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- 0:00Speaker 1: Chapter three, Section two of the New Machiavelli by H. G. Wells.
- 0:06Speaker 1: This LibriVox recording is in the public domain recording by
- 0:11Speaker 1: Antoniogus five. These things stabbed through my life, intimations of
- 0:18Speaker 1: things above and below and before me. They had an
- 0:21Speaker 1: air of being no more than incidents interruptions. The broad
- 0:27Speaker 1: substance of my existence at this time was the city
- 0:30Speaker 1: Merchant's school home was a place where I slept and read,
- 0:36Speaker 1: and the mooning explorations of the Southeastern Postal District, which
- 0:40Speaker 1: occupied the restless evenings and spare days of my vacations,
- 0:45Speaker 1: mere interstices giving glimpses of enigmatical lights and distant spaces
- 0:50Speaker 1: between the woven threads of a schoolboy's career. School life
- 0:55Speaker 1: began for me every morning at Herne Hill, for there
- 0:59Speaker 1: I was joined by three or four other boys, and
- 1:01Speaker 1: the rest of the way we went together. Most of
- 1:05Speaker 1: the streets and roads we traversed in our morning's walk
- 1:08Speaker 1: from Victoria are still intact. The storms of rebuilding that
- 1:12Speaker 1: have submerred so much of my boyhood's London have passed
- 1:16Speaker 1: and left them, and I have revived the impression of
- 1:19Speaker 1: them again and again in recent years, as I have
- 1:22Speaker 1: clattered dinner wood in a handsome or hummed along in
- 1:25Speaker 1: a motor cab to some engagement, the main gate still
- 1:30Speaker 1: looks out with the same expression of ancient, well proportioned
- 1:33Speaker 1: kindliness upon Saint Margaret's close. There are imposing new science
- 1:39Speaker 1: laboratories in Chambers Street, indeed, but the old playing fields
- 1:43Speaker 1: are unaltered, except for the big electric trams that go
- 1:47Speaker 1: droning and spitting blue flashes along the western boundary. I
- 1:52Speaker 1: know Rat and the new head very well, but I
- 1:55Speaker 1: have not been inside the school to see if it
- 1:57Speaker 1: has changed at all. Since I went up to Carebridge.
- 2:02Speaker 1: I took all they put before us very readily as
- 2:04Speaker 1: a boy, for I had a mind of vigorous appetite.
- 2:08Speaker 1: But since I have grown mentally to man's estate and
- 2:11Speaker 1: developed a more and more comprehensive view of our national
- 2:15Speaker 1: process and our national needs, I am more and more
- 2:19Speaker 1: struck by the oddity of the educational methods pursued their
- 2:23Speaker 1: aimless disconnectedness from the constructive forces in the community. I suppose,
- 2:29Speaker 1: if we are to view the public school as anything
- 2:32Speaker 1: more than an institution that has just chanced to happen,
- 2:35Speaker 1: we mist treated us. Having a definite function towards the
- 2:39Speaker 1: general scheme of the nation, as being in a sense
- 2:42Speaker 1: designed to take the crude young male of the more
- 2:45Speaker 1: or less responsible class, to correct his harsh egotisms, broaden
- 2:50Speaker 1: his outlook, give him a grasp of the contemporary developments
- 2:54Speaker 1: he will presently be called upon to influence and control,
- 2:57Speaker 1: and send him onto the university to be made a
- 3:00Speaker 1: leading and ruling social man. It is easy enough to
- 3:04Speaker 1: carpet schoolmasters and set up for an educational reformer, I know.
- 3:09Speaker 1: But still it is impossible not to feel how infinitely
- 3:13Speaker 1: more effectually, given certain impossibilities, perhaps the job might be done.
- 3:20Speaker 1: My memory of school has indeed no hint whatever of
- 3:22Speaker 1: that quality of elucidation. It seems reasonable to demand from it.
- 3:27Speaker 1: Here all about me was London a vast inexplicable being,
- 3:32Speaker 1: a vortex of gigantic forces that filled and overwhelmed me
- 3:36Speaker 1: with impressions that stirred my imagination to perpetual vague inquiry.
- 3:43Speaker 1: And my school not only offered no key to it,
- 3:46Speaker 1: but had practically no comment to make upon it at all.
- 3:50Speaker 1: We were within three miles of Westminster and Charing Cross,
- 3:54Speaker 1: the government offices of a fifth of mankind were all
- 3:57Speaker 1: within an hour's stroll. Eight economic changes were going on
- 4:02Speaker 1: under our eyes. Now the hoardings flamed with election placards.
- 4:06Speaker 1: Now the Salvation Army, and now the unemployed came trailing
- 4:10Speaker 1: in procession through the winter gray streets. Now the newspaper
- 4:14Speaker 1: placards outside news shops told of battles in strange places, now,
- 4:19Speaker 1: of amazing discoveries. Now of sinister crimes, abject squalor and poverty,
- 4:25Speaker 1: imperial splendor and luxury, Buckingham Palace, rotten Row, Mayfair, the
- 4:31Speaker 1: slums of Pimlico, garbage littered streets of balling costermongers, the
- 4:36Speaker 1: inky silver of the barge laden Thames. Such was the
- 4:40Speaker 1: background of our days. We went across Saint Margaret's Close
- 4:45Speaker 1: and through the school gate into a quiet, puerile world.
- 4:49Speaker 1: Apart from all these things, we joined in the earnest
- 4:53Speaker 1: acquirement of all that was necessary for Greek epigrams and
- 4:57Speaker 1: Latin verse, and for the rest played go. We dip
- 5:01Speaker 1: down into something clear and elegantly proportioned and time worn,
- 5:06Speaker 1: and for all its high resolve of stalwart virility, a
- 5:10Speaker 1: little feeble like our blackened and decayed portals by Inigo Jones.
