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Vanessaandheriphone | The Christian Reeve Podcast #194 · The Christian Reeve Podcast

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  Hello and welcome to another episode of the Christian Reef
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  podcast. Today's guest is a professional
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  tarot, reader content creator, which wears, many hats, she's
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  from Switzerland. Her name is Vanessa and her
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  iPhone. Welcome to the welcome to the
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  podcast. I can't get my words out today.
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  How are you today? How's it going?
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  I'm okay, I'm okay. Today.
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  It's not the best period of my life but I guess a day at a
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  time. So yeah, I'm okay.
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  Maybe I should explain right. I should say something more than
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  that because As for the people listening and he lost my mother
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  this week and miss him, very kindly offered to reschedule and
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  I said, no, I want to go ahead and do it.
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  I think. I think I want to do it and it's
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  also a lovely tribute to her especially for the kind of topic
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  that we're going to go into. So I do, it means a lot to me to
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  be here. Thank you for having me.
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  It's absolute pleasure. I can.
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  Part of me. Yeah.
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  I I thought about how you would feel like going through this.
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  I've dealt with a lot of loss in my life as well.
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  I'm sure many of our listeners have and we all deal with I
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  suppose grief and things in different ways and I think that
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  was the first thing that came to me.
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  I mean, I think if I was, if I was in that situation, my mind
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  would go to work and just moving it.
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  That's always been how I've got through things is just work but
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  I don't know that that always works necessarily but the one
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  thing that you said in your email trail that struck me, was
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  you like I've received a lot of condolences This is the first
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  like sort of thing that is different from that.
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  So I want to focus on that and that I understood straight.
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  Whereas out. Okay, I get that distraction
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  something else. Let's talk about something and I
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  get I get that because it's But I don't want to focus on this
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  too much but I feel like it would be wrong not to say at
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  least something like the world kind of stops when these things
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  happened. I've noticed and part of you
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  feels like it's I don't know, maybe, I'm just speaking for
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  myself here but like I feel like a part of you feels like it's
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  wrong to just carry on like normal.
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  But then the other part of you is like, well this is the only
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  way that things can move. She Anatomy is for, you have to
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  keep going, and absolutely. And we don't have a choice
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  because life does continue. And They just stay in another
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  place. They stay in our hearts, in our
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  heads, and in the memories, and it's quite, I feel quite blessed
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  and quite lucky to know that she has created this inmense
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  emptiness, because it's proportional to how much I'm an
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  amazing person. She was.
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  So that's I feel lucky and I agree with that.
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  The fact that you feel like everything should stop.
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  And, but I also remember coming back from because we were with
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  her when she Past and I was coming back.
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  I was riding my bicycle back home and there were people that
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  I was, you know, Crossing on the streets.
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  It was middle of the night and they were laughing.
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  They were Tipsy and they were having a great time and it
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  actually made me smile, and it made me happy to know that there
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  were people who were there, who were completely alive and living
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  their life and it felt good. So, and in regards to work, I am
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  off work for quite some time but mice Back to work the next
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  morning. So that's what she needed to do.
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  And I completely Did a teacher, so she didn't just go to work
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  and not put in any energy. She went to work and she was
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  teaching and she was teaching about she's a doctor and she was
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  teaching about when end of life experiences.
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  So it was also quite you know, quite something I asked her did
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  you tell them? She said no I couldn't otherwise
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  I wouldn't have been able to do it but we all have different
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  ways of dealing with people passing and it's Autumn just to
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  respect every person's way and this is my way of dealing with
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  it coming here to your podcast. I'm very very honored wanted to
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  have you. I will say one thing to kind of
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  put a bow on it all with the friends that like I've lost over
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  the years and the people have lost.
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  One of the things I always think about is this idea of like,
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  Living in tribute to them like food, some like, through some of
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  the darkest times of my life. I'm not proud to say it, but
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  there's been times when Maybe I didn't want to be here and other
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  than the people in my life because that's the thing.
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  Yeah, I was watching The Walking Dead, the other day and there's
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  a line in it. That struck me.
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  They said the most important thing in this world is people.
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  You can't do anything without people.
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  People is, are what make life worth living without people?
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  You just have nothing and I think it's very true.
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  People give life, people create everything, energy, and
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  atmosphere, whatever you want to call it.
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  And one of the reasons I decided to stick around was because of
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  the people in my life people that I love very dearly.
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  And then the other thing is this idea of living in tribute to the
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  you know the people that don't get to be here and I don't know,
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  I just feel like that's a cool concept.
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  I'll just try to kind of To do that because I think life is a
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  gift and you got to go to make the best of it.
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  You know? Exactly.
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  I understood who was telling you one day, it just doesn't make
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  sense to be alive. It doesn't make sense.
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  How are we here? It's insane and because telling
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  me, you know, some people they get upset over such stupid
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  things and they don't realize that.
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  It's just such a miracle to be here and you have to honor that
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  Miracle. Let me really do.
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  Yeah, we've been speaking a lot about this in my recent live
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  streams about you know, how life is just kind of like this up and
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  down up and down up and down and sometimes it's more Downs than
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  ups and it's difficult but I think one thing I've learned
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  over the years I'm about to turn 30 and my 20s.
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  I think if nothing else has taught me that life, will throw
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  a lot at you and that and that ages.
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  But it's all part of it and I think it does kind of make you
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  stronger so long as you learn from it and grow from it.
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  But the biggest thing I think it really teaches you is that it
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  will be okay, like whatever happens like you'll be able to
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  get through it because you went through all this other stuff and
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  you're still hit you know, is five 100 percent of all your
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  days. Yeah, absolutely.
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  So You're big into spirituality and tarot readings, talk us how
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  you got through into that? Okay, so I'm originally from a
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  family where my maternal grandparents were missionaries.
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  So they live back in the West Indies and they went door to
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  door. They were not Jehovah Witnesses
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  but, you know, something similar and they would go and get people
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  to join their cult. Absol.
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  That's what my mother had to do as a kid and then she left that
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  cultish religion and moved all the way across the big pond, the
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  Atlantic and make my father. And that's when she decided that
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  she was an atheist, so was he? He was brought up Protestant but
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  he's also an atheist and So when I was a child, I had been given
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  the choice to either believe completely not just in God, but
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  in the god from that cult, not any other one or think that any
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  type of religion or spiritual belief was complete bullshit.
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  Those were my options as a kid and I did not know at the time
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  that there was all of the in-betweens.
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  I had two extremes and I don't like extremes and so, From a
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  very young age, I experience things that some people may call
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  Supernatural night, balls. Who can almost, which made me
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  understand the existence of the spirit realm and the existence
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  of all sorts of players, organ, psychic, abilities.
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  I also had lots of members of my family, my maternal family still
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  who were very ill and so they were constantly in and out of
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  hospitals and in and out of Comas.
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  And I remember my aunt telling me how some of her experiences
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  when she was in the coma like going through the tunnel with a
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  light at the end or astral traveling to the top of her
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  hospital room or and all sorts of, you know, I was like
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  something between 5 and 10 so it It sounded absolutely amazing.
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  I wanted to go in a coma because it was such an different
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  experience. And, and I didn't realize the
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  gravity of it because they always came back, they were ill,
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  but they always came back. So I didn't when they eventually
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  died, it was a shop because we ought, they were very often
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  dying. They were always dying.
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  Just about to die, and then they would come back and So that's
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  how I got into my my own spirituality because you can't
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  have someone else's food tragedy anyway because religion is
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  someone else's spirituality and you have to create your own,
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  that's the only path and then when I was 15 so that was in
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  1989. I got I went into a spiritual
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  shop with my best friend and I bought my very first Tarot deck
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  that I still have today. and I started, Reading the cards of
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  course, with the guide book because I did not know their
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  meanings and I and I had no idea what I was doing, really, to be
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  honest. And I started reading for
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  friends. And then along the way, I did it
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  more and more. And that's actually not my, my
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  main job, my main job is being an opera singer.
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  And that's what I, that's what I do for a living and You know, I
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  actually forgot the, the initial question that's fine as I was as
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  I was reading more and more tarot cards.
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  I got more and more familiar with my psychic abilities and
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  then I started using these as well.
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  I think that tomorrow is one of the tools.
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  It's not the only tool, it's one of the tools that can help you.
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  Find out about your psychic abilities because I believe
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  everybody has the not everybody is interested in them and they
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  often make the parallel between opera singing and tarot reading
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  or psychic reading because it's something that everybody can do
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  like opera singer, we all have two vocal cords and we all have,
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  if you're not handicapped you can become an opera singer.
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  Not everybody will be good. Some people will have to train
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  for years and being mediocre and some people will be just
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  amazing. Amazing immediately.
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  And not, everybody thinks it's a real job and not everybody is
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  interested and it's the same thing for psychic readings and
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  tarot readings, everybody can do them.
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  Not everybody will be good. Some people will practice all
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  their life and be, you know, mediocre.
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  Some will be good immediately and not everybody is interested.
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  So I, I like that parallel. It makes my life makes sense to
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  me. They do agree.
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  I think I can't remember when I first started being interested
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  in this, but I know that. A few years back, I was living
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  in a country called Estonia. I was always a bit cynic but
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  I've always had an open mind. So that's kind of like how I've
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  how I was growing up. And, you know, I kind of
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  approach to spirituality and Terror and everything with that
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  kind of like, you know, this is this Western charlatans
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  bullshit. Kind of, you know, mindset and
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  then I sort of do what I always do which is sit down and listen
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  and start researching and just viewing it.
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  And the thing that struck me is that Eastern approaches to
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  Spirituality and tarot readings and such is completely
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  different. Like it's viewed in a totally
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  different way, especially in like Russia and Estonia and the
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  surrounding countries, it's almost like a day-to-day thing,
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  you know. Like it's there's there's a,
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  there's a showing in Russia. I think it's called for the
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  existential something like a common room, what it translates,
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  deeper something like, journey of Ford, search for the,
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  something like that. But point is for those who don't
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  know, Essentially like a, I don't want to say reality Talent
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  chokes that kind of demeans a little bit but it's essentially,
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  it's that. And the thing that's really cool
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  about it. Is all these people from all the
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  different parts of the world are different parts of the country
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  and they come and they help people and they try to add the
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  note communicate messages for the more they try to help them
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  with some sort of issue. Anyway, point is, it's viewed
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  differently. And when I was there, it kind
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  of, you know, I was in contact with closely with psychics and
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  stuff. And so, I started slowly opening
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  my mind to it, still with that skepticism.
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  But, you know, slowly opening my mind to it, and there's a few
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  things actually wanted to ask. I mean, I've got so many
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  questions for you, it's unreal. So I'll try to get to a little
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  bit different but I've got my own questions and then I got
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  questions fan questions. Shout out to Vilma.
