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Healing After Trauma: Kimberly Haar’s Story of Redemption, Counseling, and God’s Presence! · Anchored by the Sword

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Thank you for joining me for this episode of the Anchor by
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the Sore podcast. I pray that today's episode will
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leave you both encouraged and challenged in your walk with God
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and how to become more anchored in both him and in his word.
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So enjoy and let's do this. Hey guys, welcome to this
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episode of the Anchor by the Sword podcast.
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I'm excited today to introduce you guys to Kim Hart.
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She has a book that comes out today called Healing from Life's
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Deepest Hurts, Reclaiming your life after grief, loss or
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trauma. And if you've been around the
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podcast any length of time or know anything about what I've
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been doing, I wrote a book called Anchored in Freedom, and
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we talk about grief, loss, and trauma.
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So this is a. Part of my past as well.
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And so I love to have other people on to talk about their
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stories. So that way, you know, you're
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not alone. Kim, thank you so much for
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joining me today. Thank you for having me, it's an
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honor. Absolutely.
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Can you tell my listeners a little bit about yourself?
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Sure. Professionally, I am a licensed
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professional counselor. I'm also licensed marriage and
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family therapist and I have been doing that for approximately 20
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years. I am married and have between my
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husband and I we have 11 adult children and three grandbabies
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that make the world a better place.
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Wow, that's awesome. 11 kids, 11 adult kids.
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That's that's a lot. Well, that includes the ones
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that are married. So we've we've brought a.
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Few. OK, so you said you've been
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doing marriage and family therapy for a long time.
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When did you start doing counseling?
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Sure. Well, as a therapist, I, I have
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been doing this, I think it's like 18 years.
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I became a therapist because I was in pain myself.
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I was in a first marriage and my husband and I, we went to
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marriage counseling and I just didn't feel like it was giving
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me hope. I felt like it was putting a
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Band-Aid on on our situation. And I decided while going
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through counseling that I was going to go back to school and I
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was going to learn how to be a therapist.
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So I went back to school in my late 30s, and I'm 58 now.
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And so this is kind of like my second career.
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That's awesome. And that it gives encouragement
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to people who are walking through something and they feel
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like there's this call to go to another level or to another
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position. That really does give
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encouragement to people that, hey, you can actually do it.
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You can turn around at any time and you can start a brand new
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career. So it's never too late.
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Amen to that. I, I went into nursing, I've
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been in the medical field for 18 some odd years now and I became
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a nurse at 28 and I was one of the older ones in the class.
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But there were still people who were in my class that were in
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their 40s and 50s, which now I'm 45.
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And it was just, it was crazy, but it was so cool to see people
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learning that their other way was not working and they wanted
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something new. So absolutely.
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All right, Kim, let's go ahead and dive into your freedom
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story. Sure.
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Well, my freedom story, I like to begin that in 2013, I made
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the hardest decision of my life and that was after 23 years of
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marriage. I made a decision to divorce my
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first husband. There had been ongoing
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infidelities throughout our marriage and I had forgiven and
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forgiven and forgiven again and not put healthy boundaries in
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place. But we had four children and I
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made the decision I wanted to stay and be there with them so
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that they weren't going between homes.
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But in 2013, I discovered my ex-husband was having an affair.
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And when I discovered that, I just knew that our marriage,
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there was no hope. It was done.
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And so I filed for divorce. And for the next 4 years, I told
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my ex-husband, I said I'm going to focus on just being a mom.
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Our youngest children were still in high school.
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I didn't want them to feel like they were having to fight for my
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attention. And so I dedicated that next
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four years just to healing and being a mom to my four children.
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In 2017, I woke up in the morning and something told me,
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this is the year you're going to get married again.
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And so and I, I swear I heard the words buckle your seat belt.
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But I just thought, well, that just means that it's going to go
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fast. And my ex-husband and I had had
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a friendly divorce and I knew that he somewhat wanted to see
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if there was any opportunity for us to date again.
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But you know, I had repeatedly told him that there was none.
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So on April Fool's Day I met a man and I had at the age of 50 I
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decided to join 5 dating sites because I thought, where does a
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50 year old woman go to meet people?
