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DA CREW PODCAST SEASON 1_ EPISODE #141_HOSTMINISTER ALMA THOMAS · DA CREW Podcast

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And we welcome you to the Live Again Podcast where your host is me,
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Minister Alma Thomas. I hope everybody is having a simply wonderful and amazing
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night. I know that I am. I love you and there's not a
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thing you can do about it. Amen. We do every night. Amen.
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We're gonna start off a man and prayer for the Word of God says
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and everything give things, Dear heavenly Father and the precious matchless name of your
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son, Jesus. I thank you for waking me up this morning. I
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thank you Hallelujah for being in my right mind. I thank you huh for
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protecting my family in the circle yet being unbroken. I thank you for Pastor
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up Church and her family. I thank you for Apostle Erica and her family.
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Continue to give her strength. In the name of Jesus, we commend
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this into your hands. Have your way, Holy Spirit, have your way
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in Jesus' name, I pray. So welcome, Welcome to the show.
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I have two very exciting guests on tonight. I have with me Pastor antnet
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Denise up Church and Apostle Erica T. Moore. Hey man, thank you,
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Thank you ladies for joining me on tonight. Amen. As we talk
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about Amen, loss and grief, Amen, and how we can encourage ourselves
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to live again after losing a loved one. Amen. Amen. So welcome
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to the show. Amen, have your way on tonight. Feel free,
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Amen, on tonight to share your stories with us. So we're gonna begin
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with Pastor up Church. Can you tell us a little bit about yourself.
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Yes, my name is Answerny up Church, Pastor Answerny up Church. I've
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been doing ministry now my husband and our own church for about twenty years.
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I've been married to Bishop Ulys's up Church almost thirty five years and we have
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three children. One thing about me I do want you to know is that
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I write books. I'm just telling you a little bit about myself in part.
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And another thing about myself is I went to school and got my master's
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and substance abuse, which in return I began to do somewhat counseling dealing with
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that. But I also would open the door for me to be able to
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do spiritual guidance counselor counseling for those that may be suffering with different things.
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And bereavement is one thing that I have talked to them about. So just
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a little bit about myself and who I am. I love God. I
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do want to say that. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Apostle Arika T More. Can you tell us a little bit about yourself?
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Hey, hey, hey, family and friends. I'm excited to be with
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my family the Cruel Podcast one more time. I'm grateful to be here again
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as a guest. As she said, I'm Apostle of Praise God International Ministry.
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My husband was the visionary. We recently just lost him one hundred and
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twenty four days ago today together we were serial entrepreneurs. Is Tucking company my
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econ credit repair. I'm helping people build up their credit. I just started
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a new health and wellness business know near but with my uplines are up churches
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y yes, yes, yes yes. So like I said, I passed
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the full time. Also, I am the founder of ETM Coaching and Mentoring
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LLC. And again I'm just excited to be here with the crew, my
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family one more time. Thank you for having me, Amen and man,
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thank you for accepting. I'm so excited on tonight to have you, too,
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wonderful ladies with me on tonight. I'm deeply honored and humble. DayMen.
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Tonight, we're gonna talk a little bit about grief. As we know
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that apostle grief is fairly new. So if there's anything Amen that you know
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triggers are on tonight, Amen, you can just say that. But what
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we wanted to explain start with is explain one of the experiences you had with
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grief and what did you do to not get over it? But what did
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you do to deal with that experience because you never I lost my son over
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thirteen years ago, and you never get over it. You learn how to
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live through it. You give yourself permission to live, do it to be
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happy again. But can starting with past the up church, can you tell
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me one experience you had and how did you deal with the grief. Yes,
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one of my experiences is the passion of my granddaughter passed almost almost close
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to five years ago. We totally took care of her. She was disabled,
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she knew who we were. She was born with absence of the brain.
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The doctor said she wouldn't live to be three months old, and she
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ended up living to be almost nine. And so you know, during that
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time, at any date she could have passed, but the Lord allowed her
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to live day by day as we lay hands on and prayed with her.