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  Yeah. But I Is one of the first
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  questions I want to ask you is generally speaking with regards
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  to Taro, one of the things I learned is that you're supposed
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  to approach it. This is what I was told you're
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  supposed to approach it from a short of a short-term basis.
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  So don't ask anything that's going to be more than about six
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  months. And it's more kind of supposed
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  to give you an idea of like where things are in a particular
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  moment and where you are mentally Spiritually, whatever
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  you want to call it. So when you ask the questions
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  and you receive the information, It gives you an idea of where
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  things are at that moment, but it's not set in stone because I
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  think that's sometimes is the misconception that people think,
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  oh, you're telling the future like, yeah, you know, it's like,
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  I don't this is what I understood.
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  It's not tell, it's not about telling the future, it's about
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  telling you where your are where you are at this point in time.
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  And if you continue in this particular path that you're on,
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  this is where it's likely to end up.
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  Yeah, it's not telling the future, it's Then you how you
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  can create your future, the different options that you have
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  to to be the creator of your future.
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  And freedom of choice is really the.
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  Number one thing to pay attention when you're reading
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  card you're not telling somebody this is going to happen to you.
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  That's that's if somebody does that in a tarot reading run run.
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  It's a huge red flag so it's not that.
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  It's really telling you giving a different Insight looking at
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  your life. Through another window that you
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  hadn't thought about and it's quite an amazing tool for self
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  growth. Really you said something
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  earlier about how we all have psychic ability, how we will
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  have because this is something I share with you.
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  I believe I share with you is this idea that we all are
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  capable of doing pretty much anything in life.
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  But as you say, like I think we are naturally inclined towards
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  certain things. So what I've understand about
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  myself as a human being, is that I am more inclined to creative
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  Endeavors and anything communicative when it comes to
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  more practical minded stuff, I'm useless, I could maybe do it if
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  I try really hard but it's still, you know, like Maps.
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  I'm always going to suck at math.
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  So I just I just get in the cannon.
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  That's fine. But, you know, it's there's
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  always gonna be that issue, right?
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  But this idea this concept of We Rule different spiritual levels.
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  Like I remember one time when I was in Estonia, someone said to
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  me that And this is comments on this idea of like different
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  lives. So if you believe in
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  reincarnation or something like that and that's kind of where
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  we're going with this point. Do you believe in this concept
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  of when we're born into this life or any given life?
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  We come at a certain stage or level and that indicates the
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  level maybe of, I don't know. Insight.
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  We have power ability because obviously there are people that
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  bought into the world that you know, they're born into the
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  world to have a very simple life and there's nothing wrong with
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  that. But again, just ride with me
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  here. And then there are people that
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  come here to do something extraordinary, exceptional
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  different unique. And then, so basically, I guess
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  what I'm saying is we all come with different purposes,
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  different, you know, in throughout the cycles of the
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  lives moving forward and forward and forward, we would kind of
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  keep Rising until we get to like a say, I really high level but
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  in order for us to get to that level, we have to complete
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  whatever challenges things we've seen.
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  Set for ourselves in a given life.
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  Where do you say we all come with a different purpose and I
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  think that we can partly decide what purpose we want to give to
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  our life. And I am familiar with that
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  concept. You're talking about but I don't
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  like it because it gives us a kind of hierarchy.
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  Some people are more advanced, some people have better some
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  people and that's also why I don't speak about spiritual
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  gifts or psychic gifts, but I speak about psychic abilities,
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  because anybody can Can practice them and learn them and grow
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  into them. I don't like the concept of
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  hierarchy in spirituality, that's something.
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  I I'm I don't know for sure if what the theory is saying is
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  real or not? I don't know.
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  I do believe in past lives. I didn't used to, but I had such
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  a mind-blowing experience that I believe in it now.
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  But I have have a podcast that speaks about it.
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  Actually, what's the podcast good?
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  I was going to say, let me do just a little self promotion on
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  here. It's called I had a life.
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  It's on Spotify and it's linked in all my social medias on my
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  Snap feed link and but I don't believe that some people are
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  like have a higher frequency, a higher level of we grow in our
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  awareness, or through our life and we grow in our spirituality
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  or through our life. That's what I agree with you
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  too. Because when the idea was
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  presented to me, I was like well that almost makes it seem like
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  your life is pointless. Like if you if you believe in
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  that concept then you Even the idea that in certain lives you
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  come and you're not supposed to achieve anything and I just I
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  can't. Yeah, that doesn't sit well with
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  me either but the frequency debate thing.
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  See. This is where I sell this.
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  I feel like there are people that are open and then there are
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  people that are closed and some people, you can open up and you
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  can, you know, that, that certainly happened with me.
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  I'm a full believer in spirituality.
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  Now, like, I won't sit and I see it as a guide, so instead of
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  like, oh, I'm definitely going to live my life according to
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  these men and I just keep myself open to all possibilities.
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  And if I find myself stuck, okay, I'm going to consult this.
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  I'm gonna see where it is, or what it sort of says to me, but
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  they're, you know, so there are four Believers.
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  There are people that somewhere in the middle and I think there
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  are people that, you know, are completely closed off from any
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  idea of, you know, spirituality or inviting something bigger
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  than themselves into their life. And, you know, maybe they're
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  only just fixated on this reality that we're in this one
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  that we've created for ourselves, you know, this
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  civilization, Yeah, there's people in my life that I know.
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  If I would try to have a conversation about the things
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  that we're talking about, they might think I'm crazy.
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  They might think they might not be able to comprehend it though.
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  They might not be a, but I think more importantly they wouldn't
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  be open to it and that is a concept that fascinates me this
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  idea of not being open to it at all because surely everyone at
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  least questions. Once in their life like what is
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  the meaning of this? What is the point of this?
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  Why am I Here, why do I get up in the morning every day and go
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  to work? Like, surely there must be more
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  than this is this what highly superstitious which is also a
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  belief system. Like for example I have parents
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  who were, as I said were atheists and they the only thing
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  that they will go by is science. Anything?
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  That's science. Proved is.
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  Okay. It's validated by them.
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  But anything else not? And but then in the same time my
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  father will not Read upside down because there's a move that you
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  put bread upside down tomorrow, there's no bread.
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  Why would there be no bread? I mean rationally, why would
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  there be no bread? If it's upside down?
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  There's no rational explanation. It's the belief system.
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  So. But I think that you know, you
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  have people like that. I sometimes speak with people.
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  I can see in their eyes that okay.
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  Now minutes you have to stop because there that you're not on
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  the same page. So just stop and I tell that to
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  people because I give them mentoring sessions and some
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  people say my family, my friends I don't understand my answer to
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  that is, well, you can share spirituality with some people,
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  but with some people, you can't and you have to see when you're
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  over sharing and when you're not and spirituality is so intimate.
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  It's such a private part of us. I mean, spirituality is as
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  private as sexuality for me. It's something that is
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  completely personal. You don't impose it on children
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  and it's something that you cannot force someone into.
• 23:16
  It's so intimate as the same thing that I totally agree with
• 23:20
  you II know, the reason I'm in Manchester is because I
• 23:24
  consulted a psychic about a close friend of mine and A lot
• 23:32
  of the time when people ask me about Manchester but oh well,
• 23:34
  you know, I just decided on a whim but that's not true.
• 23:36
  I'd sat down the psychic. It was, it was, it was a really
• 23:40
  weird scenario. I've never seen it before.
• 23:45
  I said that I didn't know where to go, I knew I was coming back
• 23:48
  to UK the UK, that's the thing. The only thing about me that I
• 23:52
  feel is spiritual or in any way psychic if you like, is that I
• 23:56
  have I trust I trust my gut intuition, 100% to me, that is
• 24:04
  the true God like the brain, a lot of the time, the brain just
• 24:07
  lies to you or it's just like I'm scared mode.
• 24:11
  The way, you know what I mean? Like, he's just like, well, what
• 24:13
  if this happens, what if this happens like It's not gonna
• 24:15
  happen. Probably not.
• 24:17
  But like the gut, just it tells you everything like, avoid this
• 24:20
  person don't go down this road, stay in tonight, you know, just
• 24:25
  just little things like that and it was telling me you're going
• 24:31
  to leave Estonia 2020. This is when it's going to
• 24:34
  happen, I was okay. I know I'm gonna leave, I want
• 24:38
  to leave, but I have no idea where to go.
• 24:41
  I knew I wasn't going back to London.
• 24:42
  I just I knew that and So I I spoke to this friend that I was
• 24:48
  like, what do I do? Like what?
• 24:49
  And she was like, okay give here's a piece of paper.
• 24:52
  Write down all of these different place names, just
• 24:55
  places that you would think about going to because see
• 24:58
  yourself living it. And so I wrote down a bunch of
• 25:01
  different names places. I've been places, I'd like to be
• 25:05
  and I've got to Manchester and I remember I remember this very
• 25:08
  clearly, it was in the middle of the paper and I sort of looked
• 25:12
  at it for a second and then looked away.
• 25:16
  I didn't think anything but I just I stopped on that
• 25:18
  particular name and then I just you know moved on handed her the
• 25:22
  piece of paper. She had like a piece of string.
• 25:27
  Yeah. Yeah.
• 25:27
  Right. But she'd fashioned it.
• 25:29
  She made it herself with like a rock at the bottom.
• 25:31
  I think it's called divination. I might be wrong but is it is a
• 25:37
  car? Got it right way.
• 25:38
  So she swung the pendulum like that and she had like
• 25:42
  Candlelight there and she saw presided over this.
• 25:45
  About 20 or 30 minutes. She didn't randomly comes up to
• 25:47
  me, and to me the piece of paper and on it are various different
• 25:52
  scores out of 100. So most of them were zero.
• 25:58
  Some of them were twenty one or two were like 50/50 and then 100
• 26:03
  was like bag on. So for those who don't know,
• 26:06
  basically the lower the score, the less favorable it would be
• 26:10
  for me to live there. 50/50 kind of indicated.
• 26:13
  Like it could go either way really I'm the only one that was
• 26:17
  100% and actually, favorable was Manchester.
• 26:22
  Uh-huh. And so I looked at that and I
• 26:24
  was like, right? So I'm going to Manchester, you
• 26:28
  can make a petal in me. I have a friend of mine, she has
• 26:31
  always some thread and some needle and a needle, I mean, and
• 26:35
  you can that can be your pendulum with the needle at the
• 26:37
  bottom. And you don't have to have an
• 26:39
  actual pendulum that you buy in a spiritual shop.
• 26:42
  Most people like it because they're nice.
• 26:44
  But You don't have to. Yeah, I think intuition is very
• 26:49
  important and I think we've all had experiences where all of a
• 26:53
  sudden were thinking about someone and boom.
• 26:56
  We you know, you come across that person and that person
• 26:59
  calls you just as you're thinking about them or repeating
• 27:03
  numbers that we see or things that we just know.
• 27:05
  And then they happen or that kind of experience is that's all
• 27:09
  psychic abilities and some people are not aware that it is
• 27:12
  they call them coincidences or imagination.
