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061 - Book Nine Chapter Seven · Brothers Karamazov

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Speaker 1: Chapter sixty one of The Brother's Karamatselv by Fayodor Dostoyevsky,
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Speaker 1: translated by Constance Garnet. This LibriVox recording is in the
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Speaker 1: public domain. Recording by Tony Addison, Chapter seven, Mitchya's Great
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Speaker 1: Secret received with hisses, gentlemen. He began still in the
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Speaker 1: same agitation. I want to make a full confession that
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Speaker 1: money was my own. The lawyer's face is lengthened. That
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Speaker 1: was not at all what they expected. How do you mean, faltered,
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Speaker 1: Nikolay Parfenovitch, when at five o'clock on the same day,
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Speaker 1: from your own confession, damn, five o'clock on the same day,
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Speaker 1: and my own confession. That's nothing to do with it now,
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Speaker 1: that money was my own, my own bud is stolen
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Speaker 1: by me, not mine, I mean, but stolen by me.
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Speaker 1: And it was fifteen hundred roubles, and I had it
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Speaker 1: on me all the time, all the time. But where
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Speaker 1: did you get it? I took it up my neck, gentlemen,
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Speaker 1: off this very neck. It was here round my neck,
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Speaker 1: sewn up in a rag. And I'd had it round
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Speaker 1: my neck a long time. It's a month since i'd
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Speaker 1: put it round my neck. To my shame and disgrace.
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Speaker 1: And from whom did you appropriate it? You mean steal it?
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Speaker 1: Speak out plainly, nan, Yes, I consider that I practically
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Speaker 1: stole it. But if you prefer I appropriated it, I
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Speaker 1: consider I stole it, and last night I stole it
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Speaker 1: finally last night. But you said that it's a month
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Speaker 1: since you obtained it. Yes, but not from my father.
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Speaker 1: Not from my father. Don't be uneasy. I didn't steal
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Speaker 1: it from my father, but from her. Let me tell
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Speaker 1: you without interrupting. It's hard to do you. No. You see,
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Speaker 1: a month ago I was sent for by Katerina Ivanovna,
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Speaker 1: formerly my betrothed. Do you know her? Yes, of course
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Speaker 1: I know. You know her. She's a noble creature, noblest
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Speaker 1: of the noble. But she has hated me ever so long, Oh,
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Speaker 1: ever so long, and hated me with good reason, good reason,
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Speaker 1: Katerina iva Novna Nikolay Poppanovitch exclaimed, with wonder. The prosecutor
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Speaker 1: too starred. Oh, don't take her name in vain. I'm
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Speaker 1: a scoundrel to bring her into it. Yes, I've seen
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Speaker 1: that she hated me a long while, from the very first,
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Speaker 1: even that evening at my lodging. But enough enough. You're
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Speaker 1: unworthy even to know of that, no need of that
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Speaker 1: at all. I need only tell you that she sent
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Speaker 1: for me a month ago, gave me three thousand roubles
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Speaker 1: to send up to her sister and another relation in Moscow,
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Speaker 1: as though she couldn't have sum it up herself. And
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Speaker 1: I it was just at that fatal moment in my
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Speaker 1: life when I well, in fact, when i'd just come
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Speaker 1: to love another. She's sitting down below now, Grushenka. I
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Speaker 1: carried her up here to Mokhra then and wasted here
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Speaker 1: in two days half that damn three thousand, But the
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Speaker 1: other half I kept on me. Well, I've kept that
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Speaker 1: other half, that fifteen hundred like a locket round my neck.