- 5:17Speaker 1: Within we were taught as the chief subjects of instruction
- 5:20Speaker 1: Latin and Greek. We were taught very badly, because the
- 5:24Speaker 1: men who taught us did not habitually use either of
- 5:27Speaker 1: these languages. Nobody uses them anymore now, except perhaps for
- 5:31Speaker 1: the Latin of a few Levantine monasteries. At the utmost
- 5:36Speaker 1: our men read them. We were taught these languages because
- 5:40Speaker 1: long ago Latin had been the language of civilization, the
- 5:44Speaker 1: one way of escape from the narrow and localized life
- 5:47Speaker 1: had lain in those days through Latin, and afterwards Greek
- 5:51Speaker 1: had come in as the vehicle of a flood of
- 5:53Speaker 1: new and amazing ideas. Once these two languages had been
- 5:58Speaker 1: the sole means of initiation to the detached criticism and
- 6:02Speaker 1: partial comprehension of the world. I can imagine the fierce
- 6:06Speaker 1: zeal of our first heads, Gardener and Roper, teaching Greek
- 6:11Speaker 1: like passionate missionaries, as a progressive Chinaman might teach English
- 6:15Speaker 1: to the boys of p King, clumsily, impatiently with rod
- 6:20Speaker 1: and harsh urgency, but sincerely patriotically, because they felt that
- 6:26Speaker 1: behind it lay revelations, the irresistible stimulus to a new
- 6:30Speaker 1: phase of history that was long ago, a new great world,
- 6:36Speaker 1: a vaster imperialism had arisen about. The school had assimilated
- 6:41Speaker 1: all these amazing and incredible ideas, had gone to new
- 6:45Speaker 1: and yet more amazing developments of its own. But the
- 6:49Speaker 1: City Merchant's School still made the substance of its teaching
- 6:53Speaker 1: Latin and Greek, still with no thought of rotating crops
- 6:58Speaker 1: sowed in a dream amidst the harvesting. There is no
- 7:02Speaker 1: fierceness left in the teaching now. Just after I went
- 7:06Speaker 1: up to Trinity Gates, are Head wrote a review article
- 7:10Speaker 1: in defense of our curriculum. In this, among other indiscretions,
- 7:15Speaker 1: he asserted that it was impossible to write good English
- 7:18Speaker 1: without an illuminating knowledge of the classic tongues, and he
- 7:22Speaker 1: split an infinitive and failed to button up a sentence
- 7:26Speaker 1: in saying so. His main argument conceded every objection a
- 7:31Speaker 1: reasonable person could make to the City Merchant's curriculum. He
- 7:35Speaker 1: admitted that translation had now placed all the wisdom of
- 7:38Speaker 1: the past at a common man's disposal, that scarcely a
- 7:42Speaker 1: field of endeavor remained in which modern work had not
- 7:45Speaker 1: long since passed beyond the ancient achievement. He disclaimed any utility.
- 7:52Speaker 1: But there was, he said, a peculiar magic in these
- 7:55Speaker 1: grammatical exercises. No other subjects of instruction possessed. Nothing else
- 8:00Speaker 1: provided the same strengthening an orderly discipline for the mind.
- 8:05Speaker 1: He said that, knowing the senior classics, he did himself
- 8:09Speaker 1: a senior classic. Yet in a dim confused way, I
- 8:14Speaker 1: think he was making out a case. In schools as
- 8:18Speaker 1: we knew them, and with the sort of assistant available,
- 8:21Speaker 1: the sort of assistant who has been trained entirely on
- 8:24Speaker 1: the old lines, he could see no other teaching so
- 8:28Speaker 1: effectual in developing attention, restraint, sustained constructive effort, and various
- 8:34Speaker 1: yet systematic adjustment. And that was as far as his
- 8:38Speaker 1: imagination could go. It is infinitely easier to begin organize
- 8:44Speaker 1: human affairs than end them. The curriculum and the social
- 8:48Speaker 1: organization of the English public school are the crowning instances
- 8:52Speaker 1: of that. They go on because they have begun. Schools
- 8:56Speaker 1: are not only immortal institutions, but reproduct ones. Our founder,
- 9:02Speaker 1: yabezarvon knew nothing. I am sure of Gates pedagogic values,
- 9:06Speaker 1: and would I feel certain, have dealt with them disrespectfully.
- 9:11Speaker 1: But public schools and university colleges sprang into existence correlated
- 9:17Speaker 1: the scholars went on to the universities and came back
- 9:20Speaker 1: to teach the schools, to teach as they themselves had
- 9:23Speaker 1: been taught, before they had ever made any real use
- 9:26Speaker 1: of the teaching. The crowd of boys herded together, a
- 9:30Speaker 1: crowd perpetually renewed, and unbrokenly. The same adjusted itself by
- 9:35Speaker 1: means of spontaneously developed institutions in a century. By its
- 9:41Speaker 1: very success, this revolutionary innovation of Renaissance public schools had
- 9:46Speaker 1: become an immense tradition, woven closely into the fabric of
- 9:50Speaker 1: the national life. Intelligent and powerful people ceased to talk
- 9:55Speaker 1: Latin or read Greek. They had got what was wanted.
- 9:58Speaker 1: But that only left the school master the freer to
- 10:01Speaker 1: elaborate his point. Since most man of any importance or
- 10:05Speaker 1: influence in the country had been through the mill, it
- 10:08Speaker 1: was naturally a little difficult to persuade them that it
- 10:11Speaker 1: was not quite the best and most ennobling mill the
- 10:14Speaker 1: wit of man could devise. And moreover, they did not
- 10:19Speaker 1: want their children made strange to them. There was all
- 10:22Speaker 1: the machinery and all the men needed to teach the
- 10:25Speaker 1: old subjects, and none to teach whatever knew the critic
- 10:28Speaker 1: might propose. Such science instruction as my father gave, seemed
- 10:33Speaker 1: indeed the uninviting alternative to the classical grind. It was
- 10:38Speaker 1: certainly in altogether inferer instruments at that time. So it
- 10:43Speaker 1: was I occupied my mind with the exact study of
- 10:46Speaker 1: dead languages for seven long years. It was the strangest
- 10:50Speaker 1: of detachments. We would sit under the desk of such
- 10:54Speaker 1: a master as Topham, like creatures who had fallen into
- 10:57Speaker 1: an enchanted pit, and he would do so his considerable
- 11:01Speaker 1: best to work us up to enthusiasm for let us say,
- 11:04Speaker 1: a Greek play. If we flagged, he would lash himself
- 11:08Speaker 1: to revive us. He would walk about the classroom mouthing
- 11:12Speaker 1: great lines in a rich roar, and asking us with
- 11:15Speaker 1: a flushed face and shining eyes if it was not glorious.
