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You’re Not Waiting… You’re Forcing It | EP151 · Jess Ask

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Speaker 1: Yo, it's your girl, Jessica as Smith, and you already
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Speaker 1: know that you've entered the safe space for influencers to decompress,
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Speaker 1: about to get real, So be sure to show your
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Speaker 1: girl the love and like coming subscribe God for another day.
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Speaker 2: Hey, hey, I know we could be another way.
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Speaker 3: It's a new weekend, just as the podcast the safe
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Speaker 3: space where transparency meets transformation. I'm your girl, Jessica as Smith,
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Speaker 3: and I do nothing without my girl. That's all right,
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Speaker 3: that's all right, that's all right, that's all right, that's right,
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Speaker 3: that's all right, that's all right. High girl, girl like
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Speaker 3: being on this side, even though I don't like to
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Speaker 3: be on this side because I don't have camera frame
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Speaker 3: and issues. Sometimes when Desiray is over there at the
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Speaker 3: computer doing the podcast show, she don't know what she
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Speaker 3: replaced at because I'm like, girl, girl, what you find me? Though,
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Speaker 3: I have to be the producer at this point, I
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Speaker 3: have to be the technology. How you're doing? I'm good?
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Speaker 3: You know you ain't talked to me and like, what
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Speaker 3: about you? We talk almost every day, innocent in some
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Speaker 3: shape form of fashion. We may not have seen like
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Speaker 3: seeing each other, but we communicate at least some in
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Speaker 3: some shape form of fashion, at least every day and
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Speaker 3: not every other day. I don't I don't think that's
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Speaker 3: at least just h I was telling DESI raight when
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Speaker 3: she finally, you know, gets gets married, I'm going to
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Speaker 3: have a struggle because if I don't see her for
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Speaker 3: like I said, I don't think we can go two
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Speaker 3: weeks without seeing each other because I'm starting to itch.
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Speaker 3: That's you know, people that are addicted. I can't say
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Speaker 3: what I want to say, but you know they do this,
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Speaker 3: they say they do this. I was doing this real bad.
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Speaker 3: Where's so? So? Like I said, we communicate, but I
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Speaker 3: guess it's it's certain certain stuff. She was like, oh,
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Speaker 3: you missed me home. I was like, I was just
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Speaker 3: I mean, I do, but dang, goy geche listen. I
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Speaker 3: was about to say, when you're going to ask me
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Speaker 3: how he was flowing? When are you gonna ask me
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Speaker 3: how you doing this? I'm actually good. So you know,
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Speaker 3: I've been healing and stuff right, and so in this
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Speaker 3: healing journey, like I've learned how much more patient I've become.
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Speaker 3: I was just with myself, but with the Lord. And
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Speaker 3: so uh, today's topic is to uh attack those impatient people.
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Speaker 3: And I don't say. Maybe attack is not the best word,
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Speaker 3: but I'm coming, we coming. Yeah, thank you? Was Batman
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Speaker 3: Roman robbing Holy sake, fill with the Holy Spirit. It's
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Speaker 3: coming from the country. But no, it's the question that
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Speaker 3: we're answering. Remember, we're always gonna answer. When you see
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Speaker 3: me in Desiree and you see this Bible app I
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Speaker 3: mean Bible out, ye, get the Bible app. When you
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Speaker 3: see this Bible out, just know we're answering a question
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Speaker 3: and it's gonna come right from the Bible. Okay. The
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Speaker 3: question that we're answering today, what are you rushing for?
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Speaker 3: What are you rushing for? What are you rushing for? Desiree?
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Speaker 3: When is the last time you were in a rush?
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Speaker 3: Mm hmm probably yesterday? Why? In a sense, so like
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Speaker 3: I had an event in the evening, but there were
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Speaker 3: other things that happened to happen throughout the day, and
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Speaker 3: I just kind of wasn't very Uh, I wasn't very expedition.
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Speaker 3: She's what the things I had to do at home.
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Speaker 3: So then when I looked at the time, I was like,
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Speaker 3: oh no, and because I was rushing to get myself
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Speaker 3: going out the door. I love some stuff. Okay, so
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Speaker 3: you weren't prepared, that's why you were rushing. Won't say
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Speaker 3: I wasn't prepared.
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Speaker 1: I was.
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Speaker 3: I I didn't do it my time. Well, okay, I
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Speaker 3: can say that. I can say that for me too. Uh.
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Speaker 3: Mine was probably last Sunday, Lord, because you know, I'm
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Speaker 3: on the media team and I'm on the worship team,
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Speaker 3: and so if I'm not done with something regarding the
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Speaker 3: media team, I'll get up early in the morning and
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Speaker 3: finish it, email it to us so I can download it.
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Speaker 3: So sometimes it takes longer than what I expect, or
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Speaker 3: because I am the perfectionist that I am in my mind. Oh,
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Speaker 3: they can't go right there? Da da da da da.
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Speaker 3: Even though the men, the men and women of God
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Speaker 3: enjoyed the uh the outcome of me being detailed, I
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Speaker 3: was still late for sound Chick, and you can't do that.
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Speaker 3: So either I needed to get up really early or
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Speaker 3: I just needed to sacrifice some sleep. And lately I've
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Speaker 3: just been so tired. But this came up because outside
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Speaker 3: of things like that, like maybe not discerning the time
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Speaker 3: as well. My response to God has been different as
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Speaker 3: far as with me doing certain things. So I lost
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Speaker 3: my wallet, Well I thought I lost my wallet, but
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Speaker 3: I'm gonna say I misplaced my wallet, but I thought
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Speaker 3: it was lost right the other day. So let's just
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Speaker 3: say it was a Thursday. I went to the grocery
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Speaker 3: store because I'm trying to eat healthier. Y'all. Shout out
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Speaker 3: to the safe space community because we are on this
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Speaker 3: health challenge right now. We're getting getting fitting fine baby
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Speaker 3: come summer tack all right outside on the beach in
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Speaker 3: Mississippi in June, so all of us try to be
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Speaker 3: kill you, all right. So I lost my wallet, and
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Speaker 3: I didn't realize I lost my wallet until I was
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Speaker 3: looking for it to try to go get some something
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Speaker 3: I wasn't supposed to be even again, chick for Like. Oh,
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Speaker 3: I was trying to get some chick for like because
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Speaker 3: it just opened back up on Robot Parkway. Yeah, they
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Speaker 3: got a new building and they got new people working
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Speaker 3: there too, you can tell, yeah, they I was trying
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Speaker 3: to go and my wallet wasn't with me, and so
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Speaker 3: when I realized, I said, you know what, I probably
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Speaker 3: just left it on my desk, went home. It wasn't
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Speaker 3: on my desk, all right. So it's day one, like Friday,
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Speaker 3: Thursday to Friday, all right. Then I remember I didn't
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Speaker 3: think about it anymore until I needed to go to
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Speaker 3: an event the next day. So I'm at Friday night
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Speaker 3: at this point and I'm like, I'm just looking for it.