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Speaker 1: But yesterday I undid it and spent it. What's left
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Speaker 1: of it eight hundred roubles. He's in your hands, nap
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Speaker 1: Nikolay Pavvenovitch. That's the change out of the fifteen hundred
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Speaker 1: I had yesterday. Excuse me, how's that? Why? When you
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Speaker 1: were here a month ago you spent three thousand, not
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Speaker 1: fifteen hundred. Everybody knows that. Who knows it? Who counted
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Speaker 1: the money? Did I let anyone count it? Why you
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Speaker 1: told everyone yourself that you'd spent exactly three thousand. It's
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Speaker 1: true I did. I told the whole town so, and
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Speaker 1: the whole town said so. And here at Mokro too,
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Speaker 1: everyone reckoned it was three thousand. Yet I didn't spend
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Speaker 1: three thousand, but fifteen hundred, and the other fifteen hundred
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Speaker 1: I sewed into a little bag. That's how it was, gentlemen,
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Speaker 1: that's why I got that money yesterday. This is almost miraculous,
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Speaker 1: murmured Nikolay Parfenovitch. Allow me to inquire, observed the prosecutor,
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Speaker 1: at last, have you informed any one whatever of this
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Speaker 1: circumstance before? I mean that you had fifteen hundred left
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Speaker 1: about you a month ago? I told no one. That's strange.
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Speaker 1: Do you mean absolutely no one, absolutely no one, no
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Speaker 1: one and nobody? What was your reason for this reticence?
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Speaker 1: What was your motive for making such a secret of it?
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Speaker 1: To be more precise, you have told us at last
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Speaker 1: your secret, in your words, so disgraceful, though in reality
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Speaker 1: that is, of course, comparatively speaking, this action, that is
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Speaker 1: the appropriation of three thousand rubles belonging to someone else,
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Speaker 1: and of course only for a time, is in my view,
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Speaker 1: at least, only an act of the greatest recklessness, and
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Speaker 1: not so disgraceful when one takes into consideration your character.
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Speaker 1: Even admitting that it was an action in the highest
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Speaker 1: degree discreditable, still discreditable is not disgraceful. Many people have
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Speaker 1: already guessed during this last month about the three thousand
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Speaker 1: of Katerina ivanovness that you have spent, and I heard
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Speaker 1: the legend myself, apart from your confession. Mihail Makarovitch, for instance,
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Speaker 1: had heard it too, so that indeed it was scarcely
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Speaker 1: a legend, but the gossip of the whole. There are
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Speaker 1: indications too if I am not mistaken that you confessed
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Speaker 1: this yourself to someone, I mean that the money was
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Speaker 1: Katerina ivanovna's. And so it's extremely surprising to me that
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Speaker 1: hitherto that is, up to the present moment, you have
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Speaker 1: made such an extraordinary secret of the fifteen hundred you
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Speaker 1: say you put by apparently connecting a feeling of positive
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Speaker 1: horror with that secret. It's not easy to believe that
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Speaker 1: it could cost you such distress to confess such a secret.
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Speaker 1: You cried out just now that Siberia would be better
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Speaker 1: than confessing it. The prosecutor ceased speaking he was provoked.
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Speaker 1: He did not conceal his vexation, which was almost anger,
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Speaker 1: and gave bent to all his accumulated spleen, disconnectedly and incoherently,
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Speaker 1: without choosing words. It's not the fifteen hundred that's the disgrace,
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Speaker 1: but that I put it apart from the rest of
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Speaker 1: the three thousand, said Mitya firmly. Why smiled the prosecutor irritably.
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Speaker 1: What is there disgraceful to your thinking? In your having
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Speaker 1: set aside half of the three thousand you had discreditably
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Speaker 1: if you prefer disgracefully appropriated, your taking the three thousand
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Speaker 1: is more important than what you did with it. And
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Speaker 1: by the way, why did you do that? Why did
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Speaker 1: you set apart that half? For what purpose? For what
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Speaker 1: object did you do it? Can you explain that to us, oh, gentlemen,
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Speaker 1: For purpose is the whole point, cried Mitya. Had put
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Speaker 1: it aside because I was, That is because I was calculating,
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Speaker 1: and to be calculating in such a case is vile,
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Speaker 1: And that vileness has been going on a whole month.
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Speaker 1: It's incomprehensible. I wonder at you but I'll make it clearer.
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Speaker 1: Perhaps it really is incomprehensible. You see, Attend to what
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Speaker 1: I said, I appropriate three thousand entrusted to my honor.