• 27:15
  And you can give it whatever name you want, but that's what
• 27:17
  it is and I think that when you were saying you listen to your
• 27:21
  intuition a lot. I think that's essential and
• 27:24
  people do say, you're better at the gut is the second brain.
• 27:27
  So, I there's a reason for that and a very good exercise.
• 27:32
  I like to train your intuition because some people say I'd like
• 27:35
  to be more in tune with my intuition, my intuition.
• 27:39
  I don't know how to do that is to have a 100% intuitive day,
• 27:43
  which is, you know, for instance, Going for point, from
• 27:46
  point A to point B and you know that this Crossroad you have to
• 27:51
  go left because you're going to point B, but you turn your head
• 27:55
  to the right. And think that looks, it looks
• 27:57
  like a surfer but not for today. I'm going because I'm going to
• 28:00
  point B. So I have to go left well on a
• 28:02
  100% intuitive day. You do turn, right?
• 28:06
  And you are allowed to take 0 decisions, rationally, it's only
• 28:09
  intuitive decisions. Of course, you can't do that on
• 28:12
  a, on a work day because that Sometimes you can do half a day
• 28:17
  or maybe you can do just an hour and it's a good place to start
• 28:20
  anyway, but it's actually quite fascinating when you try to do
• 28:24
  that because you don't eat at normal schedules, you don't do
• 28:27
  anything as your word and it gives you also a very different
• 28:33
  Insight on how you're living your life and that's fantastic
• 28:36
  experience to go through. I highly recommend it.
• 28:41
  Definitely give it a go. Let me know how it goes.
• 28:45
  One thing that comes to mind because I I have moments where I
• 28:50
  just let it take over, right? And I don't feel like I'm in
• 28:54
  control, I feel it. I feel like it's almost like a
• 28:57
  message. Oh, gosh.
• 28:59
  So some of my, some of my community.
• 29:01
  Yes, I'm a weirdo. This is how weird it gets
• 29:04
  accepted. It's like, I feel like it's
• 29:08
  messages, you're being given, right?
• 29:12
  And as you said before you I mean you can choose to ignore
• 29:15
  them just like I chose to ignore that message prior to us
• 29:19
  filming. You know you guys won't know
• 29:21
  that it will remain a secret forever.
• 29:23
  I do apologize but it kind of came to me and I was like hmm
• 29:28
  and then I batted it away and then sure enough.
• 29:32
  Yeah and it's interesting to me because it's like I feel like a
• 29:37
  lot of time it is just telling you exactly what to do what you
• 29:40
  need to do. Well, and that's the thing
• 29:43
  almost in the exact detail as well.
• 29:45
  And you only ignore it. And we have these, we have these
• 29:49
  messages very often. The latest one is a beautiful
• 29:51
  one and it has to do with my mother's passing.
• 29:53
  Because I before she died, I had asked by, I played accordion,
• 29:57
  right? And I want to buy a new one.
• 30:00
  And I had asked my parents who had bought me a violin when I
• 30:03
  was a teenager, is it okay with you?
• 30:06
  If I sell the violin in order to buy a new accordion and they
• 30:08
  both said, yes and yesterday I was in my shower.
• 30:11
  And my accordion teacher was supposed to come on Monday.
• 30:14
  Now, the funeral is Tuesday and I was thinking do I really want
• 30:17
  to have an accordion lesson the day before my mother's funeral?
• 30:20
  The answer was no, but I thought I wanted to come because if
• 30:22
  someone ideally love and I want to spend some time, drinking
• 30:25
  some tea with her, or a coffee, and then I'm thinking.
• 30:28
  Oh, but my mother had a bank account, so I'm going to inherit
• 30:32
  some money. So maybe I don't have to sell
• 30:34
  the violin and I can buy the accordion and then all of a
• 30:37
  sudden, huge guilt comes and I'm thinking how, what a horrible
• 30:41
  daughter Sure you are. She's not.
• 30:43
  You haven't even been through the funeral and here you are
• 30:45
  thinking about the money you're going to get.
• 30:46
  And it made me feel awful. I thought I'd get to sleeve that
• 30:49
  thought aside. It's okay you're going through a
• 30:52
  process. Just let yourself, you know, go
• 30:53
  through what you need to go through.
• 30:54
  I sit down and my couch, and I guess to sort of numb myself
• 30:59
  out. I open Tick-Tock which is what
• 31:01
  most of us do to sort of finow run away from our lives and or
• 31:05
  not. And anyway, that's not the point
• 31:07
  and and I open tecton in the very first video that I see is a
• 31:11
  video that shows Could actually set me a few months back of this
• 31:15
  guy, playing the Four Seasons, Vivaldi's, Four Seasons on the
• 31:18
  accordion, and that is the exact video.
• 31:20
  She had sent to me, and that's the first one I see on to talk
• 31:23
  when I open it and I completely understood that as her telling
• 31:27
  me no, it's fine. Go ahead, buy it.
• 31:30
  It would be my gift to you. And so those are the things, you
• 31:33
  know, it's called synchronicities, it's little or
• 31:36
  downloads a, we can pull them many ways.
• 31:38
  But yeah. But you and you need to pay
• 31:41
  attention. Into these signs, they're so
• 31:43
  important. So you think there are trying to
• 31:47
  kind of tell us how to lead a good life how to grow and get
• 31:51
  better is that kind of the whole point of it?
• 31:54
  Yeah and I understood quite young age that you could
• 31:59
  communicate with the spirit realm you can communicate with
• 32:02
  your dead loved ones and can communicate with other people.
• 32:06
  Said loved ones, if you are a psychic medium, if you're
• 32:09
  trained to do it and I've done it very often and I still have
• 32:13
  the Imposter syndrome when I do my sessions and And initially I
• 32:18
  didn't want to do them. I didn't want to Put them out
• 32:23
  there for people to book sessions with me and it's my
• 32:25
  best friend. The one I went to buy the Tarot
• 32:27
  deck in 1989 with who told me. But when I said, you have to I'm
• 32:31
  sorry, my neighbors are making a lot of you can help so many
• 32:37
  people and I told her what it, what if it doesn't work one day,
• 32:39
  what do I do? What do I tell the person who
• 32:42
  came who paid, who, you know, is looking forward to a session and
• 32:45
  then nothing she says, will, you can either refund them or you
• 32:48
  can reschedule, it can happen. And so that Gave me, you know,
• 32:52
  the possibility of if ever, you know, taking off some of the
• 32:55
  pressure. And then another thing that I do
• 32:57
  and I recommend for people who are, you know, learning about
• 33:00
  their spiritual, all psychic gifts is to have a journal where
• 33:04
  you write down everything that happens to you.
• 33:08
  And that way, you can come back to it and say, no, it was this
• 33:11
  really happened. Because sometimes I'll tell, you
• 33:15
  know, I have things that come to mind that I that I receive, I
• 33:18
  don't know what other word to use and Tell the person whose
• 33:23
  Consulting something that makes absolutely no sense to me.
• 33:26
  Zero says, if I say this, is it makes sense.
• 33:29
  And most of the time what happens is that they burst into
• 33:32
  tears and they, I know exactly what it is, and then they tell
• 33:35
  me the story and, and it's just Very, I don't want to give
• 33:42
  examples because I one thing I tell them is that what is done
• 33:47
  in a session? Is absolutely confidential.
• 33:48
  So I don't want to be saying anything that without asking for
• 33:52
  permission, but yeah it's it's it's definitely messages that I
• 33:58
  believe we're receiving. Yes.
• 33:59
  And everybody can do that because everybody has had, as I
• 34:02
  said, the experience of just knowing something.
• 34:05
  Being sure about something and then it because, you know, it's
• 34:09
  actually true that's claircognizance.
• 34:11
  We all have different classes, we all have some that are
• 34:14
  stronger. Some that are dimmer.
• 34:16
  And it's a said I have synesthesia, as well as across
• 34:19
  wiring of the brain where you have different, you know, I see,
• 34:23
  you're frowning, you don't know, you don't know what that is
• 34:26
  across wiring of the brain where senses are mixed and The the
• 34:32
  main one that the one that most people do have it's like
• 34:35
  something like less than 5% of the population who has that.
• 34:38
  One of the main synesthesia is the one that most people have is
• 34:41
  that they see letters or numbers in color and you can't destroy
• 34:45
  this letter or this number from the color.
• 34:48
  If somebody tells me that too is yellow for me, it's wrong.
• 34:51
  To was red and there's no way I'm changing that but for
• 34:53
  another synesthete, it's red is wrong and and then the days of
• 34:58
  the week and also have colors. And then There's spatial
• 35:03
  sequence synesthesia where you see Concepts as sort of 3D
• 35:07
  geometrical sculptures which actually makes Matthews being
• 35:11
  about maths before. It makes maths very easy because
• 35:14
  any kind of mathematical exercise is becomes a shape and
• 35:20
  it just clicks and then you know the solution is it makes maths
• 35:24
  really simple and then you have I know a woman who has a tea
• 35:28
  shop in Seattle And she has Lex lexical gustatory.
• 35:34
  Synesthesia. Every single word has a taste in
• 35:36
  her mouth. She can literally taste it.
• 35:38
  And then there's the promised Asia, where music has color.
• 35:42
  I have that different notes will have a different color.
• 35:45
  Different compositions will have a whole kind of moving.
• 35:54
  Colorful kind of flame or form. I don't know how to explain it
• 35:59
  better than that, and and it's the same thing as the spiritual
• 36:03
  gifts. You have one main synesthesia,
• 36:05
  and then the other ones are dimmer and one that I have that.
• 36:12
  My sister who's a doctor, she has synesthesia to, she doesn't
• 36:15
  have that one and she's quite grateful not to is the
• 36:17
  mirror-touch synesthesia which is for instance if you tap your
• 36:20
  cheek like this I will feel like an echo as if someone was
• 36:22
  tapping my cheek. So anything that somebody has
• 36:26
  within them, you feel it and it's like being an empath times.
• 36:31
  A zillion and the people who have that as a main synesthesia,
• 36:35
  it's actually be quite handicapping.
• 36:36
  I'm lucky to have it as one of the dimmed versions.
• 36:41
  It's not my main synesthesia but I have that as well so that you
• 36:44
  don't that was the synesthesia little parenthesis.
• 36:47
  Thank you so much for sharing really.
• 36:49
  Really appreciate it. What would you say the biggest
• 36:52
  challenges associated with Tower?
• 36:56
  The biggest challenge. I think that anybody who Gets
• 37:03
  into Taro. The biggest challenge is
• 37:06
  learning the meanings of the cards and the mistake that most
• 37:08
  people do is that they want to learn them quickly and you
• 37:12
  can't, there's too much information.
• 37:15
  And what you do have to understand is that once, you
• 37:19
  know, the meanings of every single of the 78 cards, you're
• 37:24
  going to keep learning about them.