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Speaker 3: I'm just looking for it, and I'm like, God, where
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Speaker 3: can it be? Where was I last last Where was
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Speaker 3: I last scene with it? I was like, okay, I
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Speaker 3: must have left it at Marinos, like, because that's why
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Speaker 3: I shop. I like to shop at Marinos. They real
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Speaker 3: nice at the Marinos on the West Side. It's the
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Speaker 3: grocery store locally, So I'm thinking I left it there,
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Speaker 3: and I was like, well, no one is. I know,
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Speaker 3: no one's taking it because I have even got any
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Speaker 3: crazy charges, right, It's but there's a crazy peace to
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Speaker 3: it because I keep it, like I keep saying, God,
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Speaker 3: just you know you're gonna let my wallet show up, please,
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Speaker 3: you know, give me, you know, backtrack my steps for
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Speaker 3: me in mind. That's where I got the Marinos from.
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Speaker 3: So when I thought about it, I said, I must
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Speaker 3: have put in that Marinos bag. Now, luckily, I'm the
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Speaker 3: type that don't don't normally throw away every plans to
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Speaker 3: bag every one of them, but I recycle now. So
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Speaker 3: I need those bags. And just in case somebody needs
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Speaker 3: to take us to go play something or I need
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Speaker 3: a you know, you justly have to have a bag.
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Speaker 3: I get it for my daddy. So just be quack,
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Speaker 3: just be craig. So I thought the wallet was gonna
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Speaker 3: be in the morenos Bad right. Well, when I go
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Speaker 3: to that bag, it's not there. So I just I laugh.
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Speaker 3: At this point, I said, you know what, Lord, it
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Speaker 3: must be at Morinos. It must I'm about to go,
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Speaker 3: I said, it must be at Morinos. I worry about
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Speaker 3: it in the morning. They must have it. How many
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Speaker 3: days has been at this point, it's about to go.
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Speaker 3: It's about to go into the third day, okay. And
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Speaker 3: I put my pajamas on and I get the more
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Speaker 3: were about to go to the bed, and I moved,
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Speaker 3: I adjust my pillow. My wallet is between my pillow
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Speaker 3: and my two pillows. I sleep with two pillows. My
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Speaker 3: wallet is on top of the pillow that's on the
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Speaker 3: on the bed, and I just I burst out laughing.
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Speaker 3: That's a ray. I burst out laughing. Because I was
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Speaker 3: weak that why would my my wallet be on my pill?
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Speaker 3: Why did I I can't. I don't even remember playing
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Speaker 3: it right there, and I've slept. I slept on my wallet,
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Speaker 3: the first thing of me not having my wallet and so,
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Speaker 3: but it was after I was like, you know what,
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Speaker 3: I'll just I'll call Marinos tomorrow. I'm I'm worried about
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Speaker 3: it tomorrow or think about it tomorrow. I literally laughed
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Speaker 3: because I thought two things. I said, One, why did
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Speaker 3: I put this here? Two I'm so glad I was
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Speaker 3: not anxious in trying to find it. I'm so glad
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Speaker 3: that I wasn't trying to rush God into something that
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Speaker 3: he just wanted me to trust to me. Yeah, so funny,
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Speaker 3: funny story. Now that we're talking about losing things similar,
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Speaker 3: it's like a it's a certain level of peace that
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Speaker 3: you get when you've when you've developed relationship and trust
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Speaker 3: with the Lord. That's good. So I lost my business
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Speaker 3: debit card two weeks ago. It's been two week right, luckily,
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Speaker 3: because the way I kind of structure my accounts, this
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Speaker 3: wasn't a card that I this is not an expense cards.
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Speaker 3: It's my uh income, car income. It's the the account
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Speaker 3: that I used for income. This was a debit card
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Speaker 3: for that. So it's not that I use it that often,
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Speaker 3: but I think I may have used it for something, apparently,
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Speaker 3: because in my mind when i'm because I misplaced things
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Speaker 3: sometimes I've been trying to put things back in a
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Speaker 3: certain place, so I know that where it is. So
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Speaker 3: in my wallet, I have my cards, my business cards
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Speaker 3: in a certain area in my wallet, and then my
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Speaker 3: personal cards in another area, so I know when I
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Speaker 3: didn't see it there, it had to be somewhere, and
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Speaker 3: I'm thinking, maybe it's in a pocket, jacket pocket or
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Speaker 3: its some pants pocket. And I said, Lord, I don't
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Speaker 3: know where it's at. But I had been watching the
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Speaker 3: bank account. Ain't no ain't no charges or nothing happened.
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Speaker 3: So I said, it's somewher right here, somewhere. I ain't
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Speaker 3: evenna look for it. I ain't even look for it.
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Speaker 3: So it's been literally missing for almost two weeks until
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Speaker 3: on Thursday this past Thursday, I decided to go knock
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Speaker 3: the pollen in the tree particles off the car were
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Speaker 3: talking on the phone. I was in the car wash,
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Speaker 3: so go through the car wash, and this is the
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Speaker 3: funny thing. So the last time I went through the
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Speaker 3: car wash, I was looking for the armorole to wipe
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Speaker 3: off the dashboard so randomly. I don't know what I
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Speaker 3: was doing. I remember the Holy Spirit showed me that
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Speaker 3: the bottle. The bottle was actually under the chair. I
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Speaker 3: was like, oh, yeah, the Armoroh under the chair right
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Speaker 3: the seat, the driver's side seat. So I opened the
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Speaker 3: door and I go to the back and I look
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Speaker 3: under the seat, and guess what's under the seat? You
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Speaker 3: did my deadbit called it had been two weeks. I
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Speaker 3: would have had no reason. I didn't even look under
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Speaker 3: the seat, in the under my seat, in my chair.
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Speaker 3: But I was like, Lord, there's a debit car right.
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Speaker 3: And the funny thing is he probably could have filed
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Speaker 3: that to me earlier, you know what I'm saying. But
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Speaker 3: I'm just like and it was a moment of reflection
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Speaker 3: as you reflected like man like before, I probably would
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Speaker 3: have been very anxious. I would have been worried. I've
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Speaker 3: been like, oh my gosh, I didn't even cancel the car,
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Speaker 3: Like I had so much peace that I would find
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Speaker 3: that car. I didn't even try to cancel it. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: And that was my biggest thing too, because I've lost
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Speaker 3: my my debit card before and nobody knew it was.
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Speaker 3: It was probably just misplaced and I never found it.
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Speaker 3: Watched this because I went ahead and resolved it myself. Right,
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Speaker 3: So there's two things in it. It's like, okay, are
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Speaker 3: you waiting, but are you waiting long enough for the resolution? Nope?
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Speaker 3: And sometimes and we're talking about practical things day to
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Speaker 3: day things like just simply asking the Lord, Hey, where
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Speaker 3: did I put this? What did I do with this?