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And so I had been on 13 first dates and I was just about ready
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to hang it up. I was like this maybe just isn't
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for me and I had a 14th 1st date and when I met this man he I
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just knew right away. We clicked and we saw each other
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almost every night for a month and both of us knew that we
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wanted to marry. And I like to smile and laugh
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and say that the man that I was dating, his name was Andrew and
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he was an engineer. And he told me after dating for
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two weeks, he said, you know, I asked Google how long you have
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to know somebody before you know you're in love.
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So that is your typical engineer, like wants the data,
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wants the facts. And so we both knew we were
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going to be going towards getting married.
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One evening, my ex-husband called me and he said he wanted
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me to come over to his home and talk to him about our children.
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That was not uncommon. We'd had many conversations and
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when I went to his home he started talking to me about
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wanting to date me again and I told him that I was dating
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somebody seriously, he needed to move on.
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I was moving on. And he made a comment.
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He said maybe I'll just need to go talk to that man.
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And it that didn't make sense to me because I hadn't discussed it
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with him. But when I left my ex husband's
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home that night I called Andrew, my boyfriend and I said can I
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come by your house and can I talk to you just for a few
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minutes. It was about 9 O clock at night.
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And so when I got there, I told him about the conversation, the
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disagreement my ex-husband and I had had.
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And I said, Andrew, I apologize. My ex-husband may, you know,
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spread rumors about me. He may just, you know, come to
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your work and harass you. I don't know what he was saying,
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but would you fight for me? And Andrew said, well, of course
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I would. And when I asked him why, he
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said because you're worth it. And little did I know that
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within 24 hours, Andrew wouldn't just be fighting for me, but he
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was going to be fighting for his life.
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So I left Andrew's house and I went home.
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It was, you know, probably 10:00, 10/30.
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And, and I was getting into bed and something stirred in me and
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said lock your bedroom door. I was living by myself.
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And so I got up. I wasn't scared but I got up and
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I locked my bedroom door, got back in bed and I fell asleep
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and at 2:30 in the morning I woke up to the sound of my
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bedroom door crashing down off the hinges and my ex-husband had
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broke into my home. He was intoxicated, he had a gun
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in his hand and for the next 4 hours I was assaulted and after
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that four hours came and went. My ex-husband told me he said
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that as punishment for ruining his life, he was going to make
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me go with him to this man's house and he was going to make
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me watch him murder him. So I was taken at gunpoint.
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I got into the vehicle and of course, I was praying for Andrew
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the whole way as I was driving there just I was like, Lord put
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the angels around him. And so we got to Andrew's house
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and I watched as my ex-husband reached into the backseat.
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He got his gun, he got some extra bullets.
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He looked over at me and he said, now you go do whatever you
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need to do. And he had left the keys in the
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ignition. So I watched as he mounted the
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three steps to Andrew's house. There was a big LED front, a
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glass door. And so I watched as my
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ex-husband kicked the front door.
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I didn't see if it went in or not.
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Later I I learned he did not gain entry, but he I heard three
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gunshots and I knew that there was no way Andrew was going to
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survive this. So I jumped into the driver's
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seat and I made an escape. I got to a 24 hour super center
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and I ran in and I screamed call 911.
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And it was just maybe seconds, but it felt like minutes to me.
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It looked like everybody was just staring at me because my
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face was all bloodied and and I looked down in my hand and I had
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a cell phone in my hand that was not mine.
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And all I can figure is it came from my ex husband's vehicle.
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I must have picked it up thinking it was mine.
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And I dialed 911 from that phone and I told the police they had
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to go to this house and I said tell them to be careful because
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it's not going to end well. At that point, I was escorted
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back to the warehouse of the supercenter and I waited until a
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policeman came and he said, ma'am, we've got an ambulance
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ready for you. And he was escorting me out of
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the warehouse and I told him I said I need to go to that
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vehicle and I need to get that my cell phone because I want to
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call my family so that they don't see on the news what
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happened so that they hear it from me that I'm OK.
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So when I went to the vehicle and I opened the passenger door,
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I saw that my ex-husband was sitting behind the steering
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wheel and he was holding a gun and he was pointing a gun at my
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face. And I quickly dropped to my
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knees. I screamed and I had a police
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human shield put around me. And right away I was taken to
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safety and my ex-husband was apprehended.
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I was taken to the hospital emergency room and when I was
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there, I learned that Andrew had been shot 10 times.