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Speaker 1: I spend it on a spree, say, I spend it all.
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Speaker 1: And next morning I go to her and say, catchya,
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Speaker 1: I've done wrong. I've squandered your three thousand. Well is
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Speaker 1: that right? No, it's not right. It's dishonest and cowardly.
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Speaker 1: I'm a beast with no more self control than a beast.
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Speaker 1: That's so, isn't it? But still I'm not a thief.
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Speaker 1: Another downright thiep. You'll admit I squandered it, but I
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Speaker 1: didn't steal it. Now a second, rather more favorable or alternative.
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Speaker 1: Follow me carefully, or I may get confused again. My
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Speaker 1: head's going round. And so for the second alternative, I
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Speaker 1: spend here only fifteen hundred out of the three thousand,
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Speaker 1: That is only half. Next day I go and take
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Speaker 1: that half to her. Catch her take this fifteen hundred
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Speaker 1: from me. I'm a low beast and an untrustworthy scoundrel,
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Speaker 1: for I've wasted half the money, and I shall waste
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Speaker 1: this too. So keep me from temptation. Well, what of
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Speaker 1: that alternative, I should be a beast and a scoundrel
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Speaker 1: and whatever you like, but not a thief, not altogether
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Speaker 1: a thief. Or I should not have brought back what
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Speaker 1: was left, but have kept that too. She would see
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Speaker 1: at once that since I broke back half, I should
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Speaker 1: pay back what I'd spent, that I should never give
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Speaker 1: up trying to that I I should work to get
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Speaker 1: it and pay it back. So in that case, I
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Speaker 1: should be a scoundrel, but not a thief. You may
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Speaker 1: say what you'll like, not a thief. I admit that
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Speaker 1: there is a certain distinction, said the prosecutor, with a
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Speaker 1: cold smile. But it's strange that you see such a
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Speaker 1: vital difference. Yes, I see a vital difference. Every man
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Speaker 1: may be a scoundrel, and perhaps every man is a scoundrel,
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Speaker 1: but not everyone can be a thief. It takes an
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Speaker 1: art scoundrel to be that. Oh, of course, I don't
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Speaker 1: know how to make these fine distinctions. But a thief
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Speaker 1: is lower than a scoundrel. That's my conviction. Listen, I
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Speaker 1: carry the money about me a whole month. I may
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Speaker 1: make up my mind to give it back tomorrow, and
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Speaker 1: I'm a scoundrel. No longer. But I cannot make up
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Speaker 1: my mind, you said, though I'm making up my mind
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Speaker 1: every day and every day spurring myself on to do it,
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Speaker 1: and yet for a whole month I can't bring myself
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Speaker 1: to it. You see, Is that right to your thinking?
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Speaker 1: Is that right? Certainly that's not right. That I can
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Speaker 1: quite understand, and that I don't dispute, answered the prosecutor
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Speaker 1: with a reserve, And let us give up all discussion
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Speaker 1: of these subtleties and distinctions, and if you will be
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Speaker 1: so kind, get back to the point. And the point
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Speaker 1: is that you have still not told us altogether. We've
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Speaker 1: asked you why in the first place you half the money,
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Speaker 1: squandering one half and hiding the other. For what purpose
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Speaker 1: exactly did you hide it? What did you mean to
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Speaker 1: do with that fifteen hundred? I insist upon that question,
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Speaker 1: Dmitri Byodorovitch, Yes, of course, cried Mitya, striking himself on
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Speaker 1: the forehead. Give me, I'm worrying you, and I'm not
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Speaker 1: explaining the chief point why you'd understand in a minute,
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Speaker 1: For it's just the motive of it that's the disgrace.
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Speaker 1: You see. It was all to do with the old man,
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Speaker 1: My dead father. He was always pestering Agrafena Alexandrovna, and
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Speaker 1: I was jealous. I thought then that she was hesitating
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Speaker 1: between me and him, So I kept thinking every day.