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Speaker 3: What do you want me to do? Like being in
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Speaker 3: that type of habit will give you different type of results,
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Speaker 3: Like we limit God on what he can do for
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Speaker 3: us because we're like, you know what, God doesn't care
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Speaker 3: about that. God doesn't you know? Or he's taking too long,
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Speaker 3: he's taking too long, taking too long? What? Like how
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Speaker 3: much fun was it for me to laugh with the
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Speaker 3: Lord about finding my wallet? Because I said, Lord, I
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Speaker 3: know you not telling me that I was sleeping on
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Speaker 3: the money, Like what Okay? I was like it was
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Speaker 3: just beyond me. And so while I'm having this conversation
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Speaker 3: with him regarding this, he just kind of reflecting on
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Speaker 3: where I've come from. Is it the the idea of
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Speaker 3: being anxious for nothing came up, but also Day that way, Yeah,
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Speaker 3: it had there's a reward for Day that way. And
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Speaker 3: so today we're coming from Isaiah forty. Y'all, we're coming
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Speaker 3: from Isaiah forty, and I'm gonna start at the infamous scripture.
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Speaker 3: I'm actually gonna start at the twenty eight verse. Okay,
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Speaker 3: Isaiah forty, the twenty eight verse, you know where in
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Speaker 3: the Christians stand a version, And we might hit some
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Speaker 3: of these because I really feel like the Lord is
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Speaker 3: just gonna flow right here. But we're gonna start with this,
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Speaker 3: he says, do you not know? Have you not heard?
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Speaker 3: The Lord is the everlasting God. Come on now, the
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Speaker 3: creator of the whole earth. He never becomes faint or weary.
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Speaker 3: There is no limits to his understanding. He gives strength
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Speaker 3: to the faint and strengthens the powerless. Thirty says. Youths
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Speaker 3: may become faint and weary, and young men stumble and fall,
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Speaker 3: but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength.
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Speaker 3: Come on, they will soar on wings like eagles, and
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Speaker 3: they will run and not become weary. They will walk
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Speaker 3: and not faint. Okay, So I want us to look
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Speaker 3: at something. We say that they that wait on the
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Speaker 3: Lord shall renew their strength. Okay, so in order to
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Speaker 3: get renewed strength, you gotta what wait? And I really
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Speaker 3: think we missed that part. My strength was renewed in God,
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Speaker 3: and not only my strength, my trust was renewed in
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Speaker 3: God because I waited on God to show me where
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Speaker 3: my wallet was. Yep, we want God to do these
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Speaker 3: grandose things. Lord, Thank you Holy Spirit. I've been waiting
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Speaker 3: for God to heal my daddy.
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Speaker 1: WHOA.
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Speaker 3: I've been waiting on God to say cancer free for
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Speaker 3: my daddy. I've been waiting on God to, you know,
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Speaker 3: tell us that he won't ever have to worry about
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Speaker 3: the KMO anymore because he's healed on this side of earth.
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Speaker 3: I've been waiting on net since twenty twenty two. October
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Speaker 3: twenty twenty two is when we originally found the tumors. Okay,
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Speaker 3: we've been waiting for about four years now. And how
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Speaker 3: it's like I've become when people ask me how he's
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Speaker 3: doing my dad, I've becomes like, you know, he's good.
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Speaker 3: I have faith in it because I've been seeing my
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Speaker 3: dad wait while he has waited. He's trusted God even more.
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Speaker 3: His strength has been renewed. Oh your your daddy looked
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Speaker 3: good for you know, to have this cancer. Your daddy
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Speaker 3: look he's doing well. Your daddy moving like my dad
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Speaker 3: is still moving like he is a fully healthy Man's
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Speaker 3: nothing wrong with him, all right. And sometimes we have
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Speaker 3: to get on him for that. Daddy, you know, you
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Speaker 3: gotta have your liquors, you know what I'm saying. But
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Speaker 3: he's moving like, not not out of the spy being
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Speaker 3: spiteful or not because he's trying to hurry up and
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Speaker 3: do something because he don't think he's gonna live. He's
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Speaker 3: moving because he trusts in God. And so it's almost
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Speaker 3: like if I can't trust God for to help me
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Speaker 3: find my wallet, what else will I not be able
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Speaker 3: to trust God for? I think we when we don't
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Speaker 3: have a revelation or a space of relationship with the Lord,
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Speaker 3: we'll we'll begin to look at him like this big
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Speaker 3: God over here, that only that's only interested in doing
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Speaker 3: the big things. That's so good, you know what I'm saying,
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Speaker 3: Like he's only interested in you know, the miracles and
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Speaker 3: signs and the ones. But why wouldn't he, as your father,
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Speaker 3: your abba, be concerned about Hey, my daughter lost to wallet.
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Speaker 3: I know she you know, or Hey, you know what
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Speaker 3: I see you, I see this need. Don't worry. The
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Speaker 3: need is covered. Like the little small things like those
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Speaker 3: are the things that I honestly get really excited about
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Speaker 3: when they happen, because I'm like, ah, he's like he
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Speaker 3: really cares. Sometimes we think God is out of reach
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Speaker 3: for us, and so much so I heard the Lord
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Speaker 3: say when you were talking, I heard these expiry say,
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Speaker 3: this is the reason why idols get to creep in
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Speaker 3: because we don't think that God cares about every intricate
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Speaker 3: d kay to tell because what's the point of an
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Speaker 3: idol if we have a God that can do everything.
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Speaker 3: Let me tell y'all, let me tell you this story.
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Speaker 3: It's a funny story. Funny story kindisorder. But this is
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Speaker 3: just how much I love the Holy Spirit, right and
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Speaker 3: I and I'm getting more and and I'm and I've
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Speaker 3: been noticing as I've become more open with talking to
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Speaker 3: him and just actually like doing relationship like so this
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Speaker 3: is real talk. One night, this was probably about a
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Speaker 3: week or two, about a week ago. This is last weekend. Actually,
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Speaker 3: I had went to church oh East the weekend, went
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Speaker 3: to church. On my way home, I began to listen
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Speaker 3: to Apostle Jostle Giles. They started doing like an all
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Speaker 3: night prayer. I love situation, right, I got to see
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Speaker 3: him in person. Yes, so start tapping in. You know,
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Speaker 3: at this point they're doing this panel thing. I make
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Speaker 3: it home, get ready for the bed, and I'm sitting
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Speaker 3: on the couch. Okay, sitting on the couch, and you know,
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Speaker 3: I'm listening in and I'm tapped in and all things,
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Speaker 3: but I'm kind of getting a little sleepy. So I
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Speaker 3: literally go like this. Now keep in mind, it's a
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Speaker 3: light on, but the light's not like super bright or anything,
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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, And it's just me in
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Speaker 3: the in the space. So I'm getting ready and I
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Speaker 3: literally go like this. I think I was like motioning
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Speaker 3: like this and literally in my hand with my ah
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Speaker 3: and it landed on a creature in the room. Like
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Speaker 3: when I say like literally, it was like the Holy
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Speaker 3: Spirit was like look, and I was like, it was
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Speaker 3: a frog in the house. Yes, it was a frog
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Speaker 3: in the house. And I would have never saw the frog.
