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Sober Talk SA - Mick. K · Sober Talk SA

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  I am with it and cola and share. My screen is out and just
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  singing itself, but every time an alcohol-free is server
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  Liberty Center for early Thursday.
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  Okay, I agree. Hi, my name is Paula.
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  I'm an alcoholic and sobriety date the 28th of July 2018 and
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  my home group is Headley Boots, 12 promise.
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  Isis and Sunday night. Exeter, thank you Paul.
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  My name is Cheryl Ali Ali. I've got nearly three years Up
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  And subscribe and like I'm group is poured out the right
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  location. Look at all those ratings are
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  so. So we simply pray that you don't
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  enter whatever constitutionally incapable of being honest with
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  themselves. There are, they are not at fault
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  senior people on that way. They naturally incapable of
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  grasping and developing a matter.
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  Mom, three resource T. The Arts is about the metric.
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  There are those who started from grave emotional and mental
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  disorders. Many of them do recover.
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  If they had the capacity to be honest.
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  Our story disclosed in a general way, what we used to be like,
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  what happened? And what we like now decided you
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  want what we have, and a willing to go to any lengths, to get it
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  and you are ready to take certain steps.
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  Some of these we bought, we thought we could find it easier
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  softer way. We could not all the arrows that
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  are come up, they give you could be fear at 60, at the very
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  start, some of us have tried the whole world, I'm a cunning
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  baffling kind of is too much. There is one who has all power.
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  That one is God. May you find it now?
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  I made it about. It's not like we sort of the
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  turning point, we Arty protection and care with
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  complete abandoned here on the steps we took, which is why we
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  will also be helping all that. Analog it become unmanageable to
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  can't believe that a power greater than ourselves could
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  restore us to sanity, right? Right.
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  God is understood. I got ourselves and to another
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  human being. Is that is to alcoholics and
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  practice these principles in all our Affairs, but hey, that's
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  quite, and whatever order I can't go through, do not be
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  discouraged. No one of us has been able to
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  maintain anything like that because he refers to these
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  principles. We lot Sates point.
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  Is that we are willing to go a long story short.
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  The principal thing is down at guides progress, kind, spiritual
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  progress, rather than spiritual Perfection, our description of
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  the alcoholic, the chapter 2, the angle, stick and a quarter
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  inches for an art, make clear free, corrosion and ideas.
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  A That we were Alec and could not manage Our Lives totally
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  motion for leave it out. Alcoholism.
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  See the God could handle it. If it was sort of thinking you
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  own and that was well done, that little symbol or I'll make him
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  an alcoholic. So that in the end of the grace
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  of God and leading such a small one here tonight and however,
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  their to our listeners. And apparently it's something
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  out of this the way that we are here.
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  I ll for alcoholics in my lady and family to was sitting here
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  tonight. My father was 12 months old when
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  he died and bruised related cancer.
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  He was v1lat brother 22. Your brother had a bad bruise
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  accident that killed him when he was 22 and mother was giving my
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  name. My mother was a very devout
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  Catholic and how did his men? He had a true practical
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  spirituality, she lives totally for the family and the one she
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  liked your small Sherry once in a blue moon and she liked our
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  straight Super Eight. Now, and again, that was our
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  only white I had Polio or infantile paralysis as Maybe I
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  spent nine months in turning the childrens hospital I mercifully.
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  I don't remember the treatment, the treatment was a bit.
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  Severe better bench here. I can remember.
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  When I was about five, I was in hospital, waiting for the
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  kangaroo area, when it's totally home from treatment.
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  And I forgot me and the right one out and I started Climb up,
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  baby. I never thought show together
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  and all my life and I thought to myself.
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  Why am I even going to make it and right?
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  And then about some lap to White.
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  I felt and she likes it. So I joined Alcoholics
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  Anonymous. I had 15 years of crack out,
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  drinking from about the age weight and Oren.
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  I become unemployable in the finish that last year, in
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  Jalandhar, I had as an indirect, but it's hard when drinking
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  alcohol. And so whenever Should we do in
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  Paris, wouldn't force me to move on?
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  I was in a crisis result of my drinking and I was a middle
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  class and being an English. I am somehow rather I going to
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  wear it job towards the end of my drinking.
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  How I manage that, I just don't know, because I'd really out of
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  excuses with was in and out of laboring job.
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  So I spent nine years in a college but still The air here
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  is going, I did very well but when the bush took over, I've
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  never passed the next three years.
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  They just put me up or my memory venture or get was low and work.
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  Anyway, I can't be around and September, hold on.
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  Not only 60. I put myself into low price as
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  our notes and I will close my alcoholism and my drinking.