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Speaker 1: Suppose you were to make up her mind all of
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Speaker 1: a sudden, Suppose you were to leave off tormenting me,
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Speaker 1: and was suddenly to say to me, I love you,
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Speaker 1: not him, take me to the other end of the world.
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Speaker 1: And I'd only forty kopecks. How could I take her away?
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Speaker 1: What could I do? Why? I'd be lost? You see,
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Speaker 1: I didn't know her then, I didn't understand her. I
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Speaker 1: thought she wanted money and that she wouldn't forgive my poverty.
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Speaker 1: And so I fiendestly counted out the half of that
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Speaker 1: three thousand, sewed it up, calculating on it, sewed it
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Speaker 1: up before I was drunk, And after I had sewn
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Speaker 1: it up, I went up to get drunk on the rest. Yes,
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Speaker 1: that was base. Do you understand now? Both the lawyers
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Speaker 1: laughed aloud. I should have called it sensible and moral
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Speaker 1: on your part, not to have squandered it all, chuckled
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Speaker 1: Nikolay Parfenovitch, For after all, what does it amount to? Why?
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Speaker 1: But I stole it. That's what it amounts to. Oh God,
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Speaker 1: you horrify me by not understanding every day that I
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Speaker 1: had that fifteen hundred sewn up around my neck. Every
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Speaker 1: day and every hour, I said to myself, you're a thief.
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Speaker 1: You're a thief. Yes, that's what I've been so savage
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Speaker 1: all this month. That's why I fought in the tavern.
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Speaker 1: That's why I attacked my father. It was because I
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Speaker 1: felt I was a thief. I couldn't make up my mind.
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Speaker 1: I didn't dare even to tell Alyosha, my brother, about
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Speaker 1: that fifteen hundred. I felt I was such a scoundrel
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Speaker 1: and such a pickpocket. But do you know, while I
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Speaker 1: carried it, I said to myself at the same time
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Speaker 1: every hour, No, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, you may yet not be
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Speaker 1: a thief. Why because I might go next day and
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Speaker 1: pay back that fifteen hundred to catch you. And only
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Speaker 1: yesterday I made up my mind to turn my amulet
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Speaker 1: up my neck on my way from Penyus to Pohtan.
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Speaker 1: I hadn't been able till that moment to bring myself
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Speaker 1: to it. And it was only one I tore it
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Speaker 1: up that I became a downright thief, a thief and
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Speaker 1: a dishonest man for the rest of my life. Why
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Speaker 1: because with that I destroyed too my dream of going
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Speaker 1: to catch you and saying I'm a scoundrel but not
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Speaker 1: a thief. Do you understand now, Do you understand what
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Speaker 1: was it made you decide to do it? Yesterday? Nikolay
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Speaker 1: Popenovitch interrupted, Why it's absurd to ask, because I had
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Speaker 1: condemned myself to die at five o'clock this morning here
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Speaker 1: at dawn. I thought it made no difference whether I
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Speaker 1: died a thep or a man of honor. But I
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Speaker 1: see it's not so. It turns out that it does
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Speaker 1: make a difference. Believe me, gentlemen, what has tortured me
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Speaker 1: most cheering this night has not been the thought that
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Speaker 1: I'd killed the old servant and that I was in
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Speaker 1: danger of Siberia just when my love was being rewarded
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Speaker 1: and Heaven was open to me again. Oh, that did
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Speaker 1: torture me, but not in the same way, not so
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Speaker 1: much as the damned consciousness that I had torn that
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Speaker 1: damned money off my breast at last and spent it
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Speaker 1: and have become a downright theep Oh, gentleman, I tell
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Speaker 1: you again, with a bleeding heart. I have learned a
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Speaker 1: great deal this night. I have loved that it's not
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Speaker 1: only impossible to live a scoundrel, but impossible to die
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Speaker 1: a scoundrel. No, gentlemen, one must die honest. Mitya was pale.