- 11:20Speaker 1: The very sight of Greek letters brings back to me
- 11:23Speaker 1: the dingy, faded ink splash quality of our classroom, the
- 11:27Speaker 1: banging of books, Topham's disordered hair, the scene of his
- 11:31Speaker 1: alpaca gown, his deep unmusical intonations, and the wide striding
- 11:36Speaker 1: of his creaking boots. Glorious and being plastic human beings.
- 11:42Speaker 1: We would consent that it was glorious, and some of
- 11:46Speaker 1: us even achieved an answering reverberation and a sympathetic flush.
- 11:52Speaker 1: I at times responded freely. We all accepted from him
- 11:55Speaker 1: unquestioningly that these melodies, these strange sounds, exceeded any possibility
- 12:02Speaker 1: of beauty that lay in the Gothic intricacy, the splash
- 12:05Speaker 1: and glitter, the jar and recovery, the stabbing lights, the
- 12:10Speaker 1: heights and broad distances of our English tongue. That indeed
- 12:15Speaker 1: was the chief sin of him. It was not that
- 12:17Speaker 1: he was for Greek and Latin, but that he was
- 12:20Speaker 1: fiercely against every beauty that was neither classic nor deferred
- 12:24Speaker 1: to classical canons. And what exactly did we make of it,
- 12:29Speaker 1: we seniors, who understood it best. We visualized dimly through
- 12:33Speaker 1: that dust and the grammatical difficulties, the spectacle of the
- 12:38Speaker 1: chorus chanting grotesquely helping out protagonist and antagonists, masked and buskined,
- 12:45Speaker 1: with the telling of incomprehensible parricides, of inexplicable incest of gods,
- 12:51Speaker 1: faded beyond symbolism of that relentless law we did not
- 12:55Speaker 1: believe in for a moment that no modern Western European
- 12:59Speaker 1: can believe. We thought of the characters in the unconvincing
- 13:03Speaker 1: whigs and costumes of our school performance. No Gilbert Murray
- 13:08Speaker 1: had come as yet to touch these things to life again.
- 13:11Speaker 1: It was like the ghost of an antiquarian's toy theater,
- 13:15Speaker 1: a ghost that crumbled and condensed into a gritty dust
- 13:18Speaker 1: of construing as one looked at it marks Shindy's prayers
- 13:23Speaker 1: and punishments, all flavored with the leathery stuffiness of time
- 13:27Speaker 1: worn big Hall. And then how one would come through
- 13:31Speaker 1: our gray old gate into the evening light and the
- 13:35Speaker 1: spectacle of London, hurrying like a cataract, London in black
- 13:39Speaker 1: and brown and blue and gleaming silver, roaring like the
- 13:43Speaker 1: very loom of time. We came out into the new world.
- 13:47Speaker 1: No teacher has yet had the power and courage to
- 13:50Speaker 1: grasp and expound life and death sang all about one,
- 13:55Speaker 1: joys and fears on such a scale, in such an
- 13:58Speaker 1: intricacy as never Greened nor Roman knew. The interminable procession
- 14:03Speaker 1: of horse omnibuses went lumbering past, bearing countless people. We
- 14:08Speaker 1: knew not whence we knew, not whither hansoms, clattered foot,
- 14:13Speaker 1: passengers jostled one A thousand appeals of shop and boarding
- 14:17Speaker 1: caught the eye. The multi colored lights of window and
- 14:21Speaker 1: street mingled with the warm glow of the declining day,
- 14:26Speaker 1: under the softly flushing London skies. The ever changing placards,
- 14:31Speaker 1: the shouting news vendors told of a kaleidoscopic drama all
- 14:35Speaker 1: about the globe. One did not realize what had happened
- 14:39Speaker 1: to us, but the voice of Topham was suddenly drowned
- 14:43Speaker 1: and lost. He and his minute remote gesticulations that submerged
- 14:50Speaker 1: and isolated curriculum did not even join on to living
- 14:54Speaker 1: interests where it might have done. So we were left
- 14:57Speaker 1: absolutely to the hints of the newspapers, to casual political speeches,
- 15:02Speaker 1: to the cartoons of the comic papers, or a chance
- 15:05Speaker 1: reading of some socialist pamphlet for any general ideas whatever
- 15:09Speaker 1: about the huge, swirling world process in which we found ourselves.
- 15:15Speaker 1: I always look back with particular exasperation to the cessation
- 15:19Speaker 1: of our modern history at the year eighteen fifteen. There
- 15:23Speaker 1: it pulled up abruptly, as though it had come upon
- 15:26Speaker 1: something indelicate. But after all, what would top a more
- 15:30Speaker 1: flack have maid of the huge adjustments of the nineteenth century.
- 15:35Speaker 1: Flack was the chief cricketer on the staff. He belonged
- 15:38Speaker 1: to that great cult which pretends that the place of
- 15:41Speaker 1: this or that county in the struggle for the championship
- 15:45Speaker 1: is a matter of supreme importance to boys. He obliged
- 15:49Speaker 1: us to effect a passionate interest in the progress of
- 15:52Speaker 1: county matches, to work up our natural enthusiasms. What a
- 15:57Speaker 1: fuss there will be when some well trained boy, panting
- 16:00Speaker 1: as if from marathon, appear with an evening paper. I say, you, chaps,
- 16:04Speaker 1: Middlesex all out for one hundred and five. Under flax pressure,
- 16:09Speaker 1: I became, my confess a cricket humbug of the first class.
- 16:14Speaker 1: I applied myself industriously, year by year to mastering scores
- 16:18Speaker 1: and averages. I pretended that Lords or the Oval were
- 16:22Speaker 1: the place's nearest paradise for me. I never went to either.
- 16:27Speaker 1: Through a slight mistake about the county boundary, I adopted
- 16:31Speaker 1: Surrey for my loyalty, though as a matter of fact
- 16:34Speaker 1: we were by some five hundred yards or so in Kent.