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Speaker 3: At least the Holy Spirit highlighted the frog to me. Okay,
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Speaker 3: So stuff like that happens often where you know, we're
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Speaker 3: just doing life and we just think like, oh, when
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Speaker 3: you say like he looked out for danger, not the
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Speaker 3: frog ain't dangerous. But you know I don't. I don't
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Speaker 3: do stuff like that. I don't do the creature's child.
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Speaker 3: So me and a frog we had an interesting night
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Speaker 3: because what had happened was I'm just telling the story
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Speaker 3: just because I can talk. This is how I've been
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Speaker 3: talking to the Lord. So the Holy Spear shows me
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Speaker 3: the frog, and I'm like, oh man, thank you for
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Speaker 3: showing me the frogs Now, I ain't finna go get it,
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Speaker 3: mister Regin, and I helped me to call him to
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Speaker 3: come and get this frog. So we fallow a little bit.
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Speaker 3: I shot him a little bit with a wall spray
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Speaker 3: because you know, I learned that from my mama. My
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Speaker 3: mama don't like lizards, so and she also live in
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Speaker 3: the woods, so every time she leave the house, she
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Speaker 3: take a can of wall spray just because you see
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Speaker 3: a little lizard, you know, you pop a little bit
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Speaker 3: and he's just gone by the business. Okay. So that's
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Speaker 3: what I thought. The frog was gonna doping, was gonna
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Speaker 3: going back to being, So I sprayed it and he
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Speaker 3: moved and looked like he started hopping towards me. So
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Speaker 3: I sprayed him again to shoot him towards something. So
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Speaker 3: then I'm like, you know what, hey, as long as
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Speaker 3: you're over there money of business, i'm'a mind my business.
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Speaker 3: I ended up falling asleep during the prayer. So it's
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Speaker 3: about twelve o'clock, right, I'm sleep. I fall asleep on
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Speaker 3: the couch. Why, I felt like someone was on my
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Speaker 3: head and I went like this, right, and I shine
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Speaker 3: my phone. Guess what I see on the floor. Good,
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Speaker 3: it's the frog. Why rob my Son, you started hold up?
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Speaker 3: You started speaking? He he messing with the wrong person.
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Speaker 3: I try to give you space to be over that
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Speaker 3: mind of your business, okay, But I tried to give
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Speaker 3: you space to stay over there in mind your business.
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Speaker 3: Now you done came over here in my territory. Now
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Speaker 3: I'm gonna have to let you know you're on the
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Speaker 3: wrong place. But what it did though, like that was
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Speaker 3: about two o'clock. So I stayed up till like five
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Speaker 3: and prayed with the people on the prayer line. But
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Speaker 3: when I turned the light, I ain't see the progm
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Speaker 3: no more. So I set out had to say, okay,
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Speaker 3: because we can journey, we can journey with the Holy Spirit.
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Speaker 3: The Lord is concerned about everything. He knows I don't
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Speaker 3: like stuff like that, so he had to show me
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Speaker 3: and we even though it did turn out as according
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Speaker 3: to plan, but he still let me know that I
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Speaker 3: was I made you aware that the frog was. I
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Speaker 3: know I was gonna be fighting with the frog and
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Speaker 3: fighting the spirit that night. But all the things, no
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Speaker 3: frogs were harmed during the taping of this video, I promise, Okay,
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Speaker 3: that's a ray, thank you for story. But the cares.
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Speaker 3: The Lord definitely care everything and people. I think we
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Speaker 3: mismanaged that. And even going back to the idea of
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Speaker 3: how the ways idols can be created, right, we feel
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Speaker 3: there's a gap right that we think that's there or
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Speaker 3: that might be there because we haven't filed it properly.
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Speaker 3: Right and earlier I was reading this scripture and does
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Speaker 3: a ray asked me while I was laughing, And that's
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Speaker 3: what the Lord had brought up. It says on verse eighteen,
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Speaker 3: No yeah. Verse Starting in verse eighteen and nineteen, it says,
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Speaker 3: with whom will you compare God? What likeness will you
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Speaker 3: set up for him for comparison with him? An idle
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Speaker 3: something that is a smelter, a smelter cast and a
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Speaker 3: metal worker plates with gold and makes silver chains for
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Speaker 3: I'm gonna say retwenty. A poor person contributes wood for
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Speaker 3: a pedestal that will not rit He looks for a
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Speaker 3: skilled craftsman to set up an idol that will not
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Speaker 3: fall over. I guess I need to keep reading. Do
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Speaker 3: you not know? Have you not heard? Has it not
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Speaker 3: been declared to you from the beginning? Have you not
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Speaker 3: considered the foundations of the earth? First one and two
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Speaker 3: says God is enthroned above the circle of the earth.
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Speaker 3: Its inhabitants are like grasshoppers. He sketches out the heavens
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Speaker 3: like a thin cloth and spreads them out like a
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Speaker 3: tent to live in them, so and in so much.
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Speaker 3: In in Jessica form desiree y'all, he like, who who
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Speaker 3: are you gonna compare me to? Who are you gonna
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Speaker 3: replace me with the thing that you gotta make? But
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Speaker 3: I made you and it I created all like I
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Speaker 3: am the creator. This part where it says the NLT
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Speaker 3: version right here on twenty one NLT says haven't you heard?
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Speaker 3: Don't you understand? Are you deaf to the words of God?
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Speaker 3: The words he gave before the world began? Are you
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Speaker 3: so ignorant? Like? Are you who you're playing with? Who
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Speaker 3: you read what it says for twenty two? In yours?
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Speaker 3: God sits above the circle of the earth. The people
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Speaker 3: below seem like grasshoppers to him. And what else? Oh,
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Speaker 3: he spreads out the heavens like a curtain and makes
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Speaker 3: his tint from them. I don't know why this ain't
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Speaker 3: fun of y'all, he said, he said, I'm your I
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Speaker 3: look at the earth. I can spread a curtain around
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Speaker 3: what y'all got doing. So you mean to tell me
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Speaker 3: that you're gonna replace me with some else. You're gonna
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Speaker 3: replace worry with me, you gonna replace stress with me,
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Speaker 3: You're gonna replace pride with me. And I'm telling you
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Speaker 3: that I got control over all of this, and you're
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Speaker 3: not trusting me in this process, and so you're rushing
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Speaker 3: yourself into a rut. You're rushing yourself into something that
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Speaker 3: you're gonna ask me to fix later. That's the thing
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Speaker 3: about us, desert raate, like we will say, you know what, Lord,
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Speaker 3: I trust you to do this, but then start doing
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Speaker 3: stuff and then we were like, well, Lord, why you
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Speaker 3: let me? Well you didn't even give me time to
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Speaker 3: do what you asked me to do, Like you didn't
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Speaker 3: even give me time to say yes or no. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: you got off the altar and said, you know what,
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Speaker 3: I'm about to strategize. Some of us so smart. Some
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Speaker 3: of us are so smart. We kneel at the altar.
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Speaker 3: We know we need God, but we don't utilize him.
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Speaker 3: We know we need God, but we don't have the
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Speaker 3: tenacity or the other art or the willpower to wait.