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But there was a point of time when she passed and the grief was really
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heavy. But God had already prepared me before. But no matter what,
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you never truly get prepared. I mean, God did he prepared my heart
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to know it was gonna happen. But then when it happened, I had
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to face reality that it happened. And so for me, I went and
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got therapy. I went and got breathing therapy, and it was one of
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the best things I could do because I did learn it. I was going
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through the five stages of grief once she died. I would go through denial,
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I would go through anger, bargaining, I would go through depression and
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acceptance. I was going through all of that, but it didn't go in
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alignment. I was going through different parts. I would get angry a little
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bit, and then I would feel depressed and I would be in denial.
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And you know, but I had to go get help. And that was
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the greatest thing I could have done. Even being a counselor myself, I
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already knew that I needed help. I already knew that I was going to
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have to talk to somebody. Caregiving is not It's not an easy thing to
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do. And when you caregive, you fall in love. And you know
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with I fell in love with her. I mean, that was basically my
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life what I did. My husband took me off my job to take care
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of my granddaughter while my son was in college and the mom was in college,
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and I got very close to her. So death was very overwhelming.
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But I will say this, it was the Lord that helped me through.
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And also I went and got counseling. Hey, man, ain't man,
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because when you are in the ministry fell sometimes people feel like your title makes
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you beyond griefs that you don't that you know, you go to church and
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they slap a little oil on you and you're supposed to be okay because I
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know. One of the feelings I had of guilt was I was saying,
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I know he's in a better place, but I miss him and I want
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him here. It's don't love God? Why can't I deal with this?
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And I wore a smile, but underneath I was dying and siding. Sometimes
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I would scream out, you know, don't people have the spirit of discernment?
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Don't they know that I'm hurting insiding. I had to go and get
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help. I had to say it's okay not to be okay, because traditionally
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in the Black church, ay Man, they think if they just slap some
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oil on you, tell you to love Jesus, and it's gonna be all
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over. But once you realize they slapped the oil on you, they pray
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for you, but you're still feeling away and you have to be transparent parents,
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and not every pastor is equipped to deal with death and the feelings that
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go along with how you feeling. So they make you believe if they pray
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for you and you pray, you'll be all right because you know that they're
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in a better place. But we're a human. Even Jesus, when Lazarus
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died, he knew he was gonna raise him up, but he's still wet
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because he still had the human emotions that we have, and when we lose
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someone, we miss them. So, Pastor Arika, can you tell us
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how you're dealing with it right now? You're going through the stages right now?
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How are you how you dealing with it? Well, to be honest,
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it's no one but guy for right now. Two of my support systems
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is here is you, who I've known for twenty one years, and past
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Anternet, who just recently became my pastor. You know, y'all have been
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impartoning in me, checking in on me. And one of the things that
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Pastor Antwinet said to me two weeks ago, I need to go get some
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counseling. I was already in counseling, so I started with grief Share.
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Here's my book, here my book, here's the word. So I'm surrounded
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by people who was loving on me and giving me the word, and the
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only thing that passed the anternet is saying, don't allow anyone to tell you
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that it's a time, don't put a time. I'm framed on your grief.
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Go through the stages properly. So if I'm crying, if I failed
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some type of way, like they just took me away over the weekend,
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and I needed that because for the last four or five days, I've been
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sleeping and when I wake up, I'm not looking for my husband. So
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I'm grateful. I don't think I would be as okay as I am today
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if it wasn't for someone who's gone through it. And because you're both gone
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through it, you're not just spinning up things like you're not cruel. You're
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considering and you're mindful of my feelings that what I'm feeling is real, and
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you'll allow me to express those emotions. So if I don't feel like being
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bothered, I don't want to be bothered. I don't want to have to
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be the apostle, put on a front to make everyone else feel good when
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I'm hurting. And I'm not selfish. I understand that I have an assignment
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to do, but I'm grateful and I'm just glad that you know, if
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past answering that is here, you're here. Property is Alma because you ladies
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have been sewing into me and you're helping me through this, because if not,
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I'll probably be doing prison industry a place to tell you the truth?
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Amen? And amen? And how have Wasn't there some ways that you'll deal
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with your emotions because a lot of times everyone is around us leading to the
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funeral. But once they close the casket, that's when the phone call stop,
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the visit stops, the encouragement stops. Is like we close the cast
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it it's over. Now you go on and live and forget about it.
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But how can you forget about someone you carry for nine months and you love
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them. How can you forget your husband that was playing next to you?