- 16:38Speaker 1: It did quite as well for my purposes. I bowled
- 16:41Speaker 1: rather straight and fast, and spent endless hours acquiring the
- 16:45Speaker 1: skill to bowl Flak out. He was a bat in
- 16:49Speaker 1: the Corinthian style, rich and voluminous, and succumbed very easily
- 16:54Speaker 1: to a low shooter or an unexpected Yorker, but usually
- 16:58Speaker 1: he was caught early by long. The difficulty was to
- 17:02Speaker 1: bowl him before he got caught. He loved to lift
- 17:05Speaker 1: a ball to leg. After one had clean bolt him
- 17:08Speaker 1: at the practiced nets, one deliberately gave him a ball
- 17:12Speaker 1: to leg just to make him feel nice again. Flack
- 17:16Speaker 1: went about a world of marvels, dreaming of leg hits.
- 17:20Speaker 1: He has been observed going across the park on his
- 17:23Speaker 1: way to his highly respectable club in Piccadilly, to break
- 17:26Speaker 1: from profound musings into a strange brief dance that ended
- 17:31Speaker 1: with an imaginary swipe with his umbrella a roofer over
- 17:35Speaker 1: the trees towards Buckingham Palace. The hit accomplished, Flak resumed
- 17:39Speaker 1: his way, inadequately instructed, foreigners would pass him in terror,
- 17:45Speaker 1: needlessly alert. Six these schoolmasters moved through my memory as
- 17:53Speaker 1: always a little distant and more than a little incomprehensible,
- 17:58Speaker 1: except when they wore flannels. I saw them almost always
- 18:01Speaker 1: in old college caps and gowns, a uniform which greatly
- 18:06Speaker 1: increased their detachment from the world of actual men. Gates
- 18:10Speaker 1: the head was a lean, looselim man, rather stupid, I
- 18:14Speaker 1: discovered when I reached the sixth and came into contact
- 18:18Speaker 1: with him, but honest, simple, and very eager to be
- 18:21Speaker 1: liberal minded. He was bold, with an almost conical baldness,
- 18:27Speaker 1: with a grizzled, pointed beard, small featured, and under the
- 18:31Speaker 1: stresses of a teitgeist that demanded liberality. With an expression
- 18:35Speaker 1: of puzzled but resolute resistance to his own unalterable opinions.
- 18:40Speaker 1: He made a tall, dignified figure in his gown. In
- 18:44Speaker 1: my junior days, he spoke to me only three or
- 18:47Speaker 1: four times, and then he annoyed me by giving me
- 18:50Speaker 1: a wrong surname. It was a sore point, because I
- 18:54Speaker 1: was an outsider and not one of the old school families,
- 18:58Speaker 1: the shoesmiths, the nailers, the markloths, the Tophams, the Pevices,
- 19:03Speaker 1: and such like, who came generation after generation. I recall
- 19:08Speaker 1: him most vividly against the background of faded brown book
- 19:12Speaker 1: backs in the old library in which we less destructive
- 19:15Speaker 1: seniors were trusted to work with. The light from the
- 19:19Speaker 1: stained glass window falling in colored patches on his face.
- 19:23Speaker 1: It gave him the appearance of having no color of
- 19:26Speaker 1: his own. He had a habit of scratching the beard
- 19:29Speaker 1: on his cheek as he talked, and he used to
- 19:32Speaker 1: come and consult us about things, and invariably do as
- 19:35Speaker 1: we said that in his phraseology was maintaining the traditions
- 19:40Speaker 1: of the school. He had indeed an effect not of
- 19:45Speaker 1: a man directing a school, but of a man captured
- 19:48Speaker 1: and directed by a school. Dead and gone. Elizabethans had
- 19:52Speaker 1: forgotten a monster that could carry him about in its mouth,
- 19:56Speaker 1: yet being a man, as I say, with his hair
- 19:58Speaker 1: a little stir by seitegeist that made for change. Gates
- 20:03Speaker 1: did at times display a disposition towards developments. City merchants
- 20:08Speaker 1: had no modern side, and utilitarian spirits were carping in
- 20:12Speaker 1: the Palmal Gazette and elsewhere at the omissions from our curriculum,
- 20:16Speaker 1: and particularly at our want of German. Moreover, four classes
- 20:21Speaker 1: still worked together, with much clashing and uproar in the
- 20:25Speaker 1: old big hall that had once held in a common
- 20:27Speaker 1: tumult the entire school. Gates used to come and talk
- 20:31Speaker 1: to us older fellows about these things. I don't wish
- 20:35Speaker 1: to innovate unduly, he used to say, But we ought
- 20:39Speaker 1: to get in some German you know, for those who
- 20:42Speaker 1: like it. The army men will be wanting it some
- 20:45Speaker 1: of these days. He referred to the organization of regular
- 20:50Speaker 1: evening preparation for the lower boys in Big Hall as
- 20:54Speaker 1: a revolutionary change. But he achieved it, and he declared,
- 20:58Speaker 1: he began the replacement of the hacked wooden tables at
- 21:02Speaker 1: which the boys had worked since Tudor days, by sloping
- 21:05Speaker 1: desks with safety ink pots and scientifically adjustable seats. With
- 21:10Speaker 1: grave misgivings. And though he never birched a boy in
- 21:13Speaker 1: his life, and was I am convinced morally incapable of
- 21:17Speaker 1: such a scuffle, he retained the block and birch in
- 21:20Speaker 1: the school through all his term of office, and spoke
- 21:24Speaker 1: at the headmaster's conference in temperate approval of corporal chastisement,
- 21:29Speaker 1: comparing it, dear soul, to the power of the sword.
- 21:33Speaker 1: I wish I could, in some measure and without tediousness,
- 21:37Speaker 1: convey the effect of his discourses to general assembly in
- 21:40Speaker 1: Big Hall. But that is like trying to draw the
- 21:44Speaker 1: obverse and reverse of a sixpence worn to complete illegibility.
