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listen to this if your mental health is getting worse · feel your feelings with Ethan Jewell

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  Suddenly I found myself at the bottom of a mental illness,
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  whole and the entire time I was falling, I was distinctly aware
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  that. I was getting worse, and that
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  was a frustrating feeling. And now I'm at the bottom and I
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  have no idea how to get back to the top.
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  Hey there, and welcome back to feel your feelings with me,
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  Ethan Jewel. This is a podcast, all about
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  mental health, and mental health awareness.
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  Now, I'm not Professional. I'm not a psychologist, a
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  psychiatrist, a therapist or anything of that nature.
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  I'm just a guy who has felt some very, very big feelings and
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  wants to share my stories with the world.
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  My goal is to spread mental health, awareness through
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  personal casual conversation because I believe that talking
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  and feeling are the first two most important steps through
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  mental health recovery. So, thank you so much for
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  joining me and And let's feel some feelings.
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  In my personal experience, I found that one thing that is
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  very, very difficult about mental illness is how it comes
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  in ups and downs. I personally struggle, the most
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  with depression and anxiety and I find that these come in waves.
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  You see, one week I could be feeling totally fine things,
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  finally seem better. And then the next week, I can't
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  get out of bed and my showers are longer.
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  And I don't text people back and I'm sleeping until 2:00 p.m. and
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  everything just seems to fall apart right in front of me.
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  If you have struggled with mental illness you know exactly
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  what I'm talking about and you know how frustrating it is to
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  watch yourself, fall down this hole and have no way to stop
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  yourself. Not knowing if you're going to
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  even be able to climb to the top again.
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  I mean your mental health could go up and down in a matter of
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  days. For weeks, or months for some
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  people, it even is years. But One Thing Remains the Same.
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  It is so disappointing. When your mental health begins
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  to slip again and you seemingly don't know why I've received
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  countless GM's over the years from people who are asking me,
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  how do I stop my mental health from drifting away?
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  I can feel it getting worse. Things are getting bad again and
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  I can't Stop it and I find myself asking the same question.
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  I can think back several several months ago.
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  I felt as though everything was great, I was finally better and
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  then suddenly over the past few months, things have slipped away
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  and I've been actively aware of it.
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  I found myself getting angry and frustrated that I was falling
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  into past habits, but then I realized, although yes, it is
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  frustrating to be slipping into these habits, what a blessing.
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  It is that I am able to recognize these habits as bad
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  and that I am able to recognize the fact that I'm slipping back
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  into them suddenly, this switched my entire perspective
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  and I went from beating myself up that things were getting bad
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  again and that I wasn't doing as well as I thought I was and
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  suddenly, I was proud of myself. I was proud of the fact that I
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  could recognize these habits as a bad thing, and I could
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  separate myself from the these habits and be able to recognize
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  the fact that I have come far. The fact that I am able to
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  identify my mental health slipping alone, shows immense
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  progress. This means that I have come far
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  enough that there is something to slip back to this means that
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  I am becoming more self-aware of my negative patterns.
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  This means that the bad is no longer my normal and the past as
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  my mental health got worse. Worse, I wouldn't do anything
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  about it. I wouldn't recognize that I
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  wouldn't admit to myself that I was getting worse.
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  So if you find your mental health slipping away, what a
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  blessing that is, that you are able to recognize that that you
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  are able to identify this as a negative thing.
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  Awareness is the first step in recovery.
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  You are aware you're getting worse, which means you are aware
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  that you have been getting better.
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  Her. And that is something to be
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  proud of. I was recently reading a book by
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  the poet, young Pueblo called, Clarity and connection.
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  And I actually found an excerpt that talks exactly like this.
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  And I'm going to go ahead and read it young, Pueblo States.
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  Next time you feel agitated because you are falling back
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  into past patterns, remember that simply being aware that you
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  are repeating. The past is a sign of progress
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  self-aware. - comes before the leap forward in your personal
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  transformation. So instead of getting frustrated
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  that you are falling back into these past patterns instead, see
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  it as the first step in your personal transformation as with
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  many things when related to mental health awareness is
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  always the first step the question then begs.
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  How can you use this awareness in order to get yourself back
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  out of that hole and to get your Self back to the place that you
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  were before your mental health, began to slip.
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  Well, obviously that's going to vary person to person.
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  We are all vastly different humans and what helps our mental
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  health will vary. So I'm just going to share what
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  I do and take you through my process.
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  Step-by-step. This happened really really
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  recently within the past couple of weeks, I felt myself kind of
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  slipping into past patterns. I found myself waking up in the
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  afternoon And it feeling normal. I found myself feeling sad and
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  unmotivated in the middle of the day for no reason and I found
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  myself not texting back friends and family as often as I usually
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  do however this time was different.
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  It was different than last time because instead of just allowing
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  myself to Tumble a Head Over Heels back into my old mental
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  illness, I noticed that this was happening, I noticed that I was
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  waking up later. I noticed.
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  That I felt more unmotivated and I was simply aware using this
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  awareness, I began to counteract this fall as early as I could.
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  You see the earlier you catch this the better.
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  So I immediately began doing things that I have found help.
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  My mental health, I began, exercising more, I began eating
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  better. I reached out to old friends,
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  that I hadn't talked to recently.
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  I hung out with friends that I've been close to for a long.
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  I'm I listened to upbeat music whenever I could and I listen to
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  sad music whenever I needed to feel a feeling.
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  I didn't reject my bad feelings, as we've learned in the past two
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  episodes. It is so important to Simply sit
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  with your feelings. So I sat with all of my feelings
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  and instead of beating myself up for these bad feelings, and
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  instead of beating myself up for originally falling back into
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  these old patterns, I was thankful Awful that I was able
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  to recognize that things were getting worse and that alone is
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  a powerful skill. So next time, you feel yourself
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  slipping away, and you feel things getting worse, do not
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  beat yourself up. Do not get demotivated.
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  This is a good thing. It is a sign that you are
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  getting better, you are getting more aware and you are
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  progressing in your mental health Journey, that is
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  something you should be proud of Is something that I am proud of
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  you for you are doing better than you think.
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  And simply recognizing the things are getting worse as a
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  sign of immense progress. So that's going to wrap things
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  up for today. I hope you're able to use this
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  knowledge in this awareness in your real life and apply it
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  because it is an empowering feeling to be able to recognize
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  when your mental health is getting worse and be able to
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  counteract it immediately, it feels really, really Really good
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  to have that sense of control. As always, feel free to reach
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  out to me on my Instagram at Jewel, boy underscore, and tell
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  me what you thought about today's episode.
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  Also, don't forget to drop a follow and a rating as it,
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  really helps. As I'm starting this podcast up.
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  Thanks so much for being here. Thanks so much for tuning in.
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  And as always, thank you for feeling your feelings.
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  I'll see you next time.