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How do you forget your granddaughter? So how what have you done to help
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you deal with it? And what is the most helpful? What help you
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deal with it most? Well? I think for me, the biggest thing
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with me is I'm always mastering how to manage my emotions. That's something that
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I do and just being a counselor myself. I went back to some of
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the books and things that I read about bereavement and just empowering myself by reading
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up and learning what bereavement was, learning about how to deal with grief and
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how to deal with the pain of it. And one way I dealt with
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it is that I was very transparent with myself. I admitted that I was
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hurt. I admitted that I was in pain. I admitted I wasn't caught
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up in a title, nor I wouldn't sit around to prince of the point
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I want to take my life. But there was a depression on me,
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and I would admit that. But I taught to God and I and I
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talked to God and he helped me through it. But I took some of
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the things that the strategies that my therapist told me to take. I did
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a lot of self talk. I did a lot of reading, and I
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did a lot of walking. I started exercising, and I started doing things
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that made me happy. And I started focusing on getting some of her stuff
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out of the house. And we actually she died in our home, and
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I never I was so close to this little girl. It was just ever
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since she was born. And I ended up moving stuff out and eventually it
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got so good for us that I had to move. You know, if
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I probably was a little older, old or older, I probably would have
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been okay, maybe in my fifties then, but I was in my forties,
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early forties, and you know, between my early forties and mid forties,
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and it was very hard, and so I had to do things that
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helped me. I worked out. I ended up, you know, writing
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a book. I ended up sharing with other people. I created a support
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group for other people. I ended up working with the hospital. I was
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doing things. But God spoke to me and said, you're doing all of
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this, but are you really dealing with your feelings? Because I start doing
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stuff, but then the stuff started doing me. Yeah, And so God
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dealt with me and I had to really sit down and really process and say,
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God, what am I gonna do with this? How am I gonna
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deal with it? And I just begin to talk to God, and I
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began to read up on death and begin to understand death, because, to
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be honest with you, sometime it's Christians, that's something that we don't want
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to read about. That's something that we don't study about because if we're not
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careful, we think we got days after days after days. But the Bible
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said we should live and not die, of course, but we don't never
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know when that day will be. So I had to get with God and
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he got with me. I took the therapy. The lady gave me the
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information. I took it, I read it, I went to therapy,
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and I just focused on inward healing and doing things that I like to do,
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and that's what really helped me. And then my husband was beside me
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and my family, but they knew I was really close to her. But
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just having that support like Apostle has now, the support will help you through
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because when people, everybody will come and visit you once the death takes place,
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but after it's over, like prophetess, I'm gonna say where they're at.
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And I made my friends say. I told them, I said,
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now you're coming to my house now, and I promise you. I let
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them know don't forget me. You know. I was like that because everybody
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eating and doing all that, but I let them know I was gonna need
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them, and so I had friends that would check on me, you know,
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until I got to the point that I had to learn to deal with
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my own company pretty much. I hope I didn't talk too long. Hey
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man, Amen, Once you went through it, didn't you feel like now
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you could help people better because you before what you were a counselor, you
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had never gone through it, But now that you went through it personally,
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is it a difference way that you deal with people who are grieving? Yeah,
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yeah, I do. I tend to be a good listener for them,
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and I tend to understand that everybody don't bread the same, and I
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had to learn that. You know, some people cry, some people are
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angry, some people say nothing, some people hold their feelings in and so
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I had to deal with them according to where they were. I had to
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learn that and not put my idiosyncrasies, my ideology or what I thought on
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them, or my religious overtone that I had at one point. God delivered
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me from that that religious overtone, and you know, God to see you
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through it. But you know, they know that, but don't nobody want
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you just shoving it down their throat. They got to be able to deal
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with stuff the way they deal with it. I would share scriptures, of
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course, but I dealt with people where they are, because some people I
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dealt with didn't know God. So if they didn't know God, I had
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to deal with them according to where they were. Some people didn't believe that
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when they loved one died that they were going to heaven. You know,
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when you take a job as account, don't mean everybody gonna be saved,
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you know what I'm saying. So I had learned to deal with them where
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they were according to their beliefs. And even though I was a Christian counselor,
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I didn't reject them. You know. Uh, some of them just
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believe that when they loved one die that they was gonna pass, that they
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was just there was gonna be nothing else left, There was gonna be no
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heaven. And I didn't get into argue with them. I just let them,
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uh deal with that in the place of where they were at that time,
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because I wasn't gonna argue with somebody who's already going through you know,
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I didn't have to really accept the counsel them. But later on, as
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I talked to them, they know that there's a heaven now, but it
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was just a process. So the man ain't mine and I, like the
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sister excuse me, like Sister Little John said, you meet them where they're
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at, right, You meet them with the ad Apozzo more. Can you
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tell us how you are dealing with that? Now? I'm now at the
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plaint that I'm starting to grieve because when my husband died, everything and everyone
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attached to him went away with him. And so I'm in shock, so
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not even realizing that I'm here by my south. I'm not from North Carolina,
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this is not my home. I'm from New York. So I'm here
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by myself, you know, And I'm trying to cleave to the people that
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mattered to him, So I didn't get the chance to grieve. So when
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reality really begin to sink in afterwards, in the words of Steve Harvey,
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when the funk begin to hit the fan, I'm like, oh shoot.