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He had survived, but he had been shot 10 times and he was in and
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out of surgeries. But he was under an assumed name
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because it was a crime scene. And so when I was there in the
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emergency room, I had a phone call come in and it was actually
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Andrew's adult son. I had met his his one child one
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time and he called my phone and my daughter answered and he
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said, you know what, We wish your mom well, but we think our
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dad and your mom need to just go their separate ways.
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And so I had, you know, was in the emergency room all day.
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I was answering questions, having all these tests run.
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But my heart sank because I knew that I was going to marry
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Andrew. So when I went to my parents
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house that first night, I knew I couldn't stay there, you know,
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indefinitely. And I had an aunt and uncle who
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had a home in the South part of town and they told me that they
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were going to gift me their home for the summer.
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They said we want you to be able to heal, not go back to the
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house that all this happened in. And when they gave me a tour of
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their home, I looked in the backyard and there was a
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beautiful big pergola in the backyard.
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It had big wooden rafters, 2 big swings, and a beautiful cement
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patio floor. And when I saw it, I just knew
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that this is where I was going to begin my healing.
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I knew every morning that's where I was going to go and meet
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Jesus. And so that began that summer.
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The for four to six weeks, I actually would not hear from
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Andrew as he was going in and out of surgeries.
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I did hear from his assistant and from his work that in the
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beginning days he said he loved me and he wanted to be with me.
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But by about the third or fourth day, he said he agreed that we
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just needed to go our separate ways.
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And so I would wake up every morning at the pergola and I
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would wrap a big green blanket around me and I would lay
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prostate on the cement floor and I would just weep.
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I wept and I wept and I wept and I didn't even know that my body
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could cry that much. And I remember praying and
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telling the Lord, I said, I am so empty, I have no words and I
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am a broken shell. And I remember reading a
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scripture in Zephaniah that said God sings over us.
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And I prayed and I asked the Lord.
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I said, Lord, I'm asking you, would you sing life back into my
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body? And little by little, you know
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all the feelings of numb, all the feelings of frustration, of
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anger, of bitterness, of doubt, You know all.
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Little by little, the healing began to happen as I was there
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at the pergola. Oh, and how are you now?
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It has been eight years and I can say with with just
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everything in me that I am flourishing.
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I am doing so well. And some of that is because the
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healing is layer by layer by layer.
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And in the very beginning, Gina, you know, one of the things that
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I did, it's normal when you go through something really painful
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or traumatic, it's normal to want to control things because
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you feel so out of control that you want to control them.
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And so I found myself, you know, calling my friends and saying,
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OK, put me on every prayer chain and this is what you need to
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pray. And, and I was trying to
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manipulate. I was even telling the Lord this
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is what he needed to do. And it all involved Andrew
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coming back to me. And then I would say, but Lord,
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I trust you. But yet I really wasn't.
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And so I finally got to the point where I said, Lord, I am
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going to make a choice to trust you.
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I'm scared to trust you because what if what I want isn't what
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you want? What if you don't give me the
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things that my heart desires? And I heard a song.
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Come on my I was listening on my iPhone and I heard a song come
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on my phone and it was called Dance with Me, a Lover of my
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soul. And it was sung by a man called
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Paul Wilbur. And it was all about the Lord
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wooing us and loving us. As you know, the Bible calls us
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the bride of Christ. And I got up one day.
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It was probably maybe my second week at the pergola and I was
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wrapped in a blanket and I stood up and I said, Lord, I'm scared
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to trust you, but as a sacrifice of my praise because I don't
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feel like praising you right now.
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I said, I'm just going to physically, I got up and I put
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my body in a waltz position and I envisioned myself being held
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in the arms of Jesus and I would just waltz around that pergola
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to that song. And at the very end of it, I
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would hold out the sides. I had a bathrobe on underneath
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the blankets. I'd hold the sides of my
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bathrobe out. I would curtsy and bow and I
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would tell the Lord that I loved him.
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And this began the journey. Every morning I would go to the
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Lord and I would pour out my messy prayers.
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I would cry. I would, you know, I worked
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through so many different emotions and you know, my
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healing, it took time. It wasn't just a quick cookie
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cutter cause healing is not just linear.
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Some days I would feel like like I was on, you know, some days I
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felt like I was making so much progress, and then other days it
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felt like I was back at square one.
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But you asked how I'm doing today.
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And today, eight years later, I can say that I am truly I am
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walking in a place of healing. Amen.
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Amen. Thank you so much for being so
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vulnerable and telling that story.