• 37:26
  You'll, you know them, but you're going to keep learning
• 37:28
  about, I don't know how they are related to history of Arts, how
• 37:32
  they? Are related to astrology how
• 37:35
  they are related to the four elements how so many different
• 37:41
  areas that they and it becomes. The more you go the deeper it
• 37:46
  gets. And that's that's the biggest
• 37:50
  challenges learning the cards. What do you make of the ghost?
• 37:56
  The only way I can really put it is the mass cutter flooding of
• 38:02
  Terror. Is on apps like Tick, Tock and
• 38:06
  Instagram and search and because I see some of them and I can
• 38:09
  tell there's these are legitimate people that just
• 38:12
  trying to help. But then I see a lot that I'm
• 38:14
  like, I don't know. What are you just make of it in
• 38:18
  general? I see what's going to thoughts
• 38:19
  on that. Well, obviously, I get a lot
• 38:22
  because the hashtags that I sometimes put, I don't always
• 38:24
  put hashtags, but sometimes I do, and I have a lot of inner
• 38:27
  spiritual to talk Taro Taro talk, which Target that kind of
• 38:31
  stuff. So I get a lot of them.
• 38:33
  I'm on my for you, Pete and For me, but that's personal.
• 38:39
  And I find that I like. If somebody's going to read
• 38:45
  cards for me, I need them to have a certain life experience,
• 38:49
  I can't, because I find that it's it's a little, it's similar
• 38:54
  to coaching to read cards. You know, you're going to give
• 38:57
  advice to somebody. And it's for me, it's important
• 39:02
  that that person has a certain life experience to be able to,
• 39:05
  you know, Have what it takes within them, but that's very
• 39:09
  personal. You don't have to have that.
• 39:12
  There's quite a few red flags very often on my for you page
• 39:16
  with the tarot readers, whether it's a tick tock, already top
• 39:19
  live. And what are they, what are
• 39:24
  they? Well, you know, if the video
• 39:27
  starts by the person that you deeply want back in your life is
• 39:32
  just about to come back in your life.
• 39:33
  I would run. I would scroll, I was no, that's
• 39:36
  not it. Some of the red flags I get
• 39:41
  because I know the meanings of the cards and I know that a card
• 39:44
  can have several different meanings.
• 39:45
  I'm not saying there's one and only meaning to each car, but I
• 39:48
  also know the meaning that some of the cars do not have And then
• 39:52
  when I see them, reading them and just, you know, inventing as
• 39:55
  they go and it's, you can compare, you see, when you're
• 39:59
  reading cards, of course, your intuition has to come in, you
• 40:02
  have to let it kick in, but it's like improvising in music.
• 40:07
  You can't just take an instrument and improvise, you
• 40:09
  have to learn the skills. First, you have to learn how to
• 40:11
  technically play the instrument and that takes time.
• 40:15
  And you have to learn to do that in order to know how to play the
• 40:18
  instrument really well, so that you can let go and it.
• 40:21
  Device and it's a similar pattern for tarot and intuition,
• 40:25
  you have to learn how to read the cards.
• 40:28
  You have to learn the spreads or invent your own spread, which is
• 40:32
  also possible. But you have to learn the
• 40:33
  meanings of the cards, you have to know about the history of
• 40:36
  Taro, where was it, born and cetera and then and then you can
• 40:40
  understand that there's a written tradition and in oral
• 40:44
  tradition. And that what's in history,
• 40:45
  books is not the only thing, you know, there's all sorts of
• 40:48
  things that you have to learn before you let your intuition
• 40:51
  kick into To help other people. So it's not.
• 40:57
  What I say but people who are on social media for your listeners
• 41:00
  who want to know whether or not they should trust somebody.
• 41:04
  What? I tell my followers is whenever
• 41:07
  there's a tarot reading, you think?
• 41:08
  Oh gosh, I wish that's for me. I hope it's genuine.
• 41:11
  I recommend you go to the person's profile, scroll through
• 41:15
  a few videos. See if they are.
• 41:17
  You know, if you're like minded or if it's somebody who inspires
• 41:20
  you or that you can trust or that you can admire and in that
• 41:24
  case, because if it's about, you know, do your soulmate coming
• 41:28
  back to you within the 24 hours if you like and claimant
• 41:30
  following comment and share, well maybe all the videos are
• 41:34
  that and that means that it's just bullshit and And so, yeah,
• 41:40
  I understand that people who are starting on the app, even if
• 41:42
  they're genuine need to get more followers to get more views to
• 41:46
  get more, you know, I understand that.
• 41:48
  And I'm not saying that someone who says, please please, follow
• 41:50
  please, and that's, I understand that's how social media works.
• 41:55
  Yeah. Go to the profile and look at
• 41:58
  who that person is and that gives you already quite a good
• 42:02
  idea on whether or not you should listen to what they're
• 42:05
  telling you. You're kind of seconds.
• 42:08
  Be a little bit. There's so many people are out
• 42:10
  to just calm. One thing that you may or may
• 42:13
  not be aware of, is that I've even seen clones of your profile
• 42:18
  on Instagram I've seen and I've blocked them and I repeatedly I
• 42:23
  always put in my videos because I didn't know what to do about
• 42:26
  it and they were getting more and more of them.
• 42:28
  And people were telling me, I got scammed.
• 42:29
  I got scammed, I got scared and I said, I'm sorry, I reached out
• 42:32
  to Tick-Tock I reached out to Instagram, they don't do
• 42:34
  anything so, okay, I can understand that they have a lot
• 42:37
  to do and they can't do anything.
• 42:38
  To Define, what can I do? And I decided okay, I'm going to
• 42:42
  pinch this one video, which is a scammer alert and that's the
• 42:45
  only video that's pinned on my, excuse me, Tick Tock profile.
• 42:49
  And then I thought, okay, people will be scam because they've
• 42:52
  seen a tarot reading. So every time I do a tarot
• 42:55
  reading I either stay or I put it in a caption, I will never
• 42:59
  reach out to offer reading and to book a reading it's only via
• 43:03
  what I call to Pink in my liar because one day I changed it
• 43:05
  around and now I don't even know which one is right?
• 43:07
  And I My thing is being can liar and which is obviously linked in
• 43:12
  BIO. But yeah, that's all I always do
• 43:16
  that. And I and I once every so often,
• 43:21
  you know, search for Vanessa on her iPhone on Instagram or on
• 43:24
  Tick-Tock and then like I blocked a report and block
• 43:26
  everybody so they don't have access to my content so then you
• 43:30
  can tell as time goes by that they only have old videos so
• 43:33
  it's probably not me. I have some arrange different
• 43:39
  fan question, so I'm just going to kind of hit you with all
• 43:41
  these randomly and you see, see how you do.
• 43:43
  Thank you so much Vilma and everyone else that sent in
• 43:46
  questions. Some people believe that tarot
• 43:49
  decks kept in the home. Brings bad luck.
• 43:53
  Do you agree disagree? What are your thoughts?
• 43:56
  Totally disagree. Two hundred percent disagree,
• 44:00
  And I'm like okay well hijack is just it's a similar to money,
• 44:06
  really? Because it's paper with
• 44:09
  something printed on it and we give it a value or we don't so
• 44:14
  it's exactly the same thing. Now I realize I'm realizing that
• 44:18
  I'm doing a lot of these comparisons with you.
• 44:21
  Anyway, it doesn't matter. It's that it's just cards.
• 44:24
  It's just it's just like playing cards.
• 44:25
  And actually, our today's playing cards are originally the
• 44:28
  minor I'm kind of in the tarot - the nights because that would be
• 44:36
  56 instead of 52 cards that we have in the playing card, so
• 44:40
  it's just cards. So, how can cards bring bad
• 44:43
  luck? What's the worst kind of
• 44:47
  reading? You've done?
• 44:50
  What's the worst kind of reading that I've done and I'll just add
• 44:54
  to this as well. I took this question as it.
• 44:57
  Could be a few things, it could just be maybe a setup that you
• 45:01
  didn't like or it could be a bad experience, maybe someone came
• 45:05
  to you, and it just didn't work out or it was all bad news.
• 45:09
  So, take it, however, you wish I don't record any very bad
• 45:14
  experiences. I'm lucky to be able to say
• 45:17
  that. I do sometimes feel that people.
• 45:23
  Are not as open-minded as they would need to be.
• 45:27
  And I feel frustrated because I can see that they're not
• 45:30
  receiving what I'm trying to give them, but I think the worst
• 45:35
  ones must have been the first ones which was they were
• 45:38
  actually a lot of fun because we're sitting on my bed with you
• 45:41
  friend, a friend and I was trying to sort of understand
• 45:45
  what I was doing and I guess they were really bad readings in
• 45:49
  the sense that but I didn't know what I was doing and we were
• 45:52
  just Just, you know, messing around with my new newly bought
• 45:55
  Tarot deck. But now I don't have, I can't
• 45:58
  recall of any really bad experience like that.
• 46:02
  Perfect. So there's no, of course like
• 46:06
  anything you start out in life, you know, you're not gonna be
• 46:09
  great in the beginning and more to the point, like, what you
• 46:11
  were saying before, it's something you have to train.
• 46:14
  So I imagine that your readings or your other had to put out
• 46:21
  your thoughts in the We're not as strong as they are now or
• 46:25
  like, you not clear, maybe essentially also, because of the
• 46:30
  beginning, even when you know, the meanings of the card,
• 46:33
  sometimes it's difficult to associate this card with that
• 46:36
  one. What do they mean when they are
• 46:38
  together? Right?
• 46:39
  What I mean, when this one comes before that one or when that one
• 46:42
  comes before this one, what do I do with that?
• 46:45
  It's like a storyboard and you have to understand it and it's
• 46:49
  going to be tricky. At first, really is the first
• 46:51
  this links to something. We Said earlier actually in some
• 46:55
  of the readings. I got like obviously some of
• 46:57
  them were negative. I mean, by go give you a quick
• 47:01
  example. So I'm a big fan of professional
• 47:03
  wrestling. Yeah, I know it's sad but all my
• 47:07
  life and at one point I legitimately considered becoming
• 47:10
  a professional wrestler and I did the reading with with my
• 47:16
  friend and the interesting thing and this is what kind of made me
• 47:21
  stop believe in. Her reading just on the side is
• 47:24
  that like, whenever she would present the cards to me, she
• 47:29
  would never ask me anything prior to that.
• 47:31
  She had no idea what I was asking.
• 47:34
  She would just say keep the question in your head, take the
• 47:36
  deck and then pass it back, and that's it.
• 47:40
  And then she just start laying out the cards.
• 47:42
  And it used to freak me out because she would say exactly
• 47:47
  something that would would make complete sense to what I was
• 47:51
  thinking. So in that particular scenario,
• 47:52
  Leo. I'd asked if I should become a
• 47:55
  professional wrestler and it said that I am not mentally or
• 47:59
  physically strong enough to do it.
