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Jeanette Pick | Daughter of 9/11 Victim Joseph Pick Signs Petition to Keep Mamdani Away from Ground Zero 25 Years Later · Sid & Friends In The Morning

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  Speaker 1: Giovanni Galante, and he's a man that started this petition.
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  Speaker 1: I'm on board one hundred percent to keep the mayor
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  Speaker 1: away from the nine to eleven commemoration memorial service coming
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  Speaker 1: up this year twenty five years. What is your message?
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  Speaker 1: If he's listening right now, and if he's not, it
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  Speaker 1: will get to him. What is your message to Mam Donni?
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  Speaker 2: We respectfully just asked that he stay away. We don't
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  Speaker 2: want the publicity, we don't want the circus, we don't
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  Speaker 2: want any of that. This is a day, like I
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  Speaker 2: said before, all of us get together and we go
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  Speaker 2: honor the people that were murdered. That's it. It's a
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  Speaker 2: simple one. I'm not asking for anything huge. You know,
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  Speaker 2: he doesn't have to be there. He knows that, we
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  Speaker 2: know that. But obviously we'll see what happens. There's nothing
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  Speaker 2: we could do other than just ask for people to
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  Speaker 2: sign a petition.
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  Speaker 1: Giovanni Stotton Island native. What's his time now? I think
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  Speaker 1: in Naples his lovely wife Grace will forever be twenty
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  Speaker 1: nine years old because she was murdered on nine to eleven, murdered.
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  Speaker 1: He's been on twice. He brought his friend Charles Wolf
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  Speaker 1: on the show. Not long after that, his wife believe
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  Speaker 1: her name is Catherine, she was forty. She's dead too, murdered, murdered.
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  Speaker 1: And these families, in big numbers are asking for the
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  Speaker 1: mayor not to show up that day. The majority don't
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  Speaker 1: want him there. I either saw my ad Elizabeth Miller
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  Speaker 1: on the show. I've got other friends. I won't name them. Well, okay,
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  Speaker 1: we don't want him to get the spotlight so he
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  Speaker 1: can come. No, no, no, no, silly not, he yelled,
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  Speaker 1: these people they're victims. But no, if he comes, he
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  Speaker 1: gets the spotlight. Why don't you understand that he doesn't
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  Speaker 1: belong there? Hang out with Hassan Piker. America deserved nine
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  Speaker 1: to eleven. You think I care that he took it back? Now,
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  Speaker 1: of course he took it back. He's out there, he'said
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  Speaker 1: the Democrat Party. He's campaigning for every one of these
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  Speaker 1: DSA candidates all across the country, from Denver to Michigan
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  Speaker 1: to New York. Of course he took it back. But
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  Speaker 1: that's how I was. In his heart. In his heart
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  Speaker 1: is America deserved nine to eleven. He's a scumbag, just
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  Speaker 1: like the mayor is a complete scumbag. So these families
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  Speaker 1: don't want him there. I don't want him there. I
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  Speaker 1: know the President doesn't want him there. He hasn't said up,
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  Speaker 1: but I know he doesn't. So, you know, they got
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  Speaker 1: this big thing in front of city Hall on the eighth,
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  Speaker 1: which I was coming to with Bruce Blakeman. But it
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  Speaker 1: looks like I'll probably be in Dallas on behalf of
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  Speaker 1: the President of the Republican Party. But regardless, the petition is
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  Speaker 1: last I heard about eighty five thousand strong, and more
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  Speaker 1: and more New Yorkers again, including the majority of the
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  Speaker 1: families of the victims, don't want him there. So Mary
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  Speaker 1: from Brooklyn made me aware of this. Lady her name
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  Speaker 1: is Jeanette Pick. Her father was or so murdered that
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  Speaker 1: day did and I know that she's nervous. But Jeanette,
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  Speaker 1: no reason to be nervous. You're talking to me like
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  Speaker 1: you talked to one of your friends in Brooklyn or
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  Speaker 1: Staten Island, So no reason. Good morning, sweetheart, how are you?
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  Speaker 3: I said, how are you now?
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  Speaker 1: You sound great? You say you're fine, you sound great,
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  Speaker 1: You're okay this morning. What's going on?