- 21:49Speaker 1: His tall, fine figure stood high on the days. His
- 21:52Speaker 1: thoughtful tenor filled the air as he steered his hazardous
- 21:55Speaker 1: way through sentences that dragged in conclusive tales and dropped
- 22:00Speaker 1: redundant prepositions, And he pleaded, ever so urgently, ever so finally,
- 22:06Speaker 1: that what we all knew for sin was sinful, and
- 22:09Speaker 1: on the whole best avoided altogether. And so went on
- 22:12Speaker 1: with deepening notes, and even with short, arresting gestures of
- 22:16Speaker 1: the right arm and hand to stir and exhort us
- 22:19Speaker 1: towards goodness, towards that modern, unsectarian goodness, goodness in general,
- 22:25Speaker 1: and nothing in particular, which the zeitguy seemed to indicate.
- 22:28Speaker 1: In those transitional years seven, the school never quite got
- 22:36Speaker 1: hold of me. Partly, I think that was because I
- 22:39Speaker 1: was a day boy and so freer than most of
- 22:41Speaker 1: the boys, Partly because of a temperamental disposition to see
- 22:46Speaker 1: things in my own way and have my private dreams.
- 22:49Speaker 1: Partly because I was a little antagonized by the family
- 22:52Speaker 1: traditions that ran through the school. I was made to
- 22:56Speaker 1: feel at first that I was a rank outsider, and
- 22:59Speaker 1: I know quite forgot it. I suffered very little bullying,
- 23:03Speaker 1: and I never had a fight. In all my time,
- 23:06Speaker 1: there were only three fights. But I followed my own curiosities.
- 23:10Speaker 1: I was already a very keen theologian politician before I
- 23:14Speaker 1: was fifteen. I was also intensely interested in modern warfare.
- 23:19Speaker 1: I read the morning papers in the reading room during
- 23:22Speaker 1: the midday recess, never missed the illustrated weeklies, and often,
- 23:26Speaker 1: when I could afford it, I bought a pal Maw
- 23:29Speaker 1: Gazette on my way home. I do not think that
- 23:32Speaker 1: I was very exceptional in that most intelligent boys, I
- 23:36Speaker 1: believe want naturally to be men and are keenly interested
- 23:39Speaker 1: in men's affairs. There is not the universal passion for
- 23:43Speaker 1: a magnified puriality among them. It is customary to assume
- 23:48Speaker 1: I was indeed a voracious reader of everything but boys books,
- 23:52Speaker 1: which I detested, and fiction. I read histories, travel, popular science,
- 23:57Speaker 1: and controversy with particular zen, and I loved maps. School
- 24:03Speaker 1: work and school games were quite subordinate affairs for me.
- 24:07Speaker 1: I worked well and made a passable figure at games,
- 24:10Speaker 1: and I do not think I was abnormally insensitive to
- 24:13Speaker 1: the fine quality of our school, to the charm of
- 24:16Speaker 1: its medieval nucleus, its Gothic cloisters, its scraps of Palladian
- 24:21Speaker 1: and its dignified George and extensions. The contrast of the
- 24:25Speaker 1: old quiet that, in spite of our presence, pervaded it everywhere,
- 24:29Speaker 1: with the rushing and impending London all about it was
- 24:33Speaker 1: indeed a continual pleasure to me. But these things were
- 24:36Speaker 1: certainly not the living and central interests of my life.
- 24:40Speaker 1: I had to conceal my wide routelook to a certain
- 24:43Speaker 1: extent from the masters, even more than from the boys. Indeed,
- 24:48Speaker 1: I only let myself go freely with one boy Britain,
- 24:51Speaker 1: my special chum, the son of the Agent General Friest Australia.
- 24:56Speaker 1: We two discovered in a chance conversation are proposver map
- 25:00Speaker 1: in the library that were we both of us curious
- 25:03Speaker 1: why there were malaise in Madagascar and how the Mecca
- 25:07Speaker 1: pilgrims came from the East Indies before steamships were available.
- 25:12Speaker 1: Neither of us had suspected that there was anyone at
- 25:15Speaker 1: all in the school who knew or cared a rap
- 25:17Speaker 1: about the Indian Ocean, except as water on the way
- 25:20Speaker 1: to India. But Britain had come up through the Suez Canal,
- 25:24Speaker 1: and his ship had spoken a pilgrim ship on the way.
- 25:28Speaker 1: It gave him a startling quality of living knowledge. From
- 25:32Speaker 1: these pilgrims we got to a comparative treatment of religions,
- 25:36Speaker 1: and from that by a sudden plunge to entirely skeptical
- 25:40Speaker 1: and disrespectful confessions concerning Gates's last outbreak of simple piety
- 25:46Speaker 1: in school assembly. We became congenial intimates from that hour.
- 25:53Speaker 1: The discovery of Britain happened to me when we were
- 25:55Speaker 1: both in the lower fifth. Previously, there had been a
- 25:58Speaker 1: water type composed ament between the books I read and
- 26:02Speaker 1: the thoughts they forgot on the one hand, and human
- 26:05Speaker 1: intercourse on the other. Now I really began my higher
- 26:09Speaker 1: education and aired and examined and developed in conversation the doubts,
- 26:14Speaker 1: the ideas, the interpretations that had been forming in my mind.
- 26:20Speaker 1: As we were both day boys with a good deal
- 26:22Speaker 1: of control over our time, we organized walks and expeditions together,
- 26:27Speaker 1: and my habit of solitary and rather vague prowling gave
- 26:31Speaker 1: way to much more definite joint enterprises. I went several
- 26:36Speaker 1: times to his house. He was the youngest of several brothers,
- 26:40Speaker 1: one of whom was a medical student, and let us
- 26:42Speaker 1: assist at the dissection of a cat, and once or
- 26:45Speaker 1: twice in vacation time, he came to Penge and we
- 26:49Speaker 1: went with parcels of provisions to do a thorough day
- 26:52Speaker 1: in the grounds and galleries of the Crystal Palace, ending
- 26:56Speaker 1: with the fireworks at close quarters. We went in a
- 27:00Speaker 1: river steamboat down to Greenwich and fired by that made
- 27:04Speaker 1: an excursion to Margate and back. We explored London Docks
- 27:08Speaker 1: and Bethnal Green Museum, Petticoat Lane, and all sorts of
- 27:12Speaker 1: out of the way places. Together we confessed shyly to
- 27:16Speaker 1: one another a common secret vice, phantom warfare. When we
- 27:21Speaker 1: walked alone and especially in the country. We had both
- 27:24Speaker 1: developed the same practice of fighting an imaginary battle about
- 27:28Speaker 1: us as we walked. As we went along, we were generals,
- 27:33Speaker 1: and our attacks pushed along on either side, crouching and
- 27:36Speaker 1: gathering behind hedges, cresting ridges, occupying copses, rushing open spaces,
- 27:43Speaker 1: fighting from house to house. The hillsides of our Penge
- 27:48Speaker 1: were honeycombed in my imagination, with the pits and trenches
- 27:51Speaker 1: I'd created to check a victorious invader coming out of Surrey.