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Speaker 1: His face had a haggard and exhausted look, in spite
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Speaker 1: of his being intensely excited. I am beginning to understand you,
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Speaker 1: Dmitri Pyodorovitch, the prosecutor said, slowly, in a soft and
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Speaker 1: almost compassionate tone. But all this, if you'll excuse my
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Speaker 1: saying so, is a matter of nerves, in my opinion,
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Speaker 1: your overwrought nerves, That's what it is. And why, for instance,
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Speaker 1: should you not have saved yourself such misery for almost
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Speaker 1: a month by going and returning that fifteen hundred to
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Speaker 1: the lady who had interested it to you? And why
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Speaker 1: could you not have explained things to and in view
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Speaker 1: of your position, which you describe as being so awful,
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Speaker 1: or why could you not have had recourse to the
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Speaker 1: plan which would so naturally have occurred to one's mind,
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Speaker 1: that is, after honorably confessing your errors to her, why
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Speaker 1: could you not have asked her to lend you the
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Speaker 1: sum needed for your expenses, which, with her generous heart,
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Speaker 1: she would certainly not have refused you in your distress,
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Speaker 1: especially if it had been with some guarantee, or even
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Speaker 1: on the security you offered to the merchant's Samson up
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Speaker 1: and to Madame Hohlakov. I suppose you still regard that
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Speaker 1: security as our value. Mietya suddenly crimsoned. Surely you don't
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Speaker 1: think me such an out and out scoundrel as that
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Speaker 1: you can't be speaking in earnest, he said, with indignation,
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Speaker 1: looking the prosecutor straight in the face and seeming unable
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Speaker 1: to believe his ears. I assure you I'm in earnest.
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Speaker 1: Why do you imagine I'm not serious? It was the
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Speaker 1: prosecutor's turn to be surprised. Oh how base that would
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Speaker 1: have been. Gentlemen, do you know you are taught during me?
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Speaker 1: Let me tell you everything, so be it. I'll converse
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Speaker 1: all my infernal wickedness, but to put you to shame,
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Speaker 1: and you'll be surprised yourselves at the depth of ignominy
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Speaker 1: to which a medley of human passions can sink me.
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Speaker 1: You must know that I already had that plan myself,
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Speaker 1: that plan you spoke of just now, prosecutor. Yes, gentlemen,
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Speaker 1: I too have had that thought in my mind all
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Speaker 1: this current month, so that I was on the point
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Speaker 1: of deciding to go to Catcher. I was mean enough
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Speaker 1: for that, but to go to her, to tell her
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Speaker 1: of my treachery, and for that very treachery, to carry
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Speaker 1: it out for the expenses of that treachery, to beg
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Speaker 1: for money from her, catch her to beg do you hear,
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Speaker 1: to beg and go straight from her to run away
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Speaker 1: with the other, the rival who hated and insulted her.
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Speaker 1: To think of it, you must be mad, prosecutor. Mad,
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Speaker 1: I am not, But I did speak in haste without
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Speaker 1: thinking of that feminine jealousy. If there could be jealousy
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Speaker 1: in this case, as she was certain, Yes, perhaps there
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Speaker 1: is something of the kind, said the prosecutor, smiling. But
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Speaker 1: that would have been so infamous, mitya brotispast down on
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Speaker 1: the table fiercely. That would have been filthy, beyond everything. Yes,
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Speaker 1: do you know that she might have given me that money? Yes,
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Speaker 1: and she would have given it too. She'd have been
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Speaker 1: certain to give it to be revenged on me. She'd
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Speaker 1: have given it to satisfy her vengeance to show her
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Speaker 1: contempt for me, for hers is an infernal nature too,
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Speaker 1: and she's a woman of great wrath. I'd have taken
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Speaker 1: the money too. Oh, I should have taken it. I
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Speaker 1: should have taken it and then for the rest of
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Speaker 1: my life. Oh God forgive me, gentlemen. I'm making such
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Speaker 1: an outcry because I've had that thought in my mind
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Speaker 1: so lately, only the day before yesterday, that night when
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Speaker 1: I was having all that bother with Lea Gavi, and
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Speaker 1: afterwards yesterday, all day yesterday, I remember that happened. To
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Speaker 1: what happened, I put in Nikolay Popenovitch inquisitively, but Mitya
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Speaker 1: did not hear it. I have made you an awful confession,
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Speaker 1: Mitya said gloomily. In conclusion. You must appreciate it, and
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Speaker 1: what's more, you must respect it, for if not, if
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Speaker 1: that leaves your souls untouched, then you've simply no respect
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Speaker 1: for me. Gentlemen, I tell you that, And I shall
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Speaker 1: die of shame at having confessed it to men like you. Oh,
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Speaker 1: I shall shoot myself. Yes, I see, I see already
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Speaker 1: that you don't believe me. What you want to write
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Speaker 1: that down too? He cried in dismay. Yes, what you
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Speaker 1: said just now, said Nikolay Parfenovitch, looking at him in surprise.