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  Speaker 3: Nothing? I'm just here to talk about the petition, and yeah.
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  Speaker 1: All right, well tell me this. Okay, you've heard Giovanni
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  Speaker 1: Gallante on this show. You've heard Charles Folpe on this show.
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  Speaker 1: I know you spoke to both of them, since two
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  Speaker 1: great men. And there are only two of about ninety
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  Speaker 1: thousand people, all right, folks, ninety thousand that have signed
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  Speaker 1: this petition that don't want the may or anyone near
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  Speaker 1: that sacred site. And not all of them are families
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  Speaker 1: of the victims like you are, or they're guys like me,
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  Speaker 1: just regular guys. Does that make your heart warm? Knowing
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  Speaker 1: that so many New Yorkers are on the same side
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  Speaker 1: as you.
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  Speaker 3: I just really appreciate all of you. Know, they say
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  Speaker 3: never forget, and I feel like with this petition, it
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  Speaker 3: truly shows that America hasn't forgotten and that we have
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  Speaker 3: so much support behind us, and that you know, people
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  Speaker 3: keep signing it and it keeps growing every day.
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  Speaker 1: But don't you agree that when you vote in somebody
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  Speaker 1: like mom Donnie and I know a lot of the
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  Speaker 1: folks that voted for him weren't even alive on nine
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  Speaker 1: to eleven. They are a bunch of dopey young kids
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  Speaker 1: who drink Starbucks in Williamsburg and party all night Manhattan,
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  Speaker 1: they're dope so young kids. But for the folks that
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  Speaker 1: are older, when we say never forget, havn't those people forgotten?
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  Speaker 1: I view it.
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  Speaker 3: I am not in this, you know. Politically, I'm politically neutral.
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  Speaker 3: I think there's pros and cons to both parties. My
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  Speaker 3: thing is is who he has associated with politically, professionally
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  Speaker 3: and personally is the reason I don't want him there.
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  Speaker 1: That's fair. I mentioned hasan piker, but he's just one
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  Speaker 1: of many life and the co conspirators of the bombing
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  Speaker 1: of the ninety three World Trade Center bombing. I mean,
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  Speaker 1: I do not notice Jeanette and I have the same
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  Speaker 1: conversation with Giovanni that a lot of you folks are
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  Speaker 1: really afraid to get into any political discussion because I
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  Speaker 1: guess of the backlash or the other families that are
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  Speaker 1: Democrats that actually are okay with this animal being there.
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  Speaker 1: But you can say he's not a good guy. You
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  Speaker 1: can say that here.
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  Speaker 3: The reason I don't want to talk politics is because
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  Speaker 3: I'm here to focus on the ceremony, you know what
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  Speaker 3: I mean. I feel like that would derail from any
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  Speaker 3: message that we have. Like, I just don't want him
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  Speaker 3: there because you know, he's smiling with an MM in
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  Speaker 3: October of twenty twenty five, who was an unindicted co
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  Speaker 3: conspirator in the ninety three bombings. And he also appointed
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  Speaker 3: Ramsey Castime on July first, twenty twenty six, an ex
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  Speaker 3: might I add, an ex al Qaeda defense lawyer, to
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  Speaker 3: be his personal chief counsel. You know, I just don't understand.
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  Speaker 3: And you know, we've asked him nicely not to come.
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  Speaker 3: We've had to go to the media. But if he
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  Speaker 3: can pick and choose events he doesn't want to go to,
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  Speaker 3: and he asked New Yorkers to respect his decision. He
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  Speaker 3: decided not to go to the Mechcalus, he decided not
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  Speaker 3: to go to the Israeli Day Parade, and he said
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  Speaker 3: it was due to his personal and political beliefs, and
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  Speaker 3: he asked New Yorkers to respect that. I don't understand
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  Speaker 3: why he's not respecting our wishes for him not to come,
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  Speaker 3: because of his associations with those who have justified and
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  Speaker 3: minimized the murdering of our loved ones.