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So now I'm at the point that I'm finally grieving and I'm finally accepting he's
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dead. He's not coming back here. He's dead, and now I have
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to go through each motion. And and I was in denial. I thought
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I was gonna lose my mind. I felt like I was suffocating and I
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couldn't I felt like George Floyd, I couldn't breathe. I was going crazy.
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And even though people are the few people that I allowed into my intimate
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circular. Like like you said past the anternet, I'm gonna need you afterwards.
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This is cute, this is fun, okay, all right, but
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I'm gonna need you when everyone else go home, right And I had to
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come back because my husband died in bed next to me after telling me that
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he loves me, after having a whole conversation hours later. So the tape
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is playing back and I'm like, oh shoot, So I'm now at the
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phase in my life that this is real and I'm in warfare because it's like
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every day I'm fighting just for a little peace, just for a little ear,
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because if not, I'm gonna get stuck. If that makes sense,
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I hope I answered your question. Yes, And it's the same thing I
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found that having my stroke and losing my son, I still went through the
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same stages of grief, and I find my soul like some days my sister
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my daughter calls me a cry baby, but some days find myself crying over
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what I lost, Like you accepted that right now, I'm in this temporary
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condition where I can't walk. But some days when you want to do something
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for your soul and you find that you're waiting on people to do it.
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You go through that same denial, same depression, crying like I understand that
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I'm going through a process. I understand that what God has promis for right
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now, at this moment, it hurts that I can't even take care of
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my own needs. So we're gonna go to a brief commercial and we'll be
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Get featured. Amen, Amen, welcome back. I'm talking with Past the
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the grief process and how that when you go through other things, not just
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the loss of someone, but when you go through a divorce or the loss
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of a limb, that you go through those same stages of grief until you
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finally get to the acceptance part. But being transparent in both cases, losing
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a child and using the lift use of your lembs is a hard process to
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go through that when people tell you you're being so strong and that you're strong,
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at that moment, you don't feel strong. So what would you tell
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a client that is going through the process of grief right now? For me,
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I would I would tell to them, and you know, I would
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let them know that these are this is normal, that this stuff, what
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they're going through, is normal, that this is these feelings and their emotions
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is gonna this is what's gonna happen. And don't feel bad if they cried,
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don't feel upset if they get angry, don't feel upset if they feel
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like, I gotta go get therapy, I gotta get some help. I'm
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losing it, I'm losing myself. You know. I just would encourage them
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to get the help they need, but to allow themselves to grieve. That's
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the big part. I agreed even before my granddaughter died, because, like
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you said, she was already born with thirteen other diagnosis and I knew that
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at some one day she would die, but it was God that extended her
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life. So I'd already went through the grieving process before, so it was
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like once she died, I went through it again. And unbelievable when she
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died, it wasn't as bad because I knew that she was no longer suffering.
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But it's still her. Just like the other day when I went to
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Sanford and I passed by the memorial guards, but I didn't turn in there
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to go see her. She just be in my heart sometimes and every time
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I look at my grandchildren, she's always on my mind. I mean,
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I don't forget about her. It's just like, even though I know she's
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gone, she's still verbally is a part of who we are. And I
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would just encourage that person to live their life out and allow it to be.