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Speaker 3: And this is why you get two weeks. Let me
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Speaker 3: test you and see how long you gonna You're gonna
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Speaker 3: stay calm and not worry and really trust me. You
26:46
Speaker 3: get what I'm saying. That's somebody livelihood, that's money. You
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Speaker 3: get what I'm saying, like, that's money, that's the income account,
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Speaker 3: that money, that money, my wallet. I D in all
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Speaker 3: you give me, I d and all gone. Lord, I
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Speaker 3: don't at this point. The only space I have is
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Speaker 3: to trust you. We have to get to that point.
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Speaker 3: And it goes back to desert Ra saying it has
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Speaker 3: everything to do with the relationship. So now I gotta ask, Okay,
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Speaker 3: why I'm in a rush? All right? If I'm in
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Speaker 3: a rush to do this, why am I not waiting
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Speaker 3: on God to do it for me. We had a
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Speaker 3: conversation with one of our guests not too long ago,
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Speaker 3: and he was just like, it don't make sense. I
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Speaker 3: don't know how to explain it to you. I can't
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Speaker 3: explain to you how I got there. I can't explain
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Speaker 3: to you what happened. All I know is God don't
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Speaker 3: play about me. You know. I think also, and I
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Speaker 3: think sometimes we confuse I'm waiting on God. I'm gonna
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Speaker 3: trust God as in I'm not gonna do nothing like right,
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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying. So even in the moment
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Speaker 3: of waiting, like I'm still waiting, I'm like I'm thinking about, like, dang,
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Speaker 3: where could the car have been? But me in doing
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Speaker 3: is me just trusting God and continuing on doing the
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Speaker 3: things that He's called me to do. Because the truth
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Speaker 3: is like, we don't like waiting one because it's almost
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Speaker 3: like a lack of control. Right, And so what I'm
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Speaker 3: learning this whole I said this is somebody literally yesterday
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Speaker 3: I was like, I'm I'm coming to find out this
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Speaker 3: whole life journey thing. Yeah, it's really just about obedience
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Speaker 3: choices and trusting God. Obedience choices and trusting God. Yes,
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Speaker 3: So if you think about when about let's say James
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Speaker 3: talks about you know, win, trials and tribulations when with
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Speaker 3: it also and like the Lord is doing something like
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Speaker 3: allow patience to have its perfect work, right, allow patience
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Speaker 3: to have it? How do you get patience by waiting
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Speaker 3: and allowing God to do the thing that he needs
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Speaker 3: to do within us? Because the truth is it is
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Speaker 3: not the external thing that that that he's concerned about. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: Like he's worried about the internal thing. He's like, why
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Speaker 3: are you rushing? Why don't you trust me? Like what's
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Speaker 3: in here that's keeping this relationship right here from being
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Speaker 3: as close as it could as it can. So I'm
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Speaker 3: just learning, like every every part of the process, even
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Speaker 3: if it's whether it's grief, whether it's lost, whether you
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Speaker 3: know whatever that looks like that. I don't believe God cost,
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Speaker 3: but He's gonna use that thing in order to get
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Speaker 3: us in alignment to the to the thing that he
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Speaker 3: does have for us. Yeah, And so that's why waiting
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Speaker 3: and being patient on him is important because he's trying
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Speaker 3: to work something out in us that is needed for
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Speaker 3: this place right here. Yeah, that's so good. That's so good.
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Speaker 3: I think that it also tells me about waiting for
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Speaker 3: the things that I felt like I felt like I
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Speaker 3: wanted or needed at the specific time, which is always
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Speaker 3: been yarded no marriage, her speed. I almost say it's
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Speaker 3: something what I had to remember that was the glory,
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Speaker 3: the glory, Okay, But I'm like, the longer the longer
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Speaker 3: I'm single, I'm kind of like, Lord, now if I
30:15
Speaker 3: don't need to have a design no more, just tell me,
30:18
Speaker 3: because this single life it's starting to look a little
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Speaker 3: attractive on a different just a different space because I'm
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Speaker 3: not having to deal with certain things, you know what
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Speaker 3: I'm saying, Like I want, want it, but at would cost,
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Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying. And so I'm having these
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Speaker 3: conversations with the Lord now I'm like, hmm, I want
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Speaker 3: a husband, but not if it's gonna be this, Not
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Speaker 3: if it's gonna be this, and not it's gonna be this.
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Speaker 3: I wait, Lord, I wait. Just think about even within
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Speaker 3: this year of you dating the Lord, just think about
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Speaker 3: how many things have come up, like internally, like situations
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Speaker 3: that you may have reacted one way that you now
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Speaker 3: react a different way, you know, because you're allowing the
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Speaker 3: Lord to do the work that's necessary to get you
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Speaker 3: to the space where he can now trust you with
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Speaker 3: his son, like he loves his son just just as
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Speaker 3: much as he loves you, know what I'm saying. And
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Speaker 3: so what I've what I've learned in my own journey
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Speaker 3: is there were things that the Lord needed to I
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Speaker 3: needed to surrender. And now, honestly there were things I
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Speaker 3: didn't even know that was in my heart that the
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Speaker 3: Lord came came forward, that he healed, that he showed
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Speaker 3: me me because when I did meet the Man of God,
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Speaker 3: I wouldn't have been ready for him, yeah, at all
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Speaker 3: at all. And I was like, oh, then once what
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Speaker 3: we prayed for it finally shows up. Are we are
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Speaker 3: we ready for it? Not only ready, but do you value?
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Speaker 3: Do you have the capacity to value what I'm doing?
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Speaker 3: Because in the wedding, like you said, it's not it's
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Speaker 3: just not nothing going on, Like as I would look
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Speaker 3: for my wallet or just that, I was like, you
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Speaker 3: know what, or you're gonna tell me what the while
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Speaker 3: it is, I still had to work, I still unfortunately
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Speaker 3: had to drive. I still I still under that there's
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Speaker 3: still things that had to be done. While he managed
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Speaker 3: that if I don't know. It's okay, hold on, I
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Speaker 3: love this this so much. It's a it's a versing
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Speaker 3: here that basically talks about him knowing. I don't think.
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Speaker 3: Let me see if I text it to you. Let's see. No,
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Speaker 3: it wasn't verse ten. Was it verse eight? No? Was
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Speaker 3: it verse ten? No, it wasn't. But it's a versing
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Speaker 3: here that basically refers to God being all knowing? Which one?
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Speaker 3: I think it's thirteen? Who is able to advise the
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Speaker 3: spirit of the Lord, who knows enough to give him
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Speaker 3: advice or teach him? Has the Lord ever needed anyone's advice?
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Speaker 3: You're like, it's at fourteen and it says who did
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Speaker 3: he consult? Who gave him understanding and taught him the
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Speaker 3: paths of justice? Who taught him knowledge and showed him
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Speaker 3: the way of understanding. So if there's something that I
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Speaker 3: don't understand, and I say that the Lord, that Jesus
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Speaker 3: is Lord, that God is my father, that he sits
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Speaker 3: on the throne of my heart, why would I concern
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Speaker 3: about concern myself about the lack of understanding something when
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Speaker 3: I have the parson that fully understands. Like that contradicts itself.