• 48:01
  But And this is the key, this is the key my key takeaway from
• 48:05
  this and the lesson. Now I don't want to become a
• 48:08
  professional wrestler. That was just a fleeting thing.
• 48:11
  That the lesson the most valuable lesson I took from that
• 48:14
  was that circumstances and your mindset can change at any one
• 48:19
  time and so that a reading like that might be - in that moment.
• 48:23
  But in the future, when you asked the same question, it
• 48:26
  could be positive but that's entirely up to you and that I
• 48:30
  like this, I did. There is control.
• 48:32
  Not your fate is not I did you can change that, but when you're
• 48:37
  the readings are made, they are reflective of that particular
• 48:39
  moment. So if I had tried to pursue that
• 48:43
  at that given time, I would have failed in my goal because I was
• 48:46
  not mentally or physically ready for it.
• 48:51
  That was it is true. It's very very important.
• 48:57
  We've said it already but I want to say it again that you create
• 49:01
  your future and nobody can tell you.
• 49:03
  This is what going to be a nice essential really apart from
• 49:09
  Superstition. Do you agree or disagree in town
• 49:13
  that Taro should be read alone or for yourself?
• 49:21
  No, I think you can read it for others.
• 49:23
  Obviously, since that's what I do on a daily basis and alone,
• 49:31
  sometimes some of my daughters friends asked me to read cards
• 49:34
  for them and my daughter's. The first reflex is to say, do
• 49:40
  you want me to leave okay? When the Friends Ask the
• 49:46
  daughter says if you want me to leave you two alone so that my
• 49:49
  mom can read cards for you and you can be in a private place
• 49:52
  and I find that very respectful and some of the fans say, yeah,
• 49:58
  I'd like to be alone with her and some say, no, no, you can.
• 50:00
  It's okay but I think I find it important to us the person who's
• 50:04
  for who the cards are going to be red if they're comfortable
• 50:07
  with people being around or not because that's personal and
• 50:10
  everybody will have a different reaction.
• 50:14
  What are drowsing rods? Who dowsing rods.
• 50:19
  Sorry, what are dowsing rods? Who moves them?
• 50:23
  And can anybody use them to get answers?
• 50:26
  Anybody can use them dancing. Rods are Kind of metals.
• 50:33
  Texas and an L shape. The party holding your hand,
• 50:36
  doesn't move and there's something in them.
• 50:39
  This the sticker sort of put in it.
• 50:41
  I don't have them here anyway and it's like a pendulum.
• 50:48
  It works the same way as a pendulum.
• 50:50
  So one thing you have to be aware of is the ideomotor
• 50:53
  phenomenon, which is when you hold your hands still on, you're
• 50:56
  holding a pendulum. You have Micro movements even if
• 50:59
  you look at your hand and it looks as if it's not moving.
• 51:03
  Have Micro movements because we're human.
• 51:05
  So the micro movements are going to give an impulse and then
• 51:09
  that's going to move the pendulum now to use dowsing,
• 51:13
  rods or a pendulum for divination.
• 51:15
  You have to believe in channeling.
• 51:18
  Now, that's a belief system. As I said, we can communicate
• 51:21
  with the spirit realm. That's falls into my belief
• 51:24
  system, it doesn't fall into everybody's belief system, if
• 51:27
  you are somebody who believes that we can Channel, then you
• 51:31
  are somebody who can believe. Even the use of pendulums and
• 51:34
  dowsing rods or any kind of similar tools because I have
• 51:39
  another tool. That's a divination tool that
• 51:41
  has a kind of a long metallic stick with Crystal at the end,
• 51:46
  and that will moves like this or like that, or like this or, you
• 51:49
  know, you have several different ones.
• 51:52
  So, The use them, you have to believe that you can Channel,
• 51:56
  and that the message is coming through you.
• 51:59
  And that, that is what is moving the dowsing rods.
• 52:01
  Now, when I use my dowsing Rod, I am.
• 52:05
  So, as I said earlier, I don't know, I'm not in, I'm not
• 52:09
  religious and I do however, believe in something that could
• 52:15
  be called ancestor worshiping. And I did several past life,
• 52:21
  regressions plus session that Seven hours long of hypnotic
• 52:26
  trance. It was 14.
• 52:28
  And then once three, it was then seven hours in one go, but for
• 52:32
  ours is really long and three hours.
• 52:34
  Well, and which I found a lot of answers in regards to the
• 52:41
  ancestors that I Believe it if if I can say it that way and so
• 52:48
  when I use my dowsing rods I communicate with its my
• 52:54
  great-great-grandmother than I. I ask the questions too and so
• 53:01
  You can use them the dowsing rods, anybody can try them.
• 53:04
  Some people will be very skeptical.
• 53:07
  One story that I really like is I think it was an Ireland.
• 53:11
  There was this old man who had a shop where he sold dowsing.
• 53:14
  Rods and somebody came in a man came and he was very skeptical
• 53:17
  and the old man said find out. No problem.
• 53:19
  Just take these this pair of rods and we're going to go to a
• 53:22
  house was not very far and it's an abandoned house.
• 53:26
  That is said to be haunted. And so, you know, the man kind
• 53:29
  of rolled his eyes and whatever. Her.
• 53:31
  Let's go. He takes the rods and the old
• 53:33
  man said, well, hold them in your hands just before you enter
• 53:37
  the house and just look at how they don't move.
• 53:40
  And the man looks at Throgs and says, I had to, of course, do
• 53:44
  they don't move and then the mat, the old man, says will
• 53:46
  enter a go through the door. The door was open.
• 53:49
  Go through the door and just see what the rods are doing.
• 53:52
  So, the man moves forwards walks through the law and the rods
• 53:55
  cross. And so, he says, okay, yeah,
• 53:58
  I'll try again. So he does it, and it does it
• 53:59
  again, and he says, it's because I'm moving forward.
• 54:02
  So he turns to another Direction moves forward and the rods don't
• 54:06
  cross. And so that and he tried it and
• 54:09
  they were there for like a long time and not going to give a
• 54:12
  timeline but for a long time and then he came back and said,
• 54:14
  okay, you got me. That was an amazing experience.
• 54:18
  Thank you for that and he bought the pair of rods and left.
• 54:22
  So I mean I've had I like to tell that story because it shows
• 54:27
  you that you know, there are vibrations, there are things
• 54:32
  that we don't understand and I don't really uh know I have my A
• 54:37
  nation that I just gave before, which is channeling explanation,
• 54:40
  but they are other ones. And I've had moments.
• 54:47
  For example, in one of my very good friends Garden.
• 54:49
  She has there's grass everywhere, and there's a place
• 54:54
  where the grass is different, and she thought it was in a
• 54:58
  circle and we went with the rods and we determined that it
• 55:01
  wasn't. I'm going to keep the reason why
• 55:03
  this place is important private because I think she liked me
• 55:06
  too, but And we discovered that it wasn't a circle.
• 55:10
  It was another kind of shape with thanks to the rods because
• 55:12
  if the vibration of the plate, so it's a fantastic tool.
• 55:15
  I really recommend trying it, but I do have people that I
• 55:19
  occasionally Mentor who are telling me the rods, don't work
• 55:23
  for me, they do not move. So you know, Interesting, a
• 55:31
  little move on to more like spirituality and paranormal
• 55:35
  questions. Now, when you meet someone, can
• 55:39
  you see there, or do you get a specific Vibes about a person?
• 55:43
  What a person is like as well as their intentions?
• 55:47
  Well, I've spoken about that. A lot of my social media.
• 55:50
  I do see now, that's the same thing.
• 55:52
  I was telling you before, about the synesthesia, good thing.
• 55:54
  I went into that before is that, I, he colors for days for Months
• 55:59
  for the years, for the numbers for the letters, every single
• 56:03
  thing I really even if it's written black-on-white, I have
• 56:06
  colors in it. I can't see it differently.
• 56:09
  And I see colors for people. And the funny thing is,
• 56:11
  sometimes people have a color that doesn't fit with the colour
• 56:15
  of their name and some other people have a color that is very
• 56:19
  coherent with my synesthesia with the colour of their name
• 56:23
  and so, yeah, I do. I see the color of the person
• 56:25
  but it's or has a more like something that is around you.
• 56:28
  And I I have the impression I can see them, but I don't really
• 56:32
  see them, but I don't see anything here and see something
• 56:34
  in front of the person, like, around the heart area.
• 56:38
  And through their sold. I got to ask, do I have one?
• 56:44
  What's mine? Of course?
• 56:47
  Yeah but yeah and actually I was going to say before it's very
• 56:50
  coherent with your name, your colors very coherent with the
• 56:54
  color of your name because Christian is a name that has a
• 56:59
  lot of shiny gold and deep burgundy like wine type of
• 57:04
  color. It has some a lot of black as
• 57:07
  well. And like has a shade like a Halo
• 57:12
  of black around it and it has some brown and some greenish
• 57:19
  shade. And then Reeves is very silvery
• 57:23
  light translucent blue. And it's an a, it's an, a name,
• 57:31
  and a surname that are both very grounded and very floating so
• 57:35
  that quite aligned and is the same type of colors you do.
• 57:38
  Have the golden burgundy glow in your heart plate that I see very
• 57:45
  coherent. Is that is that like a positive
• 57:48
  thing because that suggests I mean because from what you
• 57:50
  explain it to me it sounds maybe overall positive with shades of
• 57:55
  - is that right? The colors have not much to do
• 57:59
  with the personality of the person?
• 58:02
  It's not, it's just the way it is.
• 58:05
  Oh and then I get, of course. The vibe from somebody.
• 58:10
  You know, we all, I mean many people have experienced that
• 58:13
  when you come into a room and you can sense that something's
• 58:15
  wrong, or when you meet someone you feel something's off or on
• 58:18
  the contrary you come into a room and you can feel that.
• 58:20
  Wow, this is super cool. Place to be.
• 58:21
  Or you meet someone and you think?
• 58:23
  Yes, I was supposed to me that person.
• 58:25
  Yeah, so that's that's something completely unrelated to the
• 58:28
  color. It's very okay.
• 58:30
  What's my vibe? Then if I feel that there's
• 58:38
  there's a lot more to you than what you show and it's like I
• 58:43
  can feel a very tormented Soul behind that big smile and those
• 58:48
  very clear and structured explanations that you give to
• 58:52
  your listeners but I can sense that there's something very deep
• 58:56
  and yeah, we can I think one thing I've Begun to change in
• 59:07
  more. Recent years is how open I am on
• 59:10
  with it. Like I think there are certain
• 59:12
  things that you keep to yourself.
• 59:14
  And while I am in the sphere of the public eye and the things
• 59:18
  are put out there and stuff, I think there are always things
• 59:20
  that you have to keep to yourself, but I've always been
• 59:24
  pretty transparent about things. I don't have anything to hide,
• 59:29
  but I think that I don't know if I would use the word torment in
• 59:34
  but I would agree with with the concept of Troubled or battling
• 59:44
  is probably the word I'd use it's like every day.