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  I knew it. We're drinking was a problem
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  from a and I knew that my life is spiraling out of control of
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  it. And I wanted to make you
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  successful about the other. My age, I was going to be
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  doctors and lawyers and social workers and crazy and all this,
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  I wanted to be a most mmm, but anyway, this Catholic Church
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  three as a metal key cooks and Irish Catholic priest from
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  Kaplan and oil and they're convinced me to stay.
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  Why I had no understanding of alcoholism or a, I didn't want
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  anything to do with it, but I said to myself, well, I am just
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  broke, I will practice, except for the best of my ability in
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  this week, you'll get me and he spent all day and all night,
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  I'll mail it was a 12-6 and I come out of there in really good
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  shape, physically, mentally spiritually and I lasted ten
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  months. Drink resentment and I got drunk
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  very quickly and had I don't flow about that in turn the
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  church. I've done the church as I'm not
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  today, in my case to prove to myself that I could be
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  disciplined enough to it at the end of the 12 months, to me is
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  social normal drinking. And of course, it wasn't to be
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  because I knew in my heart of hearts that when something wrong
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  with my dragon, all the way through that word, alcoholic
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  used to bother me when I come into why.
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  I, but I thought I tell him, I've got out of another place
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  and having a timeshare. I thought I think it's over and
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  I walked back into a meeting and basically because I had no real
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  shit go in a way and I had I certainly didn't have intentions
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  to be almost 49 years sober and when I want going to that
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  meeting it did occur to me. There's some only went on that
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  show in the power of that making had an effect on me that Mighty
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  art couldn't go, I don't know, and I was out drinking and
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  middle of the trouble of those in time and with that a little
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  bit more, a little bit more time went on in the making And I
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  thought to myself, something, come over me.
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  I opened up to the meeting ^ that meeting.
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  I open myself up to it and I was still very shaky.
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  I was only 23 days off, the buoy shouldn't go.
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  Under eye. I said, you know, I shall do
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  something said to me, with Michelle here, either grab this,
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  and make a decision of all your work here now, or you might
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  never do it again. And not, should we get that?
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  Watch it all. I just wanted to sing that IQ.
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  I and J can go one day at a time and The next day I woke up.
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  I slept well and got I say to myself.
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  What will I do with this tie? I wasn't drinking that probably
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  tell you something Squad in the mornings first car.
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  I've been smoking something. Prescribed at lunchtime drunk
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  Advance on to Arizona being went all drunk on the job every
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  night. And then drunk after work and
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  one of my favorite herbs and I are getting with.
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  So I'll be all right, in a minute.
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  The way, even the pair was a spiritual.
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  It's because I hated myself. I love myself, but it's Emma and
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  a half. It says, he were in today that
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  had been put on. I remember, I applied for a job
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  on the couch, or the truck driver was in the trenches, in
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  some manner, of muscling, quite energy gathers on one of those,
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  come back to table at the machines of somebody.
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  Because I hate you. And and really item to show
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  something up. But how about you?
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  I was only talking about myself and I was very selfish are
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  inside and I very immature. Some little thing, I'm certainly
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  not go straight to the model freighter pump.
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  If I couldn't get to the pub and I hurry, I thought.
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  Well, I'll hang on and tell, right?
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  There's four one, two, three, four hours or whatever it is.
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  Should I get in to the pump? Doing good.
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  Well yeah. Excitable petition likes the
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  master and I had a couple of through each item.
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  I own many. You your to couple of years or
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  so many to do, you know, on this train years of sobriety, I get 5
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  to share the maintenance away. In general.
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  Because I didn't trust myself. And because I wanted to be
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  better. But unfortunately, I didn't
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  spend quite as much time. I make sure your daughter showed
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  up and I went, I went to spend time on my professional
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  studying, the dry and work myself towards achieving
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  sobriety, which I been done. And when I get that, when I got
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  to make five months Schuyler, I am.
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  I saw it straight for reality set in, I thought it's my
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  mother's Conley things that up and realities and I wanted to
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  run back to the alcoholic ward of Hillcrest hospital where I
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  was 10 weeks at settlement prior and I was like that as a telling
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  you to my sobriety When I was nine months shimer, I saw its
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  thinking of are my options. What does it will?
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  Allow keep learning you. Don't go too far.
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  Do not go far enough. So that John is saying when I
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  was 12, my cyber heart felt a bit celebrate.
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  How many told him that myself still very writing?
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  12 months over and self and I'm ready?
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  The older members told me that or in I what I search I would
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  fall under and I can honestly say it's a tie and that is
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  something like General being a change in my life.
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  Yeah, when I was in that meeting with the 29th of June 1974, a
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  little bit of inspiration come into me.
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  And usually, the power collecting power that small
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  meeting is only a small but unique because this one
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  Occasional and went missing inspiration and 99%
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  perspiration. It had all the Ravens, our
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  brains are power, can do all things in us, but he expects me
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  to do what I can do it for myself.