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Speaker 3: So that's what trust comes in. Hey, Lord, I'm gonna
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Speaker 3: trust you with what I don't understand, and even when
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Speaker 3: you're ready to change my understanding. It's some things that
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Speaker 3: we think we understand and we don't understand that as
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Speaker 3: we continue to get deeper in God, that he gives
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Speaker 3: us new revelation and we trust that the new revelation
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Speaker 3: is that, even though it fights against the old understanding,
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Speaker 3: then yep, that's so good. Even like this week, So
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Speaker 3: even this week, Romans have been heavy in my spirit. Right,
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Speaker 3: I was like, okay, let me just start reading Romans.
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Speaker 3: So I'm slow walking Romans one because sometimes the scripture
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Speaker 3: can sometimes be a little intimidating. Right yeah, So it's like, okay, Lord,
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Speaker 3: there are some things like I really want to be
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Speaker 3: able to understand, like what this righteousness is? What is
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Speaker 3: what is this? I don't I don't know, like I
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Speaker 3: know what the dictionary say, but you know, so I'm
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Speaker 3: reading it and it's so interesting how living like this
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Speaker 3: word is, Like I don't fully I'm still grasping it.
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Speaker 3: But what the Lord has shown me is, hey, you've
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Speaker 3: been trying to strive. You've been trying to do all
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Speaker 3: these things to get the love to get the forgiveness,
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Speaker 3: and I've already given it to you. And I was like, oh,
34:53
Speaker 3: so this whole hustle culture kind of situation, I've kind
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Speaker 3: of of me being super independent on myself. That's that
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Speaker 3: ain't right? Huh? Like you really love me enough and
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Speaker 3: have already set the plan out for me. All I
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Speaker 3: literally have to do is seek you. Like why wouldn't
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Speaker 3: we seek the one who has the plan laid out
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Speaker 3: for our lives if we trusted him? Yeah, the issue
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Speaker 3: is we don't trust him like that. We don't and
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Speaker 3: and not trusting God makes makes you closed off to
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Speaker 3: your your guaranteed future, like because you need God for
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Speaker 3: that right Like we we need God. And when we
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Speaker 3: don't trust like it's like, well we don't trust him?
35:33
Speaker 3: Who are we trusting ourselves? Culture? Other people? But chat GPT,
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Speaker 3: no lie to that we TRUSTT What did we trust?
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Speaker 3: Like the other day when when Sarah was asking me, hey,
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Speaker 3: do you use I was like, no, I use chat
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Speaker 3: GPT for this. But this stuff that we come up with,
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Speaker 3: that's Holy Spirit. We not we not We're not doing
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Speaker 3: She's like, Okay, I just want to make because WATCHT
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Speaker 3: she trusts Holy Spirit she she trusts that I trust
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Speaker 3: Holy Spirit, and she's seeing how Holy Spirit has operated
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Speaker 3: and so people. Holy Spirit is unique amongst himself like
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Speaker 3: things have been. Have tried to to duplicate or replicate,
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Speaker 3: be replicated, but it's not. It's not him right, there's
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Speaker 3: still flaws in Chad GBT. There're still flaws and and
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Speaker 3: you you are flawed. I am flawed. There's a right law.
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Speaker 3: You hear me, and when you recognize that, the Lord
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Speaker 3: makes able being able to recognize I'm flawed. But I'm
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Speaker 3: still going after Righteousness makes more room to God and
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Speaker 3: with God than than you think. There's a I think
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Speaker 3: I might have talked about this before, but Travis Green
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Speaker 3: is preaching, has been preaching on God Plus, like the
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Speaker 3: God Plus series, and I still have to catch up
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Speaker 3: and watch this. But the one I watched was when
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Speaker 3: he used the visuals, and this one just keep this vision,
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Speaker 3: just keep coming in my head because after I heard
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Speaker 3: the message, it was just like, Lord, remove the idol
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Speaker 3: because the idol limits my trusts with you. It really does.
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Speaker 3: What he did was put a big throne in the
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Speaker 3: middle of the stage and then smaller thrones around it,
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Speaker 3: and he named those thrones, the things that we have idolized,
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Speaker 3: like sex, and I don't think Gluttney was one, but
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Speaker 3: Gluttney can be one. You know, money, things that we family,
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Speaker 3: things that we use to substitute God's goodness. And then he,
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Speaker 3: you know, got into the idea of you shall have
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Speaker 3: no other idols before me, right. So trusting God is
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Speaker 3: trusting God alone. Trusting God is not saying all, I'm
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Speaker 3: gonna trust you and then go get this. There is
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Speaker 3: no plan B there there he is trusting God. There
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Speaker 3: is no plan B. The plan. It is the plan.
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Speaker 3: The is a distinctive word. It means nothing else is
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Speaker 3: like it. Yeah, that's why. And I was I don't
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Speaker 3: think I was gonna say this, but the Lord had
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Speaker 3: told me a while back. He was like, you need
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Speaker 3: to make your your profile is public, right and you
38:25
Speaker 3: need to change your You're not hashtag at name? What
38:30
Speaker 3: is handle your handles for your social media? And I
38:33
Speaker 3: was like, okay, it need to be the same. What
38:35
Speaker 3: is it the justicas smith that I said, I ain't
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Speaker 3: ever forget? I said, Lord, that's kind of bold, that's
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Speaker 3: kind of that's kind of cocky, ain't it. He's like,
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Speaker 3: just you just would not let it go. The Justicas
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Speaker 3: Smith and I was having this conversation with Holy Spirit
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Speaker 3: the other day and I was like, Lord, for you
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Speaker 3: to use the in front of my name is wild
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Speaker 3: because I'm not even like that. He was like, but
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Speaker 3: I need you to know that you're the only type
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Speaker 3: of you. It's good, You're the only type of you.
39:03
Speaker 3: This is These are conversations I'm having with God. People
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Speaker 3: were like, oh, well, how does God talk to you
39:09
Speaker 3: like that? And I don't hear him. You have not
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Speaker 3: made room for him to talk to you like that.
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Speaker 3: You haven't even questioned him. You haven't even waited long
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Speaker 3: enough to even get identify questions that you need to
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Speaker 3: ask God. It's like, I'm in this waiting and guess what.
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Speaker 3: I did not put myself in this waiting season. However,
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Speaker 3: I'm actively participating in the waiting season. That's the difference.
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Speaker 3: It was once upon a time where I wasn't actively
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Speaker 3: participating in the waiting season, and I went against the
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Speaker 3: waiting season and it got me in trouble. Remember I've
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Speaker 3: told you I've been at adult you twice. I've told
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Speaker 3: you that, And if you haven't heard it, go back
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Speaker 3: to the episode that I said I made it, and
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Speaker 3: it's not something to boast in. But not waiting got
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Speaker 3: me so anxious to the point where I couldn't see it.