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Speaker 1: That is that up to the last hour you were
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Speaker 1: still contemplating going to Katerina Ivanovna to beg that sum
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Speaker 1: from her. I assure you that's a very important piece
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Speaker 1: of evidence for us, Dmitri Fyodorovitch. I mean for the
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Speaker 1: whole case, and particularly for you, particularly important for you.
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Speaker 1: Ah mercy, gentlemen, me have flung up his hands. Don't
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Speaker 1: write that anyway. Have some shame here. I've turned my
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Speaker 1: heart asunder before you, and you seize the opportunity and
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Speaker 1: of fingering the wounds in both arms. Oh my God,
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Speaker 1: in despair, he hid his face in his hands. Don't
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Speaker 1: worry yourself, so, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, observed the prosecutor. Everything that
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Speaker 1: is written down will be read over to you afterwards,
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Speaker 1: and what you don't agree to, we'll alter as you like.
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Speaker 1: But now I'll ask you one little question for the
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Speaker 1: second time. Has no one, absolutely no one heard from
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Speaker 1: you of that money you sewed up? That I must
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Speaker 1: tell you is almost impossible to believe. No one, no
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Speaker 1: one I told you so before, or you have not
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Speaker 1: understood anything. Let me alone very well. This matter is
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Speaker 1: bound to be explained, and there's plenty of time for it.
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Speaker 1: But meantime, consider we have perhaps a dozen witnesses that
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Speaker 1: you yourself spread it abroadened even shouted almost everywhere about
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Speaker 1: the three thousands you'd spent here, three thousand, not fifteen hundred.
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Speaker 1: And now too, when you get hold of the money
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Speaker 1: you had yesterday, you gave many people to understand that
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Speaker 1: you had brought three thousand with you. You've got not dozens,
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Speaker 1: but hundreds of witnesses, two hundred witnesses, two hundred of
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Speaker 1: thirty thousand. I've heard it, cried Mitch. It. Well, you
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Speaker 1: see all bear witness to it. And the word all
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Speaker 1: means something, it means nothing. I talked to Rot and
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Speaker 1: everyone began repeating it. But what needed you to talk? Rot?
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Speaker 1: As you call it, the devil knows from bravarda PABs
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Speaker 1: and having wasted so much money to try and forget
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Speaker 1: that money I had sewn up? Perhaps yes, that was
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Speaker 1: why damn it? How open will you ask me that question? Well,
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Speaker 1: I told a fib and that was the end of it.
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Speaker 1: Once I'd say it, I didn't care to correct it.
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Speaker 1: What does a man tell lies? For sometime that's very
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Speaker 1: difficult to decide. Dmitry Byodorovitch? What makes a man tell lies?
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Speaker 1: Observed the prosecutor impressibly tell me, though, Was that amulet,
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Speaker 1: as you call it, on your neck a big thing? No?
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Speaker 1: Not big? How big? For instance, if you fold a
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Speaker 1: hundred rouble note in half, that would be the size.