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And I know myself and I know our listeners can't even begin to
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understand everything that you went through when you were
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walking through that healing journey, those days in the
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pergola. What was a verse or verses that
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were keeping you anchored? You know, during that time, I
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just kept clinging to obviously Psalm 23, when it talks about
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yeah, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.
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You're with me. It doesn't mean I'm not going to
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walk through the valley of the shadow of death.
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It doesn't mean I'm not going to go through hard times.
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But I clung to the fact that I was like, Lord, you say that
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you're with me. So even when I don't feel it,
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even when I don't sense it, I'm going to hold the fact that you
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were walking here right beside me and that you're not going to
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leave me. And then there's also a
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scripture in Psalm 34, Psalm 3418, and it says that the Lord
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is near to the broken hearted, and He saves those who are
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crushed in spirit. And so I would just remind the
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Lord. It's like I would thank Him that
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He was there even when I didn't feel it, but I took him at His
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word that He wasn't going to leave me alone.
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That's so good. So you said you're married now?
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Yeah. And so how did that come about
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then? Sure.
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Well, it was probably, I'm going to say it was about six weeks,
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five to six weeks after the assault had happened and I had
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not heard from Andrew. I knew he was in and out of
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surgeries. I would later learn that his
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kids had taken my phone number out of his phone.
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And because they just now, I don't blame them because they
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had never even met me. I mean, all they knew is their
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dad had dated somebody for four weeks and he was shot.
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So it sounded very much like a Jerry Springer show.
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So I was sitting at the pergola. I think I was drinking coffee at
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the table. And I looked down at my phone
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and there was a message of Facebook Messenger message.
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I've never been so happy for Facebook Messenger.
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And I looked down and it was from Andrew and it said, hey,
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I'm alive. And that's all it said.
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And so I responded back and I explained that I had not given
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directions. I had not LED my ex-husband into
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his house. I wanted him to know that I was.
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I was not in any way responsible for that.
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And I asked him if I could come and visit him and he said he was
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getting ready to go into the hospital for another surgery.
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And he said, I'll call you after I get out of surgery or I'll,
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I'll contact you. And he ended his message with
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the words take care. And I thought, what does that
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mean? Is it, you know, take care?
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I wish you well. Go your way.
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I'll go mine. And so that weekend was a really
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long weekend for me as I waited. And next it was like over the
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weekend. The next week, I looked down.
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I had another Facebook Messenger message from him, and it said a
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visit would be nice. Now, I was 50 years old and he
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was 53. And he said, but you've got to
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come when my kids aren't here. And so here I am.
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I'm we're sneaking around his kids so that we can see each
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other as grown adults. And I walked into his hospital
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room and I looked at him and I said, Andrew, where does this
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leave us? And he said, I don't know.
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He goes, I've read everything that happened to you in the
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charges, you know, the criminal charges.
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And he said, you're going to be really messed up.
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And he said, I know what happened to me.
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And he goes, and I'm going to be really messed up.
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And something came over me and I shook my finger in his face.
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And I said, Andrew Harr, you will never meet another woman
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like me. And four weeks later, we were
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engaged. And four months later we were
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married. And that's been eight years.
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Wow, the fact that he was in, he was in that situation and he was
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just ready to forgive and you are ready to forgive.
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You know your ex-husband as you walk through all that.
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Can you talk a little bit about that forgiveness journey?
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Sure. I don't know, You know, when it
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comes to forgiveness, I don't know that it was in that moment
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when I saw Andrew that we were talking about forgiveness.
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But while I was, while I was at the pergola, I mean, I had to do
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a lot of forgiving. And the the hardest person to
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forgive was me because it's normal when we go through
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something traumatic, it affects our self esteem and it attacks
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US. And it's a normal question to
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somehow take ownership of what happened and say what did I do
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to 'cause this? What did I do?
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Was it my fault? And for me, I even had to go
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back to 2013 and forgive myself for what I considered I had
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failed. I felt like I had failed my
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children when I got divorced. Now obviously I know I didn't
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but but that was what I told myself was I had failed my
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children. I said I had.
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I felt like I had failed God because when I got married, I
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said for better or worse, for richer, poorer, I took my vows
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as Lord. I made you a promise.
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Now, again, God doesn't want us to be in those situations.
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We are not called to be in situations like them.
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But I felt like I had let God down.
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So I had to forgive myself for that.