- 27:57Speaker 1: For him, West Kensington was chiefly important as the scene
- 28:01Speaker 1: of a desperate and successful last stand of insurrectionary troops
- 28:05Speaker 1: who had seized the navy, the bank and other advantages
- 28:08Speaker 1: against a Royalist army reinforced by Germans advancing for reasons
- 28:14Speaker 1: best known to themselves by way of harrow and ealing.
- 28:18Speaker 1: It is a secret and solitary game, as we found
- 28:21Speaker 1: when we tried to play it together. We made a
- 28:24Speaker 1: success of that only once all the way down to Margate.
- 28:28Speaker 1: We schemed defenses and assailed and fought them as we
- 28:31Speaker 1: came back against the sunset. Afterwards we recapitulated all that
- 28:37Speaker 1: conflict by means of a large scale map of the
- 28:39Speaker 1: Thames and little paper iron clads in plan cut out
- 28:43Speaker 1: of paper. A subsequent revival of these imaginings was brought
- 28:49Speaker 1: about by Britain's luck in getting through a friend of
- 28:51Speaker 1: his father's admission for us both to the spectacle of
- 28:55Speaker 1: volunteer officers fighting the war game in Caxton Hall, we
- 29:00Speaker 1: developed a war game of our own at Britain's home,
- 29:03Speaker 1: with nearly a couple of hundred lead soldiers, some excellent
- 29:06Speaker 1: spring cannons that shot hard and true, at six yards
- 29:10Speaker 1: hills of books and a constantly elaborated set of rules.
- 29:15Speaker 1: For some months that occupied an immense proportion of our leisure.
- 29:20Speaker 1: Some of our battles lasted several days. We kept the
- 29:23Speaker 1: game a profound secret from the other fellows. They would
- 29:26Speaker 1: not have understood. And we also began, it was certainly
- 29:30Speaker 1: before we were sixteen, to write for the sake of writing.
- 29:34Speaker 1: We liked writing. We had discovered Lamb and the best
- 29:38Speaker 1: of the Middle articles in such weeklies as the Saturday Gazette,
- 29:41Speaker 1: and we imitated them. Our minds were full of dim,
- 29:45Speaker 1: uncertain things we wanted to drag out into the light
- 29:48Speaker 1: of expression. Britain had got hold of in Memoriam and
- 29:52Speaker 1: I had disinterred Pope's essay on Man and Rabbi ben Ezra,
- 29:56Speaker 1: and these things had set our theological and cosmic solicititudes talking.
- 30:02Speaker 1: I was somewhere between sixteen and eighteen. I know when
- 30:05Speaker 1: he and I walked along the Thames Embankment, confessing shamefully
- 30:09Speaker 1: to one another that we had never read Lucretius. We
- 30:13Speaker 1: thought everyone who mattered had read Lucretius. When I was
- 30:18Speaker 1: nearly sixteen, my mother was taken ill, very suddenly and
- 30:22Speaker 1: died of some perplexing complaint that involved a post mortem examination.
- 30:27Speaker 1: It was I think the trouble that has since those
- 30:30Speaker 1: days been recognized as appendicitis. This led to a considerable
- 30:34Speaker 1: change in my circumstances. The house at Penge was given up,
- 30:39Speaker 1: and my staff at Your Uncle arranged from me to
- 30:41Speaker 1: lodge during school terms with a needy solicitor and his
- 30:45Speaker 1: wife in Vickers Street, Southwest, about a mile and a
- 30:49Speaker 1: half from the school. So it was I came right
- 30:52Speaker 1: into London. I had almost two years of London before
- 30:55Speaker 1: I went to Cambridge. Those were our great days to
- 30:59Speaker 1: go together. Afterwards we were torn apart. Britain went to Oxford,
- 31:05Speaker 1: and our circumstances never afterwards threw us continuously together until
- 31:09Speaker 1: the days of the Blue Weekly. As boys, we walked together,
- 31:15Speaker 1: read and discussed the same books, pursued the same inquiries.
- 31:20Speaker 1: We got a reputation as inseparables and the nickname of
- 31:23Speaker 1: the Rose and the Lily. For Britain was short and
- 31:26Speaker 1: thick set, with dark, close curling hair and a ruddy
- 31:29Speaker 1: Irish type of face. I was lean and fair haired
- 31:33Speaker 1: and some inches taller than he. Our talk ranged widely,
- 31:38Speaker 1: and yet had certain very definite limitations. We were amazingly
- 31:42Speaker 1: free with politics and religion. We went to that little
- 31:46Speaker 1: meetinghouse of William Morris's at Hammersmith and worked out the
- 31:50Speaker 1: principles of socialism pretty thoroughly, and we got up the
- 31:54Speaker 1: Darwinian theory with the help of Britain's medical student brother.
- 31:58Speaker 1: And the galleries of the Natural History Museum in Cromwell Road,
- 32:03Speaker 1: Those wonderful cases on the ground floor, illustrating mimicry, dimorphism
- 32:08Speaker 1: and so forth, were new in our times, and we
- 32:11Speaker 1: went through them with earnest industry and tried over our
- 32:15Speaker 1: Darwinism in the light of that. Such topics we did exhaustively.