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Speaker 1: You'd better show us the remains of it. You must
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Speaker 1: have them somewhere. Damnation, what nonsense. I don't know where
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Speaker 1: they are, But excuse me? Where and when did you
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Speaker 1: take it off your neck? According to your own evidence,
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Speaker 1: you didn't go home. When I was going from Penyars
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Speaker 1: to Bowton's on the way, I tore it off my
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Speaker 1: neck and took out the money in the dark. What
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Speaker 1: should I want a light for? I did it with
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Speaker 1: my fingers in one minute, without scissors, in the street,
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Speaker 1: in the market place. I think it was Why scissors?
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Speaker 1: It was an old rag. It was torn in a minute.
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Speaker 1: Where did you put it afterwards? I dropped it there?
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Speaker 1: Where was it exactly? In the market place? In the
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Speaker 1: market place? The devil knows whereabouts? What do you want
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Speaker 1: to know for? That's extremely important? Dmitri Fyodorovitch. It would
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Speaker 1: be material evidence in your favor. How is it you
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Speaker 1: don't understand that? Who helped you to sew it up
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Speaker 1: a month ago? No one helped me. I did it myself.
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Speaker 1: Can you sew? A soldier has to know how to sew?
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Speaker 1: No knowledge was needed to do that. Where did you
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Speaker 1: get the material, that is, the rag in which you
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Speaker 1: sowed the money? Are you laughing at me? Not at all?
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Speaker 1: And we are in no mood for laughing, Dmitri Payodorovitch.
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Speaker 1: I don't know where I got the rag from. Somewhere.
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Speaker 1: I suppose I should have thought you couldn't have forgotten
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Speaker 1: it upon my word, I don't remember. I might have
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Speaker 1: torn a bit off my linen. That's very interesting. We
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Speaker 1: might find in your lodgings tomorrow the shirt or whatever
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Speaker 1: it is from which you tore the rag or what
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Speaker 1: sort of rag was it? Cloth or linen? Godness only
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Speaker 1: knows what it was quite a bit. I believe I
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Speaker 1: didn't tear it off anything. It was a bit of kaliko.
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Speaker 1: I believe I sewed it up in a cap of
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Speaker 1: my landladies. In your landlady's yes, I took it from her.
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Speaker 1: How did you get it? You see? I remember once
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Speaker 1: taking a cap for a rag, perhaps to wipe my
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Speaker 1: pen on. I took it without asking, because it was
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Speaker 1: a worthless rag. I tore it up, and I took
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Speaker 1: the notes and sewed them up in it. I believe
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Speaker 1: it was in that very rag. I sewed them an
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Speaker 1: old piece of calico, washed a thousand times, And you
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Speaker 1: remember that for certain? Now I don't know whether for
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Speaker 1: certain I think it was in the cap. But hang it,
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Speaker 1: What does it matter? In that case? Your landlady will
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Speaker 1: remember that the thing was lost. No, she won't. She
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Speaker 1: didn't miss it. It was an old rag, I tell you,
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Speaker 1: an old rag, not worth a farthing. And where did
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Speaker 1: you get the needle and thread? I'll stop now, I
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Speaker 1: won't say any more. Enough of it, said Mitya, losing
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Speaker 1: his temper at last. It's strange that you should have
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Speaker 1: so completely forgotten you through the pieces in the market place.
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Speaker 1: Give orders for the market place to be swept to morrow,
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Speaker 1: and perhaps you'll find it, said Mitya, sneering. Enough, gentlemen, enough,
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Speaker 1: he decided, in an exhausted voice. I see you don't
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Speaker 1: believe me, not for a moment. It's my fault, not yours.
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Speaker 1: I ought not to have been so ready. Why did
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Speaker 1: I degrad myself by compassing my secret to you? It's
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Speaker 1: a joke to you. I see that from your eyes.
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Speaker 1: You'll let me unto it. Prosecutor sing a hymn of
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Speaker 1: triumph if you can. Damn you, you daughter it. He
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Speaker 1: burnt his head and hid his face in his hands.