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  Expects me to cooperate along the unique lines of Alcoholics
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  Anonymous, which is uniquely thinking of me as an alcoholic.
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  Now don't worry about that word out her today because answer, I
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  just honestly looking back at my experiences with alcohol, right?
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  But we'll talk about Morris or hair or cost.
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  You at least you don't like that.
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  When I was young and I can say that I was powerless over
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  alcohol. Even tell him.
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  When I? I had imagined nervous breakdown
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  when I'm sitting. It's about sobriety, I got very
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  excited and now it's going to be an old member and carrots.
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  My life is correct sir, whether to of the way Owners, Physical
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  origin illness and Jimmy mentally, And I hope you get on
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  medication for it and let my area that a lot went into the
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  sweet need for it comes in. Let's show those to some extent.
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  Serenity Prayer comes into these things.
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  It says we have to accept the things that we cannot challenge.
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  I will go and they will enter only three score and ten and I'm
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  gone can move mountains as much as I used to and things like
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  that but then it goes on the side.
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  Everything Carriage didn't tell you change the things that I
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  can. Most of the things that I can
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  change it with him as show. To work on myself with that
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  little gesture, that I can't the way I got Shimon, the my I've
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  got where originally was To Live and Let Die as much as possible
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  and it was a very amazing day. Trying more in one more and
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  you'll know it's long cylinder. I can remember.
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  I've got a job job and traps every tracks and probably the
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  store. Normal.
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  I learn price to see that truck drivers coming in with their
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  deliveries and I thought wouldn't it be great if one day
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  I could get help that easy job that they've got this traveling
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  model it was impossible for made, it wasn't drinking better.
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  I know that shot that way and it was pretty pretty nerve-racking.
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  As folks know, it's all riding on sort of what I've got sort of
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  enjoyed it. So I've around and being bashed
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  in a way and things like that and it shouldn't, my fear of
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  people hero life. Hearing myself.
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  And I usually out in the track Menards, I think about the main
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  from the night before Manchester day, I can.
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  But I had to do and I think I never yet moment.
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  Yeah, I think I don't know side, which I was that one was able to
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  shot of money. But this one was able to show
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  that my hand. So I'm going to drink, I was
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  issue, let's go get something about it and I would say a
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  little prayer, this really furry and hand out of the heart are
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  and H line. Has John Daria.
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  Other John de Catholic Church, priest, Birds, grease that area?
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  Sure, it's me to join a, an American one of the longest.
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  So the members, he used to say that nobody ever picked up a
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  drink and any one given die. Who sincerely?
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  And honestly, it's hard on the morning of the pickup and train
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  electorally. This program is not for my
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  niece's guarantee to work. It's guaranteed to work.
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  If I work. Now, I thin socks and say things
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  in the Church of possibilities that will be challenging to me.
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  And as we do, is we all can see for ourselves but that won't be
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  a problem. So, all these windings on, but
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  we're doing what he want now and picking up the first drink, so
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  shiny. I'm trying to work the toaster
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  so essential Am I going through employee are getting my actions?
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  I oranges - maybe short little period during the day and
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  explode. It carefully truth pretty swell
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  the mirror keep true. Clearly who I mentioned earlier
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  use its own immediate. So I'm a little prayers during
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  the day. In contact.
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  And I am this beautiful failing Within Myself to die.
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  What? It's not just feeling inside.
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  It's really that sure is an experience of back then too.
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  Let's I can hear, I can be a piece of myself basically.
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  Now that's not to say that shit. I mean, even if it makes me cry
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  over here was some certainly hope that other shit minimally I
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  would get upset and angry and Kurt even want to fight with
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  him. Thanks but my serenity
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  underneath that wouldn't be disturbed.
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  Because the remedy is celebrity is something that's not super
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  social. In term as I go around the my
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  journey match and Brink so I'm about to die.
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  I if I I can restart my resource for its leaders.
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  Are these photo 20 minutes thinking this photo got up.
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  This proton is my original sponsor.
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  John are make sure they should have been when we went down
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  there racial Park and the lady was just starting up, I think,
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  which only made in there. I forgot what I was going to
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  say. His life is pretty good at
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  swimming relay server. Name from Henry very tall
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  promises group winner into the crew room Christian bull show
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  just for the Cyclone, the copy and precise environment and just
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  for something to do and there's and then sorry.
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  Sure, beautiful coffee cap and on the right hand.
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  You've got bring it in to it. He will bring you through it.
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  Not at all. Usually I thought I must
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  remember that. God taught me the way I and got
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  me side that Spite of myself and whatever challenges I am and
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  somebody he won't bring me some reason.
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  Shelter this, I know that matter.
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  What happens some of those, I don't think I would drink Daddy
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  help.