- 32:20Speaker 1: But on the other hand, I do not remember any
- 32:23Speaker 1: discussion whatever of human sex or sexual relationships there. In
- 32:28Speaker 1: spite of intense secret curiosities, our lips were sealed by
- 32:33Speaker 1: a peculiar shyness, and I do not believe we ever
- 32:37Speaker 1: had occasion either of us to use the word love.
- 32:41Speaker 1: It was not only that we were instinctively shy of
- 32:44Speaker 1: the subject, but that we were mightily ashamed of the
- 32:47Speaker 1: extent of our ignorance and our uncertainty in these matters.
- 32:51Speaker 1: We evaded them elaborately with an assumption of exhaustive knowledge.
- 32:57Speaker 1: We certainly had no shyness about theology. We mark the
- 33:00Speaker 1: emancipation of our spirits from the frightful teachings that had
- 33:04Speaker 1: oppressed our boyhood by much indulgence in blasphemous wit. We
- 33:10Speaker 1: had a secret literature of irreverent rhymes and a secret
- 33:14Speaker 1: art of theological caricature. Britain's father had delighted his family
- 33:20Speaker 1: by reading aloud from doctor Richard Garnett's Twilight of the Gods,
- 33:24Speaker 1: and Britain conveyed the precious volume to me. That and
- 33:28Speaker 1: the bab Ballads were the inspiration of some of our
- 33:31Speaker 1: earliest lucubrations. For an imaginative boy, the first experience of
- 33:38Speaker 1: writing is like a tiger's first taste of blood, and
- 33:41Speaker 1: our literary flowerings led very directly to the revival of
- 33:45Speaker 1: the school magazine, which had been comatosed for some years.
- 33:50Speaker 1: But there we came upon a disappointment. Eight. In that
- 33:56Speaker 1: revival we associated certain other of the sixth form books,
- 34:00Speaker 1: a notably one for whom our enterprise was to lay
- 34:03Speaker 1: the foundations of a career that has ended in the
- 34:06Speaker 1: House of Lords. Arthur Cossington now Lord Paddockhurst. Cossington was
- 34:12Speaker 1: at that time a rather heavy, rather good looking boy
- 34:16Speaker 1: who was chiefly eminent in cricket, an outsider, even as
- 34:20Speaker 1: we were and preoccupied. No doubt had we been sufficiently
- 34:24Speaker 1: detached to observe him with private imaginings. Very much of
- 34:28Speaker 1: the same quality and spirit as our own. He was,
- 34:31Speaker 1: we were inclined to think rather a sentimentalist, rather a poseur.
- 34:37Speaker 1: He affected a concise, emphatic style, played chess very well,
- 34:42Speaker 1: betrayed a belief in will power, and earned Britain secret hostility, Britain,
- 34:47Speaker 1: being a slaven by the invariable neatness of his collars
- 34:50Speaker 1: and ties. He came into our magazine with a vigor
- 34:54Speaker 1: that we found extremely surprising and unwelcome. Britain and I
- 34:59Speaker 1: had wanted to write. We had indeed figured our project
- 35:03Speaker 1: modestly as a manuscript magazine of satirical, liberal and brilliant literature,
- 35:09Speaker 1: by which, in some rather inexplicable way, the vague tumult
- 35:13Speaker 1: of ideas that teemed within us was to find form
- 35:16Speaker 1: and expression. Cossington, it was manifest from the outset, wanted
- 35:21Speaker 1: neither to write nor writing, but a magazine. I remember
- 35:25Speaker 1: the inaugural meeting in Shoesmith Major's study. We had had
- 35:29Speaker 1: great trouble in getting it together, and how effectually Cossington
- 35:33Speaker 1: bolted with the proposal. I think we fellows ought to
- 35:37Speaker 1: run a magazine, said Cossington. The school used to have one.
- 35:41Speaker 1: A school like this ought to have a magazine. The
- 35:45Speaker 1: last one died in eighty four, said Shu Smith from
- 35:48Speaker 1: the hearth Rug called the Observer rot rather bad title,
- 35:52Speaker 1: said Cossington. There was a tackler before that, said Britain,
- 35:57Speaker 1: sitting on the writing table at the window that was
- 36:00Speaker 1: closed to deaden the cries of the lower school at play,
- 36:03Speaker 1: and clashing his boots together. We want something suggestive of
- 36:08Speaker 1: city merchants. City merchandise, said Britain. Too fanciful. What of
- 36:14Speaker 1: Ourvonian Richard Arvan was our founder? And it seems almost
- 36:18Speaker 1: a duty. They call them all Usians or onions, said Britain.
- 36:23Speaker 1: I like city merchandise, I said, we could probably find
- 36:27Speaker 1: a quotation to suggest, Oh, mix good things, Cossington regarded
- 36:32Speaker 1: me abstractly. Don't want to put the accent on the city,
- 36:35Speaker 1: do we, said Shoesmith, who had a feeling for county families,
- 36:40Speaker 1: and Naylor supported him by murmur of approval. We ought
- 36:43Speaker 1: to call it the Rvonian decided Cossington. And we might
- 36:47Speaker 1: very well have underneath with which is incorporated the observer
- 36:52Speaker 1: that picks up the old traditions, makes an appeal to
- 36:55Speaker 1: old boys and all that, And it gives us something
- 36:58Speaker 1: to print under the title. I still held out for
- 37:02Speaker 1: city merchandise, which had taken my fancy. Some of the
- 37:06Speaker 1: chap's people won't like it, said Nayla. Certain not to.
- 37:10Speaker 1: And it sounds run, sounds weird, said a boy who
- 37:14Speaker 1: had not hitherto spoken. We aren't going to do anything queer,
- 37:17Speaker 1: said Shoesmith, pointedly, not looking at Britain. The question of
- 37:22Speaker 1: the title had manifestly gone against us. Oh have it,
- 37:25Speaker 1: Harvonian I said. And next, what size shall we have?