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Speaker 3: Got me so anxious to the point where I couldn't
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Speaker 3: hear it, got me so anxious to the point where
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Speaker 3: I thought this was a Certain things were God things,
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Speaker 3: but they were a distraction to what my destiny was
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Speaker 3: supposed to take me to. But I didn't wait long
40:08
Speaker 3: enough to get the next point of instruction. I didn't
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Speaker 3: wait long enough to hear what God wanted to do.
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Speaker 3: I didn't wait alone enough to and be silent at
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Speaker 3: the time. Sometimes it was a certain times I was
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Speaker 3: just supposed to shut up, and I didn't shut up.
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Speaker 3: You get what I'm saying. And so they that wait
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Speaker 3: on the Lord, my strength is renewed. So I want
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Speaker 3: to wait as long as God wants me to wait.
40:30
Speaker 3: I also told him, don't be having me out here
40:32
Speaker 3: being an old, an old church mother having children. I
40:41
Speaker 3: ain't gonna lie to y'all about that. I'm gonna wait
40:43
Speaker 3: on the Lord because this has been the best resolve.
40:47
Speaker 3: Back to resolution. What resolve are you trying to get
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Speaker 3: to and how are you getting there? Makes makes a difference.
40:54
Speaker 3: It makes a difference. You tell a drug dealer and
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Speaker 3: someone that you know a businessman, right that's trying to
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Speaker 3: get to a million dollars same money, different ways of
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Speaker 3: doing it, different methods, different methods. Your method matters. Your
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Speaker 3: main method right now, and I don't know who I'm
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Speaker 3: talking to, but your main method right now is wait
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Speaker 3: on the Lord. Wait on the Lord. And then every
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Speaker 3: time we have a we are we're obedient to what
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Speaker 3: the word is telling us, like wait on the Lord.
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Speaker 3: There's a then, there's a then, if, and then statements
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Speaker 3: are all throughout the Bible. We want the then, but
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Speaker 3: we don't want the if. We don't want to participate
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Speaker 3: in the if. If I wait on the Lord, then
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Speaker 3: my strengths will be renewed. Right. If I ask, then
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Speaker 3: I will receive. If I seek, then I will find.
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Speaker 3: If I knock, then the door is gonna open. Ain't
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Speaker 3: Ain't that something? But we don't want to participate in
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Speaker 3: the if. We don't want to be a participant in
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Speaker 3: the thing that we have to do. And so I'm
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Speaker 3: not coming from a judgmental standpoint. I'm coming from I've
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Speaker 3: experienced in it. I've experienced this, and we don't have
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Speaker 3: to keep experiencing the same thing for you to get it, Like,
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Speaker 3: we don't. We don't have to. There's some things that
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Speaker 3: desireated went through, like the last situation I just get,
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Speaker 3: the last relationship I just got out of. She had
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Speaker 3: to yank me. It was too long, But it was
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Speaker 3: as long as the last situation she was in, cause
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Speaker 3: she was like, no, j Justina, if you keep doing this,
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Speaker 3: you're gonna get deeper and deeper and deeper, and you
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Speaker 3: gonna get You're gonna dig yourself in the ditch and
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Speaker 3: you're gonna be like me. And it's not that I
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Speaker 3: don't want to be like her, but I don't wanna
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Speaker 3: have to go through the same thing. As long as
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Speaker 3: she did, she was able to give me a cutoff time,
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Speaker 3: like hey, and then watch this because she had went
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Speaker 3: through it. When it came up again as a different form,
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Speaker 3: dressed up differently, she was like, no, cause you go
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Speaker 3: out to be in the same predicament. What did you
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Speaker 3: tell the Lord? Right? So not even just waiting but
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Speaker 3: having accountability, Yeah, yeah, we don't like that. Where we don't,
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Speaker 3: we don't. We don't like it. We don't like accountability
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Speaker 3: as when it comes to community, and we definitely don't
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Speaker 3: like accountability when it comes to ourselves, like like things
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Speaker 3: like the waiting process, this journey that we journey with
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Speaker 3: the Lord allowed. Really the truth is the reason why
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Speaker 3: the waiting is important and the reason why you get
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Speaker 3: the strength when you wait on him, Yeah, is because
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Speaker 3: he's He's concerned about your heart. Yeah. You know what
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Speaker 3: I'm saying. It's like I'm coming for this pride, I'm
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Speaker 3: coming for this anxiousness, I'm coming for this fear. He's
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Speaker 3: coming for those things because those are not things of him. Yeah. Right.
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Speaker 3: And so I just remember one moment in this uh,
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Speaker 3: in this journey, this was probably twenty uh, it's not
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Speaker 3: last year. May have twenty twenty, it may have been
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Speaker 3: twenty four. You know, I've been I'm in a uh
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Speaker 3: I'm saying, in a healing space, like the Lord has
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Speaker 3: allowed me to to stay in a home that has
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Speaker 3: been a safe space for him to do the work
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Speaker 3: on the inside. And I remember one morning I was
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Speaker 3: praying and the Holy Spirit said, you're and it was
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Speaker 3: literally like you're bitter towards the Lord. And I was like,
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Speaker 3: what you mean, Clitus, and and and I just began
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Speaker 3: to think about that thing. And it was true, like
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Speaker 3: I had begun begin to set up a bitterness was
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Speaker 3: trying to set up in my heart because of the
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Speaker 3: journey that I have had to take, because of the
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Speaker 3: the way the Lord has allowed me to journey to
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Speaker 3: release some of these things. I ain't like it. I ain't.
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Speaker 3: I didn't. I didn't. I didn't like having to move
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Speaker 3: four or five different times within a year or two.
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Speaker 3: I didn't like, you know, the appearance that I'm not
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Speaker 3: doing well in business. I didn't like the fact that
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Speaker 3: I was struggling financially with my finances. But the reality
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Speaker 3: is the Lord had to get me to a place
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Speaker 3: where I wasn't depending on myself. And like when you
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Speaker 3: when you when you down, like what else you got? Yeah?
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Speaker 3: Like literally at that point, what else you got? And
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Speaker 3: so in those moments, it's it's you begin to build
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Speaker 3: your relationship with the Lord because he's going to want
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Speaker 3: you to choose him when the thing comes as well,
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Speaker 3: that's so good. But he has to work the muscles,
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Speaker 3: he has to work the things out in the heart
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Speaker 3: so that when those things do come, you can't choose
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Speaker 3: the Lord, not because like, oh he gave me these
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Speaker 3: things because no, that's my friend. Yeah, like I love him,
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Speaker 3: Like we've journeyed enough, we've we've we've been through the
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Speaker 3: trenches together, and I'm going to choose the Lord even
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Speaker 3: if he take these things away. That's what I still
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Speaker 3: trust God. Yeah, that's so good. That that is so good.
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Speaker 3: And it's a testament to where like in the even
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Speaker 3: with what you said, like you were bitter towards him,
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Speaker 3: but that didn't mean that you were disobedient. No, your
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Speaker 3: bidditness did not lead a disobedience. But God still wanted
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Speaker 3: you to heal from from that, and he for him
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Speaker 3: for Holy Spirit to say, hey, you're built with the Lord.
