so much courage to allow yourself to be seen in your vulnerability.
• 42:00
  She wrote about the ways that she had hoped silence would save her, but it didn't.
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  She wrote about her pain.
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  She wrote about her power.
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  And that takes courage.
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  I don't know what it has taken, but I can imagine, you know, I can imagine this incredible black lesbian revolutionary woman, mother, mother.
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  Poet, writer, I can imagine living at a certain time.
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  I can imagine, like, thank you so much for allowing your words to be seen, for showing up for your work when it wasn't seen, for showing up and doing the invisible work.
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  Because we're talking about visibility, but visibility is the tip of the iceberg.
• 42:40
  To be seen, it's all the invisible work that allowed that person to be seen.
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  You know what I mean?
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  And life is like that.
• 42:47
  It's like the compounding thing where it's like we see the tiniest aspect of anything.
• 42:51
  We may see the person on the stage performing, but not all the rehearsals and all the tiny ways they've been singing since they were five years old or whatever it is.
• 42:59
  You know, we see the person on the podcast being interviewed about the book, but not all the invisible hours writing the book.
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  We see the book be turned into an HBO show, but not all the years it took to publish.
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  You know what I mean?
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  So we thank you for your invisible work, but we also thank you for allowing your work to be visible.
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  Because you could be that iceberg, babes.
• 43:17
  You could have all the structure underneath you, but never allow yourself to burst through.
• 43:22
  For example, let's actually change metaphors to a plant.
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  to a plant, you could have the entire root system.
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  You are rooted.
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  You are fed.
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  You are held.
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  You are supported.
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  You are receiving signs, signals.
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  You're receiving messages, guides.
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  You are so supported.
• 43:36
  You have everything you need, but you could still not allow yourself to burst through and blossom.
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  And so we thank you for the invisible work, but we also thank you for allowing yourself to be seen, experienced, to leave the womb of safety and into the world screaming, wailing, crying.
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  Because if it was up to part of you, you would never have left.
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  That takes courage.
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  That takes vision.
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  That takes a willingness to be generous because now that baby gets to be the light of so many people's lives and grow up to transform the world.
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  I'm sending so much love to you.
• 44:13
  I'm sending so much love through you.
• 44:14
  I hope you enjoyed today's soul session and that it has served your deepest consciousness.
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  You are generous.
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  You are a gift.
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  You deserve to be seen.
• 44:21
  Let us all step into sharing our love and light with the world and trusting that a
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  higher happening is trying to unfold.
• 44:28
  There is a whole world of love trying to be born through each of us.
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  And it starts with that tiniest step towards your dream, your calling, your vision of being seen because you have that vision for a reason.
• 44:43
  And there are people on the other side of that vision calling in your art, your heart, your music, your teaching, your words, your books, your ideas.
• 44:53
  I'm sending so much love to you and I will see you on the next.
• 44:56
  Actually, I want to change this.
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  What should it be?
• 44:57
  Does anyone have any suggestions?
• 44:59
  I'll see you on.
• 45:00
  I'm like, I just have maybe outgrown it.
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  But I don't know.
• 45:04
  Does that mean to myself, to us?
• 45:07
  I don't know.
• 45:08
  But I'm looking for something new.
• 45:10
  But anyways, for now, I love you so much and I will see you on the next soul session.
• 45:15
  I love you.
• 45:15
  You see, it just doesn't feel right anymore.
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  I don't know.
• 45:18
  We grow, we change.
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  I love you so much.
• 45:21
  Bye.
• 45:22
  No, I love you so much.
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  Goodbye.
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  That doesn't feel right.
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  I love you so much.
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  Bye bye.
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  Oh, it's over.
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  My darling, my love, my soul sibling, thank you for stepping into the soul salon.
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  If you are still hearing or watching this, we are soul siblings.
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  We are resonating on the same frequency.
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  And so something you may struggle with that I struggle with is the fear of being seen.
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  You know that visibility is involved in you living your creative purpose and being in your power.
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  serving the collective through your gifts, through your magic, through your medicine.
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  In order to do that, you know you need to be more seen than you are allowing yourself to be right now.
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  I have a gift just for you, heart made for us on this frequency.
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  And it is a free ebook called the soulful visibility guide that is soulful visibility.
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  Like we don't just want to be seen.
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  We want to be felt.
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  We want to be heard.
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  We want to move and be moved.
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  So I do have a free gift for you.
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  And all you need to do is go to my website.
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  I understood.com and there you will be able to input your email address and receive this directly to your inbox.
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  This is such a juicy and delicious guide.
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  And I change the free offering every few months.
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  So, you know, get it while you can.
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  All the links are in the show notes.
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  So thank you so much.
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  I love you.
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  And I will see you on the next Soul Session.
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  Okay?
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  I love you.
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  Bye.