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  Speaker 1: Wow, you just hit a home run, Janette. You know
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  Speaker 1: that somebody who I mean, you just nailed it. You're
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  Speaker 1: exactly right. He can skip this Ruddy Day parade. He
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  Speaker 1: can cancel the Puerto Rican Day breakfast at day of
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  Speaker 1: the Puerto Rican Day parade. He can talk all morning
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  Speaker 1: about Guayza and the Palestinians before Saint Patrick's Day. He
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  Speaker 1: can do all that stuff right, and he can give
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  Speaker 1: the Columbus Statue the middle finger. Trust me, he'll be
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  Speaker 1: nowhere near the Columbus Day parade come October. He can
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  Speaker 1: do all that stuff right. But you guys can't have
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  Speaker 1: your own opinion about murdered loved ones man You had just.
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  Speaker 3: That was correct, my yead. He was invited. It came
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  Speaker 3: out in the Post last week. He was invited by
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  Speaker 3: the family members of the nineteen ninety three, the February
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  Speaker 3: nineteen ninety three bombings where six people died, and he
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  Speaker 3: decided to skip it. And he was invited to that.
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  Speaker 3: You know, we haven't I know some people. You know
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  Speaker 3: he hasn't been invited to this, and yet he insist oncoming.
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  Speaker 3: So I just don't understand hypocrisy. You go, you don't
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  Speaker 3: go where you're wanted, but you go where you're not wanted.
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  Speaker 3: I don't understand how that makes sense.
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  Speaker 1: It doesn't Did you have any excuse why he didn't
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  Speaker 1: go to the nineteen ninety three remembrance.
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  Speaker 3: I believe he was meeting with Trump for something, right, Sure.
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  Speaker 1: He was okay. By the way, if you would have
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  Speaker 1: called President Trump and said, listen, mister President, they're meeting
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  Speaker 1: today for the World Trade Center, what do you think
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  Speaker 1: the President would have said.
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  Speaker 3: Please, I don't know. I'm not Trump.
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  Speaker 1: I can tell you. I can tell you. Trump would
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  Speaker 1: have said, you go do that, mister mayor we'll talk later.
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  Speaker 1: That's much more important. Probably come as a New Yorker,
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  Speaker 1: so exactly right, a great New Yorker on that, I'll
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  Speaker 1: say that you don't have to. So I do this
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  Speaker 1: with all the folks that come on, all you brave,
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  Speaker 1: courageous folks, and I love what you're doing here, Jeannette.
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  Speaker 1: I did the same thing with obviously with Giovanni and Charles,
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  Speaker 1: and that is I think it's important you get to
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  Speaker 1: know your loved ones, the people that you love that
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  Speaker 1: were murdered that day, they deserve to be recognized and
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  Speaker 1: talked about twenty five years later. So, if I'm correct,
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  Speaker 1: it was your father, Joseph who was killed that day.
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  Speaker 3: He was Joseph's pick. He worked for fiduciary trust. He was.
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  Speaker 3: He worked on the ninety fourth four last seen on
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  Speaker 3: the seventy eighth. He was in the South Tower and
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  Speaker 3: he was also in the Air Force as well.
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  Speaker 1: Did you have a chance How old are you when
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  Speaker 1: your dad?
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  Speaker 3: I was nine. I went to school in Hoboken and
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  Speaker 3: the first plane got hit at eight forty six, and
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  Speaker 3: the teacher came in the classroom and was like the
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  Speaker 3: twin towers had just been bombed. And I jumped up
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  Speaker 3: and I said, my daddy worked there, because I'm getting
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  Speaker 3: looks so up. And they brought us into the kindergarten classroom,
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  Speaker 3: which was the biggest classroom, and I can actually see
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  Speaker 3: the skyline from outside the windows, so on TV and
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  Speaker 3: in front of me, I saw my dad's building get hit.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my god, did you actually see your dad that morning?
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  Speaker 2: You know?
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  Speaker 1: Was when was the last time you?
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  Speaker 3: Last time I saw my dad was September ninth, And
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  Speaker 3: the last thing we watched was I don't know if
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  Speaker 3: you're familiar with the with the program Adult Swim. Yes,
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  Speaker 3: the last thing it was the premiere of Aquatine Hunger Force,
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  Speaker 3: and that was that was the last He let me
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  Speaker 3: stay up late that night because he loves space Goes
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  Speaker 3: Coast to Coast and Johnny Quest and they were on
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  Speaker 3: there old shows from the eighties. And the last thing
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  Speaker 3: we watched together because he let me watch because it
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  Speaker 3: was only a ten minute show. The last thing I
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  Speaker 3: watched with him was Aquatine, the premiere of Aquatine Hunger Force,
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  Speaker 3: and that was the last memory.