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Speaker 1: The lawyers were silent. A minute later, he raised his
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Speaker 1: head and looked at them almost vacantly. His face now
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Speaker 1: expressed complete, hopeless despair, and he sat mute and passive,
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Speaker 1: as though hardly conscious of what was happening. In the meantime,
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Speaker 1: they had to finish what they were about. They had
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Speaker 1: immediately to begin examining the witnesses. It was by now
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Speaker 1: eight o'clock in the morning. The lights had been extinguished
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Speaker 1: long ago. Mihail Makarovitch and Kalganov, who had been continually
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Speaker 1: in and out of the room all the while the
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Speaker 1: interrogation had been going on, had now both gone out again.
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Speaker 1: The lawyers, too, looked very tired. It was a wretched morning.
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Speaker 1: The sky was overcast, and the rain streamed down in bucketfulls.
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Speaker 1: Mitya gazed blankly out of the window. May I look
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Speaker 1: out of the window, he asked Nikolay Popanovitch. Suddenly, Oh,
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Speaker 1: as much as you like, the latter replied. Mitya got
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Speaker 1: up and went to the window. The rain lashed against
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Speaker 1: its little greenish panes. He could see the muddy road
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Speaker 1: just below the house, and farther away in the rain
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Speaker 1: and mist, a row of poor, black, dismal huts, looking
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Speaker 1: even blacker and poorer in the rain. Mitya thought of
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Speaker 1: Fever's the Golden Head, and how he had meant to
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Speaker 1: shoot himself at his first rate. Perhaps it would be
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Speaker 1: even better on a morning like this, he thought, with
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Speaker 1: a smile, and suddenly, flinging his hand downwards, he turned
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Speaker 1: to his torturers. Gentlemen, he cried, I see that I
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Speaker 1: am lost, But she tell me about her I beseech you.
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Speaker 1: Surely she need not be ruined with me. She's innocent.
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Speaker 1: You know she was out of her mind when she
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Speaker 1: cried last night. It's all my fault. She's done nothing, nothing.
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Speaker 1: I've been grieving over her own night as I sat
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Speaker 1: with you. Can't you won't you tell me what you
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Speaker 1: are going to do with her? Now? You can set
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Speaker 1: your mind quite at rested on that Scoremitri Fyodorovitch, the prosecutor,
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Speaker 1: answered at once with evident alacrity, we have so far
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Speaker 1: no grounds for interfering with the lady in whom you
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Speaker 1: are so interested. I trust that it may be the
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Speaker 1: same in the later development of the case. On the contrary,
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Speaker 1: will do everything that lies in our power in that matter.
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Speaker 1: Set your mind to completely addressed, gentlemen, I thank you.
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Speaker 1: I knew that you were honest, straightforward people. In spite
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Speaker 1: of everything, you've taken a load off my heart. Well,
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Speaker 1: what are we to do now? I'm ready? Well, we
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Speaker 1: ought to make haste. We must pass to examining the
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Speaker 1: witnesses without delay. That must be done in your presence.
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Speaker 1: And therefore, shouldn't we have some tea? First? Interposed Nikolay Poppenovitch.
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Speaker 1: I think we've deserved it. They decided that if t
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Speaker 1: were ready downstairs, Mihail Makarovitch had no doubt gone down
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Speaker 1: to get some, they would have a glass and then
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Speaker 1: go on and on, a putting off their proper breakfast
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Speaker 1: until a more favorable opportunity. Tea really was ready below
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Speaker 1: and was soon brought up. Mitya at first refused the
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Speaker 1: class that Nikolay Popenovitch politely upered him, but afterwards he
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Speaker 1: asked for it himself and drank it greedily. He looked
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Speaker 1: surprisingly exhausted. It might have been supposed, from his herculean
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Speaker 1: strength that one night of carousing, even accompanied by the
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Speaker 1: most violent emotions, could have had little effect on him.
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Speaker 1: But he felt that he could hardly hold his head up,
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Speaker 1: and from time to time all the objects about him
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Speaker 1: seemed heaving and dancing before his eyes. A little more,
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Speaker 1: and I shall begin raving, he said to himself. End
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Speaker 1: of chapter sixty one.