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- You know that tight, cold knot in your chest when you see someone else win? That’s not malice, it’s a message. I want you to take a deep breath with me right now. Just one. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Good. Because I need you to hear this clearly: what you are feeling is normal. It is human. And it is not who you are. We spend so much time trying to be the good person, the supportive friend, the generous colleague. We curate our lives to look like we’re at peace for everyone else’s success. But then, privately, in the quiet of your car or while staring at the ceiling at 2 AM, there it is. Jealousy. It feels like a stain. Like if you let yourself admit it, you’ll lose your moral high ground. You’ll become bitter. You’ll become small. So we hide it. We wrap it in polite applause. We say, "That’s amazing!" and mean it, but underneath, our stomach turns. We judge ourselves for having that reaction. We think, "Why can’t I just be happy for her? Why am I so petty?" Here is the truth, Jane speaking from the heart: Jealousy is not a character flaw. It is a compass. It is data. It is your soul’s way of pointing a flashlight at something you haven’t allowed yourself to fully claim yet. When you feel that sharp pang, it’s not because you hate them. It’s because you love something they have, and you’ve convinced yourself you can’t have it too. Let’s get specific about what this feeling actually is, because words matter. There is a difference between wanting something and wanting someone to lose what they have. That second part—that schadenfreude—is where the poison lives. That is greed dressed up as jealousy. But most of us? Most of us aren’t wishing harm on anyone. We are just wishing we had what they have. Think about it. If your best friend got the promotion you wanted, would you hope she fails? Probably not. You’d probably call her. You’d buy her coffee. You’d celebrate her. But you’d also feel a heavy ache in your own chest. That ache isn’t evil. It’s grief. It’s the grief of a path not taken, or a door still closed. When we mistake that grief for hatred, we start to act strangely. We pull away. We become passive-aggressive. We stop sharing our own dreams because we’re afraid of inviting comparison. We isolate ourselves to protect our fragile egos. And that isolation? That’s where the poison takes root. The jealousy itself is just a spark. The poison is the story we tell ourselves about why we don’t deserve it. "She only got it because she’s lucky." "He only succeeded because he cut corners." We invent narratives to make their win feel unfair, so our loss feels justified. But here is the gentle reality check: Life is rarely zero-sum. Her light does not dim yours. Their success does not subtract from your potential. When you believe otherwise, you start living in scarcity. And scarcity is exhausting. It keeps you looking sideways instead of forward. So, how do we handle this without letting it rot our intentions? First, we stop running from the feeling. We invite it in for tea. Next time you feel that sting, don’t suppress it. Don’t scroll past the post. Don’t change the subject. Pause. Ask yourself one simple question: What exactly do I want? Not what do I want from them, but what do I want for myself? Often, jealousy is vague. It’s just a general sense of "more." More money. More recognition. More love. More freedom. But when you name it, it becomes actionable. If you’re jealous of your coworker’s new office, maybe what you really crave is creative autonomy. If you’re jealous of a friend’s trip to Italy, maybe what you crave is rest and adventure, not necessarily the specific hotel she stayed in. When you translate jealousy into desire, you shift from spectator to participant. You stop watching their movie and start writing your own script. This is crucial. Because once you know what you want, you can build toward it. And building toward something gives you energy. Energy that used to be wasted on resentment can now be poured into action. I remember a time when I was incredibly envious of a writer whose book came out while mine was still in revision. I felt bitter. I felt stuck. But then I asked myself, "What am I avoiding?" The answer was fear. Fear of finishing. Fear of being judged. Once I admitted that, the jealousy lost its power. It wasn’t about her anymore. It was about my relationship with my work. That realization didn’t make me like her immediately, but it made me like myself again. It gave me permission to focus on my draft. Another powerful tool is curiosity. When you feel that heat rising, try to turn it into interest. Instead of thinking, "It’s not fair," ask, "How did she do that?" This sounds simple, almost cliché, but it changes your brain chemistry. Comparison triggers shame. Curiosity triggers learning. If you approach someone’s success as a case study rather than a threat, you reclaim your agency. You realize that their path might offer clues for your own. Maybe they network differently. Maybe they set boundaries better. Maybe they just started sooner. And if there’s nothing to learn? That’s okay too. Some people are just in a different lane. But even then, curiosity helps. It allows you to appreciate their craft or their joy without needing to own it. You can admire a painting without wanting to hang it in your house. You can cheer for an athlete without playing the game yourself. This shift requires practice. It’s hard to be curious when you’re hurting. But every time you choose curiosity over condemnation, you weaken the hold jealousy has on you. You prove to yourself that you are secure enough to learn from others. You prove that you are growing. Remember that episode we talked about last week, "Protecting Your Energy: How to Help Without Drowning in Other People’s Desperation"? Well, this is the flip side. Protecting your energy means guarding it against the drain of negative comparison. It means deciding that your emotional bandwidth is precious, and you won’t waste it on resenting others. You save that energy for your own dreams. Finally, we must talk about forgiveness. You will slip up. You will feel jealous again. You might even snap at someone or send a curt text. That doesn’t make you a bad person. It makes you a work in progress. The moment you judge yourself for feeling jealous, you add a second layer of pain to the first. Now you’re jealous AND guilty. That double burden is heavy. It’s also unnecessary. Forgive yourself for being human. Acknowledge the feeling, thank it for showing you what you care about, and then gently guide your attention back to your own path. Intention matters more than instant emotion. You can feel jealous and still intend well. You can feel jealous and still wish them well. You can feel jealous and still keep working on yourself. These things can coexist. You don’t have to be perfectly enlightened to be worthy of love and success. Your intentions are shaped by your daily choices. Choose to lift others up, even if your heart is shaky. Choose to speak kindly, even if you’re struggling. Choose to invest in your own growth, even if it feels slow. Over time, those choices rewire your brain. The jealousy doesn’t disappear completely—envy is part of the package deal of being alive—but it loses its teeth. It stops poisoning your intentions because you no longer let it drive the car. You remain the driver. You stay focused on the road ahead. And that road? It’s uniquely yours. No one else can walk it. No one else can live it. And that is something to be proud of, not something to envy in others. I want you to leave this episode with a new narrative to carry with you. When jealousy visits—and it will—don’t lock the door. Open it. Welcome it in. Ask it what it wants. Listen to it. Then, thank it for the information, and go back to building your life. Your life is not a competition. It’s a creation. Every day you have the chance to create something beautiful, meaningful, and true. Don’t let the shadow of someone else’s light blind you to your own glow. You have gifts. You have dreams. You have a story that needs to be told. Start telling it. Start building it. Start living it. The world needs your version of success, not a copy of theirs. So breathe. Let go of the knot in your chest. Take your hands off the steering wheel of other people’s lives, and put them back on your own. You’ve got this. And I’m right here with you, cheering you on, not because you’re perfect, but because you’re real. Thank you for listening, for trusting me with your time, and for doing the brave work of showing up as yourself. Until next time, be kind to your heart. It’s doing its best. I’m Jane Gordon. Bye for now.