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  Speaker 2: I had with him.
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  Speaker 1: I think Mike Tyson was on that show what at
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  Speaker 1: one point too, with those oh when did you guys?
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  Speaker 1: You and your mom and the rest of your family
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  Speaker 1: find out that he was not coming home.
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  Speaker 3: So my mom, you know, called all the local hospitals
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  Speaker 3: and you know, we put up missing posters and everything,
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  Speaker 3: and I actually had to give DNA the school nurse,
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  Speaker 3: and you know, my mom kind of made it a ruse, like, oh,
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  Speaker 3: you know. The nurse was like, oh, you know, everybody's
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  Speaker 3: you know, doing this, you know, swabbing the cheeks. And
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  Speaker 3: I saw my mom in the nurse's office and I
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  Speaker 3: was like, Mommy, why are you here? And she's like, oh,
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  Speaker 3: you know, you know some BS story because you know,
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  Speaker 3: I was a little kid and I'd watched Unsolved Mysteries,
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  Speaker 3: you know, do do do do?
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  Speaker 4: Do?
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  Speaker 2: Do?
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  Speaker 3: Yeah, and I said, are you taking DNA? And they
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  Speaker 3: were all like and then my mom's like, let's go
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  Speaker 3: get a happy meal, and I was like, okay. And
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  Speaker 3: then my dad's remains got identified in October twenty twenty one.
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  Speaker 1: Oh they did find remains. Wow, you're talking about thirteen
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  Speaker 1: months later?
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  Speaker 3: No? No, no, no, a month later?
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  Speaker 1: Oh no, so you said twenty twenty one, right right, right, right,
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  Speaker 1: right back.
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  Speaker 3: Excuse me, one month, two thousand and one, right right right.
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  Speaker 3: I know, I know that only forty percent of unfortunately,
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  Speaker 3: of the twenty nine hundred and seventy seven people's, only
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  Speaker 3: forty percent of the remains have been found.
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  Speaker 1: Are you an only child? Yes, okay, So give me
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  Speaker 1: one more story about your dad, because people tell me
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  Speaker 1: all the time, my dad died six years ago, and
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  Speaker 1: they tell me all the time, he listens every no, no,
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  Speaker 1: thank you, not nearly as tragic as your father passed away,
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  Speaker 1: but at any rate, they say, he still listens every day,
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  Speaker 1: and he's out there as your guardian angel. And all
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  Speaker 1: the success you've been having, Seid, it's a direct result
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  Speaker 1: of your father up in heaven. Give me a story
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  Speaker 1: about your father that you would share if you were
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  Speaker 1: going to speak about him tonight.
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  Speaker 3: I would just say how fun he was. He I'm
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  Speaker 3: trying to think of the story. Oh my god, sorry,
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  Speaker 3: I'm like bliking. Okay, So there was an Italian restaurant
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  Speaker 3: and Hoboken he always took me to, called the Ricos,
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  Speaker 3: and I remember we went there and he surprised me.
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  Speaker 3: I was obsessed with the Backstreet Boys when I was little,
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  Speaker 3: and I remember I was sitting there and I kept talking.
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  Speaker 3: You know, I had a Baccy Boys t shirt and
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  Speaker 3: I just kept talking about them. He surprised me with tickets,
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  Speaker 3: all sixth row seats to their millennium concert for me
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  Speaker 3: and my cousin Julie and my aunt Grace. And it
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  Speaker 3: was one of the best memories ever.