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Let let things be and feel feel things, don't ignore those feelings.
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Deal with those feelings and grieve, cry. Let somebody know how they feel.
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Tell people what's gonna what they're gonna do for them, and what's best
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for them. And that's exactly what I would say. Hey man, what
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would you say going through it right now? What would you tell a grieving
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widow that just lost her husband. I would tell her to be true to
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whatever emotion you are feeling. Don't allow anyone to put you in the box.
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You want to screen, you want to cry, Heck, you want
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to curse whatever you want to do, as long as you don't break the
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law, go ahead and do it. Let me say this and be very
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clear everyone here on the Crew podcast, y'all met my husband. Y'all saw
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him kicking for me the last two the shows. Y'all watched him, right,
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So y'all came through. Y'all supported me too. So let me just
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shout out out and say thank you and listen here. I still have these
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thank you cards that I have. Not feel doubt yet, y'all pray for
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me. That's how much that grief is still on me. But I would
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say to the wife, don't let no one makes you feel And if that's
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your husband, that's your lover, that's your protector, that's your provider.
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However you feel in go ahead, write it down, y'all know a book
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is coming. I'm writing every day these I'm not counting down just to be
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counting down. Today's day one twenty four. Write it down. And even
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if you just write the date down and don't do nothing else, you can
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always come back to it later. But be true to you, don't allow
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anyone to put you in the box, and embrace the love. You can't
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do this by yourself. Okay, we're gonna give you two minutes. I'm
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gonna give you today, but tomorrow I'm breaking that door down. I don't
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care if you get mad, I don't care if you cuss me out,
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but I'm coming in because you cannot do this by yourself. So embrace the
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love, embrace the support system, but most of all, embrace those emotions.
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And I wanted to say, if you didn't mind, propertis alma.
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I would also let them know about, especially those that know God and even
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something that don't. I would let them know about how God looks at grief
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and that he would bring them comfort. I would I would let them know
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that God can comfort them during his time, and He'll wipe their tears away,
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and and that God cares. And I would let them know that God
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would heal the broken hearted and bind up their wounds. I would give them
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the Word of God. I would let them know that you know, because
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the Word of God is strengths and and and and I would remind them of
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what the Word says, and how he loves Death is precious in the eyes
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of God, and and that person means the world to God, a man
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a man, and what I've done is I hold on to his memories and
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man, and I turned my pain into passion, and I started a scholarship
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in my son's name a man, And before I got sick, I gave
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away fifteen scholarships to African American males who are going to college. So that's
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how I started working on my pain by turning it into my passion. And
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with the stroke, I decided that once you've been at death's door and they
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didn't expect you to live, a man, you give yourself the permission to
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live the life that God has destined for you despite the obstacles that are in
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my way. I won't let any excuse stop me the things that God has
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put inside of me. I don't want to die with any of that stuff
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inside of me. So I'm burking out books and I'm working for my ministry,
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and I'm working on my organization to speak for other others that are in
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the nursing home system that are being abused. But because they don't have a
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voice, nobody cares for them, because they can't vote in the next election,
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amen, nobody is speaking out them. But I want to be the
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voice that cries out in the wilderness, that they still they still matter,
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they still count, they still have purpose a man, and that's what I'm
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turning this pain into my passion and living off the bittersweet memories of my son,
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never to forget him, because at each birthday, each anniversary of his
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death, I think about him. And some years I'm fine. Some years
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I cry, like the doctor just told me, we Lord, it's nothing
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we can do. So I think you ladies for being on the show.
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Tell us pass up check. You told us that you wrote a book.
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How can the listening the audience get that book? Okay? The book is
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called Godslet of Sunshine, and Godsleet of Sunshine is actually they can look on
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Amazon dot com and all they gotta do is look for Godsleet of Sunshine.
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And my name is on that Antoinette up Church. And the book that I
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wrote is Caring for you know, children with special Needs, Helping families with
34:36
children with special needs, and just a good book. It's a really good
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book that talked about her her diagnosis and you know who she was. I
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remember when she passed, she had close to a thousand people at a funeral.