• 59:47
  Yeah it's I think that that's why things like selling things
• 59:53
  in your soul or in your mind that something being wrong is
• 59:56
  doing absolutely. I mean I feel like things like
• 1:00:00
  this a very positive for me because I meet people from
• 1:00:03
  around the world and they have different life stories and it's
• 1:00:07
  it's different things to share. And Positive, and it's something
• 1:00:10
  that. I think one of the things we're
• 1:00:16
  trying to do in life is find some degree of Peace.
• 1:00:19
  Some sense of purpose. I think I'm still trying to find
• 1:00:22
  that I go back and forth with myself all the time, but I think
• 1:00:28
  now I'm beginning to understand who I am, which is quite a
• 1:00:33
  profound thing because that's about all.
• 1:00:35
  I've always had and many, many years ago.
• 1:00:38
  It used to be people telling me who I was or people setting
• 1:00:42
  limits for who I was and and now I'm at a point where I decide
• 1:00:46
  all of that and I understand that Ego is not a bad thing but
• 1:00:56
  you have to keep it in check. So what does that mean?
• 1:00:59
  Well, you need a certain degree of I would say positively go to
• 1:01:05
  push yourself out there and have the confidence to do things and
• 1:01:08
  get things done, and that will rub people the wrong way.
• 1:01:10
  Sometimes people will think you're arrogant narcissistic,
• 1:01:13
  they'll think you do you think you're better than everyone
• 1:01:17
  excetera and I understand where they're coming from, but it's
• 1:01:20
  all to do with like perspective. You have to believe in yourself
• 1:01:24
  and what you do completely and that's the only way that you
• 1:01:28
  will achieve success in your life and whatever Endeavor.
• 1:01:30
  And I think it applies to everything relationships.
• 1:01:34
  Career friendships, everything sits completely all of those
• 1:01:38
  things and have to be true to yourself you know and and when
• 1:01:43
  you say that you're looking for a sense of peace in your life
• 1:01:46
  and that you're beginning to know who you are, that's
• 1:01:49
  actually a lifelong journey because yes, You never reach the
• 1:01:53
  gold, you never do, and it's okay, not to.
• 1:01:55
  I remember one day asking my mother, a few years back.
• 1:01:59
  So she was in her early 70s, and I was telling her, I lost my
• 1:02:02
  mom. When does it kick in that
• 1:02:04
  sensation of feeling grown up? You know, because that's what
• 1:02:07
  we're aiming for, when you know who you are, when you, you know,
• 1:02:11
  as children, you look at grownups and you have the
• 1:02:13
  impression, they have it all figured out and they know what
• 1:02:15
  they're doing. And I said, when does it kick in
• 1:02:18
  that sensation of feeling grown up?
• 1:02:19
  So, I was already a mother of three and I was asking that to
• 1:02:23
  my more than 70 year old mom and she said, I'm still waiting
• 1:02:33
  getting there because you don't know, bro, but you don't reach
• 1:02:38
  When You Reach. It's finished.
• 1:02:41
  My favorite thing connected with that is the moment where you
• 1:02:46
  know like there's always that moment when you're a teenager or
• 1:02:49
  a young adult where you're like oh I have this real big problem
• 1:02:53
  right now. I need an adult to come help me,
• 1:02:55
  right? And then they'll be a moment,
• 1:02:58
  maybe you'll be on your own, maybe you'll be with other
• 1:03:00
  people and you realize like, oh, you'll ask yourself that
• 1:03:06
  question. You'll be like, I need an adult
• 1:03:08
  to help me right now. And then you'll be like, Oh, I'm
• 1:03:12
  the adult. No.
• 1:03:14
  Oh no. Oh like and and one thing that
• 1:03:18
  splits hit me now. It's you said about how I was
• 1:03:22
  Like a tormented soul and everything.
• 1:03:23
  Like I, I have suffered with self-esteem issues, confidence
• 1:03:27
  issues my whole life and it's only in the last Two or three
• 1:03:35
  years I would say that I've got to a point where I'm comfortable
• 1:03:39
  with myself as a human being as a man, took me years to
• 1:03:44
  understand like what it means to be a man and I think it's
• 1:03:46
  something that you're still always working on and figuring
• 1:03:50
  out just the same as being human, you know, you.
• 1:03:52
  But you do get to decide what it means.
• 1:03:54
  For me, it's a sense of responsibility and and I think
• 1:03:58
  it's what forget about being my. It's more just about like being
• 1:04:02
  an adult like taking 84 things finding the strength in
• 1:04:07
  yourself. Like when and when life presents
• 1:04:09
  you a problem like you don't panic but you feel the anxiety,
• 1:04:12
  your hearts but you just, you can't yourself.
• 1:04:16
  And you're like I can't deal with this.
• 1:04:18
  Every problem has a solution, we will deal with this and it's
• 1:04:23
  amazing for me in my own life to see that change from that
• 1:04:27
  scared. Little boy, to be honest, which
• 1:04:30
  wasn't even that long ago. I'm about to turn 30 now, I
• 1:04:33
  remember being, about 25, 26 and still being clueless and
• 1:04:36
  terrified and now I'm like this man who's been through a bunch
• 1:04:42
  of shit and I find myself giving advice to people.
• 1:04:48
  There will be moments when you'll feel like a Lost Child
• 1:04:52
  again. Oh wait, I have you about to
• 1:04:58
  leave us. No, no.
• 1:05:05
  Can you hear me? I can hear you absolutely fine.
• 1:05:07
  Yeah. Yeah.
• 1:05:08
  There will be moments where you're going to feel like a Lost
• 1:05:11
  Child again and it's okay because you do know big steps
• 1:05:14
  forward. Two steps back one.
• 1:05:16
  Step forward. Three steps back and that's not
• 1:05:17
  a problem is such AA. That's what it is.
• 1:05:20
  You're dancing. A chop shop and life is that
• 1:05:22
  we're dancing life. I love that.
• 1:05:25
  Have you ever met anyone with energy?
• 1:05:28
  So negative that it scared you? Good.
• 1:05:34
  I'm sorry. The thing that's making me
• 1:05:37
  laugh, is the question itself not the exciting.
• 1:05:39
  Imagine The Experience itself is horrible.
• 1:05:42
  But the just the way the question is, like, it just took
• 1:05:46
  through me. It's like, oh like I guess that
• 1:05:49
  happens. Sometimes there's a it scared
• 1:05:51
  me, but I did meet sometimes people where I felt like I was
• 1:05:55
  saying before something was off and I was I didn't want to
• 1:06:00
  engage in any kind of conversation with those I do.
• 1:06:03
  Yeah. And so yes I did.
• 1:06:07
  But it didn't. Scare me.
• 1:06:10
  No, I wasn't scared. There were, I remember, my
• 1:06:15
  friend is a psychic, she's an older woman, she's about in her
• 1:06:20
  mid-50s, I think and sometimes we would show her photographs
• 1:06:27
  with people and from that she was able to ascertain as to
• 1:06:34
  whether or not a person was You know, good or bad per se and
• 1:06:40
  would show a certain photos and she just below.
• 1:06:43
  Don't show this to me, like, this, get this away from me.
• 1:06:45
  Like, this, is this person is, I don't know.
• 1:06:48
  Evil or I don't know, like has bad intentions something like
• 1:06:52
  that, and some of the people that we showed photos to, they
• 1:06:55
  did someone say their evil, but they turned out to be not great
• 1:06:58
  people. But there were, there were some
• 1:07:01
  surprising ones. I remember showing her a picture
• 1:07:03
  of a celebrity who I always Greatly admired and thought was
• 1:07:09
  really really great and she was like this person is hiding evil
• 1:07:13
  and I was like oh my God like and it was a really high profile
• 1:07:17
  actor that everyone's loves very dearly and it it forced me to
• 1:07:22
  kind of look at things like, no matter what a person shows you
• 1:07:28
  on the outside, they could be hiding something.
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  And it's like, the old sayings, go about the idea of the devil,
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  like the devil will come. As your best friend, you know,
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  and can completely betrayed you. So you have to be very careful.
• 1:07:46
  Yeah, so true. So true anyway, so get that the
• 1:07:52
  heebie-jeebies. So you spoke about it a little
• 1:07:55
  bit earlier, but let's go a bit more into intuition.
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  How can we develop our intuition to service better and decisions
• 1:08:03
  we make in our everyday lives? Yeah, I gave that exercise for
• 1:08:08
  the intuition. I don't know of any better
• 1:08:13
  exercise than the one I gave earlier on in the pot, contact
• 1:08:17
  mind that that one is and then I find that if you want to To grow
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  on that path journaling about it, is really good as well,
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  because then you can, you know, come back to how things
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  happened. And you can learn how what
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  patterns you like to use or how you want to function with it.
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  Okay, but deeper one now. Okay.
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  What do you believe happens after death?
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  I don't know. So as I said, one of my past
• 1:08:55
  life had several past life regressions and they were like I
• 1:08:59
  said, mind-blowing experiences and I did that with a woman who
• 1:09:06
  also lives in Switzerland and But we actually did them via
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  Zoom because she lives. She lived too far away from me
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  and I was the person that I recommend for past life
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  regressions, if anybody is interested in that her name is
• 1:09:21
  Sonja Bera. And she's also linked on my, on
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  my pink, in my life out, and in one of the Experiences.
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  I had with her, I was in Ireland and I was just some kind of
• 1:09:38
  young women. I was nobody and I didn't have
• 1:09:41
  any experiences where, you know, I was like, Cleopatra or Julius
• 1:09:45
  Caesar like, people have these experiences where they are the
• 1:09:47
  Virgin Mary. And I know nothing of that kind.
• 1:09:49
  I was always somebody who was very mundane but had very deep
• 1:09:55
  experiences nonetheless. And and I saw myself elf.
• 1:10:02
  Running away from the men in the village who wanted to, you know,
• 1:10:06
  burn me at the stake and going into the sea and trying to swim
• 1:10:11
  to the other side and drowning and I felt myself drowning and
• 1:10:17
  then all of a sudden like I was telling her oh I'm I can see
• 1:10:21
  myself going up. But I don't know where I'm going
• 1:10:24
  and she said just let it follow and there was some kind of
• 1:10:27
  spirit realm. That's what I saw now.
• 1:10:29
  Is that my imagination creating It.
• 1:10:32
  Because I've heard so many stories or is that really as a
• 1:10:36
  matter of fact I went to her and I said, you know, I'm not sure I
• 1:10:39
  believe in past lives so I'm not sure.
• 1:10:41
  I should be doing this and she said it's okay.
• 1:10:43
  Whether it's your imagination or an actual past life doesn't
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  really matter. What counts is what you're going
• 1:10:49
  to get from it. If it's going to help you and
• 1:10:53
  the experience that it's going to give you and the emotions is
• 1:10:56
  going to get, that's what's important.