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Speaker 3: It's like, dawg, like you can you can see this.
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Speaker 3: It's nothing hidden from God. And I bet you he
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Speaker 3: didn't come off like, oh I'm mad at you because
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Speaker 3: you mad at me. It's like, hey, I see that,
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Speaker 3: we can deal with it. We can deal with it.
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Speaker 3: And I had an opportunity to say, dang, Lord, you're right, yeah,
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Speaker 3: like I feel this type of way because it's the
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Speaker 3: thing like we act like the Lord don't know. Yeah,
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Speaker 3: but when he reveals it, we have an opportunity to
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Speaker 3: release it to him or to keep holding on to
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Speaker 3: it and trying to figure out feed her out and
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Speaker 3: on our own. I was like, you know what, Lord,
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Speaker 3: I have been feeling this way because of X, Y
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Speaker 3: and Z. Yeah, you know, and I'm going to I'm
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Speaker 3: gonna have to trust you with this. Like what happened
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Speaker 3: when you when you said this to him? It was
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Speaker 3: almost kind of like a release, Like it was such
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Speaker 3: like a peace that came, and he was like, you
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Speaker 3: know what, I understand, Like I heard him say, like
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Speaker 3: because we think like the Lord don't know, but it
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Speaker 3: was like an understanding. And then it I cry a
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Speaker 3: little bit, credit little bit. But then and when I
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Speaker 3: stopped crying, like there was such a piece of like
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Speaker 3: of love, of like gentleness, of like kindness that I
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Speaker 3: felt towards him. Like he wasn't mad about it. He
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Speaker 3: was just like, Hey, I see this thing, and it's
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Speaker 3: gonna be detrimental to who you are and where I'm
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Speaker 3: trying to take you if we don't deal with it,
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Speaker 3: if we don't deal with it. And so my question
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Speaker 3: is to y'all is what do you need to deal
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Speaker 3: with in order to trust God so you won't be
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Speaker 3: in a rush for anything? Like what do you need
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Speaker 3: what do you need to rectify with the Lord? Is?
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Speaker 3: Do you have bitterness towards the Lord? Are you frustrated?
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Speaker 3: Like I was like, God, you're not. You're letting it
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Speaker 3: happen for everybody else but me. Is that why we're
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Speaker 3: not trusting Lord? Because we're seeing it happen for everybody else.
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Speaker 3: I had to start. I'm gonna share in my clothing.
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Speaker 3: I had to start one time, and I was like, Lord,
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Speaker 3: you're allowing everybody else to do it except for me.
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Speaker 3: This person has been able to do this. This person
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Speaker 3: has been able to do this. But then he started
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Speaker 3: giving me visions of people I went to college with.
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Speaker 3: I went to college with. They have passed away in
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Speaker 3: the last twelve months. They got married, they had kids,
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Speaker 3: and they're no longer living. So not to say that, oh, well,
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Speaker 3: you know I got time to do all this, No, no, no, no,
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Speaker 3: I'm comparing someone myself to someone that is not on
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Speaker 3: this side of the earth anymore. I've compared myself to
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Speaker 3: where the Lord. I don't know their story. I don't
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Speaker 3: know their story. I don't know their end. I don't
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Speaker 3: know what they started. I don't know what it was.
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Speaker 3: I don't know what the Lord is doing with them,
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Speaker 3: But I know what the Lord is doing with me.
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Speaker 3: And sometimes outside noise, outside frustrations, outside of things that
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Speaker 3: look good that are not God right, those are those
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Speaker 3: are some reasons why we don't win the Lord because
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Speaker 3: we're thinking something's God for somebody else who really God
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Speaker 3: ain't got nothing to do with it. Yeah, there, there,
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Speaker 3: there is the scripture that talks about there's a way
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Speaker 3: that's righteous righteous unto man. That's not God's righteousness. Man's
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Speaker 3: righteousness and God's righteousness is not the same. It's not
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Speaker 3: the same thing. What we identify is good is not
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Speaker 3: God's idea right, And so we have to be careful.
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Speaker 3: And I want to end on the scripture forty Isaiah
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Speaker 3: forty and eight. It says the grass withers, the flowers fade,
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Speaker 3: but the word of our God remains forever, And that
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Speaker 3: is no lie. It's gonna outweigh every time. It's gonna
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Speaker 3: beat what you think about yourself every time. It's gonna
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Speaker 3: beat what you think about your situation every time. And
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Speaker 3: not just I hear the Holy Spirit say, not just
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Speaker 3: the word in my in my Bible, but the word
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Speaker 3: I give you in timing right, the whole. That's why
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Speaker 3: we just lean on Holy Spirit because he's a counsel, right,
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Speaker 3: He's a counsel for the time that you're in. And
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Speaker 3: what happens is this word supports the Word. That's how
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Speaker 3: you can know if oh am, I hearing Holy Spirit
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Speaker 3: or a myself, go go match it up with the
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Speaker 3: Word and say, God, give me confirmation in the Word
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Speaker 3: where this is. You get what I'm saying, like, you
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Speaker 3: got to give yourself room to grow and identify where
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Speaker 3: or I don't know, if I hear God, did you
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Speaker 3: match it up to the Word of God. That's how
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Speaker 3: you can know. That's the first place you can go
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Speaker 3: to how you know. And if you have an accountability
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Speaker 3: or or a spiritual spiritual covering, which I would advise
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Speaker 3: anybody to get. But if you if that's not your
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Speaker 3: case right now, I totally understand this Bible ain't gonna change.
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Speaker 3: It ain't gonna change unless you just go somewhere and
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Speaker 3: they can't even call it the Bible because it ain't
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Speaker 3: the Bible. Right. The Bible is the Bible. And so
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Speaker 3: my my my request of you is that calm down,
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Speaker 3: calm down, breathe be anxious for nothing and wait on
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Speaker 3: the Lord so he can renew your strength. I pray
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Speaker 3: this blessed you. I pray that you got something out
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Speaker 3: of this. If you did, go ahead and put it
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Speaker 3: in a chat, go ahead and say okay, Desira said this, Jessica,
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Speaker 3: you said that that resonated with you. We want to
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Speaker 3: talk to you because we do talk back, all right,
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Speaker 3: but until next time, until next week, remember life could
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Speaker 3: be much more simple if you just ask thank you
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Speaker 3: for tuning in to this week's episode.
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Speaker 1: Since you've made it this far, you might as well
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Speaker 3: Smith.
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Speaker 1: I know I won't see you back until next week,
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Speaker 1: but until then, remember to love always yourself and always
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Speaker 1: thank thank God for one other day.
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Speaker 2: Hey, I know we could be another way. Hey, pray
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Speaker 2: thank God for another day.
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Speaker 3: Hey.
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Speaker 2: Hey, I'm just thankful for another day. Hey Hey another day? Oh,
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Speaker 2: another day wise, another day to get it right, another
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Speaker 2: day to rise up, another day living, another day we
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Speaker 2: loved ones. I always remember hold it down for a
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Speaker 2: ball one.
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Speaker 3: Yeah,