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You know, when when children past is just unbelievable, you know what
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I'm saying. It just really does something. And she was at one point
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she was in the newspaper as well. God really blessed her. She was
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an ambassador her too as well for Chapel Hill Hospital. So she did a
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lot. Really, Uh, there's a legacy that has been left. She's
35:08
left a legacy, and it's just certain things that we put in place for
35:13
her so that her legacy will never die. And so that book is definitely
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one of them. And it's called God's Little Sunshine and unbelievable. She was
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a sweet baby, sweet sweet beautiful baby and sweet just as loving and kind
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and I just I just thank God. She changed my life. Prophet is
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Alma. She changed my life. I'm not the person I used to be
35:37
when she passed away, everything negative about me changed. I became a pep
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pptpis person positive power for talking and powerful, positive, powerful thinking person.
35:50
My granddaughter did that. Her death was not in vain. It changed our
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whole family. So when I said, it changed us, we are better.
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We're better, and and that's her. The book is really good.
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It's called Gossip of Sunshine and Barnes and Nobles. But most time I tell
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people just to go to Amazon dot com and Antoinette up Church is right there.
36:13
People order it quite a bit, still ordering it, still reading it.
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But it do help families because it has information that will be a blessing.
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Thankful allowing me to share it to Okay, Amen, thank you?
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And can we also find you on Facebook? Yes, you can just look
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up Antoinette Denise Upchurch and I'm on there. I'm not as savvy as some
36:37
of you may be, but if you look up Antoinette Denise up Church,
36:42
you will find me on Facebook. And also I have uh something I've been
36:46
doing for the last three years. It's called walking with Denise. They can
36:51
also find that group on Facebook, and and we're on there doing I'm on
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there doing the same thing, encouraging and join walking with Denise. Amen.
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When I don't catch her live, I catch her replays. Amen, And
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it's very encouraging the words that she shares with her audience. Amen. It
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has encouraged me. And how apostle more? Can we reach you? And
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what is the name of your latest book? So the last book that I've
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written was my Scholdren's book, The Color of Love. So you can find
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me on Amazon, or you can buy your books for me. So Erica
37:37
T. Moore dot com. So that's E R I K A T m
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o o r e dot com. You can find me there. You can
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find me on Facebook it's Erica Timour Oh god yeah. On on Instagram author
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Erica T. Fourteen. So that's where you can find me. But I
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am writing a book. I think I'm a tied. I wasn't ready.
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I wasn't ready to let go. I haven't decided on the name, but
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it'll come to me. But it's dealing with something like that. How I've
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been dealing with the grief, what I've been up to, and like past
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the Antinet said, how to encourage other people. I know Trevida is on
38:16
here. She lost her mother June fifteenth, the day before I lost my
38:21
husband. So the Crew podcast suffered. You know, we have some some
38:24
hits. You know that was detrimentarous. So I salute you to I'm Trevida,
38:30
I see you here and I love you and again I think God for
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each and every one of you. The truth the Crew Podcast is truly y'all
38:37
been a blessing. That was a beautiful plant. Thank you, thank you,
38:39
thank you, and when I get to strength, I'm gonna fill these
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cars out and send them out. So God bless you. Amen, Amen,
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thank you, thank you, ladies. Once again, I am deeply
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humbled and honored that you'll agreed to come on the show tonight and the share
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very sensitive topic. But thank you. You were transparent, you were informative,
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You was an education Amen, and I just love the two of your
39:13
spirit. Amen. Days in time, Amen, God is only connecting me
39:19
to people that I have divine connections with because I got some place to go
39:24
and I got things to do. Amen. And my latest book is gonna
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be called Surviving a Stroke Against All Odds Amen, and I'm working on that
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now, a man to speak out for a stroke patients and nursing home patients
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everywhere that are not getting the care that they need. So I thank you,
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I thank you, and I must have amen the two of you on
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this show again because I really really enjoyed conversating with the two of you.
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God bless you, Pastor of Church, thank you. I'll be watching Walking
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with Denise and thank you, thank you, Apostle more. You know I
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love you. Amen. We've gone asked just being friends. We are now
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sisters twenty one years INDEEP. Through ups and downs, tears and laughter,
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We've been there for each other and I thank you, I thank you,
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I thank you, and I will see every year in two weeks on my
40:34
next podcast, Hey man, I love you, I love you, and
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there's nothing that you can do about it. I'm still chasing my dreams.
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What's the matter with you? Amen? A man dream and Live again?
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