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  And I said, Okay then if that's how it is I can I can go ahead
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  and have the experience and It was such a mind-blowing
• 1:11:03
  experience that I ended up. Believing it believing in past
• 1:11:08
  lives. But also, because I went to the
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  place because I okay, I have to develop a little bit.
• 1:11:14
  So I had this experience and there was a very clear picture
• 1:11:17
  of the place, so I sort of scribbled it on a paper.
• 1:11:20
  I cannot draw, but I scribbled it.
• 1:11:22
  And I showed my followers, I said, where do you think this
• 1:11:24
  is? I need to find this place and so
• 1:11:27
  everybody was commenting on that video saying.
• 1:11:30
  I think it's though, it could be here, it could be there.
• 1:11:32
  I can do that and I spent months of my evenings on Google Earth,
• 1:11:37
  looking for the places they had told me and I could see now that
• 1:11:41
  doesn't fit because there's not this and that there were so many
• 1:11:43
  details and ended up finding it and it's Brave south of Dublin.
• 1:11:49
  It's a little town, south of Dublin and then all sorts of
• 1:11:56
  details made me understand what period it was in was at the end
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  of the 19th century. And then I went there and I had
• 1:12:05
  never been over there. And I just knew my way around.
• 1:12:10
  I knew the place and there's even this I was looking for a
• 1:12:15
  church with a fountain in front of it, because that's one of the
• 1:12:19
  things I have seen. Now a church with a fountain in
• 1:12:21
  front, it's just, you have so many all over the world.
• 1:12:24
  But in gray, I did not find a touch with a fountain in front
• 1:12:27
  and I thought, you know what, maybe that was wrong and one day
• 1:12:32
  I was with my husband who at the time, was not my husband yet and
• 1:12:37
  I told him let's go. I want to find that church.
• 1:12:40
  I know where it is. On the map.
• 1:12:41
  It doesn't say there's a church but I want to go.
• 1:12:44
  So he says, you know, okay, whatever he was, he had already
• 1:12:47
  followed me all the way he was in me with it, with me in it.
• 1:12:52
  And so, we walk and I arrived at this building and its town hall.
• 1:12:57
  And the building has it looks like a church and it had, you
• 1:13:01
  know, it's very similar to a church.
• 1:13:03
  There's a fountain in front and and now it's a McDonald, I
• 1:13:07
  think. But anyway, your hand or a post
• 1:13:10
  office. I don't remember what it is.
• 1:13:11
  Anyway, and now and I say but there was The market around here
• 1:13:15
  and I feel like the streets are not big enough for the market
• 1:13:18
  that I had seen. And there was a historical panel
• 1:13:23
  and I go, and I look, and it said that in the 19th century,
• 1:13:26
  that's where the market took place.
• 1:13:29
  And so, it was exactly where I knew it was and that, I mean,
• 1:13:35
  lots of examples like that, where I just found my way over
• 1:13:39
  there, and I know that I lived there in the 19th century.
• 1:13:45
  I just know it. I often wonder about the concept
• 1:13:49
  of past lives, like I have no memory or any of everything.
• 1:13:55
  Any of that? I know.
• 1:13:57
  For me as a person. I think I've ever spoken about
• 1:14:00
  this publicly, I feel like I have a deep connection to Europe
• 1:14:05
  for some reason, specifically, Germany and other, I don't know.
• 1:14:11
  I feel like when I was in Estonia, I felt, you know, I
• 1:14:15
  hadn't so cliche to say, but I had essentially A Spiritual
• 1:14:18
  Awakening when I was there. And I've never been able to
• 1:14:23
  shake that idea. Like, as much as I do believe in
• 1:14:25
  the concept of like you Our homeland is part of you and
• 1:14:28
  stuff and that's why I do feel comfortable back in the UK.
• 1:14:32
  At the same time, I feel like part of me is always in Europe
• 1:14:35
  and when I tracked back, my family history on my dad's side,
• 1:14:40
  there's Irish and French family distantly on my mom's side,
• 1:14:43
  nothing just we've been in England since forever, boring,
• 1:14:49
  and I just kind of thought to myself, like, okay, maybe what
• 1:14:52
  I'm feeling is from a past life. Maybe that's what that is
• 1:14:55
  because I can't Understand where this deep connection comes from
• 1:15:00
  and why I feel it and why? It's why it's there, right?
• 1:15:05
  And another thing, I thought a lot about some big Doctor Who
• 1:15:08
  fan and I like the concept of obviously, the Regeneration is
• 1:15:13
  essentially that reincarnation. That's what that's trying to
• 1:15:16
  say. But something that's really
• 1:15:17
  interesting. Two things, one is just how the
• 1:15:21
  character changes each time and the essence of the character is
• 1:15:25
  always the same. But But the personality is
• 1:15:28
  always different. And I remember in one particular
• 1:15:31
  episode as the doctor is about to regenerate into a new doctor,
• 1:15:36
  he comments on how he's talking about human life, but he's
• 1:15:40
  obviously referring to himself as well.
• 1:15:42
  He says that, you know, we are different people for our lives
• 1:15:46
  but we are still that same person at the the core, right?
• 1:15:49
  But we become different things, and that's okay.
• 1:15:52
  Because that's what should happen, you know.
• 1:15:55
  Like, for instance, when I look at Christian, Five, ten years
• 1:15:57
  ago, that's a different person and I recognize that, I remember
• 1:16:00
  how I felt. I remember how I thought, you
• 1:16:02
  know, it's, I can't relate to that person anymore and it's
• 1:16:07
  good that that happened. You know.
• 1:16:09
  Like when you see people you went to school with and they
• 1:16:10
  haven't changed. That's bad.
• 1:16:12
  The, you need to move forward, you can't live in the past you
• 1:16:16
  because time is relative. And it's it's, it's, it's a
• 1:16:19
  moment and it dies and it fleets, and then you move
• 1:16:21
  forward and you can only ever move forward.
• 1:16:25
  Another element to this which I think is more tied to what we're
• 1:16:28
  talking about. Is this idea that like what if
• 1:16:33
  The soul is always the same on its core and each of those lives
• 1:16:37
  is like a different reimagining of that.
• 1:16:40
  Same Soul, exploring a different facet of existence, you know
• 1:16:45
  what I mean? Like, it's when I think about
• 1:16:47
  that concept, I think about this idea that okay, this version
• 1:16:51
  Christian, this will never exist.
• 1:16:53
  Again, this is just one but this idea That in other lives.
• 1:17:00
  I've centrally paid other characters, other parts.
• 1:17:03
  Like it's a different, but I may have approached them in the same
• 1:17:07
  way, because that comes from the soul, Or similar, I don't know.
• 1:17:12
  And that's what grips me. Yeah, I don't really know if I
• 1:17:16
  believe spoiled regards to that. I know that in that seven hours,
• 1:17:22
  long trans, there was also finding your soul family and,
• 1:17:25
  you know, people that you are connected to throughout
• 1:17:28
  different lives and it felt right to me as well.
• 1:17:31
  But I mean, our belief systems, they evolve they change, they
• 1:17:38
  are what they are and the moment and as you said, there's
• 1:17:40
  Versions of you that you've left behind, and that's really good,
• 1:17:44
  but I don't know where they're going to evolve in regards to
• 1:17:48
  past lives. Because I have only had one or
• 1:17:53
  two experiences in past life, regressions.
• 1:17:56
  And I don't feel that I have enough knowledge to really have
• 1:18:00
  a Clear idea of what I think about it, really, I know I
• 1:18:07
  believe in it, that's that's already a huge step for me.
• 1:18:12
  Do you believe in guardian angels?
• 1:18:17
  Well, defined guardian angel, I mean it's it's a bit because it
• 1:18:23
  can mean something very different for each and every one
• 1:18:26
  of us. I as I said, I had to put words
• 1:18:29
  on it. My thing would be ancestor
• 1:18:32
  worshiping. And animism actually, where I
• 1:18:34
  think that there's the Divine in every single thing, like in a
• 1:18:37
  flower in the wind and I'm very afraid of storms because I feel
• 1:18:41
  like we're being told off and, you know, that kind of stuff.
• 1:18:47
  Guardian angels in one way. Yes.
• 1:18:50
  I mean I've because I believe that you can communicate with
• 1:18:52
  your ancestors and they look out for you.
• 1:18:55
  So yes. Do you think that the what got a
• 1:19:00
  good I guess what? The question I'm really asking
• 1:19:02
  there is like, do you think that they're actively watching us at
• 1:19:06
  all times or do you think that that's like a fleeting thing or
• 1:19:09
  something? You have to tap into something
• 1:19:12
  that I've been told? Is that supposedly I have one
• 1:19:15
  watching over me? Me.
• 1:19:16
  And we theorized over the years, that might be my mother's late,
• 1:19:20
  father to my grandfather who I never met, he passed away when
• 1:19:26
  my mother was a teenager. But when I was very, very young,
• 1:19:31
  Two or three years old. There were a few instances where
• 1:19:35
  two in particular one, I was in the house that I grew up in that
• 1:19:41
  we were in for only a few years and in my cot, I got up stood up
• 1:19:47
  and started screaming that there was a man in the corner.
• 1:19:50
  My mom came in, there was no one there and then maybe six months
• 1:19:54
  later around that same time period, we were in a different
• 1:19:58
  house, a house that was noted as Being somewhat haunted, or
• 1:20:03
  something was wrong. There may be bad energy.
• 1:20:05
  I don't know what it was a horrible area anyway.
• 1:20:09
  And in that instance, the door was shut.
• 1:20:13
  So I guess I was a toddler, I could walk around or something
• 1:20:16
  like that, but the door was shut and it wouldn't open and I
• 1:20:21
  apparently was screaming, I felt trapped as if there was someone
• 1:20:25
  in that room, I don't remember either these instances.
• 1:20:28
  I was too young to remember it, but that's what I've been told.
• 1:20:31
  Told and I always theorized that maybe it was my grandfather.
• 1:20:38
  And so I've always thought that Because here's the thing about
• 1:20:42
  my life. I've been through a lot of
• 1:20:44
  horrible things, but at the same time, I've always felt Like I
• 1:20:51
  was somewhat protected like whatever happened there was like
• 1:20:57
  I always kind of landed on my feet in despite of that.
• 1:21:01
  And I've always been very grateful and thankful for that
• 1:21:04
  and I try to just always be continued to be in and try to do
• 1:21:08
  right by others. Like I'm not really religious
• 1:21:10
  like, I go back and forth on where I feel.