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  Speaker 1: Oh my god, I feel so bad. I got to
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  Speaker 1: tell you why. I'm going to Las Vegas next week
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  Speaker 1: to speak at this big Republican Jewish convention and it's
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  Speaker 1: at the Venetian Hotel. So last year I went to
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  Speaker 1: speak there, and right outside the hotel is this immense,
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  Speaker 1: very popular place called the Sphere. And last year, yeah,
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  Speaker 1: you know what. Last year when I spoke, the Eagles
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  Speaker 1: brought the fear and my wife Danielle and my son
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  Speaker 1: Gabriel went to see the Eagles. So they said, well,
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  Speaker 1: who's there this year? And I said, to Botch Street Boys,
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  Speaker 1: I said, you don't want to go? Now, I felt bad.
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  Speaker 3: No, I loved the Vaccine boys. My dad and got
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  Speaker 3: me those tickets, and me and my cousin were just
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  Speaker 3: like so excited, and it was just want to And
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  Speaker 3: you had brought up Howard Stern. My dad used to
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  Speaker 3: play Howard in the car when we were we would
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  Speaker 3: drive to Pennsylvania to go visit family. Yeah, so I
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  Speaker 3: was like obsessed with Howard.
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  Speaker 1: Of course, of course I ended up being on the
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  Speaker 1: Imus Show. So of course I miss was the arch
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  Speaker 1: enemy now of Howard. And I went back and forth
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  Speaker 1: right there you go, pig vomit very good, eighteen years
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  Speaker 1: was virus in the most virus right in the movie
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  Speaker 1: eighteen years back and forth with I miss so. But
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  Speaker 1: I was still a guest on Stern four times, and
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  Speaker 1: I did host Wackpack Bowling, which was a very very
• 13:45
  Speaker 1: big deal. Jim Flarantine got sick. They had me host
• 13:48
  Speaker 1: Wackpack Bowling. I met Marianne, I think that day for
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  Speaker 1: the first time. So I've got some history with Howard too.
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  Speaker 1: I got so on the way out, I would ask you,
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  Speaker 1: and you've been amazing, not nervous, you sound great. You
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  Speaker 1: are we want a perfect ambassador for these families, and
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  Speaker 1: that I mean, that's sincerely from the bottom of my heart. Yeah.
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  Speaker 1: If the mayor was to hear this right now, and
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  Speaker 1: Giovanni did this in so did Charles, what is your message,
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  Speaker 1: your heartbelt message, as a daughter of a man that
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  Speaker 1: was murdered that day, what is your heartbelt message to
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  Speaker 1: the mayor?
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  Speaker 3: Dude, we don't want you there. When I say we,
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  Speaker 3: I mean myself and the only and the almost ninety
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  Speaker 3: thousand people who have signed the change dot org petition.
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  Speaker 3: I don't know how else we can say this to you.
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  Speaker 3: We've you know, we've gone to the media, We've you know,
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  Speaker 3: had a petition started. Literally Scott Libato put it in skywriting,
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  Speaker 3: I don't know how much clearer we can tell you
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  Speaker 3: we don't want you there, Like, dude, I don't like.
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  Speaker 3: What don't you get?
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  Speaker 1: That's perfect, That's all you got to say, And yet
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  Speaker 1: it's got.
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  Speaker 3: There a message like dude, we don't want you there.
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  Speaker 3: Just like I said in the post, we don't want
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  Speaker 3: you there. I don't know why you're not respecting our wishes,
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  Speaker 3: like this is our family members, This is, you know,
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  Speaker 3: our burial site for our family members. And shouldn't we
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  Speaker 3: have a say in who goes and who doesn't. This
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  Speaker 3: isn't a political thing, you know. We don't want this
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  Speaker 3: to be a circus. We just want to honor our
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  Speaker 3: family members. And I don't understand what he doesn't.
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  Speaker 1: Get either do I. But he's a bad person. So
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  Speaker 1: that's the bottom line. You're not You're great, and you
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  Speaker 1: were fantastic this morning, and thank you very much for
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  Speaker 1: coming on the show. We'll do it again before nine
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  Speaker 1: to eleven. God rest your father's soul. Me I'm sure
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  Speaker 1: he's very part of your dad. This morning, you really
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  Speaker 1: were great.
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  Speaker 3: Jennett, thank you so much, Thank you, thank you so much.
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  Speaker 1: Great job. Janett Pick right there, got to love her, moys.
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  Speaker 1: She was great. Jeannette Pick. Thank you to Marianne from Brooklyn.
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