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I had to forgive myself. As a licensed marriage and
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family therapist. I thought I failed there.
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Here I tell people how to work on their relationships and look
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what just happened to me. And so I had to work through a
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process of forgiving myself. I had to walk through a process
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of forgiving my ex-husband. And that decision began the day
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I was assaulted. And I was one of the last things
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that it actually, it was the very last thing I ever said to
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my ex-husband. He looked down into my bloodied
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face and the intoxication was wearing off and he realized what
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he had done and he said, tell me the truth, I've gone too far.
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He said you could never forgive me.
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And I stopped for a moment and I I remember stopping and thinking
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about that what he had said. And I said, you're right, you
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have gone too far. There's no going back.
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I said. But I want you to know that this
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day I will forgive you. In the days to come I will
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forgive you. And those are the very last
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words I've ever spoken to my ex-husband.
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Now, that does not mean that in that moment I felt these
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goosebumps. And I'm forgiving and I'm not
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angry and I'm not because I was all those things.
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But I knew that that day I was making a decision.
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I didn't know what it would look like.
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I didn't know how long it would take, but I knew I was making a
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choice, that I was going to walk forward and I was going to I was
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going to eventually be able to say I have forgiven.
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And so that was, you know, there were other people to forgive.
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I had to forgive well meaning friends and questions that had
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told me stay, stay, stay in your marriage.
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Believe you know, God restores God restores and yes, God does
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restore. And you know, that is a a good
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message when it is an appropriate healthy message.
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But people people that did not know my situation and they were
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well meaning, but they were giving advice that they really
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had no business giving. And so when I went through all
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this, I had to literally walk through and say, Lord, I forgive
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those people because you know what?
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Their heart was, right? They weren't trying to hurt me.
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They were trying to help me. And though it did hurt me, I'm
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not going to hold them responsible for that.
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So, so there was an and then I had to forgive God.
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You know, Gina, God does not need our forgiveness.
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God is perfect. God is sovereign.
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But so often we hold things against God and we blame God for
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things. And I had to release God from my
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expectations of what he should or shouldn't have done.
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And I had to really. And part of that was in that
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decision that said, Lord, I'm, I don't understand.
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It's like, like our little kids when they ask us, well, but why?
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They ask us a question and they say, well, but why?
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But why 100 answers? And they keep coming back with
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but why? I had to come to grips with the
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fact that I might never know why, and I had to be OK with
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that. Yeah.
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So you've been so open with your story.
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What made you decide that now was the time to bring it out in
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book form and officially send it to the masses who may have never
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heard your story before, but who could definitely be helped by
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hearing your story? Sure.
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That was a really hard decision for me.
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I always knew I was going to write a book someday.
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In fact, this going back 20 years, I even went to a
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bookstore and I bought 2 books written by a woman with my name
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and I, I put, you know, her name was on the spine of them.
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And I bought these two books and I put them on my bookshelf
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because I knew someday I was going to write a book.
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I thought it was going to be about surviving infidelity and
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about trusting and where my book now is about trusting.
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It's not the same book I thought I was going to write.
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As a therapist, it was a really scary decision to write a book
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because typically we don't put our personal stories out there.
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But for me, I didn't want my story to be here's a woman that
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was hurt because I didn't have any control.
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The day everything happened, it was all over the news and I
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didn't have any control over what people heard or what they
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thought or anything with my story.
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And I did not want the devil to have the last word of my story.
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I did not want to be the woman that was hurt because yes, I am
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a woman that was hurt. But my real story was that I am
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a healed woman that Jesus healed, that walked through
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healing where there is hope. And I think that as a therapist,
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you know what my job is to give hope to people.
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And there's a statistic that says over 50% of women and at
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least 60% of men will go through at least one really hard,
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painful event in their lives that's considered traumatic.
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Yet a lot of them never talk about it.
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And so we, we suffer in silence. We put them mask on when people
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say how are you doing? And and everybody says fine.
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And I decided that I was going to come forward and I was going
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to remove that mask and say, you know what, I hurt too.
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I am no different than anybody else.
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There's no pain Olympics. It's not that my pain is any
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greater than anybody else's pain.
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My hurt, my loss, my feelings of betrayal are no greater than
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somebody else's feelings of of loss or betrayal or anger.
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Or it's our feelings are our feelings.
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And so I made the decision to write my story and make it
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public because I wanted people to know that there is healing
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that's possible. Definitely.