- 37:30Speaker 1: Said Cossington, Something like McMillan's magazine or Longman's. Longman's is
- 37:36Speaker 1: better because it has a whole page, not columns. It
- 37:39Speaker 1: makes no end of difference to one's effects. What effects,
- 37:43Speaker 1: asked shu Smith abruptly. Oh, a pause or a white
- 37:46Speaker 1: line or anything you've got to write closer for a
- 37:49Speaker 1: double column. It's nuggety. You can't get a swing on
- 37:52Speaker 1: your prose. I had discussed this thoroughly with Britain. If
- 37:57Speaker 1: the fellows are going to write, began Britain. To keep
- 38:00Speaker 1: off fine writing, said shoe Smith. It's cheek. I vote.
- 38:04Speaker 1: We don't have any. We shan't get any, said Cossington,
- 38:08Speaker 1: and then as an olive branch to me unless Remington
- 38:12Speaker 1: does a bit or Britain. But it's no good making
- 38:14Speaker 1: too much space for it. We ought to be very
- 38:17Speaker 1: careful about the writing, said shoe Smith. We don't want
- 38:20Speaker 1: to give ourselves away. I vote. We ask Old Topham
- 38:23Speaker 1: to see us through, said Naylor. Britain groaned aloud, and
- 38:28Speaker 1: everyone regarded him. Greek epigram's on the fellow's names, he said,
- 38:34Speaker 1: small beer in ancient bottles. Let's get a stuff broody
- 38:38Speaker 1: hen to sit on the magazine. We might do worse
- 38:42Speaker 1: than a greep epigram, said Cossington. One in each number.
- 38:47Speaker 1: It impresses parents and keeps up our classical tradition, and
- 38:51Speaker 1: the masters can help. We don't want to antagonize them.
- 38:55Speaker 1: Of course, we've got to departmentalize. Writing is only one
- 38:58Speaker 1: section of the thing. The Rvonian has to stand for
- 39:01Speaker 1: the school. There's questions of space and questions of expense.
- 39:06Speaker 1: We can't turn out a great chunk of printed prose,
- 39:09Speaker 1: like like wet cold toast and call it a magazine,
- 39:13Speaker 1: Britain writhed, appreciating the image. There's to be a section
- 39:18Speaker 1: of sports. You must do that. I'm not going to
- 39:21Speaker 1: do any fine writing, said Shoesmith. What you've got to
- 39:26Speaker 1: do is just to list all the chaps and put
- 39:28Speaker 1: a note to their play. Nayla Minor must pass more.
- 39:31Speaker 1: Football isn't the place for extreme individualism. Amerson shapes well
- 39:35Speaker 1: as half back. Things like that. I could do that,
- 39:39Speaker 1: all right, said Shoesmith, brightening and manifestly becoming pregnant with judgments.
- 39:45Speaker 1: One great thing about a magazine of this sort, said Cossington,
- 39:49Speaker 1: is to mention just as many names as you can
- 39:51Speaker 1: in each number. It keeps the interest alive. Chaps will
- 39:55Speaker 1: turn it over looking for their own little bit. Then
- 39:57Speaker 1: it all lights up for them. Any reports of matches,
- 40:01Speaker 1: Shoesmith broke from his meditation, rather with comments. Nayla surpassed
- 40:07Speaker 1: himself and negotiated the lemon safely home, said Shoesmith. Shut it,
- 40:12Speaker 1: said Naylor, modestly exactly, said Cossington that gives us three features,
- 40:18Speaker 1: touching them off on his fingers, epigram, Litery, section Sports.
- 40:24Speaker 1: Then we want a section to shove anything into a
- 40:26Speaker 1: joke and notice of anything that's going on. So on
- 40:30Speaker 1: our notebook, Oh hell, said Britain and clashed his boots
- 40:35Speaker 1: to the silent disapproval of everyone. Well don't we unless
- 40:39Speaker 1: we have our notebooks begin on the front page. It
- 40:42Speaker 1: gives us scrappy effect to do that. We want something
- 40:46Speaker 1: manly and straightforward and a bit thoughtful about patriotism, say
- 40:51Speaker 1: or Espreed's a core or after Life. I looked at Britain.
- 40:56Speaker 1: Hitherto we had not considered Cossington mattered very much in
- 40:59Speaker 1: the world. He went over us as a motor car
- 41:02Speaker 1: goes over a dog. There was a sort of energy
- 41:05Speaker 1: about him, a new sort of energy to us. We
- 41:09Speaker 1: had never realized that anything of the sort existed in
- 41:12Speaker 1: the world. We were hopelessly at a disadvantage. Almost instantly,
- 41:17Speaker 1: we had developed a clear and detailed vision of a
- 41:20Speaker 1: magazine made up of everything that was most acceptable in
- 41:23Speaker 1: the magazines that flourished in the adult world about us,
- 41:27Speaker 1: and had determined to make it a success. He had,
- 41:31Speaker 1: by kind of instinct as it were, synthetically plagiarized every
- 41:35Speaker 1: successful magazine and breathed into this dusty mixture the breath
- 41:40Speaker 1: of life. He was elected at his own suggestion managing director,
- 41:45Speaker 1: with the earnest support of Shuesmith and Naylor, and conducted
- 41:49Speaker 1: the magazine so successfully and brilliantly that he even got
- 41:53Speaker 1: a whole back page of advertisements from the big sports
- 41:56Speaker 1: shop in Hobourn, and made the printers pay at the
- 41:59Speaker 1: same rate for a notice of certain books of their own,
- 42:02Speaker 1: which they said they had inserted by inadvertency to fill
- 42:06Speaker 1: up space. The only literary contribution in the first number
- 42:10Speaker 1: was a column by Topham in faultless stereotyped English in
- 42:15Speaker 1: depreciation of some fancied evil called utilitarian studies, and ending
- 42:21Speaker 1: with that noble old quotation to the glory that was
- 42:24Speaker 1: Greece and the grandeur that was Rome. And Flack crowded
- 42:29Speaker 1: us out of number two with a bright little paper
- 42:32Speaker 1: on the humors of cricket, and the head himself was
- 42:35Speaker 1: profusely thoughtful all over the editorial under the heading of
- 42:40Speaker 1: the school Chapel. And how it seems for an old
- 42:43Speaker 1: boy Britain, and I found it difficult to express to
- 42:46Speaker 1: each other with any grace or precision, what we felt
- 42:50Speaker 1: about that magazine. End of Chapter three, Section two,