• 1:21:13
  But what I feel inside me is that like, I need to do right by
• 1:21:18
  others and do the right thing, you know, tell the truth, be
• 1:21:21
  kind people go out of my way for other people where I can and
• 1:21:26
  stuff and and do my best to be a decent human being not to get a
• 1:21:30
  cover of War. To ought to be rewarded in
• 1:21:33
  another life, but because it's the right thing to do like that,
• 1:21:35
  feel that very intensely, and I feel like, part of that is to
• 1:21:40
  say, thanks for having been protected and over the years and
• 1:21:44
  stuff. I feel like it's part of its
• 1:21:46
  that, but yeah, I've never really been able to ascertain.
• 1:21:51
  What that is, it could just be in my head that could maybe I'm
• 1:21:54
  leaving. Some people who are religious
• 1:22:03
  will be good because they want to get brownie points with God
• 1:22:06
  and be able to go to get into heaven.
• 1:22:07
  I think that's wrong. I think it's more the other way
• 1:22:09
  around and that's what I see an answer to worshipping off
• 1:22:13
  thanking. It's also when you say it
• 1:22:15
  doesn't make sense to be here. You can also be thankful that
• 1:22:18
  all your. Your lineage has brought the
• 1:22:21
  possibility for your life to actually exist, you know?
• 1:22:24
  So so I'm trying to the for the family tree more than points
• 1:22:31
  with some sort of God. Yeah I would just say on a side
• 1:22:36
  note with that. Like if there is a God God Ain't
• 1:22:43
  Gonna Give You brownie points for going to church or whatever.
• 1:22:46
  Like I feel like if there was a God or something like that, they
• 1:22:52
  would look at Who you are, your intentions, how you treat
• 1:22:58
  others? These these are the things that
• 1:22:59
  are important, doesn't matter Ali.
• 1:23:02
  And, you know, the religion is when Elsa spirituality religion,
• 1:23:07
  yes, religion is based on a book and the book is written hundreds
• 1:23:12
  of hundreds of years ago, by some person.
• 1:23:15
  And they're not other people thought, oh, you know what those
• 1:23:17
  rules are cool. And I don't have to think about
• 1:23:18
  my own will, so I'll go by those rules because I agree with them,
• 1:23:21
  and then more and more people got into that and it, Came a
• 1:23:23
  religion. When there's not enough people,
• 1:23:25
  it's called a cult. When there's enough people, it's
• 1:23:27
  called a religion, but they're the same thing.
• 1:23:29
  Somebody else's spirituality and you have to make your own rules
• 1:23:34
  to have your own specialist. Your own ritual, start the
• 1:23:37
  rituals doctor, many traditions, because a tradition is once it
• 1:23:41
  was the first time, somebody said, let's do that.
• 1:23:43
  And then the year after they said, hey remember, we did that
• 1:23:45
  last year, let's do it again and then again and again and becomes
• 1:23:48
  a tradition and then everybody's celebrating Christmas and you
• 1:23:51
  know and it's one time it was Was the first time, it's a pagan
• 1:23:55
  ritual, by the way Christmas. And it was, you know, You have
• 1:24:00
  to be able to start your own, your own Traditions, your own
• 1:24:03
  rituals and find your own way. And I think that's essential,
• 1:24:08
  but so personal. Well, that's very spiritual.
• 1:24:11
  We, we always go for the same thing where he'll pick me up and
• 1:24:16
  we'll have this little drive to where he lives and it's like in
• 1:24:21
  the countryside is really nice and he'll just sit and talk
• 1:24:25
  about everything, religion, spirituality, See all sorts of
• 1:24:29
  stuff and we just go back and forth and back and forth and
• 1:24:32
  back and forth and I liked it. Like I believe I believe in the
• 1:24:35
  same things he does but I just like to play Devil's I couldn't
• 1:24:38
  pick his brain but that well, but what if this, what if you
• 1:24:42
  said, he picks me up. Who's that?
• 1:24:44
  My dad? Okay.
• 1:24:46
  Yeah. It's it's it's just fun to go
• 1:24:49
  back and forth on these conversations, but one of the
• 1:24:52
  things I remember him saying recently, which stood out to me,
• 1:24:55
  was this idea that, you know, if you do believe in God, Then this
• 1:24:59
  idea that like, you know, the house is my church, the outside
• 1:25:05
  is my church, you know, this this concept that it's you can
• 1:25:08
  be anywhere and have that connection and as you said
• 1:25:10
  earlier, it's a very personal one and you know, I think that
• 1:25:17
  no one should be told that their own belief system is wrong.
• 1:25:19
  I think it's just kind of like it's the most important thing to
• 1:25:23
  pay attention to is is like how are you?
• 1:25:27
  Doing by others. How are you giving to this world
• 1:25:31
  and then taking from this? Well, what do you do?
• 1:25:33
  What's your impact? Like you know, that's what's
• 1:25:35
  important. Yeah, right.
• 1:25:37
  Yeah, it is important. Yeah, what's the best advice
• 1:25:40
  you've ever received I hate that question.
• 1:25:45
  It's like what's your so that because Because first, I have
• 1:25:52
  all these ideas that come into my mind and I can't they're all
• 1:25:56
  fighting to be me. Me me me, and then afterwards
• 1:25:58
  there's so much like noise that I might send everyone out of the
• 1:26:04
  room and now I'm My head goes black, this two things with that
• 1:26:10
  question that I I know. I never Prime anyone for that
• 1:26:13
  question and there's a reason for that.
• 1:26:17
  The reason is Because I've had people ask me the same question
• 1:26:21
  as well and I would just say the first thing that comes to me
• 1:26:23
  because I feel that the first thing is the right thing because
• 1:26:26
  the reality is, we've been given a lot of advice in our lives.
• 1:26:29
  But I like to ask that question because it's like, What's the
• 1:26:34
  best advice that connects for you?
• 1:26:37
  The feels right fit that you when you heard that you're like
• 1:26:41
  yeah. No, still, no answer, you know,
• 1:26:45
  I think that I'm so I'm going to be 49 this year.
• 1:26:49
  And I mean, in 49 years of life, you hear a lot of advice as you
• 1:26:53
  said, I can't choose another words some good apologize.
• 1:27:02
  It's fine, it's fine. It's it's a difficult question
• 1:27:05
  to answer. I also hate it as well.
• 1:27:08
  Even though I asked all my guests because low when I was
• 1:27:12
  first asked, it was like the tables have turned.
• 1:27:15
  And I think I said the first thing that came to mind that it
• 1:27:19
  was it was it was, you know, it was something that I was
• 1:27:23
  genuinely good advice. But whenever you get asked that
• 1:27:26
  you kind of want to say like Like the thing like this is,
• 1:27:29
  this is the advice you need to go by.
• 1:27:31
  This is what works for me. And it's like, you know what?
• 1:27:36
  One thing that's very important is to stop worrying about what
• 1:27:38
  people think about you, because people are actually no offense,
• 1:27:41
  not thinking about you. People are worried about what
• 1:27:44
  people are thinking about them. So they'll spend like a fraction
• 1:27:46
  of a second thinking about you, and then they'll go back to
• 1:27:49
  being worried about what people think about them.
• 1:27:50
  So, don't give it too much importance and that will set you
• 1:27:54
  free in life. So that's an important one.
• 1:27:56
  It's not the best, but it's one of Best.
• 1:27:57
  It's in the top ten, right? You're gonna hate me.
• 1:28:01
  What's the biggest life lesson you've learned so far?
• 1:28:07
  Sorry. this one's, this one's much more personal because this
• 1:28:15
  is like, You're like, this is not any something that someone's
• 1:28:20
  communicate. This is just throughout the
• 1:28:22
  years of you living on this planet and you for everything
• 1:28:25
  you've gone through. What's the biggest thing that
• 1:28:27
  stands out that you've learned? I think that being forgiving
• 1:28:34
  with yourself is something that I had to learn throughout the
• 1:28:37
  years and releasing the past versions of you and accepting to
• 1:28:42
  move forward. I mean, the biggest life lesson
• 1:28:48
  is, Being as kind as you can to yourself, that was something I
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  had to learn. Beautiful.
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  And I want to say a massive, thank you for being on the show.
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  It's been an absolute pleasure. And my final question to you is,
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  do you have any upcoming projects or some final thoughts
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  that you'd like to share with our listeners upcoming projects,
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  upcoming projects? Musical ones?
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  But I'm not sure what's place to speak about that.
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  Plus, it's going to be very, geneva-based you absolutely can.
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  Thing that is relatively new. It's not I'm coming but it's new
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  as my patreon that I've created recently and that I absolutely
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  am very thankful for the promotion.
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  I can do on here for my patreon which is and has several
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  different subscriptions and it's all also linked on my social
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  media. It's always been a center
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  iPhone, whatever social media platform, actually I chose that
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  because at the time, my daughters had Instagram and they
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  were very young teenagers and I thought, you know what, I have
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  to go check what's going on. Surround.
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  And when I had to use to choose a username, I said, okay, I'm
• 1:30:02
  Vanessa I don't want to put my my last name and I want to what
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  am I going to post on here? I want to post pictures that I
• 1:30:09
  take with my iPhone. So it's Vanessa and her iPhone
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  and so that became my first social media user name on it.
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  I kept it. So that's why and people
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  sometimes think it's her right. Funny, like, you know, some kind
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  of Greek Goddess that they couldn't.
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  They who's that, her iPhone. In the asked me, can you tell us
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  about that? God.
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  God, what God is Horizon ELO? It's for iPhones more basic than
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  you thought. Sorry about the disappointment
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  anyway. But yeah, so the patron is the
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  latest one that I'm very excited about.
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  Absolutely fantastic. Oh, and I'll include those links
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  in the show notes and best of luck but that the podcast as
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  well because it's fun to listen to It's about past lives and you
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  can if you want to also include Sonia Bureau which is the woman
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  who I did the regression weapon, I recommend her highly
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  everybody. I sent to her came back mind
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  blown. Well thank you for having me
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  because I was not sure. Woke up this morning.
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  If I was going to be capable with what I'm going through.
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  And because with the passing of my mother last Tuesday, plus
• 1:31:20
  I've had sort of my life exploded at the same time, for
• 1:31:23
  all sorts of different reasons that I'm not going to go into.
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  But so it's kind of a nightmare right now and this was a little
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  bubble of of loveliness. So thank you for that.
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  It means a lot. It came at the means a lot.
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  That means a lot to hear. I'm glad I could bring you some
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  positivity at this time. And yeah, I wish you the very
• 1:31:43
  best. You take care of yourself and
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  thank you so much for being on the show.
• 1:31:48
  It's been a real pleasure. Thank you to all the listeners
• 1:31:52
  of the Christian re podcast, as always be safe.
• 1:31:54
  Be well, and I'll see you in the next one.
• 1:31:41
  And yeah, I wish you the very best.
• 1:31:44
  You take care of yourself and thank you so much for being on
• 1:31:47
  the show. It's been a real pleasure.
• 1:31:49
  Thank you to all the listeners of the Christian re podcast, as
• 1:31:53
  always be safe. Be well, and I'll see you in the
• 1:31:56
  next one.