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So you have in your book, you have a section called Tools for
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Growth and Healing. So can you share how you develop
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those tools and why it's so important?
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Sure. For so many years, I have walked
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beside my clients in their pain and in their healing process.
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And I have used a bunch of different tools as a therapist.
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And now all of a sudden I was the one that was walking through
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this. And so I chose 10 tools that I
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that I use and I put them in the back of the book.
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It's the therapeutic part of the book that are very, very
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practical tools that people can use as they walk through
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healing. And they include things like the
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power of friendship and community.
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Because you know, when we go through those hard seasons, it's
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human nature to want to pull back and to isolate ourselves.
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And that's exactly where the devil wants us.
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He wants us to isolate ourselves, ourselves, to pull
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away so that he can get us to ruminate in our thoughts and to
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tell ourselves this negative self.
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Talk about nobody cares and my life is not going to be good.
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And so I talk about the power of a trusted community and trusted
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friends. I talk about the power of
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journaling and being able to express what maybe you can't
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tell anybody. How can I pour my heart out onto
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a written page where I can begin to process?
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I talk about the power of therapy and how courageous it is
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to get a wise counselor that can walk beside you.
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Not to fix your story, but to walk beside you, to make sure
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that you are healing and to keep you on track.
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I talk about the power of music because research has shown how
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music helps our body heal. I talk about the power of
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knowing the, you know, the promises of God's word because
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you know, when, when our brain says one thing, it's like if we
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know that the word of God says something different, It's like
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saying this is what I feel and what I think, but this is what I
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know and what God says. And then things like the power
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of self talk and the power of gratitude.
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And then there is several prayers in there on the power of
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forgiveness. And I've put some prayers in
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there for even the person that struggles with forgiving that
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says, God help me to even want to want to forgive.
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So they're just 10 practical tools that somebody can use as
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they're walking through their own journey.
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Well, that'll sound really helpful because we've talked on
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here a lot about community and how important it is to really
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find and vet out your tribe and to walk with, you know, they
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normally say, I've heard that if you have one or two people that
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will be your quote UN quote ride or dies that you will do well.
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And just how important it that is to vet that out.
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And also how important therapy is, because we've talked a lot
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about on here that you can love Jesus and take medication and go
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to therapy. Absolutely.
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You know, the first thing I did is I put myself in therapy as a
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therapist. I've been a therapist 18 years
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and I, well, at the time, I guess I'd been a therapist maybe
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more like 10 or 11 years. But one of the very first things
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I did is I found a good counselor and I said, I just
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need you to walk, walk with me in this.
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And I am often asked, you know, by people that maybe they're not
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the one going through something, but they may say, I know
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somebody that's going through something really hard.
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How can I help them? And during that time, some of
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the most wonderful things that my community did is they gave me
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space, but not too much space. It's like they would come check
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on me, but then they wouldn't stay forever.
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They would bring a meal and they would drop it off at the front
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door, but they wouldn't ask to stay and eat it with me.
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And so some of them might just send an encouraging text message
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or saying I'm praying for you today, or a scripture or so.
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Having a support system is such an important part of healing.
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That is so good, Kim. I really think that when people
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hear your story and when they read the book, that they are
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going to know that, number one, they're not alone and #2 that
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they can also have the freedom and the power to be able to
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share their story as well. So I want to thank you for going
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first and sharing this part of your story.
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Where can people find you? Where can they hear more about
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you and your story and get your book today?
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Sure. I have a website.
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It is kimberlyharr.com and that is just my first name, Kimberly
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Ki MB ERLY, and then my last name, Harr haar.com.
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And I'm also on social media. I'm on Instagram, Kimberly dot
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Harr and on Facebook Kimberly J Harr.
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They can get my book wherever books are sold.
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So I will put links to all of that in the show notes today.
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Again, Kim, thank you so much. Do you have one last piece of
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encouragement for my listeners today?
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You know I do. I would like to encourage
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everybody that's listening. When you are going through a
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hard season, run to God, not away from Him, because so many
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people run away from the Lord during hard times.
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And there's a scripture in Philippians 1/6 and it says, I
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am sure of this, that he who started a good work in you will
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carry it to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.
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So what? God starts, He finishes, and you
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can trust Him. Amen.
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Amen. Guys.
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I will talk to you next episode and go checked him out and go
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listen to more of her story and get her book today.
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